Everything evolves whether we flow with that or not and my way with this is to go with the current, rather than fight it. Some have been inquisitive about all of my changes and dropping services and channels of my expression over the last couple of years, which may have seen to come on suddenly, but in fact has been a natural evolution. I still field requests about services I used to offer, as there’s no way to delete info completely off the web, but the way to close doors is to know my boundaries and move fully into the new. I know when the time is up on something, as there will be a shift of energy in the reservoir of my heart that speaks louder than any outside element. While I’m grateful for interest in things I have offered, that does not reflect to me what my heart knows is best. There’s no amount of money or praise that can make me do what is against my inner knowing.
And right now, I’m being asked to challenge myself in new ways that not only speak deeply to my current heart’s joy, but raise my own vibration by stepping out of comfort zones and being willing to embrace growing pains.
I’ve reflected this week on the gift teaching has been to my life and how much I was taught in the process. It is one of the most life-changing experiences I’ve gone through and one of the most meaningful in terms of things I’ve done up until now. It completely shifted me into a whole new vibration, but it also brought full circle closure to a soul path I’ve been on for lifetimes.
The workshops and retreats I’ve put my heart fully into have been such beautiful experiences and truly brought out the best in me by vulnerably putting myself into a place of learning in the moment, and helped me to see myself through a different lens, while growing exponentially.
I was moved to joyful tears in seeing faces of everyone in photos from some of our workshops and retreats and knowing where they are now and how lucky I am to call these incredible people friends. Teaching connected me to soul family and I know that was a big part of a lot of the things I have done, to bring us together in the perfect alignment that would ignite remembrance within for all.
It makes these last three workshops I’ll be teaching, bitter sweet and yet perfect full circle gifts. I’m in awe of the people I have had opportunity to be in connection with and to witness the blossoming that has taken place for each. I’m grateful to have been able to walk with each of you for some small part of your lives. I’ve only seen who each person really is and not the stories that first walked in the door.
I’m looking forward to these last workshops for many reasons and will post reminders until their registration dates end, or they fill completely.
Here are the updates on availability:
As of right now there are officially only 3 spaces remaining in our Reiki 1 & 2 workshop on June 23rd. I do have 2 potentials, so there’s possibility of that filling. If you’ve wanted to join as a past student to review, you’ll need to let me know as well by June 9th.
Reiki 3 Master Teacher isn’t until August 25th, but pre-registration is July 4th to keep in mind for discounts. There are a couple of new students intending to register and a review student, so just something to keep in mind.
However, although the Fall Equinox workshop “Living a More Magickal Life” co-taught with Laura Bruno isn’t until September 22nd, it IS officially a quarter full already and may move faster. Pre-registration is June 21st to keep in mind for discounts. I sense a lot percolating for this workshop beyond what we’ve described in the details, as I’m listening to what is most pertinent to bring forth for this last workshop. Sure to be potent and filled with cosmic surprises.
It’s been a huge honor to support authentic empowerment, awareness, the raising of vibrations, and to help spread healing love and greater compassion via this channel. I look forward to meeting everyone who feels called to join us.
As you know, I’ve gone into a form of retirement in many ways and unknown hiatus in others with much of what I used to do and offer as services, in order to fully embrace the new path calling to me and to focus my time and energy in resonance to my heart. At first it was hard to say “no” to all of the emails and requests that came in, but became easy as I fully aligned all parts of me through the new doorway, with none left behind.
I’ve been receiving a lot of requests for services I used to offer, especially while I was away this last trip, but none resonate except for the possibility of teaching Reiki and the upcoming Fall 11/11 new magickal workshop, tba, co-facilitated with my Reiki Master Teacher Laura Bruno.
I taught a private Reiki 1 & 2 Accelerated workshop last summer here in Tahoe up in our treehouse and am considering to offer it again this Spring and/or Summer.
This will not be a regular thing, as it once used to be, but perhaps more of a seasonal or limited offering to just a small amount of workshops each year that I feel open to teaching. Maybe even just one workshop of each level offered, once a year. We’ll see.
That’s what feels most doable and resonant for me with all the new I have going on, while still supporting a wave of shifts and acceleration that the collective is going through.
This means that rather than offer private workshops, there will only be group ones available, as I haven’t the ability to set up a bunch of days and times to fit individual needs. This also synchronously creates more commitment and responsibility on everyone’s parts to show up and make a life-changing choice.
So, if you are a local to Lake Tahoe or are wanting to travel and enjoy Lake Tahoe’s beauty and magick, while receiving your certification, please let me know.
Options are Reiki 1 alone, Reiki 1 & 2 Accelerated (which I normally teach), and Reiki 3 Master Teacher workshops. I’ll see what people are interested in, in terms of if I’ll offer Reiki 1 & 2 separately or together, as I used to do. Being that people may be traveling, the combined workshop might end up the best option, regardless.
