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A Little Neverending Story Flashback


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Feeling the energy of this right now and yes, the magick…….

Dedicated to the magickal Laura. Remembering our adventures and looking forward to the next very soon.

This so reminds me of our enchanted time in Mendocino and the Druid we encountered wearing the Auryn that took us on a journey that changed our lives forever and for the better.

Enjoy this flashback of Luck Dragons, Empresses, The Nothing, enchanted lands and creatures, and courageous hearts from one of my favorite movies, from which I, too, wear the Auryn symbol (seen on the cover of the book in the video and that Atreyu wears as a powerful gift from the Empress) as a sacred tattoo on my solar plexus…walking the alchemical middle way.

 

Accountability to Embody ~ Making Changes with Essence Integrity


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I’ve learned that I simply don’t want, nor can afford, to put energy into things and experiences that no longer serve, and truly aren’t aligned with, what I’m guided to create from the essence of my natural frequency, as that not only affects my well-being, but my ability to be of greatest service for the highest good and to people who are also taking accountability in their lives.

Realizing where my time and energy would be better focused for that greater good supports embrace of Divine timing and flow of all things to take place, which creates that magickal alignment.

This also creates the basis for profound change that comes from within and stems from a more natural alignment with what is core to me, rather than a displacement of my desires to be in that alignment.

Like some of you, I have felt guided to withdraw physically from many things in order to actually be able to give more, which is through my own transmutation into who I am in essence.

This has involved, and will continue to involve, a lot of life readjustments, reorganization, review, and release, in order to focus on what is of most soul-benefit right now to be engaged with. It takes me on a journey through the shadows, as well as the light, so that I may bring a fuller depth of understanding to the choices I make and the creations that therefore will birth in greater wholeness.

One of my only outlets of connection, besides my work and personal life, is via this blog, where I share much of what feels important, inspiring, and creatively supportive to impart.

I share a lot of my personal journey whether literally or symbolically through my blog, as a means of support to others that I know go through similar experiences and might feel alone in that process, or like no one understands it.

It’s okay to change your mind, it’s okay to find new inspiration, and to admit you are feeling stifled even in the role others may respect and admire you for being in currently. This is a sign of growth and natural evolution. And as you let go of those “roles”, you are able to walk through new doorways of experience that provide the opportunities for expansive breath into new freedom that perhaps is less defined, but more expansively amorphous to what is energetically reflective of the nature of now.

I’m quite the shape-shifter that embraces change and I am willing to put that out there when it shows up, as I believe that change is the natural process of life and the one thing you can count on always being a part of it, whether you embrace it or not.

I’ve shared before that it has become increasingly important for me to shift gears and to let go of a lot of things that feel complete at this time in many areas of my life. This, in order to embody more of my essence and consciously create a new paradigm of experience I am called to, knowing that as I do so that it is the most responsible, accountable, and service related thing I can do by extension of BEING this.

This reflects in the expression of my creative life force/work I am called to do and also the life choices I make. So you HAVE seen, and WILL continue to see a lot of shifts in these regards from me.

For me, my original soul missions have and are coming to closure, which leaves me with expansive choices to make from a different essence place of myself. That is both exciting and can also invite much unknown that calls for greater courage, deeper trust, and full-on heart immersion, since this opens a wider realm of possibilities where things are revealed only moment to moment, as well as shift moment to moment.

That wasn’t quite the game before, as I did have foresight and an understanding of what I had set out to do. Now, I am really creating anew and in a state of reclaiming sovereign free will on a whole other level.

Much of what has been evolving for some of us in integration lives, is closure to a lot of what we originally set forth to accomplish, if in fact we’ve been doing the work. This has been happening increasingly since the last couple of years. And yet, in many ways, the realization of that hasn’t caught up for some, and in other ways some are caught in a perpetual, one-directional spiral, not realizing they have the ability to create a new spiral expanding out in many other directions.

And still yet for some, perhaps there is a place of comfort you’ve “arrived” at and are ceasing to stretch yourself into another level of evolution that has been nudging you.

Of course it’s well deserved to take a rest and break after much work I know many have been doing. But complacency and that sense of “arrival” you may have been pursuing, can be a hindrance not only to your own growth potentials, but to the collective at large.

