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Monday Musings ~ The Writer’s Corner: Writing Versus Speaking


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A topic came up at a dinner party we hosted this weekend that I felt might be a good musing for today’s theme. While being asked about the book I am working on we started talking about the writing process since there were three writers at the table – all from different backgrounds, including also a retired librarian, and a writer of speeches. It’s no surprise we discovered that each of us have our own process and feelings around writing, but a couple of us shared the feeling that writing was our preferred form of communication over speaking. That included me.

Why?

Well, we both experience greater ease at getting out what we want to say more clearly and in a better way than if we have to explain or speak about something on the spot.

We find that the channel of writing gives form to our words in ways that just doesn’t always happen when trying to convey something in person or public speaking.

Personally, I find that when I write, the way I share something is more congruent with my essence because I am able to access my process of channeling with greater ease and without so much noise.

So, many times I’ll read something I’ve written, or someone else will, and it will sound like a different person, but it is actually more me.

That said, over time I have become much better at doing this in my speaking through the process of teaching because it has engaged more presence and ability to create that time and space for me to channel. I’ve learned to enjoy the process in settings like these and have grown enormously because of it. I just simply don’t like to be rushed, and yet when I’m writing it seems the words and inspirations come faster than I can get them down.

I have also found that if I’m moving, I also induce that channeling. This is something I’ve been known to do when on the phone with a friend or family member in need, or with a coaching client where I will pace back and forth. It moves the energy and I’m able to cut through this denser dimension and reach into the beyond.

I’ve also, as mentioned, been able to duplicate this with ultra presence and taking my time to listen and then pull out the most resonant words and expressions.

But when it comes to writing, this is a naturally built-in process for me and the stuff just flows. Same goes for my painting – another preferred method of channeling expressions through.

Writing and painting bring both presence and momentum to the experience and if I add in the perfect music with that process, it’s like pure magick for me. I am able to ride those frequencies and then grab the visions and feelings straight through.

Another way this happens is when I’m out in nature hiking. I find that so many ideas and inspirations will pop through when in this nurturing and inspiring environment and I’m moving energy in communion with Terra.

The guest who also felt she wrote so much better than the spoken work also said the same – that when out hiking in nature she will get the best ideas. She also shared that she is woken up in the middle of the night with ideas.

I haven’t personally been woken up with an idea, but I do indeed receive inspiration and messages via my dreams.

Perhaps the difference is also that writing is a more solitary experience where speaking draws upon interaction, reactions, and feedback from others. It may speak to a preferred way of being and feeling more comfortable or nurtured in one energetic space and dynamic over another.

While I feel both are challenging in their own ways, I’m much more drawn to the challenge of writing and engaging someone in the story I’m weaving as not only a form of personal growth, but in finding more intoxicating ways of storytelling.

I’m wondering if any of you experience similar with your writing?

Do you find writing to be easier than speaking for you? More resonant and clear?

Are there things you do that create greater ease of channeling ideas into words or receiving inspiration?

I’d love to hear your thoughts and I also want to welcome any fellow writers to contribute a piece of their own work, whether it be a poem, a short story, a new book you have out, or your own thoughts about your writing journey to be featured in an upcoming Monday Musings ~ The Writer’s Corner. Please send your ideas to: Contact Tania

Monday Musings – The Writer’s Corner: At Home With Beatrix Potter


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Today’s musings take us back to Beatrix Potter and her journey ignited with Peter Rabbit. Now and then I will share a few of my favorite authors and artists, as well as books and works that have been inspirational muses for me.

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A few months ago I finished reading a very interesting book that immediately became a favorite titled, At Home With Beatrix Potter: The Creator of Peter Rabbit, and it was a fascinating story that took you inside her life through extracts of her letters and diaries, as well as revealed the intimate relationship between her work and the land and homes she acquired, as a result of her success. The most famous being her Hill Top home.

It journeys through her transition from writer and artist to environmentalist of the Lake District in England who transformed the interiors and exteriors with an eye for antiques and natural beauty – she was a botanist too.

