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Simple, Sweet & Perfectly Imperfect ~ Cracking Open Fresh Beginnings


Summer Solstice rolled around quickly, as the hours, days, and years do now, and with the longest period of daylight came the lighting up of a new beginning in my life. Saturday 6/20/2020 was our wedding day igniting at 5:55 pm, but it was also a New Moon, Solar Eclipse for us PST peeps, Astrid’s third anniversary of her adoption, and preceded 6/21’s Father’s Day, which was also Joy’s departure from the Earth plane four years ago when it happened to be Summer Solstice and a Full Moon that year. It was indeed a very packed day and weekend, which was equally enhanced by a build up of astrological influences before and after, a very full week of prep, personal monumental shifts underway, and worldwide historical events unfolding to include a pandemic that was our reason for creating a virtual experience for this mountain matrimony event.

Please bear with me in today’s longer post, as I haven’t blogged since the 15th. It seems fitting to share it on Ask Astrid Fridays’ spot since she is so intertwined with all that is igniting.

Perhaps this new “lighting up” reflects the feeling I’ve had since as far back as I can remember that the second half of my life would truly be the best years yet and when I really started living. Summer Solstice feels profound for me and telling of a new chapter I’ve long wondered would be like. I also feel that recent Eclipses and overall energy dynamics unfolding, are creating quite the collective paradigm shifts.

If Saturday was any small indication, I feel that the foreshadowing senses I’ve had for so long, are indeed underway for an exciting new adventure with unlimited potentials.

One might wonder, just as we did, how a virtual Zoom wedding broadcasted by amateurs doing it for the first time from the middle of the forest in a mountain town at 6600+ feet of elevation would turn out.

Tons of hiccups, distant, cold, and detached, disappointing, a full-on disaster?

I’m happy to report the complete opposite and then some unfolded.

It was so successful that we’ve joked about this becoming the new thing or perhaps we could support others as zoom wedding advisors lol! But all kidding aside, it’s been amazing to hear the feedback on what we had no idea until the day of, how it was actually going to go down. We’re far from the first to do this, but I have to say that it was hugely rewarding, memorable, and extremely beautiful.

Everything far exceeded our dreams and not only were we pleasantly surprised by minimal technological challenges, but were overwhelmed by the outpouring of beautiful, extremely moving, and loving energy we received. It was so powerful that I had a hard time going to sleep that night, as my energy was through the roof from all the good vibes shared between everyone. That, alongside being up while the Eclipse was happening, definitely felt like an activation and timeline leap!

I literally felt like a Solar Eclipse and Summer Solstice, myself, with all of the light from the longest day having been shared and received, creating a powerful ball of energy deep at my core that couldn’t help but still seep out with loving vibrancy and vitality around the edges of the New Moon, even when darkness was abound.

While things turned out more than what we imagined, at the same time they WERE all that I envisioned they could be in essence and then some! I’ve said from the beginning, and over and over, that the theme for the wedding would be “simple and sweet” and “perfectly imperfect.” So even the sweet little hiccups were part of that synergy, creating the innocence and purity that is reflective of our values.

The alchemy of this day seemed evident in the dance of light codes and elemental energies that were present during the ceremony – we even had a lizard couple playing and perching on the pyramid rock altar that sat directly between and behind us, throughout the whole thing. Although this was a day to share our union, it truly felt like much more than that. Everyone present created a beautiful energy beam of collective intention on such an auspicious portal day.

And on our end, this intention was harnessed by an incredible Herkimer Diamond crystal that came to me just a week before the wedding through a dear crystal and cosmic friend of mine who had just received a new shipment of exquisite Herkimers. The clarity of these Herkimer Diamonds was incredible alone. I had only seen one photo of the one I had him send me, and its description. I immediately asked if it was taken and he said, “It’s yours!” What made this one special was that it is a sharp, clean, direct, and mystical Dow or Trans-Channeler crystal, which is unique in itself, but to have a Dow Herkimer Diamond is extremely rare. And when she arrived I discovered big rainbows inside (an exciting added surprise) and that it is a record keeper (with triangles etched on the face)! I call her a she, but she is very balanced between her sacred feminine and masculine energies. I look forward to exploring more with her and finding out what other surprises she has in store, but I knew without a doubt that she should anchor the center of our ceremony and union, as a way to channel the energy from this sacred experience out to the collective.

A quick explanation of a Dow/Trans-Channeler crystal is that it has three perfect seven-sided faces in between three perfect three-sided triangle faces – 7-3-7-3-7-3. It’s considered a being of perfect light, energy, and physical form, accesses all planes of existence, splits light into all colors (rainbow comes to mind with the rainbow inclusions this one has), they activate higher chakras, but strengthen and open energy via all chakras between you and the Universe for greater Source connection, truth, and higher wisdom/guidance, exist in enlightened reality alone where love heals and transcends all challenges, accelerates conscious re-programming, and embody divine balance and connection. I placed the crystal directly center of our gold wedding bands sitting atop a Selenite charging plate between us (from another dear crystal friend), not only to charge the energy of our rings that symbolically would bring union between us, but would charge the merging energies of sacred feminine and masculine energies (Yin and Yang) that we could transmit out via this potent channeler, for the collective through our love.

It literally turned 11:11 am here, as I wrote that. 😉 I’m writing in parts when I have time.

Other auspicious happenings just before the wedding included seeing a baby Sierra Garter Snake two days before the wedding on a distanced hike with our only two wedding attendees (officiate and witness).

