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Inside the Faery Kitchen ~ Creating Harmony of Heart & Home


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I’m always cooking up a storm in my life, whether it be through my creative projects, new ideas, challenging myself, or literally in the kitchen. “Creating life as a work of art” is my motto carried out through every level of living. And one of my loves is creating inspiring vegan dishes in the kitchen and hosting a Faery feast!

In the past this was isolated to doing it mostly for myself, as I lived a life of solitude in many ways, but with balance pervading my life, I have enjoyed extending my passions into a love of creating for and hosting others.

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I love being challenged to find new culinary inspiration, love decorating and nurturing our home, and making others feel like queens and kings if I can when they step into our home.

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This deepens the gratitde I have for our new home that allows me to be the Faery I am in all the ways I love to be, whether nurtured by the Forest for my work and well being, or nurturing others who pass through this Forest Portal.

And that’s exactly what I was up to this past weekend…creating a warm welcome for a dinner party we hosted.

These photos are a peek inside the Faery kitchen and what I was brewing with love and magick.

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Dinner was a twist on a recipe a friend/chef gave me years ago that I tweaked of ginger chickpea fritters that had yummy flavors of green onion, ginger, chipotle peppers, cumin, mango juice etc… either coated in crushed macadamia or walnut, done in the pan with veggie broth over half red quinoa and half herbed pine nut couscous with side simmered broccolini and mango, and topped with Thai peanut sauce (this was my fav) with blends of coconut milk, lime juice, mint, apple cider vinegar, and more. I then garnished it all with mint leaves on top and served with a simple side salad of spring herbs, avocado, and grape tomatoes.

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I then completed the dinner with a special pineapple upside down cake extravaganza mandala with homemade coconut whipped cream.

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Cooking is where I experience, very literally, how the process is the fun. Sometimes it’s simple and quick and other times very involved. So there’s definitely a timing factor involved, and planning ahead with more complex things, but there’s also the spontaneity of the moment in following inspiration and intuition.

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This happens much faster when I’m pulling together something just for us at home with what ever I have on hand. But in the case of a dinner party or event, there’s definitely the element of surprise mixed with calculation…making it a balanced experience of both sides of the brain being used.

My favorite thing is to find and blend unusual and complimentary flavors in a burst of yummy explosion in your mouth.

Faery alchemy!

In the end, if I find myself with a smile on my face, I know I’ve followed my heart and am exactly where I need to be.

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And for everyone who has been asking me to put together a cookbook of my own creations over the last several years, I’ll just say that there is one coming in the near future. So stay tuned…..

Origins Revisited ~ Crystals & Succulents of Africa


It’s been a while since I posted a bunch of crystal fun, but since I know many of my friends and readers share a love for them, I thought I’d do so. These happen to go along with the theme I wrote about in my blog, Giraffes, Africa, Origins & Our Animal Sanctuary that touches on origins and how so much keeps coming up Africa again for me. These crystals hold very unique and in some cases, contrasting energy, although all come from Africa. I also had a fun discovery about one of my newest succulent plant friend additions to the large succulent family here. You’ll see what I mean below.

Needless to say, the Africa theme continues with some interesting twists still unfolding, as well as origins “cracking” wide open and coming full circle. More on that below too.

It was fun to hear how this theme is showing up for others too, including faery Laura, who shared about her own journey today in her blog, Reclaiming Roots and a Writing Update. In her post she speaks to how “roots” seems to be her 2018 word and her personal journey of this taking her on a Celtic journey through Welsh lessons – a journey helping “root” out things in many key areas of her life. Her blog post is a fun exploration of this and how these roots and origins are running deep for many. She includes a tie-in of discovery that linked to my own journey.

Okay, so before I get into crystal and succulent fun, something synchronous that took place last night, right before heading to bed, included a very special fossil and crystal piece I have. I shared this on Laura’s blog as a comment, but will include more detail here.

I mentioned to her, “speaking of roots,” this incredible and rare power piece I have, which is a very substantial and potent wand or smaller scepter, that found me back in 2008 while living at the north end of Lake Tahoe, got my attention.

The “wand” part is actually a rare, fully intact coral fossil from the Paleozoic Era/Devonian period (approx. 400 million years old). The shape of this extremely rare fossil indicates that it stood upright on the ocean floor and was inhabited by an animal with tentacles pointing upward.

It’s wild looking, like a horn, huge claw, or mega fossilized root. It is wrapped in copper wire with an incredible Arkansas quartz crystal at top – bringing together elements of earth, air, fire, and water. Along the front there are nine sharks teeth from the Miocene Era (approx. 25 million years old), which are said to protect against evil and poisoning. There is also an ammonite at center (approx. 400,000,000 years old) too. Fossils have a strong life force preserved in them and they can be upliftin and promote bonding with the animal kingdom.

Anyway, last night I went into my office, as I always do to say goodnight to Astrid, and I found this power piece on the floor. It sits center/front of the altar table at center of my room with all of sound instruments and some other crystals. A place Astrid loves to lay under every day, especially alongside the golden mother quartz on the ground.

I can only imagine that Astrid brought it down off the table. It happens to sit between another incredible pink quartz I found with the golden mother quartz. These were the two, you might remember, that I carried down the day of my foot fracture, later being returned to me by my friends. An incident that supported my completing the story of my new book – more origins involved here, symbolically.

Well at the right of this wand sits three crystals from Africa. My guess is that when it fell, it struck the giant mother quartz just below it, as there would be no other reason for it cracking, if it had just hit the carpet.

Interestingly, it wasn’t a crazy blow, as the only thing that happened is the bottom third of it, where the point of the tentacle is, cracked or separated from the other two thirds. However, you couldn’t tell visually because it is so well bound with copper wiring, at five different points – one of which is exactly where this separated. The copper wiring held it in place, but it was evident a full separation had happened here when I examined it further.

