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So Much Joy, Gratitude & Love ~ Update On How Things Are Shaping Up


This is a post about joy, gratitude, and love – building blocks to manifesting a magickal and wondrous life and the foundations for supporting healing transmutation and implementation of passions into dreams come true. While some people might be thrown off balance or upset, down, and self-critical over a fracture (even the old me would have been too), I feel like everything is in flow, fresh, and thriving. Definitely some of that has to do with perspective, but it feels also to be about alignment and embrace of the harmonious spirals of life. I haven’t for a second felt anything other than harmony and gratitude since my hiking adventure that led to my injury, as it feels much more to be a reset aligned with life shifts, an igniting or opening (fissure) for the new to flow in, not to mention is mirroring the seasonal changes we’re going into from Summer to Autumn.

I can’t begin to tell you how beautiful things have been surrounding the onset of my fracture and what it has revealed and put into motion. It’s incredible to witness and review…in some ways mind-blowing because I can remember the difference in my processes over the course of my life with things and it’s so dramatically contrasting to what I experience now. This is how I can SEE things ARE in fact changing and can anchor in more and more gratitude.

I’d like to share a couple of updates and then some very beautiful and incredible experiences.

First off….more gratitude sent out to everyone who has sent their good and healing vibes my way and for sending Astrid birthday wishes. We so appreciate your love and I’d like to share that my foot is doing very well. I can’t believe it’s already going to be a week since it happened, come tomorrow! Time is literally whizzing by. OMGOSH!

I’ve made mental note of how my own nurturing processes are even in much higher gear, as I’m taking REALLY good care of myself with this fracture. I noted that last go-around I wasn’t as diligent with the process, although did do good things for it, but I didn’t baby my foot in the way I should have and still was focused on accomplishing and getting things done, rather than hunkering down into the full healing mode and not trying to see how much I could still squeeze out of it all.

This time it’s been pure healing, slow-down, and wise caution, not doing anything at all to inhibit my healing or see what I can possibly still do. I have been purely babying my foot, keeping my boot on at nearly all possible times (even when it bothered the Pisces me who likes my feet free! and even when I sleep) – and doing extra nurturing things, as well as making sure to ask for help, which Dave has been so sweetly pouring out anyway.

This has included long hours on the highest setting of my biomat for my foot the last few days and just recently starting up my comfrey poultices, after a friend picked up some for me since I couldn’t get out. Being my right foot, I’m in complete surrender of others taking care of me and driving me around….weeeeeee! That in the past would have bothered me and now I’m loving not being able to go anywhere and surrendering to that, but also enjoying the sweetness of support, love, and friendship.

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Anyway, I am trying new poultices with comfrey root and this feels really symbolically and literally potent and even more aligned for me right now. I made a paste and wrapped in a thin cloth I placed in the freezer for just a bit….last night when I had it on it just felt so good….just like the biomat did….like aaahhhhhhh yummy healing for my foot.

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The root feels so supportive of grounding, balancing, rooting, and Earthing that my Pisces feet can appreciate and integrate in a new way. After last night’s session of poultice while watching a movie, I literally woke this morning with my foot feeling stronger…literally!

I’ve also been doing Reiki on my foot and using a Selenite wand on the area of impact.

Good stuff, which I’ll continue to implement, along with wearing my boot all day (just as the doctor at the hospital told me too) other than when doing healing work like this to help compliment my healing process.

* (I’m not a doctor and nothing I share is offered as medical advice – CONSULT A PROFESSIONAL and see a doctor immediately if you have been injured. These are only my personal experiences I take responsibility for only for myself) *

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Even my sweet Astrid has been helping. I thought she would be scared of my boot and crutches when I first came home with them, but she in fact was not and in fact has immediately gone about sharing her healing energy with me, reiterating my knowing she is a healing bunny. When ever I am near her, she will come over and nose my boot/foot, which is her way (all of my bunnies’ way) of administering healing. Their noses are a channel, just like our hands, to spread the energy and love. So sweet! I remember Nestor doing this, especially once for my mom in conjunction with me doing a Reiki Healing Attunement for her, which was like a super pow! Immediately shifted my mom into balance and feeling good. Astrid is definitely demonstrating the same power-packed punch!

So that’s a foot and healing update, which I envision continuing well and being speedy based on my experience with it so far and being a good patient. šŸ˜‰

On another note, I have to share this incredible thing that happened on Thursday that blew me away. We had friends over since I still was in “stay home mode” and Dave had to go out to pick up food we ordered at our fav local Thai restaurant, since T – me – wasn’t cooking and staying off her feet.

A knock came at the door and I opened it to find no one there, except these beautiful babies and a note.

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I immediately knew that our amazing friends had gone back to retrieve my crystal babies.

So, I’ll back up to help you understand this, as I likely wasn’t clear in my story of my hiking injury.

I had 2 big quartz in my back pack I was carrying, as they spoke to me needing to come home and would be a part of what I will be creating in the near future. We have guesstimated them to be at least 50 lbs. So, as you can tell, I was quite determined in carrying these for miles. It didn’t even phase me, as the mind is a miraculous thing. It also officially put me into back-packer status, carrying so much and being so small.

When I fell and went into trauma shock, I asked my friends to remove the pack immediately because I needed to focus on balancing from the nausea, shock, and turning white. (I really didn’t have any pain except an initial quick impact feeling of the break that was actually pretty subtle in comparison to my last fracture, but the body reacts this way to trauma impact).

In process of balancing and readying ourselves for what was next in getting me down the mountain, I told them to leave the crystals, which Dave reiterated, as it wasn’t as important as taking care of me, being that we didn’t know the severity of things.

So they were left on the side, and I did feel this underlying sadness, but also this odd sense of continued connection that wasn’t broken.

One other friend had been carrying a quartz too and she ended up leaving as well, down further on the path, to not impede her own journey back down.

Anyway, I hadn’t forgotten them and still felt this channel of connection between them, and oddly (which I never shared with anyone) I felt like they were still with me and/or would be somehow/some way, even if it meant they’d wait for me to return later or after the Winter thaw.

So fast forward to the door opening and there they were before me with the note.

I was overwhelmed with emotion that came forth later, as I was so excited and giddy that that took over.

I then caught glimpse to the left at the bottom of the stairs, one of our friends videoing me and my reaction and knew they’d gone back to get them.

Most of my reactions were in Faery laughter and astonishment, but it was also full of exhilaration and exuberant joy and gratitude that rushed through in realizing what incredible friends I had. Like so incredible you can’t even form words except to giggle forth with joy and to form joyous tears that bubbled in my eyes later when I was hugging them over and over.

Our friends had gone back that morning on a 5 hour hike JUST to retrieve my and our other friend’s 3 crystals (likely 60+ lbs and a gift or two they found for themselves for embracing the journey of love.

BESTEST friends ever!

They also shared with us these SO SO funny videos of documenting the journey back, which had us in belly laughs. I was especially laughing at our friend’s impression of me carrying the crystals in my pack and how I was still looking around at more and saying I can carry 1 or 2 more of these babies! This was funny because they now realized just how heavy the ones I had with me were, which made my saying this hilarious as to how my determined mind took over.

This photo puts into perspective the size of just the one largest one, which is of course the heaviest too. I’m still smiling though!!

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The other VERY interesting thing they noted was that where I fell was exactly at the site of the quartz field we’d been waiting to reach. Dave kept saying there was another one because he’d been on the hike before, when the girls and I had stopped at the first one we found to look around. So he was telling us not to spend time because more were on the way. We never actually saw this other site, because my injury took over focus.

Well, on their way back to retrieve the crystals they found that where I fell (marked by where we left the crystals) was exactly where they were, just up the hill from there a bit. That gave me chills in thinking of the energetics of it all at work and the alignments igniting and activating once I’d reached this area infused with more crystal vibes.

The crystals are super special and you can’t even tell the beauty of them in the photos…their amazing color – one is pinkish and the other like a golden apricot – and both have all this sparkly clear quartz infusions into the raw natural quartz rock. Amazing specimens and masterful beings!!

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I’m still overwhelmed by it and also anchoring in more and more gratitude and realization that this is the new reality I have created for myself (and that is possible) where everything in it is a reflection of alignment and love…supportive energies…beautiful souls working together for a greater good….everyone mindful of and helping each other’s needs and dreams, but also supporting their own and their dreams, which brings together the highest of vibes and the power of the collective to move mountains…..or in this case to carry 60+ lbs of crystals.

It literally has to be one of the most special things I’ve ever received..and I don’t mean the crystals (although I’m in awe and gratitude of them being with me), but the gesture of true love and friendship.

