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Tiny Aqua Tortoise


I am always enthralled by my dream time and how rich it is. I’ve had many interesting dreams recently again, but the one that stood out most was of the tiny aqua tortoise two nights ago. I love how each time my Russian Tortoise, Gaia, assists me with my writing, she will show up in my dream that very night, or vice versa – show up the night before and I’ll know she has something to share for the day’s writing ahead. I’m so grateful for my spirit family and especially my tortoise and rabbit companions who share their loving support always.

In the dream it actually started out with me on a journey – this time in a smaller RV – and about to embark. Before leaving I catch glimpse of a tiny (baby-sized) tortoise with aqua shell scurrying across the ground of what seemed to be like a garage or storage area. This little tortoise was fast!

The only other tortoise I know to be so fast is my beloved Gaia. She not only had strong presence, patience, and deliberate, persistent action, but she could move between those methodical, soldier-like steps of intention into a speedy sprint.

I knew right away this was a manifestation of Gaia coming through in this mighty and speedy little tortoise. She was reminding me not to forget the gifts and tools I have, not to mention the guiding support to lean into with this journey.

I went after her trying to pick her up, as she dashed quickly in and out of things in this storage area, making it challenging to get her, but also calling forth my not wasting energy, but focusing intentfully on what would be most effective in scooping her up without zig-zagging about.

And soon I did have her in my hands and just remembered how sweet she looked, her deep eyes and almost smiling face, with a fully aqua painted shell home she carried on her back and her coloring reminding me more of a sea turtle – interestingly just the size and similar essence to a tiny figurine I was gifted by a dear friend that sits on my dresser.

That was all I remember.

But as mentioned, since she’d come through that day with writing support and channeling the part of the story I was tapping into, I knew this was no coincidence, but timely and symbolic manifestation on her part.

Her small size felt to indicate these as reminders more than a blaring warning or that I was off-track and needing a huge sign. It also felt like she was helping me to fine-tune these elements and gifts rather than outright teaching me it from scratch. So definitely about honing in on things even more and tweaking so I can optimize.

Aqua happens to be my favorite color, but this is also a color that holds much pertinent energy to my life and this undertaking right now.

It can represent our unconscious and the instincts we have, wanting us to take notice and support. I take this as Gaia sharing to just trust this next flow of information coming through and to surrender to almost what I’d call “automatic writing” that has and will continue to take place. I will not need to dictate anything.

Aqua is also highly creative energy, light-hearted and still carries a strong individuality. This speaks to me too about the writing I’m engaged in and how it is being carried through me, but also of me.

It’s also definitely about inspiration, focus, concentration, communication between heart and spoken/written word, clarity, and even has been linked with the “electronic age” where computers are a form of wide-scale communication. To me speaking to again, trusting the translation that takes place if I let my parts work in balanced partnership and weave thoughts and words from their true source. And of course, I do type on a computer and to understand the collective reach of what’s taking place, not to mention is a way Gaia communicates to me through electronics with her ability to tap into this energy.

It’s also a color of calm invigoration, restoration, recharge of spirits, encourages healing, compassion, and our intuitive abilities that have the ability to open doorways to greater spiritual growth.

I have found this journey with my writing to be all of this and Gaia seems to be encouraging the process and path, sensing I had a moment of pause where I stepped out of that automatic writing place and was stumped for a bit before I jumped back onto the frequency train of allowing.

Aqua is a perfect color to support expression and confidently focus us with our speech and bringing through ways of describing things we might find hard to express. So it’s a wonderful color to surround ourselves with while also enhancing our gifts, help us make decisions, move forward, carry us through successfully, get us out of a rut or indecisive place in life or with a project, and all the while calming our nerves so we can return to center.

Gaia was definitely reminding me of the aura I carry with me with aqua always having been in and around my life, and to surround my process in this essence to carry me to closure with the story.

The things about tortoise/turtles is that they can live and journey both in water and on land, so there is again that balance of diving into our sensitivities and bringing them into concrete form. A bridge between the imagination and manifestation.

Vulnerability will be part of the journey when they show up and at times this will need withdrawing into our “shell” to bring forth something deeper, but also knowing we have the support to share it and that courage will be there when needed.

Normally turtles/tortoises can signify a need to slow down, but in the case of Gaia and this tiny turtle manifestation of her, she was moving quickly. I feel it represents that things will move more rapidly now with things, if I continue to go in this flow she is sharing, but also to be aware of how I can still navigate intentfully and more effectively. By continuing to be aware of my energy out-put and acting instinctively rather than just doing things without engaging my ability to think 10 steps ahead in the moment to understand the flow of energy currents I can ride, I will bring things together with productive results.

When ever I do this, then I meet with harmonious outcomes and merge as one with what is unfolding as an equal partner in tune with the natural rhythms.

There is so much we can learn by symbolism that comes through and many ways and perspectives to receive and see them as, but I believe we are guided to the ones that we need to know most.

I’m grateful to Gaia for her taking time from her ever-full missions she’s on to support me with mine – well….ours. 🙂

Remembering a Courageous Soul & Messages of Faith on the Eternal Journey


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Tiny Gaia when she first entered my life

The moment you want to give up is when you need to dig as deep as you can to keep believing even more, as you’re so close to breaking through the veils and into the light of your heart.

It’s one of those time cycles where I feel a stronger pull to my cosmic origins, and needing to remind myself of balancing and grounding in order to fully be present in this current Earthly experience. And while feeling these pulls elsewhere, it’s no wonder I’ve also been sharing reverence for my beloved Russian Tortoise, Gaia, whom has been away on mission since the end of April.

She, along with my beautiful, physically departed Nestor, have been heavily on my mind. And I know that they are both cosmic pilgrims engaged in their soul essence journeys of the heart.

gaia outsideI know many of you have followed along with their stories, in particular Gaia’s of recent, and may remember she had for the first time hibernated for a short period this winter, returning auspiciously before the end of Winter, but right at the perfectly timed moment in my life. And then, not long after she had returned, she then disappeared again and has been gone since the end of April, now approaching 5 months and oddly during the dead of a very hot Summer here.

