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Yellow Butterfly ~ Following Your Joy Will Set You Free


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Yesterday we found this little joyous one at the helm of The Magick Bus, at the driver’s seat and window.

There was this sudden flutter of yellow that appeared out of nowhere inside the RV. Literally, nowhere.

She was just beautiful and sweet, as you can see in this photo I captured when she settled down on the driver’s side window.

Several things ran through my mind right away.

Miracles and magick can happen at any moment, out of nowhere, and both in and from unlikely places and sources. So remain open and flexible, as well as full of unyielding belief.

Support is around, as butterflies are often the divine form that faeries and angels use to message and guide us.

To pay attention the the subtle energies and inner voice, as the butterfly is a reminder to tune in to what’s going on in the inner realm.

Because it was yellow there was the instant connection to what that color signified to me – joy, freedom, and wonder of life. So the questions to ask were, what can I do to live with even more vibrant joy and freedom? What changes can I make to live in greater alignment with my truth? – Synchronous, since I’d received a repetitive message of raw honesty with myself when doing Tarot card readings recently and checking in with myself.

Since I am already experiencing huge shifts and changes in my life, the butterfly felt to be a reminder that everything would be ok with the “new life” path I was creating and that it signified – Again I didn’t need to know the how’s.  Just continue in the trust.

And then there was this…

I watched the butterfly flutter at the driver’s side window, trying to break free and get back outside now that its presence had been acknowledged. For me this felt symbolic of a few things.

One, that we are ready to leave and break free of everything here and the past and this journey is being “driven” by our joy and can only be traveled by taking the driver’s seat and navigating our own lives.

Two, that you can’t keep a butterfly under glass, as you break her spirit of which you admired her in the first place for – something is ready to break out from within me and be unleashed after this cocooning stage that I’ve been patiently awaiting alignments for.

And three, because it was by my hand that I freed her, opening the window and guiding her on to my hand so I could carry her to freedom, it is so that by my own hand, shall I be set free.

Does the yellow butterfly speak to you? And if so, how might you receive and embrace her message today in support of your own joy and freedom?

Planting Seeds of Intention


butterfly11Yesterday, the next piece of the journey showed up and began manifesting.

As I’ve mentioned, we decided to move forward into the reality we want to create even though we don’t know how the rest of the pieces will come together.

I just knew that if we did, they would. And they ARE!

butterfly16It’s important to take actions in support of your intentions and not just sit back waiting. That said, it’s also important to make those moves in aligned timing with the energy presenting itself, following the rhythm of natural flow.

When you receive the signs and messages, feel the nudge or tug, or feel your intuition subtly or loudly guiding you forth, it’s time to take a step.

So when you ask for something you need to also engage it on your own end.

And when you want something you need to be aware that your mind and ego will run amuck giving you every reason why this, that, or the other thing needs to be in place before you do anything – inevitably holding you back and losing opportunities that keep presenting themselves because they aren’t appearing in the form you’ve attached to as being ideal and yet ARE in fact ideal and for the highest good, but you’re too fixated on controlling it.

butterfly9Anyway, I knew the timing was now for beginning the new adventure and getting the RV. And so we got it when the alignments lit up, and immediately rented the house on a 3 year lease and moved forward.

The rest of when and how didn’t need to be known in my book. I absolutely knew that things were aligned…I have been so strongly living the new reality in embodiment in all ways. And so this was the physical step to take to get the rest in motion.

And since, things have been lining up one by one.

butterfly8We also, just a week and a half ago, reserved the RV spot at the beach park here we’ll be living in until the next pieces fall into place, giving time for adjustment and integration into the new lifestyle and providing time for the animal companions to get comfortable.

And now the rest of the pieces are starting to show up.

butterfly6Yesterday was a big day for an integral piece of the puzzle to present itself and fall into place.

Without going into details, as I can’t, 50% of the last part came together, unofficially at first, (in a way I knew possible, but was quite surprising for Dave and would be a “wow!” factor for many indeed) and shed very exciting light on the last 50% potentially happening very soon – sooner than maybe would have been thought and that means that the adventure of traveling the U.S., Canada, and Mexico may begin not long after moving out, as opposed to perhaps taking several months.

So when I said I wouldn’t be here that long, I meant it!

butterfly5Right now move out and in to RV is October 15th. The final departure date from the area is still a specific unknown, but now is looking to be not long after that. Date to be announced. It at first was completely an unknown with total openness of perhaps even months, but now it is closing in and could be as soon as end of year or before! We will see! I just know it will be perfect, regardless.

