Accountability to Embody ~ Making Changes with Essence Integrity
I’ve learned that I simply don’t want, nor can afford, to put energy into things and experiences that no longer serve, and truly aren’t aligned with, what I’m guided to create from the essence of my natural frequency, as that not only affects my well-being, but my ability to be of greatest service for the highest good and to people who are also taking accountability in their lives.
Realizing where my time and energy would be better focused for that greater good supports embrace of Divine timing and flow of all things to take place, which creates that magickal alignment.
This also creates the basis for profound change that comes from within and stems from a more natural alignment with what is core to me, rather than a displacement of my desires to be in that alignment.
Like some of you, I have felt guided to withdraw physically from many things in order to actually be able to give more, which is through my own transmutation into who I am in essence.
This has involved, and will continue to involve, a lot of life readjustments, reorganization, review, and release, in order to focus on what is of most soul-benefit right now to be engaged with. It takes me on a journey through the shadows, as well as the light, so that I may bring a fuller depth of understanding to the choices I make and the creations that therefore will birth in greater wholeness.
One of my only outlets of connection, besides my work and personal life, is via this blog, where I share much of what feels important, inspiring, and creatively supportive to impart.
I share a lot of my personal journey whether literally or symbolically through my blog, as a means of support to others that I know go through similar experiences and might feel alone in that process, or like no one understands it.
It’s okay to change your mind, it’s okay to find new inspiration, and to admit you are feeling stifled even in the role others may respect and admire you for being in currently. This is a sign of growth and natural evolution. And as you let go of those “roles”, you are able to walk through new doorways of experience that provide the opportunities for expansive breath into new freedom that perhaps is less defined, but more expansively amorphous to what is energetically reflective of the nature of now.
I’m quite the shape-shifter that embraces change and I am willing to put that out there when it shows up, as I believe that change is the natural process of life and the one thing you can count on always being a part of it, whether you embrace it or not.
I’ve shared before that it has become increasingly important for me to shift gears and to let go of a lot of things that feel complete at this time in many areas of my life. This, in order to embody more of my essence and consciously create a new paradigm of experience I am called to, knowing that as I do so that it is the most responsible, accountable, and service related thing I can do by extension of BEING this.
This reflects in the expression of my creative life force/work I am called to do and also the life choices I make. So you HAVE seen, and WILL continue to see a lot of shifts in these regards from me.
For me, my original soul missions have and are coming to closure, which leaves me with expansive choices to make from a different essence place of myself. That is both exciting and can also invite much unknown that calls for greater courage, deeper trust, and full-on heart immersion, since this opens a wider realm of possibilities where things are revealed only moment to moment, as well as shift moment to moment.
That wasn’t quite the game before, as I did have foresight and an understanding of what I had set out to do. Now, I am really creating anew and in a state of reclaiming sovereign free will on a whole other level.
Much of what has been evolving for some of us in integration lives, is closure to a lot of what we originally set forth to accomplish, if in fact we’ve been doing the work. This has been happening increasingly since the last couple of years. And yet, in many ways, the realization of that hasn’t caught up for some, and in other ways some are caught in a perpetual, one-directional spiral, not realizing they have the ability to create a new spiral expanding out in many other directions.
And still yet for some, perhaps there is a place of comfort you’ve “arrived” at and are ceasing to stretch yourself into another level of evolution that has been nudging you.
Of course it’s well deserved to take a rest and break after much work I know many have been doing. But complacency and that sense of “arrival” you may have been pursuing, can be a hindrance not only to your own growth potentials, but to the collective at large.
Personally, I don’t feel okay with being complacent and just because I get to a place where I become really good at something I’ve been doing for a while and what people come to expect or connect me with, I know it is not for me to stay there, and to continue to step into another level to deepen and expand my experience, as well as to be of greatest service to others through that process and embodiment.
That may not be the case for everyone, but for me, this involves recognizing the time for allowing others to take over in some ways, and assisting them in that process to do so, and to move into another role of bridging things from the radiance of my “beingness”, which I nurture by supporting what is true to it.
Things are ready, and will become ready, BECAUSE of your willingness to release into more of who you are and into what seem like new realms, but truly are the most natural, core expressions of you.
In this way of opening to more possibilities and limitless expansion, you create doorways for others to access the same.
And this involves changing the inner landscape so that it is aligned with all that you hold dear, rather than focusing on the outer ideals you are trying to live up to, convince yourself you are reflecting, or feel compelled to project change ON to.
The inward journey of embodying who you really are in this moment, and bringing that forth, rather than trying to emulate what you feel you “need” to, or “should”, be doing – trying to come up with an idea that you try to fit yourself into – can be exasperating, draining, disappointing, and in the end will not produce the results you desire because they aren’t consistent with who you really are. This will be felt by others, whether consciously or subconsciously, and will also draw to you the energy that reflects this inner inconsistency.
