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Ask Astrid Fridays ~ The Rabbit’s Corner: Surprises That Change Your Life in Wondrous Ways


You’ve all experienced the element of surprise – the moments that take you off-guard or provide quite the shock to your life. These jolts can take the form of unwelcome and shattering surprises, sweet and exciting ones, and a whole gamut in between. In any of these cases, surprises herald shifts in your feelings and experiences that act like defining moments in your life that provide opportunity and greater possibility.

Today’s message from Astrid is about learning to find greater peace with surprise and to know that while sometimes these surprises feel painful or challenging, they can also be eye-opening, nurturing, and reflections of you being ready for so much more.

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Being that tomorrow marks the official day four years ago that I adopted Cosmo, our special needs bunny extraordinaire, Astrid is inviting him into today’s message because she knows that like her appearance in my life, he was a huge surprise to me, too. One that brought along more than I knew anything about at the time, but became the defining moment of life shifts, heart healing, and greater essence embodiment for me.

Surprises can jolt you into greater recognition of who you are.

And while some surprises you may want to fight, challenge, or feel defeated and crushed by, each provides you the opportunity to drop into more presence of the moment and see where you’ve been invited to rise to the occasion of you.

Something simple like a surprise gift, a smile, a “thank you,” or an “I love you” might drop you into the opportunity to receive, feel how special you are, flip a switch on your current emotional state, or to open and give more freely.

Something much larger like a surprise injury, illness, a move, a break-up, loss of a job, stress, or having to say “goodbye” to someone or something might drop you into slowing down, nurturing yourself more, making adjustments that are more enriching for you, realizing how much there is to be grateful for, creating more balance, aligning you with better opportunities and fulfillment, is speaking to your having more strength and resiliency than you think, and is inviting you to step out in bigger ways, as you have more now to support and inspire others with while you expand and evolve through the experience.

Yes, surprises can be jolting in what you define as good and not-so-good ways, but ultimately the Universe or All That Is doesn’t judge them as either. They are simply the next part of the web you are stretching out to weave.

There was once a time that the continual, not-so-fun surprises used to hit my life and I’d wonder what the heck I was doing so wrong to have them take place. Even injuries used to initially be a downer and questioning of my efforts gone in vain.

But I learned quickly this was no way to approach things if I actually wanted the peace and joy I desired. It would only put me in a downward spiral, creating greater difficulty and effort to rise out of.

And along came Cosmo.

He had every bit of his bunny joy cut away when an injury at his foster home left him unable to walk. He became a “down” bunny, unable to run, binky, jump, fully clean himself, or even get to his cecotropes on his own. He endured daily pain from his spinal injury and growing arthritis.

And yet his demeanor remained unconditionally loving, compassionate, and joyful. Everything was sweetness to him and he never hesitated to show you his love.

Although I’d learned that these “surprises” in life were not my fault or something to punish myself about, or to get angry and defeated by, it wasn’t until Cosmo came along that I truly learned how to embody these ideas, as his example and presence in my life revealed his consistent and constant embodiment of rising to the occasion.

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“He knew the way to your heart,” Astrid says. “Only he could make the lasting impression that would linger with you forever and make the next needed shifts. And so your worlds collided because you both were ready. Even though you’d never cared for a special needs child, he knew your heart would find the way because of the love you both shared. Although all of us – the rabbits in your life – have been children to you, he was truly your baby, sharing a bond of mother and child in every sense of that relationship. And yet, he was also your teacher to help you into the next chapter.”

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“He was definitely a huge surprise to me on so many levels. The circumstances bringing us together were highly unusual and came out of no where. Not to mention, at a time when so much was changing and unknown – when I didn’t even think I’d be around much longer. I didn’t even know the full circumstances of what his condition was and what would be involved to care for him. He just pushed open the door I left a crack open to in my heart and everything flooded in. I was constantly surprised how much deeper my heart grew, how bonded we became so fast, and how much joy every aspect of caring for his special needs brought to me. While I cared for him, I know I was caring for myself. He was the little broken parts of the inner child me and all of the pains I’d carried over the years and lives, now come to be seen as whole and perfect, as I saw him whole and perfect. We didn’t have anything to heal. We needed only to love. Love erased any wrongs and was the valuable residue that would always remain long after,” I answer. “Life suddenly became sweeter and consistently seen only through love.”

“Surprises come in many forms and bring along with them a string of gifts and potentials when you move with them rather than against them,” Astrid adds. “Just like your most recent injury.”

“Yes, I’ve not once been upset over my knee and it’s interesting how immediately through that moving with it, as you said, I noticed my body surrendering into what it wanted with ease. Resting, slowing down, refocusing, making changes – it all just flowed and seems seamless,” I answer. “And interestingly, my leg has been undergoing rapid healing. I was completely embracing of it potentially taking months, but things have been shifting so fast.”

“You didn’t fight the surprise, nor judge it. When you live life with greater presence and experience it as a whole – not one aspect being better or worse, but simply pieces of purpose and promise – things move quickly. You become conscious of the gifts sooner and even humor finds a sweet spot within the experience. Some thing may be harder to grasp in such a way, but each smaller surprise, and some of the larger ones you’ve already moved through, will help act as reminders. You don’t always get to see what might have been, had these surprises not happened. Sometimes they are detours to something you might deem far worse. Sometimes they are detours to something incredible you can’t imagine yet. Sometimes they’re simply growing pains. And still, perhaps they needn’t be any of these. Could not surprises be revealing an opportunity to experience something simply different or new? Could not surprises swing you back and forth through contrasting experiences to help you to release the idea of an ideal. That maybe, just maybe, surprises are calculated perfection within all that is naturally in harmony,” Astrid concludes.

Ask Astrid Friday’s ~ The Rabbit’s Corner: Yield in the Face of Change


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Ever since our Amethyst babies have returned home, the energy has been shaking up and redirecting here. Not in a new direction, per say, but into alignment with what I’d been sensing. The Universe, or All That Is, likes to reiterate things in reflection and with the types of astrological placements I have, much of the time my messages come in clear through an injury or fracture. This took place today.

I slipped on some ice, even after being told twice by Dave to be careful of it AND being cautious. My heel just hit the perfect angle sending me out of balance and falling in a way that overextended my knee. And this leaves me either with a strain or tear to my MCL. At least not a bone fracture, as my usual M.O., but ligament injuries are no fun thing and it will take time to heal.

And where does that leave me?

Only able to focus on my writing again. Go figure!

It was no surprise by me and it just seems that the Universe, or Uni, as I like to call IT has my back and knows me well – that to get into alignment with the momentum needed, there would need to be something put into place.

I’ve also sensed a lot of energy out there and my desire not to engage in it. There may be a part of that in this too, but also reflecting how I’m really ready to move forward with new momentum.

And, just like Astrid went through her little experience of moving energy through her solar plexus recently, I am moving energy through my knee – the place of flexibility, movement, and considered where we assimilate knowledge and learning on a spiritual and energetic level (think kneeling and praying – even being knighted back in the day). When you take into account that knees can also represent fears and humility, it makes a lot of sense.

It’s interesting that Astrid has changed her position of where she lays the last few days for her daytime naps. Normally she’s enjoyed being under the sleigh at center of our room or under the low meditation table in the exercise room adjacent to ours.

But I’ve found her now in the top level of her castle tower and with her body curved in positions where her bunny butt hangs out the window on one side or her legs do.

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She seems to say with this that the peace in our hearts can keep us anchored and safe, even when we stretch parts of ourselves through unknown doorways.

That it’s about moving forward with a new approach to change, which is basically the unknown.

“You know, the unknown you’ve felt around your book,” she adds.

She likes to cut to the chase.

