This is a post about joy, gratitude, and love – building blocks to manifesting a magickal and wondrous life and the foundations for supporting healing transmutation and implementation of passions into dreams come true. While some people might be thrown off balance or upset, down, and self-critical over a fracture (even the old me would have been too), I feel like everything is in flow, fresh, and thriving. Definitely some of that has to do with perspective, but it feels also to be about alignment and embrace of the harmonious spirals of life. I haven’t for a second felt anything other than harmony and gratitude since my hiking adventure that led to my injury, as it feels much more to be a reset aligned with life shifts, an igniting or opening (fissure) for the new to flow in, not to mention is mirroring the seasonal changes we’re going into from Summer to Autumn.
I can’t begin to tell you how beautiful things have been surrounding the onset of my fracture and what it has revealed and put into motion. It’s incredible to witness and review…in some ways mind-blowing because I can remember the difference in my processes over the course of my life with things and it’s so dramatically contrasting to what I experience now. This is how I can SEE things ARE in fact changing and can anchor in more and more gratitude.
I’d like to share a couple of updates and then some very beautiful and incredible experiences.
First off….more gratitude sent out to everyone who has sent their good and healing vibes my way and for sending Astrid birthday wishes. We so appreciate your love and I’d like to share that my foot is doing very well. I can’t believe it’s already going to be a week since it happened, come tomorrow! Time is literally whizzing by. OMGOSH!
I’ve made mental note of how my own nurturing processes are even in much higher gear, as I’m taking REALLY good care of myself with this fracture. I noted that last go-around I wasn’t as diligent with the process, although did do good things for it, but I didn’t baby my foot in the way I should have and still was focused on accomplishing and getting things done, rather than hunkering down into the full healing mode and not trying to see how much I could still squeeze out of it all.
This time it’s been pure healing, slow-down, and wise caution, not doing anything at all to inhibit my healing or see what I can possibly still do. I have been purely babying my foot, keeping my boot on at nearly all possible times (even when it bothered the Pisces me who likes my feet free! and even when I sleep) – and doing extra nurturing things, as well as making sure to ask for help, which Dave has been so sweetly pouring out anyway.
This has included long hours on the highest setting of my biomat for my foot the last few days and just recently starting up my comfrey poultices, after a friend picked up some for me since I couldn’t get out. Being my right foot, I’m in complete surrender of others taking care of me and driving me around….weeeeeee! That in the past would have bothered me and now I’m loving not being able to go anywhere and surrendering to that, but also enjoying the sweetness of support, love, and friendship.
Anyway, I am trying new poultices with comfrey root and this feels really symbolically and literally potent and even more aligned for me right now. I made a paste and wrapped in a thin cloth I placed in the freezer for just a bit….last night when I had it on it just felt so good….just like the biomat did….like aaahhhhhhh yummy healing for my foot.
The root feels so supportive of grounding, balancing, rooting, and Earthing that my Pisces feet can appreciate and integrate in a new way. After last night’s session of poultice while watching a movie, I literally woke this morning with my foot feeling stronger…literally!
I’ve also been doing Reiki on my foot and using a Selenite wand on the area of impact.
Good stuff, which I’ll continue to implement, along with wearing my boot all day (just as the doctor at the hospital told me too) other than when doing healing work like this to help compliment my healing process.
* (I’m not a doctor and nothing I share is offered as medical advice – CONSULT A PROFESSIONAL and see a doctor immediately if you have been injured. These are only my personal experiences I take responsibility for only for myself) *
Even my sweet Astrid has been helping. I thought she would be scared of my boot and crutches when I first came home with them, but she in fact was not and in fact has immediately gone about sharing her healing energy with me, reiterating my knowing she is a healing bunny. When ever I am near her, she will come over and nose my boot/foot, which is her way (all of my bunnies’ way) of administering healing. Their noses are a channel, just like our hands, to spread the energy and love. So sweet! I remember Nestor doing this, especially once for my mom in conjunction with me doing a Reiki Healing Attunement for her, which was like a super pow! Immediately shifted my mom into balance and feeling good. Astrid is definitely demonstrating the same power-packed punch!
