I’ve spent most of my life as a Southern California girl where weather is mild year round unless you drive to the mountains or way north or into neighboring states. That’s one reason why people love California so much and while that’s been what I always knew, I’ve longed for the changes that mirror my own. It’s such a gift to have that once again and for the long haul. For me, this experience of full immersion into the changes really enhances my experience of life, creates depth of presence, and enriches it all. I truly love the fullness of embodiment within and without.
I had opportunity to experience other climates and regions while living in the Seattle, WA area for a year, Sedona, AZ for a couple of years, Lake Tahoe and Reno, NV for 5 years, and traveling all over the world, which has really driven home to me the kind of things, weather, and energy that are nurturing to my soul and what nourishes thriving for my heart to create and be fueled with inspiration always.
I’m grateful to have found that.
Autumn is truly spectacular here and I so appreciate and love living in a place where I get to enjoy the four seasons and literally experience the reflections and wisdom of nature’s cycles. Everything we want to know can be found in nature.
The photos in this post share some Fall visions I’ve enjoyed with discoveries on the land of our new home to include trees and bushes bearing berries, shifting colors, small clusters of Fall-blooming pansies, and a favorite Manzanita tree that is truly a giant Bonsai Faery realm.
I’ve also included a photo of the five daffodil bulbs I planted (a gift from Faery sis Laura) and the dear Earthworm that gifted me his blessings on choice of planting location.
Today our new giant elders, guardians, wisdom keepers, and storyteller Austrian Pines are in process of being planted too, which is exciting! Three so far in and five to go.
I love all the magick Nature is revealing to me and the sweet relationship I have with her to gift her the same as she does me. I made a promise to the land, Faeries, and all Elementals of our new abode, and we’re keeping them. Little by little, we will merge our spirits as One through the creation of this sanctuary haven.
I’ve also included images from yesterday’s walk – I was able to do 2+ miles on flat trails along Zephyr Cove and Taylor Creek (one with and one without crutches), getting a chance to immerse in Nature’s beauty and light, as well as to see the gorgeous and symbolically potent salmon once again, while taking in the smells, crisp chilled air (in the 40’s), and gorgeous dance of colors.
At four weeks already, I’m on my way to hiking again soon! Yay!! Half way there!
Nature heals and we, too, can help heal Her.
As I glance at the clock to begin this post my eye catches the time to read 2:26 pm. There is no randomness about that in my book, being that much of this post is centered around the theme of rebirthing, since 2/26 IS my birthday, and I’ve been seeing these numbers show up again. It’s also no coincidence my last post was titled Updates & Integrations Anchoring and my post of 6 days ago – Earthing, Faery Portals, Dream Visioning & Pisces Full Moon – spoke of the energy around the Pisces Full Moon – all of this making sense as you read on. I mentioned in that blog how Pisces rules the feet saying “dance like crazy and move energy through your feet, which will not only shake out everything from the core and move things fast, but will anchor and ground you as you connect those feet to Mother Earth – Terra. She will in turn help transmute the energy and send it back with a recharge!” I specifically also mentioned how I, myself, had just danced the hardest I have since in my twenties and then was recalibrating my sore feet for 2 days after because of it. I also mentioned having seen 5 snakes, seeing/experiencing Faery portals and new doorways of possibilities, and how pulling within sometimes is necessary.
Voila! In comes yesterday’s adventure on 9/10, leaving me to start my first day of healing recalibration on 9/11, today, which auspiciously is also the day my blog is about to hit 1,000,000 visitors – collective energy feeling entwined in this all for sure, as Pisces naturally would be.
I’ll try to keep the story simple and to the point, so I’m going to bypass a lot of the details to allow a lot of the pulling together of meanings for you to draw upon and piece together.
To make a long story shorter 😉 yesterday we went with a group of our dear friends here on an epic 13 mile hike to Star Lake. On the drive there I pointed out a perfectly formed dragon sculpture to Dave, naturally formed from a dead tree stump on the side of the road in Christmas Valley (having street names like Elf, Blitzen, and Portal to name a few) looking up toward the sky with wings behind it. That felt significant.
We found our trailhead, which took us along the Tahoe Rim Trail (where the still lingering Pisces Full Moon showed up across a vista seen in the photo above) and was gorgeous every step of the way. Part of the adventure involved traversing through quartz crystal-infused areas and immersing in their energy, which being Master Crystals was potent to say the least.
I’d been told I’d find a special crystal or two for an upcoming creation-to-be in the new unfolding, which did in fact take place, although in a different way (for now) than envisioned.
Two giant ones spoke to me and I managed to carry them in my packs to Star Lake where we enjoyed a picnic lunch. Rainbow light, Faery portals, and magick lit the journey across creeks, enchanted forests, amazing stone people outcroppings, and incredible vistas with hidden snow patches here and there, as I carried these potent beings with me. It was my first time to this lake.
On our descent, things took a turn, as I literally found my right foot swivel under me on a rock and heard a crack. Down I came and about 30 seconds later my body went into the shock syndrome when trauma has occurred in the body.
I have only experienced this with fractured bones, major contusions, my unbearable tailbone pains, or when empathing someone else’s injury. Although not foreign to me, it doesn’t make it any more fun. 🙂 Shock is a response the body has to trauma or intense pain where it shuts the body’s systems down to deal with it and can result in things such as weakness, cold sweat, irregular breathing, chills, turning white, nausea, etc.
For me it’s usually weakness, turning white, nausea, and close-to-fainting that I experience.
I knew to just sit down, close my eyes, focus on breathing slowly, energetically balancing myself, and having some water. And that was what I did with the assistance of the best team of friends one could ask for to be there with me through it. It subsided after about 10-15 minutes and after that I was back to my Faery self, but with what I intuitively knew to be a bone fracture – later confirmed.
What happened from there on was an adventure itself and truly for me was not phasing me or wavering my spirits in any way, once I balanced back out, about what happened to me, but just had me on high consciousness about what was evolving all around me, the meanings, and how this may have affected the others in ways that could be worse than anything I was experiencing.
That’s an empath for you, feeling the amazing group of compassionate empaths I had with me.