“Yes, you’re absolutely right,” I reply. “And you know that I’ve said I was going to get back to it full time after my birthday even though I’ve felt some fear around it.”

“Yes, and I’ve seen you clearing the slate and making room for it,” she says. “You’ve been feeling the tug at your heart for a few weeks now, while being presented with life options, and we’ve been waiting to see what you’d choose.”

She’s right. I have been feeling it in the background very profoundly and started getting the sense to jump full on in again, which is why on Monday I’d announced that Monday and Wednesday’s blogs would likely go dormant while I switch back gears to writing full time.

“Yes, and you know how powerful your words and feelings are. You then created the scenario to ensure it!” she says with a wink.

“I did indeed, because now I will need to rest my knee and lay low, which will keep me where I feel I want and need to be. It also ensures I listen to the messages so as not to create anything really terrible. I think the wind and storm, and now the knee, all point to new directions and their timeliness I’ve felt in my soul. Funny that I also was heading into a new form of painting with my side creative time to accompany writing, which all keeps me able to sit or lay on the bed while doing them.”

“You do follow your feelings well,” she says. “There are times you may feel vulnerable or even unsure about something, but you have never been one to resist the winds of change. That’s why you braved those 80 mile an hour winds without hesitation and stepped into them with determination to retrieve your things. Your knee is not a punishment or bad thing, but simply a reset and an opportunity to surrender even more and open to yet wider, even more flexible possibilities you have yet to imagine with your writing. Anything that feels overwhelming can be embraced through humility. I know that the next phase will likely be your hardest one yet with the book, but the wisdom of your knee is to yield in the face of change. Something I know you can do well, my friend. Remember where you’ve been and how far you’ve come. Now repeat that process. The parts and players may be different, but the game is still the same.” she says.

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I wonder if any of you are approaching similar resets in your life that seem both exciting and overwhelming?

Do Astrid’s words touch a chord?

Ask Astrid Fridays ~ The Rabbit’s Corner: Cracking the Code


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Well, just when you thought things couldn’t get any better, they sure do. You might recall this blog post from April of last year, Full Circle ~ Amethyst Rabbit Returns where I chronicled how the rabbit ears and another smaller piece of the giant Amethyst geode I once had, returned to me and Astrid. I mentioned in that post, how the Amethyst had split in several pieces, but it wasn’t until just this week (right as the Super Full Moon was in full illumination) that those other pieces were ready to move on again.

Astrid had called them in then and now she has done it again.

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My dear friend, Yasmin, of The Sun Moon & Stars NY messaged me about all of the pieces ready to be with new guardians and since that day we’ve been engaging in a flurry of messages and astounding unfoldings with not only this Amethyst giant, but a Lemurian Seed Crystal giant – master crystals like no other.

I had told her if the pieces wanted to release, to please let me know, as I felt strongly that some would want to return. And that they did – in fact three large pieces have come home. That leaves me with five – my favorite, magick, and Nestor connected number.

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She kept three large pieces for herself, and the rest were put out to the universe to draw in the perfect guardians to co-create with next.

It’s going to be impossible to share the depth of meaning around all of this, but Astrid does have things to impart for now to help us grasp what is happening.

Let me just back track for a brief summary about this Amethyst.

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It came to me after I’d lost my twin soul in rabbit body, Nestor. I didn’t actually see that it was in the shape of a rabbit until it set foot into my home. When I first purchased it from a dear friend and crystal guardian at the Tucson Gem Show (I’d purchased many from him) we had seen it as a Gnome, not a rabbit. And I literally cracked open and bawled when I discovered it was in fact a rabbit – only seeing this once it was in my energy zone in Tahoe and with me, my tortoise Gaia, and new rabbit soulmate Joy.

It has always been a portal, timelink, and guide in our lives – a way for us to connect with Nestor and for me and my animal companions to have access to the beyond.

We parted ways when my life had reached the depths of beyond in full detachment of everything. When I released all I thought myself to be, I opened to knowing something far greater. This is where the journey began anew.

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Since, I, and friends of mine have continued to report exploding crystals spontaneously taking place. A lot of transformations too. It’s no wonder why my blog post, When Crystals Have “Accidents” – What Does It Mean? is one of my two top blog posts of all times with 182 comments from people everywhere sharing and asking about their crystals falling, breaking, changing…before their eyes.

While there will definitely be direct personal reflections for these intimate experiences, I am being told it’s a collective phenomena and that the crystalline matrix is transforming along with us.

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But beyond this, I clearly got loud and clear from Astrid, the bunnies, and Gaia today when the giant Lemurian Seed Crystal Master started exploding too, that it reflects our “cracking a code.”

These giants have decided it’s time for more to be part of the matrix of these codes, and therefore called, or are getting ready to call in, co-creators to assist.

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I just received my three pieces of the Amethyst yesterday (just in time to activate some things for my upcoming birthday next week), along with a large jar of individual little points and mini clusters) and it was a beautiful homecoming – we have yet to unravel the work we’ll be doing, but upon their arrival I laid them out on the center rug to my shared room with Astrid, near the Master Tahoe Quartz she loves and works with, so she could have time to herself while we left for dinner, to connect with them.

I know she’s called them in and I’m looking forward to what more she will reveal beyond what she shares today.

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The same day, two other people connected to me and the bunnies also received their pieces of the Amethyst.

I found it quite fascinating that four people deeply connected to me were all called to bring a piece home – including two of my Reiki students, a coaching client, and my own Reiki Master Teacher, Laura – but in essence, and above all else, all dear friends and all having worked together in “past” lives with the crystal matrix for collective good.

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Some of the pieces that made it to their new home with Kat

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A piece I helped procure and is home with Laura

Then there were those friends and clients of Yasmin’s as well, and so a collective grid across this continent has been anchored, taking pieces of the Amethyst to where they are needed.

It was also very interesting that the same night all of these pieces of the Amethyst rabbit found new homes, Yasmin messaged me in shock telling me about the rabbit she was seeing in the Super Full Moon for the first time. I found that quite telling that after she embraced surrendering to assisting the rabbit energy to get where it needed to go, she then had her awareness shifted in “seeing” the rabbit that has always been there.

As Yasmin and I talked, we discovered all the vast locations they were going off to and even how she’d be taking a piece to a Costa Rica retreat she was going to, as an offering to our Earth Mother. Synchronously, I was supposed to be in Costa Rica next month, but the trip dates with family got changed, making it so that we couldn’t go. It seems Yasmin and I traded places.

It’s things like this that demonstrate the connections we have and how we are doing work together with soul family.

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I wondered to myself yesterday if the Giant Lemurian Seed Crystal would be releasing more, as only a few smaller pieces had released around the base that did also move on at the same time. Yet, none of them had called to me. Not much after that, Yasmin shared how a shard literally exploded and a point cracked in two, and then today it further dismantled and a large full point released, with more on the way. You can imagine how this has been deeply emotional for her, just as it was and always is when crystals have moved on from me – bitter sweet indeed. We both feel that a part of the Lemurian will remain with her, some larger points will come to me, and the rest will move on to others.

Each one of us all going through huge transformations in our lives, again, just as I know and am hearing/seeing about from so, so many others of you out there.

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So, what the heck is it all about?

I’d like to preface that this morning Astrid was amped up. She was running back and forth, up and down the stairs. She wanted to connect with me a lot, and she had a lot of energy to move. She was anxious. This, all after having had time with the Amethyst babies last night and this morning to herself.

I told her I’d be back to receive her message, needing some nature time to ground.

She was waiting for me, wide awake, when normally she’d be resting. I said hi and had to leave to go get lunch ready, but told her we’d start her blog once I was done.

She was then waiting for me under my desk when I returned, fully alert.

I snuggled her a bit, as she chattered her teeth in delight, and then put my third eye to hers to receive.

