I’m going to keep this short, but it felt really important to at least touch in on, along with energetically, as there is such a dramatic contrast of energy in the world being experienced right now from really challenging to really incredible and not much in between. The challenging things are really coming from the stuff that was brushed away, what was deemed unnecessary to deal with because temporary pacifiers seemed to work to suppress it or distract you, or were thought to be beneath you as a “light worker” (for lack of a better term) if you felt you rose above it. The shadow is biting back hard and the more we deny, the worse it hurts.
We all go through this at one time or another and it’s only up to us what we are ready to embrace.
Unfortunately, some of the teachings out there that have been latched onto haven’t done us all the benefit, as people may think. As they only scratched the surface, or perhaps even diverted attention, and then people have thought that to be “it.” This to include the Law of Attraction, which has messed with people since there are more reasons than only a mirror that something happens, which in fact leaves a lot of blame (self blame included) going on when people feel they are must be doing bad to get bad.
There’s a huge amount of gusto behind everything from All That Is toward each way chosen, which makes the choosing that much more crucial to do as wisely as possible. And I can’t tell you how much I’m hearing about people experiencing all kinds of craziness and intensity that you would never expect based, on how they present to others and themselves. Equally, it’s amazing how much vision and sensitivity to these inconsistencies as a collective we are missing and allowing the wool to be pulled over our eyes.
I haven’t a word to put to it all. So I’m not going to try.
But I do feel that Lee Harris’ Energy Update for this month can perhaps be of support to people wanting it and going through his topic for this month’s energy theme.
As for me, things are really speeding up and flowing along, which I am grateful for and then some, but I’m going to be off my blog until I return from my travels. I’ll be leaving tomorrow and back on Monday the 19th. I had enough time after Australia to get settled and integrate back, had lots of good nature time, tuned in to what’s next here for me/us, write, refreshed with a new hairstyle to align with my energy, got to host my friend Lynne again for two days for some fun on her way through to Yosemite, and have had some new developments with my bunny journey (a lot to share about this, the week I return) and other things I’m focusing energy towards and Dave and I are focusing on together.
Lots of love to everyone and wishes for a gentle and eye-opening journey.
Animals have souls too and are Spirit in physical form, choosing the body and experience that best supports their journey and the collective tapestry weaving and unfolding. I have always seen them as equals and one and the same as humans. In fact, they have been, and are, my best friends, partners, co-creators, teachers/guides and students, soul mates, and twin souls. As a little girl, they were all I felt most connected to and where I felt most comfortable being in their company.
I remember a channeler once looking at my aura and energetic field and saying how many animal spirit guides I had around me – more than he’d ever seen around someone and – and even my dear Laura sharing, long ago, that she’d never met someone who’s been an animal in past lives more than me (at least at the time that she shared this). 😉
Needless to say, I love and get these sweet souls (as I know many of you do too and would share similar feelings and experiences) and know that they have much to teach us, which is why much of my life is devoted in helping to be a voice for them and their important messages/ways of teaching us, and helping people to recognize they are just like us – helping to look beyond appearances and feel into the heart and spirit.
Yes, stop judging a book by its cover extends to all books.
While I love them all, over time I’ve discovered the ones that speak most to my journey and are constantly around me (like rabbits, horses, butterflies, hawks, whales, dolphins, geese, tortoises…and others I wear on my skin as sacred tattoos). Although new animal spirit guides will wander in and out when needed and in cycles (like many of the ones I post photos of and share about in my blog and on social media, as they flow into my life).
And some in fact are my familiars.
I came into this life with a huge love for horses, likely because of my repetitive and transformative lives as one, but discovered this has been part of my integration and healing process that then has led me forward. And while horses will always be powerfully and soulfully connected, since there is that mirror of recognition and resonance, I’ve now moved into what I like to call the “tiny horse” realm.
This, of course being rabbits.
Why do I call them “tiny horses” you ask?
Well, because in fact they are more closely related to horses than they are to a rat or mouse, contrary to belief.
Rabbits are lagomorphs, not rodents, although do share similarities, but some major differences including their teeth and the fact that lagomorphs are herbivores, whereas rodents are omnivores so they have digestive differences.
There’s also differences in male reproductive parts, whereas rodents have baculum (penis) bones and rabbits do not. Humans, horses, cetaceans (whales and dolphins), and marsupials also don’t have baculum bones.
This may be one of the reasons rabbits are considered close relatives to horses because they both seem to have retained primitive traits from the most primitive boreoeutherian mammals.
Rabbits and horses have the same digestive systems, eat the same kinds of foods, have similar behaviors, sensitivities, prey instincts, and body language, not to mention they are amazing mirrors for therapy work on so many levels. Their faces and heads can literally look like a horse too, minus the long ears.
If you know about horses it definitely will help you to understand rabbits, so no surprise of my own evolution with this.
And a new “tiny horse” is on his way into my life in just 10 days! Yes, I’m doing the countdown. It’s been a long, patient journey awaiting his arrival, due to our travels, but he still hasn’t been adopted and that means our connection has been solidified through our telepathic journeys.
