Monthly Archives: July 2017

Tree Love & the Journey


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I thought I’d post this as a short blog after having posted it on social media because it’s special to our hearts. The photo you see here is one that our friend, Seba Johnson (history making Olympian as the first African American woman to ski in the Olympics and youngest alpine ski racer at age 14, vegan since birth, actor, speaker, and simply loving soul), captured a couple of days ago on one of the hikes we’ve shared with her since meeting and spending time with her while she’s here in her childhood home of Lake Tahoe working on her memoirs.

This is a very meaningful tree to us. During the winter Dave and I would snow shoe here and this little tree, now about 3-4 feet taller, used to get plummeted by snow and the wind from the slope it lives on at the bottom, completely bending it over to the ground with the weight.

We would free him and dig him out every time we’d pass after a snow storm, so that he had a chance and wasn’t permanently bent. We’d do it to other trees too, but this one in particular would get hit the hardest and became connected to us.

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Seba (pictured above with me on our 7.4 mile, 1200 feet climb Tahoe Rim Trail hike) thought it would be a cool idea to take photos of us with him over time to see his progress. As you can see he’s pretty straight even though at a slight angle, but doing well! During winter this was not the case and we wondered how he’d fare, as he was completely bowing to the ground.

Other large trees above him haven’t been so lucky and really are curved, twisted, warped, and likely will fall at some point. This little one was born in a challenging spot, but it is just those challenges that make you stronger and provide even more to share with others.

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Life is definitely an adventure and often times a challenging journey.

Every little thing we do, DOES make a difference, even if you can’t see it right now or are provided immediate feedback and affirmation of it. You simply need to follow your heart, regardless of any reward, knowing it’s just about being in your highest essence in each moment and being in that unconditional universal love as much as possible.

We’re grateful for the time we’ve spent with Seba, her sweet dog companions Braddock and Langston, and being able to share some special places to our hearts with her, and so many synchronicities we share including living in the same place she used to (her condo is just below ours) where she spent her childhood and ski training days.

As an animal activist and vegan all of her life, enjoying the magickal and synchronous signs, honoring of Nature and Earth, our being just 2 and a half months apart in age, all adoring Lake Tahoe as our home and special portal space (she plans to live here again too), and both currently writing books, we had a lot of beautiful connections that will be lovely to keep touching in on, which now will include the growth and life of our special tree that will mirror the life shifts we all go through.

He already mirrors the challenges we’ve each been faced with and now will reflect what we embrace, nurture, and embody to bring forth for the rest of our lives.

We’re grateful for the time we’ve been able to share with our new friend Seba and for the journey that continues to provide rich experiences and beautiful surprises around each corner.

I look forward to seeing how our journeys evolve from here, and how our beloved tree will experience his own growth and evolution. We’ll be sure to nurture him, as long as we are here and as much as he nurtures us and all of life that depends on him and Nature.

(Photos courtesy of Seba Johnson)

Sky Spirit Shaman: Magick Crystal Wand ~ Talking Stick ~ Cosmic & Earth Facilitator


At 19 1/2 inches this latest channeled creation is my largest yet and holds the energy of a potent multi-dimensional and faceted Magick Crystal Wand, Talking Stick, and Cosmic/Earth Facilitator. I was very excited when I received this commission, as not only was it for a sweet friend and someone I had gone through my Reiki training together with who lives near by, but I knew was going to be right up my alley in terms of energy I was going to really enjoy immersing in. I’m so excited and pleased at what resulted from quite a creation process that was very involved, challenging, timely, and rich.

And as always, I love the timing on things, as even though I started several together all at once, this time, feeling to take them through part of the initiation together, 98% of this one was completed on the Full Moon in Capricorn, which just final touches I was able to put to closure Monday.

I won’t be sharing all of the new Magick Crystal Wand creations I’ll be making, but this was one I really felt called to, as I sense it will have collective reach energetically, not to mention IS actually going to be used for community gatherings, sacred ceremonies, shamanic facilitations, and more for the collective work its guardian and all whom she works and co-creates with will be doing. They work a lot with the Ancestors of the Land, North American Tribes, and Ancient Ones – Incas, Mayan, Aztec, Lemuria, and beyond.

And this amazing being will help them to travel those energies, channel and access them, as well as carries the essence of the elements and bridges Earth and Cosmos – a bridge worker indeed!

