We often take for granted the things right before our eyes and even the things we’ve experienced in feeling because we are focused on achieving or racing against time. And quickly the incredible moments, people, and experiences disappear without our acknowledgement and without truly receiving what they have to share that can enrich our lives.
When you wake in the morning or before you go to bed perhaps you can reflect on those things and leave the rest for a few minutes, as it will still be there when you’re done, however the rest may not.
And along your day try raising your eyes to the sky, turning to your left or right to really see who and what’s besides you, or pay attention to your footsteps and how you are walking through life on your way to the next to-do on your list.
What are you missing today?
Your child’s desire for a hug or to know you more?
Your partner’s need for you to see or hear them?
Your animal companion’s pain they’ve taken on to help relieve your stress and get you to pay attention to what you’re neglecting?
How beautifully unassuming someone or something looks because they are unaware of their light shining through?
How nature has miracles to give you each day to help inspire and guide?
How incredible you are but never noticed the richness of what makes you you?
How amazing it is that you are breathing and have a choice every moment as to how you want to experience it and what you can do right now to make a difference?
Please don’t walk through life without ever knowing what it means to be living.
It seems appropriate on today’s National Love Your Pet Day to give thanks to my ever-magickal partner, Astrid for choosing me to be her guardian and co-creator. Not only does she bring so much joy and love into my life, but she’s also the bestest companion for this leg of my journey. She’s my ghostwriter and biggest cheerleader and fan, helping me to bring my book to life, speed up the process, and keep me on point. She helps me with editing everyday, sitting by my feet and even taking over mom’s editing chair if I abandon it. She has her own way of telling me to “hop to it!” and follows in the footsteps of Nestor and Joy in how they used to do a quick nibble to the right bottom corner of my paintings to infuse their signature and energy. Here you can see her nibbling in some of her own energy infusions into the story’s creation, encouraging me not to stop the momentum.
And a big momentum is what I’m in the flow of right now, as my book has come back into main focus, with the completion of all house renovations finally. Yesterday, was a huge day finalizing the third round of edits. I’m feeling one more “hop” through to really tie everything up, feel out the flow now with all the edits, and tighten it up one last go around, including final formatting.
I’ve found that editing the tough parts is so much easier when I can tangibly hold the pages and mark them up with pencil, rather than using the computer – hence the pages Astrid is able to help out with. Seems she prefers that too. 😉
I’m a very hands-on person, which is why I also prefer actual books to ebooks. There’s something that triggers my brain more and all parts of my senses to have things physical. That’s why I also keep hand written lists, a daily calendar on my desk, write notes on my hand when I’m out, and never use technology to keep me organized. Anyone else like that?
Anyway, Astrid is excited and I’m excited too. She is anxious about getting the book done and our Wonderland writing room is perfect nurturing for that. I love having her by my side, as she’s perfect inspiration for this faery. I can’t tell you how much she’s supported its manifestation and its content.
She seems to be mirroring the shifting phases of the book too, with her own shifting fur.
I don’t call her the magick rabbit for nothing!
Could this be why I heard the nickname “Bubbles” whispered in my ear recently?
Or is it that Astrid is reflecting her joy in this name, or simply the joy bubbling through in exuberance for her new life, feeling safe and loved, and for being recognized for the gifts and path she has come to experience and share?
My bunnies always get nicknames, that shift as their energy shifts. They’re not names I make up, but that just come through. Astrid expresses her joy running, jumping, hopping, and twisting that feels like a bubble of passion rising to the surface and exploding. People call this a “binky” and here it earned her the nickname “Bubbles,” which I love because it expresses her silly side in compliment to her serious one.
In any case, her shape-shifting fur continues to change and produce beautiful symbols and markings. Here you see her incredible fur gifting us circles, or bubbles, and that gold at the back of her neck is aglow. Not visible is her silver toes, feet and tummy.
Her exuberance keeps “bubbling” through and she ceases to amaze.
Nestor is the only other rabbit of mine that has done this with her fur. Always producing uncanny symbols I would call either hieroglyphics or crop circles.
Astrid has a lot of Nestor qualities, so it’s not surprising. In many ways, it’s like a piece of Nestie is in her, which makes our connection even more special.
Thank you Astrid for your way of keeping me on point, just as Nestor used to. I definitely needed your solid presence, commitment, sense of personal responsibility, wisdom, and joyous inspiration for this book and the rest of what’s to come after that!
Celebrating you with some extra love and recognition today. Hope you love the curly meadow twist chewy treat you’ll find in your romper room bunny play land.
An extra gift of gratitude for being my ghostwriter, teacher, and best friend.
Saturday the 27th we welcomed the Gaden Shartse Monks to our new home to conduct a house blessing ceremony for us. We’d met them on Tuesday evening at the Green Tara Puja Blessing and Tea Offering held at The Loft here at the Lake and knew then that the timing of their arrival and our house completion was meant to be. Not to mention was within the influence of Wednesday’s upcoming rare Super Blue Blood Moon Total Lunar Eclipse and Imbolc, all creating some wonderful celebrations for this threshold to the new and our new life adventure in our new home base Forest Portal sanctuary.
The ceremony and experience was more than we could have imagined. We’d attended a house blessing once about five years ago or so, which had also been conducted by a female Buddhist monk. Although a lovely experience, it was very different than what we shared at our home, which felt perfectly aligned with us. We didn’t know what to expect and therefore expected nothing, which made it even more of a warm surprise.
Everything down to the number of people who were present, ended up to be divinely put together. We were 11 – the master number known as “The Illuminator,” “The Messenger,” or “The Teacher.” It draws forth the energy of illumination, enlightenment, inspiration, transformation, balance, inspirational guidance, creativity, vision, refinement, and fulfillment.
Through one reason or another, just like with Reiki classes, people weren’t able to come at the last minute and even one of the five monks didn’t come because of preparation for the event after our house blessing where he would be channeling a deity. Eleven also aligns with our house address numerology being 11 too! No coincidence there.
We did end up with five monks, as Lobsang Wangchuk – the director of the Gaden Shartse Cultural Foundation who was a monk for 25 years, but now coordinates their tours, came with them, which was wonderful, as he very thoroughly described everything that we would be experiencing during the ceremony and what the monks would be doing in their ritual.
