This was too cute and special not to share here. Yesterday’s moments captured were of Astrid communing with her spider friend. She retreated to the exercise room – a favorite getaway for her that is next to our Wonderland room. She was having one of those evenings of quiet time to herself in a meditative zone and then I realized she was communicating with this spider you see to her right. They stayed like this quite a while.
Then she did a big energy stretch, yawn, and release to move and shift the energy all the way down through her toes. It was fascinating to watch. They continued to stay together after that and I left them alone, returning about five minutes later and the spider was gone.
Astrid spent a lot of time meditating in this spot before and after and was also tuning into the plants in the garden tower, as they’re right outside this door. I love when she takes time to herself away from her normal routine, as you know she’s up to something big with her own work.
There’s indeed a lot of transmutational rebirthing energy spiraling around and Astrid is helping to weave that into form with me. Spiders are abundant and more so downstairs in our realm where we do the underworkings of things. Astrid’s definitely not put off by shadow work.
Anyway, I remembered sharing a post on spider symbolism and when I found it I smiled at the synchronicities of the timing of that blog and the similar experiences then, happening now.
This post: Crossing Path With Tarantula ~ Messages of Timing & New Doorways of Opportunity is from four years ago, mirroring yesterday’s post about the synchronous things happening in my life now that were happening then. And now this little spider reminder had me finding this blog post from that time period as well.
Here are a few excerpts from that post that speak to me on my life and writing focus, but for the full explanation on spider medicine and things that were occurring then, you can visit the blog link above.
…Generally speaking, Spiders are the weavers of experience that desire to share that creativity with others. They are the assertiveness of Creative Force in communication of all forms, seeking to discover and create the reflection of your heart’s hidden desires, and to fulfill your dreams through the wisdom of what you weave…
…Spiders help you to tune into the ancient wisdoms and integrate them into your life, realizing that everything you now do is weaving what will come to be. You are remembering your role as a keeper and writer of your own destiny, and just as the center of the web is always small (representing you), the web is eternally expanding (representing your unlimited, creative potentials). You are limited only by your own view of self…
…Spider also teaches the written alphabet, runes, and symbols so they help with weaving your words, creating deep meaning, and writing with creativity and power that brings others into greater connectivity with your message…
Did you know that playing, being silly, laughing, and approaching life with curiosity are incredibly supportive and boosting to your overall well-being, quality of life, creative energy, and your immune system? When you keep that connection to your inner child alive, you experience the benefits of a healthy, low to no stress, and constantly wondrous way of experiencing life, rather than living in continuous fret and fear. Other ways to create better quality of life, experience more balance and harmony, as well as enhanced presence, perception, and intuitive and creative abilities are spending more time in nature, communing with the natural world in any form, as well as being willing to challenge yourself to embrace change more by aligning your vibration with things rather than fighting them.
Spring is a wonderful opportunity to explore where you feel called to plant new seeds in any area of your life and commit to cultivating it. Sometimes if you literally do this, it will stream into your life in ways you can’t imagine.
By literal I mean plant actually seeds or nurture a cherished plant or animal with the intention that it signifies something in your life you also want to blossom. Then watch this trickle out into more enthusiasm and energy pouring into the actual thing you do want to manifest. If you can devote even just a little of your love and attention to something and see the results, you understand how this process can be duplicated in the rest of your life as well. It doesn’t have to be an overnight thing, but you will see the benefits simply by committing to it.
I was a bit overwhelmed, to say the least, when I discovered the nudge to write this new book of mine and that it ended up developing into much more than I originally thought it would be. Yet, with continued commitment and nurturing of the process that presented itself to me, it’s become a wondrous journey of enjoyment, self growth, and creative enhancement that fuels passion in my life and opened up so many new doors of potentials unraveling. All, simply by deciding to nurture that seed within me that was stirring like a Cosmic cauldron of possibility.
