It’s been a big week so far, beginning with warm celebrations at my family’s house in Reno for Christmas, some completions, and a huge day today for Astrid. I was able to complete my office, except for a new sliding glass door and three special things to hang, which meant it was time for the reveal to her. And boy was it the best day of her life, and my life with her, yet! She had a huge day of joyful tears, soulful release, and courageous leaps – quite literally!
This mirrors me, as I’ve been reflecting on all that has completed and is about to begin in my own life, which was reiterated by the Tarot cards I pulled on Christmas.
My family and I always pull cards at the holidays to see what current theme is streaming through and what the New Year holds for us. All of them were very accurate, and mine were no exception to that.
They spoke to the rebirth taking place for me, an inner calling surfaced, release from all karmic ties, and everything coming together in my life story as I reach a significant stage on my journey.
Synchronously, the last week or so I’ve had an influx of people inquiring for services I have let go of and items I used to offer. To all of them I politely said no, but shared my gratitude for the reflections. It’s become much easier to do this, as I get the clearest yet about myself and what I want and don’t want.
As I felt into the messages of the cards, it was such a relieving confirmation and when I saw Astrid’s joy today and felt and heard her own release and depth of gratitude, I knew we were riding this new path together in all ways. Her feelings were mine reflected, and vice versa.
I will soon share a post on Astrid’s explorations and fun in our new shared room, which got its name a few days ago.
For now I’ll just share this one tiny peek of her in one of her play areas, standing tall and proud, and want to express the touching moment for us.
After she explored a bunch, she returned to the center of the room where I sat. Normally when she’s excited, she’s very interested in doing her own thing and will jet off if you come to her. But this time she came right to me and I put my hand on her head and caressed her softly, as we shared words.
Her eyes softened and lids lowered and she melted into my hand. All I could hear and feel was her joyous release and appreciation.
Like me, she’s had a long, hard journey.
Like me she’s waited patiently and kept going and believing, even when there seemed no hope.
Like me, she is experiencing the best time of her life now and receiving reflections of all the work she’s put into things, come to fruition…finally.
I could see her past and all she went through to get to this moment…how she waited for the right time and person to adopt her.
No one would and kept passing her by because they couldn’t “see” her.
She waited nearly three years, which is a lot for a little rabbit, as all of her friends at the rescue got adopted and left her behind.
And now, here she was, being gifted a magickal rabbit playroom fit for the queen that she is.
It was all overwhelming for her in a beautiful full circle way.
I felt both of our hearts open wider and our connection deepen, as we both shed tears of gratitude.
I knew her journey, as it mirrored so much of my own.
I’ll share again more in an upcoming post, but today was a huge day for us both. And on top of that, she learned to go up and down the big staircase all on the same day.
I knew she could do it, but thought it might take longer.
Astrid proved her bravery, as within a couple of hours she was up the stairs. And just a bit ago, she made it down.
It was such a cute process….the down that is, as she kept coming to me to help her. She kept nosing my ankles and then tugged on my pant legs with her teeth, to help. So I gave her a pep talk and went to the stairs to show her how. It took a little while, as she kept checking the first step down and then circling to regroup. And then it was done.
Today was a BIG day for both of us on so many levels. Speaks to the New Year to come!
Here are some photos from our lovely Christmas we all shared as a family, which was festive, fun, and full of giggles and yummy vegan feasting! Grateful to have parents that support our vegan lifestyle and always make, buy, or search out vegan restaurant options for us. My brother (who is absent in the photos due to camera shyness, but far from absent in the shenanigans shared) is vegan and was actually vegan a few years before I even knew what being vegan was. Both my mom (makes the entrees) and dad (makes the desserts) got in on the vegan creations and sent us home with care packages and apple dumplings to enjoy for the mornings.
Grateful also to have Faery folk as parents, which brings to Christmas and all holidays the magick I love.
Such warmth shared all around! And wonderful gifties too!
I hope everyone that celebrates Christmas enjoyed a warm, peace, and love filled one and that the holiday season (however you celebrate or don’t) was a perfect reflection of you.
Faery kisses to all!
It has been such a joy to watch Astrid relax more and more into her true self and feel safe, loved, and vulnerably expressive. It’s been just over 3 months since first she came home to us, but during that time she has come to know true comfort and joy in realizing she is here to stay and has a best friend for life in me. I’ve seen her evolve into the being I saw her to be, and not the outside persona she portrayed because of conditioning and filtering she learned to exhibit to not only survive, but to invoke others to rise to their best. She has been an example and reflection of how to view things from your heart, not judge a book by its cover, and to dig deep to celebrate the true nature of things beyond what your eyes and mind might otherwise want to react to.
Although she still is working through things and this will continue to evolve more and more over time, she is also feeling the true comfort and joy of bunnyness that she dreamed of and knew was in her nature to be.
