Monthly Archives: September 2018

Autumn in the Air & Short Break


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Autumn is definitely in the air and I find myself busy like the squirrels and chipmunks here preparing for things, including this Saturday’s Equinox and our workshop event taking place. We have an incredible group joining us from all over – people are flying in from Wisconsin, Texas, Arizona, Oregon, and Southern California, with a few people driving in from Northern California. And of course my co-partner and Faery in all of this, Laura, is flying in from Michigan to join me here in Lake Tahoe, Nevada. Quite the gathering of incredible souls, which is sure to make for some powerful activations.

Because of this and Laura’s being here for a week, I won’t be blogging until I’m back to being on my own again here (last few days of September), as these in-person gatherings with her tend to be very potent time portals for us to anchor in the next legs of the journey. So, we’ll be fully immersed, just as we will be on the Equinox with everyone. Faery mischief and mystery awaits!

Also very excited for Laura to meet her niece, Astrid, for the first time in person, although they’ve already met virtually and know each other from long ago. 😉

Anyway, I just wanted to let you know why you may not be hearing from me for a little bit and thought to send you off some of the Autumn magick already beginning here. Soon all of the beautiful warm colors will fill the forests and Winter will be close at hand.

I sense an earlier Winter this year and perhaps a colder one. Looking forward to the seasonal shifts and a new cycle of life for me here shortly, beginning the 1st of October.

What are you looking forward to?

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Hoppy Birthday, Hoppy Home!


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This day can’t pass by without a blog share to honor this magickal being who I have the privilege to call my best friend. Today is Astrid’s 4th birthday and it also happens to be the day we signed papers to close on our home we now live in here at the Forest Portal. It’s no surprise these wonderful things align together, as I know Astrid had a big hand in making this home possible for us, along with all of my other loves in the stars and the Faeries and beings of the land here – the very same enchanted ones Astrid and I are honored to now call our friends, as they visit us daily.

Astrid also is the one who helped me finish writing my story – the book that will one day emerge to share with the world – and she has inspired and supported this new part of my journey.

It’s been such a gift to watch her expand in hops and leaps, as well as a gift to experience the same through our coming together.

“Together” we are more powerful and can move mountains.

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The photos here are of the birthday gifts I gave her this year – her very own personalized chair and a snuggly bunny blanket – both of which she loves. Today is extra bunny treats and love to add to the celebrations that continue, iced with tons of gratitude.

Thank you Astrid for calling out to me when I wasn’t expecting you and for choosing me to be your partner, co-creator, and witness to the growth you foresaw for us both. You’ve helped shape my new life and this place we now get to call home.

I love you Astrid and look forward to the continued journey of adventures we have yet to share.

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Live Kindly, Love Strongly


Just a short post in the vein of gratitude and self-love. It seems to be a pivotal time for everyone right now. I have heard from a lot of people who are going through some intensities, holding points while things evolve, but also big growth spurts that present their own challenges. Overall, a lot seems to be asked of you and may also seem to be coming at you. A reminder to breathe in the love that you are and to take those moments because it’s so crucial not to neglect your well-being during these incredible shifts of potential.

Don’t forget to be grateful for every little thing. The gratitude challenge I invited you on wasn’t just about those 11 days, but hopefully to instill a mindful practice that can help shift the energy in the moment of despair.

Don’t forget to experience all things from your heart, with understanding, presence, patience, curiosity, love, and seeing each person, animal, plant, and child of Earth, as if they are you and listening and responding to them in the way you would want and need if you were in their shoes.

Don’t forget about loving yourself with all of your might, which also means to establish boundaries that maintain your health and ability to come from a place of greater wholeness.

Some of you are stepping out more and that level of vulnerability can be taxing as well, while you learn to temper the inner critic and doubts with more trust and courage.

All of this is asking you to love even more and, foremost, love yourself even more.

I have a lot going on right now, myself, and am busy preparing for Laura’s visit and our upcoming Equinox workshop event in two Saturday’s from now, have been running around doing errands and a lot of tedious things to FULLY clear my slate so I can give my attention to the only focuses I will soon have come October 1st, been supporting my mom through a rough bout of shingles, and doing my own best to stay grounded, keep balanced, and take care of me.

This has definitely included not being available to engage a lot of things that come at me, or to limit my engagement, because frankly I just can’t energetically be there right now. In my past I would have to the detriment of myself and in the end was no example for anyone of thriving.

