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Whimsical Wednesdays ~ The Artist’s Corner: The Creative Evolution


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Reinvention is a way of life for me and, in general, I feel that as innately creative spirits there is a constant propulsion to continually evolve. Creative energy is just that, it’s energy that has a momentum of finding ever-new ways to express itself. And as we do so, this is the natural evolution of creative love unfolding.

If you are an artist – be it of painting, illustration, music, wood work, jewelry, writing, gardening, flower arranging, building, dreaming….this would be the artist’s journey. However, as I’m known to say, this is also a way of life….life as art.

There’s no end to creativity and even if you revisit some of your older ways of doing things, you revisit it with a new perspective and infuse a spark of growth and understanding to it that will take your work and expressions to another level.

Creativity is a process without an end result. Every moment is mad genius and something to savor.

And this constant reinvention is a necessary part of life and being. It is the alchemy of transformation. Nature reflects this so powerfully to us and shares how creativity is both necessary and beautiful in every phase of the process.

The boundless quality of creative energy mirrors the eternal spirit and so it is through creativity that we learn about the mysteries of the Cosmos and the journey becomes a wondrous adventure of both personal evolution and collective unfolding.

For me, painting is a way I enjoy this exploration of deeper inner journeying as a way to know both myself more and the world around me.

I never felt drawn to taking classes outside of the ones we either had to, or had as electives, through elementary, middle, and high school. For some reason I felt inclined to keep this part of my life raw in its nature and didn’t want to feel controlled by rights and wrongs. I wanted simply to bring forth my visions without boundaries. Having everything else in life feeling so controlled, this let me have one little sacred piece to myself where anything goes.

A way for me to creatively evolve as a natural process and feel where the energy was guiding me to travel as an artist and as a pilgrim of the Cosmos.

At times that may be to bring forth feelings and experiences I’m going through, convey messages of the heart, bring through visions from other worlds I dip into, capture a frequency that acts as a key for unlocking something within the viewer, or simply is a reflection of the beauty I both see around me and imagine.

My own artistic evolution has gone through more than one metamorphosis over the course of my life.

When I was a child I would simply draw the things I loved, which was mostly animals and nature and there wasn’t any technique about it except to bring forth that love. This was a reflection of me feeling free and most naturally myself.

Then I was all about the detail and it would take me hours to work on just a few inches of canvas at a time. Interestingly, this was during the deepest work I was doing, research, and dissection of myself, and trying to define or understand things.

I then found joy in a looser and more flowing way of painting and bringing forth energy like an aurora borealis exploding in blended harmony. This came as I let go more and more and was relaxing into being.

My art evolved into expressing a very ethereal and surreal quality.

And although the love of painting animals, nature, and Otherworldly mysticism still remain my favorite, I currently am drawn to fantasy and a whimsical, Faery tale way of telling a story or imparting an energetic imprint in your heart through my latest work.

There’s a return to my origins – that child within – taking place with the evolution of my painting and creative journey.

A spiral effect that infuses something new to something remembered.

My style of painting and even personal style of clothing, as well as my life and the work I feel drawn to, keeps evolving and I imagine will continue, as I change.

Creativity asks of us to leap into the unknown and explore and experiment with variety.

It’s like a musical composition you get to compose from the improvisation of your heart.

With every vulnerable stretch you discover a little more of the Great Mystery within and without.

And you’ll experience the vitality of its force that never stands still.

It’s through creative evolution that we forge new realities and create more of the experiences we dream of.

How has your creative journey evolved? Be it, through the expression of your artistry or your life as art?

Do you notice any tie-ins between things you’ve gone through with personal growth and how your artistic expression and life reflect this?

 

Monday Musings – The Writer’s Corner: How to be Your Own Magickal Muse


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I thought I’d kick off the first blog in my new series under the theme title of “Monday’s Musings” with a few ideas around how you can become your own magickal muse. A muse by definition is a creative influence – this can be a “person or a personified force who is the source of inspiration for a creative artist.” But this can also simply be you, which makes the process empowering to realize you have within you the ability to inspire yourself. And guess what? This doesn’t just have to be isolated to influencing yourself purely with writing, but can be a way to inspire any aspect of your life.

Here are some thoughts to help get that creative fire lit inside of your heart, but don’t stop here, as there are so many ways you can ignite inspiration:

  • Indulge your child at heart and engage that child-like wonder about everything with curiosity and fascination – what the heart is encouraged to explore will become a grand adventure of ideas streaming through
  • Find a process that helps you to create a well of flowing ideas that move you – journaling ideas, taking photographs of things that are interesting or beautiful, clipping out images and words in magazines to create idea boards with or folders of inspiration, collect little trinkets and treasures that spark imagination or a part of your inner child, gather and write down words, phrases, thoughts that you hear and that float through your mind – what you find fascinating in some way can act as a seed to grow ideas from
  • Go on a creative excavation about yourself and your life to discover what inspires you. Ask yourself what truly invigorates you and fuels your passion and really engages your imagination – what you uncover will be pathways to easier flow and streams of thought
  • Be inquisitive about that feeling and nudge that is bubbling inside of you and wants out. Rather than just push it aside, judging it, fearing it, or keeping it as a constant thought, write it down, speak it into a recorder, draw it…just move it out and through – what you invite to dance with you will begin to reveal where your energy wants to go and rather than stay stuck, will start you on a journey
  • Let your writing run free and perhaps allow this to be one part of your life that doesn’t have structure, if in fact all other parts do. Don’t over-think things, just write what comes up right away as a feeling no matter how weird and don’t edit – simply flow. There’s plenty of time for that later – what you surrender to will take you on an adventure
  • And if you don’t have structure in your life, perhaps creating a ritual or sacred practice around writing and creative flow will help make it a more natural part of your life – in either event, once you do have a practice in place like a specific time to do it, area to be in that inspires, a ritual to invite the process to begin and be separate from the rest of your life, then go back to the point above and let it flow without judgment – what you create consistency with will become an extension of your creative flow and life
  • In line with sacred practice and ritual is creating a sanctuary of inspiration or invent a way that supports and nurtures your writing. This can be surrounding yourself with things you love, have a particular energy, make your inner child feel safe, that inspire and cultivate thought flow and imagination, or could be noticing what kind of things or where you are that help more, like traveling, being by the ocean, tucked away in a cabin in the mountains, or in a closed room with specific music playing – what you cultivate will bring enrichment to your process
  • Always look for meaning in things – what you are curious about will reveal many potentials and creative ways to express or solve things
  • Work at it. Creativity is a process and for many isn’t flowing quite as freely as it once did when we were children. And even if it is flowing, we need to keep encouraging and nurturing it to greater heights. Making a committed effort to keep at it will bring it back to being a natural process again – what you focus on building, will come more freely
  • Become conscious about everything and embrace a real caring – what you are present and passionate about will create momentum and connection
  • Engage creativity, imagination, and ideas. Invite it, cultivate it, nurture it, and encourage it out – what you fertilize and cultivate will grow
  • Ask yourself what wants to be written and what story is aching to come forth, rather than asking what you feel like writing. They say everyone has at least one book in them…what’s yours? – what you surrender to will reveal gifts and make the journey flowing and fun even when challenges arise
  • Empty yourself of all knowing and let your inner vision and heart guide you to the truth within you – what you stop controlling will be able to fly
  • Remember yourself as the child you once were and can be again – what you retrieve will flourish where once it was constrained
  • Explore childlike fantasy and flexibility – what you open up to will make the impossible possible
  • Listen to your instincts – what you trust will open you to the most natural flow of expression
  • Feel what you feel – what you embrace will reveal the most meaningful things that will engage others to feel as well
  • Take chances and write as if you’re the first person ever writing the story and writing in the way that you are – what you risk will bring innovation as your best friend on the adventure
  • Be your own heroine/hero. Find the things you like about yourself and cultivate more gratitude around them. Create your own style and image that helps you to feel more alive, authentic, and cultivates the writer you – what you fertilize will blossom
  • Believe in yourself and what you have to say – what you believe about you, others will too
  • Allow mistakes and realize that there aren’t any – what you let go of will draw to you hidden gifts
  • Surrender to the story and lose yourself – what you immerse in will bring that reality to the heart of others through you
  • Keep writing. The thoughts will flow and your story will find its way, but won’t unless you write – what you put energy toward will take you on a journey, create a result, and a destination to begin again from

I’d love to hear from any of you on any additional thoughts and ways you engage the muse within.

Transformation & Birthing Anew


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I imagine I’m not the only one feeling such incredible energies of fertile possibility around every corner. I find dream time wildly infused with layers of dreams after dreams that are either other timelines, foretelling, psychic touch-ins, or clearly symbolic of things playing out. And yes, definitely the identity shifts, rebirthing, and kundalini energy Lee Harris has themed for the month are hugely washing over and through me still – so much so I have deemed October the month of firmly and clearly establishing the new through developing daily scheduling, finding my flow amidst that, and deepening into essence.

I found myself purging, clearing, reorganizing, and redecorating when I thought I was done. This has involved:

  • donating or sharing with others several more bags of clothes and other items going out
  • re-imagining a 1/4 of my office including removal of the center piece to my room and a whole redo of my shelves – this won’t be fully done, as I’m awaiting some things to come in November and December, but for now is complete and oh so fresh (This included moving out the last old piece I had for 10 years, which felt important since everything else in my office is new)
  • making tons of room in my office closet to help with this
  • establishing the new style of clothing to mirror who I am now (this involves a two-part me for my active outdoor lifestyle and athletic center training and the personal lifestyle outside of that) – this always feels pivotal for full embodiment inside and out and feels much clearer than ever now
  • receiving new plants as gifts, bringing in a couple from outside for the cold months ahead, and finding new homes and decorative stands for them inside that added warmth and indoor garden delight
  • establishing our new exercise program we started on October 1st, which involves 5 days a week of training and classes that after the first couple of weeks of feeling out what we liked, is now fully established in our calendars – this will amp up with ski season added into the mix and for now involves at least 3 days of hiking as well
  • working on creating my daily schedule (just about done) to include everything on my intention list – something new since I don’t really have a schedule although manage to get things done – this feels important to be more focused and deliberate, but flowing in and out of several aspects of balanced life and work that I want to accomplish – doing this will keep me moving forward
  • dreaming up new aspects to this blog, as well as all that I’ll be involved in, which will soon have a new direction
  • planning some upcoming Winter travels
  • keeping focused on the goals we have for our life

And this big transformation has been reflected in not one, but now two rare Rubber Boas we’ve come across on our hiking paths recently.

The first you may recall was when Laura was visiting and we were descending from Eagle Lake. This first one was a luminous copper baby Rubber Boa – she captivated me!

And the second was just this past weekend on Saturday when an adult Rubber Boa was laying across the path we were hiking to Lake Tahoe from our house, on our return back home. This one was large and very worm-like – her coloring a coppery green (best I can describe it as) and she was sunning herself with her little tongue zipping in and out with slithery delight. I had a feeling it was another Rubber Boa, but had it confirmed when I looked it up and saw her exact duplicate in online photos. I say rare, because we have only ever seen the Garter Snakes here on hikes, but this is the first two times to see Rubber Boas and within just weeks of each other – both non-poisonous. Both Boas just laid there and let me talk to them. So curious and sweet!

This last Sunday I also found myself hiking 6 miles on my own while the boys were mountain biking. This was incredibly invigorating and renewed another level of my connection to nature, as I wandered the wrong right paths, connected with wonders around me, and even birthed a new sound channeling I haven’t done in a while. I shared the adventure and sound video on my Instagram. The photo above is from this hike where I was tickled with joy by the grove of baby pine trees I stumbled upon and laid with.

And the rebirthing has been reflected in not just the snake, kundalini energy, but in a powerful birthing dream I had a couple of nights ago – AGAIN. I say, “again” because this is now about the 3rd or 4th time within several months that I dream of myself giving birth. And interestingly, in this dream I gave birth back-to-back twice! I was pregnant in the dream and being assisted by a woman or female energy, who assured me it would be simple and easy – like a click I would feel physically, emotionally, and mentally. And just as she said, I felt that click and instantly the labor happened in one easy release. No pushing, pain, or anything. I never actually saw the baby come out, but something did.

