“The Indian philospher J. Krishnamurti once remarked that observing without evaluating is the highest form of human intelligence. When I first read this statement, the thought, ‘What nonsense!’ shot through my mind before I realized that I had just made an evaluation.” ~Marshall Rosenberg
I am a constant observer of life, of consciousness, of everything in and around me. It’s something that came very naturally to me from the onset, as an introvert. Perhaps many of you can relate.
Although I was always very quiet, I was actively very present and it wasn’t the kind of quiet that disappeared and shriveled back into the corner of a room, but a quiet that held a strong presence because I was fully engaged with everything and everyone around me, just not engaged in speaking much.
I was observing and listening, which continues to be my preferred experience of life.
So people were still very aware of me and actually to the degree where they would think I said things, when I simply was standing in my own energy, energetically conveying more than words alone can.
Of course that changed over time to involve more speaking, and communicative engaging, hence my stepping into a guidance/teaching role, but that constant observer has only increased over the years and I still would consider myself quiet, speaking only when the energy and experience moves me to.
The last few years has increased this observational experience for me and lately I’ve noted that I’m doing it 100% of the time in a heightened way. It’s not something I tell myself I’m going to do, or that I need to do…it simply just happens.
Observing, to me, is being very present, paying attention, watching, listening, and feeling all that is going on, on and under the surface, and doing it all without attachment or need to judge and evaluate what’s being seen in those moments of observing. It’s just really about opening to the experience of what is going on without interference.
And I find that when I truly am in that place of unattached observing, it expands my experience to such a degree that I then shift into the multi-dimensional me and it completely alters my reality.
I’ll then continue by exploring this and open to the unlimited potentials of perspectives, as well as feel into how things make me feel, what gets brought up from the other parts of me, and allow myself to go into each part to see what truly aligns with the nature of who I know myself to be as an expression of Source and with the experience I am moving into.
I felt called to bring this up, as lately while I’m moving into a new experience of myself, things around me have been calling my attention to observe very deeply, which includes the messages I see and hear that people are sharing and promoting, how others, especially prominent figures, are engaging their current roles, and keeping an eye on the wave of positioned dynamics along the spectrum of shifts taking place.
I experience what I feel it to be telling me about where things are headed collectively and since everyone is a reflection of me, especially so if there are people directly in my experience I’m experiencing regularly, how what they are expressing aligns or not with the experience I’m feeling led to transmute into. At the same time, feeling into any triggers and what those have as message for me…much of the time I find it teaching me to go deeper into my observation and to remain unattached and unconditional, and also reiterates to me what my personal role and path is in response to what these represent.
I feel for the shared undercurrents and I feel for the diverging streams.
I listen to the messages that even may have one time been my own, and how the now calls for expanded creative evolution.
“People’s minds are changed through observation and not through argument.” ~Will Rogers
So I will use everything/one as gauges to what I do and don’t feel to be personally resonating with the current energy frequency I feel in my experience, so that I may then find the gifts within all of that to both weed and seed.
I find that takes place a lot within the realm of the more spiritually focused, “new-agers”, yet I’m always observing all, as integration of everything is key to me.
That includes nature, animals, weather, events, people, emotions…you name it.
In some ways I feel this particular realm has come into the spotlight a lot because I’ve sensed the complacency of it, feeling that a destination has been reached when there is no actual end, and also expansion into more of the same keeps happening – just wearing different clothing.
It’s a realm I had also felt very comfortable in for a time, but feel I personally need new clothing, as the ones I had (quite literally and symbolically, as I’m getting rid of my actual wardrobe for my upcoming move) don’t “fit” me anymore.
I also feel the tension of duality, where more has not been realized possible.
It is the realization of that more, the incredible connection to imagination, that fuels my heart.
And perhaps that is simply my own journey and experience, but all I can share is MY own experience.
So, I remain an observer, riding the waves of consciousness, knowing that many of my ideas and feelings don’t sit well with the human heart and mind all of the time, but that has become a peaceful place to be for me now.
No longer do I feel isolated, alone, disheartened, or swayed by this, as it would have affected me in the past.
It’s part of the reason for my taking three personal months off, after having gathered much through observation, coming to understand what messages and energies I do and don’t resonate with, what I do and don’t feel is right for me in how to be and show up in life, or even how I share myself with others, and listening to the guidance that now is the time to turn that observation inward ever more so.
One can end up going so deeply within that you emerge without – in a new reality.
So observing includes being an observer of myself always (which is why I usually have several voices of dialogue in my head at any given time), and realizing always that I want to pave my own way where the only gauge is the presence of observation to All That Is within the truth of me.
I’ve realized that when everyone seems to be getting on a particular bandwagon (which I’m seeing much of), that’s indication, if I haven’t already, to get off the bandwagon.