It’s been about patience and continuing to move forward…not trying to control, sending energy for the highest good of all concerned, and believing without doubt it was happening.

When I got word yesterday that things were looking like they were happening quite quickly and magickally, I was just about to go out front and plant more Sunflower seeds all around.

And so I used that as opportunity to both literally and symbolically plant seeds of intention.

butterfly4I brought my fresh seeds I’d retrieved from the two giant Sunflowers that had bloomed and passed already, along with some more of my Heirloom seeds outside, with a watering can, and my gloves and went at it.

It was so hot I could barely sit on the cement or walk on it, but I managed to hang in there to get the job done.

With each seed I planted, I actively stated my intentions in conjunction with the news I’d just heard that possibly was happening, to support them into manifestation. I then watered all of my seeds/intentions to help them grow. The Sun was in full effect, so the light of life itself was igniting the activation of these intents.

This act of connecting my intentions with an actual ritual is something I do all the time in varying ways. It makes the process more potent and integrates it deeply, plus connects me with the divine rhythm and harmony of nature.

butterfly10While I was seeding, a lovely butterfly friend decided to appear right next to me on the Bougainvillea and just wanted to hang out. At first she was just sitting very present with me amidst the leaves and then at the end began pollinating the blossoms.

butterfly19This seemed symbolic of being present and patient with the journey, making sure to take time for rest and taking things in. And then her act of pollination was the alchemy of creation.

I did not have my cell phone/camera with me, as I was simply working in the front garden, but when I was done with seeding one side and just sat with the butterfly for a while, I got the distinct feeling she wanted to be seen in a bigger way to share her messages with others.

butterfly17Butterfly medicine is quite wonderful…bringing magick, transformation, joy, and promise to the seeds I was literally and symbolically planting. Butterfly was given to me as my life path symbol when I first began my conscious spiritual journey…so this was a lovely nudge, and I’ve enjoyed that each time I go out into the garden I’m greeted by a butterfly. I have a white butterfly that has a very ethereal quality that comes to me out back, and also a giant Swallowtail that appears daily.

So I went inside to get my cell/camera and returned to find her still just hanging out, waiting for me. And mind you I didn’t go fast either.

butterfly2I started snapping photos of her (she was so lovely and my artist’s eye just couldn’t get enough of the images they saw – they are laced throughout this post) and she seemed to dance into different positions in the light and shadows, amidst the blossoms and leaves, posing for me.

butterfly13She didn’t mind me being an inch or two away from her with my hands. She was never worried I’d do anything and just sat very still. I had the instinct feeling she would have come on my hand, but I also didn’t feel it was necessary.

I rather just share energy and a close partnership where I respected our mutual independence and choice to be together sharing the same space very intimately.

butterfly21And so she lingered quite a while..so long that in fact I ended up leaving her first, as I wanted to complete the planting of seeds on the other side. So I got up and left to do so, and I noticed when I turned to look back at her, she had disappeared.

Cool synchronicities happened after I returned inside.

I went to go back to my work and saw that I had a message on Facebook. So I went on to read it. When I did, my feed showed me a photo and quote I had posted two years ago that day.

butterfly3And what do you know? It was a photo of me with a giant butterfly on my finger (taken in Cancun, Mexico back in 2006), as I’m blowing it a kiss.

The quote I had shared with it was:

“There are many things that seem impossible only so long as one does not attempt them.” ~André Gide

And here is the photo:tania butterfly

Talk about being in the zone!!

Then I went to read the message and it was from my sweet Pisces Faery Brother in Seattle who was sending me good wishes and magick, in his shared excitement about my upcoming adventure, and asking me some questions about the RV.

Hehe!!

I then was texting with my Faery sis, Laura, sharing the news. She is also experiencing the same manifestations, openings, and pieces unfolding in her life, just in her own relative ways – we did after all do some big time activating when we visited in person back in May 😉

I discovered that my message went to her at 1:11 my time – 4:44 her time! And she chimed in noticing at 1:44 my time.

butterfly12A couple of hours later I got word that the “unofficial” piece became official, hence locking in being half way there with the last pieces needed.

Plant the seeds and they grow!

I decided to do a Reiki Healing Attunement (again, I’ll reiterate to anyone who has learned these – if you aren’t using this tool you really are missing out on a powerful gift you have at your fingertips) for the rest of the 50% to come together officially and added a few other goodies in as well….of course adding “for the highest good of all concerned” and using my ritual mantra that opens me/everyone involved to something even better, not being attached to it happening any one certain way.

