On yesterday’s Chinese New Year of the Ox (my native zodiac), day thirty of skiing this Winter season, while protected and overseen by Ullr, the Norse God of Snow, I hit a milestone on my journey with fear. The fear I’m referring to has to do with heights associated with being on edges like riding chair lifts and skiing down mountain runs. The milestone was going down a Black Diamond run for the very first time and having fun doing it.
For anyone new to skiing, as I was, ski slope colors refer to the steepness of the gradient and the level of difficulty. Green is Beginner, Blue is Intermediate, and Black is Expert. That said, there are many levels in between and these are very loose terms in my opinion, as I see people of all levels on various runs. Also, you don’t have to be what you think might be considered an “expert” to go on a Black Diamond run. You simply, in my opinion, need to have courage, but indeed you need to have some level of skill to safely get down, especially in terms of turning and being in control. “Double” of any color means more challenging…for instance a Double Green is more like a Blue or Intermediate with more steepness, and so on. I find also that every ski resort has different ideas about what they think each level is and where you might not feel comfortable on some in one resort, on others you would. So you need to ask questions to the staff and explore for yourself. Also, I find some Green runs at resorts to mostly be cat tracks – paths used to move around the mountain, rather than actual runs. I tend to not like these and don’t consider them really great for learning to ski because they are narrow and don’t really allow for turns and practice. And if conditions aren’t great, they can be icy too. That said, they ARE sometimes the only way down the mountain so are necessary to be familiar with.
If I had to label my level of skiing I’d say I’m at the beginning end of Intermediate. However, I like how Jeffrey Weidel breaks down the three main color-coded levels further into nine levels, which speaks to me more. According to his breakdown, I’m at Level 4, edging ever-so slowly into Level 5.
But these are just ways of understanding categories and to give you a little understanding of things in reference to the main theme here – working with fear.
So, back to that milestone I hit yesterday, which to me isn’t just about a fear of heights and edges, but spoke to my making friends with fear in general and how I have been teaching myself to navigate it on my own terms.
As I mentioned in my last blog, “my skiing approach is one of enjoyment, not achievement.” And this has been the key for me in how to reprogram fear, no matter what the fear involves.
It’s also about honoring my needs and supporting that.
Rather than take something I’m afraid of and try to make it a system of how to progress to achieve a certain level or status, I’ve made it purely fun without any agenda, and my learning to be something I’ve decided to be my own coach of so that I can provide the kind of nurturing and motivation I know speaks to my inner little girl – a marriage of the wise adult and the innocent child. I become my own parent or instructor based on the knowledge of my fears and how I can engage them to feel safe and join me, rather than want to run away.
That doesn’t mean that getting a good ski instructor isn’t a good idea. Ski instructors are great no matter what level you’re at, to help refresh or take you to new levels. However, I’ve found that for me at this point, my own coaching is most nurturing, as part of the repatterning I am doing has to do with my approach to things. So, having someone overseeing and controlling that right now isn’t helpful. I have had a few instructors in the past and retained the basics from them, but I also learned from those experiences that this is the more supportive approach right now for me. I also learned a lot more by skiing with Dave and what he’s shown me. He’s an amazing skier. So with the basics, I’ve been able to formulate my process intuitively and gently support growth.
You see, in the past I learned to “perform” and in many cases push through something with an old “race horse” mentality that quite literally was engrained within my soul history from lives as just that. It wasn’t about how I felt, but what I felt I needed to do – in many cases being for someone else and not myself. It was that old “suck it up” and dishonor what your feelings and process are, in place of what you are either told you should do, or is driven only by achieving.
I began to slowly reprogram that approach nearly 15 years ago, upon discovering it, but skiing has been the best gauge of change with this for me and the biggest leaps of progress from my work have come in the last few years. And this year, when the opportunity came from this Winter immersion adventure we’ve been on, I’ve been able to really bear witness to my process because of having so many consecutive days of skiing.
The most I’d ever skied in a season, previous to now, was sixteen days. The last two years sixteen days was my max and previous to that in the first years of my starting at this I had only skied a handful of days each season. Not enough to really shift a pattern. And with thirty days under my belt this year, it’s provided that consistent focus and commitment I believe anything takes if you really want to change something. I still have another fifteen possible days to add to this for 2021. So this year really is monumental for supporting transformation.
Without going into all of the details of how I’ve been retraining myself, my basic approach is to honor my feelings, consistently repeat runs over and over and over in a flowing way at levels I feel comfortable with that have a slight stretch to them (in this way making them feel more natural to me and giving me lots of repetitive practice), taking my time, enjoying nature all around me, staying ultra present, talking gently to myself and even giggling the whole way to help make adjustments where needed and to keep things light, pausing to take it all in, and celebrating the moments.
I explore different little off-sections of trails to introduce change so that I can feel the unknown a bit, but at my own choice. And when there’s a slightly more challenging run connected to my path, I will slowly introduce it by trying it once in between my runs. Even if I don’t do it again, it’s my way of stretching into the new space to support growth. Usually what I find is that when I do that, I actually return to my usual run with greater ease, skill and confidence. And if I feel like something isn’t going right or I don’t like the runs or conditions, I will not push anything. I do only what I feel safe and comfortable with, then stop.
Since skiing doesn’t come natural to me, being that I didn’t grow up doing it and don’t have any muscle memory, as they say, for it, I am having to create that now.
But the key in all of this is enjoying the process. If it’s not fun, then it becomes work and feels like the old way of force.
This is why I will also stop along the way to take in sights I see, explore, notice the details of the terrain and little fun things like the Gnomes you saw in my last post.
And yesterday was proof that my confidence and relationship to fear had shifted hugely when I decided to try the Black Diamond run.
There was build-up to this, as several days ago we were skiing at this same resort and I overhead some guys telling their girlfriend that the Black Diamond run next to where I was skiing was considered an “easy” Black run. Normally that wouldn’t get my attention, as I would have a huge block to Black. And many times I have the same block to a lot of the Blue runs too. So, I spent my day observing the Black run they mentioned while I rode up the ski lift because I could see the whole thing from that vantage point. I kept taking in the pitch of the slope, watched people ski down it at various levels including my own, and mentally was processing it.
