We enjoyed a beautiful mountain biking trail two days ago that started at Bell and Courthouse Rock, as we were entering the New Moon Solar Eclipse in Pisces. And for me that was a gateway to really embracing and honoring the power of fear and what it has to teach me. Perfect for Pisces being about the unconscious so working through fears would be highlighted.
I’ve danced with fear many times and will continue to with new experiences, as fear is simply an energy like all other emotions, feelings, and states of being that moves through us.
The beauty is that we can see fear, or any other feeling, as our friend rather than the enemy. We can see fear as a gateway to something on the other side that we might choose to experience.
For me that is freedom, since when we get stuck in fear rather than allowing it to flow, we can become inhibited. So, when I embrace fear and let it move through me, I am then experiencing freedom.
But to some the other side of the gateway may be courage, confidence, independence…etc. To me they all fit under an umbrella of freedom.
Both being of value and equal since they are parts of the whole.
Fear has the ability of helping us to become very present and within the moment. It helps us to sense all that is within us and around us so that we can then harness the energy and transmute it into what we then want to experience next.
I don’t judge fear, just as I don’t judge ego, or any other emotion some may label as good or bad. They just are.
They all have a purpose and a power otherwise they wouldn’t be available to us to experience.
Sure we can choose which we want to feel, but at some point we learn that we can oscillate between experiences naturally and know that we are always safe once we understand our processes and learn to utilize the power of each element to create a desired outcome.
If one chooses to experience fear there is a purpose and that is perfect. It is when we get stuck that we know we’re not allowing the energy to flow, but attaching to it and creating an unnatural process from something that was natural to begin with.
If you choose to experience courage, that too is perfect though…and so is the spectrum of feelings in between.
We are humans that have the ability to experience a limitless array of feelings, which is part of the beauty and gift available to us.
All That Is doesn’t judge these things, but they are all available as a way to know ourselves, to feel all that is possible like sampling things at a buffet table, and to realize there is wholeness within every experience and energy that moves through us at any given moment.
I came up upon fear again with the mountain biking, just as I have with skiing, since it is new and challenging for me. I have only biked on flat, easy trails, but we found ourselves on a much more advanced trail, which I didn’t know when going into it, and so this provided me the opportunity to put to practice the things I’ve learned about my process with fear.
That is the beauty of having fear as an experience, as we are then able to call up what we learned and then utilize this to support the natural flow.
I noticed that some people expecting the easy trail, turned back, but I decided to keep on going.
What I learned about fear is that it is often times associated with being overwhelmed by too much stimuli around me that then creates an inner ego dialogue trying to address all of it at once.
For me, I have found that retracting my energy and going within myself is what helps to make things more manageable. I shift my focus from bigger picture and all that is around me, to sensing what is just within me and directly in front of me only…taking things one step at a time in my own pace and gently talking myself through it all and staying very present within my body without any other thoughts and focus except the moment.
In this way I am aware and fully embodied and engaged. And when I return to full embodiment I am then able to slowly become one with the experience and soon my parts are moving together rather than separately and the experience becomes fun and one that I learn is within my grasp to enjoy the way I desire to.
This turned steep and rocky trails into either a fun experience of flowing over them like water or climbing up them like a steadfast goat.
I also engaged the gifts I have, which included surrounding myself with Reiki and infusing myself with Reiki for strength, asking for help from the energies and spirit guides around me, and harnessing the vortex energy of the Earth available.
And when doing so a white butterfly appeared and danced around my front tire for a few minutes, riding with me.
I have learned my process and know I can use this with anything now. I have learned that it often times includes a loving, gentle dialogue with my inner child to walk her through things, hold her hand, and explain the process so that she is safe and understands.
I talk supportively to myself and don’t judge what I’m feeling. I then also acknowledge and praise myself for each step I take. And I listen when I’ve pushed myself to a limit, taking a moment to breathe, step back, and honor what has come up. That could include stopping altogether if that felt right, not worrying about what others around me are doing, and could be getting off my bike if I needed to in that moment.
It’s not about pushing, but guiding myself through it with loving support.
I believe a lot of fear has to do with our not nurturing the inner child and letting our thoughts run amuck all over her or him. But fear can make us present to ourselves and what we need, which may just be acknowledging that child and bringing her or him with us along the journey.
And then they feel safe to have fun when they realize you’ve discovered fear’s door to yourself once again.
