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You Were Meant to Fly ~ My Moth Friend Update


Just a quick little update on my sweet Moth friend for those of you who were wanting to know what happens.

If you don’t remember this story, here is the background so that you understand the context of this share: Honoring Your Personal Timing ~ Seeing the Moth in Me

Well, in the two days that followed the post she disappeared.

She was no longer on my plants anywhere and didn’t show up in sight somewhere else.

I felt it was a good sign that her wings finally were ready and she had flown. However, that meant she was stuck somewhere inside.

Dave was concerned at first that one of the cats may have gotten her before she flew, but then figured we would see part of her body somewhere close and we didn’t.

I had the sense she was alive and well somewhere.

Last night I discovered where.

Apparently she had gone into the shower, likely because it has a skylight that allows the outdoor natural light in. But I didn’t realize this until I went to turn on the water to get it warm for my shower.

I turned it on and closed the door. Then checked a minute later and I find her fluttering around in the water on the ground. The water had been filling about a half inch to an inch recently because with all of the rain the ground had softened, which had the RV unleveled slightly. We fixed this later, but it had been pouring so much that it made it hard to get out and put wood under the levelers.

Anyway, I immediately cupped my hands and helped her out. If I hadn’t gotten to her, she’d likely have drowned. She fluttered around in my hands trying to dry her wings.

I was just so happy to see her and to know she could now fly.

Poor thing, now going through this and having her wings wet, so that she has to get them dry and strong once again.

I couldn’t put her outside because it was pouring, so I decided to return her to my plants so she could dry overnight.

She didn’t want off of my hand though. She was clinging and wanting to stay with me.

Dave giggled saying, “She knows her momma.”

Finally I did get her onto one of my plants and enclosed the area to keep her safe for the night.

This morning I went to check on her and there she was still on the plant with her wings closed.

She must have been recuperating all night.

I’m just so happy that she can fly, but boy she’s going through a lot this little one.

She does remind me of what my journey has been like too and probably many of yours.

Many challenges, many times of feeling like I’ve been drowning, overcome with emotions, hitting my rock bottom, unsure of the next course of action, but still getting back up, persevering, and willing my way to fly, as I know I was born to do.

As we all are.

As this little Moth is.

Don’t let life’s challenges keep you down. Even when it looks like all hope is gone, there is always a way, a helping hand you can embrace, another perspective or choice you haven’t tried, another path to your wings taking flight.

I decided to reintroduce her to the great outdoors again, feeling that she’s much better off outside in Nature now than she is indoors where she can catch the attention of the cats since she can fly now.

I actually just returned from taking her outside for release.

I put out my hand to my plant and she climbed on. I then went outside and walked over to the closest tree.

I stood there giving her Reiki and she opened her wings to feel the cool air on them.

As she did they began to quickly vibrate, as if she was taking in the vibrations all around, through them, and as Nature reminded every cell within her to awaken to herself.

Earth’s vibrations pulsed through her and she suddenly took to flight, softly fluttering from my hand as she showed me proudly how she could fly.

My heart was joyous.

Then she came to rest on the trunk of the tree. I think she needs time to adjust and so I surrounded her with more Reiki, asked the Faeries to touch her wings with their magick, and asked the tree to protect her.

I will check on her a bit later, but I feel now she is where she’s meant to be and she has gone back to her true Mother – Nature.

Peace Doesn’t Have To Wait For Death


There continues to be a lot of souls choosing to transition at this time (both in human and animal bodies) and many others experiencing recurring or new serious health challenges.

It really is beyond our solely human capacities to understand and grasp the why’s around this. Nothing makes sense to the heart that feels a sense of attachment to special souls in our lives and that wants greatly to have that physical closeness and tangible presence with us always.

And yet, we do grasp, at least in the conceptual way, that there is something beyond our understanding and that these souls, although depart physically, are truly never far from us.

It’s our emotions, attachments, and personal desires that struggle with this.

And it takes time to heal those wounds we feel and to come to a deeper place of resolve and peace that can’t happen because of what someone tells us, but happens when we begin to experience life and death in a different way – one in which Nature is lovingly reflecting to us daily.

There are seasons of the soul, just as there are seasons of Nature.

Everything is constantly renewing itself and transmuting itself.

And while death seems permanent to humans, in the Cosmic landscape it is a process of renewal, just as stars die and are reborn again.

Everything around us, on and off-planet, goes through this continuous cycle of “birth” and “death” constantly and yet we think nothing of that until it hits closer to home.

The more emotionally attached we are, and the more immediate environment of people and things we value are affected, the more challenging these natural renewals are to us.

Otherwise the “idea” of separation and distance, along with some cognitive dissonance sometimes seems to shelter us.

Although there are many of us who mourn the passing of trees and plants, as well as parts of Earth that have disappeared or been destroyed over time, for instance, it is mostly the ego attachments to who and what we hold closest that pose a threat to our emotional stability and our mental clarity when faced with that inevitable experience of someone physically leaving our lives.

