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Gratitude Expanding


I know that today is a day of various forms of feasting and celebrations and for me this day of sharing gratitude is also an extension of expressing my compassion and to be in presence of the life I have chosen to live as a direct mirror of that. This, however, is not limited to just this one day, but is a consistent, daily experience I choose to deepen into a more intimate relationship with. For me, compassion extends to all of life, every day of my life. There hasn’t been (for the last 12+ years), and won’t be, any animals in or on my body as long as I’m breathing simply because my soul recognizes the sacred relationship I have with these spirits in animal bodies as my family and as the powerful beings that they are who have chosen a different form to inhabit for reasons we have yet to fully grasp in the bigger picture. My spirit sees no boundaries between people of all colors and races, animals, plants, elements, and those from beyond this realm. For me, we are all consciousness expressing through different vehicles, the intelligence of the creative heart – each beautiful, worthy, and inherently deserving of my reverence and love. This is the life I have chosen to live for the rest of my days here on Earth and for all of eternity where ever I may be beyond that. And this has supported the vibration I choose to embody that reflects the frequency of my origins.

There is no all-ideal way since everything in some way still is tied into some form or another that doesn’t support my desires, but I do choose the best I can to live a life that most closely connects me to my heart resonance and I realize the perfection of it all despite my feelings.

So while today is about gratitude for many things and the people in our life, I am also giving thanks to and celebrating creative extensions of love, life for turkeys, and all of Mother Earth’s creatures and children on this day of gratitude and every day that deserves our gratitude. Every extension of consciousness, to me, is precious, equally valuable, and embodies wisdom and lessons that each so bravely and lovingly share with us to receive.

In addition, today I am really anchoring in an even greater presence of recognition and love for everything and everyone in my life that has contributed to this new journey and shift I find myself embarking on – to which we are all interconnected to in our own relative ways and reflections of these shifts.

We originally thought we might be moving in to our new home today, but instead will be on Saturday – just two nights remaining in this tree house above the lake we’ve called home for over a year now. There is so much to sit in presence with and so much here that has ignited and supported all the new in motion. From this place in the sky I have been able to be in things, but not of them, allowing me to experience my own reality and tap into the clearest channel of what is next for me, as an extension of my creative origins here. So much is here that has ignited and supported all the new in motion and it is no wonder we remain still on Thanksgiving in this creative brainstorming and expansive embodiment of new vision, to anchor all of that in before moving on.

Today we will be moving more boxes to the new home (we’ve been doing some each day to make that easier). This is a very deliberate and present experience since each time we carry down boxes to the car we are traversing 105 steps each way. That seems significant and symbolic on many levels and layers. Not to mention, definitely is keeping us fit and me very conscious of every single step being grounded safely and securely! It is also quite perfect that my foot healed just before this all became necessary. I have new feet to carry me forth!

I will be spending this morning baking some vegan goodies to share with two of our amazing contractor teams that are working on Thanksgiving to help bring our new home together for us. This is a way I can extend gratitude to them, as they truly have been working so hard and giving their all to helping us. Last week I did the same for our drywall team who were incredible. Today it’s our painter and flooring crews.

Alongside moving more boxes down to the house today, we’ll be enjoying our forest yard a bit before joining a vegan Thanksgiving celebration we were invited to, which was perfect since we haven’t been out doing anything other than home stuff and nature walks. So we are grateful to be nurtured by all the vegan community we have here to give us a nice break before our last two days of big-time shifting.

Which brings me to a sweet symbolic thing that happened yesterday. So small an experience, but not unnoticed by me.

While at the new house yesterday handling things, I walked up to the entry where one of our contractors was putting our new front door on and literally right at the threshold of the doorway I found a precious little tannish brown feather – imperfectly perfect, as has been this process.

Our entry is quite long to the door and covered above, so this truly felt to be a welcoming gift and sweet blessing..so befitting having this new door created to access a whole new portal of experience that awaits in this home.

Days lately have thrown us curve balls and surprises, but it has all pointed to surrendering into flexibility and understanding how these things are actually gifts, which in fact they are because each not only creates a deliberate presence and slowing down, but weaves an even better outcome into being because of this. You have to giggle at some of it when it happens. Too much to share, but definitely this huge remodeling project is much more than about a house….it’s about a whole new embodiment we are creating and rewiring on all levels, which it reflects.

Every aspect of life is something inherently beautiful and provides hidden treasures to be grateful for.

I know that during the holidays there is not only an increase of togetherness that is experienced, but can also herald an experience of separation and bring up feelings of loss, sadness, or of being alone.

For everyone experiencing separation in one form or another, whether through physical transitions of loved ones, the inability to be with loved ones, or even feelings of being fragmented, lost, or disconnected from parts of yourself I wish for you to know on some level that perhaps right now your feelings can’t grasp, but will be heard within the very essence of your spirit and the DNA of your beingness.

Even though you feel or physically sense that there is something or some part that is away from your body right now, within your heart there is always an open portal of connection that never leaves you. This is the bridge to all unified experiences of harmony and love and where you are never alone.

With gratitude I extend a hand on one side of that heart bridge to welcome you home.