Just two days ago I solidified things further by ordering all of his new supplies, gifts, and special herbal and nutritional items to make him feel right at home and fortified in well being. We don’t have much room in this small treehouse up in Lake Tahoe, so I couldn’t go all out as I wanted to with Faery bunny extravaganza, but he will have the best of nutrition and loving touches of which I can integrate in here to meet his needs. Will be tight, but full of love.
And in the one photo I do have of him, which is what drew me in in the first place, I do have to say he looks like a tiny horse for sure.
Excited for the journey we will share for however long is meant to be.
I will continue to be a voice for the spirits in animal bodies, especially through my magickal rabbit friends, as our Cosmic connection aligns most with my own.
I had no idea (at least not mindfully) when I took the only appointment open for a hair transformation this week that it would be in the energy of the approaching Full Moon today, nor did I think about the choice of clothes I wore that day other than wanting my bunny loves with me. I simply felt that this change was essential, as I’d become bored and no longer aligned with the rapid shifts taking place, not to mention was feeling out of sorts with my inside-out essence expression. This Full Moon is in the fire sign of Sagittarius, which happens to rule the Moon in my astrological chart in the house of Pisces (my Sun sign). So there is/was certain to be an intense, very transformative and expansive energy pervading, which the Full Moon would then bring to clarity in order to know which changes and adjustments would best support us in peaceful flow.
2017 is a year of new beginnings for us all collectively and this shift will entail aligning more than ever with our highest path at this time. This may involve moving through some heavy stuff and “karmic” growth, but will provide deep healing as long as you can continue to see the “silver lining,” keep an open mind, invite new perspectives, and find the joy from the innocence of your inner child’s heart. Truth and freedom play big right now and finding ways to nurture yourself while also committing to more personal responsibility is key. This is a time for really tuning into a mission, dream goal, or heart-focused purpose that truly calls to you while tempering a narrow, but flowing focus to manifest it, so as not to dilute your energy.
With things transforming for me right now, the energy activated in Australia, and new doors about to open, I outgrew any of the changes I had already made, which then had me feeling like I was wearing clothes that didn’t fit, in a metaphorical, but also literal way.
So I have been clearing out and donating clothes, got a few new things, and really, really needed to change my hair even though I just did a little over 4 months ago. I get antsy about stuff if even a little bit feels energetically off and not lining up.
This led me to be even more vulnerable outwardly, which I’m finding no end to, and revealing more of myself without care of what that may seem to others (I have had many looks since the change, when out and about). And so I decided to intensify what has already been happening with my hair much more dramatically and much more “me” feeling with an enhancement to my silver.
I had tons of silver growing naturally, especially in two stripes near the front that were growing long, areas underneath, and then scattered and glistening throughout. I decided why not just go full on, or “Full Moon,” which got written to a friend by auto correct and felt right on, I guess, since I later received multiple reflections of “Moon essence,” “Moon child,” “Moon shine,” “Moon beam”….
And that then aligned with the Full Moon hot air balloon tank I was wearing with three white Cosmic rabbits flying in it across the Cosmos – representing my dear Nestor, Joy, and Cosmo who have moved on to the Otherworld.
My sweet friend Dawn mentioned something else I hadn’t thought of, that I was aligning with the new bunny (coming in 11 days) love’s Cosmic whiteness, as the magickal White Rabbit embodied. I loved that!
Not to mention prepares for a 10 day energetic cleanse I’m physically doing on Solstice, bunny love’s arrival, and what that portal offers.
Anyway, there’s something more than I can express happening (and it’s collective although I’m experiencing my own version of it) and it seems to be reflecting outside as well, as both yesterday and today have manifested magickal rainbow portals (3 of them!) over Lake Tahoe since I got my hair done Wednesday afternoon. And the weather shifted to this mystical energy from being at the beach just Tuesday (the day before) and sun bathing then and the days before in 70’s very warm weather, to now this mysterious, brisk, winds-of-change, stormy look and feel and dropping to the 50’s overnight.
Yesterday’s rainbow was a full one directly in front over the lake, which then intensified and started to split at center…..creating almost like two worlds converging. Perhaps another sign of this literally happening with multiple realities and worlds simultaneously existing, yet diverging.
And this morning’s first rainbow was a partial one, however, it lasted for an hour and a half, dissipating, intensifying, dissipating, intensifying….
After about a half an hour a full one appeared directly in front again (actually, while I was writing this) and just skimming where lake and bottom of mountains meet, but this one glided across the lake from left to right. Incredible!
I have been realizing the increased vulnerability I have been cracking open from depths within and how things are just melting away and also melding in that molten love. It’s amazing how deep things run, but not surprising giving the limitlessness of All That Is.
And to me, this silver feels to increase my feelings of fuller, expansive embodiment of me, as well as no longer blending into the world, but fully creating my own Cosmos on Earth – so to speak – increasing my joy and comfortability within my skin here, which has increased over time with changes I’ve been making and things brought to light.
