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A Three Hour Tour, Cappy Energy & My True Song


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It’s been incredibly fun and oh-so-good getting back into our outdoor groove again now that house renovations are finalizing. This has meant bigger outings and extra vigorous trekking, which has increased with excitement by fresh snow recently. I’ve always loved Winter, especially since I didn’t get to enjoy a true snow and four seasons, living in Southern California most of my life, but I’ve always really not liked all those layers and found myself bored with the usual winter wear (and hiking gear in general). I’ve mixed things up a bit here and there, but this year I vowed to make Winter (especially) fun and to reflect the inspiration and feelings it brings up in me that mirror my inner child.

Hence, you’ve been seeing a lot more unique colors and joyous vibes coming through my own unique style that showcases my heart on my sleeve – literally! No reason not to be all warm and giggly inside and out and to share with Nature how she makes me feel, even if she’s showcasing a white gown.

After all, they don’t call it a Winter “Wonderland” for nothing!

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Trekking in the snow is a lot more effort (at least 2x’s as much and sometimes 3x’s if really deep snow and lots of elevation climbing is involved). So, where you might do more miles in the other seasons, less miles can equal the same in Winter.

That said, we’ve recently upped our game and took on the snow with vigor, doing 5-8 miles at a time.

You saw our recent snow shoe hike where we met up with our favorite little tree, which we named Tiny Tim after Cosmo’s nickname and our enchanting more tame terrain hike.

And yesterday it was a snow hike extravaganza up to High Meadows!

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I’d like to call this “the snow hike we didn’t know we’d be doing” that ended up as an 8 mile adventure climbing 1470 feet.

It was a three hour tour into “beyond sunset” without the ship wreck, but was filled with giggles and enchanting nature surprises.

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Our group made me the deciding factor to choose between either the easier route at the fork or the longer climbing route.

The “cappy” me (Capricorn mountain goat) said, “let’s go up!”

And we did.

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Troopers everyone was on quite the trek!

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I was trying out my new mega snow hikers for the first time, which rocked! We all wore crampons, but my hardcore shoes would have totally taken on all of it without them. I don’t know if it was them or if I was just on fire, but I conquered this climb and hike like never before and even better than in the warmer weather, which is quite something with snow and the increased amount of energy and effort this takes.

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Or, maybe it was simply my “cappy” go-get-em attitude that’s been anchoring in more.

Another change I’ve been noticing is how hot I get when I’m in active mode. So much so I have learned not to layer up like crazy because I end up sweating and very uncomfortable. So I wear lighter layers and ones that will leave me the most comfortable. I actually had a tank top under my sweater this time and that suited me just fine! I’m usually the first and many times, the only one stripping off layers.

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I feel like this increase indicates an increase in the energy I am channeling within and perhaps that is being mirrored in my dying cell phone – this time the battery is blowing out, which is why most of the photos recently you see are taken with Dave’s cell phone or Sharon’s (in the case of this post) because my cell phone dies and is useless anymore. I’ll be either getting a new super-charged battery to match my own inner energizer bunny battery within, or a whole new more robust energy one that can handle things and not poop out.

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In any case, I’m noticing a lot of shifts energetically that are reflecting in physical and outer changes, as well as a “more me” embodiment inside and out than ever before, which includes the child and otherworldly me who is just overtly expressive of sharing my frequency with joy.

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And speaking of that joy and oh how Nature brings out the best in me.

Moss and me = Faery weeeeee!

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Loved this little moss, lichen, and icicle enclave we stumbled upon up the climb.

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It was SO magickal!

And it was so me!

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“The self must know stillness before it can discover its true song.” ~Ralph Blum

Balancing Seasonal Shifts for New & Healthier Versions of Embodiment


A short post update (and last until I finish my book), as I’m continuing to hunker down with my writing, to send a little New Moon and Equinox love your way. This week is another gateway for anchoring in new intentions and realities, which is why I’m keeping focused and listening to the guidance on completing my book during this potent portal – based on my progress so far and yesterday’s amazing writing day that definitely will happen this week YAY! We have a Virgo New Moon in a couple days and the Equinox rounding out the end of the week, so a wonderful transition time you can harness mindfully in empowering your own true source of light within.