Personally, I don’t feel okay with being complacent and just because I get to a place where I become really good at something I’ve been doing for a while and what people come to expect or connect me with, I know it is not for me to stay there, and to continue to step into another level to deepen and expand my experience, as well as to be of greatest service to others through that process and embodiment.

That may not be the case for everyone, but for me, this involves recognizing the time for allowing others to take over in some ways, and assisting them in that process to do so, and to move into another role of bridging things from the radiance of my “beingness”, which I nurture by supporting what is true to it.

Things are ready, and will become ready, BECAUSE of your willingness to release into more of who you are and into what seem like new realms, but truly are the most natural, core expressions of you.

In this way of opening to more possibilities and limitless expansion, you create doorways for others to access the same.

And this involves changing the inner landscape so that it is aligned with all that you hold dear, rather than focusing on the outer ideals you are trying to live up to, convince yourself you are reflecting, or feel compelled to project change ON to.

The inward journey of embodying who you really are in this moment, and bringing that forth, rather than trying to emulate what you feel you “need” to, or “should”, be doing – trying to come up with an idea that you try to fit yourself into – can be exasperating, draining, disappointing, and in the end will not produce the results you desire because they aren’t consistent with who you really are. This will be felt by others, whether consciously or subconsciously, and will also draw to you the energy that reflects this inner inconsistency.

It will also defeat your efforts to create change around you, as if you are not truly embodying that which you desire to see changed in others, you have already set yourself up for disappointment.

I believe that one of the greatest fears is to admit that we may not be who we really think we are. The same fear that others are demonstrating in not wanting to change in the ways you desire, is the fear within self that isn’t able to reconcile a similar inner discrepancy.

I think that what would be valuable to the process is a willingness to be honest with ourselves, to be open to honest feedback from others and their reflections of our inconsistency, and to be mindful of the type of energy we are putting out there.

I think a willingness to accept when it’s time to move into a new level of you is key and this can reflect in many ways, adding on dimensions and layers to what you currently do, or completely shifting into new aspects of yourself most currently reflective. I feel that the willingness to let go of control in any one area that we’ve attained or become good in, recognizing timing and how others are now capable and ready to step into those realms can be very beneficial. This will assist in living from true abundance and connection to your collective family, whom will be grateful for your honoring of their ability to step into their new roles you may be leaving.

I know there are times you may feel the need to be all things and master it all now, and yet we each have different and constantly evolving roles that are there to be honored throughout the course of our journeys, as well as carried out by others when we have a greater personal calling and better use of our gifts elsewhere. I’ve also seen the scarcity and ego mentality of people claiming certain attainments, that are unwilling to support others into their fullness or to help them to take over some of the positions they hold or may have held, as there is an attachment and fear not just of wanting to hold on to that status, but of fear to move into a new role where at first it will again be new in feeling and like starting from the bottom. This can all end up revealing a potential, false abundance mentality that has not yet truly been embodied.

Yet, if truth be known, in actuality the new role you release yourself into will be the most natural and most expansive you’ve experienced so far, if you can get past that old fear pattern that yes, is still hanging on, regardless of the conscious claims you make.

Because, let’s face it…it’s scary to move beyond something you know really well, right? But a little healthy fear is the catalyst for great change. It’s not the enemy…it’s indication of your desire for the new (or rather, indication of the more “you”), nudging you to get all your parts in alignment for the inevitable.

And imagine now, if you will, the people who are on their beginning phases of their more conscious journey, or in their own transitional phase into the next change, then.

Remember how it may have felt to you before you got to where you are now feeling very comfortable, and remember how you feel now if you in fact are being nudged out of your comfort zone to yet ANOTHER new leg of your evolutionary journey? When you remember this feeling, maybe you can then share a bit more compassion and let up on your desires to exert effort outside of yourself so that you’ll have more energy to put toward your own changes, which will reflect so beautifully for the people who will benefit from your desires and efforts embodied, rather than projected.

As one door closes, another opens…and the doors you close, are the opening doors for others, and vice versa. We are always in a connective process that triggers a collective domino effect. So when we make courageous choices to change, others are simultaneously ready and able to do the same.

Life is always an experience of wholeness….we are both leading and following, teachers and students, changing and awaiting change, fearing and desiring change…. at the same time. If you can stand in the place of acknowledgment, and detachment from identifying solely with any of these, then you can just be with the process naturally.