These same friends also picked up my comfrey for me (it even had a Tinkerbell on the bag from the store!) and brought over some amazing organic “dragonfly” spicy black chai.

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After that, our other friends arrived and I was then gifted a mini wardrobe of clothes she was moving out and thought were perfect for me and they were!

I was/am really feeling the love and I know that this is mirroring the fact that I’ve finally really anchored in taking care of myself, listening to my dreams and needs too, and balancing out that martyr energy of always giving out and never receiving – not to mention have implemented healthy boundaries. In the past receiving was hard and now it feels natural because it IS the natural flow and cycle.

You can’t just give, give, give….and you can’t just receive, receive, receive…

There is a flow of exchange to be open to and grateful for and it is all-encompassing of both being inherent in the wholeness of BEING. That is also the nature of Reiki….a harmonious circuit of flow in and out, which if blocked in any way, is the cause of challenges and dis-ease.

Yesterday was my first full outing since fracturing my foot, which included errands related to the new, a hair appointment for me, visiting my parents, and Dave getting a haircut by my mom (she has been a beautician although doesn’t do it professionally anymore since leaving her birth place, France).

I was feeling high-vibed to get a refresh on my hair, which included cut/thinning for lightness and hair getting to all silver and brown (my roots), which feels SO different and SO good. There’s constantly this recreating energy taking place to keep up with the ever-shifting energies. If I’m not naturally shape-shifting, then I’m assisting it. I also thought it was fun that my stylist styled my hair with loose spirals for a change, which felt mirroring of all the snake energy around me lately and the spiraling of the journey of life in general. I don’t ever curl my hair, as I don’t have the tools and usually just let my hair dry naturally so this was a fun update although brief.

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We also got good news on this day/yesterday for something that has been in the works and took a huge turn the day before that could have gone a whole other way, but I worked with the Faeries, Buffalo energy, and did a Reiki Healing Attunement for, resulting in being told to fully trust, know what we want, and take assertive stance of our needs and the rest would be taken care of…and it was!

I’m saving that for a future post, but is something very exciting to me and going to anchor in everything further and more richly.

Lastly, I am happy to say that my book is back on track with the time off my feet and I should be able to have exciting news on that too here shortly!

We are all in this together and bringing your best “foot” forward with all of your parts together in unified alignment, sharing lots of love, joyous infusion and supportive action of your passions, and a LOT of gratitude and healthy balance supports harmony to take form in relative ways for each of us.

Happy Birthday Astrid!


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Just a very short post to honor this incredible being who has graced my life with her presence and magick….Astrid. Today is her 3rd birthday and couldn’t come at a more wondrous time. The love and energy she has infused into my life has been an invaluable gift and means everything to me. I can’t begin to express all that she has assisted me with already and shifted in my life so quickly by her unexpected and very welcome arrival. All of my bunnies are pieces of the whole that make me, me. When they are with me I feel the essence of who I am.

So happy birthday to thisĀ beautiful, brave, magickal, mysterious, courageous, precious, hilarious, powerful, tender, incredible girl!! I couldn’t be more grateful that she chose me to be her partner and guardian and that I get to experience all these parts of her and more!

I have a very busy day today, but will post more about the surprises and gifts that have taken place hopefully this weekend.

This morning I woke to a sunrise that revealedĀ our first snow already on the west side of the lake. A beautiful gift on this special day of celebration for Miss Magickal Astrid.

Not only is Autumn approaching quickly with cooler temperatures, rain storms, and even a wild funnel cloud a couple of days ago, but looks like Jack Frost is laying claim to an early winter this year.

Astrid woke me this morning, jumping on the bed next to my head full of excitement for her day. I was sure to get up and give her a big bunch of dandelion, cilantro, carrot tops and mintĀ for breakfast. More goodies to come later and promises of surprises in store for her in the coming months from mom….can’t wait!

Have a bunderful day and a hoppy birthday sweet spirit and love of my heart.

The Mystery of Astrid


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Astrid continues to tickle me with her unassuming magick and wisdom and the ingenious way she peels away layers of herself when she feels to. I’ve said from day one that she is slowly going to reveal herself and that she isn’t at all what she seems. She is definitely the embodiment of multi-dimensional expression, housed in a robust and mysteriously beautiful rabbit body.Ā I’ve come to see that she embodies more of a wild rabbit essence rather than a domesticated one and while she’s enjoying the sensuality of being in her body and exploring what that feels like, she’s much more off-Earth than here. When I peer into her eyes and feel into her spirit it is as vast as the Cosmos and as wild and free as the once untouched gardens of Earth’s realms.

It’s fun to see her experiencing things in such a fresh way and I love that wisdom she carries through these fresh experiences. She reminds me of the incredible Snowshoe Hares I fell in love with in Montana that carry the same energy.

I love the photo above captured of Astrid inside of the hay box. SheĀ couldn’t wait for me to finish her daily cleaning and prep and just jumped inside of the hay box before I was done getting it into hers. It reminded me of her being in the fields and meadows where wild rabbits roam.

She feels right at home now with everything and truly is a happy and mischievous one.

I love seeing her run and jump with excitement and can literally feel not only her joy exuding in those exuberant leaps, but can also feel the energy she is moving and the Cosmic stardust and Faery dust she is sprinkling around.

Astrid has learned to jump on the bed now and since then she will jump up on my side to come say hi in the wee hours of the morning during Faery time to wake me. She actually jumps right up beside my head and proceeds to nose me with whiskers tickling my face. I love it!!Ā 

And what I also love in the photo I shared here, is the position of the heart above her third eye with the bottom of it pointing directly there – the alchemy of Cosmic Love and intuitively guided vision merged.

As one friend recently said, “I always get the feeling she knows so much more than she’s letting on….she’s being gentle with us.”

Astrid gives a mischievous wink.

Expanding Realities Welcoming Greater Possibilities & Soaring New Heights – Aloha!


As I’ve mentioned in a recent post, we have been exploring new terrain and discovering hidden gems all within and around the Lake Tahoe area – our current home base. Places and spaces I never knew about and had never adventured into during the time I’ve lived in this area in the past, but those were times of inner exploration more than the reflection of the outer that that entailed. They were also times of journeying out and beyond this realm, which then turned inside out and bringing the beyond into my now experience here on this Earth plane in order to merge them both and release myself from the confines created.

This new terrain seems to reflect the new inner landscape and more Cosmic blossoming that is opening further, as more truth is revealed and freedom unleashed.

The more free I become, or rather, I return to embodying and just “being”, the more my spirit overflows and cannot be contained in anyway. This reminding me of my dear Nestor and her huge spirit that was too much for her tiny, yet powerful rabbit body, and now also of my sweet Astrid who more and more reminds me of Nestor’s Spirit and truly feels much more to be a wild rabbit than domesticated one – literally she feels like those incredible Snowshoe Hares I fell in love with in Montana – Ā and that all of the “fight” she has/had was in response to anything trying to take that away from her or to confine her in unnatural ways not aligned with who she knows herself to be – breaking free from the illusions and being powered over.

This was clearly demonstrated with myself this past Saturday on an epic hike we did with friends to a new and incredibly beautiful and expansive spot – Lake Aloha (reminding me not only of beautiful Montana, but of a Cosmic and otherwordly terrain).

I showed up in an aqua bunny tank top and butterfly skirt over my merfaery bathing suit with my Chaco sandals without a jacket and holding my small matching aqua backpack in my hands – my usual. Everyone else was all geared up, big packs strapped around their bodies, hiking shoes and clothes, hiking poles (except for Dave), jackets and beanies/hats (it was 7:30 am and about 48 degrees), etc.

They felt I could use a jacket (although I was content in the sun and ready to take on the wind of the boatride) so I was given an extra one and then proceeded to strap me into my back pack.

I was not too pleased with the whole thing to say the least LOL! Although very grateful for such caring friends.

I felt confined and so not me.

They snapped this funny photo because I looked/felt like I was in a straight jacket and they all agreed it was so “not” me. We all giggled because it was true.

And as we got to the other side after our boat ride, the jacket came off quickly and was returned, and my back pack slowly found itself unsnapped and then eventually only strung over one shoulder.

One of our friends kept laughing along with me noting how I “just wasn’t having any of it” and slowly was morphing back and returning to myself. LOL!

I later got another trail name, “Pocahontas” (to add to Bunny Love and Five Feathers) from one friend because that seemed to depict more of my hiking “style” in terms of that nature connection and being unequipped with “things” yet grounded in that relationship to all that is around me.

They all said I was a Faery and we know that Faeries need to be free.