Faery Succulent Garden Update


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It’s been incredible to watch my mini magickal gardens expand and flourish in just six and a half months since first creating them. I didn’t realize how fast these succulents would grow, but I now have these mini enchanted Faery forests. I think I only lost one along the way, and have added a couple of new ones (one gifted and one I couldn’t resist), as well as transplanted/moved a couple to increase density since some have been reaching for the sky and leaving sparse areas down below. Just incredible!

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I’ve since added some new treasures to them as well that I’ve found along travels and here in Tahoe (some from our new backyard forest).

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I love them so much and can’t wait to create my new sacred space with them, along with the new tortoise and rabbit topiaries I have, my Lamb’s Ears, and a new magickal addition – all of which you’ll see as the space is created.

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For now, I thought it would be a fun quick share to show you how much these have grown and what is possible even if you don’t have an outdoor garden, the time, or feel you have a green thumb. Succulents are a sweet and easy way to create Nature’s harmony in your home.

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You can see the original post here for comparison:

Faery Succulent Gardens

Harmonic Frequency


Being able to know and experience peace doesn’t equate to constant bliss, but instead speaks to your ability to move into that centered place of harmony at any moment amidst chaos.

To me, ecstatic bliss is the opposite of chaos or the doldrums and creates a “this” or “that” view, but the harmonic frequency is one that dances without conditions and judgment, is always in tune with the origins of its voice, and knows only of the IS.

 

 

A Harmonious Merging ~ Coming Home


 

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I’ve never felt more myself than I do now at this point in my life…a feeling of returning back to my origins…of being most naturally me… Grounded and yet expansive. Inspired and free. New and old, Earth and Cosmos merging… There’s a wholeness that is anchoring and it feels like peace. I embrace my silver highlights from the Fae as the anchoring of ancient lineage coursing through my veins. I cherish the innocence of childlike purity that lights me from within like a star amidst the black of night.

And it is all rooted in love that takes me deeper daily into a return to natural harmony.

I am grateful and celebrate being.

Mine, yours, ours.

 

A friend saw my photo below and commented, “I can see dragon energy in your eyes.”

It made me take a second glance that took a hold of my spirit in a way I can’t explain.

I felt like I was home.

And indeed I am, which is being mirrored by our dream home we’ve anchored in.

I worked diligently with the Faeries and all Elementals, as well as the Animal Spirits (and some friends from beyond) of our new home and the land surrounding it to help align things and manifest it all. I knew the moment I stepped foot in it, it was the right house for us and that solidified when walking through the yard and the forest that surrounds it. I didn’t give up on it even when things could have gone different ways. The Faeries told me to trust and so I did. I always just know something and feel to the heart of things – that silver lining beyond the hurdles to get there.

And oh the magick that will be woven here!

It will take several months of craziness with remodeling and prep, but the Faeries are excited about the new energy and this haven being created for them and all of us to share. Much will evolve over time, even after the main work is done, since we can’t do anything to the yard until after Winter’s snow except plant eight new 12 foot Austrian Pines for now to create our sanctuary, which up here need to be in by October 15th due to very strict planting restrictions. So, I’m excited to have some new tree friends to join the forest collective.

These photos are taken on site, pre-changes, and reflect a new me rooting with the heart of this land and home, inside and out.

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I’d just done some braiding magick with my hair the night before, turning myself into Pippi Longstocking – one of my fav styles for a wild, easy, and free mane. Not to mention, makes me feel like all of the parts of myself beyond this human experience of Tania.

It’s also the first time my silver is really stepping out in a big way. Normally you see the chunks laced through my hair, when it’s straighter, but with braiding it really creates a whole other effect that integrates it and spreads it around in a way I imagined myself to look in my sage years – AND how I look beyond what you know of me.

So fun to see that now, and what it draws forth from within my spirit to emerge. I have always been a lover of dichotomy and felt like a walking one – now more than ever!

And I LOVE how Astrid and I have the exact same hair colors just blended in different ways, which is incredible given I had no idea she was the one coming home with me. Just the other day I was laying next to her on the ground in my Reiki workshop and Bean said, “omgosh your hair is exactly the same color as hers.” This wasn’t the first time, as both Marcy and Sharon had said the same on the day I adopted her. We ARE one and the same….a witchy faery and her familiar for sure. 😉

I’m sure there are many who might not understand why I would enhance my already silver stripes growing in my hair, or think I look better with their version of “ideal,” but it’s simply my way of feeling most myself and revealing who I really am. I don’t mind having something associated with “old” mixed in with otherwise “young” looking things.

Perhaps these are both inversions of the oneness that is innocence.

I don’t strive to fit in. I live in a reality of my own creation.

I just want to be me…..the lifetimes and eons of me, here and now.

While others might feel more aligned with doing everything to look younger or create longevity, I’m just comfortable in feeling at home and desiring creative expression and quality versus quantity of life for however long that is meant to be.

I still get told I look half my chronological age, but now my hair throws in a curve ball, which to me feels more aligned because while physically I may be one thing, in heart and spirit there is quite another going on.

I feel both that heart of a child skipping with Mother Nature and also sometimes feel like Father Time spiraling through the cycles.

