Yesterday’s share from Astrid got postponed until this morning, due to a full day on both of our parts. But now I see why it is coming today instead, as it’s the 11 year anniversary of my twin soul rabbit’s transition back to the stars. It is Nestor who guided me to all of my bunnies, and even my Russian tortoise Gaia, after her departure. And it is Nestor whom Astrid is deeply connected to and is most like in her magickal essence.
Both Astrid and Nestor have been huge reminders to me of my own essence, and to be truly authentic to who I am, as well as to explore what that means for myself.
Recently I’ve seen a lot of spiders around, including a huge one on Astrid’s castle and one on my keyboard to my computer as I was typing.
Astrid has a special connection to spiders and they seem to come around at synchronous times.
While they do bring messages of transformation, rebirth, magick, shadow, mystery, and creation, they also speak to how you are weaving your own destiny.
And this seems to be both Astrid’s and Nestor’s message this week – to look at your choices, decisions, thoughts, feelings, and actions as effective tools that can lead you to more mindful weaving in order to envision and create a life that serves or enslaves you.
Synchronously, this week on Instagram, a new magickal friend of mine was doing an animal totem Tarot card free reading where she shows you three cards upside down to choose from by intuitive draw, and then reveals their messages the next day – right side up.
My card was the spider, which in this deck also was associated with the High Priestess, but the message spoke to authenticity and exploring the truth of that for yourself.
It is about not allowing others to tell your story for you, being (and honoring) truly you inside and out, not letting yourself be trapped by other’s versions of you, and knowing that the greatest relationship you’ll know is with yourself.
Everything else will reflect that and be enriched by that.
They also say that receiving a sign involving spiders can indicate “the need for writing with the intention of weaving together gossamer strands that beautifully support the sharing of gifts” – interesting that one spider was on my keyboard.
The photos here share Astrid with one of the Amethyst pieces from the giant Amethyst Rabbit (that’s actually in the shape of a laying rabbit and looks like her when she does so) I used to have and returned back to me. It channels Nestor and today is a day of honoring her.
Astrid seems to be drawing my attention to what Nestor had always guided me toward, which is to walk in the essence of who I am.
I believe both of them are coming through right now to share this message also with all of you, as the collective truly needs each of you to walk in that same energy, which will help to raise the vibration for us all and create new experiences and possibilities.
This comes with knowing the parts within that whisper or loudly speak to you, and honoring them.
It also involves bringing forth your gifts into the light and sharing them with others.
And it means to relax and surrender to your heart, and release the confines of definitions and stories others would rather see you as, or that you’ve accepted, but always felt restricted by.
Yes, it involves courage, but you are being supported by so many others who are also embracing that challenge.
Even though this Amethyst is a piece of the whole, it is still connected to it and still brings forth a uniqueness that is needed and enriches all of the others – a piece of the web that creates the fabric of life.
Astrid sees who I really am – who you really are – and she encourages us to not let a day go by that could be lived in greater fullness.
Things may feel scary and uncomfortable, but even a fracture that feels painful can lead to greater flexibility to discover new ways of joy to be that had otherwise been hidden by the illusion of security.
This felt like a perfect photo to share for this very short, but deeply heartfelt, post in celebration and gratitude of having reached 1 million visitors on my blog. The symbolism of Geese reflects what this blog represents to me and is a conduit for…my commitment to responsible sharing as a dedication to the collective, as the energy moves through me, and understanding how that is a threading of everyone’s contributions, energy, time, insights, and reflections that have taken place here since I first started my blog, and of the experiences I could never have solely on my own because it takes teamwork to co-create together. The worldwide web makes so much possible, even if it also has its streams of non-productive use, in bringing us all together across oceans, lands, and beyond, which is truly one of its beautiful and valuable gifts. I celebrate all of you with this post and share my gratitude for being here at this time to anchor in new realities.
I just love Geese and as I’ve shared before, their medicine and message is that of teamwork, comradery, fellowship, dedication, committed responsibility, the balance of knowing when to lead or follow, being compassionate keepers of the community, embodiment of the sacred circle and sanctity of the cycles of life, and never leaving one of their own behind for any reason (they will stay with the sick and injured until they are either well again, or to support them as they transition) – that last one sure reflects what took place for me on Sunday. 😉 Goose LOVE in action!
Thank you to everyone for being a part of the journey….mine, yours, OURS.
(Photo from our Magick Bus RV adventure in Jasper National Park, Alberta)
It’s been just 7 weeks since the magickal Astrid journeyed into my heart and life, but wow how she’s shifted in this short time. As shared before, not only was she a surprise to me, but her “special needs” had created the reason for her never being adopted by anyone all this time – something I feel was Divinely orchestrated in order for her to weed out non-aligned matches for the work she came here to do and share. That to include partnering with someone who could not only “see” her, but would benefit from the gifts and wisdom she has to impart. I feel blessed she chose me and grateful I was given the insight into her heart, beyond what was present on the surface.