I had prepared a light spread of hospitality for them, which we enjoyed after the ceremony was complete.
This included my baked almond cheese ball coated with field of flowers peppercorn medley and a mandala of raw chocolate truffles made with hazelnuts and dipped in cacao butter mixed with matcha green tea and ginger for the green balls and turmeric for the yellow balls.
The rest was store bought treats and veggie delights along with organic mint melange tea and organic, decaf French roast coffee.
Our home seemed to have the perfect set up for them, and it was fun to watch them prepare everything to ready the setting for this special experience. The TV cabinet above with bamboo runner and Buddha are ours, as well as the two plants they used to add to their ceremonial set up.
As you might recall, I had fallen in love with one of the Tibetan signing bowls at the Tuesday event, but not having cash or check with me, was unable to purchase it at that time. I kept feeling its connection and before the house blessing had texted with one of the coordinators, asking that if by chance it was still available, if it could be brought to our house when the monks came.
The first thing I was presented when they arrived, along with the sweet smiles and warm hand clasps, was my bowl.
Another wonderful blessing, as I love it so! It has a wonderful tone that I feel at the core of me and is so easy to play.
After preparations, we sat in the living room, listened to the explanation of what we were about to experience, and then went into a peaceful state of receiving from the melodious chanting, song, and tones of the monks. It was so beautiful.
We don’t have any of this long portion of sacred sound and invoking on video, but the sacredness feels too intimate to share that part of the ceremony, even if we did. I’m also not sharing any of the videos taken for the same reason, but the few photo captures give you an idea of the energy.
The night of the Green Tara Puja Blessing was lovely, but this truly topped that taking our home into several octaves higher of frequency and transporting me through portals and elevated states of chilling and unbounded love.
During the ceremony I felt the sun’s glow come around and illuminate my face….it felt like All That Is and the presence of Love laying a warm kiss upon my spirit.
The ritual lasted about an hour and then we immediately moved into the individual blessing of every room in the house, where we guided them around, one by one and they added their love, protection, and seeds of possibilities to every space.
We do have several Buddhas in our home, and the way our house was set up created a perfect sanctuary for the monks to feel at home.
I love how they stopped at the meditation part of our downstairs family room where we have a wood Buddha sculptured plaque hanging between my two paintings, “The Mystic” and “Temple of the Sacred Heart” and Buddha statues. This wall is shared by my office on the other side that has a matching green round shag rug.
At completion, once we ascended the stairs, we were then presented with a certificate by the monks of appreciation, a Ruel to hang above our door or at our entry (a Tibetan amulet that is considered to be the most powerful protection against black magic and in general protects against any unforeseen factors that could affect your life at every level, as well as screens the energy of everyone who comes to your door to keep away non-resonant energy), a white scarf (known as a khata – white represents the east, water, and peace – perfect for two water signs), and everyone present received a five-colored, braided cord that represent the five elements and five pure lights blessed by the Dalai Lama and all 1500 of the monks from the monastery – meant to be worn always to provide protection and “according to traditional Tibetan medicine, health and harmony are produced through the balance of these five elements.”
We then enjoyed food and drink, along with conversation that included learning about the monastery and a personal invitation to visit them and be their guests there. We were also gifted the water used for the house blessing and the “nectar,” which Lobsang explained thoroughly to us and how we could keep this and drink of it in parts when we wanted to infuse our bodies with its radiant illumination.
The whole experience with the monks was a little over an hour and a half and then we continued with food and celebrations after a heartfelt farewell for now.
This was a very special occasion and for anyone who hasn’t experienced one, I am sharing just a few photos that some of the participants captured for us, since we were very absorbed and present with the ceremony. A way for us to remember this sacred day too.
Gratitude and love aren’t enough to say in words, for what we feel, but the sweetness and peaceful lightness of this day will always be remembered and cherished, and the monks will always have a dear place in our hearts.
The monks will be continuing their U.S. tour and returning to Carson City next year, so we’ll get another chance to see them before they head home. If this calls to you to experience one of their events or blessings (they do personal and house blessings) please check out the link to their website above, as they may be traveling through your area, or returning again through your area as they are doing here.
It’s been a big week so far, beginning with warm celebrations at my family’s house in Reno for Christmas, some completions, and a huge day today for Astrid. I was able to complete my office, except for a new sliding glass door and three special things to hang, which meant it was time for the reveal to her. And boy was it the best day of her life, and my life with her, yet! She had a huge day of joyful tears, soulful release, and courageous leaps – quite literally!
This mirrors me, as I’ve been reflecting on all that has completed and is about to begin in my own life, which was reiterated by the Tarot cards I pulled on Christmas.
My family and I always pull cards at the holidays to see what current theme is streaming through and what the New Year holds for us. All of them were very accurate, and mine were no exception to that.
They spoke to the rebirth taking place for me, an inner calling surfaced, release from all karmic ties, and everything coming together in my life story as I reach a significant stage on my journey.
Synchronously, the last week or so I’ve had an influx of people inquiring for services I have let go of and items I used to offer. To all of them I politely said no, but shared my gratitude for the reflections. It’s become much easier to do this, as I get the clearest yet about myself and what I want and don’t want.
As I felt into the messages of the cards, it was such a relieving confirmation and when I saw Astrid’s joy today and felt and heard her own release and depth of gratitude, I knew we were riding this new path together in all ways. Her feelings were mine reflected, and vice versa.
I will soon share a post on Astrid’s explorations and fun in our new shared room, which got its name a few days ago.
For now I’ll just share this one tiny peek of her in one of her play areas, standing tall and proud, and want to express the touching moment for us.
After she explored a bunch, she returned to the center of the room where I sat. Normally when she’s excited, she’s very interested in doing her own thing and will jet off if you come to her. But this time she came right to me and I put my hand on her head and caressed her softly, as we shared words.
Her eyes softened and lids lowered and she melted into my hand. All I could hear and feel was her joyous release and appreciation.
Like me, she’s had a long, hard journey.
Like me she’s waited patiently and kept going and believing, even when there seemed no hope.
Like me, she is experiencing the best time of her life now and receiving reflections of all the work she’s put into things, come to fruition…finally.
I could see her past and all she went through to get to this moment…how she waited for the right time and person to adopt her.
