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You Are a Garden Worth Tending ~ Spring Growth, Earth Day & Scorpio Full Moon Reflections


You are the first garden you must learn to tend. There is no one else that can do this as well as you. How little or how much you care about this garden, shows. The kinds of things you nourish yourself with, how much you cultivate certain practices as important, and the things you choose to give energy to mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually will have an effect on how you show up in the world.

Life used to seem so complicated to me until I realized that I was the only one making it that way. By buying into all of these ideologies that were part of “this or that” ways of believing, I created a lot of nonsensical pressures that had absolutely nothing to do with the essence of me.

And yes, that included the spiritual realms I was drawn to move more into as I journeyed through life.

The bottom line that I learned, is that I never really wanted to belong or feel assured by any particular group or movement. I always had only desired to be contently me – just like Nature and the Cosmos both are.

Everyone has their own journey, but it took completely undoing myself, stripping away all the energetic debris that had brushed off of everyone onto me, in order to do that.

I still fully believe had it not been for jumping into an RV for a year and a half to immerse in nature, I would not be here still. And yet it’s also on that adventure into the unknown that literally the old story me walked out of my body in a river, and a new story walked in.

I would never be the same again, nor could I go back ever again – even if I wanted to.

Ever since then, I’ve been recalibrating what it feels like to be in this body with a fresh soul perspective. It’s taken time to feel things out, explore the possibilities to cultivate, and decide where to go from here.

Kind of like being a child all over again, but having a different level of consciousness.

It’s much like my garden after Winter’s frost and snow.

Everything is fertile, lively, and jubilant to feel the warmth of the Sun, wiggle, stretch, and unfurl every inch of life loose from the soil, see what will be possible in terms of abundant growth, wonder what will bloom or what will wait to gain greater strength for the next season or year, and what just goes all out to create the most incredible burst of life right here and now.

With less than two years until I turn 50, I see what the previous me who was just starting out in body then, had felt all along about this time period of my life. I always experienced things as if I was outside of myself watching myself go through everything and although knew better, relinquished to the feeling of purpose it all had to just go through it. I felt on some level that the real choices and freer me would begin in the latter half of my life.

That earlier life was both a mirage to keep me occupied and undo patterns and illusions, while things in the world were playing out, and also an intricate labyrinthian journey to the center of me.

I was on a complex crash course so I could re-enter the world with simplicity.

Stripping down to the bare me.

And literally unzipping my body suit so that a whole new emanation of myself could slip in upon the old one’s release.

Every time I look at my garden – each season, each day, and several times a day – I see this release taking place in every moment while new life steps in.

There’s reason my garden is just steps outside of my creative space and office. There is a mirroring that takes place every minute I make a new choice.

I find it easier and easier to let go of things and make peace my daily goal. I experience the simplicity of life unfolding as its own work of art at every stage. I finally feel comfortable in my skin in a way that both honors my human expression that I decided to have at this time on Earth AND my Cosmic connection that merges with me daily in gratitude for the opportunity to experience it all and live out the potentials I can contribute with others to create.

It’s as if both the land all around us where we live – the forests, mountains, lakes, and meadows, as well as the land I’m nurturing into a garden and yard while also supporting its wild, raw nature to do as it pleases, have become one with me.

And the more I drop into that deeper connection within, the more I seem to physically change alongside Nature, naturally.

I love to adorn myself like my flowers and join the dance, but I also love to be raw like the soil, rocks, bark, and moist sprouts. I feel whole in any expression, but only walk in expressions that are me in every moment of my wild heart’s resonance – not for anyone else and not to mirror anyone else.

We are each our own flower and plant within the garden of life – no less or more than any other. Yet, what the land, Nature, and Earth teach us, is that great care is needed to support a thriving, harmonious and abundant garden.

Yes, that’s you!

It’s amazing how much of that rainbow and portal energy keeps showing up in photos, as you’ll see below, especially when I’m out being with all of it, standing stronger in my essence, nurturing myself alongside my copartnering outdoor realm, and adding recognition of the magick that is here with little touches of enchanted beings and portals of my own.

I mentioned that I would share some photos of the yard and garden before things really start to emerge and today’s Earth Day felt like the best time to do that, along with messages of tending to our inner and outer gardens as being equally essential and worth the devotional investment.

I like to document the before and after and to see how much things evolve from onset of one season to the next.

I’ve taken these photos in this post over a period of the last two to three weeks, during which several new friends have joined the garden.

Most of them are solar lights, as I truly love the twilight and night magick they create, but some are simply sweet souls who spoke to me. Some I’ve already shared, so I’ll only introduce the new ones.

We have this cute little blossom snail who lives near one of the new solar faery houses at the pathway entrance.

Then there’s these ever-precious ones – a rabbit riding a tortoise. I just HAD to bring them home as they remind me of Joy and Gaia who were best friends and I really was feeling my Russian Tortoise, Gaia, needed to be part of the garden here along with the rabbits and magickal beings. They are so life-like, it’s truly endearing.

Incredibly, but not surprisingly, look at the energy that showed up RIGHT after I placed them by the gnome and faery portal door at the base of one of the guardian trees where there are also crystals laid in the ground as a path in front of the door.

It took me a little while to hear where they wanted to go, but I think they’re happy here, don’t you?

Then there’s this beautiful mushroom blossom solar light that sits to the right, next to the pathway.

It has a monarch and poppy – like the ones that grow in my garden – on top.

And last, this gorgeous, enchanted moon faery with solar light orb. I just love how she’s holding a star and blowing it a kiss.

