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The Silver Lining


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I had no idea (at least not mindfully) when I took the only appointment open for a hair transformation this week that it would be in the energy of the approaching Full Moon today, nor did I think about the choice of clothes I wore that day other than wanting my bunny loves with me. I simply felt that this change was essential, as I’d become bored and no longer aligned with the rapid shifts taking place, not to mention was feeling out of sorts with my inside-out essence expression. This Full Moon is in the fire sign of Sagittarius, which happens to rule the Moon in my astrological chart in the house of Pisces (my Sun sign). So there is/was certain to be an intense, very transformative and expansive energy pervading, which the Full Moon would then bring to clarity in order to know which changes and adjustments would best support us in peaceful flow.

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2017 is a year of new beginnings for us all collectively and this shift will entail aligning more than ever with our highest path at this time. This may involve moving through some heavy stuff and “karmic” growth, but will provide deep healing as long as you can continue to see the “silver lining,” keep an open mind, invite new perspectives, and find the joy from the innocence of your inner child’s heart. Truth and freedom play big right now and finding ways to nurture yourself while also committing to more personal responsibility is key. This is a time for really tuning into a mission, dream goal, or heart-focused purpose that truly calls to you while tempering a narrow, but flowing focus to manifest it, so as not to dilute your energy.

With things transforming for me right now, the energy activated in Australia, and new doors about to open, I outgrew any of the changes I had already made, which then had me feeling like I was wearing clothes that didn’t fit, in a metaphorical, but also literal way.

So I have been clearing out and donating clothes, got a few new things, and really, really needed to change my hair even though I just did a little over 4 months ago. I get antsy about stuff if even a little bit feels energetically off and not lining up.

This led me to be even more vulnerable outwardly, which I’m finding no end to, and revealing more of myself without care of what that may seem to others (I have had many looks since the change, when out and about). And so I decided to intensify what has already been happening with my hair much more dramatically and much more “me” feeling with an enhancement to my silver.

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I had tons of silver growing naturally, especially in two stripes near the front that were growing long, areas underneath, and then scattered and glistening throughout. I decided why not just go full on, or “Full Moon,” which got written to a friend by auto correct and felt right on, I guess, since I later received multiple reflections of “Moon essence,” “Moon child,” “Moon shine,” “Moon beam”….

And that then aligned with the Full Moon hot air balloon tank I was wearing with three white Cosmic rabbits flying in it across the Cosmos – representing my dear Nestor, Joy, and Cosmo who have moved on to the Otherworld.

My sweet friend Dawn mentioned something else I hadn’t thought of, that I was aligning with the new bunny (coming in 11 days) love’s Cosmic whiteness, as the magickal White Rabbit embodied. I loved that!

Not to mention prepares for a 10 day energetic cleanse I’m physically doing on Solstice, bunny love’s arrival, and what that portal offers.

Anyway, there’s something more than I can express happening (and it’s collective although I’m experiencing my own version of it) and it seems to be reflecting outside as well, as both yesterday and today have manifested magickal rainbow portals (3 of them!) over Lake Tahoe since I got my hair done Wednesday afternoon. And the weather shifted to this mystical energy from being at the beach just Tuesday (the day before) and sun bathing then and the days before in 70’s very warm weather, to now this mysterious, brisk, winds-of-change, stormy look and feel and dropping to the 50’s overnight.

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Yesterday’s rainbow was a full one directly in front over the lake, which then intensified and started to split at center…..creating almost like two worlds converging. Perhaps another sign of this literally happening with multiple realities and worlds simultaneously existing, yet diverging.

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And this morning’s first rainbow was a partial one, however, it lasted for an hour and a half, dissipating, intensifying, dissipating, intensifying….

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After about a half an hour a full one appeared directly in front again (actually, while I was writing this) and just skimming where lake and bottom of mountains meet, but this one glided across the lake from left to right. Incredible!

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I have been realizing the increased vulnerability I have been cracking open from depths within and how things are just melting away and also melding in that molten love. It’s amazing how deep things run, but not surprising giving the limitlessness of All That Is.

And to me, this silver feels to increase my feelings of fuller, expansive embodiment of me, as well as no longer blending into the world, but fully creating my own Cosmos on Earth – so to speak – increasing my joy and comfortability within my skin here, which has increased over time with changes I’ve been making and things brought to light.

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We all have different ways in which we integrate transformation. I happen to choose and initiate as many as possible lol!

And interestingly, shifting my hair in this way is a process, which has small parts of my hair gold as well – all blending together – cool and warm colors, metallic energies of Sun and Moon. Feels like alchemy to me.

Many Native Americans believe that hair is spirit’s physical manifestation of growth that opens/enhances extrasensory perception and symbolizes connection to all things, as if like tentacles reaching out to the world around us. Cutting hair represents doors closing and heralds new life and doorways, honoring the past while making way for the future.

And that’s always how I approach life….seeing the “silver lining” and believing when no one else does. This is increasing, which is timely with what I’m working on manifesting short and long term for the journey ahead and my heart’s mission. Gonna take everything I have!

So while my threads of silver hair reflect much more than this, too hard to explain all of here, they also seem to bring this into literal light and hence, the “silver lining” mentioned above as an approach that may be helpful for us all, coming full circle.

How might you open more to the possibilities before you? You really do have opportunity to experience life differently, if you really commit to that, no matter what challenges are present. Each pain is a seed wanting to sprout freely without your restraining its growth.

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Follow the White Rabbit


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Following the White Rabbit is where the journey begins…a reminder to take chances in life, follow your intuitive nudges and gut instincts, and let your heart and inner mind lead the way. A new way of feeling, thinking, seeing, believing, and being is just around the corner, or perhaps “down the rabbit hole,” leading you to a new opportunity and a whole whimsical “Wonderland” of unlimited possibilities and magickal experiences.