In yesterday’s last Reiki workshop I’ll be hosting from this lovely space I’ve called home now for nearly four years, the group of souls that joined and the energy we shared together really provided a beautiful, fun, invigorating, and perfect closure to all that has been cultivated, integrated, shared, received, and grown while living here.
It was definitely a bitter sweet day, which much of the rest of the next almost two months will be before heading out of here into a new adventure of RV living beginning October 15th.
This home has provided a wonderful sanctuary space, which we’ve had privilege to call home.
And I’m happy to share, however, that the spirit of Reiki will live on in this amazing sanctuary home that has provided us peace and support for all the things in our lives we’ve been creating, as the wonderful family/friends renting from us are both trained Reiki Master Teachers that I’ve had honor to teach and will continue teaching from this space. Yay!
And not only that, but this lovely couple and their two sweet and tuned in children will continue with the care-taking of the garden, Garden Tower, and all of the lovely fruit trees, plants, and flowers we’ve nurtured here. Plus will add some more of their own. I hear a pomegranate tree is in the works. ;)
This home has been the sacred container for so much in my life in terms of expansion, deepening, and opening to my most truest nature ever. I can only imagine what will evolve from the next mobile abode.
So while yesterday was a wonderful affirmation for the souls who all came and chose to say “yes” to living a more gracious, magickal, and empowered life, it was also a blessed affirmation of the “yes” I’ve chosen to say to another experience of life on a whole new level myself.
After everyone left yesterday I took a refreshing shower to “cool off” from all the energy and spent the evening until dinner enjoying the backyard and garden.
Yesterday’s incredible group of people really activated a lot. Our internal furnaces were on fire and everyone left feeling so pumped up.
It’s all so exciting, wonderful, special, connective and yes…magickal to be a part of that journey with people and observe the life-enhancing transformations that take place. I love seeing people’s eyes light up and faces beaming from the light within.
How can you not fall in love with each soul and life itself when you get to see and experience that miracle?
Last evening and this morning I wandered the front and back yard to check on all the new growth taking place.
Alongside the amazing sunflowers out front that have blossomed, I have found so much more that is beginning to really take off, and in some cases also about ready to be enjoyed, including more lovely pickling cucumber blossoms.
It’s like all of the plants are seeing me off with a bang and not only are mirroring the big changes and new beginnings, but also that all things are possible with patient, loving care, nurturing, and unwavering belief.
My Garden Tower is looking amazing and will provide several harvests before I leave. The loquat and persimmon tree are abundant so I’ll see them get close to readiness. The plumeria are all flowering and all of the seeds I planted out front have grown into healthy little plants that will continue on. I just planted some more sunflower seeds to see if they sprout before heading out. (hehe that rhymes!) ;)
And another mystery guest made an appearance.
Well hello surprise hidden tangerine #3! I discovered a third totally out-of-season tangerine on our tangerine tree that is also going to be ready to enjoy before moving out. They aren’t supposed to come until February, but like me they are going against the grain and proving anything is possible.
New beginnings are blossoming everywhere. I love seeing the fruits of my labor growing.
And so much is already in gear for when I return from my three month sabbatical, as December is already quite filled with a continuation of work, but also new focuses.
I’m preferring to stay focused on the now however, as things can and will constantly evolve if the flow is followed rather than trying to create against that, or try to jump ahead too fast.
So, one-by-one I’m focused right now on finalizing the rest of my work as I’ve done with my last workshops, finishing out with still a hand full of designs and last coaching sessions. And then focusing on the fun of cleaning out fully (I so love that part), selling and letting go of everything but the essentials, and handling all the details of the move.
Then it’s Tania time!!
I can’t wait to work on my own creative projects, especially my writing, as a story has been channeling through and sitting in my crown’s storage bank for when I can fully immerse in the realm I’ll need to go.
Having the uninterrupted, full focus will provide me the ability to create a lot and write the full book. I’m not sure how many other projects I’ll get through during my time “off” – which simply means not working for others, and only working for myself – as I have a lot of things knocking at my heart’s door. However, without anything else pulling at my energy, I can accomplish quite a bit.
But I have promised and assured myself that I’ll continue with their focus as long as needed. And I’m also being shown glimpses of where I’m to focus thereafter.
It’s been a little bit odd living in two realities at once…one that is ending and one that is beginning, but it’s also been exciting and helpful in fueling it all and finally has become more natural and easy than it was at first.
Peace with the old has fueled invigoration of the new and invigoration of the new has created peace with the old….simultaneously.
While the mind wants to rush through it all and speed up the process, which only creates frustration, it’s been more helpful to allow both realities their fullness as they are one and the same, connected, and necessary to the natural cycles.
Much like nature and the plants and animals innately know….it’s a continuous and fully connected experience that only takes place by journeying the full cycle with embrace and trust in the eternal fluidity of consciousness and new creative sparks of life that always are within every experience.