And of course you already saw these two twin white bunnies who are ever-so wonderfully overseeing the growth of my yellow lilies.

It’s one happy, secret faery garden family! And still growing!

I have many ideas that are incubating like the seeds beneath the soil.

Check out all these happy wildflower babies reaching for the sunshine!

The rainbow energy and portals seem to confirm a Cosmic smile of the harmony being created here too.

And the forest animals are all expressing their happiness as well. Their fountain and bowl are filled regularly with fresh water, which brings every variety of bird in for baths and drinks, along with chipmunks and squirrels enjoying a nice refreshment too. There’s a chickadee couple that loves to visit me when I’m out watering the garden, but it was this Steller’s Jay just two days ago that was the sweetest.

Usually the Steller’s Jay are much louder and like to boldly vocalize their dominion over certain spaces or at least express their boundaries and voices. This one started off talking in similar fashion, but the tone was different and wanted my attention. Then when he knew he had it his voice softened into what would be similar to a cat’s purr. It was a little bit like a sweet cooing that doves and pigeons make, but more. It reminded me of our parakeets that would fluff out and nuzzle into us warmly with affection. This was a cuddly sweet talk that felt like he was so happy and if I’d been on the branch with him, he would have snuggled into me and expressed his joy.

A love song and dance perhaps? He was definitely quite comfy and pleased.

Equally pleased is the yard out front that’s in a dance of yellow daffodils and wild dandelions right now with even more still on the way that are on their own blooming timelines. We have a large tree on the lawn that will be surrounded by blooms soon, which will look like a faery ring. These current daffodils followed my late Winter, pre-Spring, birthday purple irises. And there will be tulips coming soon too. I intend to plant a ton more bulbs come Autumn.

Step-by-step things evolve.

I spent time clearing the yard and garden, tidying old growth up, and planted a ton of wild flower seeds in the garden to add to all the wild growth already sprouting like crazy. Tiny clover is beginning to return on the lawn in patches. I’m looking forward to seeing it all filled in again. For now, this is a transitional time period where the brown and dried remains of Winter turn over, mirroring our own in between phases.

I’m still waiting for my favorite store to get in their herbs, veggies, and flowers, so I can add some things to my Garden Tower and garden. For now, I did find four little sweet basil plants I added to the Tower for Astrid and they smell SO good.

Well, all of what’s already growing back in the Tower does. The sweet basil is doing really well alongside all of the lovely regrowth from last year of mint, lavender, strawberry plants, wild flowers, thyme, parsley, and other herbs. The basil plants are the only new babies I’ve planted so far. Everything else you see everywhere is what’s naturally coming in on its own.

Incredibly, I even have two baby pine trees that have decided to make the Tower their incubation realm. They’ve been growing there since last Spring. I even have a couple more growing in pots. If they actually are able to stay healthy and strong, I’ll likely let them grow a bit more and then try to transplant them. They seem happy for now though with their friends.

Perhaps the tree frog that made the Tower her home last year wanted her own forest here too. πŸ™‚ I hope she’ll return.

Here in the mountains things take a little longer since temperatures are colder longer and more variable, but there are always those plants and blooms who like to do their own thing and just go all out when ever they please – just as I mentioned before.

We actually had a little snow last night that I saw remnants of on the deck railings, rain the night before, and some snow a day or two before that. It all melts immediately, but things are not predictable here.

Every one of these plants and blooms has a little bit of me in them and vice versa. So, too, does the variety of terrain in the mountains that we have. Even the weather mirrors my own shifting waves of energy and wild unpredictability. We share a symbiotic relationship and the more increased time I spend outdoors, which is daily as it is, the more I relax into me.

And the more me I am, the easier it is to ride any energy currents that flow in and out around me.

The more me I am, the more easily I recognize what is me and what is not me.

The more in touch with myself I feel, the more I can handle things that pop up and they aren’t so surprising.

The more I tend to the garden of me, the more peace, flow, vitality, and compassion I experience.

Our Spring Scorpio Full Moon on this coming Monday night of the 26th is going to be a Super Pink Moon – the first Supermoon of the year.

This could be a more difficult and deeply emotional or triggering Moon to navigate through due to the challenging planetary aspects surrounding it that may bring to surface some unexpected things. With Sun in Taurus and Moon in Scorpio right now, we are being prompted to look at the contrasts of form and transformation, personal joy with the simple and sensual aspects of life and the intangible complexities of shared things, building and comfort and destruction and change, and how we can find balance with these.

This is a time for going deeper and exploring our values and the far-reaching effects they have. While we are in a Taurus cycle of grounding spirit in flesh, Scorpio then calls up the mysterious, secretive, and repressed so that we may need to be more vulnerable in order to understand ways of finding peace within ourselves even when the world seems upside down, or when we are being called to deconstruct, let go, and recreate what we thought was the holy grail of our lives.

The more we can tend our inner gardens, the more we understand the Nature of things and how to partner with them more effectively, if in fact we desire seeing a more thriving world and Earth.

Be bold, brave and unafraid to create those massive Cosmic ripples – this was yesterday’s message from Bald Eagle.

This last photo is from yesterday’s bike ride. The day before, while riding along the lake, I had a vision of Bald Eagle flying near, although did not see one with my eyes. This continued when I was sun bathing on the deck later, feeling Bald Eagle close and like he could land on the roof any minute. Little did I know that the next day we would actually have a visit.

When we arrived to the lake we biked to Dave, who didn’t know I had been thinking about Eagle, asked “When was the last time we saw that one Eagle at the lake here?”

At that moment Eagle flew overhead and landed in the tree across the lake. You can catch glimpse of him here with a second Eagle to the left in the shadows.

