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Autumn Reflections


Welcome September! The change of seasons has been slowly descending upon the land, casting a warm, golden glow, as the light shifts daily. There’s been a lovely crispness in the air with chilly evenings enveloping us here with thoughts of cozy fires, nostalgic aromas, and the turning of leaves. All of this inspiring new waves of energy, ideas, and visions to bring through a burst of freshness.

Have you been feeling the transitioning of seasons too?

We are still about three weeks away from the Equinox, but preparations have begun.

Here at the Forest Portal I’ve immersed in Autumnal things including baking and cooking yesterday and this morning for guests arriving this evening for Labor Day weekend. I made root veggie-based curry and enchiladas, as well as two Dutch cocoa, cacao, coffee, walnut orange-infused bundt cakes (one simply the chocolate and coffee blend and the other with the added fun).

I’ve been listening to inspiration on some new upcoming small paintings and surrendering my novel writing to allow guidance for fresh ideas to come while I prepare for another cycle of devoted work and cocooning again soon.

I also completed my cosmic shamanic staff for the upcoming Fall Equinox “Living a Magickal Life workshop and gathering event. (There is just two weeks left to grab the remaining spot for this – 9/15 is the last day to register) But wow! Is all I can say. I’ve never made anything like this and how it all came together and the result is more than I could have imagined. It’s definitely the portal opening staff I knew I was meant to create.

That happened on Thursday and the same evening was our last Music on the Beach event of the Summer where I saw the biggest shooting star I’ve ever seen, in slow motion move across the sky and then plummet behind the mountains on the other side of the lake. No on else saw it. The cosmic influences are strong lately and I’ve been immersed in meditational expansions to assist these shifts.

And on the more mundane level, but equally potent, I’ve been doing a huge closet purge and revamp, which I’m trying to finish today, gave Wonderland a full cleaning and have welcomed in new energies to help enchant the shared creative space with Astrid for our upcoming hunkering down with writing again come October 1st.

Dave and I also signed up to begin a new wellness program on October 2nd based here at the new state-of-the-art athletic training center here in Tahoe. Something very not my usual thing, but the uniqueness of this program coupled with my shifts and feeling well being at the forefront of things while I move forward into a soulfully challenging next phase, all made it very clear, intuitively, that this was the next step.

We’re both healthy (in fact as a full-circle and reset button I had my first yearly wellness, full physical and blood work done in over 20 years just recently – all normal) and do a lot of outdoor things, but this will help up the game for us and continue assisting Dave with rehabilitation from his surgery to get back out there in peak condition for skiing.

They cater to all levels of fitness and rehab needs through internationally acclaimed performance coaching to help maximize athletic performance for athletes or active, recreational lifestyles for outdoor living – hiking, biking, skiing, kayaking, etc. So, we’re pretty excited about that since not only do their experts help with balance of coordination and conditioning, but there are classes you can attend alongside your training.

So that will be interesting and great. Only other thing I’ve ever done in any similar fashion was when I was 21-23 and trained hardcore with a personal trainer and then on my own at a regular gym.

This is completely different.

I’ve since been on my own flowing wavelength of wellness and now incorporating a very supportive, flowing, but skilled level of conditioning, which mirrors a new path I’m on in general with all the new. Very nurturing, expanding, strengthening, and taking things to a different level.

I always like to see the synergy at work with what shows up through choices and alignments.

Anyway, recently since Wednesday there’s been some kind of time warp or timeline shift, as I’ve experienced being a day ahead of the day at hand. Apparently, I wasn’t the only one, as Laura shared the same thing happening to her at the same time.

Even Astrid has been in a mode of digging lately so I’m looking into creating her own digging box so she doesn’t need to dig out the crystals in the fireplace or the kitty litter box. The digging deeper metaphor is resonant.

She’s also gone through fur shedding again, revealing so many complex images and symbols, including a lot of hearts showing up and things that looked like rebirthing reflections. This “skin” shedding metaphor appearing once again.

Which reminds me of one of last night’s potent dreams that involved a rabbit and a snake. The end result was the snake bit my right hand on the bottom side of the palm very deliberately and without fear on my part. In fact, so much without fear that I was not wanting medical attention regardless of there being potential it might be poisonous. It was unsure in the dream if the snake was poisonous or not, but I was not jumping at caring about treating it.

Definite transformational energy in motion and seems I want to immerse in the venomous juices of that with all of me.

This is about the third time I’ve dreamed of a snake/s biting me – all at very pivotal points on my journey.

All this to say, Autumn shifts are settling in and I’m finding the effects in my life to be very positive and expansive in potentials.

