As shared, I’ll be away from blogging for a while after today, as I have a personal goal to meet with completing my book’s first draft before leaving for Australia on May 10th and away for 19 days. I’ll be joining Dave who will already have been touring for two weeks speaking about his book Meatonomics, and then we’ll be leaving for a week to Austin, Texas less than two weeks after our return. Alongside this full plate I am also energetically preparing for a new addition to my life coming in once we fully return from all the travels, which is the focus of this short blog before I head off.
The short story, which I will fully share when it happens, is that a new bunny love will be joining me in partnership and it’s all divinely aligned itself in incredible potency on the upcoming Summer Solstice portal. It’s all truly a magickal story and timing that I know my beloved rabbits have set up as such.
Without going into detail, a special rabbit has made connection with me the second I became ready and made my own realizations and commitments and we are in relationship telepathically until we can be together.
I felt that since I will be away so much, this was not conducive to bringing the bunny love into my life, as my priority is establishing a stable and supportive experience for the physical bonding, and it is not responsible of me to just up and leave bunny love with a pet sitter.
So, once again, I am being asked to trust with all of my heart and walk fully in that trust of knowing that if it is meant to be this little love will be there when I return to adopt on the appointment date that has been set upon my arrival home.
I explored with the rabbit rescue my options and this was the only one that made most sense to everyone, but also asked of me to be in that trust given that anyone could come along and connect and want to take this love home during the two months of waiting.
I believe with all of me that we will be together, and that these two months are preparation, as well as standing in the truth of my trust. I know that if we change and shift together over what takes place these two months then when I go to pick this love up, all will unfold as set in motion.
But either way, what has been set in motion is that a bunny love will be coming home with me nonetheless on that day, and if we both shift differently, it is because another has taken place of the new alignment created.
However, this little love has a special story and needs, I’ve already received the name, and we have connected in dream time indicating a bond that no matter what takes place is already playing out.
It’s such a beautiful connection I can’t wait to share, but for now the reason of my sharing is simply to reiterate the message of trust.
There is no reason to act out of desperation with anything. There is no reason to worry or do things that would not be responsible simply because we don’t want to lose out on something or are trying to control a situation and outcome that needs the freedom of choice, growth, and natural transformation to take place.
As mentioned before, abundant beings recognize the unlimited way abundance plays out when we trust and that there’s no need to attach to any one idea because more will show up.
And also, when you stand in the truth of who you are and trust with your heart, that’s all the confirmation you need.
So, there is much preparing for birth in the next two months for me with the first draft of my book completing (still have a long way to go, but that’s the biggest step), some transformative travels, and preparing myself for a new co-creative partnership that is going to support the next phase of my life.
All of this to balance things out and remain true to my spirit.
And the need to pull back from writing blogs right now is to conserve my inspiration and creative writing, as well as devote my time where it is most needed.
So I’ll not be posting until that goal is met, or if I do feel a strong guidance would only share a very short channeled message or reblog an important theme.
And as mentioned, I’ll only be sharing via Instagram/Facebook during this time if you happen to be on those platforms (although may be limited in interaction), since they are quick ways to still stay in touch and share some daily inspiration and beauty with you, while creating that healthy balance for me as well.
So I’m not completely retracting, just continually tempering that perfect support that ensures optimal well being, creative output, and resonance for the highest good.
Wishing you all a beautifully transformative Spring, rich in abundant expressions of your creative spirit and loving trust.
I can’t tell you enough how much I’m witnessing both in my own life and that of others, an incredible, consistent, and rapid amount of change taking place in really big, sometimes surprising, yet always supportive ways. There’s been an increase in the last few weeks of full-circle experiences, messages of re-strengthening boundaries, a need to continually reassess and realign ourselves with what’s truest and most authentic to our spirit and heart right now, the power of choice with committed action to back it up, wake-up calls in terms of health and life shifts, and experiences paralleling timelines, but on a whole other plane and frequency with the closing and opening of doors rapidly sliding into manifestation.
I keep hearing from many about these reflections and have been witnessing a wide gamut of contrasting experiences from people including death, suicide, marriage, endings and beginnings of relationships, births, pregnancy, career changes, reassessing life paths, health crisis, what was going forward suddenly and abruptly shifting gears, but also immediately opening to a better potential.
It all reiterates to me the power of choice and action that supports it without worrying over the fine details and whether it’s “the” answer, but merely following what you’re guided to follow in the moment and trusting All That Is/Universe/God/Goddess/Source to handle things from there.
Declaration of intent and willingness to move forward in all ways will manifest doors opening and closing for us that will mirror the paths most aligned with us following our truth right here and now. So releasing the worry over whether something is it right or wrong just simply can be surrendered, as we’ll know immediately where things are leading once we make a choice by what manifests as direct result.
We seem to get too caught up in decisions and tormented by being “wrong” when there isn’t a wrong…simply a trust that whatever you do, you’ll be supported in the highest way. So we just need to believe that and be open to how things manifest, as result of our movement forward, and its always being for our highest good.
Anyway, transformational energies are swirling around big time and this beautiful Moth (pictured above) that Lynne and I connected with on a hike at Fallen Leaf Lake while she was here, really embodied so much of this frequency, not to mention embodied the peaceful trust I speak of.
