Monthly Archives: September 2017
Well, bear magick and medicine was at it again. Just two days ago, four beautiful black bear showed up on my path, along with the abundant Kokanee salmon, during what was a short, but ever potent and rich experience. The last time bear had visited was near the end of Winter, when they were coming out of hibernation a bit early and now to see them preparing and fattening up for Winter, is definitely another full circle experience. Not to mention the timing for me/us that is also full circle, marking the ending and beginning of things. Paired together with the symbolism of salmon, I’m feeling the depth of these animal spirit guides’ reflections anchoring alongside the mirroring journey of my life.
It was a gorgeous late afternoon where we’d planned to meet up with our friends Bean and Happy at Taylor Creek, before heading to a dual purpose dinner party (welcoming our friends/guests Paul Shapiro, vice president of policy for The Humane Society of the United States and his girlfriend Toni Okamoto, founder of Plant Based on a Budget and author of The Super Easy Vegan Slow Cooker Cookbook to town and a going away party for Bean and Happy – boo!), so they could see the salmon before leaving Tahoe yesterday morning on their next adventure. It ended up being the perfect send-off for them, as well as the perfect celebration for us.
Our friends had arrived their well before us and were checking out all of the salmon, after doing the short Rainbow Trail there. Dave and I arrived about a 30-45 minutes after them and made our way down the trail too – my second short Nature walk in the last few days without crutches since having my boot, as the previous day my parents had visited to take me to lunch, followed by a walk along Zephyr Cove.
Everyone that passed me along the trail kept saying, “oh you’re so brave and hard-core,” to which I would just giggle not thinking I was doing anything extraordinary except getting out in nature, which seems natural to me!
I got lucky that because my boot slows me down, I came into the clearing just as mom and two cubs had also just arrived. Dave had gone ahead to find our friends and unfortunately missed them. I had just enough time to watch them stand up and look at me, then scurry off behind mom in the trees.
If you look closely in this photo you will see the two cubs at middle, center looking at me from the other side of the creek’s bank.
And here’s mom and mom and a cub to the left in the trees.
I was then joined by Bean, who so sweetly had come after me to see how I was getting along in case I needed help, but sadly the mom and cubs were gone, so we moved on ahead and joined Dave and Happy, checking out the salmon. As we continued further a solo black bear appeared and we spent quite some time watching him fish for salmon.
I was so happy another one showed up, as I had hoped Bean and Happy would get to see a bear before they left, and so they did! Perfect! And wonderful energy with it all for them, as they are branching out into new directions to explore.
All of this took place only several yards away, as we watched from the bridges and platforms, which made it even more special to view them so close in their natural setting.
This guy turned to me and asked, “can you run?” as he looked at my boot. I said, “no.” He replied, “then we’re safe” and laughed. LOL!
Well, I never felt threatened anyway, but did get a giggle out of that. Of course Happy turned to me and said, “I wouldn’t leave you behind if that happened.” Aw!!
Anyway, they were beautiful cinnamon coated bears and truly magnificent to watch. But so were the salmon. Just tons of them, as well as large crawfish, beautiful ducks, and gorgeous Autumn landscapes and lighting that truly made everything magickal.
These are some photos that Bean took with her better camera of the stunning salmon.
I marveled at the symbolism of it all and how perfectly reflective it was for me, once again.
Salmon symbolize returning home to regenerate, overcoming obstacles, end of a cycle and a new start, drive despite challenges to return to their origins (home), creativity, growth, maturity, abundance, enthusiasm, remaining in harmony with Nature’s rhythms rather than fighting them (flowing with the currents beneath the surface), not being deterred by seeming impossible odds, having a strong drive to reproduce in order to feel peace (however this is not just about children, but about anything creative – this runs the gamut from artful masterpieces to the next great novel, one source says), having very strong desires/passions and ability to tirelessly manifest them, enjoying life and sharing those richness with others (Native Americans see them as symbols of wealth, abundance, and providence), and remaining innocent, childlike, light-hearted, and open always. Salmon have shown up now a few times since our Magick Bus RV adventure, which has been a beautiful reflection each time and timely now once again.