To me, that was surviving and enduring through self-sacrifice and ultimately falling into an enslavement trap that feels so conditioned in us all on a very deep, bigger picture level. And enslavement can also be to these “ideas” of what we think we need to do or who we’ve been suppressed into accepting we are as a conditioned reality.

I’ve come to learn that the only thing for me truly to do is live kindly, and love strongly. That nothing really matters except expressing the creative wonder in my heart and embracing the richness available in every moment that slips by us.

Make time for loving you and living every dimension of life as art.

Alignment, Virgo New Moon & More Effective Processes to Support Change


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What gives you indication that you’re in alignment and on the most flowing path of potential? Yes, a definite sense of greater ease and invigoration comes to mind, but it can also be a mix of new feelings flooding in alongside others. For instance, excitement mixed with fear, ready to fully take on the growth while swimming through overwhelming feelings, an influx of new people, ideas, experiences mixed with purging and fading away of old ones, greater peace and fulfillment overpowering any anxiety in the background, everything feeling more vivid and intensely probable although there are unknowns, happiness in the face of challenges, envisioning more about the future while the past flickers away, dreaming more and imagining possibilities even though you’re engaged in the day-to-day processes, and so on.

Alignment has you riding the currents, rather than swimming against them, but you are still aware of the currents.

Everything just takes on a different energy that no longer seems insurmountable. Everything feels attainable and you’re more encouraged, rather than defeated.

The 9th’s Virgo New Moon adds to this restructure time we’re in and supports a new cycle for you to embrace once you’re reviewed the old patterns that no longer serve you. And as you do, this puts you in a greater place of alignment with lighter energy that lets go of the fight.

This New Moon is helping to set the stage for the next couple months and brings an earthy wisdom into your life on a more sensual and intimate scale where your relationship to self, work, and others will figure prominently.

If you haven’t already, this is self-care time so that you don’t blow yourself out and put added stress on the adrenal glands. Perhaps committing to healthier routines of either exercise, better sleep, down-time, rest, eating better, tuning into your body and needs, self-nurturing, nature time, or all of the above would be a supportive place to start.

Being mindful of “perfectionism” tendencies and tempering that with more balance and a healthier perspective such as paying attention to the key details that will assist being most effective, rather than over-analyzing and trying to do everything. Then lessening up on achievement mentalities, proving one-self, and self-judgment to be replaced with healthy challenges that excite with soul growth potential, doing your best in the moment and knowing that is everything, along with acknowledging each step and embracing that the Universe doesn’t compare, nor test you….things are simply a choice expression you can either hold back or surrender to naturally depending on how you want to experience energy.

This is a perfect time to start a new project and nurture new ideas.

Pisces and Virgo are perfect compliments to each other for good reason. The flowy, boundary-less, self-less, bigger picture focused, watery, intuitively creative, day-dreamy, and feeling Pisces is tempered so well with the earthy, more methodical, practical, organized, day-to-day and task focused, deeply sensitive, tenderly caring of humanity, self-improvement motivated, and do-it mentality of Virgo.

So keeping in mind these energies, is a way to create balance to whatever processes aren’t working so that you can create new ones that bring in more synergy and effectiveness.

In my own life this works out to a Pisces Faery with a Virgo Bunny and a Virgo dad, as well as a mom with Virgo ascendant. 😉 Thank goodness for all of my Capricorn placements that slowly inducted me into this new life and balance needed. At first what seemed like a tormenting inner fight and separate personalities, now creates a harmonious and supportive partnership.

Hence, made me ready for my rabbit, Queen Astrid.

My t-shirt below says, “Never Underestimate the Power of a Woman with a Rabbit.” In this case, a Virgo rabbit! He he!!

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Like many of you, I am feeling the “new” energy around this Moon, which has led to a lot of the things I shared in my last post that are upcoming once October 1st hits.

There’s been that increase in self-care focus, a healthy mix of exciting challenge with my next writing phase, and yes, even a new creative project beginning this Monday just after the New Moon, along with continuing to clear my life on many levels and create a healthy, organized routine that honors that partnership of energies within.

That included a two-month break from my book without even peeking at my returned manuscript from my editor, in order to refresh everything and create a new perspective once I fully devote to it.

