While fiery intensity and passionate energy are some of the focuses of this Aries Harvest and Hunter’s/Blood Full Moon, there is also a reminder for tempering things to bring greater balance and harmony into our experience right now. Deepening into the truth of who you are and trusting in that inner knowing to guide you is key, and this will reflect the true beauty of things, as we become more present to the reflections of our relationships to everything within and around us.
We continue being presented with opportunities to strengthen our connection with Mother Earth – Terra – to bring greater stability and anchoring to our lives. It is from that place that peace takes hold, when we are firm with our roots, yet flowing with our expansion.
Security comes from this place of peace within, which can be accessed regardless of our surroundings and chosen regardless of thinking there is no other way. There are always multiple options and perspectives because we are creative beings living in a creative universe. There are no limits on creativity. Only the depth at which you activate your imagination becomes your limitation.
It continues to be a time for showing up more authentically and when we focus on being or embodying, then the doing takes care of itself. Not the other way around.
So don’t worry so much about that.
Focus on nurturing your essence, cultivating your creativity, having gratitude for things you overlook everyday as gifts, and celebrate what’s right in the world. Bringing your joy through into all that you do and share will infuse new life into everything and you’ll be in the flow of constant renewal.
Remember who you are and believe in yourself.
Step into yourself, shine light upon the shadows within, take actions in alignment with that truth, and reclaim empowerment in a healthy way.
Whatever we are presented with does have a way of being overcome. Release attachment to how things need to look and find the hidden gift that can shift your entire experience of life.
Do you enjoy living in the past and in limitation? If not, then rise above this. If you are ready to make leaps in life, the energies are here to support that. Be like Nature and flow with these currents.
This is a good time to get things done and start those things you’ve been procrastinating.
The above photo is of the Full Moon early this morning, which I captured literally about 3 minutes before it fully disappeared behind the mountain. Astrid had woken me with her running around like a speed racer, full of excitement. She definitely did not want me to miss out on seeing it. In person, it was big, clear, and reddish in color. And as soon as I took this quick photo, it was gone, but am glad I captured it to share.
All of my bunnies have shared a connection with the Moon and Astrid is no exception.
In the photo below you can see her basking in its glow, as I always find her each Full Moon and on major cosmic occasions.
This was taken early yesterday morning at 3 am (had to use flash) when I woke and found her in front of the French doors, lake and Moon still as can be even when I went to stroke her. Everything was dark and still except for the strong glow of the Moon illuminating the room, lake, and Astrid.
Her ears were warm with energy despite it being very cold, which was obvious to me that she was moving the Aries energy since throughout the day I’d noticed her ears cold and now at the coldest hours she was warm.
The Full Aries, Harvest and Hunter’s Moon definitely had her attention and Astrid was helping to work with the energies and prepare for the new on all levels to help clear things and create balance and ease.
Wishing everyone an empowering Full Moon. 11:11 as I finish writing this, so activations embedded in this for sure!
This Full Moon has a special place in my heart because of its being in Capricorn…an energy I’ve been working on diligently since my North Node, Ascendant and Mars are all in Capricorn. For me it speaks to the life shifts I’m integrating, but it also speaks to a collective energy needed, especially with healers, empaths, “light workers” (as people call them), creatives…or anyone who has lived in martyr or victim roles most of their life. This Full Moon in Capricorn speaks to fortifying those personal boundaries and creating healthier relationships with others in all ways, including the relationship you have with yourself, the past, and the ancestral lines you carry within your DNA.
I’m reminded of Astrid with this Full Moon and how she, too, is mirroring this shift like mom and the collective, into deepening of her true power, as she heals from the past, understands the triggers that bring her to defense, and roots more in the trust of self and the love she consistently now has to support her into her empowered wholeness, so she can blossom like crazy.
This is a time for keeping ultra present and aware of rising and displaced and exaggerated emotions, anger, jealousy, fear….if you’re feeling triggered look within yourself as to what that’s really about and what you’re really upset with. It’s very easy to point fingers and lay blame on others and it’s very easy to self-sabotage so that we can avoid the things that would be most supportive for our journey, but scary to entertain.
Reactions are not only likely unconscious fears acting out, but also aren’t based on the reality being put forth even by the other person triggering you because they have their own stories that shape the way they are acting as well.
This again is shadow work…something everyone likes to talk about, but very few truly understand and are actually working with.
If something has been hidden in your life by yourself or others, the Full Moon can help shed truth on the matter, but be willing to embrace that revealing when it shows up, otherwise greater lashing out and reactions will only continue to mask what’s really at the core of things.
Take steps back, spend more quiet time, or time in nature to root and ground yourself more, recharge with the plants and trees, and remove yourself if necessary from harmful or potentially harmful situations until you have a better grip on things and your defensive emotions.
You can either give away your power or be empowered. It’s up to you.
The old is continuing to crumble and Capricorn assists you in taking greater responsibility in your life, rather than displacing that and continuing with old patterns that are no longer sustainable for ultimate, collective well being.
Capricorn also represents structure and so we’ll be asked to rework and rebuild new structures that are strong, yet flexible, and do not carry the load of the past with it.
So yes, transformational shifts on large scales are happening, which includes literal and symbolic deaths of everything we’ve ever known in order to be more authentic and in alignment with current frequencies.
I recently just finished a big 2 week fast and cleanse that was literally like shedding layers of snake skin in not only losing all the old in weight, but also reinvigorating my cells on a molecular level so that they had time to detox and dispel, rest, and then rebuild.
This is what we are going to see more of and what this Full Moon is illuminating a need within us to do whether we like it or not.
You must tear down the old foundations in order to truly build a fortified new.
Power is increasingly being something to exercise with utmost consciousness and to balance in ways that both leave us empowered, but also empower others rather than power over others or have us acting out of inauthentic power.
Goats are amazingly agile, versatile, curious, and inventive, have incredible balance, are committed to the journey, are patient and persevering, don’t let any obstacle stand in their way of continuing toward their goals, keep climbing and reaching for new heights no matter what (even if its outside their comfort zone), know how to nurture and feed the soul, are intuitively guided, and exercise wise use of trust and responsible independence.