I don’t get upset about such things, as I feel these incidents have purpose and meaning, and I KNOW Astrid doesn’t do anything by accident.

She hasn’t touched anything on the table since we live here, so this was definitely not random, nor an easy feat being that it is quite a very heavy and dense piece.

It is very connected to Atlantis and my time there, but there are several other connections I can make and as Laura pointed out, “Celts and the Egyptians have much to do with Atlantis.” – both connections of our roots and origins.

But one thing that became strongly evident, brought me back to Africa.

I started getting a sense that this fossil had origins from that area of the Earth and upon further investigation with my pendulum, it resounded with huge, crazy circling yes’s in affirmation.

As Laura also said, “I wonder what Astrid unlocked.”

Indeed, I imagine I’ll find out more, as the journey spirals onward.

For one, it brought to my attention, this piece is integral things and it wasn’t random, either, that I’d place it center of everything in my room.

There are keys awaiting to be used.

And more of this will likely come now BECAUSE of these new African crystals that have joined the collective here.

Bringing them together feels like a journey in the making that has aligned for now.

So that brings me to sharing their photos and some about their energy.

The first two being Spirit Quartz, or Faery Quartz, as their known alongside sometimes also being called Cactus Quartz. They come from the Boekenhouthoek area, Mkobola, Nkangala District, Mpumalanga Province, South Africa.

They sparkle like crazy and really vibrate with harmony and radiating high frequencies.

These South African sweeties infuse a very nurturing and renewing energy into my sacred space, promoting hope, wholeness, clarity, and collective synergy.

Light body activation mixed with love and peace.

There’s a gentle grace pervading and it feels soft and freeing.

Pictured in the photos are a large Ametrine (Amethyst and Citrine) Spirit Quartz plate and rare occurrence of peach and white Spirit Quartz cluster that sits on a Boekenhout Jasper matrix.

Apparently, “the combination of Spirit Quartz and Boekenhout Jasper is a part of what’s known as the “Grand Formation” in the world of crystals.”

Interesting yes!

Sitting in a triad with them is this special little African stalactite that called to me. I don’t know the area it comes from, but just that it’s from Africa.

I love the stalactite essence – miracles of Terra. They seem to speak of raising one’s energy, deep inner growth that shifts the outer, and amplifying spiritual expansion, while connecting with the inner womb of creation from within Mother Earth.

Then we have this stunning Tigers Eye Egg that sits on my shelf alongside three other eggs I have of Lapis Lazuli, Sunstone, and Rainbow Moonstone.

This Tigers Eye Egg is really unique and rare – the largest of my eggs in fact. It holds incredible power and shimmers with both Blue Tigers Eye and Gold Tigers Eye chatoyancy. Each brings together their own metaphysical properties and energies into an alchemical blend.

Yes, you guessed it…This egg originates from South Africa and is a powerful third eye, throat chakra, solar plexus and root chakra stone that supports aligning with all six psychic senses. Wonderful for self confidence and encouraging one to stand in their own power.

Blue Tiger’s Eye is also known as Hawk’s or Falcon’s Eye, which also is SO connected for me, as I have a deep connection with Horus, the Hawk/Falcon God of Egypt. I happen to have a one-of-a-kind stone statue of him that I brought back from my first trip in Egypt, that sits atop my book shelf.

The blue adds calming energy and helps one connect with guides, helpers, and cosmic forces, while also bringing one into alignment with their highest gifts and life purpose. It draws in far-seeing vision to assist one in seeing their life from all angles, to uncover the truth, and read situations with hawk’s eye clarity.

The gold supports a life lived with courage and experiencing enjoyment and celebration of it. This aligns with experiencing abundance, as well as provides encouragement and hope. It’s wonderful for new beginnings and growth too, while remaining focused and grounded as you work towards goals and dreams.

Crystal Eggs represent rebirth, fertility, and new beginnings.

This leads us to the last of this African grouping – a gorgeous rare Black Ammonite Pair that originates from the magical island of Madagascar, one of the most energy-filled centers on the planet. These hold very ancient, healing energy, and deep/root/origin wisdom.

You can feel how different these are from the others. I’ve never seen such a large pair and I love the dark connecting with the hidden and shadowy recesses, but also the sparkly inner realm of it that shares light is inherent in it all.

These fossils are between 135-395 million years old and bring the energy of Ammonite – activators of our metaphysical gifts and inter-dimensional exploration. When placed on the third eye chakra, Ammonite reveals the soul’s path, which is encoded within it. It is also useful to support rebirthing and is a powerful Karmic cleanser, helping one release mental obsessions and important past life issues.

Feng Shui masters call Ammonite the seven color prosperity stone because it’s believed not only to stimulate the flow of life force energy through the body, but to be exceedingly fortunate for abundance, vitality, health, and promoting beneficial business ventures.

This brings me lastly, to my fun succulent discovery.

 

I have a new writing partner (to add to my Peter Rabbit and two storykeeper bunnies) and rabbit guardian overseeing things here in my Wonderland office from the vantage point of my desk.

This bunny planter is solid cement and so beautifully crafted. I found the perfect succulents I wanted for him to be like cascading water from the cabbage basket that will continue growing longer and adding to the abundant flow of energy and harvest alongside the grapes.

All of these holding rich symbolism perfect to immerse in.

I may move the planter out on my deck in summer, but for now I love the wisdom and whimsy of my new friend next to me and the exotic pink and green string of hearts Ceropegia Woodii, the Sedum Red Carpet Crassula that will turn red with intense sun, the Echeveria Moonglow at center AND the rare Senecio Rowleyanus string of pearls native to Namibia, Africa. I didn’t realize this until after I planted it.

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I adorned the planter with three butterflies and one dragonfly, some moss, and three little quartz points – one of which has a timelink to the future – to add to the Magick.