This little one literally glided in such a light way, she appeared to be flying or swimming across the blade of grass tips in the meadow.

Then, a large coyote running through the wedding site on the day before, while we were prepping and testing out the setup and connection. Then, a rare marmot sighting popping out from the forest to greet me, on the same day, as I drove away after dropping off Dave and Paul (our friend/one wedding witness/photographer/helper) to tackle a mountain bike ride for the first time on the most extreme, black diamond trail known as “Mr. Toad’s Wild Ride” (cool reference to life and foreshadowing to symbolism that showed up yesterday).

Snake, coyote and marmot all carrying their own powerful symbolism.

And then, two dead chipmunks I found and buried (one, three days before wedding and one directly after the ceremony) – more on their significance to me in a bit.

We were very lucky to have our friend Paul able to join us. All three of us had been diligent with quarantine precautions in order to make it possible for him to come. We needed one witness alongside our officiant in order to seal the ceremony officially and still maintained distancing for the event. But with Paul around, it was a huge help on many levels, and offered some fun before and after the wedding with nature immersions.

This offered Dave and Paul time to do some mountain biking they love, which helped let off steam with all the prep going on, and me, some alone time in nature, as I would often hike the trail they were doing, on my own. We also did hikes together and sometimes I stayed home in order to do things like bake the wedding cake and make flower arrangements, while getting in some downtime too.

Something interesting took place upon the very first hike I did alone, the day after Paul’s arrival, and has continued since. I’ve always been a decent hiker, but suddenly I noticed transforming into a power hiker and I can only pin it to some form of rebirth taking place.

The guys did a long bike ride, while I hiked ten miles that first day – the most I’ve done alone. I always clock the hikes on my Sports Tracker, as I like to know how far we’ve gone and how much we have left. Well, on this day I had gone three miles, up nearly 1600 elevation gain, in only one hour (a personal best!). I’m usually a bit slower on the inclines, as I am mindful of my breathing so I don’t get my EIB cough. But I powered through it and ended up doing the full ten miles in nearly exactly three hours (3:01 to be precise). That included a stop to bury the first chipmunk I mentioned. I stopped my tracker in order to take a twenty minute picnic lunch break at the top overlooking Lake Tahoe and resumed it upon beginning again so only my hiking was timed. At the speed I went, I also got to see the boys twice – once going up and once going back – as I was in line with their speed of biking to the point of intersection our trails had, even though they were doing nearly three times the mileage.

I mention this because something around this new beginning, Solstice, New Moon, and Eclipse really physically shifted something. There were other physical changes that took place for me too, which included losing nearly two and a half pounds in a week to add to the already transformational physical shifts intermittent fasting has done over the last six months of losing twelve and a half pounds and saying goodbye to some of the imbalances experienced. This includes my no longer experiencing the EIB coughing (exercise induced broncho-constriction), having greater vitality and endurance, my peri-menopausal body/hormones balancing out on their own without herbal supplements anymore, and in general feeling clearer, lighter, and more inspired. I never set out to lose any weight, as I always feel perfect at the weight I’m at being reflective of the energy needed – ex: more grounded and embodied or lighter and mutable, etc. Lifestyle intermittent fasting was something Dave and I started (it was actually his idea) for all of the health benefits and we’ve ended up really liking how we feel physically with it. Yet, this time period in my life seems to be refreshing things and the added embodiment/weight that I previously needed to ground, manifest, and anchor things, is finding its new equilibrium. So, rather than having to physically have that to bring my once very wispy self back to Earth, I seem to be energetically embodying the balance I need to be in both places – Cosmos and Earth. That’s a huge deal for me!

But I’d like to circle back briefly to the two chipmunks and their connection to my bunny, Joy, who passed four years ago on the 21st of June (Summer Solstice that year), as I feel this theme speaks most loudly, to me, amidst all that has unfolded.

It’s the theme of how grief and death can crack you open to joy and rebirth, which speaks to the seamless connection of everything that creates wholeness. Endings are beginnings and beginnings are endings.

At the same time that we were experiencing a big heart and life opening with increased depth, and subtle, but profound expansion, also present were endings, death, mourning reminders, and contractions simultaneously – the celebration of the circle of life and the Universe’s nonjudgment around these cycles.

While I was filled with vitality hiking, my attention was drawn to be present to honoring the sacred dance of life and death when the sweet, peacefully positioned chipmunk laid directly on my path. I’m convinced he’d been accidentally hit by an oncoming mountain bike at some point recently and it felt like a quick death. I still sent Reiki to the time of impact and gave him love, then proceeded to bury him, and created a little marker around his burial place. Interestingly, after I did this many chipmunks chattered at me along the way back, as if they knew I took care of one of them. I was grateful for nature’s way of teaching me.

Then, the second chipmunk I discovered on the hike back, after the wedding ceremony was complete. I stopped to honor him and felt the potent synergy of this meeting once again. It was late and I was carrying a load of things from the ceremony with a ways to go, so I placed him safely under a bush next to a pine cone, telling him I’d return to bury him the next morning. I followed through with that promise, hiking back to where he was and decided to carry him home with me this time, to bury him by a special old natural sculpture tree trunk behind the house. Again, grateful for the full circle ending and new beginning teaching and realizing the sacredness of life these dear ones were celebrating with me.

It all mirrored the bitter and sweet of Joy and Astrid – my two rabbit companions I adopted from SaveABunny. Four years ago, Joy departed this Earth plane on the Solstice and one year minus a day later on the Solstice of three years ago, Astrid came into our lives. We both mourned, honored, and celebrated the lives of these two dear souls in rabbit bodies on our wedding day and all around me reflections continued of the sacred circle of life.