We all have different ways in which we integrate transformation. I happen to choose and initiate as many as possible lol!
And interestingly, shifting my hair in this way is a process, which has small parts of my hair gold as well – all blending together – cool and warm colors, metallic energies of Sun and Moon. Feels like alchemy to me.
Many Native Americans believe that hair is spirit’s physical manifestation of growth that opens/enhances extrasensory perception and symbolizes connection to all things, as if like tentacles reaching out to the world around us. Cutting hair represents doors closing and heralds new life and doorways, honoring the past while making way for the future.
And that’s always how I approach life….seeing the “silver lining” and believing when no one else does. This is increasing, which is timely with what I’m working on manifesting short and long term for the journey ahead and my heart’s mission. Gonna take everything I have!
So while my threads of silver hair reflect much more than this, too hard to explain all of here, they also seem to bring this into literal light and hence, the “silver lining” mentioned above as an approach that may be helpful for us all, coming full circle.
How might you open more to the possibilities before you? You really do have opportunity to experience life differently, if you really commit to that, no matter what challenges are present. Each pain is a seed wanting to sprout freely without your restraining its growth.
I’m definitely missing Australia, but also really enjoying pre-summer weather and beauty blooming all around here at Lake Tahoe. Life goes on and and with so much culminating around Summer Solstice, I’m clearly getting the sense of rapid growth and prolific possibilities manifesting. The energy available feels really rich with potential for anyone ready to run with it….ready to keep hope alive.
In the short few days we’ve been back we’ve been putting a lot into motion and quickly picked up right where we left off, quickly settling and organizing back while also hiking, enjoying a sunset cruise on the lake with friends, sightings right off our deck of Bald Eagle and hot air balloon gliding over Tahoe (awesome symbolism and messages), me finding both a large goose and hawk feather, talking about future travels, tons of garden delights and blooms from visiting my parent’s house, lunch and hair refreshening for us both in Reno…full, reflective, and balancing experiences for sure.
I’m getting back to my writing today (which will conclude my first draft here shortly) and we’re preparing for both my friend Lynne to come through again for a couple of days on the 10th, as well as our heading out on the 13th for a week to Austin for business mixed with some fun.
The day after we return, on the Solstice, I’ll both be heading to Northern California to pick up my new bunny love, as well as starting a big 10-day cleanse.
So yeah, a lot going on and I’ve heard from others experiencing in a similar vein and a lot of amazing things, greater fulfillment, and new beginnings starting to take root for them, which makes me happy to hear.
People have been pulling out of old frameworks and patterns, embracing more of their truth, and realizing how self-sacrifice has not served them and others in their lives they thought they were helping.
Every “setback” can be viewed as the potential for something more to be brought to light, greater alignment in process, or the opportunity to turn something from one thing to another and shift your vibration to match it.
While there may be a lot of drama and disturbing experiences floating about as well, I think that mentioning the lovely things is important to demonstrate what is available to experience and that we can choose where and how we place our attention and focus, not to mention how we integrate those contrasting things to our benefit or detriment.
Much is shifting in the world on a daily and moment-to-moment basis and if you choose to only focus and dwell on one perspective, not only will you be sucked into a cesspool of quicksand that keeps dragging you down, but you’ll also miss out on the rest, which includes how those things you may not like so much are, and have, actually been fueling all of the positive changes.
Let’s remind each other of our wholeness, by embodying it more and more and embracing all potentials of experience, not just the challenging, discouraging, and depressing ones.
People often wonder how I can always see the silver lining in things, but it’s because I know from experience that things always turn around, as is the nature of cycles, and that even in my darkest hours, allowing energy to flow through me without judgment and inviting perspective brought release and hope to light.
May you each experience the hope and potential seeded within all experiences to create from.
As promised, I wanted to share a blog purely devoted to our experience of the Crystal Castle & Shambhala Gardens in Byron Bay since there were just too many photos to devote to social media space alone. Although what is felt and experienced in person can never be fully grasped in any one or even 100 photos alone, at least these will give you an idea and feel for what this magickal and potently sacred place is like. It was one of my top three favorite experiences of the trip, although they can’t be compared. It felt incredibly important to be here when we were, which wasn’t planned, but happened to align with the New Moon, as well as timely and important to supporting the manifestations of goals and dreams in our lives.
We visited the Crystal Castle & Shambhala Gardens, getting there right when it opened and we’re so glad we did, as it provided a wonderful time of day and a much clearer space with not many people to share it with. And, as shared, seemed perfect right at the precipice to the New Moon. Incredibly super-charged activation galore took place too! I had no expectations of what we’d find or experience, but it exceeded imagination, as well as ignited it.
We were greeted and embraced by stunning botanical gardens, rainforest, World Peace Stupa, views, Aboriginal mural, labyrinth, enchanted crystal cave, crystal fountain, sound healing, music of the plants experience, crystal matrix, amazing statues, fossils, Damanhur spiral, rose quartz reflexology walk, the biggest and most beautiful natural crystals in the world, and more… all found here.
