Just a heads up that I’m in the process of making changes to prepare for what’s upcoming, as well as to close doors on the old. I found it synchronous that today, as I made the phone calls and took the steps to put these in motion, was actually the day seven years ago that I first released my e-book version of Spiritual Skin. It wasn’t long after, that I then made available the hard copy and kindle version and today I’ve put in motion releasing that associated website and email address for my book, altogether. I’ve also released my old Tania Marie website and now you can access this blog via either domains of www.taniamarie.com or the current you know of www.taniamarieartist.wordpress.com.
For now, I’m keeping my associated email address for that domain name, as it’s connected to too many things I don’t have time and focus to handle currently, but you will not be able to contact me via the Spiritual Skin email.
While the website for this first book I self-published will no longer be, you will still be able to purchase copies on Amazon – the only way to do so going forward.
Extra reiteration that that part of my life had come full circle were reflected in at least two books I know of that came out after mine – one that actually used my book title in theirs coming out almost 2 years later – and one recently that came out last year that ironically I was sent by the author’s marketing help to potentially review. I haven’t yet been able to read the book, but in scanning it, I was intrigued how similar it was to my own.
We are all collectively connected and tapping into the same pool of energy, but my time swimming there I now release to others.
That, in and of itself, feels like a huge refresh and reset.
You may have also noticed that I’ve deleted nearly all the pages of this blog site as well, and it now only contains my blog sharing and general and contact info.
So, those are some big changes that feel good, with more in time to come.
I continue to receive requests on things now and then, as I can’t delete everything out there in the world-wide web, but I’ve remained focused on only what resonates to move forward with. I am grateful to have a small network of referrals I can recommend to people in need and whom I’m unable to support at this time. Unfortunately, I don’t have recommendations of tattoo designers, but I do know wonderful tattoo artists I’ve personally worked with who are tapped in and create wonderful pieces. I always highly recommend taking time to search people out with intention, as you’ll always be led to the perfect person.
That brings me to the last Summer and Fall workshops that I’m offering.
I received some questions that I wanted to share my answer to for everyone, in order to clarify things if in fact you were curious as well.
Although I will not be offering classes anymore after August’s Reiki ones, I’m committed for life to provide support and answer questions for all of my students. I know that there was concern that if someone took my Reiki workshop they wouldn’t have what they called “mentorship” with this since I wasn’t teaching, but my ceasing to teach does not close the door on past students who have need for support with questions.
My students are always able to contact me for that. I’m simply not going to be attuning NEW students after August. I hope that is clarifying for anyone who had concern.
That said, in two weeks from this Saturday will be the last opportunity to register for June 23rd’s Reiki 1 & 2 Accelerated Workshop. June 9th is the deadline for that. So if you’re on the fence, that’s just a little reminder date to keep note of.
You still have opportunity to pre-register at discount for the August 25th Reiki 3 Master Teacher Workshop, as that deadline is July 4th with final registration ringing in on August 11th.
All info and registration can be found here: Summer 2018 Workshops
As for the Fall Equinox “Living a More Magickal Life” with Laura Bruno and myself, that pre-registration deadline to receive discount is coming up on June 21st Summer Solstice. The workshop is 1/3 full. Final registration is September 15th.
All details and registration can be found here: Living a More Magickal Life
Thank you so much to everyone who has supported my journey and to everyone who has invited me along on theirs. ❤
April’s Energy Update from Lee Harris speaks to purpose on a whole other level than what you thought you’d be doing, which involves reinvention and identity change. This can involve your career, lifestyle, or way of relating and can potentially bring grief up this month with the shifts taking place and that are needed to go to the next phase of your life. Be willing to get curious with yourself and what your feelings are around change. Where you feel sadness inside or outside of yourself is where action is needed.
When I saw these photos Dave took of me this weekend, I couldn’t shake the song from one of my fav Christmas stop-motion animations. He thought it was funny I was about to cross through the creek in my moonboots and snow shoes (he leaped across with his longer legs, while I took it one step at a time – immersing in it). I often use this song, much like so many from my fav animations and child-at-heart movies, to inspire, motivate, and make points.
This is a simple post from my simple, inner child perspective.
While I often take leaps, I also simply take steps and steps are in fact part of the journey within the leaps.
