Just a quick share to update you on a few things. Today being June 1st brings us closer to a lot of dates to keep in mind for upcoming and last workshop offerings and also saw Astrid’s ears fully healed. I ended May with greater clarity on the path I’m journeying, as well as received a clarifying eye update – more on that shortly.
So, first things first….June 9th – just 8 days away now – is the last day to register for the upcoming Reiki 1 & 2 Accelerated Workshop on Saturday, June 23rd. If you want to review this workshop as a past student, please also let me know to make sure I can accommodate you.
If you’re thinking about continuing your training with the Reiki 3 Master Teacher Workshop, then the pre-registration discount date for that is July 4th, although you can register for it up until August 11th at full price for this August 25th Workshop. Again, if you are wanting to review this workshop, please also let me know, as space is limited.
Info and registration available for both of these Workshops here: Reiki
If you do want to join and are traveling in, just keep in mind Summer is busy here, so accommodations are something to look into as soon as you can. I already heard from one of the students traveling in how this was limited even when she registered a month ago. For those of you who have registered, I’ll be in touch around the 9th with further info.
That brings us to the upcoming Summer Solstice, which not only marks the one year anniversary of Astrid and me being together – as she came home to me on this potent portal – but is also the early pre-registration discount date for the upcoming Fall Equinox Workshop. Final registration for this is September 15th, but you can prepay for only $222 by June 21st – that’s only 20 days away now.
This is sure to be magickal experience, as the incredible Laura Bruno and I come together for the first and last time to co-teach together – and marks my last teaching offering all around.
We will tailor this intimate workshop to the day’s participants, sharing varied ways and channels that can assist you in experiencing and creating a more consistently magickal life, as you experience things in greater wholeness of possibilities. In turn, this reveals a more authentic and creative way of living in alignment and manifesting more, as a result. Topics may include the Faerie Realm, crystals, connecting with animals, nature and beyond, and more, which will be revealed as the day unfolds. We’ll conclude with sacred nature immersion, a special joint energy blessing by both Tania and me, and an Equinox ceremony.
I sense some interesting unfolding for this, as we dial and tune in. I can’t say for sure what my part is revealing, but I may be led to conclude my teaching with a surprise. Hmmm!
Anyway, you can register here: Living A More Magickal Life
We are 1/3 full with current registrations and one registration upcoming – which will leave 8 spots.
Summer Solstice, as mentioned, is also very dear to me and Astrid in bringing us together, but is also when my sweet Joy returned to the stars. Because of this special time period I decided to get Astrid something special to celebrate.
I found a sweet plush rabbit mat that I had monogrammed with a blue “A” for Astrid, or as her auntie Laura said – “A” for Adorable! She deserves velvety softness fit for a Queen. It arrived yesterday, just in time to kick off June in celebration.
I can’t wait to see what she thinks of her birthday gifts that will arrive in August in time for her 9/15 birthday!!
I do love Summer and Summer Solstice has become a favorite magickal portal to me.
Her new rabbit mat also celebrated Astrid’s healthy and tuned in rabbit ears, as this morning on June 1st, we also paid a visit to our favorite rabbit vet for a recheck after a week of giving her meds for her ears. You may remember my mentioning she had a build up of wax in both, her left creating a plug, and then redness and beginnings of infection. Well, she’s all good! No redness or infection, ear drums are healthy, and she only had a tiny bit of residual wax that she received a not-so-fun ear flush again for today. She’s home and happy to be so, but despite loving our sweet vet, we are both happy she doesn’t have to return until her next regular check up in July. Yay! So her plush mat becomes twofold in celebration!
And lastly, I mentioned clarity and my eyes…I have traversed some decisions and explorations this last month and did anchor in some more, feeling clear with heart desires. And synchronously, just two days ago I, like Astrid, had a recheck at the ophthalmologist. Recheck after 15+ years that is!
I had lasik done then and it was a huge success – I’m grateful for that as I know and have heard of many unsuccessful and even horror stories.
I haven’t seen an eye doctor since and recently I’ve felt so many eye shifts and interesting vision, which mirrors all the shifts in life experience and timelines, but at times it has been straining on my eyes and so I felt to check in just in case – as after all these are my eyes, which could change my life in the event of anything.