I told Dave about it after we left the resort that day and that I was curious about trying it, but didn’t want to do it alone if I did. I never like to be on something steep by myself in case I fall.
On Friday we were actually supposed to go to a different resort – you have to make reservations with Covid – but due to snowy weather and the longer drive to that resort we decided to cancel and go back to the place that had the curious Black Diamond run and where Ullr, the Norse God of Snow directs his guardian aim because it was closer.
After skiing the runs I practice on for a bit, I asked Dave to try the Black run and tell me what he thought. He did and I remained curious. I didn’t feel a block or a huge “no” in me, but continued to have curiosity and felt like it was a good chance to try something more difficult. I felt that there was reason I had overhead the other people mention it, as if I hadn’t heard that I wouldn’t have thought it possible. And the only reason I was curious was because they said it was an easy Black Diamond, which Dave confirmed. Plus, I obviously had built up courage from all of my consistent practice.
That said, I still knew I was in for some steep terrain. However, I’ve been practicing like heck and feel confident with my control and turns even if not done like a graceful swan. I also had just gotten my skis tuned up and they felt better than ever to carve those turns.
So, I went for it. On my own accord. It wasn’t anyone else’s idea. I wasn’t forced. I chose it and was curious about it. Curiosity invites wonder and innocence to stay with us and softens the seriousness or feeling of pressure.
And off I went, with Dave staying with me to the side just in case.
In the past I would have froze, cried, stopped and took my skis off and walked down, or perhaps even fallen.
None of these happened and in fact I saw how both my practice had supported my ability to make slow, in control turns and my consistency and fun approach took the edge off of fear.
I still felt my heart beat, but I knew I could do it and I did. I was in control of my experience.
It was a huge celebration of what for me was monumental in experiencing the shift that had taken place.
I returned to the run I was doing before it and I saw how much better and even quicker I was getting down, after stretching my curiosity on the Black Diamond run.
I celebrated my milestone and Dave did too.
This is a post about possibility.
That you can learn anything at any age – I’ll be 48 in just a couple of weeks and didn’t start to really ski until my 40’s.
That you can move through any fear – my fear of heights is not little, but I’ve learned to find ways to walk hand-in-hand with it, rather than push it away or avoid it.
Wishing everyone a beautiful New Moon of sweet possibilities. I’m feeling like a cool breeze has blown in carrying with it a refreshed and inspired energy around this Gemini Moon, and as if a softer layer has been revealed under any resistance that might have been present. It’s perfect support for the current book cover painting commission I’m working on that is a portal of possibility itself.
I was never hugely drawn to pink, except for when I was a little girl and now that the little girl me is so much freer within my inner world, wearing pink feels nurturing. There’s an innocent little faery giggle I hear in pink that feels like a burst of sweet strawberry icing on the tongue or puffy cotton candy clouds dancing in a baby blue sky. Perhaps the shedding of more and more layers has uncovered a magnetism for it. Pink feels soft, vulnerable, innocent, sensitive, hopeful, romantic, calm and joyfully loving.
Softness, to me, being a message on a wider scale asking of us, where can we soften our inner dialogue, rigid perspectives, angry behaviors, harsh judgments of others or self, and our hardened shells we learned to erect for perceived, self preservation?
Protection can help nurture freedom, but can also restrict evolution. It’s not about having no boundaries, but the comfort in knowing you can energetically create these when needed as balance, and not simply out of constant separation, judgment, insecurity, and isolation projections.
Themes I keep sensing and are increasingly revving up for people include anxiety and stress at an all-time high, amplification of fears while illusion and escapism don a cloak of intuition that hides the reality of them, confusion as to how to navigate the deeper, darker depths in order to open the wisdom behind the fear doors that keep you away from yourself, and barriers to self knowing, love, and care because the conditioned cycles have been circling around for so long. It’s easy to get caught up in what’s going on outside and with trying to make everyone else change, but this is a futile mission without softening your own inner world around the ways you might resist change yourself.
There aren’t only contradictions in our outer world circulating, but also within us, which can torment us endlessly and war with each other to the detriment of own exhaustion. This New Moon window aids us in illuminating the possibility to see yourself more clearly. Gemini brings new perspectives so that misunderstandings can be brought to light.
Communication and perspective are highlighted now, which includes how you see things and communicate with yourself. An invitation to truth is a way to practice opening up to real conversations and discovering what you’re holding back or holding yourself back from. This is a great time to clear out the mental chatter, inner clutter and stories that are taking up time, energy, and space in your world.
Fear can hinder your expression, creativity, growth, and overall well-being and potential. A new approach to life constantly beckons us and doorways like this New Moon can support that if you’re willing.
Connection is also valuable right now and finding ways that suit you to feel more connected with others, All That Is, Nature, and yourself. Finding avenues that resonate for you and help cultivate this more are wonderful…writing, communicating, networking, reaching out, being in Nature, sharing your gifts…are forms of connecting.
Perhaps if you do too much technological connecting, then simpler ways might be a fresh start via communicating through your talents, immersing with Nature, using energy work or meditation. Or, if you’ve felt more isolated, maybe a technology upgrade to help you tune in with others or share your gifts on a larger scale might be activating.
It’s also a wonderful opportunity to recreate yourself…imagining a whole new you you’d like to express in the world. Here you can ask yourself how your life, actions, speech, and feelings align with your values. What message are you embodying and transmitting to the world? Are you consistent in what you believe, say, feel, and how you behave?
A lot of people tell me that they’ve done everything – positive thinking, self-healing, growth processes, and sometimes even exhausted medical help if they have a physical challenge….and are exhausted. Understandably they want so much to learn the lessons, feel better, and be done with things. They share that they want to feel whole and sense there must be more than meets the eye, as they simply can’t shift out and break free. I understand that frustration, having been there many times myself.
They ask me if there’s anything missing?
I don’t claim to know all of the why’s of their challenges, as there can be many levels to it to explore and uncover, but what I do find that can many times fundamentally be at the core is that sometimes people aren’t fully ready to embrace being freed or “healed” as they call it, as this would call for a whole new way of life, being, and responsibility.