So that’s a foot and healing update, which I envision continuing well and being speedy based on my experience with it so far and being a good patient. 😉
On another note, I have to share this incredible thing that happened on Thursday that blew me away. We had friends over since I still was in “stay home mode” and Dave had to go out to pick up food we ordered at our fav local Thai restaurant, since T – me – wasn’t cooking and staying off her feet.
A knock came at the door and I opened it to find no one there, except these beautiful babies and a note.
I immediately knew that our amazing friends had gone back to retrieve my crystal babies.
So, I’ll back up to help you understand this, as I likely wasn’t clear in my story of my hiking injury.
I had 2 big quartz in my back pack I was carrying, as they spoke to me needing to come home and would be a part of what I will be creating in the near future. We have guesstimated them to be at least 50 lbs. So, as you can tell, I was quite determined in carrying these for miles. It didn’t even phase me, as the mind is a miraculous thing. It also officially put me into back-packer status, carrying so much and being so small.
When I fell and went into trauma shock, I asked my friends to remove the pack immediately because I needed to focus on balancing from the nausea, shock, and turning white. (I really didn’t have any pain except an initial quick impact feeling of the break that was actually pretty subtle in comparison to my last fracture, but the body reacts this way to trauma impact).
In process of balancing and readying ourselves for what was next in getting me down the mountain, I told them to leave the crystals, which Dave reiterated, as it wasn’t as important as taking care of me, being that we didn’t know the severity of things.
So they were left on the side, and I did feel this underlying sadness, but also this odd sense of continued connection that wasn’t broken.
One other friend had been carrying a quartz too and she ended up leaving as well, down further on the path, to not impede her own journey back down.
Anyway, I hadn’t forgotten them and still felt this channel of connection between them, and oddly (which I never shared with anyone) I felt like they were still with me and/or would be somehow/some way, even if it meant they’d wait for me to return later or after the Winter thaw.
So fast forward to the door opening and there they were before me with the note.
I was overwhelmed with emotion that came forth later, as I was so excited and giddy that that took over.
I then caught glimpse to the left at the bottom of the stairs, one of our friends videoing me and my reaction and knew they’d gone back to get them.
Most of my reactions were in Faery laughter and astonishment, but it was also full of exhilaration and exuberant joy and gratitude that rushed through in realizing what incredible friends I had. Like so incredible you can’t even form words except to giggle forth with joy and to form joyous tears that bubbled in my eyes later when I was hugging them over and over.
Our friends had gone back that morning on a 5 hour hike JUST to retrieve my and our other friend’s 3 crystals (likely 60+ lbs and a gift or two they found for themselves for embracing the journey of love.
BESTEST friends ever!
They also shared with us these SO SO funny videos of documenting the journey back, which had us in belly laughs. I was especially laughing at our friend’s impression of me carrying the crystals in my pack and how I was still looking around at more and saying I can carry 1 or 2 more of these babies! This was funny because they now realized just how heavy the ones I had with me were, which made my saying this hilarious as to how my determined mind took over.
This photo puts into perspective the size of just the one largest one, which is of course the heaviest too. I’m still smiling though!!
The other VERY interesting thing they noted was that where I fell was exactly at the site of the quartz field we’d been waiting to reach. Dave kept saying there was another one because he’d been on the hike before, when the girls and I had stopped at the first one we found to look around. So he was telling us not to spend time because more were on the way. We never actually saw this other site, because my injury took over focus.
Well, on their way back to retrieve the crystals they found that where I fell (marked by where we left the crystals) was exactly where they were, just up the hill from there a bit. That gave me chills in thinking of the energetics of it all at work and the alignments igniting and activating once I’d reached this area infused with more crystal vibes.
The crystals are super special and you can’t even tell the beauty of them in the photos…their amazing color – one is pinkish and the other like a golden apricot – and both have all this sparkly clear quartz infusions into the raw natural quartz rock. Amazing specimens and masterful beings!!