It was the same with all of my animal companions’ transitions – the first major one being Nestor’s whose departure did literally crack my heart and soul wide open to experience the Cosmic depths of everything possible all at once.

Death cracks us open to life.

Mourning cracks us open to heart expansion.

Sadness cracks us open to joy.

And the spiraling of life continues as a single thread with no true ending or beginning, although there are many such continuous sparks igniting simultaneously.

And all of this echoed loudly to me through the personal and the collective experience we’re creating right now and always.

The bunnies, animals and nature always teach me the most and I’m not surprised their energy would be framing this important day in our lives.

I was surprised, though, at how astoundingly the souls in human bodies enveloped us with such a magnitude of loving support on our Solstice wedding. It truly was overwhelming to us and really created a most memorable experience of collective togetherness that deepened bonds in beautiful ways.

From our very dear friends, Reid, who so beautifully accepted and honored us with conducting our ceremony and Paul, who stood up for us and took on many wedding hats for us to bring it all together, to all of our family members that gave readings and toasts, and extended family and beloved friends who joined us….it was a day to remember.

In Dave’s dad’s words, “I was extremely skeptical of a zoom wedding, actually quite disappointed it was going down that way.  But it turned out to be quite spectacular, more dramatic, amusing and above all moving than any other I’ve ever seen.”

Although we didn’t have a big in-person wedding to coordinate, it still had a lot of little details, mostly technologically, that had to be worked out and until the moment of truth we really didn’t know what would happen. Here are some day-before practice shots in the forest at our site.

Dave was brilliant in his execution of fine-tuning everything and I know it was a huge relief for him when it all DID come together, as I just knew it would in perfect imperfection. He deserved this little break after setting up, while we waited to begin.

He was quite stressed by the technology aspect of pulling this off in the middle of the forest with us hooked up to his phone’s hot spot alone and wondering if all parts would work. I kept telling him it was going to be just fine, sent energy to the day, and released it for the highest good – however that was meant to be.

Here’s a little look at what was going on behind the scenes. It was a perfect merging of nature and technology – harnessing the best of each in harmonious partnership.

I believe that having no attachments really helped, and it made it possible for me to focus on some of the smaller, more fun details like the flowers, wedding cake, attire, and tiny touches that were energetically important like the Herkimer Diamond as a source of broadcasting and channeling the love out into the world from our tiny point at center of the forest.

It was a simple, but enchanted Woodland Wedding faery dream and I could feel the presence of the otherworldly beings, whom of course had personal invites to join too.

My dress also arrived just eight days before the wedding. I had it custom made by a clothing artisan friend who creates slow, eco fashion with all natural components.

The dress is a take-off of a new upcoming style called the butterfly dress because of the little flutter sleeves and is organic cotton and hemp, hand-dyed in a natural indigo dye that slightly shifts from lighter to darker, just at the bottom and two-layered skirt edge. Together, we dreamed up this two-piece ensemble – dress with underskirt – and is something I can and will use for many years to come.

I wanted to keep in line with simple and sweet, natural, and having a light faery touch in the blue family, which is my favorite.

Everything about it was exactly what I envisioned and to the ensemble I added a pair of vegan Faery/Elven shoes I’ve had for a while, but never felt right until now to wear.

Everything about it was exactly what I envisioned and to the ensemble I added a pair of vegan Faery/Elven shoes I’ve had for a while, but never felt right until now to wear.

My bouquet and one flower arrangement were my creation done on the morning of the big day.

I put together a mix of flowers I picked both from the forest (lavender lupine) and my garden (purple salvia) and found the exact flowers I wanted just down the street at our local supermarket. Two musts were sunflowers (my favorite) and I wanted pink Gerbera daisies.

I had a vision of the other color frequencies and types to reflect Summer Solstice joy and pure vitality and there they all were! I used a round vase with crystals in it for the arrangement (a vase I saved from this year’s birthday arrangement my dear friend Dawn sent me) and my bouquet I arranged, rubber-banded, wrapped the long stems in soaked paper towels inside a baggie with some water, and then wrapped that in a gauzy blue, white, gray and green material I had with flower and butterfly motif, and then spiral-tied it up with a satiny green leaf vine ribbon that had ribbon vines hanging from it.

And then there was the cake. I knew I wanted something with an infusion of lavender, so I could use my dried garden lavender I have from last year’s fall harvest.

Then blackberry came to mind to blend in somehow. And in the end, the evening before the wedding, I created a vegan blackberry lavender chocolate cake using the inspiration of a recipe I found that I tweaked into my own creation, as always. I doubled the recipe and baked one very high cake.

While it baked I made a blackberry lavender jam mixed with a fluffy butter-creamy-like whip. I then sliced the cake in half once cooled and layered the jam in between.

I whipped up a batch of butter-cream icing that I drizzled with some of the blackberry lavender liquid from the jam I made in a pot, so that the icing would turn lilac when mixed together. It worked! And then I played around with white and green icing decorations simply guided by inspiration into a sweet little design.

I photographed the cake with these gifts that actually arrived just the day before the wedding! Two hand-painted chalice glasses from the ever-sweet and magickal Laura that arrived all the way from England just in time. She actually ordered them on the Lunar Eclipse, preceding this Solar Eclipse. The stag for Dave and the rabbit of course for me. We used these for toasting after the wedding.

