Today is the first day of December and the start of the last month of 2017 and Lee’s update illuminates the energetic landscape in clear ways. This Sunday we also have a Full Moon illuminating things, so this comes at a good time to clarify your intentions and presence of heart, as you integrate and process what Lee shares about.
Some key things he expressed point to creative and heart energy expanding in multitudinous ways right now that will touch the collective in a domino effect.
He also speaks about not getting seduced by these “ideas” that your spiritual work is better than what others are doing, as everything can all be heart-based and does have value. Seduction has the tendency to take you away from action, but action is indeed what is needed and is important to help clear things out now – not just talk about it.
This is coming in the form of grounding, especially taking place within the spiritual communities, as your work is needed HERE and needing to root in tangible ways that can be of support with the changes taking root.
Lee shares that everyday you have opportunity to create from your heart with “wonder” how you want things to be. (There’s that child like energy again that I speak so much about.)
So trust and know that you don’t owe anybody anything. If you take care of you, you will naturally be able to help others.
Lee continues in sharing about how Christmas calls up family dynamics to surface that have been buried. Lee says to ask ourselves, “What presence can I bring to Christmas? What presence can I bring to the season?”
Something you can affirm to yourself is:
“I want to be as present as possible for wonder and heart energy.”
Lee’s thoughts above and in the video, call to mind something I shared in my last newsletter of 2017 just yesterday (and last newsletter for a while).
Here are those thoughts.
We are reconfiguring things for sure and where it leads is unknown, but can only be navigated by a heart anchored in love.
2018 feels to be ushering in a greater experience of what this “togetherness” means through a deeper exploration of the quality of life we each choose, which I sense will bring even more focus on emotions surrounding dramatic opposing paradigms for us to learn more about ourselves and these seeming contradictions running amok.
In so doing, we’ll continue to find that answers can only be sought within, that heart and mind are BOTH needed, and that there is a new way uprising within all of the turmoil surfacing to induce expansion.
We officially moved into our new home this past Saturday 11/25 and what a wild ride that all was. I always marvel at how we manage to get things done and in general, what is possible when you set your mind and heart to it. Our first full day we enjoyed rain, cleaning the slate so to speak, and this morning (our second day and start to a new week) we were greeted by a white Winter wonderland that the snow Faeries gifted us as welcome.
I’m a Winter Faery myself, being born in the month of February, so I love the white purity of rebirthing energy blanketing our enchanted forest backyard to mirror this huge shift and transformation underway.
It was also synchronous and felt aligned with a house blessing we did last evening and a big Reiki Healing Attunement done by one single, tall, white candle I held for the ceremony.
I won’t bore you with all the details we’ve been managing here and what yet has to be done, but let’s just say it is, and has been, one huge process that keeps spiraling around to reveal new layers of the bigger picture.
We started off living in just one section of the upstairs and soon will be able to take over the whole upstairs. Layer by layer we move forward.
All of our fur babies are doing great. They have actually gotten even more loving since here and enjoying exploring and looking out into the forest at all of the little animals. I’m excited most for Astrid because of the flooring choice we made (porcelain tile that looks like wood with texture) that is so perfect not only for all of our animals and life use durability in all ways, but allows her to be able to run confidently throughout the house without sliding like wood floors or other smooth surfaces might. Plus it’s completely waterproof! I’ve so enjoyed seeing her exploring all over without worry of not feeling stable. Yay!
The fun parts are starting to weave in more now, which involve making creative decorating decisions with some furniture ordering we’ve kicked into gear. I’m so excited for the full tapestry of what we’ve been weaving to come together. It’s completely all new and different in style than anything we’ve had so far…and rightfully should be since we are different and this is a new beginning and path in every and all ways for us.
I also really love organizing and thoroughly enjoy the sifting through of things, purging, finding the perfect space, and getting things in order. Must be my Capricorn energies and Saturn placement. That will continue as we receive our stuff from storage we had tucked away while in the Magick Bus. Although we didn’t store furniture except for 2 or 3 pieces, there’ll be things to go through and discover again like opening Christmas gifts.
We have A LOT still to do here, but it’s incredible how much we’ve accomplished in a short time…things most people said were impossible here in Tahoe due to contractors both being booked out for months and having a very laid back approach to work. That’s not to say we haven’t had our share of challenges, but we’d always find a way and there’d always be a reason that worked out better.
Delays help alignment sometimes.
Anyway, this is just a little update of where things are with us and my first blog from our Forest Portal, which we loving refer to our headquarters here as.
This weekend was definitely bitter sweet to say goodbye to our Treehouse in the sky overlooking the expanse of Lake Tahoe. We will definitely miss those spectacular views, but at least our condo will always be our little gem even though we’ve outgrown it. We lovingly hand it over to our new tenants on 12/1, whom we really love and know will take great care of our baby for us.