And I was so excited that I decided to treat myself to some special gifts, ordering them as celebration and to lock in the next portion energetically.

I had been lingering for several weeks on whether or not to get them for several reasons, and I realized that they represented my essence I was wanting to embody more of, in all ways. So, I took the plunge and literally felt this joyous ease and excitement right away, as well as an energetic shedding of skin take place that was going to reveal the new that much more quickly.

butterfly14I’ve planted many seeds of intention over time and with every experience I continue to learn how to integrate the process more deeply and naturally…so that it is becoming a seamless dance of life with Earth and Cosmos, and literally “creating life as a work of art,” as my personal motto goes.

The more we listen and follow the flow of energy moving through, in and around us, the more easily life becomes to navigate, understand, partner in the creative manifestating of, and all done with more grace and natural harmony.

When the energy calls…I heed the call – no matter what that means in terms of the way life may need to look like. I just need to show up and realize it is always reflecting my truth and deepest heart’s joy when I get out of its way.

This is just another reason why a daily connection to nature in some way where you form an intimate relationship and understanding of her reflections and mutual giving and receiving you can share in honor of how they move you into living, is important and invaluable.

Also, creating sacred ritual around your life on a daily basis and inviting it in when you are wanting to create things in your life can be so powerful.

I see everything as a sacred process and relationship, even if that simply is with myself – the most sacred relationship there is.

Life is a walking meditation, as I always say.

If you have an intention you want to manifest, think of ways you can deeply connect that to a sacred process where you are mutually giving and receiving and connects you to the nature of life itself.

You may find that planting some seeds in your own garden of life will open you to a magickal realm of living and invites a divine partnership to blossom where limits are only possible to the extent you don’t dream, believe, and imagine.butterfly15

Magick of the Butterfly


The Magick That Takes Place In The Chrysalis


transformationYesterday, while spending the day with a sweet friend of mine at Knotts Berry Farm connecting with our inner child through laughter and screams, we also shared some great conversations. One of them led us to discuss the magick of the butterfly, and the miracle transformation the caterpillar goes through to emerge as such. It felt significant.

That conversation inspired this post, as the pure alchemy of that transmutation it undergoes is truly worthy of note, and perhaps you may not fully realize what a profound process the caterpillar goes through in order to renew itself into the enchanted winged one it becomes.

This goes in line with my post, November Thoughts ~ Becoming a Butterfly and may be of interest to all of you “cocooners” out there.

The caterpillar doesn’t merely go hide and sleep in the cocoon and then sprout wings, but nearly fully dissolves into a liquid inside the chrysalis and from memory-retaining imaginal disks, magickally metamorphosizes.

It is from these transform agent-cells that they reconstruct and rearrange themselves to grow anew, after they digest themselves into a primordial soup from the digestive enzyme they release within the cocooning phase.

I love the symbolism and implications of this and how much it resonates with my current experience. I’ve been through the cocooning stage many times, but this time I consciously feel the process explained here.

Here’s an article by Daven Hiskey that shares more about this:

Caterpillars “Melt” Almost Completely Before Growing Into Butterflies In The Chrysalis

November Thoughts ~ Becoming a Butterfly


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Photo I captured of an enchanting butterfly in Key West

 

Wow, I received such a deeply touching and beautiful outpouring of messages from so many people yesterday that receive my monthly updates via newsletter on this month’s share, that I felt guided to post it here for those of you that follow along via blog solely and don’t receive my newsletter. It seems I touched a chord with a lot of souls that shared in the experience of what I was inspired to write about my own.

I’m really grateful for all of the beautiful expressions shared with me, the loving support, and the amazingly courageous hearts you are all embracing on your own journeys.

Below you’ll find the introductory thoughts to November’s newsletter. If you would like to receive these monthly, you can sign up here: Newsletter

 

We’re already almost a week into November.

The eternal moment is continuously catching up to us.

It has never been more evident to me how time simply does not exist in any way that might have at once felt comforting to try to measure.

Although I might speak about past, present, and future, it is merely to help demonstrate an understanding of things in a more collectively accepted way.

That said, it is not my way.

Nor are many things.

What is my way?

This is an important question I find myself always asking, and increasingly at present.

How about you?

I am often checking in with who I am right now, what I want, what is of value to me, what I can’t live without, what my heart is sharing and wants me to hear, where this all leads, and what I must do to remain true and reflect the things most soulfully vital and dear to my essence that I know.