I feel so honored, humbled, and grateful to be asked to create this for them.

I do hope they will love it, as much as I do.

I’m not going to go into extravagant detail on it, but will just briefly touch on the crystals, feathers, and elements included, to provide a glimpse into the energy encapsulated. However, the intentions described above as to the energies this soul and her group of healers work with, provides the insight into the other energies not mentioned, which are all embodied in it as well.

Before handing it off tomorrow – in person – I will be infusing extra Reiki, Cosmic intentions, and sound into its frequency.

I love the wood, which is such a beautiful coloring with natural etchings in it, reminding me of Earth’s natural hieroglyphics. I wrapped the handle with rich brown, vegan leather that is wrapped with Robin’s Egg Blue satin cording to match the streams of cording the feathers hang from and the four turquoise stones near the top. I did the entire piece wrapped in gold wire, all wrapped in an ethereal webbing like that of a Cosmic Web, with several spirals down the shaft center – one of which (the largest) spirals out from one of the Ice Quartz Crystals with rainbows inside, drawing the energy out and in like a vortex and portal…perhaps even a wormhole into the beyond.

And like with all of these, I create them in a very raw way with each weaving being intentional, but not meant to be perfected. It is my intention to have these stay in a natural beauty essence, as if fashioned by the Forest Faeries themselves.

Here is a breakdown of elements included below.

Six Feathers/Avian Energy/Sacred Omens, Messengers & Sentinels:

Goose Feather – The Goose and its feathers embody loyalty, forging ahead with bravery and confidence, teamwork and comradery, protection, clear communication, determination, dedication, fellowship, fidelity, fertility, the balance of knowing when to lead or follow, compassionate keepers of the community and embody the sacred circle and sanctity of the cycles of life, astute navigation, discernment of life path and choices, teamwork, protection, and committed responsibility. Geese never leave one of their own behind for any reason. They will stay with the sick and injured until they are either well again, or to support them as they transition.

Seagull Feather – These feathers bring the winds of new heart freedom, personal authentic power, creative self expression, and joyous new perspective to breathe in, ride, and navigate these constantly fluctuating energy streams with perseverance and vision to more clearly see the opportunity and purpose within everything.

Pigeon Feather – Pigeon and Dove both carry the same symbolism of peace and love, but also carry clear vision and dream messages that provide glimpses into things coming and confirm you are “on path”, divinity at work, blessings coming, opening mind and heart, healing, gentle self-nurturing, surrender and release, embrace the integrity of your natural self and purity of your creative spirit to nurture imagination and follow your own true path, as you cultivate hope for the new. The “between times,” but also heralds how the physical and spiritual are more rapidly merging with the thinning of veils that arrive with your willingness to see more clearly.

Juvenile Hawk Feather –  Awareness, perspective, perseverance, endurance, sharp insight, truth, visionary power, guardianship, strength, initiative, decisiveness, creativity, messenger (often of change), caution, maneuvering, leadership. Hawk’s meaning teaches us to be observant and to pay attention to what we may overlook. This could mean a talent we don’t use, a blessing for which we haven’t expressed gratitude, or a message from the universe.  The hawk has keen eyesight, it is about opening our eyes and seeing that which is there to guide us. Hawk awakens vision and inspires us to a creative life purpose.

Pheasant Feather – Using your gifts to manifest what you intend/desire, passion, creativity, balance, protection, being genuine, wise discernment/judgment, sexuality, staying true to yourself, not fearing our creative/individual self-expression, confidence, not being afraid to shine, tapping into your deepest passions for productivity, prosperity, and abundance, fully enjoying new experiences and knowing your worth to receive them.

Steller’s Jay Feather – Blue Jay brings the energies of clarity (in this case double clarity/vision to express purity and truth of heart and soul with great clarity of thought in bringing these through to share), communication, presence, wise and balanced use of personal power, resourceful adaptability for ease, creative self-expression and assertion, sound and song, authenticity, and bringing higher thoughts into action.  Their crest that reaches into the heavens, directly links both Earth and Universal/Cosmic energies, bridging them for integration and active expression of divinity brought into embodiment.