It feels like so many of us are at the precipice of incredible life changes and the White Rabbit is symbolic of this transitional journey and process, as well as the new opportunities, ideas, and paths you contemplate pursuing or that are knocking on your door to get your attention. Sometimes these unexplored new roads and dreams simply beckon us to follow for the sheer joy and adventure of it because with that approach and lightness of curiosity, you aren’t attached to outcomes and defined parameters and will more fluidly enjoy the process, not to mention receive rich experiences that lead to unimaginable fulfillment.

One of the many things rabbits symbolize is abundance. So when we are faced with this “White Rabbit” offering we are being asked to look at what areas in our lives we would like a greater abundance of a particular experience, feeling, or thing – the white symbolizing purity of essence, a blank canvas to create from, and unlimited possibilities of how you can experience the thing you want since white reflects all the frequencies of light and full spectrum of colors in unity.

Do you want more peace, joy, love, creativity, well being, health, freedom, etc. in your life?

There are many opportunities that present themselves to us daily…some more enticing to follow than others, some opening doors to your dreams if you have the courage to do so, and some simply there to reflect our ability to manifest, but not necessarily needing to pursue.

When you decide to follow the White Rabbit you have engaged the innocence within that desires something more, knows there is another perspective or way to live your life, or feels ready to wander into your dreams more than simply in your imagination, but with all of you.

Sometimes the unbelievable invites us to play and challenges us to expand our horizons and travel a more extraordinary journey that can change our life in all the ways we dreamed and then some.

No matter how ridiculous something seems and how foolish you feel to even entertain it, it is exactly these incredulous things that will help us to make the magickal tangible.

The above photo I posted is of me in one of my favorite tanks, which happens to have an Alice in Wonderland theme, including a White Rabbit, with the message below it, “Follow the White Rabbit”.

I often wear it hiking and did also Down Under – no pun intended in mirror of “Down the Rabbit Hole” 😉 These are times/experiences where I find magickal gifts along the journey from nature and listen and observe for those White Rabbit opportunities showing up along the path that lead me to new ideas, perspectives, and doorways that change my life for the good.

And below, you’ll find a photo of me in my favorite Halloween costume from a few years back, as the White Rabbit. I love this image captured with the skull. It paints a whole story itself.

And synchronously, after my sweet Joy and Cosmo moved on to the otherworld, I had been sensing a white rabbit would be entering my life next and that is exactly what is taking place and so many white rabbit signs have been showing up, especially in Australia to reiterate this and the symbolism.

I will be sharing the story of this rabbit soon, but it all definitely feels potent in terms of a new and exciting journey I’m saying “yes” to and following, literally with my own magickal White Rabbit to guide the way.

Where in your life have you turned an eye to opportunities out of fear or feelings of unworthiness?

Perhaps you might decide to invite a White Rabbit into your life with readiness to embark on an exciting journey, knowing and intending you are in the right place, at the right time, doing the right thing.

Ready, set, go!

 

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Off to Australia on the Full Moon ~ Updates & Inspiration to Leave You With


It’s been an incredibly busy month both in our personal and professional lives here and yet also incredibly rich with so much new sprouting, planting of seeds, anchoring of new cycles, and putting dreams into motion. This is a short update and words of inspiration before this Faery goes Down Under, as I’m immersed in things here before I leave for 19 days until 5/28 – traveling on Wednesday May 10th’s Full Moon in fact (known as the Full Flower or Big Leaf Moon) and will be in Australia for the New Moon of May 25th too, which is so cool. You’ll be able to follow along my travels via Instagram and Facebook, but I will not be available via text, phone, nor instant messaging. I’m keeping things simple with just wi-fi while away and will check emails now and then, but mostly only sharing quick inspirational photos of travels via social media.

I’m unclear whether I’ll put together any big blog when I return like I usually do from travels – maybe just a summary take-away. I will see how the moment moves me when things take place, but quick shares are much more conducive to my life these days than long recounts of experiences unless I really have the time.

The energy has felt very potent the last few days and I’ve felt to be in preparation for this trip energetically. My body seems to be recalibrating to a lot of new as well as has been channeling a lot of energy and downloads, so I’ve been resting when prompted, which is unusual for me who never takes naps. I continue to experience massive synchronicities, instant manifestation, and how everything I write about happens in the real world while I’m writing it.

I did a powerful Reiki Healing Attunement a few days ago and within hours everything I did it for came to be. (Another of my reminder nudges that if you have this as a tool, or any other tools you’ve learned, please don’t forget to use them, as they are powerful, but not only that, it’s your way of meeting intention with action and owns that you’re a co-creative partner who’s stepping up!)

Anyway, my writing has been going excellent, despite the full schedule of things, but also because of the full schedule and my honoring my body’s needs, the strong sense I had about a week ago that the last part would be written upon return from Australia has come to be. I got the message that there is something in Australia that will shift within me and open me to the conclusion of my book, so to just keep a healthy pace with writing and the timing would reveal itself.

Everyone has their own way of writing, but for me it hasn’t been an outlined plan, nor did I know the story until it wrote itself. So basically when I sit down each day, the material is channeled. I don’t try to foresee or start writing parts of it in my head. At the end of the day I let it be and start fresh the next…and then it flows when it is ready. So it’s very alive and has been a super fun process for me.

So I will basically have it all done before I leave except the very last part, which will conclude the week I return. I’m super excited! Again, this is only the first draft, which means I have much editing and what-not to do.

I’ll also be getting back to some Magick Crystal Wand creating when I return, but I’ve concluded my client work this week and will be immersed in my dreams, as well as welcoming in a new co-partner into my life when back! Yay!