With all of the new challenges and leaps I’ve recently been moving through – like taking on our house renovation, facing my fears of heights in the Grand Canyon, committing to writing my new book, and recreating my life’s focuses…..these images made me smile on the symbolism of how to approach things simply by putting “one foot in front of the other” and stepping into the murky abyss you can’t see the outcome of, in order to move forward into new doorways of experience that are desired.
Change is a choice we make in each moment and manifestation is seeing that choice through with action….one step at a time.
You needn’t know the outcome. You merely need to connect with the passion or drive that urges you on.
When you align yourself with your heart, each step becomes easier.
And you soon find yourself having gotten through what you never thought you could.
You find yourself changed, like the caterpillar to butterfly who didn’t know that was possible.
You soon discover what you had inside of you all along.
The heart and ability to follow your dreams through and conquer those road blocks and mountains.
Put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking ‘cross the floor.
You put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking out the door.
You never will get where you’re going
If ya never get up on your feet.
Come on, there’s a good tail wind blowin’
A fast walking man is hard to beat.
If you want to change your direction,
If your time of life is at hand,
Well, don’t be the rule, be the exception
A good way to start is to stand.
Winter: If I want to change the reflection
I see in the mirror each morn…
Kris: Oh, you do.
Winter: You mean that it’s just my election?
Kris: Just that.
Winter: To vote for a chance to be reformed? Woo-hoo!
Put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking ‘cross the floor.
You put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking out the door.
For whatever reason this morning this blog post from 4 years ago came to me to reshare. Perhaps it has meaning or supportive words for some of you who are going through challenges, transitions, confusion, or unknowns in your life at this time. I couldn’t reblog it for some reason, so here is the link: Reverence for the Void
Yesterday’s Libra New Moon brought winds of change here to stir things up, clear, refresh, and provide new perspectives supporting the potential of creating greater balance in our lives especially in terms of the relationships we have with everything – each other, things, Nature, ourselves, the sacred feminine and masculine within all, and the world and Cosmos at large. There’s a continual offering presented where we can learn to cultivate bridges of deeper compassion and connection that will lead to new doorways of experience.
We experienced high high winds throughout all of yesterday and last night, which I loved hearing as I fell asleep, cozy in our bed with gratitude for the warmth to cocoon in. I had a lot of energy this morning for some reason, which woke me at 4 am and had me awake for the next two hours in bed listening to the snow blowing outside, until I fell back asleep for a brief snooze again.
I’d taken a peek outside and knew the morning would be beautiful since I could see the snow all around in the dark amidst the dense sky swirling with energy. And when I did wake again, the sun opened everything to beautiful clarity revealing a lovely dusting of snow creating this enchantment.
Snow just for a day in between Autumn’s splendor.
Yesterday was another busy day here, but I also had a hair appointment in the midst of everything, which was perfectly aligned without my doing, on the New Moon. I’d made the appointment a couple of months ago and it just happened to fall on this day, which seemed perfect for a refresh.
On the way there I saw a beautiful coyote out in the golden fields within the farmlands of Minden. The coyote was plush and nearly golden herself – almost undetectable except that I happen to have a hawk eye of my own. She was very focused and seemed to be stalking something. Not long after, a very large hawk appeared upon a fence railing, eyeing me, as I eyed the coyote. Coyote and hawk medicine seemed perfect for the energies around.
Anyway, I’d felt called for a bit of change and so I cut another nearly 4 inches off to recharge and we added more of my natural dark brown back into my hair for extra dramatic contrast with the silver that felt good for the current energies and Autumn/Winter seasons, not to mention got me back to my “roots”. 😉
In the Summer my hair had gotten so light all around, as you might remember, and that supported the shifting I was needing. And now I anchor back into a contrast of dark and light, embodying the merging of both, and reminding me that all is sacred.
I guess my hair was much longer than I thought, as even after the 4 inches off, it is still so long. Somehow the New Moon feels to have plumped and lengthened my hair, as it is healthier than ever.
Astrid and I are even more mirrors of each other physically now, which I love. I can’t get over it sometimes how perfect she is for me, and vice versa. We feel one and the same on many levels.
I also love how every step of the journey always feels so right these days because of following the guidance and flow of energy in every moment.