I’ve created space for each thing in the healthiest of ways that works with my own processes and maximizes my strengths, while keeping me in alignment.

It’s also the healthiest and clearest way for me to stay focused on “right now” with things I need to complete this month while allowing things to percolate, as I have noticed that any time I turn focus on my book I am consumed with book thoughts, dreams about my editor and me working on things, and can’t think of anything else. It can be exhausting.

So, I temper that with doing only what’s at hand now, clearing energy, getting out in nature, nurturing my creative needs with other small, short-term attainable projects, and doing broader writing research through reading books that will aid me once I get back – to keep things percolating in the background without jumping hands-on.

This serves any anxious feelings that could have come up, as I tend to get really antsy to start things. By finding healthy ways to engage my energies until I CAN fully devote myself to writing, has put those kinds of feelings to rest and put me present in the moment. It also subdued the all-encompassing book thoughts so I’m not overwhelmed with everything.

And of course, I spend lots of time with Astrid.

This all also keeps me in alignment with energies I feel flowing and not getting stuck in my mind with trying to control things, but rather listening to energies and merging with what creates greater ease and potential leaps.

And speaking of leaps….we have one spot remaining in the upcoming Fall Equinox 2018 – Living a More Magickal Life workshop/event co-taught by Laura Bruno and myself. A couple of people have expressed interest so I’m always curious as to who will show up.

Every time a workshop forms, it’s like observing an energetic chess game where every move induces strategic placements and as some parts/souls move forward, others move back, sideways, or forward themselves in order to bring together alignments.

Laura and I have both experienced last minute shifts in our workshop attendees where subconscious feelings becoming prominent in one way or another based on how each person chooses what that means. Really interesting!

There are 8 days remaining to register – deadline is September 15th – miss Virgo Astrid’s birthday.

In the meantime, some additions are showing up for the event.

All participants will be receiving a special gift to add to our ceremony and to take home after.

I’ve also created a giant and powerful staff (one of my recent creative projects) that will also be revealed that day to the participants to activate portals during our experience.

And more surprises!

Next week we’ll know more about what will be a part of this day, as Laura and I are both doing last preps for the workshop then.

This is sure to take your journey to the next level.

Link below in comments to register:

Fall Equinox 2018 – Living a More Magickal Life 

Wishing you a fruitful New Moon.

 

 

Autumn Reflections


Welcome September! The change of seasons has been slowly descending upon the land, casting a warm, golden glow, as the light shifts daily. There’s been a lovely crispness in the air with chilly evenings enveloping us here with thoughts of cozy fires, nostalgic aromas, and the turning of leaves. All of this inspiring new waves of energy, ideas, and visions to bring through a burst of freshness.

Have you been feeling the transitioning of seasons too?

We are still about three weeks away from the Equinox, but preparations have begun.

Here at the Forest Portal I’ve immersed in Autumnal things including baking and cooking yesterday and this morning for guests arriving this evening for Labor Day weekend. I made root veggie-based curry and enchiladas, as well as two Dutch cocoa, cacao, coffee, walnut orange-infused bundt cakes (one simply the chocolate and coffee blend and the other with the added fun).

I’ve been listening to inspiration on some new upcoming small paintings and surrendering my novel writing to allow guidance for fresh ideas to come while I prepare for another cycle of devoted work and cocooning again soon.

I also completed my cosmic shamanic staff for the upcoming Fall Equinox “Living a Magickal Life workshop and gathering event. (There is just two weeks left to grab the remaining spot for this – 9/15 is the last day to register) But wow! Is all I can say. I’ve never made anything like this and how it all came together and the result is more than I could have imagined. It’s definitely the portal opening staff I knew I was meant to create.

That happened on Thursday and the same evening was our last Music on the Beach event of the Summer where I saw the biggest shooting star I’ve ever seen, in slow motion move across the sky and then plummet behind the mountains on the other side of the lake. No on else saw it. The cosmic influences are strong lately and I’ve been immersed in meditational expansions to assist these shifts.

And on the more mundane level, but equally potent, I’ve been doing a huge closet purge and revamp, which I’m trying to finish today, gave Wonderland a full cleaning and have welcomed in new energies to help enchant the shared creative space with Astrid for our upcoming hunkering down with writing again come October 1st.

