As we celebrate this first day of February, many things come to mind for this month of “LOVE” ignited by today’s celebration of the magickal Imbolc (the halfway mark between Winter Solstice and Spring Equinox) and a very magickal soul’s birthday. For any of you new here to my blog, Nestor is my twin soul in rabbit body who departed this Earth plane 11 years ago. Today is her Earth birthday – she would have been 16.
I always honor and celebrate Nestor and Astrid shares this deep respect for her, as her mentor. The two of them are very similar in many ways – more so than any of my bunnies have been in relation to each other.
In fact, Nestor has seen to it that others of our soul family (like Astrid, Joy, Cosmo, and Gaia) have found their way to me and me to them. She constantly watches over and guides me, cares for my human self when she feels me in need, sends me messages and signs, supports me with my path and life’s work, and fuels my heart with greater and deeper love – much like Astrid does on Earth for me.
And where there is love, there is no separation.
Astrid wants today’s message to be about moving into our hearts more deeply, but also more expansively. She senses that while many are experiencing great openings in their lives, she feels those of you who still struggle and are finding yourself feeling trapped in a dark place you feel you can’t get out of, which may in fact reflect a tipping point opportunity.
She wants me to share a short story about what happened this morning and then will share why this was important and how it reflects her message for today.
I was busy cleaning up her bunny kingdom today and had left the usually closed bathroom door, slightly ajar after having gone in to get some paper towels to wipe down her litter box.
After I was done, and passed it to go get her fresh water and goji juice for her bowl, I closed the door fully. I returned not seeing her and went on a search to find her throughout the house, calling her name and looking under every one of her hiding places or potential unseen areas by the naked eye that she might have run off to.
She was nowhere to be found and I was a bit frantic, wondering if she’d fallen through a portal or something. 🙂
Finally, after surveying both floors three times, I wondered if she might have gotten deep into my closet and I closed the door on her by accident – nope.
Lastly, I thought, hmmm, could she have snuck by me and gotten into the bathroom in that short period it was slightly open and I closed the door on her?
The latter was in fact the case.
As I reached for the old vintage door knob and opened it, I saw her sitting on top of the toilet seat staring at me. She had in fact been closed into the dark bathroom and decided if she couldn’t get out the way she came in, she’d get higher, sit still, and hope I’d hear her heart in answer to my calls of her name.
“So what does this have to do with your message for today, Astrid?” I ask.
She replies, “This was my way of identifying with the people who find themselves struggling and feeling trapped in a dark place they can’t find a way out of. It happens to all of us and to struggle more is like sinking deeper into quicksand. It simply won’t help. These are the times to find your center, sit still while immersed in the dark, and elevate into your higher heart so that you can send and receive the clearest communication of love to where it’s needed the most, within and and without.”
“What do you mean?” I ask.
“Well, when you feel lost, lonely, in pain, and are struggling, much of this involves a separation from love – the most expansive and unconditional kind. The gap grows wider between your ability to understand things because you enter the mind’s reasoning alone and abandon the heart’s knowing. While I sat in the dark I could feel all of that fear and anxiety – mine and the collective’s rush through me – and realized I could either go mad trying to claw my way a tunnel through impossible doors, OR I could elevate my heart and mind and open to a wider perspective that would free me. I could move into my higher heart and find the well of love there I could use to create the peace I needed for myself and the situation, while I calmed myself and used that clarity of heart to speak to you in the language of love telepathy that I knew would reach your heart,” Astrid explains.
“Wow! Well said, Astrid. It makes perfect sense to me.”
“Yes, and when you were stressed today about unexpected things,” she continues, “you didn’t realize how you did the same.”
“Oh, you’re right! After that initial rush of anxiety, I did what elevates me into my heart the most and thought of this being Nestor’s birthday, and looked at you and cuddled with you for a bit. That brought me back to my peace and center, nurtured my truth, and my heart suddenly bridged a new perspective to my mind that shifted me out of the stress instantly and enabled me to detach completely,” I reply.
“Exactly,” Astrid answers.
“I guess we both found our way through the darkness and each other today,” I said.
“Through love,” Astrid replies. “An elevated kind of love, which is where we are headed. Just like you shared yesterday about your new teal hair feeling to reflect the higher heart. That is no coincidence my dear friend.”
“As you said, where there is love there is no separation. We only feel lost, alone, scared, angry, or sad, because we have yet to BE this love. Love has been intellectualized and analyzed, with only short spurts of actually residing in it – if in fact we haven’t denied or repressed it altogether. Yet, we often live outside of it and only venture into its home in dire circumstances, by accident, or as a fleeting moment. We’ve forgotten that we were never homeless and we’ve forgotten how rich we are in the only currency that we can take with us beyond Earth – LOVE,” Astrid concludes.
I had a feeling that this morning’s experience with Astrid getting locked in the bathroom was no arbitrary thing once I saw her sitting there so purposefully, like a wise soul, atop the toilet seat throne.
Her message feels important to me and perhaps it will to you too on a level that is needed at this time. I feel she is speaking to us moving beyond what we think we’ve known as love into a much more expansive, bigger picture, and harmonic experience of love – very fitting for the first day of the month of love.
It’s no wonder that this little rose quartz tree sitting atop an amethyst mound was the only thing I returned back from Sedona with. I visited Crystal Magic and was only drawn to the beautiful crystal trees, and when I couldn’t decide between about four of them, I tuned into Astrid and asked which she would like me to bring home for her and me.
The answer was clear, as you can below.
Rose quartz is the stone of the heart and unconditional love. Amethyst is February’s stone and is spiritually elevating in ways that transmute energies into higher frequencies of love.