Sounds much like me/mom, and the place I’ve come to in my life after deep explorations, surrendering, and relaxing more into my true origins of my own nature. No coincidence she and I share a journey we can support one another with and perhaps even maybe help inspire for others on a similar trajectory.
Although we’re in this interim place right now in between remodeling work being done on both places, not having furniture, and simply in process of a big move, she and our other fur babies are doing well and having fun exploring and discovering new hiding places.
This interim place seems to reflect where we all are along our transitioning journey – both animals and humans alike – in going through this huge growth spurt and relaxing more deeply into the nature of who we are – in essence, coming home to our origins.
We have a several month period of transition to go through together as a family unit, but in the end, much expansion, freedom, and creative potential awaits us. Through diligence, patience, commitment, belief, love, and keeping an eye only on moving forward from this moment, we will get through this crazy chaos with a foundation of peace at our cores to keep us on track.
And the more we each embody that, the more we support one another with it as well, as there will be times we each take the lead or are being guided by whom ever is able to move into that embodiment first – no right or wrong, no better or worse, but simply a beautiful co-creative experience for sure that is based on the foundation of pure love.
Anyway, I just love seeing Astrid’s journey first hand, and feel so grateful and blessed she has chosen me as her partner in life. Even if she has challenges in other regards, she demonstrates something altogether different with me and has come to be bonded with me in a very powerful way that helps her to feel safe because she trusts me and that bond. She is coming out more and more, but definitely will always be a one-person bonded bunny more than anything and I’m honored that she chose that person to be me.
Alongside some of the sweet things I’ll share, she has also been demonstrating her desire to be a part of everything we do as a family and to be a part of gatherings when we have people over that she likes. She will now come and stay out with everyone, hanging around to hear things and energetically join in on the group energy. She lets people she likes come and pet her, she will come out to say hi and makes it clear who she resonates with and who she doesn’t in terms of deciding to share her energy or not with (that boundary demonstration again). Even if she wants to remain alone, she will at least come out of her hiding places and give people a nose nudge to acknowledge them and give them a little bunny energy, then return back.
She also made appearances during my Reiki workshop the other day, which was her first to be part of. I could tell she had prepped the room’s energy before too and when I was doing the initiation attunements, she sat a few feet directly behind with one ear back and one ear forward, tuning in and supporting the process, as well as learning, and aiding me. That was powerful and beautiful to share with her.
But some things are too precious for words and photos do more justice to share.
One thing I’ve really REALLY been so moved to see is how Astrid in the last couple of weeks has finally done something I’d been waiting for, which is to vulnerably throw herself on her side and fall deeply into sleep without remaining cautious and on full alert. Although bunnies always are alert, I’ve wanted her to relax into this kind of sleep that my other bunnies used to do, which to me demonstrates true comfort and joy. Before then she was always laying in more “up” positions and ears alert and eyes open or immediately opened…and now she goes into true bunny dreamland and relaxes.
She does still love to have those feet grounded though and so usually will be found with her feet up against a wall or box or whatever she can find so that even though her body is floating on a bunny cloud, those feet or rooted and ready for action if necessary. I love that. It’s also sweet because it exposes her magickal silver toes.
This picture mesmerizes me to look at and I feel so much from it….mostly that is LOVE.
And although she still runs the show around here with the cats, Boojum’s persistence has found some acceptance by Astrid, although she has his number and keeps him in check. 😉
Another very cool thing miss Astrid has discovered, is the second story to her Magick Carrot House. She knew something was there, as she would look up the ramp inside of it since the beginning, but never ventured up.
But now everyday, after she enjoys her new spot on the bottom of the cat tree, she can be found nestled upstairs in her bedroom on the second story of the Magick Carrot House.
It’s the cutest thing ever and so hard to capture through the tiny carrot windows, but at least these photos give you a tiny glimpse of her sacred bedroom space she enjoys being in.
I love when she sticks her nose through the carrot window to say hi to me when I come by sometimes.
Cuteness overload for sure.
I CANNOT WAIT to create her and my new space in our new home. I have so many ideas percolating and surprises in store for her. My room is her room, so it will definitely be the magickal rabbit sanctuary and secret lair. So much fun awaits!
But for now, miss Queen Astrid is also enjoying tons of fun in anticipation of it all on the new blow up living room Dave got us for the next 2 month interim of all the remodeling and moving craze. She’s having a bouncy good time! And brings giggles to my heart.
I just adore her and love how big she is too….I adoringly call her Monster Bunny and Koala Bunny, as she is not only a huge presence, but truly is physically a power bunny embodied (similar to a bear cub, which someone called her yesterday) with a heart of gold and the alchemy of a cosmic wizard.
Yes, she is home…. Forever. And so am I.
