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Silent Devotion Anchoring New Depths


Today’s Strawberry Capricorn Full Moon is the last Supermoon in the cycle of three for 2021. The Moon symbolizes your inner emotional world and when she’s full she helps to illuminate the truth for you to see about yourself and your relationship to everything outside of yourself. Know your worth and don’t be afraid to ask for what you deserve. This is a great time to confront the things you have been avoiding or aren’t seeing in all areas of your life. Responsible Capricorn supports a stronger and more cultivated foundation (spiritual roots) to your life expression/purpose and helps you to solidify and identify your priorities and values in productive and balanced ways.

Today felt like the aligned time to share about my experience away last week on silent retreat, as one of the themes that popped up for me during it was that of “devotional living,” which feels Capricorn in essence.

I also wanted to allow the energies to root and integrate more, as in reflection, I can see how much has taken place in a short period that could seem subtle from the outside and yet is quite profound.

That said, I do in fact feel and am experiencing a very profound new reality, in contrast to subtle reality shifts of the past from transformative periods, personally and collectively. Perhaps that might be your experience too.

As always, I am prompted to share things as my vulnerable, transparent part of the collective thread because of the constant confirmations of how this kind of connecting is valuable on layers far greater than meets the eye.

I wasn’t sure how much, or what if anything I was going to share both in words or photos from these deep experiences the last couple of weeks, but as always I listen to what nudges me and support that guidance having purpose and meaning beyond even what I might comprehend.

I’d like to back up to the days right before our going away and then share a summary of the journey that unfolded and continued through Summer Solstice, as it feels like a bookending full cycle took place. And with the previous May 26th’s Sagittarius Full Super Blood and Flower Moon Total Lunar Eclipse head activation, it’s also been a full cycle from one Full Moon to the next of clear anchoring that has taken place of the new from that initiation.

Shifts in consciousness are what take us into the new dimensional realms. What I’ve experienced and heard from others, since May 26th, is confirmation that the actualization of a big shift that’s been in motion has anchored and that the new reality is here and now for walking through new doorways of change and embodiment. Even if we don’t see things yet manifesting on all fronts of reality, the architecture is in place and things are in fact different depending on the person and perspective you’re viewing it from. For me personally, this has ignited the next phase and second half of my life in quite a leap – however long that might physically be.

Recent transformations have set things in motion in new directions and opened the door for a future version of me to step in that has been working behind the scenes until now. This may be hard to comprehend, but there’s definitely been a timeline jump and confirmation of upgrade future self that stepped in since May 26th’s Full Moon Eclipse and what I invited in then. Much the same way that I left an old me in a river up in Canada on our Magick Bus adventure and a future self walked in without an actual physical death needing to take place, once again a different part of my multi-dimensional self has walked in. And so, while still me and my essence, I’m a new version of me that has yet to walk in body this Earth life. There have also been quite a few revelations and confirming messages, of which some came through in the automatic writing I shared in the Solstice post that channeled through while I was away in silence.

After the combination of Cosmic energies, all of the solar flares, eclipses, longest galactic-sourced gamma-ray burst emitted, and Earth reflections like droughts, earthquakes, and other catastrophes, including huge human divide, we also feel a bit of a quiet pause and sense of doorways opening now. And although that sense of relief may feel tempting to sprint out and yell “yippee!” this time is more opportune to reflect and listen for inner direction on how truly you want to be stepping into the new reality in a whole new way that takes into account the wisdom gleaned over the last year and a half of time inside.

The light always finds us even in the darkest recesses of experiences we find ourselves journeying through.

Intensities are turning into gentleness more and more, but it’s still to your benefit to pause with greater awareness before bolting forth into things.

I personally felt a completely different reality anchored after I became adamant about “no more.” I’ve since experienced everything and everyone changing around me too, and where I felt such harsh division, this has been replaced by more softened and promising interactions.

Although I’ve shared through blogs some of the recent unfoldings, I’ve been a bit more quiet overall and taking that pause before each major share in order to both fully integrate the energies and to also share them with greater conscious awareness of how best to weave the key codes into the messages.

The new has supported a deepening of alignment into the expression of why I felt called to be here in this part of Earth history we are writing together. Maybe some of you feel similarly.

Or, perhaps my/our deepening alignment has helped support the new. Or both.

In any event, cosmic transparency, greater path alignment, a timeline jump, and a new version me without need for harsh NDE (near death experience) necessary, has been the daily experience since.

On the Thursday, June 10th Gemini New Moon Solar Eclipse there was the sense of a big energy recalibration and some interesting clicks happening that day, although the energy felt super soft in contrast to May 26th’s Eclipse. I also received a text from a dear friend who asked if I was open to being present to help support her and her soulmate in horse body through his transition that was going to take place the next morning. I immediately knew the importance of this event so beautifully navigated by such a masterful soul in horse body and that I was meant to be there.