Although we’ll miss our Treehouse, we find it easy to move on and like with everything in our lives these days, the transitions are much more fluid and emotionally gentle and graceful. That I’m grateful for – having moved into a flowing process of ease.
So much has taken place from our Treehouse headquarters over the last year… so much more than I’m able to share here, but literally it’s been like moving mountains. It’s so incredible what the energy of that space supported, inspired, revealed, and ignited into motion and manifestation.
There’s still this amazing sense of flying, like all the birds we’ve engaged with from the vantage point it offered, even though we’re anchoring in more now.
We’ve moved from 7500 to 6600 elevation – still the same numerological vibration, just 900 feet and 5 minute winding drive directly down from the Treehouse. We’ll still sit above the lake, but are now within walking distance from it, have hiking and mountain bike trails directly out back, can snowshoe off our deck, not to mention are only 3 to 5 minutes from grocery stores, restaurants, and entertainment. We also only have one human neighbor directly next to us, but with lots of space between, who isn’t full time – it’s their vacation home – and tons of animal neighbors. We’ve met 4 of our neighbors (3 others across the street) already and everyone seems very nice.
We now have a forest view, views of Heavenly Ski Mountain (especially clear from my office), tiny peeks of the Lake as enchanted little gems shining through the trees, and a fenced yard touching the forest where we’ll be creating a secret garden sanctuary over time.
So, now we find ourselves living on the enchanted forest and although it is more grounded and Earthy in nature (perfect for my Capricorn North Node), it feels very light, rich, and creatively abundant here. It’s very expansive in its own way, and of course quite nurturing and nourishing. The smells, feels, textures, and energies are prolific.
It was fun early this morning to wake up to snow and go out on our deck in my jammies taking in the smells and silence, yet listening to the whispers of my Otherworld family here, while watching squirrels still preparing for Winter before the rest of the humans woke up. I sense some Cosmic encounters upcoming.
Looking forward to the magickal adventures ahead, as I root deeper with this land and all of the surprises that await.
A short video excerpt from Lee you may find helpful with some quick tidbits of wisdom on grounding spirituality as important in these times – something that doesn’t get old in reiterating.
To add to his reflections, here is something I shared yesterday on my Instagram and Facebook profiles that feels to go along with things energetically, touching on feelings:
Your greatest pains and feelings of loss have a valuable purpose, just as joy and pleasure do, but somewhere you learned that feelings weren’t good and so you avoid them. These painful feelings create a depth of experience within you that assists you in truly appreciating life and in expanding your capacity for compassion and gratitude, when the sun shines through again.
Feelings are natural. It is when we suppress, deny, attach to, and try to control the natural course of life, that we create challenges and blocks. If we allow the loss we feel to run its course, it does not turn into depression. Chronic debilitating feelings are a result of resisting life and when we push away the natural pains, we also push away the ability to feel the sun again in our hearts.
Children are perfect examples of the natural cycle of an experience evoking an emotion that then fully gets expressed and is ready for the next new experience directly thereafter. It is a very “in the moment” way of being. We all have this ability if we choose so.
Days have been CRAZY busy lately and increasingly will be in the coming weeks, as we prepare for moving in and remodeling continues to rapidly increase with overlapping contractors to accommodate that. Although work will continue through January, we should have enough done upstairs to get in at Thanksgiving, as long as things continue as they are. We’re also flowing with what shows up and ready to adjust that timing if need be.
We weren’t able to find a general contractor we liked and was affordable to handle everything that we are, so we are the general contractors to our 15 or so different contractors, at times shifting the responsibilities back and forth, as well as sharing them together to manage it all.
It’s A LOT (as many of you may know from your own experience), as it isn’t just one simple change here and there like just new flooring, choosing paint colors, or remodeling say a kitchen or bath. It basically has entailed literally gutting/demoing most of the entire inside of the house and starting from scratch, other than the foundational footprint and layout. Our first time doing a full-on remodel, as the closest we came was in our Costa Mesa house, which we redid a lot in, but nothing like to this extent AND there we actually had a general contractor. So it’s been a great process of learning and understanding how it all works.
The entire outside hasn’t been touched (other than adding our new 8 Austrian Pines and adding a walkway bridge from my new office here shortly), but the inside is getting a whole new face lift on every level, which to me symbolizes transforming things on the inside for us too.
When Spring comes we’ll look at working on the yard and implementing some ideas there. Step by step.