Then the wedding fiasco happened, as there must be at least one or more to remember days like this by, right?

I had placed the cake on my new cake platter that sits high atop the cutest little bunny pedestal who is on his back holding the cake up with his nose and thumpers. I literally had just finished and went to pick up the platter when the bunny came unglued! LOL! The bunny broke off of the bottom and the top platter went down, with the cake sliding backwards onto the counter. As it did, the top layer slid across the jam and there was a puddle of jam at the back that was no longer between the cake. I yelled out, “Paul, Dave, grab the cake!” And we all somehow pushed the back of the layers back together the best we could very gingerly so as not to break the cake. We couldn’t get it perfectly aligned without damage, so there was a one inch gap at the front. I was able to get most of the jam back in and some in the gap and then went to work on remaking icing to try to camouflage the difference and fixing the design that got partially smooshed.

I still remember my sweet faery friend KC (aka Bean Bunny) texting me “It’s always a mess when the bunny comes unglued! – sorry I had to.” LOL! And it was the perfect punctuation from my bunny family to ensure that not only I keep things light, innocent, and fun, but to remind me that everything would be “perfectly imperfect” and they were there to oversee that.

So I experienced about 30 seconds of freaking out, followed by a rush of peace and deciding it was exactly as meant to be, to laugh about it, and to trust I’d be able to put things back together in a meaningful way.

I don’t know how I did it, but I did get it back about 98% with only part of the back where it slid having a little bit of jam mixed with the icing.

Originally we were going to try to see if it was possible to hike the cake to the wedding site, but after this I knew it was meant to stay home and enjoy after the wedding to create a second celebration.

Rather than be upset about anything, as even our rehearsal tech-check dinner done the Monday before the wedding hadn’t gone so smooth, we just kept trucking along, trusting all would come together…and it did. Again, beyond our wildest imaginations.

It was perfect in every way and even though we couldn’t have people there in person, it actually ended up being better because people we likely would never have had the joy to share it with, were able to, more people than usual got the chance to give toasts and share, and for some reason the whole thing created a depth of connection and intimacy that everyone was surprised about.

We were floored by the powerful energy of the event and the feedback from the people sharing how it was one of, if not the most meaningful, inspirational, and moving weddings they’ve experienced. Some even said it was the best. Wow! We’re just floored and speechless, as we had no idea. We just wanted it to be authentic to us and let the rest unfold the way it was meant to be.

To say we feel humbled is an understatement. There were many a tear being shed for sure – most of them by me! LOL! I was smart and had a package of tissues ready and one in hand right off the bat.

There were also many funny moments, including my inability to remember some of the ring lines while placing Dave’s on his finger and pushing the ring on with all my might because his knuckle had swelled with the warmer temperatures while hiking to the site with equipment to set up two hours ahead.

Dave didn’t disappoint with his touching and humorous vows either and guests chimed in with laughter and tears of their own.

There were many moving and sweet moments – too many to write about, but I did want to share some of how this day and the days leading up and following have unfolded. It’s both a way to create a memory log for myself and a way to share what felt like so much more than just something between us that had many layers of symbolic significance.

We had an extraordinary showing of loved ones that would never have happened if in person. Apparently there were 80+ attendees, which included dear family members from Australia and all areas between coast to coast of the U.S. Our Europe-based family and close friends were unable to make it due to time differences and some friends had internet challenges leaving them unable to get on, but we felt every single one of them and all of you, who have all sent so many heartfelt wishes and made your presence in spirit known.

The wedding ceremony also included five different readings by family members and a fun toasting celebration after.

The entire ceremony was written originally by us, the readings hand-picked and reworded by us, our vows written by us and not shared with each other until the day, and we included a twelve minute video at the beginning chronicling our nearly twelve years together that included photos of us with loved ones.

I did want to mention one lovely full circle attendee, my sweet friend Marcy – the founder of SaveABunny – who shared a sweet toast that highlighted Astrid. I so wished we could have had her and the kitty babies there, but she was strongly connecting and a part of the ceremony nonetheless. We also told everyone that we didn’t need any gifts, but that if anyone wanted to, they could donate to one of two non-profit animal organizations that are dear to us. My choice was SaveABunny and Dave’s was APRL (Animal Protection & Rescue League). We don’t have official word yet, but so far the generous gifts raised are totaling a very generous over $2000 in donations. We can’t thank everyone enough for supporting the bunnies and animals. Again, it’s all overwhelming and our hearts are overflowing.

I wanted to end with some of the wonderful things that have taken place since the wedding that all feel very richly interwoven with the theme of cracking open through the continuity of endings and beginnings.

After the wedding we continued to enjoy some beautiful nature immersion on some of our favorite hikes while Dave still had some days off. We didn’t officially take a honeymoon due to the state of things making travel not possible, but every day here we feel is a honeymoon. We’ll look into travels later down the road for continued celebrations.

The day after the wedding we did one of our favorite hikes in Hope Valley – a perfect name for current energies – and while picnicking on some rocks over one of the three lakes’ water you see on this hike, my cell phone decided to take a swim.

My astrologer sister-in-law later pointed out – “Haha that is SO Mercury retrograde in Cancer!” And indeed it was! Miraculously, after being immersed in foot deep water for several seconds, it continues to work just fine! Right after it happened, I bubbled it in Reiki when I sent energy backwards to the point of time when it fell in the water and supercharged it too. After that I shut it down for the rest of the hike and took out the SIM card overnight when we got home, to ensure it would dry. I’m grateful it’s okay so no new phone is in order. Perhaps it just wanted a refresh/rebirth like me! Hehe!