No one would and kept passing her by because they couldn’t “see” her.
She waited nearly three years, which is a lot for a little rabbit, as all of her friends at the rescue got adopted and left her behind.
And now, here she was, being gifted a magickal rabbit playroom fit for the queen that she is.
It was all overwhelming for her in a beautiful full circle way.
I felt both of our hearts open wider and our connection deepen, as we both shed tears of gratitude.
I knew her journey, as it mirrored so much of my own.
I’ll share again more in an upcoming post, but today was a huge day for us both. And on top of that, she learned to go up and down the big staircase all on the same day.
I knew she could do it, but thought it might take longer.
Astrid proved her bravery, as within a couple of hours she was up the stairs. And just a bit ago, she made it down.
It was such a cute process….the down that is, as she kept coming to me to help her. She kept nosing my ankles and then tugged on my pant legs with her teeth, to help. So I gave her a pep talk and went to the stairs to show her how. It took a little while, as she kept checking the first step down and then circling to regroup. And then it was done.
Today was a BIG day for both of us on so many levels. Speaks to the New Year to come!
Here are some photos from our lovely Christmas we all shared as a family, which was festive, fun, and full of giggles and yummy vegan feasting! Grateful to have parents that support our vegan lifestyle and always make, buy, or search out vegan restaurant options for us. My brother (who is absent in the photos due to camera shyness, but far from absent in the shenanigans shared) is vegan and was actually vegan a few years before I even knew what being vegan was. Both my mom (makes the entrees) and dad (makes the desserts) got in on the vegan creations and sent us home with care packages and apple dumplings to enjoy for the mornings.
Grateful also to have Faery folk as parents, which brings to Christmas and all holidays the magick I love.
Such warmth shared all around! And wonderful gifties too!
I hope everyone that celebrates Christmas enjoyed a warm, peace, and love filled one and that the holiday season (however you celebrate or don’t) was a perfect reflection of you.
Faery kisses to all!
I know that today is a day of various forms of feasting and celebrations and for me this day of sharing gratitude is also an extension of expressing my compassion and to be in presence of the life I have chosen to live as a direct mirror of that. This, however, is not limited to just this one day, but is a consistent, daily experience I choose to deepen into a more intimate relationship with. For me, compassion extends to all of life, every day of my life. There hasn’t been (for the last 12+ years), and won’t be, any animals in or on my body as long as I’m breathing simply because my soul recognizes the sacred relationship I have with these spirits in animal bodies as my family and as the powerful beings that they are who have chosen a different form to inhabit for reasons we have yet to fully grasp in the bigger picture. My spirit sees no boundaries between people of all colors and races, animals, plants, elements, and those from beyond this realm. For me, we are all consciousness expressing through different vehicles, the intelligence of the creative heart – each beautiful, worthy, and inherently deserving of my reverence and love. This is the life I have chosen to live for the rest of my days here on Earth and for all of eternity where ever I may be beyond that. And this has supported the vibration I choose to embody that reflects the frequency of my origins.
There is no all-ideal way since everything in some way still is tied into some form or another that doesn’t support my desires, but I do choose the best I can to live a life that most closely connects me to my heart resonance and I realize the perfection of it all despite my feelings.
So while today is about gratitude for many things and the people in our life, I am also giving thanks to and celebrating creative extensions of love, life for turkeys, and all of Mother Earth’s creatures and children on this day of gratitude and every day that deserves our gratitude. Every extension of consciousness, to me, is precious, equally valuable, and embodies wisdom and lessons that each so bravely and lovingly share with us to receive.
In addition, today I am really anchoring in an even greater presence of recognition and love for everything and everyone in my life that has contributed to this new journey and shift I find myself embarking on – to which we are all interconnected to in our own relative ways and reflections of these shifts.
We originally thought we might be moving in to our new home today, but instead will be on Saturday – just two nights remaining in this tree house above the lake we’ve called home for over a year now. There is so much to sit in presence with and so much here that has ignited and supported all the new in motion. From this place in the sky I have been able to be in things, but not of them, allowing me to experience my own reality and tap into the clearest channel of what is next for me, as an extension of my creative origins here. So much is here that has ignited and supported all the new in motion and it is no wonder we remain still on Thanksgiving in this creative brainstorming and expansive embodiment of new vision, to anchor all of that in before moving on.
Today we will be moving more boxes to the new home (we’ve been doing some each day to make that easier). This is a very deliberate and present experience since each time we carry down boxes to the car we are traversing 105 steps each way. That seems significant and symbolic on many levels and layers. Not to mention, definitely is keeping us fit and me very conscious of every single step being grounded safely and securely! It is also quite perfect that my foot healed just before this all became necessary. I have new feet to carry me forth!
I will be spending this morning baking some vegan goodies to share with two of our amazing contractor teams that are working on Thanksgiving to help bring our new home together for us. This is a way I can extend gratitude to them, as they truly have been working so hard and giving their all to helping us. Last week I did the same for our drywall team who were incredible. Today it’s our painter and flooring crews.
Alongside moving more boxes down to the house today, we’ll be enjoying our forest yard a bit before joining a vegan Thanksgiving celebration we were invited to, which was perfect since we haven’t been out doing anything other than home stuff and nature walks. So we are grateful to be nurtured by all the vegan community we have here to give us a nice break before our last two days of big-time shifting.
Which brings me to a sweet symbolic thing that happened yesterday. So small an experience, but not unnoticed by me.
While at the new house yesterday handling things, I walked up to the entry where one of our contractors was putting our new front door on and literally right at the threshold of the doorway I found a precious little tannish brown feather – imperfectly perfect, as has been this process.
Our entry is quite long to the door and covered above, so this truly felt to be a welcoming gift and sweet blessing..so befitting having this new door created to access a whole new portal of experience that awaits in this home.
Days lately have thrown us curve balls and surprises, but it has all pointed to surrendering into flexibility and understanding how these things are actually gifts, which in fact they are because each not only creates a deliberate presence and slowing down, but weaves an even better outcome into being because of this. You have to giggle at some of it when it happens. Too much to share, but definitely this huge remodeling project is much more than about a house….it’s about a whole new embodiment we are creating and rewiring on all levels, which it reflects.