We each affect change and provide a catalyst for each other, but it stems from what is taking place within and then embodied, inside out. We are all on different journeys and different places along those journeys. Increasingly it is becoming important to act responsibly, consciously (awareness is power), and to be accountable for what you embody, as well as seek from within.

Make the changes that are true to you and not some idealized version of you, or as an act of defiance, or guilt. And if you don’t yet know what that is, then make a commitment to start listening more so you can hear the subtle voice of your truth amidst all the “noise”, which can be both obvious and not obvious.

“For those of you who have exited your cocoon, your new mantra is, “Change is not Fearful.” You have perhaps focused on either emotional or physical issues and now you are likely moving into the opposite to learn that change is not fearful – just a ‘new normal’. There will be a time when change will be perceived as joyful. But for now, you’re learning it just is.”…..

“Some of you wish to stop a bit and learn how to love yourself. That is fine and good. Love is key to new earth. But part of that self-love is accepting your shifts and those of others without many, if any, visible changes.

Perhaps you expect those of the light to have some sort of halo about them so that you can tag them as important to your transition. In searching for that halo, you have listened to that channel, meditated with that teacher and drifted from thought to thought – hoping this or that person is the one who would anoint you as of the light. Just as your parents once told you that you reached certain stages in your life by allowing you more freedoms and responsibility.

You look for parents or community members to tell you that you are growing, shifting, changing. When in truth, they know as little as you do about this shift. There is no guru or parent to give you the parameters of the new you – there is only you.”

~Brenda Hoffman

 

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Mark Passio: Transforming the Satanic Elements in Human Consciousness


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If you believe that, as Laura phrased it through our comments back and forth on her post of this, “knowledge is power,” and would like to really empower yourself into a more conscious place of awareness and knowing so that you can make your own choices with the sovereign free will you innately have, but may not fully be utilizing, then you’ll find this interview to be quite eye-opening.

This is a very thorough and in both Laura’s and my opinion, truth-piercing, spot-on share from Mark Passio on a fuller picture, rather than just the shiny one that you may have been taught only to recognize.

Remember that simply because you acknowledge something, does not mean you are giving it power, are bad, or need to fear it. It simply means you are versing yourself in the true alchemy of transmutation, which is only done by knowing all of the parts that create the whole. And this will help lead you to the enlightenment and empowerment you seek.

I indicated to Laura that I immediately noted Mark’s right shoulder twitch that started as he began speaking, and continues throughout, and how that indicated to me this was important information being imparted and integrated, as he spoke. I also mentioned in my comments to her on her post that it reminded me of when I get into a very zoned out channeling mode where information comes through me in this stream of clarity from beyond myself and I start to shake at times, indicating always that I’ve stepped out of identification, and into a Source stream of consciousness.

The information may be challenging to swallow, but also liberating if you are open to exploring it. It’s definitely something you may want to listen to a few times, if you feel it resonates. The part on morality and freedom I also, like Laura, feel is very key in understanding the Universal Laws, and then putting them back into the forefront of experience.

Thank you Laura for sharing this!

Originally posted on Laura Bruno's Blog:

Thanks to Jean Haines for posting this video, which is one of the most grounded and, imho,  right on the money talks I’ve ever heard regarding light and dark occultists, the founding of America, burial mounds, giants, and the need to continue to go (way) beyond the supposed “awakening” happening right now. I especially appreciate Mark’s assessment of the wide variety of possibilities of the collective reality timeline(s) on this planet. NOTE: he is, like me, extremely skeptical of and unimpressed by New Age cotton candy fluffery, and he expresses just how far the masses (and even people who consider themselves spiritual leaders) still need to go if we want any hope at all of a mass awakening as the way out of this mess.

Like me, he also recognizes the Sun as the big wild card that could change the world as we know it — and not necessarily…

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What Is Your Witch Name?


For all my fellow witch and wizard friends…here’s a bewitching little break in your day to celebrate the coming 31st of October. Thank you to my friend Kenny for sharing this!

My name is “Bewitched Wand”. What’s yours?

Comment below with your Witch name for fun!

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Enchantment Is as Enchantment Does


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A couple of weeks ago while visiting friends, I was immediately drawn in by these enchanted lilac succulents in their front yard garden (pictured above). It was like a moth to a flame, or in this case a faerie to a flame. ;)

I was literally overwhelmed with the magickal resonance they gave off. Our friends have a beautiful garden they’ve lovingly cultivated front and back of their house, but these lilac beauties were simply mesmerizing. And I wondered how many others actually noticed them when they passed by.