Three days after the wedding my incredibly beautiful irises made their debut with two blooms and three more on the way! My first small purple irises, as you might recall, bloomed miraculously for my birthday at the end of February and now these beauties blooming as a wedding gift.

Other garden delight wedding gifts include my bubblegum pink rose bush blooming right after the wedding, my wildflower seedling plants suddenly flourishing strong, and a new lilac pompom bloom emerging with delphinium, salvia, and my fuschia foxgloves on the way soon.

And one of the sweetest garden nature gifts is our front and side clover lawns! 

I’m so in love with the lush clover that rolls in billowy pillows of little white and yellow blossoms now, looking like the faery meadow I envisioned.

It buzzes with pollinator excitement all day and look at the other wild flowers that are popping up on our faery clover meadow, too!

It’s exactly what I had hoped for – so dreamy! I’m in love!

Then Wednesday was Dave’s last day off so we decided to hike around Chickadee Ridge and Tahoe Meadows where we got engaged. We found a different trail on the Tahoe Rim Trail we haven’t done that circled around the mountain tops at nearly 9000 elevation. We then climbed off-trail enjoying the magick both below and above us.

The Earth was covered with tuffets of sweet enchanting little faery flowers all around and the sky

revealed a bunny portal, a “T” and other magickal things including a dragon head and neck reaching up into the sky (didn’t get photo of it).

The bunny felt to be from my sweet Joy whose ashes had returned to me the day after this day, four years ago. It was a beautiful gift from her to connect with my bunny loves she’s flying with in the stars and to know they are supporting and guiding me/us with their love.

After the hike we decided to enjoy our very first official beach day and got our annual beach pass for the season. We picked up a to-go lunch picnic and relaxed lake-side with chairs and umbrella, soaking in vitamin D, immersing in the fresh water, and receiving a guest visitor.

Right as we walked to our spot I actually found two twin goose feathers (perfect for our wedding unity) and then this sweet one made a beeline for us! There was a ton of connecting and eye contact that took place in a very deep way with him.

It was another full circle, as one of the things Dave shared in his vows was a funny story about me protecting a goose in a very vocal way on the beach one day from an abusive guy. It was as if the goose knew and wanted to return the favor with a little sweet communion and added giggle.

And last, I’ll leave you with this sweet discovery and his message.

While I went out yesterday to water my garden and prepare a hole for our new mock orange blossom bush wedding gift, a new, sweet little one greeted me – my first mountain frog friend. He’s decided to make the top of my Garden Tower his little habitat. We don’t often see frogs here, although hear them a lot in the meadows and near creeks. Isn’t he cute?

I’ve written before about frog symbolism, but I’ll copy and paste it in here to make it easy to read:

The frog speaks of luck, purity, rebirth, renewal, fertility, healing, metamorphosis, transitions, dreaming, and opportunity. In many cultures, the frog symbolizes shamanism and magic as well, teaching us to leap swiftly from one level of consciousness to another – from this world to the Otherworlds. Frogs help us to find courage in accepting new ideas, to foster a sense of self-nurturing, and to discover connections between ideas.

When a frog jumps into your life it may be indicative of the opportunities that can be discovered in the now of your transition. The frog has a unique growth cycle and undergoes some incredible transformations in its progression and attainment of full adulthood, just as we humans do. Hence he understands what it feels like to endure some serious growing pains, and uncomfortable and even yucky feelings, along that transition. And their ability to lay enormous amounts of eggs lends to their fertility symbolism as well as being synonymous with abundance.

Different meanings are found from all over the world. The Egyptians share with us the Frog-headed Heket who is an Egyptian Goddess of birthing and creation. The Celts believed the frog represented curative and healing powers because of its connection with water and cleansing rains and to them, was deemed lord over all the Earth. Western and European views see the frog as a symbol of resurrection and spiritual evolution, deemed by the 3 stages of development (egg, tadpole, and fully formed amphibian). The 3 stages also associate the frog, for Christians, as a symbol for the holy trinity and resurrection and are found often in Christian art under this guise. To the Chinese the frog is an emblem of yin energy and good luck. Feng Shui practices recommend putting an image of a frog in the east window of your home to encourage child birth and a happy family life.

Frogs have also been considered a link between the living and dead, represented by Asian custom believing if you placed a jade frog in the mouth of the deceased, not only would this insure safe passage for their transition, but would allow the spirit to communicate more clearly with living loved ones. In Japan, frogs are especially good luck charms for travelers and wearing one was thought to provide safe passage on long voyages, particularly across waters. The frog took on a more cosmic symbolism for Ancient Hindus however, believing frogs not only signify darkness, but that they project the world into orbit in space.

Again, there’s that theme of synergy between the dead and living, or endings and beginnings all being connected, rebirth, and metamorphosis – something I spoke about in my wedding vows to Dave. My new frog companion is here to stay, as he greeted me this morning again with wide-eyed wonder. He’s a peaceful, curious, and dear little one who seems to reflect the huge quantum leap of hope, faith, and adventure underway for us all, with the promise of enriching metamorphosis and fulfilling potentials to be revealed.

Everything is connected with a sweet thread of continuity whether we realize it or not. While Summer Solstice was a portal of transformation for us, it was also one for the collective, as is everything we experience different ends of in our own ways.

