Astrid has been both extra loving outward AND open to and willing to ask for extra love for herself these days. And while she has been demonstrating this, I’ve noticed myself turning even more attention to self-nurturing than I already do and hearing from others who are finding circumstances and cycles making it essential that they, too, turn the love light back on to themselves as well.
The above photo shows her giving to, and receiving from her calming and powerful master amethyst rabbit friend. She spends a lot of time tuning in with, giving velvety tongue kisses to, and laying next to her crystals, to include the three giant quartz you see to her right – the golden and pinky lilac quartz from Tahoe and the smaller one in front from Montana – found right after Joy transitioned, on one of the most magickal Faery hikes ever not far from her place of departure.
Nurturing is a vital element of well-being, growth, productivity, and ability to thrive. There is much our hearts long to do and give out, but we simply can’t only be flowing energy in one direction. We know this concept, but do we put it into action?
If we don’t slow down, many times we find ourselves forced to.
If we get stuck in our heads, our hearts will cry out.
If we’re tired, but keep pushing, our bodies give out.
If something needs our attention, it’s sure to get it.
If we overextend our energy, the boundaries we haven’t exercised become strict teachers drawing the lines for us.
If we simply need a pause or extra softening to ensure well-being, our emotions may feel extra sensitive so that we nurture more tenderness to ourselves.
While Astrid and I have been re-evaluating and redirecting ourselves, I’ve noticed that both the changes that are formulating and my own body’s rhythms are needing extra attention that involves even more self-care and self-love.
As I get closer to 50, hormones are shifting, more solidity in myself is forming, and more questions come up as to the life I/we want to create for the time remaining.
This creates more reflection and sensitivity that desires a lot of love be directed within and Astrid is mirroring this with the evolution of her growth as well. This brings the two of us in even stronger bond together, as we navigate this new cycle we’re stepping into.
A new level of awareness and embodied response seems to be in motion.
I find myself implementing more self-care routines, listening to my body’s needs, and creating greater clarity of alignment.
Sleep has always been important to me on many levels, but lately I find myself so enamored with that time of day when I lay my head on my pillow. Although the day is full of enriching things, I so look forward to that time of restoration and dream work at night. It feels like it’s own elixir and healing supplement.
As I have been writing this, Astrid has been to my left suspended in a state of meditation – quite literally. I’ve never seen her do this before, but she was in a position where her head was bowed down in a curve fully toward her heart, like the neck of a graceful swan, and has held it there for minutes on end, with eyes in a tranced deep state and her not budging.
Her shape also creates the effect of one half of a heart.
Synchronously, I was feeling how she and I seem to have been expressly made for each other as a reflection and other half, while I then noticed her in this suspended position.
She always knows what I’m thinking – or rather, she simultaneously sends me the message that becomes my own thought.
We are definitely two halves of a shared heart.
And that seems to be her message to me.
We are mirroring the needs and awareness our hearts speak.
And all of the love and special nurturing and understanding I extend to her, ultimately is about touching my own heart that she reflects.
I believe her message is simple.
We may think we are only feeling strongly compelled to give to and nurture others and what touches our hearts out there, but even if we don’t ever want to look further into what anything means, ultimately the connection we share to everything is glowing brightly from our heart within.
Perhaps that’s why so many healers, therapists, counselors, teachers, creatives, visionaries, activists, etc. are compelled by helping others or a cause.
Some call it the wounded healer, but it’s simply a desire to love ourselves as the reflection we love out there.
And when we love out there, to realize how much we love what’s in here.
It’s walking through life with full open heart, flowing in and out.
It shifts how we respond to life simply carrying the awareness of connection.
As shared, I’ll be away from blogging for a while after today, as I have a personal goal to meet with completing my book’s first draft before leaving for Australia on May 10th and away for 19 days. I’ll be joining Dave who will already have been touring for two weeks speaking about his book Meatonomics, and then we’ll be leaving for a week to Austin, Texas less than two weeks after our return. Alongside this full plate I am also energetically preparing for a new addition to my life coming in once we fully return from all the travels, which is the focus of this short blog before I head off.
