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White Jaguar and a Dream


white jaguarWhat a difference a night can make. Two nights ago, on the 17th of September I had another of my fascinating active “dream” experiences.

Leading up to this in the days prior, I had been feeling a bit out of sorts, which happens when change is upon me and a lot of things come at me at once. It’s that void space where things are processing – old and new, you sift through these voices in order to weigh and balance with discernment, explore new feelings that challenge the old, travel the realms of possibilities, and even experience the temporary confusion, dissolution, and throwing up of your hands in surrender.

It made perfect sense to me, as I know myself and my cycles, hence I do not get anxious or worry when things get turned upside down. I’m also aware that I’ve been following the nudge to pull back more, detach, and to be deeply within my experience for greater amplification of my essence energy. Plus, there’d been the acknowledgment of Gaia’s transition and feeling a bit like a fish out of water since I tend to live in the new before it happens. So when I look at the current reality it can be temporarily disheartening, wishing the physical to catch up with the non-physical. Not to mention, I just “know” this very large transformation is happening and feeling it in every ounce of my being – changes that include the transmutation process into a new vibrational experience.

How it all is to look, I’m not fully sure, nor is it necessary that I know. Just taking the steps that I am able to, each day, toward it.

Are they simply foreshadowing these times of change and all that is evolving into a new experience “here”?

Or am I receiving a personal message of timeliness and the presence as “this me” in “this life” is riding the sands of the hour glass…sifting almost fully through to the other side before a complete transition and paradigm/dimensional shift takes place into “there”?

All that is clear is change. And right now, that’s all I’m privy to with clarity, and all I need to do is to make sure I’m living fully as the vibration of my essence in every moment.

I’m grateful to understand my processes, as well as for the assistance I receive from beyond Earth to align with, and anchor, the change. And in the meantime, it’s about embracing and loving the colorful process, while keeping on top of remaining balanced for well being.

That brings me back to the interesting “waking” dream of two nights ago. When a significant dream shows up, I feel drawn to acknowledge and document it, as layers continue to reveal themselves in that process. I’m still deciphering and interpreting this one, as there can be many meanings to it. However, where the journey of exploring some of the symbolism took me, was very interesting. And while they may not be “the” meaning, they definitely are shedding some insight I was meant to see in the process.

Whether this actually happened (I believe so), or was simply a symbolic journey, I have had many dreams where really positive work is taking place that helps to shift my vibration, physically remove obstructions in my ethereal/physical body, assist in new upgrades, downloads, and spiritual surgery. Then waking up remembering, physically feeling the shift, or sometimes waking in the process of a physical purge to remove the old. All of which has always been hugely beneficial and of course only happens because I choose so.

Wednesday night’s dream was one of these.

It still lingers quite clearly for me, so I know I am to remember. I recall I was to have a procedure done (which was multi-layered in effect) and was being escorted in some sort of a facility where something was going to take place with my brain and crown chakra, connected with higher self. It was a small place..seems like I remember darkness in the doorways behind, but the rooms were lit..smallish, square rooms. I was taken into one for some kind of scanning of my brain and what I recognized to be not only similar to receiving a CAT scan, but then some sort of surgery thereafter.

I do not remember the procedure itself, but remember after it, my head was bald and I had this sense of “rewiring” haven taken place and feeling refreshed. I don’t remember leaving the facility, but do then remember being escorted to another place to recuperate and rest/integrate after it. There were several around me, leading me to this larger towering structure that felt otherworldly, although reminded me of the Burj Al Arab Jumeirah luxury hotel in Dubai. I was taken to the highest and, what I heard them say, was the best room in the entire facility. This is where I was to rest and renew from the procedure and felt I might be there a while.

This place was vast, expansive, and very light and pure in energy. It was to be my home for a while and did feel very much like that. A place of transition and renewal. How long I was to be there, I’m not sure, as I never saw the end of it, but I remember feeling like a child in terms of explorative, high energy, although with all my accumulated soul knowledge. Of course I was feeling fine and wanted to be up and about, but was told I was to rest and stay off my feet. Interestingly, my mom was in the dream, but felt more like her presence, energy, rather than the her now. And she was there to see that I’d get my rest as prescribed in order for the changes to take root. I had a lot of pure, vibrant, active energy, but I was needing to just relax and so she told me so and took me to the large bed of white sheets by the expansive windows, and tucked me in (much like she had when I was growing up).