Virgo urges us to bring our bodies back into balance and supports our journey of integrative healing on all levels, while doing this WITHOUT being self-critical and WITH a lot of loving attentiveness.

Once again, I feel like a literal embodiment of this message with my restructuring foot fracture and the healing integration and nurturing I’m following to create harmonious alignment with the new.

And embrace of this with gratitude and love has increased the process tenfold with blessings abound and productivity galore. Yesterday was truly one of those days I cherish, where I spent 8 hours in full writing mode, which had me lost in the creative world of my imagination and parallel realities. I felt like the fact that my writing brought me to tears and I was crying through the fluid channeling of the story that was unfolding in creative “real time” was a great sign that I was in the vortex and that the content streaming through WAS that real. I LOVE when this happens. Pure alchemy in motion. I also love when what I’m writing happens while I’m writing it, or after. Powerful stuff! A few more days of that and I’ll be done. It also demonstrated being in the zone of my essence, as I wouldn’t have wanted to be anywhere else in the beauty of that experience and the joy of creating from my heart.

These are the inner shifts taking place at this time….aligning us with our “nature”.

A seasonal shift marks a time for inner shifts and repatterning ourselves to step into that flow of Nature’s cycles.

So be a best friend to your inner darkness and shadow, for understanding it engages healing integration that is vital for soul growth. We are encouraged to face our fears and retrieve all of the projections and separations we’ve created, which are illusionary. This leads us to alchemy of the heart.

We’re encouraged to also stop medicating the truth with fluffy avoidance and robotic affirmations, in order to sink into the nature of our BEINGNESS.

I find myself continuously swimming deeper and deeper into this experience of richer embodiment. When I think, wow, this is amazing, I’m then soon shown something even more incredible is possible because that’s the truth of it – there is no end to the possibilities. WE create endings, but it’s all a continuous beginning and recreating we can choose ways of experiencing.

I’ll leave you with these passages from an old post of mine that speaks to this:

Nature reminds us that we need to relinquish the need to hold on tightly with fear and to trust in the process – to allow ourselves to have everything we thought we knew about ourselves to be stripped away, only to discover a greater truth to our authenticity beneath the temporary structures.

And in the process you’ll discover the only thing that is eternal is the core essence of who you are beneath the temporal layers. You learn then that the rest isn’t as serious as you make it and is simply part of the journey to that core.

We let go, just as the trees effortlessly allow their leaves to shift colors and float off in the wind. We embrace the only permanence, which is change. And we take grateful stock of what we do have, while preparing for a new birthing that will be incubating during the symbolic stillness.

Seasonal transitions mirror the evolution of human consciousness and the dynamic shifts of life cycles.

The eternal cycles of birth and death, creation and destruction – all teach you the wisdom of harmonic co-existence. 

You become a conscious and active partner in the rebirthing process, as you walk through the flames of destruction with grace.

It’s a good time to decide if you want to continue forward supporting your ego’s will or your soul’s destined journey. Decide what it is worth to you to live in the authenticity and joy of your essence, and what decisions you can make to release all that is not of that, in order to be all that is.

As we celebrate the Equinox and Autumn’s graceful arrival, let us remember to breathe in the beauty of who we are, trust in the cycles that will always return us to balance and harmony, and gently nurture the inner world, as we cleanse it of that which no longer serves and prepare for the renewing cycle that will be spiraling round again.

With my own foot fracture I feel I released the pressure of much and broke from one version (within and without) and allowed a new version to form, which released the temporary structure of old “me” to birth a new Pisces self with stronger foundations of what that means to me.

We constantly have these choices and possibilities that needn’t be harsh for us to experience, and yet our higher selves know EXACTLY what is of greatest support for us.

Be as You Truly Are ~ You Haven’t Lost Your Passion or Path, You Simply Can Choose to Dance & Sing Again


A little feather mandala with 11 that I found yesterday, encircling an orange calcite heart for New Moon in Aries … Stirring the fire within to unleash your most transformative expression that wisely harnesses your creative and courageous spark of truest nature and embodiment.

One might ask themselves:

How can I create more balance and harmony in the giving and receiving of energy?

What values call to my heart most?

Do I experience frustration due to unrecognized opportunity, limiting perspective, and lack of self love?

