There’s many things we love about our new home, but one of the standouts for Astrid and me is having our own little magickal room all to ourselves, which we call Wonderland. That to include direct access to our backyard and forest, as an extension of this new realm we’ve created together. Everything we love and that brings us joy, inspiration, and feeling of direct connection to Nature, the Cosmos, our creative wellsprings, and hearts, have been infused into this room. And yes, portals and welcoming for all of our friends, as well as for journeying into the imagination and beyond.
I’d promised to share, once things were complete and I had the time, so today is the day and feels appropriate, as I’ve been immersed more deeply in book editing since the New Moon and will be getting lost in that world more again.
There is SO much I could share about every little detail in our new sanctuary space, and for anyone who visits and IS interested, I will be happy to point them all out, share their stories, and the incredible synchronicities of how they all came together and tied into one another by their own divine weaving. It truly was as if I’d waved a magick wand with intention and then all the pieces came together and were drawn in by the energy vortex created here – but then perhaps I did 😉
“Oh, you can’t help that,’ said the cat. ‘We’re all mad here.” Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland
Wonderland pretty much named itself, the moment I placed one of my prized birthday gifts to myself of last year, “Wonderland by Kirsty Mitchell,” center of my book case with two of my crystal wands laying atop it, framed by shelves of two Labradorite unicorns and a selenite unicorn horn above it, with my bunny collection below it. Chills rose up my back and my eyes locked in on the beautiful green, gold, and black book binding (matching my Faery Queen Astranaithes tapestry) with Wonderland written across it and knew the room and all who inhabit it had named it. We (Astrid and me) had indeed created our own version of a richly woven Wonderland.
That tapestry, which I had in our last home but feels was meant for this one, became the backdrop to my new desk space. It features the Faery Queen Astranaithes (pretty cool similarity to Astrid’s name) with her dragon familiar and harbinger by artist, Nene Thomas from her limited edition painting of the same. I’m always awed by how many people say that she looks like me and think that I had it made after myself. I’ve had several contractors now say the same thing and it always gives me chills.
The other of my last year’s birthday gifts I shared in the above link as well, 432hz binaural beat theta wave pair of A-note 9 inch quartz singing bowls, also made center stage of my room along with all my musical instruments, including a Chakra drum, Tibetan singing bowl, and flute and shamanic energy rattle I took home from Peru. Sound channeling will be a focal point and anchoring foundation of this new realm and for the first time I would have a space they could soak in the sun’s rays and support my musical musings.
I was hesitant at first to put them out, as Astrid likes to explore everything and I wanted to make sure she wouldn’t jump up there and knock over the crystal bowls or crystals. But within the first couple of days, I realized she was quite aware that this was sacred and she had no intention of doing anything but take in the energy of it all and support the creating to be channeled from them. She also seems to love her crystal orgonite Dragon. A chip off the old block.
Wonderland reflects the child within the soon-to-be 45-year-old-me, who I will eternally be, despite my silver hair.
It also reflects childhood dreams, my and Astrid’s essence, the author and artist me, and the love I have for my child – Astrid.
Others have human children while I have animal ones….they are all spirits embodying different forms, but for me I’ve chosen to support and co-create with the ones covered in fur that reflects their tender hearts. It is simply my path and what aligns most with my heart.
One of my intentions with this space was to make it feel like an indoor Faery garden, while still to have the practicality of being my creative/master-minding office space and meeting Astrid’s needs, feeling cozy, inviting, and transporting, overtly sharing who I am, but most of all I wanted to be surrounded by Nature and Magick.
- the round sparkly green shag rug at center that mirrors grass – a favorite place for Astrid to lay
- green in general being the focal color of everything (also connecting to the heart chakra)
- two tapestries of the forest in green
- four metal accent tables my succulents (2 topiaries and 2 Faery gardens) sit on that are tree branches with cardinals sitting on them (incidentally they just so happen to mirror the one red part of my Faery Queen tapestry, which is a cardinal)
- a three tiered leafy vine metal shelf that happens to match the accent tables and houses all of my 25 Tarot decks
- raw quartz (small and large that I found mostly all here in Tahoe) and crystals abound
- two goddesses residing over the realm – Earth (she sits with two rabbits upon her) and Water (a Mernymph holding a harp) – depicted in collector’s plates a dear faery friend gifted me
- two topiaries – a rabbit and turtle – decked out in succulents I planted on them
- two pots of succulents with dragonflies and raw stones that sit atop my book case
- two mini Faery succulent gardens (each their own realm)
- three succulent wall planters – a star, a butterfly, and a musical note – that I planted and waited to root so they could be hung as live art (this was that big project with the over 100 succulents I hinted at before. I actually just got 15 more, as I’m adding in some, with a few others on the way because I’m creating a succulent centerpiece for our dining room table
- tons of rabbits, butterflies, Faeries, dragons, Cosmic Eggs, unicorns, and even mermaids everywhere! This to include a little Faery village at the top of my book shelf resided over by Horus (a one-of-a-kind statue I picked up in Egypt) and includes a Merfaery shell house, a Faery house and even a happy little Gnome amidst the group next to a bottle of pixie dust.
- I had gotten a rabbit foot mat for the sliding door, but it has become the foot mat under my desk instead because Astrid loves it so much and likes to lay on it by my feet when I’m there – I don’t blame her, as the three rabbits look exactly like her, not to mention there’s a rabbit hole to the left of them I think she is journeying down.
- a garden stone mushroom and two Gnomes with moss that my parents gave us for our outdoor Faery garden when we get around to it, but for now they have become part of this realm and Astrid loves them so we’ll see if they end up staying
I have a video of her pretending to be part of the Gnome family and playing statue along with them, but it’s too large to upload here. She loves licking the mushroom and the Gnomes as well, which it captures, and exploring everything in sight within her realm.
- a solar Faery with crystal ball globe also for the garden, but has taken a liking to my desk for now
- a six and a half foot staff awaiting me to channel it into life
- and more!
Everything is so alive and has a story to share. I couldn’t be more in my joy here even though I know for many this room would not be their cup of tea.