Crystals:

Six-Sided/Hexagonal Quartz Tower with a Window at top and Amethyst growth at back of its base – Towers are protective, strengthening, help direct energy, symbolize the journey of the spirit from the Earth to Etheric fields, support one’s highest aspirations and potentials, provide courage to new, open to greater perspectives, supports inner work, introspection, creative vision, are instruments of Divine Timing marking sacred space and time. Window Crystals have a diamond shaped face at the corner where two parallel faces meet – like a window into your soul to see yourself clearly, deeply, intuitively, and bypass false ego to see the truth and draw forth things you hide from yourself so you can make necessary changes. Help you face things head on. Very personal and introspective crystals that if they come to you are intended to help YOU specifically. Hexagons bring the energy of truth, union, lovers, harmony, balance, equality, integration, communication, home sanctuary. Quartz of course is a master healer and with the Amethyst growth inclusion, that adds the properties below.

Four Ice Quartz surrounding top – Also known as Nirvana Quartz, Lemurian Scalar Quartz, Himalayan Ice Quartz, as well as Growth Interference Quartz (because they do not grow in a normal way). This is a high-vibrational Quartz crystal from the Himalayas that help move you to enlightenment and make contact with Spirit. They support spiritual awakening, work well with the higher chakras (third eye, crown, soul star chakras, as well as heart and thymus and at the lower chakras if you choose to use them there), help make a strong connection with the loving energy of the heart, excellent for meditation to create a deeper spiritual connection and move you forward in a more profound way, supports gaining awareness of your spiritual destiny, confirms and helps you trust your soul self, determine between reality and imagination, and support you to discover your future potential and reason for your existence on Earth at this time.

Four Amethyst below that – Increases nobility, spiritual awareness, opens crown, psychic abilities, inner peace and healing, calmness, healing of body, mind and soul, positive transformation, protection, meditation, balance, relieve stress, communication, opens intuition, supports sobriety, helps with disorders, enhances memory, focus, and motivation.

Four Golden Ray Selenite Blossom Petals below that – Golden (Ray) Selenite are powerful, beautiful, and high vibrational Crystals that have come to light calling in the highest frequency of white light and the Golden Ray of Buddha, some say, storing Ancient Priestess teachings and can be used for a variety of metaphysical purposes – making them excellent for any healing environment. It connects to the Solar Plexus, Third Eye, Heart, and Crown Chakras, helping to integrate, open, and activate them. This supports us in creatively manifesting what is from our heart, directing our will in a loving, joyful manner. We are then able to create our reality based on intention, trust, and joyful wisdom. It helps you to become attuned to, and harmonized with, your soul purpose for this lifetime. Focuses are on joy, manifestation, and creation/creative energies and are really good for digestive issues and addictions, as the dis-ease of one’s will.

Four Turquoise at front – Purification, serenity, protection, wisdom, balance, strength, friendship, love, positive thinking, sensitivity, creative self-expression, balances and aligns chakras, calming, healing, communication.

One larger Ice Quartz with lovely Rainbows under the Turquoise – same as above with added rainbow energy

A Channeler Transmitter Quartz, or Dow or Trans-Channeler Quartz below that. You can read more about that here: Dow or Trans-Channeler Crystal. Divine balance and connection with Universal Truth being its essence. It has tiny rainbows.

Raw Polished Emerald Stone at center – Unconditional Love, unity, joy, balance, integration, heart chakra, success, abundance, cleansing, intuition, clairvoyance, faith, serenity, intelligence, clear vision, truth, memory, communication, physical and emotional healing, mental strength, deep inner knowing, Earth and Nature connection, protection

I hope you enjoy the images of this power piece.

Rabbit Communication ~ Understanding Rabbit Body Language


This is a great article on better understanding your rabbit’s behavior. It doesn’t cover every single possibility, as rabbits, just like many souls, are complex – some more than others. So intuition, presence, patience, and experience will be the guiding forces in working to communicate with them. I am currently working with many of these rabbit body languages discussed in the article with Astrid, as I help her to feel safe, trust, and work through her past. 

If you have a rabbit, are dealing with challenging rabbit behaviors (please don’t dump your bunny simply because you haven’t taken time to understand and help them – you chose the responsibility so take it – there’s reason for these connections that can enrich your life journey), are thinking about bringing a rabbit into your home as a companion, or simply want to learn more about rabbit behaviors and body language, I hope you’ll find this article below to be enlightening and supportive:

The Language of Lagomorphs

And if you follow along already on my blog, you’ve likely learned a lot from the shares of my experiences with my rabbit companions. I will continue to share the journey I have with Astrid, too, and provide any insights I can add as well.