So, early the morning of Friday, June 11th just a day after the Eclipse, but still in the prime and potent portal of its energy that is experienced for months, I made my way to physically be present for this. I assisted my own animal companions in person, as well as energetically assisted other people’s animal companions from afar in their transitions, but this was the first time for me doing so in person for one other than my own.

Being a huge black horse – such a massive, mystical, and powerful figure – made the experience even more profound.

And the fact that it was a horse – my favorite kind of horse that I identify with as well – given my life-long connection with them since I was a little girl and my past life connections with them and as them, was very profound and full circle of the life transition I was experiencing from this latest shift. It also felt like a major collective reflection. I’ve written about my horse connection before, so for now I’ll just say that not only did they help me through my childhood sensitivity challenges that led to an inability to eat every night without being hand-fed by my mom around 10-13 years of age and stomach aches every night that were only appeased by inviting horses into my visions and dreams (when I knew nothing of meditation at the time), alongside my mom comforting me through the night, but they also were connected to my way of life shifting from a work and race horse-driven conditioning to a wild and free mustang.

Without going into the personal details of the experience that are not mine to share, I’ll just say that it was hugely profound in both inner and outer experience to hold the space for this incredible being and his beloved soulmate, which literally manifested in seen ways. It was my path to act as a bridge to support peaceful journeying from this world to the next and I also took photos that day for my friend to have, which revealed incredible rainbow light across both of them, an amazing energy orb with a cross in it within his massive shadow, other energies, a rabbit that showed up and stayed the entire time to reflect that my dear ones I asked to assist from the other side were there to guide him home and assist me, and a physical experience I had right when he transitioned that I’ll also never forget that reflected the shift was real – the shift had anchored.

When this soul transitioned I was standing back a bit to be out of the way, but still in the space and suddenly I saw with my physical eyes everything wave out from him. It’s like in movies (think The Matrix) where the reality of the energetic field suddenly is seen and experienced when the veils drop. The field of reality before me moved in waves all around me like rolling energy and the landscape became fluid. I knew it was real, but blinked several times to make sure I wasn’t seeing things or dizzy, but it continued with everything pulsing in waves that revealed the fluidity of it all around us and of the realms opening and merging, as he moved out, through, and expanded. It was like reality breathing and pulsing and I became part of that breath and pulse. It was both slightly disorienting at first and then completely natural. Usually I see things like this only in dreams, visions, meditations, or blips, but it was profoundly obvious and physically and consciously an awakened, literal experience – the reality of reality and Cosmic and Earth as One.

I expounded a bit more on this experience leading up to the silent retreat, as it feels extremely important, timely, and necessary of the anchored new. It also felt profoundly key right before dropping into silence.

That afternoon, evening, and night I became physically exhausted in a way I haven’t been. It was not surprising given the experience and further recalibration of new energies physically taking root from the other realms that have been separate until now.

The weekend continued in a softened experience, although profound, and it mirrored the gentle transition this soul in horse body also went through. There continued to be Cosmic conversations pervading around me with people that were now on a new level and on the morning before we left on retreat, my very first yellow lily bloomed as a send-off and confirmation. That didn’t feel random at all.

And then we were off.

Thursday, June 14th was an integration day where we spent the first part of the day slowly easing into silence and at 5:05 pm (an unplanned, but perfect time) we commenced. This trip also happened to be right before our one year wedding anniversary, so it became a lovely way for us to deepen in connection and celebrate in a grace filled way. We actually discussed the possibility of this becoming a tradition for us, but definitely wanting to do it more regularly. It was my first fully silent retreat, although I’m silent a lot as it is. 😉 It was Dave’s second, as he went a couple of months earlier on his own since it was something he’d always wanted to do and now had opportunity to do so, being retired.

We decided to stop on our way and do a lovely new hike that took us to some emerald pools along the river.

This, and every hike we did while away, were very serene and always solitary or with limited crossing of anyone else more than once. I found an incredibly beautiful stone and my first feather on this hike, kicking off many gifts and messengers to come in the following days.

We also stopped for a lovely Thai lunch in an outdoor garden sanctuary setting with beautiful lush blooms surrounding us, then set off for our retreat cabin set secluded away from everyone on the edge of the forest with every single room looking out on the trees and night skies.

It was perfection with our cabin being named, “Devotion.”

And after settling in, the silent devotion began, which I found easy and comforting, with everything else becoming louder and more profound in a beautiful way. I wasn’t sure what the days following would look and feel like, as I didn’t go with an agenda or plan. I just allowed the energy to guide me and what I noticed is that my journey with this was very different than Dave’s.

I found that rather than a schedule of meditation in any certain vein, I was being shown that this experience would be more organic. After first sitting in meditation to see what would happen, I discovered that the energy didn’t want this to be any strict practice, but to be about receiving and giving to myself. So, it became a very self-nurturing time where I had nothing on the agenda at all to do but rest, be, receive, let go, and ground into the new – all about integrating the initiations and upgrades that was very much needed.