Such incredible energies and all just “happening,” by listen to guidance within.

This leads me to a synchronous morning-full-circle-discovery that ties in the fossil wand and symbolic origins.

I was looking for something in my office closet and pulled out a bag. I didn’t know what was in it, but it happened to have these crystal prism hangers I once hung in my first Tahoe rental I moved into on my own after my divorce – something I’d had intention of finding and putting up here in my office.

Incidentally, the bag also had a card in it. The only two things in there.

The card had a black and white photo of Lake Tahoe on the front by a photographer, dated 2010. I opened it to find it was an anniversary card from Dave, perhaps from 2010 – eight years ago.

But guess what was also inside of the card?

The certificate of authenticity for my power piece wand that cracked open last night, along with all of the information about the fossil, sharks’ teeth, ammonite, crystal, etc. – the only way I would have known the info I wrote up above.

Then the card itself was a chilling a-ha moment.

It has one line it, besides ending off with “I love you.”

It reads, “Someday soon hopefully we’ll back in the place we came from.”

He meant Lake Tahoe, as that is where we met and had moved away from, but how uncanny in terms of this theme of “origins.”

On one level, Tahoe is indeed a return to our origins, having everything we love and both feel most at home in.

On another, well…..it speaks to so much more.

Giraffes, Africa, Origins & Our Animal Sanctuary


A theme I’ve increasingly been experiencing is one of origins and a continued deepening into accessing those roots and remembrance. It’s much more than an integration process, but seems to be almost like opening a time capsule that is now aligned to access as keys to what was once behind closed doors. It’s been an ongoing journey, but things have been showing up more and lighting up an “intuitive treasure map,” as one sweet friend called it. It’s definitely more on an esoteric level so it’s hard to put into words, but that percolation is igniting subtle seeds of activation. There’s a lot of richness in the overall experience of it, although still is in blossoming mode.

One of these threads, for me personally, has been showing up through what is considered a cradle of civilization and humankind – Africa.

I’ve had things from here in the past come forward, but a resurgence is taking me there again on a different spiral of the journey and around every corner things point to there when I least expect it.

I know one of my dear friends is having a similar experience, which in fact was so strong it showed up in detail through a dream of mine I shared with her, unknowingly connecting to things I was not consciously aware of about her roots and past.

I’m wondering if others are experiencing this origin journey in their own ways too?

It feels to be much more than a recall, reliving, and integrating of “past lives,” but more of….hmmmm, how can I express it?

Like stepping fully into essence alignment, almost like you’ve been having an out-of-body experience all this time, but now are returning to body in a fully spirit-activated way with all the micro DNA bells and whistles lighting up and all of the macro Cosmic elements exploding.

Anyway, some of the fun ways this “origins” experience has been flowing around me has been interesting to observe.

I’ll just touch on a few of them.

I very rarely bring home crystals these days, in comparison to a time so many were flying into my life. I’d found some for Astrid and to align with my writing, but not anything else until just recently.

Five (there’s my number again) crystals called out to me from “random” places and in “random” ways, which I found out to later all have their origin in Africa.

Three from South Africa, one from the magickal island of Madagascar (one of the most energy-filled centers on the planet), and the other from an unknown region of Africa. All of them came to me in strangely interesting ways and without searching for them or even desiring to find them, consciously.

Yet, they found me.

I’m still waiting on four to arrive, but they feel pivotal to something anchoring, now that we’ve grounded here and made a sanctuary for ourselves.

And speaking of sanctuaries, not only has this home become the most nurturing and expansive in this way for us, but has symbolically become an animal sanctuary (in the words of Laura) in all of the highlighted elements that adorn it. Not to mention, the rabbit and two cats that inhabit it with us and all of the animals that visit from the forest.

99% of the artwork in the home either as paintings, statues, and decorative items are all animals – many of which are my own original artwork.

One of those pieces includes a tapestry my mom gifted us as a house warming present she worked day and night on to have done for when we moved into our home.

The back story on it is interesting, as this was a tapestry my mom’s mom (my grandmother) had started back in the 80’s in Paris. My mom discovered it in a drawer when she and my dad were cleaning up things, after she passed away. My mom recently rediscovered it and seeing the image on it, knew right away it was meant for us.

She completed more than half of it herself, making it a combined effort of both my mom and grandmother. It is a needle point work of art that’s almost 40 years old – nearly my age since I’ll be 45.

But what is REALLY synchronous is the image of the tapestry….as if my grandmother had foreseen our “now” home way back then.

If you look closely you’ll see a house or cabin-like home sitting in the forest with a creek and three deer and a light blanket of snow. The house has a long deck running the length of the back of the house facing the woods, just as ours does…and three windowed doors there, just as ours does. We also sit between two creeks and do have wildlife like deer, bear, coyote and more that run through here.

I’ll have to get a better picture at the same exact angle of the tapestry, but this gives you an idea. This photo was taken pre to our changing out that middle window to a sliding glass door like the two on either side of it.

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It’s really uncanny to the point of chills, and so you can understand why my mom worked all-hours to give it to us. I just got it back from being framed, the day before the monks came for our house blessing, which also felt to be important. The large frame I believe is burlwood and it sits in the master bedroom as the scene seen from our bed.

Even this speaks to me of origins for myself and essence alignment, as well as the kind of vision I’ll share of the next thing symbolizing too.

And just two days ago, a very potent, pivotal, and important piece just anchored in this energy for our living room, with yet again another Africa connection. I had no idea it was coming, but poof!

Some back story….Dave and I have been drawn for the last year to this beautiful giraffe sculpture in a local gallery here. We often wondered about it and several months ago finally asked about the price, which was WAY out of our reach. But the energy REALLY spoke to us and we loved her so much. Something about her spoke to us and was before we even knew this house was going to manifest.

