What scares you most?
Now, breathe into that fear with all of your heart and explore the perspective that the fear is your most loving, wise teacher that knows your purest potentials, which you have forgotten.
Yes, you ARE that powerful.
I’m noticing how so many conscious souls are finding themselves in this “recreating self” mode of visioning and embodying new expressions that are most soulfully and heartfully aligned with essence. And this seems to involve a huge rush of expansive possibilities excitingly knocking on the door. So many potentials, so many doors….the question being which to open, and in direct connection, which to close? There are so many potentials to choose from and the beauty is, you can create any reality you want, as the energetic environment is fertile for sure! The key is to make that first choice to take a step forward, which is usually the largest hurdle and may be the one causing the most challenge or fear.
Sure, there is timing, alignment, and flow to be mindful of and definitely honoring that fluidity of energy right now that can shift at the drop of a gnome’s hat, so everything is really about an organic process that reveals itself moment to moment by being in natural harmony with all things.
But there is also that fear hurdle – fear of making the wrong choice, fear of the new, fear of stepping into your most authentic footprints yet, fear of not succeeding, fear of vulnerability in bringing forth the most truest heart parts of yourself into the world in big ways, fear of letting go of what has been comfortable and you’ve become expert at, fear of saying no to opportunities that “seem” different or play on your “service mentality” making you think “what if” this is an exception you can still be involved in, fear of not knowing if what you’re choosing is the end result you want…..and the list goes on.
I know for myself in terms of fears this also equates to my boundaries. I’ve always been one to give and want to help, not had any boundaries as a Pisces, and have spent lifetimes in service roles, and yet now I’m rewriting the idea of “to serve” into something more like “showing up authentically and living from the highest frequency of my soul signature” which automatically is for the highest good of all concerned without having to differentiate and without giving up personal power by placing one, if even by definition, in a subservient or martyr role.
I say “no” to everything that doesn’t feel to feed my creative freedom and joy right now. I stay consistent with that no matter how much something pulls on my heart strings, as I know that when I make the move forward into the new, the old will come at me in many forms and disguises simply because it’s the natural process of cleansing and bringing it up.
If I let one thing in, then the old gets in in slippery ways.
Has that brought up stuff for me? Of course!
Has it challenged me? Definitely!
Have I felt the fears of walking away from successful things? Sure!
But what I found is the more I consistently committed to saying “no” and honoring my boundaries in a truly compassionate way which accounts for true responsibility for the highest good of all concerned, the easier it has been and it becomes crystal clear what is the new and the old, what is the me now and the me then.
So I keep moving forward and the old’s power diminishes, while the strong becomes fortified and my courage and conviction for what I know to be of truest expression to myself grows.
I’ve risked walking away from successful things and even likely having people think I’m crazy, but I’d rather be me than doing something that drains me or that appeases others ideas.
I keep saying no to so many requests from potential clients, because I know in my heart that my heart is not there anymore.
And like many of you, I’ve had that quandary of not knowing where to begin…having so many irons in the fire of ideas and potentials. But as I explored each of them, I discovered where the energy was most speaking to the now, which would likely lead and open doors to more, including the rest, and which currently was the most passion-fulfilling and heart connected in this moment of joyful expression and what was aligned with the collective new reality I’m helping to cocreate.
And so I started there, knowing there is no ONE end result, but it is all an unfolding process that I listen to the energy of in each moment.
I/we need to take a step and the rest unfolds from there….there isn’t a wrong choice. There’s just choice.
If you can’t figure out which speaks most to you, just try one and see if the energy flows, or if it gets blocked and then you’ll be led to the next step.
Or, you’ll discover yourself totally immersed in flow and passionate expression and know you’re in the perfect place for now.
But the Universe waits for you to make a choice and then aligns with you, and that choice will also be evident by the energetic environment and what seems to be showing up, flowing most easily, and likely has had signs thrown at you that you might be ignoring since you are waiting for how all of the things you see will come together now.
That is a process. It all IS happening now, but in a different way than you think.
So the first fear hurdle is making a choice. Once you do that, you will see how things flow and open and become easier to navigate, to feel/see more clearly, and understand.
And yes, I have my own personal vulnerabilities and fears of the new, or rather the self-doubts that creep up. But I’m happy to say that they are outweighed and outlived by my trust in the energy I feel that surpasses the doubts now.
So while they can come into my experience now and then, I am easily able to walk myself through them within minutes and understand them as indication of my willingness to see them and move through them, while also indicating a new found strength, courage, and commitment that is running the show now, rather than the doubts or insecurities.
It’s truly a beautiful process when we partner with ourselves and our subconscious and inner child. We can have honoring and compassionate conversations that result in pure alchemy.
So while in essence the new I’m focusing on is within the umbrella of the creative me I’ve always been expressing, they are new ventures and perhaps in some ways not exactly how people imagined I’d bring it forth. Although, once I do, my guess is that because it is so aligned with my essence, people will likely say, “oh yeah, of course that’s Tania!”.