The challenge seems to serve them in some way and there’s a part of them that is not really ready for what it means to not have the challenge anymore. It can be something very deep we hide from ourselves. So it becomes important to root out any thoughts and impressions, deep beliefs and feelings for why you may not feel “deserving” of this integration to take place. And perhaps even why you may be afraid of the “responsibility” that comes along with it.
Perhaps the very challenge is also what fuels the beauty of who you are and what you have to impart in service to others – in essence, it provides the “gusto” behind your message and dreams.
Sometimes we can’t see our wholeness that already IS within the experience we are having. That there is a perfection in the experience when we release it from definitions of life’s should’s and should not’s. We get in our own way when we think we know it all or have tried everything.
First off, this is not possible, as the universe is unlimited and it is self-deceptive to think you have explored all possibilities. You may have gone as far as your current perspectives are open to, but I assure you that they always have more room to expand…limitlessly in fact. And simply, too.
Sometimes it can be the smallest of tweaks that makes the difference, which comes at the right time and place for that click to put things into motion. There’s no time frame or right or wrong about this. It’s a journey and an experience of spirit in motion of being human.
If you find yourself hitting a wall, learn to love this wall, as it is there for a reason, take a break and allow your feelings and mind to refresh and let your subconscious percolate with the feelings and frustration for a while. When you separate from the need to have to get a solution then you work with and align with your energy instead of against it. It’s this embracing and love that will enable you to see more than one solution and from your heart you can find your creative power to create something new.
Life really calls for a softening in our hearts on all levels and toward life itself. It’s understandable that life circumstances can create a hardening, but at some point we may need to unlearn that, as hardening tends to crack and break at some point.
Clarity and true compassion comes with softness.
Softening isn’t about weakness. It’s a strength that knows it needs no false shield to be empowered. Standing fiercely in transparency and truth comes with a softer approach. One that is willing to reveal the authenticity and trusts the power of that to speak for itself.
Online Reiki Training Certification Classes are almost full. I’m only taking 6 participants per class and here is the current availability.
Reiki Level 1: FULL (However due to there being 1 available space in each of the other 2 classes & a new student may want to do all 3, I’m opening Reiki Level 1 an extra space for someone interested in registering for all of the levels. I’ll also take names for a waiting list for this as a stand-alone class)
Reiki Level 2: 1 space available
Reiki Level 3 Master Teacher: 1 space available
You can register in full or hold your space with a deposit here:
And our Magick Rabbit Etsy Shop continues to host our biggest sale through June 20th, Summer Solstice. We have a few notebook journals, greeting cards, prints, and original mini and large paintings remaining. We continue to support rescue rabbits with sales, and with the current, mirroring, deadly virus strain (RHDV2) pandemic for rabbits (killing both wild and domestic rabbits), this is especially dear to my heart to do.
Creating life as a work of art is my personal motto and nature is such a guiding light example for this kind of artistry. I used to make life hard for so many years – part of that due to not having boundaries, which drowned out my voice of origins. The rest was a much needed excavation journey, but all along the nature of my heart kept singing. I just couldn’t hear it loud enough nor trusted it above the conditioned and accepted patterns and cycles I was caught up in.
The more I spent time in nature, the more I relaxed into my own.
I find all the answers to questions reflected around me always on nature’s canvas. Every tree, plant, flower, animal, insect, rock, terrain, season, and weather pattern displays a lesson for life and demonstrates how simply we can recreate, blend, merge, and resiliently design what is needed in each moment.
Perhaps that’s part of why rabbits speak to me so much too, as there’s still so much wild in them even if domesticated, and their Earth connection is richly woven into their bodies and souls.
I shared some of this on an Instagram post recently, but it goes along with this share:
I find it beneficial to embrace, and allow myself to experience, all of who I am without judgment. As I embrace all of my parts and their purpose for having been, a new perspective is born that rewrites my experience. As a result it creates a new template for a more loving, flowing relationship with myself of experiences filled with greater grace every step of the way. It’s not always easy, especially in the beginning, but with practice it becomes more natural and seamless.
I no longer need a catastrophe, physical crises, break down, or shove up against a wall in my life to know what my heart and soul needs and what changes are necessary in the bigger picture of things. My process is more about alignment, trust, and flexibility.
Support and expansion is there when I am in that flow.
While it might seem more logical to make changes when there’s a challenge, I say it’s quite empowering to make them when there aren’t.
For this reason I have understood why some people have thought I might be going through a challenge of some sort to make decisions like taking sabbaticals or changing courses altogether in areas like work, home, life and love, but the decisions are based on choice following inner knowing. I’m grateful to experience things in this new way – a way that reminds me of how nature simply unfolds in every moment, whole and complete.
Nature is my constant guide for life.
My time in nature gifts me endlessly. I find it to be the most profound for channeling, receiving inspiration, the most supportive for deep conversations, and abundant with messages and answers I’ve been pondering.
Nature helps me weave life as a work of art, as not only is she full of creative potency, but she offers me so many options and perspectives for how I want to paint each experience.
This was a feather treasure from Sunday’s long trek on the Flume Trail above Lake Tahoe. It’s very peachy gold and at first reminded me of many of my hawk guide feathers although wondered about owl since the feathers have many similarities. Upon further exploration of my feather collection and hearing from bird experts we confirmed it as great horned owl. I have several feathers from owl and hawk in my treasured collection. The timing of this one and finding it on a steep ledge upside down – nearly undetectable to the naked eye unless meant to be seen – felt very aligned.
Just some of great horned owl’s symbolism includes timing, hearing the unspoken, seeing and protecting the unseen, harbinger of new cycles and life transitions, piercing beyond the veil, shape-shifting, Great Mystery, wise action, recognizing light and dark coexisting, higher intuition, knowing, able to pierce through shadows and fears and see the darkness of others’ souls – therefore not easily being deceived.
The “knowing” aspect was synchronously peculiar, as I’d just been explaining to Dave about the form of psychic awareness I have and is continuing to grow, which comes through as a “knowing” that is part of me rather than separate to me or in some flash of channeling from outside myself. There is no separation between the things I experience and receive, making them feel very normal, natural, and seamless, possibly easily dismissed in this fashion, but I’ve learned over time to trust. Owl has shown up in readings in my past as my life path.
