Climbing, Challenging, Centering & Soaring ~ Making Peace With Fear at Angels Landing, Zion


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Saturday was our last day in Zion National Park and we decided to end our time there with a bang by taking on Angels Landing.

This is one of the most famous and thrilling hikes not just in Zion, but in the national park system.

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It is a stunning 5.4 mile roundtrip trail with views from the top of the Virgin River and Zion Canyon below. Doesn’t sound like much, but it rises 1500 feet steeply and quite rapidly in the 2.7 miles, which for some can be quite strenuous in and of itself.

Then the last half mile is the truly gut-wrenching part, which is not for the faint of heart.

20160326_15062920160326_150756Six people have died on the trail since 2004, which indicates the need for confidence and presence.20160326_151821

Many will just stop at the top, where you can still enjoy wonderful views, without trekking the half mile of more challenging trail that has anchored support chains to assist you up and around the fin where you have 1000 plus foot drops on both sides of you.20160326_15251720160326_152919

In most of the literature they say the round trip hike takes 4 – 5 hours. That day I heard some people say it took them 5 1/2 hours.20160326_15542820160326_155222

Somehow we managed to do it in 3 hours, which included waiting at the congested areas along the scary parts, since only one person in a line at a time can pass safely.20160326_155319

To give you an idea on timing for this if you decide to do take it on as well at some point, we hiked up the switchbacks in 45 minutes to the top before the last half mile of craziness. And we hiked back down in 45 minutes after we finished the chained area.20160326_15160120160326_155814

So it took an hour and a half to do the normal trekking and an hour and a half to do the last half mile roundtrip, carefully and even with the waiting time.20160326_155932

But it was so worth it in so many ways for me, helping me to embrace my inner Capricorn.20160326_160632

I have Capricorn Rising and a Capricorn North Node, the latter indicating this is what I’m working into empowering and grounding for the next part of my life.20160326_160700

And that is just the energy I called upon in order to accomplish this hike, as normally it would be terribly fearful, perhaps to the point of paralyzed fear at times, and maybe not something I’d have wanted to even try.

20160326_161154But I have been working diligently on integrating this energy, processing and facing my fears in the way I know how to work with them, and ready to step into the next phase of my life.

The interesting thing is that my fear isn’t consistent. I have no fear of paragliding, sky diving, or flying…I go on big roller coasters and all. I love high altitudes and my desire is to live in high altitude and alpine areas.

20160326_154602However, when it comes to standing at the edge of a cliff or climbing something steep with drop offs, it’s a whole other thing.

I feel it boils down to self trust and feeling grounded and fully Earthbound. I’m very comfortable with flying and lightness…so for me, it has been a process to come fully into my body and ground and integrate the physical and spiritual. Something that is really balancing out more and more now for me and especially with all of the Nature time we’ve been spending and integrating the energies.

20160326_162608And being with the animals and deepening into the Earth experience on this adventure of ours is supporting all of that quickly.

So synchronously, every single day of the three days we were in Zion, we saw the Bighorn Sheep twice a day, which is incredible. They embody the energy of that steadfast goat/Capricorn that I have within me to embrace.

Interestingly also, at the ancient ruins in Page Springs where we stayed outside of Sedona, I had received a vision of a white Mountain Goat alongside an ancient Indian – the Rocky Mountain Goat of the alpines that is a sure-footed climber on cliffs and ice.

So I know the spirit of the goat has been with me, especially with all of the hiking and climbing we have been doing, but also because it symbolizes the energy of my new path in life.

20160326_161249_resizedAnd so, when Dave told me about this hike (he did it 26 years ago with his dad) and how challenging it was, I knew I should prepare myself.20160326_161302_resized

Oddly, this day I had felt called to braid my hair, which made me feel like a Native Indian – we kept calling me Pocahontas and Sacagawea – and also seemed to connect me with my ancient roots for integrating further Earth connection to keep me grounded and call up my strengths.

I was determined to face it and so I did a lot of Reiki energy work, not only protecting myself, but strengthening myself and with intent to embody the sure-footedness of the Mountain Goat. I called upon the white Rocky Mountain Goat and the Bighorn Sheep to be with me and then worked with the fear as I have done with the skiing and the mountain biking.

I not only steadily and consistently went up the switchbacks without need to stop for a break (which has become normal now for me), but when we reached the top where the people not continuing further on to the chained steep last half mile, I was given a choice.

When we saw the amount of people trying to make their way to the top and asked how long it took some coming down, we were contemplating if it was worth going up.

Maybe since Dave already did it, he said to me that we could just as well hike the other side and see nice views without wading through that last part, or we could just do it.

He left it up to me.

That was perfect, as I got to make the empowering choice. And I said, “Let’s do it. I didn’t come up all this way and prepare myself for nothing.”

So we did.

And along the way there were a few people that did become paralyzed with fear and couldn’t move, and needed supportive help back down even from only having gone a tiny way.

I understood their fear and felt the best thing I could do for the collective pool of energy would be to work through the energy myself in order to help shift things.

And so I stayed completely focused, present, and in the moment. Once again, blocking out everything except what was only right in front of me, taking one step at a time. I didn’t focus on the drops to both of my sides, didn’t let anything around me into my experience.

But I also allowed myself to enjoy and praise myself for each part.

I didn’t try to rush. I didn’t have to stop. I kept steady, focused, centered, consistent, and present. Every step counting. Calculating the rocks in front of me and the best way my feet would securely support myself.

And yes, when there were chains, I indeed held on. But the chains were also needed to climb up and pull with your arm strength, as you pushed off with your legs. Full body workout indeed.

I really enjoyed that and got into the climbing, which took me out of thinking about the edge of the cliff I was hanging off of, or what was below.

