In Loss There is Gain – Finding My Way After Losing My Twin Soul
Yesterday, at lunch with two of my dear friends, this story of both my greatest pain and expansive evolution came up. It’s been lingering with me through this morning and after hearing from a couple of other friends about transitions, pain, and grief, along with knowing it’s been an extremely potent time for major life shifting experiences where loss is being felt while the new emerges, I felt called to repost my personal story of the greatest pain in my life, the struggle with guilt I went through, and the experience that lives within me that creates a depth to my heart I wouldn’t change. This depth both envelopes the light and the dark…the alchemy of consciousness and life.
When I wrote this piece, it was 4 years after her passing, but it is now just over 7 years. Time moves swiftly and yet is non-existent, as I see and feel her as if it was yesterday.
Today is a deeply sacred day to me, as it marks 4 years of my beloved Nestor being freed back to her cosmic expansiveness, as she transitioned out of the physical. I felt called to share my story of her passing, as it holds a lot of healing for me and perhaps may have something in it for someone else out there who has experienced traumatic feelings of loss, confusion, and depression. Some of my story may be a bit out there, but I will share nonetheless, as it is the truth of my heart.
Recently a friend had experienced a similar loss and in my sharing this story to help find meaning in their experience, I felt I was also being nudged to share it in a bigger way for others, as well as for Nestor and I. Interestingly, I was not conscious at the time of this taking…
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