Fast forward to now….I’d not thought about her anymore, but then Dave surprised me two days ago with something even better.

A large box arrived and he told me to stay downstairs until he had it ready to show me. He draped it with a blanket and called me up to unveil it.

There before my eyes were two elegant brass giraffes.

He won them in an auction and now they would grace our home with, well, their own grace.

I love all animals, but until recently with that first sculpture we’d seen, hadn’t really thought about them reflecting something within me or us I’d want close as reminder.

With shifting energies, new paths opening, and these anchoring origins, something now aligned.

I was so excited when I saw them and they touch a special place in me each time I see them, like an activation.

I LOVE these giraffes (just look at the energy swirling around them in the light – they actually energetically remind me of the otherworldy, Cosmic deer we encountered in Glacier National Park, Montana with their elongated bodies and necks) and they now have center stage in our living room in front of one of the picture windows, even more so broadcasting to our Forest Portal animal friends, that this is a home of harmony and a welcome sanctuary for all of them.

I’d never really dove into their symbolism before, other than obvious things like their elegance and grace, but upon further investigation, it was like ding, ding, ding….the bells and whistles all went off. And with recent discussions, life changes, dreams I’m focused on manifesting, and what this new home symbolized opening for us, it definitely all made sense.

Not to mention, once again there was that Africa energy coming through, which has also been showing up in discussions with friends recently and things around travel. That’s separate to all of the connections I have had with both the Northern and Southern regions through past life discoveries and this life sacred journeys (two travels to Egypt, which were the most powerfully life-shifting for me).

Giraffes speak to being able to see the bigger picture, while staying confidently grounded. They symbolize the visionary seers and doers, but done with gracefulness in action. This includes the ability to see into the future to things that used to or might seem out of reach, but now point to where you are headed and that by stretching further into things outside of your normal vantage point or comfort zone, you can experience new opportunities and potentials. In fact, eloquent giraffe encourages reaching as far as you can because the unattainable is now attainable and possible.

Basically, giraffe says, “rise to the occasion” and that there’s no challenge insurmountable since giraffe summons up your most remarkable potentials, while also reminding you to rise above the chaos. That speaks to me to going for the biggest dream ever and that grace and balance are possible through any challenges you may face.

They also speak to me about merging Cosmos and Earth and bringing those aspects of ourselves in balance and synergy together.

That life here is about the integration of both, and as the intro to my first book, Spiritual Skin says:

“The physical becomes sacred.

The spiritual becomes tangible.

And together they exist simultaneously in harmony.”

There’s a lot more about them including their sense of intuitive perception and knowing, their markings representing the labyrinth of life being journeyed with that same dignity and grace, but also the powerful use of self-expression to walk your talk and use the most effective communication without waste or chaotic enmeshment, as they mostly communicate only through body and tail language rather than creating sounds.

All of this really speaks to me and what’s next in life for myself and us (1111 word count as I just wrote that), but also, in the most simple of ways, this sweet and graceful giraffe couple seem to be imbuing a more elegant quality to life’s journey and a higher frequency to be embodying and emanating from here on forth, and of course a reminding, daily marker to hold ourselves to these higher potentials when anything might flow through to potentially thwart that.

All being things that I feel speak to the collective, too, if we really want to make changes and create a New Earth experience together.

Gratitude Expanding


I know that today is a day of various forms of feasting and celebrations and for me this day of sharing gratitude is also an extension of expressing my compassion and to be in presence of the life I have chosen to live as a direct mirror of that. This, however, is not limited to just this one day, but is a consistent, daily experience I choose to deepen into a more intimate relationship with. For me, compassion extends to all of life, every day of my life. There hasn’t been (for the last 12+ years), and won’t be, any animals in or on my body as long as I’m breathing simply because my soul recognizes the sacred relationship I have with these spirits in animal bodies as my family and as the powerful beings that they are who have chosen a different form to inhabit for reasons we have yet to fully grasp in the bigger picture. My spirit sees no boundaries between people of all colors and races, animals, plants, elements, and those from beyond this realm. For me, we are all consciousness expressing through different vehicles, the intelligence of the creative heart – each beautiful, worthy, and inherently deserving of my reverence and love. This is the life I have chosen to live for the rest of my days here on Earth and for all of eternity where ever I may be beyond that. And this has supported the vibration I choose to embody that reflects the frequency of my origins.

There is no all-ideal way since everything in some way still is tied into some form or another that doesn’t support my desires, but I do choose the best I can to live a life that most closely connects me to my heart resonance and I realize the perfection of it all despite my feelings.

So while today is about gratitude for many things and the people in our life, I am also giving thanks to and celebrating creative extensions of love, life for turkeys, and all of Mother Earth’s creatures and children on this day of gratitude and every day that deserves our gratitude. Every extension of consciousness, to me, is precious, equally valuable, and embodies wisdom and lessons that each so bravely and lovingly share with us to receive.

In addition, today I am really anchoring in an even greater presence of recognition and love for everything and everyone in my life that has contributed to this new journey and shift I find myself embarking on – to which we are all interconnected to in our own relative ways and reflections of these shifts.

We originally thought we might be moving in to our new home today, but instead will be on Saturday – just two nights remaining in this tree house above the lake we’ve called home for over a year now. There is so much to sit in presence with and so much here that has ignited and supported all the new in motion. From this place in the sky I have been able to be in things, but not of them, allowing me to experience my own reality and tap into the clearest channel of what is next for me, as an extension of my creative origins here. So much is here that has ignited and supported all the new in motion and it is no wonder we remain still on Thanksgiving in this creative brainstorming and expansive embodiment of new vision, to anchor all of that in before moving on.