You’ll get inside peaks at the intimate spaces she created, lived, and worked in, as well as looks at the gorgeous gardens and grounds she cultivated. I only took photos of a few images in the book to share, but left a lot for you to discover.

She was ahead of her time, demonstrated here with one of her rabbit companions whom she walked on a leash – turning many an eye then.

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This is her with Benjamin Bouncer who accompanied her and family on holiday in Scotland. She also had Peter Piper who accompanied her everywhere.

I found myself swept away in her whimsical world and saw so many heart-warming intersections to my own life, processes, and journey that made me smile.

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Most recently I’ve made some connections to why certain things are happening in my life and even point to the changes I’ve made and styles I find myself melting into with ease – all finally making me feel most at home in embodiment and at peace with my expression.

If you love Beatrix Potter, Peter Rabbit, and her work as much as I do I think you’ll find this book a wonderful and interesting bedside read. The book made me want to go back and start reading all of her children’s books again and get lost in the faery tales.

She is a woman of my heart the way she also creates life as art. It’s fascinating to see how the illustrations of her books mirrored the inside chambers of her beautifully decorated and charming homes.

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I think you’ll also discover a side to her that you didn’t know. She was quite the character, had very strong opinions, and was both a very smart business woman and faery tale dreamer enraptured with the natural world around her and a desire to create beauty and preserve the old ways.

I happen to have faery tales woven throughout my office space. Each corner and shelf has its own theme. And part of the enchantment includes some Peter Rabbit fun alongside figurines of Blackberry from Watership Down – another favorite book for another time – and a bunch of children’s books.

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I also happen to have several articles of clothing that are Peter Rabbit themed, as you can see in this collage that includes a magickal Peter Rabbit muse who moves around my office as needed.

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And most recently acquired a vintage looking Victorian Peter Rabbit coat dress. I’ll save it for another time.

Thank you for journeying with me into the world of Beatrix Potter and Peter Rabbit for a moment. It’s a wonderful thing to find those inspirations that light your heart, especially as writers and artists. Connecting with what moves you and threading it into every part of your life brings the worlds you create in your minds alive.

Who are some of your favorite authors that inspire you? Are there any other Beatrix Potter fans out there?

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A little heads up that I just finished updating this web and blog site over the weekend so the pages that were “coming soon” have arrived. 🙂 In them you’ll find some of my inspirations, passions, projects, resources, and even a bunch of fun facts in answer to many repeated questions over the years and some recent new ones. I hope you enjoy having a peek into my world and along the way I will look forward to continuing to get to know each of you more too, so please don’t be shy to share a comment or drop me a note.

Monday Musings – The Writer’s Corner: How to be Your Own Magickal Muse


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I thought I’d kick off the first blog in my new series under the theme title of “Monday’s Musings” with a few ideas around how you can become your own magickal muse. A muse by definition is a creative influence – this can be a “person or a personified force who is the source of inspiration for a creative artist.” But this can also simply be you, which makes the process empowering to realize you have within you the ability to inspire yourself. And guess what? This doesn’t just have to be isolated to influencing yourself purely with writing, but can be a way to inspire any aspect of your life.

Here are some thoughts to help get that creative fire lit inside of your heart, but don’t stop here, as there are so many ways you can ignite inspiration:

  • Indulge your child at heart and engage that child-like wonder about everything with curiosity and fascination – what the heart is encouraged to explore will become a grand adventure of ideas streaming through
  • Find a process that helps you to create a well of flowing ideas that move you – journaling ideas, taking photographs of things that are interesting or beautiful, clipping out images and words in magazines to create idea boards with or folders of inspiration, collect little trinkets and treasures that spark imagination or a part of your inner child, gather and write down words, phrases, thoughts that you hear and that float through your mind – what you find fascinating in some way can act as a seed to grow ideas from
  • Go on a creative excavation about yourself and your life to discover what inspires you. Ask yourself what truly invigorates you and fuels your passion and really engages your imagination – what you uncover will be pathways to easier flow and streams of thought
  • Be inquisitive about that feeling and nudge that is bubbling inside of you and wants out. Rather than just push it aside, judging it, fearing it, or keeping it as a constant thought, write it down, speak it into a recorder, draw it…just move it out and through – what you invite to dance with you will begin to reveal where your energy wants to go and rather than stay stuck, will start you on a journey
  • Let your writing run free and perhaps allow this to be one part of your life that doesn’t have structure, if in fact all other parts do. Don’t over-think things, just write what comes up right away as a feeling no matter how weird and don’t edit – simply flow. There’s plenty of time for that later – what you surrender to will take you on an adventure
  • And if you don’t have structure in your life, perhaps creating a ritual or sacred practice around writing and creative flow will help make it a more natural part of your life – in either event, once you do have a practice in place like a specific time to do it, area to be in that inspires, a ritual to invite the process to begin and be separate from the rest of your life, then go back to the point above and let it flow without judgment – what you create consistency with will become an extension of your creative flow and life
  • In line with sacred practice and ritual is creating a sanctuary of inspiration or invent a way that supports and nurtures your writing. This can be surrounding yourself with things you love, have a particular energy, make your inner child feel safe, that inspire and cultivate thought flow and imagination, or could be noticing what kind of things or where you are that help more, like traveling, being by the ocean, tucked away in a cabin in the mountains, or in a closed room with specific music playing – what you cultivate will bring enrichment to your process
  • Always look for meaning in things – what you are curious about will reveal many potentials and creative ways to express or solve things
  • Work at it. Creativity is a process and for many isn’t flowing quite as freely as it once did when we were children. And even if it is flowing, we need to keep encouraging and nurturing it to greater heights. Making a committed effort to keep at it will bring it back to being a natural process again – what you focus on building, will come more freely
  • Become conscious about everything and embrace a real caring – what you are present and passionate about will create momentum and connection
  • Engage creativity, imagination, and ideas. Invite it, cultivate it, nurture it, and encourage it out – what you fertilize and cultivate will grow
  • Ask yourself what wants to be written and what story is aching to come forth, rather than asking what you feel like writing. They say everyone has at least one book in them…what’s yours? – what you surrender to will reveal gifts and make the journey flowing and fun even when challenges arise
  • Empty yourself of all knowing and let your inner vision and heart guide you to the truth within you – what you stop controlling will be able to fly
  • Remember yourself as the child you once were and can be again – what you retrieve will flourish where once it was constrained
  • Explore childlike fantasy and flexibility – what you open up to will make the impossible possible
  • Listen to your instincts – what you trust will open you to the most natural flow of expression
  • Feel what you feel – what you embrace will reveal the most meaningful things that will engage others to feel as well
  • Take chances and write as if you’re the first person ever writing the story and writing in the way that you are – what you risk will bring innovation as your best friend on the adventure
  • Be your own heroine/hero. Find the things you like about yourself and cultivate more gratitude around them. Create your own style and image that helps you to feel more alive, authentic, and cultivates the writer you – what you fertilize will blossom
  • Believe in yourself and what you have to say – what you believe about you, others will too
  • Allow mistakes and realize that there aren’t any – what you let go of will draw to you hidden gifts
  • Surrender to the story and lose yourself – what you immerse in will bring that reality to the heart of others through you
  • Keep writing. The thoughts will flow and your story will find its way, but won’t unless you write – what you put energy toward will take you on a journey, create a result, and a destination to begin again from

I’d love to hear from any of you on any additional thoughts and ways you engage the muse within.

Transformation & Birthing Anew


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I imagine I’m not the only one feeling such incredible energies of fertile possibility around every corner. I find dream time wildly infused with layers of dreams after dreams that are either other timelines, foretelling, psychic touch-ins, or clearly symbolic of things playing out. And yes, definitely the identity shifts, rebirthing, and kundalini energy Lee Harris has themed for the month are hugely washing over and through me still – so much so I have deemed October the month of firmly and clearly establishing the new through developing daily scheduling, finding my flow amidst that, and deepening into essence.