Their presence in the garden was a mutual celebration among the other plants around and the whole garden was enhanced by this shared comradery of joy. A lovely reflection for humanity and how we each touch and enhance one another’s lives by the gifts we each bring to the co-creation shared.

These beauties reminded me of times long ago, the places in my dreams that trigger memories of home, visions in my imagination, the muses for my paintings, the way my heart feels, but more simply….that enchantment is an experience of heightened awareness, tuned in to its presence that is reflected from within us.

When you surrender to the captivation of life, you live a charmed life. And not only do you experience life as enchanted, but enchanting things show up as an extension of your created reality.

I see the magickal and enchanted because I believe in it, I create it, I live it, and I’m still awake in that old childhood dreamtime.

Enchantment is a fragrant friend that tickles your senses and leaves you intoxicated by life.

“We wait, starving for moments of high magic to inspire us, but life is full of common enchantment waiting for our alchemists eyes to notice.” ~Jacob Nordby

The simplest of things can be the sweetest reminders and the greatest of divinely timed inspirations. And it is eternally present awaiting YOUR engaged presence.

“So, I said, when does the enchantment start? We were sitting side by side, facing the mountains. “It started when the earth was born.” Her eyes were closed. Her face was golden in the setting sun. “It never stops. It is, always. It’s just here.” ~Jerry Spinelli

But don’t just take my word for it….experience it for yourself. Start imagining life as you would like to experience it, start living as if it is already your experience, and be more mindful of each moment that is reflected to you. I may just be crazy, but I sure am creating a joyful reality. ;)

“When someone from Faerie ever tells you something, you can see it – you can feel it – you believe it. For the true value of enchantment and its glamour, is in the imparting of a truth – by truth’s own persuasion it makes itself real.” ~Gabriel Brunsdon

Enchantment by Valerie Dohren:

Enchantment steals my weary heart
When`er I see the golden dawn
Which so does set my soul aflame
That I should never be forlorn

To see the beauty in a smile
To feel such magic all around
Delights me with the sweetest joy
In every sight, in every sound

Enchantment plays upon the soul
To captivate, such charms convey
All heavens wonders that we see
Around us through each passing day

Enchantment be the stars that shine
Enchantment is the glowing moon
Enchantment in the twisting vine
Enchantment through the sun at noon

Enchantment be the rambling brook
Enchantment is the rolling sea
Enchantment in the eyes that look
Enchantment through the eyes that see

 

Blend In or Let Your Light So Shine?


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This post from my dear friend Laura Bruno shares some interesting and insightful comments on how you can choose to maneuver through chaotic and challenging times, as well as “potential” dangers. I happen to agree with all of Laura’s comments, and have experienced exactly the same, so for me, they hold true and is how I can confidently say that it IS possible to be invisible and thrive amidst anything. I also happen to have absolutely no fear of death, given my own experiences, so this lends to a feeling of constant peace and harmony within, which I do feel also supports courage and trust in divine unfolding. I hope you enjoy reading the commentary exchange and I’ll be back at blogging tomorrow after I get back to things here upon arriving home. Shine on!!

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Zen Gardner posted an article called, “When Chaos Hits: Blending In With Your Surroundings is a Must.” That post has generated some interesting discussion ranging from “just lie low and blend in” to “you can’t hide” to “Better to burn out brightly, sharing one’s light with all one might reach. than fade away deservedly.” I thought I’d share the portion of the conversation that I participated in, and you can read the rest of the comments by clicking here.

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Blend in? Isn’t that what 90% of the world has already been doing their whole lives? Modern Orwellian society IS a blender. It blends. And that’s what most of the herd has been raised to do. Blend.

Now is the time to Stand. Stand Up. Stand out. Stand in…..but NOT stand down. The coward “survives”. Those living with actual purpose THRIVE and inspire…

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Jon Rappoport ~ Logic, Imagination and Magic


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As an artist and artist of life, I always find these posts by Jon Rappoport on creativity, art, magic, and the alchemy of living from the imagination to speak a language I understand and experience. I saw this post earlier today as I was about to take off to San Francisco, so hadn’t the time to post it. Always grateful my faery sis knows what would resonate so I can reblog from her reminders. Some thoughts to explore from Jon – enjoy the journey they take you on.

