Have you been feeling the pull to take your life to a new level of experience? I know I’m not the only one embarking on a new chapter in life right now and I know that for some this can be both a scary and exciting thing, as well as potentially intense. Change is not always easy, but can become a more fluid experience when you play in the fields of potential with curious wonder, rather than fight it. After all, these shifts are soul nudges that have answered your desires or evolutionary needs, both consciously and subconsciously. Sometimes what shows up might not seem aligned with that and yet even when those things seem separate and not connected, there’s something at the heart of it all in essence that may be a hidden gift, reminder, empowering opportunity, or core way to integrate the new path.
I’ve traveled extensively in the outer world to what are considered sacred and exotic spots, but it’s the journeys within and even the traveling between spaces and through all the energetic and emotional nooks and crannies that things like physical travel took me to, that have made all the difference. And while much of that travel has been on more etheric planes, even such things as the sacred tattoos I wear, have been ways to come into my body and harness spirituality more tangibly for this Earth plane I currently reside in.
I feel like we’re being guided through new doorways of experiences, relative to each, but that are operating on a whole new plane of existence – in essence helping to create whole new realities.
Starting all over can feel like so many things, including some unpleasant or uncomfortable variations, but mostly I see it is an opportunity, a potential to rise to the “now” occasion, a possibility for recreating from new choices – a rebirth – and a means to shape in that “now” what the “future-you” already is walking, without past restraints.
Sometimes you might have that tug of war within yourself, as you wrestle with old and new, or sometimes it’s as easy as slipping on a new pair of shoes that feel oh-so-much-more comfortable, spacious, shiny fun, and upgraded.
This last Saturday, 8/18/18 – a very cool number sequence to end on – marked the conclusion to my teaching Reiki, which has been an 11 year cycle. Synchronously, one of my students (who also captured this sneak photo of me teaching) was someone I taught Reiki 1 & 2 to, 10 years ago when she was 19. She now returned, at a completely new place in life to complete her 3rd Master Teacher level and boy has her life positively changed on every level. AND, she’s already put out there to her clientele, that she is available for teaching.
Talk about fast upgrades and changes, but it came with a lot of work over these past 10 years and willingness to keep saying, “yes” to what her soul was putting forth for her, even though her ego wasn’t understanding why and wasn’t fully on board with yet.
In some ways I’m in a similar place where my soul has put forth this inspiration and guidance, after culminating to an ending vortex of choice, and it wasn’t something I saw coming even though I toyed with things twenty five years ago.
That ending left me both fulfilled and feeling uninspired, completely soul spent, and nostalgic for a different place I call home.
In many ways, the “past me” might have seen the work I’ve been doing until recently as being my end result, and in a way it was – as it truly was more of a predictable soul path I was completing from lifetimes of build-up. Many of you likely can relate. And although not necessarily an easy path I was on, it was easier to melt into and only challenging in terms of moving into more vulnerability, clarity, and opening that throat chakra that yearned to teach, yet had the fear to transmute.
When everything pointed to endings 3 years ago, I was left with a choice and so I followed a nudge, went off into Nature (just as John Muir says, “The mountains are calling and I must go”), listened deeply, and found myself here when I might have been elsewhere.
This then put into motion a potential new cycle and so I began playing in this new field of experience and trying on how it felt. I decided to go with it, feeling a new level of inspiration was the very and only thing that would keep me here and that offered a completely new and freer embodiment, if so chosen.
Little by little, and quickly in some cases, I shed my skin and this led to now and a fresh start. During that time, a story began channeling through and I wrote when the moment moved me, while building a new life.
Perhaps the story reflects a journey intimately remembered or maybe it energetically rewrote what has been to what can be.
In any case and for what ever reason yet unknown, it is the only thing calling my heart besides seeing what is possible from living at a different and more balanced vibration.
This past Thursday, 8/16 – a day earlier than expected – I received my manuscript back from my editor (more on that shortly) and this coincided with Astrid’s early birthday gift arriving (her birthday isn’t until 9/15), which I’d ordered custom a couple of months ago, but was on back-order. No coincidence we both received something new and connected on the same day.
Astrid’s gift was this special child’s chair stitched with her name and a star on it, chosen to match my green chair and the green theme in our shared room.
I have both a green chair – my desk one – and a comfy arm chair by my book shelf, which Astrid loves to climb up and sit on. I thought she might enjoy her own arm chair so that she and I could both sit and mastermind together. Besides, every queen needs their special throne and now she has one that declares her star child essence as cosmic spirit in bunny body.
It took until yesterday to finally figure out where she wanted it, but the second I put it together and set it up for trial runs, she was exploring and jumped right in it quite comfortably.
But as the days went on, she was missing her bed and carrot cottage under the stars looking out on the forest by the door, so I moved it to a new location and put her other things back and she instantly said, “yes, that’s it!”
She climbed right in and sat there for long periods not moving at all, but just sitting up tall in it and looking at me from across the room, very regal and wise.
Then she started grooming herself and making it home. Good thing is, it’s super light and therefore totally mobile with a handle on top, so we can move it whenever she feels she wants a new vantage point.
She now goes to sit on it when I sit in my comfy chair and we gaze across at each other, feeling the immensity of our combined energies in this space.
It’s a bit like this new path for me, where I know it’s what my creative spirit is guiding, but will take some adjustments (likely a lot more work than Astrid’s few days of helping me to figure out where it belonged) in order to fit as comfortably in my own new “chair” as she does, but I’m following her example.
That brings me back to receiving my manuscript from the perfect editor I was guided to. I couldn’t be happier and more grateful for the opportunity to work with her and her feedback was just what I had hoped it would be to both support and kick me into deeper explorations with highlighted strengths and weaknesses. I feel as if I’m getting a whole new education and training in a way that works in better alignment for me than studying at a university, for example. She’s definitely my vibrational fit.