And so the winds of change blow through in many ways, including creating a bit of chaos in the midst of it all with everything in transition for us here. Our new home is in complete disarray, as it’s been virtually all internally demolished for the contractors to implement our remodeling visions. And even our current tree house is going through a bit of a face-lift preparing it, at the same time, for its new tenants. While we live with inflatable furniture, folding chairs and tables, and boxes temporarily these last months.
Add on my crazy editing mode I am doing as I can amidst it all (feeling to complete by end of year) and other aspects of our lives I’m co-managing that are all creating full time jobs for me right now (good thing I’ve switched gears), it’s definitely a process unfolding and there’s nothing to do but take it patiently, a day at a time.
I could easily get swept up into panic, anxiety, stress, worry, discouragement, and even dismay if I let current conditions and all of the collective things going on affect me, but instead my experiences paint me a different story. They teach me that all things have a season and reason, and that keeping focus, balance, and being grateful and not neglecting nurturing of needs along the way, will see me through…always.
It can be challenging when nothing seems to have a result currently, but that’s when we need to pull from our inner core like the tree and her roots that always keep her stabilized despite how the elements and seasons shift her outer appearance.
I could easily start judging it all, second-guessing, or even wondering what the heck I’m doing with my book that perhaps only I will ever love. But that, in and of itself, is enough for me – to be true to what my heart wants to share and express. That wouldn’t have been in the past when I was affected by other’s opinions of me or had a lesser version of self love, or what love in general really means.
I am grateful for my vision that can see beyond the current swirling of energy, as that is what anchors my peaceful embrace of it all and reminds me at any moment how it’s all necessary and key to keep riding those air currents flowing through.
Just as everything was dark in the wee hours today and I couldn’t see anything but swirling snow and wind, while a fog set in and covered the lake and everything around us, the light of day did come and the clouds parted, to reveal the splendor it was stirring into creation.
Interestingly, the same happened with my hair yesterday, as somehow an odd thing happened where for a moment my hair was deep lilac. I WAS wearing a big amethyst ring and a purple and pink top with spirals on it, so it was curiously peculiar my hair was reflecting this energy. My hair stylist was not worried though, as she said my hair follicles were really open and absorbing, so they just absorbed more pigments than normal and she knew that shampooing with a clarifying shampoo would immediately balance it back. And that’s exactly what happened without any cause for alarm, creating exactly what I’d envisioned and naturally balanced me out.
The New Moon really opened things wide, but we have to be willing to go through some moments of oddness, confusion, disarray, unknowns, periods of chaos and potential upheaval, before things settle into clarity and balance again.
This morning I was excited to see our new home and land with its first dusting of snow and this is what greeted us by the light of day.
I know so many are going through relationship shifts, job changes, moving to new homes, health crises, experiencing departures of loved ones, going through huge loss, and are at the precipice of making or needing to make huge leaps….Wishing everyone grace and ease with all the changes in life’s seasons you are experiencing and the ability to find peace within the chaos, and vision within the temporary fog.
As I shared, in the coming couple of months we’ll be moving into our new home and this will herald another leap of change in our lives. Of course these involve energetic shifts and openings, but I can literally see how these shifts have evolved and why, even just in terms of the homes we’ve been, and will be, living in. The journey is constantly humbling, as I review the course of my life and experiences that haven’t always been so clear to me, let alone clean and easy. Things are drastically different these days, but that has only been because of a continued commitment to delve deeper and not become complacent. To keep rising out of the ashes and do it another way. These days are times of unveiling and constant stripping away of comfort zones and veils that even the more conscious can easily pull, or have pulled, over themselves.
Everyone is going through a rewiring process and in some cases that leads to a richer and fuller embodiment than ever known, when embraced and implemented. And in some cases this can lead to a “shift or leave” syndrome we keep experiencing with so many departing this Earthly plane of existence.
There’s no right or wrong in this, but simply a choice. We are constantly presented choices, as this is a free will zone.
I definitely don’t do things in any perfected way and definitely have gone through some crazy stuff because I, too, understand the confusing, painful, challenging, and sometimes tormenting energy we have here to deal with.
It is through finding solace within my own voice that I experience peace and find the clarity that guides my way.
And recently that led us back to Lake Tahoe and we found ourselves in this “tree house” or “castle in the sky” at the highest point here being 7500 elevation that overlooks the lake.