Quick update on Dave’s speaking tour in Australia for Voiceless – it’s been going amazing. I’ve heard feedback from others in Australia and via social media on how awesome his talks have been. Very proud of him. He’s had quite a busy tour with just the first weekend he arrived in Sydney and this weekend off in Tasmania to explore (he said the MONA Museum there is the most incredible museum he’s ever been to and like a Disneyland for adults) before he completes his last four talks this week, back-to-back. He’s already done three for full rooms in Perth, Adelaide, and Sydney. He’ll be concluding with Hobart, Canberra, Brisbane, and Melbourne. In between talks he’s been in media interviews and been enjoying the local vegan food. An article he wrote came out in The Age last week, as well as an article in The Guardian was done on his talk and came out a couple of days ago, with another from The Guardian from a post-talk interview with him due out in a few weeks by them as well. Busy guy!

Looking forward to joining him in Melbourne shortly for our adventure exploring the area between there and Brisbane.

Until, then, here’s some last words before I go.

I posted these photos of my Selenite Spiral Unicorn Horn Wand because it’s been one of the supportive energies for me during my time alone and writing, along with my newly created Faery Succulent Crystal Gardens and some other magickal friends. But more importantly I’m sharing them for inspiration to ignite the dreamer within you to focus and act upon those dreams. Besides we could all use a little Unicorn magick in remembering who we really are.

Unicorns help make your dreams a reality – taking you on a freeing ride beyond limitations and beyond the wildest parts of your imagination.

They are masters of the light and transformation who can bestow the gifts of magick to those who are pure of heart, or who commit to a life of pure expression.

These mystical beings help us to believe that anything is possible and support us to do what is thought to be impossible.

Life is fleeting…a blink of an eye…yet many of us keep pushing off the things in life we know in our hearts we would love to experience AND came here to experience.

Tomorrow is no guarantee, but you do have this moment.

Express the things you’ve wanted to share with others, do something courageous toward your dreams, experience something new you haven’t, and savor what you do have.

It may make all the difference and begin to write a new chapter that begins the first day you really start living.

 

Tiny Aqua Tortoise


I am always enthralled by my dream time and how rich it is. I’ve had many interesting dreams recently again, but the one that stood out most was of the tiny aqua tortoise two nights ago. I love how each time my Russian Tortoise, Gaia, assists me with my writing, she will show up in my dream that very night, or vice versa – show up the night before and I’ll know she has something to share for the day’s writing ahead. I’m so grateful for my spirit family and especially my tortoise and rabbit companions who share their loving support always.

In the dream it actually started out with me on a journey – this time in a smaller RV – and about to embark. Before leaving I catch glimpse of a tiny (baby-sized) tortoise with aqua shell scurrying across the ground of what seemed to be like a garage or storage area. This little tortoise was fast!

The only other tortoise I know to be so fast is my beloved Gaia. She not only had strong presence, patience, and deliberate, persistent action, but she could move between those methodical, soldier-like steps of intention into a speedy sprint.

I knew right away this was a manifestation of Gaia coming through in this mighty and speedy little tortoise. She was reminding me not to forget the gifts and tools I have, not to mention the guiding support to lean into with this journey.

I went after her trying to pick her up, as she dashed quickly in and out of things in this storage area, making it challenging to get her, but also calling forth my not wasting energy, but focusing intentfully on what would be most effective in scooping her up without zig-zagging about.

And soon I did have her in my hands and just remembered how sweet she looked, her deep eyes and almost smiling face, with a fully aqua painted shell home she carried on her back and her coloring reminding me more of a sea turtle – interestingly just the size and similar essence to a tiny figurine I was gifted by a dear friend that sits on my dresser.

That was all I remember.

But as mentioned, since she’d come through that day with writing support and channeling the part of the story I was tapping into, I knew this was no coincidence, but timely and symbolic manifestation on her part.

Her small size felt to indicate these as reminders more than a blaring warning or that I was off-track and needing a huge sign. It also felt like she was helping me to fine-tune these elements and gifts rather than outright teaching me it from scratch. So definitely about honing in on things even more and tweaking so I can optimize.

Aqua happens to be my favorite color, but this is also a color that holds much pertinent energy to my life and this undertaking right now.

It can represent our unconscious and the instincts we have, wanting us to take notice and support. I take this as Gaia sharing to just trust this next flow of information coming through and to surrender to almost what I’d call “automatic writing” that has and will continue to take place. I will not need to dictate anything.

Aqua is also highly creative energy, light-hearted and still carries a strong individuality. This speaks to me too about the writing I’m engaged in and how it is being carried through me, but also of me.

It’s also definitely about inspiration, focus, concentration, communication between heart and spoken/written word, clarity, and even has been linked with the “electronic age” where computers are a form of wide-scale communication. To me speaking to again, trusting the translation that takes place if I let my parts work in balanced partnership and weave thoughts and words from their true source. And of course, I do type on a computer and to understand the collective reach of what’s taking place, not to mention is a way Gaia communicates to me through electronics with her ability to tap into this energy.

It’s also a color of calm invigoration, restoration, recharge of spirits, encourages healing, compassion, and our intuitive abilities that have the ability to open doorways to greater spiritual growth.

I have found this journey with my writing to be all of this and Gaia seems to be encouraging the process and path, sensing I had a moment of pause where I stepped out of that automatic writing place and was stumped for a bit before I jumped back onto the frequency train of allowing.

Aqua is a perfect color to support expression and confidently focus us with our speech and bringing through ways of describing things we might find hard to express. So it’s a wonderful color to surround ourselves with while also enhancing our gifts, help us make decisions, move forward, carry us through successfully, get us out of a rut or indecisive place in life or with a project, and all the while calming our nerves so we can return to center.

Gaia was definitely reminding me of the aura I carry with me with aqua always having been in and around my life, and to surround my process in this essence to carry me to closure with the story.

The things about tortoise/turtles is that they can live and journey both in water and on land, so there is again that balance of diving into our sensitivities and bringing them into concrete form. A bridge between the imagination and manifestation.

Vulnerability will be part of the journey when they show up and at times this will need withdrawing into our “shell” to bring forth something deeper, but also knowing we have the support to share it and that courage will be there when needed.