Astrid continues to tickle me with her unassuming magick and wisdom and the ingenious way she peels away layers of herself when she feels to. I’ve said from day one that she is slowly going to reveal herself and that she isn’t at all what she seems. She is definitely the embodiment of multi-dimensional expression, housed in a robust and mysteriously beautiful rabbit body. I’ve come to see that she embodies more of a wild rabbit essence rather than a domesticated one and while she’s enjoying the sensuality of being in her body and exploring what that feels like, she’s much more off-Earth than here. When I peer into her eyes and feel into her spirit it is as vast as the Cosmos and as wild and free as the once untouched gardens of Earth’s realms.
It’s fun to see her experiencing things in such a fresh way and I love that wisdom she carries through these fresh experiences. She reminds me of the incredible Snowshoe Hares I fell in love with in Montana that carry the same energy.
I love the photo above captured of Astrid inside of the hay box. She couldn’t wait for me to finish her daily cleaning and prep and just jumped inside of the hay box before I was done getting it into hers. It reminded me of her being in the fields and meadows where wild rabbits roam.
She feels right at home now with everything and truly is a happy and mischievous one.
I love seeing her run and jump with excitement and can literally feel not only her joy exuding in those exuberant leaps, but can also feel the energy she is moving and the Cosmic stardust and Faery dust she is sprinkling around.
Astrid has learned to jump on the bed now and since then she will jump up on my side to come say hi in the wee hours of the morning during Faery time to wake me. She actually jumps right up beside my head and proceeds to nose me with whiskers tickling my face. I love it!!
And what I also love in the photo I shared here, is the position of the heart above her third eye with the bottom of it pointing directly there – the alchemy of Cosmic Love and intuitively guided vision merged.
As one friend recently said, “I always get the feeling she knows so much more than she’s letting on….she’s being gentle with us.”
Astrid gives a mischievous wink.
I’m devoted to bringing awareness to animals, Mother Nature, and the Cosmos, but rabbits are my passion and I’ve committed to being a voice particularly for them, as a way to share all of this. As I shared in a recent blog post on Astrid and Zephyr, I find rabbits to be unique in that they transcend or bridge just about every category of animals. They are domestic, farm, and wild animals and not only are seen as animal companions/pets, but also are farmed or hunted for their meat, farmed or hunted for their fur, and are one of the most commonly used and abused animals in terms of lab testing and experiments. Not only have rabbits become synonymous with cosmetics animal testing throughout the world, enduring horrendous suffering in the name of “beauty,” but their image is the most recognized and used on cruelty-free labeling. This image from one of my fellow rabbit Instagram friends felt important to share.
The last week and a half has been incredible watching and experiencing Astrid’s journey and blossoming. Everything pointing to how perfectly matched we are and providing hints of the adventure ahead. She has truly stepped through a new doorway of experience with love, patience, and honoring of who she really is, which wasn’t the story many saw of her. She truly was waiting to be seen and like with everything these days…the hidden gifts await those ready to embrace them in all ways. Here’s Astrid sharing her journey this last week.
The morning after my new house and bed arrived, I was feeling so excited and amped up I decided to explore the rest of the house I hadn’t yet. Until then I’d only explored the two bedrooms and bathrooms, but I sensed there was a whole other world on the other half of the house. I just wasn’t sure about it yet, especially since I have to cross wood floor to see what was around the other side of the couch. To my surprise I found more carpet and tons to explore! I’ve been so excited and giddy since, I go there every morning early and throughout the day at my whim. Mom took this video of me after watching me for a while. There was so much to check out. I was able to jump up on the fireplace to see mom’s Magick Crystal Wands in action (the ones I told her to get hopping on) and now I could infuse them with energy. I was able to run and jump with glee in this whole new space, jump on the couches and peer out the window (mom wasn’t quick enough to capture all that happening), got to peer out at the lake (I had heard about how Nestor, Joy, Gaia, and Cosmo had done this too), check out the hype about cat trees (after making it clear to Boojum now nothing was off limits to me either buddy, since he and Sweet Pea seemed inclined to explore my things too), and got to explore some of mom and dad’s things like this interesting space ship shaped thing that smells like them – mom tells me it’s their foot massager. Cool! Anyway, check me out checking everything out. Mom even caught on camera how cats are no match for me!
Mom asked me how I’m liking it here in my new home and with my new family. I don’t have the human words to describe things, so I gave her some bunny language in a BIG binky for her to translate, which she caught on camera. You might even catch my feet clicking together. Hehe! I’ve never done so many hops, binkies, runs, and twists in my life. The ultimate joy for a bunny. Thank you mom. I love it all!
Mom took this video of me connecting with my new crystal friend that now sits next to the Rose Quartz on top of her Tarot chest by my realm. I couldn’t get enough of this Opal. It’s amazing! I was so excited I had to run to my bed and start initiating more dreams and intents there. I know mom will hear and together we’ll manifest tons!!
Astrid’s journey continues in such a positive upswing. It appears like she’s crossed one big threshold along with revealing some of her magick, and all in just 3 weeks! At first she was taking her time to really sink into things and feel safe, as well as like she could trust the situation and us. It had its ups and downs that I knew to be patient and consistent with. I figured this could take much longer, but after the first 2 weeks, she was really making some leaps and hops. Of course, consistency will need to be continued to ensure these new behaviors become embodied fully as her natural way of being, but I’ll share more about these in the rest of this blog. Nonetheless, let’s just say I’m one happy mom.