I don’t know what the future looks like for any of us, but I trust it is unfolding in perfect imperfection, has simple and sweet things to value that we often overlook, and is above all, a Great Mystery to respect, marvel in, and honor that will take us on continuous adventures that mirror Mr. Toad’s Wild Ride.

We couldn’t be more grateful to have received and experienced such blessings and love on this day – a day that proved my receiving the date “randomly” when weddings were far from our minds, is why trusting those little nudges makes all the difference.

Here’s to cracking open fresh beginnings for all of us!

Whimsical Wednesdays ~ The Artist’s Corner: Nature’s Art Reflects Living Life Beyond the Veil – Beltane Peace & Heart Potential


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I don’t post blogs as often these days, and mostly stick to themes when I do, but now and then I feel to share something that nudges me and today is one of those days with the energy in these photos coinciding with Beltane today.

Two days ago I went on a short evening hike out back by myself to take a break from manuscript work to connect with nature. The weather was lovely and warm and the air held something different in it. I took these photos, as the light called me.

Each time I looked at the sunlight peeking through the trees I would see tiny, fast shooting gold filaments, but the photos later revealed the unusual feelings I had.

I didn’t pay attention to Beltane approaching, but it was obvious the thinning of veils had already begun.

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You can feel the dance of faery and sprite energy in the water, light, and forest. Faces and beings staring back at me all around.

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But you can also actually see the light revealing what appears as a separation of dimensions – a veil parting ways.

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The light this day was glowing differently and illuminating in unusual ways or radiating like an arrow.

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You can see a golden ray shooting out in this one that then shifts into rainbow light that splits in two strands into the water.

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After the couple of weeks of warming here, yesterday brought a cold day on in the middle of it with temperatures dropping to the 40’s after 60’s and sometimes even 70 degrees here in the mountains. Clouds moved in and out, winds blew in, and at the end of the day a very light veil of tiny snow flurries came down. Just barely enough to see with the naked eye, but did not settle. It appeared like an armada of faeries surrounding the house and created that separation effect of dimensions.

Today we are back to warm sunshine, as if the cold never was.

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An interesting intermingling of Sacred Masculine and Feminine energies dancing back and forth, as the veils lift and harmony is revealed.

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I’ve always loved this image of Cosmo out back in our yard where we used to live. To me, it is a beautiful reflection of his Sacred Male energy in total harmony and embrace of the Sacred Female embodied in our Earth Mother, Terra. The epitome of this precious dance of life and creation in its fertile abundance and purity.

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Beltane is about honoring life at this peak period of Spring unfolding into Summer when everything is blossoming with potent and abundant fertility and the conception of ideas, intents, and dreams are ripe with potential. We become pregnant with opportunity for renewal, growth, vitality, passion, and joy that offer a chance to bring hopes, dreams, and ideas into active fruition.

The faeries remind us to have fun with it all and not to forget that a time for play is much needed too.

Look around you at the landscape of sprouts and buds vigorously reaching for the Sun and dancing in the breeze. They remind us to bring forth the depths of our hearts into the light even when we think there’s no reason to ever shine that again.

If even just to feel the sunlight dance on your skin and dreams, so be it.

Nature reminds us that everything has a cycle and now is a time to take up that joyful part of your secret world you keep only to yourself and nurture it a little bit more.

Today is opportune to set forth intentions and promises to yourself and ask for assistance, as you take an active step toward what ever it is you would like to see more of in your life.

I plan to do another little hike out back today and spend some sunshine time to ground in my own peace and clarity.

I have to giggle, although had slightly gasped, as a spider again just scurried along the edge of my desk by my arm as I typed, making his way for my keyboard. I scared him with my quick pull away of my arm and as I just wrote that he was running down my tapestry in front of me. 😉

You might enjoy Lee’s Energy Update for May to kick off this month and help you to hone in on the intentions you’d like to focus on more and even ask nature, the elementals and faeries to assist with.

Lee talks about both a continued acceleration and grounded peace and heart energy that are dancing together right now. He speaks to a new wave of people awakening to greater awareness than they have before in different ways and will be more ready for conversations they weren’t open to in the past.

Heartfelt conversations are more possible with the willingness to allow your heart to find different ways to engage others.

He also talks about “happiness as peace” which speaks to finding more ways to bring through your joy into life as a means of creating peacefulness. Any little thing that brings that to you is valuable even if something small like sitting outside listening to the birds, cleaning, shutting off electronics for a bit, reading a book, taking a walk, doodling or painting, laying down to day dream….bringing forth more stillness and self-care creates peace, grounding, and greater fulfillment.

The Universe Was Made Just To Be Seen By My Eyes


For anyone feeling lost, confused, scared, purposeless, hopeless, heartbroken, in the dark, alone, unloved, in mourning of a beloved or a meaningful part of your life, I feel you and for what ever reason, I feel a nudge to send you an energetic hug and outpouring of love from my heart to yours.

You are beautiful because you are you.

Nothing more and nothing less.

No one does you better than anyone.

Regardless of how your experiences play out, they are perfect in any form they come.

What we deem mundane or special is one and the same.

It doesn’t matter.

May you feel a spark light up in any dark corner of your heart you might be experiencing.

Here’s a simple, favorite song of mine for you today by Ryan O’Neal who makes music under the name Sleeping At Last.

“How rare and beautiful it is to even exist….”

“…the Universe was made just to be seen by my eyes.”