Bears symbolize fearless ancient medicine, empowered Sacred Feminine energy and that Divine Mother embodiment, strength, transformative energy, and courage we have within to call upon in order to take action without fear, while remaining grounded and in rhythm with Earth and Nature’s cycles. They remind us of observing ourselves in every moment and self-reflecting, knowing the timing on things and aligning with the “when” and “where” to unfold divinely, teaching us laws of respect and boundaries and strengthening and voicing our own, as well as honoring those around us, and reflecting natural leader abilities within that invite relaxing into and bringing forth in innocent, creatively passionate ways that share the vitality of our own unique self-expression. Bears have been very potent for me also since the Magick Bus, and become near and dear. The last time they showed up, as mentioned, was linked with coming out of hibernation for me with creative rebirthing, which was exactly what happened on every level of my life and what Dave and I have been creating this year, as well as what I have (especially with my book). However, now I’m seeing the bears in this heightened state of nourishing and fattening up for the Winter, which feels perfect to both my book and personal life situations being nurtured, where there will be a turning within to the home and finalizing my book with editing and preparations to take it to the next step during Autumn and Winter.
This brings me to my exciting news that reflects all of this.
Yesterday was a big day for us, as we became the official, very happy owners of our new dream home! All culminating the morning after our bear and salmon encounters on a gorgeous day, as you can see here of a quick snap I took on our drive through Gardnerville to handle business. A morning that included five geese, a hawk, and sweet jackalopes (bunny reindeer) that were reflecting the support at every uncanny turn.
I’ll just share briefly that we’ve spent the last year here in Tahoe really deepening into our desires and dreams, working on building foundations and roots to support all of that, and listening to guidance on everything, which included lots of personal projects we accomplished in rapid speed, and big decisions around anchoring versus a plethora of other ideas that hugely shifted trajectories and timelines.
The expansive, nurturing, and inspiring space we’ve been living in, really helped solidify and clarify everything for us, and with our lives taking big turns, so too did we.
With both our little family growing (to include the magickal Astrid now alongside our kitty babies, Boojum and Sweet Pea), and the dreams we’ve had feeling the need to blossom and not wait anymore on, as well as being met with everything we explored and discovered here about ourselves that Lake Tahoe has, and more so now reflects for us, we felt a new and mirroring home space was calling that would nurture and nourish all of this.
And through countless magickal and synchronous unfoldings (way too much to share), everything aligned us with the perfect home base for all of this.
Our lake view condo will be taken over by a blossoming and amazing, young couple here shortly, as we prepare for our move to our new home on USFS land (United States Forest Service), where we will officially live in the enchanted forest full of Faeries and animals galore! Much magick awaits and will be created, as so many plans are in the works for this space.
To say I’m excited is an understatement, and although we have a very busy 4 months or so ahead of us before we’re fully settled, it is all SO worth it. A dream come true and perfect timing and unfolding in every way.
So yes, I’m feeling that “return to home to regenerate” and ultimately to my origins (both as a Cosmic AND Earth being, but also to Tahoe where everything started for us and where I received message to be long ago – and followed – without ever having been here or knowing what it was like), as well as an ending and beginning that salmon medicine brings, not to mention a definite surge in creativity, growth, harmony, and maturity in our lives all coming from creating things that would seem impossible (something that will continue being a theme for sure). For everything coming, I definitely feel that a strong foundation now is necessary. Whereas before, the need to move energy literally had to take hold in full embodiment of everything in our lives to create the huge momentum and leaps needed. Now things can settle in one regard, as the tree and its roots that will be the supportive foundation for all of the branches I/we will be growing.
And definitely, we’ve/I’ve been listening to those inner rhythms in flow with Nature, to align with everything and knowing just when to make moves and wait patiently, and are setting up our creative cocoons and hibernation caves (home) with everything nurturing and nourishing to our souls so we can continue in the cycle of rebirthing and recreating over and over with all that is in motion in our creative lives, like bear so beautifully shares with her medicine. Those two cubs that stood up and looked right at me, felt so reflective of my deep childlike innocence really coming forth now more than ever, and the playful vitality I feel to create, simply because it is peace for me to do so.
And speaking of childlike innocence, yesterday evening I showed up at an event sporting my bunny dress and magickal crowned rabbit necklace to represent the rabbits I love and adore.
Last night we had the opportunity to attend the sold out TedX event in South Lake Tahoe at Lake Tahoe Community College. Last year’s sold out inaugural event of 100, more than doubled to 250 this year with an incredible lineup of locally-known and world-renowned speakers from here and around the country. The event had food and drinks available during the reception and intermission including vegan wraps! and an after party at The Loft.
Our friend Paul Shapiro (mentioned above) was one of them who took the stage discussing the revolutionary “Clean Meat” – also the inspired topic of his forthcoming book.
