Monthly Archives: June 2018

Celebrating with Gratitude


Under the influence of last night’s Full Strawberry Moon in Capricorn, I’m excited to announce the conclusion to the second phase of my new book’s journey this morning. It’s been a full last couple of weeks and so much celebration since Summer Solstice with endings that ignite new beginnings. I’ve also been putting together the gifts for the 17 recipients of the Gratitude Giveaway, which will be sent out by end of week.

While there is still much more involved with my book’s birthing, this feels to be the last personal piece, as from here on out will involve others in bringing it into completion. I’m not rushing any part of it, but I have found all the timings aligning so incredibly with that surrender. I did feel it would be done by end of June, and so it is.

I love it coinciding with this Capricorn Full Moon, as that feels perfect for my journey. It calls upon powerful, new directions guided by our inner wise/elder selves to be met with personal responsibility.

Commitment, focus, and unrelenting work produce rewards – the greatest of those being the heart fulfillment I’m experiencing for following through with the path I’m guided on and intending it for the highest good, without expectation.

So, I’m big time celebrating each part of the journey and being grateful for what IS now.

This week on the 26th I was also reminded that Joy’s ashes had come home to me that day – you’ll remember she departed two years ago on Summer Solstice and heralded Astrid coming in one year later the same time. This had me remembering our time in Montana in the Magick Bus, reminiscing with my dear friend Christopher about that potent experience he assisted with and the magickal journey he took us on, and so many full circle experiences tied in with my book.

It was beautiful to teach a Reiki workshop last weekend in the middle of this and that the Gratitude Giveaway created such potent and beautiful energy for everyone who joined and was touched by it. I was even surprised by the giving part of the challenge, bringing gifts to me through it that truly touched my heart and were so meaningful. Thank you dearly! You know who you are. You really moved me. But in general, I was so moved by everything that came through with that and the shares and the shifts people experienced.

And meaningful is what I hope the recipients will feel in the gifts I send that are special crystal/stone jewelry, crystals/stones in a few cases, and other sweet things that all have purpose and dear connection for me. It was my intent that only things close to me would be given and would add to the collective thread we wove with the journey, and will continue weaving.

As mentioned, yesterday I got all the gifts gathered and all of the shipping material, and now that my book is done I’m working on packaging them up to get out by end of week. 17 gifts is a lot to wrap and prepare, so please bear with me. I trust in divine timing and so far I do love the timing of everything all connected.

And to add to the celebrating, Dave and I are hosting a Full Moon drum circle, vegan potluck for our Meetup group tomorrow evening to immerse in the energy. We had to make it on a night people could come, hence within the window, rather than on the night itself. That feels connected and potent also with the ending of this phase of my book and literally in a way I can’t share right now, but there are so many cross-over connections with my book and things that take place in it that happen in real life. So fun!

We also have a couple of events we’re going to on Saturday, so the fun continues as we close out June.

Next week will be a fresh start on phase 3 for me of my book, but will also hold July 4th independence and freedom day – which also happens to coincide with the day my closest Grandpa to me transitioned 7 years ago who supported my creativity and also mirrored it.

July 4th is also the last day to pre-register at discount for the Reiki 3 Master Teacher Workshop to be held on Saturday, August 25th. You will still be able to register until August 11th, but at full registration price.

Here is the link for that: Summer 2018 Reiki Workshops

And don’t forget that you can still register for the Fall Equinox workshop with Laura and I until September 15th. We have 4 spaces remaining, with a few people looking into registering, so keep that in mind, as we can only accommodate 12 to keep this an intimate gathering.

Here is that link: Living a More Magickal Life

I shared that on Summer Solstice, my first Iris bloomed that I planted myself. Then a second bloomed with the Full Moon energy approaching and yesterday, the morning of the Full Moon, a third popped out, creating a Trinity of energy in celebration of this day and my birth number as a 3. There’s a fourth on the way too! Yay!

This is a photo of the two, right before the third opened. I’ll try to get another when I’m outside again with all.

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Feeling grateful for so many layers of things seen and unseen, including the mouse that ran by my office, as I completed my book this morning – again so timely!

Recipients of the Summer Solstice Gratitude Giveaway


As promised, today is the announcement of the recipients for the Summer Solstice Gratitude Giveaway. I was so moved by everyone’s shares, but even more so by the energy that was felt during the 11 days and continues. I loved reading how many of you found this to be a deepening for you, in some ways a first, and in other ways how it was inspiring and eye-opening. Everyone expressed their desire to continue it forward and I do hope that you will, as from what I can tell by all that you experienced, it truly has made a difference for you and everyone you’ve touched. For me, reading the gifting part was truly touching and I thank you for all that you gave.

I know that like for myself, sharing gratitude and giving was not a new thing for many of you, but it seems that also like for myself, you found this to be a way to open your senses and eyes even more and look beyond the obvious to find the hidden gifts in everything.

Many of you found it challenging to sometimes find things or to give in different ways, and so that was truly expanding for you.

My own practice over the last couple of months has grown into doing a morning and evening ritual of gratitude for at least 10+ things at each time of day, and continuing this throughout the day as a way to greet and end it. Dave and I also remind each other of things to be grateful for and catch one another if we get in a funk to say that we are grateful and see what is in it to be grateful for. I have also increased my practice of being grateful for things that haven’t happened yet, as a way to create that as a reality.

One fun thing I’ve added is to say that I’m grateful for the good news coming in today, and by golly there has always been some news bringing good stuff through each day. 🙂

We have also increased our giving, as I mentioned before, and are making a bigger practice of monthly giving to organizations close at heart, as well as doing the little things, too, that demonstrate our heartfelt abundance.