Let us learn by Goat’s example and ride this transformative energy with greater awareness.
I had no idea (at least not mindfully) when I took the only appointment open for a hair transformation this week that it would be in the energy of the approaching Full Moon today, nor did I think about the choice of clothes I wore that day other than wanting my bunny loves with me. I simply felt that this change was essential, as I’d become bored and no longer aligned with the rapid shifts taking place, not to mention was feeling out of sorts with my inside-out essence expression. This Full Moon is in the fire sign of Sagittarius, which happens to rule the Moon in my astrological chart in the house of Pisces (my Sun sign). So there is/was certain to be an intense, very transformative and expansive energy pervading, which the Full Moon would then bring to clarity in order to know which changes and adjustments would best support us in peaceful flow.
2017 is a year of new beginnings for us all collectively and this shift will entail aligning more than ever with our highest path at this time. This may involve moving through some heavy stuff and “karmic” growth, but will provide deep healing as long as you can continue to see the “silver lining,” keep an open mind, invite new perspectives, and find the joy from the innocence of your inner child’s heart. Truth and freedom play big right now and finding ways to nurture yourself while also committing to more personal responsibility is key. This is a time for really tuning into a mission, dream goal, or heart-focused purpose that truly calls to you while tempering a narrow, but flowing focus to manifest it, so as not to dilute your energy.
With things transforming for me right now, the energy activated in Australia, and new doors about to open, I outgrew any of the changes I had already made, which then had me feeling like I was wearing clothes that didn’t fit, in a metaphorical, but also literal way.
So I have been clearing out and donating clothes, got a few new things, and really, really needed to change my hair even though I just did a little over 4 months ago. I get antsy about stuff if even a little bit feels energetically off and not lining up.
This led me to be even more vulnerable outwardly, which I’m finding no end to, and revealing more of myself without care of what that may seem to others (I have had many looks since the change, when out and about). And so I decided to intensify what has already been happening with my hair much more dramatically and much more “me” feeling with an enhancement to my silver.
I had tons of silver growing naturally, especially in two stripes near the front that were growing long, areas underneath, and then scattered and glistening throughout. I decided why not just go full on, or “Full Moon,” which got written to a friend by auto correct and felt right on, I guess, since I later received multiple reflections of “Moon essence,” “Moon child,” “Moon shine,” “Moon beam”….
And that then aligned with the Full Moon hot air balloon tank I was wearing with three white Cosmic rabbits flying in it across the Cosmos – representing my dear Nestor, Joy, and Cosmo who have moved on to the Otherworld.
My sweet friend Dawn mentioned something else I hadn’t thought of, that I was aligning with the new bunny (coming in 11 days) love’s Cosmic whiteness, as the magickal White Rabbit embodied. I loved that!
Not to mention prepares for a 10 day energetic cleanse I’m physically doing on Solstice, bunny love’s arrival, and what that portal offers.
Anyway, there’s something more than I can express happening (and it’s collective although I’m experiencing my own version of it) and it seems to be reflecting outside as well, as both yesterday and today have manifested magickal rainbow portals (3 of them!) over Lake Tahoe since I got my hair done Wednesday afternoon. And the weather shifted to this mystical energy from being at the beach just Tuesday (the day before) and sun bathing then and the days before in 70’s very warm weather, to now this mysterious, brisk, winds-of-change, stormy look and feel and dropping to the 50’s overnight.
Yesterday’s rainbow was a full one directly in front over the lake, which then intensified and started to split at center…..creating almost like two worlds converging. Perhaps another sign of this literally happening with multiple realities and worlds simultaneously existing, yet diverging.
And this morning’s first rainbow was a partial one, however, it lasted for an hour and a half, dissipating, intensifying, dissipating, intensifying….
After about a half an hour a full one appeared directly in front again (actually, while I was writing this) and just skimming where lake and bottom of mountains meet, but this one glided across the lake from left to right. Incredible!
I have been realizing the increased vulnerability I have been cracking open from depths within and how things are just melting away and also melding in that molten love. It’s amazing how deep things run, but not surprising giving the limitlessness of All That Is.
And to me, this silver feels to increase my feelings of fuller, expansive embodiment of me, as well as no longer blending into the world, but fully creating my own Cosmos on Earth – so to speak – increasing my joy and comfortability within my skin here, which has increased over time with changes I’ve been making and things brought to light.
We all have different ways in which we integrate transformation. I happen to choose and initiate as many as possible lol!
And interestingly, shifting my hair in this way is a process, which has small parts of my hair gold as well – all blending together – cool and warm colors, metallic energies of Sun and Moon. Feels like alchemy to me.
Many Native Americans believe that hair is spirit’s physical manifestation of growth that opens/enhances extrasensory perception and symbolizes connection to all things, as if like tentacles reaching out to the world around us. Cutting hair represents doors closing and heralds new life and doorways, honoring the past while making way for the future.
And that’s always how I approach life….seeing the “silver lining” and believing when no one else does. This is increasing, which is timely with what I’m working on manifesting short and long term for the journey ahead and my heart’s mission. Gonna take everything I have!
So while my threads of silver hair reflect much more than this, too hard to explain all of here, they also seem to bring this into literal light and hence, the “silver lining” mentioned above as an approach that may be helpful for us all, coming full circle.
How might you open more to the possibilities before you? You really do have opportunity to experience life differently, if you really commit to that, no matter what challenges are present. Each pain is a seed wanting to sprout freely without your restraining its growth.
Balance and harmony are key energies for this Pink Full Moon in Libra on the 11th and how we can channel this in a way that tempers both our individual needs with collective integration for a higher good as One. I’m seeing new opportunities being presented to us all if we keep our hearts open and release attachment to how things “have” to be. Every moment can open us to wider perspectives and potentials with some willingness to discern and feel to the core of things. A great time to readjust our energy output to that which supports optimal and empowering well-being.