There is potential for more integrity of self-expression and recognizing your natural beingness as you truly ARE.

I recently had a dream about a small magickal creature I was given from the Netherlands and it rested in my hands and then gave me a bite on my fingers, although without the intent to hurt and it didn’t, nor did it bleed, but I knew it was getting my attention. There isn’t a creature that looks just like what I saw in the dream, but the word pygmy and vole came to mind…I did discover there are pygmy shrews and field voles in the Netherlands.

I’ve made several connections to the entirety of the dream for myself and the connections of awareness it drew me too, but also while later looking into this animal’s symbolism, I was struck by something I read about vole that coincides with this New Moon energy and felt to share it too for the collective.

It shared how vole teaches about awareness to what is going on all around you with both sensitivity and alertness, but also simply teaches about expressing your nature, naturally, which comes through feeling and listening to your intuition with loving trust.

They also carry an energy and growth potential in embracing the learning around nature’s expression of both destruction and rebirth. So in essence, asking you to look at what needs to change or that you feel could use shifting in your life and then by listening you’ll be shown how to harness those changes with vole’s help.

And synchronous to my dream, voles teach us how to “sink our teeth into” the things we’re wanting to create…in essence showing us how to harness the visions and ideas with creative tenacity so we can make them productive and actualized.

There is so much angst and frustration out there around worrying about not being on path, searching, yearning, seeking out guidance to what exactly you “should” be doing, holding onto the belief there must be some idealized version and bigness around an end result of what this looks like, and coming up short on these expectations placed on it all by self and the messaging out there.

Interestingly, at the same time you worry and search, you are also avoiding the feelings inside, your intuitive messaging, those subtle or sometimes loud nudges, are self-sabotaging with conditioned beliefs, ingenious inner dialogue, and avoidance tactics, or even creating every obstacle and energy drain on yourself, otherwise.

Yet, what it boils down to is a need to surrender to what IS right now.

Who you ARE this moment.

The intelligence within you ALREADY.

You miss the opportunities every moment to just be YOU and bring through the creative vitality that stirs within your spirit and heart.

There isn’t a perfect outcome you need to strive for.

You simply need to choose to walk in the frequency of your vibration right now and how ever that leads you, IS exactly what you are here to do.

Don’t wait for some perfect answer or precise conclusion to your quest.

Give up the quest and realize the truth of your journey that is a step-by-step unfolding of you being you.

The more in touch we are with our feelings and the voice within, the more we know exactly what it is in each moment that would be the best possible use of our breath here on Earth. And that may be much more simple than you were led to believe, although without devising it, could very well turn into something much bigger.

But don’t judge what is and isn’t extraordinary or how if you only do “this,” you aren’t doing enough.

If you truly are embracing your spirit’s song and commit to expressing its voice in each experience you have, then you will come to experience the peace and harmony you seek…the next notes will become clear…and naturally you’ll have a symphony at work with your instrument in sync with the the collective orchestra.

I find that people create inertia because they dwell too much on the ideas rather than the feelings moving through. I’ve been there too.

You have and always will be messaged by your inner voice to where would most be in resonance and alignment to your vibrational expression.

We simply don’t listen and listening, nurturing, and supporting that voice is more key than how things need to look, as when we cultivate that, we naturally will be doing and being our best possible version in each ever-expanding and evolving moment.

So it won’t be about what big thing you “should” be doing, but truly about embodying your own bigness through being.

The less we listen and support that innate knowingness, is where we come up against the challenges.

And that inner voice will tell us when making changes would be much more supportive to our life and everyone’s lives we touch.

I recently went through this in a big way, myself, before we went on our Magick Bus journey and made the changes that were key to my spirit’s expression in order to thrive here or elsewhere.

If you feel a loss of passion, it’s not because you don’t have any or you need to discover your passion, you simply need to tune back into you, as somewhere along the line a door was closed on your feelings and the connection and love didn’t receive the nurturing that other things instead did. The nature of you doesn’t go away, it simply awaits remembering and dancing with once again.

And yes, that does become important, if in fact you desire to live from that purity of your natural vitality more and find yourself frustrated and tormented all the time.