There were many amazing speakers sharing their insights – all leaders in their own fields. You can check out the visionaries here:
My favorite speaker was photographer, director and Zephyr Cove resident Dewitt Jones who has photographed stories around the world for 20 years with National Geographic, published nine books, and directed two Academy Award-nominated documentaries. He moved me to tears, being a man of my own heart, with his talk that got him the only standing ovation. He so beautifully expressed the perspective of my own life and I felt the deep love in that reflection and mirroring, once again experiencing that full circle and collective connection.
Dewitt’s talk explored a mindset that he learned while working for National Geographic, and being out in nature, of celebrating what’s right with the world and not just focusing on what’s wrong with life, although not denying or ignoring any aspect of it, but rather seeing from a different perspective and the wholeness inherent in it all.
I was compelled to thank him after and he gifted me one of his bracelets.
It’s that message I want to leave you with, which is one of the foundations of my own life.
Celebrate What’s Right With the World and your life will be enriched.
After completing my book on the New Moon last Wednesday, this opened up space this last week for things Dave and I needed to handle, free time to spend with dear friends who will be leaving Friday, and an eclectic mix of creative fun and high vibes. This has included fun outings like our airplane flight in the Cirrus G6, a full day at Genoa’s 98th annual Candy Dance festival of artisans, planning and brainstorming, teaching a Reiki workshop, creating a new Magick Crystal Wand, and welcoming new crystal and succulent friends to the family – all before hunkering down into editing mode, which begins today. It feels good to change things up, which will provide fresh perspective when I revisit my book to start getting it in shape.
And it’s been perfect, as usual, in providing balance and perfect alignment of timing to things.
Yesterday was a full day of Reiki, but not just any Reiki 1 & 2 workshop – a Faery fun one that was filled with expansive discussions and explorations. Things aligned to make teaching a private workshop possible, which was fun to do after being away from it for a couple of years. It’s always amazing how these things are just a part of who you are, as it was like riding a bike again, yet infused with so much more! I don’t officially offer workshops at this time, since my schedule doesn’t support it, but with finishing my book, being in between personal projects and incapacitated with my foot fracture, it was perfect!
And alongside being able to teach Reiki yesterday I also had time for a fun Magick Crystal Wand creation the last couple of days for a very special Faery! I just fell in love with the wood on this one.
So whimsical and alive! And very nymph-like! It definitely feels to be a muse for dream work manifesting, creativity, inspiration, and connecting with Nature spirits. I love the little knots in it, so perfectly placed, and the feminine curvature like poetry in motion. It feels to me like it sings. I added 3 turquoise along the shaft, anchored with blue sea glass, and the point is a beautiful little clear Lemurian quartz with rainbow inside, containing much ancient knowledge. Everything’s wrapped in thick silver wiring and Robin’s Egg Blue satin cording dangles the Raven, Goose, and Steller’s Jay feathers.
That was fun to get my hands into and shift my creative focus for a bit. The Reiki workshop definitely amped things up too, and ignited something into motion we were waiting on as well.
Gotta love that Reiki! I use it all the time, especially Reiki Healing Attunements that have been working their magick with everything. (Another reminder to all of you who know how to do these, to use them!)
The space right now is also infused with lots of crystal and succulent energy, which I love. With anchoring in I’ve been able to invite more of each of these into my life to begin creating my sacred sanctuary space again.
It feels very magickal and Faery and I’m just thrilled as to how well my succulent gardens are doing….they’re like little succulent forests! I’m also loving the new crystal babies, especially my giant raw Tahoe Quartz!
But yes, I’m a succulent kind of girl so when I saw this sweet turtle at the Genoa Candy Dance I just had to take her home to be a part of my growing succulent family and succulent Faery gardens – the only plant babies I have.
I’ve named her Gaia after my sweet Russian Tortoise who is no longer with me. I just love her and soon she’ll have a rabbit mate just like she used to so that Gaia can be reunited with her buddy Joy (my bunny who passed too). They are created by Elaine Seniff of California Topiary Creations. I’m in process of ordering my custom bunny as I write!
I also picked up a tiny little Goldstone Rabbit at the Candy Dance that just danced and sparkled with delight in the sunshine – calling out to me to take her home! And so I did. It was much too magickal and perfect energetically to pass up, and so it came home with Gaia. Seems that was a synchronous call, since it also is great for the bones!
