Once upon a time there was a rabbit named Nestor.
She was made of stardust and reminded me I was too.
Life became magickal and my heart opened wide.
I’ve never been the same since…..
(Painting “Nestor” by me, Tania Marie)
This is a post about joy, gratitude, and love – building blocks to manifesting a magickal and wondrous life and the foundations for supporting healing transmutation and implementation of passions into dreams come true. While some people might be thrown off balance or upset, down, and self-critical over a fracture (even the old me would have been too), I feel like everything is in flow, fresh, and thriving. Definitely some of that has to do with perspective, but it feels also to be about alignment and embrace of the harmonious spirals of life. I haven’t for a second felt anything other than harmony and gratitude since my hiking adventure that led to my injury, as it feels much more to be a reset aligned with life shifts, an igniting or opening (fissure) for the new to flow in, not to mention is mirroring the seasonal changes we’re going into from Summer to Autumn.
I can’t begin to tell you how beautiful things have been surrounding the onset of my fracture and what it has revealed and put into motion. It’s incredible to witness and review…in some ways mind-blowing because I can remember the difference in my processes over the course of my life with things and it’s so dramatically contrasting to what I experience now. This is how I can SEE things ARE in fact changing and can anchor in more and more gratitude.
I’d like to share a couple of updates and then some very beautiful and incredible experiences.
First off….more gratitude sent out to everyone who has sent their good and healing vibes my way and for sending Astrid birthday wishes. We so appreciate your love and I’d like to share that my foot is doing very well. I can’t believe it’s already going to be a week since it happened, come tomorrow! Time is literally whizzing by. OMGOSH!
I’ve made mental note of how my own nurturing processes are even in much higher gear, as I’m taking REALLY good care of myself with this fracture. I noted that last go-around I wasn’t as diligent with the process, although did do good things for it, but I didn’t baby my foot in the way I should have and still was focused on accomplishing and getting things done, rather than hunkering down into the full healing mode and not trying to see how much I could still squeeze out of it all.
This time it’s been pure healing, slow-down, and wise caution, not doing anything at all to inhibit my healing or see what I can possibly still do. I have been purely babying my foot, keeping my boot on at nearly all possible times (even when it bothered the Pisces me who likes my feet free! and even when I sleep) – and doing extra nurturing things, as well as making sure to ask for help, which Dave has been so sweetly pouring out anyway.
This has included long hours on the highest setting of my biomat for my foot the last few days and just recently starting up my comfrey poultices, after a friend picked up some for me since I couldn’t get out. Being my right foot, I’m in complete surrender of others taking care of me and driving me around….weeeeeee! That in the past would have bothered me and now I’m loving not being able to go anywhere and surrendering to that, but also enjoying the sweetness of support, love, and friendship.
Anyway, I am trying new poultices with comfrey root and this feels really symbolically and literally potent and even more aligned for me right now. I made a paste and wrapped in a thin cloth I placed in the freezer for just a bit….last night when I had it on it just felt so good….just like the biomat did….like aaahhhhhhh yummy healing for my foot.
The root feels so supportive of grounding, balancing, rooting, and Earthing that my Pisces feet can appreciate and integrate in a new way. After last night’s session of poultice while watching a movie, I literally woke this morning with my foot feeling stronger…literally!
I’ve also been doing Reiki on my foot and using a Selenite wand on the area of impact.
Good stuff, which I’ll continue to implement, along with wearing my boot all day (just as the doctor at the hospital told me too) other than when doing healing work like this to help compliment my healing process.
* (I’m not a doctor and nothing I share is offered as medical advice – CONSULT A PROFESSIONAL and see a doctor immediately if you have been injured. These are only my personal experiences I take responsibility for only for myself) *
Even my sweet Astrid has been helping. I thought she would be scared of my boot and crutches when I first came home with them, but she in fact was not and in fact has immediately gone about sharing her healing energy with me, reiterating my knowing she is a healing bunny. When ever I am near her, she will come over and nose my boot/foot, which is her way (all of my bunnies’ way) of administering healing. Their noses are a channel, just like our hands, to spread the energy and love. So sweet! I remember Nestor doing this, especially once for my mom in conjunction with me doing a Reiki Healing Attunement for her, which was like a super pow! Immediately shifted my mom into balance and feeling good. Astrid is definitely demonstrating the same power-packed punch!
So that’s a foot and healing update, which I envision continuing well and being speedy based on my experience with it so far and being a good patient. 😉
On another note, I have to share this incredible thing that happened on Thursday that blew me away. We had friends over since I still was in “stay home mode” and Dave had to go out to pick up food we ordered at our fav local Thai restaurant, since T – me – wasn’t cooking and staying off her feet.
A knock came at the door and I opened it to find no one there, except these beautiful babies and a note.
I immediately knew that our amazing friends had gone back to retrieve my crystal babies.
So, I’ll back up to help you understand this, as I likely wasn’t clear in my story of my hiking injury.
I had 2 big quartz in my back pack I was carrying, as they spoke to me needing to come home and would be a part of what I will be creating in the near future. We have guesstimated them to be at least 50 lbs. So, as you can tell, I was quite determined in carrying these for miles. It didn’t even phase me, as the mind is a miraculous thing. It also officially put me into back-packer status, carrying so much and being so small.
When I fell and went into trauma shock, I asked my friends to remove the pack immediately because I needed to focus on balancing from the nausea, shock, and turning white. (I really didn’t have any pain except an initial quick impact feeling of the break that was actually pretty subtle in comparison to my last fracture, but the body reacts this way to trauma impact).
In process of balancing and readying ourselves for what was next in getting me down the mountain, I told them to leave the crystals, which Dave reiterated, as it wasn’t as important as taking care of me, being that we didn’t know the severity of things.
So they were left on the side, and I did feel this underlying sadness, but also this odd sense of continued connection that wasn’t broken.
One other friend had been carrying a quartz too and she ended up leaving as well, down further on the path, to not impede her own journey back down.
Anyway, I hadn’t forgotten them and still felt this channel of connection between them, and oddly (which I never shared with anyone) I felt like they were still with me and/or would be somehow/some way, even if it meant they’d wait for me to return later or after the Winter thaw.
So fast forward to the door opening and there they were before me with the note.
I was overwhelmed with emotion that came forth later, as I was so excited and giddy that that took over.