I’m happy to report, as with Astrid, that my eyes are healthy and that lasik really was quite a miracle for me. Many experience reverse shifts in their eyesight changes after surgery around 40-45. I’m only now starting to experience this at 45, but only in small increments. My surgery gave me 20/15 eye sight and has increased with hawk-like precision….so much so I’ve been living a very surreal life since surgery that has seemed like another person’s eyes and different realities to me, as to what was reality. I’ve never felt like these were my eyes and also felt like I had vision to see things differently and more than most, acting hawk-like in fact and not just in clarity.
Now, my eyes are starting to shift but only putting me at 20/20-20/25, without need to wear glasses nor would DMV make it mandatory. The doctor said I can fill my prescription (which would put me back at 20/15 vision) only by personal preference or if I want to give any eye strain some reprieve. At this point I haven’t filled it, as just going to him gave me reprieve actually and that little extra crispness doesn’t bother me at this time to have.
I found out both my near and far sight are shifting (I used to be near sighted before surgery and was told I would likely reverse to far sighted later in life). My left eye seems a little worse, which seems symbolic.
However, I also have a slight astigmatism starting – something new for my eyes – which makes each eye focus differently. This is actually what put to rest things for me, as it accounted for the eye strain in trying to figure out how to focus. Yet, since I learned of what was actually happening and why I was experiencing what I did, it clicked something in my brain and connected something too, so I’ve felt a softening and there’s this instant eye to brain connection now that has relieved strain.
I’ve always known I was bilateral, and now it appears my eyes are too, and in bringing brain and eyes together, it’s almost like this natural adjustment is happening and clicking together the parts of brain and the eyes in a way that makes sense and feels better!
Of course, I’ll continue to feel out if any strain or challenge develops, at which point I will fill a prescription as I do actually like glasses. 😉
So, there is greater sense of balance for both Astrid and myself…her with her ears and me with my eyes, and for now we both don’t need anything further, as we continue this magickal journey together with greater empowerment to navigate the way.
While fiery intensity and passionate energy are some of the focuses of this Aries Harvest and Hunter’s/Blood Full Moon, there is also a reminder for tempering things to bring greater balance and harmony into our experience right now. Deepening into the truth of who you are and trusting in that inner knowing to guide you is key, and this will reflect the true beauty of things, as we become more present to the reflections of our relationships to everything within and around us.
We continue being presented with opportunities to strengthen our connection with Mother Earth – Terra – to bring greater stability and anchoring to our lives. It is from that place that peace takes hold, when we are firm with our roots, yet flowing with our expansion.
Security comes from this place of peace within, which can be accessed regardless of our surroundings and chosen regardless of thinking there is no other way. There are always multiple options and perspectives because we are creative beings living in a creative universe. There are no limits on creativity. Only the depth at which you activate your imagination becomes your limitation.
It continues to be a time for showing up more authentically and when we focus on being or embodying, then the doing takes care of itself. Not the other way around.
So don’t worry so much about that.
Focus on nurturing your essence, cultivating your creativity, having gratitude for things you overlook everyday as gifts, and celebrate what’s right in the world. Bringing your joy through into all that you do and share will infuse new life into everything and you’ll be in the flow of constant renewal.
Remember who you are and believe in yourself.
Step into yourself, shine light upon the shadows within, take actions in alignment with that truth, and reclaim empowerment in a healthy way.
Whatever we are presented with does have a way of being overcome. Release attachment to how things need to look and find the hidden gift that can shift your entire experience of life.
Do you enjoy living in the past and in limitation? If not, then rise above this. If you are ready to make leaps in life, the energies are here to support that. Be like Nature and flow with these currents.
This is a good time to get things done and start those things you’ve been procrastinating.
The above photo is of the Full Moon early this morning, which I captured literally about 3 minutes before it fully disappeared behind the mountain. Astrid had woken me with her running around like a speed racer, full of excitement. She definitely did not want me to miss out on seeing it. In person, it was big, clear, and reddish in color. And as soon as I took this quick photo, it was gone, but am glad I captured it to share.
All of my bunnies have shared a connection with the Moon and Astrid is no exception.
In the photo below you can see her basking in its glow, as I always find her each Full Moon and on major cosmic occasions.