Yet here, the tea parties are ongoing and Faeries, bunnies, and the like are always sharing in jubilee, as this is a place for imagination and reality to meet.
“It’s always tea-time.” Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland
A portal to take you out of one reality and into another. Once you step in here, time is forgotten. Each of the tapestries and the painting act as large portals where the Other Realm can enter through. I remember in the last house when I first hung my painting that now again hangs here, that night I awoke and saw Gnomes, Elves, Faeries, and the like all jumping out of it and running through the halls. That’s when I knew it was alive with magick.
I love my desk, which is made of reclaimed wood atop metal legs to be safe from Astrid’s need to move energy through her teeth, as I have all of my beloved rabbit soul family (and Gaia) there in picture frames, embodied in their crystal reflections, and their ashes sitting in gorgeous pendant bottles supporting me daily with my channelings. I’m just missing my first bunny, Twinkie, as I am looking for the right photo and frame. But even how this desk came to me, the third-time’s-a-charm desk that was sent out, as each of the others was broken, was super cool. This was the most beautiful of the three and had a vibrant blue on the top third of it matching the blues in the painting and tapestry. The company never questioned a thing and just kept sending me new ones. We ended up with two for one because we were able to piece parts together from the other two, so we’ll have an extra for the garage.
But even my desk chair command post is out-of-this-world green (blending Nature and Cosmos – beam me up!) and will soon have a supportive pillow, which is the last thing on the way from Russia that showcases a sweet watercolor of a white rabbit by artist, Karina Soboleva.
I got a mini desk converter that allows me to create a stand up desk when I want to get off my Faery butt, by attaching legs to it that can be adjusted and placing my computer on top of it. It has a pull out side mini desk that holds a notebook and pen, a cup or water bottle holder and even a cell phone holder. The legs on it can also be extended so that I can create a mini desk that stands near my favorite chair so that I can sit in it to write and work, or move it next to a couch to do the same. Comfort and physical fitness versatility in one!
One of my other favorite things is the comfy labyrinth circle chair next to my book case where I can read, work, or do Tarot readings in comfort and in the company of the two bunny pillows that reside there. One of them reminds me of the Velveteen Rabbit, as it is so real and alive. It features a primitive, folk art standing rabbit pillow by Arnold Print Works of North Adams, MA. that is a vintage reproduction made c. 1960s. The Arnold Print Works of North Adams, MA dissolved around 1947, but this bunny remains alive and full of magick. The bottom of the fabric has seals on it of 1876 and 1892, so I take it that it is a reproduction of one from that time period.
Astrid seems to love the chair too and likes to talk to all of her friends up close and personal.
She seems especially interested in the two lower shelves of mom’s book case that house our rabbit collection, as well as hold hold our music and children’s books.
And speaking of vintage, that reminds me of our antique doors I made mention of in a previous post. One of the cool things I LOVE about this home is the antique doors. They are all originals and come from some old mansion in Reno that the previous owner purchased and put into this home. Each and every one of them is different and has all of the original brass hardware on them. They are quite old, worn, and different sizes, but beautiful. We’ve cleaned them down since all of the renovation and they just shine. I may shine them up myself later with some linseed oil even further, but the wood is really stunning. None of the locks work, and the ones with key holes would need a skeleton key, which do not exist, except for the one downstairs bathroom that has a big latch lock on it, almost like a barn door or something.
Anyway, I love these, as they feel like portals to different worlds and realities. The other cool antique that came with the house is an old claw-foot tub and that too draws me in to float off to another time and space reality, and adds this wonderful mix of old and new and timelessness here.
“Alice: How long is forever? White Rabbit: Sometimes, just one second.” Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland
The door on my office door is a skeleton key door and suits the energy of Wonderland with its old world feel.
I also love that our room is downstairs because it makes it feel like a Rabbit Hole and a secret Faery realm, which is supported by the fact that this room and the exercise/meditation/art and guest room and bath only sit under half of the house and the rest of the house under the main, upstairs living space is underground and has a crawlspace under it and under the deck. So in fact, Wonderland is on one end of the rabbit hole before you surface.
I’ve been gifted a lot of cool things right before creating Wonderland, which includes a bunch of Faery, Gnome, Unicorn, and Rabbit collector’s pop up and children’s books (all now finding the perfect place on my book case), some lovely old rabbit figurines (including a collector Blackberry rabbit from Watership Down, the collector’s plates I mentioned, and some other fun things like Faeries and orbs created by a sweet friend from resin, crystals, and metals for me and Astrid.
Yet, it’s Astrid’s special things I gifted to her as Christmas gifts that make my heart smile biggest. This includes her very own castle, as every Queen MUST have one!
Her castle has a tunnel in between and places to go inside and on top, where she can survey her realm while munching on hay and snacks, or taking a nap under the stars with her three crystals I placed there with her blanket.
I had a video of her eating from her special hay bin atop her castle, then moving to center over her tunnel to pose, and finally making a dash to her cushion throne under the center table. It was pretty cool, but too large to upload.
So, instead, here are some photos of Sleeping Beauty taking a snooze inside of her castle (front and back end sticking out in intervals), her peeking out to see if the coast is clear, and then making a mad, magickal dash when she thought no one was looking.
She also has a new bed/slash digging box decked out with loads of eco-nesting materials that are safe and edible, but cushy for her too.
She’s able to move in and out of her digging box bed to her castle with ease. Everything is set up for fun and wee!
AND, there’s the bunny romper room, rainbow lotus playhouse that sits under mom’s painting, titled “Once in a Blue Moon,” featuring Nestor and Joy (I plan to add Cosmo to it when I have time).
Her Lotus world houses her other bed/throne, litter/hay box, food/snack/water dishes, and a new play table that get this – it’s actually called the “Wonderland Play Table!”
It features birchwood legs for chewing, a digging box floor, two snack mobiles to chew and pull, and a top to hop on and survey her land from.
She still has her favorite two-story carrot house that now looks out on the side yard and forest from our new sliding door and deck (in the summer I’ll be able to put up her pen there for her to enjoy the outdoors and go in and out).