I’m still overwhelmed by it and also anchoring in more and more gratitude and realization that this is the new reality I have created for myself (and that is possible) where everything in it is a reflection of alignment and love…supportive energies…beautiful souls working together for a greater good….everyone mindful of and helping each other’s needs and dreams, but also supporting their own and their dreams, which brings together the highest of vibes and the power of the collective to move mountains…..or in this case to carry 60+ lbs of crystals.
It literally has to be one of the most special things I’ve ever received..and I don’t mean the crystals (although I’m in awe and gratitude of them being with me), but the gesture of true love and friendship.
These same friends also picked up my comfrey for me (it even had a Tinkerbell on the bag from the store!) and brought over some amazing organic “dragonfly” spicy black chai.
After that, our other friends arrived and I was then gifted a mini wardrobe of clothes she was moving out and thought were perfect for me and they were!
I was/am really feeling the love and I know that this is mirroring the fact that I’ve finally really anchored in taking care of myself, listening to my dreams and needs too, and balancing out that martyr energy of always giving out and never receiving – not to mention have implemented healthy boundaries. In the past receiving was hard and now it feels natural because it IS the natural flow and cycle.
You can’t just give, give, give….and you can’t just receive, receive, receive…
There is a flow of exchange to be open to and grateful for and it is all-encompassing of both being inherent in the wholeness of BEING. That is also the nature of Reiki….a harmonious circuit of flow in and out, which if blocked in any way, is the cause of challenges and dis-ease.
Yesterday was my first full outing since fracturing my foot, which included errands related to the new, a hair appointment for me, visiting my parents, and Dave getting a haircut by my mom (she has been a beautician although doesn’t do it professionally anymore since leaving her birth place, France).
I was feeling high-vibed to get a refresh on my hair, which included cut/thinning for lightness and hair getting to all silver and brown (my roots), which feels SO different and SO good. There’s constantly this recreating energy taking place to keep up with the ever-shifting energies. If I’m not naturally shape-shifting, then I’m assisting it. I also thought it was fun that my stylist styled my hair with loose spirals for a change, which felt mirroring of all the snake energy around me lately and the spiraling of the journey of life in general. I don’t ever curl my hair, as I don’t have the tools and usually just let my hair dry naturally so this was a fun update although brief.
We also got good news on this day/yesterday for something that has been in the works and took a huge turn the day before that could have gone a whole other way, but I worked with the Faeries, Buffalo energy, and did a Reiki Healing Attunement for, resulting in being told to fully trust, know what we want, and take assertive stance of our needs and the rest would be taken care of…and it was!
I’m saving that for a future post, but is something very exciting to me and going to anchor in everything further and more richly.
Lastly, I am happy to say that my book is back on track with the time off my feet and I should be able to have exciting news on that too here shortly!
We are all in this together and bringing your best “foot” forward with all of your parts together in unified alignment, sharing lots of love, joyous infusion and supportive action of your passions, and a LOT of gratitude and healthy balance supports harmony to take form in relative ways for each of us.
This felt like a perfect photo to share for this very short, but deeply heartfelt, post in celebration and gratitude of having reached 1 million visitors on my blog. The symbolism of Geese reflects what this blog represents to me and is a conduit for…my commitment to responsible sharing as a dedication to the collective, as the energy moves through me, and understanding how that is a threading of everyone’s contributions, energy, time, insights, and reflections that have taken place here since I first started my blog, and of the experiences I could never have solely on my own because it takes teamwork to co-create together. The worldwide web makes so much possible, even if it also has its streams of non-productive use, in bringing us all together across oceans, lands, and beyond, which is truly one of its beautiful and valuable gifts. I celebrate all of you with this post and share my gratitude for being here at this time to anchor in new realities.
I just love Geese and as I’ve shared before, their medicine and message is that of teamwork, comradery, fellowship, dedication, committed responsibility, the balance of knowing when to lead or follow, being compassionate keepers of the community, embodiment of the sacred circle and sanctity of the cycles of life, and never leaving one of their own behind for any reason (they will stay with the sick and injured until they are either well again, or to support them as they transition) – that last one sure reflects what took place for me on Sunday. 😉 Goose LOVE in action!
Thank you to everyone for being a part of the journey….mine, yours, OURS.