I found myself several times a day laying down by the window overlooking the forest by day and stars by night, giving self-Reiki, which was an act of surrender and allowing the Universal Life Force, and much more, to come through. I also just looked out the window, allowed visions and messages to channel, did an automatic writing, wrote down inspirations, and also began a new flow of exercise I thoroughly enjoyed and plan to continue to implement with my nature activities we already do.

This involved going out amidst the trees just outside the cabin in the forest and doing a combination of movement – similar to Qigong (a couple movements I remember from it), but mostly just my own inspired flow exercises with isometric exercises I used to do to create a whole fluid, balanced, and grounded experience for about a half an hour.

It was very invigorating, opening, and anchoring. I would choose a particular place and then eventually moved around the perimeter of the cabin creating an energetic grid with my anchoring.

Each night, Dave and I would sit out on the deck under the stars and do our own meditative Cosmic connecting and sit in silence to receive. On the first night subtle lights would move and disappear across the stars and gentle noises would move in the trees and bushes on the breeze. Another night involved what appeared as a shooting star, but what in fact it was might be another story.

On that first evening before our starry time under the tree tops, we explored the garden grounds and the first visitor appeared – a giant bull frog at the edge of the koi pond.

That first night I also had another of my bear dreams – yes that themed saga is ongoing and always at precisely potent times. This night the dream involved four bears. All of this having meaning for me, including integration of what I felt had come through from everything recently for my individual journey. (Oh wow! As I just wrote that the clock right now says 4:44 – UH HUH!)

That concluded our first day, and every morning we’d spend a couple of hours doing our own processes, concluding with a big huge bowl of fresh fruit and vegan scones or croissants and coffee out on the deck, followed by more morning integrations, my flow movements, and then onto lunch provided for us.

Then we’d head out on a daily hike Dave had lined up for us, pre-trip. Everything always in silence, although the energy was tangible and understood, even in the midst of no verbal communication.

Each hike always involved forest and water – river and reservoir lake – and always a ton of butterfly varieties floating around and down the trails along with us.

This second day, 6/15, had another beautiful visitor. After lunch, I was walking back to the car and my eye caught a little garden sign hidden behind the branch of a bush.

As soon as I saw it, I knew Joy was with us, which made sense since the Summer Solstice of 6/21, five years ago, was when she passed and my sweet soul family always shows up for me around their special days and portals. This was confirmed when we were driving to our hike and suddenly a large jack rabbit jumped out on the dirt road ahead of us.

She stopped to look at us and then slowly made her way down the road. She would stop and wait to see that we were following, then continued.

She went off to the side and waited under a bush, then came back down and beckoned us to follow her some more. This went on for about a half a mile until finally she disappeared in the side forest.

I knew right away, after seeing the sign and thinking of Joy, that this was her way of making an official appearance. When I said this again to Dave, who was equally excited and curious by the way this jack rabbit wanted us to follow her and not at all concerned about running away and hiding, I noticed the car clock said 1:11 on it – and therefore confirming Joy had slipped through worlds to see us.

Each evening after our last afternoon snack time outdoors and some down time, we’d take another walk around the grounds before more resting, meditative, nurturing and starry night connecting time.

Then on the morning of 6/16 at about 9:30 am it was fox that made an appearance.

We’ve had encounters with black, red, and now gray fox – all at very integral time periods in our life when things were shifting hugely. This time was no exception and the fact I was standing right at the window looking when she passed by, was no mere coincidence.

While gray foxes are the most common of foxes, they are elusive and rare to spot in the wild, especially because they are primarily nocturnal.

It’s interesting that all of the foxes we’ve seen have been in daylight hours, as the black fox was in the late afternoon, the red fox was in the afternoon, and now this gray beauty was edging into the later part of the morning.

She had a dark stripe down her huge bushy long tail.

A shapeshifter fox is a powerful guide to help you navigate your spiritual journey and to bridge the Earth and spirit worlds.

The messengers continued this day with my finding the sweetest and most intricate bird’s nest I’ve ever seen. It was incredibly beautiful and like a complex weaving of the Cosmic tapestry. I don’t think the photos do it any justice at all.

It was miniature and perfect, made out of the finest of threaded nature and one golden thread that appeared to be from humans woven into it and then lined with soft down feathers.

It’s now part of my nest mobile in our bedroom, which has grown into quite the work of nature art full of beautiful nests and portions of nests/hives from a variety of birds, wasps and bees.

Then deer appeared, reminding me somewhat of the cosmic ones I saw in Montana after Joy’s passing, as we headed on our next hike of the journey and the evening ended with a very curious raccoon who seemed to want to talk with us, making himself very known as he stood up on his feet to mirror us.

On that evening’s hike I decided to silently run, twirl and dance my way through the giant manzanita forest portal. With unspoken acknowledgment, Dave captured the moments that moved more ethereally in the twilight hours than photos we’d taken before for the Solstice spell I shared previously.