And with Spring here, I’m doing the other thing I shared with you, as in literally planting seeds – 72 to be exact – that will have twofold purpose of nurturing Astrid’s needs, but also symbolically representing the plethora of new ideas brewing within me to manifest. I decided to grow organic baby plants for her all by seed this time, since my bulbs I planted in Autumn did so well. Crossing finger, toes, and wings this success rate continues! 😉
I recently saw an exciting discovery of sprouting from the five daffodil bulbs I planted last year when our house was in renovation. I planted them on the Full Moon, in fact, which was an intention for planting my garden of life with hopes of my dreams to blossom. And, they have been and are continuing to. When I planted them, a very healthy earthworm revealed herself in the soil where I dug their rooting ground, and I knew this was a sign that all would be well and supported because of my willingness to plant the seeds and care for them. Then Winter came and went and with Spring thaw they started sprouting.
I later planted several variety of irises – all of these bulbs gifted to me by special Faery, Laura from her garden. Apparently the irises will come later she told me and within a month or so I should see them too! Soon we’ll have lovely blooms and surprise colors lining the entry to our home! And my own garden of dreams will be mirroring this blooming.
And that leads to the baby plants intended for Astrid. I’ve started all the bunny goodness in this mini greenhouse indoors and have a seedling heat mat under it too.
Normally, in California I just directly planted the seeds in my Garden Tower or in the ground, but here with the difference in weather, am needing to begin indoors and then can transplant into my Garden Tower outside my office sliding door that has the perfect Southwest exposure.
I’m growing her two kinds of Romaine, cilantro, dill, sage, oregano, arugula, sweet basil, lemon balm, endive, dandelion, and a variety of wildflowers.
I do everything by faery intuition and am organic in my processes so it’s always a lovely surprise to see what unfolds. Yet, I see the mirroring reflection of the creative projects I am cultivating step-by-step in my life as well.
I love the action of seeding intention in literal ways, as other things percolate and evolve.
And action puts creative energy into motion and exponentially grows the possibilities.
Add in love to cultivate and nurture it and you’ll eventually find yourself smelling the roses in your garden of blossoms that manifest.
And speaking of new doors and closing old ones. Yesterday, I sent out a newsletter announcing it to be my last, as I am feeling led to close my Constant Contact account to focus elsewhere. I also announced that I’ll eventually have a new website and likely new email address, which could look like this blog evolving into new paths of sharing, or a separate website to replace my two others of http://www.taniamarie.com and http://www.spiritualskin.com.
So for now, that means really that this blog site is the best way to keep updated and receive inspiration, especially if you’re not on any social media platforms, where I also share. It’s also the best way to contact me if you don’t have my email, or if in the event my email gets changed, as I foresee.
These won’t happen immediately since it’s still in percolation, although you never know when since I’m someone who once I get the idea to do something and the nudge it needs to be done now, doesn’t linger.
I am constantly guided to fully close the old doors, so that my energy isn’t still lingering around in anything and can fully be propelling me in the forward momentum of the seeds I’ve planted.
Wishing you an expansive Spring of possibilities!
I hope you find nature to be a companion in your life more regularly in any small way possible and I wish you much joy as you follow dream seeding with action and a sprinkle of love to water it into life.
Since many of you may be like myself right now, engaged in, beginning, or thinking about jumping into new projects, shifting gears with life path focuses, channeling creations, and manifesting dreams, I thought to share a perspective and change that I’ve implemented into my life that has made a difference for me. It has to do with talking about the specifics and communicating to others the details around these things you’re engaged in and focusing energy and time on. While I’m a BIG communicator and LOVE to share, I’ve discovered that the less I talk about and share details pertaining to my current work, focuses, and plans, the more energy, enthusiasm, motivation, and inspiration I have to channel into them.
Science shares that humans are social animals, which lends good reason to why we like to talk a lot and that communication is actually programmed into us as a conditioned tool and way to thrive, and in effect, survive.
I’d add that on another level, we also tend to talk a lot when we’re unsure of things, lack confidence, are nervous, need an ego boost, or even to avoid having to actually “do” what we’re talking about. We can make it seem like we’re doing a lot when we engage in talking about all the details and plans, but then when it comes down to it, are not actually doing much at all.
I’ve generally always been one to share everything with others in my past, whether friends, family, loved ones, as a way to share my excitement, but then found myself shifting gears because I change so much, and others maybe thinking I was flaky because of this. Or, doing just as I shared above, wanting others to share in the excitement, perhaps even unconsciously engaging them to voice their concerns or doubts because I had fears around the things myself – so in this case projecting them to be voiced back at me.