This reminds me of these words I’ve shared before, but feel inspired to share again:

There is indeed a continuum of increasing shifts and transitions taking place for everyone on so many levels, which brings us yet again to approaching another seasonal transformation, both within and without.

Yes, Autumn is closing in upon us, and that heads us toward a period of less “light out there” so that we find the source of true “light in here” – within you. This is a time to make friends with your own inner darkness and nurturing it, as this engaged healing integration is vital for soul growth.

Nature reminds us that we need to relinquish the need to hold on tightly with fear and to trust in the process – to allow ourselves to have everything we thought we knew about ourselves to be stripped away, only to discover a greater truth to our authenticity beneath the temporary structures.

And in the process you’ll discover the only thing that is eternal is the core essence of who you are beneath the temporal layers. You learn then that the rest isn’t as serious as you make it and is simply part of the journey to that core.

We let go, just as the trees effortlessly allow their leaves to shift colors and float off in the wind. We embrace the only permanence, which is change. And we take grateful stock of what we do have, while preparing for a new birthing that will be incubating during the symbolic stillness.

Seasonal transitions mirror the evolution of human consciousness and the dynamic shifts of life cycles.

The eternal cycles of birth and death, creation and destruction – all teach you the wisdom of harmonic co-existence. One thing does not exist without the other and through each you learn of your wholeness and cultivate courage and endurance to face that which is over, the past, the old – what must die within you – and trust in the abundant gifts that will come with the embrace of that release.

You become a conscious and active partner in the rebirthing process, as you walk through the flames of destruction with grace.

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I leave you with this image. I wish I knew who the artist is, but it is an image a friend once sent me and it feels so perfectly reflective of what I feel and sense all around this time period.

May all possibilities be open to you.

Autumn Inspiration & Full Circle Reflections


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I remember how last year at this exact time, when we first arrived back in Tahoe with the Magick Bus, we spent a lot of days at Fallen Leaf Lake taking in the Fall colors. Synchronously, this last Friday the 13th marked two years since we’d officially moved into the Magick Bus in 2015 on a New Moon. A beautiful full circle celebration and truly the life choice that changed everything for us, and especially for me. Today marks five weeks to the day already in my foot’s healing process and it’s doing very well with all the nurturing I’ve given it. Yesterday I was itching to get out more and so we did about a 3+ mile, relatively easy hike with my boot along Fallen Leaf Lake because the Autumn colors were calling me again. It felt so good to be out in nature with all the smells and sights.

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SO much has changed since we put into motion our Magick Bus plan and made that leap with complete trust, detachment of results, and non-judgment of the process. It feels like lifetimes ago and also holds lifetimes within those two years of major movement of energy and manifestation that we experienced – even more than what I express here.

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As I shared on Facebook, everything these days seems to point to an elevated need for patience, presence, process, and peace – the four p’s!

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And when a dear friend asked about what I referred to in terms of the “process” part, I shared:

Processing what comes up and always being aware that everything involves a process… Just like life is a journey, but there are steps and stages to go through. Each of those steps being integral and important. We often get caught up in the result and want to know the outcome but you won’t until you go through the process, as each step can shift things and open to something completely different, but potentially better. That goes back to patience and presence. Patience with what you’re wanting to see in the world or create in your life. Presence with what’s before you now revealing insights and gifts to get you to the next step. And peace within along the way to anchor yourself and keep balanced.

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Nature reflects and guides us on this life cycle so beautifully.

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Not only has our journey the last two years been about all of this incredibly, including finding ourselves back here after a nine year cycle of where we began, but currently with our home remodeling and my book editing, I/we’re fully needing to live this day in and day out – not just simply as a thought we read for the moment and agree with, but as an actualized experience we embody.

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I hope you enjoy these photo captures from yesterday’s hike and that you can receive the wisdom Nature has to share.

I LOVE the light encircling everything, bringing that full circle experience into visible acknowledgment.

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Autumn’s Orange


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Autumn is a season of harmony and harvest, bringing a warm glow and luster to everything it touches. This includes the changing leaves that seem to fall in love with the Earth, as they gently glide down to kiss her skin. Orange is one of the colors of warmth that dance in this season of beauty and change. There are so many shades and blends of orange in all things Autumn – from fall foliage to pumpkins, harvest moon to cozy flames in the fireplace, chrysanthemums to gerbera daisies,  and all things yum like sweet potatoes, carrots, butternut squash, persimmons, and clementines to name a few.

Orange sparks an energetic rush of enthusiasm, vitality, joy, adventure, creativity, and even evokes a giggle. As the second chakra it is the energy and strength to sustain and nurture life and is our relationship to self and others, as well as our connection to abundance.