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Another timely, insightful and creative post by Jon:

Logic, Imagination and Magic
By Jon Rappoport

Logic applies to the physical universe.

It applies to statements made about that universe. It applies to factual language.

Many wonderful things can be done with logic. Don’t leave home without it. Don’t analyze information without it.

But art and imagination are of another universe(s). They can deploy logic, but they can also invent in any direction without limit, and they can embrace contradiction. They can build worlds in which space and time and energy are quite different.

Magic is nothing more and nothing less than imagination superseding this universe. Magic occurs when imagination takes this reality for a ride.

Which brings us to what I call the Is People. The Is People are dedicated with a fervor to insisting that this Continuum and this consensus reality are inviolable, are the end-all and be-all.

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El Mundo Bueno


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This is an insightful post by my dear faery friend Laura Bruno. It reiterates my feelings that to truly understand wholeness, you must understand this is both the dark and the light and all of the in between. It’s not about ridding ourselves of things and turning a cheek, but knowing how to navigate through it all with that wisdom, grace, respect, and awe so that we become empowered, integrated, and in harmonic balance. This is touchingly expressed in the excerpt from The Velveteen Rabbit at the end of this post – one of my favorites I’ve quoted before too. <3

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In Starhawk’s novel, The Fifth Sacred Thing, two vastly different worlds vie for control. In mundane terms: a utopian, earth-loving, community-oriented, individual honoring society that values freedom and the sacred fights for survival against corporate fascism, religious, financial, and soul oppression, hypocrisy, and the Police State — a culture’s unprocessed Shadow Side made manifest.

In magical realist terms:

“Doña Elena used to say that there was the Good Reality, El Mundo Bueno, literally the Good World, and the Bad Reality, El Mundo Malo, and they were always vying with each other. In the Good Reality you have a mild headache; in the Bad Reality you have a fatal brain disease. In the Good Reality, you catch hold of the rail as your foot slips; in the Bad Reality, you miss, slide down the stairs, and break your neck.

“We walk in the Good Reality as if we…

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Medical Intuitive Observations about Fukushima Radiation


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This is an insightful post from my dear Laura Bruno sharing about the potentials for transmutation of radiation into thriving rather than struggling. Tangible action and tangible offerings are the name of the game. She and I have both been sharing about the power of creative action vs. repression of your soul longings and gifts, in countless posts. Living on the West Coast myself, I can personally attest to how this has translated for me. Read her thoughts and decide for yourself. If nothing else, you’ll find it thought-provoking and as she states at the end, at least we’ll “live in ways that invite and invoke miracles and a state of Grace.”

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This post has been rolling around in my brain for quite sometime, and I’ve now had several requests to write about it, including in the comments section of “Amazing Orgone.” The paragraphs that prompted the questions were:

“… I was inspired to check for the effects of orgone after listening to some dire reports about Fukushima’s effects on all foods grown in the Northern Hemisphere.

“I track radiation via my own internal Geiger counter, and Leuren Moret’s assessments jive with mine. She recommends using a BioMat, following a macrobiotic diet and many of the things I listed in an earlier article about radiation and diet. From a Medical Intuitive perspective, I’ve also noticed that clients and friends who embody and pass along the most positive healing energies are actually thriving on the Fukushima radiation, whereas ones who refuse to share their spiritual and creative gifts are noticeably…

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The Art of Magick – It Can Be Your Way Of Life


magickMagick is not an idea or ideal to me. Magick is a given, natural part of life available to us each to tap into. It tends to be overlooked, other words may be used to replace it, it hardly gets intentfully tapped into, many turn the other way when it happens, explain it away, or deny it altogether if it can’t be proven scientifically or otherwise by some other authority beyond your own heart authorization.

Magick is simply the miracle of life that is embodied in Nature (from which all things come and will return) and is this experiential experience of experience itself that YOU are creating to what ever degree you choose to consciously engage your innate powers to manifest.

People who live by “magick” know this to be the art of changing consciousness in alignment with true will by using natural energies available to us all. It is self-enhancement at its best, with the highest good of all built-in.