I found myself purging, clearing, reorganizing, and redecorating when I thought I was done. This has involved:

  • donating or sharing with others several more bags of clothes and other items going out
  • re-imagining a 1/4 of my office including removal of the center piece to my room and a whole redo of my shelves – this won’t be fully done, as I’m awaiting some things to come in November and December, but for now is complete and oh so fresh (This included moving out the last old piece I had for 10 years, which felt important since everything else in my office is new)
  • making tons of room in my office closet to help with this
  • establishing the new style of clothing to mirror who I am now (this involves a two-part me for my active outdoor lifestyle and athletic center training and the personal lifestyle outside of that) – this always feels pivotal for full embodiment inside and out and feels much clearer than ever now
  • receiving new plants as gifts, bringing in a couple from outside for the cold months ahead, and finding new homes and decorative stands for them inside that added warmth and indoor garden delight
  • establishing our new exercise program we started on October 1st, which involves 5 days a week of training and classes that after the first couple of weeks of feeling out what we liked, is now fully established in our calendars – this will amp up with ski season added into the mix and for now involves at least 3 days of hiking as well
  • working on creating my daily schedule (just about done) to include everything on my intention list – something new since I don’t really have a schedule although manage to get things done – this feels important to be more focused and deliberate, but flowing in and out of several aspects of balanced life and work that I want to accomplish – doing this will keep me moving forward
  • dreaming up new aspects to this blog, as well as all that I’ll be involved in, which will soon have a new direction
  • planning some upcoming Winter travels
  • keeping focused on the goals we have for our life

And this big transformation has been reflected in not one, but now two rare Rubber Boas we’ve come across on our hiking paths recently.

The first you may recall was when Laura was visiting and we were descending from Eagle Lake. This first one was a luminous copper baby Rubber Boa – she captivated me!

And the second was just this past weekend on Saturday when an adult Rubber Boa was laying across the path we were hiking to Lake Tahoe from our house, on our return back home. This one was large and very worm-like – her coloring a coppery green (best I can describe it as) and she was sunning herself with her little tongue zipping in and out with slithery delight. I had a feeling it was another Rubber Boa, but had it confirmed when I looked it up and saw her exact duplicate in online photos. I say rare, because we have only ever seen the Garter Snakes here on hikes, but this is the first two times to see Rubber Boas and within just weeks of each other – both non-poisonous. Both Boas just laid there and let me talk to them. So curious and sweet!

This last Sunday I also found myself hiking 6 miles on my own while the boys were mountain biking. This was incredibly invigorating and renewed another level of my connection to nature, as I wandered the wrong right paths, connected with wonders around me, and even birthed a new sound channeling I haven’t done in a while. I shared the adventure and sound video on my Instagram. The photo above is from this hike where I was tickled with joy by the grove of baby pine trees I stumbled upon and laid with.

And the rebirthing has been reflected in not just the snake, kundalini energy, but in a powerful birthing dream I had a couple of nights ago – AGAIN. I say, “again” because this is now about the 3rd or 4th time within several months that I dream of myself giving birth. And interestingly, in this dream I gave birth back-to-back twice! I was pregnant in the dream and being assisted by a woman or female energy, who assured me it would be simple and easy – like a click I would feel physically, emotionally, and mentally. And just as she said, I felt that click and instantly the labor happened in one easy release. No pushing, pain, or anything. I never actually saw the baby come out, but something did.

This feels symbolic of my book process and my editor – she has also shown up in Tarot cards and in my dreams.

So, indeed it was symbolic of me birthing anew and may not be limited to the book, although it’s the biggest focus right now. It can also speak to the newness all around.

And this repeated a second time – this time a male and female energy assisting and this time the click was taking a bit longer, so they induced it with a little tapping at my lower back and poof! Another easy release. Talk about potent.

I have a feeling on this one too. 😉

I can only imagine this means the new I’m feeling led to bring forth will in fact not be as hard or challenging as my mind could easily make it. It will just be a very involved process and a committed one at that – perhaps even 9 months worth just like it would be to bring an actual human baby into the world. A successful release of creative energy and joyous passion is the potential awaiting the channeling ahead.

