Rebirthing seems to be a theme running through the collective and just today it came through to me through five different streams of experiences and messages from others. One of them being Astrid, as rabbits reflect this symbolism well. She’s been very eager the last couple of days to not only nudge me hard at my ankle, but has bee-lined to me in order to grab a hold of my pant leg with her teeth to get my attention.
Likely she knew of the energy overload I was experiencing and the upgrade about to take place, but it also seems she’s been really keen on my being with her so that we can navigate the unknowns together.
Rabbits are very at home in the labyrinth Netherworld where intricate underground passageways and dark twisting tunnels are the norm and where they feel secure navigating their travels by intuition and inner light alone.
Change is no stranger to them and they are accustomed to making decisions in the face of fear and maintain peaceful focus amidst chaos.
After all, their survival relies on it.
This sense of self and ingenuity is a gift that reflects to us our ability to master the same within us awaiting our reclaiming.
As Lee shared in his December Energy Update yesterday, “We are built to handle change.”
And as the ever-rebirthing rabbit says, “You, too, can get in touch with change and ride the sands of time, as the seasons weave their cycles.”
Astrid knows change very intimately and has braved the new every step of the way. Recently she shared about her own upgrade to a Castle Tower, and while it had mirrored our own shifts up until then, it was also foreshadowing more change upcoming for me.
That hit yesterday, as I’ve added a heap load of new into my life recently (including a wave of new energy painting) and its been a process to integrate a balanced schedule with it all.
I’ve been feeling a build-up of energy in a way I can’t describe and it catapulted me to this suspended point outside of this or that. It released tethers that provided any sense of familiarity and detached me even more.
Astrid says, “This is the Cosmic way, and when you are at home within this unknown, you realize the power of your own inner light above all else.”
It keeps coming at me with the expression of new inspiration and focuses, along with the stripping away of layers, the joy of surrendering things to others ready to own their own level of responsibility and reclaiming, and the deepening gratitude that stretches me to farther reaches of heart generosity that lives for today.
Astrid often sits tall and looks me straight into my heart with piercing wisdom that seems both so far away and so tangibly rich.
She says, “This is because I reflect the heart’s Great Mystery that can only be experienced by way of both loving and letting go more. Then you experience the vastness and beautiful complexity of Cosmic Love.”
She continues sharing “This overload of energy is a liminal space you’ve been experiencing as a compilation of layering new pieces onto pieces you don’t want to forget, while juggling ways to hold them within the still limited version of unrealized potential, rather than relaxing into these things already being who you are. The reminders have already done their work and the memory can now let go into the ease of embodiment. It’s time to create from the impetus of fertile inspiration and allow these to rebirth completely anew.”
And so, yesterday, my mini Notebook (the computer I’ve been using the last 5 years) finally and fully overloaded. I’ve been receiving messages from it over the past few months that there was no space remaining and our attempts to delete things went in vein.
Then my computer said, “No more.”
Just as Astrid said, “Come join me as you already are.”
Ironically and synchronously this took place yesterday directly after I posted Lee’s December Energy Update and right after I received an email from a very special spirit and artisan who after a couple of months since onset of our correspondence, had completed creating “a celestial muse” she was working on in collaboration with me that happens to embody “creation” and not surprisingly, but without me saying anything, wove the song of my heart into being.
It just so happened that I was ready for this, as anything of importance to me – truly only my new novel – is stored on a tiny little chip, and things that might “seem” important, but speak of the old days for me, were surrendered away. I let it all go, including several years of saved emails and work correspondence from days of the past and embraced Dave’s extra, heavy duty computer as my new replacement, which I’ve been using for our shared side business bookkeeping.
The overload caused everything to run in circles, take forever to implement, reverse working at all without hours of dissecting, and simply not listen to or understand commands.
In essence, I would not be moving forward unless I walked into a much more expansive field where pieces are not even present to remind me and only embodiment speaks for itself.
All of the new energy couldn’t keep piling on to things working in the background and using up space in one way or form. A larger playing field within the vortex of my heart had to be opened where things move freely and are simply an intrinsic part of me.
I said goodbye to the memories while closing all access of return and this new and vastly larger platform now provides the space for that “impetus of fertile inspiration” Astrid spoke of.
Better yet, I have no attachment to it and anything on it, which feels extra freeing, as I don’t feel the computer to be mine. It is more of a portal and conduit to bring things through, but to shut away and detach from at end of each day.
And then today, some wonderful and full circle soulful unfoldings took place when the perfect guardian said yes to my passing on three sacred items that speak of what has been some of the greatest importance to me and my lifetimes, which I only recently had also been nudged to surrender over in trust.
Astrid was specifically involved in this, literally getting my attention and moving these pieces into my awareness.
I couldn’t ask for a wiser companion.