I’ve written many times on my own experience with “death” that hit me closest to home for the first time with my twin soul, Nestor – the only experience that really asked of me to make peace with what I know beyond what my immediate feelings of attachment would have me otherwise believe.

And I know I will go through this process again with my precious little ones that are gracefully aging in Earth years, as well as others close in heart.

I’ve been able to feel immediate peace with other transitions around me, in large part because of what I learned through that experience with Nestor.

But I also seemed to have some rare, innate grasp of death from early on, as I remember sitting in a funeral of our most dearest family friend so very long ago and leaning over to whisper to my brother, “I don’t understand why everyone is so sad. I feel we should be celebrating her.”

My nudge to post about this wasn’t to go into detail on the ways of processing this, as it really is an individual experience and when it feels unbearable, deserves your attention to work in a way that is supportive to your needs, and perhaps with someone who can help guide you through that so it doesn’t get to the point of your walking through life, lifeless, but instead you learn to thrive again as your loved one encourages, supports, and continues to do so from where they are.

My nudge was that this is happening a lot and is going to continue to amp up because of the tremendous shifts taking place on a grand scale.

And it’s going to involve people you would not even imagine it would happen to.

I’ve had more people than ever, closer to me, transitioning.

And they aren’t people you’d necessarily think would be, nor are they of any age you’d naturally link to their passing.

That is part of my reason of addressing this, to bring to light that there are reasons beyond your comprehension, as to why.

I’ve experienced several people transition recently including a grandpa, other family members and family friends, animals I knew intimately, a dear friend in his late 50’s, a man I once dated in his early 50’s, and a sweet friend only 39 who shared my birthday – 2/26.

The last two just transitioned recently in September and on December 20th.

Most of the people I know have passed via different forms of cancer – that’s the physical vehicle that assisted their soul’s transition.

And they, like many others, were living very spiritual lives.

In the case of my sweet friend who passed just nine days ago, she was the epitome of joy – a true sparkly Faery, love, embrace, gratitude, spiritual consciousness, was living her dream running a small b&b retreat center with her beloved soulmate husband in Hawaii, ate consciously, shared her gifts of art, healing, animal communication, etc. and yet despite everything, her soul was ready.

I’m happy to share she went in peace from what I heard.

From the outside people tend to judge things or have fears come up around situations seen only superficially.

How could someone be so conscious and still leave their human body?

How can such a condition have happened to them with all of their efforts?

What does this mean in terms of working towards being more conscious and growing in my own life, if there are no guarantees?

These are valid questions in terms of the ego fear within us and our conditioned ideas about things, but we fail to understand that each soul truly does have a choice.

Only that soul knows what their path is and when their time is done.

In terms of people living consciously and embracing everything every step of the way until the end, these are people making peace with their soul essence that knows….they come to understand, or do understand something we can’t comprehend until we face the same or unless we have a connection to that knowing already.

With each of my dear friends, they all were at peace during their last months and when they passed. And they all came to personal resolutions and had opportunity to do that with others.

Does this mean every little aspect of their lives were some idea of perfect?

I’d have to answer with a question to that and ask, what does that mean exactly since life is whole in its perfect imperfection?

And secondly, you can have experiences and yet still come to a place of peace and resolve, and realize that’s all that was needed…so to let go is more than okay.

It’s natural.

It’s a part of the spiraling cycle.

It’s surrendering to that peace found within everything experienced.

So although their physical condition seemed much like a violent attack, they stood at center of that and embraced it and were okay with what unfolded, either way.

In one of the cases, I know this firsthand, as I had opportunity to have a last conversation with one of these dear souls and it was just as I shared in terms of what I heard and felt in our exchange.

Souls know when they’ve completed what they came to experience.

They may even come to know they can do more from another state of existence now.

Through their human death will leave a great opportunity for those around them to learn and expand from

And understand their collective part in the bigger picture unfolding.

In many cases they come to find that sweet spot of truly understanding the beauty of life and death wrapped up in one, of the wonder in experiencing the bitter and sweet, depths and heights, and duality all at once.

They understand that state of transcendence and bestow their emanating vibration of this to those around them.

It is not something we have to wait until our physical death to experience.

We can make peace with it right here and now…to know and walk the beautiful path of harmony amidst the darkest hours of life and the brightest, and come to embody that state of gratitude for this ability to experience this – the gift we have as spiritual embodiments of this sacred merging.

This has been my state of most recent experience, I’ve likely in less public ways have been sharing a lot more of the extent of that with those dear to me…where I’m continuing to bridge that gap of being in “spiritual skin” and coming to know that state of peace more intimately now.

This continues to deepen and increase daily.

I have absolutely no fear of physical death.

I have complete peace with anything that could happen to me today or tomorrow.

