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As I emerge from the last three days of full immersion during the private retreat I was hosting, I’m feeling the morning freshness as a reflection of this new cycle dawning within me as well.
We shared a very rich experience, which I’ll post more about in the coming days, but today I’m headed off to the snow to bask in the purity of its essence and to bathe in the exhilaration of the new with a ski day.
These three days were experiences of how to live in full alignment with the truth and nature within us and we nourished ourselves in all the ways that enrich us to our core and that penetrated to every cell within.
And that is the question I would like you to ponder…..
Ask yourself, how can I live each moment in alignment with what my truth is, having my words and actions line up with the essence of who I am?
And when you answer that, then follow that up with consistent action and depth of being….every single moment of every single day.
This is an excerpt from a post I’ve shared before, but the theme is prevalent and therefore I feel to share it again.
Loving, nurturing, caring for, and supporting you, while also listening to your needs and giving to yourself, as well as being willing to receive are vital.
While I know these are some challenging things to embrace for ourselves…they truly are key. I can’t tell you how instrumental your own love for yourself is.
And while I don’t believe solely in reprogramming through affirmations, reading and reciting these words to ourselves with honest reflection and vulnerability, can help to uncover the energetic, emotional, mental, and physical blocks to them so that we can start to shift back into our most natural selves, one layer at a time. This takes some work and courage, but with dedicated commitment to yourself and to living the life you desire, you CAN get there.
So pay attention to the resistance, tightness, pains, thoughts, feelings, etc. when you read and tell yourself these things. What messages do those pains and areas have to share with you? What does your inner child desire from you to support and nurture? What has she/he longed to hear or receive from you?
What you desire from another, or life itself, is the very thing you hold the key to gifting to yourself right now.
“Be gentle, kind and comforting with your inner child as you uncover and release the old, negative messages within you. Say: All my changes are comfortable, easy and fun.
I love myself totally in the now. Love is the biggest eraser there is. Love erases even the deepest imprinting because love goes deeper than anything. If your childhood imprinting was very strong, and you keep saying, ‘It’s all their fault. I can’t change,’ you stay stuck. Do a lot of mirror work. Love yourself in the mirror from the top of your head to the tips of your toes. Dressed and naked. Look into your eyes and love you and your child within.”
“Each one of us is always working with the three-year old child within us. Most of us, unfortunately, spend our time yelling at that child, and then wondering why our lives don’t work.
I embrace my inner child with love.
Take care of your inner child. It is the child who is frightened. It is the child who is hurting. It is the child who does not know what to do. Be there for your child. Embrace it and love it and do what you can to take care of its needs. Be sure to let your child know that no matter what happens, you will always be there for it. You will never turn away or run away. You will always love this child.”
“At least three times a day, stand with your arms open wide and say: I am willing to let the love in. It is safe to let the love in.
I am worth loving.
You don’t have to earn love any more than you have to earn the right to breathe. You have a right to breathe because you exist. You have a right to be loved because you exist. That is all you need to know. You are worthy of your own love. Don’t allow your parents or society’s negative opinions or popular prejudices make you think that you are not good enough. The reality of your being is that you are lovable. Accept this and know this. When you really do, you will find that people treat you as a lovable person.”
I LOVE that I got to complete my sacred tattoo design cycle with this joyous, magickal, and celebratory piece above.
What a perfect note to end on.
I’ve been working away on designs since my return from sabbatical…not all I have shared, as some people like to wait until they get them done to reveal them.
But here are two of the most recent ones, with the above, as mentioned being my official last.
If you don’t know what that means when I say it’s my last, I had made a brief announcement a couple of weeks ago that I am not accepting any more new clients for designs at this time.
Sacred tattoo designing will take a hiatus in my life for now.
This service will be available again, but at an undetermined time yet known.
I’ll share more details about why this break is being implemented in my upcoming February newsletter next week.
For now, I hope you enjoy these peeks into some pretty amazing souls, with the energy they have to collectively reflect for you from their essence.
Yesterday we set off to our home base for the next two weeks, which has us resting in beautiful Pine Grove, which is just below Kirkwood ski resort near South Lake Tahoe.
I woke to a dusting of AM snow that continued drifting down for a few hours, but is all melted now.
The days ahead here are looking to be sun-infused, although crisply winter-filled. A perfect blend to off-set the skiing and snow-shoeing ahead where the snow is quite dense.
Days have been filled lately and so it will be nice to stay grounded for a longer period right now while things are transitioning for me, as well as a lot of things coming to closure, more purging and releasing, some beautiful sharing to be experienced, lots of nature and snow time, as well as family celebrations.
Today and tomorrow may be my last blogs for a few days, as beginning Wednesday night through Sunday morning I’ll be immersed in hosting a beautiful soul here for her private immersive retreat. I’m sure there will be some lovely insights and reflections that come from that to share, but just so you know I may not be back to blogging until Monday.