But what I’ve discovered and implemented in most of my life across the board with how I approach everything now is with greater silence.
Silence is a source of power without need to explain, defend, or have its ego rubbed. I find it a great source of inner trust for myself and what I feel in my heart, and yes, a way to maintain the integrity of, and fuel for, my passion.
Stephen King wrote a memoir once on writing, but what he shared I feel pertains to anything we are passionately engaging in our lives.
He said something to the effect of if you talk about what you’re writing too much, it will diminish your enthusiasm about it. You lose your motivation to actually write it, by talking about it.
I feel this applies to things and projects in general, including talking too much about your plans with things. It diminishes your need to actually follow through, like it’s already been done by energetically discussing it in length and feeling satisfied from that, rather than the actual application of the plans and ideas.
To keep things fresh and in your mind, while retaining motivation to actually “do” the things, you may find it supportive to focus on them within your own experience, without the need to express it out there.
That doesn’t take away from the communicating within yourself, with your spirit guides, and magickal support system, nor does it mean to stop creative visualization, intentions, and things like vision boarding, brainstorming, inner exploration, etc.
It also doesn’t mean that some form of feedback can be helpful with things including hearing ourselves talk about it (although the latter I’ve found to be more effective when I talk it out loud to myself or run through the dialogue and scenarios in my own mind), but then it’s about choosing an effective channel for that that truly is about receiving helpful reflections and food for thought you may not be able to see or come up with because of your current focus, rather than simply about a need to talk as a form of using up your creative spark and energy that is being misdirected.
But there does seem to be something diminishing and extracting about external communicating, especially when in overdrive and as an unrealized self-sabotaging mechanism to avoid actually doing the thing or hiding the fears you have around it that aren’t being addressed.
And there does seem to be something about saving up that excitement like the voluptuous and pregnant Empress in the Tarot, who is fertile with creative abundance, ready to lavish it into streams and channels of focused passion.
So, the next time you have this urge to explain and express all the details of what is moving through you to create, try funneling that urge into the creation itself and you may find your inspiration and flow, not to mention your drive, that much more vital and fresh, and your intuition enhanced by your confidence and trust.
I sent out this newsletter yesterday and thought the message in it might be of interest to share here as well, given the energetic dynamics and field of experience collectively.
Here is the link:
Last evening’s portal sky here in Helena, Montana infused with creative potency….
Activate the heart of you by cultivating the art of you.
What do you dream your life to feel like? When you know this answer with all of you, the journey of bringing that feeling into creation of what you desire it to look like can begin.
Build a new relationship with yourself, as you explore your heart.
Learn to reflect your dreams into a beautiful creation of your own making – creating life as a work of art, as I like to call it (and is my personal motto).
Ever wonder what your life would be like if you started living the wonder?
Remember who you are and may all possibilities be open to you.
Beauty shows up in the most unlikely of places because the seeds of love are present within all expressions of life.
Depending on how the life force is fertilized, results in varying forms of manifestation.
Since all things start from the same seed, does that make anything separate from the love of All That Is?
The bitter and the sweet are two sides of the same coin.
The only thing separating them is our judgment and attachments, but they both are creative manifestations of free will and inevitable expansion.
They are also varying ways of All That Is making love to itself and experiencing the depths of potentials that live within that romance.
Today’s Leo New Moon is all about authentic self-expression, personally channeled creativity, dynamic individuality, heart-centered love, and vitality.
So today’s a good time, if you aren’t already, to see how you’re doing with shining from your heart and singing your song – then extending that out to every day of your life in consistent continuation.
Leo is ruled by the Sun, and both are connected with the heart. So the more you love yourself, share authentic love with others, and express love through all that you do and create, the more you embody the Sun.
Nokan Inti Kani – I AM THE SUN
I had a dream last night about a magick pendulum. It was an amazing pendulum that somehow I manifested and I was discovering all of its gifts it had for the first time.
As I held it from its chain it would start to spin on its own in any and every direction. It could be directed by my hands and thoughts as well and would morph into different shapes and objects. The more creative I was, the more it would do.