I’ve written about the “silver lining” before and how this approach to life has trickled into embodiment for me by literally turning into silver-streaked hair. Had you asked me years ago if I’d be proudly wearing silver hair, I’d likely had thought no way, but I’ve learned that things turn on a dime. Just as certain trajectories we were on have shifted into new, merged versions that encompass a higher good.

Before I felt like there were multi-paths I was working on all at once, and now it feels like they’ve merged together, providing all the same things and possibilities, but integrated.

Kind of like having silver hair and yet dressing, looking, or otherwise being what you’d think is opposite to that. It’s all connected and more and more we are breaking down limiting ideas and rules and creating new versions of experiencing everything aside from conditioning.

Hard to explain, but it feels good and allows me the ability to root further, play more, and rest along the way.

This feels to be the reflection of my hair, as well as our home.

There’s a sense of returning home and yet the irony is, we never left.

It’s simply the journey made conscious and our origins actualized for our human beingness to realize.

Balancing Seasonal Shifts for New & Healthier Versions of Embodiment


A short post update (and last until I finish my book), as I’m continuing to hunker down with my writing, to send a little New Moon and Equinox love your way. This week is another gateway for anchoring in new intentions and realities, which is why I’m keeping focused and listening to the guidance on completing my book during this potent portal – based on my progress so far and yesterday’s amazing writing day that definitely will happen this week YAY! We have a Virgo New Moon in a couple days and the Equinox rounding out the end of the week, so a wonderful transition time you can harness mindfully in empowering your own true source of light within.

Virgo urges us to bring our bodies back into balance and supports our journey of integrative healing on all levels, while doing this WITHOUT being self-critical and WITH a lot of loving attentiveness.

Once again, I feel like a literal embodiment of this message with my restructuring foot fracture and the healing integration and nurturing I’m following to create harmonious alignment with the new.

And embrace of this with gratitude and love has increased the process tenfold with blessings abound and productivity galore. Yesterday was truly one of those days I cherish, where I spent 8 hours in full writing mode, which had me lost in the creative world of my imagination and parallel realities. I felt like the fact that my writing brought me to tears and I was crying through the fluid channeling of the story that was unfolding in creative “real time” was a great sign that I was in the vortex and that the content streaming through WAS that real. I LOVE when this happens. Pure alchemy in motion. I also love when what I’m writing happens while I’m writing it, or after. Powerful stuff! A few more days of that and I’ll be done. It also demonstrated being in the zone of my essence, as I wouldn’t have wanted to be anywhere else in the beauty of that experience and the joy of creating from my heart.

These are the inner shifts taking place at this time….aligning us with our “nature”.

A seasonal shift marks a time for inner shifts and repatterning ourselves to step into that flow of Nature’s cycles.

So be a best friend to your inner darkness and shadow, for understanding it engages healing integration that is vital for soul growth. We are encouraged to face our fears and retrieve all of the projections and separations we’ve created, which are illusionary. This leads us to alchemy of the heart.

We’re encouraged to also stop medicating the truth with fluffy avoidance and robotic affirmations, in order to sink into the nature of our BEINGNESS.

I find myself continuously swimming deeper and deeper into this experience of richer embodiment. When I think, wow, this is amazing, I’m then soon shown something even more incredible is possible because that’s the truth of it – there is no end to the possibilities. WE create endings, but it’s all a continuous beginning and recreating we can choose ways of experiencing.

I’ll leave you with these passages from an old post of mine that speaks to this:

Nature reminds us that we need to relinquish the need to hold on tightly with fear and to trust in the process – to allow ourselves to have everything we thought we knew about ourselves to be stripped away, only to discover a greater truth to our authenticity beneath the temporary structures.

And in the process you’ll discover the only thing that is eternal is the core essence of who you are beneath the temporal layers. You learn then that the rest isn’t as serious as you make it and is simply part of the journey to that core.

We let go, just as the trees effortlessly allow their leaves to shift colors and float off in the wind. We embrace the only permanence, which is change. And we take grateful stock of what we do have, while preparing for a new birthing that will be incubating during the symbolic stillness.

Seasonal transitions mirror the evolution of human consciousness and the dynamic shifts of life cycles.

The eternal cycles of birth and death, creation and destruction – all teach you the wisdom of harmonic co-existence. 

You become a conscious and active partner in the rebirthing process, as you walk through the flames of destruction with grace.

It’s a good time to decide if you want to continue forward supporting your ego’s will or your soul’s destined journey. Decide what it is worth to you to live in the authenticity and joy of your essence, and what decisions you can make to release all that is not of that, in order to be all that is.

As we celebrate the Equinox and Autumn’s graceful arrival, let us remember to breathe in the beauty of who we are, trust in the cycles that will always return us to balance and harmony, and gently nurture the inner world, as we cleanse it of that which no longer serves and prepare for the renewing cycle that will be spiraling round again.

With my own foot fracture I feel I released the pressure of much and broke from one version (within and without) and allowed a new version to form, which released the temporary structure of old “me” to birth a new Pisces self with stronger foundations of what that means to me.

We constantly have these choices and possibilities that needn’t be harsh for us to experience, and yet our higher selves know EXACTLY what is of greatest support for us.