This feels symbolic of my book process and my editor – she has also shown up in Tarot cards and in my dreams.

So, indeed it was symbolic of me birthing anew and may not be limited to the book, although it’s the biggest focus right now. It can also speak to the newness all around.

And this repeated a second time – this time a male and female energy assisting and this time the click was taking a bit longer, so they induced it with a little tapping at my lower back and poof! Another easy release. Talk about potent.

I have a feeling on this one too. 😉

I can only imagine this means the new I’m feeling led to bring forth will in fact not be as hard or challenging as my mind could easily make it. It will just be a very involved process and a committed one at that – perhaps even 9 months worth just like it would be to bring an actual human baby into the world. A successful release of creative energy and joyous passion is the potential awaiting the channeling ahead.

And that’s all that truly matters – that we are having fun and supporting the flow of our unique creativity into the world in ways relative to each of us. No other result than expression is the power we long for. If we allow that energy to get stuck, that’s when we find ourselves blocked in other areas of our lives too.

Where are you feeling stuck in your life and how can you help to move that energy through a creative outlet, idea, way of self-expression, support of a passion, etc. that you have and feel bubbling inside?

These are ways I use dreams and nature to reflect to me messages and guidance.

We have so many things, mirrors, gifts, and tools available to us. Are you present to seeing all the support and guidance you have around too?

We can even ask for our dreams to show us things, if we think we aren’t “getting it” in other ways. The same with nature and messages in general – we can ask for reflections, but you must be present to embrace them, as they will come in ways you’re not even thinking are possible.

Presence is SO important and is another message I feel to be incredibly key for us all. It helps you respond, rather than react. It helps you to see all of the support you DO actually have. It helps you have more gratitude. It helps you to know yourself, others, and everything around you more. It helps you to trust.

Last night I did a big Reiki Healing Attunement for some intentions and wishes that included things close to home and for friends and family I know could use a little boost, and of course Astrid doesn’t skip a beat in helping. There’s a part in the process where I blow violet breath and when I blew, Astrid stretched huge and yawned and while I was finishing stuff in the heart chakra, she was licking her giant Tahoe mother quartz on the ground!

She is enjoying all of the new energy, but also excited to get a stronger move-on with the writing she’s waiting to assist with again.

I haven’t had much time yet to delve deeply in that the last couple of weeks other than ideas because it became evident I needed to get all of these things worked out and in place. There’s something important about solidity, clarity, and anchoring to really support the new in greater flow, ease, and efficiency.

So, I’ve been utilizing the time to research, finish reading the last book I have to help with my writing, have some key things to continue clarifying and journaling about, and organizing all of my notes and processes to implement.

This will also involve that new blog series I’ve now made mention of twice and I promise to share it very soon! Perhaps even this week, but it won’t officially begin until Monday, October 29th.

Astrid is especially pleased about this, as soon she’ll have her own spot on part of this new blog series upcoming. Stay tuned!!

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A New Chapter Begins


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Have you been feeling the pull to take your life to a new level of experience? I know I’m not the only one embarking on a new chapter in life right now and I know that for some this can be both a scary and exciting thing, as well as potentially intense. Change is not always easy, but can become a more fluid experience when you play in the fields of potential with curious wonder, rather than fight it. After all, these shifts are soul nudges that have answered your desires or evolutionary needs, both consciously and subconsciously. Sometimes what shows up might not seem aligned with that and yet even when those things seem separate and not connected, there’s something at the heart of it all in essence that may be a hidden gift, reminder, empowering opportunity, or core way to integrate the new path.

I’ve traveled extensively in the outer world to what are considered sacred and exotic spots, but it’s the journeys within and even the traveling between spaces and through all the energetic and emotional nooks and crannies that things like physical travel took me to, that have made all the difference. And while much of that travel has been on more etheric planes, even such things as the sacred tattoos I wear, have been ways to come into my body and harness spirituality more tangibly for this Earth plane I currently reside in.

I feel like we’re being guided through new doorways of experiences, relative to each, but that are operating on a whole new plane of existence – in essence helping to create whole new realities.

Starting all over can feel like so many things, including some unpleasant or uncomfortable variations, but mostly I see it is an opportunity, a potential to rise to the “now” occasion, a possibility for recreating from new choices – a rebirth – and a means to shape in that “now” what the “future-you” already is walking, without past restraints.

Sometimes you might have that tug of war within yourself, as you wrestle with old and new, or sometimes it’s as easy as slipping on a new pair of shoes that feel oh-so-much-more comfortable, spacious, shiny fun, and upgraded.

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This last Saturday, 8/18/18 – a very cool number sequence to end on – marked the conclusion to my teaching Reiki, which has been an 11 year cycle. Synchronously, one of my students (who also captured this sneak photo of me teaching) was someone I taught Reiki 1 & 2 to, 10 years ago when she was 19. She now returned, at a completely new place in life to complete her 3rd Master Teacher level and boy has her life positively changed on every level. AND, she’s already put out there to her clientele, that she is available for teaching.

Talk about fast upgrades and changes, but it came with a lot of work over these past 10 years and willingness to keep saying, “yes” to what her soul was putting forth for her, even though her ego wasn’t understanding why and wasn’t fully on board with yet.

In some ways I’m in a similar place where my soul has put forth this inspiration and guidance, after culminating to an ending vortex of choice, and it wasn’t something I saw coming even though I toyed with things twenty five years ago.

That ending left me both fulfilled and feeling uninspired, completely soul spent, and nostalgic for a different place I call home.

In many ways, the “past me” might have seen the work I’ve been doing until recently as being my end result, and in a way it was – as it truly was more of a predictable soul path I was completing from lifetimes of build-up. Many of you likely can relate. And although not necessarily an easy path I was on, it was easier to melt into and only challenging in terms of moving into more vulnerability, clarity, and opening that throat chakra that yearned to teach, yet had the fear to transmute.

When everything pointed to endings 3 years ago, I was left with a choice and so I followed a nudge, went off into Nature (just as John Muir says, “The mountains are calling and I must go”), listened deeply, and found myself here when I might have been elsewhere.