Since I had a workshop to teach last Saturday, I put aside editing and novel thoughts except for the summary letter, because I knew that once I dove in, it would be all-consuming. And quite literally, even though I still have yet to go through everything, as I’m creating the space for full digestion of it and all that I feel it will ask of me, it HAS become all-consuming on my mind. I find my thoughts are always going there and so I know where I’m meant to be.
Yet, just from her letter, I can sense the enormity of this commitment and choice I’ve made with it and why nothing else can be on my plate going forward. I was curious how I would feel from receiving the feedback and the only thing it brought up for me was this incredible sense of soul challenge to grow and deepen, which inspires me. I can also feel the reality of the creative limb I’ve flown out on with this, which presents further challenges to rise to, including even the genre choice I decide upon with it.
I definitely have my work cut out for me. I never do things simply, and it makes complete sense that for something to truly engage my heart and spirit to feel inspired to continue on here – regardless of any outcome with it what so ever – it WOULD have to be the biggest challenge yet.
Any fellow writers (or creatives), will understand the journey and it is one that can sometimes take years, of which I’m fully on board and committed to. So I truly don’t know the extent of time this project will take and I’m not rushing it so that I can immerse fully in the growth and learning, feeling that this is about much more than a book – it’s a whole new adventure and journey of mind, body, heart, and spirit.
And it IS a whole new playing field, as I’ve mostly only been a blogger and put out one self-published book – Spiritual Skin, along with a lot of creative writing when I was much younger. This one has the potential for traditional publishing depending on how vulnerably and flexibly I stretch myself and even how I surrender completely to living my dharma and embracing the new lessons this path is creating for me.
In any event, the old cliche is true…”it’s the journey, not the destination” that matters and I can really feel that in traveling this unknown territory simply for sake of bringing through vibrational potential that arises from the challenge and exhilaration of experiencing how far and wide I can fly on the wings of my creative free spirit.
It will definitely involve a constant cycling through of deaths and rebirths, as makes sense with next year’s growth year #13 – death / 4 year I’ll be entering come my birthday. The 4 energy will have me focusing on foundations, sharpening skills, working hard, involved in patient, methodical approaches to goals, nurturing of projects, and overall serious approaches to career, well being/health, and relationships of all kinds for balance. All of which I’ve been preparing for with deep cleaning on all levels and flowing with the creativity that was inspiring me this last 12/3 year I’m still completing.
I didn’t need to know this information on numerology, but it is definitely interesting to see how we do in fact follow the energy imprints regardless of not being aware of them playing out.
I always start experiencing trickles of the upcoming energies before they set in fully and I can see how come this Fall, pretty much exactly after Fall Equinox, I’ll be on a different trajectory.
This also falls perfectly with my sweet and dear Laura coming to spend a fun and potent week here at the same time we co-teach and host our “Living a More Magickal Life” workshop event on the Equinox – the official ending for me to this kind of teaching platform in general. It’s not often that we get in-person time together, but when we do it has always put into motion some huge life shifts for both of us and this coming together in a month from now feels like the most potent alchemy potential we’ve created yet.
So, between now and then I am readying everything, we have some other friends visiting, I’m getting fully organized and cleaned out, creating a workable plan to put into action, reviewing my editor’s feedback, tuning in, and beginning research – that way I’m fully ready to go, come end of September, and dive fully into things.
I see Fall and Winter perfectly fitting for nose-to-the-grind action, but in my newly adapted balanced way so as not to repeat my past neurotic tendencies to overwork myself until I “crash-and-burn.” This is why Dave and I have and will continue implementing a new well-being track into our life, while we also focus on other life goals we’re creating foundations for. It will definitely be a busy 6-8 months to get things ready for the next leg of the journey.
This is why I’ve released everything else, as a way of having laser beam focus on the new and yet without any old patterns being brought into that space and reality that is forming.
There is an invitation being extended to us all I feel where a portal of fresh possibilities await.
Have you also increasingly felt drawn away from things and toward completely new ones?
Where might you create more balance in your life so that you can be more present and vibrant to what is calling your heart’s attention?
Sometimes what we think we should be doing is only a choice away from what we could be doing.
If something nudges you there is reason. Whether it directs you into a whole new life journey or supports your journey with new, you will experience invigoration from listening to that subtle voice rather than dismissing it/you.
Thank you for being part of and supporting my journey. I not only support yours equally, but do my best to keep embracing each challenge on my own, as my contribution to the collective.
There’s plenty of time to be serious and let’s face it, most of the time that’s just what people are doing – planning, worrying, stressing, analyzing, keeping their nose to the grind, moving from one task to the other, having no time to smell the roses. And while there’s balance to be had in life, the main thing we lose focus of and have an imbalance of is work in place of play – how to experience life more lightly, have more fun, feel more vitality, surrender some of that load you’re carrying, and bring back that innocence into each part of your life.
I speak a lot about enjoying life more and having more fun, as it truly can be a game-changer. I know it can be hard sometimes when life seems to have thrown a lot at you that feels heavy on the heart, but the way out isn’t in digging deeper into that heaviness, but rather, finding ways to see through the eyes of your inner child, which will help lighten things. Laughing at ourselves and life, being silly, doing something spontaneous because it tickles your heart, infusing a child-like perspective of wonder and belief in all things possible, and reaching in to bring forth that tender, caring heart that simply loves.
So, while I am a child at heart big time, I still constantly nurture that child to merge even more of that innocence into my life and find myself more childlike now than even when I was a child. That’s not to say I’m not serious when the time calls for it, but I never let go of my inner child in the process. I choose to have her walk hand-in-hand in all that I do, think about, feel into, and take action on. I also engage her and ask her what she feels, so as not to neglect the wisdom and value she has to impart.