She was so serene on a pebble at water’s edge, with waves rolling in, both of us around her, a man and his dog with us whom we came across and were talking with, and even us nudging her pebble she sat on, while talking to her. She was anchored and peaceful, but also so royal in her presence, undisturbed or thrown off her own inner balance and harmony by anything around her.
If you look closely at her, especially her head and body, you might see what I do….how much she reflects her Faery Queen essence in this Moth form.
Powerfully potent energy that just mesmerizes me when I look at this, which is why I am sharing this photo, captured by Lynne and courtesy of her for this post. If you remember, I shared my own magical photo of her from the other angle in another post, but this one really captures her essence and otherworldly energy.
All of this also is in line with a conversation I was having with Laura yesterday about living a magickal life and what that entails, which we both reflected on in our own lives and those around us.
We both agree that to live a life of daily magickal experiences this entails a great deal of discipline.
That seems counter-intuitive, but in fact goes hand-in-hand.
I can’t tell you how many people I know and have seen, who energetically and physically crash while trying so hard to “be” something, rather than simply “being” because they think that will make the magick happen. Or who wait for the magick to start happening before they will commit to their authenticity and heart fully.
I’ve also been seeing people go through more periods of heavy-duty flus, colds, or energetic illness suddenly than they ever have (or perhaps hadn’t had) in very short periods because of extremes and perhaps still “trying” to fit a certain template of “being” they think they need to do in order to live magickally, when in fact magick is simply “being” in the discipline of authenticity and harmonious rhythms flowing in and out.
The key to life, at least that I’ve discovered, is balance so that you don’t have those highs and lows and ups and downs in dramatic ways and when you learn to discipline yourself in this way of being, a magickal life unfolds effortlessly. This also entails saying “enough is enough” to old patterns and cycles, so that you can continue to flow on your own spiral of life.
I feel that this stems from your committed responsibility to being you/the Source of you for the highest good of all concerned.
I went through the crashes myself. I went through the huge pendulum swings of extremes. I always considered myself an extremist in fact….and yet that wasn’t actually my “nature.”
My and our nature is harmony and a return to natural harmony is our spiraling journey I feel.
We really are at a point where everything instantly manifests and there are tighter and tighter reins on your luxury to deny or hide things from yourself, as well as assessing if you’re outweighed in any given area – big ones that come to mind is over-giving or over-receiving.
And in the spirit of this constantly shifting energy and my own need to keep honoring my own authenticity, boundaries, and most harmonious state of “being,” I have had to again reassess some things recently and even had a big flow-in of opportunities to help me feel that out with.
So as example, I’m sharing some of those changes that entail my connection with others, but I am experiencing quite a few in other more personal realms as well.
As mentioned, I’ve recently experienced a bunch of full-circle things that herald to me a big leap about to take place, but also reflected how things can come back around at another frequency/whole other plane of experience when you do the work.
But also, as I’ve mentioned in past posts, when you’re in process of, or about to make huge changes, a lot of things will flow into your experience that could confuse you at first because they may be the very things you’re shifting out of.
This is simply part of that transformational process and an opportunity to revisit your relationship to the things with greater peace and anchoring and without “charge” or “trigger”…like that cleansing that stirs things up for us to simply embrace as natural cycles.
So, also recently, I’ve received requests for my past services circle round in another abundance all at once and a ton of messages, which provided me opportunity again to anchor deeply in my authentic knowing of where I am now and what to say “no” to very clearly and with loving gratitude.
I’ve turned away potential new clients, credited back purchases of art prints, and said “no” to a bunch of requests, potential opportunities, and services, as simply it was most aligned with the new energy I’m focusing on and committing to, to do so.
And I did so with utmost gratitude and reflection on the beauty of it all and the honor that it was.
Sometimes things like this confuse people that maybe they’ve made the wrong choice to go in the direction they have, could possibly play on desperation energy (really big one I feel circulating these days) in reflection to still being in process of believing in their abundance or strengthening their belief in the new, or simply could feel like a message to split their energies between old and new.
While none of that would be wrong to do, as all things will lead us to exactly where we are to be in the timing that is right for each of us, and yet these could also create that straddling of two worlds, continually feeling confused and unclear, drain you of your energy because of not supporting fully what is speaking most authentically to your heart, or block other opportunities from coming in.
After all, if we truly believe we are abundant beings, then we ARE abundant beings. There isn’t only one opportunity that will arrive and by saying “no” that’s it. You have the ability to manifest limitless opportunities and each one will provide a different level of potential.
There isn’t just one way to do something for sure. Yet there are ways of choosing that can make you feel more in flow, clear, invigorated, and in alignment.
All that to say, “I hear and feel you.”
I’ve also had to continuously go through these processes in my own way over time as well.
And with discipline and practice, I’ve been able to move into a peaceful and easier flow that has enabled me to consistently experience balance now and harmony, whereas I mentioned, I used to experience extremes and then energetic crashes or physical manifestations of stress created by this feeling of being pulled in opposing directions, or of not owning who I am and claiming my authentic voice fully.