I love stuff like that.

When we’re in tune with ourselves, everything conspires in unison.

Eagle symbolizes freedom and courage to look ahead, the value of vulnerable truth and revealing honesty, liberation, electrifying inner vision clarity, embody the Spring, dawn, and new life, and to Native Americans are Earthly incarnations of the Thunderbird spirit who shoots lightning bolts from her/his eyes to invoke revitalization, rebirth, creation, and transformative healing. Eagles carry the messages of spirit and are the divine channels to receive these from.

A perfect messenger for this time of year, the upcoming Full Moon, and the unfolding energies on the planet right now.

Happy Earth Day!

Whimsical Wednesdays ~ The Artist’s Corner: Wondrous Gifts from the Elemental Realm


Who better an artist to highlight whimsy, magick, wisdom, and harmony all woven imaginatively together, than the Earth Spirits themselves? Today’s short share brings to light how the Elemental Realm has been so sweetly showering us with surprises here in the days leading up to our wedding, and how much delight it has been to receive these generous and thoughtful gifts.

My sweet friend Mari pointed out how our Forest Portal Faeries are having a joyous time making sure that there’s a continuation of celebrations leading up, on, and following the big day – remarking on how they enjoyed sprinkling the sparkly powdered dust to create extra snowy enchantment that they know we both love.

The magickal snow seemed to enchant the garden too, as right after, my yellow lilies began to bloom right outside of my office and shared room with Astrid.

They evoke such joy, warmth, inspiration, purity and light heartedness. Seeing them makes my heart smile and believe in happy endings.

They anchor the path along with the welcoming yellow daisies in my garden and create a beautiful aura of energy in synergy with all my pink, peach, purple and white foxgloves blooming.

I have beautiful little blue faery flowers also blooming in the rock garden to the right of the lilies creating a lovely contrast.

I can’t wait until all the rest of the flowers burst with joy. I saw my first pink rose bud pop up at the same time the yellow lilies opened and all the wildflower plants and clover we seeded are all growing wonderfully too.

It’s the little things that make a difference.

The late morning before the surprise snow fall, we went on a crisp walk along the lake where I found four large geese feathers and another beautiful great horned owl feather.

Alongside the refreshing winds of change and clarity that day, these treasures were very meaningful.

There’s also continued to be a lot of new adventure hikes revealing inspiring vistas, sweet beauties, and unusual hidden things for my wondering heart to enjoy.

This included finding the largest sugar pine cone I have yet to discover at nearly two feet long from stem to end.

It’s exactly 21 inches! I thought the one I already have sitting on my desk was big, but this one towers over it nearly 6 inches more! I learned from another friend that pine cones were the first flowers so they carry ultra ancient wisdom and energy.

I looked it up and found amazing scientific information on it dating back 130 million years ago! Incredible! Also interesting is “the likelihood that a single male cone was responsible for the world’s first flowering plants owing to the elasticity of their genetic structure.

I knew some of the symbolism of pine cones, but this info really put a new spin on them for me. I even read that in 1244 BC in Egypt they found an Osiris staff with pine cone at the top entwined by serpents rising up to meet it. The pine cone is associated with the pineal gland, spiritual consciousness, enlightenment, and eternal life. To be gifted such a huge one is something else.

The largest pine cone found according to the Guinness World Record is also a sugar pine at 22.9 inches. So, yes, I’m quite in awe by this massive cone gift that now sits beside my other one on my desk bringing in the ancient wisdom and forest energy to my creative space.

Other fun finds and sweet gifts have been little faery bell wildflowers, tons of lady bugs landing on us, swallowtail butterflies dancing between us, serene lush beauty that provided a natural healing

attunement for me during a solo hike on Sagittarius’ Full Moon Lunar Eclipse, a dreamy spot

where you can swing from a tree overlooking inspiring beauty, an incredible little cabin hut

someone is building off-trail out in the middle of the forest, and a carved stump made into a mini throne/chair also found hidden in the forest.

But these Earth Spirit gifts are not just for my/our eyes alone.

Earth Spirits show up in our lives to teach, guide, nurture, heal, inspire, and so much more.

They are way-showers to self-nourishment, living in harmony, stability, and abundance, and showing up responsibly and compassionately in cocreation with all life and consciousness on Earth.

The Elementals of air, water, fire, earth, and ether are spirits that embody varying forms of energy to assist with different aspects of life. Within each Elemental family there are varying creatures, beings, tree, plant, mineral – crystals, rocks, and stones – spirits, and life forces that help us to understand our place within the rhythms of nature and this world.

We can learn and receive so much from the subtle and potent messages they bring us that ultimately fine tune us to both our Earth and Cosmic selves.

They offer us ways to feel lighter, more flexible, listen within and trust, support greater creativity, imagination and inspiration, help us to clear and balance, experience more grace and flow, learn the secrets of transformation and purification, increase our vibrancy, awaken our dynamic nature, pave a way for clearer communication with all life forms, provide soulful illumination, meld instincts with heart guidance, strengthen and ground our life force energy, and overall guide us to raise our vibration and live in greater alignment.

As we open our hearts more to all that is going on in the world, let us not forget we have powerful allies within the Elemental Realm, too, that show up in the most wondrous of ways.