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Gaia checking out my painting Air, as I worked on it in my solarium

I haven’t recently had the sense she is returning, but if she in fact at some point still does, it will be her most surprising and magickal feat to date, which would bring a huge smile to my usually unsurprised self. In the meantime, I have been supporting her energetically in the work she had been called away to do, knowing she is always with me in heart.

But it hasn’t been until recently that I’ve felt the need to honor her more appropriately, especially if she has chosen to move beyond this Earthly realm like Nestor. That’s what it feels like in my heart, and perhaps her original idea of returning has shifted due to my own shifts.

Having gone through what will always be the most heart-wrenching experience of physically losing Nestor in the most dramatic/traumatic of ways at a very challenging soul leap time in my life that nearly took my own breath away, I have gone through the worst and so am able and prepared to handle physical loss, or anything for that matter, with an unconditionally, unattached love and deep honor. Perhaps Gaia chose this way, as mirror to the place I have arrived with this – with no need for closure to the eternal, nor need to physically see and experience that transition from life to afterlife. I am aware that transitions from one dimensional experience to another can be gently chosen, just as much as harshly chosen, depending on what we need to learn and what our attached beliefs are.

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Gaia exploring inside my Amethyst – found her sleeping here several times

I’ve also found it interesting, since both Gaia and Nestor were always not really “all here” when they were, that as such expansively powerful, cosmic beings that they chose these tiny bodies to manifest as. And yet their power was evident, not only in the strength those little bodies physically exhibited, but in their presence and the magickal things they would do each day while with me.

I know part of the reason they came in those bodies, was so that we could be together as we were, and yet as much joy as they brought me in this life, it gives me greater joy to know that they are no longer confined by those bodies in any way and can be the freedom seekers of the Cosmos that they are. Afterall, they spent very little of their time in those bodies, even when they WERE with me, as they were constantly traveling and doing work inter-dimensionally. They remind me of myself and it’s no wonder we have been together across times.

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Gaia and Chuck

Gaia was such a mentor for Joy and the two of them were best friends. Gaia also had the opportunity to connect with Chuck, while he was still alive, and was an avid companion of the ethereal Nestor (also a friend of Chuck’s).

crystalsI found it interesting that on my desk, where I have some of my crystals that support me daily, that the stone statues of Hematite (Nestor) and Rhodonite (Gaia) that I have carried with me on many of my global sacred journeys to have their energy symbolically and physically present where I was doing spiritual work, have always been next to each other on my desk. And the larger Serpentine stone statue of Joy, who is a bit more Earth-bound than they are, (although truly is the embodiment of a bridge between worlds, is a channeler and Crystal worker), is separate, yet connected by the large Cosmic Crystal between them.

And, both Nestor and Gaia are now physically gone, leaving Joy and I together here on this Earth plane.

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Best buddies, Joy and Gaia

Joy is my ever-faithful companion who alerts me to all energetic nuances and presides over our shared domain, as a guardian of the sacred. But over time, even Joy’s presence has shifted, as she used to physically take part in any workshops I taught from home, and now her presence although felt, is no longer there – choosing to remain in my office to support from afar.

Little by little with their support and teaching experiences through them, and as I have shifted into my own empowerment, accessing the connections and communications beyond space and time in a more tangible way, and have released attachments, they have all been able to move into different roles in my life and into their trueness.

The more these transcendent shifts anchor, the more I receive inklings of where my own soul direction is leading and the timeliness of that.

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Gaia inside her house

It’s all a beautiful journey and I’ve been reflecting on all of this, as thoughts and memories of Gaia have been flooding me recently. It’s brought some bitter sweet tears and yet joyous ones in celebration of her eternal expansiveness.

And I felt it time to make a memorial of sorts in her honor, regardless if she did in fact one day, out of the amazing blue, return. I want her to know how much I am eternally grateful for all that she is, and all that she has been and will continue to be in my life. Like all of these precious and astounding souls, she has taught me so much and she has saved my life more than once.

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Gaia’s sanctuary under the Plumeria

I have decided to keep her home outside where it has been, as a memorial for her, and also to mark the area I believe she entered Earth’s core through. As it is there I discovered her last time when she returned. If she does in fact miraculously return, then she will have her home to welcome her. Although I hope if she does, that I will still be here to welcome her. This is part of why I am not feeling her returning. I trust, as always, that she’s tuned into my messages, even though they have a bit of a time lapse where she is. We’ve never not been in sync, so there’s that. 🙂

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Plumeria above Gaia’s house

Interestingly, not too long ago, this area where her house sits that has two Plumeria and one large succulent bush, had completely shifted. The large succulent bush had uprooted itself one night and as it did, had taken down the two Plumeria. I had always reflected on this as a sign of the work she was doing below ground, as well as a mirror of impending change that was to take place and the uprooting in my own life.

Since, the bushes have been replanted and supported, with hopes they would survive, and have. So much so, that the Plumeria are now in full bloom – I just was checking them out this morning when I took these photographs – and I love that they surround Gaia’s house with their fragant beauty.plumeria

The perfect reflection of the joy and grace she brought to my life, this time around, when I was most in need.

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Plumeria symbolism includes natural beauty, charm, grace, new life, new beginnings, creation and recreation, the Sun, perfection of all things as is, dedication, devotion, love, immortality, healing powers, liveliness, life, and birth.

plumeria5I believe these are perfect messages for where ever the new journey ahead may lead. And however that is to take form, I can only trust in the faith and belief that I will have the same kind of courage these amazing souls have graced my life with.

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Three courageous Star Jasmine

I also found three Star Jasmine this morning that had blossomed “out of season”. Jasmine flowers symbolize many things to many different cultures, including love, romance, sensuality, amiability, nobility, grace, and elegance, but more importantly, they hold strong spiritual significance, as a constant symbol of divinity and hope.

These three Jasmine felt like magickal reminders of these three dear and immeasurable souls in my life, as well as embody, to me, the powerful will of the courageous soul that doesn’t accept the boundaries others choose to believe in and is capable of blossoming in the darkness.