I’ve also found myself giving out in bigger ways than ever lately, feeling that vastness and abundance, without need to hold on. There are infinite ways for things to come about. To hold onto something as an idea of insurance was also robbing the good it could do in so many other ways now, including the very way I thought it might one day help.
Astrid has been quite the muse in all of this – amusing and musing!
When I do something from that infinite place she binkies with delight – I call it a Cosmic Binky.
When I’m missing the point or urgency, she grabs hold of my pant leg.
When I’m “getting it” and download her wisdom, she peers deeply through me in her Buddha Bunny- like stance with eyes dark as the Cosmos and a twinkle of starlight at center.
This morning, as we were still prepping Dave’s computer for me I was upstairs at our usual Ask Astrid blog time so Queen Astrid came running upstairs to get me. She waited patiently beneath the graceful towering giraffes – her grounded sentinels of grace and divine purpose.
From there she was downloading today’s message, as she helped me to connect the dots with all the latest happenings.
Every day a new layer of fine-tuning is integrated.
She reminded me that every time my energy gets an “upgrade,” so do my computers and cell phones.
And we both know that this is true for many of you out there as well.
Our energy shifts affect things around us.
Rabbits are finely attuned to energies and reflect them to the tiniest degree.
My two other rabbits, Nestor and Joy, used to have physical blow-outs because of the expansive energy they would channel and their bodies had to readjust, which isn’t the easiest always for bunnies.
Astrid is much better at managing her energy and wants me to understand those tweaks and fine-tunings that can help with optimizing my own.
This time it wasn’t about forcing a change by crashing my computer and losing things, but more about mindfulness that gave me the option of tweaking realizations and moving forward more effectively and in bigger ways.
As we go through changes, which right now everyone is experiencing in varying degrees of relative intensity, there are ways to tune into those little tweaks so that we can all optimize our energy.
Sometimes they’re easier to see and feel than others, so reflections like these can assist us.
For me, it seems Astrid is sharing that just as she fully chewed down and got rid of her Carrot Cottage so it no longer takes up any space, in order to make space for her Castle Tower, so too did I need to look at the tiny ways space was being held by things I already embody.
I had even saved the top roof of the Carrot Cottage with the idea to create a little house upstairs for her and she was not interested in the least bit.
So I’ve since removed it completely once she said, “I told you we’re done mom. I love the memories it held of my being welcome to my forever home, but our love is now permanent and the cardboard house takes up space our hearts can use to create and anchor new growth in.”
So, in reflection, while I may have given up the work and things of the past, if it still sits there even as storage space on a computer, or as an item tucked away on a shelf, they’re still taking up space I could breathe more freely in and by removing them I brush away the dust of memories and awaken the sparkle of birthing new stars.
Astrid smiles. “Change is like the beautiful birth of a star.”
Continued self-love, nurturing, and gentle kindness toward yourself is important to remember and implement, as the strong energy waves of change keep sweeping through. Ups and downs are not unusual while we ride these currents, but breaking the patterns of how we experience things can be possible.
Emotions continue to rise and we are called to greater ways of working with these feelings both around us and within us.
“We are built to handle change,” Lee shares. We can harness our fear and learn to transmute it.
Listen through to the end for a clip from this month’s MP3 from The Portal.
Oh yes! It’s no surprise this energy update resonates hugely and after hearing from all of the participants of our Equinox gathering, I imagine for many many others too. Today, for me has rebirthed a new era, which indeed includes an identity shift, but more so, a complete frequency shift into my soul song signature. I forgot that on each first of the month Lee puts out his energy updates, and so when I heard it this morning it was another confirmation of everything that added to the big smile in my heart.
Astrid has been so excited this morning, running around and jumping on our bed with bursts of energy. I actually caught a small video of it I’ll be posting on Instagram shortly. I also began my feminine cycle this morning igniting a full new cycle in every and all ways and indicates full alignment of this rebirth I’ve been supporting and following.
Key points you’ll discover in Lee’s energy update includes talking about soul contracts changing – something that anchored in for me even more this past week on every level personally and inter-personally, along with the reflection he goes on to discuss that may take place with the identity shifts and soul contract changes.
He shares that this is also a time of inner work before the outer manifests.
A time for working hard on bringing new dreams and visions forth in this next cycle.
That there’s opportunity to shift faster than ever out of the old in every way right now and that new realities are beckoning.
He ends with some thoughts about life force energy rising and how this is an era of kundalini. Synchronously this was a topic spoken about in our Equinox workshop a bit and with a participant after, where I briefly shared my own experiences around this.
This energy is wanting to birth new and Lee poses the question, are you feeling or thinking your way through things when you’re hesitant about them? You can listen to the video for some good advice around this and to understand the natural movement of this energy that is heralding big and new things in.