Everywhere you turn there are crystals galore and I love how they are integrated naturally into the grounds and nature, as if they were always there and which merges Earth and Cosmos so beautifully.
Even the pathways are encrusted with crystals, geodes, and stones in patterns and sporadically, but all intentfully. The labyrinth path is also laden with rose quartz. The whole place is a huge crystal grid and energy center that sends a beam out into the etheric realm for manifestation.
A Faery’s dream world!
Each step taken was with great intent and everything we came upon along our wandering through this enchanted place received a “wow!” from both of us. We engaged every experience pure of heart and full with love and gratitude. I was in such reverence of these crystal giants, ancient ones, Earth and Cosmic historians and record keepers, master beings, sentinels and guardians. And with each labyrinth or spiral walk, turn of a prayer wheel, and communion, I blasted out energy to the collective, as well as more intimately for personal intentions, hopes, and dreams.
I used to only engage in energy focused out to others, but have come to equally voice my own desires for the highest good of all concerned knowing that they are one and the same.
I was amazed, but not surprised, to see the energy captured in the photos (and glad we took them), especially when Dave and I stood between the different sets of Amethyst guardians, as it felt like we were in a vortex, activating a portal, and experiencing the crystal matrix of creation. We were being guided through portal after portal, traversing the Cosmic dimensions, one world into the next, and the next.
I was surrounded by beings of light and I felt the giantness of my own being. I felt as tall as the Amethyst guardians by my side. And they were there to remind me of this actuality.
Chills after chills ran through me and I knew everything was not only possible, but happening now. I felt the incredible love and support surrounding me, and how it is there for us all if we open to it despite not seeing it at times in our lives.
I felt at home. Yes, this was home. These beings were my family….my memories….my heart…my spirit.
I engaged my imagination, creativity, and let myself go wild with dreaming. We both imagined big and were full with inspiration and belief in what we imagined.
Alongside each activation and what also felt like more initiations into the next phase of the journey at a new level, I experienced three manifestations of support and gifts.
While walking the labyrinth, soft, sweet feathers showed up along the path, one after another and another, and as I circled to center and back. Angelic support was all around and the feathers reminded me of letting my heart be free to fly as love guides me to soar on toward my joy and dreams and not be held back by the past, nor dwelling on it. I loved the Buddha and giant Amethyst being that resided over the labyrinth. I spent time after with the both sharing the love.
Then later while walking through the bamboo path, which was like this amazing tunnel opening to doorways at both ends and a statue of Vishnu riding on the shoulders of Garuda – both feeling potent as Vishnu is one of the three most important Hindu gods that supports, sustains, and governs the universe. His role is to return to the Earth in troubled times and restore balance of good and evil…to restore justice and order when they are threatened. And Garuda is the bird-god (birds are so prominent in my life and always gifting me feathers) who represents courage and our higher spiritual aspirations. He is said to have brought the nectar of immortality from heaven to Earth.
Just as I entered this tunnel I looked down and this beautiful bamboo creation appeared on the path directly in front of me. It was woven natural and green bamboo with bamboo woven flower that is like a case to hold pens or pencils. That felt to support my writing and the weaving of words and inspirational ideas into a story, not to mention writing the story of my life’s journey in general.
And the third manifestation was a crystal.
Just after I’d spent time between the two most giant Amethyst guardians (you can see more of their amazing energy manifesting in the photo below), I went to walk in the grass, away from any crystals and suddenly I was called to look down and saw something partially hidden in the grass. I reached down and was amazed to find a quartz crystal cluster. It was nothing like any crystals within the vicinity or even any I’d seen along our wandering throughout at that point. But there it was. And it feels so ancient and Cosmic. It appears to be part of a much larger crystal, as if it was taken from one to be connected to its energy and channel it, but for me to have as a gift. I was in deep gratitude of this gift and it feels like it will be assisting me with things to come.
That night I also had a dream that felt important. Not only did it come after the Crystal Castle experience, but on the New Moon. I haven’t had an extraterrestrial dream for a while (at least that I remember), which in actuality are never “dreams,” but my journeys with them when I’m most able to travel interdimensionally and freely. As a Pisces, my “dream” journeys are potent and where everything important takes place. Much of why sleep is actually a chance to do my most intricate work and why it’s so essential to me to have that time.
Anyway, part of the dream was about my engaging with a group of ET’s…different than ones I can remember working with. I had decoded something that they needed and had been trying to decode themselves for a very long time, but couldn’t figure out. I created symbols that embodied the energy of what I decoded and put them into a ring that reflected this. I can still see the symbolism that was created. And this acted like a portal opener or key to something. I also had images on an old recorder or something that they didn’t want others to get a hold of and see, and although I would never tell or show anyone I knew that meant they wanted me to relinquish them and so I did, to keep it safe. It felt much like I was doing some bridge work that felt important on a Cosmic level. And not surprising with the Cosmic activations of the day.