We journeyed in light speed down a dark cosmic tunnel with specks of light gliding by and revolving all around us. It was very intense…so much so that she pulled away.

I knew it was time. That was the channel she created for me to receive.

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I began and she nudged my foot and ankle with her nose, then went off to lay inside her dark castle tunnel to send me what was needed.

I keep seeing images of the Cosmos and stars moving in warp speed, or perhaps it is me traveling as such through them. Explosions, cosmic flames, and almost electric nebulae all around morphing like wombs birthing stars.

Astrid is ready.

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“When you heard ‘cracking a code’ this was meant in a literal way. The One  – these Crystal Masters represent – have been awaiting like time capsules. Embodied as you once saw them with much to share as was. Yet, like much of what has been seeded here on Earth, each thing you see is much more than what they appear. And also will be far more than you think even if less than your mind originally perceives. Every spiral of the cycle will bring forward more. It’s never-ending, and yet you reach a pinnacle of the spiral where a wider experience is made possible. There has been a large impact of late, fusing together the key to the next spiral. Many are ‘cracking the codes’ and this has unlocked the puzzle pieces to be accessed and revealed further. This could not have happened until enough were ready. And so it is that many more than you think, are. And so it is that things are in fact shifting under your nose, even though I hear many of you unsure, unaware, or thinking it still is yet so far. No, it’s here. It’s now,” she sends me. “Go ahead. Yes, share the word you heard.”

“Okay. Identity,” I reply.

“Yes, you heard right when that came. Identity. Please share its definition so I might point out some things,” she adds.

“According to Merriam-Webster:
1a: the distinguishing character or personality of an individual : INDIVIDUALITY
b: the relation established by psychological identification

2the condition of being the same with something described or asserted

3asameness of essential or generic character in different instances
  bsameness in all that constitutes the objective reality of a thing : ONENESS
4an equation that is satisfied for all values of the symbols

5: IDENTITY ELEMENT: 
an element (such as 0 in the set of all integers under addition or 1 in the set of positive integers under multiplication) that leaves any element of the set to which it belongs unchanged when combined with it by a specified operation

I think I can feel where you’re going with this.”

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“Through the search of identity – a very important part of what you call the journey – you have never left the One. Each piece of these Crystal Giants, although have left their origin, never relinquish it either. Every piece, every you, are part of the greater Whole. And yet, you are each the Whole. This you know already. So much you journey away, to, here, and there, in discovery…and rightfully with yearning to understand. But the journey has also been an illusion. Just as distinctions or connections are used to evade truths. In uncovering the individual identity, you have seen the grace of All That Is. Truths have been seeded within the crystal matrix – this is some of what you’ve learned to be things like record-keepers and other names you call the identities within each crystal. The same truths seeded within each of you. This has opened doors with what appears like the disintegration of these crystalline beings, and yet the truths they hold will always remain even when you no longer see them before you. You are disintegrating the concepts into truths. You are emerging into truths, as the shells that have held you bound, crack open. You feel it’s a journey, but it’s an acceleration of uniting once again and this acts like spontaneous combustion. When rapid essence occurs, it can no longer be contained and accelerates into something untouchable, yet extraordinarily impactful,” she adds.

“I see. So could it be that each of these crystal beings reflects a whole universe of identity returned to essence?” I ask.

“Or identity AS essence,” she answers. “There truly is no search needed and no journey to embark upon. This you are uncovering and piecing together, as the pieces of the puzzle fall apart. As the crystals explode, and “crack” apart. The codes within them are the same within you. While the pieces grow smaller, it is simply the proximity to your combustion that has accelerated. And by this I do not mean you, too, need “explode,” but rather, truly shine,” she ends.

“It’s a lot to take in, Astrid. I feel your words as codes themselves. Thank you. I know you plan for us to continue this decoding together. And that these crystal beings spread out all over, will continue both revealing and reflecting the transmutation at hand.”

I’ll leave you with this.

I just “randomly” found this video from one of my favorites, M83, called Lower Your Eyelids to Die with the Sun because not only does it have similar visions I was seeing, but the music truly embodies the essence of this message today.

Whimsical Wednesdays ~ The Artist’s Corner: If You Don’t See What You’d Like in the World, Create it Yourself


We’re creative beings by default, regardless of whether you feel you have a creative bone in you or not. We all have creative potential to not only express through the creative forces at the root of our being, but to actively co-partner in remaking our shared world and collective experience. We each embody a unique expression of All That Is and are a part of the life cycles of birth and death transmuting into new forms over and over, just like the life and death of a star.

When we find ourselves unhappy or unsatisfied with what we see and experience around us in the outer world, we can look within at ways we can tap into our creative power to start reshaping the inner world of our experience. In this way, we start to experience shifts in domino-effect that have far-reaching benefit.

If you wish to see something “out there” try creating it “in here.”

This can be in larger ways like desiring to experience more compassion in the world, so you commit to walking in compassion as much as you can on a daily basis, starting with having compassion for yourself.

Or, it can be in smaller ways, like wishing you could find that perfect item that you envision, but no one carries, so you make it yourself.

In each case, and all of the myriad of other examples and possibilities in between these, you are using your creative energy to create something. You are taking initiative and action by harnessing the creative forces within you to find ways to bring about/birth from the impetus of an idea, inspiration, strong desire, or dream.

And this makes you powerful.

Yes, you are powerful.

You are co-creating life and the type of experience of life you want to have, regardless of what is out there or not.

I actively engage in both types of “creating,” choosing to be more of the things I want to experience in the world and creating little bits of magick my imagination and heart desire.

The latter is what I did recently with two little rabbit Faery gardens I created for me and Astrid.

And in doing so, not only did I create something I wanted, but wasn’t out there (at least that I knew of), but the energy carried within each creation has twofold reach in not only making my heart happy and creating sweet energy for Astrid and me, but in creating these mini worlds, I’m creating a space of potential – like a timeline or portal – that acts like creative visualization for manifestation. They help to draw in layers of meaning, possibilities, and integration into the “now” experience.

This is the new creation I just made yesterday for our Wonderland room.

It’s called Royal Cosmic Wedding: Union of Inner Harmony.

Just the title likely gives you a hint at the energy embodied here, speaking about that marriage of wholeness within the divine perfection that we already are. And if there is any imbalance or turmoil within these parts of ourselves, it unifies them in harmony and understanding.

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It’s created atop a vintage white porcelain castle planter and is currently the centerpiece to our room sitting on the highest platform of Astrid’s butterfly sleigh that she sleeps under.

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To further help you understand the symbolism within it, here is what I included in the creation:

There’s a black AND a white bunny, a unicorn, a bunny in a swing at top center, two bunnies holding the Faery Queen’s white gown, a crown I found and glued atop her head, puffy white cattail on the reeds that double as nature and stars, a green dragonfly on one of them, and there’s a little book on a silver plaque holder that says “Once upon a time” with words beginning a story and an image of a castle on it. All of the figures sit atop gold sparkly stepping stones like gold coins that light and support the way.

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It and Once Upon A Time: The Rabbit Faery Queen are the two mini themed magick rabbit worlds I decided to create and keep for Astrid and me.

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Bringing art and love together, to me is “creating life as a work of art” – my personal motto.

Art, to me, is a manifestation of love.

When we create something from ourselves, no matter what it is, it is an extension of the love within us expressing creatively and that reaches out to another’s heart, bringing us together.

Everyone’s creativity, because it comes from the source of harmonious love, has value.

And in exploring, discovering, and bringing forth our creative energy, we are celebrating the hidden gift of being alive.

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Note: Although I cannot create another of the Royal Cosmic Wedding: Union of Inner Harmony, due to the one-of-a-kind vintage castle planter, I did make a second of Once Upon A Time: The Rabbit Faery Queen for our Etsy shop, The Magick Rabbit, that sold. I can make more of that one if someone’s interested.