A Message of Love


I just had to share this precious story of alignment and angelic presence that moved me deeply. As you know, we’ve been holding an online Easter Auction to help raise money for rabbit rescues, alongside donating 10% of proceeds from our Magick Rabbit Etsy Shop during the Easter Sale going on through April 22nd. The auction just closed last evening and what unfolded was truly magickal.

The auction item was this rabbit basket and all of its contents that included three very special crystal eggs. Bids started off slowly, but were starting to gain momentum over the weekend and last day.

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I had no attachment to outcome, but hoped to raise the optimal amount we would be able to add to our donations we’re collecting.

Bids closed at $103 yesterday at 6 pm PST, which was a steal for everything included, yet in perfect alignment and unfolding.

And here’s the backstory.

I messaged the winner, who has become a sweet friend of mine now via Instagram. She and I connected via another dear friend, Reiki student, and the guardian of the giant Amethyst Geode Rabbit and Lemurian Seed Crystal. (In fact, for my birthday she surprised me by sending a big, beautiful, sparkly gold rabbit that now sits on my bedroom dresser next to my silver Manzanita jewelry tree, overseeing all the other sparklies. She was at the store messaging me about all the rabbits she was seeing and then sent me one! I was so moved just by this, so to add the rest of what you’re about to hear, truly put icing on the cake of emotional tenderness.)

Jane was in disbelief. She couldn’t believe that no one had outbid her and that bids hadn’t gone much higher, as she was in dismay people wouldn’t want to help. She was convinced we’d reach like $500 by the end and was in shock by these turn of events.

Immediately, while she was sharing this, I started getting huge chills that wouldn’t cease, as I continued to share to her that things are just meant to be and while it had been odd to me that people didn’t seem to be seeing the post on the other channels of social media and not engaging, I also am all about surrendering to what is in divine perfection and never twist people’s arms to help. It must be from the heart.

I found out why just seconds later, or rather while I was messaging her, as she revealed the rest of her story and why she was so emotional.

She went on to share that she had chosen her daughter’s number for the last bid she placed saying, “Anaiyah this is for you, let me bid your birthday $103.”

Her daughter was born January 3, 2008. She chose 103 to represent 1/3 since the last bid was at $100.

(Side note: 2008 was actually a huge year in my life as well as my partner’s life – where we both got divorced, lost our twin soul animal companions (Nestor my rabbit and Kitty Boom Boom his cat), both went through huge life transformations on deeper levels, and met each other.)

Jane became very emotional and continued to share with me that her daughter had passed away around Easter time and sent this photo of her that was taken just a few months before she passed.

This is why it was all so crazy beautiful to her, adding also to the fact that she’d never won anything before in her life.

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She felt that Anaiyah wanted her to have this basket because she always has a way of reaching out mysteriously and she loved bunnies. In fact, Jane has 3 bunnies in her daughter’s Amethyst collection – interesting connection to the rabbit Amethyst – and that Anaiyah’s favorite color was purple.

Synchronously, the day before the end of the auction I had posted a photo of me in a lilac/light violet dress, with purple shoes and Amethyst jewelry on.

Jane pointed out so cutely that I had to giggle, that she and I had been connecting the morning of the end to the Auction and that she knew her daughter sensed my energy and my bunnies, plus I was “rocking” a purple dress, as she put it – “She was like MOM this lady is super cool,” relaying what Anaiyah was pointing out to her.

Her mom and I also share wearing tattoos all over our bodies, so there are a lot of connecting dots.

As you can see in the photo of her daughter, she truly IS an angel. Not only an angel embodied in human form, but eternally. She also has quite the sparkle and reminds me of a bunny, in fact! I just adore her and felt immediately that my bunny angels were with her, orchestrating all of this so beautifully.

Indeed, it was perfection and I felt it was also Anaiyah’s way to send a message to mom while also lending lend support to her for things right now, and remind her of the wonder and precious joys life has to offer in surprising ways.

It also speaks to how our loved ones are always with us and never leave our hearts and sides.

The heart is the bridge and where there is love there is no separation.

I felt so deeply this sweet message wanted to be shared and asked if I could.

Jane immediately said yes, wanting people to know that our loved ones are always with us in spirit. She also felt Anaiyah would love this story shared as well and told me I could share her photo too, adding that she was always a “show-off.” 😉

I couldn’t be more happy that this rabbit basket of sweetness and potent beauties will be going to Jane via Anaiyah and I couldn’t be more grateful to both of them for helping to support the bunnies.

Pure magick all around and on my end, just another of the ways my powerful angel bunnies demonstrate their presence and supportive orchestration of things in my own life.

I’m so happy to come to know Anaiyah through Jane and that Jane and I have made this sweet connection via our angels.

And what sweetness to know that her dear angel girl had a hand in helping to support the bunnies ❤

Hoppy Valentine’s Day!


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Hoppy Valentine’s Day! This is just a quick peak in, as I’m taking the day off after all the creative flurry here getting our (Astrid and me) Etsy launch ready for today’s Love Day. Everything is live in The Magick Rabbit shop now for you to explore all the whimsy and magick we’ve been up to, to share from our hearts to yours. That link can be found here if you feel inspired to hop over and check it out: https://www.etsy.com/shop/TheMagickRabbit

And behind all this magick and creative love has been my bunny loves, so today couldn’t go by without sharing these most memorable photos of the two sweet angels that embodied the meaning of this day and LOVE all around for me.

I shared these this morning on my Instagram, but just had to reshare here for my blog friends and family.

These two – Cosmo and Joy – will always bring to mind true love for me. And Cosmo, my special needs son, was and always will be the epitome of unconditional love.