Anyway, the point is…the more I know who I really am, the less things that aren’t aligned with that are able to be a part of my reality. I can easily morph and adapt when necessary, but I don’t accept something constricting and binding me anymore unless I choose it myself as a temporary experience to move in and out of.

It’s fun to see this play out and how collectively it reflects a lot as well.

What I’ve also found so extremely exciting and wonderful is how many of the new places we’ve been discovering mirror my other favorite place/s in Montana. I’m seeing how those portals keep opening and manifestation is in action big time (that to include intentions that are one-by-one coming into being).

I’m also increasingly experiencing both a contrasting resonance and peace of knowing and being more myself and merging a grounded experience here, and yet detaching more and more from here. It feels like a continued veil removal and cutting out of the “matrix” so to speak or illusion of what all of this here really is about. (777 word count with that) and with disempowering other energies, being able to carve my own reality as was always my/our ability that we forgot.

It’s like fully pulling back the curtain (not just a glimpse) on the so-called magician and seeing/revealing him/her for what he/she truly is – a puppet master pulling the strings.

The strings are getting cut and true magick is being revealed, which ultimately is the origin of being.

Look at the incredible rainbow light being at the bottom center within the water that appeared

I’m constantly walking this experience of both creating a new reality here and living that in fullness of me, and also simultaneously knowing as much as I’ve become comfortable in this new balance, I have Spirit working out other multi-realities that are simultaneously removing this one. If that even makes sense. I feel both peace in what you see of me and harmony in the elsewhere living this out.

That’s likely as far as I want to take that conversation for now, as it’s beyond words to describe and not necessary at this time.

And the experiences here lately have been mirroring this for me, as well as providing opportunity for deeply expanding explorations while hiking and immersing in these realities created.

I find myself both playing in and removing from at once.

Photos captured of me this past Sunday at Lake Aloha and recently seem to continue to reveal this natural dichotomy and harmony, as well as a playful wisdom that seems to have taken full hold and embodiment….unseriously serious and “in things, but not of them.” I am remembering more fully, and it’s a rich fullness of knowing rather than intellectualizing.

I keep hearing about the intensity of energy being experienced by many in varying ways. The huge changes people are going through, choosing, and being thrust into in challenging ways.

And a lot of focus being put on these energetic events this month….experiences we can choose to harness and transmute in ways perhaps not as thought, but to reveal and be more than what you’ve been told (by any source for that matter).

Yesterday was interesting energetically. There were some expected surprises (if that makes sense), some more revealing of odd energies I’m no sucker for, and some deep symbolism that played out in auspicious ways.

The morning kicked off with Dave scaling a 30 foot borrowed ladder from people painting a house just at the bottom of our huge flight of stairs, which I assisted with. It was quite the process not only carrying this thing, but also in moving it into 4 positions next to our large picture windows (portals). The goal was to clean our windows (especially because 3 birds had left full imprints on the center of each) and to protect our bird family from any further trauma and potential death by placing these snowflake reflective decals on them made just for that. We’ve had so many incidences of birds hitting the window (luckily only majorly stunned and no deaths), but we want to avoid this altogether if possible.

Interestingly, birds are very attracted here, as you’ve seen from posts of mine speaking about the birds that have come to land and explore. I also one day had a group of different birds all congregating and fluttering outside the picture window where I was writing (again another manifestation of what I was infusing in the book). So there may be dual reason to their flying into the windows, which could also be a means to get through the illusion and that they feel the portal energy here.

So yes, Dave risked his own neck to save theirs.

But the ladder and climbing to such heights to these portal windows was so symbolic too…and my supporting the anchoring of them for Dave, was kind of a cool symbolism as well.

I won’t bore you with the details of our task, which was highly stressful, but in the end successful.

After, we returned the ladder back down the stairs and I found a Steller’s Jay feather not far from where we took it.

Then Dave said, look over there across the street. There’s a dead Steller’s Jay. So I left Dave and went immediately to him. I find SO many Steller’s Jay feathers and they are always around me these days, as well as all around our deck and trees outside our windows.

I knew I was to take him with me and got the message (reiterated later, before knowing this, by my shamanic friend Dawn) that he was gifting me his wings and tail as well – a merging of his medicine into my own to honor and carry with me, as well as to aid the process/experience I’ve been sharing about. So I picked him up gently and carried him up the 105 steps to the side of the building where we had been

I’ve shared before about Steller’s Jay:

They symbolize bold, fearless energy, and the power of presence and how to use personal power effectively.Ā The crest on their heads connect them to the sky and above, drawing energy and wisdom through the crown and reminding us that our true power needs to be applied in a balanced way that integrates both spirit and body, mind and heart.Ā Since they are very resourceful, they too symbolize adaptability and how to do so more efficiently.Ā They also symbolize a great amount of talent, but a talent that needs to be developed and used wisely. In this way they mirror to us, if one has also appeared for you, that this is a time in your life where you can begin to support the inherent wisdom within you to mature and come forth in a bigger way.Ā Stellerā€™s Jay also alerts us that anything of value, spiritual growth, and relationships takes work and they show us how to activate our internal resources to do this. Communication abilities are strong, access to memories and assimilation of them come to awareness, risk taking, seizing opportunities, discovering new things to explore, balancing intelligence with silence and patience to align with divine timing all come through Stellerā€™s Jay in message.Ā Their crest that reaches up also places attention at the energy centers of the head/crown, indicating an increase in new spiritual knowledge and wisdom that may become activated. – this indicating a psychic channeling of information from the crown. (A message I was given twice in my channeled readings received in Sedona, twice at two different intervals over the last 2 years about energy no longer being moved up the spine like Kundalini usually does for most, but that Iā€™d be channeling through my crown now in this next part of my life.

This gift – like a rebirthing again of the Steller’s Jay energy into my own felt hugely important and supports thisĀ grounded soaring of Cosmic origin that I’m experiencing and feels more like embodied spirit.

I did an energetic honoring and blessing and then buried the Steller’s Jay under the picture window portals. I placed 5 stones (one at center and 4 around to the 4 directions).

I then remembered that when we transitioned the previous owner’s refrigerator out of our place to put in our new one, I had found Fiver’s little body I kept frozen in it until Winter thawed enough to bury him properly. I had forgotten he was there and discovered him just two Saturdays ago. I knew the timing would reveal itself on where and when to bury him.

Yesterday was the day. And so after I buried the Steller’s Jay, I went to retrieve Fiver and brought him down wrapped in the sweet little white cloth I’d placed him in that was his bedding. I also remembered the only raw quartz that had been found at Lake Aloha on Sunday – only granite was all around so this quartz seemed out of place. So I knew to bury it along with Fiver and took it too.

I went down and did the same with doing an energetic honoring and blessing for Fiver and buried him a couple of feet from the Steller’s Jay in the same manner. After, I found 2 small heart stones that I placed on top of the center stones to each of their burials.

Everything felt full circle…closure…great peace….and I knew these dear ones would not only aid others to journey beyond and through the portals as they have, were, and now guarded as way showers, but would also infuse their wisdom, protection, and energy to the other mice, birds, and animals here, not to mention be guardians and teachers of that wisdom for anyone living here.

Both of their spirits soaring and a part of my own – of anyone’s ready to listen and remember.

And I’m listening to Astrid as well and I sense she, too, is exhibiting what I’m discovering along with her.

Just in the last few days she’s expanded as well and came to me for the first time in a dream – the way my sweet friends communicate with me in more depth. In the dream she hopped very high with exuberance, three times for me. It not only indicated her joy, but to me felt reflective of these new leaps and heights of experience now opening and the #3 has its own significance for me as well.

And then I woke immediately finding her in wake life running and jumping too. She also just learned how to hop up on the bed and is excited about that – this morning hopping up and me finding her whiskers brushing my face, as she came to wake me.

Things are definitely and sweetly expanding and reaching new heights (in all directions) and there is this sense of having reached a precipice and just catching glimpse and feeling of what lies beyond…and beyond…and beyond…

My Perfect Partner – Yin to My Yang


It’s been just 7 weeks since the magickal Astrid journeyed into my heart and life, but wow how she’s shifted in this short time. As shared before, not only was she a surprise to me, but her “special needs” had created the reason for her never being adopted by anyone all this time – something I feel was Divinely orchestrated in order for her to weed out non-aligned matches for the work she came here to do and share. That to include partnering with someone who could not only “see” her, but would benefit from the gifts and wisdom she has to impart. I feel blessed she chose me and grateful I was given the insight into her heart, beyond what was present on the surface.

If you recall, she had a “fight” or defensive and protective mode conditioned into her by all that she went through, learned as response, and was affected by in her past. This caused her to grunt, charge, lunge with her front paws, and basically seem to be in attack mode nearly every single time she was approached, she saw anything come at her, her food was put in front of her, you tried to pet her, etc.