(Photo from our Magick Bus RV adventure in Jasper National Park, Alberta)
A little update and GIANT thank you….I don’t know how many of you follow along on my Instagram or Facebook pages, but I wanted to send out a big hug and loving gratitude to everyone who has lovingly and sweetly been supportive of my journey and the material that I share there and here on my blog, who has followed along with my own evolution, as well as for all of the support over the years of the channeled work I’ve had the honor to share with so many too. I am a big believer in sharing gratitude and how important that is to deepen into within yourself, but also in acknowledging the little and big things multi-universally and individually in connection with others that truly is an expression of LOVE manifest.
I/we never know the full reach of the things we do and put out there, but doing what moves us most in our hearts is the reason that fuels it all, nonetheless. At least that’s how I feel about it.
I’m always deeply moved and surprised when I do receive a message of gratitude or a personal share in relation to something I may have done or said, as it reflects the circle of connection and woven thread that runs through everything we embody, share, and do and its direct effects, regardless of our thinking nothing we do matters.
This is also why I feel the importance of being present daily with how I’m relating to others and any situation and how I might be able to challenge myself to arise to even greater energetic experiences with my responses spoken or unspoken.
I had written a thank you on my Facebook page several days ago, but wanted to share thanks here too, as I also noticed that this blog I’ve been lovingly cultivating is nearing 1 million visitors shortly and that really struck a chord too on many levels.
Since first sharing in any of these forums, so much has changed and it’s like so many versions of myself have been embodied and shed over and over – all done very publicly, as my process of moving through fears and my desire to reflect transparency and love of every step of the journey, as well as to support more courageous and authentic ways of living from the love and creative alchemy of Spirit moving through you.
Because things are shifting in focus for me, and as you know I’ve released much of what I used to do in order to embrace what is here and now moving through me “wanting” to be brought forth, I’ve joked to friends that I’ve felt like I’ve renounced the old. This to include older versions of me and have lovingly released these things as no longer the expressions I feel to carry forward because they no longer fit AND they in fact feel more like completion and tying up loose ends of things from my soul history, rather than now versions needing to be anchored anew.
That’s not to mean that things couldn’t at some point circle round in new versions if I felt so called, as I often see and acknowledge that energy when and if it arises, but they are not present currently and the more I’ve released things, the stronger the new has been anchoring inside me.
Anyway, I will eventually be giving everything a face lift and “new” updated version to match the shifts, but it will take a little time since that’s an involved process and right now am needing to follow the steps that come first.
So, soon there will be a new website and focal point, consolidation of things, and my social media and blog will also reflect these expressions.
It all excites me, although yes, will be a LOT of work and dedication. Luckily it comes from a place of love and essence channeling through so that makes it fun and extremely rewarding.
In terms of Facebook, a few years back I had to create a new Facebook page (because your personal profile pages are only allowed a certain limit of connections that I reached) and I intended the new page to also have more of a focus of sharing my life’s work and path more in depth. I haven’t been able to keep up with updating it is often as I would like or in the way that I’ve wanted, as life’s journey has taken me into times of needing to channel my energy into balancing life and supporting shifts with my creative output and new paths emerging – this leading to not posting a lot there in general, especially when I’ve taken breaks from online. And yet, so many have still lovingly supported that channel and I thank you so much for that.
However, in the coming months and forward I will be more regularly posting things and new material there that I hope people who follow will enjoy. It will root my new focuses and embody my life’s love and greatest passions/joys to share with you, just as I do here as well – to me, my most important work yet.
If you are on Facebook and have interest and haven’t already been following there, I would like to invite you to my page: https://www.facebook.com/taniamarieartist/
And in the meantime, if you’re on Instagram, I’ve been posting the most there since it’s quick and a creatively fun outlet (this will also reflect the upcoming transitions in months to come though) and would love to connect with and follow along with your posts there too. You can find me on Instagram as taniamarieartist.
I hope you’ll find the changes to be inspirational and enjoyable, and as always, please do pass your own links along and/or connect with me on both Instagram and Facebook, as I love supporting other visionaries, artists of all genres, healers, inspirational souls, nature lovers, earth guardians, cosmic travelers, compassion ambassadors, harmony weavers, people following their hearts, courageously paving new paths, and speaking their truths.