I then captured Dave, as he walked ahead of me down the path and connected with the incredible manzanita tree spirits.

I noted that the moon was sitting directly above the manzanita grove and upon our return back through the portal, as darkness was approaching, I snapped a few shots.

All of these felt to reflect the dance of light and shadow merging within and as I mentioned in my Solstice blog these photos feel to “visually reveal these sacred energies more literally of greater human embodiment transmuted by embrace of light and shadow……Faeries walk between worlds and dimensions, as Cosmic embodiments. It’s time for these worlds to merge and not be separated, just as it’s time for all of us to merge through the heart and overcome conditioned divisions on all fronts of life experience on Earth.”

Then, the confirmation of this alchemy appeared as bats galore circled around – too tiny and fast to capture on camera, although I did take a video of the giant manzanita forest portal, while I journeyed through it, where you can see them zipping by near the end. The video is too challenging to upload here, but I hope you do enjoy the photo montage to accompany my storyline of events.

I shared some highlights and key points and messengers that paint the overall energy of things. I find that a lot of times particular themes, animal spirit guides, and experiences are mirrored by what others message me about after they read these shares, and act as collective confirmations.

The rest of what unfolded is more personal and continues to evolve as the next steps I’m being guided to take. But in totality, it all spoke to me of a deeper, devotional way of living with greater clarity on my next focal points that will take shape shortly.

I mentioned finding my first feather on day one of this journey, but each day had a new feather or two for me as well. In all, I had a small collection of all different feathers and some beautiful treasures that now are in my garden, my office, and on the mobile I mentioned.

I’m especially grateful for the three large pieces of giant manzanita trunks I was gifted from the grounds where we stayed. They have to do fire clearing over time and these three beauties I got to take home.

For now, they line the deck by the rock garden outside my office and I just love their energy.

I’ve had an extra resonance with manzanitas recently, as you remember my making manzanita blossom jelly and syrup this year, and now to be with these giant manzanita beings felt like these spirits are strongly guiding and protecting me along the new path.

We stopped to do another hike on the way home on 6/17 and upon arrival I found that more yellow lilies had bloomed, now to be accompanied by my first dark red lilies, too, as a welcome home. In fact, my whole garden had evolved and bloomed some more, but I’ll save a garden update for an upcoming post.

Friday 6/18, the next full day back, we enjoyed a hike from the house to enjoy lunch and outdoor music. And on this hike we encountered falcon greeting us back. This was a first very up close and potent encounter with falcon we’ve had. The falcon was sitting on a branch to our right not far from the trail and just looked at us without moving for 20 or 30 seconds. He was very near and we could see all the details of his beautiful feathers and clear eyes. He then took off to the left and we continued on hiking. This ignited Egyptian memories and reflections of my two journeys there back in 2007. I was thinking about particular incidences where Horus, the Falcon God, had showed up for me and other pivotal things that were ignited during those trips that have come full circle now. It also reminded me of the message I received while away about things I was being shown to offer to others soon – one directly connected to falcon.

Then, as if to confirm my thoughts, the falcon appeared again on a branch to our left this time. He had gone ahead on the path and awaited us. The path was dense and mysterious, and not having heard him flying or seen his shadow above, made it more mysterious that he suddenly was there again. Once we saw him and I told Dave about what I’d been thinking about and that he seemed to be confirming my thoughts, he then took off and didn’t return.

When we returned home Dave called me to say that our beautiful coyote friend had just passed again by his office.

Sunday, June 20th was then our Summer Solstice anniversary and we were called to do one of our favorite hikes that we now call our anniversary hike given we’ve been drawn to it for celebrating.

I noted how we’d gone on this hike for our 11 year anniversary of first dating two years ago, for the day after our wedding one year ago, and now for our one year wedding anniversary this year.

I made us a Solstice cake to celebrate, which was a vegan dark chocolate cake frosted in vanilla that I then created a simple flower and fruit mandala on. I used strawberries, blueberries, and dried sunflower and rose petals and lavender that I harvested from my garden last year to add sweet faery touches.

Later that afternoon another full circle experience hit home really hard with a mixed bag of emotions that went from pain to release. I went out into the garden that evening, after returning from our hike, to water and check on all the plant babies. There I discovered a sweet little chipmunk who had transitioned. She was not there earlier and she still looked so fresh, as if just asleep, so I knew it had taken place recently that day.

I don’t want to go into details of her surmise and the direct connections to my Nestor, Cosmo, and Joy, but the reflections were too close for comfort to ignore. The only solace I took was in seeing how beautiful and peaceful she looked and how masterfully this dear soul in chipmunk body had navigated her transition on the Solstice portal, just as the powerful horse I assisted did in the Eclipse window, and each of my dear animal companions had chosen portal days – especially mirroring Joy who had journeyed on the Solstice of five years ago.