This room had wall to wall windows with an amazing view of water all around, although didn’t feel like an ocean necessarily, but more like rivers and lakes. There seemed to be different passageways in the water that went off in different directions from the main source. The way this building was positioned, was like at the center of it all…the nucleus. There was a sense of motion, although not sure that things were actually moving.

After my mom tucked me in and went off to do things, I remember a smallish white cat appearing and jumping on the bed to lay with me. Her body directly against mine and with half of her body across mine. When I say smallish, I don’t mean like a normal small cat…I mean smallish in comparison to a large adult jaguar, which I then realized this cat was. She was white with black spots and I knew it was a wild cat. Much larger than a domestic cat, but smaller than a full grown wild cat. I’d say she was likely about three feet long.

At first I thought her an odd cat, when I’d only briefly watched her appear and then make her way to me. But I soon realized she was no ordinary cat, and in fact was a small white jaguar. It had kind of a thinner sleek coat, but then later I remember these very plush paws on me and some areas that reminded me of the snow leopards and their thicker coats. But I believe it was evidence of it being a younger jaguar and still having more of that plushy baby’s coat.

The dream ends, well at least from where my memory leaves me of details, at me laying in bed recuperating with my white jaguar companion nuzzled into me. She was very loving and playful and was going to be watching over me.

I started this share off with “what a difference a night can make,” which I’ll now expound on.

I mentioned how I’d been in an off place and feeling out of sorts, as well as some disillusionment and sadness, but when I woke up the next morning (yesterday) I was feeling like something had lifted and felt new invigoration and renewed peace/optimism. It carried forth throughout the day, and continues today, and I acknowledged it directly was related to this dream. On top of that, the weather shifted the same day I felt this refreshing switch flip on, going from the daily, so-very-hot 90’s (hard to work at home without an a/c) to cooling down to high 70’s and low to mid 80’s between then and now.

So this was an interesting reflection of the internal and external mirroring and balancing out.

But of course I’ve been exploring the personal meaning for me of this dream and saw the reflections of things I’ve been feeling and even mentioned above, including foreshadowing big change, transmutation, turning within, and even a physical transition, as I felt like me, but not the me now – an expanded, reinvigorated version.

Everyone will have their own interpretations, but remember that the meaning of most importance is what resonates for you.

I’m not going to go into all of what I’ve received personally here, but I will explore one aspect of the dream, which is the white jaguar and the interesting places it took me.

I’m very connected to animals, as you may already know, but I’m also very connected to jaguar energy. Afterall, I wear two as my own sacred tattoos (one each on my left and right ankles – a male and a female) – representing the ways I walk through life. Coincidentally, when I hike, I feel very much like a jaguar especially on downhills and have noted this often.

I found it interesting that in the last few months I’ve had significant dreams with one very connected animal showing up, and they turn out to be Nestor’s essence. I’m guessing this jaguar was too.

But a white jaguar!? This is very new to me, as mostly the ones I’ve associated with are black. So I really wasn’t sure of the meaning, other than knowing what white can usually symbolize, such as purity, cleansing, innocence, clarity, new beginnings, wholeness, truth, enlightenment, awakening, and protection.

However, the journey of exploring this revealed an interesting web of a story for me, along with interesting thoughts on the symbolism. Some of which I knew, and much I did not. I’ll only concentrate on the symbolism that stood out and spoke to me in relation to the personal meanings from my dream, rather than expound on all of the jaguar symbolism, which you can Google for yourself.

White cats represent heightened spiritual awareness and “cats”, in general, represent feminine power, esoteric knowledge, and spiritual guardianship. White cats also symbolize tender love that you feel for a person and dreaming of them can signify good luck in creativity and spiritual matters.

Of course jaguars are sacred to the Mayans, Aztecs, and Incas and I have strong ancient ties to Mayan and Incan times. Supposedly, jaguar women were known to be at the “top of the pyramid of power” and the jaguar symbolizes getting “to the heart” of things – Mayan art depicts jaguars as holding the human heart.