And yet there is that risk of greater and greater vulnerability to put out there the more we dig deep into the well of our souls and bring it forth publicly.
That can be scary, but it is inevitably freeing and liberating, as you release the self-bondage that’s been heavily carried all these years, or perhaps lifetimes and draining your energy to truly shine and share with the world.
Do I know if what I will create will be what is known in the world as “successful” or equal what I’ve done that was “successful”?
No, but I know it is a success if I’m doing exactly what I know in my heart I’m wanting and needing to do and doing it simply for the sake of it’s being the breath of life for me and not spending and wasting time on trying to figure out how that equates in any other way, as to me that takes care of itself when we are authentically being.
That is MY idea of success….when I’m living a life from my heart and every day is a joy to be expressing myself and experiencing my version of reality.
So that brings us to mourning.
When we’re creating the new we may go through a process of mourning the old….whether an old way of life, a relationship, any kind of experience of loss, a job, a home, or a part of ourselves.
This is natural and goes along with the fear process, as when we mourn, we may also have fears brought up that go hand-in-hand with it of thinking we will never again experience something like that again or that it never gets any better, that you’ll never experience what you want, etc.
And the truth is, you won’t experience something like that again.
But you’ll experience something better, which you can’t imagine right now from the place of your current, natural mourning, cleansing, and releasing of the old process.
Everything is relative to where we are currently.
The new is only possible to experience in the essence of our imagination, but will be even better than what you envision.
I always intend things to be “this or something better,” as I never limit myself to what I am only capable of seeing/thinking/imagining at the moment, as possibilities are unlimited.
But yes, we will mourn and that is something to honor for sure, while having gratitude for all that we’ve experienced and have been blessed with whether seen as gifts or not – because they all are and have helped us get to this point – and we will go through that human heart process of temporary growing pains for sure.
Let it flow….and it will flow through.
I have this going on in very literal ways with processing my own mourning of Cosmo, not long after mourning Joy – my two rabbit best friends and wise teachers who recently transitioned within four months of each other.
And they, to me, represent the passage of an old era of me, and mourning so much more than the beautiful physical companionship we shared.
Joy especially ended a time period of my life since she came into my life over 7 years ago when so much was shifting for me.
And Cosmo ended another huge shift in my life that came to closure with the new self-discovery journey and the Magick Bus explorative adventure to move energy into the new.
And yet they both knew exactly when to leave this Earth plane, as I’m embarking on the new and they’ve ingrained the knowing of my soul path most deeply to prepare for what’s coming. They know how best to support me from the other realms for magickal assistance and channeling.
With each passing of my beloved soul companions – Nestor, Joy, Cosmo and Gaia the tortoise, I’ve always thought I’d never have that connection again, and yet each time I did and it deepened.
Yes, I’ve been challenged in my heart, even though I know with all my heart and soul they are with me so strongly and not gone at all. I’ve had a lot of mourning with Cosmo especially due to our daily intimate connecting on a constant basis that was very physical as well as spiritual.
But the sadness is true alchemy for me, as I channel it all in greater depth of creative self expression and even deeper knowing of myself and my path and this shows up in what I bring through me, as it does for us all.
It is through the beauty of mourning, which reminds me of Gaelic “keening” that one’s exquisite soul expression comes to graceful surface. Keening is a deep soulful, eerily beautiful lamenting song that is expressed by women in Ireland and Scotland at funerals and in honor of the “dead”.
And so, I keen a song of honor of all that was and is, as a beautiful and divine tapestry that brings us to the culmination of all that IS in the now.
Through acknowledgment and embrace of our fears, through the natural process of grieving, through loving ourselves and honoring what is in our hearts, through courageous steps, we make leaps into the new.
You do not have to see the end result.
You do not have to know how this story will unfold.
You simply need to get writing it.
As they say, a writer writes…..If you want the new to take form, then get writing it, one word, paragraph, and page at a time.
It gets easier as you let the “stuff” gently glide off your shoulders. You don’t need to carry it with you forward. If you hold onto the weight, your wings can’t open and take to flight.
I’d like to see you fly. I’d like to see us all fly.
And so the best way I can do that is to open my own wings.
There is nothing wrong with feelings and expressing all of your emotions. I don’t hide from sharing all sides of myself that move through me like a dance because they are temporary and do not define me. I have learned, and we all can, to navigate feelings and it’s a beautifully empowered experience, which is also why I’m doing incredibly well and feel so harmonious after the recent challenges I’ve gone through that in the past were debilitating.
This is why I have been so transparent and shared my recent video about Joy’s transition as a way to support others in surrendering to the beauty of feelings and to know that you can return to peaceful center once you allow that to happen and don’t get stuck in ego judgments, but rather, learn to express the personal without attachment, while embodying the bigger picture that balances.