Anyway, I just wanted to share a little of my own experiences and how they’ve grown, but back to the Giveaway….

It was wonderful to see how some of you created such beautiful journals and in some cases got super creative with photos and the ideas of giving that were incredible!

The drawing was done randomly for those who did actually enter, as not everyone sent something in and a couple people dropped out.

As mentioned, 11 people will be selected, but that said and in the spirit of giving and surprise – as I love surprises – Astrid and I have chosen 6 extra people randomly, as well, that will receive something too.

The first group of 11 will get the gifts I had mentioned (or other surprises) and the next 6 will get smaller/different ones, but all will be special and meaningful in some way, as it truly isn’t about size and I imagine that in the true spirit of giving the exchange will be a wonderful feeling of reward without the expectation and attachment to how this all should look.

The way the drawing was done was by writing the names on pieces of paper, turning them over so the names couldn’t be seen, mixing them up, and then using my pendulum to choose.

17 names showed up instead of 11, so I went with that, feeling there was good reason – rather than trying to narrow it to the 11.

Once I had 17 (which was more than I had intended) I then had Astrid participate in nosing which would be the 11 group and which would be the 6 group.

So here they are in no particular order starting with the first 11:

  1. Mari Braveheart-Dances
  2. Theresa Hayes
  3. Linette Chance
  4. Joe Sehl
  5. Susan Christine Mars
  6. Mark McCullough
  7. Camilla Downs
  8. Heather Wilkins
  9. Lisa Gonzalez
  10. Carrie Groebner
  11. Hala Makarem

 

And here is the second group of 6:

  1. Laura Cruse
  2. Kathleen Kirshy
  3. Tess Knowls
  4. Theresa Rose Huff
  5. Angela Lataille
  6. Deanna Dorner

 

If you see your name here, please email me at tania@taniamarie.com with your mailing address and sometime this week I will be shipping these off to you. The timing will be a surprise, which will be fun too!

It’s been a very busy week, weekend, and will be this week as well, so I’ll get everything out just as soon as I can.

Thank you to everyone who joined, even if you didn’t officially join, but did it in private, or even if you didn’t end up sending something in, but did it anyway. I know everyone has busy lives – I do too and totally understand! – so I REALLY appreciate everyone who was able to send in their shares. You can’t imagine how wonderful the energy coming off of everyone’s emails is!

And if you don’t see your name here, but did send something, know that I am sending each of you Reiki blessings, love, and gratitude. You are all truly wonderful, loving souls!!!!!!

Keep spreading the light and I do hope that you will continue this forward in your life, as it truly DOES make a difference and you will increasingly see and feel that.

Loving gratitude to all!!!

Summer’s Here!


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Taking a quick little break to share with you my Solstice Iris that bloomed on Summer Solstice yesterday and to just share a little bit of light on this beautiful day. This is likely my favorite gateway and likely due to Joy’s and Astrid’s connection with it, was feeling a bit nostalgic, especially with preparation for tomorrow’s Reiki workshop, which Joy used to always help out with. Seems she had a little gift for me, as I feel her energy in this Iris.

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I had no idea what kind would bloom, or even if any would, but what a gift! As you may recall, Laura sent me Iris bulbs all the way from Michigan, and I planted them when we got this house last Fall. And voila! This one finally bloomed and what an exotic beauty surprise she is! So far, only this and the purple Iris I already shared, from out back, are the ones that bloomed. We have many backyard Iris plants that were surprises from the previous owner, and about five that I planted out front. I will likely get some bulbs again this Fall and plant more of them and the Daffodils all about.

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I have had a busy day and week, so I did take a little garden break on this Summer day to get that balance (so key), sunshine, grounding, watering, and intention planting in. I planted some more Lemon Balm, some “Ring of Fire” Sunflowers, and the best yet (because I LOVE the name, as it’s so me!) Wee B Little Pumpkins!! Omgosh, don’t you just want to giggle?! When I saw the name I said I of course HAVE to have those even though I’ve never had pumpkins before. But wee pumpkins?! WEEEEEEEEEE!

Everything’s doing amazing and growing back quickly from my last harvest a few days ago. I have strawberry blossoms happening, broccoli galore, my tomato plants I saved that nobody wanted are doing well, and their tomatoes are growing.

Anyway, yesterday’s Summer Solstice was lovely and as you know I shared two magick offerings of a crystal from Astrid, and a crystal wand from myself. Astrid’s crystal has been spoken for by the sweetest guardian (love that it went on the Solstice), but the wand still is available for the right person it calls to. Always extra goodies will be added too, as you never know what’s up my sleeve! 🙂

We also celebrated the end of the Gratitude Giveaway and I’ve been enjoying seeing the emails pour in today and last night from all of the people who joined – 41 in all, as some last minute people jumped in. A couple of people dropped out due to being too busy, but still shared they had an incredible time while they did it and enjoyed the presence it created in their life that they would like to carry forth, so that makes me happy.

Yesterday also closed out the pre-registration to our “Living a More Magickal Life” workshop with Laura and I. We now only have officially 5 spaces remaining of the 12 total. You can still register until 9/15. I know there are a couple of people intending to do so, so just keep in mind although it’s still 3 months away, we could fill. Everything always works out perfectly and it’s a wonderful group we’ll have for this intimate gathering. We’re excited, as Laura just booked her trip so we’re looking forward to the whole energy of that Equinox and Full Moon week.

And last, I will leave you with the song my sweet bunny, Cosmo, and I share as “our song,” which feels perfect for now and the energy I feel.

Okay, I’m off and back at things. I won’t be back on until Monday when I’ll be sharing the 11 recipients of the Giveaway then. Stay tuned! Have a wonderful sunshiny weekend!