If you recall, she had a “fight” or defensive and protective mode conditioned into her by all that she went through, learned as response, and was affected by in her past. This caused her to grunt, charge, lunge with her front paws, and basically seem to be in attack mode nearly every single time she was approached, she saw anything come at her, her food was put in front of her, you tried to pet her, etc.
She would only be calm under certain circumstances and allow only very present, peaceful, and pure energy of specific intent frequency to come near and not be met with this kind of behavior. So she truly asked/asks you to step into your wholeness and be centered and aware of your energy and what you are projecting from within at all times, what you have going on or are carrying, your intentions, and what REALLY is going on beneath your surface and at your core.
She still is a perfect mirror for this kind of thing with others, making her a wonderful reflection and therapy rabbit if you are ready to work with the truth of your Shadow, but her behavior has completely shifted with me and I’ve seen this trickle out to Dave and a couple of others who have come into her experience lately. Although still very sensitive to energies and sounds, as well as foreign and over-bearing extraneous vibrations in the environment from any source, she has become much less defensive, and more curiously cautious.
But as I said, with me she has completely shifted into a consistently peaceful and excited nature, never attacking or grunting anymore when I approach for any reason. She actually gets super happy when I approach and runs to me, lets me caress her, and even lets me kiss her head and face when she’s sitting on the ground, which would not have been an option before without a couple of paws coming at me! LOL!
She even lets me clean the corners of her eyes gently when she gets any little crusties there, which also would have freaked her out before and caused her to either run away or grunt and charge. She knows I’m taking care of her and being like another rabbit that would help groom her if she were in the wild or had a rabbit friend she loved. After all, I am a rabbit. 😉
She also used to grunt and smack the food out of my hand when I would put it in her bowl to feed her and now she lets me do this and put more in while she’s eating without a flinch.
She also lets me pick her up without moving an inch. She just sits there peacefully and allows me to pick her up and hold her when I feel called to. Although at first I was trying to do this each day, to keep her used to it, I shifted with that notion and no longer do it everyday, since she is exhibiting closeness in all ways, and I want her to know freedom too.
Plus, I want everything to be a very organic and natural flow of experience with our relationship that is governed not by me “training” her, but rather by us listening to one another and receiving the cues and telepathy that unites us in harmonic convergence.
So I pick her up randomly every few days or so when I sense things aligned for this, which makes it even more incredible that she just sits there and allows me to do this peacefully on an inconsistent basis, since she is running free all day and could easily just be like, “No way! I want to be free always, so don’t even try it.”
That was my experience with Nestor, my twin soul. She would let me snuggle her in every way on the floor, but never ever wanted to be held. Her spirit was a free soul who could not be trapped or confined.
Joy was not so keen on it either, but once I held her she was okay with it and enjoyed the snuggles, but I would have to pick her up when she was eating in her hay/litter box, so she didn’t know what was coming.
Cosmo, of course, was just a love bug and being that he couldn’t walk anyway, he was just super content with it all and enjoyed the closeness always of being held in healing love and spreading his.
So, Astrid is very different in this regard, and to me is quite special in her reflection of a new kind of relationship and dynamic not only as a personal mirror, but a collective one I feel that is anchoring (again, but also in a new way) and being remembered.
There is this sense of balance in terms of personal sovereignty and connection with both not having to be compromised, but in perfect harmony with one another that is honored and telepathically and simultaneously experienced in a fluid understanding and alignment of frequency.
A true partnership and equality…a knowingness, or rather, beingness that is anchoring as the shared experience.
Like the Yin to a Yang, Light to Dark/Shadow, Sacred Feminine to Sacred Masculine, one half to another…each their own individual expression, but only whole with the other – both present within oneself and all around us and yet also nonexistent within that perfect merging.
Astrid has come to relax in knowing and experiencing this from me in how I relate to her and understand this important piece she embodies – a reminder to stay present always in that integrative place of transmutation.
She’s amazingly helped me to “see” this and the dynamics very literally playing out so that it goes beyond just concept, but becomes the experience.
She and I have this incredible relationship anchoring in Cosmic Love, which I feel is the basis of her blossoming as she has.
I can only imagine what amazing things will continue to evolve with all of this. She already exhibits so much clarity of communication with me. When I say something (even if just in mind) when I’m in another room, she will come running over in response.
And of course, I LOVE how happy she is, which she exhibits with running and jumping (or binkies, as they’re called).
Also interesting is that she’s unaffected by the wood floors, which Joy had challenge with. It may be in part her confidence and perhaps even the thickly fur-padded feet she has, but she easily gets across the wood and explores, which makes me happy that she doesn’t feel confined anywhere due to what could feel like unstable grounding for most rabbits without pads on their feet.