The short story, which I will fully share when it happens, is that a new bunny love will be joining me in partnership and it’s all divinely aligned itself in incredible potency on the upcoming Summer Solstice portal. It’s all truly a magickal story and timing that I know my beloved rabbits have set up as such.
Without going into detail, a special rabbit has made connection with me the second I became ready and made my own realizations and commitments and we are in relationship telepathically until we can be together.
I felt that since I will be away so much, this was not conducive to bringing the bunny love into my life, as my priority is establishing a stable and supportive experience for the physical bonding, and it is not responsible of me to just up and leave bunny love with a pet sitter.
So, once again, I am being asked to trust with all of my heart and walk fully in that trust of knowing that if it is meant to be this little love will be there when I return to adopt on the appointment date that has been set upon my arrival home.
I explored with the rabbit rescue my options and this was the only one that made most sense to everyone, but also asked of me to be in that trust given that anyone could come along and connect and want to take this love home during the two months of waiting.
I believe with all of me that we will be together, and that these two months are preparation, as well as standing in the truth of my trust. I know that if we change and shift together over what takes place these two months then when I go to pick this love up, all will unfold as set in motion.
But either way, what has been set in motion is that a bunny love will be coming home with me nonetheless on that day, and if we both shift differently, it is because another has taken place of the new alignment created.
However, this little love has a special story and needs, I’ve already received the name, and we have connected in dream time indicating a bond that no matter what takes place is already playing out.
It’s such a beautiful connection I can’t wait to share, but for now the reason of my sharing is simply to reiterate the message of trust.
There is no reason to act out of desperation with anything. There is no reason to worry or do things that would not be responsible simply because we don’t want to lose out on something or are trying to control a situation and outcome that needs the freedom of choice, growth, and natural transformation to take place.
As mentioned before, abundant beings recognize the unlimited way abundance plays out when we trust and that there’s no need to attach to any one idea because more will show up.
And also, when you stand in the truth of who you are and trust with your heart, that’s all the confirmation you need.
So, there is much preparing for birth in the next two months for me with the first draft of my book completing (still have a long way to go, but that’s the biggest step), some transformative travels, and preparing myself for a new co-creative partnership that is going to support the next phase of my life.
All of this to balance things out and remain true to my spirit.
And the need to pull back from writing blogs right now is to conserve my inspiration and creative writing, as well as devote my time where it is most needed.
So I’ll not be posting until that goal is met, or if I do feel a strong guidance would only share a very short channeled message or reblog an important theme.
And as mentioned, I’ll only be sharing via Instagram/Facebook during this time if you happen to be on those platforms (although may be limited in interaction), since they are quick ways to still stay in touch and share some daily inspiration and beauty with you, while creating that healthy balance for me as well.
So I’m not completely retracting, just continually tempering that perfect support that ensures optimal well being, creative output, and resonance for the highest good.
Wishing you all a beautifully transformative Spring, rich in abundant expressions of your creative spirit and loving trust.
This is a tough one for many, especially when the giving and receiving is directed toward self, but also when we’ve erected protective boundaries that have us challenged to open our hearts again to others. The art of giving and receiving (our natural state of abundance) is another of the great lessons I have had to learn to balance in my own life, which prompted a blog post a few years ago, which this share is from, but rather than simply reblog it I decided to create a post out of it with the points from then to be in “new energy” all around.
I feel that it can be a challenge for many to balance giving and receiving in a healthy way and especially in terms of opening to receiving and embracing your own value and self-worth that comes along with that. I know that there is a lot of conditioned victim or martyr energy we have learned and this is an essential aspect to look at integrating, as self-denial and self-worth will have a direct result on your ability to tap into your natural abundance innately available to you.
Just like Reiki teaches us, everything in the Universe is energy and naturally, energy just wants to keep flowing and cycling, as is its innate “beingness” to do. It does not judge, attach, or stop and block the flow – we do. We are the ones that block it and this is what creates challenges and dis-ease in our lives.
Giving and receiving are two parts of a whole that coexist, are essential, and create natural balance. When we only focus on one more than the other – never allowing receiving to take place, or never freely giving – we are blocking the flow of energy to cycle through us both ways, and we then create energetic imbalance that manifests as challenges in our lives on any or all levels – physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.