Solstice Reminders & Magick Offerings


Hoppy Summer Solstice, as Astrid says! This is a very special and magickal portal for us, not only because Astrid came to me through it last year, but Joy returned to the stars through it as well two years ago. Today so much is culminating, including the last day of the Summer Solstice Gratitude Giveaway and the last day to pre-register and still save for our “Living a More Magickal Life” Workshop. Can you say fun?! Astrid has been hopping all over this morning with excitement! Seems sweet Joy is channeling through her. 🙂

So, if you know you’d like to join us on Fall Equinox for a very special gathering with an amazing group of souls, then don’t forget to do so by end of the day to save $77.

You can still sign up until 9/15, as long as space is available, but we are officially over half full at this point with only 5 of the 12 spaces remaining. Although have an 8th commitment, so 4 spaces really.

You can register here: Living a More Magickal Life with Laura Bruno & Tania Marie

Today is also the last day of the Summer Solstice Gratitude Giveaway! For everyone who has joined these last 11 days, don’t forget to send me your journey with this by end of tomorrow, the 22nd.

I have a busy next couple of days, including preparation for teaching a Reik workshop Saturday, so I’ll be making the announcement of the 11 recipients of the drawing on Monday the 25th! Gifts will be sent out next week too! Stay tuned both on Facebook and here on my blog for that.

If you need reminders on the guidelines you can view them here: Summer Solstice Gratitude Giveaway

It’s truly been a powerful week with a lot happening fast and many changes underway. A lot of people I know have had some huge liberations and rebirthing, as well as powerful changes creating opportunity.

One of my sweet friends’ new business just launched officially today and another’s just this past week – in both cases I was floored and excited to learn that I was the very first sale to help ignite each into birthing! That truly was special and meaningful. I also have another friend who’s recently launched another channel of her work through a podcast and new branding, and yet another who has been envisioning the expansion of their business and rebirthing their brand/logo. And the list goes on. Overall it seems that everyone is blossoming and expanding! I imagine many of you are experiencing similar things in your own way, but it does seem that things are coming to light and clarity with potential looming like a lightning bolt of inspiration.

I got a lot done too, including finalizing my office closet cleaning/organizing with fresh clarity and space!), but did find myself a bit antsy with energy and excited that I’ll be done next week with my book’s editing. Today I’ll be doing a little Reiki Healing Attunement ritual with Astrid, getting my hair trimmed and the silvery streaks revitalized, as well as getting things in order for a potent forest workshop this weekend. I finalized some things and along with prepping the massage tables for Reiki teaching on Saturday, they will also then be released and sold next week to close that part of my journey too.

And that brings me to some magickal potency that just yesterday I got that both Astrid and I would be offering up today on the Solstice.

Many of you will remember the Magick Crystal Wands I channeled last year. They all found their beautiful partners and guardians, but there was one at the time I had felt to keep for myself. Several people were wanting it then, but it had work to do with me.

Yesterday, I received the message to release it and offer it on Summer Solstice.

So that is what I am doing – here is the info that I posted about it when first sharing it.

Merlin & Lady of the Lake Wand ~ $222 – SOLD

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This wand called to me from the shore of Fallen Leaf Lake here and I was taken back by its appearance immediately. It was already fully carved, smoothed (as if someone had rigorously sanded it), and has a beautiful golden blonde coloring with perfectly spaced dots in a design along its shaft. I do not know the type of wood it is, but I know it is not of this world, as it was ominously placed out in the open like this for me to find it, singing to me like a wizard’s wand would.

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On its own, without any added adornments, it is a powerful and complete wand, but I immediately knew that it desired elements to bring forth the harmony of its embodiment.

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This to include three irridescent blue Mallard feathers and one Blue Jay feather at the center. Along with these beauties, there sits a Tibetan Quartz above them at center and a combo of silver and gold wire individually woven and ending in triple spirals.

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And at the top, a very special Quartz point wrapped in an intertwined gold and silver wire ending in a spiral at each side.

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The Quartz at top is a small point, but large in its presence. Since this wand was already potent on its own and had a perfectly rounded bottom and softened diagonal point, it did not want any large stone, but simply one to enhance and act as a fine-tuned channel at top.

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It was evident which crystal it would be, as only this one had the exact slant to its bottom that perfectly matched flush to the top of the slant of the wand.

But as small as this Quartz point is, it is no ordinary crystal. It happens to be the one that Fiver, the mouse who I helped transition in peace and love, jumped aboard to fly off into the otherworld when he transitioned.  But to add to that, when I looked even closer I discovered perhaps why this had been the crystal chosen to be with him and why it was so powerful for journeying beyond.

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It happens to be a Channeler Transmitter Quartz, or Dow or Trans-Channeler Quartz, as they are known with perfect 3-7-3 and 7-3-7 sides to its faces, front and back. You can read more about that here: Dow or Trans-Channeler Crystal. Divine balance and connection with Universal Truth being its essence.

The Mallard Duck feathers embody spiritual freedom, grace on water, self expression, emotional strength and protection, mystic and seer, combines land and water balance, integration, and manifestation, knowing what to do and how to do it, graceful self confidence, knowing, preparedness, letting go, speaking truth, intuition, gentle flow, the now, and being that they walk the Earth, swim in the waters (fresh and ocean), and roam the sky, they are links between Heaven and Earth, or this world and another, and also represent eternal life.

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Blue Jay brings the energies of clarity (in this case double clarity/vision to express purity and truth of heart and soul with great clarity of thought in bringing these through to share), communication, presence, wise and balanced use of personal power, resourceful adaptability for ease, creative self-expression and assertion, sound and song, authenticity, and bringing higher thoughts into action.  Their crest that reaches into the heavens, directly links both Earth and Universal/Cosmic energies, bridging them for integration and active expression of divinity brought into embodiment.