On top of this, we also had to manage, and in some cases did the work ourselves, some changes and fixes to our tree house condo to prepare it for the new tenants. So we’ve been managing both places, on top of scheduling everything to align timing-wise with all that each entails. You throw in regular life, work, our other side projects we manage together, and my editing and what not, and it’s quite a lot to juggle. We may not have human children, but we do have animal children, all of whom are very sensitive, and we can tell that they are anxious to get to the new place too and so we do our best to keep equilibrium with everything and hold peace for it all.
It’s not always the easiest thing to do when there is so much being thrown at you at once. It can kind of get overwhelming, so you do need to have those anchors in place to center and balance you back so you don’t get caught up in the stress. That entails a lot of flexibility and willingness to readjust your position, and for us, has strengthened our clarity with how to communicate with others and ourselves, and of course never take something personally. I/we are learning so much through this process, not to mention, growing in new ways.
So while things might appear the same on the outside of our new home, they in fact will be operating from a whole new internal circuitry, shifting us into a different feeling experience and reality. The new trees outside are rooting new pathways for us and connection to the forest and bigger picture collective reality we’re settling into, but the foundation is solid on which we’re working from, which is good.
So, since the foundation and structure is strong, that feels anchoring of the new we’ve been working on that is solid and in place already, which is holding everything together while we reconfigure, continue to shift, upgrade, integrate, assimilate, grow into the more expansive shoes holding space for us, and create what this new is like on the inside. The fun part is, it’s all our creative choice as to how we want that to feel and look.
It’s interesting that my foot has healed just as the major crunch time with the house is happening too and timely because Dave hadn’t been feeling well the last two weeks so there were things I needed to take over, which driving and walking allowed for. Everything sort of rewired at the same aligned time and it’s been cool that I used the forest backyard as part of my strengthening of my foot and the backdrop for all of this inner circuitry of moving parts and people weaving together.
Needless to say, this is simply a little break I’m taking to provide this update, as it feels reflective of things that others might derive some symbolism from too and may mirror what you’re experiencing, from one perspective of how to view them that you may not have thought of.
Plus, it’s always therapeutic, I find, to write about things and move energy.
It also lends to why you will increasingly see less posts during this crunch time, or very simple ones, because simply I’m quite occupied in other areas right now – like BIG TIME!
So much so that even my editing has had to take the back burner for the last nearly week (with sporadic bursts when I could), so that I can not only attend to things needed, but stay on top of self nurturing, rest, and keeping balanced.
I don’t force things simply because I have a goal, because ultimately if I’m not at my best, I can’t give my best to anything and what I create will only be a small or smaller percentage of its potential.
This home base feels key right now.
I have also found that currently this approach of flowing with the energy that shows up has been ideal for my editing (I’m on my second run-through of my book) because now and then we need to step away from things to return with a fresh perspective, sometimes completely removing ourselves altogether from it for a time period.
So unless I get a very strong message that I really need to amp things up to align the timing of my book with things energetically, I’ll be inclined to trust what is showing up as where to focus, so I will be invigorated when I return to it and the process will be speedy, rather than feel labored or take ages to work through even a few sentences.
Of course, we can self-sabotage ourselves and find ways to avoid things, so it’s important to stay on top of authenticity, responsibility, and being honest with ourselves for why we are or aren’t doing something.
I check in constantly to make sure of this and am assured that right now there is a window available of letting it sit in the background percolating, while I put into place important things and keep healthy and strong.
But I assure you that I do feel a sense of timing with my book, yet trust as long as I keep moving the energy in some way, I’ll know when to jump back in fully. And I also know when I do, that it will flow more easily than what I felt right before I stepped away to handle other things. The energy was heavier and not fluid, as I usually feel. Hence, a perfect transition time.
Amidst it all, I do still feel peace mixed with excitement, as well as moments of overwhelm mixed with complete surrender. There’s that feeling of perfection with the now and also this anticipation for the new anchoring. There’s that gratitude for all that has been to create the now and also this wonder about what I can envision becoming. So yes, lots of duality dancing with each other in balance, which I only differentiate when I write, in order to explain what takes place as this simultaneously seamless experiencing.
Perhaps it’s much like my hair’s unified duality that you see here in the most recent reflective photo of me beginning this new phase of my life.
I’ve also noticed Astrid is going through her own transitions with things right now too, which isn’t surprising. She is definitely reconfiguring things for herself, too, and learning what it means to be loved for who she is, which is encouraging her to discover how she really wants to share herself not because of fears or conditioning, but because it’s simply what feels right for her. So she’s working that out through explorations.
Interestingly, I have been getting ideas for the next project already, so I know that if that is anchoring, just as the house anchored in foundation while we rework the insides, that the infrastructure and insides of my book will rework themselves too in perfect timing.