How can you support yourself into your authenticity without judging others for what they are revealing of themselves as their own process at the same time?
The more we remove our own costumes we’ve been accustomed to hiding behind, we understand dynamics at work without expectations from others or belittling demands on ourselves.
A lot of old pains and shadow aspects are continuing to rise to the surface in order for us to realize our potential to shift perspective and open our hearts to a new way of experiencing things that can transmute it all and manifest our intentions nonetheless.
So yes, there’s still a lot of intensity around, but there’s a major contrast of incredible things happening for people alongside a lot of challenging things people are also experiencing. Retrogrades, like we’re experiencing, are opportunities to reassess and realign ourselves.
Everything is rapidly transforming and it can sometimes be hard to keep up with the constant change, but also very liberating if you can find a way to embrace greater fluidity.
Libra is an air element and that brings to us opportunity to expand our minds and not get hung up on over-obsessing and excessive analysis, but rather partnering our minds with hearts to gain new perspective and expansive clarity that may spark new ideas and innovative visions for our journeys.
As you know, we’ve were in Sedona the last several days since Wednesday, which has been hugely expansive, once again, for us. And more than I thought, actually, has unfolded upon returning and allowing the energy to settle in.
We have a lot that opened and shifted (even just today) and received clarity on things since being home that once again proved how fluidity and staying open to greater possibilities, allows that to happen.
Interestingly, upon returning home yesterday we discovered that the unit below and left to us had a sewer issue that caused some minor flooding in their place and the plumber was here working on things, that got fixed today.
The pipes are connected to all units and unfortunately their unit gets the problems because they are lower and have the lowest sitting shower. The issue that is normal around these parts is that tree roots find their way into the pipes, seeking out water sources, and that can create blockage issues. Something to maintain once a year.
All of that seeming symbolic with rooting going on in our lives and finding ways to flow with nature.
Anyway, since the 4 units are connected, we all had to stop using water until the plumber returned to fix it all this morning, and that felt reflective of this pause in percolation taking place with our feelings about things and examining what is at the heart of it all.
Also reflective of our opening to this expansive, freeing and light new perspective, which shifted the course of things and even aligned us greater with our frequencies, the back-up was fixed, and our fluidity of embrace and movement with the energies showed us an even better way – all freeing everything up at once in connection to each other.
I also anchored even more deeply with the journey most heart-resonant for myself as well and made a big decision this morning.
Being in Sedona was very balancing and transformative, as it always is and my relationship to her energies have shifted since I first lived there back in 1996 from intensely supportive in stripping away onion layers, to flowingly supportive, light, yet powerfully gentle.
I’ve returned many times since I lived there, with a large break between the next time I returned, but then was back a couple of times in a row for some classes and hosting a booth at the Raw Spirit Festival, breaking again until I got my dragon tattoo there, and then returning the last 3 years in a row at the same time each year – Spring. Each journey being hugely mirroring and opening for my life.
This trip was very productive and had very purposeful and meaningful reasons for us being there at this time, creating activations and anchoring on several levels – too much to delve into detail here, as I’m also pressed on time right now.
But one of which I’ll mention a bit since it was a moving experience for many that connected to my Crystal Skull, includes the transferring of guardianship of my beloved and powerful Raja Seraphina to her new and amazing guardian, who also is a dear friend. I am so grateful to Dawn for opening to this huge shift that is igniting an incredible journey of her life’s work. It is amazing to see how R.S. has energetically shifted since being with Dawn and I’m so touched in seeing the pampering and dedicated love and honor Dawn is sharing with her. A match made in the Cosmos. I’m excited for their work ahead, which will be powerful for the collective. And grateful for yet another bridge created between us with R.S. The timing couldn’t have been more perfect with the upcoming Full Moon either. I hear she’ll be receiving a Moon bath and so much more!
We had a very full several days in Sedona with all that we had scheduled and going on there, including a last minute connection with another sweet soul, her hubby, and little Faery daughter that was full circle since we first met in person in Sedona back in 2011 (fun to see how much has changed for us since then), but everything aligned perfectly and we still managed to enjoy awesome food and get in some great hiking – about 20 miles in the available time slots we had over 3 of the days taking us to Boynton Canyon, Broken Arrow (behind Chapel Rock and up to Chicken Rock), trails in Red Rock State Park along Oak Creek, Bell and Courthouse Rock loop, as well as Baldwin Trail behind Cathedral Rock.
The high desert right now is lovely with flowers in bloom too. Perfect reflections all around, energy, and balance.
I loved that we were there in the wake of the Full Moon approaching too, which was very cool for our labyrinth and medicine wheel walk we did the night before leaving. That was the second labyrinth walk, as we also walked it with Dawn on the day we met.
All in all, a beautiful journey through another portal that has infused inspiration, more clarity, and ignited another propulsion of activation. Continuous blessings to constantly be grateful for.
And even when twists and turns, ebbs and flows take place…it just isn’t possible to be upset or stressed about it, because it always flows into something even better than imagined.
And while I know that there is a lot going on out there that holds a different energy, I know my part is to hold my own and continue seeing everything in its wholeness as an integral thread to the entire Cosmic tapestry weaving itself into being.
I may have some exciting news to share soon. Until then, wishing everyone a balancing, clearing, and supportive Full Moon.
Virgo Full Moon magick to everyone! Some big things have culminated around this moon energy here in my personal experience including a huge ending/beginning that took place yesterday with a lot of recognition of the full circle experience and also how it all was the gift that gave me new life and anchored me here longer, most literally. I also have a big celebration today of my personal empowerment and embodiment, as well as some interesting things revealing themselves.
What are you experiencing around this energy right now? I know a lot of people that are having major shifts in their life, openings, and breakthroughs to their long-time dreams. Exciting to hear and witness.
Virgo has us looking at our relationship to our Earth Mother, our bodies and making that heart connection to their messages, releasing perfectionism, limiting beliefs, and inhibitions, stepping up rather than hiding, and reminding us we need to focus with conviction and integrity on the details and steps put into motion now if we really want to manifest our dreams.