Anyway, just putting that out there and of course Laura and I are still tuning in to what we might offer on 11/11 of this year. So much keeps shifting for the two of us, it’s really hard to make that commitment to any one thing right now. But thank you to everyone who has expressed interest. We will be getting back to you with an announcement just as soon as we know ourselves.
FYI: Any of these workshops, both the Reiki and co-facilitated one, will require pre-registration, once we settle on dates and details, as it takes a lot to put together events like this and commitment is part of empowerment.
If you haven’t already noticed, I’m a bit bunny crazy and the bunny energy just keeps multiplying, as rabbits do! My birthday gifts were full of bunnies (including a sweet donation to Save A Bunny in my honor and the White Rabbit ensemble pictured here), but I spent a low-key hoppy birthday week mixed with nurturing and reflection. I also experienced a big energy hop where things intensified on my birthday and then released a couple of days after, in alignment with the Virgo Full Moon. Since Astrid is a Virgo, there is definitely bunny synchronicity going on there too and I noticed some different behaviors in her as well.
As I mentioned in my last post sharing Lee’s Energy Update for March, I’ve been profusely immersed in the themes he speaks of – innovation and creativity – constantly feeling this impulse to create whether it’s baking up a storm (perhaps quite literally as we are in the midst of a 3-day snow blizzard), rearranging and decorating my office some more (will share that fun stuff in an upcoming post), transplanting and planting succulent fun, shifting my wardrobe, getting more clarity on the new directions I’m going and things I’m feeling called to implement, and finalizing the editing of my book (this last go around really shifting it the most yet).
It’s like my wellspring of creative energy is wanting any outlet possible, so I’m both going with that flow, but also being mindful of directing my energies so they don’t get too diluted. I know I have that tendency and am nipping it in the bud so that I can remain efficient with my intents and that Cappy energy wanting focus.
Virgo’s Full Moon yesterday kicked in a snow storm here and we’re already at, now, 2-3 feet at our 6600 elevation with more on the way today and tomorrow. We’re finally getting a true Tahoe winter and a late winter, as I predicted. A perfect send-off for fun snow shoeing out our backyard forest and skiing before we head to Arizona next week and our camping/trekking adventure in the Grand Canyon. Incidentally, I learned from KC, aka Bean, that the Grand Canyon’s 99th birthday as a National Park was on my birthday. Isn’t that a coinky dink?
But back to that energy shift briefly, I definitely think the Virgo energy was triggering the perfect alchemy in my Pisces counterpart, as I felt an influx of anxiety that was a mix of excitement and scary. I feel it was the realization of having tipped the scales and now am off the edge of the cliff with no turning back and it’s all about trusting what I’m feeling to do despite having no reference for it and no knowledge of outcome.
Incidentally, I was out driving two days ago, before the storm, to pick up some packages at our P.O. Box and the car in front of me had the licence plate, “TRUST.”
I wanted to snap a photo, but kept my hands safely on the wheel and instead voiced a thank you for the supportive message at the perfect time.
I was prompted to go even deeper into more levels and knowing that my Pisces self needs to implement full devoted Virgo well-being of self through fulfillment of my personal expression of “mission” for lack of a better word that I feel compelled to manifest. Although I knew this and have been on this path, all of my parts are helping me to ground deeper since I’ll be needing all the backbone strengthening possible for a spineless fish to move into the platforms I feel called to and the amount of empathic exposure and scrutiny I may be exposed to…a pretty big feat when you have to build and manifest what was never there, but not impossible! I’ve been working on that my whole life and this energy simply called for extra attention, which Astrid is so wonderfully assisting with for the bigger work I’m about to commit to. This was why the anxious feelings popped through, as Virgo energy can bring up these “what if’s?” about the future. It was a check-in and a review of “is this really what I want?”
In the end, I found my answer could only be “yes,” otherwise I have no reason to continue on here.
This Virgo Full Moon definitely turns our attention to how we manage our lives and to let go of that need to control everything, so that instead we can surrender to the fostering of our dreams through heart magick. This includes letting go of how and when those dreams manifest so that they do in a way that is for the highest good of all concerned.
The Virgo Full Moon also calls up our sensitivities and we may be easily triggered emotionally. As long as we understand what this truly is about, we can then take a breath and a pause to sink deeper into responding instead of reacting.
The Virgo Full Moon also helps us align with things most authentically in resonance so that we see what no longer serves us and our highest purpose and potentials. We can then let these go with love, knowing that anything less than supportive is simply harmful. If we allow others to drag us into chaotic dramas, this will only lower our vibration and create a feeding ground for more. Maintain your vibration above all else…I experienced this for an hour or two and was so proud of myself in turning what in the past would have taken me weeks or months, into a more profound barrier of “not on my watch.” Be grateful for these opportunities, rather than seeing them as weaknesses. You have the power to create alchemy at any moment through realization.
The Virgo Full Moon can draw up critical self examination and yet wants us to constructively love our parts as perfection in the puzzle of our personal tapestry of life.