And she adores the grass-like shag rug at center that is anchored by three giant raw quartz that I found hiking here and has a little meditation/cushion support seat for mom to create her music there on the altar table that acts as another house for her.
If she’s not in her castle tunnel, on the second story of her carrot house, or by my feet, she can be found under this table – mostly on the seat cushion like a proper Queen – or laying next to her favorite giant Mother Quartz.
It pleases me so much that she loves her room and that I have been able to gift her what she deserves after all that she’s been through. I’ve always wanted to have something like this for my bunny loves, and now I finally can. I remember the first day she entered her realm and explored, and those moments we shared of mutual love and gratitude for the journey we both went through to get here. She and I both shed tears of joy and sunk deeper into our connection.
I’m grateful to be able to reflect to her that I SEE her and know who she is.
And I know she appreciates having her own space, which for the most part the cats stay away from. For 90% of the day that’s where you’ll find her. The rest of the time she might go exploring a bit, or come find us upstairs in the living room to watch movies with us at night, but mostly she loves the in between Faery times at dusk and dawn to herself, where she’ll be either at a window or sliding glass door peering out at the forest, stars, and Moon, or she’ll be jumping and racing about on one of the upstairs area rugs, which is sure to make anyone who sees her, giggle out loud.
And since we got the downstairs room put together, which is next to Wonderland, she is interested in that as well…especially curious about the exercise bike and all of the cushions, but also seemed to be giving mom’s easel a little nose nudge and lick of magick for future creations to come.
I’m curious to see if she’ll be as fascinated with mom’s rebounder, as Joy was.
I hope you enjoy this stroll through Wonderland through Astrid’s eyes and my own. I’ve laced this blog post with photos of it, Astrid enjoying it, and a couple of videos.
I love sharing my space with you, as it’s a way to give you a glimpse into the heart of me and Astrid, as well as an inside look at my creative realm and how I create it energetically and literally to support my intentions and life.
Maybe it might inspire others to create any kind of sacred space for yourself with intention that really supports, cultivates, nurtures, and inspires you to bring forth the best of you and your gifts you have to share.
I look forward to being in our space every day and am excited to see what will evolve from it.
Let the adventures begin!
Down the rabbit hole we go …..
“Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?’
‘That depends a good deal on where you want to get to,’ said the Cat.
‘I don’t much care where -‘ said Alice.
‘Then it doesn’t matter which way you go,’ said the Cat.
‘- so long as I get SOMEWHERE,’ Alice added as an explanation.
‘Oh, you’re sure to do that,’ said the Cat, ‘if you only walk long enough.”
Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland
One of the things I’m grateful for and cherish most about my family is that my parents have always cultivated and kept alive the essence of the “inner child” for us. This is likely why they remain eternally youthful, both in appearance and expression, as they continue to play, be silly, laugh A LOT, and have fun always. My brother and I have continued in this vein, never fully growing up and keeping our innocence in tact, despite all that we’ve gone through in challenges.
Yesterday my parents came up from Reno to visit and we got to share with them our Forest Portal backyard, which was fun. My mom and I were two little Faeries, arm-in-arm, walking together along the path the whole way and me helping my mom across the creeks.
We stopped in the meadow where the light was dancing magickally, lighting things in gold, to take some fun Faery photos.
We peeked out from the grasses with mischievous joy and then rolled in endless laughter when my mom’s foot kept sinking into this dirt pile and couldn’t get back up!
I wrapped my arms around her to pick her up and we were stuck there in giggles until tears, unable to move for a while. Dave caught these fun photos of us.
The rest of the photos are of our walk and captures on the path, including some of the beauty, and our home on our return back.
Here are some words I’ve shared in the past about the power of the inner child and innocence.
Many of us have forgotten about our own inner child, or have lost it along the way, and in doing so, do not remember the power of hope and believing. Nurturing the imagination is vital and contains the ingredients necessary for manifestion. Anything you can envision and feel, IS possible.
When we realize that we have the power to manifest miracles in our lives, I believe we will responsibly learn to co-create. Whatever we choose to believe, is what our reality is. But if we don’t even know how to believe anymore or how to hope and dream, or how to choose consciously, then we are missing out on what life could be.
Doing my part is simply and authentically about expressing who I am, as a cohesive thread in the collective consciousness, through the unique form that I have to share (as we each uniquely have an expression of gifts to share with the world). In embracing ourselves and allowing that which we have inside to flow to all, we can create much beauty.
I have always resonated with children and animals, understanding that they hold a key to healing on a deeper level. Their naturally loving, expressive, playful, connective, and instinctual natures are important ingredients to integration. We have lost our innocence and natural ability to feel and to trust in our knowingness, as a result of forgetting our essence and from being out of tune with our bodies’ natural rhythms. Children and animals love us regardless of what we look like or how we may behave. They know what it means to love unconditionally and that is all they hope of us – that we will love them unconditionally.
Children are powerful in their vulnerability. In their innocent self expression, they emanate an aura of invincibility. To be vulnerable is to be powerful. Vulnerability is a sense of trust and the willingness to express yourself freely and without inhibitions. As we grow older, we lose our innocence and vulnerability, in place of self control and judgment. In a sense, we lose our authentic power.
Recapturing our child-like exuberance, opens the flow of joy and the electric energy of life to surge through us. To go farther than you ever thought possible, daring to explore the depths of your imagination, is truly being alive.
Dare to have fun, explore, laugh, love, believe, and dream. The world is yours to create. What do you want your life to look, feel, sound, taste, and smell like? Indulge your senses with your imagination…..
The child within awaits your loving recognition and nurturing, which in turn will unlock the door to your authentic and magickal experiences that await you.
Inner child work has always been a powerful seed “key” to creating change. And when done with unconditionally loving courage, can be the impetus for empowering yourself in unlimited ways.
We all have a child within that is in need of our loving acceptance. No matter how strong and self-reliant you think you are, there is a time for tender vulnerability in everyone’s journey that is needed to cultivate a garden that your child-like heart can creatively and expansively blossom in. This will provide astounding results in your current experience and with all that you intend.