I’m excited for where the journey is headed and although things in the world and some realities seem “off” and challenging, I still believe there is much evolving in incredible ways and new realities are being birthed with our learning to harness these energies for the highest good of all concerned.
Keep doing your part and coming from your heart.
In love, gratitude, and creative alchemy.
Sharing my deepest love and gratitude with each and every one of you who so lovingly extended your wishes, beautiful memories, sweetest of reflections and messages, and simply your presence with me yesterday for my birthday, but also with yourself, each other, and our Earth Mother, as you connected in heart through the magickal New Moon Eclipse collectively shared. Perhaps it was the heightened energies of this day, or perhaps it is because of the deepened place my sensitivities have taken me in experience, but it was profoundly felt and in my private moments, brought me to tears of love that felt like alchemy to the spirit.
I read and listened to every single message, more than once in many cases, reflecting on the connections and how powerful we are when unified in our hearts. It made me reflect on how strongly challenges in the energetic field have brought people together more than ever and that is a beautiful thing to see people arise, take action, and vulnerably extend themselves to others.
Yesterday, I spent my time engaged in the things I love, in taking actions toward my dreams in order to create that extra momentum through the new doorways offered and to hold my frequency for a new reality, and made stronger commitments and promises to it all.
Some of this included writing a page in my book, creating a magick wand to full completion, doing a Reiki Healing Attunement with my crystal grid for very clear intentions with highest good in mind, spending time communing in nature snow shoeing, time reflecting on connection with others and including intents of love and highest good for everyone, time with loved ones, but also embodying a peace so deeply experienced it took me to a meditative place of beingness that created what I can only describe as a state of grace in suspension….nothing could affect or change this and I knew this was my origin of being – all of ours.
And that, in and of itself, was the greatest of gifts received.
Thank you from my heart to yours
So many incredible, awe-inspiring, synchronously magickal, and powerfully shifting experiences have been taking place in rapid alignment, it’s truly hard to put into words how it all feels. “Harmony” is the most resonant I can get with one simple word. During all of this Raja Seraphina, my Crystal Skull, has found her new guardian and Fiver has found a new family…both beginning new journeys in their eternal beingness. I just wanted to take a moment to express immense heart and soul gratitude to everyone who has so generously shared their love, stepped up, and taken time to be a part of the journey we are weaving together, and relative to this post, for those of you who responded to Raja Seraphina and supported Fiver.
I’ve been literally “knocked off my rocker,” as I put it to one dear friend last evening, with the amping up of “wow” experiences that continually and consistently take place and this has especially been so with both Raja Seraphina and Fiver.
I’m still in awe of how Fiver, as one friend put it, literally “jumped worlds” and like “he was planning it all along”. To see him fully released from pain in his last moments, his body restored, and how he leapt upon the quartz crystal to rocket him through the portal to the Otherworld where his journey would continue, still gives me chills and if not for capturing it on camera, I’m not sure others would believe me.
He has touched us all in so many ways, which goes to show us that everyone and everything no matter how small, has great impact and meaningfulness. It is up to us to “see” and embrace the sacredness in it all.
It’s no surprise that Fiver’s journey became entwined with Raja Seraphina’s, as it was in the days he was with me that R.S. came to peaceful closure with her own journey of connecting to her new guardian.
The day of peace they both shared enabled clarity of messages to come through to both them and myself in receiving them.
There is too much to R.S.’s story and the also amazing things that took place in her decision making process, as well as how she relayed her decision to me, to share here and of which some is personal to her new guardian and connection with myself and R.S.
But in the end, she spoke in shamanic riddles to decode, manifested literal appearances shared between myself and her new guardian of an animal spirit guide journeying between us both, provided us both with signs that were puzzle pieces to each other, and dream messages that “wed” us together in bonded sisterhood and Earth guardianship.
Her timing also could not have been more perfect in utilizing Mercury Retrograde to do her searching, exploring, reviewing, and tuning in with everyone. Not to mention her decision coming at the end of it and official, soul contractual agreement to take place on her appointed day of 1/11/2017 (1-11-1 portal) which will also be in the beginning illumination of 1/12’s early morning (PST) Cancer Full Moon – all divinely in perfection.
