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This post comes from my beautiful cosmic friend, Dove English of Star Compass.
She and I share many a rich and powerful journey in dream time, and this post she writes so exquisitely is inspired by one of those experiences – one in which is very treasured to me and that is very intimately connected to my soul in a way she shares.
Thank you Dove for capturing the essence of this experience and for the lovely surprise in finding the journey expressed on your blog today. The experience and your words are resounding deeply. Love this post!
Selenite Dreams by Dove English
The Navigator places her hands over her heart.
Om Aim Hreem Kleem Chamundaye Vichche
Hands are wings folded in prayer. The mind is alert, spontaneous and set in motion to observe coordinates.
The path opens with a cottontail leaping across the shaking ground. Selenite rises like giant moonbeams through the mantel of earth. Raw, white, and partly transparent. Striated channels carry energy lines of light.
The navigator breathes deeply and enters the dream. Soul star rises with Earth star. Many faces bloom in the etched lines of light. Selenite whispers peace.
Bend light for vision
Emotional energy is transmuted by the Christed Heart of the Navigator. The heart calls Spirit.
Revolution of sound and light. Celestial bodies rolling in time.
One touch to the heart of the Navigator. One touch to remind her to smell life. Crystals gifted are held carefully in golden, cupped hands. Each crystal’s fragrance inhaled as it flowers with cosmic perfume.
The frequency of physical matter responds in kind. Higher and free she rises. Volume and velocity of Light shines from inside.
Information inscribed. becomes transcribed within the shadowless dream of flight.
For all of you who have been taking part in October’s Nature Immersion Challenge, don’t forget that tomorrow is the last day of the month and also the day to send me your full, but short logs and photos, as described in the guidelines you’ve been following.
Please get those in to me by the end of tomorrow, as starting November 1st, I will be reading through all of them and then announcing the three people that will be receiving surprise gifts.
If you need to review the guidelines, you can find them here:
I truly hope that you’ve enjoyed your time in Nature and that you will continue with this sacred practice, naturally integrating it into your daily life.
Mother Earth thanks you and so do I.
Looking forward to reading about your experiences!
“Our intent is the creative process that reaches forth in the invisible field of potentiality, to trigger a mystical chain of events that can manifest the most seemingly impossible dreams into reality.” ~David Cunliffe
This design was another magickal journey to create. It really pieced itself together, and that came along with allowing the energy to speak through, rather than leading it, as is always best with this process and why I can’t always gauge the timing on them.
It was definitely interesting once again to have it percolating and creating itself under the influence of the Scorpio New Moon Eclipse and even the Mercury Retrograde period, because that all added powerful transformational energy, as well as the ground work for the journey that now is ready, since the Retrograde has moved out.
It’s always so hard to capture the designs in photos, especially with larger pieces like this one (about 20+ inches in length) because you just can’t get the lighting ever quite right, nor the details to really illuminate on a small computer screen. Nonetheless, I know that people like to see the images, so I’m sharing so you can at least feel the essence of it.
Anyway, that all said, what a beautiful challenge it was in creating this piece. And some interesting synchronicities along the way that never cease to amaze me, as I become so intimately connected to each piece and the energy, as if I am living through it myself.
I remember when I created the cocoon and emerging butterfly that I had synchronously been reading a book about caterpillars that turn into butterflies during those days, as well as when I was completing it had just been listening to someone mention rebirth, while I then smiled amusingly down on the paper where the butterfly was. AND, when I was drawing/finalizing the horse, I had music on that had these magickal horse neighs in it that came in just as I was working on it. LOVE that!!
The designs create themselves, but what I immediately received when I first tuned in was that this would weave a beautiful story that flows up my client’s arm, almost like a reality faery tale woven around powerful symbolism to support her journey into the intents and paths she is headed to, while also transmuting the past.
So it is a magickal and almost allegorical story, if you may (if one knew the full story behind it) – with many layers, of course.
As my client had envisioned, the bottom portion up to just about the horse is the inner forearm of her right arm’s design. The branches/leaves will gracefull wrap a bit at the wrist and along the sides of the forearm. Then it will curve outward from there in the area where the woman is and the rest of the piece will be on her outer upper arm with some extending into the inner with the sparrow and star, and then the branches elegantly gracing the shoulder and perhaps slightly reaching back a bit.