Once again, nurturing yourself is important and Lee shares how this invites your soul in and creates a synergy of working with it, rather than against it.
A perfect message for this day and new cycle.
I also love the snippet of his sound channeling at the end – another topic very dear to me that I brought through for the Equinox gathering and I sense will eventually be coming through more in the future.
Happy October and new beginnings!
Autumn is definitely in the air and I find myself busy like the squirrels and chipmunks here preparing for things, including this Saturday’s Equinox and our workshop event taking place. We have an incredible group joining us from all over – people are flying in from Wisconsin, Texas, Arizona, Oregon, and Southern California, with a few people driving in from Northern California. And of course my co-partner and Faery in all of this, Laura, is flying in from Michigan to join me here in Lake Tahoe, Nevada. Quite the gathering of incredible souls, which is sure to make for some powerful activations.
Because of this and Laura’s being here for a week, I won’t be blogging until I’m back to being on my own again here (last few days of September), as these in-person gatherings with her tend to be very potent time portals for us to anchor in the next legs of the journey. So, we’ll be fully immersed, just as we will be on the Equinox with everyone. Faery mischief and mystery awaits!
Also very excited for Laura to meet her niece, Astrid, for the first time in person, although they’ve already met virtually and know each other from long ago. 😉
Anyway, I just wanted to let you know why you may not be hearing from me for a little bit and thought to send you off some of the Autumn magick already beginning here. Soon all of the beautiful warm colors will fill the forests and Winter will be close at hand.
I sense an earlier Winter this year and perhaps a colder one. Looking forward to the seasonal shifts and a new cycle of life for me here shortly, beginning the 1st of October.
What are you looking forward to?
Welcome September! The change of seasons has been slowly descending upon the land, casting a warm, golden glow, as the light shifts daily. There’s been a lovely crispness in the air with chilly evenings enveloping us here with thoughts of cozy fires, nostalgic aromas, and the turning of leaves. All of this inspiring new waves of energy, ideas, and visions to bring through a burst of freshness.
Have you been feeling the transitioning of seasons too?
We are still about three weeks away from the Equinox, but preparations have begun.
Here at the Forest Portal I’ve immersed in Autumnal things including baking and cooking yesterday and this morning for guests arriving this evening for Labor Day weekend. I made root veggie-based curry and enchiladas, as well as two Dutch cocoa, cacao, coffee, walnut orange-infused bundt cakes (one simply the chocolate and coffee blend and the other with the added fun).
I’ve been listening to inspiration on some new upcoming small paintings and surrendering my novel writing to allow guidance for fresh ideas to come while I prepare for another cycle of devoted work and cocooning again soon.
I also completed my cosmic shamanic staff for the upcoming Fall Equinox “Living a Magickal Life workshop and gathering event. (There is just two weeks left to grab the remaining spot for this – 9/15 is the last day to register) But wow! Is all I can say. I’ve never made anything like this and how it all came together and the result is more than I could have imagined. It’s definitely the portal opening staff I knew I was meant to create.
That happened on Thursday and the same evening was our last Music on the Beach event of the Summer where I saw the biggest shooting star I’ve ever seen, in slow motion move across the sky and then plummet behind the mountains on the other side of the lake. No on else saw it. The cosmic influences are strong lately and I’ve been immersed in meditational expansions to assist these shifts.
And on the more mundane level, but equally potent, I’ve been doing a huge closet purge and revamp, which I’m trying to finish today, gave Wonderland a full cleaning and have welcomed in new energies to help enchant the shared creative space with Astrid for our upcoming hunkering down with writing again come October 1st.
Dave and I also signed up to begin a new wellness program on October 2nd based here at the new state-of-the-art athletic training center here in Tahoe. Something very not my usual thing, but the uniqueness of this program coupled with my shifts and feeling well being at the forefront of things while I move forward into a soulfully challenging next phase, all made it very clear, intuitively, that this was the next step.
We’re both healthy (in fact as a full-circle and reset button I had my first yearly wellness, full physical and blood work done in over 20 years just recently – all normal) and do a lot of outdoor things, but this will help up the game for us and continue assisting Dave with rehabilitation from his surgery to get back out there in peak condition for skiing.
They cater to all levels of fitness and rehab needs through internationally acclaimed performance coaching to help maximize athletic performance for athletes or active, recreational lifestyles for outdoor living – hiking, biking, skiing, kayaking, etc. So, we’re pretty excited about that since not only do their experts help with balance of coordination and conditioning, but there are classes you can attend alongside your training.
So that will be interesting and great. Only other thing I’ve ever done in any similar fashion was when I was 21-23 and trained hardcore with a personal trainer and then on my own at a regular gym.
This is completely different.
