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Samhain Sunset & Astrid Magick


Astrid didn’t need a costume, as she embodied the perfect Halloween bunny last night with her mysterious dark brindled coat of shape-shifting markings, silver toes, belly, and tail, and a Crescent Moon eye. I took this photo of her last night right after the sun set and my auto flash went off, which not only captured two giant orbs around her body, but caught the light just right creating a red and gold Moon in her eye. I’m guessing that Cosmo and my other bunny loves wanted to make an appearance. Astrid was definitely in a calm zone, not wanting me to leave her and kept nosing my leg to get my attention and transfer energy. She was definitely comforting me with my Cosmo thoughts.

I’d just finished my first run-through of reading my book from start to end, since completing it, which included a first round of simple edits and cutting my superfluous writing down 23 pages so far. That felt perfect to complete on this special day, which had so many connections to Cosmo and much more. I still have more rounds of editing to go – it’s quite a process – perhaps completing by end of year (my goal) before it will be in a form for feedback from others.

For now, I remain the only person who has read any of it and that feels perfect in remaining true to my voice.

This is something my bunny loves have taught me the importance of…remembering my song and singing it.

It was a quiet day and evening, which felt perfect for honoring my sweet Cosmo, tuning in with my bunny loves, and for focusing on the other joy of my heart – my book.

Even the sky reflected this calm and mystery in a perfect Samhain sunset of orange and black clarity.

I snapped this photo before the one of Astrid.

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The veils were definitely thin and the love was definitely strong.

Bitter & Sweet ~ Save A Bunny’s Incredible Generosity Amidst Tragedy & Astrid’s Reminder & Voice Heard


This was Astrid a few days ago in meditative mode tuning in to all around her and sending out energy to those in need. As you can see, a blueish green ray of light is beaming across her core and through her all-seeing eye. She is connected to the Source of All That Is through the light within her, as she especially tunes in to the bunnies at Save A Bunny where she lived before coming to me and where a lot of displaced rabbits whose families had to evacuate from the fires and a big group of abandoned rabbits left in boxes in a park, have all come to be cared for there as well. She’s been extra snuggly last week, really absorbing all the love I give her. She knows the importance of giving AND receiving. This makes me happy, as my bunnies have always been huge givers and this can result in blow outs because of the enormous energy they exude from their fragile bodies, which then takes rebalancing. Astrid is a strong one, but it makes me happy to know she is open to the flow of energy to help keep her healthy and able to continue giving and working the magick as she does.

I feel that so many healers and empaths can benefit from this reminder, but everyone in general will feel that boost when opening the stream of energy to flow naturally.

That leads me to share some bitter and sweet news connected with Astrid’s focuses and the rabbit rescue from which I adopted her from, as both sides of the coin are always present in the bigger picture of things.

The following shares come to you from Save A Bunny and their Facebook updates, as well as a personal message from Marcy – the head of this incredible organization. The first involving good news for rabbits, cats, and dogs in California.

Here are some moving images and updates copied from their page. I feel called to share these, prompted by Astrid, as a way to bring her voice and the voice of these voiceless ones into form.

Celebrations for the three most euthanized animals in the U.S., reverence to all and Mother Nature, and so much love sent to everyone and all of the beings affected by these wildfires and events in the world.

Thank you hugely Marcy and Save A Bunny for all that you do. You move me beyond words with your love and dedication. Sending so much love to you all there, as just like Astrid, receiving will help aid your continued efforts.

The following comes from Save A Bunny:

 

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“California to require pet stores carry only shelter and rescue animals for adoption.

Yesterday Governor Jerry Brown signed legislation (AB-485) mandating only animals from animal rescues and shelters may be offered at pet stores. The legislation, aimed at reducing the number of animals in shelters, will take effect in 2019. Stores can be fined $500 for each animal not from a legitimate rescue organization. California is the first state to pass this type of legislation.

Thank you, Gov Brown, and let’s keep working to find every bun a loving forever home!”

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Arriving close to midnight, 15 Californians in 5 cardboard boxes.

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We’re deeply grateful to Heather W and Shereen R for driving 5+ hours to transport the bunnies from Salt Point State Park. They truly saved the bunnies lives.

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A baby girl who was dyed/painted purple. She has a head trauma that is very swollen.

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Baby boy with filthy and encrusted hindquarters. We spent hours this afternoon shaving and trimming all the bunnies of their dirty and matted fur.

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Baby boy with bad urine scald (thus the fur loss) and injuries to his genitals.

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3 baby boys resting and getting plenty to eat and drink. Poor things seemed so tired and traumatized on arrival, and not behaving like babies at all. But today some started coming out of the shell shock and we’ve glimpsed a tiny binky or two.

 

“Wildfire Bunnies and their rescue

Late last night we took in 15 rabbits on an emergency basis. We’re calling them the Wildfire Bunnies and they came from Salt Point State Park about 2.5 hours north of SaveABunny in a somewhat remote area of California.

A couple days ago rangers found the bunnies abandoned in the park. They’d been left in cardboard boxes with some rice and peanuts (both bad for bunnies) and no water. Doing the best they could with limited resources the rangers took them to a shed then started calling around to animal shelters, and SaveABunny was the only rescue who agreed to take them sight unseen and not knowing anything about their condition.

In the meantime wildfires began raging out of control overnight and Salt Point was declared a safe place for fire evacuees, so the bunnies had to leave the park within hours but due to the driving distance and remoteness of location it was really hard to find anyone. Thankfully 2 wonderful angels, Heather and Shereen, agreed to make the long trip after work and bring the bunnies back late at night.