Ready? Set. Go!
I took this photo early this morning when I woke from it beaming on my face through the window.
And today I awaken, reminded of what this day also means for me, as it is the 16-year anniversary of my legally changing my middle name to my official last name, hence now my full, legal name being Tania Marie.
So, a reflection of self-embodiment and a rebirthing and anchoring into who that is, as I’ve continued forward throughout the rest of my life.
It all seems timely and significant with Virgo’s energy right now highlighting things – my opposite sign as a Pisces – which is all about the “practical” application of creative self-expression in a way that most serves the highest good, which is inclusive simultaneously of you.
It’s down-to-Earth energy helps us to bring all of those dreams and ideas into grounded being, anchoring us more with integrity and commitment, and helping us to balance things, knowing that it isn’t just enough to imagine and have incredible ideas, but also we must apply these things in the every-day and understand the processes of manifestation. After all, we aren’t here on Earth for nothing!
Imperfect perfectionism is key too, allowing ourselves to be human through it all and to avoid extremism.
Synchronous to Virgo’s focus on practical matters of life including nutrition, healing, health, “service”, and work, last night we hosted our Tahoe Herbivores’ meetup here at our place for a private screening of “What The Health,” which is a follow-up film exposing government and big business corruption keeping us sick, from the creators of the award-winning documentary Cowspiracy. – both great films and eye-openers for people, plus an added bonus of my partner Dave Simon having cameos in both. 😉
It was a great evening, awesome group of 12, and yummies I made including my air fried, breaded cauliflower with homemade vegan thousand island dressing, my almond “cheeze” ball, and pine nut roasted hummus with rainbow carrots – all a big hit! A guest also brought a huge bowl of sprouted lentils and home made pear kombucha to add to the yum. We even had an amazing sunset to welcome our guests. It was a lovely evening all around followed by dinner at a local Indian restaurant, but I had to smile at the tie-in with the Moon’s energy supporting this evening’s film and discussions.
Anyway, today I plan to get some Nature time in amidst some of my own “practical applications” I’ll be implementing to help balance and ground the energies and see what inspirations come through from immersion time with Terra.
And this integrated Nature and Moon energy brings me to the Magick Crystal Wands for an update.
Right after I posted the three wands that I was guided would be offered, two got spoken for.
So I only have the powerful Neptune and Nymph Wand remaining, currently.
Definitely not one for the faint of heart! It’s watery essence is anchored in Earthy manifestation, SO reminding me of the Virgo/Pisces dynamics! Wow! Perhaps it will end up staying with me! Hehe!! Weeeeeee!
You can get more info on it here, which includes the original link with many more photos of details of it as well:
As mentioned in this post I do have a bunch more wands that spoke to me and will in the future be channeled for offering.
That said, I got the idea yesterday when someone, who had really felt drawn to one of the wands that was spoken for, did not end up being the one to receive it, I immediately was inspired and knew I could create a unique wand for her with some of the elements I had collected and so that put a spin on things and now have 3 custom wand channelings that will be upcoming for individuals in similar circumstances.
So this could be an option too, if you desire.
However, I will reiterate what I shared in my last post on them, that these won’t be created right away, but in their own time, as I have to switch gears a bit for a while.
Who knows though, as I go by inspiration and if suddenly an alignment, divine inspiration, and energy hits and nudges me to make one, then I will.
How’s that for my own Pisces/Virgo integration of divine inspiration tempered with practical application? LOL!
Wishing everyone a balancing Full Moon!
These two paintings – creative expressions of mine – and the quotes I shared along with them, felt like creative insights and reflections to share on this Full Moon Lunar Eclipse in Leo to draw forth personal awareness for collective good and harmony. I shared them via Instagram over the last couple of days, but am posting them here for my blog readers. Wishing everyone truth invoking empowerment, the courage to embody your beliefs, illumination to all that is unconscious, and creative inspiration to listen to and honor what’s in your heart.
“In oneself lies the whole world and if you know how to look and learn, the door is there and the key is in your hand. Nobody on earth can give you either the key or the door to open, except yourself.” ~J. Krishnamurti
Spirit by Tania Marie ~ Creating the New Cosmic Earth: Fifth in my series titled “In Lak’ech” which is a mystical experience of awakening, as the Ancients and Power Beings of the Five, bring forth their messages of healing.
“There is in all visible things an invisible fecundity, a dimmed light, a meek namelessness, a hidden wholeness. This mysterious unity and integrity is wisdom, the mother of us all, “natura naturans.” There is in all things an inexhaustible sweetness and purity, a silence that is a fountain of action and joy. It rises up in wordless gentleness, and flows out to me from the unseen roots of all created being.” ~Thomas Merton
Gaia’s Gift by Tania Marie
Last night’s Full Supermoon in Gemini felt super potent…potent enough it woke me several times and I experienced Root Chakra integrative activations that kept me up for a bit with that shifting occurring at my tailbone. I worked with my black Tourmaline – an excellent partner for this and one of the power stones to support this Chakra – which did its magick. And although I was awake in intervals last night, I still woke up earlier than usual at 5:30 am feeling fully rested and amped up to go.
I watched the Moon for a bit during the night, as the whole room was illuminated by Her light since we have windows all around that we keep open since we are so high up.
She appeared both clear in the sky and then surrounded by clouds making Her appear like a blossoming eye peering through the veils.
Since I was up I decided to step out for a moment in the very chilly night air and at one time my camera capturing the Moon appearing to layer Herself with a smaller Moon in the background and larger in the foreground shooting off beams as if She was flying toward me on wings of light. Gemini twin energy in action?
As mentioned, I was wide awake very early at 5:30 am, feeling totally energized and the Moon remained present until 7:30 am just out front of our deck.
I find it interesting synchronicity that I’d been focused on the Moon energy and originations the last two days with my writing, which spread itself out in intervals all on its own and that portion completing on the day of the Full Moon.