As we grow spiritually, this often presents experiences of greater receiving and giving in our lives to embrace. Since both are energetically equal, coming from the same Source, they increase mutually. So it doesn’t make sense that giving increases while receiving decreases, does it? They will both naturally increase together, which means receiving well entails giving well and giving more means we must be open to receiving more – ultimately supporting and embracing what serves the greater good and well being when we do so.
In order to have a fulfilling life, your giving and receiving must be in balance and rhythmic harmony. Balance is essential to every aspect of life and we are constantly in practice of creating what that harmony means for each of us, as there’s no one formula that will work for everyone since we all have different strengths and limits.
Stress can be a result of over-giving (this can also be a result of not having boundaries in place and energy vampires able to suck our energy easily, as we haven’t put in place healthy assertions), which can lead to other effects as a result, including damaging emotions that can build like resentment and anger, and the same can happen if you are receiving in imbalance.
So if you are feeling you are receiving too much, start giving now, and if you are giving too much start finding ways to appreciate what you receive and have. Keep on top of not overburdening yourself with the responsibility of giving, as well as be mindful of creating guilt, or not being grateful, for all of the receiving you’ve been gifted.
Simply recognize where the flow may be blocked and on a one way street, then start making adjustments to balance out the energy with either some random acts of kindness, donations, and offerings, or with more thank you’s and allowing to mirror your new found self worth.
In doing so, you will tap into the limitless and abundant being that you are and this will be reflected in all ways in your life to enjoy.
One of the ultimate spiritual lessons in life is gratitude. Gratitude for all the big AND little things…the seen AND unseen…the full gamut of experiences released from judgment and categorized value.
Focus on what there IS…not what you “think” you lack, as all things have a wider meaning with hidden gifts that reveal themselves when we release attachment and learn to understand how the highest good is always as work.
We just haven’t unwrapped the abundance yet, but the more gratitude you embrace, the more abundance you experience.
Gratitude isn’t just something to extend toward the so-called “good” things in life, but to ALL things – relinquishing the need to define, categorize, idealize, cast away, and judge them. That includes the “imperfect” that IS perfect and richly integral in our lives.
Today and always may you embrace the kind of gratitude that creates true alchemy.
Sending out deepest heart-to-heart gratitude for each and every one of you who is braving this journey together at this time in our collective experience. I know times get tough and intense, but you’re here and that speaks volumes. Thank you for your courage and love and for all of the love you’ve shared with me and others. Your light helps raise the vibration and makes more possible for us all. Keep shining and know that you are appreciated beyond measure.
There’s still time to join us in Peru for our sacred journey next month over the Equinox/New Moon/Total Solar Eclipse convergence:
It saddens me each time people message me how much they wish to do things like this, or wish to pursue other dreams and desires their souls are calling out for them to embrace, and how sad they are that it’s just a dream they hold as a hope to ONE DAY happen. I can feel that collective anguish through each individually voiced frustration.
There’s a huge shifting cycle going on right now where people are breaking through to the other side, are right at the edge, or are stuck and being hit time and time again with the same ol’ stuff. All of this indicating change (and amazing change at that!) is upon us all, whether we like it or not. And those who are embracing things are experiencing a freedom and flow that is intoxicating.
But the last few weeks I’ve been bombarded by conversations, emails, and messages that are all running the same patterns and themes, and which are kicking me to share posts like this, as I simply can’t address everything that comes through on an individual basis.
I hear how people are so down, frustrated, hopeless, discouraged, have nothing to inspire them….and some of that is a lack of meaning and purpose in their lives, not able to realize and release from the old programming, icky stuff and fears, or a lack of truly allowing themselves to embrace and experience what it’s like to do something awe-inspiring that will shake up their soul and stimulate a flow.
Many of them I know are at the brink of making changes in their lives and taking some courageous steps would be the catapulting piece to really shift things into gear. But those last steps are the most challenging and where people often get stuck in a perpetual cycle, until there’s a little willingness to embrace something more, something new, something unfamiliar and uncomfortable, and delve into what’s behind that fear.