To add to that, it isn’t arbitrary that her new guardian is located where I’ll be journeying to shortly, which enables the transition of Raja Seraphina, between us, to take place in person so that she will not have to be shipped (something we both felt was not in her best interests) and makes the exchange much more aligned as a sacred ritual we can share.
I find great peace in knowing both Raja Seraphina and Fiver are in loving company and exactly where they are meant to be.
What has been overwhelming in a most beautiful and surprising way was the amount of response received with both experiences, and especially in the case of R.S. I was so in awe of people stepping into their power, claiming it, and knowing of their roles and paths that bring to light the gifts each has.
I was grateful I did not have to make the decision and was able to detach and allow R.S. to do the work, as everyone who showed up is incredibly amazing, gifted, and powerful in their own right….each having very important roles and equally special.
I know Raja Seraphina was equally moved, which is why she demonstrated her compassion and honor to each of you, not only tuning in extensively, but did healing and activation with each of you during the process, which many of you shared with me. It was astounding how she touched you all and I know that it was her way of showing mutual reverence and encouraging each of you to continue with your path and to know that you are recognized and honored for your roles that continue regardless of her being with you physically or not. Her love is collective and can be called upon if in need.
There will be another being that will show up for you, or another manifestation of how you can do the work you felt called to do. So keep alert to the signs and continue to follow the guidance you are messaged in your heart and soul.
Thank you again SO very much to everyone. I know deeply in my heart and soul that our journeys will continue to entwine themselves.
With love to all and special thanks to Raja Seraphina and Fiver for opening our hearts and encouraging us to be all that we can be.
We are having a lovely, although very whirlwindish vacation back in Southern California, which I’ll share more of the fun and magick of when I return home and have the time to get the photos I’ve been collecting of our memories here together. But for now, on this special day I just wanted to share something dear to my heart and some Christmas Eve wishes from my and Joy’s hearts to yours.
Today happens to not only be Christmas Eve, but is also the birthday of my sweet rabbit, Joy, who would have been 13 this year.
She reminds me of many things and has been so profoundly around the last week or so with messages and showing up for me and others I know in known or unknown ways.
Today is a reminder of celebrating the inner child and possibilities available to us when we vulnerably share our hearts and embody the integrity of our essence. Joy taught me this and so much more as my companion, guide, and teacher in life. She also taught me to listen within and to trust the messages in and all around me, and that balance was key to living a life of harmony and grace.
There have been some very auspicious events around Joy the last two days and one of which was a sweet message I received this morning that I just had to share because it touched my heart so and again pointed to Joy’s profound reach and messages she is wanting to impart. I won’t share the person who sent it, but here is the message that meant a lot to me:
“To dear Tania, Happy Christmas Eve to you and all your loved ones. You have been and are an inspiration in my life and will now be an inspiration to all others in my life because you have caused a massive ripple. Your way of living has helped bring back the hope in my life which lost me for a while. Yesterday I watched a film which I had thought about watching for a while, but didn’t until yesterday. I watched it because the name of the film was Joy. I followed the magic which the universe in all it’s magical ways was trying to show me. The film is about a lady who despite having everything thrown against her made her dream come true. So now I will follow my dream and be strong. So thank you to you and all your beautiful friends and loved ones with all of my heart. In this moment, I am happy and that is what counts. This moment. I hope to always see your magical pictures you post. Blessings to you. Peace to you, love and Prosperity to you.”
This was my response:
“I can’t express to you enough how reading this message this morning touched me so. Wow! What a beautiful share from you. It made me so happy to hear that you are feeling a sense of renewal and inspired zest for life. This is incredible and if I had any tiny bit of a part in that, I am grateful for that ability to have connected in a meaningful way that makes a difference. Also, you may not be aware, but today, Xmas eve, would have been my rabbit Joy’s birthday…so your message was truly profound, as the film you saw had her name and she’s been so strongly around and sending me messages…now this…It shows how she is also still working her magick as the powerful one that she is, touching others as she always has…and speaks to our connection.”
