Walking on the Edge ~ Creators Creating Personal Alchemy


As we walked into the energy of May 11th’s New Moon, it called us to feel into the old and decide what heavy baggage we no longer wanted to carry forth into the new. With the Moon being in Taurus, the energy of what ever our personal goals and intentions were for entering this cycle, there was going to be a need for patience and grounding, since Earthy Taurus moves slowly. There would be a nudge toward more mindfulness and clarity on what you really want under the influence of this energy before actually proceeding, and a lot of persistent patience and trust would be in need of nurturing.

If you experienced a few more challenging, confusing or even darker days leading up to the New Moon, you’re not alone. I did, too, and others I heard from chimed in. It’s not unusual, in general, for that to culminate around this cycle, but there was something more going on that some of us sensitives seemed to notice that was riding along the currents as well.

What ever the themes and energies were that emerged for you, these I feel are sacred messages as to what’s to be alchemized not just for the lunar month, but also the journey at large, ahead.

You may have sensed a shift to more material and physical things to include your body, your home, daily, and simple routines or mundane things and these would both be helpful, as well as inspiring creative changes like redecorating, wearing new colors and styles, experimenting with new foods, and creating beauty all around you.

As creators, walking into the new we want to see, with trust and courage, is what’s needed – not knowing the end result and not knowing how, but moving into it and watching it work out in the moment. When in doubt, we will need to remember to foster words of gentle encouragement to ourselves and look inward to understand our personal alchemy. When feeling discouraged or lost, we may need to call upon support systems – on and/or off Earth, or simply from within.

While we may need to learn to be our own muse at times, there are many muses around us that can be uplifting and inspiring. Anything can be our muse – a person, animal, plant, color, energy, feeling, place, spirit guide, etc. They will carry codes of creation to spark new realities.

In any event, these are the times of the creators – you – and what we’re journeying deeper into is bringing forth personal alchemy in a way that helps make changes in your life more fun and with greater ease, which ultimately has an effect for the collective as well.

If you find yourself at a crossroads and unable to see what’s next, you’re not lost or alone. I find that the further we journey in these rapidly accelerated times, the less we’re going to have foretelling of what’s around the corner. We’re being invited into a different way of experience that leads from the heart’s alignment to spirit.

We’ve oscillated between choosing either mission or love (what’s the most far-reaching responsible and compassionate thing or where our heart tugs) and we are learning to merge these so there is no sacrifice.

It’s not just a human endeavor, but a cosmic journey we’re embarking on and helping to harmonize.

It also feels to be about going beyond black and white to play in the gray – the middle way.

It’s not a clear cut path, as we’re creating it as we go along and many are not only working with us, but awaiting and cheering us on to embody this alchemy.

Two days before the New Moon, I felt a very heavy energy and it felt like it wanted to consume me, discourage, and close the shutters on the light I saw through the window. I found myself being pulled down and ego wanted reason to stay in that, wallow and linger there, and even fully give up. I’d been aware of this energy for a while, but had managed to keep it at bay. Then it charged forth just like that Taurus bull, but with fiery eyes and sharp horns staring straight at me, I had to decide how to dance with him – would I fight the bull, tease and taunt it, run away from the bull, surrender to defeat by the bull, or?

I decided to use love and speak the language of the heart. I stepped into my vibrational frequency in order for personal alchemy to come through.

And this helped open a door that was closed before. It wasn’t the answer, but it created a way for something else to emerge.

From there, I still had the heaviness, even though I “bought” time and thoughts, visions, and feelings swirled within me. Ego still wanted a reason to linger there, but intuition stepped in.

I felt exhausted and betrayed by the energies unfolding. Being in nature always helps, especially being active outdoors, and so I did keep moving the energy and being curious about what it all meant.

Contrary to the ego voice, when I returned home, intuition told me to go out and do my wildflower seeding even though I felt like doing nothing. I immediately started feeling the energy shift and my energy rising, little by little. By the end, I was revitalized both with energy and perspective, and hope returned. This act that my intuition guided me toward, was a literal “seeding” of new intentions and potentials.

I watered them after.

The next day following, I did more outdoor activity and really moved the energy in a bigger way to the point of having conversations out loud with my star family and the Universe, as I hiked and passed through different stages of feelings. Nature was there to absorb and help recharge all that I released, and transmutation took shape.

After that vulnerable and raw release, even more perspective and doors opened, and although I didn’t actually arrive at any particular answer, there was possibility where there hadn’t felt to be any before.

And by the time the day of the New Moon arrived, energies continued to shift and soften and has continued as so.