It’s just amazing to experience all of these shifts so quickly with her and although she still chases off a cat now and then and establishes boundaries where they are concerned, she and I have complete understanding and no need for the same.
She does, however, let Boojum (our male cat) hang out in the same room with her a few feet away, if he’s calm and honors her boundaries, which he pretty much always does now. I feel that he really wants her to be his buddy/girlfriend, like Joy was (to him at least lol). So it’s like he’s courting her by respecting the boundaries, in hopes of someday more coming from it. Too funny. But I love how Astrid manages the energy around here.
Sweet Pea (our female cat) I feel is more threatened by her since she has insecurity issues in general with everything (extra challenged by a very big female power and presence now in her environment) and has this split behavior of sweetness and passive aggressiveness if she feels she has to prove herself (like to establish that dad is hers). But overall, she too, is allowed in the same room if she stays calm and not too close or comes at her with erratic energy.
I’ve had conversations with Sweet Pea recently about this and other behaviors, which seem to have suddenly started balancing out in the last 3 days. I know she understands and listens intently when I talk with her, ultimately wanting to balance out herself and step into the role of healer kitty that she is and I shared with her was something valuable/powerful that gave her opportunity to demonstrate and walk in as an example, rather than let triggers dominate.
My feeling is that much of these dynamics will shift in supportive ways again when things change in our living situation that will be supportive of everyone even more. (Will share more on that as it evolves how I see it to happen soon).
Astrid has truly demonstrated the hidden gifts within and how everything of value is to be seen from the heart and not based on what it seems superficially. She has completely shifted and will continue to do so, as well as continue to reveal much as things evolve further.
She, like Sweet Pea, now has the opportunity to bring forth her gifts and be an example as well of all that she has to impart and embody.
She truly is the perfect complimentary part to me…the Yin to my Yang, and literally is my Divine and Sacred half as a Virgo (her birthday is 9/15/14), which is my wise opposite to the Pisces me – all perfect for the now and not only helping to bring my own parts into integrative balance and alignment more every day, but to mirror this inside and out.
I know I will continue to uncover more of her hidden gifts and feel some incredible experiences are yet to come.
There is so much all around us to help guide us into a new relationship with, and experience of, “reality” as we’ve come to react to it.
Had I been put off like so many others had, or turned away from her when I met her and experienced her merely as an unwelcome trigger or abrasive energy to fight back at, deny, or ignore, I would not have experienced her magick, gained the wisdom of her teachings, nor would she have ever revealed the treasure within that truly All That Is around us, is beckoning us to arise to.
Alchemy is ours to choose.
We aren’t sure of what kind of rabbit she is – the closest description and resemblance I have found is that of a brindle coated American Sable Rabbit.
But none of that matters, as she, to me, represents all rabbits, all animals, all plants, all humans, all life forms, All That Is and the way I relate to her is representative of my relationship to it All.
Every single form of consciousness and Spirit in form here on Earth or formlessly off-planet, all reflect my relationship and communion to Everything.
Let us walk, swim, fly, climb, vibrate, and BE in harmonic presence to what TRULY is at work here and Cosmically weaving as the Grace of Love.
(Side note: I always have number sequences showing up for me…at different intervals, different numbers more than others and sometimes all of them. Recent days have seen a prominence of 5’s (my favorite), which herald huge transformational shifts and supportive change (with less frequent other sequences). Then yesterday I had so many 11:11 on 8/8 time and date stamps come through for me on everything and continued both with actually 11:11 and 1:11 sightings. Synchronously, I started writing this post yesterday, finishing it today, but when I wrote the title to kick this post off it was 11:11 on 8/8. 😉 )
In line with yesterday’s post on Nature’s Powerful Reflections of Resonance ~ Plus Bear Magick & Medicine I thought you might get a kick out of seeing these photos and video of this morning’s visitor just as much as I did. Yes, Black Bear was here again! This time seeking us out. That’s 5 Bears in the last 3 days now. Talk about potent energy all at once!
We’d just gotten out of bed and went to open the blinds when Black Bear appeared just below our window. These are just a couple photos I captured, but I thought I’d include a link to the video so you can see what a gift this was to witness a playful and delightful display.
I couldn’t upload it to this post, so I’m including the link to my Instagram feed if you’re interested in seeing it and the other two videos from Easter there. And if you’re on Instagram, perhaps you might connect there so we can share and follow along together there more easily.
Enjoy and bask in the message of Black Bear medicine that is reflected to you!
I am always enthralled by my dream time and how rich it is. I’ve had many interesting dreams recently again, but the one that stood out most was of the tiny aqua tortoise two nights ago. I love how each time my Russian Tortoise, Gaia, assists me with my writing, she will show up in my dream that very night, or vice versa – show up the night before and I’ll know she has something to share for the day’s writing ahead. I’m so grateful for my spirit family and especially my tortoise and rabbit companions who share their loving support always.