After reading my client’s life experiences and what she desired to shift in her life and empower, this is the story that evolved when I tuned in.
Step, by step…..as we journey up the dragon’s tail/tale these are the symbols we discover, although there’s always more that I don’t express and different things and energy as time goes on reveal as connections are made with what channels through and how that plays out.
Dragon/Wood Dragon/Tree of Life: What spoke to me a lot was the dragon symbolism for her and remembering she is a Wood Dragon in the Chinese Zodiac, as well as her love for the Tree of Life, the first thing that came to me was to create a Wood Dragon that would also merge as a Tree of Life symbolism for her to flow up her arm as her Path in life and the journey she is on, since the Dragon is made of wood like a tree. So, hence you see that there are branches with leaves stemming from the dragon’s body and all of his scales down the back are leaves, his body the trunk of the tree and his tail also ending in small branches that root her gracefully.
The dragon symbolizes transformation, wisdom, protection, infinite self, supernatural power, primordial power and mastering all of the elements, also balance, magick, mystery, wonder, a powerful guardian and guide. The dragon symbolism represents you as creator, bringing a visual of your inner strength within reflected on the outside and of your higher self. Within this dragon, a story is woven and the symbolism that was chosen and placements were all to help integrate intentions, heal and release the old, moving into and to hold space for the new and continual evolvement into all that she can be. The Wood Dragon is creative, imaginative, and inquisitive; both a thinker and a doer and is capable of brilliant new concepts. The Wood Dragon’s every move is guided by sound logic. Her drive and ambition allow her to put ideas into practice, knowing when to compromise if advantageous. The Wood Dragon is not as self-centered as other Dragons, but still outspoken and fearless when challenged.
Triple Spiral: this symbol anchors and begins the journey. I created one made out of leaves to stay with the theme of the tree/dragon, but also these aspects connect her with Earth and her love of Nature. The Triple Spiral represents drawing in the three powers of the Maiden, Mother, and Crone (which I felt was good to represent the aspects of my client, as well as her, her mom and grandmother, or her, her mom, and daughter) and is a sign of feminine power and empowerment through transition and growth and the unity of the three power. The Number 3 generally symbolizes creative power, growth, magic, intuition, expression, versatility, pure joy of creativity, celebration, very goddess energy connected and reflective of the Empress in the Tarot, overcoming duality, manifestation, integration, complete cycles, flow.
Little Girl Running up the Path: next we come to the little girl running freely up the path. I fashioned her after a drawing of a little girl my client liked so much, but added long flowy hair, as she had pictured herself when she was young. Might be hard to make out in the image, but in person easier. She is running up the dragon tail, along the leaf scaled path, joyously and easily letting go of the past, passionately running towards her dreams she is now ready to embrace whole-heartedly, and enjoying the innocence and purity of who she is in essence. She is not running “from” things, but running “toward” things with no fear. Her layered dress folding and flowing around her is the many layers of who she is that she is integrating/transmuting, and brings along with her as the complex beauty of her soul that she is.
Sunflower: along the path is a large, full blossomed sunflower in all of its glory, fully sharing its joy and vibrancy of life and life sustaining energy, demonstrating the fullness of my client embracing and standing in her power. Sunflowers are symbolic of the Sun, spiritual attainment, flexibility and opportunity (the way they move their massive heads to meet the sun), faith, longevity, healing, nourishment, focus, good luck, magick, worship, spiritual knowing, life giving force, vitality, warmth, pleasure, and light.
Wunjo Rune (looks like a P): Along the path ahead of the little girl/my client, amidst the leaf stepping stones, is the Rune known as Wunjo which carries the message and energy of joy, hope, harmony, perfection, right use of true will, well-being, contentment, relationship, strengthens bonding, optimism, effortless ease, fulfillment, wishes, accomplishment, prosperity, banishes alienation and inharmonious impediments to trust, law of attraction, and your soul’s true will and drive in life.