There are a couple of adults and the rest are babies, all in various states of malnutrition and neglect, and it took most of the day to do a detailed assessment. Some will need to see a vet ASAP such as one baby with obvious head trauma, one with an injured (maybe broken) leg and one who’ll likely need surgery because of injury to his private parts.

At the same time we’re also housing bunnies whose families had to evacuate as well as fielding many calls for help from county animal shelters and rescues.

We’re committed to assisting as many people and bunnies as possible, with devoted volunteers working all day and late into the night.

Here are ways to help:

— Transport: if you’re willing to pick up bunnies from the shelter in Mill Valley, CA and drive them foster homes in other parts of the area, please send a PRIVATE message to SaveABunny FB with your phone number and specifying what geographic region(s) you’re willing to cover.

— Foster: If you’re willing to host a bunny for a couple weeks and you live in the Bay Area region, please fill out the application http://www.saveabunny.org/foster. We’re really trying to keep lines of communication clear so filling out the application will help us tremendously so we have all your basic information in a way that can be shared amongst volunteers.

— Donate: If you’d like provide the Wildfire Bunnies with a little toy or some supplies our Wish List is http://tinyurl.com/SaveABunnyWishList.

Thank you so much for the encouragement and support, the bunny community is a very wonderful group to be a part of!”

 

And a note from Marcy:

 

“Dear Friends, Simply put ….thank you for your trust and support during these tragic wildfires in Northern California.

SaveABunny is “guerrilla rescue.” We’re scrappy, entrenched behind the scenes and our mission is always to take the unwanted, traumatized or abandoned rabbits left behind. Sight and condition of the rabbits is frequently unknown. That is how we are helping during the tragic wildfires in California.

Our doors are open to bunnies who have fallen between the cracks. Left behind, found as strays or now homeless. We’re also here for the displaced weary and frightened people who need peace of mind that their bunnies are safely being cared for–FREE OF CHARGE.

This is not glamorous work, nor is it a fundraiser. It is an act of love for humans and their animals. That’s what we stand for and who we are as a group.” ~Marcy

Aries Full Moon


While fiery intensity and passionate energy are some of the focuses of this Aries Harvest and Hunter’s/Blood Full Moon, there is also a reminder for tempering things to bring greater balance and harmony into our experience right now. Deepening into the truth of who you are and trusting in that inner knowing to guide you is key, and this will reflect the true beauty of things, as we become more present to the reflections of our relationships to everything within and around us.

We continue being presented with opportunities to strengthen our connection with Mother Earth – Terra – to bring greater stability and anchoring to our lives. It is from that place that peace takes hold, when we are firm with our roots, yet flowing with our expansion.

Security comes from this place of peace within, which can be accessed regardless of our surroundings and chosen regardless of thinking there is no other way. There are always multiple options and perspectives because we are creative beings living in a creative universe. There are no limits on creativity. Only the depth at which you activate your imagination becomes your limitation.

It continues to be a time for showing up more authentically and when we focus on being or embodying, then the doing takes care of itself. Not the other way around.

So don’t worry so much about that.

Focus on nurturing your essence, cultivating your creativity, having gratitude for things you overlook everyday as gifts, and celebrate what’s right in the world. Bringing your joy through into all that you do and share will infuse new life into everything and you’ll be in the flow of constant renewal.

Remember who you are and believe in yourself.

Step into yourself, shine light upon the shadows within, take actions in alignment with that truth, and reclaim empowerment in a healthy way.

Whatever we are presented with does have a way of being overcome. Release attachment to how things need to look and find the hidden gift that can shift your entire experience of life.

Do you enjoy living in the past and in limitation? If not, then rise above this. If you are ready to make leaps in life, the energies are here to support that. Be like Nature and flow with these currents.

This is a good time to get things done and start those things you’ve been procrastinating.

The above photo is of the Full Moon early this morning, which I captured literally about 3 minutes before it fully disappeared behind the mountain. Astrid had woken me with her running around like a speed racer, full of excitement. She definitely did not want me to miss out on seeing it. In person, it was big, clear, and reddish in color. And as soon as I took this quick photo, it was gone, but am glad I captured it to share.

All of my bunnies have shared a connection with the Moon and Astrid is no exception.

In the photo below you can see her basking in its glow, as I always find her each Full Moon and on major cosmic occasions.

This was taken early yesterday morning at 3 am (had to use flash) when I woke and found her in front of the French doors, lake and Moon still as can be even when I went to stroke her. Everything was dark and still except for the strong glow of the Moon illuminating the room, lake, and Astrid.

Her ears were warm with energy despite it being very cold, which was obvious to me that she was moving the Aries energy since throughout the day I’d noticed her ears cold and now at the coldest hours she was warm.

The Full Aries, Harvest and Hunter’s Moon definitely had her attention and Astrid was helping to work with the energies and prepare for the new on all levels to help clear things and create balance and ease.

Wishing everyone an empowering Full Moon. 11:11 as I finish writing this, so activations embedded in this for sure!

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Astrid’s Journey Reflects My Own: Relaxing into the Nature of Our Origins


It has been such a joy to watch Astrid relax more and more into her true self and feel safe, loved, and vulnerably expressive. It’s been just over 3 months since first she came home to us, but during that time she has come to know true comfort and joy in realizing she is here to stay and has a best friend for life in me. I’ve seen her evolve into the being I saw her to be, and not the outside persona she portrayed because of conditioning and filtering she learned to exhibit to not only survive, but to invoke others to rise to their best. She has been an example and reflection of how to view things from your heart, not judge a book by its cover, and to dig deep to celebrate the true nature of things beyond what your eyes and mind might otherwise want to react to.