We are not meant to always be in a blissful, joyous, or even depressive or angered state. These are energetic waves we ride, but the ocean of emotions is all of this and none of this…it is simply a state of harmonious and centered being.
Humans have learned to fear feeling….to deny the wisdom of the body and senses and worship the mind solely.
As a result of being out of touch with their senses, people walk through life completely oblivious to their surroundings and the impact their choices and footprint create on the environment and everyone and everything in it, as a whole.
It’s as if feeling is a foreign invader that we either don’t want to know about (ignorance is bliss) or we want to completely eradicate altogether.
We’re taught to narrow our attention and always obsess over the future, while clinging tightly to the past. But this merely leaves us unable to function in the fullness of who we are in the present.
And, in so doing, we rely on others and so-called “experts” and “authority” figures to make decisions for us. It is a way to not take responsibility with a convenient excuse that we’re too busy or haven’t the ability to understand how we truly feel in order to even make a choice or have an opinion.
So it becomes easier to allow others to choose that for us.
People have run away from authenticity of feeling and replaced this with surrender to what is socially acceptable.
And what does this create?
A build up of explosive, unexpressed feelings that get triggered when you least expect it, and all versions of suppressive and numbing substances and behaviors to stuff those feelings even more deeply.
And then blame is attached to these secondary reasons for our suppression…all simply due to our learning to deny emotional feelings and messaging and continuing to accept that this is acceptable.
Come back to yourself.
Embrace every emotion and sensory feeling, as therein lies the gift of your humanity.
All the colors of emotions are of value. They are all simply energy and part of Source experiencing itself through each wave of feeling that we have the free will to move through. We tend to deem some as better or worse, may avoid them, or deny some in favor of others. However there is a beauty and gift in feeling. Source does not hold judgment on feelings. It remains the unconditionally, detached observer of energy expressions.
Humans hault, block, and attach to energy – defying what is in its innate nature to do, which is flow.
We are human “beings”, which is a motion..a dance…the blessing of “feeling” and moving energy into action. When we allow ourselves to feel, we naturally cycle through the feelings to harmony and balance.
I am grateful for every experience that has taken me to the darkest and lightest of places, for it provides the ability to understand and have true compassion, not to mention infuses everything I do with a breadth of energy that takes my life’s work and relationships to everything around me, to another level otherwise not achieved.
Some of the tormented souls have indeed become great artists, visionaries, movers in the world, and healers because of their ability to go to the full gamut of experiences and depth that then infuses creations, ideas, dreams, and connection with more richness.
We do not NEED to be tormented – that is a choice – but there is also no judgment on this. The key isn’t to avoid feelings, but to learn processes to rebalance ourselves after allowing them to move through us freely. And once we retrain this, it becomes natural once again.
I would not be me, nor where I am in life without ALL that I have gone through.
I cherish the highs AND lows that I have gone through, as they are the sacred fabric of my being.
However, the more I have learned to peacefully navigate the emotional waters, the less the pendulum swings and the more gently it is nudged by the whispers of my embrace.
(This post is a combined new share interwoven with two past shares from 2014 on the subject of feelings. I felt this important to express when someone told me that they did not want to watch the emotional parts of my video about my experiences with Joy’s transition, as they see me as a happy person and don’t like seeing me or “good” people, as they put it, sad. I believe this is a collective belief or reaction that many share where I feel there is a misunderstanding of expressing feelings and being afraid or judgmental of them, as we all have been. And until we learn a new perspective, I’m afraid this will limit the expansive experiences and powerful creative energy we innately have available to us.)
Saturday was our last day in Zion National Park and we decided to end our time there with a bang by taking on Angels Landing.
This is one of the most famous and thrilling hikes not just in Zion, but in the national park system.
It is a stunning 5.4 mile roundtrip trail with views from the top of the Virgin River and Zion Canyon below. Doesn’t sound like much, but it rises 1500 feet steeply and quite rapidly in the 2.7 miles, which for some can be quite strenuous in and of itself.
Then the last half mile is the truly gut-wrenching part, which is not for the faint of heart.
Many will just stop at the top, where you can still enjoy wonderful views, without trekking the half mile of more challenging trail that has anchored support chains to assist you up and around the fin where you have 1000 plus foot drops on both sides of you.
To give you an idea on timing for this if you decide to do take it on as well at some point, we hiked up the switchbacks in 45 minutes to the top before the last half mile of craziness. And we hiked back down in 45 minutes after we finished the chained area.
And that is just the energy I called upon in order to accomplish this hike, as normally it would be terribly fearful, perhaps to the point of paralyzed fear at times, and maybe not something I’d have wanted to even try.
The interesting thing is that my fear isn’t consistent. I have no fear of paragliding, sky diving, or flying…I go on big roller coasters and all. I love high altitudes and my desire is to live in high altitude and alpine areas.