This was taken early yesterday morning at 3 am (had to use flash) when I woke and found her in front of the French doors, lake and Moon still as can be even when I went to stroke her. Everything was dark and still except for the strong glow of the Moon illuminating the room, lake, and Astrid.
Her ears were warm with energy despite it being very cold, which was obvious to me that she was moving the Aries energy since throughout the day I’d noticed her ears cold and now at the coldest hours she was warm.
The Full Aries, Harvest and Hunter’s Moon definitely had her attention and Astrid was helping to work with the energies and prepare for the new on all levels to help clear things and create balance and ease.
Wishing everyone an empowering Full Moon. 11:11 as I finish writing this, so activations embedded in this for sure!
With the Pisces Full Moon’s heightened intuitive energy today and people looking into the meaning of things more and more, along with inquiries about signs, messages, and symbolism I receive consistently, and a recent request for a source on interpreting symbolism, especially things like animal totems, I felt to share one of my favorite websites from Avia Venefica who shares insightful cultural and archetypal meanings of symbolism across the board. Her website is one of the most diverse sources (check out the menu of topics in the top, left hand corner) I think you’ll find helpful with learning to understand the deeper meaning of things and how to harness that for both personal and collective implementation and awareness.
Here is her site:
I also recommend tuning in and meditating on the symbolism in question, asking for its message directly and how it applies to you, as although there is universal symbolism, how and when something shows up for you can have its own meaning and interpretation, which can only truly be understood or accessed by you. And I truly believe that if you spend the time you will discover the meaning and make those connections to what is going on in your life that brings purpose to what has shown up.
Teaching yourself to engage your own inner wisdom and using things as aids and tools to access that, will help not only to empower yourself, but also strengthen your gifts and open up more doors within you that have been hidden, conditioned out of conscious reach, or repressed.
You can also simply go online and google key words to bring up associated links to what is in question and trust what shows up or what you’re drawn to, as there is always meaning to why that particular message has been brought to your attention. The same goes for a book you might see in a book store, or one you have that you pick up and open up to, finding the perfect message right before your eyes.
Also, stay very aware, present, and observant to things that happen, you hear, someone says, etc., at the time of the sign, just before, just after, and pay attention to recurring themes taking place in your life currently that are trying to get you to pay notice and either make changes, adjustments, are aiding inspiration, or simply are reiterating you’re on the right track and being supported.
Then be open and willing to accept the messages you receive, as if you have a pattern of denial this is the very reason the messages or reiterating signs keep showing up.
Much of interpretation is relative to you, and although things can be guides or someone else can tell you what they think, these are simply keys to help access those closed doors within YOU that has the answers and that you can then run with and discover whole new worlds of possibilities once you engage them with curiosity and trust.
Enjoy the journey!
(Photos of the mystical Pisces Full Moon aglow in rose gold above Lake Tahoe at 6 am this morning and Astrid Moon gazing along with mom. At 6:45 am it disappeared behind the mountain, and she stayed there the entire time, in zen mode, until it did)
This Full Moon has a special place in my heart because of its being in Capricorn…an energy I’ve been working on diligently since my North Node, Ascendant and Mars are all in Capricorn. For me it speaks to the life shifts I’m integrating, but it also speaks to a collective energy needed, especially with healers, empaths, “light workers” (as people call them), creatives…or anyone who has lived in martyr or victim roles most of their life. This Full Moon in Capricorn speaks to fortifying those personal boundaries and creating healthier relationships with others in all ways, including the relationship you have with yourself, the past, and the ancestral lines you carry within your DNA.
I’m reminded of Astrid with this Full Moon and how she, too, is mirroring this shift like mom and the collective, into deepening of her true power, as she heals from the past, understands the triggers that bring her to defense, and roots more in the trust of self and the love she consistently now has to support her into her empowered wholeness, so she can blossom like crazy.
This is a time for keeping ultra present and aware of rising and displaced and exaggerated emotions, anger, jealousy, fear….if you’re feeling triggered look within yourself as to what that’s really about and what you’re really upset with. It’s very easy to point fingers and lay blame on others and it’s very easy to self-sabotage so that we can avoid the things that would be most supportive for our journey, but scary to entertain.
Reactions are not only likely unconscious fears acting out, but also aren’t based on the reality being put forth even by the other person triggering you because they have their own stories that shape the way they are acting as well.