Some ask why magick vs. magic? There may be different schools of thought on this, and its history goes back farther than will be found documented, but for practical purposes the basis is a differentiation between performed techniques and parlor tricks (done by masters of illusion) for entertainment (magic) and natural techniques for harnessing energies, both internal and external, to create change within and without (magick).

By definition, magic tries to imitate magick, which is something that utilizes the subconscious to manifest changes within your consciousness.

That being said, words are words and their meanings are only such that we attach to them. So, whether you use “magic” or “magick” isn’t going to make a difference if you hold the meaning in your own heart, but some prefer it one way over the other, feeling strongly in the differences of definition above.

It’s said that Aleister Crowley (known for The Thoth Tarot) is credited with using the “k” spelling to create the difference between the two, however the word “magick” long precedes Crowley – there are older texts, before spelling was standardized, which reference “magick” in place of “magic.” And of course Ancient Shamans, Pagans, Witches, Wiccans, Wizards, Priests and Priestesses….all tapped into “magick” – the Elemental Energies that can be harnessed as part of a creative process to manifest.

It is also known by many different names including magick, prayers, miracles, life force, juju, karma, or simply energy.

For interest sake, Catherine Beyer shares:

“Aleister Crowley started using the work “magick” and gave several reasons why. The most often mentioned reason is to differentiate what he was doing with stage magic. However, such a usage is really unnecessary. Academics discuss magic in ancient cultures all the time and no one thinks they are talking about the Celts pulling rabbits out of hats.

But Crowley gave several other reasons why he used the term “magick,” and these reasons are often ignored. The central reason was that he considered magick to be anything that moves a person closer to fulfilling their ultimate destiny, which he called one’s True Will. By this definition, magick doesn’t have to be metaphysical. Any action, mundane or magical, that helps fulfill one’s True Will is magick. Casting a spell to get a boy’s attention is most certainly not magick.

Crowley didn’t choose this spelling randomly. He expanded a five letter word to a six letter word, which has numerical significance. (Hexagrams, which are six-sided shapes, are prominent in his writings as well.) “K” is the eleventh letter in the alphabet, which also had significance to Crowley.”

Needless to say, I prefer to use the word “magick” myself, but regardless of which you use, again, it is the meaning you hold about any word (or anything for that matter) that makes the difference. And for anyone who had questions about this, as I know many of you do  – some of which have already inquired – then you can understand why you see different forms of this word and how people may have particular preferences in terms of which they use.

That all being said, magick is something I believe is in our capability to create in our lives and naturally is being created because it is the basis of existence.

Each of us have experienced “magick” in one form or another…you know those times when things all just align and are effortless synchronicities that mirror your heart’s truest desires and are collective blessings simultaneously – times when you get those chills, can’t explain what just happened (nor do you feel the need to), and the experience simply feels enchanted and almost unbelievably out-of-this-world miraculous, yet so down-to-earth natural and as you always felt it “should” be.

There are way more experiences than I can begin to share in my own life since the time I set foot in this life experience, until now, that would fall into the “magick” category. And I hear countless stories from people about their “magickal” experiences. They all fuel the inspiration and belief for the rest of us to never give up hope and to consciously choose to live with more presence and empowered command of all of our senses in tune with the elements of Nature and consciousness itself.

But, for me, one “magickal” experience in particular came to mind to share that helps to truly defy all “ideas” of what IS and ISN’T possible.

It is not something I dreamed, nor imagined. And I was old enough to have discerning capabilities. Interestingly, a dear friend of mine recently had shared a dream in which she was given all of the “how’s” to explain how what I’m going to share is possible. And I remember her posting about it, saying she woke up feeling frustrated not able to actually make what was told to her IS possible, happen. I then told her, in hopes it would support her feelings and fuel the belief, “It IS possible and in fact, HAS happened to me.”

The experience took place when I was about 10 years old.

The experience was “breathing under water”.

I remember it as clearly as the day it happened. My brother and I were swimming over at our neighbor’s house where our two best girlfriends lived. We would spend hours in the pool and this one particular day was like all others, where we played many games. This game was “who could hold their breath longest” while we all were sitting in the jacuzzi. One person would stay up on the surface and watch for the winner. The other three would hold our breaths and go down under until we could hold it no longer. Pretty normal game, but this day was not “normal” – or was it?