This then put into motion a potential new cycle and so I began playing in this new field of experience and trying on how it felt. I decided to go with it, feeling a new level of inspiration was the very and only thing that would keep me here and that offered a completely new and freer embodiment, if so chosen.

Little by little, and quickly in some cases, I shed my skin and this led to now and a fresh start. During that time, a story began channeling through and I wrote when the moment moved me, while building a new life.

Perhaps the story reflects a journey intimately remembered or maybe it energetically rewrote what has been to what can be.

In any case and for what ever reason yet unknown, it is the only thing calling my heart besides seeing what is possible from living at a different and more balanced vibration.

This past Thursday, 8/16 – a day earlier than expected – I received my manuscript back from my editor (more on that shortly) and this coincided with Astrid’s early birthday gift arriving (her birthday isn’t until 9/15), which I’d ordered custom a couple of months ago, but was on back-order. No coincidence we both received something new and connected on the same day.

Astrid’s gift was this special child’s chair stitched with her name and a star on it, chosen to match my green chair and the green theme in our shared room.

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I have both a green chair – my desk one – and a comfy arm chair by my book shelf, which Astrid loves to climb up and sit on. I thought she might enjoy her own arm chair so that she and I could both sit and mastermind together. Besides, every queen needs their special throne and now she has one that declares her star child essence as cosmic spirit in bunny body.

It took until yesterday to finally figure out where she wanted it, but the second I put it together and set it up for trial runs, she was exploring and jumped right in it quite comfortably.

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But as the days went on, she was missing her bed and carrot cottage under the stars looking out on the forest by the door, so I moved it to a new location and put her other things back and she instantly said, “yes, that’s it!”

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She climbed right in and sat there for long periods not moving at all, but just sitting up tall in it and looking at me from across the room, very regal and wise.

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Then she started grooming herself and making it home. Good thing is, it’s super light and therefore totally mobile with a handle on top, so we can move it whenever she feels she wants a new vantage point.

She now goes to sit on it when I sit in my comfy chair and we gaze across at each other, feeling the immensity of our combined energies in this space.

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It’s a bit like this new path for me, where I know it’s what my creative spirit is guiding, but will take some adjustments (likely a lot more work than Astrid’s few days of helping me to figure out where it belonged) in order to fit as comfortably in my own new “chair” as she does, but I’m following her example.

That brings me back to receiving my manuscript from the perfect editor I was guided to. I couldn’t be happier and more grateful for the opportunity to work with her and her feedback was just what I had hoped it would be to both support and kick me into deeper explorations with highlighted strengths and weaknesses. I feel as if I’m getting a whole new education and training in a way that works in better alignment for me than studying at a university, for example. She’s definitely my vibrational fit.

Since I had a workshop to teach last Saturday, I put aside editing and novel thoughts except for the summary letter, because I knew that once I dove in, it would be all-consuming. And quite literally, even though I still have yet to go through everything, as I’m creating the space for full digestion of it and all that I feel it will ask of me, it HAS become all-consuming on my mind. I find my thoughts are always going there and so I know where I’m meant to be.

Yet, just from her letter, I can sense the enormity of this commitment and choice I’ve made with it and why nothing else can be on my plate going forward. I was curious how I would feel from receiving the feedback and the only thing it brought up for me was this incredible sense of soul challenge to grow and deepen, which inspires me. I can also feel the reality of the creative limb I’ve flown out on with this, which presents further challenges to rise to, including even the genre choice I decide upon with it.

I definitely have my work cut out for me. I never do things simply, and it makes complete sense that for something to truly engage my heart and spirit to feel inspired to continue on here – regardless of any outcome with it what so ever – it WOULD have to be the biggest challenge yet.

Any fellow writers (or creatives), will understand the journey and it is one that can sometimes take years, of which I’m fully on board and committed to. So I truly don’t know the extent of time this project will take and I’m not rushing it so that I can immerse fully in the growth and learning, feeling that this is about much more than a book – it’s a whole new adventure and journey of mind, body, heart, and spirit.

And it IS a whole new playing field, as I’ve mostly only been a blogger and put out one self-published book – Spiritual Skin, along with a lot of creative writing when I was much younger. This one has the potential for traditional publishing depending on how vulnerably and flexibly I stretch myself and even how I surrender completely to living my dharma and embracing the new lessons this path is creating for me.

In any event, the old cliche is true…”it’s the journey, not the destination” that matters and I can really feel that in traveling this unknown territory simply for sake of bringing through vibrational potential that arises from the challenge and exhilaration of experiencing how far and wide I can fly on the wings of my creative free spirit.

It will definitely involve a constant cycling through of deaths and rebirths, as makes sense with next year’s growth year #13 – death / 4 year I’ll be entering come my birthday. The 4 energy will have me focusing on foundations, sharpening skills, working hard, involved in patient, methodical approaches to goals, nurturing of projects, and overall serious approaches to career, well being/health, and relationships of all kinds for balance. All of which I’ve been preparing for with deep cleaning on all levels and flowing with the creativity that was inspiring me this last 12/3 year I’m still completing.

I didn’t need to know this information on numerology, but it is definitely interesting to see how we do in fact follow the energy imprints regardless of not being aware of them playing out.

I always start experiencing trickles of the upcoming energies before they set in fully and I can see how come this Fall, pretty much exactly after Fall Equinox, I’ll be on a different trajectory.

This also falls perfectly with my sweet and dear Laura coming to spend a fun and potent week here at the same time we co-teach and host our “Living a More Magickal Life” workshop event on the Equinox – the official ending for me to this kind of teaching platform in general. It’s not often that we get in-person time together, but when we do it has always put into motion some huge life shifts for both of us and this coming together in a month from now feels like the most potent alchemy potential we’ve created yet.

So, between now and then I am readying everything, we have some other friends visiting, I’m getting fully organized and cleaned out, creating a workable plan to put into action, reviewing my editor’s feedback, tuning in, and beginning research – that way I’m fully ready to go, come end of September, and dive fully into things.