Interestingly, white, more than black, is often traditionally associated with death in many cultures around the world, as well as mourning. These are cultures where death means the end of one life and the beginning of another. So this moving forward to a new experience of life could be symbolic of completion of a cycle in life, or referencing an actual transition into the eternal soul life beyond this particular life.

Interesting that a lot of “white” clothing has been drawing me to wear it recently. Actually, lol, I’m wearing a white tank top and white shorts right now. :)

But these changes can be about new travels ahead, a physical move to a new home or area, change in career direction, and new relationships.

White is also considered sacred to certain gods and is associated with the male/yang energy. Black is the female/yin energy – this I knew.

White was the symbol of the soul, especially in Egypt. It was also the color of the great serpent. To Norse the white worm was the one chewing the tree of life, Fafnir.

Jaguar medicine carries clarity of vision and the ability to “see” the roads within chaos and understand the patterns of chaos. It has the ability to face fears and to move without fear in the darkness. Because of its very keen vision, they can move into unknown places and see beyond what the physical eyes perceive, which speaks to psychic vision. This is where their association with getting to the heart of things comes from, as their ability to see during the night imparts their ability to look into the depths and shadows of the human heart. And with the binocular vision that cats have to have each eye work itself independently, this offers depth of perception and to see with balanced perception.

They are also carry shape shifting energy, herald deep soul work, and personal empowerment as you reclaim your power. Jaguars share with you the foreknowledge of things to come.

In Mayan mythology, the jaguar was the ruler of the Underworld, night sun, and darkness. The Mayans built temples to the jaguar god, as it was second in the pantheon only to the serpent god. There is a Temple of the Jaguar at Chichen Itza, which I only make note of because last night’s dream took me to Cancun, Mexico where Chichen Itza is, as well as specifically named Playa del Carmen (love when I get specifics in dreams), which is directly across from Cozumel and where I’ve taken buses from to get to Tulum. So the Mayan energy ties of this area were prevalent in dream time. (this will make sense as I continue)

This seemed also to be a continuation dream to the jaguar symbolism and where it led me in my explorations today, AFTER both dreams. Also interesting to note is that the temples in Cancun I’ve visited three times in this life, which is one of the most repeat travel areas I’ve journeyed to in this life.

To Mayans, the jaguar’s spotted skin represents the stars shining in the night sky, perhaps speaking to the illumination they provide when you embrace the integrative journey into the darkness.  The Mayans saw jaguar as the earth father, calling him “Jaguar Sun” – the hidden sun – that reigned over the animals and all that is sacred on earth.

The Mayan word for Jaguar is “Ix”, pronounced ‘eesh’. And here took another personal twist.

You can calculate your Mayan sacred glyph (astrological sign) in terms of “count” (for example “Tzolkin”). In terms of the Tzolkin calendar I’m “Caban” or “Red Earth”. But, in terms of the “Dreamspell” calendar that Jose Arguelles created in 1987 through a reinterpretation of the Mayan cycles in a modern context to get an energetic map or “Galactic signature”, I am “Ix” or the “White Cosmic Wizard”. I have connected with the meaning and energetic signature of both, hence I wear both sacred glyphs on my skin as sacred tattoos, but I have always felt an inner resonance with “Ix” placing the glyph on my throat chakra, as the empowered way I uniquely and creatively expressive myself.

Herein lies the connection, as the sign “Ix” is represented by the jaguar, as shared above. It’s assumed that if the name was of Yucatan origin, then “chel” could mean “rainbow.” Sometimes she’s called “Lady Rainbow” or “White Goddess”.

Without going into all of the symbolism of “Ix”, this particular connection seemed key and of course represents the same things above about prophecy, clairvoyance and the ability to see in the dark like jaguars. Is it no wonder, I shared that physical vision is the sense I would be willing to give up if I had to choose, as I feel I truly “see” without my eyes.

Anyway, to take this Mayan thread a bit further, I also wear the Mayan Moon Goddess, “Ix Chel”, at my heart chakra as a tattoo (she’s often depicted holding a rabbit, which my image does – some saying this may depict a YOUTHFUL Ix Chel) Long story on that connection, but when looking at white jaguar symbolism I came across this interesting information that tied this in as well.