“Goldstone will boost the glow of one’s life force, strengthening the inner self, and chi. With the properties of Copper as well, it is extremely helpful in increasing the strength of the circulatory system, which in turn bolsters the bones and reduces inflammation.” from shimmerlings.com
Anyway, all of this to say, I’ve been enjoying a well-rounded, continuously nurturing time, taking care of myself, enjoying life, making productive use of time, and staying true to the energies that feel aligned. My foot continues to heal…I’m at 2 1/2 weeks now so things are really moving in that regard. And I’ve maintained watchful eye and diligence in taking care of myself.
I feel another round of focus coming on though that involves a lot of my time and energy over the next few months through end of the year.
As always, I’ll continue sharing along the way, but there will be times I won’t be able to with all that is evolving.
My parents are actually coming out today to take me to lunch here shortly, so that will be a nice little outing on this beautiful day, then I’ll be working away on my book.
I actually can’t wait to immerse in it again and read it all through from start to end! Just that feels like it will be igniting! And oh so fun!! It’s actually incredible to think I’m sitting down to read my own book. Oh the wonders of life and what we are capable of creating and doing!
And I’m grateful for all the extra little magick, support, and gifts along the way that make it all so enjoyable!
If you didn’t believe in magick, Astrid’s here to help with that. She keeps revealing more and more of her brilliance through the dark Mystery that she is. Just like each of us have a lot of untapped and/or unknown magick and alchemy within to bring forth, as we brave the watery abyss of ourselves. As you look into the portal of her reflection, know that it is only because you have the same within you that you can see it. Our hope for you – Astrid and I – is that you remember who you are, return to natural harmony, and live in the integrity, purity, and beauty of that essence always. Shine on and keep singing your song. We love you!
Such a beautiful share by my equally beautiful and soulful friend, Elana Rose. Autumn Equinox blessings to all!
On this doorway between Summer and Autumn, I’m celebrating all of it AND Winter! Yes, just as I suspected (and just may have had my own little additional hand in with Jack Frost and the Faeries), the snow began to fall right after I completed my book and then continued yesterday on and off, and all through the night (that has me singing my fav from Cyndi Lauper now…All through the night….). This left an incredible, fresh wonderland this morning for me to wake to.
But that was preceded by an awe-inspiring sunset last night too, which had me in “ooo’s and ahhh’s” over and over. It felt like the light and portal I was watching before me, was taking place inside my heart and spirit.
Even the magickal Astrid was giddy with delight at her very first snow, running all around the rooms like a little speed racer this morning. I SO enjoyed watching her look out the window at the snow – a Faery tale image come true. This was her last evening looking out at the new-fallen snow.
And then this morning with the glowing sun beginning to light this new world in front of her like a warm Cosmic candle.
She is so much like a snowshoe hare to me, I could imagine her out in it, and turning to white with the touch of her silver toes to the snow beneath her.
She also reminds me of a harp seal. This photo is from yesterday, as she laid all relaxed and full of joy from the vision of snow. She takes on so many forms, but this photo captures her harp seal imitation, as I often call her. So perfect for the wintery snow scene… Flippers and all, which mom would likely do better with too, hehe!!
And this is our picture window that is like a portal to me into another world.
I watched the sun rise over the snow blanketed vista, this morning, creating cotton candy pink clouds and light. Then clouds danced across the Lake’s surface like steam rising and geese began to fly.
I even put my one bare foot in the snow on the deck for the first time and hobbled my way with my healing boot on the other across to the banister to take it all in.
Enchantment ran through me and tickled my heart with delight.
And as the pink clouds dispersed, everything turned to white and icy blue in the full light of morning. The clouds continued to dance and glide across the water like the world was upside down and the lake became the sky.
As above, so below.
I hope you enjoy these photos shared from this magickal portal to your own heart.
I say we, because this was not a lone effort in that I’ve had the best Cosmic team a Faery could ask for, not to mention so much support and love from people who knew what I’ve been working on. So thank you! And huge love and gratitude to Nestor, Joy, Cosmo, Gaia, Astrid, and Zephyr who have all been assisting me. Love, love, LOVE you! If you haven’t guessed, this post is simply about celebrating an intent I committed to and saw through – writing my book. And for me, it’s to date the most important thing I’ve done because of everything it signifies.
It’s been such a journey that all ignited the days we prepared to move into the Magick Bus. I’m sure at some point I’ll share the whole story (pun intended), but for now I’m wanting to just acknowledge this day with gratitude.
Thank you essence for knowing what was needed to get me here.
