Monthly Archives: August 2019

What Matters Most


I think many of you will find this an extremely valuable interview well worth listening to, as it touches on so many collective themes and individually challenging topics that are the undercurrents creating worry or frustration for many.

Here’s Lee Harris with Paul Samuel Dolman on What Matters Most.

Lee Harris #576 – The What Matters Most Podcast

 

Intuition Support & How Vision Has Aligned Outer & Inner Seeing For Me


There have been a few themes I’ve felt circling the collective recently and I plan to briefly touch base on each as I have time. You may notice my blog posts being few and far between these days and that’s because life has been speeding up, time is flying, and that time I do have has become fuller. Today’s focus, however, is on intuition because it seems to be a constant struggle for many to listen to and support.

We all have intuition, but it may need to be cultivated since logic has easily become the forerunner of most of our lives. Logic has been deemed of greater value, but merging it with intuition creates optimal results.

We don’t have both sides of the coin for nothing. Yet, we often tend to favor one more than the other and in many cases, tend to devalue the things that seem more esoteric.

Intuition brings together inner and outer vision, as it assimilates the undercurrents in and around us. This leads to a sense of knowing, rather than understanding and becomes the experience of alignment.

Distractions keep us from hearing it and there are many around us both naturally, conditioned, and self-induced. We tend to avoid quieting the mind, creating space for stillness or simple presence. We also tend to numb ourselves because the outer voices and pressures are so strong, finding ways to drown out everything, which ends up drowning even our own voices out.

We know if we’re not following our intuition because life gets wildly out of balance, our health can decline, and a lot of things just don’t come together easily. These may point to lifestyle changes we know on some level we need to make, but avoid.

If you feel tension in your body, clenched jaw, or tight gut for instance, these point to the body messaging us to listen within and trust what we’re feeling.

But how do you feel if feeling is scary? If you fill up your time and avoid getting quiet and listening?

And how do we trust what we feel when everything and everyone has taught us that feeling isn’t important or is simply too painful to go there? That only what makes sense is what matters.

Well, it’s a process we need to nurture and reteach ourselves so that it can become more natural again and far less feared. It comes with consistent and committed practice.

The more veils inevitably keep coming down in the world – and they WILL continue like it or not – the more the internal landscape of self-awareness becomes important for navigating all that will be revealed.

Reconnecting with all of your parts is going to establish a healthier relationship with yourself. Learning to listen to and follow intuition doesn’t have to be an all or nothing approach.

Take small steps in following that inner voice, even if it’s telling you to change something big. Any little support it gets and action to back it up, is going to make it easier to listen and follow in the long run. Ask yourself what little things you can do each day to put you in a momentum on course of the result you want.

Pay attention to the things that really ignite you and make you feel excited, energized, and inspired. These are give-aways that speak to your intuition guiding you.

Clear the clutter both literally and symbolically. Cleaning your space, getting rid of and donating things you don’t use or need, and organizing can create fresh energy where something out of place can be recognized more. You can experience what feels right and doesn’t when doing a brush off of energy accumulation. So whether that’s in your environment, having absorbed and attached to others’ ideas and energy, or running an inner dialogue battle, if you step back and refresh, this helps to hear the voice of your intuition more. Take a moment to walk outside, to breathe, to feel….these, too, can help you to hear.

Listen to your inner dialogue and the words you use to speak to yourself and about things. This can also provide a compass for which voice is speaking. Your intuition won’t dialogue in negative vibes. It will steer you to your heart’s joy. Only the mind runs circles around you, filled with judgmental and analytical thoughts that divert you, rather than align you.

And feel. Where in your body does it feel tight and anxious? Breathe into that area with intention of it revealing to you its message. Giving love to the parts of us being neglected or ignored helps them to express more freely what they have to impart.

All of our senses are connected to intuition, which creates a sixth sense of which I feel merges all of these and beyond these. We each have our own connections we can make to ways in which our intuition might be supported and enhanced more.

One of the ways for me is the relationship I’ve seen between my intuition and vision and how they have been connected.

I’ve noted for myself that the less my eyes could see, the stronger my intuition, but the level of trust in it wasn’t always equal to that strength. The non-clarity without connected with a distrust within and confusion or second-guessing.

This also created a separation between inner and outer worlds and an inability to fully merge those worlds and support intuition into being – taking action for manifestation. Likely because one judged the other and if my eyes shut down not wanting to see, then my intuition could be compromised with a similar sense of fear around it.

I’ve mentioned my vision in past posts and how it related to my shutting down parts of myself and things around me that were too challenging or painful to see from a very early age (4th grade). And while that put me more in touch with the inner world, it also didn’t give me the support to “see” those feelings and nudges through.

I do believe in balance being key, which is why I’ve spent the last few years really focused on that – sometimes above all else – to create more synergy and harmony in my life. AND, to bring together the gifts of both/all worlds so that what’s within can be without.