There’s been more than enough times when I didn’t really know how to love her, as she so needed, and I’ve committed to having her never experience that again. By inviting her into every experience, I get to experience greater wholeness and fulfillment that has the ability to bring harmony and healing to every forgotten corner of my heart.
It’s no mystery why I find myself surrounded by an armada of chipmunks and squirrels where we live, who all seem to congregate outside my office door – mirroring the inner child I have cultivated and even the childhood dream office of Wonderland I’ve created. And of course I have the magickal little bunnies and Astrid, who all reflect such purity, innocence, and playful harmony. Astrid also reflects my inner child and our interactions also help expand my interactions within for myself, and vice versa. We definitely assist each other in embodying greater wholeness.
I recently had opportunity to support a sweet soul in a distant, international Reiki Healing Attunement that also brought up this key theme of inner child love and embracing more innocence, play, and fun. So much so that a powerful display took place right before me while I was in the middle of the session.
Two giant squirrels – one of which was huge and bigger than any squirrel I’ve ever seen – both came running over to the sliding glass door in front of where I was working the session. They came up to the door, peered in on hind legs with paws and nose to the glass and were tapping to get in and get my attention. They would then run to my potted flowers and climb up them and play and then circle back and come tapping and peering in on me again at the door. This happened several times, until they knew I understood and then off they swirled their huge bushy tails and disappeared back under the fence from which they came.
I had never had such a strong reflection of animal spirit guides during a session, other than my own bunny loves doing things and receiving visions of guides for the person I was working on. But this time they decided to manifest in the flesh and I know if that door had been open, they’d have been right up on me.
The huge display they played out in front of me, I not only took away as meaningful for this particular client, but also as important to impart to the collective.
I didn’t get photos, of course, as I was deep in a session, but here is one (below) of the chipmunk friends that constantly visits, peering in just as the squirrels did.
I also have a couple of quite large mice friends that visit as well, along with lizards and birds.
It’s definitely forest play land around here big time and I giggle daily at the beautiful mirror, which warms my heart that my inner child feels safe, loved, encouraged, and cherished.
Chipmunks have been known to show up as lucky signs that grant heart wishes, symbolize abundance, reflect an explorative and adventurous heart, and mirror that free spirited outlook on life – all similar to squirrels.
And while they both reflect that perfect balance of work and play, they always get what they need done with that light approach. This demonstrates that work can be accomplished without pressure and enjoyed by dedicating yourself to nurturing more fun in your life and living in more balance with nature. A cozy, comfortable, and joyful life is possible, just as these playful creatures show us.
Inner child work has always been a powerful seed “key” to creating change. And when done with unconditionally loving courage, can be the impetus for empowering yourself in unlimited ways.
We all have a child within that is in need of our loving acceptance. No matter how strong and self-reliant you think you are, there is a time for tender vulnerability in everyone’s journey that is needed to cultivate a garden that your child-like heart can creatively and expansively blossom in. This will provide astounding results in your current experience and with all that you intend.
As adults we carry with us false beliefs from the past that as children we learned to believe. A lot of that includes the things that we were taught were “wrong” with us and so the greatest rejection living with us today is of ourselves with these beliefs.
Listening to and softening our inner dialogue to embrace the perfection of all that we are, is a needed part of our daily practice. It is important to know ourselves to be whole and forgive ourselves, as well as revel in the quirky beauty that our inner child has to share.
Loving your inner child will support healing the darkest experiences by shining light on the beauty that was always there. This opens doorways that the Universe will support you with when you are willing to partner with it.
With the Solar Eclipse New Moon in Cancer and yesterday’s magickal Friday the 13th, I was feeling another influx and opening of opportunities present itself. Cancer really has us paying attention to our emotional and psychic sensitivities around matters of home, heart, nurturing, creativity, compassion, and feminine energy, but also learning to keep that all in Capricorn check so that we aren’t giving our energy and power away, we learn highest use of boundaries, true responsibility, and courage and fortitude to support healthy vulnerability that can be evolutionary for self and humanity and help you to take action that leads to manifestation of dreams, goals, and intents for the highest good. We’re definitely working on creating new foundations in all areas of life and the New Moon encourages birthing new things over and over with each cycle. There’s always a window of opportunity and it’s never too late to make changes – it starts with choice. New Moons are great for planting seeds of the new, and when you commit to something during the window of its energy you really help to fuel and solidify maximization of that energy.
I found myself the last couple of days really multi-tasking and honing in on more closures, new beginnings, and clearing my plate as well. I really felt that multi-dimensionality kick in, as my mind was expanding and at times exploding with all the levels of complexity it was journeying into simultaneously. I definitely felt like I was getting a brain workout in a good way, as I traveled different paths of thinking, focusing, perspectives, and potentials.
I also was working with that courage and vulnerability I spoke of, as my book journey ignited phase 3.
This all synchronously finalized yesterday on Friday the 13th and in the New Moon energy, or rather, it all ignited, as I officially committed and signed the client agreement with my editor. Things went into motion last weekend, but she was away on vacation and everything aligned us when she got back for it to fall as such.
So, this is an evolutionary igniting of taking my new step of responsibility and committed action with my heart project, as well as fully investing myself to see things through – definitely that balance of Cancer and Capricorn energies in acknowledging both my vulnerabilities and strengths, and supporting a balanced and well-thought out plan of responsible and serious action.
I also spent a good portion of the last couple of days doing bookkeeping on Quicken – this is all VERY new for me this year – for Dave and I and our shared work together, which was a big project and hones in on my Cancer/Capricorn balances with its focus. Another expansive venture for me that exercises my brain and capitalizes on my strengths, while also developing my weaknesses. Whew!
And synchronously, the last of my two massage tables was sold yesterday to the perfect person. They both went to perfect people, actually. This closing out my Reiki teaching journey and the in-person sessions I once used to offer.
Synchronously, also, Dave sold his guitar on the same day. He had two, and decided only to keep one.