It is with doing so that I’ve come to be able to say I no longer experience stress, anxiety, worry, tormenting inner dialogue (to the point of thinking I’m crazy), fears around who I am and showing up as so, crashes, extremes, physical manifestations of being inwardly divided, relationships of all sorts that were doomed to go no where and reflect what I wasn’t honoring in myself, nor the need to monitor foods I eat other than remaining true to being 100% vegan to match my truth, and instead only draw in more of this harmony I experience.
It’s a drastic life change that others wouldn’t notice unless they really knew me “once upon a time” in all ways. I’m so grateful for all of it and what it’s all taught me, not to mention am grateful for the reflections that show up.
But I do have to mention that things have shifted even with recent offerings I’ve put out.
I had foresight to say when I did put them out there that I didn’t know how long I’d be offering them and they may be temporary. And now that has manifested.
This includes (at least at this time) my not taking on any more new Intuitive Energy Guidance/Coaching clients after I finish working with current clients already with me. I’ve so been enjoying the beautiful and so meaningful and timely way in which these soul contracts have come into being. I can’t say enough how I honor these people and the courage they have. I also am awed by the soul connections we share and I’m totally devoted to them with all of my heart.
I feel that my listening to guidance was aligned perfectly with these contracts with them, but that I am to revisit full commitment to honoring now one I have with myself and the collective with full devotion toward what I’ve put into motion.
This in part due to my need to put all that I have into my current project and something else soon entering my life.
I also will only make myself available to teach Reiki this Summer to the people I have already spoken to offering this to if they desire.
That means I’m back to no services offered, but all in order to be able to offer more later from the depths of my heart.
I’ll still be creating Magick Crystal Wands, as that feels in alignment with immediate soul-satisfaction and desire to create something tangible with my hands that balances the writing I’m involved with – it’s all about balance to me! But these are the only two things I’ll be engaged with.
I can’t thank everyone enough for your understanding. It’s truly meaningful to me how supportive you’ve been and how much love you’ve shared during my own transformational journey I’ve chosen to vulnerably be open about in order to support you into your own authentic choices.
Also, beginning this Sunday I will likely not be blogging for a while, or in very limited, short blogs because I will be focused on completing the first draft of my book before heading off to Australia on May 10th. I’ll feel that energy out, but my sense is I’ll need to withdraw there for the time-being.
I need to conserve my inspiration and creative writing for that project. So during that time I’ll only be sharing via Instagram/Facebook if you happen to be on those platforms, since they are quick ways to still stay in touch and share some daily inspiration and beauty with you, while creating that healthy balance for me as well.
Here’s to peaceful transformation for us all!
I love you!
This is a tough one for many, especially when the giving and receiving is directed toward self, but also when we’ve erected protective boundaries that have us challenged to open our hearts again to others. The art of giving and receiving (our natural state of abundance) is another of the great lessons I have had to learn to balance in my own life, which prompted a blog post a few years ago, which this share is from, but rather than simply reblog it I decided to create a post out of it with the points from then to be in “new energy” all around.
I feel that it can be a challenge for many to balance giving and receiving in a healthy way and especially in terms of opening to receiving and embracing your own value and self-worth that comes along with that. I know that there is a lot of conditioned victim or martyr energy we have learned and this is an essential aspect to look at integrating, as self-denial and self-worth will have a direct result on your ability to tap into your natural abundance innately available to you.
Just like Reiki teaches us, everything in the Universe is energy and naturally, energy just wants to keep flowing and cycling, as is its innate “beingness” to do. It does not judge, attach, or stop and block the flow – we do. We are the ones that block it and this is what creates challenges and dis-ease in our lives.
Giving and receiving are two parts of a whole that coexist, are essential, and create natural balance. When we only focus on one more than the other – never allowing receiving to take place, or never freely giving – we are blocking the flow of energy to cycle through us both ways, and we then create energetic imbalance that manifests as challenges in our lives on any or all levels – physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.
As we grow spiritually, this often presents experiences of greater receiving and giving in our lives to embrace. Since both are energetically equal, coming from the same Source, they increase mutually. So it doesn’t make sense that giving increases while receiving decreases, does it? They will both naturally increase together, which means receiving well entails giving well and giving more means we must be open to receiving more – ultimately supporting and embracing what serves the greater good and well being when we do so.
In order to have a fulfilling life, your giving and receiving must be in balance and rhythmic harmony. Balance is essential to every aspect of life and we are constantly in practice of creating what that harmony means for each of us, as there’s no one formula that will work for everyone since we all have different strengths and limits.
Stress can be a result of over-giving (this can also be a result of not having boundaries in place and energy vampires able to suck our energy easily, as we haven’t put in place healthy assertions), which can lead to other effects as a result, including damaging emotions that can build like resentment and anger, and the same can happen if you are receiving in imbalance.
So if you are feeling you are receiving too much, start giving now, and if you are giving too much start finding ways to appreciate what you receive and have. Keep on top of not overburdening yourself with the responsibility of giving, as well as be mindful of creating guilt, or not being grateful, for all of the receiving you’ve been gifted.