Every aspect of life is something inherently beautiful and provides hidden treasures to be grateful for.
I know that during the holidays there is not only an increase of togetherness that is experienced, but can also herald an experience of separation and bring up feelings of loss, sadness, or of being alone.
For everyone experiencing separation in one form or another, whether through physical transitions of loved ones, the inability to be with loved ones, or even feelings of being fragmented, lost, or disconnected from parts of yourself I wish for you to know on some level that perhaps right now your feelings can’t grasp, but will be heard within the very essence of your spirit and the DNA of your beingness.
Even though you feel or physically sense that there is something or some part that is away from your body right now, within your heart there is always an open portal of connection that never leaves you. This is the bridge to all unified experiences of harmony and love and where you are never alone.
With gratitude I extend a hand on one side of that heart bridge to welcome you home.
Every day is a gift, each moment is an adventure unfolding, and every breath is an opportunity for expansion. It’s been an incredible journey with surprises around every corner and most recently, surprises discovered in our own backyard. We haven’t yet moved into our new magickal dream house, but we visit each day to manage remodeling, care for our new trees, and when time allows, explore a bit of our enchanted forest garden. I’d made promises to the Faeries to work with the energy here and in turn they opened the doors for this house to manifest and have sprinkled hidden treasures to uncover along the way.
I’ve already begun to plant some seeds of new in our front yard for the Faeries, which include five daffodil and five iris bulbs that were gifted to me by Faery sis Laura. If all goes well, they’ll be blooming once the snow thaws, bringing enchantment and color to the entrance of our home, lined along the large trees and Manzanita where I felt called to place them. As mentioned, an earth worm showed up while I was doing so, which felt like an affirmation of placement and gratitude.
We’ve been starting to work on a few changes to the area just outside my new office as well, and have been dream journeying with ideas for the yard there that will become a Magick Sanctuary that will at some point include a labyrinth and more. A work in progress for sure and can’t be started until Spring. For now we are focusing on the inside of the house, as truly the yard is a Nature’s work of art already.
We knew this was a magickal space, sitting on the National Forest with only one house to the right that isn’t on top of us, but also aren’t year-round neighbors, however we continue to discover just what the Faeries had in store for us with guiding us here, as we uncover more of their surprise gifts each day.
Today marks seven weeks since my foot fracture, and I’m no longer wearing my healing boot. I’m now able to wear regular supportive shoes and am moving around well. This has enabled me to start doing some easy hikes and walks, which include the beginning of explorations in our forest backyard.
We have an endless circuit of hiking trails out back that lead all over, including connecting to the Tahoe Rim Trail. I have only walked about a mile so far, but in doing so last week, discovered some treasures!
Not only did the Faeries leave raw quartz directly behind the house and along the trail….gorgeous pieces of pink quartz….but we discovered some very cool things about where the house sits, including having views of Heavenly Mountain Ski Resort.
We are exactly smack middle of two year-round flowing creeks, literally just a quarter of a mile in either direction (we clocked it) and about 3-4 minutes walk. What incredible energy that is having flowing water and the magick of these little Water Nymph areas perfect for this Pisces.
Here’s a short clip of one. The other has a bridge over it. This one has a log bridge over it.
Throughout the trail there are beautiful granite outcroppings of large stones that create sacred areas and energy as well. Some are large and others smaller. In some cases create rings or circles, and in other cases are just deliberately placed and have distinct shapes. I didn’t capture all of these in photos, but this is one of the larger areas.
And to our surprise we have very tiny peeks of Lake Tahoe. Not the full, expansive view of our tree house, but indeed open channels and portals connecting her energy with our home, both seen from the deck and back rooms of the house, and also wider openings along the trail just yards out.
This became extra apparent as we were there at sunset and I saw what appeared like two Suns setting. Then I realized the second was actually the Sun reflecting on the water and I could actually see the waves rippling on the surface of the Lake.
They don’t show up in the photos much, but give you a tiny idea. In person, it’s quite magickal.
I love the streaming of water and light through these little doorways, which creates this incredible portal of flowing energy tying in so many elements here that it’s almost beyond words to describe the feeling of. It just feels perfect, aligned, and definitely meant to be, plus creates a lot more mystery, magick, and mischief!
The dances of light that have been present the last few visits at our home have been revealing too and excite me as to all that will continue to reveal itself when we do in fact live here and what will take place and become possible in creating.
Oh what magick we will weave with secret visitors abound!
I love this video of the light in the yard and if you look closely near the railing you’ll see this magickal little white energy flying through the air and following my movement…then disappear.
Gratitude overflows and excitement builds. Yet patience is my constant partner for all that lies ahead and is unfolding step-by-step.
Life continues to be a journey of trust, loving commitment, and continued dreaming…
Well, bear magick and medicine was at it again. Just two days ago, four beautiful black bear showed up on my path, along with the abundant Kokanee salmon, during what was a short, but ever potent and rich experience. The last time bear had visited was near the end of Winter, when they were coming out of hibernation a bit early and now to see them preparing and fattening up for Winter, is definitely another full circle experience. Not to mention the timing for me/us that is also full circle, marking the ending and beginning of things. Paired together with the symbolism of salmon, I’m feeling the depth of these animal spirit guides’ reflections anchoring alongside the mirroring journey of my life.
It was a gorgeous late afternoon where we’d planned to meet up with our friends Bean and Happy at Taylor Creek, before heading to a dual purpose dinner party (welcoming our friends/guests Paul Shapiro, vice president of policy for The Humane Society of the United States and his girlfriend Toni Okamoto, founder of Plant Based on a Budget and author of The Super Easy Vegan Slow Cooker Cookbook to town and a going away party for Bean and Happy – boo!), so they could see the salmon before leaving Tahoe yesterday morning on their next adventure. It ended up being the perfect send-off for them, as well as the perfect celebration for us.
Our friends had arrived their well before us and were checking out all of the salmon, after doing the short Rainbow Trail there. Dave and I arrived about a 30-45 minutes after them and made our way down the trail too – my second short Nature walk in the last few days without crutches since having my boot, as the previous day my parents had visited to take me to lunch, followed by a walk along Zephyr Cove.
Everyone that passed me along the trail kept saying, “oh you’re so brave and hard-core,” to which I would just giggle not thinking I was doing anything extraordinary except getting out in nature, which seems natural to me!