I already knew how incredible these souls all are, but when you go through challenges like we did together you really come to know the depths of the bonds shared and get to see the best and worst of people. In this case I saw nothing but the best and after just a couple of days before having been locked in an escape room together with them called Trapped in Tahoe – it solidified how well we worked together under pressure and never a negative vibe coming forth.
Sometimes experiences work in mysterious ways for valuable reasons and although you’d want to label them “negative” or “bad”, in fact have nothing but silver linings and beautiful purposes in a bigger picture way.
Dave called 911 and immediately a Search and Rescue team was dispatched to meet us, but we were in a hard to reach area, so to make it easier we had the goal of getting to the High Meadows area where vehicles could reach us. And that’s just what our team did with Dave and our friend, Happy, taking turns piggy-back riding me down the 2+ miles to get there, giggling and keeping everyone smiling the whole way with jokes and lightness.
Our timing couldn’t have been perfect, as as soon as we arrived, the SAR team was just pulling up and getting ready to start hiking up to us. Not far behind them was the rest of the emergency and sheriff team.
I had to laugh as we approached, when the first guy said something about wanting to know if there was a woman along the way that they were there to pick up. I was wearing a “Love” hat and on Happy’s back, so apparently I looked like a little girl and so they had no clue it was me.
I said, “that’s me!” He was like, “oh!” And we went on to meet the woman (that so happened to be vegan we learned immediately) who was at the truck and equally seemed surprised when Happy asked if he could put me on the bed of the truck. She was like, “Oh, yes!” again not realizing I was the one in need. LOL!
Literally right after I was sat down on the edge of the back of the truck, my friend Bean (who’d been wearing a hoodie that said 1973 – my birth year on it) points behind me where I discover a hawk flying toward us and then above so I can see its feathers and coloring. I knew I was being watched out for, as Hawks are always my guardians, sentinels, and sky messengers to communicate between Earth and Cosmos. I got chills.
I felt a little weird, to say the least, the whole time creating so much attention and more so when several vehicles and a big team shows up for little ol’ me like something out of a movie with wilderness survivors being rescued. This was no big deal in my opinion, but apparently people DO really care and when someone’s in any kind of need, “LOVE” (as my rainbow hat said) has the ability to shine through.
It’s not my usual to be the center of attention since I stay more quiet normally, but I knew there was purpose for that as well and to relax into the beauty of group dynamics and team work unfolding before my eyes, which made me think of all of the mirroring things taking place everywhere with the fires and hurricanes, and major world events.
These times call for unification, compassion, and finding the common threads of humanity and love to come together for a higher good.
I was grateful and I embraced the love pouring out here, and across the globe, despite the contrast of dynamics at work, and yet because of it.
After vitals and taking in info I was carried into the Sheriff’s truck and the rest of the gang hopped in the other trucks and we were whisked down the remaining miles to our cars awaiting us at the trailhead.
I refused the ambulance and so we thanked everyone who had showed up SO fast – they were ALL SO FANTASTIC – and headed to the hospital to await my findings that turned out to be what I thought – a fracture to my right foot.
Not just any fracture, but a mirroring metatarsal fracture to what happened to my left foot FIVE years ago. This time being the FIFTH bone of the metatarsal (different than last time), but a clean fracture again, so no surgery needed.
The doctor said he was shocked again at my age and told Dave, no offense when he had the first thought I may have been his daughter. I normally don’t look THAT young, but apparently in my attire, baseball hat, and pony tail, I was giving off “little girl” today.
Made me wonder if this had in part to do with the rebirthing energy. Hmmmm…
After being given a boot, crutches, and a 6-8 week healing prognosis, we made our way home and I made my way up the 105 steps feeling the totality of the day’s events, life shifts, and soulful journeys illuminating.
It was auspicious that only 4 days earlier I had shared a “Throwback Thursday” post via Instagram and Facebook about my 2/25/12 gallery event that took place the day before my birthday (and had birthday celebrations involved) where I showed up in a Frankenstein-like black shoe because of the left foot metatarsal fracture that was still healing.
But during the time I was being piggy-backed on this day of 2017, I was reviewing much, including how much my processes and progress had shifted since then, as I remember being initially upset and down on myself when that one took place, until I pieced together the meaning.
This time was so different. It’s hard to explain, but it was like this seamless, natural unfolding. I wasn’t in the least bit phased or even taken off center, except to deal with the physical trauma I had to initially integrate to catch up with the other parts of me that were on board already – definitely feeling like part of those upgrades and physical recalibrations to help align with all the fast transformations taking place.
Transformation leading me to those FIVE snakes I’d recently just seen AND the full snake skin I found Saturday (just the day before this took place). I found it at an Indian site on Spooner Lake hidden between the sacred stone people formations to the site, which was nearly impossible that I’d seen it (of course meant to be). Right before that I’d found a big group of feathers from one of the black and white water fowl there. Definitely signs of rebirthing, shedding old skin, and watery support to flow with it all.
And that watery energy seemed to be a focal point in that feet are ruled by the sign of Pisces, my native sign, and the sign the Full Moon was in. It also happens to be a collective energy sign, which so much of the day’s events felt to be tied into and reflecting, not to mention, as a Pisces would be natural to tap into and play out.
On one level I felt myself, as others too are going through, helping to release some of the pressure in the collective field through the fissure in my bone, which represents structures breaking down to make way for more flexible, new ones. Something Mother Earth Herself does and is doing.
It seemed no coincidence that the hurricanes were raging through Bimini when this was taking place (an area that I’m deeply connected to as you know), and my good friend Jenny was in the eye of it all, having refused to evacuate in order to stay with the home and her ARC (Atlantis Rejuvenation Center) that held the energy for Atlantis there. I’d briefly messaged with her some personal things around this, but had felt a huge resurgence and shift with the energy around that collective experience too.
It seemed no coincidence, also, that we were surrounded by crystal energy (hugely connected to Atlantis) and I had been carrying the load of 2 big ones when my incident took place. It felt deeply symbolic and later I also realized how these crystals had activated and ignited a shift for me that was actually softened through the fracture in my foot rather than being something potentially bigger.
Once again I was experiencing a profound rebirthing on many levels and was opening the portal in my foot/my nature to receive the new Earth energy streaming through.
Terra is recalibrating and so must we.