I can see their potential, and how close they are, and yet there’s nothing I can do but hold the space of embodying things as best I can to support them. Because no matter what I’ve offered and extended in terms of physical support, it makes no difference. We each have to make the choices ourselves.
I’ve heard from more people than I can count, how much they would like to join this trip, and other trips in the past, and yet they share feeling it is an impossibility.
THAT, in and of itself, is part of the reason it isn’t happening. It seems people give up before they even try. They are surrendering to the core patterns and beliefs that are running the show underneath it all.
It’s one thing if something isn’t REALLY meant for you, but if you’re believing you are not a great manifestor, that is the place to start and this CAN be changed.
But it’s also very easy to self-sabotage and run the right spiritual lingo on ourselves too, convincing ourselves or writing things off as, “it’s just not meant to be” too. 😉 There is a difference between this and something that energetically isn’t for you.
If you feel this is the journey for you and you truly want to join, there are ways to make this happen.
If you want to start that new business, start painting, learn to play an instrument, take up dance classes, do volunteer work, leave a job or relationship, have more joy, balance, and peace in your life, then what are you willing to do to make that so?
The question to ask yourself is how much do you want it? Or how much do you want ANYTHING in life that is calling to you because of how much it would benefit your life, and in respect, other’s lives as well because of taking that empowered action?
I’ve seen people manifest things, including these kind of trips out of the blue because they were committed to believing. They came up with creative ideas, asked for assistance, used different forms of funding options that are out there, and took the actions of embodying that it was already a reality.
If you’re feeling your path being hindered by money and lack of the ability to live abundantly to do the things you know would support your well-being, here’s an article I shared a few days ago that was inspired by conversations in Sunday’s Reiki workshop and the things I hear come up constantly for people, to seed some inner exploration and perhaps spark some inspiration:
If you are ready to take a step, message me and we’ll see what is possible to create this dream trip into a reality.
I will not be offering this trip again, as this one was guided by an alignment of energies to be there at this particularly powerful time to do collective Earth work and activations both personally and in service.
And, my time of offering retreats in general is coming to closure.
Of course there are many wonderful ongoing retreats out there you can enjoy and that may feel more aligned, but if you haven’t worked on the underlying issues, then it really makes no difference how many opportunities come your way.
So, please do take a look at what the barriers are to your experiencing the expansion, nurturing, well-being, and abundance you desire and deserve, as that’s what will help you get to where you want to go.
Money & Manifesting….What are the Barriers to Your Abundance? ~ Are You Ready to Get Real About What’s Really Limiting You?
Being, doing, and having….
“We can think of life having three dimensions: being, doing, and having. Often we attempt to live our lives backwards. We try to have more money in order to feel we can do more of what we want, so we can be happier. The way it actually works is the reverse. We must first be who we really are, then do what we feel guided to do, in order to have what we want.”
~ I allow myself to be; I do what feels right; I have everything I truly want. ~
In yesterday’s Reiki Master Teacher workshop, the theme of the day seemed to be about “manifestation.” It kicked off the day in a pre-discussion to our training, came up again during our training, and again later during our dinner outing.
Discussions about Reiki will often lead into discussions on how to live a magickal, empowered, and abundant life, since the practice of embodying the essence of Reiki and consistently practicing it will naturally create more of this in our lives.
But this is not just a topic from yesterday, but one that so very often comes up (more and more) every time I hear people voicing frustration about things like money, not living the life they want, and not being able to do things they want to do because of lack of abundance, etc.
People have shared over and over that they are challenged with manifesting things, especially when it comes to money and fully being abundant.
Some of this I believe stems from our having gone so far mentally and spiritually, that we forgot to integrate things and bring things back into the body for EMBODIMENT rather than ascending into the ethers and floating off on a cloud. After all, remember we are humans with physical bodies. If you want to manifest things, they can’t just stay in your mind or as a concept you talk about. You’ll need to actually integrate that knowledge and conscious awareness into actualization. Work with your feelings, core beliefs, and what’s trapped in the body.
Abundant doesn’t mean you have to be a millionaire, but it does mean that you are living in a giving AND receiving flow of abundance that always supports your needs and the desires that will benefit your well being for the highest good.