You may remember I had a dream about Joy the night before the Christmas celebration with my family and then I saw in large letters the lit up word “JOY” on the window across the street of my parent’s house, as a neighbor’s decorative display.
And something else I’ll share more about when I’m home that happened yesterday too. Plus, another friend sharing how much Joy, along with my other loves were around her and felt so much, Laura also sharing how she and my other two bunnies had a hand in some gifts for me, and gifts from two other friends yesterday that she and my bunny loves were a part of.
I hear you Joy and I hope that your message and presence will continue to shine a light of love into everyone’s hearts as you have mine for eternity.
May you all know and embody “joy” and wonder today and all the days of your life and may peace be your constant companion.
I’ve been blessed with these four magickal souls in rabbit bodies in my life and have been forever changed because of them. They’ve all reminded me of my song, helping me get to where I am today. Our love transcends time, not to mention opens gateways through it. We have so much more to create together and I welcome walking that path with them in my heart and others that will join, as we do.
“The spiritual path is not a solo endeavor…We are in it together and the company of spiritual friends helps us realize our interconnectedness.” ~Tara Brach
I’m grateful for all of my soul family who have been a part of my life and helped me to remember who I am, which includes all connections that have intertwined and of course friends, loved ones, biological family, Cosmic family, and the other amazing souls who have come to me in animal bodies including the incredible Gaia my Russian Tortoise, Tee-Ta my first turtle love, Iris the white parakeet with aqua cheeks, and Sweetie and Girl my two powder blue parakeets.
It’s always amazing to me to look at how the tapestry has been woven into such richness because of all of the threads.
One of the ultimate spiritual lessons in life is gratitude. Gratitude for all the big AND little things…the seen AND unseen…the full gamut of experiences released from judgment and categorized value.
Focus on what there IS…not what you “think” you lack, as all things have a wider meaning with hidden gifts that reveal themselves when we release attachment and learn to understand how the highest good is always as work.
We just haven’t unwrapped the abundance yet, but the more gratitude you embrace, the more abundance you experience.
Gratitude isn’t just something to extend toward the so-called “good” things in life, but to ALL things – relinquishing the need to define, categorize, idealize, cast away, and judge them. That includes the “imperfect” that IS perfect and richly integral in our lives.
Today and always may you embrace the kind of gratitude that creates true alchemy.
Sending out deepest heart-to-heart gratitude for each and every one of you who is braving this journey together at this time in our collective experience. I know times get tough and intense, but you’re here and that speaks volumes. Thank you for your courage and love and for all of the love you’ve shared with me and others. Your light helps raise the vibration and makes more possible for us all. Keep shining and know that you are appreciated beyond measure.
I wanted to express my gratitude to everyone for all the beautiful and loving messages and wishes sent for my birthday over the last few days and for the magickal and thoughtful gifts received both in the mail and simply in the presence of your friendship and hugs – virtual and in person.
I’m grateful for each of your threads woven into my life, this journey, and grateful to each of you for choosing to show up at this time on Earth.
This year I chose a simple way to experience my birthday, although did gift myself a few small treasures that aligned with what felt most supportive to me right now.
This included a sweet little rose quartz heart ring, which felt to be nurturing that love from the inside out and about falling in love with myself and nurturing my heart’s joy in a whole new, but most natural way.
And also a sparkly sandstone bracelet with “tree of life” charm. Sandstone is a stone of creativity that encourages truth, promotes clarity, balances one’s reality and facilitates ease of movement and change.
As well as a new Tarot deck – likely my last for a while now.
It’s so precious how the gifts I received from others were so perfect for me too, including a tiny gold dragonfly necklace, a magickal unicorn horn necklace, a colorful tapestry pouch (perfect for my Tarot cards), sweet hemp flower hair pins, and a couple of tops including one that said “Trees”.
My birthday morning kicked off with a Great Blue Heron coming to visit us on the beach in front of the RV just before we left.
And it was a lovely birthday weekend that unfolded from there, which I chose to experience quietly and immersed in the energy of the desert and self nurturing and a lot of love shared with my little family of loves including these sweeties.