Earthing, Faery Portals, Dream Visioning & Pisces Full Moon


Since the Solar Eclipse’s reset, there’s been a rush of very different energy pouring in – for some intensely forcing changes and for others like a welcome jet propulsion into the new. Everything seems to continue to be a step-by-step process of taking it all slowly without rush and truly anchoring in each step with depth of intention and understanding. With tomorrow’s Full Moon in Pisces (my native sun sign), intuition will be on an all-time high, so listening to it and trusting it will be key to support moving into your true power. This moon will help you to gain deeper insights and understanding about the seeds you’ve been planting in your garden, the intentions you have for them, and will illuminate what truly is guiding your life so that you have a broader grasp on the creative forces at work and how to harness them.

Boundaries again are a constant theme in order to create well being and is a lesson for the boundless Pisces energy to understand how to balance in a healthy way.

This is a powerful time for deep soul level closure, to exercise greater compassion rather than judgment, and to practice radical acceptance, which helps you to release suffering. Suffering is a refusal to accept things. It’s time to give up the suffering, do an energy cleanse, and ask how you can make the changes then engage action to do them.

Synchronously we were at a free Celtic rock concert for the Young Dubliners on Saturday where I danced the hardest I have since my twenties. When I say danced hard, I mean hard…I was doing my own version of the Riverdance and literally was jumping, hopping, kicking, jiggling, and wiggling nonstop through about 6 songs with sweat pouring, heart racing, and just powering through despite feeling as if I might not catch my breath, but did, then was in the dancer’s-high zone. My friend who joined me said she heard me giggling and cackling throughout like never before, which made her see my inner Faery come through. That Irish music definitely released a DNA chord within. I literally shook free and coughed out all the old on the drive home after! Talk about an energy cleanse! And feet were recalibrating two days after.

Well, this Pisces Moon encourages the energy of dance since Pisces rules the feet. So dance like crazy and move energy through your feet, which will not only shake out everything from the core and move things fast, but will anchor and ground you as you connect those feet to Mother Earth – Terra. She will in turn help transmute the energy and send it back with a recharge!

That watery Pisces energy is also about dreaming – whether receiving prophetic dreams or engaging imagination to dream big.

This has been a big one for me. I’ve been engaging dream visioning and just going wild with them, as long as they are aligned with the “now” me in every way.

So yes, dream a little dream…..or make it a big one! I am!

Don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t do something and don’t let their doubts become yours.

Also, learn to temper engaging intentions and detachment, envisioning, but also not overly talking about them. Keep a little bit of the magick to yourself so that you don’t lose the momentum. Patience is key, but don’t give up!

True, it will take dedication, drive, endurance, time and major effort, but if you believe in it, it’s the breath of life to you, and it fills your heart with joy and passion then you owe yourself and those that will be touched by your dream who you can’t see right now or gauge analytically, the opportunity to make it happen.

Live life to your fullest and responsibly harness your creative potential as example.

I’ve been immersed in a lot here (I bet you have too!), but continue to have a good majority of my life focused on “Earthing” in Nature and working closely with the Faeries and Elementals of the land to co-create and manifest together. Not to mention, continuing to engage my Star family from beyond, including my dear ones who have moved on, as well as the magickal Cosmic Astrid. It’s a balancing and merging of Earth and Cosmos.

This has continued to lead me on paths to new portals of discovery and doorways (including literal multi-dimensional doors of possibilities – more on that another time) showing up and opening.

I can’t begin to tell you how much has happened so quickly and anchored in in the last 5 months. Incredible! And as I look back I can see how that balance of alignments, patience, release, intention, and action have all come together.

I’ll share the exciting news on things soon, but it really has all become this fluid experience with some things immediately showing up and others all percolating, but are their own realities on a different timeline that are and will merge once I continue jumping them. And at the same time I’m seeing how there is always “something better” that reveals itself, just as is always my intention I voice when working on manifesting things. This ends up bringing together the most aligned outcomes that combine the ingredients of all that I love in an alchemical recipe only the Cosmos Itself within me knows how to do. And that involves stepping out of ego and attachments, and being open, open, OPEN to any and all possibilities that result in the highest good for all concerned.

And during these times, although I’ve been super active and life has been full, I’ve also been very inner (if you can believe that). Truly a Yin/Yang synergy of experience. And it is the inner time and the things I do actually keep to myself that allow me to put out the amount of energy that I do, as it does help me to conserve and restore, as well as continue to fuel things with a gusto of momentum.

I have huge amounts of passionate fire roaring inside and yet I’m letting it out in the bursts needed without crashing or burning out and without ever losing its fuel.

I continue to hold the expansive visions, while allowing things to organically morph along the way. Sometimes I’m so excited I could burst, but that’s when the Earthing and Nature immersion aids me in bringing my energy back down to a healthy kindling and allows a channel of support to come from the Spirits I honor and cherish.

It’s been so interesting to me that I’ve seen the most snakes I’ve ever seen recently in the last few weeks here (5 total – my fav/special #). Potent transformation energy! We don’t have rattlesnakes, but I’ve seen every size of Garter Snake from the tiniest of babies, to adolescent, to mature snake – Maiden, Mother, Crone energy perhaps? All aspects of myself merging, just as Earth and Cosmic parts do (this echoing a very prophetic and powerful experience I had in dream time just a little over two years ago that was the doorway to where I am now, but could have gone a different direction.