Normally turtles/tortoises can signify a need to slow down, but in the case of Gaia and this tiny turtle manifestation of her, she was moving quickly. I feel it represents that things will move more rapidly now with things, if I continue to go in this flow she is sharing, but also to be aware of how I can still navigate intentfully and more effectively. By continuing to be aware of my energy out-put and acting instinctively rather than just doing things without engaging my ability to think 10 steps ahead in the moment to understand the flow of energy currents I can ride, I will bring things together with productive results.

When ever I do this, then I meet with harmonious outcomes and merge as one with what is unfolding as an equal partner in tune with the natural rhythms.

There is so much we can learn by symbolism that comes through and many ways and perspectives to receive and see them as, but I believe we are guided to the ones that we need to know most.

I’m grateful to Gaia for her taking time from her ever-full missions she’s on to support me with mine – well….ours. 🙂

Birthday Portals & New Moon Solar Eclipse of February 26th


Since I’ll likely not be posting a blog on my birthday or this weekend, I thought I’d share one today and to get the energetic ball rolling with the upcoming New Moon Solar Eclipse, which just so happens to fall on my birthday – February 26th. While I don’t have any grand plans this year, I’m feeling grateful for this grand gift itself of Cosmic alignment and there may also be a snow gift from Nature on my birthday and through the weekend, which all feels like a symbolic celebration in very literal ways for this Winter baby, Cosmic Pisces, Snow Faery. However this birthday unfolds, I will make it an intentional day, as I’ve learned it isn’t so much what we do, as the energy we carry forth through what we are doing.

But what a perfect timing to clear away the old, keep digging deep, making way for new beginnings, sharing your greatest hopes, and dreaming bigger than ever as a way of celebrating and honoring your journey.

I know for myself, I’ll be doing some more Reiki Healing Attunements on the 26th for my greatest intentions and biggest dreams I have yet to put forward, no matter how others may think I should be more realistic. That’s not exactly something a Pisces understands, although the Capricorn parts of me appreciate the caution. Yet for me that is interpreted more as making sure I’m aligning all parts of me with the essence of my dreams, making sure I can commit myself fully, understanding the responsibility that goes along with it, and the groundwork that will be needed with persevering and unwavering courage and strength.

I’ve been doing an amped up amount of Reiki Healing Attunements over the last few weeks – again a reminder if you have this tool in your toolbox – and have seen all of them except the long term ones come to fruition, although more clarity and steps have revealed themselves with the farther future ones too.

I have also been more willing in the last year or so to declare what I really want, no matter how big they seem or that they are truly just MY joys and desires, as I know that I matter too and I know that because I always intend everything for the highest good of all concerned, it is never selfish to ask from your heart what you want, as this inevitably will trickle to everyone we touch directly or indirectly. Plus, it is is powerful to voice your desires, without attachment or expectation, but simply as personal expression of what you feel and/or want.

I felt a big shift take place on the 22nd that asked me to anchor even more with the future potentials I’m creating and opened up greater ways to commit if in fact I want to manifest them. This provided different creative ideas and strategies I hadn’t thought of, to support my wanting to do more right now that I was feeling an unknown around how I could actually be investing into things even though it’s still off in the distance.

So, I will utilize the 26th, my renewal and rebirthing, along with the New Moon Eclipse to provide greater vision and roots with everything I definitively decide to anchor into and to “up the game” so to speak. Perhaps you might join in and do the same for your own intentions?

I do know that I have been having an increased momentum surge through me that needs precision and fine focus, which will continue to see me more immersed in creating, exercising more boundaries, and balancing my time and resources.

I love how this birthday is also my 44th, loving that double digit, master number and angelic presence surrounding the energy of this year and that I’ll be beginning a #2 personal year which speaks to peace, timing, nurturing, partnership, patience, intuition, trust, cooperation, and things not appearing on the outside while much is taking place in the internal world and foundationally.

I love what Numerologist, Christine DeLorey, shares about a 2 Year Cycle:

“The 2 year cycle is an inspiring twelve month journey in which you will find exciting connections between your past, your present, and your future. Eventually, you will be able to use this information to set an ambitious goal in motion. But make no mistake, what happens this year is going to take perseverance and, above all, great patience.

First, you must slow down and stop pushing to get results. What you want is going to take longer to achieve than expected, so tone down your high expectations of yourself and others, and pay patient and meticulous attention to the details of all situations.

You must learn to move more slowly, attentively, and with mutual interests in mind. If not, you will miss too many clues and connections to make any kind of measurable progress. Widen your lens. See a bigger picture. Discover your connection to everything that is influencing your life.

Of course, it can be difficult to slow down when you are so sure that you need to be moving faster, but until you do slow down – enough to see the finer and often overlooked details of your reality – you will have no idea of where you have come from, who you are becoming, where you are, what you’re doing, why you’re doing it, where you’re going, or the roles that others are playing in your life. Clarity is one of the principle gifts of the 2 year, just as long as you slow yourself down enough to be able to claim it.”

A perfect message for what had come to me this week and how I’ll be funneling my energies like my Tortoise, Gaia, with deliberate clarity and steadfast patience, taking into account the bigger picture and all seens and potential unforeseens, which my rabbit companion souls teach me with heightened senses, vision, and agility for transforming quickly when needed.

I love that I get to share my special day with a collective special day on this portal of possibility and potential, which seems appropriate for a collective Pisces soul.

This is a magickal and joyous energy we’ll be experiencing with opportunity to turn dreams into reality with enduring results and lasting happiness, by humbly honing in on our gifts for the greatest good of all concerned. Definitely a Solar Eclipse for making wishes come true. So we can all really go deep and ask what that wish is, or wishes are. Don’t be afraid to state it out loud, nor afraid to do what it takes to co-create it.