Monday Musings ~ The Writer’s Corner: Magickal Rituals & Tales from the Forest Portal


While I’m immersed in painting portal flow working on an author’s book cover, creative writing has been coming through me in small channeled snippets during a mini novel break. I love how everything interweaves together and supports the other. So, in my own short book hiatus, I’m still very much writing and book focused, with simple musings and artistic inspirations. These are two recent channelings that came through, inspired by the forest and my enchanted garden, which I shared on Instagram and compiled together for my sweet blog friends. I hope you enjoy and/or find your own inspirations from them. One friend called the tree channeling a magickal spell in ritual. In both musings, the words glided through me, but were both me and not me. Enjoy.

INVITATION TO THE GRAND SUMMER BALL

The flower faeries are beginning to appear and invitations to the Grand Summer Ball have gone out.

Some can hardly wait and have thrown on their gowns while they make preparations.

They are the way-showers for all the new faeries of this realm and ensure pollinator guests for when they make their appearance.

The mainstay perennial hosts have returned with vigor and in some cases multiplied with glee. They are cycling in intervals with many yet to bloom and others taking the plunge into early brilliance. They encircle the enchanted garden bed – the ballroom stage for this yearly celebration – awaiting the tiny green shoots newly seeded this year that carpet the realm.

You can’t make them out, but I assure you they sprout with glee to reach the sunshine and join the dance. Sparkling butterfly and dragonfly guardians decided to watch over the garden this year too, and send out beacons to all their family, inviting them to what could likely be the biggest celebration this realm has yet to see.

There’s even been an addition to the serving stations to ensure all forest creatures can easily hydrate during the jubilee. Alongside the larger standing water bowl and bath anchored with a quartz crystal center, there’s now a small sunflower dish with bird hosts watched over by a pair of rabbits with solar succulents that light the way for forest creatures of the in between hours. In this way the ground dwellers like rabbits and mice can sip of its contents, while the birds, chipmunks, squirrels, raccoons, and opposums can continue enjoying the higher water station.

There is much excitement and many whispers throughout the land, calling in the seen and unseen creatures of the forest portal.

Summer Solstice is near and everyone is doing their part to make it a beautiful celebration.

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GREAT TREE

Oh Great Tree your roots carry the whispers of times forgotten, your branches see times yet to come, and yet your strength is in the presence you bear witness to unconditionally.

You are a portal to your Mother, The Cosmic Tree, through which multidimensional experience is woven.

Pressing my heart to yours I remember. 

Nature is Helping Me to Embody the New


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I thought I’d hop on briefly after being away from blogging the last ten days, just to share some of the beauty, special moments, and reflections I’ve experienced during this time. Maybe you’ve felt similar things or this little burst of nature’s inspiration may be exactly the breath of fresh air for you right now. In any event, I hope that you had a beautiful Summer Solstice, however you chose to welcome it in.

I’m still spending most of my time within the inner landscapes, but that is reflected in an increased deepening with nature and immersing even more in her realm.

This mirrors the time we lived in the Magick Bus exploring nature and National Parks for nearly a year and a half when life called me in a new direction. It’s only now that I’m getting what it all meant and where the embodiment of that change was leading.

It’s almost been like getting my feet wet again in body, from what was a resurrection of sorts from the waters of life – actually most literally. I have needed the last couple of years to reacquaint myself with things from a new perspective, which has had me dipping in and out of some things from before, tried out in the now.

Some clothes just haven’t fit, either feeling too tight or too loose – meaning they were still too tied in with the past and the energy I had completed, or they were so new that I wasn’t sure how I felt about them and hence all the extra room to explore.

It’s been a time of allowing what ever wants to move through, letting go of to-do’s, and softening the reflections so that even my process with things doesn’t mirror how I used to process stuff. Life is a soft and gentle focus now. In this way, not only will what ever the new is that comes through be different than before, but the journey will be too.

I find it important for me that nothing mirrors the past, although can weave in the possibilities it held.

It still feels very fresh and I’m only beginning to immerse, as last week was more about the surrender, continued nurturing, and letting nature guide me.

So, with Solstice ringing in Summer, there’s been a ton of outdoor activity. It started Wednesday of last week while we explored a new hike to Cascade Falls – a shorter one, but climbs technically quite a bit. That felt invigorating and perfect for allowing the flow just like the gushes of water cascading down the mountain. Both the climb and the being with the water were perfect metaphors for things.

That same day we went to Baldwin Beach – another new beach for us. There, a mother duck and her seven ducklings visited and after they explored the higher activity of people down a ways from us, they came to rest in peace in front of our umbrella. Another beautiful reflection.

Thursday was a very special day – the two year anniversary of Astrid’s coming home to me at the gateway of Solstice. That’s what these first three photos celebrate. Since Astrid is such a huge part of this new life journey for me, I felt it important to capture some beautiful moments between us in the forest portal backyard of our house.

She was a surprise to me, but as I navigate this next part of my life, Astrid is my greatest guide. Where I have no example for the new I reinvent, she emulates the potential I most admire.

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I love this photo below where she and I look merged as one – almost creating a Yin/Yang effect in how her body curves into mine.

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Solstice is a very special time of the year for me ever since three years ago my beloved bunny, Joy, transitioned through its portal on that day in a place very dear to me – Montana. She and Astrid came from the same rabbit rescue and I feel that their entering and exiting at this gateway is significant.

The Mayans celebrated Solstice for spiritual initiation and change, creating ceremony to be in harmony with the Earth and Cosmic energies.

I remember the words from my dear shaman friend Amaru in Peru, “Nokan Inti Kani” – meaning “I am the Sun.”

Solstice extends an invitation to join the Sun’s energy and connect with your Higher Self, follow inspiration and dreams, and tune inside to the alchemy of “as within, so without.”

I find nature to be that gateway for me, as are my rabbit companions, and the Cosmos.