Anchoring seems to be key, at least in my experience, then the pieces start to come together with the rest.
In the interim, so many animal spirit guides show up consistently for me due to my strong connection there, reflecting their own pieces of the story.
So many in recent weeks have shown up, that hadn’t for some time like the bears, the deer, and countless little ones all around.
I even had a hawk again outside our deck visiting several days ago. This time soaring with deliberate intent for me to see. You might remember the one that came and landed on the banister looking in on me. Well, this one my own hawk eye caught sight of down quite a ways below. I told Dave immediately, “watch, he’s going to come to us.”
And he did.
He suddenly turned around and started soaring closer and closer until he literally was soaring directly in front of our door going to the right first, disappearing at roof level, then soaring back to the left and directly in front again, then disappearing above one more time, and back to the right until he then flew off. Three fly-by’s, but each soaring in place so I could see all his feather detail and he confirmed hearing me tell Dave he was coming.
Hawk always feels to me to be about navigating and staying on path with deep presence and awareness, being open to and taking in wider perspectives, trusting my insights as they speak my truth, taking decisive actions with strength of vision and initiative behind them after surveying all creative possibilities, and knowing I have the ability to move through anything with grace and am being watched over by divine guardianship. Definitely good confirmation for it being time to bring forth gifts into action, but also a time to not act impulsively and await those air stream propulsions by assimilating everything to create alchemical alignment.
And just a few days, while on our way home, I counted 17 hawks that showed themselves (I think the most has been 44), and as we were on our way back up the mountain to our tree house – I was driving – my hawk eye caught two coyotes to the right at the side of the mountain.
They were very camouflaged and otherwise would not be seen, unless you knew where to look and how to make them out. I immediately told Dave and pointed, slowing down, and he saw them while remarking how much they blended in.
I normally have only see one coyote at a time, but two together felt significant.
Their medicine speaks to me of all things being sacred – so yes even the uncomfortable processes and the times you feel all you can do is focus on survival – that laughter and playfulness is always important to have running behind the scenes (a big one for me that I keep cultivated), about cunning and knowing how to balance risk and safety, about adaptability and the need to stay flexible always especially in seeing another way, about instinct being important to connect to, and yes about that trickster energy, but more about having integrated dual sides skillfully of wisdom and foolishness that help us learn. As way-makers they’ve been known by many to be symbolic of endings and making way for new beginnings. They also are known to mate for life and know how to nurture and protect their family – that stands out to me in seeing two this time for the first time.
And not more than two minutes after, my hawk eye caught two deer to the left on the side of the mountain this time. I slowed down again to point out to Dave who then saw them, remarking it was quite a wildlife sighting day. 🙂
The coyotes medicine was balanced out, and in some ways enhanced, with deer medicine of love, grace, gentleness, compassion, innocence, peace, beauty, fertility, femininity, humility, swiftness, acceptance, regrowth, renewal, creativity, spirituality, psychic power, subtlety, higher connection, awareness, abundance, benevolence, and watchfulness. Interesting to note there were TWO again. Really emphasizing that divine union, duality in balance, and sacred relationship with the parts within and without.
Interesting that there was predator and then prey – another balance exhibited in Nature’s cycles and not too far off from collective things exhibiting themselves a lot these days.
I will continue to draw upon their meanings for me personally, as I move through these full days and equally full and symbolic nights of layered dreams and even more animals spirit guides showing up in them to include, bat, spider, cats, and rabbits.
There is much going on with everyone everywhere and not only is there a lot of things being unveiled in the collective as well, surfacing as challenges in order to help to heal, but I know of many dear friends going through huge hurdles right now and I can’t help but feel both a sense of withdrawal to preserve my energy, but also this inversion within that withdrawal of deepening into greater ways of being able to share my love with them all. More duality playing out in a unified way that makes sense only to the heart.
I wish everyone greater peace with all that you are experiencing directly or indirectly. It’s something I constantly work on for myself as well, to know peace and harmony more intimately by the day.
We are reconfiguring things for sure and where it leads is unknown, but can only be navigated by a heart anchored in love.
Virgo Full Moon magick to everyone! Some big things have culminated around this moon energy here in my personal experience including a huge ending/beginning that took place yesterday with a lot of recognition of the full circle experience and also how it all was the gift that gave me new life and anchored me here longer, most literally. I also have a big celebration today of my personal empowerment and embodiment, as well as some interesting things revealing themselves.
What are you experiencing around this energy right now? I know a lot of people that are having major shifts in their life, openings, and breakthroughs to their long-time dreams. Exciting to hear and witness.