Simply recognize where the flow may be blocked and on a one way street, then start making adjustments to balance out the energy with either some random acts of kindness, donations, and offerings, or with more thank you’s and allowing to mirror your new found self worth.
In doing so, you will tap into the limitless and abundant being that you are and this will be reflected in all ways in your life to enjoy.
Virgo Full Moon magick to everyone! Some big things have culminated around this moon energy here in my personal experience including a huge ending/beginning that took place yesterday with a lot of recognition of the full circle experience and also how it all was the gift that gave me new life and anchored me here longer, most literally. I also have a big celebration today of my personal empowerment and embodiment, as well as some interesting things revealing themselves.
What are you experiencing around this energy right now? I know a lot of people that are having major shifts in their life, openings, and breakthroughs to their long-time dreams. Exciting to hear and witness.
Virgo has us looking at our relationship to our Earth Mother, our bodies and making that heart connection to their messages, releasing perfectionism, limiting beliefs, and inhibitions, stepping up rather than hiding, and reminding us we need to focus with conviction and integrity on the details and steps put into motion now if we really want to manifest our dreams.
Ready? Set. Go!
I took this photo early this morning when I woke from it beaming on my face through the window.
And today I awaken, reminded of what this day also means for me, as it is the 16-year anniversary of my legally changing my middle name to my official last name, hence now my full, legal name being Tania Marie.
So, a reflection of self-embodiment and a rebirthing and anchoring into who that is, as I’ve continued forward throughout the rest of my life.
It all seems timely and significant with Virgo’s energy right now highlighting things – my opposite sign as a Pisces – which is all about the “practical” application of creative self-expression in a way that most serves the highest good, which is inclusive simultaneously of you.
It’s down-to-Earth energy helps us to bring all of those dreams and ideas into grounded being, anchoring us more with integrity and commitment, and helping us to balance things, knowing that it isn’t just enough to imagine and have incredible ideas, but also we must apply these things in the every-day and understand the processes of manifestation. After all, we aren’t here on Earth for nothing!
Imperfect perfectionism is key too, allowing ourselves to be human through it all and to avoid extremism.
Synchronous to Virgo’s focus on practical matters of life including nutrition, healing, health, “service”, and work, last night we hosted our Tahoe Herbivores’ meetup here at our place for a private screening of “What The Health,” which is a follow-up film exposing government and big business corruption keeping us sick, from the creators of the award-winning documentary Cowspiracy. – both great films and eye-openers for people, plus an added bonus of my partner Dave Simon having cameos in both. 😉
It was a great evening, awesome group of 12, and yummies I made including my air fried, breaded cauliflower with homemade vegan thousand island dressing, my almond “cheeze” ball, and pine nut roasted hummus with rainbow carrots – all a big hit! A guest also brought a huge bowl of sprouted lentils and home made pear kombucha to add to the yum. We even had an amazing sunset to welcome our guests. It was a lovely evening all around followed by dinner at a local Indian restaurant, but I had to smile at the tie-in with the Moon’s energy supporting this evening’s film and discussions.
Anyway, today I plan to get some Nature time in amidst some of my own “practical applications” I’ll be implementing to help balance and ground the energies and see what inspirations come through from immersion time with Terra.
And this integrated Nature and Moon energy brings me to the Magick Crystal Wands for an update.
Right after I posted the three wands that I was guided would be offered, two got spoken for.
So I only have the powerful Neptune and Nymph Wand remaining, currently.
Definitely not one for the faint of heart! It’s watery essence is anchored in Earthy manifestation, SO reminding me of the Virgo/Pisces dynamics! Wow! Perhaps it will end up staying with me! Hehe!! Weeeeeee!
You can get more info on it here, which includes the original link with many more photos of details of it as well:
As mentioned in this post I do have a bunch more wands that spoke to me and will in the future be channeled for offering.
That said, I got the idea yesterday when someone, who had really felt drawn to one of the wands that was spoken for, did not end up being the one to receive it, I immediately was inspired and knew I could create a unique wand for her with some of the elements I had collected and so that put a spin on things and now have 3 custom wand channelings that will be upcoming for individuals in similar circumstances.
So this could be an option too, if you desire.
However, I will reiterate what I shared in my last post on them, that these won’t be created right away, but in their own time, as I have to switch gears a bit for a while.
Who knows though, as I go by inspiration and if suddenly an alignment, divine inspiration, and energy hits and nudges me to make one, then I will.
How’s that for my own Pisces/Virgo integration of divine inspiration tempered with practical application? LOL!
Wishing everyone a balancing Full Moon!
The title of this post I believe speaks for itself, not to mention I feel these are essential for optimal functioning and well-being, but let’s look briefly at these themes in relation to the scope of the environment within our energetic and literal fields of experience.
We have an overload of stimulation coming at us from every angle and this increases with the rise of technology, which has seen more accelerated change in the last century than any previous time period.
And to add to that, we have collective patterns, dynamics, emotional baggage and turmoil, and conditioning deep within our DNA all swirling around in heightened levels of surfacing awareness or manifested triggers.
To top things off, we’re experiencing a spiritual evolution that brings rise to it all in the midst of the every day hurdles, life basics, and dream weaving we all manage and work at bringing forth.