As adults we carry with us false beliefs from the past that as children we learned to believe. A lot of that includes the things that we were taught was “wrong” with us and so the greatest rejection living with us today is the one to, and of, ourselves with these beliefs.
Listening to and softening our inner dialogue to embrace the perfection of all that we are, is a needed part of our daily practice. It is important to know ourselves to be whole and forgive ourselves, as well as revel in the quirky beauty that our inner child has to share.
Loving your inner child will support healing the darkest experiences by shining light on the beauty that was always there. This opens doorways that the Universe will support you with when you are willing to partner with it.
“Play liberates our soul, grounds us into our body, and frees our creativity. Play gifts our spirit to the world!” ~ Vince Gowmon
“Play energizes us and enlivens us. It eases our burdens. It renews our natural sense of optimism and opens us up to new possibilities.” ~ Stuart Brown, MD
“Life is playfulness…We need to play so that we can rediscover the magic all around us.” ~ Flora Colao
“Play is not a break from learning. It is endless, delightful, deep, engaging, practical learning. It’s the doorway into the child’s heart!” ~ Vince Gowmon
“When you are dancing and singing with joy, with deep acceptance of yourself as you are, wisdom starts happening.” ~ Osho
“The gift of Play is that it invites us to create without attachment, explore without a destination, and enjoy without complexity.” ~ Vince Gowmon
“We fear our spontaneity because we are afraid of being wrong. To compensate, we plan, and over plan. We overthink our words and actions to make us feel safe.” ~ Vince Gowmon
“It is in playing, and only in playing, that the individual child or adult is able to be creative and to use the whole personality, and it is only in being creative that the individual discovers the self.” ~ D.W. Winnicott
I think this will speak to many. Taking a break to share a quickie, but goodie.
I hope everyone enjoyed the holiday weekend in whatever perfect way resonated with your heart and aligned with your own beliefs and life intents. We were away to celebrate with family and even had the chance to touch in with some friends during our whirlwind weekend. And although brief, it was fully packed with beautiful experiences around every corner. It truly couldn’t have been more perfect and nurturing on many layers, not to mention confirming for me on equally varied levels.
From the moment we arrived it was nonstop enchantment and I felt so supported, as well as supporting, by and to others, as well as from the powers that be.
Our home-away-from-home Airbnb (which the kitty babies loved too) was a small creek side cottage in eclectic Topanga Canyon, which was very rustic and also quite enchanting with magickal touches like a storybook wardrobe staircase up to the cozy loft bedroom, private courtyard with hammock, outdoor couch, and sparkly lighting, a giant quartz crystal guardian at the front door atop a tree stump, skylights to see the trees and stars, original 1926 Winnie the Pooh and Eeyore illustrations (I love Eeyore and Pooh!), and other nurturing touches.
Although set back in the trees with a dirt road to walk up to it and septic and propane tanks the heating and plumbing were set up on, it was still a sweet getaway that made us feel connected to nature and back in our mountain home setting although near the big city of Los Angeles.
It was also very conveniently located to all the things we love, which enabled us to hike in Topanga Canyon State Park, stroll along the Pacific Ocean, and eat at a bunch of great vegan restaurants.
The other amazing thing was that not one bit of traffic was experienced the whole entire trip, which is unheard of in LA. We zipped along everywhere we needed/wanted to go without any challenge and quickly! And we literally were all over the place between Topanga Canyon, Santa Monica, Venice, Costa Mesa, Pomona, Pasadena, Camarillo, and Granada Hills.
We also got some things handled at our storage facility where we picked up some chairs we’d stored because we didn’t need them for our rv adventure (since it’s sold now) and put a large painting of mine in storage that was being housed/enjoyed by our friends renting our house, who will be moving on to a new home soon.
The latter helped out by my friend who had the painting since her car fit it, which enabled us to visit a little, exchange gifts with her and her children, and share some sweet moments we captured on camera.
I received such wonderful gifts this year that were so aligned with my essence – perhaps because of my being so in touch with it more than ever that people knew exactly the things that were perfect?
And apparently, I found out some more surprises are in store when I pick up the mail from our P.O. Box. Can’t wait!
It was all so unexpected, but truly filled my heart with gratitude for the welcome surprises.
Probably the sweetest Christmas gift maybe ever, though, came from my friend’s daughter when she presented me with her stuffed rabbit she sleeps with every night, named Cosmo after my bunny love.
Because she was at preschool and was heartbroken when she found out she’d miss me coming by the house to get the painting, we made a stop there to see her. Her mom told the teachers her Faery Godmother was coming, so they let her out to see me.
Anyway, she said that because he’s no longer with me she wanted me to have her Cosmo and that I have to sleep with him every night like she does and then every two months we will send it back and forth to share him together. Awww… talk about melting my heart.
She’s a magickal little Faery, as she presented it to me on 12/23 the day before my other rabbit’s birthday, named Joy, who was Cosmo’s beloved partner and in 2 months it will be 2/23 which is the 8 year anniversary that Joy came into my life. Talk about synchronous and connecting these two loves to me and each other.
I’m so grateful I had time to spend with these two sweetie pies that day and to sprinkle a little Faery gift giving to them as well.
I also had the chance to visit my beloved Garden Tower that my friend and her kids care for at our old house they have been renting for the last almost year and a half. It’s doing amazing as you can see and some of my original plants are huge and lush!! What a special gift all around!!
And the gifts kept pouring in (wow!), as you can see in some of these photos of things I received. This isn’t even all of it, but truly it they were some special and thoughtful things indeed.