I was down holding my breath and while I was, I remember the experience being almost like one I was observing and as if it was in a movie. I felt very relaxed and had a full breath, but was the youngest of everyone and tended to have weaker lungs when I was young, so chances were that I wouldn’t win. I don’t know what happened to make me do it, but something in me told me to start trying to breathe. It would seem like an odd thought, and yet I felt so naturally inclined to try it. Why not? I didn’t plan on doing it, nor thought it out, or was put up to it. It was just a natural inspiration that came through as an inner voice that I was inclined to curiously follow.

Seemed pretty impossible, right? But I went ahead. For some reason I knew that the way to go about it was to take very small, shallow breaths through my nose and so I did. And nothing happened. At least nothing you thought would have, like coming up to the surface choking on inhaled water. Instead, I found that nothing was coming into my nose at all, except oxygen. And my lungs kept supplied with air and I was relaxed and felt I could stay down there forever and would most definitely win.

It felt “normal” and I just remember feeling so free and expansive, while I was enjoying watching the others under the water struggle to hold on to their breath, while I was floating like a little fish.

And of course, win I did. As the others came up while I remained below. But it wasn’t long after they did, that a hand reached down and pulled me by the shoulder to yank me up. I remember being so mad that they’d interrupted this “magickal” moment that I didn’t know if I’d be able to do again, as I wasn’t sure how I did it in the first place.

I never told any of them at the time. I think I liked having my own magickal little experience to myself, with no need to try to convince anyone that it had actually happened, knowing nobody would believe me.

This became a constant in my life…defying definitions and ideas I’d been told or taught, and having unexplainable “miracles” take place – all of which continued to fuel the constant belief I would maintain throughout life – that ANYTHING is possible.

Being very empathic and impressionable, it would be a challenged journey to stand firm in that belief while processing and experiencing the things I was taught or conditioned with, but there was always an innate hope in me that was never killed and I believe is part of what got me to where I am now. Regardless of how bad anything got, or even if I got off track and doubted, I would return again, renewed with continued and stronger belief, knowing there simply was more than the limitation of that moment. And I could change that.

Life constantly was filled with “magick” because the core part of who I was, believed, despite being thrown off course. It wasn’t consistent, because of needing to relearn what was natural, but was there enough to keep reiterating to me, like my soul’s alarm clock that had been pre-set upon coming into this life, knowing just when and how I would need to receive its ring.

And over time, more and more, I learned how it was that I could consciously create that “magick” in a way where I could synergize my conscious self with the innate parts of me that were always operating, in order to harness that creative power in bigger and bigger ways.

Just like we all have the ability to do. And I do feel it starts with belief.

How do the magickal things happen? They happen because of those moments when you are fully “tapped in” and are riding a wave unbounded by any limiting thoughts, beliefs, and feelings and you merge fully with the Oneness of your Divinity in wholeness. Some people do this by conscious will, but most of the time we do it unconsciously – usually in the moments when you forget “trying” and “thinking” and start “naturally” being – just as I did down under that jacuzzi water. I was connected to that inner magickal child without boundaries, who wasn’t yet fully reshaped into something different.

The key is to learn to access this “magick” always and to tap back into that child within that is pure of heart and Source-innocent. And then, to become conscious of the processes of mastering elements and yourself, in ways that can produce consistent experiences by will.

Magick begins with believing in yourself and the possibilities of anything. It pushes you to go out of your conditioned comfort zones and to tap into the innate Universal gifts that are available by sharpening and purifying all of your senses. You are capable of creating anything and to do so intentfully.

You must be willing to step out of who you “think” you are and into who you “really” are.

With this kind of power, comes responsibility. So, if you aren’t willing to commit to responsible living, then you may not be ready to fully access these powers. Everything happens in synchronous timing, but the more you embrace your connectedness to all things, the more the hidden presence of magick will make itself clearly known in your life.

Magick can be the “norm” (and in reality IS and always WAS) but we are so used to operating outside of this innate way that the Universe/We is/are by default, that we think the less than “magickal” ways of life are what is considered natural and whatever “normal” means, while the “magick” is something supernatural and happens by chance, but hopefully with an explanation to “humanize” it. ;)

I believe in magick and I believe that anything we can imagine is possible. I choose to live as though magick is my experience of being human.

How about you?

Magick or magic, you can make it the experience of your life if you truly are ready for all that comes along with it and all you must leave behind in order to create it.

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