Phew! That’s a lot!
And if you have your own personal manifestations of challenges on any or all levels – physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually – that you struggle to work through, it’s overwhelming to say the least.
It’s no wonder anxiety, stress, depression, and violence are at all-time highs.
We are thrown every kind of pill, therapy, and more mind chatter and visual eye-candy to cope, suppress, deal with, and overload us with.
But there is little to no teaching of how to redefine our relationship to it all, how to strengthen our abilities to overcome things, and how to harness the capabilities we have, but hardly use or ever tap into.
This post isn’t to address how to correct all of these challenges we experience, as there are many ways, modalities, and supportive channels out there that can help you do that, plus would constitute a VERY long blog. I will, however, share a previous blog post below that touches on boundaries some more for those interested.
What I want to just generally focus on is how important I’ve been seeing the themes of learning how to strengthen our abilities to filter out things, see/feel/experience from more expansive compassionate perspectives, strengthen our boundaries, and exercise personal discernment – just as is the title of this post – truly are.
It can help you to navigate the craziness and this wild world of multi-everything we live in.
While removing ourselves from things can help us to do the inner work and rebalance, and recharge, not to mention help you remain in your own field of reality creating and vibrational resonance, there will come a time when you’ll need to re-enter the world and so having ways to maneuver and process what you experience becomes key.
Besides, we are here to integrate physical and spiritual and bring our gifts into active manifestation. So learning ways to support this process, rather than run to one side or the other, might just be important in that evolution.
As the real proof of the work we’ve done in our private life will show when we do actually get confronted with the external world.
Does that peace translate no matter where you are?
Or does the chaos take over and easily skew you out of balance once again and run your show rather than you being the master of your experiences?
Having tools you can pull from to regain that balance will definitely assist, but also really cultivating your process and trying it out in the world and within your relationships to everyone and everything around you, will help you to become masterful at working alchemy instantly, or at least rather quickly.
It takes time, but step-by-step the process becomes much easier, fluid, rapid, and natural.
And this includes training yourself to embrace ways of experiencing things differently than you’ve been accustomed and conditioned to.
And when you do, you’ll learn that there are gifts within all of the experiences around us that new eyes, stronger sense of self, energetic boundaries, and discernment can assist with.
You begin to naturally gravitate to things that match your stronger and clearer vibration, you filter things naturally and easily without charge, you see the things that are different or used to trigger you as having their own purpose but not bothering you or creating judgments and drains on your energy, you feel more peaceful about things being in divine order that don’t need your ego to define them, you create a strong force field cultivated by your greater creative presence and personal power, and your personal discernment navigates you through and on a much clearer course with lots of hidden gifts along the way to integrate rather than eradicate.
I wrote a couple of comments in reply to a friend on my earlier blog on Bilateral Engaging for Brain Expansion which shared a bit about one way I’ve been cultivating boundaries and more parts of my brain to engage fully, which included these:
“Yes, music/sound is very beneficial to the creative, healing, balancing processes…I can get overstimulated too, and am very sensitive, but I’ve learned to utilize these sensitivities to harness my gifts, rather than take away from them. Kind of like finding your peace within chaos, which comes from within. This process may not be the same for everyone. and there are times I prefer complete silence…I guess my main point of the blog was to say that it’s been like a retraining to experience these otherwise perhaps distracting things to utilize all of me and to actually strengthen parts/gifts, use more of the huge percentage of the brain we don’t, exercise boundaries, which are crucial, support each part’s strengths, and more tangibly access that middle way/void area where the alchemy and magick can take place.”
“I struggled hugely with boundaries all my life, and being a Pisces…that’s a huge challenge as we have absolutely none. It wasn’t until the last 2 or 3 years that I’ve really understood how to manage this and continue to cultivate it in stronger ways…It’s an ever-evolving journey, but has made all the difference. I think many healers/empaths/sensitives struggle with boundaries and it’s become a huge theme at the forefront of our journeys into the next phase of our lives.”
And here’s another blog post I shared on boundaries, if you’re particularly in need or interested in that theme that is clearly surfacing collectively:
Adrenal fatigue seems to have reached epidemic proportions and affects so many people, aware or not and many people I know, including myself. Many healers, sensitives, intuitives, creatives, and visionaries are just some of the people that experience its effects a lot due to being so empathic and open to feeling energies so easily. But anyone who has an overload of energy coming at them, little to no boundaries, and a predisposition to overdrive, high levels of endurance, sensitivity to others and the energetic environment, a lot of emotional stress, etc. will experience this if haven’t already. And those are just some of the things that can contribute.
Other things which can be one or a combination of many or all of these include diet (whether or not you get high quality foods in), vitamin deficiencies, toxic overload (environmental, chemicals, pollutants, energetic), inefficient quality of sleep leading to fatigue, stress (perceived or not and especially emotional stress), going through integration of major changes in life, upgrades being assimilated, trauma, chronic diseases that place demands on the adrenals, isolation, overworked, over-driven and overachieving, pushing yourself, living in the future and not the present, worrying, living outside your means or trying to support a lifestyle you think you need to have, operating on old patterns and conditioning you’re battling, confusion, unclarity, not fully loving yourself at the core, fighting your path and gifts, forcing something, running yourself ragged and all over the place without focus (too many irons in the fire), challenged with boundaries, being in martyr or victim roles, trying to change others, trying to prove something, being out of balance…..all create an inability for your adrenals to cope with the load.