I’ll be sharing 3 new mini rabbit Faery gardens either this or next week – the last ones I’m making, as I’ll be focusing on new creations for the shop to share over the next weeks and months.

More mini rabbit Faery gardens can be found here, along with the original magick rabbit paintings, prints, greeting cards, and journals: 

https://www.etsy.com/shop/TheMagickRabbit

Ask Astrid Fridays ~ The Rabbit’s Corner: In Opening Wider, We Remembered


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Astrid’s back after a busy week internally and externally for us both to share more about what took place during and after channeling last Friday’s message in her blog, Spiraling Through the Next Door. She’s had time since Friday to sit with everything and although won’t be able to share the depth of it all, will try her best to share what she can. And I’ll do my best to help her voice it here for you.

Something you likely have noticed, like us, is how things manifest instantly and some of the exact words and phrases in her last post did just that on Friday.

A storm was in fact preparing to hit and last through the weekend, just as Astrid spoke about how things might feel “relentless with one storm after another hitting” … “out of the blue.”

(I have to pause, as Astrid is vigorously chewing on cardboard right now, which is a sign she is moving energy again.)

She also spoke about the unique energies she has that can also “create road blocks, as a means of forging massive reminders and breakthroughs when she unwraps their gifts” and then a blockage of energy manifested in her body physically within seconds of sharing this.

She went on to say you might not “understand why they aren’t moving, or moving as fast as you’d like” and demonstrated that evening how she was able to move through the physical challenge and the energy that was manifesting as such, within just a few hours. Something that for bunnies isn’t always the case, as they can have difficulty when it comes to their digestive systems.

I prefaced all of that before we delve in a bit, to put it all in context.

As you might then recall, she went on to share how there are things under the surface that run the show and may be locked within the recesses of your deepest emotions placed there by a collective and likely unconscious belief system and that she carries a whole bloodline of rabbit history running through her and patterns of prey-like mentality within her DNA. So she, too, experiences triggers and has diligently worked on reversing this for not only herself, but for the rabbit collective and their relationship with humans.

We each have our own stuff and when the pain hits, there is potential to forget or lose sight of the bigger picture.

Well, while channeling this on Friday, Astrid went through an immediate physical manifestation of what she was speaking about, which I feel was threefold in 1) immediately reflecting pieces she was working on releasing at the time 2) reflecting to me how connected we (she and I) are as I have been working on things alongside her, and 3) was reflecting things for the collective and anyone who might be following along and experiencing your own version of this.

She went from bouncing bunny to slowing down and coming to lay right behind me while I was channeling her message. She literally was directly behind my chair on the carpet and started to become agitated, uncomfortable, and fidgety. I heard and watched her move every 30 seconds or so from position to another, while her face became pained, her eyes lost their spark, and her breathing labored as well as quickened. She would then contort her body and press her stomach to the ground with butt and legs pushing upward. And reposition again.

She was not her happy self and I could feel the pain inside she was going through.

I felt her temperature drop, as I pet her, with her ears getting cold, and so I covered her with her blanket and laid next to her, giving her Reiki and massaging her lower body to help move things. She let me touch her in ways she normally wouldn’t approve of, which indicated she not only felt relief from it, but knew and accepted my help.

Of course I talked with her the whole time and talked her through things. Let her know I understood and that she was not alone.

After a while I felt I she wanted me to finish her message to help with this, as it was nearly complete, so I did so within minutes, but didn’t send it off, as I felt energetically it wasn’t the time.

I then went back to her and continued with caring for her on all levels.

Although I knew this was energetically created, the physical manifestation is not one to play around with, especially with bunnies. Things only have one way to move through them, as they don’t purge through the mouth as we and other animals do. They are much like horses in this way and in fact share a lot in terms of the physical and even in their prey instincts, as well as sensitivities.

Digestive things are serious stuff and can be fatal. And although I felt it was likely a gas block she was experiencing, even that has fatal consequences if not taken care of, or the bunny isn’t able to move it through.

So, I did call her vet, who is a wonderful rabbit doctor, to get advice.

She was in an appointment, but did call me back and talked to me, like she has in the past. She’s such a great doctor and soul.

I’d already gotten out the Metacam I keep on hand for emergencies. The doctor walked me through feeling for things on Astrid and telling me things to do to assist her if it is in fact gas – one of which is to keep her moving – and things to do and not to do if it was a different kind of obstruction, which included not force feeding her. (Astrid didn’t want any food during this time.)

That makes sense if you think about it, as when you have pain, you want to curl up in a ball, right? But pain as such is a blockage, so it makes sense to keep movement going in all ways possible because energy innately does that – it moves. So if there is a block, that means there’s something not allowing it the natural release and flow it would otherwise have.

This indicated to me that Astrid had found a deep core challenge and had brought it to the surface, now manifesting. And she then had a choice of how to handle it. It was triggering her with pain to make her aware of what she was dealing with, but now she could either resist letting it go or breathe into that pain, acknowledge it, but let it move out as no longer necessary to be running the show anymore.

And in my Reiki and energetic work I was doing with her, I visualized that movement and gentle release with her, while massaging and helping to move things since it was painful for her. But her readjustments indicated she was also wanting to move it out. She wasn’t going to just lay there idle. She was bravely facing this and I would support that courage.

Anyway, the vet explained it either was gas or a blockage, which might be worse as in a hairball or something ingested that was having difficulty leaving. And unfortunately, this took place at 5pm and the her office closes at 5:30pm, as well as is an hour away.

There was a lot of snow with more coming and she’d already checked a few other places she knew of to help that were all closed as well.

My only options were to manage things myself and/or if things progressed worse, to drive to UC Davis where the best doctors and surgeons are, which is 3 hours away – more with the snow.

The weather and timing was making it so that she and I would have to work through these energies together and on our own. Both a scary, but empowering thing, if we took that challenge.

And it appears we/she set it up as so, since all things were creating a bubble around us to only be able to focus together and inward to work through it.

Of course, I’d jump in that car without hesitation if I felt she needed me to and drive through any storm and any amount of driving time for her. I’d also give anything, including myself, to support her and stated that when working with our support guides. She is, after all, an extension of me, my best friend, and soul companion. There’s nothing more important than love.

But, after feeling her abdomen and tuning in, I felt it was likely gas and not an obstruction of physical nature.

It was hard to give her Metacam, as she is very sensitive with being touched around her mouth, jaw, and sides of her face. She struggled and grunted, and smacked it away, and went to hide in her castle tunnel. So I couldn’t do it alone.

Dave had been out, but when I called to ask for help, he made his way home to do so.

In the meantime, after laying with Astrid for some time and Reiki massaging her, I decided to pick her up and lay her close to my heart.

I held her that way for at least a half hour, close to me, while I continued to do Reiki massage, kiss and snuggle her, and we breathed together as one. I helped her envision things moving through her gently and easily and that there was no longer a need for that energy to be a part of us – yes I said “us” as we’re connected and I was going to release my own stuff right along with her. She was not going to do this alone. I would be brave like her and do it too.

I could feel her soften in my arms, her face becoming more alert, and she opened to this process of receiving and working together to move out what we both no longer needed to have working behind the scenes, even if it wasn’t just our stuff. That collective stuff in our DNA patterns and subconscious was important work to do and as a team we could do far more efficiently.

I could feel her energy shift and already sensed things were turning around.

Dave arrived home and came down to see us. He also felt her abdomen and concluded what I had that it felt like gas. I then had him help with the Metacam, as I held her lovingly and told her he was here to help. She accepted it and I continued holding her a few more minutes, then let her down.

She, of course, gave out a huge thump.