Loss of passion may also speak to your completing a cycle on your spiral of life and rather than continuing to repeat patterns that keep you stuck, or drag you backwards like a whirpool, you simply need to get on the next spiral and create anew, integrating ingredients to bring forth continual alchemy of being.

Take an honest, deep, intimately vulnerable look within yourself and ask the really important questions. You’ll discover what the true “block” is to your having the very thing you say you desire…or in essence, to being more of who you really ARE.

It’s a very interesting journey we experience in our lives.

No right or wrong, nor timeframe. However, if you are feeling miserable or frustrated, that may very well be indication to try another way.

When we more actively engage ourselves as the truly empowered partners in co-creation, we can discover how to work with the alchemy latent within each of us to create.

How things evolve will be a beautiful spiraling of your nature unfolding her or his exquisite petals.

If you are feeling a squeeze on yourself, uninvigorated, and like you are suffocating, or ready to burst, then your spirit is messaging you to go bigger, expand, express, bring forth and wisely channel what is burning within.

If uninspired, this is your chance to choose to recreate yourself and do something that moves you, feels invigorating, and keeps your imagination and creativity engaged. Start inviting and bringing forth new elements to your life that stimulate newness and fresh perspectives to keep you thriving and challenge you to go beyond yesterday’s ideas and version of yourself.

That doesn’t always mean it has to be a huge outward change, but may simply be about inviting more of the little tweaks and perspectives to your current experience that inspire a natural unfolding from there.

You have the ability to choose completely new right now and to create something different, something more, but ultimately more you this moment.

This doesn’t need to be a do or die situation, but about really feeding your spirit’s song without any constraints on should’s and should not’s, nor about following patterns…but carving a new way that is more resonant aligned to you in the flow of energy streaming through that is simultaneously abound.

I feel that as long as we continue to touch in with ourselves, invite, and put into action ways to challenge ourselves to expand our capacity for creative expression and move into new areas of personal passion moving through us with expanding courage, we will find our lives enriched and continuing to unfold in amazing ways.

You are an intuitive being whether you think you are, or not.

When you reteach yourself to trust what you’re feeling and relax into a more peaceful state of presence, then you can be more mindful, discerning, and understanding of how to navigate the energy streams in healthy partnership of heart and mind where unnecessary risks, but invigorating challenge will meet in your always being exactly where your spirit desires.

Get Busy Being


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A writer writes.

An artist creates.

A human loves.

A rabbit hops.

A flower blooms.

A star shines.

Get busy BEING.

And it doesn’t hurt to have a magickal Peter Rabbit to remind you of who you are.

Embracing the Shapeshifter Within


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The cosmic me

 

Shapeshifting is the ability to change physical form at will – changing one thing into another – or to shift the energy you are emitting from your physical body. This can be a full on transformation or could be an energetic morphing and merging that happens more subtly.

Shamans and medicine women and men are known to shapeshift, often times taking on the spirit or essence of an animal and able to journey into otherworlds.

And many in the otherworlds – the magickal and “unseen” realms – are shapeshifters too, slipping easily into different forms at will to move more easily amidst the worlds or simply to experience other forms, blend into their environment, or to show up in ways that would be of most benefit and support to those who they appear to.

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The inner unicorn me – Laura pointed out that I reminded her of the essence of the Chariot Tarot card in the Robin Wood deck that has a black and white unicorn pulling the chariot, as shared below. This photo was “accidentally” snapped when I thought I was recording a video about the “inner unicorn”. The video didn’t show up, but the photo remained.

 

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Robin Wood Chariot Tarot card

 

True, there are shapeshifters of another kind of energy that you may not resonate with, but simply because an ability that is available to all, if harnessed, doesn’t make it wrong or bad simply because certain beings may utilize it too. It again comes down to intent.

Shapeshifting can have different connotations to people depending on your perspective.

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The mermaid/nymph me

 

Some people may see this as scary or even “evil” and yet if you think about it, since we are part of a collective soul and more than just the person we or others identify us as solely in this lifetime, it would make sense that, at the least, we could have some bleed-through of all of our “selves”.

And thus, anyone could shapeshift and there are many that do, especially if you are living an integration life, as many of us are, or if you are working at deep soul levels in your evolution.

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The otherworld Faery me

 

Shapeshifters, or the ability to shapeshift is about being able to change your energy slightly and sometimes this can happen even unconsciously.