I feel it boils down to self trust and feeling grounded and fully Earthbound. I’m very comfortable with flying and lightness…so for me, it has been a process to come fully into my body and ground and integrate the physical and spiritual. Something that is really balancing out more and more now for me and especially with all of the Nature time we’ve been spending and integrating the energies.
So synchronously, every single day of the three days we were in Zion, we saw the Bighorn Sheep twice a day, which is incredible. They embody the energy of that steadfast goat/Capricorn that I have within me to embrace.
Interestingly also, at the ancient ruins in Page Springs where we stayed outside of Sedona, I had received a vision of a white Mountain Goat alongside an ancient Indian – the Rocky Mountain Goat of the alpines that is a sure-footed climber on cliffs and ice.
So I know the spirit of the goat has been with me, especially with all of the hiking and climbing we have been doing, but also because it symbolizes the energy of my new path in life.
Oddly, this day I had felt called to braid my hair, which made me feel like a Native Indian – we kept calling me Pocahontas and Sacagawea – and also seemed to connect me with my ancient roots for integrating further Earth connection to keep me grounded and call up my strengths.
I was determined to face it and so I did a lot of Reiki energy work, not only protecting myself, but strengthening myself and with intent to embody the sure-footedness of the Mountain Goat. I called upon the white Rocky Mountain Goat and the Bighorn Sheep to be with me and then worked with the fear as I have done with the skiing and the mountain biking.
I not only steadily and consistently went up the switchbacks without need to stop for a break (which has become normal now for me), but when we reached the top where the people not continuing further on to the chained steep last half mile, I was given a choice.
When we saw the amount of people trying to make their way to the top and asked how long it took some coming down, we were contemplating if it was worth going up.
Maybe since Dave already did it, he said to me that we could just as well hike the other side and see nice views without wading through that last part, or we could just do it.
He left it up to me.
That was perfect, as I got to make the empowering choice. And I said, “Let’s do it. I didn’t come up all this way and prepare myself for nothing.”
So we did.
And along the way there were a few people that did become paralyzed with fear and couldn’t move, and needed supportive help back down even from only having gone a tiny way.
I understood their fear and felt the best thing I could do for the collective pool of energy would be to work through the energy myself in order to help shift things.
And so I stayed completely focused, present, and in the moment. Once again, blocking out everything except what was only right in front of me, taking one step at a time. I didn’t focus on the drops to both of my sides, didn’t let anything around me into my experience.
But I also allowed myself to enjoy and praise myself for each part.
I didn’t try to rush. I didn’t have to stop. I kept steady, focused, centered, consistent, and present. Every step counting. Calculating the rocks in front of me and the best way my feet would securely support myself.
And yes, when there were chains, I indeed held on. But the chains were also needed to climb up and pull with your arm strength, as you pushed off with your legs. Full body workout indeed.
I really enjoyed that and got into the climbing, which took me out of thinking about the edge of the cliff I was hanging off of, or what was below.
The other thing I really appreciated was the fact that there were many others around – which also was interesting to us that so many did brave this area.
Many I’m sure had no issue with it at all. Others were likely similar to me.
There weren’t any children, as that isn’t recommended and they really can’t do it. There were mostly a younger and mid-aged group of people.
And what I loved was humanity again shining through, as everyone was working together like a team.
There wasn’t anyone to stop those coming down and up from pushing their way through.
There wasn’t anyone to coordinate anything.
A helping hand was always outstretched to help everyone, especially in areas where you had to go around people waiting up against the stones and you were cradling the edge of the cliff to get around. There were also helping hands up and down if needed and just extended even if you didn’t. People would said you can hold on or grab on to me….no one knowing each other or afraid to be close.
So much camaraderie…so much care for one another.
That was really a gift to experience, besides the personal triumphs I was experiencing.
I won’t say I wasn’t scared, as I was, but I felt confident in my ability to do it and that I knew my process.
And I did do it. And was quite proud of myself.
Even Dave said he had fears at times with the shear drop offs and seeing people so close to at any moment falling off with one wrong move, or that others could fall off due to someone’s wrong move.
He said he remembered it being challenging, but not quite like this.
Yet, he had less fears than I to work through, so he took tons of photos of me, while I was too focused to take photos until we were at the top and once we were heading down.
I’m grateful he did, as I’ll always have these to show myself of what I’ve accomplished.
To some it may be nothing, as we all have different fears, but to me it was huge and I am very proud of myself for working through and overcoming it.
I did become that Mountain Goat and embraced my inner Capricorn a big step more on that day.
And when we reached the top to take in the view, it was as if the Angels were shining down upon us, as this amazing rainbow light was all around us when I shot this photo from our place of accomplishment – where we were soaring in our integrated embodiment of human and spirit merged and in synergy.
The photos Dave took don’t really even show how steep the edges are and how challenging parts of this really are, but they give you an idea.