I know that everyone’s going through their own version of experiencing current energy streams and that may be all over the map.
To me, it feels like a lot is coming to a head and popping or getting ready to pop collectively. That may be exciting or scary, depending on how much you’ve been ready to see without veils, or continue trying to keep your head buried in the sand.
Like it or not, the veils are going to be removed and clear perception will either be something you celebrate, or something that may shocktify – shockingly jolt you into a soul level shift.
That message of clear vision and perception seemed to come flying at me yesterday while we were on our drive to our current landing.
While on this stunning little two lane road that was filled with gorgeous vistas of hills, trees, streams, rivers, and small water falls, suddenly a beautiful Golden Eagle swooped down and came right to our front window hovering with talons out and golden feathers glowing in the light. I could see his gorgeous eyes, strong beak, and markings, as he displayed himself brilliantly and powerfully.
It was quite an awe-inspiring sight and gift.
And that experience coupled with another powerful dream last night that once again was asking me to step into my full power now – (without going into details) this time it was by way of lineage or destiny that my role was now being asked of me to take command of even if that felt odd right now, all was reflected in reiteration with this share on Eagle’s symbolism of spirit vision and strength by http://www.shamanicjourney.com:
“Eagle asks us to recognise that the earth is not our only home, as well for us to join it in the flight to our true home – the world of Spirit.
Eagles are majestic and bear a powerful presence. They can be social birds, but they do need isolation from human intrusion to breed in the wild. If a human comes to close or touches their nest, they are very likely to abandon it. Both the male and female eagles incubate the eggs and share the duties of raising their young.
The eagle is an incredibly patient being, often perching in a tree, holding the same position for hours on end. Those with this power animal are shown how to master the art of patience in every area of their life. For within the energy of patience all things are possible.
Eagle teaches us how to go through life without becoming attached to anything, how to accept what comes our way and see everything as a gift from the universe. With their acute hearing they hunt as much by ear as by sight. If eagle soars into your life, the ability to hear spiritually and psychically will awaken.
Eagle reminds us to communicate with All That Is on a daily basis, so the gifts offered you can be utilised fully. Keeping this up removes judgement from our consciousness. When we cease to judge, we speak with encouragement and kindness towards others. Lessons that are linked with judgement are part of this medicine and sure to be coming your way.
If Eagle is your power animal, you feel the need to have an involvement with creation, a willingness to experience extremes, a willingness to use your abilities, a willingness to seek out your true emotions. You must become much more than you ever imagined would be possible.
Eagle symbolises a state of being that is reached through inner work, understanding and passing the initiation tests that come about from reclaiming our personal power. Eagle is the gift of clear vision with which one can truly see, to live in balance with heaven and Earth. Eagle shows you how to look above so you are able to touch Grandfather Sun with your heart, to love the Shadow as much as the Light. You are being asked to give yourself permission to be free in order to reach the joy that your heart longs for.”
Because this feels to also be collectively connected with current energies, I then ask you the same I’d ask myself:
Are you ready to see things clearly and to live with conscious perception?
Are you ready to hear the callings and be with trusting patience all the way through to your dreams?
Are you ready to embrace what’s really going on and what your true feelings are sharing?
Are you ready to step into and claim your personal power and be more than you’ve imagined possible?
Are you ready to live in the freedom and joy of your heart’s desires?
Golden Eagle swoops in to grace us all with his medicine to assist us with these potent and sudden shifts taking place.
Nature’s gifts are for us all to embrace. Or not. :) The choice is always yours.
Yesterday we visited my family at their home in Reno so that we could celebrate my mom’s 73rd birthday with her.
Of all days, it was a crazy snow day, which made the one hour and 20-30 minute drive, two hours to get there in the late morning and three hours to get home at night…snow, chains, and all.
But it was worth it to be with her, as these special times won’t always be around.
That’s the same way I feel about everything.
This moment right now is what matters and making the most out of it and being all you can be now and expressing all that you feel now is what counts.
I did that with Nestor when she was alive, and with all of my little ones, loved ones, and Earth herself.
I mention Nestor, as today is her Earthly birthday – day after my mom’s – although she has gone on to her timeless form. She left Earth at 5….that was already 8 years ago!
Wow…I’m continually marveling at the way time is no longer something we can measure..We are experiencing the eternal more and more.
Yesterday we enjoyed my mom’s cooking with some vegan lentil soup followed by a vegan birthday cake my dad had ordered, which was chocolate with raspberry and chocolate mousse instead of icing.
The funny, but I thought perfect, little thing that happened with the birthday cake was that we received the wrong cake – or did we?
Of course ours was supposed to say “Happy Birthday Marie” – my mom’s name – but instead we got “Happy Birthday Grace”.