I then caught glimpse to the left at the bottom of the stairs, one of our friends videoing me and my reaction and knew they’d gone back to get them.
Most of my reactions were in Faery laughter and astonishment, but it was also full of exhilaration and exuberant joy and gratitude that rushed through in realizing what incredible friends I had. Like so incredible you can’t even form words except to giggle forth with joy and to form joyous tears that bubbled in my eyes later when I was hugging them over and over.
Our friends had gone back that morning on a 5 hour hike JUST to retrieve my and our other friend’s 3 crystals (likely 60+ lbs and a gift or two they found for themselves for embracing the journey of love.
BESTEST friends ever!
They also shared with us these SO SO funny videos of documenting the journey back, which had us in belly laughs. I was especially laughing at our friend’s impression of me carrying the crystals in my pack and how I was still looking around at more and saying I can carry 1 or 2 more of these babies! This was funny because they now realized just how heavy the ones I had with me were, which made my saying this hilarious as to how my determined mind took over.
This photo puts into perspective the size of just the one largest one, which is of course the heaviest too. I’m still smiling though!!
The other VERY interesting thing they noted was that where I fell was exactly at the site of the quartz field we’d been waiting to reach. Dave kept saying there was another one because he’d been on the hike before, when the girls and I had stopped at the first one we found to look around. So he was telling us not to spend time because more were on the way. We never actually saw this other site, because my injury took over focus.
Well, on their way back to retrieve the crystals they found that where I fell (marked by where we left the crystals) was exactly where they were, just up the hill from there a bit. That gave me chills in thinking of the energetics of it all at work and the alignments igniting and activating once I’d reached this area infused with more crystal vibes.
The crystals are super special and you can’t even tell the beauty of them in the photos…their amazing color – one is pinkish and the other like a golden apricot – and both have all this sparkly clear quartz infusions into the raw natural quartz rock. Amazing specimens and masterful beings!!
I’m still overwhelmed by it and also anchoring in more and more gratitude and realization that this is the new reality I have created for myself (and that is possible) where everything in it is a reflection of alignment and love…supportive energies…beautiful souls working together for a greater good….everyone mindful of and helping each other’s needs and dreams, but also supporting their own and their dreams, which brings together the highest of vibes and the power of the collective to move mountains…..or in this case to carry 60+ lbs of crystals.
It literally has to be one of the most special things I’ve ever received..and I don’t mean the crystals (although I’m in awe and gratitude of them being with me), but the gesture of true love and friendship.
These same friends also picked up my comfrey for me (it even had a Tinkerbell on the bag from the store!) and brought over some amazing organic “dragonfly” spicy black chai.
After that, our other friends arrived and I was then gifted a mini wardrobe of clothes she was moving out and thought were perfect for me and they were!
I was/am really feeling the love and I know that this is mirroring the fact that I’ve finally really anchored in taking care of myself, listening to my dreams and needs too, and balancing out that martyr energy of always giving out and never receiving – not to mention have implemented healthy boundaries. In the past receiving was hard and now it feels natural because it IS the natural flow and cycle.
You can’t just give, give, give….and you can’t just receive, receive, receive…
There is a flow of exchange to be open to and grateful for and it is all-encompassing of both being inherent in the wholeness of BEING. That is also the nature of Reiki….a harmonious circuit of flow in and out, which if blocked in any way, is the cause of challenges and dis-ease.
Yesterday was my first full outing since fracturing my foot, which included errands related to the new, a hair appointment for me, visiting my parents, and Dave getting a haircut by my mom (she has been a beautician although doesn’t do it professionally anymore since leaving her birth place, France).
I was feeling high-vibed to get a refresh on my hair, which included cut/thinning for lightness and hair getting to all silver and brown (my roots), which feels SO different and SO good. There’s constantly this recreating energy taking place to keep up with the ever-shifting energies. If I’m not naturally shape-shifting, then I’m assisting it. I also thought it was fun that my stylist styled my hair with loose spirals for a change, which felt mirroring of all the snake energy around me lately and the spiraling of the journey of life in general. I don’t ever curl my hair, as I don’t have the tools and usually just let my hair dry naturally so this was a fun update although brief.
We also got good news on this day/yesterday for something that has been in the works and took a huge turn the day before that could have gone a whole other way, but I worked with the Faeries, Buffalo energy, and did a Reiki Healing Attunement for, resulting in being told to fully trust, know what we want, and take assertive stance of our needs and the rest would be taken care of…and it was!
I’m saving that for a future post, but is something very exciting to me and going to anchor in everything further and more richly.
Lastly, I am happy to say that my book is back on track with the time off my feet and I should be able to have exciting news on that too here shortly!
We are all in this together and bringing your best “foot” forward with all of your parts together in unified alignment, sharing lots of love, joyous infusion and supportive action of your passions, and a LOT of gratitude and healthy balance supports harmony to take form in relative ways for each of us.
As I glance at the clock to begin this post my eye catches the time to read 2:26 pm. There is no randomness about that in my book, being that much of this post is centered around the theme of rebirthing, since 2/26 IS my birthday, and I’ve been seeing these numbers show up again. It’s also no coincidence my last post was titled Updates & Integrations Anchoring and my post of 6 days ago – Earthing, Faery Portals, Dream Visioning & Pisces Full Moon – spoke of the energy around the Pisces Full Moon – all of this making sense as you read on. I mentioned in that blog how Pisces rules the feet saying “dance like crazy and move energy through your feet, which will not only shake out everything from the core and move things fast, but will anchor and ground you as you connect those feet to Mother Earth – Terra. She will in turn help transmute the energy and send it back with a recharge!” I specifically also mentioned how I, myself, had just danced the hardest I have since in my twenties and then was recalibrating my sore feet for 2 days after because of it. I also mentioned having seen 5 snakes, seeing/experiencing Faery portals and new doorways of possibilities, and how pulling within sometimes is necessary.
Voila! In comes yesterday’s adventure on 9/10, leaving me to start my first day of healing recalibration on 9/11, today, which auspiciously is also the day my blog is about to hit 1,000,000 visitors – collective energy feeling entwined in this all for sure, as Pisces naturally would be.
I’ll try to keep the story simple and to the point, so I’m going to bypass a lot of the details to allow a lot of the pulling together of meanings for you to draw upon and piece together.