I have complete peace with when I’ll choose that.

I have embraced living as fully as possible, as if it were my last day and don’t push off things I want to do or feel are important to my path to be doing, or express what I feel important to share.

I also remind myself, when I slip into stress of any kind, how unimportant any of it is and then focus back on what truly is of value.

I’ve felt death close at hand before and how fragile and easily that veil is lifted to pass through.

And I know when my time draws near that it will be in the perfect way my soul chooses, despite what that appears on the outside because our lives are not lived as islands unto ourselves. The way things play out always has purpose far beyond the obvious and will take place in the way most beneficial for the highest good of all concerned.

There is no right or wrong way. There is simply the way we’ve chosen to show up as our individual Cosmic song.

I don’t have to wait until the day of my own shift in physical reality to know this.

And neither do any of us.

The secret that these people hold who have passed seemingly abruptly and in some cases “shockingly,” despite any outside judgment on how that happened, is one we can walk through life with…not waiting until what ever afterlife you believe awaits.

  • Gratitude for everything available in this gift of Earthly life you’ve come to experience.
  • Inviting the shadow of peace that always walks beside, in front, or behind you to step back into your heart in the here and now.

We can still work towards changes we would like to create and put into action new ways and systems to shift things vibrationally and tangibly, but there’s also no reason that you can’t experience peace during that entire process and amidst anything that is happening while change is taking place.

The existence of all varieties of energies are a guidepost to your own peaceful resolve.

Through that, everything transforms before your eyes and in terms of how you experience life.

I celebrate all of the beautiful souls that are lighting the way.

Good Fortune Isn’t Only About Finding The Four Leaf Clover


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Image I took on the grounds of Sequoia RV Ranch

 

Sometimes we spend so much time searching for that four leaf clover that we miss all the magick around us in each of the clover we overlook on our way to trying to find it.

We think that only that one thing will get us what we desire, that we haven’t “arrived” unless we obtain it, and we end up feeling like a failure or overcome with disappointment that we haven’t found the magickal fix.

Every single piece of the journey is integral to your evolution and can each be an amazing gift if you are present enough to receive it.

ALL of the clover in the field have value and hold enrichment for those able to see with their heart.

Don’t put off your life or dreams because you haven’t found the four leaf clover.

There is much to enjoy in each three leaf clover you discover on your path.

Sometimes the four leaf clover is simply a distraction to see who will be easily swayed away from the heart of the matter.

The alchemy is in being able to turn each three leaf clover into a four leaf clover.

That is the true magick and will lead you to experiencing good fortune throughout your life.

The Leaf


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This is one of my favorite photos I took while in Sequoia National Park of a naturally released leaf gently resting in stillness and peace, cradled on the sparkly crystalline snow….it reflects so much of myself right now.

All that has been, all that you’ve been attached to, or that no longer serves you, can be a gentle process of letting go.

And while these things have had their place in your life at some point, with release they do not have to leave a footprint upon the now and the future you are creating – yet are evidence of the work of art you have woven as your life.

It is all but a whisper upon the journey you have taken, alchemically transformed with the embrace of your nature and cycles of life.

New growth and creation will emerge from where you’ve let go and the things left in peace will help the next cultivation of what’s to come.

Fragile


One of the theme messages for me has been about how fragile and precious life is, and yet how resilient.

It’s that contrast of strength in vulnerability and that beautiful divinity within all experiences of “highs” and “lows” that is inherent in all, regardless of how it seems.

This song below, for me, perfectly reflects all of this and has helped me to merge the gifts of spirit and form…human and soul.

I have a lot of favorite songs, each circulating through different cycles in my life, depending on the energy I’m moving through and the vibrational alignment it supports. Right now this one has been playing over and over for me and is a current favorite for the energetic environment I’m journeying.

It just so happens to be titled, “Fragile”.

Music…sound…. is powerful.

For me, maybe the most powerful in assisting shifts, connecting dots, igniting creative power, and drawing forth from a deeper well in my heart.

Everyone will find their own vibrational matches with sound, but this right now is one of mine I felt inspired to share.

Perhaps it will open something for you as well.

The Power of Observing ~ Paving Your Own & New Way


“The Indian philospher J. Krishnamurti once remarked that observing without evaluating is the highest form of human intelligence. When I first read this statement, the thought, ‘What nonsense!’ shot through my mind before I realized that I had just made an evaluation.” ~Marshall Rosenberg

I am a constant observer of life, of consciousness, of everything in and around me. It’s something that came very naturally to me from the onset, as an introvert. Perhaps many of you can relate.

Although I was always very quiet, I was actively very present and it wasn’t the kind of quiet that disappeared and shriveled back into the corner of a room, but a quiet that held a strong presence because I was fully engaged with everything and everyone around me, just not engaged in speaking much.

I was observing and listening, which continues to be my preferred experience of life.