Change is always happening, even if you’re not aware of it.
It occurs naturally and so change is not something you engage by force.
It happens when you embrace conscious awareness of the things not working in your life and become willing to let it go.
Then allow things to change in their own naturally aligned timing, as you take the steps forward in the supportive direction of the change.
Step out of the need for ego to run the show, and allow your higher self to guide the way.
Instead, engage ego in asserting yourself consistently to take actions that support your heart guidance and intuition.
Relax into patient alignment and then you’ll flow by following the cues, rather than draining yourself energetically “trying” to make things happen.
If you block or try to control the flow of energy in any way that’s when you experience less vitality and feel depleted of energy.
This not only ages us, but creates chronic physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual energy blocks that wear us down and create more challenges.
To increase aliveness, while nurturing and cultivating the changes in your life, it’s key to trust yourself and listen for the truth that lies within you.
Each and every time you doubt that, you experience less and less of a vibrant life and less magickal synchronicity.
When you allow energy to move through you with flow by trusting, listening, supporting, and following your intuition, you create greater overall well-being and draw in more aligned experiences, less challenge, and more dynamic energy that constantly renews itself with greater invigoration.
~Inspired this morning by something I read from Shakti Gawain
I decided to share some of these very special photos today on 8-8-8, as they to me symbolize what journeying through this portal embodies.
I had them taken a few weeks ago by the amazing Pedro Gutierrez who is a very dear friend that married my very dear friend last Sunday on August 1st – Lammas, but who is also an incredible photographer at Gamma Photography Studio.
As shared in Messages About The 8-8-8 Lion’s Gateway Portal, this is an opportunity for a new and profound inner foundation of love that deepens and unites both your heart and mind.
This connects you more to your Essence and Consciousness, which will be the guiding forces and inspiration of your life.
It is an opportunity to really embrace the conscious, compassionate responsibility of true stewardship that has reverence for All of Life in an expanded connection with Mother Earth, which cultivates an abundant fertility of creative spark and truth that is heart-centered and focused on co-creating a new world lived in grace.
Through this expansion you come into who you really are and engage in a new relationship to your divine path, which unites and dances with Nature in a way that supports your fully blossoming into YOU.
It is by knowing Nature more intimately and with deep honor that you come to knowing the Nature within.
Animals, plants, minerals, Nature Spirits, Elementals….they are a mirror to your Soul.
When you disregard, neglect, or abuse them, you are turning your back on yourself..the Wholeness of sensual grace that lives within the vitality of Human Being.
I thank Pedro for capturing these special moments with my beloved Joy and Cosmo.
I felt a strong nudge to have these taken, as life is so fragile and there’s no guarantee how long I will have with these sacred embodiments of the actual, Universal Creative Powers and the Sacred Fire that both destroys and recreates the Heart of All Life.
The bond and unity we share between us is the fuel to my own inner fire for the new creative journey of ecstatic living ahead.
And out of that relationship dance will channel forth pure Essence.
We are as One.
“Turning points announce themselves through a variety of vague symptoms: deep restlessness, a yearning with no name, inexplicable boredom, the feeling of being stuck.” ~Gloria Karpinski
Often, when we become more spiritually enlightened, we can easily convince ourselves that we know it all already.
We become very adept at using all of the spiritual terms and concepts we’ve learned, to talk our way through things on the surface and yet haven’t a clue how to actually integrate and embody that, let alone understand that we aren’t really seeing the depth of the picture – we’re merely spewing out the “right” words we think we should use.
Ironically, we can actually become closed off to widening our perspectives even more because we think we have all the answers, or we feel the need to pretend we do so that others will see us in a certain light.
It becomes much easier to deceive ourselves or play subconscious, self-sabotaging games than to accept that we may actually have more available to us to learn, which can help us to continue to heal and evolve.
This is a great reminder from Shakti Gawain (below) about authentically embracing who you are right now with vulnerable integrity.
I share it, as I see it as one of the themes in the collective pool to be conscious of so that we can widen and deepen our potentials, while also continuing to raise the bar on our vibrational frequency we are embodying.
From Shakti Gawain:
What I am right now
If we pretend to be more enlightened than we really are, we will miss an opportunity to heal ourselves. Admitting our limitations can make us feel vulnerable, yet it is very freeing.
We just have to be ourselves as we are now, accepting the mixture of enlightened awareness and human limitation that is in each of us. Through this self-acceptance, we find a deep peace and self-love.
* Today I accept myself as I am. *
So, I found it incredibly interesting, as well as profoundly symbolic, that I wrote an entire post and lost it all this morning.
I was really excited about it and was just about to publish when I “inadvertently” hit some keys that shut everything down before having saved it.