It’s 1:11 here as I conclude and paste in this, which I recently shared in an Instagram/Facebook post:

There are times when being alone or pulling within are necessary especially if you are doing very public work in terms of your path. There are spirits who may seem very visual and yet most of who they are and what they do goes unseen and is kept to themselves. But even if others see you, it doesn’t mean they REALLY see you or even fully know you, as you may be a reflection…truth mirror…or simply can’t be seen yet in totality because what you carry or embody isn’t understood yet.

I love you.

Lightness & Fluidity Anchoring In a New Spiral of Evolution


As I continue to observe the collective energies, I am also constantly observing my own and both the reflections and contrasts that compliment and synergize the journey unfolding. I’m fascinated at the process and how I’ve been led to shift in ways of incorporating the macro within the micro experience…the wholeness of All That Is residing in the way I integrate and transmute energies as an experience of my own remembering and healing empowerment. I continue to go through shifts in my perspective on so much, which has changed the course I have been on and resulted in complete shifts of the way of life I once knew and committed to, to something altogether different. This has definitely led me to release a lot from my life and to understand the repetitive cycling nature of my focuses that needed to come to full circle closure once and for all.

And as always, these take on forms in the physical, as well as the energetic realms. And I see how rebirthing is a totality of experience that even transforms how I look because of the inner changes that take root. I can look back over the course of my life and just by seeing photos of myself, my physical form, hair colors and styles, clothing, demeanor, facial and eye color shifts, I can tell you the story of what I was embodying within.

I don’t know on the conscious level what I’m doing always when I make these changes, as it seems to be an inner knowing that takes hold without need to understand…they simply begin to take form because I have this strong urging, inspiration, and impulse that says do this! even if I can’t understand fully why or that it seems odd to what I’ve known of myself thus far.

This has been evolving in the last several months with my hair – believed my many Native Americans to be the spirit’s physical manifestation of growth that opens/enhances extrasensory perception and symbolizes connection to all things, as if like tentacles reaching out to the world around us.

Without meaning to, my hair has increased in lightness, as I’ve continued to support the dramatic “silver lining” of it to come through in the physical. This started slowly, but as you can see in the photos, has taken over about 75% of my hair. I still have the dark underlining – symbolic of both light and dark existing together and both a part and separate to each other – but now this halo of lightness pervades.

I’ve never been drawn to light hair for myself really, but something has definitely shifted with that and because of the silver essence, I am feeling at home in it, likely because of the Cosmic reflections/implications and not simply Earth-based ones inherent in it for me.

But symbolically, it also speaks to the rebirthing energy abound – for me, so many others, and the collective at large. There indeed seems to be an identity shift going on to more expansive ways of being and embodiment. I’m noticing it in many people I know and have discussed this with Laura who also is in process of her own shift in this regard – yet to be determined.

Perhaps many of you will identify with this as well and the journey I’m sharing will speak to your own transformations taking root on many levels.

For me, I’ve always been drawn to the dark….hence my dark, black sacred tattoos and for many many years having black hair (my natural is a medium/dark brown, which is the darker areas you see between the silver in the photos)…interestingly my skin also easily browns and can get very dark/even has gone quite black from the sun throughout my life.

I see this as the journey I’ve embarked on in knowing my shadow and being willing to also take on that energy for the collective in reflection to help bring things to the surface. It also speaks to me of the ancient connections, roots, and heavier/intense layers of soul history and within my DNA that I was led on a journey to dig deeply into, research, reclaim and understand in a new way – some of this being a pattern of recycling, but then finally breaking free of it.

And in mirror of the fluidity of life now being experienced and a shift into more lightness and gentle flow with things, I can see very clearly why this lightness has taken over my Crown Chakra.

Light haired – light hearted, as Laura mentioned, which was actually an auto-correct typo in texting with her that made much sense. 😉

That is definitely what I am feeling, as the heaviness has dissipated – even with all of the intensities in the collective right now.  Perhaps that would seem odd to feel that, but since change begins with us and collective harmony will be a result of that peace within, I don’t find it surprising.

And yet this lightness is a new revisiting on the spiral of evolution, although exquisitely familiar. It feels infused with something fresh, inspiring, inviting, and full of creative potential.

It has not forgotten its parts.

It knows its wholeness.

And it contains sound seeds of harmonic confluence.

A field of dreams we have entered and reality is yours to dream into Being.

Yet be wary of what you intend to manifest, as it WILL.

I increasingly am seeing how responsible co-creation is of the essence. (something else Laura and I have discussed a lot)

Along with harnessing increasing power and magick, one must be conscious of the ramifications inherent in that experience and its far-reaching effects.

I remind myself constantly about seeing things from as many possible angles and probably potentials, and making sure to incorporate the highest good of all concerned in everything, as well as to be specific as to what I DON’T want to happen in order for my manifestations to take form, just as much as what I would love.

Dream big, but dream responsibly!

 

 

Portals of Experience Continue to Open


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This is my second time living in Lake Tahoe, but truly this last nearly year (will be come October) that we’ve been here has been the most explorative and enriching yet. Not only have we experienced the most epic Winter in the last 40+ years, but have been blessed with incredible, like-minded friends, a wonderful and supportively inspiring home base, welcomed in a new family addition (Astrid), experienced a heap load of magick, and have seen many shifts and transitions anchor in with the closing and opening of new doorways of experience.