…..magickal measuring cups that measure out love, beauty, grace and sparkle, Native American Herbal Remedies book, vegan cookbook and sweatshirts from Sea Shepherds, three porcelain rabbit figurines/ornaments meant to symbolize my three bunny loves, homemade nature-inspired Christmas ornaments, a snowflake blue agate display piece, a photo frame creation from the photographer and his wife who took the photo of me, Cosmo and Joy to have a keepsake, a lovely sterling silver/gold rabbit ring (interestingly Dave’s brother’s wife had gotten it for me earlier in the year but hadn’t been able to send it and then the timing at Christmas after Joy and Cosmo transitioned became the perfect timing to bond them and Nestor to me and wedding me to my loves eternally), a Navajo inspired cd of two flutists creating a haunting musical journey inside Canyon de Chelly, adobe village mugs from Mexico, natural gnome soap, Tree Tarot, and more, it’s been an unexpected Christmas for sure, but so appreciated. And all of them perfect, each in their own way speaking to a part of me and things that I love and that would nurture my life.
I also got myself a bunch of fun things, I may share in another post, as I was really feeling the need to nurture my heart after my bunny loves transitioning onward.
But truly, the best gift was the quality time spent with loved ones and the experiences that took place that touched my heart in non-tangible, but potent ways.
This to include a hike we went on where I found a sparkly pink and blue/gray stone gift from Joy, cleansing my feet in the creek of the canyon (where we found icy blue painted stones we had to walk across at one point), the waterfall, the enchanted forest we descended into, and the Mayan glyph and numeral I found etched in stone atop a cliff, which I knew because of my studies (also “happened” to be the same exact glyph in my painting of “Fire” that I had picked up from my friend’s house the day before), the red-tailed hawk that flew in front of me when I deciphered the glyph and made the connection to Joy sending me a message (big chills)!
The glyph is Ahau, which means “Sun” – the light of all life and is considered by the Maya considered as the most sacred of days. They also called it the “Day of Ancestors.” It also symbolized the “Flower”, beauty, dreams, hopes, wishes, artistic energy, transformation, light, the warrior and traveler, nature, love, and radiance. It represents artistic people who love recreating real life into their own vision of beauty (sound familiar with my personal motto of “creating life as a work of art” and how I’ve been saying I’m rebirthing and recreating myself? It also is about shining your light and embodying “I am the Sun” – more things I’ve been expressing a lot of lately too.
The glyph had the Mayan number for 13 atop it, and all encased within a Sun symbol. Numbers are Galactic Tones for the Maya and the number 13 and 20 are foundational to their astrological system.
Here’s a little insight on 13 from http://www.tokenrock.com:
“13 – Ascension, authority, intensity
The supreme deity—completion
The number thirteen, to the Maya, was a very powerful number. It represented going to the highest level of accomplishment. Those born with the number thirteen will be very good at tying up lose ends, making sure all the details of a project are in order.
Thirteen people are always interested in improving upon what they have created. Thirteen is at that point of getting ready to jump into the void to start a new cycle or project. Thirteens often have their feet in both worlds. They are at home in void, for they know that the void is that from which manifestation begins. Thirteen people are often psychics or clairvoyants. A thirteen person will always have a lot of intense experiences that they will either create or the people in their life will create for them.
Unexpected change is always part of a thirteen person’s life. For a thirteen person to be happy, they need to realize that change is a constant in their lives. They will be pleased if they can be flexible and allow new situations into their lives. Thirteens are always standing on the precipice of any area of life, ready to jump off into a new creation, or take it something already created to the next level.”
And here’s more on the significance of thirteen for the Mayas: http://www.4-ahau.com/en/The_13_Numbers.html
Joy has always been connected with the Mayan energy and sending me messages via this link that is strong for me and opened things at one point in my life to get me to where I am today. No coincidence there are some links to my writing here as well.
That’s a glimpse into that very powerful experience where I mentioned the hawk then flew by and around me when I was making this connection…feeling like the ancients and Joy were confirming through this sentinel who has been guiding the way for me daily.
And then there was the three deer that showed up at the end of the hike – Dave had walked by them and didn’t see them…another man also walked the opposite way and missed them – but me just a bit behind heard something and found the three of them munching on the fresh rained upon grass.
They let me stay so close to them, unaffected, and as if I was welcomed as one of them. If you remember, in Glacier National Park I’d come across two magickal deer, which were Nestor and Joy visiting me (Joy had just passed).
Well, now little Cosmo had joined them, as there were three. The middle, youngest one was him and he connected a long time with me.
This encounter was meant for just me and I received the gift they intended. What a special experience, which I relished in for a while on my own since no one was around. It was beautiful to just be with my loves…and all on Christmas Eve – Joy’s birthday. Thank you!
Joy was gifting things and showing up all around…she felt to be orchestrating all of the things I encountered and like the dream of her I had a couple of weeks ago that had pointed my attention to listen…I was!!! As it was my ears that made me hear the very subtle munching of grass that got my attention to stop, turn, and see the three of them surrounded by trees that camouflaged them to others.
And it is my ears that will also hear the Galactic and Cosmic tones of alignment speaking through my heart to guide me forth.
I love when the dots get connected.
That day also continued with a light lunch and I had a virgin mojito (since I don’t drink) on the beach, a stroll, and dipping my feet in the ocean…so I now had cleansed my Pisces essence (as feet are connected to the sign of Pisces in medical astrology) in the creek and the Pacific. A way of purifying and rebirthing, like a christening into a new me.
It was on the beach that also I found two heart shaped smooth stones (after intending I’d like to find one)…one of which has a “T” etched in it for Tania, Tiny, and Tiny Tim (the nicknames of Joy and Cosmo). And of course a lovely feather also made its way to me, as the bird tribe is so active these days!
Speaking of, as mentioned the hawk appeared at the site of the Mayan glyph on the cliff where I was connecting with it, but hawks were abound the whole trip in numbers too high to count.
But alongside deer, I also had coyote and road runner medicine show up. The coyote crossed the creek at Inn of the Seventh Ray where we had our Christmas Eve dinner/Joy and sister-in-law’s birthday celebration dinner at. The restaurant is in the canyon set amidst the trees, creek, and mountain, so nature is all around. I felt the coyote showing up was indicative of sacred teachings coming to light around paradoxes, especially since after dinner while we headed home, which was only two minutes away (convenient!), we saw coyote cross the road again. And roadrunner tried to cross the road in front of our car while I was driving on another day, but it darted back to safety once I’d seen him and told him to be careful! 🙂
And as mentioned, we enjoyed tons of good food and indulged ourselves at different restaurants all over…some old and some new places…all super yum. Meals, desserts and all.