More interesting is what I discovered upon further exploration of great horned owl showing up that speaks to what I’m feeling. Owl can speak to stillness, slowing down, and silent observation, with perhaps even removing oneself from things to see truths all around. Owl also indicates releasing part of our lives to stay aligned and continuing to steer true to the course of inner truth guidance.
The avian clan is around me always in many forms, but the bird family of hawks, owls, osprey and falcons have been especially meaningful to my life as spirit guides, visionary teachers, and protective sentinels. Hawks are the most frequent creative life partners, with owls, osprey and falcons showing up less frequently, but at crucial points.
I’ve definitely been in a recalibration mode recently, as I have had to readjust to returning from sabbatical at a challenging worldwide crisis time while also opening to more work. Things have gotten busier than I imagined (all good things with integral purpose), but it’s very different from the quiet three months. I’m back to having client sessions and doing Reiki Healing Attunements – more than I thought but understandable, am beginning work on a book cover for an author that feels to be an important portal creation, and trying to still get my novel moving forward. I’ve also been spending extra time in the garden, cleaning up, planting, seeding, and watering and getting longer miles in than usual of exercise with hiking and biking in new areas to keep my equilibrium for well being. That alongside day-to-day things we all do like taking care of a household, three fur babies, cooking, cleaning, handling a shared side business with Dave, interacting with my community online with posts and blogs, and making sure there’s pure relaxing, do-nothing-time that’s a must in every day for me – all takes initiative, intention, focus and commitment.
After early years of strict security-based regimes, I unfolded into the freedom loving, wispy, part of me not wanting to be bound by anything and wanting to avoid hard work (escapism), and now I am creating a marriage of both as my artist’s way of life. Synchronously aligned with my actual marriage upcoming, which we just got our license for yesterday.
Now is a time for constructive use of freedom through healthy self-discipline in my life – in essence, creating a delicate balance between freedom and structure. This involves using levels of freedom wisely and well, which just so happens to also point to the numerology trajectory I’ve activated with this year’s birthday.
I’ve lived at both extremes and most of my life is now focused on implementing and embodying moderation through merging of organization, commitment, routine and responsible choices to the honoring of freedom that I also seek. This is a newer undertaking that merges the natural aspects of myself and focuses on their strengths with understanding of how committing to a certain sense of structure can actually offer the true freedom I desire. It also assists with attaining goals, manifesting, and experiencing greater clarity.
Nature reflects this for me in how she embodies so many seeming opposites together that work beautifully as a unit. There is a natural cycle, structure, inherent wisdom, sacred geometry, and symbiotic relationship that abides by certain unspoken universal ground rules, but there is also incredible variety, unusual evolutions, surprising mutations and resilient behaviors, and freedom to be wildly you that she speaks to so beautifully.
When I face frustrations in my process or feel restricted in some way, while I teach myself new, more freeing ways, I’m reminded of how nature doesn’t complain, but simply discovers new ways to thrive or renew. She reminds me of the resiliency inherent within and that sticking to my commitments will see me through and the balanced way to that is by remaining flexible, but disciplined, and focused, but open to change.
This has led me to start creating a guiding, daily time schedule while I have multiple things going on. I’m putting that together in a way that feels balanced, manageable and reasonable, while being flexible when necessary. That said, it feels incredibly important to create this in a way that is motivating and fun, but keeps me on track. Life isn’t about force and punishment. Those are old patterns of conditioning that have no place in the now. In the past I’ve been more of a one-off kind of person wanting to get each things done fully before I moved on and was an extremist. Now I’ve taught myself to be okay with things constantly in motion and giving time to each as I can in a way that feels aligned and fluid. This is healthier for me to maintain daily variety, momentum in all areas, creates a more natural rhythm and takes pressure away.
It’s also how nature creates.
I’ve also learned to say no over the years to projects and things in general, which I continue to, and to only say yes to what resonates. I newly implemented weekends to not being available so I get time away from it all too. In the past, any day seemed like a free-for-all. In all, there’s a slowing down and flow in order to not create anxiety and I remove pressures of “should’s”. I’m finding life much more rewarding and rich and I’ve never felt more vibrant.
We each have our roles and parts to play and mine is definitely as an “as within, so without” process in constantly holding that mirror up to Nature and the world at large to make those adjustments in reflection.
By working on greater equilibrium in all areas of my life, continuing to support my joy and needs alongside others as equally important, and letting go, and committing to living in alignment, all of that has balanced out before my eyes, including physically with natural changes I’m going through at my age.
And speaking of blossoming, the above and below photos are of our first blooming tree here. That seems reflective of little bits of new growth and opening in my life happening one step at a time. Things don’t just burst open all at once here in the mountains until a momentum kicks in.
Much like my own process, as I keep the wheels turning and do whatever I can in some way, inevitably there’s a chain reaction of further results that come from my continued forward movement. And soon the garden and forest will cycle into full bloom.
In the meantime, nature is in slow, steady growth right now here in the mountains, with constantly shifting weather. It speaks to me that my own life creations are needing to take their own time, too. So, I plan to relax and pick up a new color to paint life with, as the moment dictates. I will paint a little here and a little there so as to bring all parts of life together with joy and connection, be present to how each piece is integral to the next, and how there’s purpose in every brushstroke.
The idea of schedules always was daunting, but I now see it as crucial to creating life as art where I bring through all strengths together just as nature creates her masterpiece as a unit.
This doesn’t mean I don’t get things done when some of them do actually have deadlines, but I create more gentleness and joy around it all along with extra room for each by stretching them out and letting go in general when things unfold differently than I thought. Life continues to open in new ways the more I open to the true nature of me.
I’m going to be a little more “in between” worlds again, as I am needing to go to places more fully to receive what the open door is ready to channel through. I seem to be going through an evolution of sorts on several levels, to include greater access to more latent parts of me now rising. I’ll continue to keep balancing my “me” and “sharing” times with increased vigilance in order to maintain that natural rhythm and alignment.
Like the Sibyls, from which the ancient heritage within me is rooted, who lived hidden and out of reach in order to filter the energies that accessed them so they could remain devoted to the sacred purity of their connection with Mother Earth and the Cosmos through sound, there is a place within me calling for that path, moving in and out, at times unreachable, and yet ever more connected.