She would only be calm under certain circumstances and allow only very present, peaceful, and pure energy of specific intent frequency to come near and not be met with this kind of behavior. So she truly asked/asks you to step into your wholeness and be centered and aware of your energy and what you are projecting from within at all times, what you have going on or are carrying, your intentions, and what REALLY is going on beneath your surface and at your core.

She still is a perfect mirror for this kind of thing with others, making her a wonderful reflection and therapy rabbit if you are ready to work with the truth of your Shadow, but her behavior has completely shifted with me and I’ve seen this trickle out to Dave and a couple of others who have come into her experience lately. Although still very sensitive to energies and sounds, as well as foreign and over-bearing extraneous vibrations in the environment from any source, she has become much less defensive, and more curiously cautious.

But as I said, with me she has completely shifted into a consistently peaceful and excited nature, never attacking or grunting anymore when I approach for any reason. She actually gets super happy when I approach and runs to me, lets me caress her, and even lets me kiss her head and face when she’s sitting on the ground, which would not have been an option before without a couple of paws coming at me! LOL!

She even lets me clean the corners of her eyes gently when she gets any little crusties there, which also would have freaked her out before and caused her to either run away or grunt and charge. She knows I’m taking care of her and being like another rabbit that would help groom her if she were in the wild or had a rabbit friend she loved. After all, I am a rabbit. šŸ˜‰

She also used to grunt and smack the food out of my hand when I would put it in her bowl to feed her and now she lets me do this and put more in while she’s eating without a flinch.

She also lets me pick her up without moving an inch. She just sits there peacefully and allows me to pick her up and hold her when I feel called to. Although at first I was trying to do this each day, to keep her used to it, I shifted with that notion and no longer do it everyday, since she is exhibiting closeness in all ways, and I want her to know freedom too.

Plus, I want everything to be a very organic and natural flow of experience with our relationship that is governed not by me “training” her, but rather by us listening to one another and receiving the cues and telepathy that unites us in harmonic convergence.

So I pick her up randomly every few days or so when I sense things aligned for this, which makes it even more incredible that she just sits there and allows me to do this peacefully on an inconsistent basis, since she is running free all day and could easily just be like, “No way! I want to be free always, so don’t even try it.”

That was my experience with Nestor, my twin soul. She would let me snuggle her in every way on the floor, but never ever wanted to be held. Her spirit was a free soul who could not be trapped or confined.

Joy was not so keen on it either, but once I held her she was okay with it and enjoyed the snuggles, but I would have to pick her up when she was eating in her hay/litter box, so she didn’t know what was coming.

Cosmo, of course, was just a love bug and being that he couldn’t walk anyway, he was just super content with it all and enjoyed the closeness always of being held in healing love and spreading his.

So, Astrid is very different in this regard, and to me is quite special in her reflection of a new kind of relationship and dynamic not only as a personal mirror, but a collective one I feel that is anchoring (again, but also in a new way) and being remembered.

There is this sense of balance in terms of personal sovereignty and connection with both not having to be compromised, but in perfect harmony with one another that is honored and telepathically and simultaneously experienced in a fluid understanding and alignment of frequency.

A true partnership and equality…a knowingness, or rather, beingness that is anchoring as the shared experience.

Like the Yin to a Yang, Light to Dark/Shadow, Sacred Feminine to Sacred Masculine, one half to another…each their own individual expression, but only whole with the other – both present within oneself and all around us and yet also nonexistent within that perfect merging.

Astrid has come to relax in knowing and experiencing this from me in how I relate to her and understand this important piece she embodies – a reminder to stay present always in that integrative place of transmutation.

She’s amazingly helped me to “see” this and the dynamics very literally playing out so that it goes beyond just concept, but becomes the experience.

She and I have this incredible relationship anchoring in Cosmic Love, which I feel is the basis of her blossoming as she has.

I can only imagine what amazing things will continue to evolve with all of this. She already exhibits so much clarity of communication with me. When I say something (even if just in mind) when I’m in another room, she will come running over in response.

And of course, I LOVE how happy she is, which she exhibits with running and jumping (or binkies, as they’re called).

Also interesting is that she’s unaffected by the wood floors, which Joy had challenge with. It may be in part her confidence and perhaps even the thickly fur-padded feet she has, but she easily gets across the wood and explores, which makes me happy that she doesn’t feel confined anywhere due to what could feel like unstable grounding for most rabbits without pads on their feet.

It’s just amazing to experience all of these shifts so quickly with her and although she still chases off a cat now and then and establishes boundaries where they are concerned, she and I have complete understanding and no need for the same.

She does, however, let Boojum (our male cat) hang out in the same room with her a few feet away, if he’s calm and honors her boundaries, which he pretty much always does now. I feel that he really wants her to be his buddy/girlfriend, like Joy was (to him at least lol). So it’s like he’s courting her by respecting the boundaries, in hopes of someday more coming from it. Too funny. But I love how Astrid manages the energy around here.

Sweet Pea (our female cat) I feel is more threatened by her since she has insecurity issues in general with everything (extra challenged by a very big female power and presence now in her environment) and has this split behavior of sweetness and passive aggressiveness if she feels she has to prove herself (like to establish that dad is hers). But overall, she too, is allowed in the same room if she stays calm and not too close or comes at her with erratic energy.

I’ve had conversations with Sweet Pea recently about this and other behaviors, which seem to have suddenly started balancing out in the last 3 days. I know she understands and listens intently when I talk with her, ultimately wanting to balance out herself and step into the role of healer kitty that she is and I shared with her was something valuable/powerful that gave her opportunity to demonstrate and walk in as an example, rather than let triggers dominate.

My feeling is that much of these dynamics will shift in supportive ways again when things change in our living situation that will be supportive of everyone even more. (Will share more on that as it evolves how I see it to happen soon).

Astrid has truly demonstrated the hidden gifts within and how everything of value is to be seen from the heart and not based on what it seems superficially. She has completely shifted and will continue to do so, as well as continue to reveal much as things evolve further.

She, like Sweet Pea, now has the opportunity to bring forth her gifts and be an example as well of all that she has to impart and embody.

She truly is the perfect complimentary part to me…the Yin to my Yang, and literally is my Divine and Sacred half as a Virgo (her birthday is 9/15/14), which is my wise opposite to the Pisces me – all perfect for the now and not only helping to bring my own parts into integrative balance and alignment more every day, but to mirror this inside and out.

I know I will continue to uncover more of her hidden gifts and feel some incredible experiences are yet to come.

There is so much all around us to help guide us into a new relationship with, and experience of, “reality” as we’ve come to react to it.

Had I been put off like so many others had, or turned away from her when I met her and experienced her merely as an unwelcome trigger or abrasive energy to fight back at, deny, or ignore, I would not have experienced her magick, gained the wisdom of her teachings, nor would she have ever revealed the treasure within that truly All That Is around us, is beckoning us to arise to.

Alchemy is ours to choose.

We aren’t sure of what kind of rabbit she is – the closest description and resemblance I have found is that of a brindle coated American Sable Rabbit.

But none of that matters, as she, to me, represents all rabbits, all animals, all plants, all humans, all life forms, All That Is and the way I relate to her is representative of my relationship to it All.

Every single form of consciousness and Spirit in form here on Earth or formlessly off-planet, all reflect my relationship and communion to Everything.

Let us walk, swim, fly, climb, vibrate, and BE in harmonic presence to what TRULY is at work here and Cosmically weaving as the Grace of Love.

(Side note: I always have number sequences showing up for me…at different intervals, different numbers more than others and sometimes all of them. Recent days have seen a prominence of 5’s (my favorite), which herald huge transformational shifts and supportive change (with less frequent other sequences). Then yesterday I had so many 11:11 on 8/8 time and date stamps come through for me on everything and continued both with actually 11:11 and 1:11 sightings. Synchronously, I started writing this post yesterday, finishing it today, but when I wrote the title to kick this post off it was 11:11 on 8/8. šŸ˜‰ )

Life with Magickal Rabbits ~ Opening Portals to the New


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I love this image, which a sweet friend of mine had sent me a few months ago. It is so reflective of my journey and life, the magickal realm I live in always, and also that theme of “following the White Rabbit” I’ve posted about. But more so, captures the “essence” of my life with these magickal beings and how they’ve supported my portal journeys into new realms of experience.

I’ve been thinking about the changes in my life and how nearly all of the biggest ones have taken place when bunnies have been a part of it.

My leaps mirroring their hops.