I’ve since been on my own flowing wavelength of wellness and now incorporating a very supportive, flowing, but skilled level of conditioning, which mirrors a new path I’m on in general with all the new. Very nurturing, expanding, strengthening, and taking things to a different level.
I always like to see the synergy at work with what shows up through choices and alignments.
Anyway, recently since Wednesday there’s been some kind of time warp or timeline shift, as I’ve experienced being a day ahead of the day at hand. Apparently, I wasn’t the only one, as Laura shared the same thing happening to her at the same time.
Even Astrid has been in a mode of digging lately so I’m looking into creating her own digging box so she doesn’t need to dig out the crystals in the fireplace or the kitty litter box. The digging deeper metaphor is resonant.
She’s also gone through fur shedding again, revealing so many complex images and symbols, including a lot of hearts showing up and things that looked like rebirthing reflections. This “skin” shedding metaphor appearing once again.
Which reminds me of one of last night’s potent dreams that involved a rabbit and a snake. The end result was the snake bit my right hand on the bottom side of the palm very deliberately and without fear on my part. In fact, so much without fear that I was not wanting medical attention regardless of there being potential it might be poisonous. It was unsure in the dream if the snake was poisonous or not, but I was not jumping at caring about treating it.
Definite transformational energy in motion and seems I want to immerse in the venomous juices of that with all of me.
This is about the third time I’ve dreamed of a snake/s biting me – all at very pivotal points on my journey.
All this to say, Autumn shifts are settling in and I’m finding the effects in my life to be very positive and expansive in potentials.
This reminds me of these words I’ve shared before, but feel inspired to share again:
There is indeed a continuum of increasing shifts and transitions taking place for everyone on so many levels, which brings us yet again to approaching another seasonal transformation, both within and without.
Yes, Autumn is closing in upon us, and that heads us toward a period of less “light out there” so that we find the source of true “light in here” – within you. This is a time to make friends with your own inner darkness and nurturing it, as this engaged healing integration is vital for soul growth.
Nature reminds us that we need to relinquish the need to hold on tightly with fear and to trust in the process – to allow ourselves to have everything we thought we knew about ourselves to be stripped away, only to discover a greater truth to our authenticity beneath the temporary structures.
And in the process you’ll discover the only thing that is eternal is the core essence of who you are beneath the temporal layers. You learn then that the rest isn’t as serious as you make it and is simply part of the journey to that core.
We let go, just as the trees effortlessly allow their leaves to shift colors and float off in the wind. We embrace the only permanence, which is change. And we take grateful stock of what we do have, while preparing for a new birthing that will be incubating during the symbolic stillness.
Seasonal transitions mirror the evolution of human consciousness and the dynamic shifts of life cycles.
The eternal cycles of birth and death, creation and destruction – all teach you the wisdom of harmonic co-existence. One thing does not exist without the other and through each you learn of your wholeness and cultivate courage and endurance to face that which is over, the past, the old – what must die within you – and trust in the abundant gifts that will come with the embrace of that release.
You become a conscious and active partner in the rebirthing process, as you walk through the flames of destruction with grace.
I leave you with this image. I wish I knew who the artist is, but it is an image a friend once sent me and it feels so perfectly reflective of what I feel and sense all around this time period.
May all possibilities be open to you.
In the secret garden of my dreams and imagination, many visions are growing, blossoming, and in some ways just now seeding for creative manifestation, although much more singular-focused than my past has journeyed through. It’s exciting to begin fresh and listen to the song of my heart. I imagine many of you are feeling that bubbling thrill of possibilities ahead of you and likely are also recreating your life in ways that align with and help draw in more of that reality you envision.
In the midst of this shift from old to new, I’ve found myself redecorating, planting new succulents, gridding my space with anchoring energies, and moving things around in my Wonderland office to reflect the shifting energies, as well as to create the optimal environment that will support, nurture, and inspire the many hours, days, and months ahead that I will be channeling creatively here.
Some energies have assisted with getting where I am now, but have come to the end of their road as well. While others continue to be life-long partners or still have more work to do with me and Astrid.
Do you find yourself always refreshing things in your work and living space? You may also do this with other or all areas of your life. I know I do because it helps when we are matching the frequency of what we’re drawing into our experience, just as a magnet easily brings to it the same.
If not and you’re feeling stuck, unclear, or uninspired, try moving things around, painting a wall a different color, bringing more light into a room, or adding a little something fresh – even a vase of flowers, a new plant, or a small piece of art that speaks to you can make a difference.
I find the same goes for clothes, where I either move things out when I go through big changes, or I get inspired to mix and match in new ways.
Life is definitely a work of art to me that I paint new everyday and flowing with those creative energies that cycle through has been one of the most supportive things I find that really helps keep things invigorated and cultivates clarity and alignment.