White Horse: of course the horse is literally symbolic of a dream my client had as a child with a love for horses, but represents the hopes and dreams she has in general, as her guiding force in life and what she is embracing more of into her life to actualize. The little girl is following her horse dream (or what it symbolizes). Horses symbolize strength, freedom of expression, grace, power, life energy, vitality, passionate desires, a driving force in your life to express your authenticity or what you thrive for, being in harmony with your primitive desires, and balancing those instincts with the more discerning tamed parts. They are transparent reflections of you and everything deep or hidden you hold within. White horses bring illumination, developing awareness of your instincts and intuition, resurrection, bringing things to light, seeing with clarity, and are messengers of rebirth. White is also about purity, innocence, wholeness, completion of a cycle in your life, awakening, elevating your spiritual aspirations, openness, growth, purification, creativity, moving in a new direction, new beginnings, fresh slates, and a blank canvas awaiting creative impetus.
Stylized Star Card Tarot Symbolism with Pentacle: as we curve around the bend of her arm we come upon a naked (free and pure) woman that is meant to symbolize the woman of the Star Tarot Card, which symbolizes personal transformation, renewed self-esteem, hope and faith, sense of knowing you are blessed by the Universe in all ways, provides courage, promise of fulfillment, inspiration, calm energy, mental stability, deeper understanding of self and others, and in general a loving phase in your life. There is the promise of a better future awaiting her and reminds her to trust that this is indeed true and possible. The Star Card realizes you have been through challenging times, but are now ready and open to healing and transformation that comes through letting go of damaging memories, patterns, and programming, while you have been strengthening your connection with your true self and essence through all of the difficult times. A time period of being able to forgive and embrace the new opportunities. Lasting happiness and new growth is upon you from a new purpose in life and through significant changes taking place with fresh perspective and increased trust in self.
The woman is the next part of the journey she is on and hovering above her hand is a five pointed star, or Pentacle. The Pentacle symbolizing the whole, the elements (fire, earth, air, water and the quintessential spirit), and its center – the meeting or bridging of heaven and earth with the four cardinal points. The five pointed star is also connected to individuality, higher education, and spiritual aspiration. The woman/my client is becoming master of the elements….sort of like a magician mastering and working her personal alchemy.
Raidho Rune (looks like an R): to the left of the “Star” woman is Raidho, connected to the leaf path. It symbolizes the journey or ride you are on. The journey of life, natural movement, motion, taking charge, being in control, initiative, adventure, decision-making followed by immediate action, direction, right path, following your inner compass, leadership, moral responsibility, integrity, respect for the rights of others, innate knowledge, rituals, in sync with natural rhythm, active presence, cosmic cyclical law, travel, rationality, freedom from imprisonment, self-mastery, living in the present, following your heart, and establishment of creative rhythm.
White Stag: we then come upon the white stag along the path. It symbolizes rebirth of light, creative life force, otherworldliness, purity, the quest, messenger between humans and the animals spirits of the Earth, healing, connects you to the other realms especially the unseen world of the Fae, helping you to establish relationships with the Faeries. The white stag is connected to the Sun (the antlers spread like the sun’s rays as well), and the stag in general is connected with other nature deities such as Cernunnos – pointing to power, strength, survival, sacred masculine in union with the feminine/Nature, transition/cycles, shamanistic power, connection with Nature and Time, longevity, abundance, endurance. (this design is going on the right arm – which is connected to the “male energy”, so is empowering the sacred masculine in integration with your wholeness). The white stag symbolizes creative life force of the universe, sex, life, death, prophecy, sign from great spirit of a major shift. The white again symbolizing higher thoughts, higher ideals, purity of soul, cleansing of spirit, attaining higher knowledge, and message that you are on a path of growth and expansion, leading you in a direction beyond your wildest dreams so get ready. Celts felt white stags as messengers from the other world heralding profound change in your life. Deer in general are sensitivity, alertness, awareness, gentleness, creativity, spirituality, renewal, grace, intuition.
Butterfly Emerging from Cocoon: to the right of the stag, maybe hard to tell on the image, is a cocoon resting on one of the branches, with a butterfly newly emerging from its cocoon. This represents being at peace with the process of evolution and coming into a new stage of your life that is ahead of you…new opportunities and potentials. It also symbolizes breaking free of old patterns and old self image/concept, releasing and shedding false masks, and freedom from confinement and inhibitions to your true self. Butterfly medicine symbolizes transformation, celebration, transition, lightness, soul, time, grace, elegance, freedom, joy and bliss, miracles, flexibility, cycles of life, creativity, gentleness, preciousness of life, as well as the medicine the ability and clarity of mind needed before self-transformation. The Butterfly also represents the more feminine aspects with her gracefulness and curved wings and design, and that connection with understanding both the strength and fragility simultaneously in life.