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So both bird spirits linking and bridging here and beyond, personal and collective, immediate and bigger picture.

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And next we have Astrid’s offering.

Dendritic Opal ~ $111 – SOLD

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It stands 6 inches tall and is 2 inches wide at base.

You’ll remember I shared this crystal back when Astrid came home to me. She was given a couple of crystal friends, but this is the one she would like to offer on today’s Solstice.

It is a lovely raw crystal that is pale silvery blue in person with some darker areas and wonderful portals.

Here’s some info on the stone: Dendritic Opal and here: Dendritic Opal

Here are photos of Astrid activating it.

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Wishing everyone an invigorating Summer Solstice!

Sending love and creative magick to all!

Happy Anniversary Astrid! ~ One Year Summer Solstice Gateway


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My first connection with Astrid on 6/20/17 wearing my magickal Peter Rabbit dress

You may recall that it was one year ago, today, that magickal Astrid chose me and I embraced her vision of a different level of experience than what I thought at the time. She had the foresight of something bigger and more challenging for me and she was right, as since she came into my life things have transformed rather quickly and continue to reveal surprises with every new experience I open to. Most of it has been laying new foundations for what’s to come, but in saying “yes” to her, to the journey, and ultimately, to me, a domino effect is in motion.

Last year Summer Solstice was on the 20th – this year the 21st – which holds both Astrid and Joy in the magick of this incredible portal that has become very significant for me and a favorite life-changing gateway.

My sweet angel bunny, Joy, transitioned on June 21st two years ago, which was under a Full Moon Solstice energy. And Astrid stepped in on Summer Solstice, one year ago. The full story of Astrid’s journey to me was chronicled in this blog post: Divine Surprises ~ Following the White Rabbit Blew Zephyr In & Cosmically Aligned Astrid

So much has changed since her arrival into my life and part of that has ignited the true magickal child within me, as I’ve set up her and my Wonderland Room to fully nurture our essence and activate our heart’s imagination and vision in bigger ways.

Although I started my book before she came, it is with her at my side that everything came pouring through rapidly and took on a more expansive embodiment. She challenged me to go further, to not accept less than my highest with it, and provided a channel and doorway to access more to bring onto the pages. I find it beautiful that I will be completing this second phase of the book by month’s end or sooner, aligning with the Solstice gateway energy. The first phase was writing the full story, the second was my editing and reworking of it, and third will take it out of my hands to an official editor. There are many parts to the process, but I’m committed to going through each in the fullest of ways possible, without rushing any part of it.

This last year also saw a lot of expansion for Dave and I, as we moved into our new Forest Portal home and rapidly put together our shared business almost overnight. With Astrid came anchoring of visions and setting foundations for growth and opportunity. She reminds me to take each day fully and not get caught up in details, nor try to bend the outcome, as they will come together with each step taken.

There’s a level of presence, purity, courage, and commanding recognition of self that one must meet Astrid with and this can only be if one is consistently doing so in their life in totality. And hence, she has me stepping up my game, so to speak.

And in this year, huge transformations for Astrid have also taken place with the softening of her defensiveness and aggression that had built up from a past of not being seen for who she is and not being treated with the value she deserved. The barriers to her heart have been melting away, as my own have expanded further with her. She’s revealed her magick with much more to come! And, she’s met my own child heart in innocent exuberance, as we play together everyday.

She is so engaging and loves to run, hop, and twist in the air with delight, shake her head and ears, as I say her name with playful energy, and teases me to come chase her. We have a little play ritual where she waits for me each night in the same place and we first snuggle, then I tap her bunny buns and she takes off jumping (or rather springing in the air) and racing, waiting for me to catch up and then takes off this way and that, each time looking for me to keep following like a game of tag. Once she tires she throws herself between the cushions on the floor and that’s the sign it’s time to snuggle again and so we do. I can’t tell you how fun it is and I just laugh out loud the whole way – another lesson of balancing work and play and to have fun while enjoying life fully.

We have many fun rituals and also sweet ones…all of which I cherish. She is extremely wise and intelligent, knows her name and if I call her she will come. She has her ways of communicating to me when she wants things and anything I tell her, she fully understands.

And although she’s super independent, she has no problem with me picking her up and holding her, which I only do if necessary, as truly I like to honor her freedom and encourage our equality.

I’m excited for the mysterious unknown that will continue to unfold, but in the meantime I’m happy for what is.

So, today, I just want to acknowledge this incredible star child who has honored me with her partnership. I don’t know where the journey is headed, but I know we will have fun the whole way, while we expand into more of who we really are.

Reminders: Game-Changer Workshops & Dream Commitments


This is a busy week for me, as I’m preparing to teach my last Reiki 1 & 2 Workshop, am completing phase 1 of my book, and am immersed in things this Summer Solstice week including the Gratitude Giveaway and the early pre-pay discount for our Fall Equinox Workshop concluding in just 3 days – we will be over 1/2 full on Summer Solstice so if you’d like to reserve your spot and save $77, you can do so on or before June 21st. This is an intimate gathering so space is being limited to join us here in magickal Lake Tahoe for the first and last co-taught workshop Laura Bruno and I will be sharing and officially my last workshop in this format.

You can register here: Living a More Magickal Life

As mentioned the Reiki 1 & 2 Accelerated Workshop has closed for registration and will be happening this Saturday. The next Reiki opportunity is the Reiki 3 Master Teacher Workshop to be held on August 25th with pre-registration discount ending on July 4th.

