Monthly Archives: September 2019
I shared about the ever-sweet, magickal new bunny friend that now graces my garden and outdoor sanctuary space with her presence.
She returned on Friday and we spent a lot of time again together in the side yard where she enjoyed nibbling on the leaves of a tree within a circle of lush bushes and other trees.
I immediately received her name – Hope – and could feel the message she carries.
Hope is so pure and innocent, and yet as tiny and vulnerable as she is, she has such grounded presence, depth, and desire to connect without fear. I can sense a wisdom beyond her years and a spirit that is far greater than her tiny, fragile body and existence.
Whenever she shows up she is either bathing peacefully in the sun’s full glow with intention, or is surrounded by filtered golden beams, rainbow light, and soft emanating glows.
She lets me hang out with her and come as near as I want, but we experience harmony in both our exchanges and sharing the land here that we both are blessed to live on.
I made a promise to the land and Faery realm here before we got this house, that I would take care of it and create a sanctuary for all of them to safely thrive in. I also promised to continue to do my own contributing of gifts to the collective and that together we would support a new reality’s potential into manifestation.
Everyday little animals happily thrive here and I welcome them to share in the bounty.
The bunnies come through much more deliberately, however. Their sightings are rare and aligned. So, I know there is purpose when I commune with any of them, which so far seems to be one at a time except for last year when both Blueberry and his mom were together.
Hope is a new generation of bunnies and synchronously the day she gave me her name, we also learned that our neighbors across the street brought into this world their new baby boy.
On this same day, also, I placed my mushroom statuary I had inside my office, alongside the flying faery that is taking off from atop a smaller mushroom.
I felt something was missing there to anchor the end of the path and it also beautifully puts all the little beings (rabbits, gnomes, and faeries) into the right size perspective.
I also ordered the little bird bath I wanted, which will go in the garden for the sweet bird friends (we have more now than ever too, including all sized robins, woodpeckers, sweet little chickadees, hummingbirds, steller’s jays, and a variety I don’t know). I will place some rocks in it to create a shallow part for the bees and butterflies too.
Mushrooms are considered good look and foretell of promising fortune at hand, as well as represent the force of nature and rebirth.
The bird bath brings a purifying and cleansing, as well as replenishing energy to the garden. Water is the elixir of life and birds are messengers between realms of earth and sky.
Everything speaking to me of potential and hope for the new.
Hope is the pause, presence, and passion that assists you to align with opportunity in divine timing.
It can be hard amidst challenges that seem never-ending and so heavy to see light at the end of the tunnel.
But often, miracles happen just when you thought there was nothing left to hope for and people tend to stop just short of that tipping point.
Every “setback” can be viewed as the potential for something more to be brought to light, greater alignment in process, or the opportunity to turn something from one thing to another (alchemy) and shift your vibration to match it. Setbacks can be a form of preparation and training to ensure you move forward into the new with a stronger anchor and greater readiness.
Much is shifting in the world on a daily and moment-to-moment basis and if you choose to only focus and dwell on one perspective – seeing only all the drama and catastrophe – not only will you be sucked into a cesspool of quicksand that keeps dragging you down, but you’ll also miss out on the rest (like things to be grateful for), which includes how those things you may not like so much are, and have, actually been fueling all of the positive changes and potentials.
Let’s remind each other of our wholeness, by embodying it more and more and embracing all potentials of experience, not just the challenging, discouraging, and depressing ones.
People often wonder how I can always see the silver lining in things, but it’s because I know from experience that things always turn around, as is the nature of cycles, and that even in my darkest hours, allowing energy to flow through me without judgment and inviting perspective brought release and hope to light.
This isn’t to deny that you may be experiencing something very dark and restrictive feeling, as that is a valid feeling to allow yourself to explore. But it is a way to actively engage yourself into learning how to make a safe space for your heart’s desires to see the light, regardless.