She’s also a jaguar goddess by her name and is often depicted with jaguar claws instead of hands, and sometimes a jaguar pelt – it is said that this is the AGED version of Ix Chel. Hmmmm…

In the stories told of Ix Chel, it is said she bore the Sun God four “jaguar” sons/gods that moved through the night unseen. The story also shares that she spent many nights on her sacred island of Cozumel supporting and protecting women through their pregnancies and childbirth – a bridge for birth and rebirth. In the early 16th century, Maya women would travel to the sanctuary of Ix Chel on the island of Cozumel, which was considered the most important place of pilgrimage after Chichen Itza, seeking blessings of a fruitful marriage. The smaller island, Isla Mujeres, that is north of Cozumel (Island of Women), was devoted to the worship of Ix Chel.

What does it all mean? I’m piecing that together still, but it definitely is fascinating to connect dots and explore the rich depths that come through what may seem like nothing but a wild dream.

And for me, I in fact know this dream also DID take place on another dimensional plane, as the sensations and feelings are carried vividly and felt strongly in the present.

Again, feeling like a full circle spiral taking place in my life, as it is my Mayan remembrances that flooded in for me many, many years ago, which was a catalyst for one of the huge leaps in my spiritual journey and started to unravel the web. And having it come through this little “dreamspell” – pun intended ;) – was quite interesting.

Now I get to connect the dots and follow where ever the journey takes me, in what ever form that is to be in, having that peaceful knowingness from my dream of being protected, assisted, and watched over for the transitions to come.

Oh, what a beautiful web we weave, when first we practice to perceive. ;)

The Child In Us


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Painting: The Child In Us by Tania Marie ~ Shares Porcupine’s wisdom of innocence, renewed sense of wonder, and trust in Spirit. (Prints and original available here: http://taniamarie.com/gallery1.htm)

Inner child work has always been a powerful seed “key” to creating change. And when done with unconditionally loving courage, can be the impetus for empowering yourself in unlimited ways.

We all have a child within that is in need of our loving acceptance. No matter how strong and self-reliant you think you are, there is a time for tender vulnerability in everyone’s journey that is needed to cultivate a garden that your child-like heart can creatively and expansively blossom in. This will provide astounding results in your current experience and with all that you intend.

As adults we carry with us false beliefs from the past that as children we learned to believe. A lot of that includes the things that we were taught was “wrong” with us and so the greatest rejection living with us today is the one to, and of, ourselves with these beliefs.

Listening to and softening our inner dialogue to embrace the perfection of all that we are, is a needed part of our daily practice. It is important to know ourselves to be whole and forgive ourselves, as well as revel in the quirky beauty that our inner child has to share.

Loving your inner child will support healing the darkest experiences by shining light on the beauty that was always there. This opens doorways that the Universe will support you with when you are willing to partner with it.

Wholeness


You are now, and always have been, whole, expansive, abundant, and miraculous. Harmony of being is your nature to remember. And when your perceptions widen to ignite this as your restored reality, there is no stopping your light frequency from accelerating in vibration, while seeding the same spark of recognition in others.

“I flourish when I realize I’m already complete.” ~Vironika Tugaleva

wholeness (1)“…we are by default, all connected. We come from Oneness and so we will always share that unified bond. However, I believe that part of why we incarnate here on Earth is to express our individuation in all of its unique and colorful beauty. I don’t believe we came here to master Oneness, but I do believe we came to experience being Human in such a way as to live out loud that sensual, raw and most vulnerable, authentically true expression, as pure Source of the personal home frequency we each embody.

I believe we are here to practice our sovereign free will through the alchemy of our heart and understand that what we imagine, we can manifest masterfully, because we are indeed powerful Source beings.

We share the same Source, but that Source created multi-dimensional possibilities and limitless potentials for a reason, of which free will and experience itself are a driving force…” ~Excerpt from my post, “Oneness is not Sameness – The Integrity of Your Personal Frequency Within the Group Dynamics”: http://tinyurl.com/k9pdnag

wholeness (2)Keep revealing yourself more and more. It isn’t that you transform and modify into something completely new…you simply allow yourself to shine as the wholeness you already are.

 

“This Artificial Reality Must End” ~ Joseph Chiappalone w/ Jeff Rense 03.15.2013


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I’m definitely NOT a doom and gloom person, and only focus on the reality I choose to create, but regardless of what we are creating in our lives, there are things taking place around us whether we may want to accept, understand, or acknowledge it or not. How we relate to this, engage it, judge it, allow it to define us, fill us with fear, or empower ourselves, will be key in how we are affected or not, and the change we have the ability to create.