To make a long story shorter 😉 yesterday we went with a group of our dear friends here on an epic 13 mile hike to Star Lake. On the drive there I pointed out a perfectly formed dragon sculpture to Dave, naturally formed from a dead tree stump on the side of the road in Christmas Valley (having street names like Elf, Blitzen, and Portal to name a few) looking up toward the sky with wings behind it. That felt significant.
We found our trailhead, which took us along the Tahoe Rim Trail (where the still lingering Pisces Full Moon showed up across a vista seen in the photo above) and was gorgeous every step of the way. Part of the adventure involved traversing through quartz crystal-infused areas and immersing in their energy, which being Master Crystals was potent to say the least.
I’d been told I’d find a special crystal or two for an upcoming creation-to-be in the new unfolding, which did in fact take place, although in a different way (for now) than envisioned.
Two giant ones spoke to me and I managed to carry them in my packs to Star Lake where we enjoyed a picnic lunch. Rainbow light, Faery portals, and magick lit the journey across creeks, enchanted forests, amazing stone people outcroppings, and incredible vistas with hidden snow patches here and there, as I carried these potent beings with me. It was my first time to this lake.
On our descent, things took a turn, as I literally found my right foot swivel under me on a rock and heard a crack. Down I came and about 30 seconds later my body went into the shock syndrome when trauma has occurred in the body.
I have only experienced this with fractured bones, major contusions, my unbearable tailbone pains, or when empathing someone else’s injury. Although not foreign to me, it doesn’t make it any more fun. 🙂 Shock is a response the body has to trauma or intense pain where it shuts the body’s systems down to deal with it and can result in things such as weakness, cold sweat, irregular breathing, chills, turning white, nausea, etc.
For me it’s usually weakness, turning white, nausea, and close-to-fainting that I experience.
I knew to just sit down, close my eyes, focus on breathing slowly, energetically balancing myself, and having some water. And that was what I did with the assistance of the best team of friends one could ask for to be there with me through it. It subsided after about 10-15 minutes and after that I was back to my Faery self, but with what I intuitively knew to be a bone fracture – later confirmed.
What happened from there on was an adventure itself and truly for me was not phasing me or wavering my spirits in any way, once I balanced back out, about what happened to me, but just had me on high consciousness about what was evolving all around me, the meanings, and how this may have affected the others in ways that could be worse than anything I was experiencing.
That’s an empath for you, feeling the amazing group of compassionate empaths I had with me.
I already knew how incredible these souls all are, but when you go through challenges like we did together you really come to know the depths of the bonds shared and get to see the best and worst of people. In this case I saw nothing but the best and after just a couple of days before having been locked in an escape room together with them called Trapped in Tahoe – it solidified how well we worked together under pressure and never a negative vibe coming forth.
Sometimes experiences work in mysterious ways for valuable reasons and although you’d want to label them “negative” or “bad”, in fact have nothing but silver linings and beautiful purposes in a bigger picture way.
Dave called 911 and immediately a Search and Rescue team was dispatched to meet us, but we were in a hard to reach area, so to make it easier we had the goal of getting to the High Meadows area where vehicles could reach us. And that’s just what our team did with Dave and our friend, Happy, taking turns piggy-back riding me down the 2+ miles to get there, giggling and keeping everyone smiling the whole way with jokes and lightness.
Our timing couldn’t have been perfect, as as soon as we arrived, the SAR team was just pulling up and getting ready to start hiking up to us. Not far behind them was the rest of the emergency and sheriff team.
I had to laugh as we approached, when the first guy said something about wanting to know if there was a woman along the way that they were there to pick up. I was wearing a “Love” hat and on Happy’s back, so apparently I looked like a little girl and so they had no clue it was me.
I said, “that’s me!” He was like, “oh!” And we went on to meet the woman (that so happened to be vegan we learned immediately) who was at the truck and equally seemed surprised when Happy asked if he could put me on the bed of the truck. She was like, “Oh, yes!” again not realizing I was the one in need. LOL!
Literally right after I was sat down on the edge of the back of the truck, my friend Bean (who’d been wearing a hoodie that said 1973 – my birth year on it) points behind me where I discover a hawk flying toward us and then above so I can see its feathers and coloring. I knew I was being watched out for, as Hawks are always my guardians, sentinels, and sky messengers to communicate between Earth and Cosmos. I got chills.
I felt a little weird, to say the least, the whole time creating so much attention and more so when several vehicles and a big team shows up for little ol’ me like something out of a movie with wilderness survivors being rescued. This was no big deal in my opinion, but apparently people DO really care and when someone’s in any kind of need, “LOVE” (as my rainbow hat said) has the ability to shine through.
It’s not my usual to be the center of attention since I stay more quiet normally, but I knew there was purpose for that as well and to relax into the beauty of group dynamics and team work unfolding before my eyes, which made me think of all of the mirroring things taking place everywhere with the fires and hurricanes, and major world events.
These times call for unification, compassion, and finding the common threads of humanity and love to come together for a higher good.
I was grateful and I embraced the love pouring out here, and across the globe, despite the contrast of dynamics at work, and yet because of it.
After vitals and taking in info I was carried into the Sheriff’s truck and the rest of the gang hopped in the other trucks and we were whisked down the remaining miles to our cars awaiting us at the trailhead.
I refused the ambulance and so we thanked everyone who had showed up SO fast – they were ALL SO FANTASTIC – and headed to the hospital to await my findings that turned out to be what I thought – a fracture to my right foot.
Not just any fracture, but a mirroring metatarsal fracture to what happened to my left foot FIVE years ago. This time being the FIFTH bone of the metatarsal (different than last time), but a clean fracture again, so no surgery needed.
The doctor said he was shocked again at my age and told Dave, no offense when he had the first thought I may have been his daughter. I normally don’t look THAT young, but apparently in my attire, baseball hat, and pony tail, I was giving off “little girl” today.
Made me wonder if this had in part to do with the rebirthing energy. Hmmmm…
After being given a boot, crutches, and a 6-8 week healing prognosis, we made our way home and I made my way up the 105 steps feeling the totality of the day’s events, life shifts, and soulful journeys illuminating.
It was auspicious that only 4 days earlier I had shared a “Throwback Thursday” post via Instagram and Facebook about my 2/25/12 gallery event that took place the day before my birthday (and had birthday celebrations involved) where I showed up in a Frankenstein-like black shoe because of the left foot metatarsal fracture that was still healing.