We both had really nice people come to get them who were both so aligned and we both ended up talking to for a while. Dave’s went to a wonderful family of a man and his really sweet 14 year old and wife, and mine to a really lovely soul I would never have met if not for this. She and I had a lot in common. We both had tattoos all over us, she does massage and other body work, we both are writing a book, she also just got an editor (and actually had offered to refer them to me, but I’d just signed with mine), and we said we should hang out some time. Gotta love alignment!
So phase 3 is in full swing and while it is going through its extensive editing review, I’ll be focusing on other aspects to prepare for more phases to come.
In the meantime I will also enjoy a little different creative focus with the Magick Crystal Wand commission and my own staff this week. I have 2 more Mystery Magick Crystal Wand commissions remaining. I only plan to work on these over the next couple of weeks, so please try to get in any orders, as after that I’ll not have a window anymore.
Some people who haven’t seen my wands were curious, so here is a link to the first batch I channeled. I went on to create several more custom ones after that, but they are in individual posts and were much more complex, larger pieces that are not part of this offering. You can search my blog if interested in seeing more. This link is just for an idea, but each is unique to the wood and the inspiration I feel come through when working with it:
And here is the link where you can order one of the two remaining wands-to-be:
In this same post I was offering other things, but the only remaining is the last two wand commissions I mentioned.
All of the crystals have found new lovely guardians – thank you so much! – I will be packaging them up safely this weekend (which takes time) and shipping off either Monday or Tuesday depending on my time window Monday between two engagements.
The workshops still have space, but the Fall Equinox is getting close to filling. There may end up only being 2 spots remaining soon.
Reminder these are my last workshops I’m teaching and the first and only co-teaching with sweet, magickal Laura.
I plan to bake a cake this weekend – one I’ve been feeling the last week or two, which will be a vanilla lavender cake (perhaps with another twist too, but we’ll see what comes to me). I’ll be using my fresh lavender from the garden for this, which is what inspired me. I’m so loving the smell of fresh lavender and cinnamon basil blossoms right now in my kitchen that I made a sweet little arrangement of in a tiny vase.
I have some new flowers and succulents to plant too.
Will be getting outside as well for sun and exercise.
There was a lot of hard work going on the last couple of days, so its time to kick in some serious play. 🙂
All to continue experiencing greater balance and inner harmony and peace.
So, yes, it’s important to nurture ourselves with those Cancerian things – for me the creative infusion of some fun projects to shift focus, making a nurturing cake that I love so much, giving back to Mother Earth with some Nature time and tending to her blossom and plant children around the home and home garden, and nurturing others with some Reiki Healing Attunements, as I’ve already put into motion one for myself and Dave.
And, key to remember our Capricorn aspects – for me this is implementation of business minded focuses, action-oriented step-by-step, patient processes, courage and confidence in what I am creating, putting into place supportive structures for long-term goals, and persistent focus to see things through for the highest good of all concerned.
All of this helping me to feel most essence aligned and helping to create greater harmony within and without.
Taking a quick little break to share with you my Solstice Iris that bloomed on Summer Solstice yesterday and to just share a little bit of light on this beautiful day. This is likely my favorite gateway and likely due to Joy’s and Astrid’s connection with it, was feeling a bit nostalgic, especially with preparation for tomorrow’s Reiki workshop, which Joy used to always help out with. Seems she had a little gift for me, as I feel her energy in this Iris.
I had no idea what kind would bloom, or even if any would, but what a gift! As you may recall, Laura sent me Iris bulbs all the way from Michigan, and I planted them when we got this house last Fall. And voila! This one finally bloomed and what an exotic beauty surprise she is! So far, only this and the purple Iris I already shared, from out back, are the ones that bloomed. We have many backyard Iris plants that were surprises from the previous owner, and about five that I planted out front. I will likely get some bulbs again this Fall and plant more of them and the Daffodils all about.
I have had a busy day and week, so I did take a little garden break on this Summer day to get that balance (so key), sunshine, grounding, watering, and intention planting in. I planted some more Lemon Balm, some “Ring of Fire” Sunflowers, and the best yet (because I LOVE the name, as it’s so me!) Wee B Little Pumpkins!! Omgosh, don’t you just want to giggle?! When I saw the name I said I of course HAVE to have those even though I’ve never had pumpkins before. But wee pumpkins?! WEEEEEEEEEE!
Everything’s doing amazing and growing back quickly from my last harvest a few days ago. I have strawberry blossoms happening, broccoli galore, my tomato plants I saved that nobody wanted are doing well, and their tomatoes are growing.
Anyway, yesterday’s Summer Solstice was lovely and as you know I shared two magick offerings of a crystal from Astrid, and a crystal wand from myself. Astrid’s crystal has been spoken for by the sweetest guardian (love that it went on the Solstice), but the wand still is available for the right person it calls to. Always extra goodies will be added too, as you never know what’s up my sleeve! 🙂
We also celebrated the end of the Gratitude Giveaway and I’ve been enjoying seeing the emails pour in today and last night from all of the people who joined – 41 in all, as some last minute people jumped in. A couple of people dropped out due to being too busy, but still shared they had an incredible time while they did it and enjoyed the presence it created in their life that they would like to carry forth, so that makes me happy.
Yesterday also closed out the pre-registration to our “Living a More Magickal Life” workshop with Laura and I. We now only have officially 5 spaces remaining of the 12 total. You can still register until 9/15. I know there are a couple of people intending to do so, so just keep in mind although it’s still 3 months away, we could fill. Everything always works out perfectly and it’s a wonderful group we’ll have for this intimate gathering. We’re excited, as Laura just booked her trip so we’re looking forward to the whole energy of that Equinox and Full Moon week.
And last, I will leave you with the song my sweet bunny, Cosmo, and I share as “our song,” which feels perfect for now and the energy I feel.
