I wanted to express my gratitude to everyone for all the beautiful and loving messages and wishes sent for my birthday over the last few days and for the magickal and thoughtful gifts received both in the mail and simply in the presence of your friendship and hugs – virtual and in person.
I’m grateful for each of your threads woven into my life, this journey, and grateful to each of you for choosing to show up at this time on Earth.
This year I chose a simple way to experience my birthday, although did gift myself a few small treasures that aligned with what felt most supportive to me right now.
This included a sweet little rose quartz heart ring, which felt to be nurturing that love from the inside out and about falling in love with myself and nurturing my heart’s joy in a whole new, but most natural way.
And also a sparkly sandstone bracelet with “tree of life” charm. Sandstone is a stone of creativity that encourages truth, promotes clarity, balances one’s reality and facilitates ease of movement and change.
As well as a new Tarot deck – likely my last for a while now.
It’s so precious how the gifts I received from others were so perfect for me too, including a tiny gold dragonfly necklace, a magickal unicorn horn necklace, a colorful tapestry pouch (perfect for my Tarot cards), sweet hemp flower hair pins, and a couple of tops including one that said “Trees”.
My birthday morning kicked off with a Great Blue Heron coming to visit us on the beach in front of the RV just before we left.
And it was a lovely birthday weekend that unfolded from there, which I chose to experience quietly and immersed in the energy of the desert and self nurturing and a lot of love shared with my little family of loves including these sweeties.
I’m not a celebrator in terms of parties and gatherings, preferring to be within my own experience in ways that feel most aligned with my energy and don’t like having a big deal made out of my birthday.
So seeing some friends the days preceding my birthday was a nice way to say farewell for now, since we’re not returning for a long time, and a way to see people without specific celebrating. Although during a dinner right before we left I was surprised with a little birthday candle fun to make a wish. That was very sweet.
Last year on my birthday I was being in the purity of Iceland’s beauty, which called to my own innocence and essence within.
This year it was returning to a place I loved as a child and frequented often with my parents – Palm Desert.
The desert couldn’t be a more beautiful way to relax and reflect on the year behind, the year ahead, and the integration of both in the now, while doing a lot of nature connecting and self-nurturing.
There is a purity and sacredness to the desert that feels supportive of receiving clarity and standing in the raw nakedness of my personal truth.
And like the starry skies of Iceland, the desert also offers a beautiful night time Cosmic landscape to get lost in.
And relaxing is just what I needed and need right now, as I have found myself getting very energetically tired by end of the day and needing to sleep a lot and get in bed early.
My body and soul are going through transitions to support all that is changing quickly.
I can feel all that I’m rapidly assimilating with the big shifts in my life and that my birthday cycle heralded in. I’ve been allowing the desert energy to work its magick, while giving myself even more with self nurturing pool time, massage, and just soaking in sun therapy and rest.
It’s important to allow ourselves to integrate all that we work on and process so that it can fully root and blossom. Doing what seems like nothing is doing something and it’s important. It will help keep you balanced, healthy, and support those leaps.
And speaking of blossoming, the desert here is already in bloom! It’s Spring early and that also feels quite reflective of what I’m feeling internally.
Desert blossoms as reflections of all that is blossoming within.
And I felt like a desert blossom on our gentle hike yesterday, wearing my tangerine red sparky strapless dress with gold threads and hat. I’m a big proponent of hiking in dresses and flip flops or open rugged sandals.
I’ve also seen more animals and insects mating right in front of me than I ever have in the last few weeks. They literally are drawn to me and going about their uniting – be it ducks, pigeons, several variety of insects, geese….
I’m seeing it as that divine igniting and creation flame I’m channeling along with falling in love with life in a whole new way.
It’s a whole new love story emerging.
And speaking of love…even the place we stayed at this weekend, arriving on my birthday, is called Emerald Desert Resort, which perfectly aligns with my business named Emerald Bridge, which is all about the heart chakra energy and that wonderful healing and nature emanating green glow of brilliance and warmth.