Virgo has us looking at our relationship to our Earth Mother, our bodies and making that heart connection to their messages, releasing perfectionism, limiting beliefs, and inhibitions, stepping up rather than hiding, and reminding us we need to focus with conviction and integrity on the details and steps put into motion now if we really want to manifest our dreams.
Ready? Set. Go!
I took this photo early this morning when I woke from it beaming on my face through the window.
And today I awaken, reminded of what this day also means for me, as it is the 16-year anniversary of my legally changing my middle name to my official last name, hence now my full, legal name being Tania Marie.
So, a reflection of self-embodiment and a rebirthing and anchoring into who that is, as I’ve continued forward throughout the rest of my life.
It all seems timely and significant with Virgo’s energy right now highlighting things – my opposite sign as a Pisces – which is all about the “practical” application of creative self-expression in a way that most serves the highest good, which is inclusive simultaneously of you.
It’s down-to-Earth energy helps us to bring all of those dreams and ideas into grounded being, anchoring us more with integrity and commitment, and helping us to balance things, knowing that it isn’t just enough to imagine and have incredible ideas, but also we must apply these things in the every-day and understand the processes of manifestation. After all, we aren’t here on Earth for nothing!
Imperfect perfectionism is key too, allowing ourselves to be human through it all and to avoid extremism.
Synchronous to Virgo’s focus on practical matters of life including nutrition, healing, health, “service”, and work, last night we hosted our Tahoe Herbivores’ meetup here at our place for a private screening of “What The Health,” which is a follow-up film exposing government and big business corruption keeping us sick, from the creators of the award-winning documentary Cowspiracy. – both great films and eye-openers for people, plus an added bonus of my partner Dave Simon having cameos in both. 😉
It was a great evening, awesome group of 12, and yummies I made including my air fried, breaded cauliflower with homemade vegan thousand island dressing, my almond “cheeze” ball, and pine nut roasted hummus with rainbow carrots – all a big hit! A guest also brought a huge bowl of sprouted lentils and home made pear kombucha to add to the yum. We even had an amazing sunset to welcome our guests. It was a lovely evening all around followed by dinner at a local Indian restaurant, but I had to smile at the tie-in with the Moon’s energy supporting this evening’s film and discussions.
Anyway, today I plan to get some Nature time in amidst some of my own “practical applications” I’ll be implementing to help balance and ground the energies and see what inspirations come through from immersion time with Terra.
And this integrated Nature and Moon energy brings me to the Magick Crystal Wands for an update.
Right after I posted the three wands that I was guided would be offered, two got spoken for.
So I only have the powerful Neptune and Nymph Wand remaining, currently.
Definitely not one for the faint of heart! It’s watery essence is anchored in Earthy manifestation, SO reminding me of the Virgo/Pisces dynamics! Wow! Perhaps it will end up staying with me! Hehe!! Weeeeeee!
You can get more info on it here, which includes the original link with many more photos of details of it as well:
As mentioned in this post I do have a bunch more wands that spoke to me and will in the future be channeled for offering.
That said, I got the idea yesterday when someone, who had really felt drawn to one of the wands that was spoken for, did not end up being the one to receive it, I immediately was inspired and knew I could create a unique wand for her with some of the elements I had collected and so that put a spin on things and now have 3 custom wand channelings that will be upcoming for individuals in similar circumstances.
So this could be an option too, if you desire.
However, I will reiterate what I shared in my last post on them, that these won’t be created right away, but in their own time, as I have to switch gears a bit for a while.
Who knows though, as I go by inspiration and if suddenly an alignment, divine inspiration, and energy hits and nudges me to make one, then I will.
How’s that for my own Pisces/Virgo integration of divine inspiration tempered with practical application? LOL!
Wishing everyone a balancing Full Moon!
On the eve of September 30th’s rare New “Black” Moon, this musical expression seeding a new field of experience was inspired while stationed on the edge of farm fields in Big Springs, Nebraska. With the assistance of my Cosmic Golden Selenite Flower a sound channeling came through … creative storytelling through harmonic resonance.
It felt like no coincidence, once again, that days earlier I had been guided to bring home a new crystal friend – a small, but potent Black Moonstone. It was the only crystal that spoke to me, as we wandered through a metaphysical shop on the Saturday after Equinox.
At that time I was not aware that we were approaching a rare New “Black” Moon, which would complete the month’s cycle of powerful shifts. And I didn’t know about all of the Black Moonstone’s properties. I just knew it really resonated and spoke to me.
But I did immediately connect with the Black Moonstone’s properties with a big “a-ha!” when learning more and of course the synchronicity of it having an extra focus of New Moon energy for beginnings of all things.