Okay, I’m off and back at things. I won’t be back on until Monday when I’ll be sharing the 11 recipients of the Giveaway then. Stay tuned! Have a wonderful sunshiny weekend!
Being able to know and experience peace doesn’t equate to constant bliss, but instead speaks to your ability to move into that centered place of harmony at any moment amidst chaos.
To me, ecstatic bliss is the opposite of chaos or the doldrums and creates a “this” or “that” view, but the harmonic frequency is one that dances without conditions and judgment, is always in tune with the origins of its voice, and knows only of the IS.
Challenge Yourself to Find New Perspective & Create Balance While Moving Through the Times In Between
Finding gifts, meaning, purpose, opportunity for expansion and new perspectives, challenges to rise to and invoke greater creativity and imagination, the silver lining, and love in everything that shows up in my life is the way I choose to live and is what helps me to flow with the rapidly shifting experiences and potential hurdles that reflect themselves to me. There are many ways in which life can be lived, and many ways in which we can adapt our reactions into more conscious and present responses.
Currently, we have a lot going on here for the next few months, which could be stressful and debilitating if we allowed that to take hold, but each day I keep singing, giggling, and tackling each hurdle as they come, greeting each morning with gratitude and finding lightness in my approach and footstep I embark the moment’s journey on.
When I find myself caught up in the details, I remind myself of the bigger picture. And when the bigger picture seems too overwhelming, I focus on the moment and what I can do right here and now to the best of my ability. It’s a constantly evolving and continuously balancing dance to engage with ever-greater presence each day.
The Autumn beauty and light has painted its way into life here in the mountains, and it reminds me of how I can continually paint a new picture of how I want to be, the reality I choose to create, and the way I look at the world around me.
If there is something I don’t like, then I create more of what I do love. But to dwell in things feels counterproductive, except as fuel for the new. It is easy to become paralyzed by anger, fear, confusion, and over-thinking things. While I know of the dichotomy of experiences around me, I choose to be a creatrix of the way I want to see the world and send love to the things that need it.
Life is moving forward here, and alongside remodeling and preparations for moving, I am in the beginning stages of editing my book and have also begun some of the cleaning out for our new life in motion. It all feels very aligned with each other and aligned with Nature’s cycles. I’m definitely feeling that harvest of abundance, enjoyment of life’s gifts and nourishment, and also the preparation for Winter, and sense that Spring will be when all things come to blossom from this work and focus right now that is rich with gifts if I see it all that way and enjoy what each has to offer in the moment.
Official remodeling work begins tomorrow on the new home, and I’ve been slowly moving step-by-step through my book. If I were to think of all that needs to be done in a general way, that would likely throw me off center….instead I make lists of to-do’s and do what feels natural and in flow, but I don’t let it debilitate and stop me, otherwise nothing would get done. So even if it’s one small thing a day, this is still movement forward. I don’t judge the process.
And in the meantime, I pay attention to the sign posts and support that show up and I enjoy the discoveries along the way.
This has included seeing a lot of beauty in nature in what ever way I am able to with my still-healing-foot (which is at the half way point already at one month/4 weeks today!) – I’m about to head out later this afternoon for more – discovering new plants in our new yard each time I visit, planting 5 daffodil bulbs gifted to me by Faery Laura so we’ll have connected flowers come Spring, ordered our new Austrian Pines, already measured, mapped out, and ordered new things for my and Astrid’s room (it will be a bunny and Faery play world for creation making, imagining, and journeying), and have enjoyed some incredible new sightings and reflections.
These have included tons of hawks in the last couple of days….just Friday seeing 13 (a cool number) and extraordinary configurations I’d never seen, right after another. I’ve seen two hawks before sitting next to each other, which I did again, but right before them, literally several yards away, I saw THREE hawks sitting in a row, next to each other. Talk about incredible! Hawks are so dear to me and are my amazing navigators bridging Earth and Cosmos. They also always chime in with support and a thumb’s up that things are on track and magick is at hand!
I also saw out in a ranch field, what definitely appeared to be a fox, as it was very different than a coyote both in coloring and its physical appearance and attributes. I thought that was pretty darn cool, as it was the same day I reposted my black fox blog and had received a message from a friend that she just got a fox tattoo and we were discussing this energy abound for the collective right now.
So, I do find it hard to dwell in stresses or what seems wrong in the world, when so many things point to another possibility, perspective, and reality of things being aligned and on track…of support always around to help guide us another way if we in fact find things to be disappointing in other regards.
And as mentioned, I’ve already planned out my new room/office/Astrid’s sanctuary in the new home, which feels important and key to have that percolating and already imagined on a new plane of experience, and in the new reality unfolding. Since it always feels like the brain child of our home, where my office is, I feel like having already created/imagined this and put it in motion with planning it out on paper and already ordering things, seems to be anchoring all the new that is taking place there and will be.
I’m so excited about Astrid’s new things, which will be her Christmas gifts, since the timing will work out for that with move-in likely. I feel she is too and has had a hand in the planning of it all.
So, amidst the craze of things yet to do, and things in process, but not yet manifested, I am working with what is at hand and creating the reality of my visions on another timeline ahead of the now, but simultaneously merging.
There are infinite ways to approach life and to choose how to embrace it all. These are some of the ways I do and what makes life enjoyable every step of the way.
Find that balance and see how to temper things with the inversion of what’s possible on the other side.
A short post update (and last until I finish my book), as I’m continuing to hunker down with my writing, to send a little New Moon and Equinox love your way. This week is another gateway for anchoring in new intentions and realities, which is why I’m keeping focused and listening to the guidance on completing my book during this potent portal – based on my progress so far and yesterday’s amazing writing day that definitely will happen this week YAY! We have a Virgo New Moon in a couple days and the Equinox rounding out the end of the week, so a wonderful transition time you can harness mindfully in empowering your own true source of light within.