 

Capricorn Full Moon Insights


This Full Moon has a special place in my heart because of its being in Capricorn…an energy I’ve been working on diligently since my North Node, Ascendant and Mars are all in Capricorn. For me it speaks to the life shifts I’m integrating, but it also speaks to a collective energy needed, especially with healers, empaths, “light workers” (as people call them), creatives…or anyone who has lived in martyr or victim roles most of their life. This Full Moon in Capricorn speaks to fortifying those personal boundaries and creating healthier relationships with others in all ways, including the relationship you have with yourself, the past, and the ancestral lines you carry within your DNA.

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I’m reminded of Astrid with this Full Moon and how she, too, is mirroring this shift like mom and the collective, into deepening of her true power, as she heals from the past, understands the triggers that bring her to defense, and roots more in the trust of self and the love she consistently now has to support her into her empowered wholeness, so she can blossom like crazy.

This is a time for keeping ultra present and aware of rising and displaced and exaggerated emotions, anger, jealousy, fear….if you’re feeling triggered look within yourself as to what that’s really about and what you’re really upset with. It’s very easy to point fingers and lay blame on others and it’s very easy to self-sabotage so that we can avoid the things that would be most supportive for our journey, but scary to entertain.

Reactions are not only likely unconscious fears acting out, but also aren’t based on the reality being put forth even by the other person triggering you because they have their own stories that shape the way they are acting as well.

This again is shadow work…something everyone likes to talk about, but very few truly understand and are actually working with.

If something has been hidden in your life by yourself or others, the Full Moon can help shed truth on the matter, but be willing to embrace that revealing when it shows up, otherwise greater lashing out and reactions will only continue to mask what’s really at the core of things.

Take steps back, spend more quiet time, or time in nature to root and ground yourself more, recharge with the plants and trees, and remove yourself if necessary from harmful or potentially harmful situations until you have a better grip on things and your defensive emotions.

You can either give away your power or be empowered. It’s up to you.

The old is continuing to crumble and Capricorn assists you in taking greater responsibility in your life, rather than displacing that and continuing with old patterns that are no longer sustainable for ultimate, collective well being.

Capricorn also represents structure and so we’ll be asked to rework and rebuild new structures that are strong, yet flexible, and do not carry the load of the past with it.

So yes, transformational shifts on large scales are happening, which includes literal and symbolic deaths of everything we’ve ever known in order to be more authentic and in alignment with current frequencies.

I recently just finished a big 2 week fast and cleanse that was literally like shedding layers of snake skin in not only losing all the old in weight, but also reinvigorating my cells on a molecular level so that they had time to detox and dispel, rest, and then rebuild.

This is what we are going to see more of and what this Full Moon is illuminating a need within us to do whether we like it or not.

You must tear down the old foundations in order to truly build a fortified new.

Power is increasingly being something to exercise with utmost consciousness and to balance in ways that both leave us empowered, but also empower others rather than power over others or have us acting out of inauthentic power.

Goats are amazingly agile, versatile, curious, and inventive, have incredible balance, are committed to the journey, are patient and persevering, don’t let any obstacle stand in their way of continuing toward their goals, keep climbing and reaching for new heights no matter what (even if its outside their comfort zone), know how to nurture and feed the soul, are intuitively guided, and exercise wise use of trust and responsible independence.

Let us learn by Goat’s example and ride this transformative energy with greater awareness.

 

Astrid Update, Special Needs & Rabbit Care


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At just over two weeks, Astrid continues to adjust and settle in to her new home here with us. The journey continues to be one of patience, tuning in, and gauging where she’s at and what she’s ready for. As mentioned, although she is not physically challenged like Cosmo was, she is still quite challenged with special needs that call for an internal massaging of her emotions, conditioned behaviors, and adopted patterns that have been cultivated by her past. It is a tough journey, as any time I see things pop up I can feel where it is coming from, which is saddening, and the only way through it is to love her even more, not take it personally, and help to re-establish new patterns that support her into her more natural essence behind all of this.

Time, heart, and intuitive investment is necessary to help her through it all. And it may take months, a year….I don’t know. It could also happen more quickly, but I have no expectations or goals to meet, other than to do my best. I remember that it took 6 months to bond Joy and Cosmo, but it DID happen. And a daily investment of love, nurturing, and physical devotion also helped Cosmo to get stronger as well.