I got lucky that because my boot slows me down, I came into the clearing just as mom and two cubs had also just arrived. Dave had gone ahead to find our friends and unfortunately missed them. I had just enough time to watch them stand up and look at me, then scurry off behind mom in the trees.
If you look closely in this photo you will see the two cubs at middle, center looking at me from the other side of the creek’s bank.
And here’s mom and mom and a cub to the left in the trees.
I was then joined by Bean, who so sweetly had come after me to see how I was getting along in case I needed help, but sadly the mom and cubs were gone, so we moved on ahead and joined Dave and Happy, checking out the salmon. As we continued further a solo black bear appeared and we spent quite some time watching him fish for salmon.
I was so happy another one showed up, as I had hoped Bean and Happy would get to see a bear before they left, and so they did! Perfect! And wonderful energy with it all for them, as they are branching out into new directions to explore.
All of this took place only several yards away, as we watched from the bridges and platforms, which made it even more special to view them so close in their natural setting.
This guy turned to me and asked, “can you run?” as he looked at my boot. I said, “no.” He replied, “then we’re safe” and laughed. LOL!
Well, I never felt threatened anyway, but did get a giggle out of that. Of course Happy turned to me and said, “I wouldn’t leave you behind if that happened.” Aw!!
Anyway, they were beautiful cinnamon coated bears and truly magnificent to watch. But so were the salmon. Just tons of them, as well as large crawfish, beautiful ducks, and gorgeous Autumn landscapes and lighting that truly made everything magickal.
These are some photos that Bean took with her better camera of the stunning salmon.
I marveled at the symbolism of it all and how perfectly reflective it was for me, once again.
Salmon symbolize returning home to regenerate, overcoming obstacles, end of a cycle and a new start, drive despite challenges to return to their origins (home), creativity, growth, maturity, abundance, enthusiasm, remaining in harmony with Nature’s rhythms rather than fighting them (flowing with the currents beneath the surface), not being deterred by seeming impossible odds, having a strong drive to reproduce in order to feel peace (however this is not just about children, but about anything creative – this runs the gamut from artful masterpieces to the next great novel, one source says), having very strong desires/passions and ability to tirelessly manifest them, enjoying life and sharing those richness with others (Native Americans see them as symbols of wealth, abundance, and providence), and remaining innocent, childlike, light-hearted, and open always. Salmon have shown up now a few times since our Magick Bus RV adventure, which has been a beautiful reflection each time and timely now once again.
Bears symbolize fearless ancient medicine, empowered Sacred Feminine energy and that Divine Mother embodiment, strength, transformative energy, and courage we have within to call upon in order to take action without fear, while remaining grounded and in rhythm with Earth and Nature’s cycles. They remind us of observing ourselves in every moment and self-reflecting, knowing the timing on things and aligning with the “when” and “where” to unfold divinely, teaching us laws of respect and boundaries and strengthening and voicing our own, as well as honoring those around us, and reflecting natural leader abilities within that invite relaxing into and bringing forth in innocent, creatively passionate ways that share the vitality of our own unique self-expression. Bears have been very potent for me also since the Magick Bus, and become near and dear. The last time they showed up, as mentioned, was linked with coming out of hibernation for me with creative rebirthing, which was exactly what happened on every level of my life and what Dave and I have been creating this year, as well as what I have (especially with my book). However, now I’m seeing the bears in this heightened state of nourishing and fattening up for the Winter, which feels perfect to both my book and personal life situations being nurtured, where there will be a turning within to the home and finalizing my book with editing and preparations to take it to the next step during Autumn and Winter.
This brings me to my exciting news that reflects all of this.
Yesterday was a big day for us, as we became the official, very happy owners of our new dream home! All culminating the morning after our bear and salmon encounters on a gorgeous day, as you can see here of a quick snap I took on our drive through Gardnerville to handle business. A morning that included five geese, a hawk, and sweet jackalopes (bunny reindeer) that were reflecting the support at every uncanny turn.
I’ll just share briefly that we’ve spent the last year here in Tahoe really deepening into our desires and dreams, working on building foundations and roots to support all of that, and listening to guidance on everything, which included lots of personal projects we accomplished in rapid speed, and big decisions around anchoring versus a plethora of other ideas that hugely shifted trajectories and timelines.
The expansive, nurturing, and inspiring space we’ve been living in, really helped solidify and clarify everything for us, and with our lives taking big turns, so too did we.
With both our little family growing (to include the magickal Astrid now alongside our kitty babies, Boojum and Sweet Pea), and the dreams we’ve had feeling the need to blossom and not wait anymore on, as well as being met with everything we explored and discovered here about ourselves that Lake Tahoe has, and more so now reflects for us, we felt a new and mirroring home space was calling that would nurture and nourish all of this.
And through countless magickal and synchronous unfoldings (way too much to share), everything aligned us with the perfect home base for all of this.
Our lake view condo will be taken over by a blossoming and amazing, young couple here shortly, as we prepare for our move to our new home on USFS land (United States Forest Service), where we will officially live in the enchanted forest full of Faeries and animals galore! Much magick awaits and will be created, as so many plans are in the works for this space.
To say I’m excited is an understatement, and although we have a very busy 4 months or so ahead of us before we’re fully settled, it is all SO worth it. A dream come true and perfect timing and unfolding in every way.
So yes, I’m feeling that “return to home to regenerate” and ultimately to my origins (both as a Cosmic AND Earth being, but also to Tahoe where everything started for us and where I received message to be long ago – and followed – without ever having been here or knowing what it was like), as well as an ending and beginning that salmon medicine brings, not to mention a definite surge in creativity, growth, harmony, and maturity in our lives all coming from creating things that would seem impossible (something that will continue being a theme for sure). For everything coming, I definitely feel that a strong foundation now is necessary. Whereas before, the need to move energy literally had to take hold in full embodiment of everything in our lives to create the huge momentum and leaps needed. Now things can settle in one regard, as the tree and its roots that will be the supportive foundation for all of the branches I/we will be growing.