But during the time I was being piggy-backed on this day of 2017, I was reviewing much, including how much my processes and progress had shifted since then, as I remember being initially upset and down on myself when that one took place, until I pieced together the meaning.
This time was so different. It’s hard to explain, but it was like this seamless, natural unfolding. I wasn’t in the least bit phased or even taken off center, except to deal with the physical trauma I had to initially integrate to catch up with the other parts of me that were on board already – definitely feeling like part of those upgrades and physical recalibrations to help align with all the fast transformations taking place.
Transformation leading me to those FIVE snakes I’d recently just seen AND the full snake skin I found Saturday (just the day before this took place). I found it at an Indian site on Spooner Lake hidden between the sacred stone people formations to the site, which was nearly impossible that I’d seen it (of course meant to be). Right before that I’d found a big group of feathers from one of the black and white water fowl there. Definitely signs of rebirthing, shedding old skin, and watery support to flow with it all.
And that watery energy seemed to be a focal point in that feet are ruled by the sign of Pisces, my native sign, and the sign the Full Moon was in. It also happens to be a collective energy sign, which so much of the day’s events felt to be tied into and reflecting, not to mention, as a Pisces would be natural to tap into and play out.
On one level I felt myself, as others too are going through, helping to release some of the pressure in the collective field through the fissure in my bone, which represents structures breaking down to make way for more flexible, new ones. Something Mother Earth Herself does and is doing.
It seemed no coincidence that the hurricanes were raging through Bimini when this was taking place (an area that I’m deeply connected to as you know), and my good friend Jenny was in the eye of it all, having refused to evacuate in order to stay with the home and her ARC (Atlantis Rejuvenation Center) that held the energy for Atlantis there. I’d briefly messaged with her some personal things around this, but had felt a huge resurgence and shift with the energy around that collective experience too.
It seemed no coincidence, also, that we were surrounded by crystal energy (hugely connected to Atlantis) and I had been carrying the load of 2 big ones when my incident took place. It felt deeply symbolic and later I also realized how these crystals had activated and ignited a shift for me that was actually softened through the fracture in my foot rather than being something potentially bigger.
Once again I was experiencing a profound rebirthing on many levels and was opening the portal in my foot/my nature to receive the new Earth energy streaming through.
Terra is recalibrating and so must we.
And personally, also, because of recent events that swooped into our lives heralding in quick changes and anchoring of new, I had to put the conclusion to my book on hold over and over. That had been the only thing I’d been bothered by (as nothing phases me these days), although understood all the moving pieces were necessary to take place to assist this, and so I embraced the shifting timeline peacefully. I also realized that there was some leeway because other shifts were being supported and needing to anchor in simultaneously since it is all connected.
However, I did realize that I had recently, a few days ago, adamantly stated the time was now and no further adjustments could be made because the window was opening, but wouldn’t remain so. This meant I would not be doing outings and any spare time aside from things I HAD to do to support our new manifestations, would all funnel into completing my book.
I remember having mentioned to the girls on the hike yesterday about being mindful of intentions along the hike, since we were surrounded by so much potent energy and the quartz. I realized later how my own intentions were manifesting.
Well, the crystals DID help me to manifest that determination, as now I will definitely NOT be ABLE to do anything except write.
Outer and inner aligned and so I know the portal is fertile for completion.
Hence, more reason to be grateful for this experience, which immediately was the first thing I thought of when it happened.
My Mercury is also in Pisces, which ties in with how I communicate and YES, write. 😉
I will have more to share later including exciting news on our living situation, but for now I must hunker down and embrace the gift I’ve been given and what the crystals opened for me and for us all to create new realities.
I recently heard that while Bimini looks like a war zone right now, that they are okay. Fires have continued elsewhere, hurricanes are still raging through…Nature is doing her own rebalancing, as are the forces at work providing us potentials to rise up.
Devastation has hit many places recently and likely will continue, but there is opportunity for rebuilding from the ground/core up and hopefully doing so with greater consciousness and mindfulness of the Whole.
And this is why, for me, while I can see the connection….on a personal level I just feel like life goes on and when something happens it isn’t even surprising, but is feeling more and more like my aligning with Nature’s processes that simply cycle through and needn’t have any stigma attached to them since they are fluid changes that are part of All That Is.
I personally feel there is grace available in everything…a purpose…a potential…a doorway…and there’s no need to waste time being upset, as there’s so much to be grateful for and far worse potentials to go through and others are in fact going through, to be complaining about a fracture.
I could only see all of those things…the silver linings….the incredible gifts….yesterday, and not a second of anything other than that moved through me. Not a second.
The doctor yesterday at the hospital kept trying to get me to take pain meds, which I kept refusing. He said I “made it too easy.” I thought to myself…. “It can be.”
There’s no coincidence we were at Star Lake and I wore my mirroring tank top that said, “Made of Star Dust”.
We are being shown glimpses into our divine nature, our origins, our connection, our truth of Being and our unlimited potentials.
The heart of a star is within each of you to embody and contains the building blocks of how to turn this human experience into an exquisite creation of a New Earth collective.
(End note: I worked on and off on writing this today and saw 5:55 when done, although still had to plug in the photos – those transformational 5’s again!)
There are times to look beyond…shift perspective to expand your vision of the macro.
There are times to look within and experience the micro.
Yet always remaining centered and anchored at the core of all consciousness and existence that is you, and seamlessly unites both.
Things are intensely challenging and enriching simultaneously right now.
I just keep hearing the words, “remember who you are”.
And with tomorrow’s Eclipse upon us shortly I say, “listen to the music of your origins and sing from your Cosmic heart.”
This will speak to many of you I’m sure. Lee shares support for the next few weeks that may be feeling intense with all that is going on energetically. I would definitely agree with his sharing how the heart and third eye are at the core of things right now and that you’ll need to take time to nurture yourself away from things, while harnessing the fertile energy to create so much more at this time even with everything playing out in the outside world. It may be necessary to remove yourself from things or for others, to support the fire within that compels you to take more direct action. Tune in where your gifts are best supportive at this time, as it is all necessary, valuable, and important…listen to that voice within. Being mindful of what drives you is important too….is it anxiety-based or a creative propulsion? This is a time to put things to rest and be done with things….time to change! Lee asks, “What do you want to do with your life? What do you want to experience with your life?” This is your invitation….envision this in bigger ways than you have yet.