It’s understandable, given her background and conditioning that she would have the challenges she does, and also that they not only would take time to work through, but could also crop up unexpectedly just as triggers can challenge all of us until we’ve worked through the core stuff deeply and fully.
Anyway, I had decided to get Astrid her own crystal – well actually all of my crystals are hers of course, but I wanted a special one to have as hers and that I felt would be supportive for this journey. I haven’t myself been attracted to getting a Rose Quartz, but recently had felt it in my energetic field. And then one happened my way via an online auction where I won the bidding and snatched up a beautiful very pink Rose Quartz Cathedral Tower (with yellow/gold inclusions) for a 1/4 of its value! And hence, Miss Astrid worked her energies to have this beauty.
Shortly after, another Cathedral Tower found its way to me, via the same route, where I won a bid at even a bit less than a quarter of its value and got a gorgeous blue Dendritic Opal for her as well (a new find for me and attraction, which I know was about Astrid)…it’s still on its way to us, but both it and the Rose Quartz energies feel perfect for her and in assisting her with her healing and opening journey.
The Rose Quartz will infuse her and her space with Universal and unconditional love, self love, motherly and nurturing love, purification and opening of the heart, restoration of trust and harmony, deep inner healing, peace, calmness and reassurance, comforting with grief, cleansing of negative/triggering/challenging energies, and graceful energy of the Heart Chakra.
While the Dendritic Opal (sometimes referred to as Merlinite) on its way (I’ll post photos when it’s here and after she’s interacted with it) connects to all of the Chakras, its energetic emphasis and strongest resonance will be with the color of the Chakra its base color reflects. In this case the beautiful Blue will connect with the Throat and the darker areas with the Third Eye. It works a lot too with the Solar Plexus personal power energy and creativity stemming from this point of focus.
It will also focus energies on spiritual growth, conscious awareness, clarity into her actions, and brings balance into her life and balance of the feminine and masculine energies within, as a stone of harmony. It helps with discernment and acceptance, being non-judgmental,
It attracts powerful magick and good luck, stimulates deep intuition, psychic knowing, and contact with guides and teachers in the higher realms, as well as alchemists and wizards.
Dendrite means darker tree-like inclusions in the milky white areas and other areas of the Opal, which invokes strong shamanic vibes, allows access to the energy of the natural work and communication with Elementals, takes you to higher realms and deepest, darker parts and inner states (able to understand them) to allow Nature to unfold within.
It is a stone of duality, which can act as both a stone of the light AND allows the shadow and “dark nights of the soul” aspects of your higher self to come forth for transmutation.
It’s great for automatic writing too, so I’m guessing between Astrid and I, and this stone, we’ll be able to channel some interesting stuff for my book’s completion. So, yes, it seems these new stones are great for us both. She knows what to draw in and what would be best for us both, and I’m simply her channel and conduit to help bring her manifestations into being.
They definitely feel to be perfect for Astrid’s evolution and blossoming, supporting her into her full magickal self.
And this was reiterated when I placed the Rose Quartz in front of her the first time and watched her connecting with it, as seen in these photos.
Then three mornings ago I found her on top of the chest that sits by her stuff and that holds my Tarot decks and other magickal things. It also happens to be the resting place of the Rose Quartz, as I wanted it to be near her area where she could see and connect with it, but also receive its energy over her realm. In order to get to it she needs to jump over her bowls or over a very high litter box. Either way, she did somehow, and I then saw her circle around the Rose Quartz for a bit with her body and nudge it with her nose before jumping back down again. (Wish I’d gotten photos, but I had just been woken up and was too involved in watching her to think of running to get my camera)
Right after that she was completely amped up. She began racing around like crazing, running, jumping, and becoming rambunctious in a fun loving way. I heard her run into the second bathroom and knocked over the garbage can. Then she was back in our room and started digging like crazy in her litter box – something she was doing for the first time so vigorously, and started throwing all her hay out and all over and rearranging everything. LOL!
This was the mess I caught her in and she seemed to be giggling at me and with a sneaky little “uh oh!” followed by a “hehe!”
These are the photos I caught of her and she got all cutesy with her body and head down low to ground and butt up, as if she was a puppy dog that would be wagging her tail with delight. Too cute!
She was giddy for head rubs and just giddy in general. I then went back to bed after giving her some greens since I was awake now. And when I woke later, she was still all excited and when approached by Dave she did a big bunny hop with glee.