This often comes up when people tell me how much they truly desire and know they need to go on one of the sacred journeys/retreats I and others offer, and yet year after year it will not happen because of not having the “money” for it.
Or, they won’t take that course, won’t go talk to someone like a life coach to get them through the blocks, won’t make time to read an important book, can’t find the time to be in nature or do something nurturing for themselves because they are too busy working hard at attaining money, stressing about it, and filling their lives up with a vicious cycle of things that aren’t balancing them and adding supportive benefit…etc.
I have done as much possible to support people, especially when I see their potential and deep desire, and assist with these kinds of things. I’ve offered huge discounts, payment plans, even in special cirumstances – personal loans to repay.
But as they say, you can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make it drink.
Unless you hand something over to someone for free (and even then it STILL doesn’t always happen due to fear in general) it is easier for most to live with the familiar discomfort than to branch out into the unknown discomfort that will free them.
On some level, the challenges we experience serve us, even if it doesn’t consciously make sense. And the answer isn’t in enabling people, but in empowering them, as EVERY single person innately is abundant. In order to access that abundance, we each need to make personal, accountable, responsible choices to consciously embody that.
I’ve seen people on both ends of the spectrum. Those that let fear take over, or allow their beliefs to dictate their every action with excuse after excuse. And I’ve seen people who have looked the “impossible” in the eye, didn’t have a clue how it would take place, replaced fear with committed drive, and created the possible out of nowhere. But these people acted “as if” what they wanted was happening and took the steps with trust.
This really becomes clear to observe in terms of things like retreats where larger sums of money are concerned, and self nurturing, self value, and life-changing potentials are part of the equation.
These are bigger risks and greater challenges that really bring out our deepest and core beliefs and fears.
And yet, over and over I’ve seen magick take place with people who have come on retreats that had no means to do it and suddenly created it because of following that inner calling and now they are on their path in ways they had always hoped. They wouldn’t be where they are now, had they not taken those huge leaps.
This is just one type of example, but comes up over and over in emails, messages, and exchanges I receive sometimes daily. And while I feel for these people, truly understanding what they are experiencing from personal experience, I also ask them the question, “why can’t you do such and such?” This is met most times without a response (silence) or the list of patterned declarations that still aren’t touching the real reason at hand start rolling out robotically.
Yesterday, one of my students shared with us his magickal story of how he manifested a trip he knew he needed to take spiritually, and then went on to share all the little synchronous things that made it possible when there was no way in sight for him to do it.
I shared similar stories of others I know, including myself.
There are just some things that hold a value far past what you can comprehend. We talked later that evening on how some things, like “experiences” are simply invaluable and are much more powerful than any single item you can buy yourself. The intrinsic value of trips, for example, contributes to a higher quality of life, along with providing benefits that will long continue after you’ve returned home in terms of memories, energetic shifts and activations, inspiration and self nurturing, connecting you with parts of yourself and with others you wouldn’t otherwise, invites more new and expansive experiences, etc.
Personally, I’m far from rich, by any societal standard, but I believe myself to be abundant. To me abundant means there is a flow in and out of energy on all levels. I know that my needs are always met, and I know that the things that are really important for me, will always be supported. But I then live my life with the knowing this is true, as if it already is, despite it not being at the moment in my outer environment. My internal environment is living otherwise.
That’s not to mean I don’t run up against stress now and then, but it only lasts briefly once I remind myself of all of the similar circumstances where I have always created a way and it all always worked out for the highest good.
We may all have different ideas and definitions on what abundance means…but to me it is this and it is living a magickal life where all these little and large synchronous alignments just come together at each turn. That even when challenges arise, this is simply opportunity to rise to the occasion and stretch our abilities a little bit more.
I live an abundant life and believe in myself as an abundant being. I never see something as impossible even if I haven’t a clue how it could happen based on what I have or don’t have now – this is all just external illusions, as I have everything I need within me awaiting my choice to unleash that powerful realization. I simply know that if something is important for me, there will always be a way and doors will open, as I move forward with trust.