Yes, fear can be your partner, as it simply wants to move through you rather than get bottled up inside as a blockage to your wholeness.
There is a power in all energies and a beauty for their existence, which is why All That Is dances with each of them as an expression of loving itself.
I would like to extend my gratitude to Barbara Franken for the invitation to be part of the February Challenge…Inspiring Others By Our Own Awakening Experience
Barbara asked each of us who is participating to share our awakening experiences.
Since I was not in on the first part of the challenge, I will share a brief story of my journey to greater freedom and self-realization, along with where I find myself now as a result, which is what this collaborative effort by all who participate in, involves.
Barbara will be sharing each of the 33 posts together in a free E-Book to inspire others to resonate with the natural awakening of all humankind that is happening now.
My Awakening Experience:
First off I would like to share that I believe we are constantly in spiraling cycle of “awakening”, or as I like to refer to it as, “remembering”.
I believe that this is a process that involves one to be triggered or self-prompted by their own journeys of alignment, openness, readiness, and soul missions chosen.
For me, this process seemed one that I set up without capability of escaping, unless I totally gave up, but that simply wasn’t written in the signature of my soul.
My life has been a series of experiences I either embraced and learned from or would find myself creating situations that provided no other out, but to do so in.
I can’t say that one specific time period or experience would be what I’d consider my “awakening” or ultimate “remembering”, but rather there have been several experiences that collectively have been the stepping stones to this process, which continues unfolding in ever-deepening and expanding ways.
However I do remember that as a very young child I did come in with that natural remembrance.
And like many of you, through a series of experiences, events, conditioning, and contracts to fulfill, that remembering became a confusion of inner voices that reeked havoc on my nervous system trying to make sense of it all and operate as the sensitive empath that I am.
And this then became an experience of forgetting, while trying to reclaim those authentic parts once again.
I was easily impressionable and without boundaries, as a Pisces. And so what I naturally was became the hidden part, as I tried to function and perform as others would rather prefer seeing.
And yet, those parts of my nature were impossible to fully shove away, and so these made me stand out and kept me still just out of reach of fully going unconscious, while I was just trying to get through the parts of life I HAD to like school, performing in the way that was almost like a game to me.
School was too easy. I knew how to breeze through it because of my intuition, photographic short-term memory, and ability to use both sides of my brain equally.
However, it was all I could do to get the heck out of there quickly, as inside I was dying from this boxed-in experience that didn’t support the parts of me that knew.
But as I said, it was all inevitable that I would get to this point now, it was just a matter of which way I wanted to do that… Isn’t that the choice for us all?
And while I became adept at being an observer of my life and having three voices…one on each side of a choice, and the third that oversaw it all from the bigger picture…this only made it more challenging to be with others who didn’t understand my way of thinking in so many perspectives.
And so I mostly remained silent.
As mentioned, I can’t pinpoint just one moment that was hugely opening, but there are several that stand out.
From the onset I was having incredible experiences and throughout my childhood and teens, many many spiritual experiences that were not normal to anyone I knew at the time.
This included out-of-body experiences, seeing presences in my room, prophetic and deeply symbolic and disturbing dreams for one so young who didn’t understand, telepathic incidences, knowing things without understanding why, feeling everything around me, communicating with animals, healing with my hands, voice, and dance, painting and drawing with ease at a level beyond my peers, and having a connection and longing to the stars, wishing to go back home.
It was my mother who was the trigger for both my brother and me, who started to read metaphysical and spiritual books, passing them on to us once she read them. This took place around freshmen year in high school (around 15) and once I got a hold of this material it was like something took off with a flash-forward leap.
Finally something that made sense in a world that did not.
And from there my brother and I took over and were on a fast track, reading tons of material we could get our hands on and delving into conscious conversations between us, which then extended to us teaching our parents what we learned, as we were determined to work out family dynamics along with our own.
While this made me connect to these parts of myself, it was also what made me feel even more different and not wanting to be around others, or feeling really conflicted when I was. But because I was a Pisces and easily could morph into environments and any group of people, no one was the wiser.
The inner conflict and turmoil however just continued growing, as I delved into what I knew was me, and yet was still operating in a world that I didn’t fit into unless I continued in the conditioned vein others wanted me to be in. It created a lot of emotional challenges and I would find myself crying all the time in the solitude of my dark bedroom or in the safety of the shower throughout my time in school and even beyond.