Sometimes that translates into surrendering into peaceful embrace of what is naturally unfolding, realizing the perfection of the bigger picture at hand that is at work for the highest good of all concerned.
And when doing so, we receive beautiful gifts and surprises that birth forth with renewable thriving.
This may not always be the case, as some things simply are showing us the impermanence of life, the continuity of life cycles, the natural evolution, constant change, and the need for loving release and surrender into the flow of unfolding that is presented to us.
There are reasons things unfold as they do.
Sometimes they call for us to take heed more and tend to love and nurturing that we need to be more present to, and which can make the difference in what we want to create, when we do so.
And sometimes we need to understand the message that there are times for us to move on and the culmination of closure has come.
Many times both of those come hand-in-hand.
All of which is not a loss, but simply a gentle embrace of potential adventure into the brilliance of your next choosing.
Something new is always available to us.
It may not be the same…and in fact it shouldn’t be.
It will feel different.
It temporarily may feel uncomfortable.
You might go through a short grieving period, as you let go with gratitude.
It might bring to light your fears and feel scary at first.
It will take an adjustment period while you integrate.
But it WILL present you opportunity in every way.
Opportunity for greater potential.
Opportunity for something more than you thought possible.
Opportunity to be more naturally you because you are in the flow of life, rather than using your energy to go against the current.
Thriving, rather than struggling and surviving, as Astrid demonstrated in her last share.
My sweet bunny friend, Hope, wants us not to lose all faith.
She wants us to kindle hope, because hope kindles change.
Not an attached, desperate, yearning kind of hope that tightens one’s ability to breathe, but a gentle, soft inhale of possibility.
Dark despair and resignation sets up self-fulfilling prophecies. What you believe has power over you.
Hope is a process of remembering your nature, and as nature always renews, so can you.
A huge theme playing out on the collective scene right now is that of struggling versus thriving. There is a huge dichotomy of very distinct and extreme opposites playing out in the world that showcases both people overcoming obstacles and really experiencing beautiful, freeing, and incredible lives and the complete opposite where the worst is at hand. Of course there are always shades of every kind of in between, but more of the contrasts are really at the forefront.
Astrid knows this experience of dichotomy, as she came from a survival-based life to now a thriving life and has been doing the work to open to living her best experience ever by being willing to reprogram her conditioning to a more heart-based rather than instinct-alone based approach.
She came from a background of fear that programmed her to live life as a fight, protecting herself and basically mustering up her assertion to survive. She hadn’t been shown love until she landed at SaveABunny, where eventually I took her home from, and she learned to live the fight, rather than surrender to the love within her. She then utilized this technique as a way to test people, as if someone couldn’t see past her protective barrier, then they weren’t worth her time.
Not only had her survival mode served her in keeping her alive through unhealthy and bad circumstances she found herself in, but it became her signature for now protecting herself until true and unconditional love could penetrate that wall.
In her case, her efforts ended up serving her and did draw me to her, but that isn’t always the case for everyone, as living in this mode makes it very difficult for others to care even when they want to, and it has the possible tendency of becoming permanent even when someone does show up that really does “see” you. It can become a forever mask taking over your nature – much like that episode of The Twilight Zone titled “The Masks” where the family’s hardened hearts become forever their “face” to the world.
So, it’s a risk to take in continuing in this vein.
It wasn’t her nature, or anyone’s nature really, to live this way. And with the right love, kindness, patience, and nurturing, Astrid has been able to flourish. Yet, it isn’t solely because I loved her – no, that is just opportunity’s hand outstretched. It is because she had the courage, commitment, desire, and trust to move through it that allowed her beautiful heart to open once again, where once it was closed.
It’s incredible how much she’s changed since first we met and she came home. She is so joyful, playful, demonstrative of love, and even asks for love now. There is no more fight around showing and sharing love. She has even changed her reactions around food time where she used to fight for her food, sometimes hitting it or her bowl out of my hand. But now she lets me put the food in her bowl and pet her without a grunt or paw punch.