I’m not a celebrator in terms of parties and gatherings, preferring to be within my own experience in ways that feel most aligned with my energy and don’t like having a big deal made out of my birthday.
So seeing some friends the days preceding my birthday was a nice way to say farewell for now, since we’re not returning for a long time, and a way to see people without specific celebrating. Although during a dinner right before we left I was surprised with a little birthday candle fun to make a wish. That was very sweet.
Last year on my birthday I was being in the purity of Iceland’s beauty, which called to my own innocence and essence within.
This year it was returning to a place I loved as a child and frequented often with my parents – Palm Desert.
The desert couldn’t be a more beautiful way to relax and reflect on the year behind, the year ahead, and the integration of both in the now, while doing a lot of nature connecting and self-nurturing.
There is a purity and sacredness to the desert that feels supportive of receiving clarity and standing in the raw nakedness of my personal truth.
And like the starry skies of Iceland, the desert also offers a beautiful night time Cosmic landscape to get lost in.
And relaxing is just what I needed and need right now, as I have found myself getting very energetically tired by end of the day and needing to sleep a lot and get in bed early.
My body and soul are going through transitions to support all that is changing quickly.
I can feel all that I’m rapidly assimilating with the big shifts in my life and that my birthday cycle heralded in. I’ve been allowing the desert energy to work its magick, while giving myself even more with self nurturing pool time, massage, and just soaking in sun therapy and rest.
It’s important to allow ourselves to integrate all that we work on and process so that it can fully root and blossom. Doing what seems like nothing is doing something and it’s important. It will help keep you balanced, healthy, and support those leaps.
And speaking of blossoming, the desert here is already in bloom! It’s Spring early and that also feels quite reflective of what I’m feeling internally.
Desert blossoms as reflections of all that is blossoming within.
And I felt like a desert blossom on our gentle hike yesterday, wearing my tangerine red sparky strapless dress with gold threads and hat. I’m a big proponent of hiking in dresses and flip flops or open rugged sandals.
I’ve also seen more animals and insects mating right in front of me than I ever have in the last few weeks. They literally are drawn to me and going about their uniting – be it ducks, pigeons, several variety of insects, geese….
I’m seeing it as that divine igniting and creation flame I’m channeling along with falling in love with life in a whole new way.
It’s a whole new love story emerging.
And speaking of love…even the place we stayed at this weekend, arriving on my birthday, is called Emerald Desert Resort, which perfectly aligns with my business named Emerald Bridge, which is all about the heart chakra energy and that wonderful healing and nature emanating green glow of brilliance and warmth.
It’s been a gentle transition into my 43rd year of this life considering all of the transitions I’ve been making, having concluded my sound course on my birthday as well (which has been hugely and deeply integrative), and shifting out of one way of living and sharing of my services to completely different ways.
Other than the needed rest to assimilate, I’m grateful for the ease and grace that is taking place with everything, as I know not everyone is experiencing flow. I know this has also been a time of intensity and challenge for many.
My hope is that by continuing to hold the energy of what is possible in the face of immense changes, as others are doing along with me, that we can assist each other into a more gentle experience of ever-greater potentials that are available.
My life hasn’t always been easy, as I shared in my post on the 25th: A Selection of True Awakening Experiences
Yet, there is light available to us all within the darkness. Darkness can be the sweet spot of immensely beautiful possibilities and you can learn to have clarity of vision even when it appears there is no light. You will find that light was always within your heart and can “see” you through anything.
Like the desert can be deceiving with its harsh way of life – seemingly barren, dry, and challenging unless one is resilient and resourceful, there is also much beauty, abundance, and life is plentiful and blossoming – as it learns to adapt and renew itself within each season of change.
This is a great little article that perfectly demonstrates finding value and gratitude for all things, and encourages being present. It goes along with how I always say everything is “perfect in its imperfection”.
Wabi-Sabi: The Art of Imperfection by Robyn Griggs Lawrence
Thank you to my dear friend and amazing photographer Pedro Gutierrez of Gamma Photography Studio for sharing it. He thought it would go along with my philosophy of life and he was right. 😉