As I’ve shared in my previous post, I’ve been prepping to hunker down come end of September after our Fall Equinox “Living a More Magickal Life” workshop event and visiting/igniting things with Laura that week, so this has been a great space for getting everything set up, putting to rest some little projects around the home I wanted to do, researching, and finalizing this last month of to-do’s.
I’m almost done with the crystal staff I’ve long been wanting to create – I’ve had the wood for almost a year and it will be done in a few more days, which feels important for the Equinox ceremony we’ll be doing during the workshop event.
And speaking of shifts, we’ve had an opening come up in our Living a More Magickal Life workshop – but in the interim we’ve also felt that our original cut-off number of attendees was not aligning anymore with what we’re tuning into, so with this opening we can accommodate one more. If you feel called that registration ends 9/15. It’s always interesting to see what group forms for events such as these. My contribution to the event has been morphing and will be a powerful ending for me to go out with for this part of my ending path.
However, something that might be showing up again (in a different way) soon for me is painting, as I’ve had the feeling it will be a good partner to the heavy writing work upcoming. It will also be good prep for another project that is ahead down the path, in getting me back into that painting flow. I’ll be feeling that out in the coming weeks, but if so, I foresee some small pieces of art available that will be the product of this flow of energy channeling through. I’ll keep you posted, but most of this will likely show up on my Instagram, so keep an eye out there for any surprises.
And this leads me to those shifting energies that has again released some crystal friends of both mine and Astrid’s to anyone who feels they would be the supportive partners to your new and shifting world. Astrid has since drawn in a couple of new friends, and is ready to move on fully from her last crystal buddy. I’m constantly fascinated by this process, and the fluidity I have with it now whereas in my past I held on to things.
This includes the following four friends.
Everything is Reiki-infused, charged, and cleansed before journeying to your home.
A gorgeous rare and quite large Black Ammonite Pair that originates from the magical island of Madagascar, one of the most energy-filled centers on the planet. These hold very ancient, healing energy, and deep/root/origin wisdom.
I love the dark connecting with the hidden and shadowy recesses, but also the sparkly inner realm of it that shares how light is inherent in it all.
These fossils are between 135-395 million years old and bring the energy of Ammonite – activators of our metaphysical gifts and inter-dimensional exploration. When placed on the third eye chakra, Ammonite reveals the soul’s path, which is encoded within it. It is also useful to support rebirthing and is a powerful cleanser of any hindering patterns, helping one release mental obsessions and important past life issues.
Feng Shui masters call Ammonite the seven color prosperity stone because it’s believed not only to stimulate the flow of life force energy through the body, but to be exceedingly fortunate for abundance, vitality, health, and promoting beneficial business ventures.
These have been extremely powerful for all that I’ve currently put in motion and a lot of soul retrieval and remembering.
Black Ammonite Pair (come with two stands to hold them nicely when not working with them – perfect for an altar space) – $110 + shipping (a separate invoice will be sent once shipped) – SOLD
This beautiful very pink Rose Quartz Cathedral Tower (with yellow/gold inclusions) was first purchased for Astrid when she came home to me last year to assist her with her healing and opening journey.
The Rose Quartz will infuse your space with Universal and unconditional love, self love, motherly and nurturing love, purification and opening of the heart, restoration of trust and harmony, deep inner healing, peace, calmness and reassurance, comforting with grief, cleansing of negative/triggering/challenging energies, and graceful energy of the Heart Chakra.
There are many rainbows throughout and the bottom (which has a naturally raw edge on part of it – this isn’t chipped) is a lovely and potent hexagon. I love raw edges and openings, as they feel to be places energy flows from, as well as create that perfect imperfection and nature of essence.
A beautiful, sweet and potent crystal that channels focused energy and of course has an extra Astrid infusion.
Astrid’s Rose Quartz Tower – $121 + shipping (a separate invoice will be sent once shipped) – SOLD
Then we have this super sweet, but potent little magick wand, which is so graceful, elegant, and simple. It is not one that I made, but my first larger wand I picked up in Sedona. Before that I only had a mini Faery wand that has since moved on to a lovely new guardian.
It is made of Red Oak for the wand and then has copper beautifully wrapped around a Quartz point at the end. It’s been cleansed and activated in Oak Creek and journeyed with me on our Magick Bus adventure.
Magick crystal wand – $45 + shipping (a separate invoice will be sent once shipped) – SOLD
And last, this lovely and elegant Selenite wand, which makes a wonderful partner for clearing, clarity, balance, purification, deep peace, expanding awareness, opening the crown and higher crown chakras, connecting with angelic consciousness and higher guidance.
It’s also great for working with flexibility of the spine and supporting the skeletal system, while being an effective tool and partner for chakra cleansing and harmony.
It is like liquid light, as you can see here, just glowing and illuminated in the Sun’s energy.