I don’t plan these things, but sure do enjoy observing and then connecting the dots of how divine guidance plays out when we flow with what inspiration moves through us.
Needless to say, it felt like a lot of things shifted last night and I’m wondering if others felt it too?
As we near the end of the year and come upon some powerful energies this month that will be assisting our transition into a collective new dynamic for the coming 2017, I wanted to reflect a bit upon my own life, share vulnerably on these changes, and how some of this has played out for me to provide a perspective on some ways to utilize energies. I know it’s been a challenging year for many and I went through some of my own mourning with losses, yet they were in actuality reflections of the new being confirmed in arrival.
While collectively 2016 was a closure year numerologically holding the vibration of #9, for me it was actually my personal beginnings year, as a #1 since my birthday. So, coupling that with the collective, I was able to reclaim so many parts of myself, embraced the value of my individuality, taking action on supporting my needs and personal sovereignty, reviewed much and ended an era in my life, literally went through a rebirthing, and brought forth more of my truth I desire creating with from here on out, as I weeded through it all.
This included eradicating the old definitions of many things, including leaving behind the idea of “service” for a life of “being” for the highest good of all concerned.
For almost the first two months of 2017, I’ll share being in a #1 year with the collective, but come my birthday on 2/26 (a number I have seen in wild, nearly daily abundance this year as I’ve been rebirthing) I will step into the energy of a #2 year, which will bring me very deeply into a sacred feminine place that my sacred male I’ve been working on this last year, will be supporting.
A time where I listen completely within and support with action what moves through me. A time also when inner knowing aligns me with personal timing regardless of what others are doing, understanding when to make moves and when to wait. A time of heightened intuition, psychic energy, prophetic dreams, telepathy, and inner peace as beingness.
While things may appear to slow down since more is done within or in developmental phases this year for me, there will be significant movement forward and progress unfolding – all supported also by the collective #1 year.
The year for me will be focused on relationships of all kinds – the one with myself and my parts, with friends and beloveds, with business relationships, with life at large, and with All That Is. A time of collaborations, cooperation, and greater compassion that understands and values everyone’s differences.
It will be a year focused also on my own sense of reality and fine tuning that amidst a world of many other realities that my sensitivities will navigate me through in alignment with what I’ve learned in my #1 year about who I AM and knowing my boundaries more.
My inner will surface more than ever on the scene.
And this makes complete sense, since I am very focused on new creations right now that I’m being guided to bring forth and that speak to my deepest passions and essence. So it is all coming from a very deep place within me.
And here’s a little review on how my #9 and #1 year brought me here, to give you an idea of how this process has translated for me.
In brief, during my #9 year I literally felt walls closing in on me. I was left uninspired, felt trapped, knew things had passed their peak, and that everything I’d been doing had run its course, including where I lived.
Regardless of how this sounds I’ll share anyway, that I began receiving many cosmic visitations, clear messages, and an invitation to move beyond my life here if I so desired. I went through cosmic upgrades and rewiring, and understood I’d completed much more than just an Earthly cycle I’d been working on, but soul cycle in general.
I knew I had to choose and new inspiration came in that I understood would be one way I could recreate my life….in came the Magick Bus at the exact mid point of my #9 year. It took until the beginning of 2016 to fully get underway and leave Orange County altogether so I spent the end of that year moving out of our house and into the rv, selling my car, simplifying down to the bare basics and essentials I valued, and awaited divine timing that kept supporting this venture magickally into being when others had no idea how. And everything very rapidly aligned with this embrace and choice to support this rebirthing.
The little over a year spent on our rv journey during my #1 year, was a literal huge movement of energy in my life, and both reinvigorated me and literally saved my life in terms of giving me reason to choose to continue on here. But it would have to be in a 100% completely new way. And so I spent all of my time focused on knowing myself, fully immersing in nature to know the nature of me, and one-by-one let go of everything I kept understanding needed releasing.
Yet, I also richly received so many gifts – the greatest in reclaiming myself and strengthening my relationship to the purity of that above all else. In essence, raising my vibration more and more – a constant evolution I focus on and keep digging to reveal.
And again, at the half way point of my #1 year, something big took place, this time a very literal rebirthing that took me through a death cycle that washed away the old and helped me reclaim an even stronger sense of empowerment.
I’ve eluded to the incident in past posts, and while I won’t go into details of the experience, as it is much too layered and involved in complex ways I am guided not to discuss because of larger ramifications, I did have a treacherous incident one day both in a glacial river and wild deep forest where a new me stepped out of it all and has not been the same since.
One could say that the cosmic waters from which my Pisces nature is born of, were the very waters that cleansed and rebirthed me.
And I have found myself experiencing life through very different eyes, hearing with new ears, feeling with heightened sensitivities, and expanding with a deepened heart.
I am not the same and yet more so me.
I’ve increasingly made harmony with my past and with what ever and who ever comes around me and understand that from that place I needn’t fight, but hold strong to my vibration, which does the work for me.
What comes around is in alignment, or provides me the opportunity to translate what I learn in greater ways of actual beingness. And therefore things shift instantly when I put that to action and come and go as is perfect. Not as a result of hiding or fighting, but in learning to be more me, creating my own reality that allows me to perceive everything differently, and coming daily more and more from my heart.
As there’s no limit to how far one can go with that.
Struggle only arrives if working against our nature and the energetic field of experience flowing through.
And so, I am utilizing the end of this year, tomorrow’s Full Moon, upcoming Winter Solstice and Mercury Retrograde, the Capricorn energy (my rising sign/ascendant and North Node to guide the next phase of my life), and the transitions of collective energies with the New Year alongside energetic dynamics at work to strengthen all of this and support all that I have in motion into greater manifestation.
This to include my mourning process with Joy and Cosmo who have confirmed the closure of one life fully into a new one for me that has been rooting.