Since this is an Artist’s Corner post, Astrid and I share a little reminder that our Magick Rabbit Beltane Sale (the largest to date) continues through June 20th, Summer Solstice. We’re down to just 14 items (thanks to your loving support), which include updated versions with new bunny colors of our last three (UPDATE SOLD OUT) Serenity Silhouette Magick Rabbit Talisman Necklaces – all in the Cosmic Egg Style. There’s a royal blue with silvery white rabbit with a blue eye (SOLD), a sunflower yellow with gold rabbit with blue eye (SOLD), and an olive/green gold with black golden rabbit with green eye (SOLD).
And we also wanted to share a gratitude update that with your help our Magick Rabbit Etsy Shop has been able to raise donations of a little over $3100 for rescue rabbits, over the last 15+ months. We’ve sent portions of sales and auction items, as well as donated items to raise money, including 50% of proceeds from several original paintings to various non-profit rabbit organizations and micro sanctuaries with your help. The larger ticket items (original paintings) have been super helpful with this. We have six beloved ones remaining that include three animal spirit guide portals and three Magick Rabbit mini portals all found at the link below.
The sale includes 30-50% off, which makes owning an original painting like this a huge bargain. Smaller whimsical items still available too. Limited stock remains on greeting cards, notebooks and prints – all at incredible steals to bring joy to hearts and support to lives.
I no longer experience life as a challenge, but simply as a state of being and adventure of spirit in rhythmic harmony. That’s a huge thing to say after everything, but more importantly to experience. This has enabled me to move in and out of experiences easily, to understand my processes and ability to transform everything, to not have to defend my reality or how I engage with experience, and feeling more at home because I’ve found that within and embraced creating my own world that merges now and then, but mostly dwells in its own realm.
I was musing with a dear friend of mine on major shifts we’ve been feeling and we shared mutual inability to explain things in fullness because words are too definitive and finite, and don’t really encompass the nebulousness of shifts that are taking place or being felt.
I went from hardly being here a year and a half ago to a return to the body, but in a new way that is in it, but not of it – just like my experience is in things/this world, but not of it. This taking place with my release of my life and heading out on our Magick Bus adventure where I immersed in nature, retrieved parts of myself, and created a new relationship with everything.
No more stigma with being here, around the physical body, able to see through different eyes and how I could integrate things in the way of transmutation.
It’s hard to explain, but there’s been increased and more regular levels of what I call grace in suspension.
I am not focused on living an orgasmic life (another thing my friend and I touched upon) of heightened experiences of emotion and feeling (although I’ve flowed with this), but rather, a state of being both beyond the senses and all encompassing that creates that peace, grace, or harmony. Even these words could be limiting, but are closest to what I can find.
And yet, I move in and out of things/experiences by choice and when needed, always knowing my core state of being can navigate me through and back.
Things continue to morph and how things will look is continually unfolding, but as I’ve mentioned, it feels like an integration of Earthly and Cosmic being as a return, yet from a different perspective.
While sharing all of this…this is simply a small portion of MY OWN experience and not indicative of anyone else’s journey, as we will each create our own realities and have our own experiences to go through, which creates a full spectrum of possibilities and potentials along the collective web, as we realize the grand illusion of so much more than even we thought we were aware of.
And yet, this is all perfect too.
This leads me to how I recently embraced the nudge to come out of some of my sabbatical of sorts, I’ve been in, but truly it’s been a reset on life.
I felt there was call to open up a channel to help guide some who were ready for a big shift or going through one themselves, so that they could feel more grounded and empowered in their new life reset too.
This started back up two days ago on the 1st of March, which was quite a powerful day, so much so that literally right as I was ending my last client call the power went out here for 3 hours and did so throughout the neighborhood. Granted there was no storm, no winds, nothing visible that caused this like other times it’s gone out, so indeed felt connected with a stepping up and bigger embrace of energy all around taking place, which needed a reset.
What I’ve come to see is that the types of souls and clients that are drawn to work with me are people who have done the work, are very aware and conscious, are extremely magickal and powerful, are living an integration life, been through great challenges and hurdles, but are strong and endured, and are in the midst of making the next huge leap, ready to let it all go, move forward, and ground into their new life and passions they’ve always felt called to.
All they need is that extra guidance, insight and perspective, reflection, reiteration, and boost to step fully through the door and no longer straddle two worlds.
My goal is to get these people up and out and without need for reliance on lengthy and long-term coaching, as these are not souls that need this. I like to empower people to step out into the world and know they have the ability to do it, feel confident, and realize their power, then go for it. Again, this is why a particular kind of person comes to me who truly is ready for that and that’s why they show up.
I love the beautiful synchronicities (pretty astounding in many ways) that is shared with these souls, which speaks to the alignment of resonance and timing for these connections that you just know was agreed upon way before now.
I feel humbled to witness their journeys, and how they even reflect for me, my own, and am so happy for them, as these are some extraordinary souls who by their stepping into greater responsibility and commitment, will continue to lead the way for many others.
Just from our first call (the second rounds begin again today here shortly, as I like to kick things off the first week with giving things a big boost) so much movement took place because of their courage.
I’m not sure how long I’ll be offering these sessions for two clients per 5 weeks, but I know it will be as long as souls I share an agreement with are looking for that guidance and as long as I am able to provide the energy and time, which is why I honored that balance that felt right for me too.
You can read about this here: Intuitive Energy Guidance/Coaching
I’m grateful for the experiences I’ve gone through that allow me to be a stable anchor and draw upon what I’ve moved through, as well as be able to not be affected psychically from the interactions, as I would have been in the past due to my inability to productively use my sensitivities/empathing and not having energetic boundaries.
And while I’ve said there are aspects of my previous work/services I offered that I will never offer/open up again, a couple might show up in different ways or if I’m nudged like with the sessions.
That said, I was just asked about teaching a Reiki Master Teacher workshop here in Lake Tahoe this summer by one of my past students who would be traveling this way for it. This aligns with the kind of guidance and support I’m nudged to offer at this time for people ready to step up and out.