Thank you for my fractured Pisces foot (the divine Virgo complimentary dance partner) that saw me through it and brought me into alignment with this Virgo New Moon and the Autumn Equinox gateway, helping to write a new timeline into reality.
It all couldn’t have been more perfect if I had dreamed it up (but then, maybe I did LOL!), which includes so many more Cosmic alignments during the process than I can share right now.
I’ve been crying through this process, (tears of joy, transmutation, and love channeling through me) but mostly in these last very full writing days of closure to the story, and of course, today while finishing it!
I’ve relished in the journey (as that is the important part and not the destination) and am now relishing in the cake, which is what I’ve called this process.
So, even though I still have a lot of editing to do, that cake is baked!
You need the cake in order to ice it, which is how I see the remaining processes with my book.
To me, the most involved journey was the creative process of investing myself fully, and the rest is simply fine-tuning.
Yet my heart, spirit, and voice are fully infused into what has been channeled through, which truly was about me opening myself wider than ever and more vulnerably than ever so that I could hear the true voice come forth.
I’ve always said that I didn’t feel like this was work and that it felt like no matter what was to come of it, I just simply HAD to write it.
And so I did.
And now it’s done.
I felt it important to share because of everything that’s been involved with this process and because it’s important to acknowledge that, as well as express gratitude for it all. And I DO immensely!
And alongside the enormous gifts of this already, two more incredible, ahhhh-mazing gifts have just come through to celebrate this momentous completion that feels so much larger than me and yet I’m also recognizing and honoring that it did take me to do it and to be a channel of embrace for this creative frequency to manifest.
The incredible friends who hiked back to retrieve my Quartz crystal babies after my foot injury, just invited me on a private plane to fly with them over Lake Tahoe – my home and the portal that has made this all possible. They won a trip and had the ability to take someone and when they heard I finished my book, they surprised me with that seat. OMGOSH!!! To top it off, it will take place Friday morning on the Autumn Equinox. What???!!! I just saw photos of this amazing plane with latest technology called a Cirrus G6, which immediately I said looks like a blue dragonfly – and a Cosmic one at that!
So yes, I’m flying high!! LITERALLY!
AND, after an incredible morning with spectacular light showcasing the mountains, the lake is now completely hidden from view with a white cloud because snow is on the way!!! What better magick for this Winter Faery baby?!
To say I’m in awe is an understatement. I can only say thank you over and over, and that really does have to include a big hug of thanks to myself. OMGOSH!! I just finished that at 5:55 here….and there you have it!
A short post update (and last until I finish my book), as I’m continuing to hunker down with my writing, to send a little New Moon and Equinox love your way. This week is another gateway for anchoring in new intentions and realities, which is why I’m keeping focused and listening to the guidance on completing my book during this potent portal – based on my progress so far and yesterday’s amazing writing day that definitely will happen this week YAY! We have a Virgo New Moon in a couple days and the Equinox rounding out the end of the week, so a wonderful transition time you can harness mindfully in empowering your own true source of light within.
Virgo urges us to bring our bodies back into balance and supports our journey of integrative healing on all levels, while doing this WITHOUT being self-critical and WITH a lot of loving attentiveness.
Once again, I feel like a literal embodiment of this message with my restructuring foot fracture and the healing integration and nurturing I’m following to create harmonious alignment with the new.
And embrace of this with gratitude and love has increased the process tenfold with blessings abound and productivity galore. Yesterday was truly one of those days I cherish, where I spent 8 hours in full writing mode, which had me lost in the creative world of my imagination and parallel realities. I felt like the fact that my writing brought me to tears and I was crying through the fluid channeling of the story that was unfolding in creative “real time” was a great sign that I was in the vortex and that the content streaming through WAS that real. I LOVE when this happens. Pure alchemy in motion. I also love when what I’m writing happens while I’m writing it, or after. Powerful stuff! A few more days of that and I’ll be done. It also demonstrated being in the zone of my essence, as I wouldn’t have wanted to be anywhere else in the beauty of that experience and the joy of creating from my heart.
These are the inner shifts taking place at this time….aligning us with our “nature”.
A seasonal shift marks a time for inner shifts and repatterning ourselves to step into that flow of Nature’s cycles.
So be a best friend to your inner darkness and shadow, for understanding it engages healing integration that is vital for soul growth. We are encouraged to face our fears and retrieve all of the projections and separations we’ve created, which are illusionary. This leads us to alchemy of the heart.
We’re encouraged to also stop medicating the truth with fluffy avoidance and robotic affirmations, in order to sink into the nature of our BEINGNESS.