So, it has been a profound and powerful birthday week here and I’m experiencing a further deepening into what it is I’m really doing here with the creative heart work I’m feeling called to.
And that leads to a fun and magickal announcement of potential, perfectly aligned with Virgo energy of service grounded in well-being for all.
Laura posted her workshops for March, which includes a possible workshop with me.
Yes, I may be coming out of my temporary teaching retirement for a co-creative and potent event.
And yes, it seems we’re feeling called for another in-person activation together, which is a rare event in and of itself…so a workshop will be quite something.
As Laura mentions, we are planning a visit for this Fall and seeing how there’s a potent alignment happening at the time we’re feeling, this could bring our long-felt brewing and percolating thoughts about co-hosting a workshop finally into manifestation.
We’re still feeling this out and what will be offered, but are putting it out there so you can share your feelings and thoughts as well.
Possible topics percolating, but not limited to, are “Faeries, Manifestation, Manifesting with the Faeries, Tuning into Nature, Everyday Magick, or some other inspiration TBA.” I have some other ideas evolving as well.
It would be held on 11/11/11, as 2018 is an 11/2 year at our magickal Forest Portal here in Lake Tahoe at an address that numerologically equals an 11 as well. Talk about potent.
This visit and workshop will be full circle for us, as this is where we first met – the Tahoe/Reno area – and everything we’ve gone through together first began, including my receiving Reiki Master Teacher training from her and many an adventure – oh my! Quite the energy activation in store we sense.
If this interests you, please let us know. Simply send a message via the link here.
Either way, we’re excited for this visit and look forward to the adventure of rewriting a new reality from this potent portal.
In a paraphrased version of my favorite Willy Wonka quote:
The suspenseful possibilities of what might open are terrible 😉 I hope it lasts.
It was a long time coming for Laura and I to reconnect in the Faery flesh – what seemed like nearly 6 years – but last week saw the end to that physical separation drought, as we came together in Goshen, IN.
We share that rare kind of friendship that has no “needyness” and yet we are also so close that we never feel the distance despite hardly ever having spent much in-person time together over the years.
We are in constant connection telepathically, via text and email, and the very very random phone time, however, our connection just increases. For us both, we cherish the kind of friendships that honor our independent natures and yet support the unique oddities we each have and desire from our relationships.
That said, it was so, so nice to be in the flesh together again – the longest we’ve spent actually in person ever. Not to mention, it was definitely potent, tons of giggly fun, refreshingly healing, and deeply activating.
Originally, I had intended to share a very full account of our time together, which would have included quite the photo journal. However, Divine flow had something else in store for embrace, which to me mirrors much of the themes we reflected upon, as well as spoke to keeping some of that magick and our special times close to heart and within our own experience.
Both Laura and I are quite open with our lives in the public, and yet we both commented on how amazingly nourishing it was to be with each other solely and completely cut off from the outside world and work, to create “us” time for once, without any agenda whatsoever.
We both honor and respect one another, understanding the flow of giving and receiving and never put each other to work or take unconscious or conscious advantage of one another’s gifts. So we are actually able to have true fun and play time together, and be mutually supportive without ever feeling drained – only recharged and renewed.
And that’s a rare thing to experience for us!
Although we are pretty public with a lot of things, we do in fact keep portions of our lives sacredly personal, and so when more than half of my photos mysteriously disappeared, I felt it was a message to keep that sacredness in tact and to be able to have some small portion of our lives kept just to us.
This also mirrors what is individually happening in my own life, but I will save that for a soon-to-come, separate post, as I’d like to dedicate this one to the cherished soulship Laura and I share, and to her Birthday energy we were celebrating alongside our Faery reunion.
That said, I will share some of the highlights and a general overview, as we are both always aware of how our individual experiences are collectively connected and know that there are things that are actually supportive in a service way to share, while the rest is energetically shared, despite not literally talking about it.
My journey to Laura began in flawless and synchronous flow, without any retrograde fun trying to create mischief. We’ve both learned to embrace and flow with the energies so we are relatively unaffected by them, or easily shift to match them so that challenges become more like launching boards to kick major, life-affirming shifts into play.
Perhaps the magickal flow was aided by a little bit of pixie dust sparkle, raw triple quartz and moss ring, life-enhancing spells, sacred tattoos, and a lot of peace, as I just so also happened to be wearing a butterfly peace shirt that says “love this life” on the front with a long beautiful expression of what that means on the back, a crowned rabbit and runes necklaces, a “peace starts with hoodie”, and sparkle shoes. I’m all about creating your own magick!
So my travels were smooth with driver arriving early to get me to the airport, arriving to Los Angeles (LAX) airport in 30 minutes (usually takes 45 without traffic and who knows how many hours with traffic), my plane arriving 20 minutes early to my destination of Chicago, immediately finding my bus stop with ease, being asked if I was a student at Notre Dame (nice little compliment for a 42 year-old), and Laura’s partner, David, surprisingly getting off work early so that with a small delay on the freeway with traffic, our timing aligned perfectly when I arrived at my stop for them to pick me up with only 5 minutes of wait time that I used to make a phone call to my mom and dad to say I arrived safely. 🙂
Indeed this set the tone of synchronous alignment and flow for the week.