And personally, also, because of recent events that swooped into our lives heralding in quick changes and anchoring of new, I had to put the conclusion to my book on hold over and over. That had been the only thing I’d been bothered by (as nothing phases me these days), although understood all the moving pieces were necessary to take place to assist this, and so I embraced the shifting timeline peacefully. I also realized that there was some leeway because other shifts were being supported and needing to anchor in simultaneously since it is all connected.
However, I did realize that I had recently, a few days ago, adamantly stated the time was now and no further adjustments could be made because the window was opening, but wouldn’t remain so. This meant I would not be doing outings and any spare time aside from things I HAD to do to support our new manifestations, would all funnel into completing my book.
I remember having mentioned to the girls on the hike yesterday about being mindful of intentions along the hike, since we were surrounded by so much potent energy and the quartz. I realized later how my own intentions were manifesting.
Well, the crystals DID help me to manifest that determination, as now I will definitely NOT be ABLE to do anything except write.
Outer and inner aligned and so I know the portal is fertile for completion.
Hence, more reason to be grateful for this experience, which immediately was the first thing I thought of when it happened.
My Mercury is also in Pisces, which ties in with how I communicate and YES, write. 😉
I will have more to share later including exciting news on our living situation, but for now I must hunker down and embrace the gift I’ve been given and what the crystals opened for me and for us all to create new realities.
I recently heard that while Bimini looks like a war zone right now, that they are okay. Fires have continued elsewhere, hurricanes are still raging through…Nature is doing her own rebalancing, as are the forces at work providing us potentials to rise up.
Devastation has hit many places recently and likely will continue, but there is opportunity for rebuilding from the ground/core up and hopefully doing so with greater consciousness and mindfulness of the Whole.
And this is why, for me, while I can see the connection….on a personal level I just feel like life goes on and when something happens it isn’t even surprising, but is feeling more and more like my aligning with Nature’s processes that simply cycle through and needn’t have any stigma attached to them since they are fluid changes that are part of All That Is.
I personally feel there is grace available in everything…a purpose…a potential…a doorway…and there’s no need to waste time being upset, as there’s so much to be grateful for and far worse potentials to go through and others are in fact going through, to be complaining about a fracture.
I could only see all of those things…the silver linings….the incredible gifts….yesterday, and not a second of anything other than that moved through me. Not a second.
The doctor yesterday at the hospital kept trying to get me to take pain meds, which I kept refusing. He said I “made it too easy.” I thought to myself…. “It can be.”
There’s no coincidence we were at Star Lake and I wore my mirroring tank top that said, “Made of Star Dust”.
We are being shown glimpses into our divine nature, our origins, our connection, our truth of Being and our unlimited potentials.
The heart of a star is within each of you to embody and contains the building blocks of how to turn this human experience into an exquisite creation of a New Earth collective.
(End note: I worked on and off on writing this today and saw 5:55 when done, although still had to plug in the photos – those transformational 5’s again!)
Since the Solar Eclipse’s reset, there’s been a rush of very different energy pouring in – for some intensely forcing changes and for others like a welcome jet propulsion into the new. Everything seems to continue to be a step-by-step process of taking it all slowly without rush and truly anchoring in each step with depth of intention and understanding. With tomorrow’s Full Moon in Pisces (my native sun sign), intuition will be on an all-time high, so listening to it and trusting it will be key to support moving into your true power. This moon will help you to gain deeper insights and understanding about the seeds you’ve been planting in your garden, the intentions you have for them, and will illuminate what truly is guiding your life so that you have a broader grasp on the creative forces at work and how to harness them.
Boundaries again are a constant theme in order to create well being and is a lesson for the boundless Pisces energy to understand how to balance in a healthy way.
This is a powerful time for deep soul level closure, to exercise greater compassion rather than judgment, and to practice radical acceptance, which helps you to release suffering. Suffering is a refusal to accept things. It’s time to give up the suffering, do an energy cleanse, and ask how you can make the changes then engage action to do them.
Synchronously we were at a free Celtic rock concert for the Young Dubliners on Saturday where I danced the hardest I have since my twenties. When I say danced hard, I mean hard…I was doing my own version of the Riverdance and literally was jumping, hopping, kicking, jiggling, and wiggling nonstop through about 6 songs with sweat pouring, heart racing, and just powering through despite feeling as if I might not catch my breath, but did, then was in the dancer’s-high zone. My friend who joined me said she heard me giggling and cackling throughout like never before, which made her see my inner Faery come through. That Irish music definitely released a DNA chord within. I literally shook free and coughed out all the old on the drive home after! Talk about an energy cleanse! And feet were recalibrating two days after.
Well, this Pisces Moon encourages the energy of dance since Pisces rules the feet. So dance like crazy and move energy through your feet, which will not only shake out everything from the core and move things fast, but will anchor and ground you as you connect those feet to Mother Earth – Terra. She will in turn help transmute the energy and send it back with a recharge!
That watery Pisces energy is also about dreaming – whether receiving prophetic dreams or engaging imagination to dream big.
This has been a big one for me. I’ve been engaging dream visioning and just going wild with them, as long as they are aligned with the “now” me in every way.
So yes, dream a little dream…..or make it a big one! I am!
Don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t do something and don’t let their doubts become yours.
Also, learn to temper engaging intentions and detachment, envisioning, but also not overly talking about them. Keep a little bit of the magick to yourself so that you don’t lose the momentum. Patience is key, but don’t give up!
True, it will take dedication, drive, endurance, time and major effort, but if you believe in it, it’s the breath of life to you, and it fills your heart with joy and passion then you owe yourself and those that will be touched by your dream who you can’t see right now or gauge analytically, the opportunity to make it happen.
Live life to your fullest and responsibly harness your creative potential as example.
I’ve been immersed in a lot here (I bet you have too!), but continue to have a good majority of my life focused on “Earthing” in Nature and working closely with the Faeries and Elementals of the land to co-create and manifest together. Not to mention, continuing to engage my Star family from beyond, including my dear ones who have moved on, as well as the magickal Cosmic Astrid. It’s a balancing and merging of Earth and Cosmos.
This has continued to lead me on paths to new portals of discovery and doorways (including literal multi-dimensional doors of possibilities – more on that another time) showing up and opening.
I can’t begin to tell you how much has happened so quickly and anchored in in the last 5 months. Incredible! And as I look back I can see how that balance of alignments, patience, release, intention, and action have all come together.