The Solstice gateway gifted me this beautiful golden hawk feather that I’m so grateful for.

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So every day since Wednesday, nature time increased with tons of mountain biking, hiking, and beach time, as well as late afternoon/evening gardening time upon returning home from the physical activity.

To say I slept well is an understatement, as the deepening into body and moving a lot of energy in a grounding way was both nourishing and took me through cycles of decharge and recharge.

Solstice saw us in Squaw Valley where I enjoyed an intentional walk in the gorgeous meadows by myself anchoring in that new while Dave enjoyed his last day of skiing on the first day of Summer. You’ll see photos below of how beautiful this area is, reminding me of both the Swiss Alps (where I haven’t yet been, but seen photos of) and adored Iceland, as well as my favorite spots in Montana.

Seventeen miles of biking along the Truckee River that day was a way to move the energy and flow like the river.

Twenty two miles of biking the next day continued moving that energy along more gorgeous vistas.

All the while during each ride, allowing visions, thoughts, and feelings to flow, as my body did the integrating.

Two back-to-back hikes to different lakes Sunday followed by a vegan potluck picnic provided continued anchoring and as I said, each day I’d come home and plop myself in the garden planting perennials to create a low maintenance, inspiring, and beautiful backdrop that blends wild with a little intention.

I promised the Faeries of the land many things when moving here and I’m happy to create a special sanctuary for them to play in.

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I’ll share more of the front and side gardens, as things blossom, but for now here are my beautiful Portulaca blooms that I adore!

The forest out back is in early stages of bloom, but as you can see they are already creating a welcome carpet to our home for the Faeries.

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I just love how the wildflowers are blooming with joy everywhere – and it’s just the beginning. They feel like a love spell on my heart.

And as you can see from the below photos of Squaw Valley meadows, the Truckee River, and Cascade Falls, there’s been an abundance of inspiration all around from Mother Earth – the best nurturer there is.

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As mentioned, I’m just beginning to immerse into a new realm of exploration within, so all of these good nature vibes are very nurturing to the vulnerable parts feeling safe to come through.

Because I feel that I haven’t much example to draw upon for that new, I feel nature provides me the best template and reflection for the journey.

Cultivating the garden is also very supportive, as my heart guides its creation in reflection of me as well – mostly wild, with woven threads of cultivated pockets that create synergy and harmony.

This last Wednesday I went to my third meditation group meeting that ended in a lovely picnic dinner at the beach with everyone who joined, however I feel it will likely be my last time going (at least for now) because I’m clear my work at home is more aligned for me at this time. I did leave the group with a few book recommendations to help with the “self love” topic, so they at least have some tools for any exploration they may decide to embark on past this month’s theme.

I feel called to explore on my own for now, dipping in and out when the moment calls.

The good news is (at least to me), I feel like I’m in greater alignment with the new path I’m creating than I was before. Remember I mentioned those clothes that felt too tight or too big and loose?

Energetically the ones that felt too big are now taking root and feeling more like home.

And on the literal, tangible level, the continued cleansing of, and weeding through, my closet leaves me with what feels to be the perfect essence of a place I now feel comfortable in heading to.

What’s fascinating is that the five Portal Paintings that found their new home, only just departed from Nevada on the Solstice – Yes! The Solstice of all days! Talk about divine alignment. Even though I dropped them off a week and a half earlier, they didn’t get crated and shipped out until then and so that also feels reflective of this anchoring in and clarity beginning.

The whole wild journey to get them to that point has mirrored so much of the changes I’m going through.

I’m excited for them to arrive in their new home across the country in Athens, Georgia with their amazing co-guardian where they will be open to anyone who wants to visit and meditate/work with them. This new home is being created into a form of a mini healing center welcome to people wanting to immerse in a conscious journey. As things evolve with that, I’ll keep you posted. It’s a way that people can experience them and more, and if at some point they are ready to journey on, they will be available via that portal.

I leave you now to return to my garden so I can complete the last planting I didn’t get a chance to finish yet. It feels integral to the next phase beginning.

What I love is that although the future is unknown and the vision is yet to be seen of how things look, the journey is so much more gentle and peaceful. There are those ebbs and flows, but it’s all naturally unfolding if I listen, allow, honor, and observe.

Do you experience reflections in your life that mirror the changes you’re going through?

My guess is we all do and if we stop to observe things, we’ll see it and make those connections.

If not, how might you create intention around something – like a project, gardening, etc. – to embody the potential you’re being guided to?

It will be interesting to see where the journey leads all of us.

Summer’s Here!


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Taking a quick little break to share with you my Solstice Iris that bloomed on Summer Solstice yesterday and to just share a little bit of light on this beautiful day. This is likely my favorite gateway and likely due to Joy’s and Astrid’s connection with it, was feeling a bit nostalgic, especially with preparation for tomorrow’s Reiki workshop, which Joy used to always help out with. Seems she had a little gift for me, as I feel her energy in this Iris.

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I had no idea what kind would bloom, or even if any would, but what a gift! As you may recall, Laura sent me Iris bulbs all the way from Michigan, and I planted them when we got this house last Fall. And voila! This one finally bloomed and what an exotic beauty surprise she is! So far, only this and the purple Iris I already shared, from out back, are the ones that bloomed. We have many backyard Iris plants that were surprises from the previous owner, and about five that I planted out front. I will likely get some bulbs again this Fall and plant more of them and the Daffodils all about.