I did at first feel like Dorothy in Kansas, although I was Tania in Indiana…it felt surreal. I couldn’t quite place where I was energetically, and the odd silence without anyone at the terminal of the airport I was dropped off at, nor around outside, had me feeling like I’d stepped into Stephen King’s “The Tommyknockers” for a moment, feeling like I was in another dimension about to be gobbled up, where time was suspended and/or fleeting.
For a moment on the bus I had also felt like I was in the Twilight Zone, as I’d dozed off for a second, which felt like forever with my getting up at 3 am that morning, waking to looking behind me and not seeing anyone on the bus after we kept spiraling around these connecting ramps to other highways, one after another. Apparently everyone had sunken into their seats asleep, but it sure did give me a quick jolt into another reality for a second.
And another reality was exactly what we created together last week, as we spent most of our time at the Faery Cottage Laura and David live in, chatting away like Faeries on a flower-high.
I was so delighted to find the tapestry spread I had gifted Laura years back, covering the bed I’d be Faery dreaming away in for the week. This tapestry is very special to us, as it embodies the two of us so perfectly, entwined in winged magick. The left Faery is black-haired and tattooed, while the right Faery is red-haired and tattoo-free. Seem like anyone you might know?
It was so much fun to be able to catch up, share, giggle, joke, talk about some of our favorite things like food, gardens, rabbits, and magick, chuckle at the overlapping synchronicities in our lives that are more than uncanny, and adventure into the new together, which all created a potent, percolating energy that naturally was processing and activating simply by our engaging our energies together.
We got to share the rare time of late mornings and even afternoons in our jammies, late nights up talking away, tons of super yummy and nourishing raw vegan and vegan food daily (I was so spoiled by both Laura and David preparing everything and by the garden fresh additions to each meal and smoothie just newly harvested by Laura each day), and Faery tea time with delish Reishi tea.
I also got to meet Laura’s David (we both have David/Dave partners in our lives who each incidentally used to go by the other’s version of their name) for the first time, which was so lovely. We just picked up as if we’d known each other for years (which in fact we do 😉 ) and we were all giddy to learn just how much overlap of shared, synchronous things we all four have. I was especially grateful and happy that I now have a brother whom I love dearly!
I was also lucky enough to receive a tour of Goshen highlights from their friend Jerry who had access to show Laura and I all of the cool new artsy things going on in town including an amazing old theater renovation, a live music venue and old vinyl store, Goshen Art House, a new Brewery (not that I drink, but one of the ways Goshen is cultivating into more of a destination spot that already is considered one of the top 10 places for music bands loving to perform at), and all the cutting-edge things being created to draw in the artsy and eclectic crowds.
I also got to visit the indoor Farmer’s Market where we picked up a few things including some gifts for me to bring back to Dave – Indiana Maple syrup (courtesy of Laura for Dave) and a very interesting Espresso Pumpkin Ketchup I got him. There’s a funny story behind that one, but needless to say I took a chance at getting it and I have to say, he WAS right. It is actually really good!
There was a couple of visits to the local Co-Op – Maple City Market – which has a ton of great stuff. I was pleasantly surprised at the array of vegan items, which of course we enjoyed several of.
More than once we shared some Hail Merry Miracle Tarts, which are these amazing raw vegan mini pies in an assortment of flavors. We have them here too, but I hadn’t tried all of them. However, between the ones we had while I visited, and the ones I bought when I got back home because I was still wanting to drag out our amazing time together with a little pie nostalgia, I have now tasted them all. LOL!!
I also got to experience Hemp Tofu for the first time, which is super yum! I love this because I’m allergic to soy, and I found the texture really “meaty”. I don’t know if I just hadn’t seen them at our market here, but of course you know when I was picking up Hail Merry’s I also got all three of the different flavored hemp tofu’s too when I got back! Hehe.
And, I suggested to try my favorite Mint Chip coconut vegan ice cream, which I’m happy to say was a hit for all of us. So much so we devoured two containers over the course of two different evenings, which was mmm mmm good.
Needless to say, I was well-fed and had a very happy tummy that didn’t shy at seconds of everything there was the opportunity to have seconds on. 🙂 I was on vacation afterall! And when you’re moving energy like Laura and I do, you don’t pack on anything. But that also happens when you’re eating healthy food and not fussing over worries like that. We both dropped some energetic weight despite all the goodness going in.
And that definitely continued as the theme throughout our week together, as we engaged in increasingly potent talks about everything under the sun from Elves to ET’s, that built up to doing extended 9-card Sacred Spiral Tarot readings for one another with a unique Sacred Body Wisdom deck, a two-round Reiki Healing Attunement session for the four of us (us and our guys), and ending with a wowzers, magickal ceremony complete with Faery altar activated with a potent crystal wand.