Although she still is working through things and this will continue to evolve more and more over time, she is also feeling the true comfort and joy of bunnyness that she dreamed of and knew was in her nature to be.

Sounds much like me/mom, and the place I’ve come to in my life after deep explorations, surrendering, and relaxing more into my true origins of my own nature. No coincidence she and I share a journey we can support one another with and perhaps even maybe help inspire for others on a similar trajectory.

Although we’re in this interim place right now in between remodeling work being done on both places, not having furniture, and simply in process of a big move, she and our other fur babies are doing well and having fun exploring and discovering new hiding places.

This interim place seems to reflect where we all are along our transitioning journey – both animals and humans alike – in going through this huge growth spurt and relaxing more deeply into the nature of who we are – in essence, coming home to our origins.

We have a several month period of transition to go through together as a family unit, but in the end, much expansion, freedom, and creative potential awaits us. Through diligence, patience, commitment, belief, love, and keeping an eye only on moving forward from this moment, we will get through this crazy chaos with a foundation of peace at our cores to keep us on track.

And the more we each embody that, the more we support one another with it as well, as there will be times we each take the lead or are being guided by whom ever is able to move into that embodiment first – no right or wrong, no better or worse, but simply a beautiful co-creative experience for sure that is based on the foundation of pure love.

Anyway, I just love seeing Astrid’s journey first hand, and feel so grateful and blessed she has chosen me as her partner in life. Even if she has challenges in other regards, she demonstrates something altogether different with me and has come to be bonded with me in a very powerful way that helps her to feel safe because she trusts me and that bond. She is coming out more and more, but definitely will always be a one-person bonded bunny more than anything and I’m honored that she chose that person to be me.

Alongside some of the sweet things I’ll share, she has also been demonstrating her desire to be a part of everything we do as a family and to be a part of gatherings when we have people over that she likes. She will now come and stay out with everyone, hanging around to hear things and energetically join in on the group energy. She lets people she likes come and pet her, she will come out to say hi and makes it clear who she resonates with and who she doesn’t in terms of deciding to share her energy or not with (that boundary demonstration again). Even if she wants to remain alone, she will at least come out of her hiding places and give people a nose nudge to acknowledge them and give them a little bunny energy, then return back.

She also made appearances during my Reiki workshop the other day, which was her first to be part of. I could tell she had prepped the room’s energy before too and when I was doing the initiation attunements, she sat a few feet directly behind with one ear back and one ear forward, tuning in and supporting the process, as well as learning, and aiding me. That was powerful and beautiful to share with her.

But some things are too precious for words and photos do more justice to share.

One thing I’ve really REALLY been so moved to see is how Astrid in the last couple of weeks has finally done something I’d been waiting for, which is to vulnerably throw herself on her side and fall deeply into sleep without remaining cautious and on full alert. Although bunnies always are alert, I’ve wanted her to relax into this kind of sleep that my other bunnies used to do, which to me demonstrates true comfort and joy. Before then she was always laying in more “up” positions and ears alert and eyes open or immediately opened…and now she goes into true bunny dreamland and relaxes.

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She does still love to have those feet grounded though and so usually will be found with her feet up against a wall or box or whatever she can find so that even though her body is floating on a bunny cloud, those feet or rooted and ready for action if necessary. I love that. It’s also sweet because it exposes her magickal silver toes.

This picture mesmerizes me to look at and I feel so much from it….mostly that is LOVE.

And although she still runs the show around here with the cats, Boojum’s persistence has found some acceptance by Astrid, although she has his number and keeps him in check. 😉

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Another very cool thing miss Astrid has discovered, is the second story to her Magick Carrot House. She knew something was there, as she would look up the ramp inside of it since the beginning, but never ventured up.

But now everyday, after she enjoys her new spot on the bottom of the cat tree, she can be found nestled upstairs in her bedroom on the second story of the Magick Carrot House.

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It’s the cutest thing ever and so hard to capture through the tiny carrot windows, but at least these photos give you a tiny glimpse of her sacred bedroom space she enjoys being in.

I love when she sticks her nose through the carrot window to say hi to me when I come by sometimes.

Cuteness overload for sure.

I CANNOT WAIT to create her and my new space in our new home. I have so many ideas percolating and surprises in store for her. My room is her room, so it will definitely be the magickal rabbit sanctuary and secret lair. So much fun awaits!

But for now, miss Queen Astrid is also enjoying tons of fun in anticipation of it all on the new blow up living room Dave got us for the next 2 month interim of all the remodeling and moving craze. She’s having a bouncy good time! And brings giggles to my heart.

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I just adore her and love how big she is too….I adoringly call her Monster Bunny and Koala Bunny, as she is not only a huge presence, but truly is physically a power bunny embodied (similar to a bear cub, which someone called her yesterday) with a heart of gold and the alchemy of a cosmic wizard.

Yes, she is home…. Forever. And so am I.

Remember Who You Are


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If you didn’t believe in magick, Astrid’s here to help with that. She keeps revealing more and more of her brilliance through the dark Mystery that she is. Just like each of us have a lot of untapped and/or unknown magick and alchemy within to bring forth, as we brave the watery abyss of ourselves. As you look into the portal of her reflection, know that it is only because you have the same within you that you can see it. Our hope for you – Astrid and I – is that you remember who you are, return to natural harmony, and live in the integrity, purity, and beauty of that essence always. Shine on and keep singing your song. We love you!