So people were still very aware of me and actually to the degree where they would think I said things, when I simply was standing in my own energy, energetically conveying more than words alone can.

Of course that changed over time to involve more speaking, and communicative engaging, hence my stepping into a guidance/teaching role, but that constant observer has only increased over the years and I still would consider myself quiet, speaking only when the energy and experience moves me to.

The last few years has increased this observational experience for me and lately I’ve noted that I’m doing it 100% of the time in a heightened way. It’s not something I tell myself I’m going to do, or that I need to do…it simply just happens.

“Nothing has such power to broaden the mind as the ability to investigate systematically and truly all that comes under thy observation in life.” ~Marcus Aurelius

Observing, to me, is being very present, paying attention, watching, listening, and feeling all that is going on, on and under the surface, and doing it all without attachment or need to judge and evaluate what’s being seen in those moments of observing. It’s just really about opening to the experience of what is going on without interference.

And I find that when I truly am in that place of unattached observing, it expands my experience to such a degree that I then shift into the multi-dimensional me and it completely alters my reality.

I’ll then continue by exploring this and open to the unlimited potentials of perspectives, as well as feel into how things make me feel, what gets brought up from the other parts of me, and allow myself to go into each part to see what truly aligns with the nature of who I know myself to be as an expression of Source and with the experience I am moving into.

I felt called to bring this up, as lately while I’m moving into a new experience of myself, things around me have been calling my attention to observe very deeply, which includes the messages I see and hear that people are sharing and promoting, how others, especially prominent figures, are engaging their current roles, and keeping an eye on the wave of positioned dynamics along the spectrum of shifts taking place.

I experience what I feel it to be telling me about where things are headed collectively and since everyone is a reflection of me, especially so if there are people directly in my experience I’m experiencing regularly, how what they are expressing aligns or not with the experience I’m feeling led to transmute into. At the same time, feeling into any triggers and what those have as message for me…much of the time I find it teaching me to go deeper into my observation and to remain unattached and unconditional, and also reiterates to me what my personal role and path is in response to what these represent.

I feel for the shared undercurrents and I feel for the diverging streams.

I listen to the messages that even may have one time been my own, and how the now calls for expanded creative evolution.

“People’s minds are changed through observation and not through argument.” ~Will Rogers

So I will use everything/one as gauges to what I do and don’t feel to be personally resonating with the current energy frequency I feel in my experience, so that I may then find the gifts within all of that to both weed and seed.

I find that takes place a lot within the realm of the more spiritually focused, “new-agers”, yet I’m always observing all, as integration of everything is key to me.

That includes nature, animals, weather, events, people, emotions…you name it.

In some ways I feel this particular realm has come into the spotlight a lot because I’ve sensed the complacency of it, feeling that a destination has been reached when there is no actual end, and also expansion into more of the same keeps happening – just wearing different clothing.

It’s a realm I had also felt very comfortable in for a time, but feel I personally need new clothing, as the ones I had (quite literally and symbolically, as I’m getting rid of my actual wardrobe for my upcoming move) don’t “fit” me anymore.

I also feel the tension of duality, where more has not been realized possible.

It is the realization of that more, the incredible connection to imagination, that fuels my heart.

And perhaps that is simply my own journey and experience, but all I can share is MY own experience.

So, I remain an observer, riding the waves of consciousness, knowing that many of my ideas and feelings don’t sit well with the human heart and mind all of the time, but that has become a peaceful place to be for me now.

No longer do I feel isolated, alone, disheartened, or swayed by this, as it would have affected me in the past.

It’s part of the reason for my taking three personal months off, after having gathered much through observation, coming to understand what messages and energies I do and don’t resonate with, what I do and don’t feel is right for me in how to be and show up in life, or even how I share myself with others, and listening to the guidance that now is the time to turn that observation inward ever more so.

One can end up going so deeply within that you emerge without – in a new reality.

So observing includes being an observer of myself always (which is why I usually have several voices of dialogue in my head at any given time), and realizing always that I want to pave my own way where the only gauge is the presence of observation to All That Is within the truth of me.

I’ve realized that when everyone seems to be getting on a particular bandwagon (which I’m seeing much of), that’s indication, if I haven’t already, to get off the bandwagon.

Celebrating the Old & the New as One ~ The Natural Cycle of Closure & New Beginnings


In yesterday’s last Reiki workshop I’ll be hosting from this lovely space I’ve called home now for nearly four years, the group of souls that joined and the energy we shared together really provided a beautiful, fun, invigorating, and perfect closure to all that has been cultivated, integrated, shared, received, and grown while living here.

It was definitely a bitter sweet day, which much of the rest of the next almost two months will be before heading out of here into a new adventure of RV living beginning October 15th.

This home has provided a wonderful sanctuary space, which we’ve had privilege to call home.