You can register for it here: Reiki 3 Master Teacher Workshop

 

That’s a little update for those of you who have expressed interest in these, so you don’t miss out on the savings and joining, in general, as they are the last I’m offering.

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I thought I would end by sharing my first magnificent iris that bloomed recently, as she symbolizes so much of what I’m hearing from others and experiencing myself right now.

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Isn’t she a work of art? Every detail etched with intent and imagined from her heart.

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She births of inspiration and sings of grace. I love the rainbow and light energy that show up in these photos around her.

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She embodies the creative spark and vitality of Nature within. Her fragrance is Cosmic and illuminates for all willing to journey with her into the womb of essence.

So many people right now are following their dreams, committing to them, and taking the action that ultimately results in manifestation – myself included, which kicks off with my book I’ve been working on with full dedication.

I just heard from a dear friend today about her new business launching in full motion, and I was so excited to learn how I was a part of that. I also corresponded with another friend sharing with me his dream that he believes in despite what other’s think, and I encouraged him to keep that mindset and go for it.

Yes, it takes focus and dedication, but if you truly want something you will do what you can in any way to bring that into being.

I’ll leave you with this quote about if you feel a dream tugging at you and you don’t know the how:

“So if you have something that you know you should do, something you feel you should attempt, and you feel it down to your marrow, down to your soul, but you have not done it yet because you are waiting, waiting for things to fall in place, waiting for the stars to align before you move forward, then I challenge you to commit to it. I challenge you to take a step that makes it impossible for you not to try. I challenge you to throw your hat over the fence.” ~John Kitsteiner

 

 

You Are Not Alone


Another blast-from-the-past blog from 3 years ago today that speaks to what many are going through right now. Hang in there! Change can be uncomfortable, scary, and even painful at times, but the profound release from embracing rather than fighting it, and opening your heart to what is waiting for you IS worth it. Sometimes we are stretched to our limits, but never more than we’re capable of handling despite what we think. Sending love out to everyone going through deep transformation and walking through the void of the unknown.

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Sometimes the expansion you are going through can have you feeling off and like a square peg trying to fit into a round hole, while everything is recalibrating and catching up to the activated growth happening within you. There may even be unrecognized resistance to the transitions, which adds to this.

It can be a bit uncomfortable, as a lot of things just don’t feel to fit in your life anymore.

The bright side is, a lot of new things DO, and these (although you’re only catching blips of them right now) will be so much more enriching than what you may be struggling with at the moment.

Try to find ways to make peace with the process and lovingly acknowledge yourself for having the courage to go through it.

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Sacred Initiation with the White Mountain Wild Horses of Pilot Butte, Wyoming


This magickal experience is wanting back up – I shared it 2 years ago, today. Doesn’t seem that long ago, but also lifetimes ago. One of the incredible experiences of our life-changing Magick Bus adventure I’ll always remember vividly. I miss that journey, but also so grateful for the new one I’m on that it made possible.

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On our last day in Green River, Wyoming before our lovely guests Janet and Daisy moved on ahead before us, it was the wild horses that were calling. We just happened to be staying only a few minutes away from the 24 mile Pilot Butte Wild Horse Scenic Loop, which is home to the White Mountain Wild Horse Herd – the best place to view wild horses in Wyoming. So of course Janet and I, who both share a bond with them, were led to go and ended up being gifted with a powerfully sacred experience we won’t forget.

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Pilot Butte Wild Horse Loop provides opportunity to view a variety of horses, including black, spotted-paint, appaloosa and sorrel (chestnut-colored) breeds, and more. It also has many panoramic views of the Wyoming Range to the west, the Wind River Range to the northeast and the Uinta Range to the south.

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When Shadow Meets Vulnerability: Tale of the Magickal Strawberry


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Friday was a particularly key day here at the Forest Portal, when for the second time a sweet little one found her way into my care. You may remember Fiver the mouse last year who truly touched my life in the short time he and I had together. And just three days ago, it was Strawberry the chipmunk who carved out another place in my heart. I often find myself in a guardian and caretaker role to create sacredness and reverence around our animal brothers and sisters – and especially so for the most vulnerable ones.

While Fiver’s journey was beautiful and full circle in the natural cycles, Strawberry’s experience met with happier endings in terms of how our human hearts view things.

As you know from a recent blog post, Dave and I have been readying our garage to be organized and spiffed up. This included resurfacing the floor – quite a project Dave did himself – and involved thorough cleaning to prep it, and then filling in cracks in the cement with a thick repair epoxy that you apply, and finally refinishing with a strong epoxy paint finish to seal it nicely. Well, on Friday, he’d just finished the second half of the garage with the cement repair, which was drying, before finalizing the last round of paint. He then was inside working, while I got the feeling I should water my Garden Tower and plants outside. So, I went into the garage to look for my large two-gallon watering can I’d given to Dave to use for the cleaning process of the garage floor.

I walked in to look around, and immediately my eyes went to the left side of the garage where I saw movement. I knew right away it was a chipmunk who had gotten herself stuck in the drying cement epoxy. Dave had the garage door open to help it to dry, which he’d done the previous days of work, as well, but today a little one became extra curious with layers of messages and experiences tied into that choice.

I acted fast, as she was obviously frightened and desperately struggling to free herself, which was NOT going to happen on her own.

If I hadn’t shown up when I did I’m convinced she would have struggled to death with exhaustion and further emotional and physical torment, as her fragile body would not have been able to handle it, and nobody was going to go back in the garage for a while since it was drying.

Chipmunks are prey animals and extremely vulnerable and sensitive (like rabbits), despite their adventurous bravery. Plus, with that free-spiritedness comes a restlessness and desire for them to be free. This was not only “killing” her spirit, but would ultimately be her demise.