I’m/we’re seeing more of this area than we ever have in all the time we’ve lived here so far, and are blown away at the discoveries that will take us years to fully experience…not to mention it’s all different within each season. Like right now we get to enjoy the wildflowers and incredible alpine lakes everywhere gushing with waterfalls and creeks. Other times it is the salmon spawning, the beaches, foraging, crystal-rich areas to discover treasures, water time kayaking or swimming, fall colors, white winterlands, but always plenty of outdoor exercise within every season.

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It’s continued to be an interesting journey in observing and playing with the energies all around, as well as within. So much diversity and contrast in experiences and realities right?! None of it wrong, right, bad, good, worse, better…simply choices and possibilities. I do find it easy to hover around energies that don’t match how I feel frequency-wise and increasingly experience clarity with things and greater compassion even if things don’t match. Very refreshing for a Pisces who struggled with this all of her life and not knowing how I could still be a me without compromising the love and connection I feel to everything. I have to repeat…this is the most natural and peacefully balanced I’ve ever been and am always in awe of how that can continue to deepen.

Life here on Earth is truly merging and it feels both grounding, but also Cosmically freeing, while I’m seeing and experiencing it for what it truly is. Perhaps some of you are feeling this too?

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We’ve been moving energy quickly and manifesting a ton quickly, which is pretty wild how fast stuff has been happening, but when you’re in the “zone” and following the flow of energy, you definitely do experience that incredible alignment. It’s amazing to look back and see how these processes have shifted over the course of your life for sure with putting into motion the things you’ve learned and doing the work.

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But truly it’s been such a gift to experience so much of Lake Tahoe and the outlying areas here. There is SO much beauty and we keep discovering hidden gems all the time – not to mention hidden portals to other realities. Never a dull moment or feeling of not having enough choices and things to do on any level, but mostly it’s the Nature time that infuses my heart with inspiration and expansive love.

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The energy abound lately has been so potent and fertile. I can’t tell you how powerful manifestations have been and immediate things unfold that are intended. This month’s energies really lend a hand to that, but in general we really are experiencing an accelerated evolution of potential.

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And I’m increasingly experiencing how the things I write about in my new book, manifest in the outside world around me. It’s really a wow-factor and nobody would believe me unless they were right here going through it all alongside me.

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During all of this I’ve been seeing how the things I envision and intend, because I’m open to the highest version for the highest good of all to manifest (rather than fixating on how that “should” be) are revealing themselves in expansive ways that embody the essence of it all with greater support and all-encompassing benefits.

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The photos shared in this post are captures of some of the energy lately that I’ve been experiencing – truly like activations and initiations into this new version of reality unfolding. There are also photos of some of the awe-inspiring beauty of new areas of exploration – one of which reminded me of my other favorite place in Montana and my experiences there.

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Portals are opening everywhere! Are you ready to step into a greater version of you and greater possibilities collectively?

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I find that the more flexible and open to entertaining any combination of possibilities, the greater fulfillment I feel and find even more support and interconnected threads ready to make things happen.

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Gratitude deepens daily and harmony is being remembered from the origin song seeded within.

Initiations & Inspirations at the Crystal Castle ~ Gifts of Manifestation Ignited


As promised, I wanted to share a blog purely devoted to our experience of the Crystal Castle & Shambhala Gardens in Byron Bay since there were just too many photos to devote to social media space alone. Although what is felt and experienced in person can never be fully grasped in any one or even 100 photos alone, at least these will give you an idea and feel for what this magickal and potently sacred place is like. It was one of my top three favorite experiences of the trip, although they can’t be compared. It felt incredibly important to be here when we were, which wasn’t planned, but happened to align with the New Moon, as well as timely and important to supporting the manifestations of goals and dreams in our lives.

We visited the Crystal Castle & Shambhala Gardens, getting there right when it opened and we’re so glad we did, as it provided a wonderful time of day and a much clearer space with not many people to share it with. And, as shared, seemed perfect right at the precipice to the New Moon. Incredibly super-charged activation galore took place too! I had no expectations of what we’d find or experience, but it exceeded imagination, as well as ignited it.

We were greeted and embraced by stunning botanical gardens, rainforest, World Peace Stupa, views, Aboriginal mural, labyrinth, enchanted crystal cave, crystal fountain, sound healing, music of the plants experience, crystal matrix, amazing statues, fossils, Damanhur spiral, rose quartz reflexology walk, the biggest and most beautiful natural crystals in the world, and more… all found here.

Everywhere you turn there are crystals galore and I love how they are integrated naturally into the grounds and nature, as if they were always there and which merges Earth and Cosmos so beautifully.

Even the pathways are encrusted with crystals, geodes, and stones in patterns and sporadically, but all intentfully. The labyrinth path is also laden with rose quartz. The whole place is a huge crystal grid and energy center that sends a beam out into the etheric realm for manifestation.

A Faery’s dream world!