I said, we could all use a little more grace in our lives, embody a little more grace each day, and indeed are blessed to be graced with so much love and support all around us – off and on Earth.
My mom has always had the grace of angels around and within her.
What a blessing for her, as I know the thing she loves most is being surrounded by her family.
I’m glad we could give that to her and I know Nestor was right there with us, as she shared a special bond with my mom as well.
An abundance of love to both my mom and Nestor.
Thank you for reminding us of sharing love right here and now.
“Happiness cannot be traveled to, owned, earned, worn or consumed. Happiness is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace, and gratitude.” ~Denis Waitley
Yesterday we ventured over to Squaw Valley Ski Resort area to go snow shoeing at Shirley Canyon. And although many people were skiing, snow shoeing was only for the adventurous.
We only came across one other couple the entire time we journeyed up the canyon, due to snow pack conditions that warned of equipment being necessary, which we had.
So it was just us, the mountain, the trees, the flowing water, the snow, ice, and sky, and a lot of forest spirits, Faeries, and snow bunnies!
It couldn’t have been a more picturesque day though…solitude and serenity abound.
It was extremely magickal as we crossed over brooks, came upon little waterfalls, discovered snow bunny tracks near the top where we turned around after the tracks ending – all along following the flow of the water in the canyon, on our way up and back down.
The skies opened to powder blue with the sun illuminating the snow covered peaks.
And then it started to snow as we neared the bottom – perfect timing.
I even made a snow Faery (some call it a snow angel) at the top, which I later discovered upon returning home, how amazingly synchronous and aligned that was.
Facebook does this thing where they show you posts you’ve shared on that same day, but a different year. And on this particular day – yesterday – I had shared a post and photo from three years ago to the day of me up at Tahoe Meadows (about an hour from where I was yesterday) making a snow Faery on our snow shoeing adventure.
Only difference was in that one I kept my snow shoes on and yesterday I took them off, but the funny thing was that I had even mentioned to Dave yesterday that the last time I did this I kept them on and then here pops up the photo to prove it, which happened to be on the same day in 2013.
Making snow Faeries through the time portal!
And this morning I woke up to a few inches of snow surrounding the Magick Bus and it was just beautiful with the warm glow of inside light and warm coziness set against the morning light just illuminating the chilly snow covered landscape that draped a white blanket around us.
I can’t get enough of just sitting here taking it all in.
I hope you enjoy the winter beauty from my Faery heart to yours.
“You can decide to stop being affected by the outer world and, instead, to affect the world around you with your peace. Inner peace comes from within, not from without.” ~Orin through Sanaya Roman
Just a quick little update on my sweet Moth friend for those of you who were wanting to know what happens.
If you don’t remember this story, here is the background so that you understand the context of this share: Honoring Your Personal Timing ~ Seeing the Moth in Me
Well, in the two days that followed the post she disappeared.
She was no longer on my plants anywhere and didn’t show up in sight somewhere else.
I felt it was a good sign that her wings finally were ready and she had flown. However, that meant she was stuck somewhere inside.
Dave was concerned at first that one of the cats may have gotten her before she flew, but then figured we would see part of her body somewhere close and we didn’t.
I had the sense she was alive and well somewhere.
Last night I discovered where.
Apparently she had gone into the shower, likely because it has a skylight that allows the outdoor natural light in. But I didn’t realize this until I went to turn on the water to get it warm for my shower.
I turned it on and closed the door. Then checked a minute later and I find her fluttering around in the water on the ground. The water had been filling about a half inch to an inch recently because with all of the rain the ground had softened, which had the RV unleveled slightly. We fixed this later, but it had been pouring so much that it made it hard to get out and put wood under the levelers.
Anyway, I immediately cupped my hands and helped her out. If I hadn’t gotten to her, she’d likely have drowned. She fluttered around in my hands trying to dry her wings.
I was just so happy to see her and to know she could now fly.
Poor thing, now going through this and having her wings wet, so that she has to get them dry and strong once again.
I couldn’t put her outside because it was pouring, so I decided to return her to my plants so she could dry overnight.
She didn’t want off of my hand though. She was clinging and wanting to stay with me.
Dave giggled saying, “She knows her momma.”
Finally I did get her onto one of my plants and enclosed the area to keep her safe for the night.
This morning I went to check on her and there she was still on the plant with her wings closed.
She must have been recuperating all night.
I’m just so happy that she can fly, but boy she’s going through a lot this little one.
She does remind me of what my journey has been like too and probably many of yours.
Many challenges, many times of feeling like I’ve been drowning, overcome with emotions, hitting my rock bottom, unsure of the next course of action, but still getting back up, persevering, and willing my way to fly, as I know I was born to do.
As we all are.
As this little Moth is.