No matter if you are watching a beautiful Autumn sunset or hiking through a forest of Fall-cloaked trees, there’s something truly comforting and inspiring about the glow of orange abound.

When you realize the connection to your source of creativity, Autumn can be a wonderful time not just for harvesting food, but the fruits of all of your labors, which includes both enjoying some nurturing rest and fun, but also harnessing all that you have within you to focus joyously into creative endeavors that utilize the gifts you’ve cultivated.

Autumn’s Warm Embrace ~ A Magickal Day at Fallen Leaf Lake & Lake Tahoe


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I even found a giant naturally carved magick sword at the lake’s edge, which was massively heavy, although I managed to pick it up feeling myself back in Arthurian times and reminding me of the Sword in the Stone legend.

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I giggled with joking seriousness to Dave, “does this mean I’ve reclaimed my power?”

I hope you enjoy an Autumn immersion and visual walk through the beauty of our day.

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“Falling” into the Grace of You – Welcome Autumn Equinox


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There is indeed a continuum of increasing shifts and transitions taking place for everyone on so many levels, which brings us yet again to another seasonal transformation, both within and without.

Yes, Autumn is upon us, and that heads us toward a period of less “light out there” so that we find the source of true “light in here” – within you. This is a time to make friends with your own inner darkness and nurturing it, as this engaged healing integration is vital for soul growth.

It is time to face your shadow! To mingle intimately with it and immerse in its gooey depths. To face your darkest fears and retrieve back into you all of the projections and separation created, so that you can transmute it through the alchemy of your heart.

You can no longer – the collective can no longer – function without this integration taking place. And it happens within each of you before change will emerge as a reflection of it without.

There just simply isn’t any more room to run and hide. It’s time to wake up from the illusion and to stop medicating the truth with fluffy avoidance and robotic affirmations.

Nature reminds us that we need to relinquish the need to hold on tightly with fear and to trust in the process – to allow ourselves to have everything we thought we knew about ourselves to be stripped away, only to discover a greater truth to our authenticity beneath the temporary structures.

And in the process you’ll discover the only thing that is eternal is the core essence of who you are beneath the temporal layers. You learn then that the rest isn’t as serious as you make it and is simply part of the journey to that core.

We let go, just as the trees effortlessly allow their leaves to shift colors and float off in the wind. We embrace the only permanence, which is change. And we take grateful stock of what we do have, while preparing for a new birthing that will be incubating during the symbolic stillness.

Seasonal transitions mirror the evolution of human consciousness and the dynamic shifts of life cycles.

Even my sweet and special tortoise friend, Gaia, seems to have chosen her own dimensional transition, joining my beloved Nestor in the Cosmos.

And I accompany her and many of you who are transitioning as well.

The eternal cycles of birth and death, creation and destruction – all teach you the wisdom of harmonic co-existence. One thing does not exist without the other and through each you learn of your wholeness and cultivate courage and endurance to face that which is over, the past, the old – what must die within you – and trust in the abundant gifts that will come with the embrace of that release.

You become a conscious and active partner in the rebirthing process, as you walk through the flames of destruction with grace.

I feel that much more is being asked of us now than ever and the willingness to partner in the dance will always be of benefit to your highest good.

How this unfolds is relative to each of your journeys. For some who have been doing the work this year, it may be a gentle transition. For those of you have avoided the work, or haven’t been able to accept the process of letting go, you might find this time more challenging.

It’s a good time to decide if you want to continue forward supporting your ego’s will or your soul’s destined journey. Decide what it is worth to you to live in the authenticity and joy of your essence, and what decisions you can make to release all that is not of that, in order to be all that is.

As we celebrate the Equinox and Autumn’s graceful arrival, let us remember to breathe in the beauty of who we are, trust in the cycles that will always return us to balance and harmony, and gently nurture the inner world, as we cleanse it of that which no longer serves and prepare for the renewing cycle that will be spiraling round again.

“Enlightenment is a destructive process. It has
nothing to do with becoming better or being happier.
Enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth.
It’s seeing through the facade of pretence.
It’s the complete eradication of everything we
imagined to be true.”

“If you prefer smoke over fire
then get up now and leave.

For I do not intend to perfume
your mind’s clothing
with more sooty knowledge.

No, I have something else in mind.
Today I hold a flame in my left hand
and a sword in my right.
There will be no damage control today.

For God is in a mood
to plunder your riches and
fling you nakedly
into such breathtaking poverty
that all that will be left of you
will be a tendency to shine.

So don’t just sit around this flame
choking on your mind.
For this is no campfire song
to mindlessly mantra yourself to sleep with.

Jump now into the space
between thoughts
and exit this dream
before I burn the damn place down.”

― Adyashanti

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