Celebrating Six Years With Gaia


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Gaia checking out my painting, “Air”, as I paint it in my Lake Tahoe solarium

I may not physically be with Gaia right now (my amazing Russian Tortoise friend), but am with her nonetheless in heart and celebrating “with” her regardless.

Yes, Gaia is still M.I.A. – and literally she IS “missing in action”, as she is off on another mission from which she intends to, and will only, return once she’s completed it.

I’ve shared before how determined and committed this mighty little one is – a constant guide and teacher for me in this and many regards – and so my sense is that if her mission takes all of her to complete, then she will transcend doing and being her wholeness.

How can I not love her more for that and honor and respect her immensely?

She’s been gone now, deep within Mother Earth (Gaia is within Gaia 🙂 ) for about two and a half months. She went away before to do very intensive energetic work with and in support of the Earth, but returned once that mission was complete. And now has departed again and I await her happy news of another mission accomplished, however that results.

I love her unconditionally and it’s no surprise that the souls in animal companion suits that I (and they) chose to partner up with, are all very committed souls on a mission. Sounds familiar. 😉 And their deep, focused, and unrelenting truth of heart investment into who they are, is the best example and constant reminder for me.

I’ve never known anyone like them in this way.

Anyway, I hadn’t had a dream about Gaia in a while, which is where my animal companions communicate with me, but she did show up the night before last.

I do not remember the dream anymore, like I usually do, except for the fact that it was different from the others energetically and I saw Gaia in her vibrant joy. I have two specific images of her from the dream that keep replaying in my mind from when she and I first came together and lived at Lake Tahoe. They are the images you see here.

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Gaia looking out at Lake Tahoe from our home solarium, which was my office/art studio

So I know that wherever she is, she is wanting me to know that she is really happy and in her joyous truth, perhaps mission accomplished?, as well as wants to thank me and remind me of our beautiful friendship, since the images I see in my mind’s eye are from one of our favorite times ever together.

She likely is also remembering our anniversary, as where she is time is different than here and there are gaps in the sending of messages.

I believe she is reminding me of my own truth as well and the things she loves about me.

July 8th, 2008 is when she first came home with me and on the way home from picking her up, I received her name. So this is six years today that this amazing soul has graced this life I am living.

Six brings to mind the symbolism of this number and its spiritual meaning, which I’ve shared on before in my post Hexagons and Healings, since the number six is aligned with the Hexagon.

This includes six representing harmony, balance, soulful integration, perfect union, communication, sincerity, love, truth, enlightenment, naturally revealing solutions for us in a calm, unfolding manner, delicate diplomacy in sensitive matters, reliability, lighting our path in areas we require spiritual and mental balance, and encourages compassion and forgiveness.

These are perfect energies to feel into right now and so divinely reflect the relationship between Gaia and I, as well as focuses that would do the collective well to tune into and embody more.

I’m grateful for this reflection, as I celebrate the mutual love, respect, and honor shared between us. Thank you Gaia for being such a guiding light and powerful force, as well as for being so committed to supporting the Earth collective. I love you!

World Turtle Day – May 23rd, 2014


gaia-looking-out-solarium-wMany of you may not know that today is the observance of World Turtle Day and I have to say that even I had not been aware of it until recently.

Like any calendar-marked day, these are just extra awareness reminders that each day of our lives, and the lives of all creatures great and small, would experience greater well-being and conscious presence if we were always being mindful of the things these days bring to mind.

World Turtle Day has been sponsored yearly since 2000 by American Tortoise Rescue to encourage you to discover the world of Turtles and Tortoises with greater consciousness. It helps brings attention and respect to these amazing ancient Earth dwellers so that we can learn how to support them to keep thriving and bring knowledge to encourage ways of protecting their survival, as well as their disappearing habitats around the world.

Turtles and Tortoises are the world’s oldest creatures and they are also some of the most endangered animals on this Earth.

Many may not give much thought about the less than fuzzy, graceful, and more commonly embraced animals. But reptiles, amphibians, insects, crustaceans, etc. are magnificent creatures and some of the oldest to ever set foot on this Earth. Turtles and Tortoises must be doing something right, as they have been on Earth for over 200 million years – long before the dinosaurs.

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The Mystic by Tania Marie

The oldest known fossil of a Turtle is 220 million years old, known as Odontochelys. It has a plastron (lower shell) but no carapace (upper shell), as well as teeth.

The next oldest known fossil Turtle, had beaks but no teeth and lived in water – likely salt water. Tortoises are land Turtles that evolved from an advanced Emydid fresh water Turtle (a relative of the Red-Eared Turtle).

All-Creatures.org shares some great information about World Turtle Day and how you can help save Turtles and Tortoises for the next generation at their link I just included.

gaia checking out airAlso at the link above, Susan Tellem a founder of ATR, American Tortoise Rescue, shares:

“…These gentle animals have been around for about 200 million years, yet they are rapidly disappearing as a result of the exotic food industry, habitat destruction, global warming and the cruel pet trade. We are seeing smaller turtles coming into the rescue meaning that older adults are disappearing from the wild thanks to the pet trade, and the breeding stock is drastically reduced. It is a very sad time for turtles and tortoises of the world.”

Tellem and her Co-Founder, Marshall Thompson, also bring to attention experts’ predictions of complete disappearance of Turtles and Tortoises within the next 50 years. Some of the things that they recommend adults and children can do to help are:

  • Never buy a turtle or tortoise from a pet shop as it increases demand from the wild.
  • Never remove turtles or tortoises from the wild unless they are sick or injured.
  • If a tortoise is crossing a busy street, pick it up and send it in the same direction it was going – if you try to make it go back, it will turn right around again.
  • Write letters to legislators asking them to keep sensitive habitat preserved or closed to off road vehicles, and to prevent off shore drilling that can lead to more endangered sea turtle deaths.
  • Report cruelty or illegal sales of turtles and tortoises to your local animal control shelter.
  • Report the sale of any turtle or tortoise of any kind less than four inches. This is illegal throughout the U.S.