I’ll share the exciting news on things soon, but it really has all become this fluid experience with some things immediately showing up and others all percolating, but are their own realities on a different timeline that are and will merge once I continue jumping them. And at the same time I’m seeing how there is always “something better” that reveals itself, just as is always my intention I voice when working on manifesting things. This ends up bringing together the most aligned outcomes that combine the ingredients of all that I love in an alchemical recipe only the Cosmos Itself within me knows how to do. And that involves stepping out of ego and attachments, and being open, open, OPEN to any and all possibilities that result in the highest good for all concerned.
And during these times, although I’ve been super active and life has been full, I’ve also been very inner (if you can believe that). Truly a Yin/Yang synergy of experience. And it is the inner time and the things I do actually keep to myself that allow me to put out the amount of energy that I do, as it does help me to conserve and restore, as well as continue to fuel things with a gusto of momentum.
I have huge amounts of passionate fire roaring inside and yet I’m letting it out in the bursts needed without crashing or burning out and without ever losing its fuel.
I continue to hold the expansive visions, while allowing things to organically morph along the way. Sometimes I’m so excited I could burst, but that’s when the Earthing and Nature immersion aids me in bringing my energy back down to a healthy kindling and allows a channel of support to come from the Spirits I honor and cherish.
It’s been so interesting to me that I’ve seen the most snakes I’ve ever seen recently in the last few weeks here (5 total – my fav/special #). Potent transformation energy! We don’t have rattlesnakes, but I’ve seen every size of Garter Snake from the tiniest of babies, to adolescent, to mature snake – Maiden, Mother, Crone energy perhaps? All aspects of myself merging, just as Earth and Cosmic parts do (this echoing a very prophetic and powerful experience I had in dream time just a little over two years ago that was the doorway to where I am now, but could have gone a different direction.
It’s 1:11 here as I conclude and paste in this, which I recently shared in an Instagram/Facebook post:
There are times when being alone or pulling within are necessary especially if you are doing very public work in terms of your path. There are spirits who may seem very visual and yet most of who they are and what they do goes unseen and is kept to themselves. But even if others see you, it doesn’t mean they REALLY see you or even fully know you, as you may be a reflection…truth mirror…or simply can’t be seen yet in totality because what you carry or embody isn’t understood yet.
I love you.
As I’ve mentioned in a recent post, we have been exploring new terrain and discovering hidden gems all within and around the Lake Tahoe area – our current home base. Places and spaces I never knew about and had never adventured into during the time I’ve lived in this area in the past, but those were times of inner exploration more than the reflection of the outer that that entailed. They were also times of journeying out and beyond this realm, which then turned inside out and bringing the beyond into my now experience here on this Earth plane in order to merge them both and release myself from the confines created.
This new terrain seems to reflect the new inner landscape and more Cosmic blossoming that is opening further, as more truth is revealed and freedom unleashed.
The more free I become, or rather, I return to embodying and just “being”, the more my spirit overflows and cannot be contained in anyway. This reminding me of my dear Nestor and her huge spirit that was too much for her tiny, yet powerful rabbit body, and now also of my sweet Astrid who more and more reminds me of Nestor’s Spirit and truly feels much more to be a wild rabbit than domesticated one – literally she feels like those incredible Snowshoe Hares I fell in love with in Montana – and that all of the “fight” she has/had was in response to anything trying to take that away from her or to confine her in unnatural ways not aligned with who she knows herself to be – breaking free from the illusions and being powered over.
This was clearly demonstrated with myself this past Saturday on an epic hike we did with friends to a new and incredibly beautiful and expansive spot – Lake Aloha (reminding me not only of beautiful Montana, but of a Cosmic and otherwordly terrain).
I showed up in an aqua bunny tank top and butterfly skirt over my merfaery bathing suit with my Chaco sandals without a jacket and holding my small matching aqua backpack in my hands – my usual. Everyone else was all geared up, big packs strapped around their bodies, hiking shoes and clothes, hiking poles (except for Dave), jackets and beanies/hats (it was 7:30 am and about 48 degrees), etc.
They felt I could use a jacket (although I was content in the sun and ready to take on the wind of the boatride) so I was given an extra one and then proceeded to strap me into my back pack.
I was not too pleased with the whole thing to say the least LOL! Although very grateful for such caring friends.
I felt confined and so not me.
They snapped this funny photo because I looked/felt like I was in a straight jacket and they all agreed it was so “not” me. We all giggled because it was true.
And as we got to the other side after our boat ride, the jacket came off quickly and was returned, and my back pack slowly found itself unsnapped and then eventually only strung over one shoulder.
One of our friends kept laughing along with me noting how I “just wasn’t having any of it” and slowly was morphing back and returning to myself. LOL!
I later got another trail name, “Pocahontas” (to add to Bunny Love and Five Feathers) from one friend because that seemed to depict more of my hiking “style” in terms of that nature connection and being unequipped with “things” yet grounded in that relationship to all that is around me.
They all said I was a Faery and we know that Faeries need to be free.
Anyway, the point is…the more I know who I really am, the less things that aren’t aligned with that are able to be a part of my reality. I can easily morph and adapt when necessary, but I don’t accept something constricting and binding me anymore unless I choose it myself as a temporary experience to move in and out of.
It’s fun to see this play out and how collectively it reflects a lot as well.
What I’ve also found so extremely exciting and wonderful is how many of the new places we’ve been discovering mirror my other favorite place/s in Montana. I’m seeing how those portals keep opening and manifestation is in action big time (that to include intentions that are one-by-one coming into being).
I’m also increasingly experiencing both a contrasting resonance and peace of knowing and being more myself and merging a grounded experience here, and yet detaching more and more from here. It feels like a continued veil removal and cutting out of the “matrix” so to speak or illusion of what all of this here really is about. (777 word count with that) and with disempowering other energies, being able to carve my own reality as was always my/our ability that we forgot.
It’s like fully pulling back the curtain (not just a glimpse) on the so-called magician and seeing/revealing him/her for what he/she truly is – a puppet master pulling the strings.
The strings are getting cut and true magick is being revealed, which ultimately is the origin of being.