And that’s all that truly matters – that we are having fun and supporting the flow of our unique creativity into the world in ways relative to each of us. No other result than expression is the power we long for. If we allow that energy to get stuck, that’s when we find ourselves blocked in other areas of our lives too.

Where are you feeling stuck in your life and how can you help to move that energy through a creative outlet, idea, way of self-expression, support of a passion, etc. that you have and feel bubbling inside?

These are ways I use dreams and nature to reflect to me messages and guidance.

We have so many things, mirrors, gifts, and tools available to us. Are you present to seeing all the support and guidance you have around too?

We can even ask for our dreams to show us things, if we think we aren’t “getting it” in other ways. The same with nature and messages in general – we can ask for reflections, but you must be present to embrace them, as they will come in ways you’re not even thinking are possible.

Presence is SO important and is another message I feel to be incredibly key for us all. It helps you respond, rather than react. It helps you to see all of the support you DO actually have. It helps you have more gratitude. It helps you to know yourself, others, and everything around you more. It helps you to trust.

Last night I did a big Reiki Healing Attunement for some intentions and wishes that included things close to home and for friends and family I know could use a little boost, and of course Astrid doesn’t skip a beat in helping. There’s a part in the process where I blow violet breath and when I blew, Astrid stretched huge and yawned and while I was finishing stuff in the heart chakra, she was licking her giant Tahoe mother quartz on the ground!

She is enjoying all of the new energy, but also excited to get a stronger move-on with the writing she’s waiting to assist with again.

I haven’t had much time yet to delve deeply in that the last couple of weeks other than ideas because it became evident I needed to get all of these things worked out and in place. There’s something important about solidity, clarity, and anchoring to really support the new in greater flow, ease, and efficiency.

So, I’ve been utilizing the time to research, finish reading the last book I have to help with my writing, have some key things to continue clarifying and journaling about, and organizing all of my notes and processes to implement.

This will also involve that new blog series I’ve now made mention of twice and I promise to share it very soon! Perhaps even this week, but it won’t officially begin until Monday, October 29th.

Astrid is especially pleased about this, as soon she’ll have her own spot on part of this new blog series upcoming. Stay tuned!!

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Going Into the Beyond


 

The last few days I’ve noticed energy shifting more with depth of reflection at the forefront, more anchoring in a flowing yet solid way, increased nature time than there already is, and more reviewing and clarifying. It has seemed like pauses or steps back, but in actuality are energetically catapulting. And during all of this it is not surprising to me that I would find both Astrid and myself feeling and emanating most ourselves and feeling freest to be who we really are. Our bond means the world to me and this book I find most of my work focuses on, to pull deeply at petals around my heart, asking it to open further despite feeling sometimes at a loss as to how.

Then the reminders and beautiful nudges come through that assure me I do know and when tears fall, it means I’m there.

They are tears of expansion and sweet remembrance of my song. A song we each have within, but forgot.

In the last several days I’ve needed to focus on a shared business I have with Dave and with his being away for work, it had me connecting even more with the forest land here we reside upon as guests to Nature’s kingdom. I even received some wonderful gifts in the mail – they always arrive in perfect timing.

It also had me digging deeper and imagining more possibilities than creatively have been explored. And when I found myself hitting an illusory ending with no way in sight to do what I feel in my heart can be done with the chapters at hand, I instead focused elsewhere and allowed those seeds to settle some more and watered them literally in my garden metaphor for the life I’m creating, just outside my sliding glass door. And I soaked in vitality from the Sun’s rays. And I nurtured myself with good food and good movies.

And the sign came, nearly knocking me over, that it isn’t all a figment of my imagination and IS in alignment.

So, I keep listening for my song to reveal the next notes and am learning that improvisation will inspire imagination into knowing.

Get out of your own way, out of the noise, out of the comfort zones, out of your head alone, and consult your heart.

It’s time to venture into the beyond and go where you’ve never gone before – blaze new trails into the unknown.

When you think there’s no other way, Astrid assures there is always an angle you haven’t yet explored.