In fact, alongside loving me to snuggle with her and coming to nudge me or nip my pant leg for love, she will give me her front paws in my hands and surrenders to me.
That is HUGE! Nestor used to do this with me, but Astrid always wanted all of her feet planted on the Earth, making her feel safe, solid, and in fight or flight stance mode. And now we hold hands and she trusts her paws in mine.
She has embraced thriving versus surviving and wanted me to share her evolution with others, as she knows how tough this is, but not impossible. Especially so, as we have had direct experience with others experiencing the same thing and how this is reflective of a collective unfolding across the globe.
In the end, it’s each individual’s choice and the best way to help is to live our lives as consistently an example as we can.
We each have different life experiences that condition us, but many have been taught and learned to accept that “life is hard” and that becomes their motto for living.
It becomes so ingrained that you may even get to the point of measuring your success or how well your life is going by how you fight through the challenges and curve balls life throws to you.
Even if you never get past the point of survival, if you struggle and maintain that status quo on the edge, then you feel accomplished. This is what life has become for you, because it’s all you’ve ever known.
You identify with the struggle, being a victim, and that only survival is necessary.
You may become so accustomed to living on the edge with instability and things always just about to fall apart, that it almost handicaps you from accepting anything different – and definitely not an easy life, let alone that people care or that you could ask for help.
It becomes a vicious circle so that when you get through the fire, you can’t even enjoy it or accept it, as a part of you is always waiting for, anticipating, and in essence magnetizing the next struggle.
You believe something’s wrong when life is suddenly okay and believe something must be on the way, which is self-fulfilling and self-sabotage at its finest.
You become accustomed to feeling that life isn’t worth it unless you are struggling and even though consciously you may not want to really think that, the subconscious has much more to tell you and begins to dictate the show. It believes life isn’t worth it unless you struggle. You identify with the fight and it becomes your self worth. Fighting against something is more comfortable than flowing. It is your defense mechanism and life value becomes dictated by struggles to overcome.
It’s almost like this way of life becomes your high and if it’s not hard you look for the next fix.
Whether your parents or family lived this way and instilled this kind of thinking, or you were forced out on the streets at an early age, or struggled silently trying to survive in any kind of abusive, oppressive, scary, or lack-based environment, chances are you might identify with some of this on some level. Many degrees of this kind of belief system, conditioning, and self-dialogue is running the show inside for so many of us.
“Life isn’t easy. Life is a struggle. Everything is hard. I don’t deserve to have it good. I’m not worthy. It’s not worth it if I don’t work hard for it. I haven’t accomplished anything unless it is a fight I struggle to win. I don’t deserve it easy. I don’t deserve love. I don’t deserve to thrive. Suffering is spiritual. Suffering is of service. Giving is more noble than receiving. Abundance is wrong when others have nothing. Others have it worse, so I can’t have more because that’s not fair and is dishonorable,” and the list goes on of inner dialogue connected to this way of being.
It’s not a dialogue we want to have, but have learned to adopt it as the “norm” because we don’t know a different way is possible, were taught to believe anything else is not for people like us, and/or had no one to mirror an example of another option.
Identifying with the struggle and being a victim is self-perpetuating and can be super hard to get out of. Especially when you add in feeling bad about yourself, anger, resentment, inability to forgive, defensiveness, and self-preservation needs at the basic of levels. It can become your form of measuring accomplishment and worthiness for everything.
The rush of walking on fire feeds the burn.
Struggle is comfort food that feeds a collective disorder keeping many in different forms of slavery and survival modes.
It’s hard when that’s all you’ve known from childhood or perhaps even from other lives of destitute.
And from that struggle and suffering, it’s easy to see why so many identify with others who are experiencing the same.
This can lead us to want to help others and work with supporting people and creating services that help those in need because we have been there ourselves and either made it through or still identify in part with that.