I do remember on our way up that this tiny butterflies were flying around us. Ones like I’ve never seen before. They had three white wings and one yellow wing. Incredible! All of them were like this. And even a Swallowtail once made an appearance before we headed off on the last challenging half mile.
I definitely felt the support and know that we were being watched over and supported.
And on our way out of the park another gift.
We had seen many Bighorn Sheep, as mentioned, twice a day.
And so it was that that is what took place.
The Bighorn Sheep were right at the edge of the road coming down off the rocks right when we were coming through. So we stopped the car and took it all in. Some of them crossing in front and behind us and then we got out and some right next to us on the other side of the road.
We enjoyed a beautiful mountain biking trail two days ago that started at Bell and Courthouse Rock, as we were entering the New Moon Solar Eclipse in Pisces. And for me that was a gateway to really embracing and honoring the power of fear and what it has to teach me. Perfect for Pisces being about the unconscious so working through fears would be highlighted.
I’ve danced with fear many times and will continue to with new experiences, as fear is simply an energy like all other emotions, feelings, and states of being that moves through us.
The beauty is that we can see fear, or any other feeling, as our friend rather than the enemy. We can see fear as a gateway to something on the other side that we might choose to experience.
For me that is freedom, since when we get stuck in fear rather than allowing it to flow, we can become inhibited. So, when I embrace fear and let it move through me, I am then experiencing freedom.
But to some the other side of the gateway may be courage, confidence, independence…etc. To me they all fit under an umbrella of freedom.
Both being of value and equal since they are parts of the whole.
Fear has the ability of helping us to become very present and within the moment. It helps us to sense all that is within us and around us so that we can then harness the energy and transmute it into what we then want to experience next.
I don’t judge fear, just as I don’t judge ego, or any other emotion some may label as good or bad. They just are.
They all have a purpose and a power otherwise they wouldn’t be available to us to experience.
Sure we can choose which we want to feel, but at some point we learn that we can oscillate between experiences naturally and know that we are always safe once we understand our processes and learn to utilize the power of each element to create a desired outcome.
If one chooses to experience fear there is a purpose and that is perfect. It is when we get stuck that we know we’re not allowing the energy to flow, but attaching to it and creating an unnatural process from something that was natural to begin with.
If you choose to experience courage, that too is perfect though…and so is the spectrum of feelings in between.
We are humans that have the ability to experience a limitless array of feelings, which is part of the beauty and gift available to us.
All That Is doesn’t judge these things, but they are all available as a way to know ourselves, to feel all that is possible like sampling things at a buffet table, and to realize there is wholeness within every experience and energy that moves through us at any given moment.
I came up upon fear again with the mountain biking, just as I have with skiing, since it is new and challenging for me. I have only biked on flat, easy trails, but we found ourselves on a much more advanced trail, which I didn’t know when going into it, and so this provided me the opportunity to put to practice the things I’ve learned about my process with fear.
That is the beauty of having fear as an experience, as we are then able to call up what we learned and then utilize this to support the natural flow.
I noticed that some people expecting the easy trail, turned back, but I decided to keep on going.
What I learned about fear is that it is often times associated with being overwhelmed by too much stimuli around me that then creates an inner ego dialogue trying to address all of it at once.
For me, I have found that retracting my energy and going within myself is what helps to make things more manageable. I shift my focus from bigger picture and all that is around me, to sensing what is just within me and directly in front of me only…taking things one step at a time in my own pace and gently talking myself through it all and staying very present within my body without any other thoughts and focus except the moment.
In this way I am aware and fully embodied and engaged. And when I return to full embodiment I am then able to slowly become one with the experience and soon my parts are moving together rather than separately and the experience becomes fun and one that I learn is within my grasp to enjoy the way I desire to.
This turned steep and rocky trails into either a fun experience of flowing over them like water or climbing up them like a steadfast goat.
I also engaged the gifts I have, which included surrounding myself with Reiki and infusing myself with Reiki for strength, asking for help from the energies and spirit guides around me, and harnessing the vortex energy of the Earth available.
And when doing so a white butterfly appeared and danced around my front tire for a few minutes, riding with me.
I have learned my process and know I can use this with anything now. I have learned that it often times includes a loving, gentle dialogue with my inner child to walk her through things, hold her hand, and explain the process so that she is safe and understands.
I talk supportively to myself and don’t judge what I’m feeling. I then also acknowledge and praise myself for each step I take. And I listen when I’ve pushed myself to a limit, taking a moment to breathe, step back, and honor what has come up. That could include stopping altogether if that felt right, not worrying about what others around me are doing, and could be getting off my bike if I needed to in that moment.
It’s not about pushing, but guiding myself through it with loving support.
I believe a lot of fear has to do with our not nurturing the inner child and letting our thoughts run amuck all over her or him. But fear can make us present to ourselves and what we need, which may just be acknowledging that child and bringing her or him with us along the journey.
And then they feel safe to have fun when they realize you’ve discovered fear’s door to yourself once again.