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I have had a busy day and week, so I did take a little garden break on this Summer day to get that balance (so key), sunshine, grounding, watering, and intention planting in. I planted some more Lemon Balm, some “Ring of Fire” Sunflowers, and the best yet (because I LOVE the name, as it’s so me!) Wee B Little Pumpkins!! Omgosh, don’t you just want to giggle?! When I saw the name I said I of course HAVE to have those even though I’ve never had pumpkins before. But wee pumpkins?! WEEEEEEEEEE!

Everything’s doing amazing and growing back quickly from my last harvest a few days ago. I have strawberry blossoms happening, broccoli galore, my tomato plants I saved that nobody wanted are doing well, and their tomatoes are growing.

Anyway, yesterday’s Summer Solstice was lovely and as you know I shared two magick offerings of a crystal from Astrid, and a crystal wand from myself. Astrid’s crystal has been spoken for by the sweetest guardian (love that it went on the Solstice), but the wand still is available for the right person it calls to. Always extra goodies will be added too, as you never know what’s up my sleeve! πŸ™‚

We also celebrated the end of the Gratitude Giveaway and I’ve been enjoying seeing the emails pour in today and last night from all of the people who joined – 41 in all, as some last minute people jumped in. A couple of people dropped out due to being too busy, but still shared they had an incredible time while they did it and enjoyed the presence it created in their life that they would like to carry forth, so that makes me happy.

Yesterday also closed out the pre-registration to our “Living a More Magickal Life” workshop with Laura and I. We now only have officially 5 spaces remaining of the 12 total. You can still register until 9/15. I know there are a couple of people intending to do so, so just keep in mind although it’s still 3 months away, we could fill. Everything always works out perfectly and it’s a wonderful group we’ll have for this intimate gathering. We’re excited, as Laura just booked her trip so we’re looking forward to the whole energy of that Equinox and Full Moon week.

And last, I will leave you with the song my sweet bunny, Cosmo, and I share as “our song,” which feels perfect for now and the energy I feel.

Okay, I’m off and back at things. I won’t be back on until Monday when I’ll be sharing the 11 recipients of the Giveaway then. Stay tuned! Have a wonderful sunshiny weekend!

Faery Succulent Fun!


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So, I became a mom to 107 new succulent babies that arrived yesterday! Yay! Added to my 28 already that are part of Faery gardens and topiaries that makes 135! These new ones are part of “project decoration” for my office/faery/bunny/cosmic magick creation and play room to come. Can’t wait! Will share the finished product when complete. 🌱 

It’s not a number I planned or anything. It just turned out that way and I kind of like the 9 energy of it creating a full cycle. There may be more to come, but for now these should do.Β 

And today I got word that the second part of “project decoration” has shipped out and is on the way. All of this, plus some other things all seem to be coming together in perfect timing, as I haven’t been able to set up my room yet, but will be able to in the next week or two.

I LOVE succulents and find them so easy and fun to love and nurture, and with a very short growing season here in Lake Tahoe, I’m much more apt to create indoor Faery gardens as extensions of the Great Outdoors brought indoors, than spending tons of time with that externally except for simple things, rock gardens, and such. Especially since I spend so much time out in Nature.

Besides, I have a whole forest as my backyard, so everything is naturally manicured by Mother Nature.

So my intent is to create my room like an indoor Faery garden itself and like an extension of the forest, inside with portals and fun, so that when I AM inside and working on creative projects, I will feel like I’m out in Nature still and in my own creative, cosmic reality.

Faery fun soon to begin! WEEEEE! Can’t wait!

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Faery Succulent Garden Update


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It’s been incredible to watch my mini magickal gardens expand and flourish in just six and a half months since first creating them. I didn’t realize how fast these succulents would grow, but I now have these mini enchanted Faery forests. I think I only lost one along the way, and have added a couple of new ones (one gifted and one I couldn’t resist), as well as transplanted/moved a couple to increase density since some have been reaching for the sky and leaving sparse areas down below. Just incredible!

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I’ve since added some new treasures to them as well that I’ve found along travels and here in Tahoe (some from our new backyard forest).

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I love them so much and can’t wait to create my new sacred space with them, along with the new tortoise and rabbit topiaries I have, my Lamb’s Ears, and a new magickal addition – all of which you’ll see as the space is created.

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For now, I thought it would be a fun quick share to show you how much these have grown and what is possible even if you don’t have an outdoor garden, the time, or feel you have a green thumb. Succulents are a sweet and easy way to create Nature’s harmony in your home.

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You can see the original post here for comparison:

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Faery Succulent Gardens


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It’s been a very busy time, but balance is important to keep your vitality on high, so in the middle of it all I stopped to take time to create these beauties and felt to quickly share them to spread their energies of inspiration, creativity, planting seeds, manifesting intentions, magick, love, and harmony. I’m SO in love with my mini Faery succulent gardens I can’t take my eyes off of them and so I’ve surrounded myself with them!Β (They’re even more lovely in person) I had exactly the perfect time needed yesterday to create these magickal little sacred garden sanctuaries for our space with intention to create a more inviting energy for my Faery friends, for this Faery’s writing inspiration, and to welcome the new bunny love that will be entering my life in June. They’re created with 15″ diameter Faery garden mossy baskets, lined with succulent/cactus soil, planted with perfectly placed succulents, covered with Reindeer Moss, Clump Moss, Spanish Moss, Forest Moss, Faery Bark, Crystals, Sea Glass, Faery, Sea Turtle, Faery Portal Door, Rabbit, and sparkly Dragonflies. It was incredibly fun to get my hands in the dirt and channel these homes and playgrounds for my friends. Can’t tell you how much joy they bring me. βœ¨πŸ’šπŸŒˆπŸƒπŸ‡πŸ’ I even had enough succulents to create two potted mini gardens too – one of which had a sprawling succulent growing already, but was lonely and now has friends. These are perfect, mobile, enchanted gardens for my bohemian lifestyle, need for ease and mobility, and yet satisfies the artist in me and inspires my loves and passions. Speaking of which…..back to my writing and focuses here! Enjoy!