Each step taken was with great intent and everything we came upon along our wandering through this enchanted place received a “wow!” from both of us. We engaged every experience pure of heart and full with love and gratitude. I was in such reverence of these crystal giants, ancient ones, Earth and Cosmic historians and record keepers, master beings, sentinels and guardians. And with each labyrinth or spiral walk, turn of a prayer wheel, and communion, I blasted out energy to the collective, as well as more intimately for personal intentions, hopes, and dreams.

I used to only engage in energy focused out to others, but have come to equally voice my own desires for the highest good of all concerned knowing that they are one and the same.

I was amazed, but not surprised, to see the energy captured in the photos (and glad we took them), especially when Dave and I stood between the different sets of Amethyst guardians, as it felt like we were in a vortex, activating a portal, and experiencing the crystal matrix of creation. We were being guided through portal after portal, traversing the Cosmic dimensions, one world into the next, and the next.

I was surrounded by beings of light and I felt the giantness of my own being. I felt as tall as the Amethyst guardians by my side. And they were there to remind me of this actuality.

Chills after chills ran through me and I knew everything was not only possible, but happening now. I felt the incredible love and support surrounding me, and how it is there for us all if we open to it despite not seeing it at times in our lives.

I felt at home. Yes, this was home. These beings were my family….my memories….my heart…my spirit.

I engaged my imagination, creativity, and let myself go wild with dreaming. We both imagined big and were full with inspiration and belief in what we imagined.

Alongside each activation and what also felt like more initiations into the next phase of the journey at a new level, I experienced three manifestations of support and gifts.

While walking the labyrinth, soft, sweet feathers showed up along the path, one after another and another, and as I circled to center and back. Angelic support was all around and the feathers reminded me of letting my heart be free to fly as love guides me to soar on toward my joy and dreams and not be held back by the past, nor dwelling on it. I loved the Buddha and giant Amethyst being that resided over the labyrinth. I spent time after with the both sharing the love.

Then later while walking through the bamboo path, which was like this amazing tunnel opening to doorways at both ends and a statue of Vishnu riding on the shoulders of Garuda – both feeling potent as Vishnu is one of the three most important Hindu gods that supports, sustains, and governs the universe. His role is to return to the Earth in troubled times and restore balance of good and evil…to restore justice and order when they are threatened. And Garuda is the bird-god (birds are so prominent in my life and always gifting me feathers) who represents courage and our higher spiritual aspirations. He is said to have brought the nectar of immortality from heaven to Earth.

Just as I entered this tunnel I looked down and this beautiful bamboo creation appeared on the path directly in front of me. It was woven natural and green bamboo with bamboo woven flower that is like a case to hold pens or pencils. That felt to support my writing and the weaving of words and inspirational ideas into a story, not to mention writing the story of my life’s journey in general.

And the third manifestation was a crystal.

Just after I’d spent time between the two most giant Amethyst guardians (you can see more of their amazing energy manifesting in the photo below), I went to walk in the grass, away from any crystals and suddenly I was called to look down and saw something partially hidden in the grass. I reached down and was amazed to find a quartz crystal cluster. It was nothing like any crystals within the vicinity or even any I’d seen along our wandering throughout at that point. But there it was. And it feels so ancient and Cosmic. It appears to be part of a much larger crystal, as if it was taken from one to be connected to its energy and channel it, but for me to have as a gift. I was in deep gratitude of this gift and it feels like it will be assisting me with things to come.

That night I also had a dream that felt important. Not only did it come after the Crystal Castle experience, but on the New Moon. I haven’t had an extraterrestrial dream for a while (at least that I remember), which in actuality are never “dreams,” but my journeys with them when I’m most able to travel interdimensionally and freely. As a Pisces, my “dream” journeys are potent and where everything important takes place. Much of why sleep is actually a chance to do my most intricate work and why it’s so essential to me to have that time.

Anyway, part of the dream was about my engaging with a group of ET’s…different than ones I can remember working with. I had decoded something that they needed and had been trying to decode themselves for a very long time, but couldn’t figure out. I created symbols that embodied the energy of what I decoded and put them into a ring that reflected this. I can still see the symbolism that was created. And this acted like a portal opener or key to something. I also had images on an old recorder or something that they didn’t want others to get a hold of and see, and although I would never tell or show anyone I knew that meant they wanted me to relinquish them and so I did, to keep it safe. It felt much like I was doing some bridge work that felt important on a Cosmic level. And not surprising with the Cosmic activations of the day.

Also, what I found interesting was that I never feel called to do any sort of physical cleanses anymore, as it just doesn’t resonate and I’ve basically been making shifts on all levels without the need for them anymore. At a couple of junctures along my journey I had done some, especially this one time period of some of the largest shifts into my current path I’ve been on when I did a 180 in my life kind of overnight (but not really if you look at the build up before of work done). That time period also coincided with being 100% raw vegan and feeling I needed a complete reset and boost up several levels, so along with the raw I did several major cleanses. This took me to a new level of experience and clarity. Then over the course of time, since, I balanced and harmonized out.

But for some reason I received the message of one cleanse being supportive at this time, right after I left the Crystal Castle. My sense is that is tied to another sort of reset and anchoring of this new journey I’m on and inviting in/being invited to/stepping into.