I’ve seen it also in the form of projection and if unable to shift it within, then some people will start identifying with certain people or children, a cause, animals, and the environment because we can understand the suffering. If you don’t have a healthy grasp of this dynamic however, it can lead to your creating more suffering for yourself in order to try to save one or all of these. And so the vicious circle continues.
If you don’t have a deep well of nourishment, you will never have enough to help those you identify with that are suffering.
Survival becomes the focus rather than thriving.
A way of validating being a victim, without having had an example for empowerment.
That is until you burn out, hit rock bottom, or maybe worse.
Astrid and I don’t want to see you hit rock bottom, although we both know from personal experience it may be the only way out and through.
A willingness to open to a healthy understanding of this dynamic at work within can help start to make shifts, draw in possibilities, support, or the right people that can make a difference.
It’s not necessarily simple and easy, but it also doesn’t have to be hard. We can start by changing this dialogue we have around everything and catching what and how we say things, as our words carry power. Manifestation can be instant these days in both the ways you may want or don’t want, and the belief system that you speak will magnetize its mirror.
The more each of us are willing to look within with curiosity of why we believe the way we do, why we act out as we do, why our behaviors conclude in the same kind of outcomes, why we have tightening in our hearts….the more we open the gateways to shedding light on change.
Taking small, more easily attainable steps to shift toward a different approach to life is easier than trying to tackle the whole thing all at once. These small steps pave the way for momentum into larger ones and starts to retrain us to a more natural way of well being that leads to thriving instead of surviving.
In the end, we each must choose to want to change, but being willing to is the first step.
If Astrid hadn’t been willing to be open to me and slowly trust, with my consistent efforts, then she may never have experienced living a more peace-filled life.
As a prey animal and rabbit, she is already conditioned to live by instinct and survival, so it’s even more of an amazing challenge that she overcame, compounded by her early life struggles. But it wasn’t her desire to be that way. She found a way to survive, yes, but she also found a way to hope when hope seemed impossible.
She had more to give and wisdom to share, but it may never have come through without willingness meeting opportunity’s hand.
How many times has opportunity knocked at your door in some form and you were too afraid to accept it?
Sometimes it just takes that one offer of your hand, or paw in Astrid’s case, to make a difference.
The sweet and simple little garden I’ve been working on came full circle this last Friday – perfect timing before having weekend guests staying with us at the Forest Portal. It’s been incredibly enriching to manifest from my imagination and was a step-by-step process that reflected the “garden of life.” I actually had the busiest week and weekend I’ve had in a long time, so it’s amazing I did finish it before visitors arrived. It’s also a wonderful gift for me right now, as the weather is in that in-between seasonal state while summer transitions to autumn. This makes it ideal for me to sit on my bench and harness the energy for things in my life.
It’s in the perfect place of the side yard with privacy, right amount of sun enough for the garden plants, but enough shade and filtered light to sit comfortably.
It is also surrounded by trees, including two guardians.
I saw in my mind’s eye how I wanted it to be and little by little, each piece, plant, and detail came together. I couldn’t be more pleased with it.
It’s not super fancy, but it’s a mix of cultivated with a wild, organic feel. I do everything by intuition and create from my heart.
My intention was to create a magickal little realm that would be sanctuary for the little forest animals, an enchanted playground for the Elementals and Faeries, a garden delight for Astrid to enjoy seeing from our shared room glass doors, a sacred space to sit in meditation, read, work on my book, and even do client call sessions from, a beautiful view from my desk when I work, and an intentional portal that harnesses the energy I feel there. Of course in winter it will be covered in snowy enchantment, but will still be magickal.
Some of the flowers are already done for the season, but you can see some of the colorful beauty still blooming.
I love seeing the garden in different lighting, so I added several photos to give you a feel for those shifting energies.