The Sun and Moon are also conjunct Neptune at this time which increases sensitivity, intuition, visions/premonitions, and empathy…something I’m hearing from many who are usually strong pillars of guidance and anchors for others. So be aware of nervous tension and anxiety, which can cause reactions versus responses. Keep personal integrity and responsibility at the forefront. And rise above the collective field so you can continue to do your thing and guide the way for others by standing in your personal frequency.

Rather than chaos pulling you in, let your inner peace draw others out of the chaos.

This is where boundaries come into play and conscious self-awareness to filter out what is and isn’t you.

Yet this doorway also provides very harmonious energy that can be harnessed for great benefit, not to mention access to deepest dreams, creativity, and imagination for manifesting.

There isn’t wrong choice, there’s simply choice. This can be a good time to get clarity on decisions and the momentum behind them to put them into action.

And this brings me around to responsibility. I shared this on social media today, but it feels important to add here, as more than ever this feels at the forefront of choices we make day in and day out.

Responsibility is key always and to be conscious of it consistently is necessary. Your actions, thoughts, words, shares, feelings, all have an impact on the collective in seen and unseen ways. And if you are in a role where others look to you as a guide in some way or if you are a leader or visionary as your path, responsibility is a moment-to-moment energy to temper all that you do with and choose from the place of greatest good to others while empowering/not enabling, and keeping the integrity of your message as consistent and pure as you can.

While everyone has choice, that also includes the choice to live responsibly and to hold your own frequency, regardless of other’s choices.

I’ve come to see over time how important one’s commitment to responsibility affects so much in your life. Not only will it support the things you desire creating, but also trickles out to how others will relate to you and want to cocreate with you. Think about the choices and commitments you make and the value impact they have in more ways than you may realize.

This is at the forefront of my intentions, dreams, and the energy I’m putting out there, tempered with a deeper kind of love I’ve come to experience that nudges limitations into greater expansiveness.

I can’t begin to share all that has transformed in my life over the course of it, let alone in the last year or two, but this rapid change seems to take place on a weekly and daily basis now, as accelerated experiences are embraced.

I know that so many of you can relate. It’s like a whole other person/or persons and worlds, right?!

And while none of the details really matter, I would like to take a moment to publicly express gratitude from the heart and core of my soul for everything I have chosen to go through at this collective time we share on Earth – the good, bad, ugly, thick and thin…or whatever you want to call it – simply experiences.

I didn’t actually think I would make it to this year and yet here I am because I chose another way to fulfill that which was unfulfilled. I chose a symbolic death instead of a literal one. I chose to take a leap, to have faith, to reinvent myself, to let go of everything, and to continue forward despite my soul family moving on, despite the invitations before me, and despite having no guarantee for what I was about to choose except knowing it is my heart’s joy.

And while I, or any of us, don’t know how much longer we may have in this embodiment, I do know that I can say I am truly living in every sense of the word without limitations and without regrets. I feel finally that I am merging my Cosmic and Earthly self.

My only regret would have been not to do what I’m doing now, which is immersing into the greater potentials and possibilities beyond what would have been soul expected of me due to the cycles and repetitive patterns I was repeating, fulfilling, and ultimately bringing around in a healthy way to close off karmically.

It would also have been a regret not to immerse into the simple and most valuable enjoyments and enrichments in the fullest possible way, not to immerse into the pure experience without any limiting ideas or other’s beliefs ruling my enjoyment of sensual living, not to immerse into more amplification of my personal frequency and vibration without hiding behind myself or holding my energy back…not to immerse into the pure harmony of it all, period.

While some may say I’ve been doing this, I would say not to the degree and greater consistency I am now, and this does and has made a huge difference.

So while I may never go back to things I once used to do, offer as service, or engage in as a human, I will be living with deeper conviction and clarity of my thread in the collective tapestry moment to moment.

44 feels like a year of building, business, being, and balance (4 B’s!) all centered around my passions and knowing the strength and support is there if I remain focused and dedicated.

And so I embrace this new doorway on the 26th, this portal of potential, with open heart and committed soul and welcome the fresh experiences that await my alignment.

Wishing everyone a creatively potent New Moon Solar Eclipse. I hope you will stretch yourself farther than you ever have into the seed of potential you have within you as your origin of being.

(FUN NOTE: When I hit publish the clock said 4:44 – gotta love it!)

Hope, Healing & Harmony ~ Dream Journeying with Two Blue Snakes & a Gila Monster


Dream time has been SUPER active and potent in conscious awareness again, after a short lull of things not needing to come to awareness in waking life about them and not remembering them upon waking in the morning like I normally do, even if I had during the night if I awoke. This to include another surge of dreaming about so many people I know, whether met in person or not. Collective stuff is swirling hugely with major transformation happening for all. Yet this last Friday, 1/20, I had quite a potent dream again with snake at the forefront, which felt both personal and collective since it happened to be on the night of the inauguration and before the next day of marches across the states.

I’ve been experiencing myself more and more as a transmitter, so to speak, but now taking place in a more empowered and conscious way than it used to be the first part of my life. In this way, it does not affect or trigger me, but I remain a detached observer and channel transmuting energies.

It’s all very fascinating, more so because I am aware of the evolution of this and it not tormenting me or confusing me as it did when I didn’t have my Pisces fish in balanced grasp. That tug of two fish swimming in opposite directions can be challenging, but also provides the path to a Middle Way.

Anyway, Friday night’s dream was fascinating to me as well. I hadn’t had time to share more in depth about it until now.

I have dreamed of snakes often and shared of them before like in this post: A Little Full Moon Snake Dream Activation, but this one was very different again and involved blue snakes and two dreams converging.

The first dream found me in bed and finding a snake skin at the end by my feet in the covers on top of the bed. I knew where there’s a skin there must be a snake and so I searched the room to find the snake. The room itself was unique as it was both indoors and outdoors with a floor of grasses, bushes and rock where there would otherwise be flooring or carpet. I found the snake in the bordering tall grasses of the perimeter of the room and it was beautiful.