Wonderland Delight ~ Equinox Enchantment


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On this doorway between Summer and Autumn, I’m celebrating all of it AND Winter! Yes, just as I suspected (and just may have had my own little additional hand in with Jack Frost and the Faeries), the snow began to fall right after I completed my book and then continued yesterday on and off, and all through the night (that has me singing my fav from Cyndi Lauper now…All through the night….). This left an incredible, fresh wonderland this morning for me to wake to.

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But that was preceded by an awe-inspiring sunset last night too, which had me in “ooo’s and ahhh’s” over and over. It felt like the light and portal I was watching before me, was taking place inside my heart and spirit.

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Even the magickal Astrid was giddy with delight at her very first snow, running all around the rooms like a little speed racer this morning. I SO enjoyed watching her look out the window at the snow – a Faery tale image come true. This was her last evening looking out at the new-fallen snow.

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And then this morning with the glowing sun beginning to light this new world in front of her like a warm Cosmic candle.

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She is so much like a snowshoe hare to me, I could imagine her out in it, and turning to white with the touch of her silver toes to the snow beneath her.

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She also reminds me of a harp seal. This photo is from yesterday, as she laid all relaxed and full of joy from the vision of snow. She takes on so many forms, but this photo captures her harp seal imitation, as I often call her. So perfect for the wintery snow scene… Flippers and all, which mom would likely do better with too, hehe!!

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And this is our picture window that is like a portal to me into another world.

I watched the sun rise over the snow blanketed vista, this morning, creating cotton candy pink clouds and light. Then clouds danced across the Lake’s surface like steam rising and geese began to fly.

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Just incredible.

I even put my one bare foot in the snow on the deck for the first time and hobbled my way with my healing boot on the other across to the banister to take it all in.

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Enchantment ran through me and tickled my heart with delight.

And as the pink clouds dispersed, everything turned to white and icy blue in the full light of morning. The clouds continued to dance and glide across the water like the world was upside down and the lake became the sky.

As above, so below.

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I hope you enjoy these photos shared from this magickal portal to your own heart.

So Much Joy, Gratitude & Love ~ Update On How Things Are Shaping Up


This is a post about joy, gratitude, and love – building blocks to manifesting a magickal and wondrous life and the foundations for supporting healing transmutation and implementation of passions into dreams come true. While some people might be thrown off balance or upset, down, and self-critical over a fracture (even the old me would have been too), I feel like everything is in flow, fresh, and thriving. Definitely some of that has to do with perspective, but it feels also to be about alignment and embrace of the harmonious spirals of life. I haven’t for a second felt anything other than harmony and gratitude since my hiking adventure that led to my injury, as it feels much more to be a reset aligned with life shifts, an igniting or opening (fissure) for the new to flow in, not to mention is mirroring the seasonal changes we’re going into from Summer to Autumn.

I can’t begin to tell you how beautiful things have been surrounding the onset of my fracture and what it has revealed and put into motion. It’s incredible to witness and review…in some ways mind-blowing because I can remember the difference in my processes over the course of my life with things and it’s so dramatically contrasting to what I experience now. This is how I can SEE things ARE in fact changing and can anchor in more and more gratitude.

I’d like to share a couple of updates and then some very beautiful and incredible experiences.

First off….more gratitude sent out to everyone who has sent their good and healing vibes my way and for sending Astrid birthday wishes. We so appreciate your love and I’d like to share that my foot is doing very well. I can’t believe it’s already going to be a week since it happened, come tomorrow! Time is literally whizzing by. OMGOSH!

I’ve made mental note of how my own nurturing processes are even in much higher gear, as I’m taking REALLY good care of myself with this fracture. I noted that last go-around I wasn’t as diligent with the process, although did do good things for it, but I didn’t baby my foot in the way I should have and still was focused on accomplishing and getting things done, rather than hunkering down into the full healing mode and not trying to see how much I could still squeeze out of it all.

This time it’s been pure healing, slow-down, and wise caution, not doing anything at all to inhibit my healing or see what I can possibly still do. I have been purely babying my foot, keeping my boot on at nearly all possible times (even when it bothered the Pisces me who likes my feet free! and even when I sleep) – and doing extra nurturing things, as well as making sure to ask for help, which Dave has been so sweetly pouring out anyway.

This has included long hours on the highest setting of my biomat for my foot the last few days and just recently starting up my comfrey poultices, after a friend picked up some for me since I couldn’t get out. Being my right foot, I’m in complete surrender of others taking care of me and driving me around….weeeeeee! That in the past would have bothered me and now I’m loving not being able to go anywhere and surrendering to that, but also enjoying the sweetness of support, love, and friendship.

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Anyway, I am trying new poultices with comfrey root and this feels really symbolically and literally potent and even more aligned for me right now. I made a paste and wrapped in a thin cloth I placed in the freezer for just a bit….last night when I had it on it just felt so good….just like the biomat did….like aaahhhhhhh yummy healing for my foot.

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The root feels so supportive of grounding, balancing, rooting, and Earthing that my Pisces feet can appreciate and integrate in a new way. After last night’s session of poultice while watching a movie, I literally woke this morning with my foot feeling stronger…literally!

I’ve also been doing Reiki on my foot and using a Selenite wand on the area of impact.