I acted fast, knowing I had to free her. I couldn’t do it with my hands, as that stuff was just too thick, plus I wasn’t sure how she would react to my handling her. So I found gardening gloves on the shelf and went to work very cautiously and gently removing each part of her body (mostly the right side) from the silvery goop imprisoning her. It only took a minute and once I had her free I yelled for Dave to come help me.

He had no idea what I was yelling about, but arrived in surprise to find me standing there holding a little chipmunk gingerly in my hands. I told him we needed to see if we could wash some of the stuff off somehow, so he immediately grabbed a bucket and went in to fill it with water and some Dawn we had on hand – which is the stuff they used to remove the oil on ocean wildlife during the spills. It was also the only stuff that worked best with Cosmo when I had to wash him, so we still had it on hand luckily.

I held her gently and she seemed to understand and didn’t struggle much, while Dave gently rubbed around her right eye, which we felt was most important, as she had it closed and the outside was fully covered, as well as the fur around it. We got as much as we could off while the stuff was still somewhat wet, but it was impossible to get everything, as it is super thick and already hardening, as well as we couldn’t rub her too hard. But we did free her eye so she could open it. Dave went to work on the rest of her body as much as possible and he got a decent amount (maybe 1/3 or more), but still she had a layer covering the right of her body, her back, and her legs.

She’d been moving a bit in my hands, but started to slow down and stopped moving. We decided to stop because she was likely in shock and any further torment would have been too much. It’s enough that she got stuck, but now she was being held, which prey animals don’t like.

So, I told Dave to get a box with towels for her and food. I held her nestled in a towel in my hands (I had removed the gloves now, as I wanted her to feel the closeness and warmth of my touch rather than the distant, non-organic gloves), as she went into a fetal position and gave her Reiki while I envisioned her healed and whole. He came back out and we wiped her a bit to try to dry her and then I put her in the towels so she could balance back and dry.

I didn’t realize Dave had also gotten his camera and before I knew it he took this photo of us, which caught me in my sadness.

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I ended up sitting with her for an hour, as she didn’t move. She laid in the same fetal position and I knew she was traumatized by it all and at this point I was worried that it had been too much for her little heart, as her breathing was labored and nearly non-existent at times. I decided to get one of my amethyst crystals for her and put it in with her to aid her in calming down and balancing out.

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I stayed with her, breathed with her, flowed fluid Cosmic light through to her to fill her body, and caressed her crown now and then. All the while my heart and eyes filled with tears that I brushed away in order to be there for HER. If she was going to pass, I didn’t want her to be alone. So I continued giving her Reiki and I told her, “I love you,” several times.

She kept hanging in there and I had the sunlight on her to keep her warm while her wet fur dried.

While this was going on Dave had called our local wildlife rescue, whom I also called for Fiver, and we called once for a dove too (who ended up being okay). They didn’t answer, but I was glad they hadn’t, as I remembered that when I told them of Fiver, they said there was nothing they could do and if I wanted to bring him in they wanted me to know that they would feed him to their rescue predator birds. I knew he would be better off living the rest of his time nurtured and in comfort and peace with me….I felt the same for this little chipmunk sweetie, whom I now knew was in my care and relied on me for knowing her choices she would want supported.

I didn’t know if she’d turn around or not, so I told Dave we should find a bigger box to keep her in while she recovered and we nursed her. So he did, and made holes in the top for air, then I gathered pine needles, pine cone, some branches, put in two towels, and we added some raw unsalted hazelnuts and pieces of apple to create a little healing sanctuary for her. I included the amethyst once again.

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I placed her gently inside (you can see her on the left of the box above) and brought her indoors into my room so I could be with her, and kept the top closed and door closed so the cats didn’t know she was there, which avoided any added stress of their energy around her.

I kept checking on her, but she didn’t move much.

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Just breathed, blinked her eye sometimes, and slightly moved her front fingers. I gently touched her back legs, as they had the most stuff on them, feeling worried they might petrify, and rubbed her gently on her head and back to soothe her with Reiki. But mostly left her in peace to recuperate.

Intuitively I felt she was a girl, whereas Fiver the mouse and Blueberry the baby rabbit I felt were boys. I decided to confirm all of this with my pendulum, which it did. I then immediately got that her name would be Strawberry. For one, it was a chipmunk that ate my strawberries before I netted my Garden Tower and potted plants. Two, it felt to be the perfect partnering name to my wild baby bunny, Blueberry (who just as I wrote that ran by my office). And three, she is just so sweet….like a Strawberry.

We had to leave for an evening Beethoven symphony, so I put Strawberry in a safe room with box lid closed on top of that so she wouldn’t be disturbed and I have to say that the whole time listening to the classical music I thought of her and sent her energy, anxious to go home and see how she was. We were bonded and connected now.

When we got home I found that not only had she moved, but she was up and about sitting on her back legs as these little ones do and cleaning her face with her paws. She then went off to hide/nestle comfortably in the towel under the pine needles, so I figured it was time to say goodnight and wish her sweet dreams. Her wet fur from cleaning her had dried AND she’d eaten quite a bit of the food. YAY!! This was a great sign.

I gave her more food for the night and told Dave that I felt if she continued well the next morning, that we should release her, as I could sense she would be miserable and not do well by being trapped in the box. She’s far too free-spirited and explorative – and sharing that essence myself, I knew that would not be supportive for her. I was prepared to care for her for however long she needed, but the least amount of disturbance to her nature was best, if in fact she was capable of going out on her own.

I went to bed feeling lighter and optimistic, grateful I had found her, she was doing better, and that she chose me for this journey.