Virgo urges us to bring our bodies back into balance and supports our journey of integrative healing on all levels, while doing this WITHOUT being self-critical and WITH a lot of loving attentiveness.
Once again, I feel like a literal embodiment of this message with my restructuring foot fracture and the healing integration and nurturing I’m following to create harmonious alignment with the new.
And embrace of this with gratitude and love has increased the process tenfold with blessings abound and productivity galore. Yesterday was truly one of those days I cherish, where I spent 8 hours in full writing mode, which had me lost in the creative world of my imagination and parallel realities. I felt like the fact that my writing brought me to tears and I was crying through the fluid channeling of the story that was unfolding in creative “real time” was a great sign that I was in the vortex and that the content streaming through WAS that real. I LOVE when this happens. Pure alchemy in motion. I also love when what I’m writing happens while I’m writing it, or after. Powerful stuff! A few more days of that and I’ll be done. It also demonstrated being in the zone of my essence, as I wouldn’t have wanted to be anywhere else in the beauty of that experience and the joy of creating from my heart.
These are the inner shifts taking place at this time….aligning us with our “nature”.
A seasonal shift marks a time for inner shifts and repatterning ourselves to step into that flow of Nature’s cycles.
So be a best friend to your inner darkness and shadow, for understanding it engages healing integration that is vital for soul growth. We are encouraged to face our fears and retrieve all of the projections and separations we’ve created, which are illusionary. This leads us to alchemy of the heart.
We’re encouraged to also stop medicating the truth with fluffy avoidance and robotic affirmations, in order to sink into the nature of our BEINGNESS.
I find myself continuously swimming deeper and deeper into this experience of richer embodiment. When I think, wow, this is amazing, I’m then soon shown something even more incredible is possible because that’s the truth of it – there is no end to the possibilities. WE create endings, but it’s all a continuous beginning and recreating we can choose ways of experiencing.
I’ll leave you with these passages from an old post of mine that speaks to this:
Nature reminds us that we need to relinquish the need to hold on tightly with fear and to trust in the process – to allow ourselves to have everything we thought we knew about ourselves to be stripped away, only to discover a greater truth to our authenticity beneath the temporary structures.
And in the process you’ll discover the only thing that is eternal is the core essence of who you are beneath the temporal layers. You learn then that the rest isn’t as serious as you make it and is simply part of the journey to that core.
We let go, just as the trees effortlessly allow their leaves to shift colors and float off in the wind. We embrace the only permanence, which is change. And we take grateful stock of what we do have, while preparing for a new birthing that will be incubating during the symbolic stillness.
Seasonal transitions mirror the evolution of human consciousness and the dynamic shifts of life cycles.
The eternal cycles of birth and death, creation and destruction – all teach you the wisdom of harmonic co-existence.
You become a conscious and active partner in the rebirthing process, as you walk through the flames of destruction with grace.
It’s a good time to decide if you want to continue forward supporting your ego’s will or your soul’s destined journey. Decide what it is worth to you to live in the authenticity and joy of your essence, and what decisions you can make to release all that is not of that, in order to be all that is.
As we celebrate the Equinox and Autumn’s graceful arrival, let us remember to breathe in the beauty of who we are, trust in the cycles that will always return us to balance and harmony, and gently nurture the inner world, as we cleanse it of that which no longer serves and prepare for the renewing cycle that will be spiraling round again.
With my own foot fracture I feel I released the pressure of much and broke from one version (within and without) and allowed a new version to form, which released the temporary structure of old “me” to birth a new Pisces self with stronger foundations of what that means to me.
We constantly have these choices and possibilities that needn’t be harsh for us to experience, and yet our higher selves know EXACTLY what is of greatest support for us.
I shared this photo just over a week ago, but yesterday I was drawn to revisit it because I remembered having found the light energy around my foot to be interesting. As you can see, my right foot is immersed in violet energy – the very foot that this Sunday took a fracture for me, as the necessary shifts, recalibrations, upgrades, and adjustments are in effect for the new to anchor in a timely manner. Since posting about my foot and adventure surrounding it, I have heard from multiple, multiple people that either they or people they knew all had similar incidents take place on or around the same day with foot fractures (in one case the exact bone and foot as mine mirroring having now balanced out their left foot same injury, also just like mine from 5 years ago), foot pains and injuries, same side knee injuries, and footing feeling off-balance in general. Seems no coincidence of course with the Full Moon in Pisces we just moved through and the huge timeline doorways of intense energy potentials between the Solar Eclipse and the upcoming Equinox. We are all experiencing those energetic tweaks to align more with the new realities we are creating, which involves changes to the frequencies in which we walk forward and anchor in with.
I remember that five years ago when I fractured my left foot twice in a row (fractured left pinky toe immediately after I healed the metatarsal fracture on that foot) it involved literally walking through the threshold of a doorway and reminded me not to leave parts of myself behind and that the core emotional realm (the hardest for us all to change) had to follow in suit with the alignments otherwise the new would be tainted with the foundations of the old.
Remember that shadow work? That’s the underlying element driving so much of the collective contrasts and drama playing out right now.
So, I did in fact, place the Seven-Pointed Faery Star on my left foot as a sacred tattoo, to assist with walking through portals with greater ease and magickal support. The left of our bodies is actually connected to our right brain, which represents the Sacred Feminine and all that she embodies symbolically and literally.
That Feminine energy has been a focal point for most spiritualists, or “New Agers”, but as I’ve mentioned, we won’t be able to forget our parts and the Sacred Masculine energy is equally necessary to restructure and bring along as well. Hence, comes in the right foot, connected to the left brain and Sacred Male.
A balancing and harmonizing “dance” is the collective’s journey and I see it clearly playing out in my own Pisces body/feet.
So, yes, there is so much more than a personal experience we go through, and yet the personal is innately collective, and vice versa.