I’m constantly walking this experience of both creating a new reality here and living that in fullness of me, and also simultaneously knowing as much as I’ve become comfortable in this new balance, I have Spirit working out other multi-realities that are simultaneously removing this one. If that even makes sense. I feel both peace in what you see of me and harmony in the elsewhere living this out.
That’s likely as far as I want to take that conversation for now, as it’s beyond words to describe and not necessary at this time.
And the experiences here lately have been mirroring this for me, as well as providing opportunity for deeply expanding explorations while hiking and immersing in these realities created.
I find myself both playing in and removing from at once.
Photos captured of me this past Sunday at Lake Aloha and recently seem to continue to reveal this natural dichotomy and harmony, as well as a playful wisdom that seems to have taken full hold and embodiment….unseriously serious and “in things, but not of them.” I am remembering more fully, and it’s a rich fullness of knowing rather than intellectualizing.
I keep hearing about the intensity of energy being experienced by many in varying ways. The huge changes people are going through, choosing, and being thrust into in challenging ways.
And a lot of focus being put on these energetic events this month….experiences we can choose to harness and transmute in ways perhaps not as thought, but to reveal and be more than what you’ve been told (by any source for that matter).
Yesterday was interesting energetically. There were some expected surprises (if that makes sense), some more revealing of odd energies I’m no sucker for, and some deep symbolism that played out in auspicious ways.
The morning kicked off with Dave scaling a 30 foot borrowed ladder from people painting a house just at the bottom of our huge flight of stairs, which I assisted with. It was quite the process not only carrying this thing, but also in moving it into 4 positions next to our large picture windows (portals). The goal was to clean our windows (especially because 3 birds had left full imprints on the center of each) and to protect our bird family from any further trauma and potential death by placing these snowflake reflective decals on them made just for that. We’ve had so many incidences of birds hitting the window (luckily only majorly stunned and no deaths), but we want to avoid this altogether if possible.
Interestingly, birds are very attracted here, as you’ve seen from posts of mine speaking about the birds that have come to land and explore. I also one day had a group of different birds all congregating and fluttering outside the picture window where I was writing (again another manifestation of what I was infusing in the book). So there may be dual reason to their flying into the windows, which could also be a means to get through the illusion and that they feel the portal energy here.
So yes, Dave risked his own neck to save theirs.
But the ladder and climbing to such heights to these portal windows was so symbolic too…and my supporting the anchoring of them for Dave, was kind of a cool symbolism as well.
I won’t bore you with the details of our task, which was highly stressful, but in the end successful.
After, we returned the ladder back down the stairs and I found a Steller’s Jay feather not far from where we took it.
Then Dave said, look over there across the street. There’s a dead Steller’s Jay. So I left Dave and went immediately to him. I find SO many Steller’s Jay feathers and they are always around me these days, as well as all around our deck and trees outside our windows.
I knew I was to take him with me and got the message (reiterated later, before knowing this, by my shamanic friend Dawn) that he was gifting me his wings and tail as well – a merging of his medicine into my own to honor and carry with me, as well as to aid the process/experience I’ve been sharing about. So I picked him up gently and carried him up the 105 steps to the side of the building where we had been
I’ve shared before about Steller’s Jay:
They symbolize bold, fearless energy, and the power of presence and how to use personal power effectively. The crest on their heads connect them to the sky and above, drawing energy and wisdom through the crown and reminding us that our true power needs to be applied in a balanced way that integrates both spirit and body, mind and heart. Since they are very resourceful, they too symbolize adaptability and how to do so more efficiently. They also symbolize a great amount of talent, but a talent that needs to be developed and used wisely. In this way they mirror to us, if one has also appeared for you, that this is a time in your life where you can begin to support the inherent wisdom within you to mature and come forth in a bigger way. Steller’s Jay also alerts us that anything of value, spiritual growth, and relationships takes work and they show us how to activate our internal resources to do this. Communication abilities are strong, access to memories and assimilation of them come to awareness, risk taking, seizing opportunities, discovering new things to explore, balancing intelligence with silence and patience to align with divine timing all come through Steller’s Jay in message. Their crest that reaches up also places attention at the energy centers of the head/crown, indicating an increase in new spiritual knowledge and wisdom that may become activated. – this indicating a psychic channeling of information from the crown. (A message I was given twice in my channeled readings received in Sedona, twice at two different intervals over the last 2 years about energy no longer being moved up the spine like Kundalini usually does for most, but that I’d be channeling through my crown now in this next part of my life.
This gift – like a rebirthing again of the Steller’s Jay energy into my own felt hugely important and supports this grounded soaring of Cosmic origin that I’m experiencing and feels more like embodied spirit.
I did an energetic honoring and blessing and then buried the Steller’s Jay under the picture window portals. I placed 5 stones (one at center and 4 around to the 4 directions).
I then remembered that when we transitioned the previous owner’s refrigerator out of our place to put in our new one, I had found Fiver’s little body I kept frozen in it until Winter thawed enough to bury him properly. I had forgotten he was there and discovered him just two Saturdays ago. I knew the timing would reveal itself on where and when to bury him.
Yesterday was the day. And so after I buried the Steller’s Jay, I went to retrieve Fiver and brought him down wrapped in the sweet little white cloth I’d placed him in that was his bedding. I also remembered the only raw quartz that had been found at Lake Aloha on Sunday – only granite was all around so this quartz seemed out of place. So I knew to bury it along with Fiver and took it too.
I went down and did the same with doing an energetic honoring and blessing for Fiver and buried him a couple of feet from the Steller’s Jay in the same manner. After, I found 2 small heart stones that I placed on top of the center stones to each of their burials.
Everything felt full circle…closure…great peace….and I knew these dear ones would not only aid others to journey beyond and through the portals as they have, were, and now guarded as way showers, but would also infuse their wisdom, protection, and energy to the other mice, birds, and animals here, not to mention be guardians and teachers of that wisdom for anyone living here.
Both of their spirits soaring and a part of my own – of anyone’s ready to listen and remember.
And I’m listening to Astrid as well and I sense she, too, is exhibiting what I’m discovering along with her.
Just in the last few days she’s expanded as well and came to me for the first time in a dream – the way my sweet friends communicate with me in more depth. In the dream she hopped very high with exuberance, three times for me. It not only indicated her joy, but to me felt reflective of these new leaps and heights of experience now opening and the #3 has its own significance for me as well.