I’m at another juncture of shifts so it’s no wonder Astrid is here with me now.

I’ve been focusing on finishing off things to make clear way for the new, did my big 13 day cleanse (interestingly, but not surprisingly, I have not gained back all the old energy that needed shedding so that I move forward without the “weight” of the past), and have been keeping busy with a lot of activity right now (many friends visiting, nature outings, and events) while helping her to integrate and anchor in so that we would both be ready and aligned for the next part of the journey together – all perfectly aligned with the time she has needed.

In a few days I’ll be getting back to completing my book – yay! which I knew she would be helping with now that she’s feeling grounded here.Ā 

Seems, once again, my bunnies keep aligning with major Cosmic shifts and portals, as we’ll be entering the 8-8 Lion’s Gate here shortly and the big August Eclipse Gateway. No surprise I’ll be completing the book during all of this…will be fun to see just how exactly it aligns.

Zephyr, whom you may remember as the bunny I was going to adopt, but couldn’t because of circumstances being better to support him where he is for now, had originally been, and will also continue, helping with the writing, as I work with bunnies telepathically, even if from afar.

Although I’ve sent him love and have continued working through the sadness of his not being physically here (another element integrating during all of this), he has been relatively quiet in his contentment with the bunny supporting him where he is…also awaiting my return to writing and all of us integrating and anchoring for the next leg of our work together. He has also been an anchor at the rabbit rescue – SaveABunny – for much to come.

I’m soĀ grateful to have my team together and excited to finish the very end of my book – not much left to go!

I was told to wait on the very last part because of this integrating time needed with Astrid and the shifts with everything so that we could work on it harmoniously together.

This book has been writing itself and so it has not been a daily hunkering down to complete it, as might be the process for some writers, but rather a journey of flowing with the energies and only working on it when the windows/portals of opportunity and alignment gave the green light.

I am listening and aligning, while also staying on top of doorways opening and closing and it’s been incredible to witness the life shifts in all ways that have been weaving along with it all and shifting so much with every part of it. There is a timing and unfolding needing to both be taken action on, but also co-creating in natural harmony with.

My rabbit friends – or rather my kindred spirits, comrades, and Cosmic family in rabbit bodies – have known just what elements here on this planet would support me in the greatest and highest of ways. Their presence has helped me to continue to integrate my Earth and Star self and it has been through the love we share and the DNA-awakening they invoke, that has kept me on track, helped me remember, infused the necessary ingredients of alchemy needed, and literally have helped me remain here to complete this next spiraling phase.

Life is magickal with rabbits for sure and I’m beyond grateful to have rabbit friends and co-creators!Ā 

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Pyramid portal…..Astrid the Egyptian bunny?!

Astrid Shares


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The last week and a half has been incredible watching and experiencing Astrid’s journey and blossoming. Everything pointing to how perfectly matched we are and providing hints of the adventure ahead. She has truly stepped through a new doorway of experience with love, patience, and honoring of who she really is, which wasn’t the story many saw of her. She truly was waiting to be seen and like with everything these days…the hidden gifts await those ready to embrace them in all ways. Here’s Astrid sharing her journey this last week.

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Wow, is this for me mom? My very own magick carrot house?!

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Is it okay if I explore it?

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Just can’t believe this…it’s really mine? Normally us bunnies like things routine and the same, but I’m sure enjoying the surprises mom keeps giving me. I loved my tent house, but this one is like a bunny castle!

Okay, here I go!

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Hmmmm, spacious inside!

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Feels good so far…wow and even a back door too!

OMGOSH! There’s a ramp up to a second story too!!

Marking my house inside to make it my own. It’s a keeper!

Dad even gave me a carrot surprise to discover inside! Thanks dad!

Home sweet home…I think mom has ideas of putting a sign outside the house with my name on it. At least that’s what I heard in her thoughts. I think I’d like that.

Back to eating my breakfast…feeling happy and so loved.

Breakfast with a view….does it get any better than this? I always dreamed of bunny heaven and believed it was real. Now I’m living in it! I never gave up hope of a good life and that mom would find me. Thank you for hearing me mom and thank you to our friends near and far who helped us find each other.

I wonder what else mom has in store? Well, actually I know because I read all her thoughts and we’re so connected. I’m excited for her next surprises and grateful she knows me so well and hears my desires too.

I heard mom putting my bunny bed together and when I came back into the room there it was! It’s so beautiful and perfect! Wow! Intentions do work. Us magickal bunnies sure know how to manifest! Boy oh boy! Look at this bed…it’s like a throne…and that adorable blankie with bunnies in the cosmos! Perfect place for me to work on new dreams and help mom with hers!

A bunny bed surrounded by an enchanted forest! A place I can sit high and peer out safely, but feel so at home!? Wow!

I think I’ll try it out now. Here I go!

Feels good so far….I’m just so enchanted by these bunnies sitting in Moons and star clouds….Have to check them out first. Reminds me of home.

This is great. Fits perfect and feels just right! I feel like Goldilocks in Baby Bear’s bed, but it’s mine! From here I can even peer into my Magick Carrot House and chew it if I want while I dream. Good for processing and digesting new things, ideas, and intents!

Night has come and I’m off to sleep. Good night all!

The morning after my new house and bed arrived, I was feeling so excited and amped up I decided to explore the rest of the house I hadn’t yet. Until then I’d only explored the two bedrooms and bathrooms, but I sensed there was a whole other world on the other half of the house. I just wasn’t sure about it yet, especially since I have to cross wood floor to see what was around the other side of the couch. To my surprise I found more carpet and tons to explore! I’ve been so excited and giddy since, I go there every morning early and throughout the day at my whim. Mom took this video of me after watching me for a while. There was so much to check out. I was able to jump up on the fireplace to see mom’s Magick Crystal Wands in action (the ones I told her to get hopping on) and now I could infuse them with energy. I was able to run and jump with glee in this whole new space, jump on the couches and peer out the window (mom wasn’t quick enough to capture all that happening), got to peer out at the lake (I had heard about how Nestor, Joy, Gaia, and Cosmo had done this too), check out the hype about cat trees (after making it clear to Boojum now nothing was off limits to me either buddy, since he and Sweet Pea seemed inclined to explore my things too), and got to explore some of mom and dad’s things like this interesting space ship shaped thing that smells like them – mom tells me it’s their foot massager. Cool! Anyway, check me out checking everything out. Mom even caught on camera how cats are no match for me!

Hehe! Hi Mom! I did it! Check me out in the living room!

Okay, time to explore….first stop, mom’s wands.

Good job mom! The wands are looking great. And thanks for being so supportive and proud of me too! Feeling empowered.

Okay, one more look.

Wow, there’s the lake! I must get over there to get a closer look. Another threshold to cross….no problem!

Mom asked me how I’m liking it here in my new home and with my new family. I don’t have the human words to describe things, so I gave her some bunny language in a BIG binky for her to translate, which she caught on camera. You might even catch my feet clicking together. Hehe! I’ve never done so many hops, binkies, runs, and twists in my life. The ultimate joy for a bunny. Thank you mom. I love it all!

And then mom surprised me yet again with this! My very own Dendritic Opal. Well, I knew it was coming because I put it out there and mom did tell me that the Rose Quartz cathedral tower was just the first of two meant for me. But wow is this one also even more beautiful than I imagined. I love that mom listens to me and understands. She knows I’m a crystal bunny and these will not only help me, but will help me to help her and the collective!

Nosing it to make it mine and initiate activation and igniting!

Now for a little licking action….I love it! Kisses all over it!

Mmmmmm! I’m in heaven. More kisses and bliss. Wow, the stuff we can do together!

Mom took this video of me connecting with my new crystal friend that now sits next to the Rose Quartz on top of her Tarot chest by my realm. I couldn’t get enough of this Opal. It’s amazing! I was so excited I had to run to my bed and start initiating more dreams and intents there. I know mom will hear and together we’ll manifest tons!!

The next morning I woke mom very early, as I now do each morning. She heard me exploring and jumping and running with glee in the living room…my way of welcoming a new day and moving the energy for what’s to come! Such a beautiful view as the sun is just rising. My gosh, I wish all bunnies could experience this kind of magick. It makes me think of my friends in the shelters and rescues. I will send out some energy to them now through this Lake Tahoe portal.

I’m in such awe of this life. Pinch me!

Back to my bed I go for some more dream work. This is also a place I like to tune into mom. One ear up and one ear down, I cock my head and listen to her thoughts. This way I can help her to manifest things too. On our own we’re strong, yes, but together we are powerful!

Thank you mom, I just love it all.