I wondered when it would take place, thinking perhaps right when I returned home, but in fact I received that it will begin on Summer Solstice, which also happens to align with when the new bunny love is entering my life and also timely with how the project I’m working on with my writing is lining up in terms of its process. Not to mention, some other things taking place in our lives.

I’m normally not interested in these kinds of things anymore – cleanses that is – but to receive that message when I’m not focused on it, seems like I shouldn’t ignore it and so I embrace this and will begin as instructed. It will be a 10 day cleanse and reset.

So, yes, a lot was ignited and took place with this experience, but also wouldn’t have happened if we hadn’t been in Australia when we were and how it all aligned.

And we also discovered a most amazing, enchanted, magickal mushroom in the gardens that was hidden. Did it manifest just for us like these other gifts? Was it indication of this vortex we’d entered? Was it reflective of our beliefs creating what we see?

I believe it is all of these and more.

I have never actually seen one of these in nature ever – a Faerytale mushroom come to life! If you washed off the dirt you’d reveal more of its white polka dots. What an incredible discovery. There was definitely a portal here, as I actually didn’t even know these really existed except in the magickal realms. Well, I guess I was in one! And it felt to indicate that I’m literally, more and more, living in the world of my own creation and that isn’t the same for everyone although perfect for each of us, as it’s based on our vibrational alignment with belief meeting resonance and reality.

Incredible doesn’t begin to express it all. And gratitude doesn’t either in terms of what I feel toward it all.

These aren’t even all of my photos. I didn’t even capture half of what you can find here. Imagine that!

I imagine everyone has their own individual experience here at the Crystal Castle, just like we all do with everything in life, but I do believe that it will bring to the forefront, reveal, and amplify things for you in terms of your beliefs and has the potential of presenting doorways of experience for you to enter if chosen and ready.

I said yes, again.

Trust, Abundance & Balance ~ A Message to Leave You With


As shared, I’ll be away from blogging for a while after today, as I have a personal goal to meet with completing my book’s first draft before leaving for Australia on May 10th and away for 19 days. I’ll be joining Dave who will already have been touring for two weeks speaking about his book Meatonomics, and then we’ll be leaving for a week to Austin, Texas less than two weeks after our return. Alongside this full plate I am also energetically preparing for a new addition to my life coming in once we fully return from all the travels, which is the focus of this short blog before I head off.

The short story, which I will fully share when it happens, is that a new bunny love will be joining me in partnership and it’s all divinely aligned itself in incredible potency on the upcoming Summer Solstice portal. It’s all truly a magickal story and timing that I know my beloved rabbits have set up as such.

Without going into detail, a special rabbit has made connection with me the second I became ready and made my own realizations and commitments and we are in relationship telepathically until we can be together.

I felt that since I will be away so much, this was not conducive to bringing the bunny love into my life, as my priority is establishing a stable and supportive experience for the physical bonding, and it is not responsible of me to just up and leave bunny love with a pet sitter.

So, once again, I am being asked to trust with all of my heart and walk fully in that trust of knowing that if it is meant to be this little love will be there when I return to adopt on the appointment date that has been set upon my arrival home.

I explored with the rabbit rescue my options and this was the only one that made most sense to everyone, but also asked of me to be in that trust given that anyone could come along and connect and want to take this love home during the two months of waiting.

I believe with all of me that we will be together, and that these two months are preparation, as well as standing in the truth of my trust. I know that if we change and shift together over what takes place these two months then when I go to pick this love up, all will unfold as set in motion.

But either way, what has been set in motion is that a bunny love will be coming home with me nonetheless on that day, and if we both shift differently, it is because another has taken place of the new alignment created.

However, this little love has a special story and needs, I’ve already received the name, and we have connected in dream time indicating a bond that no matter what takes place is already playing out.

It’s such a beautiful connection I can’t wait to share, but for now the reason of my sharing is simply to reiterate the message of trust.

There is no reason to act out of desperation with anything. There is no reason to worry or do things that would not be responsible simply because we don’t want to lose out on something or are trying to control a situation and outcome that needs the freedom of choice, growth, and natural transformation to take place.

As mentioned before, abundant beings recognize the unlimited way abundance plays out when we trust and that there’s no need to attach to any one idea because more will show up.

And also, when you stand in the truth of who you are and trust with your heart, that’s all the confirmation you need.

So, there is much preparing for birth in the next two months for me with the first draft of my book completing (still have a long way to go, but that’s the biggest step), some transformative travels, and preparing myself for a new co-creative partnership that is going to support the next phase of my life.

All of this to balance things out and remain true to my spirit.

And the need to pull back from writing blogs right now is to conserve my inspiration and creative writing, as well as devote my time where it is most needed.

So I’ll not be posting until that goal is met, or if I do feel a strong guidance would only share a very short channeled message or reblog an important theme.

And as mentioned, I’ll only be sharing via Instagram/Facebook during this time if you happen to be on those platforms (although may be limited in interaction), since they are quick ways to still stay in touch and share some daily inspiration and beauty with you, while creating that healthy balance for me as well.

So I’m not completely retracting, just continually tempering that perfect support that ensures optimal well being, creative output, and resonance for the highest good.

Wishing you all a beautifully transformative Spring, rich in abundant expressions of your creative spirit and loving trust.

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