Good stuff, which I’ll continue to implement, along with wearing my boot all day (just as the doctor at the hospital told me too) other than when doing healing work like this to help compliment my healing process.

* (I’m not a doctor and nothing I share is offered as medical advice – CONSULT A PROFESSIONAL and see a doctor immediately if you have been injured. These are only my personal experiences I take responsibility for only for myself) *

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Even my sweet Astrid has been helping. I thought she would be scared of my boot and crutches when I first came home with them, but she in fact was not and in fact has immediately gone about sharing her healing energy with me, reiterating my knowing she is a healing bunny. When ever I am near her, she will come over and nose my boot/foot, which is her way (all of my bunnies’ way) of administering healing. Their noses are a channel, just like our hands, to spread the energy and love. So sweet! I remember Nestor doing this, especially once for my mom in conjunction with me doing a Reiki Healing Attunement for her, which was like a super pow! Immediately shifted my mom into balance and feeling good. Astrid is definitely demonstrating the same power-packed punch!

So that’s a foot and healing update, which I envision continuing well and being speedy based on my experience with it so far and being a good patient. 😉

On another note, I have to share this incredible thing that happened on Thursday that blew me away. We had friends over since I still was in “stay home mode” and Dave had to go out to pick up food we ordered at our fav local Thai restaurant, since T – me – wasn’t cooking and staying off her feet.

A knock came at the door and I opened it to find no one there, except these beautiful babies and a note.

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I immediately knew that our amazing friends had gone back to retrieve my crystal babies.

So, I’ll back up to help you understand this, as I likely wasn’t clear in my story of my hiking injury.

I had 2 big quartz in my back pack I was carrying, as they spoke to me needing to come home and would be a part of what I will be creating in the near future. We have guesstimated them to be at least 50 lbs. So, as you can tell, I was quite determined in carrying these for miles. It didn’t even phase me, as the mind is a miraculous thing. It also officially put me into back-packer status, carrying so much and being so small.

When I fell and went into trauma shock, I asked my friends to remove the pack immediately because I needed to focus on balancing from the nausea, shock, and turning white. (I really didn’t have any pain except an initial quick impact feeling of the break that was actually pretty subtle in comparison to my last fracture, but the body reacts this way to trauma impact).

In process of balancing and readying ourselves for what was next in getting me down the mountain, I told them to leave the crystals, which Dave reiterated, as it wasn’t as important as taking care of me, being that we didn’t know the severity of things.

So they were left on the side, and I did feel this underlying sadness, but also this odd sense of continued connection that wasn’t broken.

One other friend had been carrying a quartz too and she ended up leaving as well, down further on the path, to not impede her own journey back down.

Anyway, I hadn’t forgotten them and still felt this channel of connection between them, and oddly (which I never shared with anyone) I felt like they were still with me and/or would be somehow/some way, even if it meant they’d wait for me to return later or after the Winter thaw.

So fast forward to the door opening and there they were before me with the note.

I was overwhelmed with emotion that came forth later, as I was so excited and giddy that that took over.

I then caught glimpse to the left at the bottom of the stairs, one of our friends videoing me and my reaction and knew they’d gone back to get them.

Most of my reactions were in Faery laughter and astonishment, but it was also full of exhilaration and exuberant joy and gratitude that rushed through in realizing what incredible friends I had. Like so incredible you can’t even form words except to giggle forth with joy and to form joyous tears that bubbled in my eyes later when I was hugging them over and over.

Our friends had gone back that morning on a 5 hour hike JUST to retrieve my and our other friend’s 3 crystals (likely 60+ lbs and a gift or two they found for themselves for embracing the journey of love.

BESTEST friends ever!

They also shared with us these SO SO funny videos of documenting the journey back, which had us in belly laughs. I was especially laughing at our friend’s impression of me carrying the crystals in my pack and how I was still looking around at more and saying I can carry 1 or 2 more of these babies! This was funny because they now realized just how heavy the ones I had with me were, which made my saying this hilarious as to how my determined mind took over.

This photo puts into perspective the size of just the one largest one, which is of course the heaviest too. I’m still smiling though!!

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The other VERY interesting thing they noted was that where I fell was exactly at the site of the quartz field we’d been waiting to reach. Dave kept saying there was another one because he’d been on the hike before, when the girls and I had stopped at the first one we found to look around. So he was telling us not to spend time because more were on the way. We never actually saw this other site, because my injury took over focus.

Well, on their way back to retrieve the crystals they found that where I fell (marked by where we left the crystals) was exactly where they were, just up the hill from there a bit. That gave me chills in thinking of the energetics of it all at work and the alignments igniting and activating once I’d reached this area infused with more crystal vibes.

The crystals are super special and you can’t even tell the beauty of them in the photos…their amazing color – one is pinkish and the other like a golden apricot – and both have all this sparkly clear quartz infusions into the raw natural quartz rock. Amazing specimens and masterful beings!!

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I’m still overwhelmed by it and also anchoring in more and more gratitude and realization that this is the new reality I have created for myself (and that is possible) where everything in it is a reflection of alignment and love…supportive energies…beautiful souls working together for a greater good….everyone mindful of and helping each other’s needs and dreams, but also supporting their own and their dreams, which brings together the highest of vibes and the power of the collective to move mountains…..or in this case to carry 60+ lbs of crystals.

It literally has to be one of the most special things I’ve ever received..and I don’t mean the crystals (although I’m in awe and gratitude of them being with me), but the gesture of true love and friendship.

These same friends also picked up my comfrey for me (it even had a Tinkerbell on the bag from the store!) and brought over some amazing organic “dragonfly” spicy black chai.