What I also love, maybe one of the most of anything, is how mom truly “sees” me. She knows this is not only my bed, but she intended it as my throne because she told me I’m a royal bunny and she sees the Queen essence I carry, as well as my Cosmic self. No one has ever seen that in me. I even try to hide it because it’s not something I wanted people to know outright. I needed the right partner who would be able to look beyond everything and into the shadow to see the gifts. I am not what I appear and I’m grateful mom knows who I really am, just as I see her and more than perhaps even she knows of herself yet.

I can now live in peace, feel peace, and be peace because harmony has been restored. This means major magick is about to unfold. Dream big everyone and don’t give up. I’m going to do my part and my best to help now that I found mom. We’re committed to this path of bringing forth the reason we’ve been brought together and what’s in our hearts to share.

I love when mom holds me. She always whispers special things to me, tells me stories of what to look forward to, shares her heart with me, and gives me the sweetest most gentle love I’ve ever known. I know anything is possible and she ensures this with her encouragement and love.

 

The Magick of Astrid Begins


Astrid’s journey continues in such a positive upswing. It appears like she’s crossed one big threshold along with revealing some of her magick, and all in just 3 weeks! At first she was taking her time to really sink into things and feel safe, as well as like she could trust the situation and us. It had its ups and downs that I knew to be patient and consistent with. I figured this could take much longer, but after the first 2 weeks, she was really making some leaps and hops. Of course, consistency will need to be continued to ensure these new behaviors become embodied fully as her natural way of being, but I’ll share more about these in the rest of this blog. Nonetheless, let’s just say I’m one happy mom.

It’s understandable, given her background and conditioning that she would have the challenges she does, and also that they not only would take time to work through, but could also crop up unexpectedly just as triggers can challenge all of us until we’ve worked through the core stuff deeply and fully.

Anyway, I had decided to get Astrid her own crystal – well actually all of my crystals are hers of course, but I wanted a special one to have as hers and that I felt would be supportive for this journey. I haven’t myself been attracted to getting a Rose Quartz, but recently had felt it in my energetic field. And then one happened my way via an online auction where I won the bidding and snatched up a beautiful very pink Rose Quartz Cathedral Tower (with yellow/gold inclusions) for a 1/4 of its value! And hence, Miss Astrid worked her energies to have this beauty.

Shortly after, another Cathedral Tower found its way to me, via the same route, where I won a bid at even a bit less than a quarter of its value and got a gorgeous blue Dendritic Opal for her as well (a new find for me and attraction, which I know was about Astrid)…it’s still on its way to us, but both it and the Rose Quartz energies feel perfect for her and in assisting her with her healing and opening journey.

The Rose Quartz will infuse her and her space with Universal and unconditional love, self love, motherly and nurturing love, purification and opening of the heart, restoration of trust and harmony, deep inner healing, peace, calmness and reassurance, comforting with grief, cleansing of negative/triggering/challenging energies, and graceful energy of the Heart Chakra.

While the Dendritic Opal (sometimes referred to as Merlinite) on its way (I’ll post photos when it’s here and after she’s interacted with it) connects to all of the Chakras, its energetic emphasis and strongest resonance will be with the color of the Chakra its base color reflects. In this case the beautiful Blue will connect with the Throat and the darker areas with the Third Eye. It works a lot too with the Solar Plexus personal power energy and creativity stemming from this point of focus.

It will also focus energies on spiritual growth, conscious awareness, clarity into her actions, and brings balance into her life and balance of the feminine and masculine energies within, as a stone of harmony. It helps with discernment and acceptance, being non-judgmental,

It attracts powerful magick and good luck, stimulates deep intuition, psychic knowing, and contact with guides and teachers in the higher realms, as well as alchemists and wizards.

Dendrite means darker tree-like inclusions in the milky white areas and other areas of the Opal, which invokes strong shamanic vibes, allows access to the energy of the natural work and communication with Elementals, takes you to higher realms and deepest, darker parts and inner states (able to understand them) to allow Nature to unfold within.

It is a stone of duality, which can act as both a stone of the light AND allows the shadow and “dark nights of the soul” aspects of your higher self to come forth for transmutation.

It’s great for automatic writing too, so I’m guessing between Astrid and I, and this stone, we’ll be able to channel some interesting stuff for my book’s completion. So, yes, it seems these new stones are great for us both. She knows what to draw in and what would be best for us both, and I’m simply her channel and conduit to help bring her manifestations into being.

They definitely feel to be perfect for Astrid’s evolution and blossoming, supporting her into her full magickal self.

And this was reiterated when I placed the Rose Quartz in front of her the first time and watched her connecting with it, as seen in these photos.

Then three mornings ago I found her on top of the chest that sits by her stuff and that holds my Tarot decks and other magickal things. It also happens to be the resting place of the Rose Quartz, as I wanted it to be near her area where she could see and connect with it, but also receive its energy over her realm. In order to get to it she needs to jump over her bowls or over a very high litter box. Either way, she did somehow, and I then saw her circle around the Rose Quartz for a bit with her body and nudge it with her nose before jumping back down again. (Wish I’d gotten photos, but I had just been woken up and was too involved in watching her to think of running to get my camera)

Right after that she was completely amped up. She began racing around like crazing, running, jumping, and becoming rambunctious in a fun loving way. I heard her run into the second bathroom and knocked over the garbage can. Then she was back in our room and started digging like crazy in her litter box – something she was doing for the first time so vigorously, and started throwing all her hay out and all over and rearranging everything. LOL!

This was the mess I caught her in and she seemed to be giggling at me and with a sneaky little “uh oh!” followed by a “hehe!”

These are the photos I caught of her and she got all cutesy with her body and head down low to ground and butt up, as if she was a puppy dog that would be wagging her tail with delight. Too cute!

She was giddy for head rubs and just giddy in general. I then went back to bed after giving her some greens since I was awake now. And when I woke later, she was still all excited and when approached by Dave she did a big bunny hop with glee.

This was all after about a week of having gone through transformations already with no longer charging, grunting, and attacking at every little thing. Only the cat lunges and chasing them off continues, and being on alert and startled by odd or sudden noises and movements, but any time I approach her or do things I did before like cleaning and feeding her, she would just come to me and put her head out wanting to be pet and would immediately get comfortable and enjoy some good long rubs and back massages. She would run to me, in fact, when ever I was near, nose me, and be inquisitive. She used to knock the bowl of pellets out of my hand with a grunt or the measuring spoon I use to give her just the right amount, but now she’s good with it all and isn’t in defensive mode.

However, she is still the little power bunny guardian and Queen of the realm here and although Boojum, our male cat, persists in his hopes to be buddies with her like he felt he was with Joy šŸ™‚ she is keeping him at bay and working her boundaries. Astrid isn’t so sure yet, as he’ll definitely have to earn her trust and still, I sense she will be helping to keep him in line by setting the rules and boundaries for him to honor or be met with her energy that seems quite scary to both him and Sweet Pea, our female cat. Both cats seem very curious about her and are found often just watching her constantly, yet if they try to do anything she’s not comfortable with, you’ll find a cat sent off running fast!

Boojum doesn’t give up though and constantly sits near, watching and waiting. This was a capture from a few mornings ago of Astrid letting him hang out a little bit, at a distance, but as you can see she was on patrol alert.

That said, she is starting to get used to knowing I won’t hurt her (this is from her past conditioning as a bunny in this life and not as the spirit she really is), as she likely had experienced much of both directly and indirectly in her past. She also lets me pick her up while just sitting there letting me. No trying to get away or wiggle, which if I had experienced would have halted me from continuing further.

And little by little her magickal self has begun to be less and less hidden, but more apparent, not to mention her similarities to my dear Nestor are starting to reveal themselves more. Astrid (or Astie as I lovingly call her) definitely feels like a very close comrade to Nestie – and when I say that I mean in the Cosmic sense beyond this realm and shared missions, not just as rabbit.

I’m sure I’ll learn more about the connection and her story in general, as things evolve. Right now, I’m letting it happen organically and naturally, rather than even inquiring.

She definitely does things by the beat of her own drum and in her own timing, which will not be dictated by anyone or anything, except her. Although, will continue to mirror me.

I also just received a cute, new bunny house and bed I purchased for her to make her space and realm special and magickal. I haven’t put them together yet, but will share them and hopefully some cute photos of her with them when I do.

And, like with all of my loves – Nestor, Joy, Cosmo, and Gaia, I immediately put out intention of drawing in the perfect carved bunny stone that matched her essence and would also be of her energy. I always get a small carved stone/crystal rabbit or tortoise to represent each of them. The reason I do so is multi-purpose in serving as stand-ins for them when I do energy work, Reiki Healing Attunements, or sacred ceremony of any sort so they can join me (I like tangible along with etheric energies present), to bring with me when I travel (especially when I’ve been to sacred spots and vortexes across the globe to do healing work), to carry with me if I want a physical sense of them where ever I go, and to be with me when their physical presence is actually gone, as well as to sit on my night stand by my head as I dream at night.