This again is shadow work…something everyone likes to talk about, but very few truly understand and are actually working with.
If something has been hidden in your life by yourself or others, the Full Moon can help shed truth on the matter, but be willing to embrace that revealing when it shows up, otherwise greater lashing out and reactions will only continue to mask what’s really at the core of things.
Take steps back, spend more quiet time, or time in nature to root and ground yourself more, recharge with the plants and trees, and remove yourself if necessary from harmful or potentially harmful situations until you have a better grip on things and your defensive emotions.
You can either give away your power or be empowered. It’s up to you.
The old is continuing to crumble and Capricorn assists you in taking greater responsibility in your life, rather than displacing that and continuing with old patterns that are no longer sustainable for ultimate, collective well being.
Capricorn also represents structure and so we’ll be asked to rework and rebuild new structures that are strong, yet flexible, and do not carry the load of the past with it.
So yes, transformational shifts on large scales are happening, which includes literal and symbolic deaths of everything we’ve ever known in order to be more authentic and in alignment with current frequencies.
I recently just finished a big 2 week fast and cleanse that was literally like shedding layers of snake skin in not only losing all the old in weight, but also reinvigorating my cells on a molecular level so that they had time to detox and dispel, rest, and then rebuild.
This is what we are going to see more of and what this Full Moon is illuminating a need within us to do whether we like it or not.
You must tear down the old foundations in order to truly build a fortified new.
Power is increasingly being something to exercise with utmost consciousness and to balance in ways that both leave us empowered, but also empower others rather than power over others or have us acting out of inauthentic power.
Goats are amazingly agile, versatile, curious, and inventive, have incredible balance, are committed to the journey, are patient and persevering, don’t let any obstacle stand in their way of continuing toward their goals, keep climbing and reaching for new heights no matter what (even if its outside their comfort zone), know how to nurture and feed the soul, are intuitively guided, and exercise wise use of trust and responsible independence.
Let us learn by Goat’s example and ride this transformative energy with greater awareness.
“Silence is a source of great strength.” ~Lao Tzu
I’ve continuously found myself being in silence and craving it more and more. This has led to an increased time spent in nature as well where I can hear the whispers carried in every breath of life around me. And when not outdoors, I enjoy a good portion of time being and working in silence, listening to the music of my cosmic heart. I’ve always been one to listen silently and not talk much when around people, unless of course I’m teaching a workshop. However, over time, even that has incorporated more silent presence, as I’ve created space and encourage others to lead and share, acting more as a facilitator to move the energy and support empowerment.
It’s interesting to reflect on my past when I was more insecure and without the confidence or courage I experience today, and remember that even then others were reflecting the power of my silence and presence, which took me time to understand consciously.
I would often hear later that people would share things about me to others, or be grateful for something I did or said, when in actuality I NEVER ONCE spoke a word. At least not through my mouth and voice, but in fact I was speaking through the silent presence I’d embraced from very young and telepathy that comes through in that state of being.
Silence has an energy to it that is like no other source and it is from this stillness that you find everything you will ever need and all that you forgot you knew.
It’s important to go out of your way to cultivate silence in this modern world where it practically ceases to exist, as it is invaluable. When you create even 5 minutes of silence each day, it will change your experience and you will become aware of just how much the external stimuli is affecting you. All of this external noise creates internal noise, as our minds become more restless and active. Silence and inner stillness will lead to an experience of wholeness and happiness that comes from experiencing the divine inside you and conversely, also the divine inside everything and everyone else.
As we learn to experience this state of inner peace consistently and consciously, we recognize more what is our energy and others’ energy and get stronger at being able to create and duplicate that same inner peace and silence in the middle of any situation. We learn to take back control of our lives and strengthen our abilities.
Silence is something that not only do I find balancing and recharging, as well as supportive to being more present, mindful, and aware of all the energetic subtleties and guiding messages, but I also find it a way in which I can go deeper into the watery abyss of my authenticity, hear my intuition and truth, and exercise expansion of my heart. It’s also a way to access deeper connection with everyone and everything around me.
“In the attitude of silence the soul finds the path in a clearer light, and what is elusive and deceptive resolves itself into crystal clearness. Our life is a long and arduous quest after Truth.” ~Mahatma Gandhi
I’m constantly in awe and in love with the limitless depths of the heart. We’ve come to understand the importance of exercising the body, but it is also important to continually exercise the heart in taking it to new levels that will access its expansive potentials to heal all and to create anything we dream. Silence helps us to touch into those spaces in between and to understand the language of love.