Today we will be moving more boxes to the new home (we’ve been doing some each day to make that easier). This is a very deliberate and present experience since each time we carry down boxes to the car we are traversing 105 steps each way. That seems significant and symbolic on many levels and layers. Not to mention, definitely is keeping us fit and me very conscious of every single step being grounded safely and securely! It is also quite perfect that my foot healed just before this all became necessary. I have new feet to carry me forth!

I will be spending this morning baking some vegan goodies to share with two of our amazing contractor teams that are working on Thanksgiving to help bring our new home together for us. This is a way I can extend gratitude to them, as they truly have been working so hard and giving their all to helping us. Last week I did the same for our drywall team who were incredible. Today it’s our painter and flooring crews.

Alongside moving more boxes down to the house today, we’ll be enjoying our forest yard a bit before joining a vegan Thanksgiving celebration we were invited to, which was perfect since we haven’t been out doing anything other than home stuff and nature walks. So we are grateful to be nurtured by all the vegan community we have here to give us a nice break before our last two days of big-time shifting.

Which brings me to a sweet symbolic thing that happened yesterday. So small an experience, but not unnoticed by me.

While at the new house yesterday handling things, I walked up to the entry where one of our contractors was putting our new front door on and literally right at the threshold of the doorway I found a precious little tannish brown feather – imperfectly perfect, as has been this process.

Our entry is quite long to the door and covered above, so this truly felt to be a welcoming gift and sweet blessing..so befitting having this new door created to access a whole new portal of experience that awaits in this home.

Days lately have thrown us curve balls and surprises, but it has all pointed to surrendering into flexibility and understanding how these things are actually gifts, which in fact they are because each not only creates a deliberate presence and slowing down, but weaves an even better outcome into being because of this. You have to giggle at some of it when it happens. Too much to share, but definitely this huge remodeling project is much more than about a house….it’s about a whole new embodiment we are creating and rewiring on all levels, which it reflects.

Every aspect of life is something inherently beautiful and provides hidden treasures to be grateful for.

I know that during the holidays there is not only an increase of togetherness that is experienced, but can also herald an experience of separation and bring up feelings of loss, sadness, or of being alone.

For everyone experiencing separation in one form or another, whether through physical transitions of loved ones, the inability to be with loved ones, or even feelings of being fragmented, lost, or disconnected from parts of yourself I wish for you to know on some level that perhaps right now your feelings can’t grasp, but will be heard within the very essence of your spirit and the DNA of your beingness.

Even though you feel or physically sense that there is something or some part that is away from your body right now, within your heart there is always an open portal of connection that never leaves you. This is the bridge to all unified experiences of harmony and love and where you are never alone.

With gratitude I extend a hand on one side of that heart bridge to welcome you home.

Faery Succulent Garden Update


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It’s been incredible to watch my mini magickal gardens expand and flourish in just six and a half months since first creating them. I didn’t realize how fast these succulents would grow, but I now have these mini enchanted Faery forests. I think I only lost one along the way, and have added a couple of new ones (one gifted and one I couldn’t resist), as well as transplanted/moved a couple to increase density since some have been reaching for the sky and leaving sparse areas down below. Just incredible!

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I’ve since added some new treasures to them as well that I’ve found along travels and here in Tahoe (some from our new backyard forest).

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I love them so much and can’t wait to create my new sacred space with them, along with the new tortoise and rabbit topiaries I have, my Lamb’s Ears, and a new magickal addition – all of which you’ll see as the space is created.

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For now, I thought it would be a fun quick share to show you how much these have grown and what is possible even if you don’t have an outdoor garden, the time, or feel you have a green thumb. Succulents are a sweet and easy way to create Nature’s harmony in your home.

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You can see the original post here for comparison:

Faery Succulent Gardens

Harmonic Frequency


Being able to know and experience peace doesn’t equate to constant bliss, but instead speaks to your ability to move into that centered place of harmony at any moment amidst chaos.

To me, ecstatic bliss is the opposite of chaos or the doldrums and creates a “this” or “that” view, but the harmonic frequency is one that dances without conditions and judgment, is always in tune with the origins of its voice, and knows only of the IS.

 

 

A Harmonious Merging ~ Coming Home


 

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I’ve never felt more myself than I do now at this point in my life…a feeling of returning back to my origins…of being most naturally me… Grounded and yet expansive. Inspired and free. New and old, Earth and Cosmos merging… There’s a wholeness that is anchoring and it feels like peace. I embrace my silver highlights from the Fae as the anchoring of ancient lineage coursing through my veins. I cherish the innocence of childlike purity that lights me from within like a star amidst the black of night.

And it is all rooted in love that takes me deeper daily into a return to natural harmony.

I am grateful and celebrate being.

Mine, yours, ours.

 

A friend saw my photo below and commented, “I can see dragon energy in your eyes.”

It made me take a second glance that took a hold of my spirit in a way I can’t explain.

I felt like I was home.

And indeed I am, which is being mirrored by our dream home we’ve anchored in.

I worked diligently with the Faeries and all Elementals, as well as the Animal Spirits (and some friends from beyond) of our new home and the land surrounding it to help align things and manifest it all. I knew the moment I stepped foot in it, it was the right house for us and that solidified when walking through the yard and the forest that surrounds it. I didn’t give up on it even when things could have gone different ways. The Faeries told me to trust and so I did. I always just know something and feel to the heart of things – that silver lining beyond the hurdles to get there.

And oh the magick that will be woven here!

It will take several months of craziness with remodeling and prep, but the Faeries are excited about the new energy and this haven being created for them and all of us to share. Much will evolve over time, even after the main work is done, since we can’t do anything to the yard until after Winter’s snow except plant eight new 12 foot Austrian Pines for now to create our sanctuary, which up here need to be in by October 15th due to very strict planting restrictions. So, I’m excited to have some new tree friends to join the forest collective.

These photos are taken on site, pre-changes, and reflect a new me rooting with the heart of this land and home, inside and out.