It wasn’t more than minutes that she ran off to the other room. The most she’d moved since it started.

I decided to test placing her pellets in front of her (which she loves) and she took one, indicating she was feeling better, but knew to take it slow, as well as to indicate to me things were shifting.

I decided to let her be for a little bit and went up to get dinner ready, checking on her in between.

She continued moving around the other room and headed back into our shared room, where she began to eat again normally on her own.

After a couple of hours she’d eaten everything, including some apple sauce I’d put out next to her regular food dish, in case she preferred something softer and soothing.

She eventually ate them both 🙂

And she continued well after that – the whole thing lasting about 3 hours – and was back to racing around and binkies in the morning!

Meanwhile, upon her indicating to me, I’d sent off her Friday message at one of the intervals of my caring for her, as she felt it would assist things to make it complete and put it out there. So, I did, and heard from others how her post had been helpful and timely for them.

We’re hoping this one will be too.

The solar plexus, where Astrid was having the energy block in the form of gas, deals with your personal power, where you do and don’t have boundaries, how you take responsibility for your life and/or take back control or power if given away, how beliefs create patterns in beneficial or challenged ways, confidence levels, emotional manifestations around beliefs, patterns, conditioning, judgments, that may be yours or taken on because of your extreme sensitivities that are flowing or creating charged blocks….etc.

So, it all made sense physically, what was going on emotionally, mentally, and spiritually.

This is why I treat holistically, as you still have something physical happening that needs attention, as a result of other things working behind the scenes.

And with a sensitive bunny, even as strong and brave as Astrid is, that body is set up as more fragile and complex, needing a level of attention that simply asks that you can’t brush aside things. You must deal with it now – not later. A great message, in general, I feel.

Another reason that rabbits aren’t ideal as solely a child’s companion, besides the fact that they can run up vet bills when going through things that need immediate attention.

Just food for thought.

But back to Astrid, I couldn’t be more proud of her and how she moved through this piece of her work with courage of the heart and willingness to face it for her and the rabbit collective.

Astrid has wanted me to recount this in today’s share to impart different levels of messages as you read it, that you’ll be able to find bits of value from where they touch a place within.

Our work will continue, but we’ll be doing it together. The timing was so synchronized with what I had also just started working on for the collective and family stuff deep in my own DNA, that it’s more than beautiful to experience how close Astrid and I have become in such a short time.

We really are breathing in life together as one and everything we do is shared, as well as instantly manifests when we decide to take it on.

Astrid also knew she wanted to help me with a lot of the things we were preparing with our new Etsy shop creations and that releasing our stuff before the week of focus on that, would allow us to be clear and flowing for the joy of all of it – also freeing up space and energy so that we can do things less tethered by a hidden weight behind the scenes.

Will this be the only challenge she/we will face?

Of course not, but it demonstrated that the more we embrace the journey and desire to move through it, the more gently we can weather the storm and find the way within us to move into greater peace, however the result manifests for the highest good.

So, I’ll let Astrid share anything she wants directly now, although all of this is the experience, as she and I both went through it.

“Thank you dear friend and life partner. I am at loss on how to express my gratitude, but I know you can feel it since we have become as one – something I believed could be possible with another soul, but until now had no hint of it being in sight to take place this Earth cycle. Everything you shared was as it was. I was scared to go there and how it might affect my body, but also scared for how it might affect you given your history with the souls in rabbit bodies we both know and love, as well as how it might affect my rabbit family if I had not gone there. And yet, you demonstrated equally, your bravery, but more so the enormous amount of love within you. And I sense there is movement out there taking place in ways we both can’t see yet, but is evident in the way this “went down,” as I know humans say. It’s true, it pained me greatly what was coming up. I felt the enormous weight pulse through my body and then hit an invisible, but impenetrable wall. The wall, of course, did not exist except for the pain that veiled it as so. I remembered things you’ve said recently about the existence of such things not making any sense to be running the show. And having felt the same, and both of our frustrations, I just couldn’t let that pain sit there. You knew this and stayed right there with me. I read your thoughts that you would not have left my side all night and however much I needed you. I made a decision that I could open wider my heart, as you were, despite the anguish you’ve been through with your rabbit loves and past, and allow myself to receive from you – a soul in human body – what you purely had to share, rather than allow my rabbit instincts to fear what has come through other humans who simply have had pain of their own they’ve not understood. In that moment of opening the channels of receiving, I know that I was giving to you as well, and we both were transforming a little piece of that human/rabbit/animal relating. This additionally opened a passageway within that invisible wall to release and the flow began to return, and balance was slowly restoring. It may not make sense or appear as of yet out “there,” but in that moment you and I were one….we remembered, as it has always been….but we forgot.”

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Ask Astrid Fridays ~ The Rabbit’s Corner: Spiraling Through the Next Door


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Today’s message from Astrid is a bit delayed, as it felt to be something that needed time to percolate and is deeper than even the two of us can express in words. So, instead of my usual morning blog time, Astrid encouraged me to go skiing while she felt into things and I cleared my head while getting some exercise before the next storm hits later today through the weekend.

And that’s just what Astrid seems to be picking up on and wanting to share about…..how your journey may at times seem relentless with one storm after another hitting, either in cycles or out of the blue.

She knows how things can seem hopeless or like you’re running in circles sometimes (and not the fun zipping around in binky-infused circles that rabbits do), but a lot of this can be compounded by the fact that you may be attached to ideas about how things “should” look or you give up just before the breakthrough.

And then there are things to be aware of that may be running the show, like what natal energies and propulsion you were born with – in essence the gifts of this life’s expression.

This is where the journey becomes very individual, as while we share collective themes, each person has their own deck of cards they’ve been dealt in terms of expressions chosen to experience, genetics running through your veins and DNA, and deep-seeded belief systems that have followed your family history – both birth family and collective family.

It can get tricky and sticky when focused on repatterning and breaking forth to blaze a new trail.

And while doing so, you will likely lose sight of the journey because the goal or the pain becomes the focus.

Astrid feels like although this isn’t a new message, it is one so many continue to struggle with and so she wants to come at it from as many angles as possible to assist the process.

Some things just feel really hard and almost like you can’t get a handle on them or understand why they aren’t moving, or moving as fast as you’d like.

These are the core challenges that run the show and ask of us to look so much further than mentalizing, or shuffling things around on the surface.

Once again, you will find the most challenging pieces to be locked within the recesses of your deepest emotions, placed there by a belief system you may only have recently become aware of running the show.

Astrid carries the same within her. Although she has made leaps and bounds, and is much more than who she appears to be, she knows that a whole bloodline of rabbit history is running through her bunny veins and patterns of prey-like mentality is deeply rooted in her DNA.

So, although she is breaking free of much of the triggers she experienced since birth in this life, she has devoted her life to transforming the collective rabbit experience and especially their relationship with humans.

She tells me that, like me, she has a unique set of energies that will aid this process, but that also create road blocks, as a means of forging massive reminders and breakthroughs when she unwraps their gifts.

Astrid gives me a wink, as I put two-and-two together.

I’m beginning to see where she’s going with this, as I’ve recently been very focused on one of my own natal placements that runs a lot of the show for me – in essence is a missing link.

The energies of having Mars in my First House is enough to handle, but having so much Capricorn energy there and accompanying it has been an interesting journey.

One energy wants at it, and the other would like to restrict it.

It boils down to action with purpose, as the productive use of it.

Sounds simple, and yet, you can imagine there would be a whole gamut of pendulum swings in one way or another, to get there.

Not to mention, having Mars in the First House as a woman, let alone a woman in my family, is simply a whole other thing.

I haven’t had any role model for what this looks like and so I have had a lifelong journey to figure it out, which includes unraveling what’s at the heart of restrictions before even being able to utilize it and thrive, as it’s set up to be.