Tears flowed, as I sat holding the chipmunk in my hands for quite some time, sending lots of energy to her time of passing for peace and ease with her journeying. I listened for the messages and received, once again. I felt as if she was still alive and might sit up and open her eyes to look at me, as I gently caressed her head and body and reflected on all that had taken place these last weeks and how poignant this was as remembrance of Joy choosing Solstice as her day of returning to the stars just as this little one had.

I sat listening to where she wanted to be buried and finally this was the place.

I knew it was the right place because upon digging a hole my hand shovel hit something. I pulled it up and found a perfect heart rock. It became part of the burial stone mandala I created and then placed my very first bubble gum pink rose that had just bloomed atop this sacred ground.

It was also poignant in reflection to what I’ve known of my own journey and how old parts of me had died, only to be replaced by the ones relevant for now.

How Summer Solstice has become such a huge marker in for me of life transitions.

It spoke to a journey’s end and a new one beginning.

It reflected the fragility of life and how every moment is precious and not to be taken for granted.

It sang the song of stars that constantly whisper their calling to my heart.

I just noticed when posting this photo that a cross appears to my left at the front of the bushes. There was no cross in the forest.

It confirmed that the new has anchored and the old had retreated in place of a new reality forging its way.

And it’s a deeper and more devotional experience of living from spirit merged through heart into body as One.

Manifesting from an Open Heart


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Another cycling through of powerful energies is upon us with this Lunar Eclipse Full Moon in Capricorn – just one of the many astrological influences going on right now. With this Moon we are working with the energies of Capricorn and Cancer – think sensitive, open heart, and intuitive trust meets wise discernment, inner strength, and exercise of boundaries.

Emotions are raw at these Full Moons and heightened by Cancer’s energy right now. Capricorn steps in to help navigate these feelings more effectively and with a mature wisdom that helps you to harness determination and clarity to review things from a more balanced perspective. Then the intuition that is revealed doesn’t just sit idle, but now has a way of coming forth into manifestation.

This photo was taken of me on Sunday while we were on an adventurous hike. I love the merging of water, snow, and ice with mountainous terrain, rock, and greenery emerging. It speaks to me so much of this Capricorn and Cancer balancing made tangible, which was also part of the journey to get to the lakes at top – using feelings, intuition, determination, responsible action, and wise discernment to navigate the way.

I also love how my shoulders are in perfect alignment with the mountain behind me – almost creating an expansive wing-like essence, but one of solidity. My stance is grounded and anchored, and yet my energy feels open, free and flowing like the waters surrounding me.

If it’s hard to imagine what the merging of Cancer and Capricorn would feel and look like this, at least for me, helps me to envision it. And the experience helped me to embody it more.

It’s incredible how things happen like that.

Messages of this Moon speak to not relinquishing that inner heart and spirit knowing in place of what others or society are trying to impose as decisions for you.

Nurturing more courage and strength and surrounding yourself with more resonant spirits that align with you and help you to steer a more aligned course for yourself will likely be beneficial, especially if you feel challenged by doing it on your own.

It’s a time for discovering, embracing, and realizing your worth at the core of your being and that it’s not determined or defined by anything else but that.

Perhaps you might be feeling the desire to withdraw, but these are times to expand further.

The only true enemy you have is when you fight against yourself or give in to the perpetuation of collective struggles and patterns running the show.

There are some who may find moving on from experiences and people that feel oppressive will be supportive for this. And many others I’ve noticed are exiting in more extreme ways, as it feels timely for them to simply move on altogether.

It can be challenging and that’s why having some kind of support system – whether friends, family, like-minded kindred spirits, animal companions, loved ones, or a strong relationship to Nature or the nature within you can help.

Peace can be found through an understanding of non-duality – that there is a place where all things meet in the heart.

And speaking of hearts, I posted this share along with the photo above on my Instagram page and it felt aligned for these energies. I’m resharing it here, as I know many of you aren’t on Instagram.

Surrender to the courage of your wild heart – it has a power very rare.

Surrender to the guidance of your heart and take courageous steps to be more vulnerable and connect more intimately and deeply with yourself, others, and all of life around you. Your life will shift immensely in reflection to these commitments.

When the heart is continually being conditioned only by the mind, its voice and inspiration become stifled and confused, even when you actively try to engage it.

When you allow the mind’s influence to overpower the heart’s, you place limitations on the extraordinary source and well-spring of energy, vibrancy, guidance, intuition, and inspiration it can provide naturally. Not to mention, you hinder the joy and extraordinary experiences that could infuse your life if you had a clear path to your heart.

It’s not that we abandon the mind, but integrate a healthier union between it and the heart, with heart leading and being supported and channeled most effectively.

A wild heart is one that operates naturally, instinctively, and freely, providing direction from your authentic self and from the deepest passions and desires that stem from that truth. This is hidden between layers of “ideas” you have about yourself and the conditioned “desires” that you have come to learn.