Since 1990, ATR has placed about 3,000 Tortoises and Turtles in caring homes. They also assist law enforcement when undersize or endangered Turtles are confiscated and provide helpful information and referrals to people with sick, neglected or abandoned turtles.

gaia-in-crystalMany of you know that I have a beautiful, gentle, and most magickal Russian Tortoise named Gaia. People may not be aware that my family used to have a Desert Tortoise, named Tee-Ta, and a Box Turtle, named Herman, for years when we were growing up. The two of them were fully outdoor Turtles/Tortoises. The Box Turtle not very social, but the Desert Tortoise Tee-Ta was amazingly social. She would come knock her shell on the sliding glass door to tell us she was hungry every day. She loved me feeding her by hand and was gentle not to nip my fingers. She listened and loved being caressed on her head and neck. When we moved Herman went to a friend who had many other Turtle friends for him to play with and Tee-Ta came with us to Sedona, where she still is.

Then Gaia came into my life in 2008 and I discovered yet another side to these amazing creatures.

gaia and meFrom the moment Gaia came home she loved being on my lap when I worked and would snuggle into my clothes. She loved coming by my feet, helping with my painting, looking out the window at Lake Tahoe, spending time curled up with electrical cords and by my computers, as she worked with Binary codes and enjoyed the vibrations that were like her way of communicating, loved all crystals and would climb inside my giant Amethyst, and constantly listened to me when I talked, stopping and cocking her head with her soulful eyes. She came into my dreams before I got her, and she has come into my dreams with messages many times after. She has also traveled to many places with me and been part of a lot of energetic work. She was an indoor Tortoise for almost all the time I’ve had her, until recently.

And if you’ve been following along, she had a magickal hibernation for the first time this year, but is also M.I.A. again now for the last month.

IMG_3451What I came to learn by having a Tortoise companion is how endearing, intelligent, and tender they are in ways people likely don’t think. Most people go for the cuddly companions and yet there are many homeless, abandoned, abused, and neglected creatures that would make wonderful friends, if you chose to take the time and presence to honor, listen to, and get to know them.

Something we could likely receive benefit from doing to everyone and all creatures we meet that are different than us or our pre-conceived ideas.

Today and all days I celebrate these ancient wonders of the Earth.

If you’d like to read more about the symbolism and wisdom of these magickal beings please visit my blog:

Gaia – Earth Mother and Turtle? Ancient Wisdom for Conscious Living 

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The Need To Be


I thought I had reblogged this beautiful post, but apparently it was meant to be today. Laura had shared it several days back, which brought it to my attention, but today as I was reflecting on the increased need over the years to be with myself and the relationship I have to the Earth and Cosmos, it came to mind again. And so I’m sharing it with you.

The message is simple, the photos inviting and renewing, and the poem…truly hits home in the heart.

As I head out here shortly for some time in nature – not sure where it will lead…to ocean or hills…I am in constant reminder of the partnership with Mother Earth that guides my heart and fuels my actions.

YES, I feel the joy of being in Nature.

Bealtaine Cottage ~ The Oldest, Independent, Permaculture Smallholding in Ireland! Conceived, Designed, Planted and Worked by One Woman!

www.bealtainecottage.comThere is a growing consciousness of need in humanity today.

The standing stone at Bealtaine Cottage February 2013There is an urgent need to be close to the Earth.

An early bee in April 2013 at bealtaine Cottage permaculture gardensMany of you feel this most powerfully.

April 2011 Earth Day at bealtaine cottage permaculture gardensMany of you are seeing the world for the first time…with eyes wide open, almost startled by the immense beauty of it all.

April 2011 Bealtaine 018The vibration of the planet is rising and has been doing so for several decades now.

April 2011 Bealtaine Cottage Laurel arch023With this rise in vibrational energy comes the Awakening of Humanity.

April 2011 bealtaine Cottage 033Do you feel the joy of being in Nature? 

April Bealtaine Cottage 2011 013Invocation
Gaia,
you who cradle uranium and the rose
in your arms–
in this vast mysterious universe,
my very bones belong to you.

You witness my love affair
with the tall grass, wind, fox:
my senses–your holy communion.

I stand on your soil
in sunlight, starlight, moonlight,
rain, eclipse and earthquake,
offering a timeless prayer.

I walk in the spirit of you.
Earth…

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Creating A Path Where There Is None


gaia3Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

This seems to be a theme in my life and likely, if not in yours yet, you may be pondering making your own way right now as well.

Some of the things that become important when you decide to blaze your own way, is to make a commitment, embrace responsibility, take action to back your words, believe and keep inspired, nurture courage and trust, let go of caring what others think, and follow your heart come what may.

gaia4Everyone right now is either creating their new path, in process of making the shifts to do so, are contemplating the idea, or are experiencing challenges because they are fighting what is in their hearts and the fact that time is up in terms of forcing the old to continue, or remaining in denial.

One of my greatest teachers in terms of determined focus, belief, and steadfast fortitude without fail or hindering faith, is my dear friend, Gaia (my Russian Tortoise).

gaia7Gaia knows what it takes to do what is in her heart and to follow through with a mission. She also has no concept of the word “impossible” – another important aspect to creating your own path where there is none.

Gaia will relentlessly forge ahead and doesn’t understand it when you say there is no “door” where she is determined to get through. She will sit for hours pushing forward into a corner of a room, because she believes she WILL get to where ever it is her heart is determined to go and she will create a door where there was none to the naked eye.

gaia5She also sees herself as much bigger than she physically is in this life, and I never have to be concerned about predator animals around her, as she will emanate an energy that blasts them so much, they go running off in the other direction.

Gaia cares not what you think of her, nor does she buy into the definitions and limiting boundaries you might place her in, given her size and chosen species she embodies in this life. She is unlike any tortoise you think you know.

She knows only her soul essence and its unlimited capabilities. She continues to operate from that all-knowing, all-being, and empowered Source.

gaiaGaia also daily demonstrates that she has a mind of her own and will create a path or bridge where ever she feels called. She doesn’t circle around a barrier to her determined path. She doesn’t move out of the way or let the path define her direction. She simply goes through, the way she feels is the most efficient way that supports her motivations and intents, helping me to see that where there is a will, there is a way and NOTHING can stop your burning belief and heart’s desires, except you.