Swallow/Songbird: then to the right of the dragon there is a swallow, which is a songbird, and this came through to me as the symbol of my client’s “voice” and speaking her truth, finding her self-expressive truth, being willing to share her unique creative essence, banishing self-critical thoughts and words, speaking from the purity of her heart, and beautifully and joyously expressing that without fear or inhibitions. Swallows symbolize hope, fertility, renewal of life, a safe return home (home-coming to yourself), are a symbol of the love goddess Venus, and travel.
Eight Pointed Star with Kenaz Rune Spiral (looks like a V on its side): above the sparrow is an eight pointed star with a rune inside. The star sits at reach of the dragon’s paw/claws, symbolizing that what you seek is attainable and close at hand. The star above the sparrow at its crown is spiritual enlightenment, conscious awareness, and evolvement. The eight pointed star has many symbolic meanings of which some include astrologically with the roots of it symbolizing the four corners of space, the eight lines symbolic of north, south, east, west and time as well with the two solstices and two equinoxes. The first cross is the intersection of the Galactic Equator with the ecliptic and the axis perpendicular to this intersection. When the Earth Cross and the Galactic Cross are superimposed they form an eight pointed cross. It also represents the goddess Inanna or Ishtar in Babylon. In Hinduism it is the eight emanataions of the goddess Lakshmi known as Ashtalakshmi. These emanations represent eight forms of wealth: monetary, ability to transport, victory, patience, endless prosperity, health and nourishment, knowledge and family. Eight years is Venus’ (the lightbringer, brightest planet in sky) full cycle length in relation to the Sun in terms of her morning and evening star curves. The number eight is connected to regeneration, infinity, balanced duality emphasizing supreme state of strength and self-control, success, super-abundance, determination, business, resurrection, beginnings, integrating knowledge and experience.
A star symbolizing aspirations, dreams, hopes, achievement, divinity, intuition, the feminine, guidance, and the knowing that through our diligence and faith we can travel beyond our current limitations.
The Rune Kenaz symbolizes knowledge, a torch, illumination, searching for enlightenment, revealing truth by shedding light on it, skills, creativity, art, craftsmanship, intuition, clarity of thought, humility, opportunity, playfulness, enthusiasm in learning/teaching, transformation (phoenix fire), controlled energy, creative inspiration, exploration of paradigms, exposing the hidden to gain knowledge, reflection, strengthening abilities in all realms, female occult secrets, the light within, harnessing skillful use of fire, forces, and energies greater than ourselves for illumination, creating as nature does, creating our own path of light that flows through the darkness.
So, when you put it all together, I think you can see the journey that is being taken and created with the whole piece.
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Laura lays it all out on the table and tells it how it is….I so honor her courageous beauty to speak out, get down and dirty, and dig into the rich and gritty shadows. You’ll find no cotton candy here folks.
If you have switched off one button in replace of another, you likely just remember some remnant of truth, but no longer feel it. Here’s a post that may not ring in for everyone, but it certainly will get your attention and ruffle any feathers that might have desired some aroused attention to their innate freedom potential.
Originally posted on Laura Bruno's Blog:
This post has been rolling around in the hay and compost for awhile — decomposing, fermenting and recomposing into something that resembles dirt. Or soil. Nourishment for roots, fungi, worms and souls. If that sounds distasteful to you, then you might not like this post, and I’m OK with that. But I cannot, in good conscience, say nothing, so here goes, in no particular order, because sometimes messy, sullied, unruly, damp and slimy provide exactly what standardized artificial fertilizers, synthetic UV lights, rationality and endless iterations of patriarchal straightjackets fail to deliver. Here goes.
Take a mainstream media source, any mainstream media source, male or female. Now take an alternative media source — go ahead, there’s a lot to choose from: Alex Jones, Jon Rappoport, David Icke, Zero Hedge, David Wilcox, Benjamin Fulford, Jeff Rense … and many more. Take a politician, any politician, male or female, including Hillary “
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There is a place the Rabbit knows…of paradox and contradiction…humility and fertility.