At the same time, Astrid is naturally an extremely sensitive empath, as well as highly attuned to energy and the frequencies she picks up all around her, seen and unseen.

Last night I watched these two moths resting on the outside of the window right above her sanctuary area of our bedroom. She was sitting under the window and facing toward me, however it was incredible to see how she could pick up the vibrations of their wings through the thick glass and outside in the dark – it was dimly lit inside the house too. One moth started to slowly move from one spot to another on the window, gently fluttering its wings and I watched, as one of Astrid’s ears slowly started following the flow of its flight pattern by moving in the same direction as the moth.

Vibrational resonance is her gift, but can also be her challenge, as she will mirror and take on whatever is around her.

That said, she also is blessed with an incredible strength and power that has seen her through it all and helped her to endure the pains and traumas, as well as supported her to thrive, and ultimately, to manifest a way out of what could have been her end many times.

I took Astrid in for her first wellness appointment on Monday to establish getting a handle on her physical health, since there are many unseens with rabbits.

It’s important to keep on top of your animal companion’s health, especially where rabbits are concerned because many things go unnoticed with them and if caught early can help avoid major challenges later. It’s also key to be very present and aware with them, noticing any little shifts in behavior, eating, and eliminating. Often times challenges are due to teeth issues so make sure to get them checked regularly.

But in general, check in and learn to understand and communicate with your sweet ones, as you will learn so much and create a stronger bond for overall well being and spiritual evolution and connection. They have so much to teach and so much they want to help us with, just as much as we can help them to also come into their fullness.

Astrid came away from her appointment with flying colors. The sweet, gentle, and incredibly knowledgable vet – I just love her and all of my bunnies have at one time or another been to her – said she was in wonderful health, perfect, healthy weight for her at 6 pounds 12 ounces, and in general she said I’d chosen well.

I feel that was a mutual thing however, and in this case since Astrid was a surprise, I feel this was Cosmically written in the stars for us and she’d chosen me for reasons I have yet to see.

The vet is exceptional at seeing and understanding the needs of rabbits and made note of very tiny points on her right bottom teeth that we’ll just want to keep an eye on. She has no problems, nor may this ever become a problem, but for precaution we will have her rechecked in 3 months instead of the normal 6 months to ensure nothing starts developing. Being proactive is important where bunny teeth are concerned. Likely she’ll wear them down on her own with continued good eating, but I like knowing that my vet is on top of things, as Astrid’s health and well being is my priority as her mom and guardian.

And good eating involves feeding them the right things that are healthiest for their sensitive digestive systems and healthy for strong teeth and helping to keep these always-growing-teeth naturally filed down.

I only give my sweet ones the very best. If it’s something I wouldn’t eat then they don’t get it either.

So that includes a variety of organic greens (cilantro, parsley, dandelion greens, carrot tops, spring mix, small amounts of kale, etc.) and small bites of fruit like strawberry or apple now and then and bits of carrot, the healthiest 2nd cut timothy hay, timothy pellets (in small measured quantity – 1 -2 tablespoons tops), drops of goji juice in their water, herbal blends of superfoods for general health and immune support (an echinacea blend and a calendula, chamomile, dandelion leaf, dandelion root, elder flower, flaxseed powder, goldenrod, hawthorn leaf, hibiscus flower, lavender, milk thistle powder, nettle, oat groats, green oat tops, plantain, raspberry leaf, red clover flower, rosehips, rose petals, strawberry leaf vita-licious blend I give her), and small (because you don’t want to overdue the sugar) natural, untreated pine cones (like these pictured with Astrid below) coated in healthy botanicals that support their natural foraging instincts.

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I also provide a variety of chewy balls and twists of natural things like meadow, maize, willow and even mini logs/bits of tree to work those teeth and feel like they’re out in the fields and forests.

Here you see Astrid enjoying her cherry hibiscus pine cone (you can actually see her tongue out licking her lips in the photo below). There’s also a blueberry parsley pine cone as well.

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She’s so good at grazing and not inhaling her food all at once like my other bunnies would. They’d be crazed when I brought stuff out and it would be gone quickly.

Astrid is much more calm about food and takes her time, but still loves her food. This pine cone she just nibbles on each day… So I don’t need to worry about her over doing things.

