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The Life of Death


Ocean Musings


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“It is not the length of life, but the depth.” ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

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“Because there’s nothing more beautiful than the way the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline, no matter how many times it’s sent away.” ~Sarah Kay

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“A visit to the ocean for me is cleansing, recharging, and nurturing. It supports me into my expansiveness, guides me lovingly into the abyss, and activates a remembrance. It’s a place I can go to surrender to life and allow feelings to flow. There is no need for answers, only a willingness to let go into beingness.” ~Tania Marie

Tree Wisdom


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Magickal Tree in High Park, Toronto I found on my visit there in 2013

 

“For me, trees have always been the most penetrating preachers. I revere them when they live in tribes and families, in forests and groves. And even more I revere them when they stand alone. They are like lonely persons. Not like hermits who have stolen away out of some weakness, but like great, solitary men, like Beethoven and Nietzsche. In their highest boughs the world rustles, their roots rest in infinity; but they do not lose themselves there, they struggle with all the force of their lives for one thing only: to fulfil themselves according to their own laws, to build up their own form, to represent themselves. Nothing is holier, nothing is more exemplary than a beautiful, strong tree. When a tree is cut down and reveals its naked death-wound to the sun, one can read its whole history in the luminous, inscribed disk of its trunk: in the rings of its years, its scars, all the struggle, all the suffering, all the sickness, all the happiness and prosperity stand truly written, the narrow years and the luxurious years, the attacks withstood, the storms endured. And every young farmboy knows that the hardest and noblest wood has the narrowest rings, that high on the mountains and in continuing danger the most indestructible, the strongest, the ideal trees grow.

Trees are sanctuaries. Whoever knows how to speak to them, whoever knows how to listen to them, can learn the truth. They do not preach learning and precepts, they preach, undeterred by particulars, the ancient law of life.

A tree says: A kernel is hidden in me, a spark, a thought, I am life from eternal life. The attempt and the risk that the eternal mother took with me is unique, unique the form and veins of my skin, unique the smallest play of leaves in my branches and the smallest scar on my bark. I was made to form and reveal the eternal in my smallest special detail.

A tree says: My strength is trust. I know nothing about my fathers, I know nothing about the thousand children that every year spring out of me. I live out the secret of my seed to the very end, and I care for nothing else. I trust that God is in me. I trust that my labor is holy. Out of this trust I live.

When we are stricken and cannot bear our lives any longer, then a tree has something to say to us: Be still! Be still! Look at me! Life is not easy, life is not difficult. Those are childish thoughts. Let God speak within you, and your thoughts will grow silent. You are anxious because your path leads away from mother and home. But every step and every day lead you back again to the mother. Home is neither here nor there. Home is within you, or home is nowhere at all.

A longing to wander tears my heart when I hear trees rustling in the wind at evening. If one listens to them silently for a long time, this longing reveals its kernel, its meaning. It is not so much a matter of escaping from one’s suffering, though it may seem to be so. It is a longing for home, for a memory of the mother, for new metaphors for life. It leads home. Every path leads homeward, every step is birth, every step is death, every grave is mother.

So the tree rustles in the evening, when we stand uneasy before our own childish thoughts: Trees have long thoughts, long-breathing and restful, just as they have longer lives than ours. They are wiser than we are, as long as we do not listen to them. But when we have learned how to listen to trees, then the brevity and the quickness and the childlike hastiness of our thoughts achieve an incomparable joy. Whoever has learned how to listen to trees no longer wants to be a tree. He wants to be nothing except what he is. That is home. That is happiness.”

~Hermann Hesse,  Baume. Betrachtungen und Gedichte (Trees. Reflections and Poems)

 

Life is a Sacred Journey


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Labyrinth at St. Michael and All Angels – walked this, this weekend

 

“Your life is a sacred journey. And it is about change, growth, discovery, movement, transformation, continuously expanding your vision of what is possible, stretching your soul, learning to see clearly and deeply, listening to your intuition, taking courageous challenges at every step along the way. You are on the path… exactly where you are meant to be right now… And from here, you can only go forward, shaping your life story into a magnificent tale of triumph, of healing, of courage, of beauty, of wisdom, of power, of dignity, and of love.”  ~Caroline Adams Miller

 

Every step of the journey is integral to the path of wholeness that you are on.