Still no answers, but more was revealed and I can feel a way even though I don’t know what it is.

And through all of this I’ve had a lot of interesting messengers showing up, which point to my sensing the approach of one of the biggest shifts of my life upcoming.

This is all indicating a call to a new path opening and changes ahead.

And although you see me here, I have actually been more inner these days in order to recalibrate what I’m downloading and how that will look.

I don’t see what new world I’ll land in, but perhaps it’s a new one I’m creating as a creator, which will take some time to manifest.

Or, maybe it’s the world I remember best, calling me back.

Whenever I am on the precipice of major change, hawk shows up as both confirmation things are being supported behind the scenes and as guide to help me with passage between realms. The day after the heaviest of feelings, she flew above and landed atop a barren old tree in the clearing to make sure I saw her and waited for me. As I approached, she looked down and watched me the whole way to her. After I reached her and thanked her, she then took flight above me and circled for about three minutes, close, then farther, and back again. I could see her beautiful feathers clearly.

I’ve been spending a lot of extra time outdoors in receptive and releasing mode because, as I mentioned, it helps me to move energy and listen. If I’m not out on the trails, I’ve been heavily in my garden implementing new ideas, or in extra close communion with Astrid, my cocreator.

In my spare time, I’ve been completing one task at a time, finishing projects, and now stepping into reorganizing and redecorating my office, garage, closet, and kitchen pantry – all feeling right in line with the New Moon energies, as well as the earthing time.

As I shared earlier, the last five days have brought some interesting animal guides to me as messengers. Besides the unusual now THREE bald eagle sightings within less than two weeks, coyote crossed behind our house just as I looked up from the kitchen while cooking, a coyote pack howled close by while I was gardening, followed by an owl hooting in the trees, I found part of a skunk’s tail fur, a large piece of porcupine fur and quills, an old fallen bird’s nest, and

Old fallen bird’s nest and large piece of porcupine fur/quills
Same as above, but with addition of goose down feathers, beautiful dead moth, and skunk fur

discovered robins have returned and built a new nest at the same place above the eaves of the front door for their family.

There were also four turkey vultures that circled and coasted on the wind in front of us while we sat on a rock cliff overlooking Tahoe – that’s when the third eagle showed up right after being

chased by smaller birds – I found a beautiful dead moth in a box where some of my gardening things were kept in the garage that looked like it had been deliberately preserved, I found a plethora of various bird feathers (one appears to be hawk), including a soft, tender bunch of new goose down feathers from

geese friends that left it behind for me, Dave found a very large black raven feather while I connected with hawk, and six geese followed us, nested near us by the water and waited a few

hours for us to return from our bike ride. I also found a huge spider downstairs that was one of the biggest I’ve seen in a while and the first zebra swallowtail of the season glided toward us on the trail.

Then there’s this gorgeous, huge silvery “gray” squirrel who has been visiting profusely outside my office and in the garden. He’s quite the shape shifter and little wizard.

Here he is on the light just outside my office door, peeking in
Here he is on my garden bench – look at that gorgeous, huge, fluffy tail

Transformation is afoot in a very big and contrasting way, and I feel that the only way to navigate it all is to be in and create personal alchemy right now, as that’s all we have at our fingertips.

Knowing our own vibration and how to manage and raise it, becomes vital in these times.

I’m seeing how energies are trying to intervene and even confuse, deter, or try to block the new, but you truly can find another way.

Even if it just opens a door, or buys time, implementing intuitive being and your own inner muse frequency can ignite personal alchemy for change to ignite.

Sometimes you feel like softly closing your petals for a while and other times you bubble with exuberance to open them wide. Where ever you find yourself is perfect and doesn’t change this fact – a flower you are.

I’ve been observing my new tulips daily, watching as they open and close in response to the light and heat. They aren’t diminished by this contraction of tucking in for the night or folding up on a rainy day.

It’s a way to keep their pollen dry and protected so that when they do open to the next morning’s light, they are ready to dance with visiting pollinators and share their sweetness they have enriched to gift.

About Tania Marie's Blog

Creating life as a work of art with a magick rabbit by my side. I remember my song. Do you? Artist, Author and Reiki Master Teacher with over 25 years' experience in creative healing arts and metaphysical studies. Tania inspires people globally to return to natural harmony, draw forth imagination to manifest dreams, embody creative empowerment, and live more magickally and abundantly from their most natural frequency – in essence, Tania helps you to remember your song.

Posted on May 13, 2021, in Uncategorized and tagged , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 14 Comments.