The shower became my sanctuary and place I’d go to cleanse and release, as well as work through things. It also became the place I released sadness as to what I saw around me until I later learned it all had its place and purpose that wasn’t for me to judge.
The next times I remember having big leaps were when I quit my first job, out of college, after basically burning myself out from being an over-achiever and having performance perfectionism, which led to having a physical stress breakdown and needing to do something fast.
My brother helped prompt me at this time that I needed to focus on me and nurture myself…I’d become way too fragmented inside and drained. And with having saved every penny I earned, I did just that, devoting myself completely to personal growth, delved into my writing, and started physically taking care of myself.
Things turned around, but there would continue to be layers.
A couple of years later I moved with my parents to Sedona and left everything and everyone behind. I basically lived as a hermit for two years and once again devoted myself, in the transformational energy Sedona offers, to personal growth.
I basically tore myself apart in every way, even more deeply, with self-help books, astrology, numerology, working through, releasing, and repatterning what I was capable of, came clean with all things I never told my parents about myself, daily work through revisiting everything in my past until that moment where I forgave myself and others and understood the perfection of it all, and all things in my family’s history as well, and then speaking to the first channeler ever who provided a most thorough reading on every level that supported the things I came to learn about myself during this process and more.
I was my own therapist, counselor, life coach….and it took everything within me at the time to dig deep and let the flood of healing emotions flow.
This was another milestone for me in my journey around my mid-twenties.
And from there my life just continued in devotion to this unveiling and remembering. I would never stop uncovering layers and trying to work through and gain clarity on why I was the way I was and felt the things I did.
The rest of my experiences became ones I learned through the relationships in my life…and there were many, including marriages, and by exploring a whole gamut of different jobs to explore what felt most aligned with myself and utilized my gifts.
I saw everything as a reflection and knew that you don’t escape and run away from things, but rather I was determined to be as conscious as possible, smack in the middle of it all, and play out any dynamic that was necessary, despite how that looked to outsiders.
This also became a decision of one to do without escaping through drugs and alcohol, which could easily have been a route for me as a Pisces. I never touched a cigarette or any form of mind altering drug, and still haven’t to this day, as I choose to do the work myself of opening to these experiences via my own efforts and innate powers, I believe we all have.
I did drink when I was younger, but only now and then when out to dinner or a party, but never out of control and I actually didn’t ever like it. It was one of those things that wasn’t me, but I was finding myself doing because those parts weren’t as strong yet as the conditioned ones.
I don’t drink at all anymore, and haven’t for 10 years, and never will touch any again. It doesn’t resonate with my vibration and the journey I’m on personally.
I like feeling everything…the not so fun and the fun things, as that’s my way to clarity.
My struggles weren’t seen by anyone but my family, as I was still adept at living different lives when needed, but luckily this lessened more and more over time, as I started aligning both the outside and the inside.
The next large shift occurred in my last marriage, which not only drew me to where I needed to be in terms of location, people that would be instrumental, and the most transformational experience yet, but it also was the time period that I finally and fully connected to my path, moved through past life things and karma, and made the last commitment I needed to being who I came to be, which I haven’t wavered from, hidden from, or ever had to live a dual life from again.
During this marriage I also became a Reiki Master Teacher, meeting my Teacher and life coach at the time who became my best friend that finally was like finding resonance in the world beside my rabbit, Nestor who understood me, traveled to sacred sites across the globe, began my deepest work with painting, drew in other resonating souls, and said goodbye to my rabbit and twin soul, Nestor when she left her body.
The latter being a catapulting experience in early 2008 that changed me forever, through the deepening, releasing, opening, expansion, and clarity on what I couldn’t see while she kept me comforted. A commitment like no other came through losing my twin soul, Nestor – it was based on love and a responsibility to that love for her, for myself, and for what our shared soul roles were, which she reminded me of within my heart.
All of my sacred travels were also deeply enriching, but the one I would say that had the most profound effect on my life that opened all that I’m focusing on now, was in Egypt. It is there that I retrieved my voice, my power, and my essence. It was so profound that I returned there again, just four months later.
And since this time period there has been no turning back and constant leaps in my process.
That’s not to say the road still hasn’t been challenging and filled with new adventures to test my abilities learned, and to motivate my courage a bit further.