It was a lighter to medium blue color with medium to darker blue marking and smaller in size. The first thing that came to me was “blue cornflower snake,” which I remembered upon waking.

Then my dad shows up and it was unlike him to approach a snake, although would think it beautiful, and may have connotations about it. But my dad behaves differently and magickally. He goes closer and very intentionally towards it putting his hand out even closer, less than a foot away. I tell him to be careful because it is a very poisonous snake, but he edges closer with his hand with peace and centeredness and the snake for a moment slowly pulls his neck back as if to strike, but instead does not.

He gently leans in closer, as if mesmerized and in communion with my dad and his hand. They are in perfect harmony and as if my dad has charmed the snake with his balanced energy.

I then wake up and tell myself to remember this dream and the name of the snake that came to me, as I didn’t feel like getting up and writing anything down.

I then go back to sleep and the dream continues. I don’t ever remember this happening even if I want it to, or at least not that I consciously remember.

The dream continues with the memories I intended but shifts into a new version of the dream as an add-on.

Again, I find another skin and go searching for the snake that shed it. But before finding the snake a blue gila monster walks across the center of the room and through the grasses with slow deliberate steps. I am only needing to see it and then my attention goes back to finding the snake I’m aware of being there.

This time I find it under the corner of the bed where the mattress is caving down inside the bed frame revealing it below. It is again a beautiful blue snake, much like the other, but much larger…like a boa.

I stand straddling the corner of the bed and this area that is open revealing the snake below, but I start to sink lower and lower, caving in toward the snake and he pulls back again like the other, but does not strike. He is inches from my ankles and feet, but again we seem to be in harmony together. (Ankles are connected to Aquarian energy and feet to Piscean energy….both very strong for me in my astrological chart).

This is all I remember, but seemed like I got all of the important parts to bring back into waking life for sure to this layered and potently symbolic dream.

When I woke I started researching blue snakes….there are quite a few – Blue Racer Snakes, Blue Coral Snakes, Eastern Hognose Snake, and yes, even Blue Corn Snakes….and more.

No blue cornflower snakes, at least that I could find, but either that was how I interpreted it, or it was because the “cornflower” part was significant to remember too for symbolism sake.

There is so much one could interpret from this dream, especially given symbolism of everything, and I won’t go into all of the possibilities or full personal interpretation I have been piecing together, but will bring to light a few things, as I always find it helpful to share how we can figure out the meaning for ourselves of things by looking into our lives with honesty, doing a little bit of online researching on our own, looking at what’s going on in and around us, the collective field of experience, etc.

The first smaller snake I find to represent my inner child, on a personal level…and the little girl me. The communion in harmony with my dad felt like a new layer to our relationship has been activated and my making peace and harmony with the old male that is now in process of transforming. That I’m taking back my power in terms of the male and the father role in my life and equality is taking place here, not to mention I am now bringing forth a new empowered and balanced male through my life that the snake skin shares I have shed.

The larger, boa-like snake, being the new me and transforming my Pisces and Aquarian aspects of myself – I have Sun and Mercury in Pisces, as well as Jupiter and Venus in Aquarius.

And we are in the Aquarian Age, having transitioned out of the Piscean Age, so there is much transformation afoot – no pun intended. 😉

It also speaks to me about my dad going through his own personal transformations with himself in relation to this and coming more into balance with his divine feminine parts.

And then I see a collective symbolism of the shifts taking place and the potentials for us all where the male and female energies are finding their way slowly to greater balance through all of these turbulent and transformational times that are shaking up things and creating opportunity for us on a bigger level even though temporarily seem like something completely different.

The latter due to the tie-in with the inauguration that calls to mind these specifics people have been warring over and having great torment about emotionally, which is bringing rise to new perspectives and more unified ways of seeing things through greater compassion to understand one other…or at least that’s the opportunity. My dream presented a hopeful outcome.

And hope is present with the reference to the cornflower, although this is a flower that carries very dramatic and mixed symbolism over time…this is the one thing that stands out to me the most in all that I researched.

There are references to its fragility, but being quite a courageously determined plant that can withstand harsh elements and still thrive where other plants cannot.

It can be traced back to ancient times and old traditions, including Ancient Egypt where it was connected to life and fertility, reanimation and resurrection.

All parts of the plant have been used medicinally and according to Greek mythology when Achilles was wounded by a poisoned arrow, the wound was healed by applying cornflower plants. Interestingly that poison in the arrow was said to come from Hydra, usually depicted as a huge poisonous water snake, but interpreted as a giant slug. In Christianity, slugs were associated with the devil, just as snakes have been, and the cornflower remedy became a symbol of Mary and Christ, often found in Christian fresco depictions.

And there’s the energy of tenderness, reliability, fidelity, and power, sovereignty, and majesty throughout time that came to be linked with cornflower as well.

And there has also been complicated layers to it, as Bernhard Weidinger, a Vienna historian shared, “It was the German Kaiser Wilhelm’s favourite flower, and was used by pan-German nationalists in the 19th Century.”

“Then between 1934 and 1938, when the Nazis were a banned party in Austria, it was the secret symbol they used to wear in order to recognise each other.”

And the Freedom Party whose color is blue, wears cornflowers.

Brings light to my thoughts on a collective transformation in process with these paradoxes of meaning.

But still I focus on “hope” in light of it all, and potential that could unfold with our conscious efforts.

Blue is a color of peace, calm, trust, communication…it is also the color of water and sky – water and air elements – and of the throat and third eye chakras…in this case more emphasis on the throat by the color I saw in my dream, but connecting with the third eye with the darker blue markings. This bringing focus on a new level of inspired and intuitive self expression, communication, song and sound…all things feeling relevant for me and my focuses, but also in the greater landscape.

Air and water elements are bringing mind and heart together in balance as well, male and female governed energies, and a greater fluidity and ease of flow with change, abundance, and expansion.

There is an element of healing help the snake’s presence brings to the primal parts within us….our origins.