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Afterglow Reflections of the Full Moon


Yesterday’s Full Moon carried some lovely and powerful energy.

How did you experience the energies merging into your life?

Hopefully you took the opportunity to set intentions, create sacred ritual, perhaps a Reiki Healing Attunement or two (for all of you out there who know how to do those), did something special and nurturing for yourself, allowed yourself to dream and imagine bigger than ever, or simply immersed yourself in the waves of energy and Nature all around you.

In the afterglow of yesterday’s illuminating Super Moon – which was stunning in the night sky here – golden, huge, and at one point sitting atop a mantle of clouds, as if on a pedestal amidst the otherwise clear night sky – I am sitting in reflection and gratitude, while integrating my experiences.

For myself, I was blessed to experience sweet surprises, heart-warming messages, conclusions, invitations, challenges and ease, integration, mysticism, and lots of magick indeed.

I was feeling a deepness and lots of gratitude, even when things appeared one way on the outside, but were telling of something more on the inside.

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Baby “Diablo” Brussels Sprouts on the way

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A second round of Arcadia Broccoli bursting forth

I made discoveries in my garden of new growth emerging.

I completed another special sacred tattoo design co-creation – each being so unique.

Nurtured myself with some beach relaxation where I finished reading a favorite book of mine for the second time that left me in tears of rich openness.

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When magick is near, Raven appears. ..the magickal forces are presenting themselves, reminding of our power to create alchemy in our lives

Had a Raven visitor stop by my beach towel bringing magick medicine with him.

spider web3spider webspider web5And later, by the moonlight of the Super Moon, stopped to watch Spider weave her web of life.

I know that others may not see the gifts in things the way I do or hear the messages as they whisper to me.

I know that I have a different approach, mind, and way of feeling that aren’t always understood.

But I do know that I love how I experience life, as it brings me great joy and sense of inner peace.

So even if that means I’m the only one experiencing it as such, that to me doesn’t take away from the value of my experience, nor will it stop me from continuing to be who I am.

As ultimately, if you are following your heart’s truth, hold intention that all things are for the highest good of all concerned, and do no one harm, then nothing else matters.

Planting Seeds of Intention


butterfly11Yesterday, the next piece of the journey showed up and began manifesting.

As I’ve mentioned, we decided to move forward into the reality we want to create even though we don’t know how the rest of the pieces will come together.

I just knew that if we did, they would. And they ARE!

butterfly16It’s important to take actions in support of your intentions and not just sit back waiting. That said, it’s also important to make those moves in aligned timing with the energy presenting itself, following the rhythm of natural flow.

When you receive the signs and messages, feel the nudge or tug, or feel your intuition subtly or loudly guiding you forth, it’s time to take a step.

So when you ask for something you need to also engage it on your own end.

And when you want something you need to be aware that your mind and ego will run amuck giving you every reason why this, that, or the other thing needs to be in place before you do anything – inevitably holding you back and losing opportunities that keep presenting themselves because they aren’t appearing in the form you’ve attached to as being ideal and yet ARE in fact ideal and for the highest good, but you’re too fixated on controlling it.

butterfly9Anyway, I knew the timing was now for beginning the new adventure and getting the RV. And so we got it when the alignments lit up, and immediately rented the house on a 3 year lease and moved forward.

The rest of when and how didn’t need to be known in my book. I absolutely knew that things were aligned…I have been so strongly living the new reality in embodiment in all ways. And so this was the physical step to take to get the rest in motion.

And since, things have been lining up one by one.

butterfly8We also, just a week and a half ago, reserved the RV spot at the beach park here we’ll be living in until the next pieces fall into place, giving time for adjustment and integration into the new lifestyle and providing time for the animal companions to get comfortable.

And now the rest of the pieces are starting to show up.

butterfly6Yesterday was a big day for an integral piece of the puzzle to present itself and fall into place.

Without going into details, as I can’t, 50% of the last part came together, unofficially at first, (in a way I knew possible, but was quite surprising for Dave and would be a “wow!” factor for many indeed) and shed very exciting light on the last 50% potentially happening very soon – sooner than maybe would have been thought and that means that the adventure of traveling the U.S., Canada, and Mexico may begin not long after moving out, as opposed to perhaps taking several months.

So when I said I wouldn’t be here that long, I meant it!

butterfly5Right now move out and in to RV is October 15th. The final departure date from the area is still a specific unknown, but now is looking to be not long after that. Date to be announced. It at first was completely an unknown with total openness of perhaps even months, but now it is closing in and could be as soon as end of year or before! We will see! I just know it will be perfect, regardless.

It’s been about patience and continuing to move forward…not trying to control, sending energy for the highest good of all concerned, and believing without doubt it was happening.

When I got word yesterday that things were looking like they were happening quite quickly and magickally, I was just about to go out front and plant more Sunflower seeds all around.

And so I used that as opportunity to both literally and symbolically plant seeds of intention.

butterfly4I brought my fresh seeds I’d retrieved from the two giant Sunflowers that had bloomed and passed already, along with some more of my Heirloom seeds outside, with a watering can, and my gloves and went at it.

It was so hot I could barely sit on the cement or walk on it, but I managed to hang in there to get the job done.