I see Fall and Winter perfectly fitting for nose-to-the-grind action, but in my newly adapted balanced way so as not to repeat my past neurotic tendencies to overwork myself until I “crash-and-burn.” This is why Dave and I have and will continue implementing a new well-being track into our life, while we also focus on other life goals we’re creating foundations for. It will definitely be a busy 6-8 months to get things ready for the next leg of the journey.

This is why I’ve released everything else, as a way of having laser beam focus on the new and yet without any old patterns being brought into that space and reality that is forming.

There is an invitation being extended to us all I feel where a portal of fresh possibilities await.

Have you also increasingly felt drawn away from things and toward completely new ones?

Where might you create more balance in your life so that you can be more present and vibrant to what is calling your heart’s attention?

Sometimes what we think we should be doing is only a choice away from what we could be doing.

If something nudges you there is reason. Whether it directs you into a whole new life journey or supports your journey with new, you will experience invigoration from listening to that subtle voice rather than dismissing it/you.

Thank you for being part of and supporting my journey. I not only support yours equally, but do my best to keep embracing each challenge on my own, as my contribution to the collective.

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The Six C’s Speaking to Things Right Now


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As I move through my own journey and hear from others, I constantly notice themes and a big awareness around process. Process has always been inherent in everything, but there’s an increased awareness of process in everything and greater presence around every step. And through that moment-to-moment experience, clarity, commitment, courage, creativity, communication, and celebration are stand-outs.

I’ll break them down, as I see them.

  • Clarity – there’s not only a greater need for crystallizing clarity of your intents, feelings, actions, and thoughts to create greater alignment, but there’s also an increased clarity, in general, being felt by many around their dreams and desires that is amplifying the manifestation of them and implementing a lot of life shifts in motion on every level. Veils are parting and awareness is increasing and with the intent to have greater clarity and willingness to truly see and feel, you will break down more barriers to yourself. With clarity comes focus and effective use of energy when you are able to identify what’s going on and what has been speaking to you from within. Now is a time to go within and trust what you receive so you can affirm clarity with actions you take.
  • Commitment – there’s a greater need now than ever for unwavering commitment to the things that are most meaningful to you, which includes taking care of and nurturing your own needs as an example of your own life working. With commitment comes care – you realize how important and crucial some elemental things are to your well being and to producing what you want to share with the world, and you care enough to see that through. As we’ve all learned, until you value yourself and what you have to give, you will be left searching for empty value elsewhere. Now is the time to make a firm commitment to what is nudging at your heart. This helps others to do the same.
  • Courage – it’s going to be scary, yes, and yet now more than ever there is greater support in seen and unseen ways to help you do what you feel clarity and commitment around. Courage of the heart is essential and it won’t erase fear, but it will accompany you through the journey with the right amount of encouragement to take you through the challenging stuff, step-by-step. If you REALLY want something and REALLY want to make changes, clarity around what that is, commitment to what ever it takes, and the courage to see it through are key. There’s no greater time than now to make leaps and grow exponentially. Courage will see you through the dark areas, as you navigate a new path. Everyone – even the people you admire and see as hugely successful – have harnessed courage to do what they’re doing. It gets easier, but without fears and uncertainties, we wouldn’t have opportunity to rise to the occasion. Remember, while others are leaders for you, you are a leader for others.
  • Creativity – cultivating and channeling creativity is vital – I wrote a little about that in my last post Feeling the Potency of Creative Alchemy in Action. Creativity is your power to choose differently, imagine unlimited potentials, flow your life force freely, ignite your passion, and bring love and action together as manifestation. No matter what channel you bring creativity through, the importance is simply that you DO bring it through and this will continue creating new realities and new Earth experiences. You are naturally a creative being and when you are creativity in action, this will help you to trouble shoot any area of your life with curious imagination, as well as help you to bring forth your dreams and goals. Clarity of energy moving through you, commitment to that energy that wants through, courage to keep that fire fueled no matter what, and the willingness to engage your creativity that is throbbing to be expressed. Through creativity we can forge new ways and find new solutions. We can create humanity at its highest.
  • Communication – there is heightened importance and need for communication and that includes the communication you have with yourself. Learning to make that a more present, gentle, tender, and open process will benefit you greatly and then help you to be the same with others. Communication is key for all types of relationships and the willing to be honest with yourself and others, while patient, and compassionate. Communication is essential to business endeavors, whether you work alone or co-create with others. You will have the need to enhance your communication skills with customers, clients, and co-workers, or people that you need to engage along the way that will be integral to your goals. There will also be importance in extending your reach of communication to include diversity of people, animals, plants, the Unseens, Nature and the Cosmos at large. This will help you to be in tune and aligned, so that things happen more seamlessly. As we evolve, communication is evolving and there are many forms whether through the written or verbal word, through art, music, your craft…communication goes beyond and into telepathy, which is felt through every interaction and increasing as we are shifting. Brushing up on your communication skills and bringing clarity, commitment, courage, and creativity to the process of how you share yourself is invaluable. The better you communicate to yourself and others, the more fine-tuned and aligned you are with your intents.
  • Celebrate – a vital part of the process and journey is to remember to celebrate every step of the way. This includes the small and large accomplishments, the ways in which you have overcome hurdles, something new you’ve been able to do, and each part you move through, regardless if the ultimate outcome has happened or not. This is part of that core gratitude that really makes a difference and how you truly enjoy life to the fullest without punishing yourself along the way. There is always something to celebrate and that starts with you being here in this moment and choosing to be alive at such a creatively fertile time. As Dewitt Jones shares, “celebrate what’s right with the world.” Have clarity of your thoughts, intents, feelings, and desires, then devote yourself to commitment of what you want to manifest, have the courage to see your commitment through, channel your creativity because your piece of the thread in the tapestry is needed and contains your vitality and fuel for your dreams, communicate with yourself and others along the way to help motivate and remain clear and aligned, as well as to support transparency and vulnerability, and then celebrate every step of the way!

So how has this been applying to me currently? Well, mostly with my book’s process – basically my main and only focus at this time in my life, besides the balance of life in general and things I do with Dave, our shared business, and in my personal life.

I’ve definitely seen, after coming to closure with so much from this life’s “past” and every other “past” life and feeling harmony flow through increasingly, that my next spiral of evolution and growth stems around this book – regardless of outcome.