I do love that the title and theme of Lee’s energy update mirrors yesterday’s blog I shared Expanding Realities Welcoming Greater Possibilities & Soaring New Heights
In love and creative alchemy.
A little update and GIANT thank you….I don’t know how many of you follow along on my Instagram or Facebook pages, but I wanted to send out a big hug and loving gratitude to everyone who has lovingly and sweetly been supportive of my journey and the material that I share there and here on my blog, who has followed along with my own evolution, as well as for all of the support over the years of the channeled work I’ve had the honor to share with so many too. I am a big believer in sharing gratitude and how important that is to deepen into within yourself, but also in acknowledging the little and big things multi-universally and individually in connection with others that truly is an expression of LOVE manifest.
I/we never know the full reach of the things we do and put out there, but doing what moves us most in our hearts is the reason that fuels it all, nonetheless. At least that’s how I feel about it.
I’m always deeply moved and surprised when I do receive a message of gratitude or a personal share in relation to something I may have done or said, as it reflects the circle of connection and woven thread that runs through everything we embody, share, and do and its direct effects, regardless of our thinking nothing we do matters.
This is also why I feel the importance of being present daily with how I’m relating to others and any situation and how I might be able to challenge myself to arise to even greater energetic experiences with my responses spoken or unspoken.
I had written a thank you on my Facebook page several days ago, but wanted to share thanks here too, as I also noticed that this blog I’ve been lovingly cultivating is nearing 1 million visitors shortly and that really struck a chord too on many levels.
Since first sharing in any of these forums, so much has changed and it’s like so many versions of myself have been embodied and shed over and over – all done very publicly, as my process of moving through fears and my desire to reflect transparency and love of every step of the journey, as well as to support more courageous and authentic ways of living from the love and creative alchemy of Spirit moving through you.
Because things are shifting in focus for me, and as you know I’ve released much of what I used to do in order to embrace what is here and now moving through me “wanting” to be brought forth, I’ve joked to friends that I’ve felt like I’ve renounced the old. This to include older versions of me and have lovingly released these things as no longer the expressions I feel to carry forward because they no longer fit AND they in fact feel more like completion and tying up loose ends of things from my soul history, rather than now versions needing to be anchored anew.
That’s not to mean that things couldn’t at some point circle round in new versions if I felt so called, as I often see and acknowledge that energy when and if it arises, but they are not present currently and the more I’ve released things, the stronger the new has been anchoring inside me.
Anyway, I will eventually be giving everything a face lift and “new” updated version to match the shifts, but it will take a little time since that’s an involved process and right now am needing to follow the steps that come first.
So, soon there will be a new website and focal point, consolidation of things, and my social media and blog will also reflect these expressions.
It all excites me, although yes, will be a LOT of work and dedication. Luckily it comes from a place of love and essence channeling through so that makes it fun and extremely rewarding.
In terms of Facebook, a few years back I had to create a new Facebook page (because your personal profile pages are only allowed a certain limit of connections that I reached) and I intended the new page to also have more of a focus of sharing my life’s work and path more in depth. I haven’t been able to keep up with updating it is often as I would like or in the way that I’ve wanted, as life’s journey has taken me into times of needing to channel my energy into balancing life and supporting shifts with my creative output and new paths emerging – this leading to not posting a lot there in general, especially when I’ve taken breaks from online. And yet, so many have still lovingly supported that channel and I thank you so much for that.
However, in the coming months and forward I will be more regularly posting things and new material there that I hope people who follow will enjoy. It will root my new focuses and embody my life’s love and greatest passions/joys to share with you, just as I do here as well – to me, my most important work yet.
If you are on Facebook and have interest and haven’t already been following there, I would like to invite you to my page: https://www.facebook.com/taniamarieartist/
And in the meantime, if you’re on Instagram, I’ve been posting the most there since it’s quick and a creatively fun outlet (this will also reflect the upcoming transitions in months to come though) and would love to connect with and follow along with your posts there too. You can find me on Instagram as taniamarieartist.
I hope you’ll find the changes to be inspirational and enjoyable, and as always, please do pass your own links along and/or connect with me on both Instagram and Facebook, as I love supporting other visionaries, artists of all genres, healers, inspirational souls, nature lovers, earth guardians, cosmic travelers, compassion ambassadors, harmony weavers, people following their hearts, courageously paving new paths, and speaking their truths.
I’m excited for where the journey is headed and although things in the world and some realities seem “off” and challenging, I still believe there is much evolving in incredible ways and new realities are being birthed with our learning to harness these energies for the highest good of all concerned.
Keep doing your part and coming from your heart.
In love, gratitude, and creative alchemy.
Astrid’s journey continues in such a positive upswing. It appears like she’s crossed one big threshold along with revealing some of her magick, and all in just 3 weeks! At first she was taking her time to really sink into things and feel safe, as well as like she could trust the situation and us. It had its ups and downs that I knew to be patient and consistent with. I figured this could take much longer, but after the first 2 weeks, she was really making some leaps and hops. Of course, consistency will need to be continued to ensure these new behaviors become embodied fully as her natural way of being, but I’ll share more about these in the rest of this blog. Nonetheless, let’s just say I’m one happy mom.
It’s understandable, given her background and conditioning that she would have the challenges she does, and also that they not only would take time to work through, but could also crop up unexpectedly just as triggers can challenge all of us until we’ve worked through the core stuff deeply and fully.
Anyway, I had decided to get Astrid her own crystal – well actually all of my crystals are hers of course, but I wanted a special one to have as hers and that I felt would be supportive for this journey. I haven’t myself been attracted to getting a Rose Quartz, but recently had felt it in my energetic field. And then one happened my way via an online auction where I won the bidding and snatched up a beautiful very pink Rose Quartz Cathedral Tower (with yellow/gold inclusions) for a 1/4 of its value! And hence, Miss Astrid worked her energies to have this beauty.
Shortly after, another Cathedral Tower found its way to me, via the same route, where I won a bid at even a bit less than a quarter of its value and got a gorgeous blue Dendritic Opal for her as well (a new find for me and attraction, which I know was about Astrid)…it’s still on its way to us, but both it and the Rose Quartz energies feel perfect for her and in assisting her with her healing and opening journey.
The Rose Quartz will infuse her and her space with Universal and unconditional love, self love, motherly and nurturing love, purification and opening of the heart, restoration of trust and harmony, deep inner healing, peace, calmness and reassurance, comforting with grief, cleansing of negative/triggering/challenging energies, and graceful energy of the Heart Chakra.