It makes me happy I can provide her with good things to make up for never having a forever home and all the past torment, pain, and grief I know she’s seen and experienced.

I will continue to work with her to help her through her challenges, while also listening to what she has to share through them about herself and for me too.

She has already given me a big piece of wisdom, which I shared at the end of my last blog post, but I know this will only continue to increase the more time we spend together.

I have loved seeing her relax into things here and watching her enjoying her freedom as she runs and jumps around like crazy. 

On her good days she runs to me when I come near to say hi and nudge me with her nose. She’ll follow me and there are little to no grunts or attacks that take place.

But that doesn’t mean that is gone, as with everything, it’s all a process and while she has great days and moments, she’ll have the past creep up unexpectedly. Any little shift can result in a shift in her as well, which then takes time to rebalance again.

She also is very sensitive to too much energy around and will mostly stay in the second bedroom or under the bed there if there is too much going on, like having guests over. Then the second they leave she comes out. 

She can’t take having too much all at once and definitely needs to be introduced to energies and other people slowly, as well as one at a time. Otherwise, her fight mode kicks in high gear. One reason why she’s so good at keeping the cats at bay, even if they are just being curious. Her attack mode is nothing to play around with!

She’s quite the guardian bunny.

But she truly thrives in and needs a peace filled environment and to be approached with utter purity of heart to help engage her to meet that with hers.

She is a special one and has also been helping me to work through more emotions around my bunny loves that have been cropping up since her arrival, including around Zephyr/Big Sur and my convictions around my path.

I love how we mirror each other and once again she shows me that the alchemy of togetherness with my rabbit familiars is more potent than me alone.

Rabbit Hole Initiations ~ Freedom & Alchemy are Ours to Choose


 

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Today, and always, I celebrate the freedom to be me and when I/we trust being myself/ourselves we will find how everything else falls into synchronous alignment. Allowing your natural essence and channel to blossom open and following that guidance directly and fearlessly you will experience greater sense of well being and greater effects of change around you. It’s when you don’t support and follow that inner guidance that you feel deadened, depleted, a loss of power, and those around you mirror similar and trigger recognition of this – true power lies in being heartfully you. So choose to trust and support the spirit within you and honor its expression, as it will guide you to the highest and most harmonious ways.

“Spiritual people can be some of the most violent people you will ever meet. Mostly, they are violent to themselves. They violently try to control their minds, their emotions, and their bodies. They become upset with themselves and beat themselves up for not rising up to the conditioned mind’s idea of what it believes enlightenment to be. No one ever became free through such violence. Why is it that so few people are truly free? Because they try to conform to ideas, concepts, and beliefs in their heads. They try to concentrate their way to heaven. But freedom is about the natural state, the spontaneous and un-self-conscious expression of beingness. If you want to find it, see that the very idea of ‘a someone who is in control’ is a concept created by the mind. Take one step backward into the unknown.” ~Adyashanti

I completed my 10 day fast and 3 days of cleansing ease-in to get slowly back into eating regularly again. And I have to say that I feel so light, clear, and more in my essence. My mom commented yesterday how my eyes have gotten so light. This seems to be one of the physical shifts reflecting from this fast and recalibration, not to mention the literal snake skin shedding of 10+ pounds of old energy I was carrying.

In all, I feel super energized and really peace filled inside and out on an increased level. I can literally feel the light flowing through and this deep sense of balance and harmony.

Definitely inspiring and freedom-invoking. Like a bird soaring on the breeze.

Today’s 4th of July marks a return to healthy eating with a deepened sense of connection to my lifestyle choices.

It also ignites new shifts in the works coming forth into my life, seeming to show through in this capture, below, just two days ago of change taking form.

Bare-faced and nature immersed… The way I feel most free. Freedom to me is being who I really am and having the courage to shine my light no matter what.

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Today also marks 6 years since my French grandpa on my mom’s side passed. He is the one grandparent I connected to most who helped cultivate my belief in the artist me, and nurtured me in that direction. We had a special bond and I know he walks beside me, encouraging me like he did when he was alive, to nurture and bring forth my gifts – believing in the creative artist I am.

He reminds me, too, to freely let that wild visionary artist out and not let anything conform to any standards, rules, and ideals of others/society in terms of that creative part of me with any of my projects. This speaks true, as even with the book I’m writing, it will not follow any parameters other than my inner guidance and creative heart – creating my own genre.