So there is potential, depending on the nature of the workshop – if private or group – that I may be able to offer that to anyone interested in moving forward with their Reiki journey, or wants to review or deepen into things with your practice (maybe stepping into this more now that you’re ready) if you’ve gone through the training a long time ago, or with another teacher.
If this calls to you, you can let me know by contacting me here so we can discuss things and I’ll see what kind of interest develops for putting this together: Contact Tania Marie
And a quick update.
During a lot of the powerful energy and shifts lately, I’ve completed my first four magick crystal wands I’ve been working on. I’ll be sharing them soon. I ended up finding two more branches in the forest that spoke to me, so two turned into four.
I still have a scepter and two staves to create/channel, but they are going to take a while because they are much larger and have a lot involved. Plus, my hands need a break, as working with these creations takes a toll on them, plus there is a lot of intent, energy alignment, and more going into these…I’ll share that when I share them.
I love the way we each are uniquely journeying, and yet we’re simply being, which encompasses a frequency within the collective harmonics. Although individual and whole within that personally, we are simultaneously part of a whole that IS.
Lots of love to you.
Quick update on the client openings for my 5 week/6 session intensives of Intuitive Energy Guidance/Coaching.
I completely forgot that I will be away for most, if not all, of May and so I will not be able to take any clients for that month.
As mentioned, I was reopening space for 2 clients per 5 weeks, but due to this realization, I am going to open 1 more space for the April sessions and once that is filled, I won’t be able to take anymore clients until June.
And for those of you who have booked/or will be booking for April, I will need to double up on sessions on both the front and back end in order for us to get through the work together before I head out without you having to wait until June to complete it. So the usual 5 weeks, will be condensed to 4 weeks.
Reminder – March is full and 2 of the now 3 spaces for April are full too.
If interested in booking this, or want more information, you can visit the link here:
These have been intense times for everyone, including for those of you who are healers, empaths, and have a usually easier flow with things. I’m hearing, seeing, and feeling how this is throwing a curve ball for many and creating behaviors, dialogue, and challenges that aren’t the norm for you and creating stress, anxiety, health challenges, as well as confusion around your path or a halt on feeling clear with the choices you’ve been pursuing.
I believe this is why I got the loud message to review my ability to open up some time to start offering the Intuitive Energy Guidance/Coaching sessions once again.
I opened the 6 session/5 week intensives to start in March with just 2 clients per 5 weeks, as I felt that was the balanced and most effective way at this time I could provide to anyone really feeling a need to move through current energy streams, move through the undercurrents at work personally/collectively, and get more grounded and empowered with things once again while moving toward your personal goals.
The March and April spaces are full, but you can reserve May if this work and timing feels resonant.
The link below provides details about the focus of this work, what others have shared about working with me, along with options of Pay-As-You-Go (with 6 session/5 week commitment) or One-Time Package Savings:
And if you have questions, please message me here:
Don’t forget this Thursday is the last day to send in your stories for the Friday Give Away where anyone who enters will receive:
~ a one card Tarot reading provided via email including photo of the card
~ everyone will be entered in a drawing to receive one free – one hour Individual Clarity & Guidance Session with me over the phone
~ plus you’ll receive a 33% off voucher toward a 5-Week Intensive of Intuitive Energy Guidance Sessions
~ AND, I will also feature your story, in an upcoming blog, granted you’re okay with that, supporting you for the courage you’ve embraced and highlighting your gifts for others that you may be sharing in terms of your path and work.
How it works:
If you’ve joined on one of my retreats over the years, taken some of my workshops, worked with me in intuitive coaching sessions, have received Reiki support, experienced shifts and changes because of a sacred tattoo design we co-created and you now wear, or went through energetic changes because of a crystal I supported into your care or a painting that has helped you through your processes….I’d love to hear your stories.
You can either message me sharing how your life has changed because of the experience or thing, where you were, where you are now, and the steps in between that were part of the process.
Or, you can send me a video sharing the same.
This needs to be sent in to me by 3/3/2016 – that’s this Thursday.
The recipient will be announced on Friday, March 4th.
I’m a bit behind due to my birthday this weekend, on the Tarot readings, but will be getting those out this week. Thank you for your patience.
Back again by request – “The Empowered Visionary” email support. Some of you may have remembered when I first started offering this over a year and a half ago, which was only for a limited time to support the wave of energetic needs. And it seems that time has circled around again, given the influx of requests and inquiries.
So, for a limited time, to be determined, I will be offering this again for anyone feeling resonation with this kind of support.
Everyone and everything seems to be in transition. I can so relate to this and how powerful it is if you can learn to ride the wave of the shifting energies and “be” with the void of creation, rather than feel defeated by it.
I like to be there as much as I can for other visionaries that are embracing the light of their authenticity, as I know how challenging it can be to keep strong and rooted in the creation of what may seem like ages you have been working towards. And I know that sometimes fresh perspectives, a little tweaking, small or big shifts, and even greater courage are needed, as well as I know how those first steps can present new challenges, need reiterating support, could use the nurturing of a heart that understands, truly cares, and can provide experienced insights.
It is clear to me that people are eager to move into a new experience and just needing gentle assistance, personalized support, inspiration, clear and focused reiteration, more resonating energy and like-mindedness around them, and comforting motivation to get both feet over the fence.
You do need ALL of your parts with you on this new journey you’re embarking upon 🙂
These are pivotal times for not letting go of the dreams you’ve been envisioning and a little loving nudge and guidance can be the way to remembering who you are, seeing through and stepping out of the delusions of the illusions – outer, conditioned patterns and stimulation, fears and self sabotage – and honing in on the gifts you already possess, but just need empowering from within. It is time for a new way of relaxing into the very heart and essence of you and “being” rather than striving for, right here and right now.
“The Empowered Visionary” email support is basically a partnership of support to help motivate, activate, nurture, empower, inspire, reveal, and kick start things into gear so that you can begin to share the joys and gifts of your heart as you were meant to – one visionary to another – and then enjoy the natural evolution that unfolds when you do so. It will combine a variety of processes, as is intuitively guided, to include energetic support as well.