And I’m happy to share, however, that the spirit of Reiki will live on in this amazing sanctuary home that has provided us peace and support for all the things in our lives we’ve been creating, as the wonderful family/friends renting from us are both trained Reiki Master Teachers that I’ve had honor to teach and will continue teaching from this space. Yay!

And not only that, but this lovely couple and their two sweet and tuned in children will continue with the care-taking of the garden, Garden Tower, and all of the lovely fruit trees, plants, and flowers we’ve nurtured here. Plus will add some more of their own. I hear a pomegranate tree is in the works. ;)

This home has been the sacred container for so much in my life in terms of expansion, deepening, and opening to my most truest nature ever. I can only imagine what will evolve from the next mobile abode.

So while yesterday was a wonderful affirmation for the souls who all came and chose to say “yes” to living a more gracious, magickal, and empowered life, it was also a blessed affirmation of the “yes” I’ve chosen to say to another experience of life on a whole new level myself.

After everyone left yesterday I took a refreshing shower to “cool off” from all the energy and spent the evening until dinner enjoying the backyard and garden.

back patioThat’s my favorite grounding and integrating spot after teaching high vibed classes.

Yesterday’s incredible group of people really activated a lot. Our internal furnaces were on fire and everyone left feeling so pumped up.

It’s all so exciting, wonderful, special, connective and yes…magickal to be a part of that journey with people and observe the life-enhancing transformations that take place. I love seeing people’s eyes light up and faces beaming from the light within.

How can you not fall in love with each soul and life itself when you get to see and experience that miracle?

Last evening and this morning I wandered the front and back yard to check on all the new growth taking place.

Alongside the amazing sunflowers out front that have blossomed, I have found so much more that is beginning to really take off, and in some cases also about ready to be enjoyed, including more lovely pickling cucumber blossoms.pickling cucumbers

It’s like all of the plants are seeing me off with a bang and not only are mirroring the big changes and new beginnings, but also that all things are possible with patient, loving care, nurturing, and unwavering belief.

My Garden Tower is looking amazing and will provide several harvests before I leave. The loquat and persimmon tree are abundant so I’ll see them get close to readiness. The plumeria are all flowering and all of the seeds I planted out front have grown into healthy little plants that will continue on. I just planted some more sunflower seeds to see if they sprout before heading out. (hehe that rhymes!) ;)

applesThe apple tree is LOADED with fruit so much so that the limbs are bowing down to touch the Earth. So it definitely appears I’ll be getting a bunch of apples before moving out of the house.

And another mystery guest made an appearance.

tangerineWell hello surprise hidden tangerine #3! I discovered a third totally out-of-season tangerine on our tangerine tree that is also going to be ready to enjoy before moving out. They aren’t supposed to come until February, but like me they are going against the grain and proving anything is possible.

New beginnings are blossoming everywhere. I love seeing the fruits of my labor growing.

And so much is already in gear for when I return from my three month sabbatical, as December is already quite filled with a continuation of work, but also new focuses.

I’m preferring to stay focused on the now however, as things can and will constantly evolve if the flow is followed rather than trying to create against that, or try to jump ahead too fast.

So, one-by-one I’m focused right now on finalizing the rest of my work as I’ve done with my last workshops, finishing out with still a hand full of designs and last coaching sessions. And then focusing on the fun of cleaning out fully (I so love that part), selling and letting go of everything but the essentials, and handling all the details of the move.

Then it’s Tania time!!

I can’t wait to work on my own creative projects, especially my writing, as a story has been channeling through and sitting in my crown’s storage bank for when I can fully immerse in the realm I’ll need to go.

Having the uninterrupted, full focus will provide me the ability to create a lot and write the full book. I’m not sure how many other projects I’ll get through during my time “off” – which simply means not working for others, and only working for myself – as I have a lot of things knocking at my heart’s door. However, without anything else pulling at my energy, I can accomplish quite a bit.

But I have promised and assured myself that I’ll continue with their focus as long as needed. And I’m also being shown glimpses of where I’m to focus thereafter.

It’s been a little bit odd living in two realities at once…one that is ending and one that is beginning, but it’s also been exciting and helpful in fueling it all and finally has become more natural and easy than it was at first.

Peace with the old has fueled invigoration of the new and invigoration of the new has created peace with the old….simultaneously.

While the mind wants to rush through it all and speed up the process, which only creates frustration, it’s been more helpful to allow both realities their fullness as they are one and the same, connected, and necessary to the natural cycles.

Much like nature and the plants and animals innately know….it’s a continuous and fully connected experience that only takes place by journeying the full cycle with embrace and trust in the eternal fluidity of consciousness and new creative sparks of life that always are within every experience.

Increase Your Aliveness & Unblock The Flow By Naturally Engaging Change


Change is always happening, even if you’re not aware of it.

It occurs naturally and so change is not something you engage by force.

It happens when you embrace conscious awareness of the things not working in your life and become willing to let it go.