Anyway, I was led to a lovely Snowflake Obsidian rabbit carving that not only looks like her form, but really feels energetically aligned for her as well.

This stone is good for balancing of body, mind, and spirit during changes, is calming and soothing, supports transformation in general, purification, manifestation, fulfillment, psychic abilities, teaches the value of mistakes and successes, is a stone of purity, helps release stressful mental patterns, promotes calmness, inner centering and focus during any chaotic situations, helps remove and cleanse harmful energies and keeps you rooted as a protective and grounding stone, is good for healing and releasing energy blockages by bringing truths to surface (this is due to its volcanic origin that draws things out), and supports past life work and healing of old karmic patterns. It connects to the Root Chakra and to the sign of Virgo, which synchronously Astrid is by birthday. I didn’t know of the stone’s connection to Virgo until after it arrived home.

I just love this rabbit carving.

Astrid seemed pleased when I presented it to her, as I like them to enchant the stones with their energy, which she did.

So more and more I am seeing how she loves crystals, too, and has an affinity to working with them. In many ways I feel that I will be supporting her sense of safety to bring out her “already” gifts, rather than teaching her things. Not to say I won’t help her with processes, but my sense is she knows how to do a lot of energy work and magick on her own, will help remind me of my own gifts, and be a conduit for me to connect with the other realms, as well as to access the unknown magick within for working greater alchemy.

Just this past Tuesday she also revealed some other cool stuff. I had a phone call with my best guy friend that day whom I’ve known for years and lifetimes. We had several years of separation and going different ways, but had reconnected the last year and have picked up again in a new and beautiful way.

I was sitting on the floor while talking to him on the phone and was sharing about Astrid and how she came to me, her journey so far, and our connection. Astrid was under the bed, but she knew I was talking about her and felt the energy of the conversation and who I was talking to – recognizing our connection.

She normally doesn’t come out from under the bed, as this is her nap and personal integration time of the day, but out she came, wiggling her way to me with a lot of energy and curiosity. She came to me, nosed me, got on her hind legs and stretched her front paws up on my thigh and reached head up toward me/the phone. She stayed doing this and circling around on my left side to let me know she knew and to let me know of her telepathic powers and acknowledgment of my friend Mykal and our connection.

I immediately told Mykal about this and got chills because it reminded me of Nestor and how she was my personal gauge of people.

If Nestor liked someone she would go to them when they entered her or my space and let them pet her. If she didn’t like someone she would not come out, act up, or even pee on them (she did this to an ex-boyfriend of mine both when he held her and when I took her overnight to his place – peeing in several corners of his home). This peeing behavior was not normal because she was very good at cleanliness and going in her litter box. It was deliberate in saying she did not approve.

But the first time Mykal came over to meet Nestor and see my place, the second I opened the door to him Nestor ran to the door to greet him. I instantly knew she knew him and the connection between us all. She did this to another dear soul from a past Egyptian experience as well, whom she and I were both connected to.

Interestingly, Joy did this once too, nipping an ex of mine when he came to visit after I’d been challenged in leaving him. That was confirmation.

And now, Astrid was doing the same through the energy of the phone call with Mykal.

Mykal and I both were heart warmed by her doing this. And as soon as I acknowledged her she then went back under the bed. She simply wanted me to know of her magickal powers, telepathic abilities, soul recognition, and how I can be sure she’ll help me to know of energies that come into our space and what and who aligns or not.

My powerful little guardian and magick worker.

And speaking of magick, yesterday evening as I was connecting with her and gently petting her head and back I saw something very enchanting.

Each time my hand did a full swoop from her third eye, crown, and then the rest of the length down her spine and chakra column, I saw a thick gold filament of energy appear in her auric field after finishing to the end of her root chakra. It kept showing up each time my hand completed traveling through her chakras.

Alchemy is at work between us and this incredible Cosmic magician in rabbit form is making herself known to me with each day of trust and love that passes.

More chills as I write this.

How deeply honored and blessed I feel that she chose me. I am committed to helping to bring her magick to the world in the way she has come to share it.

How grateful I am to Marcy of SaveABunny and Zephyr who led me to her.

And how grateful I am that I can SEE her and so much more that I once didn’t understand fully when my journey first began with my rabbit companions.

I mentioned before how a lot of people have said how Astrid’s hair and my own match in color and that we look like we were meant to be together.

I also had two people tell me “she looks like you!” Both meaning in it more than a physical way, they explained.

Well, this Thursday I saw my hair stylist to get a freshening up on my own Cosmic hair that I had done before Astrid came into my life (unknowingly), and she asked me about my rabbit, as she knows my whole story and how connected I am with them and knew I would be adopting one soon (although at the time she was told about Zephyr).

She asked to see a photo of Astrid and immediately said, “oh my gosh, she looks like you!” She said she didn’t mean it to be about her hair although was similar too, but that if she could imagine me with a rabbit, Astrid was it – she was my reflection.

I got more chills of acknowledgment and feelings of myself having crossed a threshold just like Astrid. Each of my bunny loves have mirrored my journey and aspects of me. And as I’ve continued to step more and more into my essence, alignment is being revealed directly.

The new journey has been ignited and she and I are bonded in heart, spirit, body, and mind.

Astrid Update, Special Needs & Rabbit Care


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At just over two weeks, Astrid continues to adjust and settle in to her new home here with us. The journey continues to be one of patience, tuning in, and gauging where she’s at and what she’s ready for. As mentioned, although she is not physically challenged like Cosmo was, she is still quite challenged with special needs that call for an internal massaging of her emotions, conditioned behaviors, and adopted patterns that have been cultivated by her past. It is a tough journey, as any time I see things pop up I can feel where it is coming from, which is saddening, and the only way through it is to love her even more, not take it personally, and help to re-establish new patterns that support her into her more natural essence behind all of this.

Time, heart, and intuitive investment is necessary to help her through it all. And it may take months, a year….I don’t know. It could also happen more quickly, but I have no expectations or goals to meet, other than to do my best. I remember that it took 6 months to bond Joy and Cosmo, but it DID happen. And a daily investment of love, nurturing, and physical devotion also helped Cosmo to get stronger as well.

At the same time, Astrid is naturally an extremely sensitive empath, as well as highly attuned to energy and the frequencies she picks up all around her, seen and unseen.

Last night I watched these two moths resting on the outside of the window right above her sanctuary area of our bedroom. She was sitting under the window and facing toward me, however it was incredible to see how she could pick up the vibrations of their wings through the thick glass and outside in the dark – it was dimly lit inside the house too. One moth started to slowly move from one spot to another on the window, gently fluttering its wings and I watched, as one of Astrid’s ears slowly started following the flow of its flight pattern by moving in the same direction as the moth.

Vibrational resonance is her gift, but can also be her challenge, as she will mirror and take on whatever is around her.

That said, she also is blessed with an incredible strength and power that has seen her through it all and helped her to endure the pains and traumas, as well as supported her to thrive, and ultimately, to manifest a way out of what could have been her end many times.

I took Astrid in for herĀ first wellness appointment on Monday to establish getting a handle on her physical health, since there are many unseens with rabbits.

It’s important to keep on top of your animal companion’s health, especially where rabbits are concerned because many things go unnoticed with them and if caught early can help avoid major challenges later. It’s also key to be very present and aware with them, noticing any little shifts in behavior, eating, and eliminating. Often times challenges are due to teeth issues so make sure to get them checked regularly.

But in general, check in and learn to understand and communicate with your sweet ones, as you will learn so much and create a stronger bond for overall well being and spiritual evolution and connection. They have so much to teach and so much they want to help us with, just as much as we can help them to also come into their fullness.

Astrid came away from her appointment with flying colors. The sweet, gentle, and incredibly knowledgable vet – I just love her and all of my bunnies have at one time or another been to her – said she was in wonderful health, perfect, healthy weight for her at 6 pounds 12 ounces, and in general she said I’d chosen well.

I feel that was a mutual thing however, and in this case since Astrid was a surprise, I feel this was Cosmically written in the stars for us and she’d chosen me for reasons I have yet to see.

The vet is exceptional at seeing and understanding the needs of rabbits and made note of very tiny points on her right bottom teeth that we’ll just want to keep an eye on. She has no problems, nor may this ever become a problem, but for precaution we will have her rechecked in 3 months instead of the normal 6 months to ensure nothing starts developing. Being proactive is important where bunny teeth are concerned. Likely she’ll wear them down on her own with continued good eating, but I like knowing that my vet is on top of things, as Astrid’s health and well being is my priority as her mom and guardian.