I am not an advocate of fear, nor do I look at things in black and white, so it is up to each of you how you choose to maneuver in life and how you choose to interpret and allow things to affect you. It’s up to each of you to decide what feels right to you and how you process what you do accept as reality. Awareness is key, and if you do your own shadow work, these things do not have to be the monsters they appear to be. You gain greater ability to know you can transmute anything and create a different version of “reality.”

This post may shed some light, as Laura shares, for some of you that are experiencing that reality shift and the symptoms that come along with it.

Laura and I have shared many a conversation about this and everything she wrote was on point to my own experience of feeling the major unconditional detachment and pull away, as well as the vertigo, memory loss, and eye sight shifts. Not to mention the prophetic dreams, visions, and experiences speeding up, as well as literal dimensional reality awareness teetering on more deeply embodying our true multi-dimensional experience. My guess, as Laura shares, is that many of you also are.

Anyway, this interview will likely not resonate for most people, but if you are experiencing any of the things Laura shared, and you do make it through listening, or would rather skip to Joseph’s insights on how to maneuver through whatever shifts and changes are occurring with splits in realities, you can forward to about the 20:00 mark. In this segment he’ll discuss how to pull within and find that inner peace amidst whatever happens…to go through the motions, but not engage.

Thanks for sharing Laura!

Originally posted on Laura Bruno's Blog:

A fascinating discussion between Joseph Chiappalone and Jeff Rense — layers upon layers of information in here. Thanks to “bumpercrop,” who embedded this video as a comment on Exopermaculture.

Warning: not everyone will resonate with or like this post, and that’s fine. If it’s not for you, then just don’t watch it. I’m posting it for those who’ve recently commented on how “surreal” the world seems anymore, for those who had been throwing themselves into helping people shift and who have recently received the very strong message to back off, pull inside themselves and move forward in their own lives in peace. “It is done.” This talk expresses much of what I’ve observed happening in my own life, with clients, and by keeping a finger on the pulse of the world through conversations with very awake people I know all over the place.

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Change Your Inner Dialogue – Turn Can’t into Can


Talk about inspiring, motivating, and incredible! You believe you “can’t” do something and your situation is impossible to rise out of? Erase that belief and think again…

Reminds me of “The Little Engine that Could” – “I—think—I—can, I—think—I—can” all the way up the steep grade ahead of the discouraged and excuse laden, larger engines. And upon reaching the top and heading down, continued with the positive congratulatory “I thought I could, I thought I could.” :)

Only Two Spots Left in the October Crystal Magick & the Journey Within Workshop


Joy-with-AmethystOCTOBER’S CRYSTAL WORKSHOP:

There are only 2 more spots left for the upcoming Crystal Magick & the Journey Within workshop on 10/11 in Costa Mesa, California.

You can register up until October 6th, given there’s space remaining.

Manual, Crystal & Crystal Pendulum Included with Registration (you will get to choose your own new friends during the workshop).

So, if you’d like to explore your relationship with Crystals, Crystal Pendulums, Crystal Skulls, and delve into the heart of you in terms of understanding your Chakras, healing abilities, intuition, andjoy-and-skull more, then you’ll have a fun and opening time with this workshop, as we experience all this and then some.

The individual early registration discount ended, but you can still take advantage of $75 per person savings when registering with a friend.

 

You can find all the details of this workshop here:

Crystal Magick & the Journey Within

 

If you have any questions or would like to register please contact me at tania@taniamarie.com

66 Apples


apples4It’s that time of the year again for apple harvesting, as we approach the changing of seasons and rhythmic flow of cycles. It sure isn’t feeling like Autumn around here right now however, with crazy heat in the 90’s. I’ve been noticing when out and about, how plants and blooms are doing odd things with all these global shifts in weather.

Are the natural rhythms being completely thwarted in mirror to a large portion of the collective being out of tune with nature and/or messing with it, thinking they know better? Or is it that everything is learning to cultivate a reality of its own new rhythm of free will, in a world that has opted out of that choice? Perhaps it is all of these and then some. There are many ways to interpret things indeed and I’m constantly reflecting on it all.

applesHowever it may be, the apples seem to still be in their natural cycle, ready to be gathered, and so that is what I focused on.