But once I left the last marriage, lost Nestor, did all of the new levels of work to penetrate and retrieve the parts I hadn’t yet been able to on my own, and became a teacher, as well as embraced my gifts as my strengths and without doubt these were meant to be my life’s work, it’s been a game-changer.
Each part of my life has been taken to new levels through the choices and things I’ve embraced. It’s what brought me to my current relationship, although went through it’s own challenges, is in a beautiful place, enriching, and expanding place because of integrating and applying all that I learned.
Everything has been like this now, since. I’ve been able to apply things I’ve learned in ways that aren’t just about talking about and knowing concepts, but truly integrating and embodying them. This is why things have manifested and unfolded as they have because I learned my processes and understand how to work through the energies that come up.
It becomes a seamless process now after practicing it over and over.
And this is what I believe is available to us all…it’s not that you arrive at some destination without challenge. It’s that you take the things you’ve learned and start applying and working them like alchemy in your life. You come to understand your personal processes, how you self-sabotage and hide from yourself, and how to support yourself and create the way to move through them.
You become the magician and master alchemist, able to work with all of the elements to create a desired result or reality of your choosing.
Where I am Now:
And so this finds me now the freest, happiest, most clear, and empowered I’ve ever been – all of which is increasingly expanding each day. It also finds me retrieving my inner child wonder and innocence in the deepest embodiment yet, while I’ve been integrating my Earthly and Cosmic essence in a way that creates an experience of more wholeness.
My life seemed a bit backwards in comparison to others, as I was on this mission to work through my “stuff”. This made me seem older and more mature than others when I was younger and ironically I’m now a playful child once again, because of the reclaiming and remembering that has taken place, bringing me back in touch with the heart of who I am.
I am still with the same partner after these nearly eight years, have a beautiful little family of animal companions including two new bunnies that are connected with Nestor and are powerful healers, teachers, and souls too, and two cats that my partner, Dave brought to the relationship, am living in an RV as I dreamed of manifesting, we’re just starting our grand adventure across everywhere our hearts call to, I’ve achieved and shared a successful spiritual and healing arts practice, have a strong connection and good relationship with my intuition, telepathy, and clarity of heart and mind in alignment, and am currently following my heart’s greatest joy and dreams after manifesting the ability to focus solely on the creative energy wanting to channel through me.
So I am now full-time engaged in all the things I once had done when younger, or had retrieved during my life-changing explorations, but with all of me now. My focus is on creatively expressing and channeling the song of my heart through the things I love most and that speak to the essence of who I am and came to express.
I’m grateful for the ride, although it at times was tougher than I thought I could handle, nor did I want to. I wanted out many times, as I hit my personal rock bottom, but it is within those dark depths that I found myself and the light of hope within my heart once again. I am grateful that I am always being supported and watched out for from beyond this realm, that I have a beautiful powerhouse of supportive companions that came to assist me, and grateful I chose to have the fortitude of endurance and commitment that I did otherwise I wouldn’t be here still.
But it’s true what they say about only being given what we’re capable of handling. Our strength and resilience is far greater than our minds would like to think they are. And although I’ve had times of not knowing for sure if I would be hanging around for very long, since I worked through the contracts and karma, and now understand how to work through anything, I have a lot of joyous things in my life that have me the most deeply embodied than I have ever been.
This seems very timely to be sharing, as my birthday is tomorrow – 2/26 – and today completes the end of a #9 year cycle for me. So, putting closure to all of this through sharing and writing it out is a beautiful way to move forward completely with all of me.
And although it is only a summary, as I couldn’t possibly fit into this post everything unless it were a book, it feels definingly final.
I have no need to revisit the past, as my focus is in the here and now.
I will be 43 tomorrow and starting a new #1 cycle, which is fitting with my also now shifting gears in my life with new heart and soul aligned focuses that reflect who I am right now. This is the journey I am now committed to – that of walking an authentic path that expresses the innocence of my essence and to do that with total freedom where my nature is the only voice I now listen to.
And since tomorrow is my birthday I will be offline immersing in a day of self-nurturing just that, but you’ll be able to continue to explore another soul’s journey with this challenge.
The next post in this blog challenge is by Mei of https://meiflynn.com/blog/
This felt important to repost again, as I feel into the collective energy.
Perhaps it will speak to you in some way needed, or will be the little reminder or click that aligns with current experiences.