It expounded upon nurturing hope, trust, love, extra conscious presence, belief, inspiration, and motivation, as I used the example of how I care for my animal companions and plants, as a reflection of the consistent way I care for the seeds of creation I am nurturing and cultivating in all other areas of my life.
(More on what’s evolving, as a result of that, to come!)
The same ways in which I trust my instinctual nudges and don’t give up on any of them simply because they are in need of extra tender attention for the time being, is a reminder to how all things in life can be approached to create amazing possibilities and to be in alignment with the underlying energies at hand.
Sometimes that translates into tending to the little, yet important things a bit more consciously, or being able to see the light at the end of the tunnel with unwavering trust and love.
And sometimes that translates into surrendering into peaceful embrace of what is naturally unfolding, realizing the perfection of the bigger picture at hand that is at work for the highest good of all concerned.
And when doing so, we receive beautiful gifts and surprises that birth forth with renewable thriving.
This may not always be the case, as some things simply are showing us the impermanence of life, the continuity of life cycles, the natural evolution, constant change, and the need for loving release and surrender into the flow of unfolding that is presented to us.
So, while I could likely have pushed my brain cells to try and retrieve what I wrote somewhere in my memory, instead I let go of the need to do so, and embraced the natural evolution and instant reminder of death and birth, endings and beginnings….that all simultaneously take place and provide a new spark of invigorating creative energy potential.
I decided not to allow frustration to take over and that whatever REALLY wanted to come through, would.
Much like what is unfolding in very big ways, very literally in my life…not just with my plants.
There are reasons things unfold as they do.
Sometimes they call for us to take heed more and tend to loving nurturing that we need to be more present to, and which can make the difference in what we want to create, when we do so.
And sometimes we need to understand the message that there are times for us to move on and the culmination of closure is at hand.
Many times both of those come hand in hand.
All of which is not a loss, but simply a gentle embrace of potential adventure into the brilliance of your next choosing.
Something new is always available to us.
It may not be the same…and in fact it shouldn’t be.
It will feel different.
It temporarily may feel uncomfortable.
You might go through a short grieving period, as you let go with gratitude.
It might bring to light your fears and feel scary at first.
It will take an adjustment period while you integrate.
But it WILL present you opportunity in every way.
Opportunity for greater potential.
Opportunity for something more than you thought possible.
Opportunity to be more naturally you because you are in the flow of life, rather than using your energy to go against the current.
Thriving, rather than surviving.
“Where flowers bloom so does hope.” ~Lady Bird Johnson
What is consciousness?
A simple way to look at it, as I’m all about making things simple, is that it’s an experience of being in a relaxed state of heightened awareness, on all levels, where your mind is quiet, yet gently, softly, and easily focused on what is going on in and around you right here and now.
It’s about surrendering to, being and staying in the present moment, not trying so hard, releasing all judgments and expectations, and learning how to be more fully engaged in life, what is showing up, and how you’re showing up.
How can you embrace more consciousness in your life today?
I don’t know about you, but I’m feeling an extra burst of enchantment emerging in my life, likely in part because I’ve been heavily immersed in Faery energy of late (moreso than usual, if you can believe that ;) ). But also because I’ve been in process the last few months of doing what these two astrologers share in their energy take on tomorrow’s upcoming Cancer New Moon.
I like how astrologer, Cathy Pagano puts it:
“Since the New Moon is in a challenging aspect to Uranus in Aries, there is an opportunity to allow a new sense of yourself out…If you’re lost on a small island, you have to become the hero/ine of your own life. Let your archetypal identity come through and challenge yourself to make those changes that will give you the life you want and deserve…”
And astrologer, Robert Wilkinson adds:
“Just stay focused on how to demonstrate what your heart’s really into, go for whatever refreshes you and get the exercise you need, see things from multiple points of view, and be willing to transcend your old self, and graduate into a new realm of Being.”
For me, that “new realm of Being” is actually a deepening more into my truest soul essence like never before. There are always greater depths and expansion we can go to…after-all, everything is infinite.
My soul focus has been on going from joy to ecstacy…I personally resonate with that word, rather than bliss.
Since I’ve returned Sunday from British Columbia and the magickal time spent there at Epona Rise with the horses and Faeries, it’s like I’ve received access to another part of me that hasn’t been yet the time to bring forth, but is now taking form – permission granted, loose ends getting all tied up, slate clean, timing aligned, all systems go. Yay!
So, if you’re feeling like it’s time for a new lease on life, this is a great opportunity with the New Moon’s influence, to harness another level of self-love to take you there.
This Moon is a cleansing moon, full of feminine nurturing that can really support you into loving more of you, your feelings, and bring self-sabotaging illusions to light.
Stay on top of heightened emotions, fears, attachments, while gently and lovingly give yourself permission to gracefully let it all go.
Wishing you a beautiful New Moon beginning, as you allow yourself to be more fully you.