This confirmed again recently with Thanksgiving’s sightings of the 27 hawks and dead owl within 35 minutes, the magickal alignment of the amazing place we’re currently living in, prophetic dream sequences, and literal signs over Lake Tahoe’s portal from my view of it here that included the Arcturian symbol I wear as a sacred tattoo, rainbow portals, and shooting stars. Not to mention, the resurgence of things in a new way and the departure of things, effortlessly.
This time period will continue to clarify and ground things as I focus only on the new projects and my life path I’ve chosen to move forward with.
So I’ll remain immersed in my writing, which is like literally rewriting my life as I do in a way, and receive nature’s reflections.
Returning to Southern California for Christmas will also be like a solidification of closure with our old way of life there, as I return as the new me and we stay in a different location that actually was one we began with on our rv journey, near Malibu.
Even being here in Tahoe has reclaimed the original essence of what this place was for both Dave and I that has rewritten the history we had here and created a new reality and experience of it that is completely new from what once was – a place we both went through symbolic deaths, now providing more rebirthing to my literal one.
And that brings me to sharing about the collective energies, so that you can weave your own experiences into the unfolding realities you choose to create, while putting closure to this year.
The Gemini Full Moon (the Twins) represents the Yin and Yang in balanced harmony and rhythmical dance together and illuminates relationships with others and with the parts of yourself. It’s about sharing and communicating, as well as the day-to-day practicalities and logical curiosity. While Sagittarius brings expansion, creativity, intuition, freedom, and dream energy. This Full Moon in Gemini with Sun in Sagittarius speaks to using both sides of the brain in partnership, which will support you in being able to manifest your heart’s desires and create those extraordinary things you dream of.
Mercury has been slowing down too in preparation for the retrograde on the 19th. This offers a very powerfully transformative period to harness before the new beginnings year of 2017 begins. A time for digging deep and bringing forth your truth. And with Mercury being in Capricorn brings a personal responsibility to the forefront, and rebuilding structures, clearing out and creating sustainable, strengthened stability of Earthiness to your life from the core out.
Lots of releasing, restructuring, reclaiming, and rewriting, as you realize who you really are.
Capricorn also focuses energies on the male patriarchy, the old and new male in process of transmutation, father figures in our lives, and our own sacred male in his truest, authentic power who supports our sacred female into hers.
Capricorn begins on the 21st, Winter Solstice, which puts focus on you being the light and shining brighter in the face of shadowy turbulence. The presence of darkness and your having embraced its beauty and gifts, now can empower you into greater wholeness because of understanding and harnessing this alchemy.
The productive and healthy aspects of the masculine are highlighted now (while the old has fully surfaced into awareness) and are in need of compassion, and integrating and bringing him to the foreground in equal partnership with the productive and healing aspects of the feminine for wholeness.
Relationships are a reflection of your relationship with yourself and the work you do within.
So nurture yourself and strengthen your physical body, as it is the vehicle to bring forth all that is within you that you desire to create. It is also the reflection of how you’re cultivating your inner world, being indicative of where to makes shifts.
By listening within and being vulnerable with yourself and others, your true power will shine forth and your inner male and female parts can understand each other’s needs, which can turn reactions into conscious, partnered responses.
An amazing year of potentials awaits us all.
For the past month my birthday keeps popping up on the clock, so alongside the portal times like 11:11, 1:11, 2:22, 3:33, 4:44 and 5:55, my birthday – 2:26 – has now taken over prime sighting spot, which feels to be a confirmation and activation of rebirthing. This continued last night when I woke up at 2:26 am to find the Full Moon’s light beaming brightly through the front windows above and across the fresh field of possibilities that is our current home view, calling me to sit up on the dashboard and set intentions since it was only an hour away from the Moon reaching its fullest at 3:27 am. And after, I was compelled to take some photos, which turned out quite interesting, as well as were halted by my camera shutting itself off. I thought it was the batteries, but in the morning when I woke up to check it, it was working again. I then returned to bed, but on my way back I saw that the Moon was sending a beam of light onto Cosmo in his safe haven under the table too.
The photos throughout this post are from last night’s Moon – no flash used – and taken in succession.
We’re in our new home of Elk Island National Park, which is about 2 hours from Saskatchewan (our next adventure).
The weather is beautiful and sunshine abound, which created a refreshing and lovely day of exploring on our first hike.
We encountered more magickal animal friends without skipping a beat, picking right up again where we left off before our 3 day city touch-in.
I’ll share the animals along with our time here in Elk Island after the week comes to closure, but I will say that snowshoe hare magick was the first to greet us, with a long connecting time with me, as she allowed me to get quite close. And then she reappeared at the end of the hike at the same place, since it was a big 6+ mile loop.
Rabbit and Moon magick – it doesn’t get much better for me personally. Well, except when you add in the great gray owl that swooped across our path too. 😉 It was a day of enchanting woodland connections for sure, as you’ll see soon.
For now, I’m just embracing the calm serenity I feel since we arrived here with only the sound of wind rustling in the quaking aspen surrounding us.
The field of dreams we are looking out upon, which is golden and green in the sunlight, feels like a place to create anew as we desire. It feels like a place of rest, renewal, and watering of intentions that are made here.
So when the Moon beckoned me last night to awake at the time of personal rebirthing – 2:26 – I took its hand and embraced the welcome into this portal of potentials.
Here are some words about the energy right now that resonates with what I’ve been feeling and sharing, from intuitive astrologer, Sarah Varcas:
“Practice not allowing anything to stick in your energy field. Visualize it as flowing water, rushing wind. See its constant motion.
By identifying with the trials of life, buying into their drama instead of claiming our freedom, we create substance where movement should be, calcifying thoughts and feelings unnecessarily. Recognizing and reversing this process is key to profound and lasting change.
The mind is both our liberator and our jailer now. If we allow it to oppress us with demands for ever greater ‘proof’ of this or that, evermore detail to justify what we know instinctively to be true, we will tie ourselves in mental knots that drain our energy and produce no useful outcomes.
But if we can expand our mind to embrace possibilities previously discounted, to consider life from new angles, we could experience liberation like never before.