With each seed I planted, I actively stated my intentions in conjunction with the news I’d just heard that possibly was happening, to support them into manifestation. I then watered all of my seeds/intentions to help them grow. The Sun was in full effect, so the light of life itself was igniting the activation of these intents.

This act of connecting my intentions with an actual ritual is something I do all the time in varying ways. It makes the process more potent and integrates it deeply, plus connects me with the divine rhythm and harmony of nature.

butterfly10While I was seeding, a lovely butterfly friend decided to appear right next to me on the Bougainvillea and just wanted to hang out. At first she was just sitting very present with me amidst the leaves and then at the end began pollinating the blossoms.

butterfly19This seemed symbolic of being present and patient with the journey, making sure to take time for rest and taking things in. And then her act of pollination was the alchemy of creation.

I did not have my cell phone/camera with me, as I was simply working in the front garden, but when I was done with seeding one side and just sat with the butterfly for a while, I got the distinct feeling she wanted to be seen in a bigger way to share her messages with others.

butterfly17Butterfly medicine is quite wonderful…bringing magick, transformation, joy, and promise to the seeds I was literally and symbolically planting. Butterfly was given to me as my life path symbol when I first began my conscious spiritual journey…so this was a lovely nudge, and I’ve enjoyed that each time I go out into the garden I’m greeted by a butterfly. I have a white butterfly that has a very ethereal quality that comes to me out back, and also a giant Swallowtail that appears daily.

So I went inside to get my cell/camera and returned to find her still just hanging out, waiting for me. And mind you I didn’t go fast either.

butterfly2I started snapping photos of her (she was so lovely and my artist’s eye just couldn’t get enough of the images they saw – they are laced throughout this post) and she seemed to dance into different positions in the light and shadows, amidst the blossoms and leaves, posing for me.

butterfly13She didn’t mind me being an inch or two away from her with my hands. She was never worried I’d do anything and just sat very still. I had the instinct feeling she would have come on my hand, but I also didn’t feel it was necessary.

I rather just share energy and a close partnership where I respected our mutual independence and choice to be together sharing the same space very intimately.

butterfly21And so she lingered quite a while..so long that in fact I ended up leaving her first, as I wanted to complete the planting of seeds on the other side. So I got up and left to do so, and I noticed when I turned to look back at her, she had disappeared.

Cool synchronicities happened after I returned inside.

I went to go back to my work and saw that I had a message on Facebook. So I went on to read it. When I did, my feed showed me a photo and quote I had posted two years ago that day.

butterfly3And what do you know? It was a photo of me with a giant butterfly on my finger (taken in Cancun, Mexico back in 2006), as I’m blowing it a kiss.

The quote I had shared with it was:

“There are many things that seem impossible only so long as one does not attempt them.” ~AndrΓ© Gide

And here is the photo:tania butterfly

Talk about being in the zone!!

Then I went to read the message and it was from my sweet Pisces Faery Brother in Seattle who was sending me good wishes and magick, in his shared excitement about my upcoming adventure, and asking me some questions about the RV.

Hehe!!

I then was texting with my Faery sis, Laura, sharing the news. She is also experiencing the same manifestations, openings, and pieces unfolding in her life, just in her own relative ways – we did after all do some big time activating when we visited in person back in May πŸ˜‰

I discovered that my message went to her at 1:11 my time – 4:44 her time! And she chimed in noticing at 1:44 my time.

butterfly12A couple of hours later I got word that the “unofficial” piece became official, hence locking in being half way there with the last pieces needed.

Plant the seeds and they grow!

I decided to do a Reiki Healing Attunement (again, I’ll reiterate to anyone who has learned these – if you aren’t using this tool you really are missing out on a powerful gift you have at your fingertips) for the rest of the 50% to come together officially and added a few other goodies in as well….of course adding “for the highest good of all concerned” and using my ritual mantra that opens me/everyone involved to something even better, not being attached to it happening any one certain way.

And I was so excited that I decided to treat myself to some special gifts, ordering them as celebration and to lock in the next portion energetically.

I had been lingering for several weeks on whether or not to get them for several reasons, and I realized that they represented my essence I was wanting to embody more of, in all ways. So, I took the plunge and literally felt this joyous ease and excitement right away, as well as an energetic shedding of skin take place that was going to reveal the new that much more quickly.

butterfly14I’ve planted many seeds of intention over time and with every experience I continue to learn how to integrate the process more deeply and naturally…so that it is becoming a seamless dance of life with Earth and Cosmos, and literally “creating life as a work of art,” as my personal motto goes.

The more we listen and follow the flow of energy moving through, in and around us, the more easily life becomes to navigate, understand, partner in the creative manifestating of, and all done with more grace and natural harmony.

When the energy calls…I heed the call – no matter what that means in terms of the way life may need to look like. I just need to show up and realize it is always reflecting my truth and deepest heart’s joy when I get out of its way.

This is just another reason why a daily connection to nature in some way where you form an intimate relationship and understanding of her reflections and mutual giving and receiving you can share in honor of how they move you into living, is important and invaluable.

Also, creating sacred ritual around your life on a daily basis and inviting it in when you are wanting to create things in your life can be so powerful.

I see everything as a sacred process and relationship, even if that simply is with myself – the most sacred relationship there is.

Life is a walking meditation, as I always say.

If you have an intention you want to manifest, think of ways you can deeply connect that to a sacred process where you are mutually giving and receiving and connects you to the nature of life itself.

You may find that planting some seeds in your own garden of life will open you to a magickal realm of living and invites a divine partnership to blossom where limits are only possible to the extent you don’t dream, believe, and imagine.butterfly15

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