For instance, you may be engaged in something so heart and soulful that it activates a part of your dna and soul remembrance that shifts your energy in the moment to bring out different essence qualities in you that change your appearance, or that draw forth parts of your soul and other power lifetimes where you were utilizing these gifts more seamlessly.

And then you start to morph into what you looked like in that lifetime, or looking like an animal or being you’ve been as well, or taking on those physical traits that closely relate to this energy within you.

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The rabbit me and the Egyptian me

 

So it can be a merging with an animal spirit, non-human spirit (cosmic, devic, angelic, etc), or another form of yourself from another dimensional time period. And this may be a bleed-through or it may be in order for you to do work that your current human form can’t.

You may even become an element, lake, mountain, rock, plant, mineral, or something altogether cosmic, etc. You can merge as anything that exists as consciousness since you are all things.

It’s a way that we move into the limitlessness and expansive eternal essence of our consciousness and step into more of our formless and shapeless selves that are boundless – knowing that we are all of these things.

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The animus me (inner masculine) – I actually had a literal shapeshifting photo caught in the midst of shifting into this that was quite freaky cool, but I lost the photo.

 

Perhaps it could be seen as moving into the sacred “knowing” and collective aspects of self that are aligned with divine will, rather than “time” focused, ego attachment.

And yet, at any moment we can choose to move in and out and identify, at any moment, with which ever parts of that sacredness we desire, simultaneously aware that we are all and none.

I’ve been aware of this shapeshifting quality within myself for a long time, but it has increasingly been showing up, the more I’ve gotten in touch with my most natural, authentic essence and have deepened my integrative work.

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The ancient Inca/Mayan/Native American Indian me

 

And so I find myself morphing in photos, looking different in almost every photo taken of me (sometimes that being quite odd how much I don’t look like the “me” I/you may know and yet looking more the “me’s” that I/we are), and it becoming more visually perceivable, rather than just energetically felt, by others.

I like to think of it as embracing all of my selves and moving more into the boundless experience, while making that a vulnerably revealing process that is natural.

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The Sprite me

 

I’ve shared just a few of the photos that stood out recently revealing different “me’s”, but there have been so many.

Perhaps you have noticed this along the journey of my sharing.

Perhaps you have noticed it within yourself.

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The many me’s

Hunkering Down Into Essence & Being ~ Reverence to the Nature of You


The Raw Majesty of You


As I explored the Grand Canyon’s rugged beauty, I reflected on the raw essence she mirrors for us to embrace within ourselves.

After returning from a hike in the canyon on our last day, taking a hot shower, bundling up in my cozies as my hair dried, and sitting down with a vegan hot chocolate, this is the message that came through.

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Inner Sanctum of Ecstatic Living ~ Some Words Before I Journey Deeper Within: A Farewell for Now


What I’m sharing in this post today comes from my last Newsletter, for the month of August, which I just sent out yesterday.

It’s the last one before I head off on my three month sabbatical, which begins on September 1st and goes through November 30th.

It’s an important one to share, although I will still be posting blogs up through August 31st, as it expresses my personal journey around this, which might mirror some of your own. But it is my last newsletter, since I do those monthly, only.

Since the people who read my blog and newsletter are very different, I’m sharing it here:

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A Farewell for Now

What’s happening in my personal experience?

I usually share a lot of collective inspiration that channels through each month, sprinkled with how that relates for me. And while that will still come through this month, it will take place by you discovering your own reflections in a more personal note of sharing this time that perhaps you might relate to, or find a seed of connection with, in some way.

As you know, I will be taking off on my 3 month personal sabbatical beginning September 1st. That’s just a month away now and oh so much to do before then, as so much has been rapidly unfolding since I made that decision!

I will be completely unplugged and unreachable, as I venture into my little creative bubble and have the opportunity to be purely with myself.

On the one hand, this experience feels like a long time coming, and on the other hand, it is divinely aligned and couldn’t have happened any sooner than it is.

It also happens to coincide with some big life changes taking place – no coincidence – and so the timing couldn’t be better if I’d actually planned it, and yet of course we know I did. 😉

It has all been divinely guided by my intuition and inner heart knowing. And then completely trusted and unwavering in that knowing, although remaining flexible to the flow of energy so it would all be effortless, rather than feel like work or forced in anyway, and surrendering it with intention for the highest good of all concerned.