I was inspired today by Gaia, to share these inspirations. Currently she is indoors again with us, as she showed up back on Earth’s surface a few days before I got back home from my vacation, and with the rains, she is enjoying staying cozy for the moment until she can go back out again.

This morning I watched her, as I often do, create her own path, piggy-backing over Joy’s enchanted stuffed rabbit friend, rather than walking around it. The photos you see are of Gaia creating a bridge where one may have thought there was none.

Gaia has no fear and simply follows her heart.

gaia2I also had a magickal little experience with her, as I said good morning to Gaia under my desk where she slept in her favorite place all night near my computer and the electrical wires. As I looked at her a glint of pixie dust lit both of her eyes so ever-slight and sparkly, lasting just a few seconds and then disappeared. Then again more faintly and disappeared. It was not the light, as there was none to shine, and the glints along with the look in her wide-eyes and very present awareness in that moment, spoke much to me.  She is often mostly asleep when I find her, but she was quite awake, alive with enchantment, and that sparkle spoke timelessly to me.

May you also be inspired by Gaia and other visionaries to create your own path where there is none.

Gaia – Earth Mother and Turtle? Ancient Wisdom For Conscious Living


In honor of my tortoise, Gaia, and our Earth Mother she is named after, I felt guided to repost this, which is an article I wrote for a Reno/Tahoe based publication while living there that was called “The Willow”. It was inspired by Gaia coming into my life and the dots I was connecting then. Given her recent journey and work in the depths of “Gaia” herself, this felt significant and a powerful exploration, as we journey through today’s potent Full Moon and explore the origins of our authenticity in balance with the natural rhythms. As we share expressions of our love today with ourselves and others, let us not forget our Mother Earth who gifts us in abundance every day of our lives. Love and reverence to ALL of life!

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Eternal Earth ~ Agate

Gaia is etymologically a compound word composed of two elements: Ge, meaning “Earth,” which is also a pre-Greek substrate word related to Ki in Sumerian, also meaning Earth and Aia comes from an Indo-European derivative meaning “Grandmother.” Therefore, the full etymology of Gaia was once “Grandmother Earth.”

Most of us know Gaia simply as Earth or Mother Earth; the primordial element from which all things originated, which is what the Romans believed as well. They knew Gaia, the Great Mother, as a single living entity that encompassed the totality of every element in the Universe; land, sea, or sky.

The Greeks knew her as an ancient primeval goddess who personified the Earth and whose emergence appeared at the creation of the Universe, born from Chaos. Gaia’s power was far reaching in Ancient Greece, making oaths sworn in her name to be the most binding of all.

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Gaia, Tattoos, Lapis Lazuli, & Expansive Shifts – The Journey Continues


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How I first found Gaia yesterday on 2/11/14

It has been quite the powerfully charged couple of days and it is feeling like something has shifted, not just personally, but in a collective way since 2/11. Synchronously, these shifts I’m feeling align with a couple of momentous experiences that took place that very day.

As many of you know, my sweet Russian tortoise, Gaia, has been “away” since Friday, December 27th, 2013. She suddenly disappeared from our yard and I didn’t see her until yesterday when she appeared just as magickally as she had gone. I knew where ever she was, she was where she needed to be and trusted that her choice to go was important and one to honor and support, leaving Divine unfolding to do its thing.

To many it would be thought that she had decided to hibernate, as that is what tortoises naturally might do at this time of year. But I never actually believed this was what was happening – at least not in the way that “other” tortoises and turtles do. I saw her departure as a self-induced state of physical suspension where she was able to focus on a collective mission at hand, which she could only do in this state. She had journeyed into Deep Earth – Gaia went to the depths of Gaia! And would not return until it was “mission complete” or there was reason to.

If you know Gaia, like I know Gaia, you’d come to understand quickly that she’s one determined being with the kind of tenacity and strength that will out-do anyone a 100 times her size. It is a great honor to be in the presence of such a magnificent being. I have great reverence for her and gratitude for all that she has been to me in this life and beyond.

Since Gaia had never actually hibernated in all of the time I’ve had her for the last 6 years, this was an unusual occurrence, in any event. But nonetheless, I released worry and trusted that all was well, however that may be. I didn’t need to know any more than I already did.

And so life went on this last month and a half, while I kept the communication channels open in case Gaia were to need anything or have a message for me.

During the last couple of weeks, I started to notice Joy, my rabbit, shifting from her usual spots in my office where she stays with me all day, to laying in the spots only Gaia used to hang out – under my desk near the CPU unit and all of the electrical wires and power cords. Gaia communicates in codes and binary, and likes to be near these kind of energy/power sources.

So, I started to notice Joy may be either in communication with Gaia, was missing her, or relaying a message to me. Like with anything, learning to interpret messages, signs, dreams, feelings, visions, etc. is a process. 😉 But my gut felt it was something in terms of communication – either communicating with, or awaiting communication from Gaia.

Then just this past Sunday, the 9th (2 days before Gaia’s appearance), I had a dream with Gaia. Gaia, Joy, and Nestor have all communicated with me in the past via dreams with some really potent accurate and clear messages that would “wow” you. My dream time is a very potent realm for me and one of my prophetic areas of life where I receive messages, do work, and prepare things for the physical world. The challenge always lies in the interpretation, but whether or not I immediately understand the message, it always ends up becoming clear later.

And I DO have very clear and detailed dreamscape experiences.

But on this night one of my dreams involved Gaia. She appeared in my dream and I could feel her working her way through something. I realized she was inside the bottom of the box spring mattress and had been wrapped in a maze of thin sheets of felt-like material that covered the bottom of the mattress and finally had found the hole from which she had gone through in the first place, and then emerged and started marching out of the bedroom and into my office. The word that stuck out was “veil” when I was seeing her surrounded by these thin sheets and then breaking through the “veil”.

I immediately was excited to see her and could tell she seemed disoriented and out of it. I brought her food in case she was hungry after being away for so long. She ate a little slowly and then seemed to gag, as her body was still needing to slowly assimilate from not eating for so long.

Then I awoke. I immediately felt the dream had been symbolic. That Gaia was trying to message me about something. Since “veil” had stood out, it at first felt to be her sharing that something was shifting and clarity would be coming – something would be revealed and no longer hidden or an illusion.