The tree is much smaller than the ever-abundant tangerine, loquat, and persimmon here, however it still yields a beautiful little bounty. And this year that came in the form of 66 sweet little apples. So there will be a lot of apple creations over the next week or so, as I explore some ideas for some easy vegan apple goodies.

Apples and apple trees symbolize love, truth, peace, beauty, honesty, remembrance, honesty, purity, knowledge, wisdom, joyousness, fertility, abundance, and earthly desires.

And I found it quite interesting to receive 66 of them – a spiritual master number of love – unconditional love.

I66 applest is also a master number for faith, healing, and deep trust in the Divine. Not to mention carries the energy of transmutation and expanding consciousness, sometimes in the form of Kundalini awakenings. It also infuses a sense of sacredness to the seemingly trivial daily experiences with the desire to search for deeper and larger meaning to it all through meditative contemplation.

The number 6 on its own brings the energy of humanitarianism, service, home, simplicity, and grace, while focuses on the material in life and daily needs, reminding you to balance the physical and spiritual aspects of your life.

And when you see how the two are connected, then by living with conscious intent, you will find yourself always provided for while serving your life mission. Basically, live the truth of your essence and all is well, without need for fear, worry, and anxiety.

It also imparts a message that you give love freely and unconditionally, and this source of enjoyment in relationships is important. When you see a number repeated, it doubles and amplifies the essence of its energy in its individual state.

Yep, that all feels very personally appropriate as messages. And it’s interesting that the apples and the number 66 embody very mirroring vibrational energy.

Astro-Numerologist, Tania Gabrielle shares some interesting insights about the number 6. She expresses that 66 exhibits “a double ‘6th sense’ – an ability to connect with others intuitively  on such a deep level that you are able to coach them and support their goals.”

Words she found that add up to 66 include, “Discipleship, Resurrection, Spiritual Work, Transformation, and Woman.”

Tania shares that “6 is the number of the ‘cosmic parent’, compassion, responsibility and love and looks like a pregnant woman – and it is from the body of the woman that a child is born. When you double the 6, it makes 66 and symbolizes both father and mother.” And, when you then add the numbers 6 + 6 you get 12, which reduces to 1 + 2 or 3. (I happen to be a #3 by birth)

So 66 is actually also the vibration of the number 3, which, as Tania Gabrielle shares, “symbolizes creative perfection – mother, father, and child.”

twin applesI also found this little one here to be quite a fascinating discovery among the 66 – a twin apple! Two apples growing from one and so perfectly balanced. Seemed to be reflecting that unifying of divine parts within self that create wholeness. Also speaks to twin soul energy.

In addition, it could be symbolizing the birthing of something new from the pure essence of self, and that transmutational energy in process of alchemically shifting.

There are always so many layers to the simplicity around us. Very fun to explore, but even more meaningful when you start to connect the dots and see the story weaving in and around you.

You are never alone, as a constant dialogue of support is connecting with you daily.

All this from harvesting some 66 apples. :)

Remembering a Courageous Soul & Messages of Faith on the Eternal Journey


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Tiny Gaia when she first entered my life

The moment you want to give up is when you need to dig as deep as you can to keep believing even more, as you’re so close to breaking through the veils and into the light of your heart.

It’s one of those time cycles where I feel a stronger pull to my cosmic origins, and needing to remind myself of balancing and grounding in order to fully be present in this current Earthly experience. And while feeling these pulls elsewhere, it’s no wonder I’ve also been sharing reverence for my beloved Russian Tortoise, Gaia, whom has been away on mission since the end of April.

She, along with my beautiful, physically departed Nestor, have been heavily on my mind. And I know that they are both cosmic pilgrims engaged in their soul essence journeys of the heart.

gaia outsideI know many of you have followed along with their stories, in particular Gaia’s of recent, and may remember she had for the first time hibernated for a short period this winter, returning auspiciously before the end of Winter, but right at the perfectly timed moment in my life. And then, not long after she had returned, she then disappeared again and has been gone since the end of April, now approaching 5 months and oddly during the dead of a very hot Summer here.