This was all after about a week of having gone through transformations already with no longer charging, grunting, and attacking at every little thing. Only the cat lunges and chasing them off continues, and being on alert and startled by odd or sudden noises and movements, but any time I approach her or do things I did before like cleaning and feeding her, she would just come to me and put her head out wanting to be pet and would immediately get comfortable and enjoy some good long rubs and back massages. She would run to me, in fact, when ever I was near, nose me, and be inquisitive. She used to knock the bowl of pellets out of my hand with a grunt or the measuring spoon I use to give her just the right amount, but now she’s good with it all and isn’t in defensive mode.
However, she is still the little power bunny guardian and Queen of the realm here and although Boojum, our male cat, persists in his hopes to be buddies with her like he felt he was with Joy 🙂 she is keeping him at bay and working her boundaries. Astrid isn’t so sure yet, as he’ll definitely have to earn her trust and still, I sense she will be helping to keep him in line by setting the rules and boundaries for him to honor or be met with her energy that seems quite scary to both him and Sweet Pea, our female cat. Both cats seem very curious about her and are found often just watching her constantly, yet if they try to do anything she’s not comfortable with, you’ll find a cat sent off running fast!
Boojum doesn’t give up though and constantly sits near, watching and waiting. This was a capture from a few mornings ago of Astrid letting him hang out a little bit, at a distance, but as you can see she was on patrol alert.
That said, she is starting to get used to knowing I won’t hurt her (this is from her past conditioning as a bunny in this life and not as the spirit she really is), as she likely had experienced much of both directly and indirectly in her past. She also lets me pick her up while just sitting there letting me. No trying to get away or wiggle, which if I had experienced would have halted me from continuing further.
And little by little her magickal self has begun to be less and less hidden, but more apparent, not to mention her similarities to my dear Nestor are starting to reveal themselves more. Astrid (or Astie as I lovingly call her) definitely feels like a very close comrade to Nestie – and when I say that I mean in the Cosmic sense beyond this realm and shared missions, not just as rabbit.
I’m sure I’ll learn more about the connection and her story in general, as things evolve. Right now, I’m letting it happen organically and naturally, rather than even inquiring.
She definitely does things by the beat of her own drum and in her own timing, which will not be dictated by anyone or anything, except her. Although, will continue to mirror me.
I also just received a cute, new bunny house and bed I purchased for her to make her space and realm special and magickal. I haven’t put them together yet, but will share them and hopefully some cute photos of her with them when I do.
And, like with all of my loves – Nestor, Joy, Cosmo, and Gaia, I immediately put out intention of drawing in the perfect carved bunny stone that matched her essence and would also be of her energy. I always get a small carved stone/crystal rabbit or tortoise to represent each of them. The reason I do so is multi-purpose in serving as stand-ins for them when I do energy work, Reiki Healing Attunements, or sacred ceremony of any sort so they can join me (I like tangible along with etheric energies present), to bring with me when I travel (especially when I’ve been to sacred spots and vortexes across the globe to do healing work), to carry with me if I want a physical sense of them where ever I go, and to be with me when their physical presence is actually gone, as well as to sit on my night stand by my head as I dream at night.
Anyway, I was led to a lovely Snowflake Obsidian rabbit carving that not only looks like her form, but really feels energetically aligned for her as well.
This stone is good for balancing of body, mind, and spirit during changes, is calming and soothing, supports transformation in general, purification, manifestation, fulfillment, psychic abilities, teaches the value of mistakes and successes, is a stone of purity, helps release stressful mental patterns, promotes calmness, inner centering and focus during any chaotic situations, helps remove and cleanse harmful energies and keeps you rooted as a protective and grounding stone, is good for healing and releasing energy blockages by bringing truths to surface (this is due to its volcanic origin that draws things out), and supports past life work and healing of old karmic patterns. It connects to the Root Chakra and to the sign of Virgo, which synchronously Astrid is by birthday. I didn’t know of the stone’s connection to Virgo until after it arrived home.
I just love this rabbit carving.
Astrid seemed pleased when I presented it to her, as I like them to enchant the stones with their energy, which she did.
So more and more I am seeing how she loves crystals, too, and has an affinity to working with them. In many ways I feel that I will be supporting her sense of safety to bring out her “already” gifts, rather than teaching her things. Not to say I won’t help her with processes, but my sense is she knows how to do a lot of energy work and magick on her own, will help remind me of my own gifts, and be a conduit for me to connect with the other realms, as well as to access the unknown magick within for working greater alchemy.
Just this past Tuesday she also revealed some other cool stuff. I had a phone call with my best guy friend that day whom I’ve known for years and lifetimes. We had several years of separation and going different ways, but had reconnected the last year and have picked up again in a new and beautiful way.
I was sitting on the floor while talking to him on the phone and was sharing about Astrid and how she came to me, her journey so far, and our connection. Astrid was under the bed, but she knew I was talking about her and felt the energy of the conversation and who I was talking to – recognizing our connection.
She normally doesn’t come out from under the bed, as this is her nap and personal integration time of the day, but out she came, wiggling her way to me with a lot of energy and curiosity. She came to me, nosed me, got on her hind legs and stretched her front paws up on my thigh and reached head up toward me/the phone. She stayed doing this and circling around on my left side to let me know she knew and to let me know of her telepathic powers and acknowledgment of my friend Mykal and our connection.