  1. Thank you for sharing your heart and journey Tania. It seems you’re in a cocoon stage, getting ready to transform. 🦋

  2. Reblogged this on Laura Bruno's Blog and commented:
    A beautiful, heartfelt share from sweet Faery Twin Tania Marie. I know many were feeling this heaviness leading up to the New Moon. My own personal transits brought very different energies, but the collective heaviness comes through. We are in the midst of massive seismic changes in collective reality. This is a poignant time. Faith and nature feed into each other. When one wavers, it helps to lean into whichever feels more accessible.

    Much love!

    • thank you dear L ❤ both synchronously and confirmationally, after i posted this blog i went up to get breakfast and had recalled a dream i shared with dave that had to do with a mutual friend. then he tells me, oh yeah, i forgot to tell you that two nights ago i had a dream about you. he continues to say that in it he and i were standing at the edge of a cliff looking down at water below. it was like 100+ feet down and he remembered feeling on edge because it was so steep – unusual for him, since i'm the one with the height fear. and then he said i proceeded to the very edge and he gets scared thinking i'm going to jump off. instead, he says i dive off the cliff into the water. i smiled after he told me and said, i had just posted a blog titled "walking on the edge" and it did involve walking into the new without knowing how, or end result. i think you can put together the symbolism 😉 love you!

      • Beautiful confirmations! Also, I have been hearing about many dreams involving a precipice and somehow safely navigating that — whether diving into water below or somehow, miraculously being placed back on top after having slipped off. This seems to be a collective them right now. love you, too!

      • Always riding the Pisces collective stream 🐟

  3. Desiree Bergeron

    Tania, this post mirrored SO much of what I was experiencing leading up to the New Moon…. it is absolutely (nearly) unbelievable. And to make it even more amazing, (no surprise….) Is the fact that I’ve seen and had MANY of the same animal guides as you, while releasing and processing some very heavy duty energies/stuff…… Yup—Porcupine, Red Tail, an Owl calling right outside my window, and this morning while caring for my flowering baskets in our front porch, this giant, perfect, exquisite moth hovered over the flowers and with powerful, certain wing beats, flew off into the sky! As if to say…… “You’ve made it through!! Keep flying to the light….. keep creating…..keep healing….. keep living….. keep loving….. keep being…..” I experienced some extreme, extreme fatigue (to the point of not wanting to move or do anything….and feeling almost like giving up!!) in my body while releasing (old patterns I wanted to, but which my ego was resisting, causing me deep unneeded suffering—) and finding my way through this cycle. But as you, I gently and lovingly placed myself on my yoga mat (although I wanted to do nothing as well!!!) and kept the energy moving….. as well as time in nature…. again, creating space, flow, and keeping the energy moving. Also I journaled/wrote lots and lots releasing things too/
    Created sacred space for extra self care/reflection and rest. The result is, (among other things), more clarity, and more being at peace with that ‘middle ground’ place you were talking of….. and also drawing personal needed boundaries more deeply in my heart so I can be at my best FOR ME… not just others! So much more to all of this too….. this is just the essence of it all. THANK YOU for this post—I needed it so much and it’s so supportive to have read this share! xx I love you. 🙏🏻🌟🌟
    🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷

    • wow des! i knew of some of the shared things, but to hear all of this…my goodness! thank you, thank YOU for this share! another confirmation of the energies and huge shifts. another very sensitive and star connected friend of mine told me about the same energies at the same time – to the day – as well. very interesting! and in the time leading up we’ve also experienced two kind of major shakes from earthquakes on the california side of the lake. so not that far. whenever i am shaking up things inwardly, i have noticed that the earth shakes along with me. hopefully it’s an easing of release so that a big explosion doesn’t need to be. in any event, i’m keeping on high awareness and extra mindfulness. i love you too!

  4. My mother’s funeral is tomorrow and there are 30 people. They are so afraid of the ones that aren’t vaccinated, that they told everyone else no hugs, stay 6 feet away and so on etc….even though they may not see each other again, it is discrimination for those who cannot get vaccinated for one reason or another. This saddens many and separates people. In seeing this post it reminds me that all of us have family of choice….and you are one of those people. Your insights, museings, and love of all that is….very similar to my heart. Thank you for the pictures and they are always elevating while being thoughtful.~

    • i understand sherry. everything is a separation and conflict we are living through right now. i only hope that we can find a way to harmonize things. step by step…heart to heart….i’m grateful for our shared connections and agree…family of choice ❤ love and warm hugs

  5. Lovely Post, Thanks for sharing…. ❤

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