Rabbits are reflections of growth, rebirth, awareness, harmony, abundance, creativity, fertility, vulnerability, and Mother Earth’s changing seasons and rabbits (especially white rabbits) are traditionally symbolic of Imbolc, Candlemas, and Spring. They really help us leap into the energies available to us this new month, as shared in Lee’s Energy Update below that synchronously holds a similar vibe to Astrid’s message.
Astrid, Nestor and all of my rabbit soul companions have been powerful way-showers of these energies, and most importantly of love for me. Cosmo, as you may remember, was and is the epitome of this steadfast love Astrid speaks of. And all of my bunny partners help me to return there when needed.
Nestor was always a great reflector for me of what I was missing and needed to take care of within myself. And she continues to be a daily reminder in my heart, keeping me on track and not straying from my own need for consistent inner harmony. Thank you Nestor and Astrid for today’s insight and lesson.
I wish you all an extra love-filled February and to end this share here’s Lee Harris to expound on this month’s themes he is feeling for the continuation of this new 7-year cycle of elevation we’re in – “The Era of Higher Harmonics, Elevated Love & Abundance Shifts.”
Update: Today marked the end of our Giveaway on Instagram celebrating the upcoming launch of our new Etsy shop. We announced the recipient and surprised four others with a gift too. We’re so grateful to everyone who joined and for helping to raise money for rescue rabbits, as for each entry I committed to donating $1 to a rabbit rescue of my choice. February is starting off full of LOVE!
As we step into the lovely month of February, filled with rich symbolism and the energy of purification, I am reminded of my beloved Nestor who would have been celebrating her birthday today. The symbols associated with this transitional month are very mirroring of the essence of our connection and of her soul – that of mysticism, magic, vision, rebirth, creation, inspiration, earth connectedness, ancient sacredness, renewal, love, devotion, faeries, healing and honor to name a few. I love this link from Avia Venefica’s awesome site I always refer to ~ Whats-Your-Sign.com: The Doorway to Signs and Symbolic Meanings ~ that shares great insights into the meaning and symbolism of February: http://www.whats-your-sign.com/february-meaning-and-symbolism.html.
It’s interesting that the Feast of Feralia, which was an ancient Roman observance, falls within this month on the 21st. Feralia is a “public” festival to honor loved ones and ancestors who have left the physical realm. “There is legend that states Romans eventually neglected the public feast of Feralia, and ultimately, the result was Rome’s decline. Perhaps the symbolic lesson here is to remember the spirits of kin and clan and honor them, otherwise succumb to a life of ambiguity and decrepitude.”
I don’t need the knowledge of this feast to remind me of my twin soul, as she is eternally with me and never far from heart and thought. But I do love symbolism, as many people know about me. And I love that we both share this month for our Birthdays – hers on the 1st and mine on the 26th and am excited that my art opening event falls on the 25th of this month as well, which Nestor will be part of in heart and spirit.
But, on this beautiful day of remembrance, honor, love and celebration, I share some words about Nestor and our connection (that only touch on the magnitude of each) from something I had written a few years ago:
I am continually inspired and bathed in love by my beloved, precious being, Nestor, who has recently transitioned on April 27, 2008. She is the light of my life, even though she no longer shares this physical experience with me. I miss her greatly and yet I know she is with me in more expansive ways than ever before and continues to shower me with her magic and love from beyond.
When you share a love that deep, there is no limitation as to what you can create. She continues to be a joy and an inspiration to me always and I honor her in every way. Through her, I have learned the meaning of unconditional love and this unwavering love for her grows stronger and more powerful every day. I never viewed Nestor as anything but an equal. She is sacred in every definition of the word and is now free to fly with the grace and power that is unimaginably huge and expansive. She constantly reminds me to stay in my heart and to remember the bigger picture of the path that I chose.
As a rabbit, Nestor embodied the collective soul of Earth’s sacred children. As a soul and magical being, she embodies pure unconditional love and compassion that I continue to strive to mirror. I honor her and cherish, with gratitude, all that she has to teach me, and others, by the simple beauty of her example.
Throughout her physical experience, Nestor was a bridge for her species and an example to us all. As a Reiki Master Teacher and a profound healer, she assisted many animals and humans across the globe and continues to be of assistance in even bigger ways, without the limitations her body had on her hugely expansive and enigmatic soul.
Thank you my beautiful, courageous Nestor. May your light shine for all to see. I celebrate you now and always. I LOVE YOU.
Some insights on the Mayan Moon Goddess and my connection with her and Nestor:
Interestingly, I had been drawn to the Mayan Moon Goddess Ix Chel years ago not fully connecting the dots then and ended up getting a tattoo to represent her and my connection with Nestor, over my heart chakra on my back when I did come to realize why I had been so drawn to her. This was one of my first tattoos and interestingly the face on the goddess ended up looking like mine, which was not a conscious intention, but what ended up channeling from the tattoo artist who created it and the bunny, much like Nestor too. It’s one of my favorite tattoos. We have a strong connection with the Moon and Mayan symbolism and so it is always so cool when you connect the dots as to why. Here is the story about Ix Chel that holds symbolic meaning for us.
Ix Chel: The Mayan Moon Goddess or “Lady of the Rainbow.” The Mayans, like Buddhists, associated the moon with rabbits. Ix Chel is a shape-shifter, consorting with the rabbit in spring, as the rabbit is considered the scribe of the moon calendar. She is often depicted holding a rabbit in her arms, a symbol of her life giving abundance and fertility, whose profile can be seen on the face of the moon. She is the Mayan Goddess of creativity (as inspiration for artists), magic, weaving, health, healing, sexuality, childbirth, and the energy of all water-our most essential life giving ingredient. The Mayan stepped pyramid is Ix Chel’s mountain where she reigns as the feathered serpent energy of transformation.