I immediately told Mykal about this and got chills because it reminded me of Nestor and how she was my personal gauge of people.
If Nestor liked someone she would go to them when they entered her or my space and let them pet her. If she didn’t like someone she would not come out, act up, or even pee on them (she did this to an ex-boyfriend of mine both when he held her and when I took her overnight to his place – peeing in several corners of his home). This peeing behavior was not normal because she was very good at cleanliness and going in her litter box. It was deliberate in saying she did not approve.
But the first time Mykal came over to meet Nestor and see my place, the second I opened the door to him Nestor ran to the door to greet him. I instantly knew she knew him and the connection between us all. She did this to another dear soul from a past Egyptian experience as well, whom she and I were both connected to.
Interestingly, Joy did this once too, nipping an ex of mine when he came to visit after I’d been challenged in leaving him. That was confirmation.
And now, Astrid was doing the same through the energy of the phone call with Mykal.
Mykal and I both were heart warmed by her doing this. And as soon as I acknowledged her she then went back under the bed. She simply wanted me to know of her magickal powers, telepathic abilities, soul recognition, and how I can be sure she’ll help me to know of energies that come into our space and what and who aligns or not.
My powerful little guardian and magick worker.
And speaking of magick, yesterday evening as I was connecting with her and gently petting her head and back I saw something very enchanting.
Each time my hand did a full swoop from her third eye, crown, and then the rest of the length down her spine and chakra column, I saw a thick gold filament of energy appear in her auric field after finishing to the end of her root chakra. It kept showing up each time my hand completed traveling through her chakras.
Alchemy is at work between us and this incredible Cosmic magician in rabbit form is making herself known to me with each day of trust and love that passes.
More chills as I write this.
How deeply honored and blessed I feel that she chose me. I am committed to helping to bring her magick to the world in the way she has come to share it.
How grateful I am to Marcy of SaveABunny and Zephyr who led me to her.
And how grateful I am that I can SEE her and so much more that I once didn’t understand fully when my journey first began with my rabbit companions.
I mentioned before how a lot of people have said how Astrid’s hair and my own match in color and that we look like we were meant to be together.
I also had two people tell me “she looks like you!” Both meaning in it more than a physical way, they explained.
Well, this Thursday I saw my hair stylist to get a freshening up on my own Cosmic hair that I had done before Astrid came into my life (unknowingly), and she asked me about my rabbit, as she knows my whole story and how connected I am with them and knew I would be adopting one soon (although at the time she was told about Zephyr).
She asked to see a photo of Astrid and immediately said, “oh my gosh, she looks like you!” She said she didn’t mean it to be about her hair although was similar too, but that if she could imagine me with a rabbit, Astrid was it – she was my reflection.
I got more chills of acknowledgment and feelings of myself having crossed a threshold just like Astrid. Each of my bunny loves have mirrored my journey and aspects of me. And as I’ve continued to step more and more into my essence, alignment is being revealed directly.
The new journey has been ignited and she and I are bonded in heart, spirit, body, and mind.
At just over two weeks, Astrid continues to adjust and settle in to her new home here with us. The journey continues to be one of patience, tuning in, and gauging where she’s at and what she’s ready for. As mentioned, although she is not physically challenged like Cosmo was, she is still quite challenged with special needs that call for an internal massaging of her emotions, conditioned behaviors, and adopted patterns that have been cultivated by her past. It is a tough journey, as any time I see things pop up I can feel where it is coming from, which is saddening, and the only way through it is to love her even more, not take it personally, and help to re-establish new patterns that support her into her more natural essence behind all of this.
Time, heart, and intuitive investment is necessary to help her through it all. And it may take months, a year….I don’t know. It could also happen more quickly, but I have no expectations or goals to meet, other than to do my best. I remember that it took 6 months to bond Joy and Cosmo, but it DID happen. And a daily investment of love, nurturing, and physical devotion also helped Cosmo to get stronger as well.
At the same time, Astrid is naturally an extremely sensitive empath, as well as highly attuned to energy and the frequencies she picks up all around her, seen and unseen.
Last night I watched these two moths resting on the outside of the window right above her sanctuary area of our bedroom. She was sitting under the window and facing toward me, however it was incredible to see how she could pick up the vibrations of their wings through the thick glass and outside in the dark – it was dimly lit inside the house too. One moth started to slowly move from one spot to another on the window, gently fluttering its wings and I watched, as one of Astrid’s ears slowly started following the flow of its flight pattern by moving in the same direction as the moth.
Vibrational resonance is her gift, but can also be her challenge, as she will mirror and take on whatever is around her.
That said, she also is blessed with an incredible strength and power that has seen her through it all and helped her to endure the pains and traumas, as well as supported her to thrive, and ultimately, to manifest a way out of what could have been her end many times.