Since many of you have been curious and asking, I thought I’d share what’s going on in a more intimate way, as I feel that transparency and vulnerability is important to create more of the same reflections collectively.

Maybe you’ll see yourself somewhere in my share, since nothing we do is energetically isolated to just us, alone.

What has led me here?

This personal sabbatical is not one where I’ll be traveling off to explore, nor is it about sitting in meditation and stillness. It’s like a complete soul reset where I get to choose not only from a clean slate in this life, but a clean soul slate in terms of my collective soul.

I’ve shared with a few people that I’ve been what I call, “soul tired.”

This is not a physical tiredness, nor is it an energetic drain from overwork. In fact, it has little to do with my actual human body, and yet has everything to do with both my human and Earthly incarnations as a soul, on the whole.

It actually is not easy to explain how it feels, unless you’re experiencing similar, but needless to say, it is a simultaneous experience of feeling death and birth both upon me.

It is coming to a place of rest, peace, and recognition of all that has been in my Earthly lives, all that has culminated throughout my soul “history” here, and being conscious of it all, understanding what I have been awaiting myself to realize, while having integrated it as well.

At times that has felt heavy, like a mourning while I review everything and make soul decisions (which will now be moment to moment and day to day at a whole new level where anything profound can take place in an instant), sometimes overwhelming, a fully encompassing soul exhaustion that literally wants to remove myself from everything, frustration knowing I’ve had to fully put closure to everything on all levels with loving release while I have been so ready soulfully to move on for over a year and have been living in the new reality already, and yet peacefully embraced with understanding at the same time, while also like a huge ecstatic relief and excitement.

It’s a recognition and reverence for it all, and involves having reviewed my soul records, realizing the contracts really ARE done, I’ve paid my dues so to speak, I’ve even finished the extensions I gave myself and in some cases didn’t realize I was living on still without need to, and knowing from here on out, it’s all up to me in a very new and freeing, expansive way, as to what I want to create, engage in, and invest my life vitality towards.

It always has been freedom of will and choice and yet there was also a personal soul responsibility I had chosen to agree to with all of me, and contracts my heart were in every way committed to see through.

I’m one of those souls, like many of you, who have been more than around the block here on Earth, incarnating more times than I can count and in more forms than you can imagine.

Things took their shift at the end of 2012, involving coming to realizations of closure, but have been in a state of not fully grasping that for many of us, and a time period of integrating what that meant for each individually and collectively.

I’d say that it didn’t fully in embodiment hit me on every level until the end of Summer, beginning of Fall, of last year 2014, although was coming through loudly all of 2014 and end of 2013.

A series of potent dream sequences (which were happening in real-soul-time) took place during that end of Summer, beginning of Fall time period that not only explicitly gave me these messages, activated an upgrade, and offered me the most freeing and yet defining choice of my Earthly soul-existence, but have changed the way in which I live, see, feel, and experience things in all ways.

Now, I am looking at this vast and boundless “space” before me, much like the black background of this newsletter, knowing that I get to purely create in each moment, with very fulfilling release from any contract to fulfill, and only having the responsibility of my essence guiding me.

No longer is it about “holding space”, but is now about “creating space.”

What will this look like?

In terms of my 3 month sabbatical, as mentioned, I won’t be in meditative stillness or off venturing around the world, but rather, will be involved in ecstatic creation during this time, as well as ecstatic embodiment, which will carry through thereafter.

This is an experience to a level never have I had before, but it’s also one that comes from the immensity of soul credit built up from all of the committed work invested.

I think many of you can relate to the weight of what I share in that without necessity for detailing, because you’ve experienced this, or are realizing and experiencing it now, and perhaps hadn’t known how to put it all into words.

That doesn’t mean there won’t be new, exciting challenges and evolutionary paths to embrace, but they are done with flow, harmony, and in the grace of essence simply unfolding creatively each moment by conscious choice.

I prefer the word “ecstasy” to “bliss”, although they share similar definitions.