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I’d just done some braiding magick with my hair the night before, turning myself into Pippi Longstocking – one of my fav styles for a wild, easy, and free mane. Not to mention, makes me feel like all of the parts of myself beyond this human experience of Tania.

It’s also the first time my silver is really stepping out in a big way. Normally you see the chunks laced through my hair, when it’s straighter, but with braiding it really creates a whole other effect that integrates it and spreads it around in a way I imagined myself to look in my sage years – AND how I look beyond what you know of me.

So fun to see that now, and what it draws forth from within my spirit to emerge. I have always been a lover of dichotomy and felt like a walking one – now more than ever!

And I LOVE how Astrid and I have the exact same hair colors just blended in different ways, which is incredible given I had no idea she was the one coming home with me. Just the other day I was laying next to her on the ground in my Reiki workshop and Bean said, “omgosh your hair is exactly the same color as hers.” This wasn’t the first time, as both Marcy and Sharon had said the same on the day I adopted her. We ARE one and the same….a witchy faery and her familiar for sure. 😉

I’m sure there are many who might not understand why I would enhance my already silver stripes growing in my hair, or think I look better with their version of “ideal,” but it’s simply my way of feeling most myself and revealing who I really am. I don’t mind having something associated with “old” mixed in with otherwise “young” looking things.

Perhaps these are both inversions of the oneness that is innocence.

I don’t strive to fit in. I live in a reality of my own creation.

I just want to be me…..the lifetimes and eons of me, here and now.

While others might feel more aligned with doing everything to look younger or create longevity, I’m just comfortable in feeling at home and desiring creative expression and quality versus quantity of life for however long that is meant to be.

I still get told I look half my chronological age, but now my hair throws in a curve ball, which to me feels more aligned because while physically I may be one thing, in heart and spirit there is quite another going on.

I feel both that heart of a child skipping with Mother Nature and also sometimes feel like Father Time spiraling through the cycles.

I’ve written about the “silver lining” before and how this approach to life has trickled into embodiment for me by literally turning into silver-streaked hair. Had you asked me years ago if I’d be proudly wearing silver hair, I’d likely had thought no way, but I’ve learned that things turn on a dime. Just as certain trajectories we were on have shifted into new, merged versions that encompass a higher good.

Before I felt like there were multi-paths I was working on all at once, and now it feels like they’ve merged together, providing all the same things and possibilities, but integrated.

Kind of like having silver hair and yet dressing, looking, or otherwise being what you’d think is opposite to that. It’s all connected and more and more we are breaking down limiting ideas and rules and creating new versions of experiencing everything aside from conditioning.

Hard to explain, but it feels good and allows me the ability to root further, play more, and rest along the way.

This feels to be the reflection of my hair, as well as our home.

There’s a sense of returning home and yet the irony is, we never left.

It’s simply the journey made conscious and our origins actualized for our human beingness to realize.

Balancing Seasonal Shifts for New & Healthier Versions of Embodiment


A short post update (and last until I finish my book), as I’m continuing to hunker down with my writing, to send a little New Moon and Equinox love your way. This week is another gateway for anchoring in new intentions and realities, which is why I’m keeping focused and listening to the guidance on completing my book during this potent portal – based on my progress so far and yesterday’s amazing writing day that definitely will happen this week YAY! We have a Virgo New Moon in a couple days and the Equinox rounding out the end of the week, so a wonderful transition time you can harness mindfully in empowering your own true source of light within.

Virgo urges us to bring our bodies back into balance and supports our journey of integrative healing on all levels, while doing this WITHOUT being self-critical and WITH a lot of loving attentiveness.

Once again, I feel like a literal embodiment of this message with my restructuring foot fracture and the healing integration and nurturing I’m following to create harmonious alignment with the new.

And embrace of this with gratitude and love has increased the process tenfold with blessings abound and productivity galore. Yesterday was truly one of those days I cherish, where I spent 8 hours in full writing mode, which had me lost in the creative world of my imagination and parallel realities. I felt like the fact that my writing brought me to tears and I was crying through the fluid channeling of the story that was unfolding in creative “real time” was a great sign that I was in the vortex and that the content streaming through WAS that real. I LOVE when this happens. Pure alchemy in motion. I also love when what I’m writing happens while I’m writing it, or after. Powerful stuff! A few more days of that and I’ll be done. It also demonstrated being in the zone of my essence, as I wouldn’t have wanted to be anywhere else in the beauty of that experience and the joy of creating from my heart.

These are the inner shifts taking place at this time….aligning us with our “nature”.

A seasonal shift marks a time for inner shifts and repatterning ourselves to step into that flow of Nature’s cycles.

So be a best friend to your inner darkness and shadow, for understanding it engages healing integration that is vital for soul growth. We are encouraged to face our fears and retrieve all of the projections and separations we’ve created, which are illusionary. This leads us to alchemy of the heart.

We’re encouraged to also stop medicating the truth with fluffy avoidance and robotic affirmations, in order to sink into the nature of our BEINGNESS.

I find myself continuously swimming deeper and deeper into this experience of richer embodiment. When I think, wow, this is amazing, I’m then soon shown something even more incredible is possible because that’s the truth of it – there is no end to the possibilities. WE create endings, but it’s all a continuous beginning and recreating we can choose ways of experiencing.

I’ll leave you with these passages from an old post of mine that speaks to this:

Nature reminds us that we need to relinquish the need to hold on tightly with fear and to trust in the process – to allow ourselves to have everything we thought we knew about ourselves to be stripped away, only to discover a greater truth to our authenticity beneath the temporary structures.

And in the process you’ll discover the only thing that is eternal is the core essence of who you are beneath the temporal layers. You learn then that the rest isn’t as serious as you make it and is simply part of the journey to that core.