For fifteen plus years I’ve had better than 20/20 vision because of having lasik surgery done on my eyes. I was one of the lucky ones who had amazing and lasting results, but this came only after I really embraced “seeing” everything again. I remember the fear I had around this both in messing with my eyes, but also about what seeing would actually do for my life and not let me avoid and hide from.

Last summer was the first time I went to an eye doctor since that successful surgery, just to check my eyes, as I had noticed slight shifts.

And I was correct that they were slight, with only a tiny bit of both near and far shifting, but wouldn’t much be noticed by most people. I only notice because I had such “clear” vision. I also had started having slight astigmatism, which explained the odd difference in my eyes I kept having to adjust.

These are natural progressions that can happen with age eventually after lasik, although mine continue to hold very strong for so long. I also connect small shifts to reflect my inner world wanting even greater support.

Once I was told about the astigmatism (something I’ve never had before now), the ache in my eyes dissipated, as I relaxed into finding balance between them – as if my brain readjusted in making the connection. I could literally feel that one eye was almost seeing more out there and ahead and one eye felt like it was seeing more from behind, or within and with this knowledge they weren’t fighting anymore, but found their place together more easily.

I went again this summer to check my eyes, as I felt an increase in that distinction happening and found that I had slight shifts with all of the same again. At first I had thought to wait it out again and not get any glasses other than having some very low readers on hand, but then I realized the connection.

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And so, I decided to fill my prescription even though it isn’t necessary. I was told it would help make everything a bit more crisp, defined, and clear, and balance out the astigmatism my brain had been working on managing and handling.

This felt right to me, as that balance is what I want and to create ease would be supportive. It’s not that I wouldn’t still do the inner work it reveals, but to have the ability to go to that smooth and seamless place when ever I reach for my glasses, felt like opportunity to translate this as an overall more graceful experience.

I recognize that I’m not wanting to have to manage and strain around clarity.

I recognize that I increasingly want ease and clarity around my intuitive nudges.

I can see that the next phase of life requires this relationship of authentic feeling and supporting those feelings with actions goes to a new level.

To support my outer “seeing” equates to supporting my inner “seeing”.

This may not be the case for everyone, but for me I want to up my game, so to speak, and fine-tune the way I am processing, interpreting, and executing my intuition.

And so I find myself fine-tuning my outer vision to support and bring through what I’m feeling into clarified being.

Sometimes the challenge for highly intuitive and creative people is to bring the same amount of strong trust and spontaneous action into the world outside of the bounds of your art form. But the good news is, since the gift is already obviously present, it’s just a matter of allowing it to spread through all other areas of life by erasing the imaginary boundaries between the two worlds – your art form and your experiences outside of your art form.

Vision can also be equated to knowing who you are – your purpose, where it is you are headed, and what underlying values are going to be driving that journey.

Intuition connects these dots for you without need for logic because it heightens all of your senses.

Intuition is your inner guidance mapping out the landscape for you that vision – both literally and creatively experienced, interprets.

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Intuition and vision have both been about embracing something for me. A fear, my own power, responsibility, going bigger, unconditional compassion, self-love, and authenticity. And these have translated into greater peace and harmony experienced.

For me, I know that every time I’ve embraced something, it provides greater sense of clarity, depth, strength and lightness for the new chapter to begin.

Life’s Garden is Growing & Aligning


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With Mercury freed and fire energy at hand this leads to clarity of direct action in motion from a place of more authentic self-expression, heart confidence, and creative inspiration. Today’s 8/8 portal and the days surrounding it, create an opportune time for navigating life with intention and bringing forth what you truly desire.

If you’ve been feeling stagnant or not seeing a lot on the scenes happening, all the work you’ve been doing behind the scenes will get an extra boost right now. With courage you can really ignite what you desire with greater support streaming in. These don’t have to necessarily be huge things, but things that feel important to you nonetheless.

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Recently I’ve intimately experienced a lot of rare sightings with wildlife not seen here daily like the rest – bear, fox, my wild rabbit friend Blueberry, hummingbird, porcupine, a variety of gorgeous big butterflies, cicadas, and hummingbird moth. They speak to me of manifestation speeding up with greater alignment and synchronicity on all-time high – as each always comes at uncanny moments.

Our Summer season has been much cooler than the last few years and also was on delay in coming to full bloom. But when it did, boy has it been beautiful. Recent epic hikes have showcased such incredible sights that until now have only lived in my imagination.

My favorite being the first photo of Meiss Meadow laced with wild irises that moved like dancing faeries in the breeze on a gorgeous planet in a parallel reality.

I, of course, had to dive in!

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Seeing and experiencing these landscapes has also felt like a manifestation of dreams coming alive. So even though some things in my life have been percolating in the background and have not seen the light of day yet, all of these things showing up in my environment speak to me of the changing inner landscape I’ve been working on, now being reflected.

It’s as if another anchoring in and deliberate creation of metaphorical experiences to support the journey are underway.

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It’s how visualization can manifest into actualized dreams that then hold a space for the rest of my inner intentions to come into being too.