I find myself continuously swimming deeper and deeper into this experience of richer embodiment. When I think, wow, this is amazing, I’m then soon shown something even more incredible is possible because that’s the truth of it – there is no end to the possibilities. WE create endings, but it’s all a continuous beginning and recreating we can choose ways of experiencing.
I’ll leave you with these passages from an old post of mine that speaks to this:
Nature reminds us that we need to relinquish the need to hold on tightly with fear and to trust in the process – to allow ourselves to have everything we thought we knew about ourselves to be stripped away, only to discover a greater truth to our authenticity beneath the temporary structures.
And in the process you’ll discover the only thing that is eternal is the core essence of who you are beneath the temporal layers. You learn then that the rest isn’t as serious as you make it and is simply part of the journey to that core.
We let go, just as the trees effortlessly allow their leaves to shift colors and float off in the wind. We embrace the only permanence, which is change. And we take grateful stock of what we do have, while preparing for a new birthing that will be incubating during the symbolic stillness.
Seasonal transitions mirror the evolution of human consciousness and the dynamic shifts of life cycles.
The eternal cycles of birth and death, creation and destruction – all teach you the wisdom of harmonic co-existence.
You become a conscious and active partner in the rebirthing process, as you walk through the flames of destruction with grace.
It’s a good time to decide if you want to continue forward supporting your ego’s will or your soul’s destined journey. Decide what it is worth to you to live in the authenticity and joy of your essence, and what decisions you can make to release all that is not of that, in order to be all that is.
As we celebrate the Equinox and Autumn’s graceful arrival, let us remember to breathe in the beauty of who we are, trust in the cycles that will always return us to balance and harmony, and gently nurture the inner world, as we cleanse it of that which no longer serves and prepare for the renewing cycle that will be spiraling round again.
With my own foot fracture I feel I released the pressure of much and broke from one version (within and without) and allowed a new version to form, which released the temporary structure of old “me” to birth a new Pisces self with stronger foundations of what that means to me.
We constantly have these choices and possibilities that needn’t be harsh for us to experience, and yet our higher selves know EXACTLY what is of greatest support for us.
Once upon a time there was a rabbit named Nestor.
She was made of stardust and reminded me I was too.
Life became magickal and my heart opened wide.
I’ve never been the same since…..
(Painting “Nestor” by me, Tania Marie)
This is a post about joy, gratitude, and love – building blocks to manifesting a magickal and wondrous life and the foundations for supporting healing transmutation and implementation of passions into dreams come true. While some people might be thrown off balance or upset, down, and self-critical over a fracture (even the old me would have been too), I feel like everything is in flow, fresh, and thriving. Definitely some of that has to do with perspective, but it feels also to be about alignment and embrace of the harmonious spirals of life. I haven’t for a second felt anything other than harmony and gratitude since my hiking adventure that led to my injury, as it feels much more to be a reset aligned with life shifts, an igniting or opening (fissure) for the new to flow in, not to mention is mirroring the seasonal changes we’re going into from Summer to Autumn.
I can’t begin to tell you how beautiful things have been surrounding the onset of my fracture and what it has revealed and put into motion. It’s incredible to witness and review…in some ways mind-blowing because I can remember the difference in my processes over the course of my life with things and it’s so dramatically contrasting to what I experience now. This is how I can SEE things ARE in fact changing and can anchor in more and more gratitude.
I’d like to share a couple of updates and then some very beautiful and incredible experiences.
First off….more gratitude sent out to everyone who has sent their good and healing vibes my way and for sending Astrid birthday wishes. We so appreciate your love and I’d like to share that my foot is doing very well. I can’t believe it’s already going to be a week since it happened, come tomorrow! Time is literally whizzing by. OMGOSH!
I’ve made mental note of how my own nurturing processes are even in much higher gear, as I’m taking REALLY good care of myself with this fracture. I noted that last go-around I wasn’t as diligent with the process, although did do good things for it, but I didn’t baby my foot in the way I should have and still was focused on accomplishing and getting things done, rather than hunkering down into the full healing mode and not trying to see how much I could still squeeze out of it all.
This time it’s been pure healing, slow-down, and wise caution, not doing anything at all to inhibit my healing or see what I can possibly still do. I have been purely babying my foot, keeping my boot on at nearly all possible times (even when it bothered the Pisces me who likes my feet free! and even when I sleep) – and doing extra nurturing things, as well as making sure to ask for help, which Dave has been so sweetly pouring out anyway.