“You and I are so much alike,” Astrid shares. “We both innately have a lot of energy within us to express, but through our sensitivities and paths, we both lived very restrictively because life, our families, the world…haven’t been ready yet. We learned to survive before we could know how to thrive. It is like this for so many. Collective shifts are just that….collective. We can do our parts, but we mustn’t be too hard on ourselves, as we do not act alone. Every piece is a thread of the whole tapestry and while we may appear to be painstakingly working on one little area of it for ages, it is undoubtedly weaving the full image together. Yet, we need the other threads. Some of them belong to others, and some of them are the interwoven parts of our own thread. It really is a masterpiece when you look at it this way, but feels like the stuff you throw out in the litter box when you’re in the middle of it.”

“That it does,” I reply with a giggle. “And is why I have worked at creating peace and greater joy around all aspects of my life, as best I can, so that the pieces that might take longer and involve deeper exploring, do not get the best of me.”

“I’ve noticed how you do that and how each time you’ve spiraled back around to get at another layer, you create a new version and path to greater assist the process. It may seem like you run circles, but you’re actually on a different level of the spiral with each new invention,” Astrid adds.

“I hadn’t thought about that, but now that you say it, I can see exactly what you’ve described. It does seem that with each piece I understand more, I find a better approach…”

“Or more currently aligned place,” Astrid interjects.

“Yes, you’re right,” I answer.

“The process seems to be that you try out different doors each time, but only if you have the right key can one open. And if the guardian of the door knows you’re coming and what you’re about to use to attempt opening it, they will find a stronger lock to keep it shut. So, by trying different versions, or going about it at different angles – softening here, innovating there…you can be in more harmony with them and find doors open more easily,” Astrid adds.

“We’re creative beings after all, so it seems part of our time here seems to be about imagining all the different possibilities and potentials, being curious, and finding the alchemy of each puzzle,” I say.

“Exactly my thoughts, dear friend,” Astrid says, “And this is why you and I are so good together. We are birds of a feather, as they say. Always exploring what has yet to be discovered and although it might hurt when a door closes, we brush ourselves off and try the next.”

~ Today has been full and so I was only able to sit for moments here and there to write this message. After several hours away from it I’m returning to end it here and send as is since we want the message to go out. Astrid and I are moving through something right now that came up before I was able to finish this post of hers. I’ll update you with things in the days to come. Her words and message have had deep impact.

Monday Musings ~ The Writer’s Corner: Resistance Versus Alignment


It’s easy to get down on yourself if you aren’t producing at the rate you would like to be, or find other things in life “getting in the way” of your passions. This can go for any project or intent/goal/dream you may have, but for purposes of this post and today’s weekly series’ theme, let’s just focus on writing and I’ll share a bit about my own process and discoveries around delay and resistance versus trust and alignment.

There have been huge spurts of momentum when it comes to my book and then there have been large lulls where it seems nothing is happening – I’ve been in one of those for a while.

I’m one to keep check on myself, as I know how easy it can be to find excuses, self-sabotage, procrastinate, or even hide behind spiritual ideas as reasoning to not go about doing something.

I’ve been ingenious with it in the past, so I don’t let myself get away with it in the present.

So, when I check in with myself I ask myself how I feel about my book and writing.

When I think about it does it bring up joy or fear, do I feel resistance somewhere in my body, does it give me anxiety, or make me excited?

I will touch in now and then to stay on top of having clarity with my feelings, as that’s how I’ll know if I’m avoiding something or simply riding and flowing with the current energetic streams – something I would call “being in alignment.”

The key here is that you need to be honest with yourself.

And then I’ll look at the things going on in my life and how they are affecting me.

Do they feel to have their own flow and natural cycle? Or are they making me feel angry, resentful, or even compounding some of the emotions and feelings I’ve uncovered – in essence triggering me to pay attention to them?

If the latter is where you find yourself, then it may in fact be that there is some kind of resistance or avoidance going on, or that there are feelings you haven’t dealt with that if uncovered, acknowledged, and allowed them space, could help release the blocks and free up more space.

But not all things that come up in your life is about finding ways to run away from something.

It’s true that “to everything there is a season.”

Sometimes the work doesn’t happen on the visual and physical plane, but takes place in the background and percolates while your attention is drawn elsewhere to allow that natural process to take place.

Sometimes what you are writing needs to go through its own transformation – or you as a writer need to as well – and that might entail you moving through something in order to come at it from a different and more expansive perspective, or perhaps the collective is going through something that will make what you’re writing be more timely.

I have found this to be accurate for me during the process of writing my current book.

It isn’t happening overnight, but when it does happen, it happens very fast.

There have been different reasons for each lull spanning from at one time avoiding it (in came fracturing my foot to ensure I couldn’t), to needing to anchor in other things in my life to create harmony for the process, to needing to deepen into my creative process and expand my understanding, to needing time for research and letting go, to clarifying my purpose with the writing, to needing to step away from it in order to come at it with completely fresh heart, mind, and eyes, and to awaiting things to shift on a bigger picture level.

Sometimes there are things that can help your writing process that are beneficial to allow in, despite your ideas around what you think you should be doing instead.

For example, if I didn’t allow for the creative spurt of art and other artsy expressions right now to come through that have been a temporary focus, then I would be keeping myself away from experiencing greater inspiration, imaginative flow, and freshness with my writing. I would limit what could be more expansive when I return to it, not to mention, I’d be resisting the kind of joy it is bringing me and would miss out on that experience.

The same goes for getting out in nature. If I forced myself to stick only to writing, I’d lose the greater well-being and nurturing being outside can provide me that will support more excitement and energy with my writing. Plus, moving helps move energy on all levels and frees up blocks, just like creative expression can do.

If we remain stringent with the process, I believe we hinder our writing.

Life is about balance and writing is too.

It’s true that creative genius has come through what some might call “mad” writers and artists. Yet, that process doesn’t always bode well for the rest of their lives or even how long they live.

I believe it’s valuable to find your balance and to know yourself in the process.

So checking in with how you’re feeling and what’s really at the core of why you are doing or not doing something is key. Be curious as to how your process is helping or hindering.

Writing is definitely a journey and it’s a very honest, vulnerable, and transparent one. I believe the more honest you are with yourself, the more honest the story woven through your words will be.

So, now, when I find myself frustrated I’m not making headway, I have found that this is simply a conversation between me and myself to take up, as the resistance isn’t there, and alignment is showing itself to be in flow. This means I have a belief or idea around progress or achievement that I need to reconcile within myself and let go, relax, and surrender even more to the process and journey.

Do you go through similar experiences with your writing or passions?

What do you do if you find yourself resisting?

Remember to be gentle and loving around your curiosity, as the inner you will feel more comfortable revealing her or his truth, if she or he doesn’t feel threatened.

Let yourself know you have your back and only want to love yourself more into expressing the truth of who you are through your writing and passions.

 

 

Ask Astrid Fridays ~ The Rabbit’s Corner: Your Higher Heart Can Free You


As we celebrate this first day of February, many things come to mind for this month of “LOVE” ignited by today’s celebration of the magickal Imbolc (the halfway mark between Winter Solstice and Spring Equinox) and a very magickal soul’s birthday. For any of you new here to my blog, Nestor is my twin soul in rabbit body who departed this Earth plane 11 years ago. Today is her Earth birthday – she would have been 16.

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I always honor and celebrate Nestor and Astrid shares this deep respect for her, as her mentor. The two of them are very similar in many ways – more so than any of my bunnies have been in relation to each other.

In fact, Nestor has seen to it that others of our soul family (like Astrid, Joy, Cosmo, and Gaia) have found their way to me and me to them. She constantly watches over and guides me, cares for my human self when she feels me in need, sends me messages and signs, supports me with my path and life’s work, and fuels my heart with greater and deeper love – much like Astrid does on Earth for me.