The next morning I checked on her again and she’d eaten more food and had continued moving around. Her untouched/non-epoxy coated fur looked fluffy, and when I gently nudged her, she was moving all four legs and feet spritely like her chipmunk self.

True to her chipmunk self and what she symbolizes, she wasn’t going to let anything get her down. Depression isn’t part of their M.O., as they maintain positive outlooks on life always, teach us how to view things lightly, and never let the idea of failure get to them.

Strawberry seems like the perfect mascot for the Summer Solstice Gratitude Giveaway that just kicked off today with 39 committed souls.

They are also great leaders in bringing harmony and fulfillment to life, as they know how to balance dedication to work with playfulness and fun. They turn hardworking into an artform of adventure, where discovering new things is their joy and the way to make things more pleasureful in the process.

They also enjoy solitude and that’s just what Strawberry was needing. She mostly wanted to hide in the towels and I don’t blame her, as this was all quite the adventure she likely didn’t have a clue would be this tough.

I do have to say that she was the sweetest and trusted me fully, as I never handled her again with gloves after the first initial phase and she never tried to scratch, bite, or do anything to me. We had an understanding.

We decided it was time to release her so we took her box outside my sliding door on the deck. Dave gently turned the box on its side while I held everything in place so she had a soft and easy transition with the movement. Dave then taped the box in a way it provided a small opening on the left where she could come and go as she pleased, but would keep out any larger animals.

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In this way, she could choose to stay or go, and had a safe and warm place with food if she so desired or found herself not feeling as well as she thought she was.

Astrid had been a part of the whole experience, and along with me, was nurturing Strawberry with energy through the day, night, and morning. And when we took her outside and placed her down, Astrid was at the door watching over it all, as you can see here.

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Dave left and I stayed a bit giving her energy and told her she could go. I put lots of protection and energy all around her for when she did decide to leave, and intended the healing energy would stay with her as long as she needed. I went inside to let her be, while I worked at my desk keeping the corner of my eye on if she went. I checked about a half hour to forty five minutes later and she was still there huddled in a corner.

I went back in and immersed in things, releasing any need to see her leave, and returned about a half hour or more to check and she was gone.

Strawberry was free, and although her fur would take time for the stuff to completely go through natural cleaning, shedding, and rubbing against nature and the elements, I knew she’d be okay and have quite the story to chat about with her friends. Chipmunks are great with communication, and hence message to us our ability to be good with words, spoken or written. So, it’s no wonder I’m telling her story now, as she chirps it in my ears to give voice to her experience.

It didn’t take her long, as several hours later, when Dave completed the last step of painting the second half of the garage floor, I was called out to the garage again to get something. The second I opened the door and stepped in, what do you know?

Another chipmunk was inside exploring, and had ventured over to the side where Strawberry had gotten stuck. (A chipmunk just ran by my office, as I wrote this – too fast to check who it was). Anyway, luckily all that cement goop was dry and the paint wasn’t sticky and had already started its process so this little one didn’t fall on the same experience. As soon as he/she saw me they ran back out through the small opening Dave had left for the drying.

Strawberry hadn’t wasted any time telling the others how she got herself into the Faery Realm with Astrid and Faery T.

And that’s how Strawberry came into my life for a couple of days, and yet her presence lingers strongly in heart and here in the Forest Portal.

She won’t be hard to spot (at least until she fully gets the stuff off of her fur), so we’re keeping an eye out for sweet little Strawberry.

I took many things away from the experience – from the simple to complex.

Some of it included things just for Dave, some for me, some for Astrid and myself, and indeed for Strawberry herself. Some of it in relation to the symbolism I mentioned chipmunks embody and some of it simply messages I derived from current experiences in our lives.

There was also the collective message to me that keeps coming up in theme of how mindfulness and thinking ten steps ahead is necessary, as to the possible repercussions and far reach things can have beyond your immediate experience. Humans and nature living in harmony isn’t something most people think about, nor how everything we do affects nature’s cycles. Ideas of progress don’t take into account nature in that mix. Technology can be used in ways that enhance and work with nature, rather than completely against it. Perhaps that’s part of why I love living in the mountains and on the forest, and why I like to keep our landscape as natural as possible, so as to blend with nature rather than change it. Our house has a lawn it came with, but I let the clover and other plants and flowers the little animals love munching on, growing on it. Things like fixing/painting your garage can be dangerous, as you saw in this story and it makes me ever-more determined to be diligent in finding ways to not repeat what I, others, or our ancestors have done to Earth’s children. I always drive slow because of all of the animals that cross the street and that I’ve seen killed by recklessness. We can always do better and at any given moment, do our best.

Native Americans view chipmunks as messengers of luck and fortune – sometimes also carelessness and yet even though they don’t think before acting, they are still lucky.

I’d say that’s accurate for little Strawberry and perhaps she might be sprinkling some of her good vibes on us about something good being on its way. Chipmunks are said to grant wishes that reflect your most treasured heart’s desires. Hmmm!

She’s definitely made an impact and through her luck, she taught us to think more like a chipmunk so as to better our lives and theirs.

I also found it interesting that she may be reflecting a message for Dave, since he had done the garage work. He recently has come upon an injury likely from skiing that got aggravated through biking and is waiting on an MRI to see what the issue is. He can still hike, but any weird turns/twists of his leg/groin area causes pain. He told me how it had him very down and worried until the last day or so, as he’s very active – like a chipmunk – and not being able to get out and do the outdoor adventurous stuff he loves, puts a damper on his spirits.