It’s the perfect size and smoothness for holding, traveling, and working with and has an incredibly perfect, sharp point and rounded bottom.
Selenite Wand – $12 + shipping (a separate invoice will be sent once shipped) – SOLD
Also, for anyone interested, I have a collection of 7 books on Reiki that I’m clearing off my shelves in order to make room for a bunch of books I’ve recently brought into my life. And being that I’m moving away from that part of my life, I felt I would offer these.
Some are very new and forward ideas and others are in line with the teachings I’ve been taught and passed on. In any event, if you’re interested in exploring and widening your scope of Reiki and exploring ideas that might trigger or support your own creative and intuitive practice, I’ll offer these for shipping costs only. If no one is interested I’ll donate them to our local library, as they have a book exchange where you can donate books and take home books in place of them.
I’ve used a highlighter in 4 of them when I first read them, but they are all in perfect condition otherwise and retail in total at $138.73
If interested, you can message me, but please do so by Monday morning the 27th (that’s two days from now), as I’ll be going to the library then. First come, first served.
That’s it for now….until the next round of changing seasons.
Here’s to reinvigorating energy and new adventures!
I consistently see how the more we align with nature and the natural rhythms and cycles she reflects, the more life becomes a seamless experience without need to analyze and dissect what’s playing out. You may have noticed another shift into a more inward time period, with both challenges met – if you are trying to control things – or propulsion – if you are flowing with the nudges to redirect energies. This, of course, being a Mercury Retrograde influence, but truly it’s simply an ebb and flow of life.
Our minds enjoy wrapping their tentacles around understanding things, so to have those reiterations and details to link the “why’s” helps to appease that need.
This is shared for that part of the brain to help make sense of things I’ve been hearing people going through right now.
Mercury Retrogrades are times to really be gentle and kind to self and others, to release judgment and attachment, and to let go of trying to control things which only causes frustration, while you wind along meandering paths that have purpose even though you can’t see it quite yet.
They draw attention more inward, speak to completing things so you’re ready for the new, and help you to harness more effectiveness for that new.
It’s a time for processing and assimilating like the ever-growing, chewing and grinding teeth of a rabbit that helps digest new insights and perspectives available at this time for you to recognize.
Overall, this is the period of multiple r’s – reviewing, releasing, reclaiming, retrieving, recreating, renewing, reflection, and responsibility.
It’s natural to have these evolutionary processes as part of your life, so while Retrogrades may seem like the hidden enemy, they are actually quite supportive and productive if you choose to learn the language of this energy moving through you to support greater self-mastery.
As I reflect on my current situation, I can see how this is playing out naturally and supportively without my having planned or manipulated things and so, too, do I feel it is happening for each of us in relative ways although we may think otherwise.
I’ve currently found myself in organizing and finalizing mode, completing and preparing things, and clearing the slate, as I check off things one-by-one on my list.
Synchronously, I signed with my editor on the 13th, which catapulted me getting into the retrograde mode before its setting in on the 26th of July and I am set to receive it back by the 17th of August – the Retrograde ending the 18th.
I also have my last Reiki 3 Master Teacher workshop being taught on the 18th – it was moved by request of a student coming, which aligns with finalizing energy since it’s the last of that genre I’m teaching.
An interesting side note to that, which seems to be verifying this completion is that I discovered I lost a key chain. Not just any key chain, mind you. My Reiki key chain.
I recently just discovered that the quartz key chain with the word and symbol for Reiki engraved on it, cleanly broke off a very strong, thick chain that hung with my keys and other fun key chains. I’ve had it on there for years and to have it disappear speaks volumes to my being in alignment with this knowing that I’ve come full circle after teaching for 11 years. I love that the remaining key chains are a giant plush, pink bunny head I received as a free gift and a squeezable rainbow unicorn that poops rainbow sparkles when you squish her that my sweet Faery friend, KC – aka Bean – gave me. LOL! Speaks to my life.
Interesting for sure how the ending and new beginning of Reiki and my book, placing me on a different path and the timelines falling on the Retrograde ending, will put me in a new creation mode to work on a revision once things go direct. It’s like the passing of the baton. 🙂
People have asked what the book is about and when it is coming out, to which I’ve shared being guided to keep it a surprise (no one but myself and my editor have read the full story) and that I don’t know when it will be available, as I still have much to go before it will be out there. Perhaps next year – that seems feasible – but I won’t know for sure for some time, as I’m taking it step-by-step with full commitment to the thorough, patient process. Since it is my first book of this nature and like my baby, it needs its cultivation and nurturing process, as well as some very deep challenges to rise to with it.
So, I’ve been finishing things and preparing for when the book is returned, as I will have a lot of work ahead that will need my complete focus and will ask for a fresh new perspective and a fresh new me to dive into again.