And for some, our endurance levels are higher and so we can go for a long time thinking everything’s alright, but then suddenly crash. That’s the more sneaky, challenging kind of adrenal depletion because we easily mask the symptoms and messages with our abilities to overcome, sustain with our other gifts, and fuel ourselves with energy from other sources, but never really building ourselves up, but maintaining us at a coping level that is spiraling and soon to be out of control or worse.
I’m not a doctor, medical intuitive, or any practitioner of medicine whether western or naturopathic, so my share is simply from personal experience and observation, but I have suffered from adrenal fatigue and have turned my predisposition to it into a gift.
I have, like many others, adrenal sensitivity which I was born with that will always need to be high on my radar or major crashes can, and have happened.
I lived with the symptoms of it, not knowing what it was, but did become aware in my early twenties of my having a very high level of nervous anxiety and stress that was both a symptom of my extreme sensitivity to energies I absorbed all around me since infant stage, and to my personal challenges around that, not to mention factors playing out around performing at a certain level, trying to appease others to create a harmonious environment, which was something I learned also very early on as a child to do while I observed how dynamics worked out and how I could “fix” them.
The thing is, that wasn’t a fix. It was only masking the issues.
I also had the high endurance and strength levels that carried me forward and kept pushing on.
But it came at the detriment to myself, always feeling acidic in my stomach, going through bouts of acne as a result throughout those years (now completely gone), fatigue, and then crashing.
The crashing came after years of it. So yes, you can go on for a while, but why would you want to? As by the time you crash, for those with high levels of endurance, this really means you’re in a very depleted place and the adrenals will need a long time to rebalance and readjust in order to fully recover again.
And adrenal depletion will result in so many symptoms and a spiraling effect of other health challenges if not tended to.
And unfortunately, for myself, and I know for others, once you feel you’ve recovered, you tend to go back to the same way of life again, unless you decide to stop the spiral once and for all and focus on how to correct things at the core.
I’m happy to say that I no longer experience the effects of adrenal fatigue and it’s been because of a lifelong journey and commitment.
I’d been told by naturopathic doctors that it would be a lifelong battle, and I would have to manage and maintain it with herbs constantly.
I came to accept that and believe what they said, which only put me further into a victim role and that I could never really be in control of my health. Used it as my “excuse” in a way, or keeping me from fully being whole. And although I accepted that and learned to love it as a gift, I felt still that I could go beyond this and not define that as part of my wholeness, but simply a part of my story to wholeness that I was rewriting.
Each time I went to a naturopathic doctor and they gave me a protocol, while also discussing underlying roots, they were surprised at how quickly I turned it around. But then I’d fall back again after a couple of years.
Until, I really got it at the core.
Everyone will be different, but for me, the difference was in the commitment to myself.
Changing my lifestyle, changing the way I thought, felt, and acted as a result.
Focusing on living only from pure expression of my essence integrity and what I “needed” as the breath of life to me to bring forth through everything I did.
Learning how to create and have stronger boundaries…saying yes and no very clearly.
Releasing myself more and more from past patterns I’d identified from past life, childhood, genetic predisposition, and DNA conditioning.
Letting go of the word service and just being me.
Not pushing myself, relaxing into divine timing, trusting that what I do is enough and is perfect despite devised ideas of what I “should” be doing or performing as.
Finding my own definition of success.
Living a balanced life and immersing fully into nature.
Taking time for me so I have a deep fortified well to give authentically and responsibly from.
My diet has always been good and clean eating 100% vegan for nearly 11 years now, but changing from even being tight and strict with it in terms of only eating the cleanest of these types of foods, but rather living more flowing and by my intuition (continuing to eat 100% vegan, but whatever I desired including fun vegan goodies). This to include eating in a more balanced way that helped decrease my sensitivities because of ONLY eating clean, plus eating more relaxed and naturally, drawing me to a balance and not living in a mindset of if I dirty up my diet that I have to make up for it. No pushing or punishment. No binge and then deprive….Just pure flow.
Fully loving myself and not just saying the words.
Following my passions and singing my song.
Flowing with life and aligning with it rather than trying to control it.
Seeing everything as a gift and turning triggers into alchemy.
Knowing what is my stuff and what is not.
Being honest with myself, learning to live more from pure observation, and more by example.
Embodying my beliefs and nurturing what strengthens that.
And so on….
I’m grateful to say I’ve been able to stop taking the adrenal herbs and am still balanced and without fatigue or any symptoms I used to have, but instead live with increased vitality and inspiration and finally have that peace inside and out – alkalinity of mind, body, heart, and soul has returned.
I tried it as an experiment, as I do believe that if we thoroughly work from the core, we CAN find our way back to balance. And it has proven my theory, at least for me.
That as long as I continue in this vein, and put balance and harmony of being at the forefront of my life, then my body will find its natural balance.