We knew we were moving the energy, not just because we felt it, but immediate things happened around us and with our loved ones, things manifested for each of us despite our disconnect from the outside world momentarily, magickal things appeared when we stepped outside, we had interesting dreams, and I even activated my kundalini energy in my tailbone (temporarily painful before freeing release), while we both got head/third eye aches.
All dissipating overnight and opening into a new lightness.
We even got a visit from a lovely friend of theirs and her newborn, which was truly a delight. We both felt like the two Faery Godmothers of the Faery Cottage sitting side by side on the couch, as we energetically supported this lovely new Faery into the world and her very sweet mother.
And I DID get a little Gardening 101 from Laura! Yay!
We spent one afternoon planting new goodies, overseen by a Robin, black Squirrel, giant Bumble Bee, and a tiny baby Bunny.
I did the watering (being a water Faery), while Laura did the planting (being a triple Earth Faery), while we talked and giggled in between Laura’s master-minding the garden plan all in that fantastic brain of hers that envisions realities yet seen, but that ARE. 😉
And speaking of bunnies, I had so hoped to see a bunny in the garden while visiting Laura, as she had mentioned them before. Not only was I gifted the little one on our gardening day, but later in the week we drove up to find a momma rabbit nursing her 8 – 9 little babies!
THAT was incredibly potent in symbolism and quite the magickal gift. I had never seen a mother rabbit and her babies in the wild, let alone nursing them! I had had such a sweet connection talking with the baby bunny the other day and now this just topped it off.
Later Laura went back outside to gather some fresh greens for our meal and to water and she said the little one came running to her again, but then ran off, she said, when it realized she wasn’t me. LOL!
Yes, people do mix up our energies indeed. When we’re together people comment on our being sisters, which did happen at the Farmer’s Market by one of the vendors Laura knew. It’s always uncanny how we show up out of our rooms wearing the same colors or nearly the same kind of things without telling one another.
Another thing we share is our love for Nature and our need to be out immersed with her energy, as we both know how recharging it is for us.
It was a spectacular birthday celebration indeed that got kicked off in bindi-style, as I always bring some fun bindis for us to wear, and included a picnic lunch made in Laura’s Sun and Wonder Ovens (both of which I also got the 101 on and am now ordering my Sun Oven to add to the Wonder Oven Laura sent me as a gift), tons of amazing gardens fit for a Faery indeed, a BEAUTIFUL flute birthday serenade by someone who just so happened to be playing by the water (I actually got it on audio/video that Divinely is 3:33 in length from the moment we got to him to when he stopped playing!), finds we gifted each other including some cherry artisan mustard I finally found to bring back to Dave too (as he loves his unique mustards), a walk on the beach at the Sand Dunes of Lake Michigan, a birthday Hail Merry threefold birthday pie assortment shared on the beach of Persian Lime, Chocolate Mint, and Chocolate Raw Almond Butter, and an amazingly yummy dinner at Sunny’s Korean Restaurant in Mishawaka – mmmmmm!
I intend to purchase her kimchee seasoning online (I actually got side-tracked looking them up to order while writing this) because it is delicious, healthy – (all-natural, no preservatives or MSG, vegan, gluten-free and made with love), and makes it “easy and simple for you to make fast, fresh, kimchee at home and add the flavor of kimchee to any of your favorite dishes!”
It was hard to part ways, and to be sure there were big hugs and love exchanges indeed.
While there is such a contrast of energies in little Goshen, it was the very thing that makes for irony, intrigue, and mischievous magick – the kind that creates mega ripple shifts and activates instantly potent action into manifestation.
We know that we’ll be seeing each other again very soon, and there are some extremely interesting things awaiting us individually, and together, that are in the unfolding.
A big heartfelt thank you to my sister Laura and brother David for such a beautiful week. I can’t remember having so much fun, goodness, and love poured over me with a Faery cherry on top!
Starting May 18th, I’ll be gone for 3 weeks through June 5th – home only for 3 days in between the two legs of my trips. I’ll be online minimally, but will check emails and share posts of the occasional inspiration when I have time.
I won’t be available for any services, however, during the 3 weeks. So work resumes the week of June 8th and is already filling up with private and group workshops, as well as design work. If you’re interested in joining any of the workshops and events upcoming, you can message me and register while I’m gone.
For info on those please visit: Life-Enhancing Summer Events & Workshops
I’m also booking tattoo designs for July.
I’ll be visiting three different areas while I’m away, which means receiving and giving an energetic infusion on multi-fronts.