Some definitions of ecstasy include:

  • rapturous delight
  • an overpowering emotion or exaltation
  • the frenzy of poetic inspiration
  • an emotional frenzy or trance-like state, originally one involving an experience of mystic self-transcendenceSo, I will be venturing into the inner sanctum of ecstatic living, and during my 3 months “off”, I will actually be very much “on” in terms of full body activation.

    This will be a time period of creative channeling based solely on where my heart is guided and nothing else.

    I have several creative projects wanting to channel through involving writing, art, soul music/musical immanence, and animals – both Cosmic and Earth connected. This will also be a time period for resetting the soul button, spending quality time with my beloveds, and most of all having a new relationship with myself and life to see where I choose to go next.

    Every moment being lived in the fullest, as if there may or may not be another tomorrow, as things are.

    Decisions will also be made during this time, as to what things will look like upon my return from this renewing and invigorating bubble, as I will also be putting together the things that have spoken to me to share with you.

    So, there will in fact be changes in store as to what offerings look like and what new things will be available for us to co-creatively engage in.

    This includes, for me, a new life of greater simplicity and ease to take in everything in a whole new, yet most naturally-me way.

    Loving life from the multi-dimensionally empowered perspective with utter freedom of will and choice at every turn. Cosmic me fully integrated with Earthly me.

    I realized this was actually integrating visibly when yesterday a man stopped me while I was out waiting for friends to join me for lunch, to discuss my tattoos (I wore a backless top). I turned around and he proceeded to ask me what I do, sharing he was a “psychic”, only to stop in the midst of his sentence, leaning in and peering closer at my eyes and said, “You have stars in your eyes, did you know that?”

    On the physical level he was speaking to the amber gold star-like burst around my pupils sitting in my blue/green eyes. But on another level, it then hit me that what I’ve been embracing embodiment of more was taking form, as he continued with “You Star People…”

    What else is happening?

    I also mentioned that my decision to take this 3 month time off also “happens” to coincide with some life changes that have been expedited quite rapidly since announcing this, and returning from activating in Indiana with Laura, reclaiming, acknowledging, releasing, and seeding in Sedona, as well as reconnecting with my essence with the horses in British Columbia. Not to mention the two big trips to Iceland and Peru I knew I had to take and did at onset of this year that kick-started it all.

    I can’t begin to tell you all of the extremely magickal details that have been unfolding to manifest what is happening.

    And, truth be known…I have simply connected with full heart, body, mind, and soul what I knew in my heart I wanted. Then, trusted implicitly, regardless of the hurdles that were around, or what appeared on the outside, and without need to know how.

    My entire life has shifted in reflection to my personal shifts embraced. I know you know what I mean and have experienced how that works yourself.

    EMBODY the change….SEE the change.

    In a nutshell, one thing after another has continued to fall into place…and not just “any” place, but so divinely aligned it could only be the magick of essence embodiment manifest.

    That said, in a matter of one and a half weeks, the house has been rented for three years to the most perfect, dear family and friends, this weekend the RV and car to be towed are all on their way here, all the upgrades will be started next week on the RV, I’m plugging through finalizing my work this month, the bunnies are loving best friends and both got clean bills of health from the vet through blood tests, etc. – so they’re ready to go, and amazing things keep showing up daily not only for me, but everyone I know around me.

    It’s incredible how much has shifted. And while it seems overnight, it has been a process of continued belief, dedication, and moving forward.

    No matter what I heard or any thing that would arise that seemed to halt things, I knew there was a reason and I knew it wouldn’t change what I wanted and saw happening. If a temporary road block appeared, I knew it meant to relax and realize that I was to be patient for a better and more aligned moment and experience that was on the threshold.

    So, October 15th is the official hand-over-of-the-house-to-amazing-souls-day that will also be caring for my beloved Garden Tower and garden. And the beginning of October will see the move from house to RV. YAY!!

    For now, we’ll be in an RV park in Orange County, until the next leg of the journey comes together and reveals itself. I don’t know how the next thing is going to happen, but I do know that it will.

    This was what needed to be done first and because it wasn’t forced, but flowed with…waiting just for the precise moment to leap, it all came together seamlessly.