There was nothing negatively felt in the dream, nor any pervading fear, although I’d stated caution to my dad when he went close, but I did not overreact or try to intervene or panic. It was from a place of knowing this was out of character for him and that I didn’t know if he knew how to handle the situation, and yet he did.

I have long through my life worked on healing my throat chakra, empowering my voice, and speaking up for myself and voicing my uniqueness…not being afraid to express who I am, share my ideas and beliefs, despite anyone including my family or dad potentially thinking certain things of me. After all, he is a Virgo, my opposite, and my role has been to temper these opposites within myself, while remaining authentic to me rather than follow in his footsteps. And yet, he had many positive things to teach and help me to integrate into my own version of new male energy…something by my own example directly relates to his own journey too.

It also speaks to how sound has become a pervading element to my life through both my voice, song, sound channeling, singing bowls, and frequencies (recently gifting myself for my birthday two quartz crystal singing bowls that I knew I had to have that are a binaural beat theta wave pair – talk about potent balancing and invoking conscious dream, receptivity and opening a gateway to all things watery).

Snakes are particularly connected to this as well, not just the blue color that showed up connecting to the throat and ear and telepathy….they don’t have eardrums or external ears or openings like we do, but do have tiny bones in their head that conduct sound and allow them to hear low frequency sounds and sense vibrations traveling through Earth.

The blue gila monster also felt very potent to show up (it is one of two truly venomous lizards), as I had never had this before and didn’t know of its energy other than its transformative reptilian connections of essence I’m aware of. In looking more into gila monster it supported these things as I learned it teaches us to stand strong in what we believe and to protect that which is ours. It also teaches of the rhythm of life and maintaining balance and flow, but keeping determined and quiet about things in your journey while in process, preserving your energy, not overextending (gila monsters spend up to 95% of time undergroound and can go without eating for a year), are about survival, strength, and healing and connected with masculine energy.

And of course snakes are hugely transformative and healing in their wisdom, awakening creative forces, intuition, perception, and life force. Connected with the Sun and golden light, there is great alchemy with snakes that brings vitality and renewal to our understanding of our wholeness.

One of my spirit guides is Rainbow Serpent Teacher, which is why snake is always around and I wear a snake upon my right hand and wrist as a sacred tattoo and had a ring made as a serpent with a reminder mantra from this guide of my engraved inside of it.

There is a link to the Great Mystery, cosmic consciousness, and shamanism with snake energy – again very active and showing up in greater ways for me, personally, right now, including my creation of the pieces I’m told to make including wands, scepter, and staves channeling through.

But this is happening on a grander, collective scale where things are all coming to the surface for us to integrate and no longer suppress or deny.

The snake guides us and acts as guardian to those that embrace its energy, helping us to travel to sacred places and retrieve parts of ourselves on a cellular level and the hidden knowledge that lies within.

The skins of course are about shedding as a ritual to rebirthing and spiraling into new levels of awareness and being.

A potent dream for sure and perhaps it “sheds” some light on something within your own experience, or inspires some extra hope within the chaos to help keep you grounded and centered.

A New Day is Available Everyday!


I hope this morning, this new day of a new fresh year 1-1-1 (as 2017 equals 10/1), is being met with an air of unlimited possibilities being awakened and stirred from within you that you will carry forth everyday following. I know I felt energized and revved to go as I woke up to another stunning, gift-of-a-day here in Tahoe. Yesterday and last evening were incredibly anchoring for me, as I sat in gratitude and review of this year and my life, in general, and could clearly feel the probable future I’m creating.

There were a few stand-out things I reflected upon experiencing this past year, which include, but are not limited to, deep embodied peace and fluidity, expanded heart and connection, greater alignment, and laser beam clarity and focus of my heart’s path like never before.

We spent a very intentful and quiet New Years Eve together, which likely is my favorite one yet and was filled with tons of gratitude for everything in our lives and where we find ourselves in the here and now.

For us this involved time in Nature and lots of self-nurturing, as well as solitude to fully be in reflection and stillness in our magickal sanctuary home and with the presence of all of my magickal best friends.

We all know exactly what is perfectly supportive and enriching to our needs and desires to anchor and for us, this was it…..a day kicked off with a pinky fresh smoothie creation reflecting an open vulnerable heart, innocence of renewal, and passionate wonder (blend of dragonfruit, mango, banana, orange, ginger, fresh coconut, ground flax, sliced almonds, cinnamon, and alkaline water topped with a sprig of chocolate mint), then spent out enjoying a deliciously fun vegan lunch (Blissed Out Nachos with cashew cheeze and Devilish sandwich with their signature no-egg salad), followed by a hike at beautiful Fallen Leaf Lake where I brought to life the snow bunny I shared with you yesterday (which was so meaningful for me to do on this day), and then an evening of candle lights, foot massages, baking vegan pizza from scratch and cookie dough brownies (we topped with salted caramel vegan ice cream and raspberries), jacuzzi time under the stars while stating our gratitude and intentions until the Moon moved behind the mountains, dinner, movie, and in bed by 10:15 pm – all done in my new white rabbits and snowballs flannel midnight navy jammies.

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I knew I would wake up to ring in the New Year and I did, at exactly 11:59 pm I magickally awoke and watched the clock turn midnight, the stars twinkle outside, placed my hands upon my crystals and crystal skull that sit next to my side of the bed, and shared a New Year’s kiss before resting my head back on my pillow and snuggled my enchanted stuffed rabbit until I fell back into dream land.

As mentioned, we’d received news yesterday that really concluded the year so perfectly and filled us with excitement and full hearts. That was also a huge gift to start 2017 off.

I know so many of you have inspired hearts of delicious anticipation for what you feel opening for you in this year of great potential and I’m excited to feel how all of that will be anchoring in as a collective.

It’s not the specifics that matter, but the essence you hold in heart and intend with all of you.