Sometimes while some things are in process, we can still create momentum by focusing on steps and shifts within to make us more of a vibrational match for what we intend. These might manifest in other ways, at first, but the mere fact that you start manifesting things that are aligned with the vibration you’re embodying, means that you’re in a flow of bringing more and more to you that shares your essence.

It also means that your energy is amplifying in new ways and can be applied to any of the intentions you hold.

During this time I’ve also seen my garden grow – and by that I do mean my literal garden just outside of my office.

Originally I had a simple thought of beautifying the empty space beyond the path with a blossom tree. Things started organically evolving from there, which seemed to directly reflect my inner world and the changes it is undergoing.

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I then started planting perennial blooms in the first half of the area to accompany the colorful Lantanas lining the path I’d planted earlier this season.

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And while I was doing this, the inspiration came through to transform this whole area into a secret Faery garden that could be a space of meditation and intention setting, as well as a sanctuary for all of the magickal creatures and Faeries that live here.

It’s been a process that began with a few flowering pots, garden tower, then my rock garden blooms, adding owl and magick mushroom guardians, lining the pathway, and now will become a space for imagination to take bloom into experience.

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I just picked up 10 more perennials and mulch yesterday, as well as had the evergreen bushes cleared on the right to create a small path to the area behind the front blooms. This will be laid with pavers to match the larger path.

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Next is leveling out the ground between the staked out area, as it slopes, and adding a retainer. Then creating the space where a comfy bench will go – adding some magickal statues and more blooms surrounding and filling in. It will be such a sweet little space – totally private, as the fence and trees on street side keep it contained, and yet fully immersed in forest and garden energy.

The back of the yard is wild, filled with silver sagebrush, manzanita, wild grasses, wild flowers, bitterbrush, and several super tall pine trees – two of which create a gateway directly on one side of the sitting area being created that are like wise guardians of the garden. Beyond them are a maple and some other tree I haven’t identified yet, and a small lawn of clover next to them.

By Labor Day, it should be complete, but things are in motion. I love creating this wonderland of enchantment for Astrid too, as she so loves looking out on the Faery garden. And it’s very rewarding doing it all by my own hand – although with the leveling and wood work, I’ll have a little Dave help, as that’s not my strength.

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Summer has definitely been a very outdoor time with lots of hiking, biking, free outdoor music events, potluck gatherings, and even some creative fun that popped up for me.

This involved creating enchanting smudge sticks because I was so inspired by the gorgeous summer wild flowers and crafting nature things with my hands.

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I’d only set out to make a few for myself and ended up with several dozen, so I offered them to anyone interested and they quickly sold out.

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The whole experience has been magickal – from picking the plants and flowers that speak to me from the forest and garden yard, merging them in pretty and aromatic combos, weaving them together, watching them dry in the sun’s rays, adding just the right crystals to create a wand effect, and labeling each with their sweet contents.

It’s reminded me of each step of the garden-in-the-making process and my book. Having something smaller and more easily attainable, alongside some varying degrees of larger projects, really sets into motion inspiration, into action, into manifestation.

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They’re actually so pretty that they make lovely additions to the home, altar, or as meditational tools to bring in the nature and Fae spirits even when not burned. 

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So, indeed Summer has been very grounding, which feels important to me because of so much energy out there that is all over the place.

I want to feel anchored inside so I can bend like the trees sway in the changing winds, but remain unrooted because my foundation is deep to the core.

All very supportive for the continued challenging book work ahead. I’ve mentioned it being no walk-in-the-park and the hardest thing I’ve done so far.

And I have felt so many things pull at me recently to avoid it if possible and yet, I know without a doubt that it’s where my energy calls. Like the inner world of emotions, beliefs, and old programming, I just won’t give in to any of it. I can see all of that reflected in the process and how this book has become a reflection of me.

I also feel like there is an outer energy trying to keep me away from completing the book, which is interesting to experience. And so I forge on – editing in motion – step-by-step.

In the past I’ve identified myself with things like my car, my home, something in particular that meant a lot to me, my bunny companions….and have projected all of my inner world feelings onto them so that I could be conscious of this process and “see” things clearly.

And now my book has become a very transparent reflection of everything within as well, which makes it doubly important to me to continue climbing the challenging mountain because it mirrors the work coming full circle. Not to mention, feels aligned with collective energies anchoring.

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I found it interesting that one of my sweet clients, turned dear friends, sent me this photo just yesterday of her coffee table. She told me that I’m always with her and this was one of the how’s of that.

On her table she has both a smudging book and my first self-published book, Spiritual Skin.

It felt like another sign of alignment to the smudge sticks I created and my second book in creation. She also happens to have a Tibetan sound bowl next to it, and sound healing/channeling is so important to me also, with music being a key to my creative process.

I’ve shared feeling this next book is to go the traditional publishing route, so once again there’s that original vision expanding and growing. Just as the idea of smudge sticks turned into something more and my one blossoming tree is now becoming a full Faery garden of my dreams.

Life’s garden is growing and aligning.

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