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After that, our other friends arrived and I was then gifted a mini wardrobe of clothes she was moving out and thought were perfect for me and they were!

I was/am really feeling the love and I know that this is mirroring the fact that I’ve finally really anchored in taking care of myself, listening to my dreams and needs too, and balancing out that martyr energy of always giving out and never receiving – not to mention have implemented healthy boundaries. In the past receiving was hard and now it feels natural because it IS the natural flow and cycle.

You can’t just give, give, give….and you can’t just receive, receive, receive…

There is a flow of exchange to be open to and grateful for and it is all-encompassing of both being inherent in the wholeness of BEING. That is also the nature of Reiki….a harmonious circuit of flow in and out, which if blocked in any way, is the cause of challenges and dis-ease.

Yesterday was my first full outing since fracturing my foot, which included errands related to the new, a hair appointment for me, visiting my parents, and Dave getting a haircut by my mom (she has been a beautician although doesn’t do it professionally anymore since leaving her birth place, France).

I was feeling high-vibed to get a refresh on my hair, which included cut/thinning for lightness and hair getting to all silver and brown (my roots), which feels SO different and SO good. There’s constantly this recreating energy taking place to keep up with the ever-shifting energies. If I’m not naturally shape-shifting, then I’m assisting it. I also thought it was fun that my stylist styled my hair with loose spirals for a change, which felt mirroring of all the snake energy around me lately and the spiraling of the journey of life in general. I don’t ever curl my hair, as I don’t have the tools and usually just let my hair dry naturally so this was a fun update although brief.

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We also got good news on this day/yesterday for something that has been in the works and took a huge turn the day before that could have gone a whole other way, but I worked with the Faeries, Buffalo energy, and did a Reiki Healing Attunement for, resulting in being told to fully trust, know what we want, and take assertive stance of our needs and the rest would be taken care of…and it was!

I’m saving that for a future post, but is something very exciting to me and going to anchor in everything further and more richly.

Lastly, I am happy to say that my book is back on track with the time off my feet and I should be able to have exciting news on that too here shortly!

We are all in this together and bringing your best “foot” forward with all of your parts together in unified alignment, sharing lots of love, joyous infusion and supportive action of your passions, and a LOT of gratitude and healthy balance supports harmony to take form in relative ways for each of us.

Happy Birthday Astrid!


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Just a very short post to honor this incredible being who has graced my life with her presence and magick….Astrid. Today is her 3rd birthday and couldn’t come at a more wondrous time. The love and energy she has infused into my life has been an invaluable gift and means everything to me. I can’t begin to express all that she has assisted me with already and shifted in my life so quickly by her unexpected and very welcome arrival. All of my bunnies are pieces of the whole that make me, me. When they are with me I feel the essence of who I am.

So happy birthday to this beautiful, brave, magickal, mysterious, courageous, precious, hilarious, powerful, tender, incredible girl!! I couldn’t be more grateful that she chose me to be her partner and guardian and that I get to experience all these parts of her and more!

I have a very busy day today, but will post more about the surprises and gifts that have taken place hopefully this weekend.

This morning I woke to a sunrise that revealed our first snow already on the west side of the lake. A beautiful gift on this special day of celebration for Miss Magickal Astrid.

Not only is Autumn approaching quickly with cooler temperatures, rain storms, and even a wild funnel cloud a couple of days ago, but looks like Jack Frost is laying claim to an early winter this year.

Astrid woke me this morning, jumping on the bed next to my head full of excitement for her day. I was sure to get up and give her a big bunch of dandelion, cilantro, carrot tops and mint for breakfast. More goodies to come later and promises of surprises in store for her in the coming months from mom….can’t wait!

Have a bunderful day and a hoppy birthday sweet spirit and love of my heart.

The Mystery of Astrid


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Astrid continues to tickle me with her unassuming magick and wisdom and the ingenious way she peels away layers of herself when she feels to. I’ve said from day one that she is slowly going to reveal herself and that she isn’t at all what she seems. She is definitely the embodiment of multi-dimensional expression, housed in a robust and mysteriously beautiful rabbit body. I’ve come to see that she embodies more of a wild rabbit essence rather than a domesticated one and while she’s enjoying the sensuality of being in her body and exploring what that feels like, she’s much more off-Earth than here. When I peer into her eyes and feel into her spirit it is as vast as the Cosmos and as wild and free as the once untouched gardens of Earth’s realms.

It’s fun to see her experiencing things in such a fresh way and I love that wisdom she carries through these fresh experiences. She reminds me of the incredible Snowshoe Hares I fell in love with in Montana that carry the same energy.

I love the photo above captured of Astrid inside of the hay box. She couldn’t wait for me to finish her daily cleaning and prep and just jumped inside of the hay box before I was done getting it into hers. It reminded me of her being in the fields and meadows where wild rabbits roam.

She feels right at home now with everything and truly is a happy and mischievous one.

I love seeing her run and jump with excitement and can literally feel not only her joy exuding in those exuberant leaps, but can also feel the energy she is moving and the Cosmic stardust and Faery dust she is sprinkling around.

Astrid has learned to jump on the bed now and since then she will jump up on my side to come say hi in the wee hours of the morning during Faery time to wake me. She actually jumps right up beside my head and proceeds to nose me with whiskers tickling my face. I love it!! 

And what I also love in the photo I shared here, is the position of the heart above her third eye with the bottom of it pointing directly there – the alchemy of Cosmic Love and intuitively guided vision merged.