Silence speaks volumes and is a way we can speak heart to heart and allow love’s stillness to envelope our souls.
This takes place even without words needing to be uttered.
I am grateful for the moments that exercise my heart and draw me deeper into the stillness within.
May you be inspired to embrace the power of sacred silence and the heart.
“Silence allows you to watch your mind and become aware of the thoughts that you may be acting on unconsciously. When you see the thoughts, you can make a conscious choice to act on the thought or change your mind, instead of going along with the noise. I have seen people who don’t want to look at themselves keep going until something happens that makes them stop — a sickness or an accident — but it gives them that reflective, quiet space where they can face what is difficult in their mind. We each have a unique purpose to fulfill in this life and inklings can come in those quiet moments.” ~Swami Radhananda
This is just a brief update that the March spots I opened for the 5 week intensive of Intuitive Energy Guidance are filled and I may only have 1 spot left to start the next 5 week intensives beginning April. If you feel called to this and resonate with working in partnership with me, you can reserve that now at this link, which provides details and options of Pay-As-You-Go (with 6 session/5 week commitment) or One-Time Package Savings: Intuitive Energy Guidance
I can only support 2 clients per five weeks and am going by my own intuitive guidance on how long I’ll continue offering this.
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Last night I had an amazing dream about several winged horses flying through the sky and a large group of people, myself included, were being fitted with our own “wings,” so to speak, to be able to fly. And then I watched as people were practicing and facing their fears of heights and such, as they tried out their wings.
I remember one of the people fitting the wings saying to me that they thought perhaps my fear of heights would keep me flying low. Little did they know that when it comes to flying, fear doesn’t have any place within me. And off I went proving them wrong, as I flew to great heights.
I loved this dream, as it felt to symbolize a new consciousness and paradigm arriving, of more people beginning to and continuing to reach great heights, greater freedom, ability to harness magick in the material plane and manifest dreams and intents, greater balance and sense of true empowerment being harnessed, and more grounded transformations unfolding.
And I loved the mirror of that involving the offering I’ve put out again, as it feels connected with more people ready to step up and out…ready to fly…and will.
I hear so many wonderful shifts taking place for so many collectively and that is where I choose to focus my efforts and energy and helping as many as possible to be free.
My sweet friend Dawn of Reiki Dawn shared this on Facebook and I felt it important to not only repost there, but to share with the blog world too, as I know so many of you are empaths like myself.
These are all things I’ve had to learn, very much the hard way, especially being a boundaryless Pisces without distinction between myself and the collective. And I can say that implementing them has made all the difference.
These don’t make you any less service-oriented or compassionate. If anything, you become a more empowered, unconditionally compassionate example and you have that much more to give authentically and intentfully.
After I posted this on Facebook this morning, it continued a dialogue and reiteration of things that I felt called to share and expound upon here.
I’ll reshare what I wrote there first, and then add what feels important to impart in addition.
Here is my original post:
I am so touched by all of the messages I receive of interest in wanting to work with me on sacred tattoo designs, however I am not taking on new clients and feel I should reiterate this, as I continue receiving a lot of requests.
I’ve also had several people message me with long shares about themselves and wanting me to at least help with the idea and how to come up with the design, asking me to tell them how to do that.
I hope that others can understand and honor that that is a huge part of the work that I did with this, which involves a big investment of time and energy on my part and is actually half of the process when I am working with someone.
That process involves people writing me about themselves and the essence of what they want to see in the design and I take the time to review all that they share, tune in, channel the energy, vision, images, inspiration and guidance and then begin the designing.
But the first leg of the journey is as much work as the designing, if not more crucial and energetically involved.
The interesting thing I find is that these people are so intuitive and within their messages are the answers.
My desire is that people come to trust their intuition and feel the empowerment of that process.
I know you can tap into the vision and then take the time to find the right tattoo artist that understands you and can take your vision and bring it to life.
The more you embody and trust the energy you are feeling, the more easily you’ll align with the perfect tattoo artist.
Just have patience and believe in yourself.