It’s the same way I manifested my upcoming trip to Iceland and any other personal trips I have taken for my own well being (which ultimately trickles to how I can be of benefit to the collective) and path. I knew I needed to go on a deep level, and the way presented itself magickally.
Stresses over money are usually a lot of the reasoning why people feel they can’t do something, but what is the true culprit to this challenge?
Every time someone tells me they don’t have the money, I’m not hearing that….what I actually DO hear is many other things/beliefs that are running the show at the root of it all, which may include one or more of the following:
- It’s really not that important to me, as I say it is
- My needs can wait or such and such needs to be in place and happen before I can do that (creating controls and unrealistic conditions/ideas of perfection that will never be met until the person shifts their values)
- I really don’t want the responsibility that comes along with the life-enhancements, empowerment and changes I will experience
- I am scared to embrace my personal power and gifts
- I’m afraid to overextend myself momentarily, for what I can’t SEE possible and even though the abundance is just on the other side of that fear ready to flow when I make the decision to move forward and choose what I want
- I don’t value myself enough/I’m not deserving and others will think I’m being selfish if I invest in my own well-being
- There’s no way I can manifest that amount of money. I am not that powerful. I’ve always been told how incapable I am of anything
- Money doesn’t grow on trees, is something you have to work hard for, is the root of all evil, should not be used on so-called “frivolous” things (someone else’s definition of what that is)
- If I spend the money for what’s important to me, what then? Money won’t keep on flowing in my life even if I am able to manifest it this time
- I fear the unknown and what comes next when I realize truths about myself after the opening experience
- I’d rather spend money on “things” that satisfy my immediate needs rather than focusing on long-term benefit
- And the list goes on….we all have at one time or another had one or more of these belief voices running our show, and then some
There’s nothing wrong with this, as it all has its purpose in our personal growth. But if we want to express the REAL truth about why we feel we can’t do something, it will be much more productive and empowering to get to the heart of the matter and be willing to look deeper at what’s behind our beliefs. Once we do this, we may just find the culprit/s holding us back from our natural abundance.
So yesterday I shared that if you have a challenge with money, it’s important to look at your relationship to it. And this goes for anything.
Your relationship to something involves your beliefs, which include all of the conditioned beliefs both from childhood, parent figures, society, collective patterning and conditioning, which are operating even if in your mind you don’t think that way.
These core beliefs will show you exactly where the challenge is.
It doesn’t matter what we think…it matters what we feel, believe, and are holding in our bodies, as core acquired truths.
Your inability to manifest stems from fears, beliefs, personal limitations, and blocked energy flows.
If you truly want to do something, I believe you CAN do it. The question is, how much do you really want it, and what are you willing to do to support that desire? The Universe will support you only if YOU take the actions in partnership with it. You will need to show how serious you are by doing something to demonstrate your wanting/believing/trusting. THEN you will start to see things shift. And in the meantime, you can work on your core beliefs and relationship to them to support swifter changes and larger and more frequent manifestations.
But these days there are SOOOO many ways to support you with what you want like in the example of needing to manifest money for something you want to do – be it a trip, starting a business, taking a class, seminar, workshop, course, buying equipment needed for your project or business idea, taking college courses to help with your path, funding a dream, etc. The more willing and open you are to think, feel, imagine, and act creatively, the more possibilities will come to you on ways to do it. I’ve seen and heard from many on how they have manifested what they wanted by being vulnerable and asking for help, along with shifting their beliefs and actions.
Some have turned to family and friends that believed in and supported them, providing loans, partial or full financial support, sharing of airline mileage, etc. Some have been willing to ask or take others up on offers of payment plans, asking if there are partial or full trade opportunities, discounts, etc.
And others have found collective ways to find that support through different funding options that are now out there like these:
Peer to Peer Lending:
Focus on what there IS…not what you “think” you lack.
Things come to you in the ways that are for your highest good.
We think we know what that is, but that’s simply ego running the show – trying to control things with attached expectations and limitations.
What shows up for us is an unconditionally, wider perspective – so perfect and a truly hidden gift.
We just haven’t unwrapped the abundance yet.
The more gratitude you embrace, the more abundance you experience.