First stop Goshen, Indiana to visit my dear best friend, Laura Bruno, for the first time in nearly 6 years (about 5 years and 8 months to be more precise)! The last time being our fun trip in Chicago, Fall of 2010 – Blast from the Past – my how we’ve changed! It just so happens to coincide with her Birthday so celebrations all around in store. Excited to see her amazing garden and to do some special activations together for what we are individually and collectively creating. She has a lot of garden goodies in prep for yummy meals (she makes amazing Faery food) and has been working away on planting hundreds of plants before I get there so that we can spend some quality time together. Although some of that I know will be shared in the garden where she’ll be giving me some garden-101 tips I’m sure! Our time in person is always potent and usually kicks off a new cycle for each of us and I feel this one is going to really spark a leap in our journeys. Our most magickal and life-changing trip to date was in Mendocino/Fort Bragg in Fall of 2009. It changed the whole playing field for us, indeed.
Anyway, I’m looking forward to the mischief and magick upcoming for sure. This will be our longest time spent together too! We figured nearly 6 years of distant mischief deserved some bigger celebrations. 😉
I’ll return for 3 days after our Faery fun together…just a little downtime transition to integrate and prep for the next leg of the journey, plus check in on the little bunny loves I’ll be missing big time. And then am off to Orlando, Florida for a week. Dave is giving several talks at “The Real Truth About Health” Conferences that week for his book “Meatonomics” which will host an amazing line-up of incredible speakers. This is a free event both in person and online. You should check it out. I’m looking forward to also visiting Disney World for the first time and seeing my good friend Yasmin there locally while sharing the crystal love!
Then before returning home, it’s off to Sedona, Arizona for a week, direct from Florida. Going to be spending a day at the Grand Canyon and then the rest of the week in my once-home-town of Sedona with family. I used to live there for two years and have frequented a lot, so I’m very much looking forward to this and the timing I feel is auspicious to things for me personally, as Sedona has always been one of those places that I go to or live in at particularly large leaps in my life – and this definitely being one of those! The energy there has always ignited big things. So I’m looking forward to hiking the vortexes, getting a reading from a favorite Tarot/Astrologer/Intuitive – already got in an appointment! – hopefully seeing another dear friend, Dawn, in person for the first time, and seeing what unfolds.
I’m so grateful for these powerful trips and connections this year that all seem to be supporting, igniting, and activating the major shift I feel happening personally and collectively. And that always means new inspirations and channeled creations to come!
As mentioned, I’ll still be checking emails and messages, but if there’s something particularly important or that you need more assistance with, please message me before I head out on Monday.
This is such a fun post that I couldn’t resist sharing it. These photos and the memories they invoke, bring this faery to laughter tears. When ever I need a good cleansing laugh, the photos of Laura Bruno and I Sumerian style and working up some mischief at the carillon are all I need. It’s been a very long time since we’ve had in-person connecting, yet our connection transcends time and space so while it is four years ago, it also seems like not long ago at all. Thanks for the walk down memory lane Laura. A great way to kick of the Mercury Retrograde indeed with some humor and lightness. Love you bunches!!
Last night, I texted my sweet, silly, favorite traveling buddy Tania Marie that she would “be happy because I gave myself bangs again.” I knew she’d get a kick out of that simple text, and sure enough, we both took a stroll down memory lane back to when she visited me in Chicago in 2010. For some bizarre reason, the first thing we did together after honoring my favorite tree on the shores of Lake Michigan that I visited every day while living there …
… was hack off part of my hair. We then spent the rest of the trip “reclaiming” Rockefeller, Draco, Egyptian and big bankster areas — a whirlwind faery giggle fest through some of the least likely spots you’d expect to find a faery.
The next day, we climbed all 271, windy steps to the top of Rockefeller…
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Today’s sharings are more from my own personal journey, but our journeys are never isolated to just us, since we are part of a collective shared experience. I feel it necessary to allow our vulnerability to be expressed, so that others feel safe to do so as well. Perhaps some of the symbolism of what I share, rings true for some of you or carries a message relative to you. Since I know we are all experiencing so much right now, I will continue to share the inspirations and the learnings from my heart to yours.
I’ve always had a strong connection with animals since I was born – and horses were one of several in particular that I resonated and identified with. They pervaded my life in many ways. I dreamed of them, envisioned them while daydreaming to pass the time for hours on long drives, drew them, wrote about them, watched and read movies about them, intended to have a ranch with horses running free, and even utilized horse images when I went through a “sick” period of my teenage years to get me through the night. Even the color of the horse I would identify with would change over the course of my own personal shifting – sometimes white, then golden chestnut, and finally black. Also the size of the horse became important – loving very large horses and so Friesians ended up becoming my favorite eventually. Each of these elements having symbolism and meaning that I always enjoy being conscious of.