And we had the chance to connect with a few friends one evening for a Christmas dinner at Cafe Gratitude – perfect place/name for all the overload of loving gratitude felt.
I was beaming with “Joy”.
Our trip happened to coincide with Dave’s dad having just gone into the hospital for major spinal surgery and so we were able to have a nice uplifting visit with him at Huntington Hospital on Friday and were grateful he was released on Christmas day so that we could spend a nice evening again having the family surrounding him in love to support his healing.
We had a mix of time to ourselves, time with some friends, and time with family enjoying the best of nature and city all around, returning to both of our old stomping grounds in Santa Monica and on the pier to relive exact experiences and photos from the past, duplicated in the now, like me kissing the golden dolphin, and even came across an Alice in Wonderland Christmas tree complete with White Rabbit tea party, but all filled with lots of love, warmth, connection, and sacredness.
Our last evening on Christmas ended with play time with our niece, Violet, after opening gifts (she received a giant pink unicorn because every princess needs one), including her teaching me and her mom a dance, which Dave video’d (I would totally have posted it, but it’s way too large and was done via his cell phone).
It seemed like the perfect conclusion to the weekend with the message of dancing my heart out through this new chapter of my life, just as sweet little Violet does, and of taking everything with lightness of heart, as life is meant to be joyous, playful and not so serious.
There is a time and place for it all and balancing wisdom with innocence creates harmony.
The weekend was full of themes like inner child wonder, nurturing, living life fully in each moment, the true meaning of love, values highlighted, eternal connections, guiding support always being around, and magick, of course.
And upon returning home, a stunning sunset welcomed us back and impressed it all upon my heart more so.
As I sit here watching the snow gently fall, creating magick all around me, I am in gratitude of the cycles and seasons of life that have brought me to this very moment. I’m also in awe of the perfection of this sweetness falling from the heavens like powdered sugar, in perfect creation of what will be a potent and memorable day. This Winter Solstice has been chosen by my beloved Cosmo as the day to spread some of his ashes upon the lake to join in alchemy with Joy’s and Nestor’s, igniting a sacred wave of shifts abound.
Other things are also taking place today and ending/beginning, so I will be reflecting upon and adding energy to the magickal brew a-stirring.
Today marks another new cycle and change of seasons as we welcome in the Winter Solstice (for the Northern Hemisphere and Summer Solstice for the Southern Hemisphere). This brings the end of the old year’s cycle, as we begin anew, and provides a supportive time to make leaps in consciousness by moving within to shine your light, as the light lessens on this shortest day/longest night of the year (or longest day of the year for you Southern Hemisphere folks).
We’ve been continuing to clear in preparation for new and more natural ways of living from our highest and likely you’ve been experiencing heightened awareness of all things in your life through varying ways of experiencing these, relative to each, and coming to feel more self alignment and merging taking place.
This is creating an upsurge of excitement, as you feel the energy field welcoming you into your truth more than ever.
Where ever you are in your journey, is perfect, and likely you have that sense, even if moving through the “ick” still, that there’s something different this time in the experience.
I simply would encourage you to let go, do what ever you can to maintain your own inner balance and harmony so that you can vibrate at your own relaxed and natural personal frequency, and compassionately realize that you are different than everyone else and therefore you only need to exercise your own sovereign free will and lovingly allow them to do the same.
More and more you will be experiencing, embodying, and emanating so much more light, which is not to be feared, but to be celebrated.
Through this Winter Solstice “gateway” you can be mindful of this turn of seasons to be more soul driven and may feel called to take some moments to honor this flowing change of life cycles. Perhaps creating a special sacred space or ritual act to honor the “return of light” that this Solstice is reminding us.
Candles and crystals come to mind when I think of ways you might symbolically create that space, or perhaps simply envisioning and imagining (imagination is a powerful tool) the light and inner fire of your heart and soul expanding and filling your entire body and emanating out and joining with the light of our Great Central Sun, allowing yourself to take up more space and be who you really are.
Winter Solstice provides a supportive time to honor the remembrance of light that you are, for making those leaps in consciousness by moving within to shine your own light, and to “see the light” even when things get dark and you’re unsure of what to do, where to go, or even how to think or feel.
There is so much potential available to each of you and it is up to each individual how you choose to embrace this or not. It’s an opportunity to completely reinvent yourself and your life and to do things more differently than ever before, which will take the courage of being willing to shine your light even if no one else around you is.
Childhood memories of myself as a ballerina and the passion I expressed through me with dance brings depth to the meaning of today’s “rebirthing of the Light” and life and spirit.
We all have the opportunity to courageously be born again like a seed of light, as we deepen into the stillness of the dark.
There is much hope and promise within remembering the heart of who I am and what was alive within me as a child. Some of what I/we may have forgotten.
There’s an integration that takes place and frees me even more when I reclaim those parts of my essence.
What this means to me is that what ever it is I do take action to bring forth in my life, the little girl within me will be dancing her heart out while doing it, as the dream is the reality I choose to live and nothing less than that.
Wishing you a liberating and enlightening Winter Solstice.
May your courage deepen and the creative impetus of transformation shine brightly within you.
Yesterday we made our way down to Reno to share the day, warmth, cheer, and decadent delights with my family. It also proved quite auspicious. It’s nice to be close to them again to visit and especially so around holidays, as my parents are known for decorating the house in festive magick throughout. They are definitely the parents of a Faery, harnessing their own creative and artist alchemy to beautify and create dreamy realms that echo the heart of one’s inner child.
The photos here are but a tiny sample of how things were decorated, as they had splashes of autumn beauty everywhere.
From moment of entering their own mini castle in their little oasis sitting between two mountain ranges next to a wash and with their own season mini creek bed amidst their Faery yard, you feel and smell the welcome of entering into a place that nurtures the heart.