Black Moonstone embodies the space from which all things new emerge and are created from. It is very protective, deflects unwanted energies, encourages inspiration, helps remove blockages for past trauma healing and profoundly deep emotional connection/expression, enhances intuition and inner knowing to bring you under guidance of your feelings rather than be led by intellectual reasoning.
They are crystals of the deep Divine Feminine energies and powerful Shadow workers that aid bringing you in touch with your Root Chakra to connect down to Earth with the calming and grounding they exude.
Balance and cleansing are also part of their supportive energies and work powerfully during dreamtime.
Along with Root Chakra work they assist with the Throat, Third Eye, and Crown Chakras as well, assisting creative self expression and psychic gifts.
Some, like the one I have, also have Peach Moonstone embodied within the stone, which adds the Sacral Chakra connection and will help enhance emotional work, give your creativity a super boost, and supercharge the birthing of new ideas and creations.
They also are excellent for aiding the flow of synchronicity in your life.
I slept with my Black Moonstone under my pillow during the period surrounding and on the night of the Black Moon and continue working with it closely at my side because of its “synchronous” energies to all I am focused on.
Here’s the sound channeling encapsulating the energies flowing through the eve of the Black Moon Rising.
I hope it inspires and supports the energies shared above, within your own experience.
These are great reminders and supportive ideas for those of you that may find yourself in very challenged times right now. Thank you Laura for sharing.
Synchronously, I had someone this morning ask me for help about how to work with the Mercury Retrograde energy in productive ways, or if that was even possible. I also have heard from quite a few people about heavy challenges. I hope these provide some support.
And I’d like to add the link I shared with the person asking about Retrogrades, which I wrote about a year and a half ago when we were entering a Retrograde period then too:
Just a few things I find myself repeating in various forms to clients, blog readers, friends, family and acquaintances:
1)We’re now in Mercury Retrograde. Don’t be surprised by lost or delayed emails and snail mail, extra typos, messed up travel plans, miscommunications, overreactions and misunderstandings. Par for the course, folks. You can, however, find ways to thrive during a Mercury Retrograde. For those who could use some refresher tips, here’s a 2012 article with all sorts of explanations and suggestions.
2)The topic of friendship is front and center right now. I keep hearing from people facing major upheaval and frustration in their friendships and other close relationships. Part of this may be from the influence of #1, but the current major process of revision transcends a single astrological influence. In case you’ve been living under a rock, planet Earth faces too many extinction level challenges to name in…
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Little by little I’m seeing that people are coming to understand that there’s more to creating change than simply being “positive” and reciting affirmations, which is so refreshing. And so it seems that another round of inner reflection about your emotional landscape is coming up as an important topic again to reflect on, as you are working with integrating the deep roots of your experience.
I’ve written a lot on this subject including this August post:
So I smiled when I read this short MindBodyGreen article, a few days ago, by Aimee Dufresne:
In it, Aimee shares a few of her own simple hints and good places to start, to help you to “get real”.
As she puts it, just being positive is:
….”like trying to fit into the cutest pair of shoes that you want so badly but the only size available is a half size smaller than your feet. So you push and prod and tell yourself you can do it. You can bend your big toe and walk at an odd angle. Maybe the shoes will stretch if you wear them long enough. That chaffing isn’t so bad, is it?
Yes, it is. The further you push and force yourself into something that doesn’t fit, the more struggle and angst you will feel.”
So, if you have found yourself doing some of the spiritual bypassing, “fluffiness”, or denial with your emotions, where you “fake” a reality of feeling, crack a smile, and simply affirm otherwise, then you may want to check the links out and revisit your natural feelings in a deeper, holistic way.
Have you ever punished yourself or felt ashamed and “less than” because of feeling angry, sad, disappointed, hurt, or judgmental? My guess is that I’d be close to accurate in saying that nearly all of us at some point have learned to react in this way towards feelings that are simply natural processes, but have been labeled “wrong” on the flip side of the same coin of life experience.
It is all really “okay” and to view things this way or to be hard on yourself really is not what unconditional love and compassion is about and keeps us trapped in the very separated world of black and white duality.
One thing I have found to be misleading with New Age thoughts of the old have been to mentally reprogram with positive affirmations, but with an unrealistic focus and expectation that there will never again be a moment of experiencing anything on one side of the coin because you have moved onto the other.
Remember, the very existence of one is only possible because of the other. We experience the flip-flop because of our present focuses and yet at any moment we can also experience the simultaneousnous of All That Is, which always IS even while we are in this see-saw effect – for now, perhaps this is simply a concept to many that is hard to grasp, yet many of you enter that space at certain “tapped in” moments.
While this “positive programming” can last for a while, it is not built to last. It potentially brings with it a lot of repression, or potential denial and “stuffing” of old, core emotions.