I took Astrid in for her first wellness appointment on Monday to establish getting a handle on her physical health, since there are many unseens with rabbits.
It’s important to keep on top of your animal companion’s health, especially where rabbits are concerned because many things go unnoticed with them and if caught early can help avoid major challenges later. It’s also key to be very present and aware with them, noticing any little shifts in behavior, eating, and eliminating. Often times challenges are due to teeth issues so make sure to get them checked regularly.
But in general, check in and learn to understand and communicate with your sweet ones, as you will learn so much and create a stronger bond for overall well being and spiritual evolution and connection. They have so much to teach and so much they want to help us with, just as much as we can help them to also come into their fullness.
Astrid came away from her appointment with flying colors. The sweet, gentle, and incredibly knowledgable vet – I just love her and all of my bunnies have at one time or another been to her – said she was in wonderful health, perfect, healthy weight for her at 6 pounds 12 ounces, and in general she said I’d chosen well.
I feel that was a mutual thing however, and in this case since Astrid was a surprise, I feel this was Cosmically written in the stars for us and she’d chosen me for reasons I have yet to see.
The vet is exceptional at seeing and understanding the needs of rabbits and made note of very tiny points on her right bottom teeth that we’ll just want to keep an eye on. She has no problems, nor may this ever become a problem, but for precaution we will have her rechecked in 3 months instead of the normal 6 months to ensure nothing starts developing. Being proactive is important where bunny teeth are concerned. Likely she’ll wear them down on her own with continued good eating, but I like knowing that my vet is on top of things, as Astrid’s health and well being is my priority as her mom and guardian.
And good eating involves feeding them the right things that are healthiest for their sensitive digestive systems and healthy for strong teeth and helping to keep these always-growing-teeth naturally filed down.
I only give my sweet ones the very best. If it’s something I wouldn’t eat then they don’t get it either.
So that includes a variety of organic greens (cilantro, parsley, dandelion greens, carrot tops, spring mix, small amounts of kale, etc.) and small bites of fruit like strawberry or apple now and then and bits of carrot, the healthiest 2nd cut timothy hay, timothy pellets (in small measured quantity – 1 -2 tablespoons tops), drops of goji juice in their water, herbal blends of superfoods for general health and immune support (an echinacea blend and a calendula, chamomile, dandelion leaf, dandelion root, elder flower, flaxseed powder, goldenrod, hawthorn leaf, hibiscus flower, lavender, milk thistle powder, nettle, oat groats, green oat tops, plantain, raspberry leaf, red clover flower, rosehips, rose petals, strawberry leaf vita-licious blend I give her), and small (because you don’t want to overdue the sugar) natural, untreated pine cones (like these pictured with Astrid below) coated in healthy botanicals that support their natural foraging instincts.
I also provide a variety of chewy balls and twists of natural things like meadow, maize, willow and even mini logs/bits of tree to work those teeth and feel like they’re out in the fields and forests.
Here you see Astrid enjoying her cherry hibiscus pine cone (you can actually see her tongue out licking her lips in the photo below). There’s also a blueberry parsley pine cone as well.
She’s so good at grazing and not inhaling her food all at once like my other bunnies would. They’d be crazed when I brought stuff out and it would be gone quickly.
Astrid is much more calm about food and takes her time, but still loves her food. This pine cone she just nibbles on each day… So I don’t need to worry about her over doing things.
It makes me happy I can provide her with good things to make up for never having a forever home and all the past torment, pain, and grief I know she’s seen and experienced.
I will continue to work with her to help her through her challenges, while also listening to what she has to share through them about herself and for me too.
She has already given me a big piece of wisdom, which I shared at the end of my last blog post, but I know this will only continue to increase the more time we spend together.
I have loved seeing her relax into things here and watching her enjoying her freedom as she runs and jumps around like crazy.
On her good days she runs to me when I come near to say hi and nudge me with her nose. She’ll follow me and there are little to no grunts or attacks that take place.
But that doesn’t mean that is gone, as with everything, it’s all a process and while she has great days and moments, she’ll have the past creep up unexpectedly. Any little shift can result in a shift in her as well, which then takes time to rebalance again.
She also is very sensitive to too much energy around and will mostly stay in the second bedroom or under the bed there if there is too much going on, like having guests over. Then the second they leave she comes out.
She can’t take having too much all at once and definitely needs to be introduced to energies and other people slowly, as well as one at a time. Otherwise, her fight mode kicks in high gear. One reason why she’s so good at keeping the cats at bay, even if they are just being curious. Her attack mode is nothing to play around with!
She’s quite the guardian bunny.
But she truly thrives in and needs a peace filled environment and to be approached with utter purity of heart to help engage her to meet that with hers.
She is a special one and has also been helping me to work through more emotions around my bunny loves that have been cropping up since her arrival, including around Zephyr/Big Sur and my convictions around my path.