As one friend recently said, “I always get the feeling she knows so much more than she’s letting on….she’s being gentle with us.”

Astrid gives a mischievous wink.

Expanding Realities Welcoming Greater Possibilities & Soaring New Heights – Aloha!


As I’ve mentioned in a recent post, we have been exploring new terrain and discovering hidden gems all within and around the Lake Tahoe area – our current home base. Places and spaces I never knew about and had never adventured into during the time I’ve lived in this area in the past, but those were times of inner exploration more than the reflection of the outer that that entailed. They were also times of journeying out and beyond this realm, which then turned inside out and bringing the beyond into my now experience here on this Earth plane in order to merge them both and release myself from the confines created.

This new terrain seems to reflect the new inner landscape and more Cosmic blossoming that is opening further, as more truth is revealed and freedom unleashed.

The more free I become, or rather, I return to embodying and just “being”, the more my spirit overflows and cannot be contained in anyway. This reminding me of my dear Nestor and her huge spirit that was too much for her tiny, yet powerful rabbit body, and now also of my sweet Astrid who more and more reminds me of Nestor’s Spirit and truly feels much more to be a wild rabbit than domesticated one – literally she feels like those incredible Snowshoe Hares I fell in love with in Montana –  and that all of the “fight” she has/had was in response to anything trying to take that away from her or to confine her in unnatural ways not aligned with who she knows herself to be – breaking free from the illusions and being powered over.

This was clearly demonstrated with myself this past Saturday on an epic hike we did with friends to a new and incredibly beautiful and expansive spot – Lake Aloha (reminding me not only of beautiful Montana, but of a Cosmic and otherwordly terrain).

I showed up in an aqua bunny tank top and butterfly skirt over my merfaery bathing suit with my Chaco sandals without a jacket and holding my small matching aqua backpack in my hands – my usual. Everyone else was all geared up, big packs strapped around their bodies, hiking shoes and clothes, hiking poles (except for Dave), jackets and beanies/hats (it was 7:30 am and about 48 degrees), etc.

They felt I could use a jacket (although I was content in the sun and ready to take on the wind of the boatride) so I was given an extra one and then proceeded to strap me into my back pack.

I was not too pleased with the whole thing to say the least LOL! Although very grateful for such caring friends.

I felt confined and so not me.

They snapped this funny photo because I looked/felt like I was in a straight jacket and they all agreed it was so “not” me. We all giggled because it was true.

And as we got to the other side after our boat ride, the jacket came off quickly and was returned, and my back pack slowly found itself unsnapped and then eventually only strung over one shoulder.

One of our friends kept laughing along with me noting how I “just wasn’t having any of it” and slowly was morphing back and returning to myself. LOL!

I later got another trail name, “Pocahontas” (to add to Bunny Love and Five Feathers) from one friend because that seemed to depict more of my hiking “style” in terms of that nature connection and being unequipped with “things” yet grounded in that relationship to all that is around me.

They all said I was a Faery and we know that Faeries need to be free.

Anyway, the point is…the more I know who I really am, the less things that aren’t aligned with that are able to be a part of my reality. I can easily morph and adapt when necessary, but I don’t accept something constricting and binding me anymore unless I choose it myself as a temporary experience to move in and out of.

It’s fun to see this play out and how collectively it reflects a lot as well.

What I’ve also found so extremely exciting and wonderful is how many of the new places we’ve been discovering mirror my other favorite place/s in Montana. I’m seeing how those portals keep opening and manifestation is in action big time (that to include intentions that are one-by-one coming into being).

I’m also increasingly experiencing both a contrasting resonance and peace of knowing and being more myself and merging a grounded experience here, and yet detaching more and more from here. It feels like a continued veil removal and cutting out of the “matrix” so to speak or illusion of what all of this here really is about. (777 word count with that) and with disempowering other energies, being able to carve my own reality as was always my/our ability that we forgot.

It’s like fully pulling back the curtain (not just a glimpse) on the so-called magician and seeing/revealing him/her for what he/she truly is – a puppet master pulling the strings.

The strings are getting cut and true magick is being revealed, which ultimately is the origin of being.

Look at the incredible rainbow light being at the bottom center within the water that appeared

I’m constantly walking this experience of both creating a new reality here and living that in fullness of me, and also simultaneously knowing as much as I’ve become comfortable in this new balance, I have Spirit working out other multi-realities that are simultaneously removing this one. If that even makes sense. I feel both peace in what you see of me and harmony in the elsewhere living this out.

That’s likely as far as I want to take that conversation for now, as it’s beyond words to describe and not necessary at this time.

And the experiences here lately have been mirroring this for me, as well as providing opportunity for deeply expanding explorations while hiking and immersing in these realities created.

I find myself both playing in and removing from at once.

Photos captured of me this past Sunday at Lake Aloha and recently seem to continue to reveal this natural dichotomy and harmony, as well as a playful wisdom that seems to have taken full hold and embodiment….unseriously serious and “in things, but not of them.” I am remembering more fully, and it’s a rich fullness of knowing rather than intellectualizing.

I keep hearing about the intensity of energy being experienced by many in varying ways. The huge changes people are going through, choosing, and being thrust into in challenging ways.

And a lot of focus being put on these energetic events this month….experiences we can choose to harness and transmute in ways perhaps not as thought, but to reveal and be more than what you’ve been told (by any source for that matter).

Yesterday was interesting energetically. There were some expected surprises (if that makes sense), some more revealing of odd energies I’m no sucker for, and some deep symbolism that played out in auspicious ways.