Glass castles built in the sky can easily be shattered by one single rock thrown from the foundation upon which it was built.
Hence, as within, so without. Denial, judgment (which can include the focus on only “one side” of experience), and refusal, can and will come back to haunt.
The trick however, is not only “not” to run from it, but to learn to love, forgive, and realize the natural flow of emotions that are integral and valuable to your evolution as a human being. This is now possible in an instant when we grasp the new perspectives and ways. That is, until we start to over-analyze and think, “It simply can’t be that easy,” and therefore we negate that we actually shifted the experience when we go back into our old stories and programming to try to “work it out” some more.
We cannot escape feelings and challenges, but we can learn to embrace them as the Divine perfection they are and see them through the same Universal eyes that simply observes, never judges, and is in the business of experiencing for sake of experiencing itself, and all of the integral parts that make up the whole of All That Is.
We, in human form, are gifted the opportunity to experience all of these parts that make up Oneness, in a very tangible and sensual way. The trick is not to get “stuck” in any one experience, thought, or feeling, but instead, to allow the cycling of energy to do what it is born to do…keep moving, re-creating, expanding, flowing, and blazing in motion of perfection.
The gift of living in a human body temple is to BE human. And while we are learning about ourselves, we are also provided opportunity to experience out the spectrum of colors that make up the Universe, in a focused way of our present choosing, while being challenged to remember it all in its unity and integration. At some point you will be able to walk both of these paths at once, coming to realize your luminous beingness that is always perfectly imperfect.
But for now, just realizing the beautiful perfection of energy, how it flows, and learning to mirror the ocean’s currents, nature’s seasons, and the cosmos’ rebirthing – all as natural cycles of life force energy simply being in its exquisiteness and grace – will greatly release the fixations of false illusions holding you stuck in any one experience.
A new reality is awaiting creation once you cross the threshold of your limitations.
It is really of benefit to evolve into a place where you can value, embrace, appreciate, experience, read, and flow feelings in their fullness. This provides a key to the map of consciousness that will bring you into your highest potentials of awakening, as well as into abundance and harmony in all areas of life.
When we spend time talking about the unwanted feelings this usually will do the opposite of moving them through you, and rather, may increase the experience of them, as you get stuck in the spiraling “story”.
Even people who have done a lot of spiritual work can find their awakening limited because they haven’t yet learned to fully allow for flow of feelings in their life. This can create challenges with abundance, health, drama filled relationships, and a whole gamut of challenging emotions and struggles.
Along with flowing the feelings with gentle nurturing, also remember to change the inner landscape and work with the mirrors there the minute they show up, which will then reflect the outer reality you are embodying.
When you truly get this, things do actually become magical. This isn’t just a word I enjoy using. It IS an actual reality that is available to choose.
Some ways to gauge how you are doing is to look at your body and your life, as they will never lie. Do they flow with ease and grace? If not, then you can start to take a look at the different layers of your life for the messages they are revealing to you – look at your state of happiness and well being, your relationships, your abundance, your physical body, your work…
All of this, including your consciousness and spiritual awakening has everything to do with the core feelings that reside within you about everything in and around you.
If everything isn’t the way you desire, remember that this is also okay. Simply use the information and messages as the tools to help get you where you do want to be without judgment of where you’re at now, or where you came from.
Nature doesn’t judge or think twice about her trees who lose all of their leaves in the winter, does she? She doesn’t think twice, because its simply a cycle of life and all things always WILL cycle around in a renewed and unique way – every moment recreating itself from the creative force that is your Source. All of it is in Divine order and alignment. It is when we get in the way of the cycles and start building a dam to stop the water’s flow, that we are creating unnatural effects that will have to give way when we may least want or expect it to. You can’t buck Universal laws. 🙂
What is your protocol for working with your feelings? Is it one of recognition and honoring, or one of angry denial and judgment? Do you love all of your feelings now, or try to get rid of ones you don’t like because they don’t fit the “ideal” of “perfection”?
Have you done some of the spiritual bypassing and “fluffiness” with your emotions? Whereas you “fake” a reality of feeling, crack a smile, and simply affirm otherwise. These don’t last and when they don’t, we wonder why, as we thought that’s what we were told to do, right? Whether it was our parents who showed us how they “smiled” their way through frustrations because they thought it best we don’t see their pains and challenges since they were taught to just push through it, or whether it was the New Age teachings that said to focus on affirming only the positive or to meditate to escape it, there are conditionings to “unlearn” that simply don’t work.
And there are many other aspects we’ve all likely experienced one or more of to also be conscious about, while remembering not to judge the steps we’ve taken already, where we come from, or anything that has led us to where we are now. It has all been a perfect unfolding (including the people that taught us) of simply stepping stones on our personal growth path with good intentions from the place they and we could “see” from at the time.