If you’re feeling frustration, triggers in your life are intensifying, or you’re ready to make bigger leaps, then doing the mirror work to reveal the reflections to integrate for self growth, could just be that piece missing.
Wishing you clarity and balance in your relationships with self, others, and your experiences at large.
Wow, the winds of change are blowing like crazy since last evening! Warm, wild winds welcomed us not long after we landed back in Malibu yesterday and continue rolling through this morning.
They are aligning with the transitions I’ve made, and supporting a clean slate, and swift tail wind of energy to move forward in. Thank you!
I announced some big changes for me in my February Newsletter on Saturday – you can sign up for these here with a message of your desire: Contact Tania Marie
Here is a video that I included, which summarizes the current theme I was inspired to share.
Getting to the root of matters will help you to connect to the core of your truth.
Don’t be afraid to unearth the unseen, as the hidden aspects are still running the show whether you acknowledge and see them or not.
We become much more empowered and capable of handling anything, when we are willing to reveal and embrace what is beneath the surface.
Then we can nurture and feed the roots of our essence with the food of our soul, rather than allowing external factors and conditioning to be the sustenance of our existence.
Just a quick little update on my sweet Moth friend for those of you who were wanting to know what happens.
If you don’t remember this story, here is the background so that you understand the context of this share: Honoring Your Personal Timing ~ Seeing the Moth in Me
Well, in the two days that followed the post she disappeared.
She was no longer on my plants anywhere and didn’t show up in sight somewhere else.
I felt it was a good sign that her wings finally were ready and she had flown. However, that meant she was stuck somewhere inside.
Dave was concerned at first that one of the cats may have gotten her before she flew, but then figured we would see part of her body somewhere close and we didn’t.
I had the sense she was alive and well somewhere.
Last night I discovered where.
Apparently she had gone into the shower, likely because it has a skylight that allows the outdoor natural light in. But I didn’t realize this until I went to turn on the water to get it warm for my shower.
I turned it on and closed the door. Then checked a minute later and I find her fluttering around in the water on the ground. The water had been filling about a half inch to an inch recently because with all of the rain the ground had softened, which had the RV unleveled slightly. We fixed this later, but it had been pouring so much that it made it hard to get out and put wood under the levelers.
Anyway, I immediately cupped my hands and helped her out. If I hadn’t gotten to her, she’d likely have drowned. She fluttered around in my hands trying to dry her wings.
I was just so happy to see her and to know she could now fly.
Poor thing, now going through this and having her wings wet, so that she has to get them dry and strong once again.
I couldn’t put her outside because it was pouring, so I decided to return her to my plants so she could dry overnight.
She didn’t want off of my hand though. She was clinging and wanting to stay with me.
Dave giggled saying, “She knows her momma.”
Finally I did get her onto one of my plants and enclosed the area to keep her safe for the night.
This morning I went to check on her and there she was still on the plant with her wings closed.
She must have been recuperating all night.
I’m just so happy that she can fly, but boy she’s going through a lot this little one.
She does remind me of what my journey has been like too and probably many of yours.
Many challenges, many times of feeling like I’ve been drowning, overcome with emotions, hitting my rock bottom, unsure of the next course of action, but still getting back up, persevering, and willing my way to fly, as I know I was born to do.
As we all are.
As this little Moth is.
Don’t let life’s challenges keep you down. Even when it looks like all hope is gone, there is always a way, a helping hand you can embrace, another perspective or choice you haven’t tried, another path to your wings taking flight.
I decided to reintroduce her to the great outdoors again, feeling that she’s much better off outside in Nature now than she is indoors where she can catch the attention of the cats since she can fly now.
I actually just returned from taking her outside for release.
I put out my hand to my plant and she climbed on. I then went outside and walked over to the closest tree.
I stood there giving her Reiki and she opened her wings to feel the cool air on them.
As she did they began to quickly vibrate, as if she was taking in the vibrations all around, through them, and as Nature reminded every cell within her to awaken to herself.
Earth’s vibrations pulsed through her and she suddenly took to flight, softly fluttering from my hand as she showed me proudly how she could fly.
My heart was joyous.
Then she came to rest on the trunk of the tree. I think she needs time to adjust and so I surrounded her with more Reiki, asked the Faeries to touch her wings with their magick, and asked the tree to protect her.
I will check on her a bit later, but I feel now she is where she’s meant to be and she has gone back to her true Mother – Nature.