If it was spinning and I placed my hand or fingers near it with intention, it would stop in mid-air and do as my hand and thoughts guided. It also would do this simply as an extension of me without necessity to physically direct it with my hand, but I began to see that it was mirroring the myriad of endless creativity within me to constantly shift and create as much as I utilized my creative energy to keep channeling new possibilities.
I then asked it to show me things, which it did through morphing and changing its dance as messages to me. And then I asked it show me a symbol for my new direction in life now, given I am embarking on a whole new trajectory.
That’s when I was woken up by my bunny, Joy, making noise in my office across the hall and so the dream ended.
I took that as a message that it’s up to me to create whatever I want and from here on out, just as I had received as message before, nothing is solidified, contracted, or known. I have the joy of a whole new creative slate to start painting on anyway I want and to change it at any and every moment.
I realized that this magick pendulum was a reflection of me and demonstrated the innate power I had within to create anything I wanted, but that I also had many new and undiscovered gifts that were ready to emerge and simply needing me to engage them now for a new journey in life beginning.
And so do each of us.
The dream also reminded me of the Magician card in Tarot and how we can be masters of the elements, as well as both Universal energy and the physical to manifest and make use of all of our powers, as an extension of Source.
The Magician is about applying your creative forces with conscious awareness and intentional focus to claim your power.
It is number one in the Tarot deck, which is the number of new beginnings. He’s the bridge between the spirit and physical realm where you can channel Universal energy through you and direct it to physical plane for manifestation.
As the number one card he’s all about messaging you that you have the ability to access your creative power and energy to create a completely new cycle of life.
And so too, are New Moons about new beginnings.
Coupled with Leo’s dynamic, creative self-expression, you have supportive energy to assist you in becoming a Magician in your own life right now and create anew and create with authentic boldness.
So how are you shining your light through authentic and creative self-expression?
Every moment is opportunity to write a new story for yourself and access your own inner Magician.
Days like today’s New Moon, are merely reminders of what we always have available to us and assist you in understanding the cycles of energy you have to work with currently that you can harness in your life for greater vitality.
Synchronously, I’ve learned they have been showing up for others too, as I received messages in response to that newsletter about how rabbits have been getting the attention of others or have become part of their lives as animal spirit guides.
Rabbits embody the energy of rebirth, transmutation, luck, prosperity, creative potency of the Universe, quick-thinking, high fertility of mind, body, and emotion, agility, receptiveness, Lunar cycles and cyclical life, sacred and regenerative fire of the Phoenix, dawn, Spring, enlightenment, balance, eternity, androgyny, inspiration, genius, and herald a kind of waking life resurrection and realization of increased vitality, energy, or a new-found excitement over life. Phew!
Rabbits bring a message of nurturing your intuitive impulses and nudges from your heart and soul. They are the Cosmic Egg birthing all life.
To me, the rabbit energy is collectively heralding a call for inspiration, imagination, and creativity to channel through, bring forth, and embody. It’s so important to really activate this energy now and begin today to create your own reality, which will provide expansiveness, fulfillment, and new possibilities to your life and the world at large.
Don’t wait for some desired epiphany to hit, simply begin creating with all you already have in this moment to fuel you.
And with today’s New Moon in Aquarius, and the first SuperMoon of the year, it’s all about embodying your inner visionary and being the master creator of your life! A great time to invoke your inner rabbit!
It’s a year to empower yourself, truly embrace your challenges as gifts of opportunity to go to new heights and lengths you’ve only imagined, to take “now” action, and create a new reality and life path from the release of all of the old and the closing of doors behind you fully.
Time to take those risks and challenge yourself to go a little further into the unknown with trust. You have the ability to innovatively create anew. Do the unconventional. Think outside the box. Go where you’ve never gone before and dare to make the impossible possible!
Anytime someone tells me they can’t do something, I simply don’t except it. I ask why not? Within your answer is the key to why you can’t AND why you could.
Spiraling round and round, creating, imagining, transmuting, expanding…
Down taking us up, up taking us down, above and below reflecting one another, they way in is the way out….
Perhaps then you come to know how to be in the world, but not of it.