It will also defeat your efforts to create change around you, as if you are not truly embodying that which you desire to see changed in others, you have already set yourself up for disappointment.
I believe that one of the greatest fears is to admit that we may not be who we really think we are. The same fear that others are demonstrating in not wanting to change in the ways you desire, is the fear within self that isn’t able to reconcile a similar inner discrepancy.
I think that what would be valuable to the process is a willingness to be honest with ourselves, to be open to honest feedback from others and their reflections of our inconsistency, and to be mindful of the type of energy we are putting out there.
I think a willingness to accept when it’s time to move into a new level of you is key and this can reflect in many ways, adding on dimensions and layers to what you currently do, or completely shifting into new aspects of yourself most currently reflective. I feel that the willingness to let go of control in any one area that we’ve attained or become good in, recognizing timing and how others are now capable and ready to step into those realms can be very beneficial. This will assist in living from true abundance and connection to your collective family, whom will be grateful for your honoring of their ability to step into their new roles you may be leaving.
I know there are times you may feel the need to be all things and master it all now, and yet we each have different and constantly evolving roles that are there to be honored throughout the course of our journeys, as well as carried out by others when we have a greater personal calling and better use of our gifts elsewhere. I’ve also seen the scarcity and ego mentality of people claiming certain attainments, that are unwilling to support others into their fullness or to help them to take over some of the positions they hold or may have held, as there is an attachment and fear not just of wanting to hold on to that status, but of fear to move into a new role where at first it will again be new in feeling and like starting from the bottom. This can all end up revealing a potential, false abundance mentality that has not yet truly been embodied.
Yet, if truth be known, in actuality the new role you release yourself into will be the most natural and most expansive you’ve experienced so far, if you can get past that old fear pattern that yes, is still hanging on, regardless of the conscious claims you make.
Because, let’s face it…it’s scary to move beyond something you know really well, right? But a little healthy fear is the catalyst for great change. It’s not the enemy…it’s indication of your desire for the new (or rather, indication of the more “you”), nudging you to get all your parts in alignment for the inevitable.
And imagine now, if you will, the people who are on their beginning phases of their more conscious journey, or in their own transitional phase into the next change, then.
Remember how it may have felt to you before you got to where you are now feeling very comfortable, and remember how you feel now if you in fact are being nudged out of your comfort zone to yet ANOTHER new leg of your evolutionary journey? When you remember this feeling, maybe you can then share a bit more compassion and let up on your desires to exert effort outside of yourself so that you’ll have more energy to put toward your own changes, which will reflect so beautifully for the people who will benefit from your desires and efforts embodied, rather than projected.
As one door closes, another opens…and the doors you close, are the opening doors for others, and vice versa. We are always in a connective process that triggers a collective domino effect. So when we make courageous choices to change, others are simultaneously ready and able to do the same.
Life is always an experience of wholeness….we are both leading and following, teachers and students, changing and awaiting change, fearing and desiring change…. at the same time. If you can stand in the place of acknowledgment, and detachment from identifying solely with any of these, then you can just be with the process naturally.
We each affect change and provide a catalyst for each other, but it stems from what is taking place within and then embodied, inside out. We are all on different journeys and different places along those journeys. Increasingly it is becoming important to act responsibly, consciously (awareness is power), and to be accountable for what you embody, as well as seek from within.
Make the changes that are true to you and not some idealized version of you, or as an act of defiance, or guilt. And if you don’t yet know what that is, then make a commitment to start listening more so you can hear the subtle voice of your truth amidst all the “noise”, which can be both obvious and not obvious.
“For those of you who have exited your cocoon, your new mantra is, “Change is not Fearful.” You have perhaps focused on either emotional or physical issues and now you are likely moving into the opposite to learn that change is not fearful – just a ‘new normal’. There will be a time when change will be perceived as joyful. But for now, you’re learning it just is.”…..
“Some of you wish to stop a bit and learn how to love yourself. That is fine and good. Love is key to new earth. But part of that self-love is accepting your shifts and those of others without many, if any, visible changes.
Perhaps you expect those of the light to have some sort of halo about them so that you can tag them as important to your transition. In searching for that halo, you have listened to that channel, meditated with that teacher and drifted from thought to thought – hoping this or that person is the one who would anoint you as of the light. Just as your parents once told you that you reached certain stages in your life by allowing you more freedoms and responsibility.
You look for parents or community members to tell you that you are growing, shifting, changing. When in truth, they know as little as you do about this shift. There is no guru or parent to give you the parameters of the new you – there is only you.”
Posted on October 23, 2014, in Uncategorized and tagged accountability, authenticity, change, essence, fear, freedom, human evolution, magick, reality creation, responsibility. Bookmark the permalink. 3 Comments.