There continues to be a lot of souls choosing to transition at this time (both in human and animal bodies) and many others experiencing recurring or new serious health challenges.
It really is beyond our solely human capacities to understand and grasp the why’s around this. Nothing makes sense to the heart that feels a sense of attachment to special souls in our lives and that wants greatly to have that physical closeness and tangible presence with us always.
And yet, we do grasp, at least in the conceptual way, that there is something beyond our understanding and that these souls, although depart physically, are truly never far from us.
It’s our emotions, attachments, and personal desires that struggle with this.
And it takes time to heal those wounds we feel and to come to a deeper place of resolve and peace that can’t happen because of what someone tells us, but happens when we begin to experience life and death in a different way – one in which Nature is lovingly reflecting to us daily.
There are seasons of the soul, just as there are seasons of Nature.
Everything is constantly renewing itself and transmuting itself.
And while death seems permanent to humans, in the Cosmic landscape it is a process of renewal, just as stars die and are reborn again.
Everything around us, on and off-planet, goes through this continuous cycle of “birth” and “death” constantly and yet we think nothing of that until it hits closer to home.
The more emotionally attached we are, and the more immediate environment of people and things we value are affected, the more challenging these natural renewals are to us.
Otherwise the “idea” of separation and distance, along with some cognitive dissonance sometimes seems to shelter us.
Although there are many of us who mourn the passing of trees and plants, as well as parts of Earth that have disappeared or been destroyed over time, for instance, it is mostly the ego attachments to who and what we hold closest that pose a threat to our emotional stability and our mental clarity when faced with that inevitable experience of someone physically leaving our lives.
I’ve written many times on my own experience with “death” that hit me closest to home for the first time with my twin soul, Nestor – the only experience that really asked of me to make peace with what I know beyond what my immediate feelings of attachment would have me otherwise believe.
And I know I will go through this process again with my precious little ones that are gracefully aging in Earth years, as well as others close in heart.
I’ve been able to feel immediate peace with other transitions around me, in large part because of what I learned through that experience with Nestor.
But I also seemed to have some rare, innate grasp of death from early on, as I remember sitting in a funeral of our most dearest family friend so very long ago and leaning over to whisper to my brother, “I don’t understand why everyone is so sad. I feel we should be celebrating her.”
My nudge to post about this wasn’t to go into detail on the ways of processing this, as it really is an individual experience and when it feels unbearable, deserves your attention to work in a way that is supportive to your needs, and perhaps with someone who can help guide you through that so it doesn’t get to the point of your walking through life, lifeless, but instead you learn to thrive again as your loved one encourages, supports, and continues to do so from where they are.
My nudge was that this is happening a lot and is going to continue to amp up because of the tremendous shifts taking place on a grand scale.
And it’s going to involve people you would not even imagine it would happen to.
I’ve had more people than ever, closer to me, transitioning.
And they aren’t people you’d necessarily think would be, nor are they of any age you’d naturally link to their passing.
That is part of my reason of addressing this, to bring to light that there are reasons beyond your comprehension, as to why.
I’ve experienced several people transition recently including a grandpa, other family members and family friends, animals I knew intimately, a dear friend in his late 50’s, a man I once dated in his early 50’s, and a sweet friend only 39 who shared my birthday – 2/26.
The last two just transitioned recently in September and on December 20th.
Most of the people I know have passed via different forms of cancer – that’s the physical vehicle that assisted their soul’s transition.
And they, like many others, were living very spiritual lives.
In the case of my sweet friend who passed just nine days ago, she was the epitome of joy – a true sparkly Faery, love, embrace, gratitude, spiritual consciousness, was living her dream running a small b&b retreat center with her beloved soulmate husband in Hawaii, ate consciously, shared her gifts of art, healing, animal communication, etc. and yet despite everything, her soul was ready.
I’m happy to share she went in peace from what I heard.
From the outside people tend to judge things or have fears come up around situations seen only superficially.
How could someone be so conscious and still leave their human body?
How can such a condition have happened to them with all of their efforts?
What does this mean in terms of working towards being more conscious and growing in my own life, if there are no guarantees?
These are valid questions in terms of the ego fear within us and our conditioned ideas about things, but we fail to understand that each soul truly does have a choice.
Only that soul knows what their path is and when their time is done.
In terms of people living consciously and embracing everything every step of the way until the end, these are people making peace with their soul essence that knows….they come to understand, or do understand something we can’t comprehend until we face the same or unless we have a connection to that knowing already.