I offer this in email support ONLY, for now, but with a special focus:
- To inspire a call to action: Support for fellow visionaries that desire that extra boost up to fully get over the wall or simply need supportive and loving insights to help bring solid clarity, vision and new-found exuberance. To provide innovative and creative insights/visions/perspectives to help identify and move through creative blocks or help create more clarity with any creative projects, goals, or creations of the heart you are trying to manifest. (great for all artists whether in the creative or healing arts). We can explore visionary ideas, discuss new supportive processes, as well as explore the heart of the matter, together – all in effort to dislodge and move the energy into being.
- Work co-creatively and co-supportively together: Together, we will work in “responsible” partnership to help you embrace your authenticity, reveal and work through fears, perceived limitations, enculturated and unconscious patterns, insecurities, doubts, frustrations and confusion that are holding you back. I provide a safe space to share and to explore – all in loving effort to help you courageously be you. I know what you are going through and I know how I have been able to shift the unwanted experiences to create more of what I do want to feel, so I can create what my heart wants and needs to share.
So…..If you are you able to:
- Commit to taking responsibility
- Open your heart courageously and vulnerably to go deeper than you ever have
- Be willing to explore new perspectives
- Be willing to let go of preconceived ideas
- Be willing to hold unconditional and non-judgmental detachment
- Take action immediately in steps conducive to the level of what you desire
- Be ready to bring your inner world into the outer world
- Be ready to embrace change in big ways
Then this may be the perfect partnership for you.
Email support I have found to be extremely beneficial to be able to work with clients from around the world and who are in different time zones, making it easy and convenient to thoughtfully engage when ever works best and most relaxing for you.
I also find email/writing to be a safe way and a way for people, myself included, to really let go and to flow with their thoughts – especially the creative and visionary minds. For me, writing is a way to process through things and much of the time, after I have written something out, the light bulb and healing takes place, or the answer is revealed. It just needed that committed, safe process to explore and allow energy to move. Then it also provides a log of what is shared that you can re-read and go back to or print out to use as you need and find new gems each time.
To have someone that can intuitively mirror, while holding that space for you, and that truly understands and can offer a resonating hand, can make a big difference. This is a way to not only kick start the action you desire in your life, as well as revitalize the actions you have been taking, but you will also experience more magic in your life, experience more synchronicity, embrace deeper joy, find more balance and in essence experience being more in touch with your heart authenticity so that you can be the empowered, unique and beautiful visionary you are.
How much do you value living with greater peace, courageous passion, and infectious inspiration?
I know for me, it means everything to me, because I can’t provide the level of service I share with the world through my creations, if I don’t first have that experience and connection within myself. If you also desire to be of your highest potential and greatest service and good in the world, then it starts with you. Empowering other visionaries is important to me, as I see the creative visionaries as leading the creation of a new reality and experience, as we journey into the world of creative thought and love.
“The Empowered Visionary” email support Investment into You – updated rates (Secure Paypal Credit Card Payments Accepted Only):
- 1 email + Response ~ $55
- 5 emails + Responses ~ $220 (1 free)
- 10 emails + Responses ~ $440 (2 free)
- 25 Emails + Responses ~ $1210 (3 free)
- The Committed Visionary of Action Package: 1 month of one daily email and response ~ $1444 (almost 5 free)
If interested in beginning “The Empowered Visionary” Email Support you may contact me at email@example.com.
For now, these are not posted on my website, so the only way to acquire this service is by emailing me. So if you or someone you know is interested in this or is looking for just what I’m offering, pass this along and send me a message so we can discuss where you’re at, and if this kind of support would be a good match that would benefit you. Gift certificates available for others as well.
“I made a request for a boost up attunement and counseling sessions with Tania and I must say that the one month that we worked together brought forth powerful healing and awareness within my life. What I appreciated most with her was the gentle way with which she explored issues with me as well as the intuitive help I kept on receiving from her during the sessions. It was pleasant really feeling the unconditional acceptance that represented each session, which was an added bonus. I feel I grew up a lot during our work together and she is definitely a Spiritual Master I would love to reconnect with for additional services in the future. Sweet energy, great spiritual wisdom. Thank you so much for having helped me attain the growth level I have reached at the moment.” ~Vidushi, Curepipe, Mauritius – now currently Montreal, Quebec
“Tania provided me wonderful insights. I could feel and sense her energy always. Her intuitive feedback on what was happening in my life was incredibly accurate.” ~Gary M., San Diego CA
“Thank you for being a kind and gentle teacher. You don’t even know how much that helps. Thank you for offering ways to help myself, that is mostly what I look for. I don’t care to have things done for me. Plus that lets me know someone else has faith in me. This has been the best investment, other than my children, of my life so far. (both money and time). Thank you again my friend. I can’t even begin to fully express how much you have helped me. Blessings to you.” ~Shellie, NV
Today I’m sharing a combined post that comes through the Sage Spirit Portal blending both a piece from my dear friend and co-creator of conscious evolution, Denise Sheehan, and a short piece from yours truly.
Denise is a conscious evolution coach, Shaman, Conscious Channel for Socha, and fellow Reiki Master Teacher (in fact we trained together under our beautiful RMT, Laura Bruno. All three of us used to live in the Reno/Tahoe area and on visits to see my family in Reno I still get to see Denise, which is always a treat. You may remember Denise from the guest blog I posted by her, “The Shift: What on Earth is Going On?”.
I was just reading and listening to Denise’s most recent post, Journey to Lemuria, and it was filled with such a gentle, loving and expansive energy that it felt like a beautiful and sweet piece to share for anyone wanting to be in that heart space today and feel a glimpse of Lemuria through the hearts of Denise, her partner Dana, and Socha – the star essence they both channel. Included in her post is a video of Denise and Dana.
Conscious channeling is actually a topic I’ve been wanting to share a bit more of at a later date, so this is a good little intro for that exploration to come.
The other piece, as I shared, is a short one by me that Denise blogged as a guest post just yesterday. It’s something I shared on Facebook, but not here (as I share a lot of material there that doesn’t get to my blog). So I thought you might enjoy reading it if you aren’t in the Facebook world. The topic is Personal Power and Alchemy.
I hope you enjoy both of these posts found at the links provided above, which speak to the power of our purity when we step into the source of our heart and creative essence.