It is ever-changing and ever-perfect, taking you to your own sacred center and back out into the expansive reflection found there.

At times you may need to call upon your intuition and creativity, engaging receptivity and courage when deciding to enter the journey to center or not – the way in is the way out.

 

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Maze at the Getty Museum’s garden grounds – explored this last weekend

 

At times you may need to invite curiosity, wise discernment, and analytical awareness, to actively engage the journey to center – flexibility and heightened senses will unveil the method within the madness…the peace within the chaos.

 

 

Tania Marie ~ Creating Life as a Work of Art


This article came past me again today when someone messaged about it, and it felt like a nudge to share it once more. It’s an article I wrote as a contributing author for http://wild-woman.com/. The title of this article happens to be one of my personal mottos, and the theme heading of my blog. Perhaps it might speak to you in some way.

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My life wasn’t always an expression of my heart. Well, not my truest and wildest heart, but rather a tamed one that felt similar to what it might be like receiving a heart transplant – part of me I had accepted, but not naturally of me.

While I did incarnate, as we all do, with my full gifts intact and flowing, it wasn’t long before the naturally expressive, unhindered, and unencumbered me took a back seat in the dark recesses of my human vehicle.

The beautiful innocence we all bask in the glow of from onset tends to diminish, as we soon begin to forget who we are, under the heaviness of all that is not us. These unwelcome, but unquestioned strangers squeeze that little child into the tiniest, deepest part of us we can manage hiding her in, which will prove a courageous journey to recover her from later.

This isn’t always the experience, nor does it have to be. However, the journey of my heart was one that I had chosen to walk in all colorful feeling extremes, in order to come to know my thread of expression within the collective tapestry, and to have a foundation of true understanding and breadth of compassion from which to connect from.

The journey wound through various paths of trials and explorations, as I experimented to find the right balance of elements that when kindled, would ignite the resonant recipe of me.

It hasn’t always been an easy journey, but it has been an invaluable and rich journey – one I wouldn’t change even if you told me I could. I can’t imagine my life any other way and now have only gratitude for every courageous soul that was willing to show up exactly as they did to assist me with my personal evolution.

I believe we contract soul agreements and that the people we have had the most challenge with, are some of the souls who love us enough to know that they may be temporarily resented and despised, as we both move through our journeys.

We have the opportunity in every moment to rigidly close ourselves off like a guarded steel trap, or to gently open ourselves up like wings of a bird taking to flight.

Right now, and in every now-moment, you are either closing or opening. You are either stressfully waiting for something – more money, security, affection – or you are living from your deep heart, opening as the entire moment, and giving what you most deeply desire to give, without waiting.” ~David Deida

Through the obstacle course of my life I set up to experience, I shared in the wound of fragmentation that we each go through on the journey to unifying the powers of seeing, knowing, feeling, and being. There is a wounded healer in all of us that desires to quench the thirst of self-purification through release of conformity and mediocrity that has held our soul’s true power and magick down.

At every turn we can choose differently. Choose to shift perspective. Choose to feel and believe differently. Choose to take different actions. Choose to be more present. Choose to respond with conscious awareness, unconditional love, and compassion. For we see in others, the shared wounds we both desire freedom from.

It is our sovereign free will that we can exercise to create anew in each now moment. And from this presence of heart, we can activate the powerful vulnerability of our personal integrity to be the voice of change needed, in response to all experiences.

There came a time when I was ready to see, both literally and figuratively. And to be willing to look within is where the journey to wholeness begins.

I actively do my best to practice and remind myself to stand in that wholeness of heart and soul, as I believe it is the bridge that provides the potential for others to do the same. And I gently keep encouraging myself when I move through moments of learning and re-learning, realizing that the journey is more valuable than any idealized destination.