We shared a lovely day, enjoyed a huge feast both mom and dad prepared, followed by dad’s gourmet baked goods all made with love. They always make us everything vegan too.
The rest of the day was filled with conversation, naps for some with full tummies before dessert, and lots of metaphysical talk, and Tarot and homemade Rune fun, as we delved into explorations in both.
And we topped it all off with dad’s apple and pumpkin pie.
I marveled over how magickal the piece on my plate lit up with sparkly Faery dust and crystalline light.
Curiously, I had brought my small laptop with me, feeling like I wanted to share just the beginning of my book I’m writing with my mom, which would be the first time anyone but myself and those helping to channel it would hear it.
But apparently it was not the time even to share a glimpse of it with anyone, as when I pulled it out to do so, my computer wouldn’t turn on. The battery was completely drained, which has never happened before that quickly. And I did not bring my charger.
I got the message. It was still not time for it’s reveal.
And this occurred on a day that was filled with potent symbolism and messages leading up to arriving to my parent’s house.
Within a short span of about 35 minutes I’d seen 27 hawks. That’s incredible! They just popped up everywhere I turned. So many variety too. Some perched in trees, at the edge of meadows, on light posts, and a few flying straight at the car. All of them very very close, so I could see the full detail of their feathers, colors, faces, and incredibly powerful bodies. Each one, as if time stood still and locked in on them with a zoom lens and pause into timelessness. Amazing!
It was like an armada of sentinels and felt to be messengers from the Cosmos and my star family.
And, in the midst of the hawks, which are one of my main spirit guides, I also saw one most beautiful barn owl, which is my favorite owl and is part of my life path from here forward.
This incredible owl had unfortunately transitioned, but with such a beautiful, peaceful expression full of grace on its face. Her head turned, facing me directly.
And once again, time stood still, zoom took place locking in on her face, and another timeless pause so that she is etched in my mind’s eye.
This all felt powerfully meaningful for my life right now and what I’m involved in.
And then this morning as I was enjoying my favorite apple dumpling, my dad had made for us to bring back home, for breakfast with a homemade latte, I looked up and another incredible sighting appeared over Lake Tahoe’s portal directly in front of me where I sat at my computer.
An Arcturian symbol was etched in the sky, hovering over the Sierra Nevada Range, specifically over Mt. Tallac. This is a symbol of their main starship and one I wear in a sacred tattoo.
This is all no coincidence.
Something is afoot and it feels incredibly alchemical and much support is all around.
And so I continue forward and keep my senses on all-time high to be with what is unfolding.
There are messages everywhere and the more we open to presence and embrace, while expanding our perspectives, the more we see and receive them.
Not your completely typical Thanksgiving, but it fused Earth and Cosmos, physical and ethereal, nurturing comforts and expansive alchemy, human and star essence….my kind of celebration of life with the best of both worlds.
Every morning provides you the opportunity to begin again…to face the day, your life, with an even more open heart and to breathe from the sacred seat of your soul. The sky is swathed in blankets of pink around your inner child’s most cherished dreams…dreams that expand before you and breathe with innocent wonder, inviting your nurtured embrace into the field of possibilities. Come dance in the realm of imagination and dream your wishes alive.
Embrace your innocence and experience life directly and clearly, as it is in the delight of this moment.
Let go of how things “should” be and enjoy what “IS”.
I’v been embracing my innocence with some fun painting side projects, simply for the sake of creating and channeling what ever my inner child wants to express.
What does your inner child want to share with you today?
Approach her or him with curiosity and gentle love to see what pure expression you can assist them in sharing with you and the world that will bring more sunshine into your heart.
“Have you ever seen the dawn? Not a dawn groggy with lack of sleep or hectic with mindless obligations and you about to rush off on an early adventure or business, but full of deep silence and absolute clarity of perception? A dawning which you truly observe, degree by degree. It is the most amazing moment of birth. And more than anything it can spur you to action. Have a burning day.” ~Vera Nazarian
I realized yesterday how potent today – Valentine’s Day – and the energy surrounding this day has been over the last couple of years for me and my little ones with big souls.
And while I shared February’s Newsletter last evening, which focused on the importance and value of self love and individual expression, I know that my beautiful animal companion partners have been instrumental in helping me to discover the layers of myself to love.
As I shared in my newsletter, “it just so happens that things have aligned to create Valentine’s Day as my day of falling in love with myself in a renewed way….celebrating a rekindling of my relationship to myself on a whole new level, as well as beginning a transition into another leg of my journey with shifts of focus and romancing my soul’s essence in a new dance of life.”
That dance of life couldn’t have been possible without my sweet loves and the precious and valuable reflections they have gifted me. Their soul journeys and the energy they carry have been the alchemy of my life.
And, this day – Valentine’s Day – one year ago was the beginning of Cosmo and Joy’s dance together, uniting the Sacred Masculine and Feminine energies that reflected for me the union within myself I was also ready to embrace and empower.
It is so interesting to see how throughout my life I mostly had only female animal companions.
I had only one other male energy – my first male rabbit, Twinkie, but for only three months of my life before he left this Earth. He began my journey, holding that point for me on the path, reminding me I would need to revisit his energy again when I was ready.
But it appears I needed to work with the Feminine energy first, as the collective has been doing too.
And so every dear companion after Twinkie was female – all of my parakeets and then of course Nestor, Gaia, and Joy.
It wasn’t until Cosmo that the Sacred Masculine returned…when I was ready to unite those parts in a new way within myself.
As it isn’t just about the Feminine focus. We cannot forget the Masculine and we will need revisit the Male energy to integrate both in their highest potential and purity, for wholeness.
This is the symbolism of divine love through divine union of both parts to create harmony.
And Joy and Cosmo’s journey has mirrored the energies I’ve been working on within myself, simultaneously. All of what has taken place couldn’t have been possible if we hadn’t been ready to integrate the next layers.
On this day, February 14th, 2015, in Big Bear,which was Joy and Cosmo’s first travels together, they shared their first and very long, peaceful nose-to-nose connection, which is what you see in this photo below.