Part of why I think I’ve been guided right now to move away from this, besides supporting the energy I know I need to follow, is to empower others in trusting and empowering themselves.
It’s the same reason why I’ve moved away from other things as well and why the things I AM focused on are very deliberate in supporting just that.
This is one of my the biggest focuses of everything I do and am moved to do involves – to help others see that they have what they seek within them.
I believe in you.
After I posted this, a dialogue continued and while I didn’t share the extent of what this all meant in my post, my dear friend Dawn picked up on it and what we exchanged felt important to add here in a bit more detail.
Dawn mentioned how Lee Harris has announced his stopping his monthly energy forecasts and will now only share short updates as he’s moved to. She noted a recurring theme around trusting ourselves and listening, with hopes people will invest the energy and time into that for themselves.
I chimed in with agreement and that I’d seen about Lee Harris’ announcement, finding it synchronous to how I’ve shifted things and feel moved to only share as I’m inspired and guided to and to only focus on what is most resonant to my heart and essence, knowing that is collectively connected to what is also most needed at this time.
Another friend, Jayn, also chimed in with reiterating messages without seeing our comment thread and made a point that we resonate with those that are growing with us.
I have felt myself for some time now feeling very pulled into new directions and ways of sharing my individual gifts, and that has been a process to work through the feelings of responsibility and what that TRULY means, while aligning with the right timing on this that felt most supportive to my own and the collective’s process.
This has been why, little by little, I’ve moved away from things and released things that I once offered because it no longer aligned with what I felt the path now for me and my role was/is.
We all have different parts to play and we are all on different legs of the journey…none better or worse than anyone else’s part…but all integral and necessary.
Yet, my part has shown me I will often be forging new energetic territory where the guidance will only come from within and often may not always be understood, or embraced by only a few.
And that is perfectly alright for me, as I am clear on who I am now.
So, in order to align with who I am, and what best I have to offer the collective by embodying that more fully every day, I have had to make boundaries, take stands, support what I feel, and ground the new.
This has led to certain services being released for now, or for good, and new ones developing, as well as fine-tuning what remains to really focus on the energy signature I’m supporting from my piece of the collective tapestry.
This has included sharing videos that channel what is coming through me in inspiration at the moment and feel important to impart, or writing a blog about a current experience, reflection, and learning that is time relevant, or rather than certain kinds of ongoing support, creating very specific types of support for specific types of souls that will feel called to them to make those empowered leaps in their lives.
It has also included focusing on new channels of creativity and inspiration.
All this created and shared, rather than offering things people rely on – much like how Lee Harris is not doing his “scheduled monthly energy forecast” but touch-ins instead.
I feel like everyone is shifting their roles right now and some things we used to do will be taken over by others moving into that leg of their journey, while we move into another, and those that were in our new roles can now be released to move into a new one too.
I know for myself, I don’t want to enable people, but to empower them and I’m very clear on how that looks, as to my role shifting.
I feel that there is definitely a huge shift taking place that asks us all to step up into our power. And this is not going to be done in the way it used to where you may have more leeway, but rather will really engage and trigger you in the ways that light a fire under your feet in order for you to choose where you want to step next with greater personal power that knows how to utilize that fire alchemically rather than being burned by it.
I love you more than you may know and everything I’m guided to do is from that unconditional and cosmic love that only sees your wholeness and will meet you there.
Last night I had an interesting dream of meeting Neptune – God of the Sea.
Not surprising, since I’ve been so immersed in the depths of water energy recently with all of our oceanside RV sites we’ve been stationed at, along with the abundance of rain and sea life to accompany it.
Seemed this was foreshadowed also when the RV next to us pulled out while in Avila Beach and I caught its name in the side window – Neptune.
The dream took place after I’d woken in the night, hearing a downpour of rain outside and sea lions barking in the marina.
In my dream I was staying at a very large, sprawling hotel by the ocean. I originally was in one room, but for some reason they wanted me to move rooms and they provided me two new keys.
I ventured off feeling led to try the key to room #287 – an 8 in numerology, which is a power number of balancing the material and immaterial (spiritual) worlds – first.
It had a long gated entrance with plants and looked different from the other rooms – separate and like its own dwelling. It was free standing and had very tall, dark wood walls, seemingly with no windows.
I opened the door and looked around.