It’s as if we physically manifested a realm to literally help us rise above things, to elevate us in this state of being in things, but not of them, so that we could suspend all the “noise” around us and receive clarity on our path….and peace within chaos.
From this place so much has streamed in, inspiration has channeled through, and creative manifestation has been able to take form in an all-encompassing and multi-dimensional way.
After being on the road and deeply immersed in Nature for over a year in the Magick bus, this state of suspension atop the air streams that blew in and all around us, supported an opening to take place that helped sift through all of our thoughts and ideas, so that we could hone in on the most effective and all-fulfilling path for us. It was no surprise to me that this has been during such huge times of shifting and upheaval the collective and Earth is experiencing.
It’s as if the winds that blew through here carried with them the whispers of collective thoughts and beliefs and I was experiencing it all swirl around me, but could then understand from this perspective how they were my choice to either grab from the air and attach to, or continue to allow them to stream by with gratitude for their reflection.
It is here that I completed the story that my book shares.
It is during our remodeling and transition phase that I edit it now.
And it will be in the new home where completion anchors and expands into the next phase.
We will be going from this elevated point that enabled expansive vision of sky and water (and review of multi-perspectives and potentials) to support our process….to a 900 feet drop in elevation to 6600 feet that will be rooting us into the abundant and mysterious forest for the next phase.
We’ll still be remaining at very high altitude, as this is where I thrive and feel most me, but with a new support system that will integrate the energy more (Earth and Cosmos as One), as well as deepen the creative inspiration into manifestation.
We’re dropping down a bit to merge with Nature more, rather than hover in the air above it. This also merges us back into things at large more too. And, it will bring us within closer proximity to getting to the lake for our water connecting – could even bike or walk there if we really wanted, or drive within minutes. Feels like the perfect happy medium for us at this stage and the seclusion and magick of the forest feels to nurture with the sense of sanctuary now desired.
I’ve also seen this shift take place with the plant friends I’ve surrounded myself with, which has grown since living here. I went from having only one plant on the Magick Bus (after I gifted away my mini garden I had at first to my friend in Montana), to now having seven little lush worlds with tons of plant beings in these magickal Faery gardens I’ve created to infuse my life with expansive energy.
The same has happened with crystal friends too. I had so very little crystals, after nearly all moving on in the time before leaping onto the Magick Bus, which continued when arriving here, but then had a small influx of new crystal beings coming in to support the creation of this new space and infuse our environment with the perfect energy needed. Some I felt were working in the now and others working in the new space that only existed in the ethers and would become anchors there once that timeline came into being.
I still have very very few crystals, especially considering I once lived in a crystal cave when I first moved out on my own to my space at the north end of Tahoe. But the few with me now are very deliberate and are shared between Astrid and myself, as well as support our family as a whole. And since we’re preparing to move, most are boxed right now except for a few in the space to support the change.
You’ve already seen Astrid’s Dendritic Opal and Rose Quartz Towers, so I’m only sharing the ones I haven’t yet. I haven’t posted much on crystals lately, but know that so many of you love them and enjoy shares on them. I have mentioned how many crystals I never had a huge draw to have come into my experience now, and so you’ll see some of those here.
The ones I’ve kept out for now are what you see in the photos here, which include my male and female Labradorite unicorns, a Lapis Lazuli fish, a Goldstone rabbit, an incredible Ocean Jasper sphere with portals and amazing naturally infused sacred circles in perfect geometric synergy throughout (hard to capture, but you can kind of see one of these in the photo), and this incredible Fluorite.
The Fluorite is like nothing I’ve seen and truly embodies the essence of my focus – merging Earth and Cosmos – as the bottom half is this exquisite layered journey through Earth’s womb in the brown and the top half is this ethereal experience of violet and white. Within each there are remnants of both interlaced, creating balance. And then we find sparks of rainbow and one larger one at top.
I just love it and knew immediately it was to come home and mirrored the journey I have been, and will continue, on.
Harmony within and without. 11:11 when I write that.
I love reflecting on and deepening into the processes and share them as a way for others to also see how we can utilize them to understand the why’s and to have gratitude for each piece and step of the way.
Even the not so fun, uncomfortable, challenging, and painful parts still apply to “life as an experience”and process we can teach ourselves to become more present to and receive the reflections of.