Thank you Denise for sharing the purity of your heart.
I’ve been intending, the last several months, to start sharing interviews with, and guest blogs from, other visionaries in the fields of creative and healing arts who are forging the way to manifesting a new reality of co-creative Earth experience. I started one interview that is still in process of wrapping up, but when I recently, on the same day, had someone contact me about guest blogging and heard that my friend and fellow Reiki Master Teacher, Denise Sheehan, was also tapping into this collective channel by starting to share guest blogs as well, I took it as my synchronous heart nudge to open the doorway now, rather than later. And so, Denise and I contacted each other about sharing guest blogs for our collective community.
If you are a fellow visionary sharing passionate and transformative gifts of service from your heart’s love and joy that would like to guest blog or be interviewed you can contact me at firstname.lastname@example.org.
But for today, our focus is on guest blogger, Denise Sheehan, from Reno, Nevada. I had the pleasure of going through my Reiki training with Denise when I lived in the Tahoe/Reno area. It’s always amazing to see who comes together in Reiki classes, as it’s always a perfect synergy of souls that create a web of connection. I have since moved back to California, but Denise and I have remained in connection and we refer clients to each other in the areas where we both now live. A benefit of having gone through training together and creating a soul friendship that goes beyond just a fellow student, we are able to recommend each other’s Reiki services, knowing it stems from the same heart core and the same loving Reiki Master Teacher, and mutual faery friend and colleague who you hear me mention quite often, Laura Bruno!
Denise is a multi-faceted spiritual entrepreneur and CEO of Sage Spirit Coaching & Reiki. She beautifully and heart-fully shares her unique gifts in service to others as a Reiki Master Teacher, Life Coach, Shaman and Author. Her passion as a life coach has led her to incorporate various branches to her offerings to include becoming a Certified Professional Co-Active Coach through the internationally accredited Coaches Training Institute, Certified Job Coach with NextJob, Associate Certified Coach with the International Coach Federation, and also offers pro bono coaching helping women and their families to transcend poverty, to become financially independent, and to thrive in all aspects of life. She co-authored a college textbook, Substance Abuse Prevention: The Intersection of Science and Practice and has also authored and co-authored several others products on the topic of prevention, including a popular national curriculum, Substance Abuse Prevention Specialist Training.
On a more personal note, Denise is a passionate, loving, sensitive and radiant light who so generously gives of her heart and exudes a gentle power that is both nurturing and encouraging. She sees the beauty in everyone and everything around her and lives from the joy of her heart, in effort to empower others to do the same. She shares her experiences with life partner Dana Bratcher, who co-facilitates the Sage Spirit Reiki classes, and their mystic and beautiful animal companions, Myo and SunBear. It is an honor and joy to know her and be both friend and colleague in co-creation of the New Earth we are birthing. Thank you Denise for shining your courageously vulnerable heart and for being a loving example of channeling your joy in service to others.
You can read more about Denise and all of her beautiful services offered at Sage Spirit Coaching & Reiki
Today’s guest blog comes to us from Denise Sheehan and is titled, The Shift: What on Earth is Going On? I hope you enjoy her sharing and take time to ponder the questions she poses at the end as a means to set the tone for your day and the directions you intend to take and experience on your journey in life.
The Shift: What on Earth is Going On? – by Denise Sheehan
Do you sometimes have the feeling we’re not in Kansas anymore? At the same time that economic, political, social & other structures seem to be falling away, much that has been concealed by those in power comes into the light. Revolutions, large and small, take place across the world as people rise up and claim their empowerment. In terms of planetary activities, we might also note the earth’s upcoming crossing of the galactic equator, magnetic pole shifts, solar flares and more that effect our collective and individual electromagnetic fields in ways that perhaps we cannot fully imagine as yet.
At the same time as we experience transition and transformation in the external world, much shifts within us too. Does is seem as if time accelerates at an amazing rate, and even young people are aware of the change? Have you noticed increased access to intuition? Have you experienced an expansion of love energy in yourself, your family, and your community? Have your dreams become more multi-dimensional? In our moments of love and joy, we come closer to Christ- or Buddha- conscious, nirvana, heaven-on-earth or our essence. As above, so below.
Let’s be honest. Not all of us are feeling like shiny-happy people, and no one that I know feels that way all the time. At the same time that we, as individuals, come more into the light and love vibration, we become more able to see our own shadows rising up to the surface, dancing into our awareness, and begging for release (just as the shadows in the external world come out of concealment – as within, so without).
Our shadows may involve unhealthy beliefs, thought-patterns, habits, memories, feelings and more. Often times we project our shadows onto others, “Oh, I don’t like being with her; she’s so negative!” Really this is an opportunity to see and heal whatever negative thinking patterns we experience. This healing is really essential to our well-being and happiness. In times like these, we manifest what we think much more quickly. If we continue to think of negative occurrences, relationships, patterns and more – even defining ourselves as our story around these patterns – we will simply create more of the same until we’re ready to release it all and to embrace our full potential.
Pioneers of evolutionary thought like Barbara Marx Hubbard, Bruce Lipton, and many others, explore the need to evolve or become extinct. Blending science and spirituality helps to issue in a new era of peace and love. Ultimately, the shift is one of consciousness expanding, our conscious evolution. These are indeed times to celebrate, even as we sometimes uncomfortably and ungracefully release the past, along with the old structures that don’t serve our collective well-being.
This is my definition of conscious evolution: it’s an acknowledgement that change, or evolution, is inherent in the human experience. We, as conscious evolutionaries, are awake and intentional about our response to world changes. We know who we are at our core, and we paint our lives with creative, artistic brushstrokes. It’s about alchemy, as we shift ourselves and our world from polarity- to unity-consciousness, from logic-centric values to incorporating intuition and heart-based knowing, from having and hoarding to offering our unique gifts into the world. We honor and embrace the feminine and masculine, nature and technology, science and spirit, youth and elders, being and doing.
Here’s a four-minute video of Barbara Marx-Hubbard speaking on conscious evolution:
How do you define consciousness?
What does evolution mean to you?
In what profound ways is your world shifting?
Who do you want to be, moving forward from this moment?