Yes, fear can be your partner, as it simply wants to move through you rather than get bottled up inside as a blockage to your wholeness.
There is a power in all energies and a beauty for their existence, which is why All That Is dances with each of them as an expression of loving itself.
This is a great, new quick how-to from Lee Harris that is so now relevant and the themes are what I hear over and over coming up for people who are so close to making the shifts and changes they want towards the new in their lives, but are hitting the judgment dialogue within that is creating the fear wall.
These self-judgments become our self-sabotaging excuses.
Lee provides some easy ways to move through this, which resonate with my own. Questions and being curious are key, as well as sitting with the honest vulnerability of the answers, and then allowing the feelings to move through you without judgment. Feelings aren’t bad…their just feelings…energy expressions.
Energy wants to move. WE are the ones that block them. When you allow yourself to feel them, you invite their movement through you.
Do you find yourself hindered by the things you tell yourself and allow yourself to believe about yourself?
These quick how-to’s can help you to start living.
Money & Manifesting….What are the Barriers to Your Abundance? ~ Are You Ready to Get Real About What’s Really Limiting You?
Being, doing, and having….
“We can think of life having three dimensions: being, doing, and having. Often we attempt to live our lives backwards. We try to have more money in order to feel we can do more of what we want, so we can be happier. The way it actually works is the reverse. We must first be who we really are, then do what we feel guided to do, in order to have what we want.”
~ I allow myself to be; I do what feels right; I have everything I truly want. ~
In yesterday’s Reiki Master Teacher workshop, the theme of the day seemed to be about “manifestation.” It kicked off the day in a pre-discussion to our training, came up again during our training, and again later during our dinner outing.
Discussions about Reiki will often lead into discussions on how to live a magickal, empowered, and abundant life, since the practice of embodying the essence of Reiki and consistently practicing it will naturally create more of this in our lives.
But this is not just a topic from yesterday, but one that so very often comes up (more and more) every time I hear people voicing frustration about things like money, not living the life they want, and not being able to do things they want to do because of lack of abundance, etc.
People have shared over and over that they are challenged with manifesting things, especially when it comes to money and fully being abundant.
Some of this I believe stems from our having gone so far mentally and spiritually, that we forgot to integrate things and bring things back into the body for EMBODIMENT rather than ascending into the ethers and floating off on a cloud. After all, remember we are humans with physical bodies. If you want to manifest things, they can’t just stay in your mind or as a concept you talk about. You’ll need to actually integrate that knowledge and conscious awareness into actualization. Work with your feelings, core beliefs, and what’s trapped in the body.
Abundant doesn’t mean you have to be a millionaire, but it does mean that you are living in a giving AND receiving flow of abundance that always supports your needs and the desires that will benefit your well being for the highest good.
This often comes up when people tell me how much they truly desire and know they need to go on one of the sacred journeys/retreats I and others offer, and yet year after year it will not happen because of not having the “money” for it.
Or, they won’t take that course, won’t go talk to someone like a life coach to get them through the blocks, won’t make time to read an important book, can’t find the time to be in nature or do something nurturing for themselves because they are too busy working hard at attaining money, stressing about it, and filling their lives up with a vicious cycle of things that aren’t balancing them and adding supportive benefit…etc.
I have done as much possible to support people, especially when I see their potential and deep desire, and assist with these kinds of things. I’ve offered huge discounts, payment plans, even in special cirumstances – personal loans to repay.
But as they say, you can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make it drink.
Unless you hand something over to someone for free (and even then it STILL doesn’t always happen due to fear in general) it is easier for most to live with the familiar discomfort than to branch out into the unknown discomfort that will free them.
On some level, the challenges we experience serve us, even if it doesn’t consciously make sense. And the answer isn’t in enabling people, but in empowering them, as EVERY single person innately is abundant. In order to access that abundance, we each need to make personal, accountable, responsible choices to consciously embody that.
I’ve seen people on both ends of the spectrum. Those that let fear take over, or allow their beliefs to dictate their every action with excuse after excuse. And I’ve seen people who have looked the “impossible” in the eye, didn’t have a clue how it would take place, replaced fear with committed drive, and created the possible out of nowhere. But these people acted “as if” what they wanted was happening and took the steps with trust.
This really becomes clear to observe in terms of things like retreats where larger sums of money are concerned, and self nurturing, self value, and life-changing potentials are part of the equation.
These are bigger risks and greater challenges that really bring out our deepest and core beliefs and fears.
And yet, over and over I’ve seen magick take place with people who have come on retreats that had no means to do it and suddenly created it because of following that inner calling and now they are on their path in ways they had always hoped. They wouldn’t be where they are now, had they not taken those huge leaps.
This is just one type of example, but comes up over and over in emails, messages, and exchanges I receive sometimes daily. And while I feel for these people, truly understanding what they are experiencing from personal experience, I also ask them the question, “why can’t you do such and such?” This is met most times without a response (silence) or the list of patterned declarations that still aren’t touching the real reason at hand start rolling out robotically.