While the Dendritic Opal (sometimes referred to as Merlinite) on its way (I’ll post photos when it’s here and after she’s interacted with it) connects to all of the Chakras, its energetic emphasis and strongest resonance will be with the color of the Chakra its base color reflects. In this case the beautiful Blue will connect with the Throat and the darker areas with the Third Eye. It works a lot too with the Solar Plexus personal power energy and creativity stemming from this point of focus.
It will also focus energies on spiritual growth, conscious awareness, clarity into her actions, and brings balance into her life and balance of the feminine and masculine energies within, as a stone of harmony. It helps with discernment and acceptance, being non-judgmental,
It attracts powerful magick and good luck, stimulates deep intuition, psychic knowing, and contact with guides and teachers in the higher realms, as well as alchemists and wizards.
Dendrite means darker tree-like inclusions in the milky white areas and other areas of the Opal, which invokes strong shamanic vibes, allows access to the energy of the natural work and communication with Elementals, takes you to higher realms and deepest, darker parts and inner states (able to understand them) to allow Nature to unfold within.
It is a stone of duality, which can act as both a stone of the light AND allows the shadow and “dark nights of the soul” aspects of your higher self to come forth for transmutation.
It’s great for automatic writing too, so I’m guessing between Astrid and I, and this stone, we’ll be able to channel some interesting stuff for my book’s completion. So, yes, it seems these new stones are great for us both. She knows what to draw in and what would be best for us both, and I’m simply her channel and conduit to help bring her manifestations into being.
They definitely feel to be perfect for Astrid’s evolution and blossoming, supporting her into her full magickal self.
And this was reiterated when I placed the Rose Quartz in front of her the first time and watched her connecting with it, as seen in these photos.
Then three mornings ago I found her on top of the chest that sits by her stuff and that holds my Tarot decks and other magickal things. It also happens to be the resting place of the Rose Quartz, as I wanted it to be near her area where she could see and connect with it, but also receive its energy over her realm. In order to get to it she needs to jump over her bowls or over a very high litter box. Either way, she did somehow, and I then saw her circle around the Rose Quartz for a bit with her body and nudge it with her nose before jumping back down again. (Wish I’d gotten photos, but I had just been woken up and was too involved in watching her to think of running to get my camera)
Right after that she was completely amped up. She began racing around like crazing, running, jumping, and becoming rambunctious in a fun loving way. I heard her run into the second bathroom and knocked over the garbage can. Then she was back in our room and started digging like crazy in her litter box – something she was doing for the first time so vigorously, and started throwing all her hay out and all over and rearranging everything. LOL!
This was the mess I caught her in and she seemed to be giggling at me and with a sneaky little “uh oh!” followed by a “hehe!”
These are the photos I caught of her and she got all cutesy with her body and head down low to ground and butt up, as if she was a puppy dog that would be wagging her tail with delight. Too cute!
She was giddy for head rubs and just giddy in general. I then went back to bed after giving her some greens since I was awake now. And when I woke later, she was still all excited and when approached by Dave she did a big bunny hop with glee.
This was all after about a week of having gone through transformations already with no longer charging, grunting, and attacking at every little thing. Only the cat lunges and chasing them off continues, and being on alert and startled by odd or sudden noises and movements, but any time I approach her or do things I did before like cleaning and feeding her, she would just come to me and put her head out wanting to be pet and would immediately get comfortable and enjoy some good long rubs and back massages. She would run to me, in fact, when ever I was near, nose me, and be inquisitive. She used to knock the bowl of pellets out of my hand with a grunt or the measuring spoon I use to give her just the right amount, but now she’s good with it all and isn’t in defensive mode.
However, she is still the little power bunny guardian and Queen of the realm here and although Boojum, our male cat, persists in his hopes to be buddies with her like he felt he was with Joy 🙂 she is keeping him at bay and working her boundaries. Astrid isn’t so sure yet, as he’ll definitely have to earn her trust and still, I sense she will be helping to keep him in line by setting the rules and boundaries for him to honor or be met with her energy that seems quite scary to both him and Sweet Pea, our female cat. Both cats seem very curious about her and are found often just watching her constantly, yet if they try to do anything she’s not comfortable with, you’ll find a cat sent off running fast!
Boojum doesn’t give up though and constantly sits near, watching and waiting. This was a capture from a few mornings ago of Astrid letting him hang out a little bit, at a distance, but as you can see she was on patrol alert.
That said, she is starting to get used to knowing I won’t hurt her (this is from her past conditioning as a bunny in this life and not as the spirit she really is), as she likely had experienced much of both directly and indirectly in her past. She also lets me pick her up while just sitting there letting me. No trying to get away or wiggle, which if I had experienced would have halted me from continuing further.
And little by little her magickal self has begun to be less and less hidden, but more apparent, not to mention her similarities to my dear Nestor are starting to reveal themselves more. Astrid (or Astie as I lovingly call her) definitely feels like a very close comrade to Nestie – and when I say that I mean in the Cosmic sense beyond this realm and shared missions, not just as rabbit.
I’m sure I’ll learn more about the connection and her story in general, as things evolve. Right now, I’m letting it happen organically and naturally, rather than even inquiring.
She definitely does things by the beat of her own drum and in her own timing, which will not be dictated by anyone or anything, except her. Although, will continue to mirror me.
I also just received a cute, new bunny house and bed I purchased for her to make her space and realm special and magickal. I haven’t put them together yet, but will share them and hopefully some cute photos of her with them when I do.
And, like with all of my loves – Nestor, Joy, Cosmo, and Gaia, I immediately put out intention of drawing in the perfect carved bunny stone that matched her essence and would also be of her energy. I always get a small carved stone/crystal rabbit or tortoise to represent each of them. The reason I do so is multi-purpose in serving as stand-ins for them when I do energy work, Reiki Healing Attunements, or sacred ceremony of any sort so they can join me (I like tangible along with etheric energies present), to bring with me when I travel (especially when I’ve been to sacred spots and vortexes across the globe to do healing work), to carry with me if I want a physical sense of them where ever I go, and to be with me when their physical presence is actually gone, as well as to sit on my night stand by my head as I dream at night.
Anyway, I was led to a lovely Snowflake Obsidian rabbit carving that not only looks like her form, but really feels energetically aligned for her as well.