And since that day, it’s been the most beautiful love connection filled with mutual respect, honor, tenderness, and warmth, which evolved into this not long after:
I can’t believe both that it’s already been a year, but that it’s only been a year!
It seems like an eternal love we have shared together across time.
And speaking of love across time…I’ve had Gaia on my mind a lot recently, finding myself connecting with the Tortoise/Turtle energy and using it as example for a lot of things I talk about….”slow and steady like the turtle” I often find myself saying…or “going within like the turtle”.
I then yesterday got struck with the realization of a very poignant and memorable experience that happened with Gaia, two years ago yesterday.
On February 13th, 2014 I shared this story about Gaia, Tattoos, Lapis Lazuli & Expansive Shifts ~ The Journey Continues
And in the story was a recounting of what took place right before Gaia went into the Earth for good, and back to her expansive self without a body. I realized just yesterday the magnitude of that moment we shared now with ever greater meaning that at the time had a different meaning.
Now I understand Gaia was saying much more than a farewell for now, as since she did not return, she was actually soulfully sharing her eternal love and gratitude across space and time until our return to each other in spirit one day.
Here is the excerpt from my post of that experience we shared:
“I’d like to finish this post with the most endearing, amazing, and precious moment of reverence and love I’ve had with Gaia – I’m tearing up right now writing this. The depth of meaning to all that has been unfolding and that does in my daily life, in general, I can’t possibly express. Yet, I know many of you understand in your own unique ways with all that you experience. So some things are simply left unsaid.
This special experience happened this morning. Since Gaia returned, we washed her up and brought her indoors. The first evening she spent on her heating blanket, then fell asleep on the cold tile, likely needing to moderate her body temperature back in stages. She remained out of it and still not eating. Next morning she spent on her heating blanket and still no food, but later during Reiki training, she came marching through and made her way to my office and I later found her asleep under the bottom of my wall tapestry of Faery Queen Astranaithes – also known as the magickal Dragon Witch.
This morning when she woke up I brought her to her heating blanket and then put out some more food. This time she went to it and slowly ate several bites, taking her time to assimilate it. Then I watched what she wanted to do next, as I made smoothies and golden raisin, cinnamon scones in the kitchen. I saw her walk toward the door to the yard and looked at it, then went back to her heating blanket. I had a feeling she wanted back outside.
I went to go sit with her and check in. And this is when the most magickal moment happened.
I won’t be able to explain the magnitude, but I’ll just share what I experienced. I sat there with my hand, palm facing up, next to her, as I telepathically spoke to her. My hand started heating up like when I do Reiki and then Gaia slowly reached her right, front leg up and forward, letting it come to rest across my index and middle fingers where they connect to my palm. And she kept it there, as she then turned her neck towards me and stretched it as far as she could, looking me directly in my eyes, while we sat there – “holding hands”.
I was overcome with emotions hearing her saying thank you for everything, for trusting, and supporting her. All of the mutual respect, honor, gratitude and love we have shared through the ages all washed over us both in those minutes and we also were clear on how this journey would need to continue. I understood.
We were not only a human with her tortoise companion – leg in hand, but we were two souls meeting in our wholeness, as we recognized everything in that moment that was us and beyond us.
Tears rolled, as she then reached forward into my hand with her left, front leg and then slowly put half her body in my hand while again stretching to look up at me, asking me to lift and hold her up, as she once did for me. I held her to my heart and then knew she wanted back outside and wanted me to carry her there. I can share that Gaia has returned to the depths of Gaia – our connection and understanding deepened in mirror to the depths she will be traveling.”
I did not know then that our next meeting would be beyond this Earth experience.
And now I understand.
I understand so much more than I once have and that has come through the love and connection I share with my dear little ones.
Gaia, Joy, Cosmo, and Nestor have been my soul companions on a journey back to myself.
We have each supported one another and continue to do so regardless of being on or off Earth.
I have such a deep reverence for these souls that moves me beyond words. What they have helped me to uncover within myself could only have been through these bonds we shared.
I am deeply grateful they chose to show up with me again, this time around, as they/we knew it would be through our bond that I would evolve and work through my layers, just as I could support them with their journeys.
I have learned that love – the kind that is beyond physical love and walks the path of cosmic expansive love – is often the guiding force that trumps responsibility when we are challenged with doing what we know.
It’s no wonder that the souls in animal bodies would be the instruments to my soul’s evolution.
They know the way to my heart and my inner soul child.
And it is that heart and soul of the child within that has been the key all along.
The purity that resides there is the only mission I am driven to protect and express.
This is my little ones’ message for me…stand in the power, love, and purity of my innocence no matter what happens and takes place, for that is the sacred mystery that we seek.
And in order to do so I am my own mother and father…my own male and female partners…my own lover…my own friend…nurturing, guiding, loving, and supporting that innocence of being to sing her song she carries within her energetic signature.
Your inner soul child is simply wanting to be heard. And being heard, actually entails you have taken to heart what he or she says, and make a new commitment to do at least one small thing each day to support the requests.
These requests aren’t simply whims, but reflect a deeper knowing that will likely surpass your ability in the now to comprehend, but if you take the trustful steps to support them and do what it takes to integrate what could be of assistance to that process, the results will bless you beyond measure of any one thing you feel lacking and have been chasing after.
A new kind of clarity and understanding is available to each of us. It will awaken and shift you the instant you recognize and embrace it. And it will always keep you in check so as to alert you of imbalances where you can then make different choices that will harmonize and return that balance that is so needed for everything to flourish.
This will also help you to become more attuned to the natural world that will move you in divine cycles, rather than struggling against them to create artificial ones.
So, where are the barriers to your self love?
Removing the veils and masks will help you to be real about how you feel, not hiding behind what you think you “should” be feeling, saying, or showing to others.
If you can’t be genuine with something – and you know when you’re not – then take time to explore what’s behind that.
This is a time for opening up and expanding into more authentic love and compassion for self, others, and all of life.
Make this Valentine’s Day be the day of romancing YOUR soul’s essence in a new dance of life.