We let go, just as the trees effortlessly allow their leaves to shift colors and float off in the wind. We embrace the only permanence, which is change. And we take grateful stock of what we do have, while preparing for a new birthing that will be incubating during the symbolic stillness.

Seasonal transitions mirror the evolution of human consciousness and the dynamic shifts of life cycles.

The eternal cycles of birth and death, creation and destruction – all teach you the wisdom of harmonic co-existence. 

You become a conscious and active partner in the rebirthing process, as you walk through the flames of destruction with grace.

It’s a good time to decide if you want to continue forward supporting your ego’s will or your soul’s destined journey. Decide what it is worth to you to live in the authenticity and joy of your essence, and what decisions you can make to release all that is not of that, in order to be all that is.

As we celebrate the Equinox and Autumn’s graceful arrival, let us remember to breathe in the beauty of who we are, trust in the cycles that will always return us to balance and harmony, and gently nurture the inner world, as we cleanse it of that which no longer serves and prepare for the renewing cycle that will be spiraling round again.

With my own foot fracture I feel I released the pressure of much and broke from one version (within and without) and allowed a new version to form, which released the temporary structure of old “me” to birth a new Pisces self with stronger foundations of what that means to me.

We constantly have these choices and possibilities that needn’t be harsh for us to experience, and yet our higher selves know EXACTLY what is of greatest support for us.

Earthing, Faery Portals, Dream Visioning & Pisces Full Moon


Since the Solar Eclipse’s reset, there’s been a rush of very different energy pouring in – for some intensely forcing changes and for others like a welcome jet propulsion into the new. Everything seems to continue to be a step-by-step process of taking it all slowly without rush and truly anchoring in each step with depth of intention and understanding. With tomorrow’s Full Moon in Pisces (my native sun sign), intuition will be on an all-time high, so listening to it and trusting it will be key to support moving into your true power. This moon will help you to gain deeper insights and understanding about the seeds you’ve been planting in your garden, the intentions you have for them, and will illuminate what truly is guiding your life so that you have a broader grasp on the creative forces at work and how to harness them.

Boundaries again are a constant theme in order to create well being and is a lesson for the boundless Pisces energy to understand how to balance in a healthy way.

This is a powerful time for deep soul level closure, to exercise greater compassion rather than judgment, and to practice radical acceptance, which helps you to release suffering. Suffering is a refusal to accept things. It’s time to give up the suffering, do an energy cleanse, and ask how you can make the changes then engage action to do them.

Synchronously we were at a free Celtic rock concert for the Young Dubliners on Saturday where I danced the hardest I have since my twenties. When I say danced hard, I mean hard…I was doing my own version of the Riverdance and literally was jumping, hopping, kicking, jiggling, and wiggling nonstop through about 6 songs with sweat pouring, heart racing, and just powering through despite feeling as if I might not catch my breath, but did, then was in the dancer’s-high zone. My friend who joined me said she heard me giggling and cackling throughout like never before, which made her see my inner Faery come through. That Irish music definitely released a DNA chord within. I literally shook free and coughed out all the old on the drive home after! Talk about an energy cleanse! And feet were recalibrating two days after.

Well, this Pisces Moon encourages the energy of dance since Pisces rules the feet. So dance like crazy and move energy through your feet, which will not only shake out everything from the core and move things fast, but will anchor and ground you as you connect those feet to Mother Earth – Terra. She will in turn help transmute the energy and send it back with a recharge!

That watery Pisces energy is also about dreaming – whether receiving prophetic dreams or engaging imagination to dream big.

This has been a big one for me. I’ve been engaging dream visioning and just going wild with them, as long as they are aligned with the “now” me in every way.

So yes, dream a little dream…..or make it a big one! I am!

Don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t do something and don’t let their doubts become yours.

Also, learn to temper engaging intentions and detachment, envisioning, but also not overly talking about them. Keep a little bit of the magick to yourself so that you don’t lose the momentum. Patience is key, but don’t give up!

True, it will take dedication, drive, endurance, time and major effort, but if you believe in it, it’s the breath of life to you, and it fills your heart with joy and passion then you owe yourself and those that will be touched by your dream who you can’t see right now or gauge analytically, the opportunity to make it happen.

Live life to your fullest and responsibly harness your creative potential as example.

I’ve been immersed in a lot here (I bet you have too!), but continue to have a good majority of my life focused on “Earthing” in Nature and working closely with the Faeries and Elementals of the land to co-create and manifest together. Not to mention, continuing to engage my Star family from beyond, including my dear ones who have moved on, as well as the magickal Cosmic Astrid. It’s a balancing and merging of Earth and Cosmos.

This has continued to lead me on paths to new portals of discovery and doorways (including literal multi-dimensional doors of possibilities – more on that another time) showing up and opening.

I can’t begin to tell you how much has happened so quickly and anchored in in the last 5 months. Incredible! And as I look back I can see how that balance of alignments, patience, release, intention, and action have all come together.

I’ll share the exciting news on things soon, but it really has all become this fluid experience with some things immediately showing up and others all percolating, but are their own realities on a different timeline that are and will merge once I continue jumping them. And at the same time I’m seeing how there is always “something better” that reveals itself, just as is always my intention I voice when working on manifesting things. This ends up bringing together the most aligned outcomes that combine the ingredients of all that I love in an alchemical recipe only the Cosmos Itself within me knows how to do. And that involves stepping out of ego and attachments, and being open, open, OPEN to any and all possibilities that result in the highest good for all concerned.

And during these times, although I’ve been super active and life has been full, I’ve also been very inner (if you can believe that). Truly a Yin/Yang synergy of experience. And it is the inner time and the things I do actually keep to myself that allow me to put out the amount of energy that I do, as it does help me to conserve and restore, as well as continue to fuel things with a gusto of momentum.