Your wild heart will lead you back to your essence, and toward real liberation, satisfaction, harmony, and balance at the core of your being.

Be willing to face and lovingly let go of old mental and emotional patterns, and the conditioning that reins you in from experiencing your own wild, free heart – taking time to repattern yourself back to who you really are.

It’s not a simple journey at first, but it does become increasingly easy when consistently and actively engaged.

Afterall, it IS simply you returning to natural harmony. That may seem like a foreign experience right now, but it’s the most natural experience there is. You’ve simply forgotten this.

It’s interesting that in the last several days a few new animals have shown up for us here. Yesterday we had two long-tailed weasels visit our deck, which we’ve never seen. And on our bike ride, I saw a dead baby porcupine alongside the bike path. A few days ago I found a dead mouse on the forest trail behind our house. And swallowtail butterflies and large, chubby bumble bees (I like to call mini bear cubs with wings) galore have been visiting and dancing around me.

I didn’t get to see this one myself, but a friend had come to pick us up the other day and she said she saw a grown rabbit on our lawn. This made me happy because I’ve been wondering about Blueberry and his mom – the rabbit family from last year – and this made me feel that Blueberry was grown up and still making this his home.

These are just the more unusual of sightings to add to the array of daily regular ones, although I have a thing for finding all of the dead animals.

I also found five – my favorite number – Steller’s Jay feathers on Saturday…one after another. I actually “knew” I’d find five – even though they were all spread out over 7 miles.

The symbolism and energies of them are also telling and feel aligned with things.

Cycles continue and transformation is part of life. Best to flow with it, rather than fight it.

There are a lot of retrogrades also happening right now and these always lend to it being a beneficial time for reviewing and clarifying your life and life focuses.

What has been running the show for you?

What are your choices rooted in?

You have opportunity to change that story and live from a renewed connection to your inner heart’s guidance that now has the strong support system it has always craved, to do what it wants most.

This is manifesting from an open heart and it comes from the union of energies working together to strengthen each other.

Magickal Full Moon in Capricorn Wishes to You


This is one I really resonate with (having a Capricorn Ascendant, Mars in Capricorn, and North Node in Capricorn), has taught me some of the most empowering lessons in my life (which continues more and more), and feel it can be a potent one for collective shifts into a healthier way of living with responsible love and support of well being for the highest good of all. The energy of this Full Moon in Capricorn helps you to remember and reclaim your authenticity and the truth of who you always have been beneath the conditioning.

A time for focus on integrating ethereal essence with our earthly humanness.

We can reflect on the truth within and the hidden aspects of our shadow self to bring reality to the forefront and illusions reckoned with.

Our emotions have much to share and rather than keep them and our fears locked inside wreaking havoc, we have the grounded ability to work them out and face them with confident practicality.

The goat is a persevering force who can take on any mountain and has the calculated precision to tackle the most challenging of terrains. They can scale anything that seems insurmountable, making the impossible, possible.

A powerful time for making fortified, practical decisions on new directions in your life and not allow yourself to be guided by the old emotional patterning that keeps you in victim mode and at the mercy of others, while depleting your life force and ultimately being of no good to anyone in that state, let alone to yourself and the dreams you desire manifesting.

Look within as to what kind of life you want to be creating and living and then move confidently in the direction of those dreams, exercising new personal boundaries, responsible love, and confident trust and belief in these changes being implemented in service to a higher good your emotional attachments and conditioning can’t recognize.

Allow Capricorn energy to help you believe in you again, love and honor YOUR self worth, and draw upon your resources to manifest productive use of your gifts that will benefit not only your personal well being, but ultimately serves the collective from this healthy vantage point of grounded and balanced harmonizing of the emotional and physical environments within.

Capricorn Full Moon & Saturn Soon to go Direct – Integrating Integrity Into Your Life


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We are quickly approaching both a Full Moon and Saturn turning direct. This Saturday, July 12th illuminates a Capricorn Full Moon and Sunday, July 20th is the end of Saturn’s Retrograde.

I’ve been seeing a lot of Capricorn themed energies emerging recently and this doesn’t surprise me, since synchronous alignments always unfold when we are following the energy in our bodies. So I find this weekend’s upcoming Full Moon and Saturn going direct (Saturn rules Capricorn by the way) to tie in with a lot in my own personal frequency field I’ve been immersed in.

I’ve been engaged in some Astrological explorations for myself with emphasis on my North Node in Capricorn (I also happen to have a Capricorn Ascendent), and my current tattoo design client I’ve just completed a design for, also just happens to be a Capricorn. That felt particularly potent given everything and there was no surprise I had such an immediate connection with this person.

But it wasn’t actually until after I was nearly finished with his piece that I smiled to myself once again getting the Cosmic humor of life lived “for” the world – not simply just living “in” the world.  When that is in alignment, things just magickally unfold.