So looking forward to all of the stories and shares that others will be flowing in over this year. I sense it to be a hugely fertile energetic field of experience, in relative ways for each, for sure!

Let’s make every day a fresh new start and not just the first day of the year. Keep those intents and goals fueled and make commitments that are meaningful to your life…ones you know you just can’t live without any longer. Then take it moment to moment with steps that are both ones you can see yourself able to do, but also challenge a little more of yourself each day.

Picture Windows Into My Soul Dreams


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This morning I woke to this view from bed of snow blanketed trees and mountain and found myself in a waking dream. A wonderful and smooth transition from dream time, which can usually be a harsh transition for a Pisces, to open my eyes to another dream and feel swathed in an enchanted realm that feels like home to my soul.

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After laying there immersed in the realm of my birth…I’m a Winter Water baby born in February and so the crystalline icy realm is fit for this Faery. ..I then turned to my left to catch the apricot sunshine of dawn kissing the snowy mountain tops across Lake Tahoe’s  watery portal.

I’m convinced that being here has taken me deeper into my essence again and which is why my dreams are amping up.

I always dream, but have been having so many richly symbolic, layered, and telepathic ones of recent. And a lot including sound healing.

Recently I had one of an ancient dolphin named Naru that included a friend of mine. I later learned that “Naru” here on Earth was Japanese meaning, “to change,” “sound,” and “to become.”

In the dream, the ancient dolphin being was in an area on a beach where there was little water, and she was out of the water. She didn’t seem beached, but did seem to be slowing down and getting ready to transition. My friend had a soft, moist, almost broom-like thing in her hand with a spongy soft end that she was gently rubbing over her back to soothe her and keep her moist and I was rubbing her around her face and fins with my hands. Her life force was strong. We remembered people saying not to touch them, but we were told to by the dolphin and trusted that connection because she communicated to us.

After a while I remember walking around behind her and it was almost like her body was open in the back near her tail and there were all these treasures there. We were to take the ones that spoke to us as gifts. They were ancient and beautiful. The only one I remember was this Egyptian piece like a pharaoh and it was a beautiful aqua color with crystals and diamonds in it. My friend found her own gift and it ended there.

This dolphin was soul family and while we assisted her shift back to her cosmic realm, she was supporting us with emotional healing and reminding us of our true nature and that we have gifts that are important to bring forth and focus on above all else. These reminded us of our ancient roots and interestingly the Egyptian theme returned last night in another dream with a different friend.

Synchronously of course, it is in Egypt, this life, where I accessed my sound channeling gift and opened my throat chakra.

Anyway, that same night I had a dream of a rhino that kept following me and wouldn’t let me out of her sight.

She kept nudging me with her horn.

Rhinos also connect us to the ancient wisdom of our soul. They represent a solitary person who creates self-made success and remind us to use our spiritual eyes to see within, which expands our inner knowledge to new levels. They also remind us to stay grounded in our spiritual work and to take things one step at a time with confident sure-footedness and richly deep Earth connection.

The symbolism of their horn is magickal and powerful, reminding me of unicorns or narwhals and feels like a horn of illumination and personal empowerment to strengthen what is within us and turn our eyes to see with greater clarity beyond the veils and come to more conscious enlightenment from a deeper core soul place.

And then last night was one of those nights where several people I know all were in different dreams where I received messages and visions of things in their lives (confirmed later), but I also had some cool ones for myself. And as mentioned one dream continued with an Egyptian connection.

But the coolest dream for me involved this unusual and very magickal “piano”. It was like no other I’ve seen. Maybe about 3 feet wide and 4 or 5 feet tall, with about 3 inch wide keys on it that all had beautiful nature or cosmic inspired images on them. They were recognized by essence, rather than a note, word, or letter.

Interestingly there was a purchase price of $1052. I always get these very specific numbers. 🙂 But numerologically that would equate to the number 8, which has its own significance, including abundance, power, infinity, harmony, and balance.

Anyway, this piano was like harmony itself and I was able to play the keys in different sequences, which would create an organic symphony of nature and cosmos notes/tones/essences I could blend together through inspiration and listening to the frequencies and vibrations and how they aligned together to create specific “keys” to open portals of experience.

It was like a gift that accessed creation itself.

Mmmmmm….yes, I’m feeling the energy here up high in my treehouse in the sky and these picture windows are helping me to peer deeply into my soul and soul awareness, to access another kind of vision, and surrounding me with constantly shifting reflections mirroring the inner landscape of my experiences and evolutionary growth – not simply as an individual, but as a unique part of the whole.

Grateful for these blessings and insights to how I may be able to bring what is within forth to share with others in a way that honors that return to natural harmony.

Pink Skies


Every morning provides you the opportunity to begin again…to face the day, your life, with an even more open heart and to breathe from the sacred seat of your soul. The sky is swathed in blankets of pink around your inner child’s most cherished dreams…dreams that expand before you and breathe with innocent wonder, inviting your nurtured embrace into the field of possibilities. Come dance in the realm of imagination and dream your wishes alive.

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Creating Unlimited Possibilities: The Ever-Evolving Journey Continues


Today felt like the perfect day to share these announcements with the rain coming down, which is what you hear in the video, cleansing all that has come before and making way for the new we are creating. Our Magick Bus journey has come to full circle closure, but the journey has just begun and is expanding into greater and unlimited possibilities, all anchored in the imagination of our hearts, as is aligned with the cosmic flow abound. We’ll be nesting in for the winter where I’ll be finishing my book in the inspiration of our “chateaux dans le ciel” (as its owners named it) – “castle in the sky” new home for the next 6 months while the rest of our visions unfold. I couldn’t imagine a more perfect place to create our next dreams. We’ll miss the Magick Bus and her nurturing guardianship, as well as her ability to provide opportunity to see with new eyes, and we wish for her to find the perfect soul/s whom she can help bring their dreams into manifestation too.

Please excuse the breaks, as my recorder kept stopping and I tried to just pick right back up.

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