In the dream it actually started out with me on a journey – this time in a smaller RV – and about to embark. Before leaving I catch glimpse of a tiny (baby-sized) tortoise with aqua shell scurrying across the ground of what seemed to be like a garage or storage area. This little tortoise was fast!
The only other tortoise I know to be so fast is my beloved Gaia. She not only had strong presence, patience, and deliberate, persistent action, but she could move between those methodical, soldier-like steps of intention into a speedy sprint.
I knew right away this was a manifestation of Gaia coming through in this mighty and speedy little tortoise. She was reminding me not to forget the gifts and tools I have, not to mention the guiding support to lean into with this journey.
I went after her trying to pick her up, as she dashed quickly in and out of things in this storage area, making it challenging to get her, but also calling forth my not wasting energy, but focusing intentfully on what would be most effective in scooping her up without zig-zagging about.
And soon I did have her in my hands and just remembered how sweet she looked, her deep eyes and almost smiling face, with a fully aqua painted shell home she carried on her back and her coloring reminding me more of a sea turtle – interestingly just the size and similar essence to a tiny figurine I was gifted by a dear friend that sits on my dresser.
That was all I remember.
But as mentioned, since she’d come through that day with writing support and channeling the part of the story I was tapping into, I knew this was no coincidence, but timely and symbolic manifestation on her part.
Her small size felt to indicate these as reminders more than a blaring warning or that I was off-track and needing a huge sign. It also felt like she was helping me to fine-tune these elements and gifts rather than outright teaching me it from scratch. So definitely about honing in on things even more and tweaking so I can optimize.
Aqua happens to be my favorite color, but this is also a color that holds much pertinent energy to my life and this undertaking right now.
It can represent our unconscious and the instincts we have, wanting us to take notice and support. I take this as Gaia sharing to just trust this next flow of information coming through and to surrender to almost what I’d call “automatic writing” that has and will continue to take place. I will not need to dictate anything.
Aqua is also highly creative energy, light-hearted and still carries a strong individuality. This speaks to me too about the writing I’m engaged in and how it is being carried through me, but also of me.
It’s also definitely about inspiration, focus, concentration, communication between heart and spoken/written word, clarity, and even has been linked with the “electronic age” where computers are a form of wide-scale communication. To me speaking to again, trusting the translation that takes place if I let my parts work in balanced partnership and weave thoughts and words from their true source. And of course, I do type on a computer and to understand the collective reach of what’s taking place, not to mention is a way Gaia communicates to me through electronics with her ability to tap into this energy.
It’s also a color of calm invigoration, restoration, recharge of spirits, encourages healing, compassion, and our intuitive abilities that have the ability to open doorways to greater spiritual growth.
I have found this journey with my writing to be all of this and Gaia seems to be encouraging the process and path, sensing I had a moment of pause where I stepped out of that automatic writing place and was stumped for a bit before I jumped back onto the frequency train of allowing.
Aqua is a perfect color to support expression and confidently focus us with our speech and bringing through ways of describing things we might find hard to express. So it’s a wonderful color to surround ourselves with while also enhancing our gifts, help us make decisions, move forward, carry us through successfully, get us out of a rut or indecisive place in life or with a project, and all the while calming our nerves so we can return to center.
Gaia was definitely reminding me of the aura I carry with me with aqua always having been in and around my life, and to surround my process in this essence to carry me to closure with the story.
The things about tortoise/turtles is that they can live and journey both in water and on land, so there is again that balance of diving into our sensitivities and bringing them into concrete form. A bridge between the imagination and manifestation.
Vulnerability will be part of the journey when they show up and at times this will need withdrawing into our “shell” to bring forth something deeper, but also knowing we have the support to share it and that courage will be there when needed.
Normally turtles/tortoises can signify a need to slow down, but in the case of Gaia and this tiny turtle manifestation of her, she was moving quickly. I feel it represents that things will move more rapidly now with things, if I continue to go in this flow she is sharing, but also to be aware of how I can still navigate intentfully and more effectively. By continuing to be aware of my energy out-put and acting instinctively rather than just doing things without engaging my ability to think 10 steps ahead in the moment to understand the flow of energy currents I can ride, I will bring things together with productive results.
When ever I do this, then I meet with harmonious outcomes and merge as one with what is unfolding as an equal partner in tune with the natural rhythms.
There is so much we can learn by symbolism that comes through and many ways and perspectives to receive and see them as, but I believe we are guided to the ones that we need to know most.
I’m grateful to Gaia for her taking time from her ever-full missions she’s on to support me with mine – well….ours. 🙂