And here are some photos that revealed magickal energy where the flying Faery that sits atop a mushroom is, as well as the tree portal door, crystals, and lounging gnome.
The sitting area had to be leveled and supported with retaining walls, I had to plant and mulch the area where the plants are, we created a paver patio and small paver walkway I lined with stones to the sitting area, and then I added the special little touches like arch with tiny solar flower lights, two small solar lanterns to light the path, and brought out my little statues and details to complete the enchanted world.
This includes two gnomes, two bunnies, two faeries, and a faery portal door, as well as some crystal offerings.
I already had four owl guardians and “grow” mushroom at the tree stump lined, larger path, along with tons of crystals and treasures that line the path to the room I share with Astrid.
Everything inviting to the Otherworld and Natural world, as well as protective.
I promised to share photos of it completed so I hope you enjoy these.
Today is our first rain, which we usually get in August, so everything is getting a beautiful refresh with the transitional thunderstorms.
Since I’ve been working on my garden, visits have been regular from a new little rabbit friend I’m so in love with. On Friday, while I was finishing up, this little one was waiting for me to come out and do so.
I sense this one is a little girl, but I have not received a name for her yet. She is as tiny as Blueberry was when he first came to visit last year. This baby has no fear of me and was just meditating in the sun when I came out to work on finishing everything.
I decided to sit with her for a while and she let me get as close as three feet away – I didn’t do anymore than that, just to make sure she stayed at ease, but she was as calm as could be. Only her little nose moved slowly, but she was peace-filled and loved the connecting. I started talking to her and telling her stories and she just listened.
I then went to work and she ended up hopping over to the garden while I was planting and watched me from under a bush. She stayed with me about 45 minutes until I was done and then made her way to the front yard.
She has such a sweet, playful energy, but is very wise beyond years. I’ve also seen her grazing on the grass and clover in the back yard while two chipmunks play all around her.
I love seeing generations of bunnies making this home and my intention with the garden is to create an even more inviting sanctuary for them and I told her to bring more friends. I’ve seen more little animals and pollinators than ever come around including hummingbirds, butterflies, bumble bees, all kinds of birds, chipmunks, squirrels, mice, lizards, and rabbit. I love it and so does Astrid.
I hope you enjoy this little look at our enchanted garden portal. It will be fun to see how it evolves over the seasons in reflection to my own life.
And speaking of little portals, remember that the big Labor Day Sale ends tonight for all little magickal portal creations in our Etsy shop with 100% going to a rabbit microsanctuary at:
There are many good morsels of information to chew on and digest in Lee’s new September Energy Update. Once again we’re going to hear the importance of self-care and going deeper at this time so that you can show up in an even bigger, more loving, and extra compassionately present way in the world. Healers especially have challenge around this, as you feel always to be giving outwardly or working hard, which fills your days with “being too busy” for any time for yourself.
Grief, with the birthing of new things is also on a high, and that can be grieving an old part of you, as well as an old way of life – not just around loss of people in your life. So, honoring the healing process will bring through the transformation.
Lee’s touch-in on authentic power I feel will have some good wisdom for you too. I especially like this:
“You can be the person who affects millions or you can be the person who affects two people.”
There really isn’t a difference.
Pushing yourself to exhaustion outside really reflects a desire to connecting and creating within, he adds. You’re not just here to bring through collective transformation, but to also experience your personal transformation as an extension of that. Remember, these are connected and affect one another.
Integration is important as well and that is supported by being more present, peace-filled, and grounded in your life, so that the external things anchor even more profoundly.
And through it all, listening to your heart, instead of only the voices in your head, will lead you into wiser actions. I love his personal example of all the things he thought he was supposed to do and that were expected of him from others, but when he tuned into himself he realized his body didn’t want any of that. He realized that no one would actually die or anything serious would happen if he didn’t meet those mental goals.
So the question to ask is:
“How does my heart feel?”
I hope you find Lee’s message supportive this month for what you’re navigating.