I still feel this is part of the message, although have now come to see the dream was also prophetic and her way of letting me know she was on her way back to Earth’s surface and to me. The reason the original message still holds is because I know Gaia was doing some very important collective work and there was a big shift not only I, but many others I spoke to, shared feeling had happened on the 11th – the day she appeared after her work was done. And many had expressed feeling something had been lifted, or a block removed.

(A little fun side note: I used to have a mattress and the box spring mattress had a thin felt-like sheet that was stapled across the bottom. Joy had ingeniously decided to bite open a hole in the bottom of it big enough to jump up into, and used to run along the bottom of the box spring mattress and lay suspended there above the ground, held by the felt material, like a bunny hammock. LOL! So there was a connecting factor to interpreting Gaia’s message to me that I see now later. She also likely had messaged Joy about her return and reminding me of this story of Joy, was to let me know she was fine and like bunny’s that burrow into their warren mazes, Gaia too would find her way out of the labyrinth from which she came.)

So then we fast-forward to Tuesday the 11th, a day that marked my having an appointment to get my final sacred tattoo. It was already a celebratory day, but little did I know how much bigger the celebration would get.

To add to the story and timing, I originally had an appointment for February 5th, but it had to be moved by my tattoo artist, and so now became 2/11. For me, personally, this aligned with being an 11/2 Master day numerologically, and collectively, also an 11/2 Master day. I also had previously had a plan to meet up for lunch with a dear friend of mine in LA before heading off to my tattoo appointment – a birthday gift to me from me. However, being that I was going to be away for 10 days, and I was falling behind on work I needed to get done before going, my responsible voice stepped in and said it was best to cancel my lunch date and stay home. This is not like me to cancel play dates, but I have learned I need to listen to my internal messaging, as there is always a reason, even if not fully grasped as to what it is at first.

But I did for some reason feel there was more to the reason to be home, although had no idea what it could be. Needless to say, I did end up getting everything I wanted done that day before I had to head out for my drive to LA and my appointment, and as I was rushing to eat some lunch before I left, instead of sitting at the table or eating in my office, as I might usually do, I decided to just stand at the kitchen counter so I could be quick.

As I was standing and eating, my left eye caught something in the distance outside. Now, to understand how divine this is, not only in timing, but where I was standing, there is only a very tiny portion of the yard that can be seen through the sliding glass door from this position. But the tiny portion, was exactly the portion I needed to see at that moment.

I noticed something round on top of the cedar chips along the perimeter of the yard. And suddenly I knew. It came over me like a warm rush, chills, and overflow of love – Gaia had returned! In that second, before I could even make her out fully yet from this distance, the entire meaning and bigger picture of it all rushed through me in full understanding, respect, honor, and gratitude, without my needing to describe it.

gaia returns (1)I started to tear up and joyful cries flowed. I then rushed out the door and ran over to greet my friend who had returned. And there sat Gaia, all covered in dirt, basking in the sun and resting from what must have been an arduous journey to get here from where she came, and to arrive at just this timing. (Another interesting fact is, as you can see in both photos, there is this grayish area among the cedar chips. This is a thin felt-like sheet that lines the perimeter where the cedar lays on top. Another reflection of the thin felt fabric – veil – in my dream)

I could tell she was out of it, disoriented (just like in my dream), and needing time to rest and integrate. So I telepathically communed with her, looked to see if I could find a hole where she might have emerged from, but could see nothing, let her be, but went inside to get some kale (just as I had in my dream) to put beside her in case she was hungry. When I returned, she had moved a little from where I had found her, as you can see in this photo, but she was not hungry yet.

I was overjoyed and felt not only excitement to see my friend, but was excited for, and proud of, her for the work she had been doing, and also grateful that she had returned in time to see me off before this momentous tattoo venture I was now going on. Everything felt so tied together, and since I don’t only see my tattoos as personal, but collectively connected, I again was breathing in the totality of the reiterating reflection of this through Gaia’s return and the connection with what I was about to do.

I knew the rest of the day would unfold seamlessly, that I was being guided and supported, and that what would come to be my “Spiritual Skin,” would definitely be “More Than Skin Deep“. 😉

And so I was off to my tattoo appointment (arriving there in an hour without an ounce of traffic), feeling the expansiveness of what had shifted and was activated this day. I had been feeling an expansion was upon me/us and that full click of the switch seemed to have ignited. Even when I got to my appointment, I found that James, the vegan tattoo artist here in LA, was in the process of expanding his shop, had now another artist sharing his space, and soon to be a piercer, as well as the breaking down of walls to push the shop out more and sharing a common space with the hair dresser next door. It was also the first time I met James’ partner, who was herself sharing of their daughter on the way in a couple of months – hence in “creation” expansion herself.

And all flowed more than well. My tattoo coming to life in the flesh in the magick and beauty I had envisioned and I couldn’t be more pleased with what is currently a new favorite I wear on my body with great respect and honor.

lapis-lazuliI know that all of my loved ones were with me, and it was also the first time I had brought with me one of my crystal friends along for the tattooing journey – a new and amazing! Lapis Lazuli that has become a staple part of my daily AND nightly experiences. I held my Lapis friend during my tattooing session, as he fits so perfectly and comfortably in the palm of my hand.

It is important to add that this Lapis Lazuli was also a birthday gift to me from me, which I had just purchased on February 6th. Until now I hadn’t owned any single Lapis. I just had a Lapis beaded necklace with Lapis Ankh. But I had an intention to one day have a special piece I could work with. And when I was at a local crystal shop just a couple of minutes from the house picking up something for a friend, at the last minute this Lapis Lazuli instantly stole my heart and I only needed to pick it up once and we were wed. 😉

Lapis Lazuli is an amazing stone of royalty and symbol of the starry night that always reminds me of my Egyptian roots. It’s a stone of inner truth and power, openness, mental clarity, intuitive and psychic awareness, magick, courage, manifestation, trust, hope, communication, good for writing and automatic writing, protection, and dream work – helping to bring information from dreams into waking life with wisdom.