And then I woke immediately finding her in wake life running and jumping too. She also just learned how to hop up on the bed and is excited about that – this morning hopping up and me finding her whiskers brushing my face, as she came to wake me.
Things are definitely and sweetly expanding and reaching new heights (in all directions) and there is this sense of having reached a precipice and just catching glimpse and feeling of what lies beyond…and beyond…and beyond…
This is my second time living in Lake Tahoe, but truly this last nearly year (will be come October) that we’ve been here has been the most explorative and enriching yet. Not only have we experienced the most epic Winter in the last 40+ years, but have been blessed with incredible, like-minded friends, a wonderful and supportively inspiring home base, welcomed in a new family addition (Astrid), experienced a heap load of magick, and have seen many shifts and transitions anchor in with the closing and opening of new doorways of experience.
I’m/we’re seeing more of this area than we ever have in all the time we’ve lived here so far, and are blown away at the discoveries that will take us years to fully experience…not to mention it’s all different within each season. Like right now we get to enjoy the wildflowers and incredible alpine lakes everywhere gushing with waterfalls and creeks. Other times it is the salmon spawning, the beaches, foraging, crystal-rich areas to discover treasures, water time kayaking or swimming, fall colors, white winterlands, but always plenty of outdoor exercise within every season.
It’s continued to be an interesting journey in observing and playing with the energies all around, as well as within. So much diversity and contrast in experiences and realities right?! None of it wrong, right, bad, good, worse, better…simply choices and possibilities. I do find it easy to hover around energies that don’t match how I feel frequency-wise and increasingly experience clarity with things and greater compassion even if things don’t match. Very refreshing for a Pisces who struggled with this all of her life and not knowing how I could still be a me without compromising the love and connection I feel to everything. I have to repeat…this is the most natural and peacefully balanced I’ve ever been and am always in awe of how that can continue to deepen.
Life here on Earth is truly merging and it feels both grounding, but also Cosmically freeing, while I’m seeing and experiencing it for what it truly is. Perhaps some of you are feeling this too?
We’ve been moving energy quickly and manifesting a ton quickly, which is pretty wild how fast stuff has been happening, but when you’re in the “zone” and following the flow of energy, you definitely do experience that incredible alignment. It’s amazing to look back and see how these processes have shifted over the course of your life for sure with putting into motion the things you’ve learned and doing the work.
But truly it’s been such a gift to experience so much of Lake Tahoe and the outlying areas here. There is SO much beauty and we keep discovering hidden gems all the time – not to mention hidden portals to other realities. Never a dull moment or feeling of not having enough choices and things to do on any level, but mostly it’s the Nature time that infuses my heart with inspiration and expansive love.
The energy abound lately has been so potent and fertile. I can’t tell you how powerful manifestations have been and immediate things unfold that are intended. This month’s energies really lend a hand to that, but in general we really are experiencing an accelerated evolution of potential.
And I’m increasingly experiencing how the things I write about in my new book, manifest in the outside world around me. It’s really a wow-factor and nobody would believe me unless they were right here going through it all alongside me.
During all of this I’ve been seeing how the things I envision and intend, because I’m open to the highest version for the highest good of all to manifest (rather than fixating on how that “should” be) are revealing themselves in expansive ways that embody the essence of it all with greater support and all-encompassing benefits.
The photos shared in this post are captures of some of the energy lately that I’ve been experiencing – truly like activations and initiations into this new version of reality unfolding. There are also photos of some of the awe-inspiring beauty of new areas of exploration – one of which reminded me of my other favorite place in Montana and my experiences there.
Portals are opening everywhere! Are you ready to step into a greater version of you and greater possibilities collectively?
I find that the more flexible and open to entertaining any combination of possibilities, the greater fulfillment I feel and find even more support and interconnected threads ready to make things happen.
Gratitude deepens daily and harmony is being remembered from the origin song seeded within.
It’s been a very busy time, but balance is important to keep your vitality on high, so in the middle of it all I stopped to take time to create these beauties and felt to quickly share them to spread their energies of inspiration, creativity, planting seeds, manifesting intentions, magick, love, and harmony. I’m SO in love with my mini Faery succulent gardens I can’t take my eyes off of them and so I’ve surrounded myself with them! (They’re even more lovely in person) I had exactly the perfect time needed yesterday to create these magickal little sacred garden sanctuaries for our space with intention to create a more inviting energy for my Faery friends, for this Faery’s writing inspiration, and to welcome the new bunny love that will be entering my life in June. They’re created with 15″ diameter Faery garden mossy baskets, lined with succulent/cactus soil, planted with perfectly placed succulents, covered with Reindeer Moss, Clump Moss, Spanish Moss, Forest Moss, Faery Bark, Crystals, Sea Glass, Faery, Sea Turtle, Faery Portal Door, Rabbit, and sparkly Dragonflies. It was incredibly fun to get my hands in the dirt and channel these homes and playgrounds for my friends. Can’t tell you how much joy they bring me. ✨💚🌈🍃🐇🐢 I even had enough succulents to create two potted mini gardens too – one of which had a sprawling succulent growing already, but was lonely and now has friends. These are perfect, mobile, enchanted gardens for my bohemian lifestyle, need for ease and mobility, and yet satisfies the artist in me and inspires my loves and passions. Speaking of which…..back to my writing and focuses here! Enjoy!
These two paintings – creative expressions of mine – and the quotes I shared along with them, felt like creative insights and reflections to share on this Full Moon Lunar Eclipse in Leo to draw forth personal awareness for collective good and harmony. I shared them via Instagram over the last couple of days, but am posting them here for my blog readers. Wishing everyone truth invoking empowerment, the courage to embody your beliefs, illumination to all that is unconscious, and creative inspiration to listen to and honor what’s in your heart.
“In oneself lies the whole world and if you know how to look and learn, the door is there and the key is in your hand. Nobody on earth can give you either the key or the door to open, except yourself.” ~J. Krishnamurti
Spirit by Tania Marie ~ Creating the New Cosmic Earth: Fifth in my series titled “In Lak’ech” which is a mystical experience of awakening, as the Ancients and Power Beings of the Five, bring forth their messages of healing.