Indeed there were no windows. It was mostly bare and dimly lit.
I saw only a couple pieces of clothing and shoes on the ground, as if someone had just left them there.
Sensing they may still be there, I slowly and quietly made my way to the door.
That’s when he appeared.
Silvery white hair and beard, large build, and piercing stark, ice blue eyes. He was likely unclothed, but I only focused on his eyes, face, and bare, strong shoulders – not removing my gaze he had me locked in.
I felt his power, although it appeared that he had shifted into a mortal form living in this hotel room by the ocean.
His eyes gave him away, as they were electric like the lightning storms that take sailors to their detriment and carried the power of the ocean.
It was as if he was waiting for me.
I did feel uncomfortable and some fear took over, as I was not sure of his intentions, his power was great, and here I was inside his domain with no one knowing I was here.
Everything between us was in silence, but telepathically understood.
He knew my trepidation and rather than make me feel more comfortable, he turned on his power even greater. It was as if he knew the best medicine for me was to show up larger and not coddle me. (Much like what I always share that the best way to support someone is to stand in your power rather than meet them in their story, as that provides them authentic choice and a bridge to meet you in their own power, or to remain where they are and choose the story)
And so he stood between me and the door and his eyes became literally electric, glowing and charged, all his power coming through them and his pupils white at center of the icy blue. He turned it on and sent it piercing through to me.
It was not his intention to hurt me, but to show me his power and to test me.
It was then that something was triggered inside and I rose to the occasion.
Suddenly a power built inside of me and I faced him straight on and pierced his eyes back with my own, full steam…my own eyes in penetrating force sending the power within me through to him…hitting him hard.
I remember telepathically sending him the message, “Don’t you dare pull your power on me again or you’ll have this to reckon with.”
His eyes smiled with delight.
It wasn’t a vicious energy between us at all. It was more like a playful exchange between old friends calling each other out…or a master with his disciple who has now turned the tables and both are pleased with the outcome finally achieved through the hard work.
It was as if he was taunting me to reveal myself and not cower before anything or hide in any way who I really am. He was wanting me to dig into the watery depths of my own Pisces soul and bring forth who I really was.
After I turned on my power, I then quickly left.
The dream went on a while, and he seemed to follow me when I left the room to try to get a different room. There was a sense he did not want me changing rooms and wanted me to stay with that one. He even shape shifted into the manager of the hotel at the desk I’d gone to to try to have things changed. And so I never did, although was trying to shake him from following me.
It was evident that he would not leave me be until I fully grasped the seriousness of his message, fully integrated and embodied it, and kept “me” turned on consistently.
Synchronously, this morning I pulled one of my Faery Oracle Tarot cards and the message seemed to reiterate the dream:
“If you are courageous, you can now become who you truly are on a magickal level. When you accept this part of who you are, and accept that this magick you have experienced is natural and good, you will grow stronger, more fearless, more calm, more effective and you will draw to you the people who can echo back to you these truths you have found.”
Being a Pisces, Neptune’s energy is very familiar to me, although can also be some of the trickiest because it is all about the subconscious, the shadow, the depths of feelings below the surface…. and now he is asking of me to bring forth the depths of who I am in an even bigger, bolder, constantly visible way.
Seems he will be sticking around and working with me to ensure that I do. 🙂
Avia Venefica has a great page on Neptune symbolism if you’re interested in exploring the energy more:
I have received Neptune’s message to heart, as his eyes continue to stare into my soul and I know will haunt me with his fatherly, disciplined love of which I am grateful.
I will be continuing to integrate the depths of what this means for me and how I want it to manifest, as I approach a new cycle come my birthday and as I reflect on today’s illuminating Full Moon in Leo.
My question to myself is do I dare turn my power full on?
My question to you is do you dare turn your power full on?
We cannot afford to live less than who we really are.
Me/You, my/your loved ones, the Earth, the collective, the Cosmos needs you to remember and be, without veils, without masks, without sugar coating, without false power, without illusion, without fear, without denial and repression….
Arise and meet yourself eye to eye today.
I’ll be there with you doing the same.
This is a quick how-to from Lee Harris that goes well with themes I’ve been sharing about to help you be more empowered in your life.
This one specifically speaks to releasing the judgments of others so that you can take your power back…a pretty big one for a lot of people I’m guessing.