Interestingly, I wear a jaguar sacred tattoo on my right ankle, whose own paw extends down into my right foot, mirroring my strides forward. The male energy is action oriented and taking those steps will need to be made in new ways with the calculated wisdom of jaguar without wasting energy or revisiting old patterns and ways, in order to manifest the new.
I know for myself, I’ve spent a lifetime adjusting to my body and being at home here on Earth, since the nebulous Cosmos is more native to me. It is only within the last 2-3 years really that I’ve experienced that merging and grounding, which was only possible by releasing the life I was entangled in and venturing off into full Nature immersion to know the true “nature” of me.
My feet have always felt both odd and twinkly all of my life, making sense since a fish has fins. It’s why I came into this life dancing and loving to swim, as these were more congruent with the way my feet wanted to move.
However, as time has progressed and I’ve come to understand the energies I needed to evolve into and harmonize, my Capricorn ascendant and Mars taught me about where I was headed and was the only reason I never fell off the deep end. Capricorn/Earth energies have been my anchor and also rules the bones and structures, not to mention the “male” energy. I’ve been spending a lifetime restructuring myself and readjusting into a more frequency-aligned embodiment to “walk” this current timeline with. And that has involved sometimes very “Mars-like” ways that aren’t subtle and come with great force, passion, and gusto behind them.
We all are adjusting and restructuring, in our own ways. And I share my experiences as one way of delving into how things make sense based on my own energies I came into this life with, and how we can see it all as a gift rather than punishing ourselves or others.
I’m grateful for all the healing energy and love shared and send the same to all of you.
We are discovering keys to new doorways of experience and sometimes those literal symbolic experiences make things easier for us to understand since our minds are always looking for meaning.
There will come a time that simply “knowing” will do the trick, but until then I’m happy to keep sharing what I experience since I have been told it helps others with their own experiences.
So, when I look at this photo of the violet energy around my right foot, I do not see it as an omen of something forewarning me in a “bad” way (take a look at this photo closer and feel the magickal energy and support twinkling all around), but rather I see it as a frequency adjustment that was already taking form on the ethereal level and that now the physical and other parts were going to adjust and realign with – perhaps it was even setting up the perfectly supported experience for what it/I knew on another level was coming in order for things to manifest with greater ease (hence all the support and love around me that day that made it all a gift).
Violet light is connected to the seventh frequency and crown/universal consciousness and carries the energy of transmutation (helping dissolve karma and karmic ideas) to support divine alchemy and Cosmic transformation into manifestation.
That violet light had caught my attention when I first saw the photo, and now I understand the why.
Since the Solar Eclipse’s reset, there’s been a rush of very different energy pouring in – for some intensely forcing changes and for others like a welcome jet propulsion into the new. Everything seems to continue to be a step-by-step process of taking it all slowly without rush and truly anchoring in each step with depth of intention and understanding. With tomorrow’s Full Moon in Pisces (my native sun sign), intuition will be on an all-time high, so listening to it and trusting it will be key to support moving into your true power. This moon will help you to gain deeper insights and understanding about the seeds you’ve been planting in your garden, the intentions you have for them, and will illuminate what truly is guiding your life so that you have a broader grasp on the creative forces at work and how to harness them.
Boundaries again are a constant theme in order to create well being and is a lesson for the boundless Pisces energy to understand how to balance in a healthy way.
This is a powerful time for deep soul level closure, to exercise greater compassion rather than judgment, and to practice radical acceptance, which helps you to release suffering. Suffering is a refusal to accept things. It’s time to give up the suffering, do an energy cleanse, and ask how you can make the changes then engage action to do them.
Synchronously we were at a free Celtic rock concert for the Young Dubliners on Saturday where I danced the hardest I have since my twenties. When I say danced hard, I mean hard…I was doing my own version of the Riverdance and literally was jumping, hopping, kicking, jiggling, and wiggling nonstop through about 6 songs with sweat pouring, heart racing, and just powering through despite feeling as if I might not catch my breath, but did, then was in the dancer’s-high zone. My friend who joined me said she heard me giggling and cackling throughout like never before, which made her see my inner Faery come through. That Irish music definitely released a DNA chord within. I literally shook free and coughed out all the old on the drive home after! Talk about an energy cleanse! And feet were recalibrating two days after.
Well, this Pisces Moon encourages the energy of dance since Pisces rules the feet. So dance like crazy and move energy through your feet, which will not only shake out everything from the core and move things fast, but will anchor and ground you as you connect those feet to Mother Earth – Terra. She will in turn help transmute the energy and send it back with a recharge!
That watery Pisces energy is also about dreaming – whether receiving prophetic dreams or engaging imagination to dream big.
This has been a big one for me. I’ve been engaging dream visioning and just going wild with them, as long as they are aligned with the “now” me in every way.
So yes, dream a little dream…..or make it a big one! I am!
Don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t do something and don’t let their doubts become yours.
Also, learn to temper engaging intentions and detachment, envisioning, but also not overly talking about them. Keep a little bit of the magick to yourself so that you don’t lose the momentum. Patience is key, but don’t give up!
True, it will take dedication, drive, endurance, time and major effort, but if you believe in it, it’s the breath of life to you, and it fills your heart with joy and passion then you owe yourself and those that will be touched by your dream who you can’t see right now or gauge analytically, the opportunity to make it happen.
Live life to your fullest and responsibly harness your creative potential as example.
I’ve been immersed in a lot here (I bet you have too!), but continue to have a good majority of my life focused on “Earthing” in Nature and working closely with the Faeries and Elementals of the land to co-create and manifest together. Not to mention, continuing to engage my Star family from beyond, including my dear ones who have moved on, as well as the magickal Cosmic Astrid. It’s a balancing and merging of Earth and Cosmos.
This has continued to lead me on paths to new portals of discovery and doorways (including literal multi-dimensional doors of possibilities – more on that another time) showing up and opening.