Then allow things to change in their own naturally aligned timing, as you take the steps forward in the supportive direction of the change.

Step out of the need for ego to run the show, and allow your higher self to guide the way.

Instead, engage ego in asserting yourself consistently to take actions that support your heart guidance and intuition.

Relax into patient alignment and then you’ll flow by following the cues, rather than draining yourself energetically “trying” to make things happen.

If you block or try to control the flow of energy in any way that’s when you experience less vitality and feel depleted of energy.

This not only ages us, but creates chronic physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual energy blocks that wear us down and create more challenges.

To increase aliveness, while nurturing and cultivating the changes in your life, it’s key to trust yourself and listen for the truth that lies within you.

Each and every time you doubt that, you experience less and less of a vibrant life and less magickal synchronicity.

When you allow energy to move through you with flow by trusting, listening, supporting, and following your intuition, you create greater overall well-being and draw in more aligned experiences, less challenge, and more dynamic energy that constantly renews itself with greater invigoration.

~Inspired this morning by something I read from Shakti Gawain

Portal to the Creative Power and Love of the Nature Within You


I decided to share some of these very special photos today on 8-8-8, as they to me symbolize what journeying through this portal embodies.

I had them taken a few weeks ago by the amazing Pedro Gutierrez who is a very dear friend that married my very dear friend last Sunday on August 1st – Lammas, but who is also an incredible photographer at Gamma Photography Studio.

As shared in Messages About The 8-8-8 Lion’s Gateway Portal, this is an opportunity for a new and profound inner foundation of love that deepens and unites both your heart and mind.

This connects you more to your Essence and Consciousness, which will be the guiding forces and inspiration of your life.

It is an opportunity to really embrace the conscious, compassionate responsibility of true stewardship that has reverence for All of Life in an expanded connection with Mother Earth, which cultivates an abundant fertility of creative spark and truth that is heart-centered and focused on co-creating a new world lived in grace.

Through this expansion you come into who you really are and engage in a new relationship to your divine path, which unites and dances with Nature in a way that supports your fully blossoming into YOU.

It is by knowing Nature more intimately and with deep honor that you come to knowing the Nature within.

Animals, plants, minerals, Nature Spirits, Elementals….they are a mirror to your Soul.

When you disregard, neglect, or abuse them, you are turning your back on yourself..the Wholeness of sensual grace that lives within the vitality of Human Being.

I thank Pedro for capturing these special moments with my beloved Joy and Cosmo.

I felt a strong nudge to have these taken, as life is so fragile and there’s no guarantee how long I will have with these sacred embodiments of the actual, Universal Creative Powers and the Sacred Fire that both destroys and recreates the Heart of All Life.

The bond and unity we share between us is the fuel to my own inner fire for the new creative journey of ecstatic living ahead.

And out of that relationship dance will channel forth pure Essence.

We are as One.

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Inner Sanctum of Ecstatic Living ~ Some Words Before I Journey Deeper Within: A Farewell for Now


What I’m sharing in this post today comes from my last Newsletter, for the month of August, which I just sent out yesterday.

It’s the last one before I head off on my three month sabbatical, which begins on September 1st and goes through November 30th.

It’s an important one to share, although I will still be posting blogs up through August 31st, as it expresses my personal journey around this, which might mirror some of your own. But it is my last newsletter, since I do those monthly, only.

Since the people who read my blog and newsletter are very different, I’m sharing it here:

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A Farewell for Now

What’s happening in my personal experience?

I usually share a lot of collective inspiration that channels through each month, sprinkled with how that relates for me. And while that will still come through this month, it will take place by you discovering your own reflections in a more personal note of sharing this time that perhaps you might relate to, or find a seed of connection with, in some way.

As you know, I will be taking off on my 3 month personal sabbatical beginning September 1st. That’s just a month away now and oh so much to do before then, as so much has been rapidly unfolding since I made that decision!

I will be completely unplugged and unreachable, as I venture into my little creative bubble and have the opportunity to be purely with myself.

On the one hand, this experience feels like a long time coming, and on the other hand, it is divinely aligned and couldn’t have happened any sooner than it is.

It also happens to coincide with some big life changes taking place – no coincidence – and so the timing couldn’t be better if I’d actually planned it, and yet of course we know I did. ;)

It has all been divinely guided by my intuition and inner heart knowing. And then completely trusted and unwavering in that knowing, although remaining flexible to the flow of energy so it would all be effortless, rather than feel like work or forced in anyway, and surrendering it with intention for the highest good of all concerned.

Since many of you have been curious and asking, I thought I’d share what’s going on in a more intimate way, as I feel that transparency and vulnerability is important to create more of the same reflections collectively.

Maybe you’ll see yourself somewhere in my share, since nothing we do is energetically isolated to just us, alone.

What has led me here?