Immediately I knew this Lapis was special and have slept with him under my pillow every night since bringing him home. The moment I did take him home and held him to my Third Eye, I was instantly provided clear insight on the last missing piece of a project I was working on. And that first night, and continuing forward, I had these enhanced prophetic, and detailed dreams. I only have to think of my Lapis and I get these clear images that flash in my Third Eye and bright light that illuminates.

I was with my Lapis the night Gaia communicated as well. 🙂 There seems to have taken place, an upgrade and enhancement to all things that were before, but in a new dimensional realm of experience.

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And even clarity on symbolism in my tattoo, just a couple of days before getting it done, came through in magickal ways with the presence of my Lapis friend. (I will likely do a separate post on my tattoo another time). For now, I’ll just share the image that is now worn proudly on my skin and that I am absolutely in LOVE with.

The image is of the triple rabbit symbol, but I wanted my rabbits to be more organic, with each rabbit being unique, and each having an otherworldly/human quality. They are layered over a Full Moon, which they are circling round, and that is spinning out of a galactic vortex, exploding with tiny magickal stars. And inside the center sits a sacred Ogham tree letter that holds layered meaning.

All of my tattoos are done in black and shades of gray, but this is the only tattoo that we added white to. James asked what I thought of that and instantly it was like he was reading my mind, as this was to be a special piece in so many ways, and by pixie-dusting it, was just the brush of enchantment it needed.

And if you recall from a previous post where I mentioned my getting this tattoo, the area where it now lives and breathes, had also shown up in a dream sequence experience where I had received an implant underneath the skin that felt to be preparing the energy. Interestingly, the implant was a shiny silver-shaped disk, which would mirror the shape of the Full Moon that now resides there – a Full Moon that will also be mirrored in tomorrow’s Full Moon in Leo on Valentine’s Day. 🙂

So now my tattoo is in healing, but there is another magickal piece to this story.

On Sunday, the day before I had the dream of Gaia, I was working on completing a tattoo design for a client. And that night, after I was done, I noticed that my right, drawing hand (same right arm I got my tattoo on) was sore right where my thumb joint connects to the rest of my hand. The design was the one I posted last, Galactic Butterfly Activation. Little did I know what all was really being activated. Lol! And makes sense, given the power of this symbol and the meaning it holds.

The next day, Monday, I awoke with more pain to my hand in that thumb joint area, but it was extending down a bit and in connection with the middle finger. And by Tuesday, it was really in pain and now had extended down along the top of my forearm and was getting numb as well. It hurt a lot to use my mouse and to type, or to write. So I was wondering if I would need to stay away from things for a long time (thinking good I’m going on vacation Saturday), as I don’t want to permanently damage one of my main tools I use for my work.

I remember it was at it’s worst when I was in the tattoo shop, and I massaged it whenever I had the chance. But there was great pain when I moved it and a lot of numbing.

But the next morning, after getting my tattoo on the very same arm, I woke and all pain was gone, leaving only a tiny stiffness in the joint and has continued today without the pain and numbing I had felt.

Was it the tattoo? Was it the old clearing and releasing? Was it the needle working like acupuncture? Or was it simply an energetic shift that was taking place on all levels through a culmination of all things, including the power of sacred symbolism to shift on a DNA level?

What ever one believes or doesn’t, I am living these experiences and their meaning for me is all that is important.

Yesterday was another extension of expansion that unfolded while I was teaching an intimate Reiki 3 Master Teacher Workshop. I found the timing of this to also be powerful, as originally this workshop wasn’t to be until March 5th, but had been changed by request. And coming the day after Gaia’s return, my tattoo, and before the Full Moon, was quite a day to say the least.

I was so happy to have Gaia arrive back for a Master Teacher training and the day of Trinity energy, mirroring my tattoo, was reflected in three women coming together – a new student, a past student, and myself – could that not also be like the Maiden, Mother and Crone? And I had my three soul companions around – Gaia, Joy, and Nestor.

Our experiences during class were like a seamless flow of synergistic weaving that was impeccably orchestrated. And even our conversations extended into the realm of the “three” energy, as we discussed the dynamics of the triangular field of experience from black, to white, to gray.

And it was now the second time that Joy did not physically join class, which again was part of the expansion that is taking place. Last class she had prepared the energy of the room, but left when the students arrived. Yesterday, she stayed in my office the entire time. I know it is the next level of our connection between myself, Gaia, Joy, and Nestor that is being messaged to me for how the work we will be doing is now to start unfolding.

They will always be with me, connected to me, and supporting me (just as I will be them), but we will not have to be physically together to do that. More and more we will just trust in the open channels and telepathic love we share that bridges all boundaries and empowers beyond measure.

But back to Gaia.

I’d like to finish this post with the most endearing, amazing, and precious moment of reverence and love I’ve had with Gaia – I’m tearing up right now writing this. The depth of meaning to all that has been unfolding and that does in my daily life, in general, I can’t possibly express. Yet, I know many of you understand in your own unique ways with all that you experience. So some things are simply left unsaid.

This special experience happened this morning. Since Gaia returned, we washed her up and brought her indoors. The first evening she spent on her heating blanket, then fell asleep on the cold tile, likely needing to moderate her body temperature back in stages. She remained out of it and still not eating. Next morning she spent on her heating blanket and still no food, but later during Reiki training, she came marching through and made her way to my office and I later found her asleep under the bottom of my wall tapestry of  Faery Queen Astranaithes – also known as the magickal Dragon Witch.

This morning when she woke up I brought her to her heating blanket and then put out some more food. This time she went to it and slowly ate several bites, taking her time to assimilate it. Then I watched what she wanted to do next, as I made smoothies and golden raisin, cinnamon scones in the kitchen. I saw her walk toward the door to the yard and looked at it, then went back to her heating blanket. I had a feeling she wanted back outside.

I went to go sit with her and check in. And this is when the most magickal moment happened.