Only one that is still enough, yet agile in Spirit can hear the whispers that they murmur.
The Ancients revered and sought this Mystery that only these Sacred Embodiments of the actual, Universal Creative Powers could mediate.
By the illumination of the Mother Star their Sacred Fire both destroys and recreates the Heart of All Life.
The Cosmic Egg birthed of their inspiration is the Jewel you seek.
And yet to See it, one must Be it.
Live in the sunshine, swim the sea, drink the wild air. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson
Today would have been my beautiful soul friend Cliff Durfee’s day of birth into this Earthly experience…celebrating with him in paradise eternal.
This is a photo my dearly departed friend took of me during our time together on his favorite Moonlight Beach. It happens to be my all-time favorite candid photo taken of me.
My friend Lynne recently mentioned upon seeing this photo, “he seemed to bring out that extra special light in you”.
Another friend, Lea, shared, “this photo just personifies your essence and joy and life, in one image”.
And Cliff said, “You and nature go so well with each other!”
As I mentioned before, “it is I who felt most gratitude and honor FOR HIM, as it was the reflection of who HE is that drew out the essence of who I am”.
Thank you Cliff for bringing out the best in me and reminding me of what’s most important.
Reflecting the love and joy that you are, Cliff, and celebrating you in every breath of life.
Feeling extra gratitude and love for the dear souls who have touched my life and that really see me, bring out the best in me, inspire me to greater heights of my essence, and love me with all of my complex layers.
With all of the intensities abound, as well as people increasingly desiring to step into their empowerment and essence, more and more people are being drawn to explore different ways to assist that, including wanting to experience, receive, and learn one of those ways – Reiki – for themselves.
Perhaps you might be feeling a new start and focus in life is your goal for the approaching new year, and are looking to learn about choices that can help to deepen your essence connection, provide a way to support yourself, loved ones, and/or the world at large, and to simply create a more balanced life.
If these are some of the intents you hold to be of value, you might find yourself led to new paths, which may include Reiki and all of the many wonderful options there are out there to reflect what resonates with you.
And if Reiki has been a draw for you, I hope you’ll look into experiencing it and connecting with a practitioner or teacher in your area that is perfect for you.
For those of you that are local to Southern California, may be traveling through, or have been thinking of attending one of my Reiki workshops, I am hosting one next month on Friday, November 14th – likely the last Reiki workshop for 2014, although I have a speaking engagement at Chapman University to talk about Reiki in either or both November and December of this year. More on that soon.
These workshops I teach are open to serve anyone that feels called. If you’re from out of town, there are two hotels – Crowne Plaza and Hilton – just around the block from where the workshops will be held, which you can literally walk to within 10-15 mins. A great way to take a short, self-nurturing weekend for yourself.
The Reiki workshops that I offer are part of the Traditional Usui Shiki Ryoho Reiki Certification Training.
As always, if you are a student who has already taken a workshop with me, you are welcome to join free for a refreshing review, to deepen your practice, or to co-teach, provided there is room.
While I teach the fundamentals in each workshop, there is always something new I expand upon or address, given the energy of the group, and new things I continually discover to impart.
If this date doesn’t work for you, we can create one that mutually does, as I teach private workshops as well, or you can wait to see if a future 2015 date I am teaching works for you.
As mentioned before, I’m not sure how long I’m going to be in Southern California, so if you’re in this area and want to attend one of my workshops, it’s a good idea to set up a date.
I already have students registered for this workshop, so I only have space for 4 more to join. This includes past students, as well as new students.
REIKI LEVEL 1 & 2 ACCELERATED WORKSHOP, NOVEMBER 14th ~ Pre-Registration Required by Monday November 10th
WHERE: Costa Mesa Private Residence (information & directions provided upon registering)
WHEN: Friday, November 14th 9:00am – 5:00 pm
LIMITED SPACE: Room for only 4 more students to join
Message me at email@example.com for details and to register.