This for me has indeed ignited a continual deepening journey for myself. Challenging me to listen even more through all of the voices, and to let go of who I had thought myself so far to be, while also undoing everything I uncover that is limiting.
I am shown where I hold myself back – things that are easy can seem to be the way, but if the easy isn’t challenging me and it isn’t feeling invigorating as it did at one time, then that doesn’t for me mean I should keep doing it. I could easily just be hiding behind that, and unknowingly self-sabotaging.
I choose conscious and heightened sensitivities, like that of a rabbit, in order to seek myself out.
I constantly feel the potency in inventing/birthing something new, which isn’t necessarily something “new”, but a richer embodiment of what’s innately within me being activated.
In that process I find that it is potentially more challenging for those around me than it truly is for me because I find peace in constant change and others may attach to any given point of who I am in that particular moment or time period of my life.
I find there to be expectations and attachments that simply don’t resonate with the freeing experience of creative love I choose to have.
And so that is something those of us that choose to embark on transformative and visionary journeys will need to come to terms with…finding peace within and not seeking it from outside, as only you create your experience. And then being okay with the fact you may not be understood, that others could be challenged by what you reflect, and then realize that is THEIR journey and you can’t micro-manage everyone’s life choices.
This also helps to create doorways of possibilities for others if we hold the energy of being okay with journeying there as pioneers with only our vision and trust to light a way into the darkness.
The truly loving thing is to act with responsible accountability for the choices you make and the honoring of your authenticity you seek to embody as example. The rest is a journey we each get to have to the rhythm of our own choosing.
While this journey deeper has included shifts in my personal relating to myself, others, and what channels through me, it also very tangibly translates into actual shifts I know are vital to embrace even within the work I express. And it has included both richer connections, as a result of going more within and connecting with myself.
This is why this is a time very much about my personal expressions and journeys that feel most supportive, expansiveness, and fulfilling. And by nature of that naturally channeling, it is of service in a highest good way that I feel is more powerful than trying to do something in particular to be of service or sacrificing parts of ourselves/energy in the name of what we think is service – which is like forcing your round peg to fit into a square hole. It may have worked before, but it won’t work any longer.
Authenticity of your essence is calling. All-encompassing love is the unifying source that we each creatively express through our whole uniqueness. The richness of life will come from the full exploration, curiosity, and vulnerable embrace of both the dark and the light.
For me that’s why I’m throwing out the familiar and welcoming some very ambitious new visions that are incubating. I’m in process of restructuring my life and life’s work on all levels, deepening the relationships that reflect this and letting go of the ones that don’t, inviting more personal passions – all while listening to the harmony of my heart.
And that has indeed included rabbits, symbolically and literally. (I’ve started volunteer work at a local rabbit rescue and through very synchronous events through a friend and another rabbit organization, a special little bunny may be joining our family).
Rabbits are all around me and within me…and in fact I would go as far as to say I am coming to more fully embody my own inner rabbit and magician – becoming the rabbit’s magician of my own life. Getting my Triple Rabbit tattoo certainly has been integral to integrating its potent energy into my life.
Rabbit inspiration, creative magick, and love! Are you also finding a bit of rabbit enchantment in your own?
On today’s New Moon, invite rabbit energy to inspire that sacred, regenerative fire within you to create wildly!
While I’ve been immersed in painting recently, I’ve been once again in awe of color.
Oh how I love color!
I love vibrant color.
I love soft, muted color.
I love surprise color blends.
I love playing with new color combinations and creating the perfect, sensual harmony that reflects the vibration of each energy that is channeling through.
Colors are energy frequencies that I sense on all levels…I feel them, hear them, taste them, smell them, see them….and they appear through inner vision/feeling and music.
As an artist I feel that tapping into the boundless possibilities of creative energy is a reflection of my expansiveness in growth.
The more I discover and channel through personal expression, the more I expand, deepen, evolve, increase my vibration and vitality, and create doors to new possibilities.
This creative energy isn’t just limited to artists, but is available to anyone who desires to push the envelope of their personal expressiveness in life.
Creative energy is one of the most powerful things that there is. Exercising your imagination is invaluable.
How do you tap into the well of your creativity?