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Gaia checking out my painting Air, as I worked on it in my solarium

I haven’t recently had the sense she is returning, but if she in fact at some point still does, it will be her most surprising and magickal feat to date, which would bring a huge smile to my usually unsurprised self. In the meantime, I have been supporting her energetically in the work she had been called away to do, knowing she is always with me in heart.

But it hasn’t been until recently that I’ve felt the need to honor her more appropriately, especially if she has chosen to move beyond this Earthly realm like Nestor. That’s what it feels like in my heart, and perhaps her original idea of returning has shifted due to my own shifts.

Having gone through what will always be the most heart-wrenching experience of physically losing Nestor in the most dramatic/traumatic of ways at a very challenging soul leap time in my life that nearly took my own breath away, I have gone through the worst and so am able and prepared to handle physical loss, or anything for that matter, with an unconditionally, unattached love and deep honor. Perhaps Gaia chose this way, as mirror to the place I have arrived with this – with no need for closure to the eternal, nor need to physically see and experience that transition from life to afterlife. I am aware that transitions from one dimensional experience to another can be gently chosen, just as much as harshly chosen, depending on what we need to learn and what our attached beliefs are.

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Gaia exploring inside my Amethyst – found her sleeping here several times

I’ve also found it interesting, since both Gaia and Nestor were always not really “all here” when they were, that as such expansively powerful, cosmic beings that they chose these tiny bodies to manifest as. And yet their power was evident, not only in the strength those little bodies physically exhibited, but in their presence and the magickal things they would do each day while with me.

I know part of the reason they came in those bodies, was so that we could be together as we were, and yet as much joy as they brought me in this life, it gives me greater joy to know that they are no longer confined by those bodies in any way and can be the freedom seekers of the Cosmos that they are. Afterall, they spent very little of their time in those bodies, even when they WERE with me, as they were constantly traveling and doing work inter-dimensionally. They remind me of myself and it’s no wonder we have been together across times.

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Gaia and Chuck

Gaia was such a mentor for Joy and the two of them were best friends. Gaia also had the opportunity to connect with Chuck, while he was still alive, and was an avid companion of the ethereal Nestor (also a friend of Chuck’s).

crystalsI found it interesting that on my desk, where I have some of my crystals that support me daily, that the stone statues of Hematite (Nestor) and Rhodonite (Gaia) that I have carried with me on many of my global sacred journeys to have their energy symbolically and physically present where I was doing spiritual work, have always been next to each other on my desk. And the larger Serpentine stone statue of Joy, who is a bit more Earth-bound than they are, (although truly is the embodiment of a bridge between worlds, is a channeler and Crystal worker), is separate, yet connected by the large Cosmic Crystal between them.

And, both Nestor and Gaia are now physically gone, leaving Joy and I together here on this Earth plane.

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Best buddies, Joy and Gaia

Joy is my ever-faithful companion who alerts me to all energetic nuances and presides over our shared domain, as a guardian of the sacred. But over time, even Joy’s presence has shifted, as she used to physically take part in any workshops I taught from home, and now her presence although felt, is no longer there – choosing to remain in my office to support from afar.

Little by little with their support and teaching experiences through them, and as I have shifted into my own empowerment, accessing the connections and communications beyond space and time in a more tangible way, and have released attachments, they have all been able to move into different roles in my life and into their trueness.

The more these transcendent shifts anchor, the more I receive inklings of where my own soul direction is leading and the timeliness of that.

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Gaia inside her house

It’s all a beautiful journey and I’ve been reflecting on all of this, as thoughts and memories of Gaia have been flooding me recently. It’s brought some bitter sweet tears and yet joyous ones in celebration of her eternal expansiveness.

And I felt it time to make a memorial of sorts in her honor, regardless if she did in fact one day, out of the amazing blue, return. I want her to know how much I am eternally grateful for all that she is, and all that she has been and will continue to be in my life. Like all of these precious and astounding souls, she has taught me so much and she has saved my life more than once.