“There is in all visible things an invisible fecundity, a dimmed light, a meek namelessness, a hidden wholeness. This mysterious unity and integrity is wisdom, the mother of us all, “natura naturans.” There is in all things an inexhaustible sweetness and purity, a silence that is a fountain of action and joy. It rises up in wordless gentleness, and flows out to me from the unseen roots of all created being.” ~Thomas Merton
Gaia’s Gift by Tania Marie
The journey has been beautiful and immensely transformative while the days of recent have gifted many blessings, synchronous alignments, and divinely navigated transitions. At the same time that I’ve been supporting my dear rabbit, Joy, through the end of her Earth year cycles (a testing time of my growth), I’ve also been cradled in Mother Earth’s nurturing, majesty, and abundant gifts in our adventures through Northern Wyoming and Southern Montana that have supported the process.
The bitter and sweet go hand in hand, as part of the alchemy of life. So, even though I am integrating this physical loss and moving through the transmutation of sadness, I am compelled to stay present within the world and guided to share the beauty and magick that partners in this synergy dance in order to keep balanced and not withdrawn.
Plus I know that Joy would want it that way…to focus on the gifts, wonder, beauty, and sweet memories and experiences…
To return everything to love and be in “Joy”.
Tuesday there was death and yesterday I was shown the birthing of new life in so many baby Bison and Elk that kept reflecting their joy to me.
It is the way of natural harmony.
I was literally giggling and in joyful tears watching them bounce around and play in the fields with so much life bubbling within them. There was even a very heart-tugging and literal scene out of “Bambi” experience that made me tear up with love.
There were several mother Elk and babies in a field, who all literally came bee-lining for our car when we pulled up (some coming within three feet from our window), but I noticed one without a baby. She started crying out and her cries were incessant. I recognized, as a mother myself to my little ones, that she was crying out for her baby. And that tugged at my current emotions that have cried for my sweet Joy.
At first I wondered if she had lost her altogether to some tragedy and was mourning…and of course I was seeing that reflection in myself and understanding there is nothing so strong as that bond between mother and child. I know this well.
But she kept moving across the field, fixated on one direction, crying out so I felt she was calling out to her little one that had fallen behind somewhere. She then moved faster until she was at the edge of the road and from the left suddenly her baby appeared at the other side of the road and cried back. She ran over to her mom and they touched noses in loving embrace and immediately thereafter she began suckling away.
I made up a little dialogue to go along with the scene unfolding before me. 🙂
Another car with a woman in it had stopped on the other side to watch and pulled up next to us once the baby passed and was safely with her mother. She rolled down her window and said, “That was like a scene straight out of Bambi, wasn’t it?” – saying what I was thinking.
Indeed it was.
We were both in joyous tears and I could see “Joy” in everything around me, reflecting her love and reminder of the vitality, continuity, fragility, and love of life. She also impressed to me our bond that would never be broken no matter where she is, as it runs deep and is experienced through everything within and without.
I have been doing really well at keeping balanced and surprisingly centered and grounded throughout these times and our journey in general and Nature makes that so easy and free, really providing no excuse not to stay nurtured through any situation that may arise.
Mother Earth loves to shower us with gifts and I love to reciprocate back with gratitude, immersion, and giving back.
I’ll be sharing about Joy in a future post, but for now I’d love to share this photo journal of our recent times over the last couple of weeks that reflect immense beauty and inspiration that is powerfully recharging simply through viewing them.
So, rather than share any long account, I’ll just summarize what you’re seeing and what has unfolded, followed by the photo montage at the end, in the order that they’ve been experienced.
Our journey after Green River, Wyoming through lovely drives took us to Moran, which is just a mile from the Grand Teton National Park entrance and only 32 miles from Yellowstone. It is also only 45 minutes from Jackson, Wyoming that came to be instrumental later in things and also is home to a great grocery store – Jackson Whole Grocer (always must mention food). 😉
We’re back to having some really beautiful RV sites again with views of Hebgen Lake and right on Yellowstone River.
Janet and Daisy ended up sticking around through our beginning adventures in Yellowstone, Montana. They just left yesterday after two weeks of wonderful times shared to venture off to their own continued adventures that are quite exciting in development and have been integrally connected.
We have seen a continual abundance of wildlife in these parts including Pronghorn, Mule Deer, Elk, Ospreys, Pelicans, Hawks, Bald Eagles, Wild Horses, Wild Bison, Grouse, Whistle Pigs, Marmots, River Otters, 10 giant Beavers! Great Blue Heron, Cranes, Geese, Ducks, Butterflies, Dragonflies, Coyote, Raccoons (which aren’t supposed to be native to the Grand Tetons), Squirrels, Rabbits, you name it! Bear, Moose and Wolves remain yet to see on this trip (we’ve seen plentiful Bear and Moose in Alaska), but we’ll be in their homelands for a while with many opportunities. All has its divine timing.
We’ve spent time hiking through fields, meadows, forests, along rolling water, lakes, and waterfalls, and up mountains, float rafting in the majestic Grand Tetons on Snake River’s Class 1 Rapids, white water rafting on Yellowstone River’s Class 2 and 3 Rapids, (going zip-lining tomorrow), picnicking on Firehole River, exploring geysers, mud holes, hot springs, and fumaroles at Fountain Paint Pots and Mammoth, as well as enjoyed a couple of the lodges for Happy Hours (lemonade or ice tea for me), lunch on outdoor viewing platforms with stunning views, and peaceful connecting and prayers in the Chapel of the Sacred Heart for Joy (I even signed her name in the visitor book).
I’ve been gifted 11 feathers (some of the tiny ones are spotted and one is a midnight blue), wonderful fossil and crystalline stones (you can’t see in the photo, but these stones are not only colorful, but are sparkly galore and raw crystals in many cases), three river heart stones, not to mention potent raw quartz from an abandoned quartz mine (crystal cave) we explored in Gallatin Gateway, not far from Big Sky on the Solstice (more on that in an upcoming blog as well along with photos of the quartz).
We’ve celebrated the Solstice Full Moon, activated my new quartz by moonlight on Hebgen Lake, I’ve been reconnected with another Pisces friend and dear soul brother who had joined my retreat in Peru last year and now supported me through the transition, and I’ve said goodbye to one of my bestest friends in the world and Cosmos. (Again, more on that in another post).