Also, what I found interesting was that I never feel called to do any sort of physical cleanses anymore, as it just doesn’t resonate and I’ve basically been making shifts on all levels without the need for them anymore. At a couple of junctures along my journey I had done some, especially this one time period of some of the largest shifts into my current path I’ve been on when I did a 180 in my life kind of overnight (but not really if you look at the build up before of work done). That time period also coincided with being 100% raw vegan and feeling I needed a complete reset and boost up several levels, so along with the raw I did several major cleanses. This took me to a new level of experience and clarity. Then over the course of time, since, I balanced and harmonized out.
But for some reason I received the message of one cleanse being supportive at this time, right after I left the Crystal Castle. My sense is that is tied to another sort of reset and anchoring of this new journey I’m on and inviting in/being invited to/stepping into.
I wondered when it would take place, thinking perhaps right when I returned home, but in fact I received that it will begin on Summer Solstice, which also happens to align with when the new bunny love is entering my life and also timely with how the project I’m working on with my writing is lining up in terms of its process. Not to mention, some other things taking place in our lives.
I’m normally not interested in these kinds of things anymore – cleanses that is – but to receive that message when I’m not focused on it, seems like I shouldn’t ignore it and so I embrace this and will begin as instructed. It will be a 10 day cleanse and reset.
So, yes, a lot was ignited and took place with this experience, but also wouldn’t have happened if we hadn’t been in Australia when we were and how it all aligned.
And we also discovered a most amazing, enchanted, magickal mushroom in the gardens that was hidden. Did it manifest just for us like these other gifts? Was it indication of this vortex we’d entered? Was it reflective of our beliefs creating what we see?
I believe it is all of these and more.
I have never actually seen one of these in nature ever – a Faerytale mushroom come to life! If you washed off the dirt you’d reveal more of its white polka dots. What an incredible discovery. There was definitely a portal here, as I actually didn’t even know these really existed except in the magickal realms. Well, I guess I was in one! And it felt to indicate that I’m literally, more and more, living in the world of my own creation and that isn’t the same for everyone although perfect for each of us, as it’s based on our vibrational alignment with belief meeting resonance and reality.
Incredible doesn’t begin to express it all. And gratitude doesn’t either in terms of what I feel toward it all.
These aren’t even all of my photos. I didn’t even capture half of what you can find here. Imagine that!
I imagine everyone has their own individual experience here at the Crystal Castle, just like we all do with everything in life, but I do believe that it will bring to the forefront, reveal, and amplify things for you in terms of your beliefs and has the potential of presenting doorways of experience for you to enter if chosen and ready.
I said yes, again.
I can’t tell you enough how much I’m witnessing both in my own life and that of others, an incredible, consistent, and rapid amount of change taking place in really big, sometimes surprising, yet always supportive ways. There’s been an increase in the last few weeks of full-circle experiences, messages of re-strengthening boundaries, a need to continually reassess and realign ourselves with what’s truest and most authentic to our spirit and heart right now, the power of choice with committed action to back it up, wake-up calls in terms of health and life shifts, and experiences paralleling timelines, but on a whole other plane and frequency with the closing and opening of doors rapidly sliding into manifestation.
I keep hearing from many about these reflections and have been witnessing a wide gamut of contrasting experiences from people including death, suicide, marriage, endings and beginnings of relationships, births, pregnancy, career changes, reassessing life paths, health crisis, what was going forward suddenly and abruptly shifting gears, but also immediately opening to a better potential.
It all reiterates to me the power of choice and action that supports it without worrying over the fine details and whether it’s “the” answer, but merely following what you’re guided to follow in the moment and trusting All That Is/Universe/God/Goddess/Source to handle things from there.
Declaration of intent and willingness to move forward in all ways will manifest doors opening and closing for us that will mirror the paths most aligned with us following our truth right here and now. So releasing the worry over whether something is it right or wrong just simply can be surrendered, as we’ll know immediately where things are leading once we make a choice by what manifests as direct result.
We seem to get too caught up in decisions and tormented by being “wrong” when there isn’t a wrong…simply a trust that whatever you do, you’ll be supported in the highest way. So we just need to believe that and be open to how things manifest, as result of our movement forward, and its always being for our highest good.
Anyway, transformational energies are swirling around big time and this beautiful Moth (pictured above) that Lynne and I connected with on a hike at Fallen Leaf Lake while she was here, really embodied so much of this frequency, not to mention embodied the peaceful trust I speak of.
She was so serene on a pebble at water’s edge, with waves rolling in, both of us around her, a man and his dog with us whom we came across and were talking with, and even us nudging her pebble she sat on, while talking to her. She was anchored and peaceful, but also so royal in her presence, undisturbed or thrown off her own inner balance and harmony by anything around her.
If you look closely at her, especially her head and body, you might see what I do….how much she reflects her Faery Queen essence in this Moth form.
Powerfully potent energy that just mesmerizes me when I look at this, which is why I am sharing this photo, captured by Lynne and courtesy of her for this post. If you remember, I shared my own magical photo of her from the other angle in another post, but this one really captures her essence and otherworldly energy.
All of this also is in line with a conversation I was having with Laura yesterday about living a magickal life and what that entails, which we both reflected on in our own lives and those around us.