WORKSHOP INTENTS: You will learn about the history, principles, ethics and practice of Reiki, experience Reiki for the first time, receive an initiation attunement and start a 21-day energetic cleanse. You’ll also learn scanning, Reiki lineage, hand positions for giving in-person, hands-on treatments to others and yourself, learn to support any intention, person, animal or global cause from a distance, through space and time, as you learn three Reiki Symbols to deepen your work and use of Reiki. Empower the future, embrace the present, support mental and emotional balance, create deeper awareness of your inner voice, and always so much more.
Have you been feeling the desire to connect more deeply with yourself and others? Do you experience increased feelings of love, intuition, and awareness of synchronicities? Are things feeling more uncomfortable or out of alignment because of rapid shifts taking place? Does all of this create a longing to embrace, in wholeness, who you know yourself to be and to start bringing that into your experience in bigger ways and more regularly? Perhaps then, you are experiencing what many are in terms of accelerated activation and you feel drawn to take a leap on that journey in order to assist things both personally and collectively.
Reiki is one way, so naturally aligned with essence, that can support this and is an option for souls that feel resonance with it.
Reiki has the ability to bring greater sense of:
* self awareness and alignment with your personal frequency
* deeper love and compassion
The focus is on learning, sharing, supporting and expanding your heart through Reiki (pronounced ray-key). The practice of channeling Reiki (spiritually guided Universal Life Force Energy) is an easy-to-learn, gentle and powerful system of natural healing that reduces stress, induces relaxation, supports intentions, and provides many other healing benefits. As a very powerful aid to personal growth, Reiki works on a physical, mental, emotional and spiritual level, and can be refined for personal use and in our service to others, animals, and the collective at large.
Are you wanting to embrace another level of experience in your life with greater self-empowerment and to be of service in an aligned way that supports your and other’s wholeness?
It’s been a very challenging, intense, and volatile period for the collective. We’ve been experiencing the passing of many beautiful souls, both in human and animal bodies that are making their transition. Things are shifting in ways that have immense impact and hopefully create the impetus for immense change.
Like many of you, I have also experienced the passing of dear ones, and have been supporting others going through the same. As you may know, my sweet Russian Tortoise, Gaia, recently moved on into her cosmic self, and just Friday a very dear friend of mine moved into the peace and expanse of his soul.
It is he that I wish to honor and remember today, after just learning of his passing yesterday.
Some of you may know him as well, so if this is your first time learning of this, I hold you in love as you integrate the news.
The beautiful soul I speak of is Cliff Durfee.
You may remember my post about his wonderful book, Stories for the Inner Ear, which includes my thoughts on it, as well as a bio of Cliff for anyone interested in knowing more about the life he led and other books he’s authored.
As his bio shares, Cliff spent the last thirty years + “devoted to personal and spiritual growth, developing intuition, and supporting people in aliveness, love, and laughter.” And this truly is who he IS at heart – always giving, always open to deepening his experience, gratitude, and understanding of the mysteries of life.
He often told me of the stories from his past where he had opportunity to meet and engage with people like Shakti Gawain, before her books became popular (an author that was important along my journey), as well as Wayne Dyer, Louise Hay, and others. He had such a wealth of knowledge and richness of experience to share. And in recent years had become devoted to educating people on chemtrails, and shared with me his passions of projects he was wanting to create to support others.
If you haven’t read “Stories for the Inner Ear”, I highly recommend it for the reasons you’ll find at the link. Plus, it will really give you a glimpse of the heart and soul of Cliff.
There’s so much I could say about Cliff, but really want mostly to remember the beauty of who he is and always will be, as his soul lives on in every way and in every one of the people he touched with his immense heart.
Cliff and I became good friends online via Facebook maybe 6 years ago, and we then continued a friendship outside of that forum, on Skype messaging and calls, as well as emails. The world wide web certainly has made it possible to enjoy wonderful connections and bridge the space between physical distance, even if it does create other issues to be mindful of.
We always shared a special and mutually admiring friendship, but it wasn’t until a couple of years ago that we finally had the chance to meet in person, even though we lived about an hour to an hour and a half apart. Divine timing is always at work.
This would be the only time we connected in the physical, but it was so perfect and reflective of who we each are in essence and the beauty of our friendship. I’m so grateful for it.