If I’d continued to circle round and round with my attachment to those times in my life, I would have remained stuck and could not have created something different, or perhaps would no longer be here even. Through trials and tribulations, trial and error, and experimentation, we reach a little further each time.
I don’t think it’s easy, but I do know anything is possible.
I now have new hurdles to jump if I want to continue to create more and what I feel called to bring forth, but with the experiences behind me, I have built strength and resilience to face them with a lighter approach.
Literally “dropping into” this new space, I invite a merging to take place that creates the space for more.
I’ve spent most of my life as a Southern California girl where weather is mild year round unless you drive to the mountains or way north or into neighboring states. That’s one reason why people love California so much and while that’s been what I always knew, I’ve longed for the changes that mirror my own. It’s such a gift to have that once again and for the long haul. For me, this experience of full immersion into the changes really enhances my experience of life, creates depth of presence, and enriches it all. I truly love the fullness of embodiment within and without.
I had opportunity to experience other climates and regions while living in the Seattle, WA area for a year, Sedona, AZ for a couple of years, Lake Tahoe and Reno, NV for 5 years, and traveling all over the world, which has really driven home to me the kind of things, weather, and energy that are nurturing to my soul and what nourishes thriving for my heart to create and be fueled with inspiration always.
I’m grateful to have found that.
Autumn is truly spectacular here and I so appreciate and love living in a place where I get to enjoy the four seasons and literally experience the reflections and wisdom of nature’s cycles. Everything we want to know can be found in nature.
The photos in this post share some Fall visions I’ve enjoyed with discoveries on the land of our new home to include trees and bushes bearing berries, shifting colors, small clusters of Fall-blooming pansies, and a favorite Manzanita tree that is truly a giant Bonsai Faery realm.
I’ve also included a photo of the five daffodil bulbs I planted (a gift from Faery sis Laura) and the dear Earthworm that gifted me his blessings on choice of planting location.
Today our new giant elders, guardians, wisdom keepers, and storyteller Austrian Pines are in process of being planted too, which is exciting! Three so far in and five to go.
I love all the magick Nature is revealing to me and the sweet relationship I have with her to gift her the same as she does me. I made a promise to the land, Faeries, and all Elementals of our new abode, and we’re keeping them. Little by little, we will merge our spirits as One through the creation of this sanctuary haven.
I’ve also included images from yesterday’s walk – I was able to do 2+ miles on flat trails along Zephyr Cove and Taylor Creek (one with and one without crutches), getting a chance to immerse in Nature’s beauty and light, as well as to see the gorgeous and symbolically potent salmon once again, while taking in the smells, crisp chilled air (in the 40’s), and gorgeous dance of colors.
At four weeks already, I’m on my way to hiking again soon! Yay!! Half way there!
Nature heals and we, too, can help heal Her.
Challenge Yourself to Find New Perspective & Create Balance While Moving Through the Times In Between
Finding gifts, meaning, purpose, opportunity for expansion and new perspectives, challenges to rise to and invoke greater creativity and imagination, the silver lining, and love in everything that shows up in my life is the way I choose to live and is what helps me to flow with the rapidly shifting experiences and potential hurdles that reflect themselves to me. There are many ways in which life can be lived, and many ways in which we can adapt our reactions into more conscious and present responses.
Currently, we have a lot going on here for the next few months, which could be stressful and debilitating if we allowed that to take hold, but each day I keep singing, giggling, and tackling each hurdle as they come, greeting each morning with gratitude and finding lightness in my approach and footstep I embark the moment’s journey on.
When I find myself caught up in the details, I remind myself of the bigger picture. And when the bigger picture seems too overwhelming, I focus on the moment and what I can do right here and now to the best of my ability. It’s a constantly evolving and continuously balancing dance to engage with ever-greater presence each day.
The Autumn beauty and light has painted its way into life here in the mountains, and it reminds me of how I can continually paint a new picture of how I want to be, the reality I choose to create, and the way I look at the world around me.
If there is something I don’t like, then I create more of what I do love. But to dwell in things feels counterproductive, except as fuel for the new. It is easy to become paralyzed by anger, fear, confusion, and over-thinking things. While I know of the dichotomy of experiences around me, I choose to be a creatrix of the way I want to see the world and send love to the things that need it.