Don’t let life’s challenges keep you down. Even when it looks like all hope is gone, there is always a way, a helping hand you can embrace, another perspective or choice you haven’t tried, another path to your wings taking flight.
I decided to reintroduce her to the great outdoors again, feeling that she’s much better off outside in Nature now than she is indoors where she can catch the attention of the cats since she can fly now.
I actually just returned from taking her outside for release.
I put out my hand to my plant and she climbed on. I then went outside and walked over to the closest tree.
I stood there giving her Reiki and she opened her wings to feel the cool air on them.
As she did they began to quickly vibrate, as if she was taking in the vibrations all around, through them, and as Nature reminded every cell within her to awaken to herself.
Earth’s vibrations pulsed through her and she suddenly took to flight, softly fluttering from my hand as she showed me proudly how she could fly.
My heart was joyous.
Then she came to rest on the trunk of the tree. I think she needs time to adjust and so I surrounded her with more Reiki, asked the Faeries to touch her wings with their magick, and asked the tree to protect her.
I will check on her a bit later, but I feel now she is where she’s meant to be and she has gone back to her true Mother – Nature.
It started raining on and off yesterday while my parents came to visit for the first time, which created a cozy space for our family reunion, but also seemed symbolic of emotions and deep cleansing and renewal.
It then started raining in the night and continues this morning consistently. It sounds and feels so wonderful in our RV surrounded by the forest.
There is a snow storm coming tomorrow and Sunday.
RV living creates a greater appreciation for Nature and the changing seasons and weather because we’re right in all of it, always.
And at times like this it feels like a little warm Faery cottage on wheels or Hobbit home, if you prefer. ;)
And it was times like yesterday that will be etched in my heart’s memories.
It was the first time my parents got to see our RV and to meet Cosmo.
Both were special to share with them, but there was one particular moment that will always be dear to me and etched in my mind.
It was when I handed my mom my precious baby to hold.
None of this being any different than what a mother feels when she hands her biological baby to her own mother for the first time.
I had all the same feelings in doing so and watching him in her arms, as I showed her how he likes to be held. Then watched him snuggle up to her and lick her chest with dad looking on, caressing him as my mom held him.
There was that full circle feeling and too many different layers of emotions and thoughts to even put into words.
We enjoyed a nice afternoon and lunch visiting. I made them my potato leek soup, as mom helped in the kitchen and we talked of different things, including my connection with Cosmo and the things I do to care for him, how I understand him, and how his care is my priority above all else, showing me what is truly important in life.
I could see her wheels turning and feeling and seeing how I now really understood the bond she feels with myself and my brother and all that she has gone through in her life out of that love.
And she nodded in confirmation to all I shared saying, “That’s what you do when you have a child.”
Cosmo was once again spreading his magick.
And while this was a way of me seeing myself in my mom, my mom also gets to see herself in me, as I am not the traditional mother and teach her the importance of balance and also caring and nurturing the self.
I have become a mother, enjoying cooking, being in my home, caring for my children and partner, but I am also integrating my gifts into service beyond the home, continue traveling extensively on my own and for my work, and following my heart by doing the things I love and that nurture me.
I have added layers to the role of women in our generational line…which has taken much strength on my part to break out of the mold.
We sat on the couch after lunch and I showed her my new Tarot decks, deciding we should have her pull a card from the Faery deck, which she did.
It was the perfect card for my ever-giving mom:
Her Special Place ~ basically speaking to a need for solitude, quiet, creating a sacred place for yourself and giving healing and love to yourself.
And so here I sit in my own “Special Place” embodying the energy of my truth and gifts, as a bridge for her to her own. Just as her beautiful motherly heart has been integrated into my own life by her loving embodiment.
The rain in these mystical forests is flowing its alchemy and I feel the ancients watching on, as we change the course of energetic history, shift our DNA, and create a new way of being.
This post about magick from nearly two and a half years ago, has been on my mind all week and so I’m inspired to share it again, feeling it may speak to some of you at this time.
As more people remember who they are and are harnessing their gifts, the more magick is returning to our lives as the human experience it was always meant to be.
Thank you to everyone who believes and continues to cultivate that trust and belief despite what others around you think or what you’ve been taught in the contrary.
Magick is not an idea or ideal to me. Magick is a given, natural part of life available to us each to tap into. It tends to be overlooked, other words may be used to replace it, it hardly gets intentfully tapped into, many turn the other way when it happens, explain it away, or deny it altogether if it can’t be proven scientifically or otherwise by some other authority beyond your own heart authorization.
Magick is simply the miracle of life that is embodied in Nature (from which all things come and will return) and is this experiential experience of experience itself that YOU are creating to what ever degree you choose to consciously engage your innate powers to manifest.
People who live by “magick” know this to be the art of changing consciousness in alignment with true will by using natural energies available to us all. It is…
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