On that day, I went down to visit him in Encinitas and we spent a lovely day together, as he showed me his world and we shared many a hug, smile, and laughter.
I got to see the wonderful place he called home and the trees, flowers, and plants outside his place that he often told me about that were dear to him and that he could see out his window from where he worked and talked to me (including stories on how he saved many of them and some trees he stopped the tree cutters from cutting down).
I had the chance to meet the lovely little parakeet that adopted him (Sweety Bird) and shared some tea, as he showed me some of his life treasures, including an angel I’d sent him, which he said was so dear to him.
I also had the chance to visit some of his favorite spots including exploring the Self Realization Fellowship Hermitage and Meditation Gardens above the ocean, his favorite lunch spot – Lotus Cafe and Juice Bar – for a vegan lunch and shared dessert, and then a long walk and continued meaningful conversation on his favorite Moonlight Beach.
How grateful I was and am that I got to see all these reflections of him that he held so dear, as well as share stories and hear of the wonderful experiences he’d had in his life and the stories behind his lovely book.
And even though we physically met only once, our connection was one that extended well beyond, as a soul friendship running very deep and dear.
Cliff was to me such a pure soul that exuded love, gentleness, compassion, and innocence. While he was such a wise man, that was all embodied in an incredibly sweet child.
It is this place that he and I met so beautifully and the thing we both respected and admired in one another.
Cliff often wrote the sweetest messages and comments on my posts that truly touched me, and he daily extended his gratitude in deep ways for who I was. He told me I’d inspired him to be vegan, and often sent me vegan recipes he found, knowing how much I liked to make things. He always commented on my posts when I shared a vegan dish I’d made, saying how he wished to be my next door neighbor so we could share in the yummyness.
I wished we could have too. And yet now we are in a way. I’ll smile every time I make something in the kitchen, knowing he is right beside me enjoying the process and now able to be with me to enjoy them as he wanted.
He often made mention that that one day we shared as friends, meeting in a timeless sacred space, changed and infused him with a new outlook on life, by his being able to experience seeing life through my eyes that day.
And yet, it is I who felt most gratitude and honor FOR HIM, as it was the reflection of who he is that drew out the essence of who I am. I often told him in each of our exchanges, how dear he was, and how much I so appreciated him.
Never did either of us take for granted any conversation or connecting time, no matter how small or short it may seem.
He often called me his angel, and yet he is now mine living in the expansive freedom, joy, purity, and love that he is in my heart and in all of the hearts of those who hold him dear and the many he has, and will continue to touch with his soul, and through his beautiful work he gifts us.
Cliff is one of those very special souls that you are truly blessed in life to be graced with their presence. I did and always will adore him.
I did not have the chance to be with him in his last days, but I did have the opportunity to talk to him, which I’m so grateful for. My connection with him, kept me intuitively in tune, and when I felt something and hadn’t heard from him, it made me check in with him. That is how I found out about his sudden turn of events with his health, which was completely out of the blue.
We then were able to have a beautiful and positive conversation, which was to be the last, as he called me from the hospital, the day before being released to hospice at home. We shared some tears, and some laughs (he still had his lovely humor despite the prognosis), and he told me the peace he was in, and that he truly was okay with whatever was to be. He asked if I could send him some Reiki for the pain, which I continued to do each day, and we planned that when he was settled back home, I was going to go visit him, but this did not come to be.
Friday, something told me to check in with him. So I messaged him, but no answer. I felt something, yet it wasn’t until yesterday that I discovered it was the morning of that very day I checked in with him (8:15 am) that he passed.
However, that conversation that we last shared was perfect and lingers with me. We were both able to say from our hearts (several times) the most important thing, which is how we left the conversation upon hanging up, “I love you so much”.
And that is the message I hope to leave with each of you, and which he impressed upon me so much, as I was reflecting yesterday about him at the beach.
To live each moment fully. To embrace what is most important in life and of lasting value. And to always say, share, and be all the things that you are, would always wish to say to or wish to hear from others, even if you aren’t receiving it, and to not waste a single moment.
I honor and celebrate you Cliff in the expansive freedom and grace of who you are now and always. I’m so grateful to have been touched by the love you so generously share. We are all so gifted by your presence.
Reflecting the love and joy that you are and celebrating you in every breath of life.