This personal sabbatical is not one where I’ll be traveling off to explore, nor is it about sitting in meditation and stillness. It’s like a complete soul reset where I get to choose not only from a clean slate in this life, but a clean soul slate in terms of my collective soul.

I’ve shared with a few people that I’ve been what I call, “soul tired.”

This is not a physical tiredness, nor is it an energetic drain from overwork. In fact, it has little to do with my actual human body, and yet has everything to do with both my human and Earthly incarnations as a soul, on the whole.

It actually is not easy to explain how it feels, unless you’re experiencing similar, but needless to say, it is a simultaneous experience of feeling death and birth both upon me.

It is coming to a place of rest, peace, and recognition of all that has been in my Earthly lives, all that has culminated throughout my soul “history” here, and being conscious of it all, understanding what I have been awaiting myself to realize, while having integrated it as well.

At times that has felt heavy, like a mourning while I review everything and make soul decisions (which will now be moment to moment and day to day at a whole new level where anything profound can take place in an instant), sometimes overwhelming, a fully encompassing soul exhaustion that literally wants to remove myself from everything, frustration knowing I’ve had to fully put closure to everything on all levels with loving release while I have been so ready soulfully to move on for over a year and have been living in the new reality already, and yet peacefully embraced with understanding at the same time, while also like a huge ecstatic relief and excitement.

It’s a recognition and reverence for it all, and involves having reviewed my soul records, realizing the contracts really ARE done, I’ve paid my dues so to speak, I’ve even finished the extensions I gave myself and in some cases didn’t realize I was living on still without need to, and knowing from here on out, it’s all up to me in a very new and freeing, expansive way, as to what I want to create, engage in, and invest my life vitality towards.

It always has been freedom of will and choice and yet there was also a personal soul responsibility I had chosen to agree to with all of me, and contracts my heart were in every way committed to see through.

I’m one of those souls, like many of you, who have been more than around the block here on Earth, incarnating more times than I can count and in more forms than you can imagine.

Things took their shift at the end of 2012, involving coming to realizations of closure, but have been in a state of not fully grasping that for many of us, and a time period of integrating what that meant for each individually and collectively.

I’d say that it didn’t fully in embodiment hit me on every level until the end of Summer, beginning of Fall, of last year 2014, although was coming through loudly all of 2014 and end of 2013.

A series of potent dream sequences (which were happening in real-soul-time) took place during that end of Summer, beginning of Fall time period that not only explicitly gave me these messages, activated an upgrade, and offered me the most freeing and yet defining choice of my Earthly soul-existence, but have changed the way in which I live, see, feel, and experience things in all ways.

Now, I am looking at this vast and boundless “space” before me, much like the black background of this newsletter, knowing that I get to purely create in each moment, with very fulfilling release from any contract to fulfill, and only having the responsibility of my essence guiding me.

No longer is it about “holding space”, but is now about “creating space.”

What will this look like?

In terms of my 3 month sabbatical, as mentioned, I won’t be in meditative stillness or off venturing around the world, but rather, will be involved in ecstatic creation during this time, as well as ecstatic embodiment, which will carry through thereafter.

This is an experience to a level never have I had before, but it’s also one that comes from the immensity of soul credit built up from all of the committed work invested.

I think many of you can relate to the weight of what I share in that without necessity for detailing, because you’ve experienced this, or are realizing and experiencing it now, and perhaps hadn’t known how to put it all into words.

That doesn’t mean there won’t be new, exciting challenges and evolutionary paths to embrace, but they are done with flow, harmony, and in the grace of essence simply unfolding creatively each moment by conscious choice.

I prefer the word “ecstasy” to “bliss”, although they share similar definitions.

Some definitions of ecstasy include:

  • rapturous delight
  • an overpowering emotion or exaltation
  • the frenzy of poetic inspiration
  • an emotional frenzy or trance-like state, originally one involving an experience of mystic self-transcendenceSo, I will be venturing into the inner sanctum of ecstatic living, and during my 3 months “off”, I will actually be very much “on” in terms of full body activation.

    This will be a time period of creative channeling based solely on where my heart is guided and nothing else.

    I have several creative projects wanting to channel through involving writing, art, soul music/musical immanence, and animals – both Cosmic and Earth connected. This will also be a time period for resetting the soul button, spending quality time with my beloveds, and most of all having a new relationship with myself and life to see where I choose to go next.

    Every moment being lived in the fullest, as if there may or may not be another tomorrow, as things are.

    Decisions will also be made during this time, as to what things will look like upon my return from this renewing and invigorating bubble, as I will also be putting together the things that have spoken to me to share with you.

    So, there will in fact be changes in store as to what offerings look like and what new things will be available for us to co-creatively engage in.

    This includes, for me, a new life of greater simplicity and ease to take in everything in a whole new, yet most naturally-me way.

    Loving life from the multi-dimensionally empowered perspective with utter freedom of will and choice at every turn. Cosmic me fully integrated with Earthly me.