The veils between the egoic and higher minds are paper thin now and we can break through so easily, with just the slightest effort, if we choose.
However we feel at this juncture, we can rest assured there are new perspectives just waiting to be seen, something we simply haven’t perceived about our situation which can revolutionize the path ahead.
We may, however, be too distracted to take ourselves in hand. An accumulation of stress and anxiety, despair or depression – even the tedious boredom of a life lived in black and white – can all keep us from recognizing the power of the present moment and the alchemical force unleashed when we live it fully and without regret.
We may have invested too much energy in anticipation of an ideal future when everything magically falls into place, not realizing the magic is us, living on purpose, with clear intent and for the greater good right now.
This Moon has little time for fears and failings, excuses and justifications. It simply wants us to get a grip and move ahead by arriving fully in the present, with our power intact and our resolve firm and clear.
If we find ourselves resistant at this Moon, wrestling with external pressures that threaten to change our course, discernment is vital.
We cannot and do not live apart from the world and must attend always to the constant feedback loop which occurs between us and our environment both near and far.
Sometimes we must stand firm in the face of external pressures. At other times those very pressures are the touch of the divine reminding us we may be losing our way, drifting off track or blind to something we cannot afford to ignore.
If resistance energizes and clarifies intent, it is probably keeping us on track. If it drains us and destroys our peace, distracting from positive action which could blow the cobwebs away, we may well be resisting the very thing that will set us free.
Beware the seduction of certainty in the face of current confusion. It can only ever be a thin veneer atop an infinitely complex existence beyond anyone’s power to fully understand.
Knowing it’s okay not to know, being at peace with paradox, embracing with an open heart all insights gleaned, even that we’ve been wrong all along.”
The Solstice Full Moon of Monday June 20, 2016 is one I will not forget for many reasons, one of which was the amazing immersion inside of a crystal cave that sent chills throughout my entire body upon entering. It was exactly like the crystal meditation I teach in the Crystal Magick Workshop where we enter into our crystal’s domain as a cave to meet and connect more deeply with our crystal friend, but I was now physically experiencing this. Incredible, to say the least.
Our day began with a picnic lunch overlooking Firehole River in Yellowstone, continued with exploring the dynamic Fountain Paint Pots (which include geysers, mud holes, hot springs, and fumaroles), and a short hike to Harlequin Lake, which was laced with tons of lily pads in a secluded area you get through by walking a trail that reminded me of a bamboo forest like the ones I’ve explored in Maui, but they were instead dense fields of thin trunked trees.
After returning home to check on the bunnies and give them nourishment and love (I never like leaving them much), we met up with my friend Janet who was staying at the Cinnamon Lodge in Gallatin Gateway, not far from Big Sky.
She’d heard about an old abandoned quartz mine that people don’t know about and so we all decided that we should go there, as a perfect way to harness the energy of the Solstice Full Moon.
The hike was more than we thought given the brief description of “just an easy walk that way”, climbing up over 700 feet of elevation rapidly in a very short distance (about 3/4 of a mile), which was basically like a close to vertical climb. But we found the mine and it was well worth it.
The trail took us across Gallatin River over a bridge – very symbolic like a bridge to another world, realm, and new reality that would be activated from this experience – and through a beautiful forest with gorgeous moss laden rocks that were rich in Faery essence and like a hidden world where Faeries, Elves, Hobbits, and Gnomes were frolicking about.
We then arrived at our destination.
Basically it was like stepping inside of a quartz cave or a giant crystal. It was at least 30 degrees cooler inside…so cold in fact that when I was left alone inside for a while, I could see my breath before me, which added to the experience. I think I was the only one though that saw this, as I stayed a long time inside at the very back of the mine, alone. My breath before me looking like spirit essence merging between me and the crystal cave.
Even before entering the mine the ground was laced with quartz fragments both small and large. One did not need to even venture in or that far in, to find some lovely pieces.
But, despite my having fears in the past of going into mines and dark spaces (bringing up things from childhood), I ended up feeling very comfortable here. In fact, was quite joyful, which I think shows through in this photo above.
Dave and I have hiked into mines or near them before and I’ve always had this eerie or off sense about it that didn’t sit right. I did not feel that with this mine, perhaps due to its crystalline nature that I connect with so much and its energy inviting me deeper.
I wasn’t sure what I was expecting to see when I went inside, but when I flashed my cell phone flash light on the walls of the cave I was in awe at the beauty before me. That is when I realized that this wasn’t just a mine with some pieces of quartz here and there that you might find, but in fact it was a living, breathing crystal womb.
The side walls, ceiling and floor were all quartz interlaced with calcite in varying colors and just incredibly beautiful.
The ground was laced with smaller polished crystals like pebbles on top of larger ones and with a sediment of moist clay in between or on top.
We were being nurtured and cradled by a giant crystal. I felt like a baby star inside a mother star getting ready to be propelled into another dimensional experience. And indeed we were inside of a crystal portal, outside of space and time.
The farther back you went into the mine, the more clay was on the ground.
As I mentioned, as soon as I stepped inside and realized I had literally entered into a giant crystal cave and touched the walls, my whole body got waves of chills running through me. I could feel the energy and it was potent and beautiful.
The photos throughout are from the inside of the mine – hard to capture in the dark the crisp brilliance, but I think you can get the idea from them. You can even see spirit essences coming through in them, like in this one where there is a very clear face that is almost cherub or sprite-like.
I first decided to explore and ran my hands along the walls, rummaged through the loose crystals on the ground and just took it all in. The walls were delicate and pieces of crystal easily would come off.
I had a deep feeling of reverence and did not want to damage or hurt the crystal in any way, so although one could easily go chipping away and amass some majorly amazing crystals from within the cave walls, I felt that what wanted to come with me would easily be on the ground, hidden in the clay peeking out in brilliance, or loose and would let me know without having to pry them loose.
After exploring, I then started picking up crystals and used the skirt of my dress to hold them like a basket. I had felt called to wear my magickal Peter Rabbit dress for the Solstice in honor of and support of my bunny loves.