Much of my life I have been operating as a race horse. Continually allowing my horse to be worked harder and harder and pushing her to achieve, do more, keep climbing the mountain, keep turning the cheek, keep rising above the pains, keep rising from the ashes, not letting anyone break me, and taking a while to realize that the horse being worked to do all these things was on autopilot from conditioning of a rider on my back I could not see that I’d been carrying all my life/lives energetically…a rider that not only didn’t belong in the essence of my natural authenticity, but even the idea of having a rider was not one, for a long time, that I was aware I could consciously choose to have or NOT have. If one was to ride the journey with me, why not it be parts of MY authenticity, rather than someone else’s? Why not just integrate my parts and harmoniously be in balance mind, body, heart and soul so that rider and horse become one? No master OVER, but master OF my own life ride. I can choose to experience the ride, loving it from all perspectives of the freedom to creatively and passionately run to my heart’s content while also enjoying the ride and the ability to know and trust that where and what I want to go and experience is in alignment with where my beautiful and powerful horse wants to go. She decides every step of the way with all of her parts integrated. No more struggle, torment, inner voices and battles, no tug-of-war between my parts. Everything flowing in natural harmony, honor, and intuitive divinity with each other.
All of this being very symbolic and all mirroring aspects of me and my journey and personal healing and evolution, as well as was mirroring deep past life connections I had come to understand with the help of Laura Bruno, Medical Intuitive, Soul Reader, Reiki Master Teacher, as having many lives as a horse – in particular many race horse lives. While I am experiencing an integration life (for more on what this means please read Laura Bruno’s very clear and wonderful explanation of this here: http://laurabruno.wordpress.com/2012/01/10/integration-lifetimes-and-human-evolution/ and this is only but one of many potent parts I am integrating. It particularly was standing out with nudges and messages as of late, as I have been leaping over some of the biggest hurdles at this potently culminating time.
During current stresses and shifts I have been processing, the horse symbolism and message came at me again very poignantly. I had a beautiful large jade statue of a wild horse that was sitting on my desk. Our cleaning lady and her son were over and it was a big cleaning day, after just moving into our new house and all the windows needed cleaning. All very disruptive to my day and I felt myself get very stressed with everything being moved around and me trying to work and feeling things just out of my control. Next thing I know my desk was being moved to get behind to the windows there and like in slow motion, my horse toppled to the ground and broke in half. I was devasted to say the least. It was like a soul shock blow. I didn’t know what to do and was so overcome with emotions I had to walk out of the room and into the garage to collect myself. It was not the fact of this “thing” breaking that affected me so traumatically, as much as what it felt symbolically to me to represent. Having it break was like the ending of a certain cycle of life it was time to release, but simultaneoulsy also hurt my sense of how I identified personally and triggered past traumatic experiences.
It took me a while to balance out again – half the day in fact. And I have since come to embrace that this “race horse” is tired…tired of the way of life that cleverly hidden patterns have continued to create an experience of and tired of allowing them to control any aspect of my life, if even just one. The last race this horse runs is one she does for the sheer pleasure she gets from loving to run free and the rewards are her own, as the rider enjoying will purely be an integrated aspect of the horse within me.
Even when we are very conscious and are creating wonderful things in our lives, we can still hit some major bumps and have our moments, as well as have to become even more ever-present to recognize some ingenious ways we may hide or sabotage some key needed pieces to integrate and embrace. We have to learn to stay on top of our lives and learn new ways to more efficiently come into deeper relationship with our essence.
It is time to break free COMPLETELY of the saddle and bridle I’ve allowed to operate and control my life in conscious or subliminally subconscious ways whether from outside of myself or ingeniously from myself in reaction to that – breaking free of every hindrance to my authentic essence. Saying no in the eyes of thoughts, beliefs, feelings, experiences that do not mirror who I truly am and what I know in my heart. Unconditionally and once and for all releasing all conditioned teachings and energies that are confining and limiting and no longer valid for my life, nor the collective at this time. Old structures gone, old hurts and grievances, old manipulative ways and fears released and replaced with unconditional love, freedom of expression, creative abundance, authenticity and integrity, new visionary ideas and beliefs, and vulnerable courage.
Yes, I AM important. Each of us is, regardless of what anyone else tells you or you tell yourself. And even if someone doesn’t honor your importance and even states something specifically in this regard, the best you can do is state and honor your own feelings truly and allow them their own choices in life to shape their experiences. Their choice, while might not feel good at first, needn’t be given the power over you or allowed the prolonged effect we are used to that feeds the emotional diseases we have been nursing. You can choose accordingly how you would like to proceed and continually choose creating in each moment something that DOES feel good and mirrors you. It is their responsibility to look within themselves and to learn from their choices. We do our responsible best by always being authentic and unconditionally loving and compassionate.
This is a very trying time alongside a very magical and awe-inspiring beautiful time. All things culminating at once and it creates temporary confusion, perhaps even the illusion that everything is crumbling and leaving us with a sense of defeat. It seems so odd, when many of us have worked so hard and are experiencing wonderful new things and making huge leaps, to be thrust a windfall of some pretty crazy and heavy stuff simultaneously. This collective healing crises is a healing opportunity unfolding for us to really clarify and solidify everything that we want from here on out, which can only be done by moving through the heaviest things we may not have integrated fully yet, so that we can have our rider and horse come together as ONE. Anything we create from here on out is with full conscious, balanced, grounded, and heart-full intention.