    I realized this was actually integrating visibly when yesterday a man stopped me while I was out waiting for friends to join me for lunch, to discuss my tattoos (I wore a backless top). I turned around and he proceeded to ask me what I do, sharing he was a “psychic”, only to stop in the midst of his sentence, leaning in and peering closer at my eyes and said, “You have stars in your eyes, did you know that?”

    On the physical level he was speaking to the amber gold star-like burst around my pupils sitting in my blue/green eyes. But on another level, it then hit me that what I’ve been embracing embodiment of more was taking form, as he continued with “You Star People…”

    What else is happening?

    I also mentioned that my decision to take this 3 month time off also “happens” to coincide with some life changes that have been expedited quite rapidly since announcing this, and returning from activating in Indiana with Laura, reclaiming, acknowledging, releasing, and seeding in Sedona, as well as reconnecting with my essence with the horses in British Columbia. Not to mention the two big trips to Iceland and Peru I knew I had to take and did at onset of this year that kick-started it all.

    I can’t begin to tell you all of the extremely magickal details that have been unfolding to manifest what is happening.

    And, truth be known…I have simply connected with full heart, body, mind, and soul what I knew in my heart I wanted. Then, trusted implicitly, regardless of the hurdles that were around, or what appeared on the outside, and without need to know how.

    My entire life has shifted in reflection to my personal shifts embraced. I know you know what I mean and have experienced how that works yourself.

    EMBODY the change….SEE the change.

    In a nutshell, one thing after another has continued to fall into place…and not just “any” place, but so divinely aligned it could only be the magick of essence embodiment manifest.

    That said, in a matter of one and a half weeks, the house has been rented for three years to the most perfect, dear family and friends, this weekend the RV and car to be towed are all on their way here, all the upgrades will be started next week on the RV, I’m plugging through finalizing my work this month, the bunnies are loving best friends and both got clean bills of health from the vet through blood tests, etc. – so they’re ready to go, and amazing things keep showing up daily not only for me, but everyone I know around me.

    It’s incredible how much has shifted. And while it seems overnight, it has been a process of continued belief, dedication, and moving forward.

    No matter what I heard or any thing that would arise that seemed to halt things, I knew there was a reason and I knew it wouldn’t change what I wanted and saw happening. If a temporary road block appeared, I knew it meant to relax and realize that I was to be patient for a better and more aligned moment and experience that was on the threshold.

    So, October 15th is the official hand-over-of-the-house-to-amazing-souls-day that will also be caring for my beloved Garden Tower and garden. And the beginning of October will see the move from house to RV. YAY!!

    For now, we’ll be in an RV park in Orange County, until the next leg of the journey comes together and reveals itself. I don’t know how the next thing is going to happen, but I do know that it will.

    This was what needed to be done first and because it wasn’t forced, but flowed with…waiting just for the precise moment to leap, it all came together seamlessly.

    It’s a balance of intention without attachment or expectation, full embodiment of the new even though it isn’t here yet, flowing with the energy rather than forcing it, not allowing setbacks to deter you or discourage you, realizing the perfection of what shows up, and then courageously leaping when there’s a green light. Plus, don’t forget to intend everything for the highest good of all concerned to create the most harmonious and love-centered experience for everyone involved.

    The Universe then supports you tenfold.

    One step at a time…and it’s all about taking the steps without need to know how.

    And I KNOW the rest is going to unfold once this all takes place.

    So YES, I will be extremely busy this month of August, which is why I’m getting this very last newsletter out right away (coinciding with the potent Aquarius Full Blue Moon) before I head off on my sabbatical, as I’ll be working on projects I have to complete by August 31st, while starting to work on all that needs to be done for the life shift.

    (While I’ve always been about the Moon, everything Sun-filled with juicy Golden Light has my attention these days…working with both the Shadow and Light for depth of integration and expansion.)

    All of the preparations and getting grounded with these new life shifts will stem into my first month “off”, combining both my creative process with what I’m creating in a literal physical way, to mirror my heart’s desire of ecstatic living to support the inspirational channeling process.

    Essence and heart focus equals collective service automatically.

    Do I believe?

    You’re darn right I do and I have all my life, despite any and all experiences I’ve been through.

    It’s what has gotten me this far and how I’ve created what I have despite and because of all the challenges faced.

    My belief in things is unwavering, despite what people think of me for what I believe, or even for how I choose to live my life.

    And one of the things I believe in is you, too.

    I wish each and every one of you your heart’s desires and hope to see you on the other end of my sabbatical, sharing in your own version of ecstatic living.

    I look forward to sharing and connecting more then.

    In love and creative magick,

    Tania Marie

P.S. Remember I’m still available to discuss inquiries or questions through August 31st. So if there’s something you’ve been interested in knowing about or wanting to share, now’s the time this month to do so, as I won’t be available for the following 3 months after, beginning September 1st.

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