I’ve definitely had clarity with the story, my intent and dream vision with it, and knowing whole-heartedly it is what I desire deeply to bring forth.

I’ve definitely made a soul and heart commitment to it and have just taken that to the next level, with this third phase I’m in with it. The first phase was in writing the full story, the second was in editing and reworking it myself to the best ability I knew how, and the third now involves an outside professional I’ll be working with. More on that…I’ve committed to seeing it through step-by-step and not rushing any part of it and doing it no matter what, taking risks with it in terms of how I’ve written it, and am holding myself to see it through to the end.

I’ve definitely had to muster up my greatest courage with it – or at least my next level of courage, as I’ve moved through many other levels of courage in the face of fears I’ve had up until this point. That included my fear of speaking and having shyness, which led me to embrace teaching, fear of speaking up for myself and saying “no” and having boundaries, which led me to have healthy ones, fear of looking crazy and feeling insecure about who I really am and the magickal me, which led me to vulnerably put that all out there without apology and even create this blog where I share so much, helped me to be at my best with overall well-being, and to no longer be energetically drained, and fears of having no support or security in order to take leaps, which led me to jump into what has called me greatest in my heart to bring forth as my essence expression – or work as some might call it. And now my next level of courage is in phase three of my book where I am handing it over to a professional editor who will completely dissect it and tear it apart, leaving me very vulnerable and at the end, with another round of reworking to do. I had some good news take place yesterday in hearing back from the developmental editor of my choice, after sending her a letter of my intent to work with her and it looks like we’ll be co-partnering likely beginning the end of this week and will be sharing a working relationship for a while. This next phase is a huge process and to say I’m both excited and scared, is definitely accurate! But I am more excited and proud of myself than anything, which brought me to tears at end of last week before I sent her a letter, as I could feel the immensity of this step that was bigger than my book, and I could literally feel a huge leap taking place for my path and my vibrational frequency I have been operating at. And this commitment solidifies the realness of everything and aligns me even more with the vision I have, as I put belief, heart, and clarity of intent into action. There’s no turning back. I was so happy when she accepted working with me and although I’m still far from any outcome, I’m sinking my teeth into it all and sucking the marrow of life, as they say. There is still a very long road ahead, as I’m not rushing any part of it, but I’m excited to be pushed to my highest capabilities and to be challenged to dig deeper than ever to make this the best possible book I can channel it to be.

I’ve definitely been channeling creativity. I think it’s impossible for me not to be, as I would literally die if I wasn’t and when I stop, is when I won’t be here anymore. So onward-ho with creative flow! It’s definitely been my best friend on this writing adventure!

I’ve definitely been engaging greater clarity of communication when engaging myself and others and have put into action all of the things I’ve learned, more and more, so that truly communicating even at tough times, has become so much easier, and so much more present and aware. Communication is definitely coming through for this book, as I work with the written and telepathic word, for the co-partnership with my new editor, and in receiving communication from the Other Realms in channeling it.

And lastly, I’ve definitely been in celebration mode with every part of the process. In the past I’ve had a tough time with processes, because the visionary in me always saw things as whole and the end results, so to have to take things apart, piece-by-piece and go through the human journey, was tough. No longer so. Perhaps I’ve bridged timelines and experiencing it all at once now, or perhaps I’m just more present and grateful, and truly living what life is about and each piece as beautiful without expectation, attachment, and need for a result.

It’s all changed everything and the whole game for me. I know so many others that are also experiencing greater fluidity with it all, and I believe whole-heartedly that we all can.

 

And just for giggles and a heads-up, here’s two more C’s I’ve experienced and coming up.

Contacts – I’ve noticed an interesting influx of contacts in the last couple of weeks about a variety of things, that include inquiries about old services, invites to be on podcasts, synchronicities shared with people internationally, and even some odd inquiries on things I didn’t even know I had out there. All speaking to me to collective connection (some more C’s) and alignment both in knowing my boundaries and attracting reflections.

Crystals – Stay tuned either tomorrow or some time this week, as with a little opening in time on my hands and another big shift happening, a few crystal friends are ready to move on and I may have some custom and healing openings as offerings. More soon!

 

Feeling the Potency of Creative Alchemy in Action


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So, wow! I have to start off by saying how incredibly beautiful this gift sharing has been with everyone who was a part of the Summer Solstice Gratitude Giveaway. I not only enjoyed sharing Reiki blessings with all who joined, but also loved being able to send what I was guided to for each of the recipients as well. It seems that most of the gifts are arriving since yesterday (even overseas – incredible!) and the blast of beaming energy of love you are all sharing via your emails supports why I felt like a giddy little Faery up to good mischief in sprinkling surprises your way. To hear about the perfection these gifts have been for you and the joy, inspiration, and shifts they are igniting, is the icing on my cake I so love. 😉

There’s always so much to be grateful for and increasingly I’m experiencing life in a natural flow of honoring the opportunities that present themselves to give and receive in a multitude of ways that reflect unity in truly fulfilling expressions beyond limited ideas and attachment.

The unlimited ways mirror creativity and creativity is one of the most powerful energies available to us.

Creativity is love.

It is a magickal and powerful energy vital to exercise and cultivate as a channel of creation itself.

Summer is rolling along and I can just feel the creative energy blossoming in bursts of vibrancy everywhere – not only mirrored in Nature and Her incredible flowers, but also mirrored in the explosion of creative output people are expressing, sharing, cultivating, and nurturing to bring forth.

I can’t tell you how many people I know that have birthed, or are in process of birthing, so many new things in their life whether a new product, a book, paintings, a new job, a new home, a new relationship including one with themselves, a new animal companion, a new idea, a major life leap…and having the courage to bring it all through, realizing the value in that and the value of who they are and what they have to offer. People are actively working that creative alchemy and anchoring in the manifestation of dreams they’ve long had or newly discovered as their truth.

Even just in the category of books alone, something I am also creatively engaged in, I know of SO many people writing books right now and how wonderful is that?! People giving value to their voice and are ready to express what is inside of them. And that, in and of itself, is beautiful and huge!

Everyone has something of value to contribute and will touch lives relative to their energy and message that aligns with others drawn to and needing just that very thing.