The other thing I really appreciated was the fact that there were many others around – which also was interesting to us that so many did brave this area.

Many I’m sure had no issue with it at all. Others were likely similar to me.

There weren’t any children, as that isn’t recommended and they really can’t do it. There were mostly a younger and mid-aged group of people.

And what I loved was humanity again shining through, as everyone was working together like a team.

There wasn’t anyone to stop those coming down and up from pushing their way through.

There wasn’t anyone to coordinate anything.

And yet everyone worked together seamlessly waiting, helping, supporting, one another.20160326_160232

A helping hand was always outstretched to help everyone, especially in areas where you had to go around people waiting up against the stones and you were cradling the edge of the cliff to get around. There were also helping hands up and down if needed and just extended even if you didn’t. People would said you can hold on or grab on to me….no one knowing each other or afraid to be close.

So much camaraderie…so much care for one another.

That was really a gift to experience, besides the personal triumphs I was experiencing.

I won’t say I wasn’t scared, as I was, but I felt confident in my ability to do it and that I knew my process.

And I did do it. And was quite proud of myself.

Even Dave said he had fears at times with the shear drop offs and seeing people so close to at any moment falling off with one wrong move, or that others could fall off due to someone’s wrong move.

He said he remembered it being challenging, but not quite like this.

Yet, he had less fears than I to work through, so he took tons of photos of me, while I was too focused to take photos until we were at the top and once we were heading down.

I’m grateful he did, as I’ll always have these to show myself of what I’ve accomplished.

To some it may be nothing, as we all have different fears, but to me it was huge and I am very proud of myself for working through and overcoming it.

I did become that Mountain Goat and embraced my inner Capricorn a big step more on that day.

20160326_154646And when we reached the top to take in the view, it was as if the Angels were shining down upon us, as this amazing rainbow light was all around us when I shot this photo from our place of accomplishment – where we were soaring in our integrated embodiment of human and spirit merged and in synergy.20160326_153812_resized

The photos Dave took don’t really even show how steep the edges are and how challenging parts of this really are, but they give you an idea.

I do remember on our way up that this tiny butterflies were flying around us. Ones like I’ve never seen before. They had three white wings and one yellow wing. Incredible! All of them were like this. And even a Swallowtail once made an appearance before we headed off on the last challenging half mile.

I definitely felt the support and know that we were being watched over and supported.

20160326_153636_resizedThe views were stunning at top and all along the trail, including down below at the Virgin River.20160326_164515_resized20160326_170022_resized20160326_170541_resized20160326_170550_resized20160326_170657_resized20160326_170815_resized

I was feeling quite refreshed and renewed as we returned to our car…this is me beaming.20160326_175432

And on our way out of the park another gift.

We had seen many Bighorn Sheep, as mentioned, twice a day.

20160326_110247 We’d seen some that morning on the way in, but I said as my intention out loud to Dave that I wanted to see them up close right by us on the road.

And so it was that that is what took place.

20160326_182752_resized20160326_182836_resized20160326_182834_resized20160326_182839_resizedThe Bighorn Sheep were right at the edge of the road coming down off the rocks right when we were coming through. So we stopped the car and took it all in. Some of them crossing in front and behind us and then we got out and some right next to us on the other side of the road.20160326_182805_resized20160326_18283320160326_182744_resized

It felt like they were celebrating with me and I felt like one of them.20160326_182748_resized

About Tania Marie's Blog

Tania Marie is an international Reiki Master Teacher, Intuitive Energy Guide, Sound Channeler, Visionary Artist, and Author. With over 25 years’ experience in healing arts and metaphysical studies, Tania inspires people globally to embody their essence, access creative empowerment, expand into more conscious awareness, and to harness their magick and imagination to create alchemy for living in harmony.

Posted on March 28, 2016, in Uncategorized and tagged , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 11 Comments.

  1. Wow, what an incredible experience. I have to admit I got a little emotional reading it. The pictures are truly incredible. Thank you for sharing.

  2. Wow, wow and OMG wow!!! What a journey! Incredible! Beautiful vistas, and such courage! Love the Bighorn sheep and especially the baby! Thanks for sharing this amazing experience. I love how everybody helped each other out, and were very careful not to put anyone else in danger! ❤
    And the yellow and while butterflies. Cool!
    Take good care,
    Mary

    • yeah tell me about it! crazy wow! LOL! even dave said later that he thought at any moment i might have a paralyzed fear like some of the other people and not be able to go on when he realized how challenging it was (not recollecting) 🙂 yes! the baby is my fav…i just adore that image! you’re so welcome. thank you for coming along with me ❤

  3. Gorgeous scenery, and LOL, just showed my mom this post and she says we look like twins, too! So it’s official that both our moms think we are sisters. Faery twin, Cappy Powers Activate! Love the braids … loved the hike … love you. xoxo

  4. What an adventure! I have my North Node in Cap also. 🙂

  5. wow – you are much beautiful than the nature and the mountains:)

  6. Reblogged this on Tania Marie's Blog and commented:

    This post popped up from a year ago, today. Wow! It both seems so much longer ago, and also like yesterday. Amazing how much has shifted since then and what a huge transformation this was for me. I’ll be ever grateful for the Magick Bus journey, as it truly was a game-changer, lifeline, and highlight of my life. We’ve been talking about future journeys to come, but for right now, really grateful for, and embracing, all the gifts of embodiment received. So proud of myself for having done this. And because I know so many share this fear, but also have fears in their life they would like to integrate a healthier relationship to, I thought a repost might be supportive and inspiring. I know I’m inspired by myself right now, as I wouldn’t have thought I could do this and now I’m looking at my life and pretty amazed at what I’m taking on in other ways too since this experience and the huge life changes made.

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