I, myself, have moved into an interesting period of so much coming together and so much coming up and out, all at once. Which is why I have heeded the call to become ever more present and steering away from making rash decisions and challenging my universal heart consciousness to love even more deeply. I hit a crises culminating this Cancer Full Moon of build up causing me to have to make empowered decisions that will shape the next phase of my experience. Part of this also seeing that the work I have been doing and the ways in which I have driven myself must stop, as my body is taxed and soul is tired. I had conversations with myself, the Universe and my dear transitioned Nestor in relaying my surrender, my willingness to do what it takes, and my need for assistance.
Today, after my visit to get tests run for my agenda of taking care of myself on every level, in order to integrate my highest potentials of vibrancy to continue at optimum, I stopped at the post office to mail off a pendant to a client and Nestor (the postal worker) was at post office when I went. A sign, I feel, as I have since Sunday been in mourning and longing for her and can’t say her name without crying and have been in a very tumultuous testing period. Even my naturopath that I visited yesterday asked if I had lost someoone special and I could hardly share without being overcome. I believe she and the universe are listening to my cries of help (as others are doing) and my sharing that I am incapable of doing this any longer in this same vein without more assistance. This also means my taking responsibility for not living and creating in the same vein that I have. This time period calls for drastic changes to what we know as of our experience of life.
Since birth I have felt my place in what is unfolding (as I know many of you have as well) and regardless of what others have said or tried to beat out of me with fear, it is the one thread that never lets me go even when I am at the edge. I received another nudge that likely is another sign from the universe as well that they have heard and are helping. The universe knows I’m not joking that my soul is tired and knows my commitment to this path of service I have been on and I know I am not the only one.
It is a volatile time in the world as we shift into a whole new experience. Many will transition or renegotiate their contracts, as the suffering may be too much to handle or it simply is not what they contracted in to be part of. Others will need to be stronger than ever, as there will be the largest challenges to face and help support that take more than a personal perspective to be part of. Everything is bigger than “just” us, and yet each of us IS an integral and much needed part. The way we can aid this is to be mindful of each other’s sensitivities at this time and to be there with unconditional love and support for one another.
For me this current challenge and healing crises/opportunity is reminiscent of when I was so ill a few years ago without anyone around to help me and I admitted myself to the ER on my own, barely able to stand for more than 10 seconds, and it was a time I needed to surrender to the universe and others to help take care of me and not be the one doing it all myself (which was symbolic of the nurses being so kind and giving me IVs and for me to be able to just lay in a bed being nurtured into health. One can only do so much. And I know I have hit another breaking point again, which heralds great things to come.
A healing crises means time for change is imminent and necessary or that I actually am shifting tremendously since things get the worst before they turn around, while everything surfaces to integrate into the next level. It does not mean one must hit a crises, but it is not the sign of failure or something to judge in any way. It may seem we do things that go unnoticed and that many actually don’t know how much we give out in ways bigger than ourselves (even despite the human outbursts we have of emotional processes). I have pushed hard and I have come far on my own in intrinsically invaluable levels, of which I always remind myself to take stock of and be grateful for. I feel this is a time for receiving, reflecting, recharging, while much is percolating and coming into being from the work we have put into motion. There is more to do, but it will come through different means on all levels. Not the way we are used to, as long as we shift into new and freer ways of being.
I don’t know what the outcome looks like, but I know it will be dramatic and of the highest good what ever it is. Just felt like sharing for what it is worth. It always helps me to communicate things even if no one listens, which is why I often talk to myself. It helps me process and I know there are those who are hearing me and I have learned the value of vulnerability.
I know I’m far from your typical person, what ever that means. But I am who I am and who I am loves who you are – the authentic parts…the essence that I am able to really see, no matter the details people choose to focus on from time to time that divert us from seeing the core (details that are meant for integrating and opportunity for evolving) that aren’t the reality of us and are meaningless in the eyes of universality. They are the parts that keep people divided rather than united. Remember that even when I am challenged at accessing the real me, that core essence I am, always is loving the real you and that is the light that penetrates the darkest hours and illuminates once again. Let the love in your heart take the lead!
The image attached is one I created years ago of a winged horse. I intend to create a new horse painting that will represent this new unbridled energy we are unleashing from within.
Some interesting information on horse wisdom and symbolism:
- Freedom to run free
- Control of the environment
- Awareness of power achieved with true cooperation
- Interspecies communication
- Expanding one’s own potential abilities
- Friendship and Cooperation
- Astral travel
- Guardian of travelers
- Warns of possible danger
- Guide to overcoming obstacles
And here are a couple of cool links to more symbolism: http://tarotreadingpsychic.com/tarot-meanings-symbolism-horse/ and http://www.whats-your-sign.com/horse-symbol-meanings.html