I have huge amounts of passionate fire roaring inside and yet I’m letting it out in the bursts needed without crashing or burning out and without ever losing its fuel.

I continue to hold the expansive visions, while allowing things to organically morph along the way. Sometimes I’m so excited I could burst, but that’s when the Earthing and Nature immersion aids me in bringing my energy back down to a healthy kindling and allows a channel of support to come from the Spirits I honor and cherish.

It’s been so interesting to me that I’ve seen the most snakes I’ve ever seen recently in the last few weeks here (5 total – my fav/special #). Potent transformation energy! We don’t have rattlesnakes, but I’ve seen every size of Garter Snake from the tiniest of babies, to adolescent, to mature snake – Maiden, Mother, Crone energy perhaps? All aspects of myself merging, just as Earth and Cosmic parts do (this echoing a very prophetic and powerful experience I had in dream time just a little over two years ago that was the doorway to where I am now, but could have gone a different direction.

It’s 1:11 here as I conclude and paste in this, which I recently shared in an Instagram/Facebook post:

There are times when being alone or pulling within are necessary especially if you are doing very public work in terms of your path. There are spirits who may seem very visual and yet most of who they are and what they do goes unseen and is kept to themselves. But even if others see you, it doesn’t mean they REALLY see you or even fully know you, as you may be a reflection…truth mirror…or simply can’t be seen yet in totality because what you carry or embody isn’t understood yet.

I love you.

Lightness & Fluidity Anchoring In a New Spiral of Evolution


As I continue to observe the collective energies, I am also constantly observing my own and both the reflections and contrasts that compliment and synergize the journey unfolding. I’m fascinated at the process and how I’ve been led to shift in ways of incorporating the macro within the micro experience…the wholeness of All That Is residing in the way I integrate and transmute energies as an experience of my own remembering and healing empowerment. I continue to go through shifts in my perspective on so much, which has changed the course I have been on and resulted in complete shifts of the way of life I once knew and committed to, to something altogether different. This has definitely led me to release a lot from my life and to understand the repetitive cycling nature of my focuses that needed to come to full circle closure once and for all.

And as always, these take on forms in the physical, as well as the energetic realms. And I see how rebirthing is a totality of experience that even transforms how I look because of the inner changes that take root. I can look back over the course of my life and just by seeing photos of myself, my physical form, hair colors and styles, clothing, demeanor, facial and eye color shifts, I can tell you the story of what I was embodying within.

I don’t know on the conscious level what I’m doing always when I make these changes, as it seems to be an inner knowing that takes hold without need to understand…they simply begin to take form because I have this strong urging, inspiration, and impulse that says do this! even if I can’t understand fully why or that it seems odd to what I’ve known of myself thus far.

This has been evolving in the last several months with my hair – believed my many Native Americans to be the spirit’s physical manifestation of growth that opens/enhances extrasensory perception and symbolizes connection to all things, as if like tentacles reaching out to the world around us.

Without meaning to, my hair has increased in lightness, as I’ve continued to support the dramatic “silver lining” of it to come through in the physical. This started slowly, but as you can see in the photos, has taken over about 75% of my hair. I still have the dark underlining – symbolic of both light and dark existing together and both a part and separate to each other – but now this halo of lightness pervades.

I’ve never been drawn to light hair for myself really, but something has definitely shifted with that and because of the silver essence, I am feeling at home in it, likely because of the Cosmic reflections/implications and not simply Earth-based ones inherent in it for me.

But symbolically, it also speaks to the rebirthing energy abound – for me, so many others, and the collective at large. There indeed seems to be an identity shift going on to more expansive ways of being and embodiment. I’m noticing it in many people I know and have discussed this with Laura who also is in process of her own shift in this regard – yet to be determined.

Perhaps many of you will identify with this as well and the journey I’m sharing will speak to your own transformations taking root on many levels.

For me, I’ve always been drawn to the dark….hence my dark, black sacred tattoos and for many many years having black hair (my natural is a medium/dark brown, which is the darker areas you see between the silver in the photos)…interestingly my skin also easily browns and can get very dark/even has gone quite black from the sun throughout my life.

I see this as the journey I’ve embarked on in knowing my shadow and being willing to also take on that energy for the collective in reflection to help bring things to the surface. It also speaks to me of the ancient connections, roots, and heavier/intense layers of soul history and within my DNA that I was led on a journey to dig deeply into, research, reclaim and understand in a new way – some of this being a pattern of recycling, but then finally breaking free of it.

And in mirror of the fluidity of life now being experienced and a shift into more lightness and gentle flow with things, I can see very clearly why this lightness has taken over my Crown Chakra.

Light haired – light hearted, as Laura mentioned, which was actually an auto-correct typo in texting with her that made much sense. 😉

That is definitely what I am feeling, as the heaviness has dissipated – even with all of the intensities in the collective right now.  Perhaps that would seem odd to feel that, but since change begins with us and collective harmony will be a result of that peace within, I don’t find it surprising.

And yet this lightness is a new revisiting on the spiral of evolution, although exquisitely familiar. It feels infused with something fresh, inspiring, inviting, and full of creative potential.

It has not forgotten its parts.

It knows its wholeness.

And it contains sound seeds of harmonic confluence.

A field of dreams we have entered and reality is yours to dream into Being.

Yet be wary of what you intend to manifest, as it WILL.

I increasingly am seeing how responsible co-creation is of the essence. (something else Laura and I have discussed a lot)

Along with harnessing increasing power and magick, one must be conscious of the ramifications inherent in that experience and its far-reaching effects.

I remind myself constantly about seeing things from as many possible angles and probably potentials, and making sure to incorporate the highest good of all concerned in everything, as well as to be specific as to what I DON’T want to happen in order for my manifestations to take form, just as much as what I would love.

Dream big, but dream responsibly!

 

 

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