I’ve been playing in the expansive field of potentials, dreaming and believing the impossible made possible, and taking actions, even if just energetic commitments, to solidify my partnership with the energy streams I travel.
I’m utilizing this time period to nurture myself and put things to rest, have read and am reading a bunch of books including a new one by a published author I’m reviewing, have been nurturing my plants, getting everything out of the way, preparing for an upcoming trip, and took some little side-detour creative time to help with that refresh.
It was funny because I got off the phone the other day with a friend and said to him, “I should go tend to my garden now,” referring to my plants and flowers I was working on before we got on the phone. He emphasized, “yes, you should go tend to your garden” and we both giggled at the metaphor of life we both recognized and he added he couldn’t let that one go without pointing it out – especially after the very complex journey we’d explored in conversation.
I’m also writing this as my last blog for a while, unless I have time for some short inspiration, as we are heading off this Friday morning for a small vacation for 10 days. This also seems perfect, as we will be attending two weddings at both ends of the trip, seeing friends and family that we haven’t seen for a long time, touching in for a few days in our old home base of Orange County and likely get to explore our favorite Crystal Cove again, and getting some relaxing, integration, and inspiration with time at the ocean in between at Pismo Beach.
We had planned to go to Yosemite, but changed plans due to Dave still healing and unable to hike extensively since his labrum repair surgery and due to fires near that area that didn’t make it optimal. We later learned they had closed Yosemite for the first time (not sure if it’s open again), but it all seemed aligned with our feeling the ocean was a better nurturer right now to take us somewhere different than our usual mountain and forest surroundings, and to the Pacific coast that we both love.
We return the 12th, still within the retrograde, in time to prep for the Reiki workshop and receiving my book back.
And speaking of last workshops (since I’ll be away while one of the registration deadlines roll around), if you want to join the last Reiki 3 Master Teacher workshop on Saturday, August 18th, as a new or review student, you can still register or let me know by August 11th.
And if you’re still interested in the Saturday, September 22nd Fall Equinox “Living a More Magickal Life” workshop event with Laura Bruno and myself, we have 2 of the 12 spots remaining. The last day to register for that is September 15th.
You can find links to both here: Workshop Updates
Retrogrades are a good time to complete and release things that no longer support your highest good, put to rest old “stuff”, have more patience and light-heartedness about things, take time for yourself away from it all, slow down and be still to receive, cleanse your life on all levels, focus on intentions you want to put out to the Universe, be more present in your life and with others especially in terms of more heart-based communication, listen and go within, and realize it’s not all that serious.
Things are always unfolding for the highest good even though you don’t feel like that’s the truth because it’s hard to embrace when you’re attached to outcomes and definitions of things.
You can utilize determination during this time to help carry out visions and goals, but remain flexible. You will also need to stay on top of your willpower, as illusions and immediate pleasures may easily sway you. Yes, that means more shadow work to help you to integrate and balance and be able to see things clearly. People and things that trigger us need to be looked at, not pushed away, in order to understand the trigger and what it is telling you about yourself and hidden feelings you may be afraid to see or acknowledge within.
Do you secretly envy someone or wish to be more like that which annoys you? Is the thing that is bothering you about them, a quality you, yourself possess, and therefore if you integrate it yourself with love, can transform your experience of self and others? Is the quality that you fear or cast out in another, a part of you that if nurtured, could really catapult your passionate life?
What are you willing to do and give up short-term for the things you desire? Your strength, will, determination and focus are key now, along with the flexibility to know when to flow so you maintain balance of mind, body, and spirit.
This isn’t so much the time for doing, as it is for being, so all of this is done on the inner planes and if done with commitment to the process of you, you will reap the benefits of the Retrograde, rather than feel controlled and beat down by it.
Keep the faith and lovingly nurture yourself and others during this time. The more you practice these things, the more you can discover how Retrogrades can be powerful, catapulting times.
I’ll see you again soon!
Just a heads up that I’m in the process of making changes to prepare for what’s upcoming, as well as to close doors on the old. I found it synchronous that today, as I made the phone calls and took the steps to put these in motion, was actually the day seven years ago that I first released my e-book version of Spiritual Skin. It wasn’t long after, that I then made available the hard copy and kindle version and today I’ve put in motion releasing that associated website and email address for my book, altogether. I’ve also released my old Tania Marie website and now you can access this blog via either domains of www.taniamarie.com or the current you know of www.taniamarieartist.wordpress.com.
For now, I’m keeping my associated email address for that domain name, as it’s connected to too many things I don’t have time and focus to handle currently, but you will not be able to contact me via the Spiritual Skin email.
While the website for this first book I self-published will no longer be, you will still be able to purchase copies on Amazon – the only way to do so going forward.