I feel Strawberry was messaging him to keep his spirits up. Even though she also was incapacitated and stuck, she didn’t give up. And while she may carry that odd fur for a while, she’s still going to enjoy life and not let it get her down. A chipmunk must keep that free spiritedness nurtured, which is why I wanted to release her as soon as possible but only if I knew she could walk and was strong. So, like her, Dave too will be ok and have his legs in working order as he likes again to get skiing and biking once things resolve and go through their healing process. Perhaps he just needs some rest and recuperation like she did, and a new perspective, with some Faery dust on top.

Synchronously, the next day after she left, Dave and I went to Tahoe Meadows for a different hike than our usual, which inspired him and got his spirits high again. He found that he could do more hiking than he thought and went out again this morning on his own for an adventure.

As for me, since I mentioned shadow work with the garage metaphor recently in a blog, Strawberry felt representative of this and how quickly we can integrate healing when we bring things to light and invite things to be seen. We all have vulnerable spots and not all of them are always hidden. And with consistent work, they become easy to see.

Strawberry showing up felt symbolic of how ease has come to this process and that things aren’t hidden anymore in my life. They also aren’t things that are bigger than me, nor scary. So while chipmunks definitely remind us of quick journeys into secret passageways, tunnels and doorways, she definitely wasn’t hiding from me – nor do I hide parts of myself away from myself anymore.

She reminded me of my most vulnerable part being my heart and that it’s capacity for love is a huge gift.

She reminded me of what is most meaningful in my life at this time, which is being a voice for the vulnerable and innocent ones – especially the big spirits in little bodies – and to use my gifts merged with theirs to inspire harmony.

She reminded me that this is and always has been my gift – to work with the animals and to be a channel for their message.

She reminded me that my home is an animal sanctuary and all that live in the forest know and I’ll be called upon again and again as a Faery godmother and guardian to those in need.

And to all of that I say yes and humbly embrace the hand they offer me.

When I held Strawberry in my hands, just like with Fiver, Cosmo, Astrid, Joy, Nestor, Gaia….and all of my little ones who have been in my life, all I can feel is both the fragility and endurance of life and love that breathes in that moment and the greatest of honor and responsibility granted for me to embrace.

To have their trust means everything to me. I will never take that for granted.

Strawberry is part of the Forest Realm and I can’t help but feel her actions that day were made with wise intention for us all, including herself. I sense a part of her who has been curious looking in on Astrid and myself in our Faery portal room got the best of her. She may have acted rash, but with chipmunk luck on her side she not only got to walk away with the greatest tale to share with the other chipmunks about what it’s like on the other side of the glass, but she got to receive the love of a Faery and her Faery bunny, enjoyed a decadent feast, and has the silver and Reiki lined fur and body to prove it.

Strawberry became a legend herself, as the magick chipmunk of the Forest Portal.

Astrid’s Making Waves


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This is just a fun update on Astrid’s queenly and cosmic reign extending out beyond our Faery Realm and Forest Portal here. We’ve been touched to hear of her showing up in people’s meditations and dreams, providing support and inspiration through the social media shares I’ve posted of her, her energy, and her messages, and even showing up in essence through rabbit sightings at divine timings that helped people with confirming decisions. And today, we found out that photos of her with her castle have made waves for our favorite rabbit and small creature supplier, Small Pet Select, as she was chosen for their Top Fifteen Cuties (it used to be Top Ten, but they just changed it with today’s Saturday Newsletter, as they wanted to include a lot of the sweet Guinea Pigs they have a backlog of.

Astrid was featured in their newsletter along with 14 other cuties that hit publication this morning. They don’t share in any particular order, but I found it interesting she was #6 and today they switched to the Top 15, which also equals a 6 – the number of harmony, balance, soulful integration, hearth and home, perfect union, communication, sincerity, unconditional love, nurturing, healing, truth, enlightenment, humanitarianism, reliability, compassion, empathy, and Mother Earth’s energy.

Here is the link: Top 15 Cuties: June 9th

Their caption compares her to Princess Rapunzel who has long, magickal, golden hair and an ethereal voice. 🙂

Astrid being a part of this was a surprise. I always review their products because I love and believe in them so much and on the last review about the castle I sent in photos, which I normally don’t, when the review prompt asked if I wanted to upload any.

I later received an email from my favorite employee there, saying that they loved her photos and that I should send them to their Top Cuties email. I did, and that’s how she got in the newsletter.

The people that work at Small Pet Select are by far some of the best I’ve ever communicated with in terms of customer service, friendliness, and feeling like family. I’ve gotten to know a couple of them, but one in particular who I correspond with now and then.

A couple of days ago I received emails saying:

“OMB (Oh My Bunny) she is just stunning and we sure do appreciate her showcasing her love for our products.  Please look for her this Sat.”

And later:

“I forwarded all the pix you sent to Wolf, our Brand Manager so you just might see her pop up in other places.  We usually don’t get such great photos of our customers using our products.”

This morning the newsletter hit and then I received an email asking if I’d seen that Astrid and her castle photos had been featured on their social media platforms separately from the newsletter. I checked it out and indeed several more photos were featured and receiving lots of likes, comments, and shares – more than their usual – and so it seems Astrid is helping other rabbits and small animals to receive the royal treatment too.

I even got some compliments about my painting hanging above her castle and someone saying they wanted it. 😉

Anyway, I thought it was a fun and reflective mirror of her energy getting out there more and more and I’m just so proud of her stepping up and out and willing to be seen. Like Cosmo and his ad campaign, she has a more public role I feel that will continue to reveal itself.

She’s not only doing a lot of work here at the Forest Portal with all of the little animals – more on that upcoming – but she’s spreading her reach through the portal too.

She’s definitely grown exponentially since arriving here and this is yet another celebration for her one year anniversary coming up with Summer Solstice around the corner.

I’m a proud momma!

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