It is often a solo journey that takes multi-dimensional twists, sometimes dark, many times scary, can be quite challenging and take time to explore with integrity, is mixed with pains and joys, and yet is the most enriching experience I know…that of knowing and loving myself fully.

As all things change, so must I, but the way in which I shift is simply in reflection to who I most am that I’ve learned in that moment to release and accept into being.

Every day someone new may seem to emerge from the self-imposed cocoon, but at the core it is always just me…perhaps someone you haven’t yet known because she reveals herself like a slowly unfolding blossom, with each new layer discovered.

And every moment I have the ability to decide to become a butterfly, again and again.

Sometimes that takes me on a journey through the void, like now, where faith, trust, courage, and strength are the only friends I may commune with in order to cultivate soul preservation and truest reflections of responsible service, collectively.hope for the flowers

One of my favorite books, so happens to be one that my dear friend, Cliff, who recently transitioned, had gifted me. It is titled, “Hope for the Flowers.”

Anyone who really knows me, knows that I am, and always will be a child at heart. I find enchantment in all things, especially the uncomplicated and pure, and this book I feel so beautifully speaks to the fundamentals we face in discovering what is truly of value in life in the most simple of ways anyone can grasp, without need for fancy words, hidden meanings, and challenging concepts.

One of my favorite passages is this:

 

“How does one become a butterfly?” she asked pensively.

“You must want to fly so much that you are willing to give up being a caterpillar.”

“You mean to die?” asked Yellow, remembering the three who fell out of the sky.

“Yes and No,” he answered. “What looks like you will die but what’s really you will still live. Life is changed, not taken away. Isn’t that different from those who die without ever becoming butterflies?”

“And if I decide to become a butterfly,” said Yellow hesitantly. “What do I do?”

“Watch me. I’m making a cocoon. It looks like I’m hiding, I know, but a cocoon is no escape. It’s an in-between house where the change takes place. It’s a big step since you can never return to caterpillar life. During the change, it will seem to you or to anyone who might peek that nothing is happening – but the butterfly is already becoming. It just takes time! And there’s something else! Once you are a butterfly, you can really love – the kind of love that makes new life. It’s better than all the hugging caterpillars can do.”

 

Do you find yourself in the void, cocooning, and in process of emerging anew? If so, you are definitely not alone.

While the holiday season is fast approaching, and thoughts turn to the hustle and bustle of parties, gifts, friends, family, and gatherings…creating anxiety or short-tempered stress to do it all right and to provide what we think abundance means, perhaps it’s a time to approach the season in a new way.

A way that honors who you are and the lasting values and innate abundance already available in the love of your heart.

Love yourself and all others as the reflection of that love, responding to others as you would want, and have wished, to be responded to.

It’s not the “things” in life that make it worth living. It’s not what we “need” from others that creates lasting wholeness. It’s the love for your life and all that you are, that is what brought you here in the first place and will create the experiences you most cherish.

In Love and Creative Magick

 

Butterfly Messengers – Ancestors of Wisdom for the Now


This is a time of remembering. The time to experience the mystery of life in its reality. A time to allow and embrace all that is in your heart to come forth, putting aside fears and drawing forth your soul’s authentic voice to commune with those of others in symphony. The butterfly is a beautiful and powerful example for us to learn from. So much of the answers we seek are present in the miracles that are all around us as gifts from Mother Earth. We need only to look with our hearts and be consciously present to receive.

In a previous post, I shared a little bit about the Mayan Hunab Ku symbol, also known as the One Giver of Movement and Measure and the Galactic Butterfly (my favorite description). I wanted to explain its symbolism a little further and its connection to the now, as well as its butterfly connection. To the Mayans, butterflies are seen as ancestors returning for a visit to physicality, and part of that return is to support the shifts in consciousness by bringing back the wisdom, integrated into the now, for a return to natural harmony.

Again, this symbol (Hunab Ku) is said to represent all consciousness that has ever existed in this galaxy: all our physical ancestors including human, animal, reptile, fish, shell fish, plants, as well as the consciousness which organized all of the raw material from a whirling disk into stars, then planets, and solar systems. It’s meaning is so huge that the original Maya had no symbol for this. In their civilization it was like having no name for God. Just knowing the concept was good enough. Later this pattern was devised by Toltec or Zapatec weavers as a pattern for blankets and this is where Jose Arguelles came across it. He called it Hunab Ku. The indigenous peoples call it “The Galactic Butterfly.”
 