This stone is good for balancing of body, mind, and spirit during changes, is calming and soothing, supports transformation in general, purification, manifestation, fulfillment, psychic abilities, teaches the value of mistakes and successes, is a stone of purity, helps release stressful mental patterns, promotes calmness, inner centering and focus during any chaotic situations, helps remove and cleanse harmful energies and keeps you rooted as a protective and grounding stone, is good for healing and releasing energy blockages by bringing truths to surface (this is due to its volcanic origin that draws things out), and supports past life work and healing of old karmic patterns. It connects to the Root Chakra and to the sign of Virgo, which synchronously Astrid is by birthday. I didn’t know of the stone’s connection to Virgo until after it arrived home.
I just love this rabbit carving.
Astrid seemed pleased when I presented it to her, as I like them to enchant the stones with their energy, which she did.
So more and more I am seeing how she loves crystals, too, and has an affinity to working with them. In many ways I feel that I will be supporting her sense of safety to bring out her “already” gifts, rather than teaching her things. Not to say I won’t help her with processes, but my sense is she knows how to do a lot of energy work and magick on her own, will help remind me of my own gifts, and be a conduit for me to connect with the other realms, as well as to access the unknown magick within for working greater alchemy.
Just this past Tuesday she also revealed some other cool stuff. I had a phone call with my best guy friend that day whom I’ve known for years and lifetimes. We had several years of separation and going different ways, but had reconnected the last year and have picked up again in a new and beautiful way.
I was sitting on the floor while talking to him on the phone and was sharing about Astrid and how she came to me, her journey so far, and our connection. Astrid was under the bed, but she knew I was talking about her and felt the energy of the conversation and who I was talking to – recognizing our connection.
She normally doesn’t come out from under the bed, as this is her nap and personal integration time of the day, but out she came, wiggling her way to me with a lot of energy and curiosity. She came to me, nosed me, got on her hind legs and stretched her front paws up on my thigh and reached head up toward me/the phone. She stayed doing this and circling around on my left side to let me know she knew and to let me know of her telepathic powers and acknowledgment of my friend Mykal and our connection.
I immediately told Mykal about this and got chills because it reminded me of Nestor and how she was my personal gauge of people.
If Nestor liked someone she would go to them when they entered her or my space and let them pet her. If she didn’t like someone she would not come out, act up, or even pee on them (she did this to an ex-boyfriend of mine both when he held her and when I took her overnight to his place – peeing in several corners of his home). This peeing behavior was not normal because she was very good at cleanliness and going in her litter box. It was deliberate in saying she did not approve.
But the first time Mykal came over to meet Nestor and see my place, the second I opened the door to him Nestor ran to the door to greet him. I instantly knew she knew him and the connection between us all. She did this to another dear soul from a past Egyptian experience as well, whom she and I were both connected to.
Interestingly, Joy did this once too, nipping an ex of mine when he came to visit after I’d been challenged in leaving him. That was confirmation.
And now, Astrid was doing the same through the energy of the phone call with Mykal.
Mykal and I both were heart warmed by her doing this. And as soon as I acknowledged her she then went back under the bed. She simply wanted me to know of her magickal powers, telepathic abilities, soul recognition, and how I can be sure she’ll help me to know of energies that come into our space and what and who aligns or not.
My powerful little guardian and magick worker.
And speaking of magick, yesterday evening as I was connecting with her and gently petting her head and back I saw something very enchanting.
Each time my hand did a full swoop from her third eye, crown, and then the rest of the length down her spine and chakra column, I saw a thick gold filament of energy appear in her auric field after finishing to the end of her root chakra. It kept showing up each time my hand completed traveling through her chakras.
Alchemy is at work between us and this incredible Cosmic magician in rabbit form is making herself known to me with each day of trust and love that passes.
More chills as I write this.
How deeply honored and blessed I feel that she chose me. I am committed to helping to bring her magick to the world in the way she has come to share it.
How grateful I am to Marcy of SaveABunny and Zephyr who led me to her.
And how grateful I am that I can SEE her and so much more that I once didn’t understand fully when my journey first began with my rabbit companions.
I mentioned before how a lot of people have said how Astrid’s hair and my own match in color and that we look like we were meant to be together.
I also had two people tell me “she looks like you!” Both meaning in it more than a physical way, they explained.
Well, this Thursday I saw my hair stylist to get a freshening up on my own Cosmic hair that I had done before Astrid came into my life (unknowingly), and she asked me about my rabbit, as she knows my whole story and how connected I am with them and knew I would be adopting one soon (although at the time she was told about Zephyr).
She asked to see a photo of Astrid and immediately said, “oh my gosh, she looks like you!” She said she didn’t mean it to be about her hair although was similar too, but that if she could imagine me with a rabbit, Astrid was it – she was my reflection.
I got more chills of acknowledgment and feelings of myself having crossed a threshold just like Astrid. Each of my bunny loves have mirrored my journey and aspects of me. And as I’ve continued to step more and more into my essence, alignment is being revealed directly.
The new journey has been ignited and she and I are bonded in heart, spirit, body, and mind.
Astrid has been settling in while mom continues to make her feel comfy, loved, and surrounded in bunny magick fitting of this Faery bunny. She’s a powerful girl, whose power I have yet to fully know, but also has Earthly challenges I’ll be continuing to assist her with, as she helps me too. I’ve received so many sweet messages from everyone about Astrid, including how beautiful she is and how her power just jumps through the photos I share in huge ways – in some cases feeling struck by her energy with a “wow” effect. I’ve also really enjoyed the reflections of so many saying that she and I look alike and how our hair matches, all of which reiterate to me that she was meant to be here and indeed is my familiar. Thank you to everyone for your loving thoughts and messages.
I will continue to update you on her and our journey, which is the purpose of this post to share some photos of how she is adjusting to her new surroundings. I still have some sweet and magickal things on their way, which I ordered for her.
I want Astrid to feel like the Queen that she is and to know she is loved, safe, and recognized for the enchanted and cosmic soul she embodies. I love creating a Faery bunny realm for her and since our kitty babies have basically the whole house (you know cats), it’s nice to know she has her little sanctuary that is her own.
In the meantime, I continue to patiently work with her to help her day-by-day to move through the past that has created the fight mode she has. I will continue to tune in to get more of her story and background as to why she is so easily startled by everything, feels threatened and defensive, and what happened to create that attack mode.