And definitely, we’ve/I’ve been listening to those inner rhythms in flow with Nature, to align with everything and knowing just when to make moves and wait patiently, and are setting up our creative cocoons and hibernation caves (home) with everything nurturing and nourishing to our souls so we can continue in the cycle of rebirthing and recreating over and over with all that is in motion in our creative lives, like bear so beautifully shares with her medicine. Those two cubs that stood up and looked right at me, felt so reflective of my deep childlike innocence really coming forth now more than ever, and the playful vitality I feel to create, simply because it is peace for me to do so.
And speaking of childlike innocence, yesterday evening I showed up at an event sporting my bunny dress and magickal crowned rabbit necklace to represent the rabbits I love and adore.
Last night we had the opportunity to attend the sold out TedX event in South Lake Tahoe at Lake Tahoe Community College. Last year’s sold out inaugural event of 100, more than doubled to 250 this year with an incredible lineup of locally-known and world-renowned speakers from here and around the country. The event had food and drinks available during the reception and intermission including vegan wraps! and an after party at The Loft.
Our friend Paul Shapiro (mentioned above) was one of them who took the stage discussing the revolutionary “Clean Meat” – also the inspired topic of his forthcoming book.
There were many amazing speakers sharing their insights – all leaders in their own fields. You can check out the visionaries here:
My favorite speaker was photographer, director and Zephyr Cove resident Dewitt Jones who has photographed stories around the world for 20 years with National Geographic, published nine books, and directed two Academy Award-nominated documentaries. He moved me to tears, being a man of my own heart, with his talk that got him the only standing ovation. He so beautifully expressed the perspective of my own life and I felt the deep love in that reflection and mirroring, once again experiencing that full circle and collective connection.
Dewitt’s talk explored a mindset that he learned while working for National Geographic, and being out in nature, of celebrating what’s right with the world and not just focusing on what’s wrong with life, although not denying or ignoring any aspect of it, but rather seeing from a different perspective and the wholeness inherent in it all.
I was compelled to thank him after and he gifted me one of his bracelets.
It’s that message I want to leave you with, which is one of the foundations of my own life.
Celebrate What’s Right With the World and your life will be enriched.
This is a post about joy, gratitude, and love – building blocks to manifesting a magickal and wondrous life and the foundations for supporting healing transmutation and implementation of passions into dreams come true. While some people might be thrown off balance or upset, down, and self-critical over a fracture (even the old me would have been too), I feel like everything is in flow, fresh, and thriving. Definitely some of that has to do with perspective, but it feels also to be about alignment and embrace of the harmonious spirals of life. I haven’t for a second felt anything other than harmony and gratitude since my hiking adventure that led to my injury, as it feels much more to be a reset aligned with life shifts, an igniting or opening (fissure) for the new to flow in, not to mention is mirroring the seasonal changes we’re going into from Summer to Autumn.
I can’t begin to tell you how beautiful things have been surrounding the onset of my fracture and what it has revealed and put into motion. It’s incredible to witness and review…in some ways mind-blowing because I can remember the difference in my processes over the course of my life with things and it’s so dramatically contrasting to what I experience now. This is how I can SEE things ARE in fact changing and can anchor in more and more gratitude.
I’d like to share a couple of updates and then some very beautiful and incredible experiences.
First off….more gratitude sent out to everyone who has sent their good and healing vibes my way and for sending Astrid birthday wishes. We so appreciate your love and I’d like to share that my foot is doing very well. I can’t believe it’s already going to be a week since it happened, come tomorrow! Time is literally whizzing by. OMGOSH!
I’ve made mental note of how my own nurturing processes are even in much higher gear, as I’m taking REALLY good care of myself with this fracture. I noted that last go-around I wasn’t as diligent with the process, although did do good things for it, but I didn’t baby my foot in the way I should have and still was focused on accomplishing and getting things done, rather than hunkering down into the full healing mode and not trying to see how much I could still squeeze out of it all.
This time it’s been pure healing, slow-down, and wise caution, not doing anything at all to inhibit my healing or see what I can possibly still do. I have been purely babying my foot, keeping my boot on at nearly all possible times (even when it bothered the Pisces me who likes my feet free! and even when I sleep) – and doing extra nurturing things, as well as making sure to ask for help, which Dave has been so sweetly pouring out anyway.
This has included long hours on the highest setting of my biomat for my foot the last few days and just recently starting up my comfrey poultices, after a friend picked up some for me since I couldn’t get out. Being my right foot, I’m in complete surrender of others taking care of me and driving me around….weeeeeee! That in the past would have bothered me and now I’m loving not being able to go anywhere and surrendering to that, but also enjoying the sweetness of support, love, and friendship.
Anyway, I am trying new poultices with comfrey root and this feels really symbolically and literally potent and even more aligned for me right now. I made a paste and wrapped in a thin cloth I placed in the freezer for just a bit….last night when I had it on it just felt so good….just like the biomat did….like aaahhhhhhh yummy healing for my foot.
The root feels so supportive of grounding, balancing, rooting, and Earthing that my Pisces feet can appreciate and integrate in a new way. After last night’s session of poultice while watching a movie, I literally woke this morning with my foot feeling stronger…literally!
I’ve also been doing Reiki on my foot and using a Selenite wand on the area of impact.
Good stuff, which I’ll continue to implement, along with wearing my boot all day (just as the doctor at the hospital told me too) other than when doing healing work like this to help compliment my healing process.
* (I’m not a doctor and nothing I share is offered as medical advice – CONSULT A PROFESSIONAL and see a doctor immediately if you have been injured. These are only my personal experiences I take responsibility for only for myself) *
Even my sweet Astrid has been helping. I thought she would be scared of my boot and crutches when I first came home with them, but she in fact was not and in fact has immediately gone about sharing her healing energy with me, reiterating my knowing she is a healing bunny. When ever I am near her, she will come over and nose my boot/foot, which is her way (all of my bunnies’ way) of administering healing. Their noses are a channel, just like our hands, to spread the energy and love. So sweet! I remember Nestor doing this, especially once for my mom in conjunction with me doing a Reiki Healing Attunement for her, which was like a super pow! Immediately shifted my mom into balance and feeling good. Astrid is definitely demonstrating the same power-packed punch!