And where there is love, there is no separation.

Astrid wants today’s message to be about moving into our hearts more deeply, but also more expansively. She senses that while many are experiencing great openings in their lives, she feels those of you who still struggle and are finding yourself feeling trapped in a dark place you feel you can’t get out of, which may in fact reflect a tipping point opportunity.

She wants me to share a short story about what happened this morning and then will share why this was important and how it reflects her message for today.

I was busy cleaning up her bunny kingdom today and had left the usually closed bathroom door, slightly ajar after having gone in to get some paper towels to wipe down her litter box.

After I was done, and passed it to go get her fresh water and goji juice for her bowl, I closed the door fully. I returned not seeing her and went on a search to find her throughout the house, calling her name and looking under every one of her hiding places or potential unseen areas by the naked eye that she might have run off to.

She was nowhere to be found and I was a bit frantic, wondering if she’d fallen through a portal or something. 🙂

Finally, after surveying both floors three times, I wondered if she might have gotten deep into my closet and I closed the door on her by accident – nope.

Lastly, I thought, hmmm, could she have snuck by me and gotten into the bathroom in that short period it was slightly open and I closed the door on her?

The latter was in fact the case.

As I reached for the old vintage door knob and opened it, I saw her sitting on top of the toilet seat staring at me. She had in fact been closed into the dark bathroom and decided if she couldn’t get out the way she came in, she’d get higher, sit still, and hope I’d hear her heart in answer to my calls of her name.

“So what does this have to do with your message for today, Astrid?” I ask.

She replies, “This was my way of identifying with the people who find themselves struggling and feeling trapped in a dark place they can’t find a way out of. It happens to all of us and to struggle more is like sinking deeper into quicksand. It simply won’t help. These are the times to find your center, sit still while immersed in the dark, and elevate into your higher heart so that you can send and receive the clearest communication of love to where it’s needed the most, within and and without.”

“What do you mean?” I ask.

“Well, when you feel lost, lonely, in pain, and are struggling, much of this involves a separation from love – the most expansive and unconditional kind. The gap grows wider between your ability to understand things because you enter the mind’s reasoning alone and abandon the heart’s knowing. While I sat in the dark I could feel all of that fear and anxiety – mine and the collective’s rush through me – and realized I could either go mad trying to claw my way a tunnel through impossible doors, OR I could elevate my heart and mind and open to a wider perspective that would free me. I could move into my higher heart and find the well of love there I could use to create the peace I needed for myself and the situation, while I calmed myself and used that clarity of heart to speak to you in the language of love telepathy that I knew would reach your heart,” Astrid explains.

“Wow! Well said, Astrid. It makes perfect sense to me.”

“Yes, and when you were stressed today about unexpected things,” she continues, “you didn’t realize how you did the same.”

“Oh, you’re right! After that initial rush of anxiety, I did what elevates me into my heart the most and thought of this being Nestor’s birthday, and looked at you and cuddled with you for a bit. That brought me back to my peace and center, nurtured my truth, and my heart suddenly bridged a new perspective to my mind that shifted me out of the stress instantly and enabled me to detach completely,” I reply.

“Exactly,” Astrid answers.

“I guess we both found our way through the darkness and each other today,” I said.

“Through love,” Astrid replies. “An elevated kind of love, which is where we are headed. Just like you shared yesterday about your new teal hair feeling to reflect the higher heart. That is no coincidence my dear friend.”

I smile.

“As you said, where there is love there is no separation. We only feel lost, alone, scared, angry, or sad, because we have yet to BE this love. Love has been intellectualized and analyzed, with only short spurts of actually residing in it – if in fact we haven’t denied or repressed it altogether. Yet, we often live outside of it and only venture into its home in dire circumstances, by accident, or as a fleeting moment. We’ve forgotten that we were never homeless and we’ve forgotten how rich we are in the only currency that we can take with us beyond Earth – LOVE,” Astrid concludes.

I had a feeling that this morning’s experience with Astrid getting locked in the bathroom was no arbitrary thing once I saw her sitting there so purposefully, like a wise soul, atop the toilet seat throne.

Her message feels important to me and perhaps it will to you too on a level that is needed at this time. I feel she is speaking to us moving beyond what we think we’ve known as love into a much more expansive, bigger picture, and harmonic experience of love – very fitting for the first day of the month of love.

It’s no wonder that this little rose quartz tree sitting atop an amethyst mound was the only thing I returned back from Sedona with. I visited Crystal Magic and was only drawn to the beautiful crystal trees, and when I couldn’t decide between about four of them, I tuned into Astrid and asked which she would like me to bring home for her and me.

The answer was clear, as you can below.

Rose quartz is the stone of the heart and unconditional love. Amethyst is February’s stone and is spiritually elevating in ways that transmute energies into higher frequencies of love.

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Rabbits are reflections of growth, rebirth, awareness, harmony, abundance, creativity, fertility, vulnerability, and Mother Earth’s changing seasons and rabbits (especially white rabbits) are traditionally symbolic of Imbolc, Candlemas, and Spring. They really help us leap into the energies available to us this new month, as shared in Lee’s Energy Update below that synchronously holds a similar vibe to Astrid’s message.

Astrid, Nestor and all of my rabbit soul companions have been powerful way-showers of these energies, and most importantly of love for me. Cosmo, as you may remember, was and is the epitome of this steadfast love Astrid speaks of. And all of my bunny partners help me to return there when needed.

Nestor was always a great reflector for me of what I was missing and needed to take care of within myself. And she continues to be a daily reminder in my heart, keeping me on track and not straying from my own need for consistent inner harmony. Thank you Nestor and Astrid for today’s insight and lesson.

I wish you all an extra love-filled February and to end this share here’s Lee Harris to expound on this month’s themes he is feeling for the continuation of this new 7-year cycle of elevation we’re in – “The Era of Higher Harmonics, Elevated Love & Abundance Shifts.”

Update: Today marked the end of our Giveaway on Instagram celebrating the upcoming launch of our new Etsy shop. We announced the recipient and surprised four others with a gift too. We’re so grateful to everyone who joined and for helping to raise money for rescue rabbits, as for each entry I committed to donating $1 to a rabbit rescue of my choice. February is starting off full of LOVE!

Whimsical Wednesdays ~ The Artist’s Corner: The Art of Living


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From the red rocks of Sedona to the white wonderland of Tahoe, I sit here surrounded by winter blankets of snow swathing the Forest Portal of our home.

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We arrived back Monday evening, still vibrating in the energy of the Full Moon Lunar Eclipse – also a Super Blood Wolf Moon – and I’m just now fully integrating back in time for today’s Whimsical Wednesdays share from the Artist’s Corner.

We were away between Friday 1/11 and Monday 1/21, enjoying quite a full vacation and igniting of the new for 2019. Since we were driving, we decided on a stop-over in Las Vegas the first night to break up the drive – only exploring out for delicious comfort vegan food at The Modern Vegan for both dinner and early brunch, but the rest of our time was spent in the magick of Sedona’s high vibes.

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We spent several days on our own anchoring in the energies, as Sedona welcomed us back, and then the rest of the time was with dear friends who all journeyed there from both the Grand Canyon and Tahoe to reunite.

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I also had the chance to connect with two sweet friends that live in the area, we set intentions and sent out prayers from the Peace Garden two separate mornings, and of course we sampled all the great vegan eats and some new finds!

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Every day was filled with tons of outdoor fun and exercise that tallied up to 60+ trail miles we ventured on foot and bike in 8 days – although I only went mountain biking once and Dave went three times making his mileage come to 74.