With each of my dear friends, they all were at peace during their last months and when they passed. And they all came to personal resolutions and had opportunity to do that with others.
Does this mean every little aspect of their lives were some idea of perfect?
I’d have to answer with a question to that and ask, what does that mean exactly since life is whole in its perfect imperfection?
And secondly, you can have experiences and yet still come to a place of peace and resolve, and realize that’s all that was needed…so to let go is more than okay.
It’s a part of the spiraling cycle.
It’s surrendering to that peace found within everything experienced.
So although their physical condition seemed much like a violent attack, they stood at center of that and embraced it and were okay with what unfolded, either way.
In one of the cases, I know this firsthand, as I had opportunity to have a last conversation with one of these dear souls and it was just as I shared in terms of what I heard and felt in our exchange.
Souls know when they’ve completed what they came to experience.
They may even come to know they can do more from another state of existence now.
Through their human death will leave a great opportunity for those around them to learn and expand from
And understand their collective part in the bigger picture unfolding.
In many cases they come to find that sweet spot of truly understanding the beauty of life and death wrapped up in one, of the wonder in experiencing the bitter and sweet, depths and heights, and duality all at once.
They understand that state of transcendence and bestow their emanating vibration of this to those around them.
It is not something we have to wait until our physical death to experience.
We can make peace with it right here and now…to know and walk the beautiful path of harmony amidst the darkest hours of life and the brightest, and come to embody that state of gratitude for this ability to experience this – the gift we have as spiritual embodiments of this sacred merging.
This has been my state of most recent experience, I’ve likely in less public ways have been sharing a lot more of the extent of that with those dear to me…where I’m continuing to bridge that gap of being in “spiritual skin” and coming to know that state of peace more intimately now.
This continues to deepen and increase daily.
I have absolutely no fear of physical death.
I have complete peace with anything that could happen to me today or tomorrow.
I have complete peace with when I’ll choose that.
I have embraced living as fully as possible, as if it were my last day and don’t push off things I want to do or feel are important to my path to be doing, or express what I feel important to share.
I also remind myself, when I slip into stress of any kind, how unimportant any of it is and then focus back on what truly is of value.
I’ve felt death close at hand before and how fragile and easily that veil is lifted to pass through.
And I know when my time draws near that it will be in the perfect way my soul chooses, despite what that appears on the outside because our lives are not lived as islands unto ourselves. The way things play out always has purpose far beyond the obvious and will take place in the way most beneficial for the highest good of all concerned.
There is no right or wrong way. There is simply the way we’ve chosen to show up as our individual Cosmic song.
I don’t have to wait until the day of my own shift in physical reality to know this.
And neither do any of us.
The secret that these people hold who have passed seemingly abruptly and in some cases “shockingly,” despite any outside judgment on how that happened, is one we can walk through life with…not waiting until what ever afterlife you believe awaits.
- Gratitude for everything available in this gift of Earthly life you’ve come to experience.
- Inviting the shadow of peace that always walks beside, in front, or behind you to step back into your heart in the here and now.
We can still work towards changes we would like to create and put into action new ways and systems to shift things vibrationally and tangibly, but there’s also no reason that you can’t experience peace during that entire process and amidst anything that is happening while change is taking place.
The existence of all varieties of energies are a guidepost to your own peaceful resolve.
Through that, everything transforms before your eyes and in terms of how you experience life.
I celebrate all of the beautiful souls that are lighting the way.
Sometimes we spend so much time searching for that four leaf clover that we miss all the magick around us in each of the clover we overlook on our way to trying to find it.
We think that only that one thing will get us what we desire, that we haven’t “arrived” unless we obtain it, and we end up feeling like a failure or overcome with disappointment that we haven’t found the magickal fix.
Every single piece of the journey is integral to your evolution and can each be an amazing gift if you are present enough to receive it.
ALL of the clover in the field have value and hold enrichment for those able to see with their heart.
Don’t put off your life or dreams because you haven’t found the four leaf clover.
There is much to enjoy in each three leaf clover you discover on your path.
Sometimes the four leaf clover is simply a distraction to see who will be easily swayed away from the heart of the matter.
The alchemy is in being able to turn each three leaf clover into a four leaf clover.
That is the true magick and will lead you to experiencing good fortune throughout your life.