Speaking of dates, I also found July 20th’s Saturn going direct to be quite synchronous as well, given that is the day the retreat I’m hosting in Bimini starts. I had no idea of this when I chose the dates. I simply followed guidance received. I’ve later discovered also how some people have some ideas about July 20th pointing to other energetic or literal things unfolding on the collective scene.

I don’t know what will transpire or not, but I can say that Saturn’s shift brought a smile to my face when I learned it fell on the onset of the retreat. The retreat also ends on July 25th, right at the culmination of the New Moon the next day of the 26th.

So once again, there seems to be some beautifully supportive energy of clarity, opening, and release for new beginnings all tied into the week’s time and focused work we’ll be doing in Bimini’s energetic vortex.

You can’t make this stuff up, which is why I love learning about things after, rather than trying to figure it out and orchestrate it.

Trusting and acting upon what you feel within your body and heart, brings about the greatest joy and wisdom regardless of the actual results.

My feeling is that everything is an opportunity and gift. I’ve never looked at things to be negative – just challenging us to rise to the occasion and to call in more of who you really are. So things like Saturn going Retrograde I feel we could all benefit more by viewing it in this regard, rather than greeting it with an “Uh oh!” that heralds pre-determined self-sabotaging dread, anguish, fear, and defeat.

I do know it’s been challenging for many, but I think you’ll agree when the challenges are moved through, that you’ll find yourself much lighter, freer, and empowered. This is usually the process of change.

When Saturn goes Retrograde, this is a time period for deliberate slowing down (which is why things seem to be delayed), really working with your inner wisdom, being more present with self and others as you communicate, taking stock of things in your life, reexamining, reorganizing, and making adjustments for improvements. If you meet Saturn as a partner that is helping to hold you accountable to yourself and others, you can utilize its energetic support to build more solid foundations and responsibility to your path. Saturn helps you find direction, to restructure your life with values that truly reflect who you are, and provides you the time to do these things. Otherwise, you might just keep wandering aimlessly and continue down the same paths and patterns without end.

So rather than see Saturn as limiting, see Saturn as the catalyst to unlimitedness. A friend helping you to complete what you’ve started or what you dream of, and to become more aware of your own personal power and place in the world. Perhaps it is society you allow to limit you, or countless other outside sources.

But Saturn is not the culprit. Saturn is simply the light bulb illuminating where you are limiting yourself and how you can embody more personal integrity into your life.

You are much more capable than you think you are and you have the ability to do astounding things. Saturn will help to lift veils and blinders so that you see what is really going on around you. This may seem like Saturn is making things happen to you because you suddenly are experiencing what has been hidden or ignored, but on the contrary, Saturn reveals to you what you are allowing into your experience simply by bringing it to your attention.

Wisdom and strength are potential gifts to embrace from Saturn as well, but you will have to do the work.

And there are gifts in store for you when you do.

You have the ability to redefine boundaries, reassess commitments, and step more into your power when Retrogrades pass through. Opportunity is knocking through the lessons that arise to help alleviate you from frustration, confinement, and feelings of entrapment.

Whether it’s a Saturn Retrograde period or not, it’s beneficial to look at your challenges with new perspectives. Saturn is just one of your guiding posts to help you along with that process, if you in fact aren’t already doing so.

And when you do, you will not find these time periods not to be something to fret, but rather welcomed time to do some inner house cleaning.  If you utilize the Retrograde time period as such, then when Saturn goes direct, you’ll find things catapulting forward with ease and grace.

So hopefully you can take the remaining days to go within and make friends with what the Retrograde has brought to your attention.

And as for the Capricorn Full Moon approaching, this will add to the feeling of coming to a kind of crossroads with things. We have the watery Sun’s energy in Cancer balancing the Earthy Moon’s energy of Capricorn. Full Moons are about the “harvest” and completion, whereas New Moons are about beginnings. This Full Moon is also a Super Moon, which means the Moon is closest to the Earth and in direct alignment with Sun and Earth and thus adds an extra potent intensity.

So with that more authoritarian, sometimes known as “karmic” Saturn energy, we are still taking our time to get through our “stuff”. And the message Capricorn knows well is “change or be changed”.

The Capricorn Full Moon brings us a period of searching for deeper meaning in the things we are engaged in, including emotional and professional levels of our lives. Integrity is a highlight at this time and looking at how not only does something serve your personal joy, but also has the best interest of the highest good included, will bring about successes. You may feel the need to question things, manage your life better, become more determined and focused, start doing things that put your dreams into concrete actualization, and feel the need to create greater sense of personal security and stability from the inside out.

Since Cancer is emotional and need-based, it is the feminine, inner, home and family, nurturing mother, receptive energy. Capricorn, on the other hand, is wisdom based, responsible, self-sufficient, purpose-focused, goal driven, your success in the world, and the spiritual father energy.

So this Full Moon will have us asking ourselves where we are out of balance in these regards and where we may be suffering at the over-focus of one over the other.