We both agree that to live a life of daily magickal experiences this entails a great deal of discipline.
That seems counter-intuitive, but in fact goes hand-in-hand.
I can’t tell you how many people I know and have seen, who energetically and physically crash while trying so hard to “be” something, rather than simply “being” because they think that will make the magick happen. Or who wait for the magick to start happening before they will commit to their authenticity and heart fully.
I’ve also been seeing people go through more periods of heavy-duty flus, colds, or energetic illness suddenly than they ever have (or perhaps hadn’t had) in very short periods because of extremes and perhaps still “trying” to fit a certain template of “being” they think they need to do in order to live magickally, when in fact magick is simply “being” in the discipline of authenticity and harmonious rhythms flowing in and out.
The key to life, at least that I’ve discovered, is balance so that you don’t have those highs and lows and ups and downs in dramatic ways and when you learn to discipline yourself in this way of being, a magickal life unfolds effortlessly. This also entails saying “enough is enough” to old patterns and cycles, so that you can continue to flow on your own spiral of life.
I feel that this stems from your committed responsibility to being you/the Source of you for the highest good of all concerned.
I went through the crashes myself. I went through the huge pendulum swings of extremes. I always considered myself an extremist in fact….and yet that wasn’t actually my “nature.”
My and our nature is harmony and a return to natural harmony is our spiraling journey I feel.
We really are at a point where everything instantly manifests and there are tighter and tighter reins on your luxury to deny or hide things from yourself, as well as assessing if you’re outweighed in any given area – big ones that come to mind is over-giving or over-receiving.
And in the spirit of this constantly shifting energy and my own need to keep honoring my own authenticity, boundaries, and most harmonious state of “being,” I have had to again reassess some things recently and even had a big flow-in of opportunities to help me feel that out with.
So as example, I’m sharing some of those changes that entail my connection with others, but I am experiencing quite a few in other more personal realms as well.
As mentioned, I’ve recently experienced a bunch of full-circle things that herald to me a big leap about to take place, but also reflected how things can come back around at another frequency/whole other plane of experience when you do the work.
But also, as I’ve mentioned in past posts, when you’re in process of, or about to make huge changes, a lot of things will flow into your experience that could confuse you at first because they may be the very things you’re shifting out of.
This is simply part of that transformational process and an opportunity to revisit your relationship to the things with greater peace and anchoring and without “charge” or “trigger”…like that cleansing that stirs things up for us to simply embrace as natural cycles.
So, also recently, I’ve received requests for my past services circle round in another abundance all at once and a ton of messages, which provided me opportunity again to anchor deeply in my authentic knowing of where I am now and what to say “no” to very clearly and with loving gratitude.
I’ve turned away potential new clients, credited back purchases of art prints, and said “no” to a bunch of requests, potential opportunities, and services, as simply it was most aligned with the new energy I’m focusing on and committing to, to do so.
And I did so with utmost gratitude and reflection on the beauty of it all and the honor that it was.
Sometimes things like this confuse people that maybe they’ve made the wrong choice to go in the direction they have, could possibly play on desperation energy (really big one I feel circulating these days) in reflection to still being in process of believing in their abundance or strengthening their belief in the new, or simply could feel like a message to split their energies between old and new.
While none of that would be wrong to do, as all things will lead us to exactly where we are to be in the timing that is right for each of us, and yet these could also create that straddling of two worlds, continually feeling confused and unclear, drain you of your energy because of not supporting fully what is speaking most authentically to your heart, or block other opportunities from coming in.
After all, if we truly believe we are abundant beings, then we ARE abundant beings. There isn’t only one opportunity that will arrive and by saying “no” that’s it. You have the ability to manifest limitless opportunities and each one will provide a different level of potential.
There isn’t just one way to do something for sure. Yet there are ways of choosing that can make you feel more in flow, clear, invigorated, and in alignment.
All that to say, “I hear and feel you.”
I’ve also had to continuously go through these processes in my own way over time as well.
And with discipline and practice, I’ve been able to move into a peaceful and easier flow that has enabled me to consistently experience balance now and harmony, whereas I mentioned, I used to experience extremes and then energetic crashes or physical manifestations of stress created by this feeling of being pulled in opposing directions, or of not owning who I am and claiming my authentic voice fully.
It is with doing so that I’ve come to be able to say I no longer experience stress, anxiety, worry, tormenting inner dialogue (to the point of thinking I’m crazy), fears around who I am and showing up as so, crashes, extremes, physical manifestations of being inwardly divided, relationships of all sorts that were doomed to go no where and reflect what I wasn’t honoring in myself, nor the need to monitor foods I eat other than remaining true to being 100% vegan to match my truth, and instead only draw in more of this harmony I experience.
It’s a drastic life change that others wouldn’t notice unless they really knew me “once upon a time” in all ways. I’m so grateful for all of it and what it’s all taught me, not to mention am grateful for the reflections that show up.
But I do have to mention that things have shifted even with recent offerings I’ve put out.