It’s been a gentle transition into my 43rd year of this life considering all of the transitions I’ve been making, having concluded my sound course on my birthday as well (which has been hugely and deeply integrative), and shifting out of one way of living and sharing of my services to completely different ways.
Other than the needed rest to assimilate, I’m grateful for the ease and grace that is taking place with everything, as I know not everyone is experiencing flow. I know this has also been a time of intensity and challenge for many.
My hope is that by continuing to hold the energy of what is possible in the face of immense changes, as others are doing along with me, that we can assist each other into a more gentle experience of ever-greater potentials that are available.
My life hasn’t always been easy, as I shared in my post on the 25th: A Selection of True Awakening Experiences
Yet, there is light available to us all within the darkness. Darkness can be the sweet spot of immensely beautiful possibilities and you can learn to have clarity of vision even when it appears there is no light. You will find that light was always within your heart and can “see” you through anything.
Like the desert can be deceiving with its harsh way of life – seemingly barren, dry, and challenging unless one is resilient and resourceful, there is also much beauty, abundance, and life is plentiful and blossoming – as it learns to adapt and renew itself within each season of change.
Hiking in the desert yesterday, or as I like to call it, intentional strolling (John Muir beautifully referred to it as sauntering, as you can read below), provided creative inspiration with messages and gifts along the way.
This lovely and nearly perfect heart stone was one of the whispers received in gratitude.
The Coachella Valley Preserve/Thousand Palms Oasis offered another experience different than the days preceding, with a more desolate desert walk and little oasis gems tucked way away.
I really liked the contrast of yesterday’s lush and water abundant trails with today’s more stark journey across the desert with expansive mountain views, until reaching small pockets of hidden green. (as seen in above photo)
The day felt even more purposeful for clarity, flowing of ideas, and for receiving very poignant and timely attention-getters, which would not have happened as they did, had not certain things took place.
The heart stone was actually the last little whisper that appeared while, for some reason, veering off-trail. But four other things came along before this.
The first was a large stone circle pile that had been deliberately put together to create a brick-like layering effect to what would be like an altar or a place to burn something. At the top was a small cairn and wedged in three or four spots were small bouquets of now-dried wild flowers.
The next thing was approaching this very open, high, flat stony terrain, but someone, or something, had created a clear sand path that created a perfectly straight and proportionate cross inside an area that was naturally like a circle. On the way back through it later, I was called to stand center, arms open to my sides, and call upon/invoke energies for the greater good.
The next was a very white, clean and smooth, pure energy-feeling stone (my white symbolism again) I saw immediately after receiving an idea and stating to myself I would do what had come to me in that inspiration.
And the next came after going off-path and wandering way past the destination, which then caused a return to retrace steps.
While retracing, the next appearance came via a Raven. The Raven flew just ahead several feet and landed on the side of the path. He began pecking at something, or placing/moving something on the ground. Then, upon arrival where he was, he flew off and I was able to look at the ground where his attention had kept him busy.
There I discovered a mini stone (about six inches in diameter) circle of black stones that fit perfectly like a puzzle, as if carved that way, and were smooth looking like black wood in a wheel shape with perfect hole at center. They were different than all other stones around them and no one would notice it unless looking for it. At the center of the black wheel were small lighter/whitish stones piled in.
That was definitely not “just” a Raven. He was very intentional and timely, and I instantly remarked that he was trying to message me and direct my attention to what he was up to.
And last, as mentioned, was seeing the large heart stone while making a “new” way back to my car.
After that, things lightened, but pretty much the whole walk was done in silence, although much was flowing through my crown and third eye in inspiration.
And upon return back for the evening to the retreat area, two little rabbits were munching on grass just outside the little hobbit dwelling. They perked up and darted in a bush when I dropped my keys on the ground, but one little brave one returned, as you can see.