Some of it I sense already in the scary things she’s experienced and seen happen to animals around her in one of the horrible shelters she was held in – Solona County Animal Care. I feel she holds pain and grief, as a healer/sensitive, for what the others went through and that weren’t as lucky as she was. She developed defense mechanisms and her power, magickal energy, strength, and bravery fought her way through things that others weren’t so lucky to get away from or knew how to cope with.
It pains me greatly to feel all the horrible things that she and the others have been through. I’m so grateful and lucky she was removed from there and got away from all of it, including where she originally came from and what was in store for her, as some of the way she is also is from how she was raised and what she was raised for.
But of course, some of this “sensitivity” is also about her healing abilities and gifts in being such a mirror and reflection to our own vibrations and making us aware of being present and acknowledging of our shadow aspects – she isn’t a dark colored bunny for no reason. 😉
It also served her in weeding out potential adopters because no one could “see” past her behavior initially and really “see” her. Nor did anyone want to take the time to work with her and understand the magick and power beneath it all, just waiting to be supported and recognized.
What a patient girl she was waiting nearly 2 1/2 years for that alignment to happen. I’m so grateful she chose me and that Marcy at SaveABunny had the intuition to connect us, feeling we would be perfect for each other and a good match.
We are definitely equals and so I’m devoted to assist her with the Earthly stuff she went through so that she can purely focus on shining her amazingness.
She goes through ups and downs, has spent a lot of time processing and integrating the journey to get here and her new home, has breakthroughs then set backs….but it’s part of the process of which I’m VERY aware of.
I just keep loving her through it and both giving her the space she needs, but also helping her to rise above things by not letting her push me away. I know that we must meet as equals in our power and this will assist the alchemy for her healing. So I rise to the occasion too.
She got a visit from her grandma and grandpa on Sunday – my mom and dad – which didn’t go so well and it was an off day for her, which increased into her worst day so far and kept her hiding in our second bedroom all day and night and in super attack mode. I’m glad she got to meet them and know she has an extended family here full of love for her, but also learned that she really needs extreme easing into everything and too much new, energies, and people can be compounding for her…so we’ll take things slower and not introduce her to too much all at once.
Luckily, with the love and patience provided, she came out and has had two really good days since with a complete turn around. So I think she really is learning to process and with the communication I share with her, she really understands and is trying her best to move through with my encouragement.
I just love seeing her relaxed and enjoying herself, displaying pure joy when she races around from room to room with exuberant energy and jumps and twists in the air doing her binkies, which says to me she’s one happy, grateful bunny and is loving her freedom and all the nurturing. (I do spoil her with only the best in bunny food, supplies, and healthy yums – can do a separate post on the goodness she receives). It warms my heart.
I will not give up on her, as I have never done so with any of my babies. It took me six months to bond Joy and Cosmo, but boy was that ever worth the patience and work to help Joy through her own defenses she had, as they then became inseparable and soulmates. The best thing that ever happened to both of them. And I never gave up on Cosmo with his condition either, nor did I force Nestor out of her independent mode. I learned what they each needed and desired to be who they really are and supported that.
I’ll continue doing so with Astrid and fully believe that together we can achieve anything. I’m grateful that she chose me and grateful for Zephyr and Marcy who connected us and made our partnership and bond possible. I know we are both in for a lot of surprises along the way and a lot of adventures yet to have together. For now we take each day as it comes and I’ll continue showering her with the love she deserves so that she knows she has a forever, safe, and nurturing home that she can blossom in and where we can cultivate a new journey together.
It’s been a fully packed and fun filled last several days with Lynne Day “in da house,” but wanted to send out some Easter wishes of renewal, creativity, and cosmic expansion. Between the back-to-back Sedona and friend visit here in Tahoe, it’s really felt like a celebration of Spring, joy, and inspiration. I know not everyone is experiencing the openings and flow, but within every experience is opportunity for us to embrace and make new choices.
It’s not that I don’t come up against challenges or have a lot of contrasting things come up around me, but it’s my approach to life, the inner peace I’ve found, understanding things from a bigger picture perspective, and having put to practice a process that is now natural, that enables me to be in the experience and reality of my own choosing without being thrown off my balance.
Anyway, I don’t intend this to be a long blog, but did want to reshare this post on Easter and rabbits for anyone interested and open to exploring more:
And I also wanted to briefly share the joyous and inspiring energy from the last few days of Lynne’s visit, which although was only 2 1/2 days, was quite rich and packed in a bunch.
We got to experience a lot, which included belly laughs until we literally cried and cried, shenanigans galore (or as Lynne calls them, bananigans), good food, good conversation, lots of nature time and exercise (Lynne and I would go out on a hike before lunch, then again with Dave after lunch, outdoor music and food, play time with the kitties, a bald eagle sighting and connection (her spirit animal), lots of goose fun, tons of discoveries and treasures, both snow days and sunshiny warm and crystalline still days, a sound bath by me with my crystal bowls, and yes, banana time! (For more background on the “bananas” please visit the link on Lynne’s name at the beginning).
On our last day banana we decided to seal our banana relationship once and for all with a little ceremony and activation all choreographed by us, directed and inspired by Lynne, and executed solely by us. You’ll see some of the photos below of the “nuptials” and celebrations….the banana adventures have just begun!
(Photo disclaimer: It has to be mentioned that these shots were all taken solely by us bananas…yes, even the panorama shots of us at both ends was intricately directed by Lynne and executed by us where one of us would start out in position while the other started the panoramic filming…then once out of lens would run and take over camera duties while the other ran into position in time to be in the shot. Lol!! And we did them in one take!!!!)
If you follow along on Instagram or Facebook, I’ve already posted our journey there, so I’ll just share some of the photos here to hopefully infuse some lightness, laughter, and love in your day.
As truly, that is what matters the most.
How much you can find the humor in things, enjoy what there IS, take things lightly, and feel the love constantly flowing through you.
After the “nuptials” we met Dave for another outdoor, live music lunch before Lynne flew off.
My parents then gave us a surprise visit a few hours after Lynne left.
Isn’t my mom adorable? She posed this way herself with two pine cones (one she found and one I found for her – both she was taking home). As above, so below….A true Faery!
We took them on a walk along the Lake, which gifted us all this, which I’m sharing with you and hope it brings all things full circle, as I’ve been seeing in my own life with everything.