I was just sharing about this with a dear friend today, as I learned she, too, was bringing forth her message in a book. I personally know of a couple dozen of people either writing their first book or working on another.

I’m wow’d by this shift where once only a small group of people would be called to even venture into this way of creating and now we have a tapestry of colorful messages and stories popping up like a Cosmic grid of stars and so many ways to make this a reality where doors would otherwise have been closed – thus mirroring our expansion and letting go of rules and limitations that would otherwise have been daunting to the creative impulses you have.

I love that things are shifting to support everyone with opportunity – yet we must each rise to that challenge, as opportunity doesn’t just hand itself over.

You must reach out your hand, take the steps, or even leap into the air believing in your wings to carry you on. You must challenge yourself to open your petals when you otherwise would rather keep them tight in a bud.

When the Sun shines upon you, let the warmth of those rays do their magick, rather than fight them. Open your arms to vitality – to creativity – to YOU….to the MAGICK OF YOU.

And this creative energy isn’t just limited to “artists,” but is available to anyone who desires to push the envelope of their personal expressiveness in life.

Exercising your imagination is invaluable.

It’s an exciting time for alchemizing your very existence. You are an infinitely creative being here to evoke the remembrance of what lies in your heart.

Your creative energy is an expression of the boundless love of All That Is and it is essential in creating new realities of experience. Cultivating the imagination, dreaming, believing, surrendering to and supporting vulnerable and passionate expression, utilizing creative visualization… is all vital to manifestation.

The creative and healing arts are rapidly taking more of an essential role, as they once did, in leading the way to a new experience of life.

Creativity supports what feels most natural in this life and beyond. It IS your essence.

There are always cycles to life and the circle is cycling back in a new way, as we are remembering, reevaluating, and understanding that balance is essential and cultivating natural creative expression is healthy to the state of collective humanity.

All forms of art have the ability to enhance life in amazing ways, not to mention, help you to get more in touch with Source. It is an invaluable expression that through support and cultivation, can help you to connect more with your natural essence as a creative, loving being of individually beautiful expression within the collective diversity.

The more you support these creative impulses, the more you allow yourself to explore things outside the box, to start creating and manifesting what you desire, to experience more magick and synchronicity in your life, to create the greatest works of art you have yet to create, and to find greater sense of peace and inner joy.

Creative energy is the source of creation. If you don’t exercise it, you close the door on the endless possibilities you, as a limitless and powerful being, have the ability to tap into.

Creativity is the power of love expressing itself.

The more you support this expression in yourself and in others, the more beautiful life will be.

I’m grateful for creativity and the power of my creative heart to express itself in any way it feels called to channel what is within.

Right now that has been through the channeling of my new book that is about to hit phase three, but it also has been through the cultivating of our home, garden, and life, nurturing a sanctuary and magickal space for us and our soul family in furry bodies that supports our essence and helps to impart an outflow of the highest through that, implementing and embodying ways to support greater remembrance of wholeness collectively, creating yummies in the kitchen, and finding ways to bring little bits of creative gratitude through to others.

Today was definitely filled with people and experiences to be grateful for and I found myself a few times in joyous tears that rose up through me like a well of love exploding. I realized through some events that I’d hit another huge leap along my creative journey that suddenly snuck up on me while I have been engaged in the courage of each step, and was amazed to see where they were taking me. It doesn’t matter what the outcomes might be. It only matters that I celebrate each step and live in the awe of the now. I’m grateful to myself for supporting the vision I have and seeing it through.

I then saw 2:26 on the clock – my birthday – and realized I was in fact rebirthing again.

We all are, in every creative moment, because choice renews everything.

I’ll leave you with this photo.

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It’s of a tiny succulent clipping I saved. When I recently found a few larger succulents at the local store here that I was looking for, I also found two clippings of different succulent plants that seemed to have fallen off or were broken off of other succulent plants. Those plants were no longer around, but these two little clippings were sitting on the shelf next to the potted succulents. I picked them both up and took them home with the potted ones. I immediately put them in the soil of two of the pots next to the other succulents, in hope that they would grow and weren’t gone already.

They’ve been sitting on my desk for the last week and suddenly this morning I noticed that the tiniest one had a bud, which slowly opened over the course of today.

As you can see, it produced this lovely red blossom of creative vitality and courage from a tiny piece of succulent, no more than an inch or less. I actually see another bud right next to it that I imagine will be opening in the next day or so as well.

And they spoke to me of nurturing and cultivating the tiniest of seed dreams and visions we have, taking those steps even when they seem impossible or others tell you it’s improbable. Not giving up and having the courage to open your petals to the Sun’s rays and to your essence that beckons creative expression.

Like the tomato plant I saved, that no one wanted, these two succulents are coming alive against all odds because someone saw the potential in them and fed that potential with love.

It is 5:55 right now as I close with this.

Never let anyone throw their shadow upon you. Cast the light of your creative power upon every hidden corner of your heart and watch the seeds within blossom. It doesn’t matter how long something takes…it only matters that you immerse each step with your beautiful essence.

Going Into the Beyond


 

The last few days I’ve noticed energy shifting more with depth of reflection at the forefront, more anchoring in a flowing yet solid way, increased nature time than there already is, and more reviewing and clarifying. It has seemed like pauses or steps back, but in actuality are energetically catapulting. And during all of this it is not surprising to me that I would find both Astrid and myself feeling and emanating most ourselves and feeling freest to be who we really are. Our bond means the world to me and this book I find most of my work focuses on, to pull deeply at petals around my heart, asking it to open further despite feeling sometimes at a loss as to how.

Then the reminders and beautiful nudges come through that assure me I do know and when tears fall, it means I’m there.

They are tears of expansion and sweet remembrance of my song. A song we each have within, but forgot.

In the last several days I’ve needed to focus on a shared business I have with Dave and with his being away for work, it had me connecting even more with the forest land here we reside upon as guests to Nature’s kingdom. I even received some wonderful gifts in the mail – they always arrive in perfect timing.