Yesterday, one of my students shared with us his magickal story of how he manifested a trip he knew he needed to take spiritually, and then went on to share all the little synchronous things that made it possible when there was no way in sight for him to do it.
I shared similar stories of others I know, including myself.
There are just some things that hold a value far past what you can comprehend. We talked later that evening on how some things, like “experiences” are simply invaluable and are much more powerful than any single item you can buy yourself. The intrinsic value of trips, for example, contributes to a higher quality of life, along with providing benefits that will long continue after you’ve returned home in terms of memories, energetic shifts and activations, inspiration and self nurturing, connecting you with parts of yourself and with others you wouldn’t otherwise, invites more new and expansive experiences, etc.
Personally, I’m far from rich, by any societal standard, but I believe myself to be abundant. To me abundant means there is a flow in and out of energy on all levels. I know that my needs are always met, and I know that the things that are really important for me, will always be supported. But I then live my life with the knowing this is true, as if it already is, despite it not being at the moment in my outer environment. My internal environment is living otherwise.
That’s not to mean I don’t run up against stress now and then, but it only lasts briefly once I remind myself of all of the similar circumstances where I have always created a way and it all always worked out for the highest good.
We may all have different ideas and definitions on what abundance means…but to me it is this and it is living a magickal life where all these little and large synchronous alignments just come together at each turn. That even when challenges arise, this is simply opportunity to rise to the occasion and stretch our abilities a little bit more.
I live an abundant life and believe in myself as an abundant being. I never see something as impossible even if I haven’t a clue how it could happen based on what I have or don’t have now – this is all just external illusions, as I have everything I need within me awaiting my choice to unleash that powerful realization. I simply know that if something is important for me, there will always be a way and doors will open, as I move forward with trust.
It’s the same way I manifested my upcoming trip to Iceland and any other personal trips I have taken for my own well being (which ultimately trickles to how I can be of benefit to the collective) and path. I knew I needed to go on a deep level, and the way presented itself magickally.
Stresses over money are usually a lot of the reasoning why people feel they can’t do something, but what is the true culprit to this challenge?
Every time someone tells me they don’t have the money, I’m not hearing that….what I actually DO hear is many other things/beliefs that are running the show at the root of it all, which may include one or more of the following:
- It’s really not that important to me, as I say it is
- My needs can wait or such and such needs to be in place and happen before I can do that (creating controls and unrealistic conditions/ideas of perfection that will never be met until the person shifts their values)
- I really don’t want the responsibility that comes along with the life-enhancements, empowerment and changes I will experience
- I am scared to embrace my personal power and gifts
- I’m afraid to overextend myself momentarily, for what I can’t SEE possible and even though the abundance is just on the other side of that fear ready to flow when I make the decision to move forward and choose what I want
- I don’t value myself enough/I’m not deserving and others will think I’m being selfish if I invest in my own well-being
- There’s no way I can manifest that amount of money. I am not that powerful. I’ve always been told how incapable I am of anything
- Money doesn’t grow on trees, is something you have to work hard for, is the root of all evil, should not be used on so-called “frivolous” things (someone else’s definition of what that is)
- If I spend the money for what’s important to me, what then? Money won’t keep on flowing in my life even if I am able to manifest it this time
- I fear the unknown and what comes next when I realize truths about myself after the opening experience
- I’d rather spend money on “things” that satisfy my immediate needs rather than focusing on long-term benefit
- And the list goes on….we all have at one time or another had one or more of these belief voices running our show, and then some
There’s nothing wrong with this, as it all has its purpose in our personal growth. But if we want to express the REAL truth about why we feel we can’t do something, it will be much more productive and empowering to get to the heart of the matter and be willing to look deeper at what’s behind our beliefs. Once we do this, we may just find the culprit/s holding us back from our natural abundance.
So yesterday I shared that if you have a challenge with money, it’s important to look at your relationship to it. And this goes for anything.
Your relationship to something involves your beliefs, which include all of the conditioned beliefs both from childhood, parent figures, society, collective patterning and conditioning, which are operating even if in your mind you don’t think that way.
These core beliefs will show you exactly where the challenge is.
It doesn’t matter what we think…it matters what we feel, believe, and are holding in our bodies, as core acquired truths.
Your inability to manifest stems from fears, beliefs, personal limitations, and blocked energy flows.
If you truly want to do something, I believe you CAN do it. The question is, how much do you really want it, and what are you willing to do to support that desire? The Universe will support you only if YOU take the actions in partnership with it. You will need to show how serious you are by doing something to demonstrate your wanting/believing/trusting. THEN you will start to see things shift. And in the meantime, you can work on your core beliefs and relationship to them to support swifter changes and larger and more frequent manifestations.