I can’t begin to tell you how much has happened so quickly and anchored in in the last 5 months. Incredible! And as I look back I can see how that balance of alignments, patience, release, intention, and action have all come together.
I’ll share the exciting news on things soon, but it really has all become this fluid experience with some things immediately showing up and others all percolating, but are their own realities on a different timeline that are and will merge once I continue jumping them. And at the same time I’m seeing how there is always “something better” that reveals itself, just as is always my intention I voice when working on manifesting things. This ends up bringing together the most aligned outcomes that combine the ingredients of all that I love in an alchemical recipe only the Cosmos Itself within me knows how to do. And that involves stepping out of ego and attachments, and being open, open, OPEN to any and all possibilities that result in the highest good for all concerned.
And during these times, although I’ve been super active and life has been full, I’ve also been very inner (if you can believe that). Truly a Yin/Yang synergy of experience. And it is the inner time and the things I do actually keep to myself that allow me to put out the amount of energy that I do, as it does help me to conserve and restore, as well as continue to fuel things with a gusto of momentum.
I have huge amounts of passionate fire roaring inside and yet I’m letting it out in the bursts needed without crashing or burning out and without ever losing its fuel.
I continue to hold the expansive visions, while allowing things to organically morph along the way. Sometimes I’m so excited I could burst, but that’s when the Earthing and Nature immersion aids me in bringing my energy back down to a healthy kindling and allows a channel of support to come from the Spirits I honor and cherish.
It’s been so interesting to me that I’ve seen the most snakes I’ve ever seen recently in the last few weeks here (5 total – my fav/special #). Potent transformation energy! We don’t have rattlesnakes, but I’ve seen every size of Garter Snake from the tiniest of babies, to adolescent, to mature snake – Maiden, Mother, Crone energy perhaps? All aspects of myself merging, just as Earth and Cosmic parts do (this echoing a very prophetic and powerful experience I had in dream time just a little over two years ago that was the doorway to where I am now, but could have gone a different direction.
It’s 1:11 here as I conclude and paste in this, which I recently shared in an Instagram/Facebook post:
There are times when being alone or pulling within are necessary especially if you are doing very public work in terms of your path. There are spirits who may seem very visual and yet most of who they are and what they do goes unseen and is kept to themselves. But even if others see you, it doesn’t mean they REALLY see you or even fully know you, as you may be a reflection…truth mirror…or simply can’t be seen yet in totality because what you carry or embody isn’t understood yet.
I love you.
As shared, I’ll be away from blogging for a while after today, as I have a personal goal to meet with completing my book’s first draft before leaving for Australia on May 10th and away for 19 days. I’ll be joining Dave who will already have been touring for two weeks speaking about his book Meatonomics, and then we’ll be leaving for a week to Austin, Texas less than two weeks after our return. Alongside this full plate I am also energetically preparing for a new addition to my life coming in once we fully return from all the travels, which is the focus of this short blog before I head off.
The short story, which I will fully share when it happens, is that a new bunny love will be joining me in partnership and it’s all divinely aligned itself in incredible potency on the upcoming Summer Solstice portal. It’s all truly a magickal story and timing that I know my beloved rabbits have set up as such.
Without going into detail, a special rabbit has made connection with me the second I became ready and made my own realizations and commitments and we are in relationship telepathically until we can be together.
I felt that since I will be away so much, this was not conducive to bringing the bunny love into my life, as my priority is establishing a stable and supportive experience for the physical bonding, and it is not responsible of me to just up and leave bunny love with a pet sitter.
So, once again, I am being asked to trust with all of my heart and walk fully in that trust of knowing that if it is meant to be this little love will be there when I return to adopt on the appointment date that has been set upon my arrival home.
I explored with the rabbit rescue my options and this was the only one that made most sense to everyone, but also asked of me to be in that trust given that anyone could come along and connect and want to take this love home during the two months of waiting.
I believe with all of me that we will be together, and that these two months are preparation, as well as standing in the truth of my trust. I know that if we change and shift together over what takes place these two months then when I go to pick this love up, all will unfold as set in motion.
But either way, what has been set in motion is that a bunny love will be coming home with me nonetheless on that day, and if we both shift differently, it is because another has taken place of the new alignment created.
However, this little love has a special story and needs, I’ve already received the name, and we have connected in dream time indicating a bond that no matter what takes place is already playing out.
It’s such a beautiful connection I can’t wait to share, but for now the reason of my sharing is simply to reiterate the message of trust.
There is no reason to act out of desperation with anything. There is no reason to worry or do things that would not be responsible simply because we don’t want to lose out on something or are trying to control a situation and outcome that needs the freedom of choice, growth, and natural transformation to take place.
As mentioned before, abundant beings recognize the unlimited way abundance plays out when we trust and that there’s no need to attach to any one idea because more will show up.
And also, when you stand in the truth of who you are and trust with your heart, that’s all the confirmation you need.
So, there is much preparing for birth in the next two months for me with the first draft of my book completing (still have a long way to go, but that’s the biggest step), some transformative travels, and preparing myself for a new co-creative partnership that is going to support the next phase of my life.
All of this to balance things out and remain true to my spirit.
And the need to pull back from writing blogs right now is to conserve my inspiration and creative writing, as well as devote my time where it is most needed.
So I’ll not be posting until that goal is met, or if I do feel a strong guidance would only share a very short channeled message or reblog an important theme.
And as mentioned, I’ll only be sharing via Instagram/Facebook during this time if you happen to be on those platforms (although may be limited in interaction), since they are quick ways to still stay in touch and share some daily inspiration and beauty with you, while creating that healthy balance for me as well.
So I’m not completely retracting, just continually tempering that perfect support that ensures optimal well being, creative output, and resonance for the highest good.
Wishing you all a beautifully transformative Spring, rich in abundant expressions of your creative spirit and loving trust.