Extra reiteration that that part of my life had come full circle were reflected in at least two books I know of that came out after mine – one that actually used my book title in theirs coming out almost 2 years later – and one recently that came out last year that ironically I was sent by the author’s marketing help to potentially review. I haven’t yet been able to read the book, but in scanning it, I was intrigued how similar it was to my own.
We are all collectively connected and tapping into the same pool of energy, but my time swimming there I now release to others.
That, in and of itself, feels like a huge refresh and reset.
You may have also noticed that I’ve deleted nearly all the pages of this blog site as well, and it now only contains my blog sharing and general and contact info.
So, those are some big changes that feel good, with more in time to come.
I continue to receive requests on things now and then, as I can’t delete everything out there in the world-wide web, but I’ve remained focused on only what resonates to move forward with. I am grateful to have a small network of referrals I can recommend to people in need and whom I’m unable to support at this time. Unfortunately, I don’t have recommendations of tattoo designers, but I do know wonderful tattoo artists I’ve personally worked with who are tapped in and create wonderful pieces. I always highly recommend taking time to search people out with intention, as you’ll always be led to the perfect person.
That brings me to the last Summer and Fall workshops that I’m offering.
I received some questions that I wanted to share my answer to for everyone, in order to clarify things if in fact you were curious as well.
Although I will not be offering classes anymore after August’s Reiki ones, I’m committed for life to provide support and answer questions for all of my students. I know that there was concern that if someone took my Reiki workshop they wouldn’t have what they called “mentorship” with this since I wasn’t teaching, but my ceasing to teach does not close the door on past students who have need for support with questions.
My students are always able to contact me for that. I’m simply not going to be attuning NEW students after August. I hope that is clarifying for anyone who had concern.
That said, in two weeks from this Saturday will be the last opportunity to register for June 23rd’s Reiki 1 & 2 Accelerated Workshop. June 9th is the deadline for that. So if you’re on the fence, that’s just a little reminder date to keep note of.
You still have opportunity to pre-register at discount for the August 25th Reiki 3 Master Teacher Workshop, as that deadline is July 4th with final registration ringing in on August 11th.
All info and registration can be found here: Summer 2018 Workshops
As for the Fall Equinox “Living a More Magickal Life” with Laura Bruno and myself, that pre-registration deadline to receive discount is coming up on June 21st Summer Solstice. The workshop is 1/3 full. Final registration is September 15th.
All details and registration can be found here: Living a More Magickal Life
Thank you so much to everyone who has supported my journey and to everyone who has invited me along on theirs. ❤
April’s Energy Update from Lee Harris speaks to purpose on a whole other level than what you thought you’d be doing, which involves reinvention and identity change. This can involve your career, lifestyle, or way of relating and can potentially bring grief up this month with the shifts taking place and that are needed to go to the next phase of your life. Be willing to get curious with yourself and what your feelings are around change. Where you feel sadness inside or outside of yourself is where action is needed.
When I saw these photos Dave took of me this weekend, I couldn’t shake the song from one of my fav Christmas stop-motion animations. He thought it was funny I was about to cross through the creek in my moonboots and snow shoes (he leaped across with his longer legs, while I took it one step at a time – immersing in it). I often use this song, much like so many from my fav animations and child-at-heart movies, to inspire, motivate, and make points.
This is a simple post from my simple, inner child perspective.
While I often take leaps, I also simply take steps and steps are in fact part of the journey within the leaps.
With all of the new challenges and leaps I’ve recently been moving through – like taking on our house renovation, facing my fears of heights in the Grand Canyon, committing to writing my new book, and recreating my life’s focuses…..these images made me smile on the symbolism of how to approach things simply by putting “one foot in front of the other” and stepping into the murky abyss you can’t see the outcome of, in order to move forward into new doorways of experience that are desired.
Change is a choice we make in each moment and manifestation is seeing that choice through with action….one step at a time.
You needn’t know the outcome. You merely need to connect with the passion or drive that urges you on.
When you align yourself with your heart, each step becomes easier.
And you soon find yourself having gotten through what you never thought you could.
You find yourself changed, like the caterpillar to butterfly who didn’t know that was possible.
You soon discover what you had inside of you all along.
The heart and ability to follow your dreams through and conquer those road blocks and mountains.
Put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking ‘cross the floor.
You put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking out the door.
You never will get where you’re going
If ya never get up on your feet.
Come on, there’s a good tail wind blowin’
A fast walking man is hard to beat.
If you want to change your direction,
If your time of life is at hand,
Well, don’t be the rule, be the exception
A good way to start is to stand.
Winter: If I want to change the reflection
I see in the mirror each morn…
Kris: Oh, you do.
Winter: You mean that it’s just my election?
Kris: Just that.
Winter: To vote for a chance to be reformed? Woo-hoo!
Put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking ‘cross the floor.
You put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking out the door.