Dave had already gone in and found his right away (one beautiful golden quartz – later outside he found two more), so he waited outside above the mine, just connecting with the energy and doing intentions for the Solstice from there, while Janet and I continued to explore.
We went in twice, bringing out several pieces to look at in the sunlight and used Janet’s necklace as a pendulum to make the final decisions as to which actually needed and wanted to come home with us.
Mine ended up being the ones I had felt most strongly, which is always nice to have that reiterated.
Janet felt complete and had even found a larger specimen that was quite lovely with varying layers and coloring of calcite with some quartz in between, which you can see here a bit in this photo that she took of it:
The quartz that ended up coming home with me were not all visually what one might find the most beautiful and in fact several are encrusted with other minerals and Earth, which to me makes them very potent and alive with Elemental energy still intact. Some are root pieces too, which feels grounding and integrative. I trust that the ones meant to come home did (8 in all pictured below) and I love the raw, natural potency they have, with one being a naturally polished stone.
The rest of the ones that weren’t meant to come, but which I had picked up from the cave, I returned back inside to the cave to their mother.
I then felt it was important to do a deep connecting and my intentions inside the cave for the Solstice. Dave and Janet did not and so they did their own thing elsewhere.
So I ventured again all the way to the back of the mine on my own. The second time it was even colder than the first and this is when I saw my breath before me while I was alone at the back of it. I am not sure how long I was in there (Janet said a long time), but I felt compelled to be there and loved it.
It felt like home and reminded me of the ancient parts of myself, and the places of potency I have spent time in like in my lives as a Nymph and Sibyl, for instance, who love caves and springs and any place that really connects me with the womb of the Earth. This is also where sound is at its most powerful and where I can go deeply into my essence to retrieve the soul signature songs and hear the vibrations of creation from.
It is for this reason I feel that I was not afraid, where I thought I might be, to be in the deepest, darkest part of the cave/mine by myself.
At first I’d said to Janet, “don’t leave me”, upon first venturing in, as I was conditioned by my previous experiences in these mines and dark places, but I soon got over that and was consumed with my love for this place and this crystal cave and ended up not wanting to leave and feeling like I was home.
I told Janet I was facing my fears by going in all the way, and what I discovered is that the crystal infused me with wonder and love and became inviting rather than ominous.
So, while I was there alone inside, I pressed my third eye to the very back of the cave’s crystalline wall, with hands gently touching the quartz in front of me and leaned my body into the giant crystal to do my connecting and intentions.
It is here that I asked for support for Joy and to bring her the peace she and I so desired for her and to give me strength, and both of us to have beautiful closure. I also asked for support for Cosmo and continued on with personal intentions for myself, loved ones, and the collective. Then surrendered it all completely for the highest good of all and released any attachment.
I called in the Faeries, Elementals, Spirit Guides, my Cosmic family, and others, along with meeting them with my Essence and Higher Self to work together as one. For things that I asked to receive, I also promised to give in return, as I never feel it to be a one way street.
One of the things I promised to the Faeries, this Crystal that represents Ancient Earth and the Cosmos, and to the collective I called in was to sing my song and to continue in larger ways to give the gift of sound channeling to continue with the work I left off doing, to support the collective and Earth experience into a new vibration and reality. And I have done so, as the next day I was full of song that I recorded and sang out from my heart.
It was hard for me to leave, as I was having such a rich connective time there in this other wordly, but so Ancient Earth realm.
My breath appeared before me upon coming out of my meditative connecting time and it looked like spirit essences intermingling in the darkness.
I felt enchanted and definitely activated, infused with so much universal and unconditional love that was like the tear drop of a star merging with the cosmic waters of my soul.
I reluctantly, but with fulfillment, exited my crystal cave womb, feeling birthed anew and with greater clarity and strength for what I would soon be experiencing and or the rest of my life.
We then descended the mountain, with me lingering behind a bit.
The light of day was beautiful and sparkling like a star through the trees.
We made our way back across the bridge and back into the world where we would integrate the energy received into our lives and in interaction with others for the highest good.
We parted ways for the evening with Janet, saying good night to her and her dog, Daisy. Leaving her sitting on her porch – all of us smiling wide and grateful for this potent Solstice experience that was like an initiation into all of the new the three of us each individually, and together, would be creating.
On the drive back, which was about 35 minutes, we stopped at a large beaver dam complex on our right, which was beautiful and could see the lodge and felt the reflection of this community and interweaving ecosystem they have created, as an example of our cocreative experience and connection to the collective and how we are woven together.
We then also saw a large bald eagle on the left, right at the side of the road. He was on the ground and picking at something. We saw that it was a dead mule deer that he was feasting on – quite a sight and only several feet away. This reflecting the cycles of life and transformation taking place. What brings death, also brings life, as all is interwoven.
Transmutation was at hand and this was all heralding the end of an era for me about to take place.
I knew one of the quartz I had brought home was to support Joy, so I placed it with her when I arrived home, along with her Nestor and Gaia crystal statues, and another sparkly crystalline stone I’d found a couple of days before that was connected to her (more on that soon). She was surrounded with everything possible to be of assistance energetically.
That evening, when it was dark (it doesn’t get dark until 10pm or after here, which has changed our inner clocks to naturally cycle with the light rather than keep to our conditioned schedules, having us eat dinner at 9:30 or 10 pm at night for instance) we walked across to the beach on Hebgen Lake where we were staying. Our site was basically a few yards from the beach and the Full Moon rose directly in front of us, which we could see out the front of the Magick Bus.
I took the eight quartz crystals that came home with me along for the walk to take in the Full Moon’s blessings and to receive the Moon’s activation. I held them out in front of me, as we were all illuminated by Grandmother Moon’s light and gently surrendered into receiving and flowing out love.
I gazed upon the rabbit in the Moon and felt the expansiveness of this Sagittarius energy that it was in, deepening, widening, expanding my heart, soul, and entire being.
A potent blessing, gift, and experience all around indeed.