But these days there are SOOOO many ways to support you with what you want like in the example of needing to manifest money for something you want to do – be it a trip, starting a business, taking a class, seminar, workshop, course, buying equipment needed for your project or business idea, taking college courses to help with your path, funding a dream, etc. The more willing and open you are to think, feel, imagine, and act creatively, the more possibilities will come to you on ways to do it. I’ve seen and heard from many on how they have manifested what they wanted by being vulnerable and asking for help, along with shifting their beliefs and actions.
Some have turned to family and friends that believed in and supported them, providing loans, partial or full financial support, sharing of airline mileage, etc. Some have been willing to ask or take others up on offers of payment plans, asking if there are partial or full trade opportunities, discounts, etc.
And others have found collective ways to find that support through different funding options that are now out there like these:
Peer to Peer Lending:
MUST READ !!! Wrong Yoda Was: The Force of Fear . . . (article and personal comments – in red – thanks to Bamboo-Water :) ~J
Great article…helpful in rewiring all of the programming that has and is being accepted. This goes along with my own writings on how fear is not the enemy and can be our greatest ally, teacher and gift of wisdom when embraced and transmuted.
As this article shares: “Instead of saying we need to shift from fear to love, we could say that we need to shift from unconscious fear to conscious fear. Then it is very simple to experience both conscious fear and love simultaneously–we understand they are not inherently opposed to one another.”
Conscious Fear is a very valuable Personal Tool; don’t confuse Conscious Fear — with — Unconscious Fear.
“Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Angers leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering.” –Jedi Grand Master Yoda
This saying is perhaps the most famous of Yoda’s words of wisdom.
Unfortunately, wrong I’m afraid Master Yoda is.
Fear does not necessarily lead to anger. And anger does not necessarily lead to hate. And hate does not necessarily led to suffering. And suffering is not necessarily the path to the dark side.
Unconscious fear leads to anger. Unconscious anger leads to hate. Unconscious hate leads to suffering. Unconscious suffering leads to the predatory nature of the dark side.
Conscious fear, however, does not necessarily led to anger. Conscious anger does not necessarily led to hatred. Conscious hatred does not necessarily lead to suffering.
In actual fact:
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Lee closes out 2014 with some great thoughts to reflect on and integrate.
From dreams to fears, and discernment to feeling, he hits on some key energies to understand more fully.
Lee reminds us that dreams are a way to process things so that we don’t have to experience them in our waking lives. This is the reason for their intensity and scariness at times. It does not always mean a foreshadowing of something, but a way to work things out in a way that saves us from something worse.
As always, he shares the importance of feeling the energy around you and being very in tune with yourself and those frequencies that are yours and not yours. This involves discernment and realizing that each person is very unique and so our experiences and ways of doing things will be equally unique. This also means that we will need to embrace the fact that at times we will be leaders in a way and need to go it alone, but with respect for others and their paths, and at times we will meet with others in the same place and feel that kindred connection.
If you’re very open and free-spirited this realization is important in understanding with compassion that others may not be able to meet us in the same openness and to detach from having to do anything about that or feel triggered, or judge it in anyway. This is when your courage is being needed to continue forth and just be you.
There will be times of going back and forth between feeling expansive and contracted – I so relate to this – but this is simply part of the evolution of things in these very open times we are in where there really is a new freeness that has yet to be experienced. I feel that with each contraction, the expansion doubles or more.
As Lee shares, to be with this new openness “allow yourself to realize that you don’t know who you are anymore, you don’t recognize this planet much anymore, and you’re going to do things in very different ways to how you did them before regardless of how other people might like or not like that.” – I can so relate!
You have the ability to really move forward in your life by the dissolving and destruction of old things in a way that will no longer have you being hostage to this old.
I have seen this so much in my personal experience and relating with others where I used to feel this pattern of helping others and couldn’t break away from it when it obviously became toxic and there was no indication that the people were wanting to or ever going to actually shift. This is something I have worked hard to release and dissolve in my own life, so as not to be energetic hostage to these kinds of experiences where I don’t feel like my expansive, free, and open self, but instead am feeling contracted, confined, and a prisoner of my own making. I now choose to live my own life and will not be defined by anything, nor a prisoner to anything that feels confining, draining, or like a reining in of my energy. And that includes going where I haven’t gone before and holding hands with fear and shadows, for they are the fuel to my most expansive potentials.
Fear energy, as Lee shares, is making things very electric and that involves this purpose of freeing you from being a prisoner to it. If you feel like you’re always being “dragged under the ocean,” as Lee puts it, then you’ll need to strategize how to create more space and peace for yourself. But for those of you who have been feeling more open than ever before, fear actually becomes your ally and it isn’t something that indicates an intuitive nudge or sign necessarily to steer away from, but indicates stepping into something very new for you that you haven’t yet experienced and so it is about courageously dancing with fear even though it feels uncomfortable.
Lots of good stuff. Much love to everyone!