Phase Two Done, Book Keeps on Moving & the Rowers Keep on Rowing ~ Willy Wonka Rocks My Life


Phase two complete! Yay! Late this morning I finished the next leg of my book aligning with Spring Equinox’s window opening wide. Writing a book is quite the process and one of solitude where you really turn within and journey through the depths of yourself. It can be lonely for some, but for those of us who live and breathe what we write, everything and everyone within the pages are real and draw you into a world of imagination come alive. Sometimes it’s much more exciting and real than the world we find ourselves in when we aren’t writing…and for some of us, the writing takes on a world of its own and our lives are never the same because of it. Not to mention, what we write becomes our reality.

I’ve written a lot of things over my life, including many stories in notebooks I wrote in my twenties that may one day also come to life, but this is only my second actual book to date – although is VERY different from the last.

Everyone has their own way of writing, but for me phase two has involved four rounds of my own editing before hitting the next phase. Phase one was completing the story from beginning to end. And the next phase will involve it being read for the very first time by someone other than myself. Eek! LOL! That can be both exciting and scary, right?! Where our sensitivities will be tested and we learn not to take anything personally…or at least we hope so. 😉

There are still more processes and phases to go through, as this is my baby being nurtured, cultivated, and prepared for the world, but every phase deserves an acknowledgment, as the energy keeps on moving.

That reminds me of another favorite from Willy Wonka – btw, for those of you not on my Instagram or Facebook, you may not have seen that Mr. Wonka was alive and well on our Vegas adventure, as well as was alive in my heart on the trails.

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We found that every casino we went in had Wonka slot machines! Oh those Oompa Loompas!

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I used “Oompa Loompas” as my hangman phrase for our beach campsite game in the Grand Canyon, in fact, which stumped everyone despite Happy and Bean being on the same Wonka ride of life with me. And like many other things, instant manifestation of what we spoke out loud kept happening.

I also kept singing to myself, “the rowers keep on rowing….and they’re certainly not showing….any signs that they are slowing” when I kept moving forward up and out of the Canyon, to keep my momentum going. Reiterating that the energy must keep moving, to face your fears, and enjoy the wild ride, as the only control you have is how you react or respond to it.

And moving, the energy certainly has, since we returned, as I moved quite quickly through this last round of editing, finishing it within the last two and a half days following the Equinox.

It’s important to honor ourselves for what we’ve accomplished without waiting until some ultimate conclusion comes to fruition. Each day we say “yes” to taking action on something we feel called to do, is quite an achievement. So remember to give yourself a hug and pat on the back, because you deserve it for the courage you have shown. I plan to buy myself a very special gift for this special occasion. Something I fell in love with in Vegas and Bean found me online much cheaper….it is SO perfect I can hardly stand it!

Anyway, that’s where I am with my book. Forward and onward I go. I’ll likely begin the next phase come Monday, giving myself a little break this weekend and the rest of today. I have some house painting to do right now and then am going to bake a new T recipe of cupcakes for our Tahoe Herbivores’ Potluck and Game Night Meetup tomorrow evening at our house. Then tonight we’re going to an Irish group’s concert called Flogging Molly. I also plan to make lasagna for the Meetup, tomorrow, as well as plan to finish my closet cleaning, plant 52 new succulents, and get outside for some nature fun in the snow the rest of the weekend.

Anyway, here are the lyrics to the Willy Wonka shamanic boat ride:

Round the world and home again
That’s the sailor’s way
Faster faster, faster faster

There’s no earthly way of knowing
Which direction we are going
There’s no knowing where we’re rowing
Or which way the river’s flowing

Is it raining, is it snowing
Is a hurricane a-blowing

Not a speck of light is showing
So the danger must be growing
Are the fires of Hell a-glowing
Is the grisly reaper mowing

Yes, the danger must be growing
For the rowers keep on rowing
And they’re certainly not showing
Any signs that they are slowing

– ‘Wondrous Boat Ride’, from Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory (1971)

And here’s the video clip! Enjoy!

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