Life is moving forward here, and alongside remodeling and preparations for moving, I am in the beginning stages of editing my book and have also begun some of the cleaning out for our new life in motion. It all feels very aligned with each other and aligned with Nature’s cycles. I’m definitely feeling that harvest of abundance, enjoyment of life’s gifts and nourishment, and also the preparation for Winter, and sense that Spring will be when all things come to blossom from this work and focus right now that is rich with gifts if I see it all that way and enjoy what each has to offer in the moment.
Official remodeling work begins tomorrow on the new home, and I’ve been slowly moving step-by-step through my book. If I were to think of all that needs to be done in a general way, that would likely throw me off center….instead I make lists of to-do’s and do what feels natural and in flow, but I don’t let it debilitate and stop me, otherwise nothing would get done. So even if it’s one small thing a day, this is still movement forward. I don’t judge the process.
And in the meantime, I pay attention to the sign posts and support that show up and I enjoy the discoveries along the way.
This has included seeing a lot of beauty in nature in what ever way I am able to with my still-healing-foot (which is at the half way point already at one month/4 weeks today!) – I’m about to head out later this afternoon for more – discovering new plants in our new yard each time I visit, planting 5 daffodil bulbs gifted to me by Faery Laura so we’ll have connected flowers come Spring, ordered our new Austrian Pines, already measured, mapped out, and ordered new things for my and Astrid’s room (it will be a bunny and Faery play world for creation making, imagining, and journeying), and have enjoyed some incredible new sightings and reflections.
These have included tons of hawks in the last couple of days….just Friday seeing 13 (a cool number) and extraordinary configurations I’d never seen, right after another. I’ve seen two hawks before sitting next to each other, which I did again, but right before them, literally several yards away, I saw THREE hawks sitting in a row, next to each other. Talk about incredible! Hawks are so dear to me and are my amazing navigators bridging Earth and Cosmos. They also always chime in with support and a thumb’s up that things are on track and magick is at hand!
I also saw out in a ranch field, what definitely appeared to be a fox, as it was very different than a coyote both in coloring and its physical appearance and attributes. I thought that was pretty darn cool, as it was the same day I reposted my black fox blog and had received a message from a friend that she just got a fox tattoo and we were discussing this energy abound for the collective right now.
So, I do find it hard to dwell in stresses or what seems wrong in the world, when so many things point to another possibility, perspective, and reality of things being aligned and on track…of support always around to help guide us another way if we in fact find things to be disappointing in other regards.
And as mentioned, I’ve already planned out my new room/office/Astrid’s sanctuary in the new home, which feels important and key to have that percolating and already imagined on a new plane of experience, and in the new reality unfolding. Since it always feels like the brain child of our home, where my office is, I feel like having already created/imagined this and put it in motion with planning it out on paper and already ordering things, seems to be anchoring all the new that is taking place there and will be.
I’m so excited about Astrid’s new things, which will be her Christmas gifts, since the timing will work out for that with move-in likely. I feel she is too and has had a hand in the planning of it all.
So, amidst the craze of things yet to do, and things in process, but not yet manifested, I am working with what is at hand and creating the reality of my visions on another timeline ahead of the now, but simultaneously merging.
There are infinite ways to approach life and to choose how to embrace it all. These are some of the ways I do and what makes life enjoyable every step of the way.
Find that balance and see how to temper things with the inversion of what’s possible on the other side.
Lee provides some wonderful insights to help out with the changing collective currents of energy for the month of October.
Key things that spoke to me (and I’ve been experiencing) included:
A huge shattering of belief collectively taking place
These are times of creation and birth – renewing our energy is a focal point and this can happen quickly now; we can let go faster than ever before
Forms are going through upgrades along with us and everything – things are producing and manifesting in different ways now so be patient if not showing up how you think they should
Let yourself change, trust who you are becoming, and go with it
Everything is moving very fast – the river of emotions can be moved in and out of quickly
Here’s Lee expounding on these and more:
I’ve never felt more myself than I do now at this point in my life…a feeling of returning back to my origins…of being most naturally me… Grounded and yet expansive. Inspired and free. New and old, Earth and Cosmos merging… There’s a wholeness that is anchoring and it feels like peace. I embrace my silver highlights from the Fae as the anchoring of ancient lineage coursing through my veins. I cherish the innocence of childlike purity that lights me from within like a star amidst the black of night.