This has included long hours on the highest setting of my biomat for my foot the last few days and just recently starting up my comfrey poultices, after a friend picked up some for me since I couldn’t get out. Being my right foot, I’m in complete surrender of others taking care of me and driving me around….weeeeeee! That in the past would have bothered me and now I’m loving not being able to go anywhere and surrendering to that, but also enjoying the sweetness of support, love, and friendship.
Anyway, I am trying new poultices with comfrey root and this feels really symbolically and literally potent and even more aligned for me right now. I made a paste and wrapped in a thin cloth I placed in the freezer for just a bit….last night when I had it on it just felt so good….just like the biomat did….like aaahhhhhhh yummy healing for my foot.
The root feels so supportive of grounding, balancing, rooting, and Earthing that my Pisces feet can appreciate and integrate in a new way. After last night’s session of poultice while watching a movie, I literally woke this morning with my foot feeling stronger…literally!
I’ve also been doing Reiki on my foot and using a Selenite wand on the area of impact.
Good stuff, which I’ll continue to implement, along with wearing my boot all day (just as the doctor at the hospital told me too) other than when doing healing work like this to help compliment my healing process.
* (I’m not a doctor and nothing I share is offered as medical advice – CONSULT A PROFESSIONAL and see a doctor immediately if you have been injured. These are only my personal experiences I take responsibility for only for myself) *
Even my sweet Astrid has been helping. I thought she would be scared of my boot and crutches when I first came home with them, but she in fact was not and in fact has immediately gone about sharing her healing energy with me, reiterating my knowing she is a healing bunny. When ever I am near her, she will come over and nose my boot/foot, which is her way (all of my bunnies’ way) of administering healing. Their noses are a channel, just like our hands, to spread the energy and love. So sweet! I remember Nestor doing this, especially once for my mom in conjunction with me doing a Reiki Healing Attunement for her, which was like a super pow! Immediately shifted my mom into balance and feeling good. Astrid is definitely demonstrating the same power-packed punch!
So that’s a foot and healing update, which I envision continuing well and being speedy based on my experience with it so far and being a good patient. 😉
On another note, I have to share this incredible thing that happened on Thursday that blew me away. We had friends over since I still was in “stay home mode” and Dave had to go out to pick up food we ordered at our fav local Thai restaurant, since T – me – wasn’t cooking and staying off her feet.
A knock came at the door and I opened it to find no one there, except these beautiful babies and a note.
I immediately knew that our amazing friends had gone back to retrieve my crystal babies.
So, I’ll back up to help you understand this, as I likely wasn’t clear in my story of my hiking injury.
I had 2 big quartz in my back pack I was carrying, as they spoke to me needing to come home and would be a part of what I will be creating in the near future. We have guesstimated them to be at least 50 lbs. So, as you can tell, I was quite determined in carrying these for miles. It didn’t even phase me, as the mind is a miraculous thing. It also officially put me into back-packer status, carrying so much and being so small.
When I fell and went into trauma shock, I asked my friends to remove the pack immediately because I needed to focus on balancing from the nausea, shock, and turning white. (I really didn’t have any pain except an initial quick impact feeling of the break that was actually pretty subtle in comparison to my last fracture, but the body reacts this way to trauma impact).
In process of balancing and readying ourselves for what was next in getting me down the mountain, I told them to leave the crystals, which Dave reiterated, as it wasn’t as important as taking care of me, being that we didn’t know the severity of things.
So they were left on the side, and I did feel this underlying sadness, but also this odd sense of continued connection that wasn’t broken.
One other friend had been carrying a quartz too and she ended up leaving as well, down further on the path, to not impede her own journey back down.
Anyway, I hadn’t forgotten them and still felt this channel of connection between them, and oddly (which I never shared with anyone) I felt like they were still with me and/or would be somehow/some way, even if it meant they’d wait for me to return later or after the Winter thaw.
So fast forward to the door opening and there they were before me with the note.
I was overwhelmed with emotion that came forth later, as I was so excited and giddy that that took over.
I then caught glimpse to the left at the bottom of the stairs, one of our friends videoing me and my reaction and knew they’d gone back to get them.
Most of my reactions were in Faery laughter and astonishment, but it was also full of exhilaration and exuberant joy and gratitude that rushed through in realizing what incredible friends I had. Like so incredible you can’t even form words except to giggle forth with joy and to form joyous tears that bubbled in my eyes later when I was hugging them over and over.