“There are always some people in the mountains who are known as “hikers”. They rush over the trail at high speed and take great delight in being the first to reach camp and in covering the greatest number of miles in the least possible time. They measure the trail in terms of speed and distance. One day as I was resting in the shade Mr. Muir overtook me on the trail and began to chat in that friendly way in which he delights to talk with everyone he meets. I said to him: “Mr. Muir, someone told me you did not approve of the word ‘hike’. Is that so”? His blue eyes flashed, and with his Scotch accent he replied: “I don’t like either the word or the thing. People ought to saunter in the mountains – not hike”! Do you know the origin of that word ‘saunter’? It’s a beautiful word. Away back in the Middle Ages people used to go on pilgrimages to the Holy Land, and when people in the villages through which they passed asked where they were going, they would reply, “A la sainte terre’, ‘To the Holy Land’. And so they became known as sainte-terre-ers or saunterers. Now these mountains are our Holy Land, and we ought to saunter through them reverently, not ‘hike’ through them”.
I love creating my own way to spend the holidays, airing always on the unconventional and mixing in things that have always touched the child in me.
We all have ways that speak to us for experiencing all of life. I choose to experience it by my own heart’s gauge, and am always open to how that may reflect, change, and create itself at any given moment.
This year seemed to be about the desert for the seasonal celebrations, as that’s where I find myself again for the long Christmas weekend.
The desert couldn’t be a more beautiful way to relax and reflect on the year behind, the year ahead, and the integration of both in the now, while doing a lot of nature connecting.
There is a purity and sacredness to the desert that feels supportive of receiving clarity and standing in the raw nakedness of my personal truth.
This Christmas weekend’s retreat at a remote little sanctuary with the Pacific Crest Trail steps outside the door is perfect. And all of the little touches that have just seamlessly woven themselves together, are infusing my soul with much-embraced nurturing.
Arriving yesterday on Christmas Eve afternoon to a just-made-fire by the hosts, an old record playing on the old-fashioned record player, and 360 degree breath-taking views, was more than I could have asked for.
After settling in, I enjoyed reading a book that has personal connection, and is supporting a deeper soul exploration and integration, while I retrieve more parts of myself and increase my understanding of who I am. It’s sparking new ideas for what’s next.
And there is nothing like being snug in your jammies by a real stone fireplace on Christmas Eve, with the wind howling outside out in the middle of nowhere, warm apple pie filling the air, and Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer for viewing, listening, and feeling pleasure, like a Christmas story that tucked me in for the night.
Today, Christmas morning welcomed a beautiful sunrise on the desert landscape, inviting tea and Christmas cookies, and then a gorgeous hike on the Pacific Crest Trail, ascending 1000 feet through enchanted terrain without a soul around except for the Elementals.
This provided the ability to take it all in and stroll intentfully along the way.
It’s so wonderful not to have any plan or particulars to do. That left some exploration time of this little remote oasis to take in the other unique and hobbit dwellings and landscape.
Definitely feeling in my element. It’s like a desert Shire.
A lot to explore both inside and out this weekend and I’m listening to what wants to voice itself to me…subtle or loudly.
I definitely don’t believe that we need to “go away” on retreat to do so, but we do have to consciously and intentionally make the effort to listen, where ever we choose to be.
And we can use our surroundings, the people in it, and the triggers to take a conscious look within as to their reflections.
I just particularly need the literal adventure, as it is my soul requirement in order to feel my most expansive and free.
View from Pacific Crest Trail of the little secluded oasis retreat area I’m enjoying below
Today there were conversations around what “enlightenment” is, how being mindful and conscious makes a difference, why people have a challenge with attaining things they say they desire, and an exploration of the spirituality around this time of year.
And it all has been flowing a lot of illumination and connection in deepening and emanating ways.
The images I snapped quickly along the way, reveal the light of this renewing energy of today that is available to us all.
Arise and shine!