I had foresight to say when I did put them out there that I didn’t know how long I’d be offering them and they may be temporary. And now that has manifested.
This includes (at least at this time) my not taking on any more new Intuitive Energy Guidance/Coaching clients after I finish working with current clients already with me. I’ve so been enjoying the beautiful and so meaningful and timely way in which these soul contracts have come into being. I can’t say enough how I honor these people and the courage they have. I also am awed by the soul connections we share and I’m totally devoted to them with all of my heart.
I feel that my listening to guidance was aligned perfectly with these contracts with them, but that I am to revisit full commitment to honoring now one I have with myself and the collective with full devotion toward what I’ve put into motion.
This in part due to my need to put all that I have into my current project and something else soon entering my life.
I also will only make myself available to teach Reiki this Summer to the people I have already spoken to offering this to if they desire.
That means I’m back to no services offered, but all in order to be able to offer more later from the depths of my heart.
I’ll still be creating Magick Crystal Wands, as that feels in alignment with immediate soul-satisfaction and desire to create something tangible with my hands that balances the writing I’m involved with – it’s all about balance to me! But these are the only two things I’ll be engaged with.
I can’t thank everyone enough for your understanding. It’s truly meaningful to me how supportive you’ve been and how much love you’ve shared during my own transformational journey I’ve chosen to vulnerably be open about in order to support you into your own authentic choices.
Also, beginning this Sunday I will likely not be blogging for a while, or in very limited, short blogs because I will be focused on completing the first draft of my book before heading off to Australia on May 10th. I’ll feel that energy out, but my sense is I’ll need to withdraw there for the time-being.
I need to conserve my inspiration and creative writing for that project. So during that time I’ll only be sharing via Instagram/Facebook if you happen to be on those platforms, since they are quick ways to still stay in touch and share some daily inspiration and beauty with you, while creating that healthy balance for me as well.
Here’s to peaceful transformation for us all!
I love you!
April Energy Update from Lee Harris – The End of ‘The Love and Light Brigade’ & The Rawness of Re-patterning
I think many of you will find this month’s energy update insightful and helpful. These themes have been showing up with client sessions and with many people I know. It’s time to be discerning with your energy in order to have more energy to be able to keep channeling and stay balanced. It seems counter-intuitive to love and light people, but Lee explains this well, so I hope you’ll tune in. Everything is in process of re-patterning so the new will become natural and this includes really feeling into what you want to be doing, rather than what you think you should be doing. Being on path is simply being in alignment with your life force energy, driving passions, and desires of well being.
“You enter the forest
at the darkest point,
where there is no path.
Where there is a way or path,
it is someone else’s path.
You are not on your own path.
If you follow someone else’s way,
you are not going to realize
While others indeed help open collective doorways, pave potential opportunities, and clear some of the debris and challenge along the way, only you can be you!
Even though you might share a similar energy stream with others, bringing your authenticity, voice, and heart into things will create a path that is yours alone and will need to be carved by only the frequency you carry.
Hence, courage to journey into the unknown and support the way that most aligns with you, will take you down a path where your own light will bring clarity with each step taken.
Be as You Truly Are ~ You Haven’t Lost Your Passion or Path, You Simply Can Choose to Dance & Sing Again
A little feather mandala with 11 that I found yesterday, encircling an orange calcite heart for New Moon in Aries … Stirring the fire within to unleash your most transformative expression that wisely harnesses your creative and courageous spark of truest nature and embodiment.
One might ask themselves:
How can I create more balance and harmony in the giving and receiving of energy?
What values call to my heart most?
Do I experience frustration due to unrecognized opportunity, limiting perspective, and lack of self love?
There is potential for more integrity of self-expression and recognizing your natural beingness as you truly ARE.
I recently had a dream about a small magickal creature I was given from the Netherlands and it rested in my hands and then gave me a bite on my fingers, although without the intent to hurt and it didn’t, nor did it bleed, but I knew it was getting my attention. There isn’t a creature that looks just like what I saw in the dream, but the word pygmy and vole came to mind…I did discover there are pygmy shrews and field voles in the Netherlands.
I’ve made several connections to the entirety of the dream for myself and the connections of awareness it drew me too, but also while later looking into this animal’s symbolism, I was struck by something I read about vole that coincides with this New Moon energy and felt to share it too for the collective.
It shared how vole teaches about awareness to what is going on all around you with both sensitivity and alertness, but also simply teaches about expressing your nature, naturally, which comes through feeling and listening to your intuition with loving trust.
They also carry an energy and growth potential in embracing the learning around nature’s expression of both destruction and rebirth. So in essence, asking you to look at what needs to change or that you feel could use shifting in your life and then by listening you’ll be shown how to harness those changes with vole’s help.
And synchronous to my dream, voles teach us how to “sink our teeth into” the things we’re wanting to create…in essence showing us how to harness the visions and ideas with creative tenacity so we can make them productive and actualized.
There is so much angst and frustration out there around worrying about not being on path, searching, yearning, seeking out guidance to what exactly you “should” be doing, holding onto the belief there must be some idealized version and bigness around an end result of what this looks like, and coming up short on these expectations placed on it all by self and the messaging out there.