Our friends had gone back that morning on a 5 hour hike JUST to retrieve my and our other friend’s 3 crystals (likely 60+ lbs and a gift or two they found for themselves for embracing the journey of love.
BESTEST friends ever!
They also shared with us these SO SO funny videos of documenting the journey back, which had us in belly laughs. I was especially laughing at our friend’s impression of me carrying the crystals in my pack and how I was still looking around at more and saying I can carry 1 or 2 more of these babies! This was funny because they now realized just how heavy the ones I had with me were, which made my saying this hilarious as to how my determined mind took over.
This photo puts into perspective the size of just the one largest one, which is of course the heaviest too. I’m still smiling though!!
The other VERY interesting thing they noted was that where I fell was exactly at the site of the quartz field we’d been waiting to reach. Dave kept saying there was another one because he’d been on the hike before, when the girls and I had stopped at the first one we found to look around. So he was telling us not to spend time because more were on the way. We never actually saw this other site, because my injury took over focus.
Well, on their way back to retrieve the crystals they found that where I fell (marked by where we left the crystals) was exactly where they were, just up the hill from there a bit. That gave me chills in thinking of the energetics of it all at work and the alignments igniting and activating once I’d reached this area infused with more crystal vibes.
The crystals are super special and you can’t even tell the beauty of them in the photos…their amazing color – one is pinkish and the other like a golden apricot – and both have all this sparkly clear quartz infusions into the raw natural quartz rock. Amazing specimens and masterful beings!!
I’m still overwhelmed by it and also anchoring in more and more gratitude and realization that this is the new reality I have created for myself (and that is possible) where everything in it is a reflection of alignment and love…supportive energies…beautiful souls working together for a greater good….everyone mindful of and helping each other’s needs and dreams, but also supporting their own and their dreams, which brings together the highest of vibes and the power of the collective to move mountains…..or in this case to carry 60+ lbs of crystals.
It literally has to be one of the most special things I’ve ever received..and I don’t mean the crystals (although I’m in awe and gratitude of them being with me), but the gesture of true love and friendship.
These same friends also picked up my comfrey for me (it even had a Tinkerbell on the bag from the store!) and brought over some amazing organic “dragonfly” spicy black chai.
After that, our other friends arrived and I was then gifted a mini wardrobe of clothes she was moving out and thought were perfect for me and they were!
I was/am really feeling the love and I know that this is mirroring the fact that I’ve finally really anchored in taking care of myself, listening to my dreams and needs too, and balancing out that martyr energy of always giving out and never receiving – not to mention have implemented healthy boundaries. In the past receiving was hard and now it feels natural because it IS the natural flow and cycle.
You can’t just give, give, give….and you can’t just receive, receive, receive…
There is a flow of exchange to be open to and grateful for and it is all-encompassing of both being inherent in the wholeness of BEING. That is also the nature of Reiki….a harmonious circuit of flow in and out, which if blocked in any way, is the cause of challenges and dis-ease.
Yesterday was my first full outing since fracturing my foot, which included errands related to the new, a hair appointment for me, visiting my parents, and Dave getting a haircut by my mom (she has been a beautician although doesn’t do it professionally anymore since leaving her birth place, France).
I was feeling high-vibed to get a refresh on my hair, which included cut/thinning for lightness and hair getting to all silver and brown (my roots), which feels SO different and SO good. There’s constantly this recreating energy taking place to keep up with the ever-shifting energies. If I’m not naturally shape-shifting, then I’m assisting it. I also thought it was fun that my stylist styled my hair with loose spirals for a change, which felt mirroring of all the snake energy around me lately and the spiraling of the journey of life in general. I don’t ever curl my hair, as I don’t have the tools and usually just let my hair dry naturally so this was a fun update although brief.
We also got good news on this day/yesterday for something that has been in the works and took a huge turn the day before that could have gone a whole other way, but I worked with the Faeries, Buffalo energy, and did a Reiki Healing Attunement for, resulting in being told to fully trust, know what we want, and take assertive stance of our needs and the rest would be taken care of…and it was!
I’m saving that for a future post, but is something very exciting to me and going to anchor in everything further and more richly.
Lastly, I am happy to say that my book is back on track with the time off my feet and I should be able to have exciting news on that too here shortly!
We are all in this together and bringing your best “foot” forward with all of your parts together in unified alignment, sharing lots of love, joyous infusion and supportive action of your passions, and a LOT of gratitude and healthy balance supports harmony to take form in relative ways for each of us.