After all, we are here to experience all that life as a human has to offer. We didn’t have a clause going in saying, “Only IF it is exactly like this, will I incarnate.” We chose because of the adventure and the possibilities available. We knew it would come with the ups and downs. And we were celebrated in our courage to come anyway.

As a natural artist of life, I have always danced with healing arts and creative expression as either a childhood tool to escape the pains of the past, or a means to which, as an adult, I could recreate the world I once escaped to, as my now reality. It wasn’t until much later in life, however, that I embraced the gifts that showed up from early on – the arts, imagination, intuition, sensitivity, and connectivity – as the channel for self-expressive service to others.

Yet, everything to me has always been rich in symbolism, which I felt had the power to shift experiences through the potent and fertile doorways they created.

So I developed a knack for the alchemy of transmutation through the vehicle of integrated self-expression from the heart. And I am living more aligned with that true and wild heart of mine and enjoying life more now than ever because of, not in spite of, everything that has been part of my experience.

I invite and welcome others into the dance with self and to align with the way in which speaks to your own heart’s rhythm.

I believe that creativity and heart are not separate. It takes a heart to dream and it takes creativity to love unconditionally. Love and creative energy I believe are the most powerful forces in the Universe. The more creative expression is engaged and supported, the deeper our hearts expand, as they are then also being nurtured to grow.

And it is through love and creativity that we will integrate healing within and without, the more we exercise them.

Everything I share is with intention of supporting an integrated and empowered experience of discovering your own heart wisdom, while activating your creative manifestation abilities that will enhance the quality of your life and in turn, create collective ripple shifts as a reflection of your example of living from that wholeness of you. I hope to inspire and nurture courageous heart explorations that lead to self-empowerment through a return to natural harmony.

You don’t have to be a visionary artist by way of your life’s work, to make your life work as a vision of artistry. Have you ever wondered what your life would be like if you started living the wonder? Activate the heart of you by cultivating the art of you and within that state of being uniquely you, you will be free. 

Finding Your Return


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A special, hidden little place I found in Alaska on a walk

 

The difficulty and challenge seems to always lie in the finding of a hidden place, thing, or part of yourself, wherein lies the test.

Once you are a vibrational match and the alignment is activated into the embrace of being, this acceptance constitutes your no longer having need for testing.

Then, the return is simple.

 

 

Introducing Tania Marie – Creating Life As A Work of Art


Recently, I was asked to contribute as a Wild Woman writer for the Wild Woman Community, which I gratefully accepted, as I love the vision behind it. This is my introduction article that has just been posted. For those of you new to it, the Wild Woman Community is a growing (with nearly 25,000 followers) online sacred Wild Woman Circle of healers, artists, creatives, and businesses that promote a holistic approach to life through their shared knowledge, experiences, and services so that women have a safe place where they can seek wisdom, find understanding, feel inspired, and be connected. It is still in the introductory phase, but will continue to expand and offer insightful articles and supportive resources from contributors. Samantha Wilson is the Founder of the Wild Woman Community who shares that the inspiration behind the Community came from the Wild Woman Archetype in the book “Women Who Run With The Wolves” by Clarissa Pinkola Estes. In Samantha’s words, “I see my journey over the last two years as working with the Wild Woman within me and the three most important lessons learned were: the need for creativity and spirituality in a woman’s soul life, how women heal themselves and others through the telling of their stories, and the need for women to collaborate rather than be in competition. From this understanding, the Wild Woman Community was born. I am hoping that it will evolve into a digital platform, a 21st century global women’s circle, where every woman is welcomed and her story honored.” You can read more about Samantha’s personal journey – walking away from being a practicing litigation lawyer into the unknown and freeing self discovery as a Life Coach and Energy Healer with focus on supporting women – and get introduced to the other Wild Women by visiting “Wild Woman Community – Awaken the Wild One Within

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