And if ever something slightly shows up, rather than wait until it gets worse and ignore it, to pay attention, be ultra present, and immediately make the adjustments where needed and this can change it around instantly. As our bodies are simply messengers with gifts to reveal to us a remembering of our true nature and of the balance required as its innate foundation.
A return to natural harmony is always available in our daily practice of choice and widening perspectives.
I don’t recommend doing anything without your own doctor’s approval, as again I’m NO doctor.
I just constantly am working with energies at the metaphysical level and finding my way back to me.
If you suffer from high levels of stress, perhaps you may want to add into your protocol, a thorough visit into your own patterns and work from the inside out to rebalance mind, body, heart, and soul as a holistic way of being.
Adrenal fatigue is your ticket to you. Remember who you really are.
And as a result, the more of us that remember and embody that, the world will reflect it in greater proportions too.
This morning I woke to this view from bed of snow blanketed trees and mountain and found myself in a waking dream. A wonderful and smooth transition from dream time, which can usually be a harsh transition for a Pisces, to open my eyes to another dream and feel swathed in an enchanted realm that feels like home to my soul.
After laying there immersed in the realm of my birth…I’m a Winter Water baby born in February and so the crystalline icy realm is fit for this Faery. ..I then turned to my left to catch the apricot sunshine of dawn kissing the snowy mountain tops across Lake Tahoe’s watery portal.
I’m convinced that being here has taken me deeper into my essence again and which is why my dreams are amping up.
I always dream, but have been having so many richly symbolic, layered, and telepathic ones of recent. And a lot including sound healing.
Recently I had one of an ancient dolphin named Naru that included a friend of mine. I later learned that “Naru” here on Earth was Japanese meaning, “to change,” “sound,” and “to become.”
In the dream, the ancient dolphin being was in an area on a beach where there was little water, and she was out of the water. She didn’t seem beached, but did seem to be slowing down and getting ready to transition. My friend had a soft, moist, almost broom-like thing in her hand with a spongy soft end that she was gently rubbing over her back to soothe her and keep her moist and I was rubbing her around her face and fins with my hands. Her life force was strong. We remembered people saying not to touch them, but we were told to by the dolphin and trusted that connection because she communicated to us.
After a while I remember walking around behind her and it was almost like her body was open in the back near her tail and there were all these treasures there. We were to take the ones that spoke to us as gifts. They were ancient and beautiful. The only one I remember was this Egyptian piece like a pharaoh and it was a beautiful aqua color with crystals and diamonds in it. My friend found her own gift and it ended there.
This dolphin was soul family and while we assisted her shift back to her cosmic realm, she was supporting us with emotional healing and reminding us of our true nature and that we have gifts that are important to bring forth and focus on above all else. These reminded us of our ancient roots and interestingly the Egyptian theme returned last night in another dream with a different friend.
Synchronously of course, it is in Egypt, this life, where I accessed my sound channeling gift and opened my throat chakra.
Anyway, that same night I had a dream of a rhino that kept following me and wouldn’t let me out of her sight.
She kept nudging me with her horn.
Rhinos also connect us to the ancient wisdom of our soul. They represent a solitary person who creates self-made success and remind us to use our spiritual eyes to see within, which expands our inner knowledge to new levels. They also remind us to stay grounded in our spiritual work and to take things one step at a time with confident sure-footedness and richly deep Earth connection.
The symbolism of their horn is magickal and powerful, reminding me of unicorns or narwhals and feels like a horn of illumination and personal empowerment to strengthen what is within us and turn our eyes to see with greater clarity beyond the veils and come to more conscious enlightenment from a deeper core soul place.
And then last night was one of those nights where several people I know all were in different dreams where I received messages and visions of things in their lives (confirmed later), but I also had some cool ones for myself. And as mentioned one dream continued with an Egyptian connection.
But the coolest dream for me involved this unusual and very magickal “piano”. It was like no other I’ve seen. Maybe about 3 feet wide and 4 or 5 feet tall, with about 3 inch wide keys on it that all had beautiful nature or cosmic inspired images on them. They were recognized by essence, rather than a note, word, or letter.
Interestingly there was a purchase price of $1052. I always get these very specific numbers. 🙂 But numerologically that would equate to the number 8, which has its own significance, including abundance, power, infinity, harmony, and balance.
Anyway, this piano was like harmony itself and I was able to play the keys in different sequences, which would create an organic symphony of nature and cosmos notes/tones/essences I could blend together through inspiration and listening to the frequencies and vibrations and how they aligned together to create specific “keys” to open portals of experience.
It was like a gift that accessed creation itself.
Mmmmmm….yes, I’m feeling the energy here up high in my treehouse in the sky and these picture windows are helping me to peer deeply into my soul and soul awareness, to access another kind of vision, and surrounding me with constantly shifting reflections mirroring the inner landscape of my experiences and evolutionary growth – not simply as an individual, but as a unique part of the whole.
Grateful for these blessings and insights to how I may be able to bring what is within forth to share with others in a way that honors that return to natural harmony.