Ask yourself “What do I need to feel stronger, more healthy, centered, and secure?”

And then realize that there is truly nothing outside of you that can feed these. All that you need is within and you CAN satisfy your own needs. It’s time to stop chasing needs and start feeling into yourself as to how you can fulfill those holes you feel.

Become the driver of your own life and learn to have greater self love and healthy self focus that understands how this is simultaneously service-minded for the highest good benefiting everyone and everything around you.

Saturn and Capricorn embody authoritative energy, but this is to teach you to empower yourself to become your own authority of your life. And as mentioned, they also help you to understand your limitations with the perspective of how they may actually support you into your strength, while acting from your greatest personal integrity.

I’ve always felt that the things we fear have the potential to be our greatest teachers and gifts.

Last Chance To Join Us in Bimini Plus This Months’ Moon and Grand Trine Energies Supporting the Journey


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Dolphin in Bimini from a recent trip

This is it! We’re now officially 8 days away from our magical Summer Solstice Rhythm of Renewal Bimini Retreat and actually just one week away until the group will be in air on our way to Florida to be there for the morning flight on the 16th to our island home for the week.

I am SO excited to be getting back. It’s kind of snuck up on me actually. I’ve been feeling the waters, dolphins, and energies calling me and also cannot wait to be reunited with my soul sister, Jenny, and soul brothers, Philip and Brian, at the ARC and the new family that will be joining us. It’s going to be such a lovely week and so much of it is being divinely guided by heart, so that the week’s focuses are creating itself by the energy of the people coming.

A few of you have been on the fence and waiting to make decisions. Unfortunately, this is now the time to finalize things, as we are putting in the final menu ideas for the week (very excited about our really “light” simple wholeness we are focusing on for the food to accompany this week, the energies, and the group’s needs) and placing the food order Monday morning for all the goodness to bring in to the island. I also have to put in my last charter reservations by then as well.

So Sunday is the last day to confirm any last minute registering. If you have any questions, specific needs, or would like assistance to make things happen, message me this weekend so we can make sure you don’t miss the plane.

Another cool aspect to add to this week’s energy, besides the Summer Solstice on the 21st we will be celebrating, is the fact that we are in the energy leading up to what astrologers call a super supermoon! I only became aware of this about a week ago. I always love surprises. 🙂

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Portion of my painting, Once in a Blue Moon. You can see the full painting and order prints or original here: http://taniamarie.com/gallery1.htm

There are three full moons in 2013 that fit the definition of a supermoon – one in May, June, and July. However, it is the June 22-23 full moon that is the most “super” of them. Super-duper even! LOL. June 23rd’s full moon is at 6:32 am CDT in the U.S., so for many the moon appears about equally full in the June 22nd sky, as it will on the 23rd.

We will be in Bimini June 16th – June 22nd. 😉 The 21st being the Solstice.

The crest of this full moon is both the closest and largest of the year and will take place within an hour of the time of perigee – the moon’s closest point to Earth. This will not happen again until August 2014. So this supermoon (by astrologer’s definition) is also called a “perigee full moon” (by astronomers) and will be Earth’s closest encounter this year with the moon June 22-23. Therefore the moon will look larger than ever and will of course effect nature’s rhythms, tides, and the energetic frequencies we are feeling.

Wonder how this large moon is going to look in Bimini over the water?! And I love that we’ll be building up to so much amazingly supportive and potent energy again this week.

I also read that this month’s full moon is called the Full Strawberry Moon ( I love strawberries 🙂 ) by the Algonquin tribes who saw it as a time to gather ripening strawberries. It is also known as the Rose Moon and the Hot Moon.

It will also be a Capricorn Full Moon (get ready for tearing down and building new structures, crystallizing things into form, taking action, coming to terms with things, understanding the depth of emotions to move on, providing insights on how to ground, organize, and materialize things, accepting personal responsibility, dipping into your strength well to realize achieving inner peace is possible and necessary to your process, uncovering fears…all to help bring to culmination things on a personal level).

June also has a Grand Water Trine of the signs Cancer, Scorpio, and Pisces flowing around. All about emotional sensitivity, creative flow, action born of faith, innate authenticity that has been hidden now revealed, reflection, intuition, deeper levels of awareness and alignment with your truth, connecting with things greater than ourselves, listening to divine guidance, lifting of veils and bringing visions and inspiration down to earth in practical ways that we can manifest the dreams now – simply put – tapping into the magick is ever-more accessible.

It’s no wonder people are feeling it lately! This is some powerful stuff we continue to move through this year, but so potently full of potential if you can harness the energy to your benefit! Wow! I’m ready to swim the seas, are you?

Sending you all peace and love to your hearts as you continue the journey of life this month into greater depths and intimacy with you and all of creation.

If you have questions or would like to register, don’t forget to do so today or tomorrow! You can email at tania@taniamarie.com to assist.

 

 

 

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