And that is freedom to me.

 

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These recent photos taken of me in the last two days really feel to reflect the deeper me I keep accessing more parts and layers of on this journey – integrating so many layers of timeless spirit. The parts unbridled and nurtured with love that I am drawing forth and have been sinking into greater comfort to share out loud.

And speaking of layers and journeys….last night’s dream was a potent one that is too far involved in symbolism to explain its meaning, but I felt to share it, as it feels very significant right now and I love writing things out to deepen the template of its birth and unfolding in my life.

The dream was set in an otherwordly dimension. I remember something/someone was following me or trying to stop me and my escape was through this journey I took – but in fact was the original focus I was on, anyway and not anything I was running from, but determined not to be deterred from.

I was traveling these parallel realities in this moving almost enclosed like rapidly moving escalator (best way I can describe it, but at the speed of light) that went forward diagonally then back diagonally and so on, along timeliness but not really past or future but different levels of now reality. (think the movie, Interstellar to sort of get a feeling/glimpse of an idea, when Cooper is in the Black Hole peering through the timeline layers of bookshelves)

I could see windows on each level with glimpses of that timeline and the people/beings/things within each. And each window/timeline was numbered.

I chose to stop at #47. (Could have age significance or numerological symbolism, as this number does in fact speak to everything powerfully – I’m 44)

I got out in what was an odd reality with people dressed creatively as if Alice in Wonderland-like combined with futuristic look that were at like a gathering or celebration. Things were sort of dark and felt like night or underground.

There was a room I entered where ahead of me was a dark tunnel labeled The Rabbit Hole with red around the black tunnel.

Now, originally this was not the destination where I was going, nor the focus of why I was traveling. I can’t remember the specific goal, but I was on a mission trying to do/fulfill something or free something, but stopped here.

I realized there was a sort of ritual or quest/game journey going on that only certainly people or initiates would undertake, which involved The Rabbit Hole.

I could feel the depths, layers, and potentially scary things needing utmost courage that were down in the dark depths where a giant White Rabbit was – but not easily found and quite the magickal trickster who I felt had a shadow side that would need cunning to outsmart.

If chosen to take on this task, you were not guaranteed survival, but you would enter the Rabbit Hole alone with only inner vision to guide you. That is, if you had the courage to find the White Rabbit.

Then a cloaked woman showed up and asked if I wanted to find the White Rabbit or set all of the White Rabbits free.

In her arms she carried black cloaks, which I would need to wear if I chose the mission and accepted the task to enter into the darkness and see if I could do so.

I agreed because I instinctively got the feeling this was the key to the bigger goal/mission I was originally on. I had to do this if I was to accomplish the bigger picture.

And so, in my dream, I was getting ready to enter The Rabbit Hole and had just done so.

I don’t remember anymore.

This somewhat seems to echo the symbolism I shared in this post of mine from a month ago today:

Follow the White Rabbit

Yes incredibly freeing life changes are a-knockin’. And it will take the greatest onpour of spirit essence into it all to manifest.

It makes sense that I took this purposeful and necessary “detour” to follow the White Rabbit, which is symbolic of the transitional journey and process, as well as the new opportunities, ideas, and paths being pursued.

And this just may be the journey calling many of us, too, right now.

Despite people’s doubts or inability to understand where I’m heading, despite the hurdles and challenges, or the shadow dynamics that will need to be journeyed through…I forge on as the artist of life I was born to be. Whom my grandfather saw in me. And whom I have the freedom to embody and choose to express however I desire.

We each do. Remember that.

(The first photo of Astrid and me reminds me almost of an Alice in Wonderland image…or a Faery with her familiar. Although Astrid is not white, she embodies the shadow I will journey within The Rabbit Hole and is also the illusion perceived in what our eyes alone tell a story to us about. The true gift is revealed to those willing to travel through the illusion and alchemy is achieved when we discover truth through the vision of our hearts. This reveals how light and shadow is within us all and what seems like a Dark Rabbit, may in fact also be the White Rabbit in disguise. And vice versa. One of the many gifts Astrid is sharing with me, as I had felt a White Rabbit coming to me – Zephyr indeed is that. However, I am learning that Astrid embodies the less obvious (the complex layers of my new journey) and is initiating those ready to work true magick and alchemy in understanding the realities of perception and true vision, along with true power.)

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