Yesterday was filled with mystery and enchantment around every corner of Tahoe Meadows. A Faery’s delight for sure! Every season is beautiful, but I’m SO enjoying Autumn’s essence right now and the reflections of Nature’s messages. Everywhere I turned there were portals created by the arms of trees (sometimes double portals even!), meandering pathways through meadows and over brooks mirroring the journey of life, and golden essence everywhere hinting at a Middle Way – that Golden Mean – between extremes we are so much experiencing these days and learning to find that alchemy of balance and harmony with.
I even found a piece of an old honeycomb with its hexagonal cell symbolism of sacredness, which also reflects the cell matrix of our body template that holds memories and potential for soulful integration – all of which we are remembering and activating more and more.
Fluidity, Balance, Illusion, Timelines & Portals ~ A Surreal Drive Through The Great Salt Lake Desert
Yesterday we were on hyper speed again, as we hop-scotched original landing stop ideas, feeling the pull to keep moving forward in momentum, which we’ll be doing again today to our destination. Everything is about fluidity right now and our ability to have intents, but to be “fluid” to new information and energy coming in, while having spidey senses on supercharge high, as there’s a need to shift moment to moment, as well as be aware that with rapid change you may cross into invisibility at times while journeying through different dimensional doorways than others are.
Dave and I are both water signs, so this fluidity has been the full-on embrace of our native tendencies, and a lot of our sign posts and life changing moments have been involving water in big ways of recent – reiterating a need to be one with this essence and follow intuition instantly…no time for hesitation and questioning.
Inner knowing followed by action as a synergistic and supportive partnership.
Yesterday was a surreal day, which others reiterated to me feeling the same way when I posted these photos on Facebook.
I’m sharing them again here, as they really felt to capture this essence I’m sharing about.
As we were traveling between Aragonite, Utah and West Wendover, Nevada through the Great Salt Lake Desert, you can see (in the photo above) that there is salt water on both sides of Highway 80, but straight ahead on the road is a mirage of water. That’s something you don’t often get to see – the convergence of illusion and reality all merging together through the Middle Way.
A reminder also that the path taken will need to mirror the energy all around you. You can remain focused, but become the essence of both what you are working towards merged with what you’re being shown is the path of highest good for all concerned.
And a reminder not to let yourself be fooled by illusions and taken off path by sheep in wolves clothing. Keep moving forward at high awareness and choose only that which allows freedom and greatest peace and joy.
And also, a reminder that balance is key….the Middle Way involves living a life of alchemy…becoming conscious magicians.
The vistas of the Great Salt Lake Desert are so beautiful.
While we stopped at a rest area to make some lunch I was taken by this couple who decided to wade out together in the salt lake.
I loved their sweetness and playfulness, as they enjoyed the enchantment in partnership.
I loved how they just threw their shoes and socks off and went right in, following their feelings, and supporting each other as they gingerly walked through the uneven environment beneath them.
Working in partnership and balance with the Sacred Male and Female within us is key to our creative manifestation and harmony.
And if you have a partner, whether friend, family member, romantic, animal companion, etc…working together in the way that mirrors this relationship we have within ourselves is where your power will be as a unit to manifest hugely. Bringing your strengths together and not acting as an isolated island unto yourself will create things in bigger and overall optimal ways.
I love the surreal essence of seeing this sacred partnership walk across the salt waters and essence of life.
It was like watching a new reality create itself outside of time and space.
And soon after, as we got back on the road a very trippy potent thing happened
We’ve been journeying backwards through time zones in rapid speeds and just as we crossed the border into Nevada and crossed another time zone a double sighting took place, which was like revisiting a “past” me with a “future” me, reversed. LOL!
I’d seen the 1:11 portal time on the clock while in Utah…and then again the 1:11 portal hit in Nevada because they are an hour behind.
And soon after that I saw double 333 mile markers. This was extremely odd to see duplicate mile markers spread apart when they should be marking the same mile! I’d been looking out the window when I saw the first. Looked back down to continue my writing on my laptop. Then was prompted to look back up and there it was again. So bizarre!
And to complete this all with a triple, double sighting that happened also back to back. I woke up last night only to see the clock said 2:26 again (I have had super sightings of my birthday 2/26 showing up in crazy amounts recently, outdoing all the other recent number sequences, although the 1’s have amped up). I had gone over to take care of Cosmo as I do in the night, seeing the clock. Dave got up too for some reason and I pointed at the clock, which made him laugh. So this time I had a witness. Then right before I returned to bed, I looked at my cell phone and I had message and email alerts sitting next to each other on their apps of my home screen. One said “2”. The other said “26”. 😉
(I’d like to add that since posting this, the next day we arrived at our destination, which basically concluded these long days of travel for us, and our RV site at the park we were staying at was #26 – my birth day again.)
Another portal seems to be in motion with things today activating, although there are constant mini ones available moment to moment that can be accessed by staying ultra aware and present.
It’s really surreal to move so quickly, backwards in time in the Magick bus through the states…as surreal as these images of the Great Salt Lake Desert.
It really feels like traveling inter-dimensionally and rewriting reality.
Just like the “theory” of our future selves traveling “back to the past” to assist the us in the “now” and understand what happened in order to return things to harmony.