Dave and I also signed up to begin a new wellness program on October 2nd based here at the new state-of-the-art athletic training center here in Tahoe. Something very not my usual thing, but the uniqueness of this program coupled with my shifts and feeling well being at the forefront of things while I move forward into a soulfully challenging next phase, all made it very clear, intuitively, that this was the next step.

We’re both healthy (in fact as a full-circle and reset button I had my first yearly wellness, full physical and blood work done in over 20 years just recently – all normal) and do a lot of outdoor things, but this will help up the game for us and continue assisting Dave with rehabilitation from his surgery to get back out there in peak condition for skiing.

They cater to all levels of fitness and rehab needs through internationally acclaimed performance coaching to help maximize athletic performance for athletes or active, recreational lifestyles for outdoor living – hiking, biking, skiing, kayaking, etc. So, we’re pretty excited about that since not only do their experts help with balance of coordination and conditioning, but there are classes you can attend alongside your training.

So that will be interesting and great. Only other thing I’ve ever done in any similar fashion was when I was 21-23 and trained hardcore with a personal trainer and then on my own at a regular gym.

This is completely different.

I’ve since been on my own flowing wavelength of wellness and now incorporating a very supportive, flowing, but skilled level of conditioning, which mirrors a new path I’m on in general with all the new. Very nurturing, expanding, strengthening, and taking things to a different level.

I always like to see the synergy at work with what shows up through choices and alignments.

Anyway, recently since Wednesday there’s been some kind of time warp or timeline shift, as I’ve experienced being a day ahead of the day at hand. Apparently, I wasn’t the only one, as Laura shared the same thing happening to her at the same time.

Even Astrid has been in a mode of digging lately so I’m looking into creating her own digging box so she doesn’t need to dig out the crystals in the fireplace or the kitty litter box. The digging deeper metaphor is resonant.

She’s also gone through fur shedding again, revealing so many complex images and symbols, including a lot of hearts showing up and things that looked like rebirthing reflections. This “skin” shedding metaphor appearing once again.

Which reminds me of one of last night’s potent dreams that involved a rabbit and a snake. The end result was the snake bit my right hand on the bottom side of the palm very deliberately and without fear on my part. In fact, so much without fear that I was not wanting medical attention regardless of there being potential it might be poisonous. It was unsure in the dream if the snake was poisonous or not, but I was not jumping at caring about treating it.

Definite transformational energy in motion and seems I want to immerse in the venomous juices of that with all of me.

This is about the third time I’ve dreamed of a snake/s biting me – all at very pivotal points on my journey.

All this to say, Autumn shifts are settling in and I’m finding the effects in my life to be very positive and expansive in potentials.

This reminds me of these words I’ve shared before, but feel inspired to share again:

There is indeed a continuum of increasing shifts and transitions taking place for everyone on so many levels, which brings us yet again to approaching another seasonal transformation, both within and without.

Yes, Autumn is closing in upon us, and that heads us toward a period of less “light out there” so that we find the source of true “light in here” – within you. This is a time to make friends with your own inner darkness and nurturing it, as this engaged healing integration is vital for soul growth.

Nature reminds us that we need to relinquish the need to hold on tightly with fear and to trust in the process – to allow ourselves to have everything we thought we knew about ourselves to be stripped away, only to discover a greater truth to our authenticity beneath the temporary structures.

And in the process you’ll discover the only thing that is eternal is the core essence of who you are beneath the temporal layers. You learn then that the rest isn’t as serious as you make it and is simply part of the journey to that core.

We let go, just as the trees effortlessly allow their leaves to shift colors and float off in the wind. We embrace the only permanence, which is change. And we take grateful stock of what we do have, while preparing for a new birthing that will be incubating during the symbolic stillness.

Seasonal transitions mirror the evolution of human consciousness and the dynamic shifts of life cycles.

The eternal cycles of birth and death, creation and destruction – all teach you the wisdom of harmonic co-existence. One thing does not exist without the other and through each you learn of your wholeness and cultivate courage and endurance to face that which is over, the past, the old – what must die within you – and trust in the abundant gifts that will come with the embrace of that release.

You become a conscious and active partner in the rebirthing process, as you walk through the flames of destruction with grace.

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I leave you with this image. I wish I knew who the artist is, but it is an image a friend once sent me and it feels so perfectly reflective of what I feel and sense all around this time period.

May all possibilities be open to you.

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