So that’s a foot and healing update, which I envision continuing well and being speedy based on my experience with it so far and being a good patient. 😉
On another note, I have to share this incredible thing that happened on Thursday that blew me away. We had friends over since I still was in “stay home mode” and Dave had to go out to pick up food we ordered at our fav local Thai restaurant, since T – me – wasn’t cooking and staying off her feet.
A knock came at the door and I opened it to find no one there, except these beautiful babies and a note.
I immediately knew that our amazing friends had gone back to retrieve my crystal babies.
So, I’ll back up to help you understand this, as I likely wasn’t clear in my story of my hiking injury.
I had 2 big quartz in my back pack I was carrying, as they spoke to me needing to come home and would be a part of what I will be creating in the near future. We have guesstimated them to be at least 50 lbs. So, as you can tell, I was quite determined in carrying these for miles. It didn’t even phase me, as the mind is a miraculous thing. It also officially put me into back-packer status, carrying so much and being so small.
When I fell and went into trauma shock, I asked my friends to remove the pack immediately because I needed to focus on balancing from the nausea, shock, and turning white. (I really didn’t have any pain except an initial quick impact feeling of the break that was actually pretty subtle in comparison to my last fracture, but the body reacts this way to trauma impact).
In process of balancing and readying ourselves for what was next in getting me down the mountain, I told them to leave the crystals, which Dave reiterated, as it wasn’t as important as taking care of me, being that we didn’t know the severity of things.
So they were left on the side, and I did feel this underlying sadness, but also this odd sense of continued connection that wasn’t broken.
One other friend had been carrying a quartz too and she ended up leaving as well, down further on the path, to not impede her own journey back down.
Anyway, I hadn’t forgotten them and still felt this channel of connection between them, and oddly (which I never shared with anyone) I felt like they were still with me and/or would be somehow/some way, even if it meant they’d wait for me to return later or after the Winter thaw.
So fast forward to the door opening and there they were before me with the note.
I was overwhelmed with emotion that came forth later, as I was so excited and giddy that that took over.
I then caught glimpse to the left at the bottom of the stairs, one of our friends videoing me and my reaction and knew they’d gone back to get them.
Most of my reactions were in Faery laughter and astonishment, but it was also full of exhilaration and exuberant joy and gratitude that rushed through in realizing what incredible friends I had. Like so incredible you can’t even form words except to giggle forth with joy and to form joyous tears that bubbled in my eyes later when I was hugging them over and over.
Our friends had gone back that morning on a 5 hour hike JUST to retrieve my and our other friend’s 3 crystals (likely 60+ lbs and a gift or two they found for themselves for embracing the journey of love.
BESTEST friends ever!
They also shared with us these SO SO funny videos of documenting the journey back, which had us in belly laughs. I was especially laughing at our friend’s impression of me carrying the crystals in my pack and how I was still looking around at more and saying I can carry 1 or 2 more of these babies! This was funny because they now realized just how heavy the ones I had with me were, which made my saying this hilarious as to how my determined mind took over.
This photo puts into perspective the size of just the one largest one, which is of course the heaviest too. I’m still smiling though!!
The other VERY interesting thing they noted was that where I fell was exactly at the site of the quartz field we’d been waiting to reach. Dave kept saying there was another one because he’d been on the hike before, when the girls and I had stopped at the first one we found to look around. So he was telling us not to spend time because more were on the way. We never actually saw this other site, because my injury took over focus.
Well, on their way back to retrieve the crystals they found that where I fell (marked by where we left the crystals) was exactly where they were, just up the hill from there a bit. That gave me chills in thinking of the energetics of it all at work and the alignments igniting and activating once I’d reached this area infused with more crystal vibes.
The crystals are super special and you can’t even tell the beauty of them in the photos…their amazing color – one is pinkish and the other like a golden apricot – and both have all this sparkly clear quartz infusions into the raw natural quartz rock. Amazing specimens and masterful beings!!
I’m still overwhelmed by it and also anchoring in more and more gratitude and realization that this is the new reality I have created for myself (and that is possible) where everything in it is a reflection of alignment and love…supportive energies…beautiful souls working together for a greater good….everyone mindful of and helping each other’s needs and dreams, but also supporting their own and their dreams, which brings together the highest of vibes and the power of the collective to move mountains…..or in this case to carry 60+ lbs of crystals.
It literally has to be one of the most special things I’ve ever received..and I don’t mean the crystals (although I’m in awe and gratitude of them being with me), but the gesture of true love and friendship.
These same friends also picked up my comfrey for me (it even had a Tinkerbell on the bag from the store!) and brought over some amazing organic “dragonfly” spicy black chai.
After that, our other friends arrived and I was then gifted a mini wardrobe of clothes she was moving out and thought were perfect for me and they were!
I was/am really feeling the love and I know that this is mirroring the fact that I’ve finally really anchored in taking care of myself, listening to my dreams and needs too, and balancing out that martyr energy of always giving out and never receiving – not to mention have implemented healthy boundaries. In the past receiving was hard and now it feels natural because it IS the natural flow and cycle.
You can’t just give, give, give….and you can’t just receive, receive, receive…
There is a flow of exchange to be open to and grateful for and it is all-encompassing of both being inherent in the wholeness of BEING. That is also the nature of Reiki….a harmonious circuit of flow in and out, which if blocked in any way, is the cause of challenges and dis-ease.
Yesterday was my first full outing since fracturing my foot, which included errands related to the new, a hair appointment for me, visiting my parents, and Dave getting a haircut by my mom (she has been a beautician although doesn’t do it professionally anymore since leaving her birth place, France).
I was feeling high-vibed to get a refresh on my hair, which included cut/thinning for lightness and hair getting to all silver and brown (my roots), which feels SO different and SO good. There’s constantly this recreating energy taking place to keep up with the ever-shifting energies. If I’m not naturally shape-shifting, then I’m assisting it. I also thought it was fun that my stylist styled my hair with loose spirals for a change, which felt mirroring of all the snake energy around me lately and the spiraling of the journey of life in general. I don’t ever curl my hair, as I don’t have the tools and usually just let my hair dry naturally so this was a fun update although brief.
We also got good news on this day/yesterday for something that has been in the works and took a huge turn the day before that could have gone a whole other way, but I worked with the Faeries, Buffalo energy, and did a Reiki Healing Attunement for, resulting in being told to fully trust, know what we want, and take assertive stance of our needs and the rest would be taken care of…and it was!