The morning kicked off with Dave scaling a 30 foot borrowed ladder from people painting a house just at the bottom of our huge flight of stairs, which I assisted with. It was quite the process not only carrying this thing, but also in moving it into 4 positions next to our large picture windows (portals). The goal was to clean our windows (especially because 3 birds had left full imprints on the center of each) and to protect our bird family from any further trauma and potential death by placing these snowflake reflective decals on them made just for that. We’ve had so many incidences of birds hitting the window (luckily only majorly stunned and no deaths), but we want to avoid this altogether if possible.

Interestingly, birds are very attracted here, as you’ve seen from posts of mine speaking about the birds that have come to land and explore. I also one day had a group of different birds all congregating and fluttering outside the picture window where I was writing (again another manifestation of what I was infusing in the book). So there may be dual reason to their flying into the windows, which could also be a means to get through the illusion and that they feel the portal energy here.

So yes, Dave risked his own neck to save theirs.

But the ladder and climbing to such heights to these portal windows was so symbolic too…and my supporting the anchoring of them for Dave, was kind of a cool symbolism as well.

I won’t bore you with the details of our task, which was highly stressful, but in the end successful.

After, we returned the ladder back down the stairs and I found a Steller’s Jay feather not far from where we took it.

Then Dave said, look over there across the street. There’s a dead Steller’s Jay. So I left Dave and went immediately to him. I find SO many Steller’s Jay feathers and they are always around me these days, as well as all around our deck and trees outside our windows.

I knew I was to take him with me and got the message (reiterated later, before knowing this, by my shamanic friend Dawn) that he was gifting me his wings and tail as well – a merging of his medicine into my own to honor and carry with me, as well as to aid the process/experience I’ve been sharing about. So I picked him up gently and carried him up the 105 steps to the side of the building where we had been

I’ve shared before about Steller’s Jay:

They symbolize bold, fearless energy, and the power of presence and how to use personal power effectively. The crest on their heads connect them to the sky and above, drawing energy and wisdom through the crown and reminding us that our true power needs to be applied in a balanced way that integrates both spirit and body, mind and heart. Since they are very resourceful, they too symbolize adaptability and how to do so more efficiently. They also symbolize a great amount of talent, but a talent that needs to be developed and used wisely. In this way they mirror to us, if one has also appeared for you, that this is a time in your life where you can begin to support the inherent wisdom within you to mature and come forth in a bigger way. Steller’s Jay also alerts us that anything of value, spiritual growth, and relationships takes work and they show us how to activate our internal resources to do this. Communication abilities are strong, access to memories and assimilation of them come to awareness, risk taking, seizing opportunities, discovering new things to explore, balancing intelligence with silence and patience to align with divine timing all come through Steller’s Jay in message. Their crest that reaches up also places attention at the energy centers of the head/crown, indicating an increase in new spiritual knowledge and wisdom that may become activated. – this indicating a psychic channeling of information from the crown. (A message I was given twice in my channeled readings received in Sedona, twice at two different intervals over the last 2 years about energy no longer being moved up the spine like Kundalini usually does for most, but that I’d be channeling through my crown now in this next part of my life.

This gift – like a rebirthing again of the Steller’s Jay energy into my own felt hugely important and supports this grounded soaring of Cosmic origin that I’m experiencing and feels more like embodied spirit.

I did an energetic honoring and blessing and then buried the Steller’s Jay under the picture window portals. I placed 5 stones (one at center and 4 around to the 4 directions).

I then remembered that when we transitioned the previous owner’s refrigerator out of our place to put in our new one, I had found Fiver’s little body I kept frozen in it until Winter thawed enough to bury him properly. I had forgotten he was there and discovered him just two Saturdays ago. I knew the timing would reveal itself on where and when to bury him.

Yesterday was the day. And so after I buried the Steller’s Jay, I went to retrieve Fiver and brought him down wrapped in the sweet little white cloth I’d placed him in that was his bedding. I also remembered the only raw quartz that had been found at Lake Aloha on Sunday – only granite was all around so this quartz seemed out of place. So I knew to bury it along with Fiver and took it too.

I went down and did the same with doing an energetic honoring and blessing for Fiver and buried him a couple of feet from the Steller’s Jay in the same manner. After, I found 2 small heart stones that I placed on top of the center stones to each of their burials.

Everything felt full circle…closure…great peace….and I knew these dear ones would not only aid others to journey beyond and through the portals as they have, were, and now guarded as way showers, but would also infuse their wisdom, protection, and energy to the other mice, birds, and animals here, not to mention be guardians and teachers of that wisdom for anyone living here.

Both of their spirits soaring and a part of my own – of anyone’s ready to listen and remember.

And I’m listening to Astrid as well and I sense she, too, is exhibiting what I’m discovering along with her.

Just in the last few days she’s expanded as well and came to me for the first time in a dream – the way my sweet friends communicate with me in more depth. In the dream she hopped very high with exuberance, three times for me. It not only indicated her joy, but to me felt reflective of these new leaps and heights of experience now opening and the #3 has its own significance for me as well.

And then I woke immediately finding her in wake life running and jumping too. She also just learned how to hop up on the bed and is excited about that – this morning hopping up and me finding her whiskers brushing my face, as she came to wake me.

Things are definitely and sweetly expanding and reaching new heights (in all directions) and there is this sense of having reached a precipice and just catching glimpse and feeling of what lies beyond…and beyond…and beyond…

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