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Gaia’s sanctuary under the Plumeria

I have decided to keep her home outside where it has been, as a memorial for her, and also to mark the area I believe she entered Earth’s core through. As it is there I discovered her last time when she returned. If she does in fact miraculously return, then she will have her home to welcome her. Although I hope if she does, that I will still be here to welcome her. This is part of why I am not feeling her returning. I trust, as always, that she’s tuned into my messages, even though they have a bit of a time lapse where she is. We’ve never not been in sync, so there’s that. :)

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Plumeria above Gaia’s house

Interestingly, not too long ago, this area where her house sits that has two Plumeria and one large succulent bush, had completely shifted. The large succulent bush had uprooted itself one night and as it did, had taken down the two Plumeria. I had always reflected on this as a sign of the work she was doing below ground, as well as a mirror of impending change that was to take place and the uprooting in my own life.

Since, the bushes have been replanted and supported, with hopes they would survive, and have. So much so, that the Plumeria are now in full bloom – I just was checking them out this morning when I took these photographs – and I love that they surround Gaia’s house with their fragant beauty.plumeria

The perfect reflection of the joy and grace she brought to my life, this time around, when I was most in need.

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Plumeria symbolism includes natural beauty, charm, grace, new life, new beginnings, creation and recreation, the Sun, perfection of all things as is, dedication, devotion, love, immortality, healing powers, liveliness, life, and birth.

plumeria5I believe these are perfect messages for where ever the new journey ahead may lead. And however that is to take form, I can only trust in the faith and belief that I will have the same kind of courage these amazing souls have graced my life with.

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Three courageous Star Jasmine

I also found three Star Jasmine this morning that had blossomed “out of season”. Jasmine flowers symbolize many things to many different cultures, including love, romance, sensuality, amiability, nobility, grace, and elegance, but more importantly, they hold strong spiritual significance, as a constant symbol of divinity and hope.

These three Jasmine felt like magickal reminders of these three dear and immeasurable souls in my life, as well as embody, to me, the powerful will of the courageous soul that doesn’t accept the boundaries others choose to believe in and is capable of blossoming in the darkness.

September Reiki Special Reminder


reiki3We’re over half way through the month of September already so there’s two weeks remaining on this month’s Reiki specials – all of which can continue to support the creation of dreams into being, releasing blocks and fears, integrative healing, and activating self-empowerment.

 

Through the end of the month you can continue to enjoy these offerings:

  • Reiki Distant Enhanced 20-Minute Sessions: 2 Sessions for Only $99 (Regular Price of each is $75 = Savings of $51 or 75% off 1 Session) 
  • Reiki Certification Training: Receive $75 off any level of training – Reiki 1, 2, or 3. Receive $100 off all three levels if purchased together. For Regular pricing please visit: http://taniamarie.com/reiki.htm  (local or distant training available) 

 

And while this special will continue until mid-November, it was inspired as part of September’s Reiki offerings:

  • Reiki Retreat in BC: Receive $100 off if you register by 11/11/14. Payment plans for as little as $84/month available with a deposit this month. For all information and retreat pricing please visit: tinyurl.com/eponarise

 

You can contact me at tania@taniamarie.com with questions or to schedule and register for any of the above.

Surrender to the Courage of Your Wild Heart


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At Machu Picchu

Surrender to the guidance of your heart and take courageous steps to be more vulnerable and connect more intimately and deeply with yourself, others, and all of life around you. Your life will shift immensely in reflection to these commitments.

When the heart is continually being conditioned by the mind, its voice and inspiration become stifled and confused, even when you actively try to engage it for its direction.

When you allow the mind’s influence to overpower the heart’s, you place limitations on the extraordinary source and well-spring of energy, vibrancy, guidance, intuition, and inspiration it can provide naturally. Not to mention, you hinder the joy and extraordinary experiences that could infuse your life if you had a clear path to your heart.

A wild heart is one that operates naturally, instinctively, and freely, providing direction from your authentic self and from the deepest passions and desires that stem from that truth. This is hidden between layers of “ideas” you have about yourself and the conditioned “desires” that you have come to learn.

Your wild heart will lead you back to your essence, and toward real liberation, satisfaction, harmony, and balance that stems from the core of your being.

Part of what is needed is to be willing to face and lovingly let go of old mental and emotional patterns, and the conditioning that reins you in from experiencing your own wild and free heart – taking time to repattern yourself back to who you really are.

It’s not a simple journey at first, but it does become increasingly more easy when consistently and actively engaged.

Afterall, it IS simply you returning to natural harmony. That may seem like a foreign experience right now, but it is the most natural experience there is. You’ve simply forgotten this.

 

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