    It’s a balance of intention without attachment or expectation, full embodiment of the new even though it isn’t here yet, flowing with the energy rather than forcing it, not allowing setbacks to deter you or discourage you, realizing the perfection of what shows up, and then courageously leaping when there’s a green light. Plus, don’t forget to intend everything for the highest good of all concerned to create the most harmonious and love-centered experience for everyone involved.

    The Universe then supports you tenfold.

    One step at a time…and it’s all about taking the steps without need to know how.

    And I KNOW the rest is going to unfold once this all takes place.

    So YES, I will be extremely busy this month of August, which is why I’m getting this very last newsletter out right away (coinciding with the potent Aquarius Full Blue Moon) before I head off on my sabbatical, as I’ll be working on projects I have to complete by August 31st, while starting to work on all that needs to be done for the life shift.

    (While I’ve always been about the Moon, everything Sun-filled with juicy Golden Light has my attention these days…working with both the Shadow and Light for depth of integration and expansion.)

    All of the preparations and getting grounded with these new life shifts will stem into my first month “off”, combining both my creative process with what I’m creating in a literal physical way, to mirror my heart’s desire of ecstatic living to support the inspirational channeling process.

    Essence and heart focus equals collective service automatically.

    Do I believe?

    You’re darn right I do and I have all my life, despite any and all experiences I’ve been through.

    It’s what has gotten me this far and how I’ve created what I have despite and because of all the challenges faced.

    My belief in things is unwavering, despite what people think of me for what I believe, or even for how I choose to live my life.

    And one of the things I believe in is you, too.

    I wish each and every one of you your heart’s desires and hope to see you on the other end of my sabbatical, sharing in your own version of ecstatic living.

    I look forward to sharing and connecting more then.

    In love and creative magick,

    Tania Marie

P.S. Remember I’m still available to discuss inquiries or questions through August 31st. So if there’s something you’ve been interested in knowing about or wanting to share, now’s the time this month to do so, as I won’t be available for the following 3 months after, beginning September 1st.

New Moon ~ New You


enchanted

Feeling enchanted in the Faery forest of Big Bear

I don’t know about you, but I’m feeling an extra burst of enchantment emerging in my life, likely in part because I’ve been heavily immersed in Faery energy of late (moreso than usual, if you can believe that 😉 ). But also because I’ve been in process the last few months of doing what these two astrologers share in their energy take on tomorrow’s upcoming Cancer New Moon.

I like how astrologer, Cathy Pagano puts it:

“Since the New Moon is in a challenging aspect to Uranus in Aries, there is an opportunity to allow a new sense of yourself out…If you’re lost on a small island, you have to become the hero/ine of your own life. Let your archetypal identity come through and challenge yourself to make those changes that will give you the life you want and deserve…”

And astrologer, Robert Wilkinson adds:

“Just stay focused on how to demonstrate what your heart’s really into, go for whatever refreshes you and get the exercise you need, see things from multiple points of view, and be willing to transcend your old self, and graduate into a new realm of Being.”

For me, that “new realm of Being” is actually a deepening more into my truest soul essence like never before. There are always greater depths and expansion we can go to…after-all, everything is infinite.

My soul focus has been on going from joy to ecstacy…I personally resonate with that word, rather than bliss.

Since I’ve returned Sunday from British Columbia and the magickal time spent there at Epona Rise with the horses and Faeries, it’s like I’ve received access to another part of me that hasn’t been yet the time to bring forth, but is now taking form – permission granted, loose ends getting all tied up, slate clean, timing aligned, all systems go. Yay!

So, if you’re feeling like it’s time for a new lease on life, this is a great opportunity with the New Moon’s influence, to harness another level of self-love to take you there.

This Moon is a cleansing moon, full of feminine nurturing that can really support you into loving more of you, your feelings, and bring self-sabotaging illusions to light.

Stay on top of heightened emotions, fears, attachments, while gently and lovingly give yourself permission to gracefully let it all go.

Wishing you a beautiful New Moon beginning, as you allow yourself to be more fully you.

The Essence of You


your blossoming journeyI honor your blossoming journey and the sweet fragrance of your soul.

flower essenceEvery day your delicate petals unfurl a little bit more, revealing the essence of who you are.

What do you see when you peer deeply to the core of you?

angel faery flowerI see an angel recognizing their reflection for the first time and awakening into the embodiment of that grace.

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