And good eating involves feeding them the right things that are healthiest for their sensitive digestive systems and healthy for strong teeth and helping to keep these always-growing-teeth naturally filed down.

I only give my sweet ones the very best. If it’s something I wouldn’t eat then they don’t get it either.

So that includes a variety of organic greens (cilantro, parsley, dandelion greens, carrot tops, spring mix, small amounts of kale, etc.) and small bites of fruit like strawberry or apple now and then and bits of carrot, the healthiest 2nd cut timothy hay, timothy pellets (in small measured quantity – 1 -2 tablespoons tops), drops of goji juice in their water, herbal blends of superfoods for general health and immune support (an echinacea blend and a calendula, chamomile, dandelion leaf, dandelion root, elder flower, flaxseed powder, goldenrod, hawthorn leaf, hibiscus flower, lavender, milk thistle powder, nettle, oat groats, green oat tops, plantain, raspberry leaf, red clover flower, rosehips, rose petals, strawberry leaf vita-licious blend I give her), and small (because you don’t want to overdue the sugar) natural, untreated pine cones (like these pictured with Astrid below) coated in healthy botanicals that support their natural foraging instincts.

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I also provide a variety of chewy balls and twists of natural things like meadow, maize, willow and even mini logs/bits of tree to work those teeth and feel like they’re out in the fields and forests.

Here you see Astrid enjoying her cherry hibiscus pine cone (you can actually see her tongue out licking her lips in the photo below). There’s also a blueberry parsley pine cone as well.

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She’s so good at grazing and not inhaling her food all at once like my other bunnies would. They’d be crazed when I brought stuff out and it would be gone quickly.

Astrid is much more calm about food and takes her time, but still loves her food. This pine cone she just nibbles on each day… So I don’t need to worry about her over doing things.

It makes me happy I can provide her with good things to make up for never having a forever home and all the past torment, pain, and grief I know she’s seen and experienced.

I will continue to work with her to help her through her challenges, while also listening to what she has to share through them about herself and for me too.

She has already given me a big piece of wisdom, which I shared at the end of my last blog post, but I know this will only continue to increase the more time we spend together.

I have loved seeing her relax into things here and watching her enjoying her freedom as she runs and jumps around like crazy.Ā 

On her good days she runs to me when I come near to say hi and nudge me with her nose. She’ll follow me and there are little to no grunts or attacks that take place.

But that doesn’t mean that is gone, as with everything, it’s all a process and while she has great days and moments, she’ll have the past creep up unexpectedly. Any little shift can result in a shift in her as well, which then takes time to rebalance again.

She also is very sensitive to too much energy around and will mostly stay in the second bedroom or under the bed there if there is too much going on, like having guests over. Then the second they leave she comes out.Ā 

She can’t take having too much all at once and definitely needs to be introduced to energies and other people slowly, as well as one at a time. Otherwise, her fight mode kicks in high gear. One reason why she’s so good at keeping the cats at bay, even if they are just being curious. Her attack mode is nothing to play around with!

She’s quite the guardian bunny.

But she truly thrives in and needs a peace filled environment and to be approached with utter purity of heart to help engage her to meet that with hers.

She is a special one and has also been helping me to work through more emotions around my bunny loves that have been cropping up since her arrival, including around Zephyr/Big Sur and my convictions around my path.

I love how we mirror each other and once again she shows me that the alchemy of togetherness with my rabbit familiars is more potent than me alone.

The Journey Begins with Ups & Downs, but Always Love


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Astrid has been settling in while mom continues to make her feel comfy, loved, and surrounded in bunny magick fitting of this Faery bunny. She’s a powerful girl, whose power I have yet to fully know, but also has Earthly challenges I’ll be continuing to assist her with, as she helps me too. I’ve received so many sweet messages from everyone about Astrid, including how beautiful she is and how her power just jumps through the photos I share in huge ways – in some cases feeling struck by her energy with a “wow” effect. I’ve also really enjoyed the reflections of so many saying that she and I look alike and how our hair matches, all of which reiterate to me that she was meant to be here and indeed is my familiar. Thank you to everyone for your loving thoughts and messages.

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I will continue to update you on her and our journey, which is the purpose of this post to share some photos of how she is adjusting to her new surroundings. I still have some sweet and magickal things on their way, which I ordered for her.

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I want Astrid to feel like the Queen that she is and to know she is loved, safe, and recognized for the enchanted and cosmic soul she embodies. I love creating a Faery bunny realm for her and since our kitty babies have basically the whole house (you know cats), it’s nice to know she has her little sanctuary that is her own.

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In the meantime, I continue to patiently work with her to help her day-by-day to move through the past that has created the fight mode she has. I will continue to tune in to get more of her story and background as to why she is so easily startled by everything, feels threatened and defensive, and what happened to create that attack mode.

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Some of it I sense already in the scary things she’s experienced and seen happen to animals around her in one of the horrible shelters she was held in – Solona County Animal Care. I feel she holds pain and grief, as a healer/sensitive, for what the others went through and that weren’t as lucky as she was. She developed defense mechanisms and her power, magickal energy, strength, and bravery fought her way through things that others weren’t so lucky to get away from or knew how to cope with.

It pains me greatly to feel all the horrible things that she and the others have been through. I’m so grateful and lucky she was removed from there and got away from all of it, including where she originally came from and what was in store for her, as some of the way she is also is from how she was raised and what she was raised for.

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But of course, some of this “sensitivity” is also about her healing abilities and gifts in being such a mirror and reflection to our own vibrations and making us aware of being present and acknowledging of our shadow aspects – she isn’t a dark colored bunny for no reason. šŸ˜‰

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It also served her in weeding out potential adopters because no one could “see” past her behavior initially and really “see” her. Nor did anyone want to take the time to work with her and understand the magick and power beneath it all, just waiting to be supported and recognized.

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What a patient girl she was waiting nearly 2 1/2 years for that alignment to happen. I’m so grateful she chose me and that Marcy at SaveABunny had the intuition to connect us, feeling we would be perfect for each other and a good match.

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We are definitely equals and so I’m devoted to assist her with the Earthly stuff she went through so that she can purely focus on shining her amazingness.

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She goes through ups and downs, has spent a lot of time processing and integrating the journey to get here and her new home, has breakthroughs then set backs….but it’s part of the process of which I’m VERY aware of.

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I just keep loving her through it and both giving her the space she needs, but also helping her to rise above things by not letting her push me away. I know that we must meet as equals in our power and this will assist the alchemy for her healing. So I rise to the occasion too.

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She got a visit from her grandma and grandpa on Sunday – my mom and dad – which didn’t go so well and it was an off day for her, which increased into her worst day so far and kept her hiding in our second bedroom all day and night and in super attack mode. I’m glad she got to meet them and know she has an extended family here full of love for her, but also learned that she really needs extreme easing into everything and too much new, energies, and people can be compounding for her…so we’ll take things slower and not introduce her to too much all at once.

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Luckily, with the love and patience provided, she came out and has had two really good days since with a complete turn around. So I think she really is learning to process and with the communication I share with her, she really understands and is trying her best to move through with my encouragement.

I just love seeing her relaxed and enjoying herself, displaying pure joy when she races around from room to room with exuberant energy and jumps and twists in the air doing her binkies, which says to me she’s one happy, grateful bunny and is loving her freedom and all the nurturing. (I do spoil her with only the best in bunny food, supplies, and healthy yums – can do a separate post on the goodness she receives). It warms my heart.

I will not give up on her, as I have never done so with any of my babies. It took me six months to bond Joy and Cosmo, but boy was that ever worth the patience and work to help Joy through her own defenses she had, as they then became inseparable and soulmates. The best thing that ever happened to both of them. And I never gave up on Cosmo with his condition either, nor did I force Nestor out of her independent mode. I learned what they each needed and desired to be who they really are and supported that.

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I love these photos that show how Astrid is following in Joy’s footsteps (they both were adopted from SaveABunny) as a little portal/doorway guardian.

 

I’ll continue doing so with Astrid and fully believe that together we can achieve anything. I’m grateful that she chose me and grateful for Zephyr and Marcy who connected us and made our partnership and bond possible. I know we are both in for a lot of surprises along the way and a lot of adventures yet to have together. For now we take each day as it comes and I’ll continue showering her with the love she deserves so that she knows she has a forever, safe, and nurturing home that she can blossom in and where we can cultivate a new journey together.

 

 

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