I won’t be able to explain the magnitude, but I’ll just share what I experienced. I sat there with my hand, palm facing up, next to her, as I telepathically spoke to her. My hand started heating up like when I do Reiki and then Gaia slowly reached her right, front leg up and forward, letting it come to rest across my index and middle fingers where they connect to my palm. And she kept it there, as she then turned her neck towards me and stretched it as far as she could, looking me directly in my eyes, while we sat there – “holding hands”.

I was overcome with emotions hearing her saying thank you for everything, for trusting, and supporting her. All of the mutual respect, honor, gratitude and love we have shared through the ages all washed over us both in those minutes and we also were clear on how this journey would need to continue. I understood.

We were not only a human with her tortoise companion – leg in hand, but we were two souls meeting in our wholeness, as we recognized everything in that moment that was us and beyond us.

Tears rolled, as she then reached forward into my hand with her left, front leg and then slowly put half her body in my hand while again stretching to look up at me, asking me to lift and hold her up, as she once did for me. I held her to my heart and then knew she wanted back outside and wanted me to carry her there.

meandgaia1My special song is playing right now in the background, as I finish this. It’s a song I use to travel to another realm, many times with Nestor, Joy, and Gaia – a sacred and healing space. Perfect timing to be completing this story, as my CD is ending with song #11, which is my favorite for inner journeying.

And so Gaia has been outside since 8:30 am this morning and just a few minutes ago, while writing this, I went to check on her – finding her marching over the area, back and forth, where I had found her.

I came back and continued writing a bit, but felt to go check again.

I just returned and in full tears of a feeling beyond words, as the song is now ending, I can share that Gaia has returned to the depths of Gaia – our connection and understanding deepened in mirror to the depths she will be traveling. Again, her timing is impeccable.

Nature Spirits Revealing the Nature of You


The natural world brings you closer to the nature of you. ~Tania Marie

I love this enchanted, heart and portal-opening video posted by my faery sister and fellow visionary, Laura Bruno. We always seem to be on the synchronicity train and today the theme of that train was “Nature Balance,” which reveals the magic of creation itself.

I’ll just let you enjoy the images, as you allow yourself to surrender to the remembrance of who you are and All That Is.

Gaia Meets Mo – The Ancients Gather


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gaia and mo walk on by each other at first

On Memorial Day we took Gaia, my amazing little Russian Tortoise, out to beautiful Camarillo where we spent the day with family and this is their pictorial and video story documented (click on photos to enlarge). I had Gaia with me on a towel in the car by my feet and she was in her normal spunky mood, excited for the day ahead.

The plan was to introduce her to Mo (short for Mojave) the Desert Tortoise who has a beautiful outdoor sanctuary she lives in on the property. Mo has never seen another tortoise, as she hatched straight from an egg on her home grounds, and Gaia only saw little ones when she was a wee one herself, but hasn’t since for the last 6 years.

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buh bye….for now. gaia keeps walking on by mo

Gaia is 10 years old and Mo is 17 years old. We had no idea what would take place, but what did was such a beautiful bonding ritual that was an honor to watch.

At first when I placed Gaia in the sanctuary she marched on by Mo, not giving her a second thought or glance. Gaia is very very focused and seemed to be on a continued mission to explore these new grounds. Mo also did not give Gaia a second thought. Mo had just woken up however and Gaia, well, she simply was going to take things in her own stride.

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gaia decides to rest and reflect before her next move

We left them to do as they wanted and when I returned about 20 minutes later, Gaia had found a resting spot and she was in her famous snooze position with head propped up against the wall. Mo had retreated to her shaded pot to continue her nap.

So I let them be and then returned maybe a half hour to an hour later. And to my amazement, Gaia had left her resting spot to seek out Mo and the two of them were nose to nose communicating and nuzzling – Mo still in her shaded pot spot.

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gaia goes straight to mo’s resting spot after she’s had enough time to reflect and the communicating begins

From that moment forward, for the rest of the time we were there, Gaia wouldn’t leave Mo’s side and persistently tried communicating (in her Russian Tortoise way) with her by bobbing and twitching her head in a vibratory dance. I kept saying it was like “Morse Code,” which made perfect sense because Gaia is so extraterrestrial and communicates in binary-like language and is very tapped into the electrical currents and sound vibrations – a very complex little one she is. I happened to be talking with my faery sister Laura Bruno at the time and she jokingly said, “Mo – rse Code.” 🙂

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lots of love was shared between the two of them ❤

My sense was that Mo did not understand Gaia and Gaia, being the relentless persevering soul that she is, was eager and unwilling to give up trying. She had so much to share and was so excited to connect with Mo. Mo seemed very happy to be with Gaia too and regardless of the lapse in communication, their language of love was all that was needed to keep them connected and happy.

I even caught Mo one time, when Gaia walked away briefly, pump her own neck up and down slowly as if to try to imitate Gaia’s language and tell Gaia not to leave. It was adorable. And come back Gaia did and the two never left each other’s side for the rest of the day.

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gaia starts following mo

Gaia would follow Mo where ever she went, just two steps behind. If Mo moved forward, Gaia would too. If Mo stopped, Gaia stopped. If Mo took one step forward, Gaia mirrored the same. It was like a reflection of each other in perfect synchronicity. So, so cute.

And when they would stop, they would both explore each other, but mostly spent time nose to nose in deep communion of trying to communicate, and then just giving in to love nuzzling.

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and follows…and follows… 🙂

They are a good example of how unconditional love knows no boundaries, bridges hearts together, and exists without fear or judgment.

Tortoises and turtles teach us about turning within to listen to our instincts and that there is no such thing as time. We are simply experiencing the moment and to take it in stride and with patience, smelling the flowers along the way. They are ancient ones that have seen the shifts of ages and are deeply connected to Mother Earth and the cycles of life.

You may enjoy this post of mine about Turtle/Tortoise symbolism: Gaia – Earth Mother and Turtle? Ancient Wisdom For Conscious Living

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best buddies

It was so amazing to see these two ancient ones come together and interact. It was as if I was taken back into a timeless space and was getting the opportunity to remotely view, like a fly on the wall, this intimate little gathering.

I hope you enjoy the photos and short videos I took, so that you can experience the energy of this beautiful bonding that took place. It was sad to part them, but they are forever connected and will see each other next time we visit for another play date.

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