Full circle, heart-opening, life-enhancing experiences. Every time I wonder how it could get any richer, it does.
I hope you enjoy these photos…my favorites from our time.
I have so many, but chose the best to share with you.
We are currently in North Yellowstone – our last stop for the Yellowstone area through Sunday (we’ve been in the South and West and from here can continue to explore the North and North East), then will move forward and north on into more of Montana’s beauty before we say goodbye to the States for a while and head into Canada.
As mentioned in my last post, when I was prompted to turn back and let Dave explore Peek-A-Boo Slot on his own, I was led to my own inner exploration.
I realized why this was, as I was being called from within for something else that needed to take place here, which I discovered once he was well on his way deeper inside the slot canyon and I returned back, grounded at the entrance.
I instantly received the message as to what I was to do – some more sound channeling.
And since no one was around at all and I was alone, it felt perfect, tapping into my inner Sibyl.
When I do sound channeling it is derived from an energy/energies, feelings, or a story that wants to come through via sound. And this sound can be tones, song, and even an indistinguishable kind of ancient/cosmic language at times.
What I do is allow what I’m tuning into to just come through purely from my vulnerable surrender to the movement of energies through sound.
And this is what channeled through at the mouth of Peek-A-Boo Slot, which felt to utter an ancient song of these stones within the slot canyons and the spirits within.
I’d just spent the day exploring the slot canyons and immersing deep within the healing mother womb and intense bowel energy of the Earth inside these canyons.
This is her healing song that channeled in this moment.
Faery portals have been in activation lately.
Well, when aren’t they really?
But sometimes it’s a more intentional process 😉 Or is a result of your belief and readiness deepening.
I happen to wear several permanent ones on my own “spiritual skin”, including a Seven Pointed Faery Star on top of my left foot, which helps me to walk between worlds with all of me, and a Faery on my left “wing” that represents me sending energy to Earth along with Nestor, but there’s been a lot more of this energy abound recently and my own experience is becoming more constant rather than now and then.
It’a all part of that embodiment I talk a lot about…the more we deepen into the essence of who we are, the more consistently we will walk in that energy.
I’ve also been experiencing this Faery portal energy with the sacred tattoo designs that are channeling through, as well as seeing people really opening to this realm and drawing forth the magick more that resides in their remembrance of these soul parts they are retrieving and that partnership and honoring of our Earth Mother they are helping others to remember and activate as well.
All really great stuff! As that means the more people are remembering and awakening these parts, the more the collective experience shifts.
Recently, I’ve even had the opportunity to play “Faery Godmother” in a video I made all decked out as one with my Faery wand that I shared to help a friend’s daughter through something.
I’ve been revealing myself more and more in this way, although likely some people may still think I’m just “playing”.
Faeries have nothing to prove. 😉
And Laura and I have been sharing Faery Portal experiences via the ethers to enjoy Faery Tarot readings, the same virtual Faery Feasts (as Faeries love good food!) like we did for Christmas Eve and just a couple of nights ago too with comforting and grounding vegan lasagna, to bridge physical distance between us, but also to help activate things we’re manifesting.
Sometimes we’re sneakily conspiring through the portals to assist each other too. Shhhhhh! 😉
You never now where Faery magick may show up in your life (or where it might already have 😉 ), but if you’re open to it, it certainly will!
Anyway, all that to share that a lot of Faery fun has been getting me in the zone and a-flowin’! Feeling more in my element these days and surrounded by the Fae.
This recent Faery design is one example and oh how much I loved creating it!
A few simple ways to invite the Fae more into your experience and to open up a world of magick awaiting are to spend more time in nature communing with the plants, animals, minerals, being more present, paying attention to the subtle nudges, inviting crystal friends into your life to play and work with you, allowing yourself to engage your imagination more, use your creative energy more in a way that is fun, ask for messages or guidance from the Faeries, walk with a lighter footprint on the Earth, allow yourself to be embraced by nature when you are in need of healing, meditate in nature under a tree, near flowing water, or on a rock, sing and dance a lot – especially in nature, leave part of your yard wild, place little sparkly trinkets out in a special sanctuary you create as offering to the Faeries, communicate with them in in-between times like dawn and dusk…..
You might find it fitting to maybe even sprinkle a little glitter on you, wear natural and earthy fibers, or adorn your hair in flowers.
What ever you do, do it with whimsical lightness and keep an eye out for the subtleties that may rustle a leaf, bend some grass, turn up a dust whirlwind, move quickly past the corner of your eye, raise the hair on the back of your neck when you’re out in nature alone, or the little twinkles of light that begin to appear before your eyes.
I know this message is timely, as this was the card I pulled today – no joke!! (which just so happens to be the card on the guidebook cover), right as I am sitting to write this post and feeling the beckoning of the Faeries to journey even deeper with them.
I’m ready!! Let’s go!!! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Will you embrace their call?
This card features a Faery Queen that beckons you forward into the Faery realms. She is alchemy itself and helps you hear that voice within to embrace your Faery self and enter this world where healing, ease, and beauty abounds. It is a call to your inner healer to transform the world around you. She wears a key at her neck that opens the door and holds the answers.
The card’s meaning from the guidebook: Faery connection. Second sight. Being Faery-touched. Experiencing rapid opening to the subtle worlds. The veils between worlds dissolve and you can see clearly. Increase in your gift. Healing powers increase. Belief creates reality. Knowing creates truth. Egoic doubts and cynical thoughts melt away and all is magickal and true. Seeing the path you can now follow. Connecting with your wild self. An urge to be in nature, to be with flowers, trees, fruits, plants, and stones. Shy of people who are harsh and unmagickal. A realization that there is no separation, only refusal to believe creates inability to see.
So the question is….
Are you ready to believe?
Sprinkles of Faery dust and enchantment to each of your hearts!
A Fairy Song ~ Poem by William Shakespeare:
Over hill, over dale,
Thorough bush, thorough brier,
Over park, over pale,
Thorough flood, thorough fire!
I do wander everywhere,
Swifter than the moon’s sphere;
And I serve the Fairy Queen,
To dew her orbs upon the green;
The cowslips tall her pensioners be;
In their gold coats spots you see;
Those be rubies, fairy favours;
In those freckles live their savours;
I must go seek some dewdrops here,
And hang a pearl in every cowslip’s ear.