Yet, now you can review them and see which things may still be inhibiting or slowing your liberation and which are actually expanding it. Then let them be. Thank them. Let go and allow the flow to naturally move through you so that it can catch up to your new mental programming and work in synergy with, rather than against, them.
Some very good intentioned modalities we’ve all exercised are: over-analyzing feelings and getting stuck in the story only talking rather than feeling them fully, releasing and moving through them, constantly looking for the magic fix to once and for all heal and rid yourself of things forever or getting to a place of some “devised” perfect state of only “good” feelings, becoming dependent on others to “heal” for you (which includes venting to friends, family, and counselors for indefinite years on end) rather than committing to learn how to do it yourself and be able to tap into your empowered source within (As truly no one can alter your experience for you. They can merely support you with the best possible opportunity and environment for temporary results, but the long term is dependent upon you).
There is nothing more freeing and enlivening than discovering your ability to be experiencing what you have long desired, rather than merely talking or reading about it. If you are here on Earth at this time, you have every opportunity to experience more fullness of you now, in your own unique way, just as anyone else. And you also have the choice to move more freely through your perfect perpetual evolution. There are many who are coming to experience this more and more and so it is becoming much more prevalent a possibility by the increasing rippling waves on the collective ocean.
I’ve said it before, and I’ll repeat it again. Gone are the days of having to work so long and hard on yourself, to attend endless seminars and healing sessions, to struggle, process, and become overwhelmed with thinking you have to learn everything there possibly is before you will be some idea of an enlightened, awakened being.
You are already spiritual by default. Remembering this is what you are living out through your human experience in your beautiful temple body, can shift you into realizing there is Divinity innate to you always that isn’t Universally being judged. We judge because we forget and this happens when we only identify with one aspect of ourselves, rather than our wholeness, which believe it or not, is always present in every single moment – yes even when you get angry or triggered by something.
Many of us have gone through the long drawn out processes, but that doesn’t mean that you have to, nor that you have to continue to if you already have. That’s the beauty of our interconnectedness. And I can tell you that I experience the distinction between my processes from before and the simplicity of the now. It is very easy to shift any experience in the moment these days.
Having come from the “old” way I can clearly see the differences. I do see that even in the spiritual New Age community of thinking that there is an old and new way – one based still on the programming and foundations of the “hard work” (old male) experiences we thought we were moving away from with our pulling away from it, and one rooted in grace, ease, and flow (Divine Feminine that then works in partnership and harmony with Divine Male) that is creating a different way and choice.
It is up to you to use your free will and choose another reality and with that, different perspectives and paths that will lead you to what you desire in essence, that will actually work for you because they are aligned with the energetics present now.
There isn’t a lot of teaching out there that addresses how to move through all of your levels in order to integrate them. Positive affirmations are only a piece of the puzzle as they address only the mental and suppress the rest of what you are feeling in your body and emotions, which can cause confusion inwardly that will show up later. And then many of us fall prey to a destructive spiral of self-judgment.
“The important thing to remember is that we can’t skip over the levels. We can’t just go straight to the unity level and pray and meditate all day long and expect that we’re gonna be healed, because what happens is that people who meditate a lot will be fantastic when they’re meditating or when they’ve been praying for three hours. But as soon as they go back out into the world, they become activated in their body and they don’t know why. And there’s this subtle message inside of us that says ‘What’s wrong with me? Why am I not getting better? I’m doing all this spiritual stuff.” The reason you’re not getting any better is because “you can’t just focus on the unity and then expect the body and the heart to know the truth about themselves. We have to work with the level of the body, the level of the heart, the level of the soul, and we heal on every level.” ~ Paige Bartholomew
Working with these levels, to me, is about allowing. Lovingly recognizing, honoring, mirroring, and bringing together each level with utmost presence and loving responsibility to life can have profound and efficient results that you have desired.
In doing so, you also learn compassion for others, as well as realize that you are loved in all of your wholeness at every step of the journey. There is no particular place or level to attain – only to keep going with the flow of the natural rhythms that will guide you always.
So when you are triggered, or find old stuff coming up, realize its presence is a gift. Not one to attach to and never let go of, but one to unwrap, so you can actually experience what is inside the box under the wrapping. All of the old we have stored away is merely a lot of accumulated boxes that are pushing open the closet door we have carefully locked them away behind, out of sight.
Remember that life is about giving and receiving. Anything done one-sided is not in natural flow of energy. So, too, is this true of the emotions we have been gifted – all of the spectrum that is – for our wholeness evolution. It is time to open and receive in flow.