Interestingly, at the same time you worry and search, you are also avoiding the feelings inside, your intuitive messaging, those subtle or sometimes loud nudges, are self-sabotaging with conditioned beliefs, ingenious inner dialogue, and avoidance tactics, or even creating every obstacle and energy drain on yourself, otherwise.
Yet, what it boils down to is a need to surrender to what IS right now.
Who you ARE this moment.
The intelligence within you ALREADY.
You miss the opportunities every moment to just be YOU and bring through the creative vitality that stirs within your spirit and heart.
There isn’t a perfect outcome you need to strive for.
You simply need to choose to walk in the frequency of your vibration right now and how ever that leads you, IS exactly what you are here to do.
Don’t wait for some perfect answer or precise conclusion to your quest.
Give up the quest and realize the truth of your journey that is a step-by-step unfolding of you being you.
The more in touch we are with our feelings and the voice within, the more we know exactly what it is in each moment that would be the best possible use of our breath here on Earth. And that may be much more simple than you were led to believe, although without devising it, could very well turn into something much bigger.
But don’t judge what is and isn’t extraordinary or how if you only do “this,” you aren’t doing enough.
If you truly are embracing your spirit’s song and commit to expressing its voice in each experience you have, then you will come to experience the peace and harmony you seek…the next notes will become clear…and naturally you’ll have a symphony at work with your instrument in sync with the the collective orchestra.
I find that people create inertia because they dwell too much on the ideas rather than the feelings moving through. I’ve been there too.
You have and always will be messaged by your inner voice to where would most be in resonance and alignment to your vibrational expression.
We simply don’t listen and listening, nurturing, and supporting that voice is more key than how things need to look, as when we cultivate that, we naturally will be doing and being our best possible version in each ever-expanding and evolving moment.
So it won’t be about what big thing you “should” be doing, but truly about embodying your own bigness through being.
The less we listen and support that innate knowingness, is where we come up against the challenges.
And that inner voice will tell us when making changes would be much more supportive to our life and everyone’s lives we touch.
I recently went through this in a big way, myself, before we went on our Magick Bus journey and made the changes that were key to my spirit’s expression in order to thrive here or elsewhere.
If you feel a loss of passion, it’s not because you don’t have any or you need to discover your passion, you simply need to tune back into you, as somewhere along the line a door was closed on your feelings and the connection and love didn’t receive the nurturing that other things instead did. The nature of you doesn’t go away, it simply awaits remembering and dancing with once again.
And yes, that does become important, if in fact you desire to live from that purity of your natural vitality more and find yourself frustrated and tormented all the time.
Loss of passion may also speak to your completing a cycle on your spiral of life and rather than continuing to repeat patterns that keep you stuck, or drag you backwards like a whirpool, you simply need to get on the next spiral and create anew, integrating ingredients to bring forth continual alchemy of being.
Take an honest, deep, intimately vulnerable look within yourself and ask the really important questions. You’ll discover what the true “block” is to your having the very thing you say you desire…or in essence, to being more of who you really ARE.
It’s a very interesting journey we experience in our lives.
No right or wrong, nor timeframe. However, if you are feeling miserable or frustrated, that may very well be indication to try another way.
When we more actively engage ourselves as the truly empowered partners in co-creation, we can discover how to work with the alchemy latent within each of us to create.
How things evolve will be a beautiful spiraling of your nature unfolding her or his exquisite petals.
If you are feeling a squeeze on yourself, uninvigorated, and like you are suffocating, or ready to burst, then your spirit is messaging you to go bigger, expand, express, bring forth and wisely channel what is burning within.
If uninspired, this is your chance to choose to recreate yourself and do something that moves you, feels invigorating, and keeps your imagination and creativity engaged. Start inviting and bringing forth new elements to your life that stimulate newness and fresh perspectives to keep you thriving and challenge you to go beyond yesterday’s ideas and version of yourself.
That doesn’t always mean it has to be a huge outward change, but may simply be about inviting more of the little tweaks and perspectives to your current experience that inspire a natural unfolding from there.
You have the ability to choose completely new right now and to create something different, something more, but ultimately more you this moment.
This doesn’t need to be a do or die situation, but about really feeding your spirit’s song without any constraints on should’s and should not’s, nor about following patterns…but carving a new way that is more resonant aligned to you in the flow of energy streaming through that is simultaneously abound.
I feel that as long as we continue to touch in with ourselves, invite, and put into action ways to challenge ourselves to expand our capacity for creative expression and move into new areas of personal passion moving through us with expanding courage, we will find our lives enriched and continuing to unfold in amazing ways.
You are an intuitive being whether you think you are, or not.
When you reteach yourself to trust what you’re feeling and relax into a more peaceful state of presence, then you can be more mindful, discerning, and understanding of how to navigate the energy streams in healthy partnership of heart and mind where unnecessary risks, but invigorating challenge will meet in your always being exactly where your spirit desires.