It also had me digging deeper and imagining more possibilities than creatively have been explored. And when I found myself hitting an illusory ending with no way in sight to do what I feel in my heart can be done with the chapters at hand, I instead focused elsewhere and allowed those seeds to settle some more and watered them literally in my garden metaphor for the life I’m creating, just outside my sliding glass door. And I soaked in vitality from the Sun’s rays. And I nurtured myself with good food and good movies.

And the sign came, nearly knocking me over, that it isn’t all a figment of my imagination and IS in alignment.

So, I keep listening for my song to reveal the next notes and am learning that improvisation will inspire imagination into knowing.

Get out of your own way, out of the noise, out of the comfort zones, out of your head alone, and consult your heart.

It’s time to venture into the beyond and go where you’ve never gone before – blaze new trails into the unknown.

When you think there’s no other way, Astrid assures there is always an angle you haven’t yet explored.

The Importance of Active Creativity


I couldn’t agree more with Lee on this…creativity has a power to shift everything. If you are not creating in some way, it will feel as if you are dying and in fact you ARE diminishing your life force because you are inherently a creative being. I discovered along the way that having different outlets of creativity truly helped activate more parts of my brain, but also of my heart, and definitely more of the latent parts of my DNA to come alive and awaken from their slumber. I found that rather than only have one outlet for creativity, by engaging and exploring multiple outlets this provided a constant surge of fresh energy to keep flowing, as well as helped to reinvigorate and inspire the avenue I had only been engaging until then – and of course accessed my multi-dimensional self.

This is why in the past my spirit was led to branch out from my paintings to doing commissions and animal portraits, but further diversifying to things like spiritual tattoo designs, crystal jewelry making, creating Faery wands, paintings magick stones, writing my first book and starting a blog, opening up to different forms of teaching and offerings, creating mini succulent gardens, growing my Garden Tower, sound channeling, redecorating my room or changing up my wardrobe, cutting or coloring my hair, or even stretching into different forms of paintings I’d never done and even having rabbits in my life – the ultimate abundant, fertile creativity spirit animals.

All in the vein of creativity being the essence of life and not a “hobby,” as Lee shares, and the more you engage it, the more life force, overall well-being, and expansion is available to you.

Although I’ve moved away from just about everything I mentioned above, the creativity Faery is still largely alive within me. Currently, that’s involved active creating of ventures Dave and I have been manifesting together and the huge project of completely renovating our new home and decorating it from the ground up.

It’s also been hugely invigorated by my having my own office again – the creative flame center of the home – newly decorated with lots of fresh stuff for Astrid as well.

It’s involved my mini succulent gardens that have expanded now and soon to include my Garden Tower again, come Spring.

And of course, in the meantime, my new book that although took a back-burner in the midst of the huge home renovation project, has now come around full-circle and is reinvigorated and inspired because of the break.

And the book is just the beginning of new branches to my “tree of life” (synchronously I brought home a new indoor Clusia tree for the house yesterday) to explore and expand upon, as I have a volcano of creative manifestations that the book opens the door to for this new year I kick off come my birthday’s transition of energy numerologically. I will go from an 11/2 year to a 12/3 year, bringing me back to my birth number 3, which is the creative child. So this year really should feel like being in my element and it’s no wonder I’ve been doing all of this ground work to free the flood ways for the tsunami of creativity a-flowin’.

Yet, it couldn’t flow unless I enaged it with curiosity, embrace, surrender to, and then committed action to bring it forth.

I share this as example of how this creativity has moved through me and how by tapping into other parts of my creativity, it’s not only helped open doors to new parts, but also in fact has multiplied the wellspring of creative energy I have available.

It’s assisted me in expanding, in manifesting, and in rebirthing when life hit a wall, at times became disappointing and uninspiring, or an end to one part of me had been reached.

It’s given me a new lease on life for now and provides unlimited amounts of joy and potentials I get to choose based on that alignment.

And, what I have discovered is that creativity helps you tap into your multi-dimensional self, which opens a plethora of possibilities.

Now, that ought to be a fun adventure, right?!

There truly is no end to what can be created, and created, and created…..

As Lee shares, active creativity “enlivens you and helps with depression, because depression is stifled and unused energy, and a disconnection” in general.

I love his little excerpt snippet videos that provide seeds of wisdom.

Here’s Lee on active creativity and its importance to your life:

Faery Succulent Fun!


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So, I became a mom to 107 new succulent babies that arrived yesterday! Yay! Added to my 28 already that are part of Faery gardens and topiaries that makes 135! These new ones are part of “project decoration” for my office/faery/bunny/cosmic magick creation and play room to come. Can’t wait! Will share the finished product when complete. 🌱 

It’s not a number I planned or anything. It just turned out that way and I kind of like the 9 energy of it creating a full cycle. There may be more to come, but for now these should do. 

And today I got word that the second part of “project decoration” has shipped out and is on the way. All of this, plus some other things all seem to be coming together in perfect timing, as I haven’t been able to set up my room yet, but will be able to in the next week or two.

I LOVE succulents and find them so easy and fun to love and nurture, and with a very short growing season here in Lake Tahoe, I’m much more apt to create indoor Faery gardens as extensions of the Great Outdoors brought indoors, than spending tons of time with that externally except for simple things, rock gardens, and such. Especially since I spend so much time out in Nature.

Besides, I have a whole forest as my backyard, so everything is naturally manicured by Mother Nature.

So my intent is to create my room like an indoor Faery garden itself and like an extension of the forest, inside with portals and fun, so that when I AM inside and working on creative projects, I will feel like I’m out in Nature still and in my own creative, cosmic reality.

Faery fun soon to begin! WEEEEE! Can’t wait!

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The Impossible Becomes Possible


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Doing something anyway that you feel is impossible, were told is impossible, or simply feel challenged by based on where you are right now in shifting your beliefs about the “possible”, will help you access the door to where the possible dwells and embody the frequency that aligns you with that reality.

If you devote your heart to realizing your limitless potential, making the “idea” of impossible, possible, and nurturing your imagination to stretch further, you will find your feet supported across the bridge of dreams where steps don’t appear to be right now.

Keep stretching your heart and mind to expand a little more each day.

The possible would love to embrace you with open arms.

Don’t let the impossible hold you back.

(Photo taken yesterday after already seeing a double rainbow over the lake)

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