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We thought it would be fun to see just how much adventure our feet take us on. 🙂

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Unlike past blogs, I won’t be recounting our entire trip, but instead will be focusing on how Sedona was actually the birthing of my art and the “art of living” for me.

If you’d like to see a full photo journaling of the adventure, you can find all the beauty and adventure at my Instagram page here, even if you’re not on Instagram:

TaniaMarieArtist – (If you see two overlapping white squares in the right hand corner of a photo it means there are several photos to each post. You can click on them and then click the arrows to venture through)

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It was interesting that our friends asked me about my time in Sedona, having me recount the evolution of my experiences with her energy since the beginning.

Although I now experience flow, joy, and tons of nature immersion, it wasn’t that way at start. Her powerful vortexes asked of me to dig deep, purge, cleanse, heal, and strip away everything I knew how to on a daily intensive that lasted for nearly two years. My journeys then were journeys into the inner sanctum of my heart and I only ventured out on small occasion to walk or drive somewhere where I could meditate, anchor in the work I’d done, set intentions, and receive insight for what was next. Other than that, I had no contact with anyone and in fact, had made a clean break from the life I had before.

I can share more another time, but it was very intense and hard work.

It also opened the door to my artistic journey I’m on now.

Although I drew nearly all of my life up until that moment, for joy and only once for actual pay, it wasn’t until I started uncovering layers within myself that I decided to purchase some oil paints, canvas, and start truly painting for the very first time in my life while on this inner journey living in Sedona.

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It didn’t happen right away, but the more I released and healed, the more I felt the call to express myself on canvas.

The first painting I created was for my parents – it was an oil painting of Venice they have in their living room today – an image I replicated from their travels there. I just jumped right in, as if I’d been painting all of my life, but in actuality I was simply moving the energy that I had released from within that echoed of my lives on this earth and the artist within me that had always been there.

Upon completion of this painting, I then created some symbolic paintings that seemed to echo not only the healing and insights I’d received, but the messages of empowerment and transformation that were taking place.

I also created a few charcoal pencil portraits of my grandparents and others.

In essence I was tapping into the well of creative energy as a form of communicating what was within me and channeling through me, while also adding layers of healing that aided the work I was doing – giving myself therapy on every level imaginable and with every tool available that I knew of and was learning along the way.

My art became a form of self expression, much as this Super Full Moon in Leo has beckoned forth from us all – to shine like the light that you are and to birth new creative things from the power within that you embody innately.

It was in Sedona when this creative birthing took place, that I knew art or creative expression was an important part of who I am and what I needed as the breath of life to bring through.

And since, I’ve continued to channel creativity, as it flows through me in its many forms of expression that shift as I do.

It is also then that I realized life could be lived as a form of art and how the “art of living” started to manifest as my way of life – everything seen as a way to create beauty and inspiration, as well as to paint my way through experiences and weave the story I wanted to tell with different strokes of colors and feelings that reflected my essence.

From then on, even though I would still have more layers to journey through, I lived much more presently and with intention.

Sedona helped bring me back to the core of who I am and it was up to me how I wanted to paint the rest of my journey from the heart.

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So while my first encounter with Sedona was intense, there has always been a love affair with her energies, knowing she supported exactly what I needed. Since that time, every trip thereafter has been softer and more joyous, flowing, and activating, igniting major shifts and leaps at just the precisely aligned moments.

I was always a willing partner to her dance, but I’m no longer struggling to keep up.

Creativity continues to ooze from each encounter with her and greater inspiration comes forth, providing me choices and new possibilities.

This trip was no exception, as I found myself not only receiving inspiration on the new, fun images I’ll be creating next, but also found myself dancing with yet another potential timeline I hadn’t entertained before.

I didn’t know until the trip was approaching that we’d be there for this powerful Full Moon Eclipse.

Perhaps many of you also felt its potency and like something has shifted and/or released. It seems as though things are moving forward and receiving a green light, after a thoughtful pause for a bit.

I shared this with a dear friend about my experience with it:

The eclipse was a powerful experience, although gentle too. We actually had opportunity to watch half of it with an astronomer and telescope, which was very cool to see it so clear and close. It was very clear in the evening and then a thin veil of clouds emerged, which made it symbolic, to me. It did not affect viewing, but I could tell there was still a very thin veil – so as if those layers are very close to full reveal collectively soon. The astronomer had about 4 telescopes set up and we could see star clusters as well, like the Pleiades. We left to go back to our Airbnb home because we had to pack and leave very early the next day for the long drive home, so I watched the second half there. The house was perfectly situated with the moon right in front of the main sliding door and windows and patio, so I watched the whole thing. It was very moving because at the same time I got word that a favorite bunny of mine (that I’ve followed on Instagram for a while) had passed right as the eclipse was darkening. I saw that he’d become ill earlier that day and I had a feeling something might happen. It was very potent to say the least, and being that he reminds me of my male bunny, Cosmo, because they had the same exact special needs and the same unconditionally loving demeanor and expressions, it hit me hard. It was quite something that this bunny, Flynn, had chosen such a powerful portal just like my bunnies Cosmo and Joy had, to depart – one on Samhain and the other on Summer Solstice Full Moon. It wasn’t random and it just clicked in a bunch of things, as well as felt like a big shift. Very heart opening and moving. So, it did ignite some memories, but also a seed of new. A lot through the bunnies, but deeper levels. I’m not sure as of yet what the new entails, but that it is a seedling awaiting choices that can ignite new timelines.

Something very profound hit me while watching the eclipse, which I haven’t felt in the past with other ones. It was special and sacred to come through rabbits, whom I hold most dear and reflective for me and my life. They, too, symbolize creative abundance and fertile impetus for the new. The Moon, of course, has a large rabbit on it. 😉

I received a big hit to my heart and core of what is a must for me to do right now.

The rest is a story yet to unfold, but will do so as I support this creative expression to live as the art of me – my creative contribution to the new beauty we’re weaving together as a collective.

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New Etsy Shop Update:

Originally there was intention to start a Giveaway this past Monday 1/21, but with travels and such things shifted and Astrid has chosen this Friday 1/25 to begin the Giveaway instead. This will take place on Instagram.

There’s potential of things shifting with the shop launch date, which is set for Friday 2/1, but for now it’s still that date. I will be checking in with Astrid and my other star bunnies, as the days unfold here. I have a lot to prepare for the launch, and two items have been delayed until the 8th or sooner due to an office move my printer is undergoing.

I always trust my rabbit familiars with their impeccable and keen navigation, so I’ll defer to them if they want us to go ahead and launch on 2/1 with most of the items, adding the two later that first week of February. (Laura mentioned that the Lunar New Year is not until the 5th and the 8th the Moon enters Aries, so who knows what the bunnies have up their thumpers!)

Or, if we’ll just launch everything together when I know they will all be ready.

Either way, it’s coming up very soon and I have lots to prepare. So I’m off!

It was a wonderful trip away and I’m also happy to be back. I hope you all had a great week and that the energy of this Full Moon Eclipse has ignited a creative transformation within you too.

January 2019 Energy Update with Lee Harris ~ Happy New Beginnings Year of Elevation


For those of you who also love Lee’s Energy Updates, I thought I’d do an extra post just for today, as we close at the year, to share his insights for our upcoming 2019. Lee calls this year a fresh start for many of us – a year of beginnings starting a new 7 year cycle of elevation.

It’s a time to harness what is within you now and show up like never before by tending to and nurturing your needs, and slowing down.

Lee says, “Don’t put yourself off this year.”

“The dream energy that you have in your heart is a dream for the planet,” he adds.

I couldn’t agree more and have shared this message Lee expresses, which is why I am at this place along my journey that I am now.

Wishing everyone a restorative January and a New Year of expansive potential.

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