And it is all rooted in love that takes me deeper daily into a return to natural harmony.
I am grateful and celebrate being.
Mine, yours, ours.
A friend saw my photo below and commented, “I can see dragon energy in your eyes.”
It made me take a second glance that took a hold of my spirit in a way I can’t explain.
I felt like I was home.
And indeed I am, which is being mirrored by our dream home we’ve anchored in.
I worked diligently with the Faeries and all Elementals, as well as the Animal Spirits (and some friends from beyond) of our new home and the land surrounding it to help align things and manifest it all. I knew the moment I stepped foot in it, it was the right house for us and that solidified when walking through the yard and the forest that surrounds it. I didn’t give up on it even when things could have gone different ways. The Faeries told me to trust and so I did. I always just know something and feel to the heart of things – that silver lining beyond the hurdles to get there.
And oh the magick that will be woven here!
It will take several months of craziness with remodeling and prep, but the Faeries are excited about the new energy and this haven being created for them and all of us to share. Much will evolve over time, even after the main work is done, since we can’t do anything to the yard until after Winter’s snow except plant eight new 12 foot Austrian Pines for now to create our sanctuary, which up here need to be in by October 15th due to very strict planting restrictions. So, I’m excited to have some new tree friends to join the forest collective.
These photos are taken on site, pre-changes, and reflect a new me rooting with the heart of this land and home, inside and out.
I’d just done some braiding magick with my hair the night before, turning myself into Pippi Longstocking – one of my fav styles for a wild, easy, and free mane. Not to mention, makes me feel like all of the parts of myself beyond this human experience of Tania.
It’s also the first time my silver is really stepping out in a big way. Normally you see the chunks laced through my hair, when it’s straighter, but with braiding it really creates a whole other effect that integrates it and spreads it around in a way I imagined myself to look in my sage years – AND how I look beyond what you know of me.
So fun to see that now, and what it draws forth from within my spirit to emerge. I have always been a lover of dichotomy and felt like a walking one – now more than ever!
And I LOVE how Astrid and I have the exact same hair colors just blended in different ways, which is incredible given I had no idea she was the one coming home with me. Just the other day I was laying next to her on the ground in my Reiki workshop and Bean said, “omgosh your hair is exactly the same color as hers.” This wasn’t the first time, as both Marcy and Sharon had said the same on the day I adopted her. We ARE one and the same….a witchy faery and her familiar for sure. 😉
I’m sure there are many who might not understand why I would enhance my already silver stripes growing in my hair, or think I look better with their version of “ideal,” but it’s simply my way of feeling most myself and revealing who I really am. I don’t mind having something associated with “old” mixed in with otherwise “young” looking things.
Perhaps these are both inversions of the oneness that is innocence.
I don’t strive to fit in. I live in a reality of my own creation.
I just want to be me…..the lifetimes and eons of me, here and now.
While others might feel more aligned with doing everything to look younger or create longevity, I’m just comfortable in feeling at home and desiring creative expression and quality versus quantity of life for however long that is meant to be.
I still get told I look half my chronological age, but now my hair throws in a curve ball, which to me feels more aligned because while physically I may be one thing, in heart and spirit there is quite another going on.
I feel both that heart of a child skipping with Mother Nature and also sometimes feel like Father Time spiraling through the cycles.
I’ve written about the “silver lining” before and how this approach to life has trickled into embodiment for me by literally turning into silver-streaked hair. Had you asked me years ago if I’d be proudly wearing silver hair, I’d likely had thought no way, but I’ve learned that things turn on a dime. Just as certain trajectories we were on have shifted into new, merged versions that encompass a higher good.
Before I felt like there were multi-paths I was working on all at once, and now it feels like they’ve merged together, providing all the same things and possibilities, but integrated.
Kind of like having silver hair and yet dressing, looking, or otherwise being what you’d think is opposite to that. It’s all connected and more and more we are breaking down limiting ideas and rules and creating new versions of experiencing everything aside from conditioning.
Hard to explain, but it feels good and allows me the ability to root further, play more, and rest along the way.
This feels to be the reflection of my hair, as well as our home.
There’s a sense of returning home and yet the irony is, we never left.
It’s simply the journey made conscious and our origins actualized for our human beingness to realize.