I love how we mirror each other and once again she shows me that the alchemy of togetherness with my rabbit familiars is more potent than me alone.
Astrid has been settling in while mom continues to make her feel comfy, loved, and surrounded in bunny magick fitting of this Faery bunny. She’s a powerful girl, whose power I have yet to fully know, but also has Earthly challenges I’ll be continuing to assist her with, as she helps me too. I’ve received so many sweet messages from everyone about Astrid, including how beautiful she is and how her power just jumps through the photos I share in huge ways – in some cases feeling struck by her energy with a “wow” effect. I’ve also really enjoyed the reflections of so many saying that she and I look alike and how our hair matches, all of which reiterate to me that she was meant to be here and indeed is my familiar. Thank you to everyone for your loving thoughts and messages.
I will continue to update you on her and our journey, which is the purpose of this post to share some photos of how she is adjusting to her new surroundings. I still have some sweet and magickal things on their way, which I ordered for her.
I want Astrid to feel like the Queen that she is and to know she is loved, safe, and recognized for the enchanted and cosmic soul she embodies. I love creating a Faery bunny realm for her and since our kitty babies have basically the whole house (you know cats), it’s nice to know she has her little sanctuary that is her own.
In the meantime, I continue to patiently work with her to help her day-by-day to move through the past that has created the fight mode she has. I will continue to tune in to get more of her story and background as to why she is so easily startled by everything, feels threatened and defensive, and what happened to create that attack mode.
Some of it I sense already in the scary things she’s experienced and seen happen to animals around her in one of the horrible shelters she was held in – Solona County Animal Care. I feel she holds pain and grief, as a healer/sensitive, for what the others went through and that weren’t as lucky as she was. She developed defense mechanisms and her power, magickal energy, strength, and bravery fought her way through things that others weren’t so lucky to get away from or knew how to cope with.
It pains me greatly to feel all the horrible things that she and the others have been through. I’m so grateful and lucky she was removed from there and got away from all of it, including where she originally came from and what was in store for her, as some of the way she is also is from how she was raised and what she was raised for.
But of course, some of this “sensitivity” is also about her healing abilities and gifts in being such a mirror and reflection to our own vibrations and making us aware of being present and acknowledging of our shadow aspects – she isn’t a dark colored bunny for no reason. 😉
It also served her in weeding out potential adopters because no one could “see” past her behavior initially and really “see” her. Nor did anyone want to take the time to work with her and understand the magick and power beneath it all, just waiting to be supported and recognized.
What a patient girl she was waiting nearly 2 1/2 years for that alignment to happen. I’m so grateful she chose me and that Marcy at SaveABunny had the intuition to connect us, feeling we would be perfect for each other and a good match.
We are definitely equals and so I’m devoted to assist her with the Earthly stuff she went through so that she can purely focus on shining her amazingness.
She goes through ups and downs, has spent a lot of time processing and integrating the journey to get here and her new home, has breakthroughs then set backs….but it’s part of the process of which I’m VERY aware of.
I just keep loving her through it and both giving her the space she needs, but also helping her to rise above things by not letting her push me away. I know that we must meet as equals in our power and this will assist the alchemy for her healing. So I rise to the occasion too.
She got a visit from her grandma and grandpa on Sunday – my mom and dad – which didn’t go so well and it was an off day for her, which increased into her worst day so far and kept her hiding in our second bedroom all day and night and in super attack mode. I’m glad she got to meet them and know she has an extended family here full of love for her, but also learned that she really needs extreme easing into everything and too much new, energies, and people can be compounding for her…so we’ll take things slower and not introduce her to too much all at once.
Luckily, with the love and patience provided, she came out and has had two really good days since with a complete turn around. So I think she really is learning to process and with the communication I share with her, she really understands and is trying her best to move through with my encouragement.
I just love seeing her relaxed and enjoying herself, displaying pure joy when she races around from room to room with exuberant energy and jumps and twists in the air doing her binkies, which says to me she’s one happy, grateful bunny and is loving her freedom and all the nurturing. (I do spoil her with only the best in bunny food, supplies, and healthy yums – can do a separate post on the goodness she receives). It warms my heart.
I will not give up on her, as I have never done so with any of my babies. It took me six months to bond Joy and Cosmo, but boy was that ever worth the patience and work to help Joy through her own defenses she had, as they then became inseparable and soulmates. The best thing that ever happened to both of them. And I never gave up on Cosmo with his condition either, nor did I force Nestor out of her independent mode. I learned what they each needed and desired to be who they really are and supported that.
I’ll continue doing so with Astrid and fully believe that together we can achieve anything. I’m grateful that she chose me and grateful for Zephyr and Marcy who connected us and made our partnership and bond possible. I know we are both in for a lot of surprises along the way and a lot of adventures yet to have together. For now we take each day as it comes and I’ll continue showering her with the love she deserves so that she knows she has a forever, safe, and nurturing home that she can blossom in and where we can cultivate a new journey together.