I’m saving that for a future post, but is something very exciting to me and going to anchor in everything further and more richly.
Lastly, I am happy to say that my book is back on track with the time off my feet and I should be able to have exciting news on that too here shortly!
We are all in this together and bringing your best “foot” forward with all of your parts together in unified alignment, sharing lots of love, joyous infusion and supportive action of your passions, and a LOT of gratitude and healthy balance supports harmony to take form in relative ways for each of us.
This felt like a perfect photo to share for this very short, but deeply heartfelt, post in celebration and gratitude of having reached 1 million visitors on my blog. The symbolism of Geese reflects what this blog represents to me and is a conduit for…my commitment to responsible sharing as a dedication to the collective, as the energy moves through me, and understanding how that is a threading of everyone’s contributions, energy, time, insights, and reflections that have taken place here since I first started my blog, and of the experiences I could never have solely on my own because it takes teamwork to co-create together. The worldwide web makes so much possible, even if it also has its streams of non-productive use, in bringing us all together across oceans, lands, and beyond, which is truly one of its beautiful and valuable gifts. I celebrate all of you with this post and share my gratitude for being here at this time to anchor in new realities.
I just love Geese and as I’ve shared before, their medicine and message is that of teamwork, comradery, fellowship, dedication, committed responsibility, the balance of knowing when to lead or follow, being compassionate keepers of the community, embodiment of the sacred circle and sanctity of the cycles of life, and never leaving one of their own behind for any reason (they will stay with the sick and injured until they are either well again, or to support them as they transition) – that last one sure reflects what took place for me on Sunday. 😉 Goose LOVE in action!
Thank you to everyone for being a part of the journey….mine, yours, OURS.
(Photo from our Magick Bus RV adventure in Jasper National Park, Alberta)
A little update and GIANT thank you….I don’t know how many of you follow along on my Instagram or Facebook pages, but I wanted to send out a big hug and loving gratitude to everyone who has lovingly and sweetly been supportive of my journey and the material that I share there and here on my blog, who has followed along with my own evolution, as well as for all of the support over the years of the channeled work I’ve had the honor to share with so many too. I am a big believer in sharing gratitude and how important that is to deepen into within yourself, but also in acknowledging the little and big things multi-universally and individually in connection with others that truly is an expression of LOVE manifest.
I/we never know the full reach of the things we do and put out there, but doing what moves us most in our hearts is the reason that fuels it all, nonetheless. At least that’s how I feel about it.
I’m always deeply moved and surprised when I do receive a message of gratitude or a personal share in relation to something I may have done or said, as it reflects the circle of connection and woven thread that runs through everything we embody, share, and do and its direct effects, regardless of our thinking nothing we do matters.
This is also why I feel the importance of being present daily with how I’m relating to others and any situation and how I might be able to challenge myself to arise to even greater energetic experiences with my responses spoken or unspoken.
I had written a thank you on my Facebook page several days ago, but wanted to share thanks here too, as I also noticed that this blog I’ve been lovingly cultivating is nearing 1 million visitors shortly and that really struck a chord too on many levels.
Since first sharing in any of these forums, so much has changed and it’s like so many versions of myself have been embodied and shed over and over – all done very publicly, as my process of moving through fears and my desire to reflect transparency and love of every step of the journey, as well as to support more courageous and authentic ways of living from the love and creative alchemy of Spirit moving through you.
Because things are shifting in focus for me, and as you know I’ve released much of what I used to do in order to embrace what is here and now moving through me “wanting” to be brought forth, I’ve joked to friends that I’ve felt like I’ve renounced the old. This to include older versions of me and have lovingly released these things as no longer the expressions I feel to carry forward because they no longer fit AND they in fact feel more like completion and tying up loose ends of things from my soul history, rather than now versions needing to be anchored anew.
That’s not to mean that things couldn’t at some point circle round in new versions if I felt so called, as I often see and acknowledge that energy when and if it arises, but they are not present currently and the more I’ve released things, the stronger the new has been anchoring inside me.
Anyway, I will eventually be giving everything a face lift and “new” updated version to match the shifts, but it will take a little time since that’s an involved process and right now am needing to follow the steps that come first.
So, soon there will be a new website and focal point, consolidation of things, and my social media and blog will also reflect these expressions.
It all excites me, although yes, will be a LOT of work and dedication. Luckily it comes from a place of love and essence channeling through so that makes it fun and extremely rewarding.
In terms of Facebook, a few years back I had to create a new Facebook page (because your personal profile pages are only allowed a certain limit of connections that I reached) and I intended the new page to also have more of a focus of sharing my life’s work and path more in depth. I haven’t been able to keep up with updating it is often as I would like or in the way that I’ve wanted, as life’s journey has taken me into times of needing to channel my energy into balancing life and supporting shifts with my creative output and new paths emerging – this leading to not posting a lot there in general, especially when I’ve taken breaks from online. And yet, so many have still lovingly supported that channel and I thank you so much for that.
However, in the coming months and forward I will be more regularly posting things and new material there that I hope people who follow will enjoy. It will root my new focuses and embody my life’s love and greatest passions/joys to share with you, just as I do here as well – to me, my most important work yet.
If you are on Facebook and have interest and haven’t already been following there, I would like to invite you to my page: https://www.facebook.com/taniamarieartist/
And in the meantime, if you’re on Instagram, I’ve been posting the most there since it’s quick and a creatively fun outlet (this will also reflect the upcoming transitions in months to come though) and would love to connect with and follow along with your posts there too. You can find me on Instagram as taniamarieartist.
I hope you’ll find the changes to be inspirational and enjoyable, and as always, please do pass your own links along and/or connect with me on both Instagram and Facebook, as I love supporting other visionaries, artists of all genres, healers, inspirational souls, nature lovers, earth guardians, cosmic travelers, compassion ambassadors, harmony weavers, people following their hearts, courageously paving new paths, and speaking their truths.
I’m excited for where the journey is headed and although things in the world and some realities seem “off” and challenging, I still believe there is much evolving in incredible ways and new realities are being birthed with our learning to harness these energies for the highest good of all concerned.
Keep doing your part and coming from your heart.
In love, gratitude, and creative alchemy.