This symbol is very powerful, as it broadcasts one’s reaching to actively join the consciousness of our galaxy. The Maya taught that the Milky Way Galaxy is the generator of life. The architect of the universe is called Hunab Ku, The Absolute Being, The Center of the Galaxy, The Universal Dynamism, which stimulates and motivates life in its total manifestation of spirit and matter. The principle of intelligent energy that pervades the entire universe. Hunab Ku is understood to transmit radiant energy information through stars which serve as lenses to transmit energies to planets. Our Sun is the chief mediator of Hunab Ku for our planetary system, the lens by which Earth receives direct galactic information. The pulsations of Hunab Ku are understood as a language of codes and energies recorded in the form of the Tzolkin, a universal harmonic module accommodating every possible permutation of Hunab Ku, also known as the Sacred Calendar. Numerically, Hunab Ku is communicated as the union of numbers 13 and 20, which represent movement and measure, energy and form, spirit and soul.

Hunab Ku, who can see and understand everything, knows that the time for the great change has come. We will complete a 26,000 year cycle, according to the calender on 12/21/12 – not the end of the world, but the beginning of a new experience of life as we have never known. A new cycle has already begun and life as we know it is evolving continuously and rapidly. A cycle that calls us to realign with the cosmos, which can provide essential energy needed to live together harmoniously and with honor for our Mother Earth. We are not separate from anything or anyone. These are the times in which all races, from all directions, must come together in harmony and unity. The Hearts of All Beings are connected. It is impossible to be disconnected.

Many indigenous peoples of the New World hold butterflies in a special place in their culture and butterfly motifs were used everywhere including ceramics, stone carvings, mural paintings, codices, feather work, wood carvings, and gold ornaments. They appear not only in pure form, but in many highly stylized renditions, sometimes so abstract that they were frequently misinterpreted by pioneer archaeologists.

Xochiquetzal, symbolized by a Mayan mythological butterfly, was called “precious flower” and regarded as a mother goddess, goddess of love, goddess of flowers, as patron of all fine arts, as the symbol of beauty, as the symbol of fire, as a symbol of the spirits of the dead, as the patron of domestic laborers and as the patron of warriors killed in battle.

Itzpapalotl, the Aztec “obsidian butterfly,” was a mother goddess, goddess of obsidian and knives, of human sacrifice and of war, the personification of the Earth, the patron of women who died in childbirth and more.

Massive figures of warrior-priests (about 15 feet high) have breastplates decorated with a butterfly motif. Along with the snake, the butterfly was one of the most frequently represented animals of Ancient Mexico that held deeply religious symbolism. Butterflies represented fire, soul, death, warriors, travelers, and hummingbirds. They were a component of many poems and songs.

The butterfly has come to mean many things to many people, collectively and individually. Some of its symbolism includes: resurrection, transition, celebration, lightness, time, soul, transformation, joy, unquestioning embrace, keeping the faith, grace…

I celebrate the beauty of the butterfly, recognizing it’s rich spirituality and honoring it as I would myself. For, if butterflies are said to carry the souls of our ancestors, then isn’t it quite possible that all creatures, great and small, possess the essence of intelligence beyond what we are presently conscious of? We have much to remember.

Nature has so much beauty to behold and the butterfly is an exquisite example of the precious miracle of life.

Hunab Ku: The Galactic Butterfly


Hunab Ku has been a prevalent part of my life since my synchronous reconnection with it in my early twenties, now over 15 years ago. I was drawn to it through rememberance and connective threads by following messages, intuition, signs and guidance received. I then incorporated it into my own “Spiritual Skin” as sacred tattoo art on my sacrum (my 2nd tattoo after the butterfly, which was my first). And, later, it was integrated into one of my paintings, the fifth and last of my In Lak’ech series called “Spirit.” It is part of my life in many ways and the core basis of what I share in message through my work. Its potency of symbolism and message is simplistically beautiful.

Mayan Hunab Ku Symbol: One Giver of Movement and Measure. Also known as the Galactic Butterfly is said to represent all consciousness that has ever existed in this galaxy. Hunab Ku, who can see and understand everything, knows that the time for the great change has come. Hunab Ku calls us to realign with the cosmos, which can provide essential energy needed to live together harmoniously and with honor for our Mother Earth. We are not separate from anything or anyone. These are the times in which all races, from all directions, must come together in harmony and unity. The Hearts of All Beings are connected. It is impossible to be disconnected.

Mayan Hunab Ku Symbol: The Galactic Butterfly - Image from "Spirit" painting as my artistic interpretation.

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