Not only was he a guiding light in our lives and everyone who met or heard about him, but his message helped the collective through his service as an ambassador for cruelty-free cosmetics in campaigns for The Humane Society where he was dropped at the doorsteps in poor health.

He was taken in by a different and wonderful rabbit rescue – Bunny World Foundation – and after an accident years later, while in the care of his foster family, that left him unable to walk, I heard his call and my life changed forever.

These angels – rabbits – have taught me true love and opened my heart to greater expanse forever.

Love Day is every day for me, especially because of the souls in rabbit bodies who have been my best friends, and the images impressed in my heart of love are these I share again today.

I wish everyone SO, SO MUCH love. I’m grateful to have you in our lives and part of this journey.

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Ask Astrid Fridays ~ The Rabbit’s Corner: Your Higher Heart Can Free You


As we celebrate this first day of February, many things come to mind for this month of “LOVE” ignited by today’s celebration of the magickal Imbolc (the halfway mark between Winter Solstice and Spring Equinox) and a very magickal soul’s birthday. For any of you new here to my blog, Nestor is my twin soul in rabbit body who departed this Earth plane 11 years ago. Today is her Earth birthday – she would have been 16.

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I always honor and celebrate Nestor and Astrid shares this deep respect for her, as her mentor. The two of them are very similar in many ways – more so than any of my bunnies have been in relation to each other.

In fact, Nestor has seen to it that others of our soul family (like Astrid, Joy, Cosmo, and Gaia) have found their way to me and me to them. She constantly watches over and guides me, cares for my human self when she feels me in need, sends me messages and signs, supports me with my path and life’s work, and fuels my heart with greater and deeper love – much like Astrid does on Earth for me.

And where there is love, there is no separation.

Astrid wants today’s message to be about moving into our hearts more deeply, but also more expansively. She senses that while many are experiencing great openings in their lives, she feels those of you who still struggle and are finding yourself feeling trapped in a dark place you feel you can’t get out of, which may in fact reflect a tipping point opportunity.

She wants me to share a short story about what happened this morning and then will share why this was important and how it reflects her message for today.

I was busy cleaning up her bunny kingdom today and had left the usually closed bathroom door, slightly ajar after having gone in to get some paper towels to wipe down her litter box.

After I was done, and passed it to go get her fresh water and goji juice for her bowl, I closed the door fully. I returned not seeing her and went on a search to find her throughout the house, calling her name and looking under every one of her hiding places or potential unseen areas by the naked eye that she might have run off to.

She was nowhere to be found and I was a bit frantic, wondering if she’d fallen through a portal or something. 🙂

Finally, after surveying both floors three times, I wondered if she might have gotten deep into my closet and I closed the door on her by accident – nope.

Lastly, I thought, hmmm, could she have snuck by me and gotten into the bathroom in that short period it was slightly open and I closed the door on her?

The latter was in fact the case.

As I reached for the old vintage door knob and opened it, I saw her sitting on top of the toilet seat staring at me. She had in fact been closed into the dark bathroom and decided if she couldn’t get out the way she came in, she’d get higher, sit still, and hope I’d hear her heart in answer to my calls of her name.

“So what does this have to do with your message for today, Astrid?” I ask.

She replies, “This was my way of identifying with the people who find themselves struggling and feeling trapped in a dark place they can’t find a way out of. It happens to all of us and to struggle more is like sinking deeper into quicksand. It simply won’t help. These are the times to find your center, sit still while immersed in the dark, and elevate into your higher heart so that you can send and receive the clearest communication of love to where it’s needed the most, within and and without.”

“What do you mean?” I ask.

“Well, when you feel lost, lonely, in pain, and are struggling, much of this involves a separation from love – the most expansive and unconditional kind. The gap grows wider between your ability to understand things because you enter the mind’s reasoning alone and abandon the heart’s knowing. While I sat in the dark I could feel all of that fear and anxiety – mine and the collective’s rush through me – and realized I could either go mad trying to claw my way a tunnel through impossible doors, OR I could elevate my heart and mind and open to a wider perspective that would free me. I could move into my higher heart and find the well of love there I could use to create the peace I needed for myself and the situation, while I calmed myself and used that clarity of heart to speak to you in the language of love telepathy that I knew would reach your heart,” Astrid explains.

“Wow! Well said, Astrid. It makes perfect sense to me.”

“Yes, and when you were stressed today about unexpected things,” she continues, “you didn’t realize how you did the same.”

“Oh, you’re right! After that initial rush of anxiety, I did what elevates me into my heart the most and thought of this being Nestor’s birthday, and looked at you and cuddled with you for a bit. That brought me back to my peace and center, nurtured my truth, and my heart suddenly bridged a new perspective to my mind that shifted me out of the stress instantly and enabled me to detach completely,” I reply.

“Exactly,” Astrid answers.

“I guess we both found our way through the darkness and each other today,” I said.

“Through love,” Astrid replies. “An elevated kind of love, which is where we are headed. Just like you shared yesterday about your new teal hair feeling to reflect the higher heart. That is no coincidence my dear friend.”

I smile.

“As you said, where there is love there is no separation. We only feel lost, alone, scared, angry, or sad, because we have yet to BE this love. Love has been intellectualized and analyzed, with only short spurts of actually residing in it – if in fact we haven’t denied or repressed it altogether. Yet, we often live outside of it and only venture into its home in dire circumstances, by accident, or as a fleeting moment. We’ve forgotten that we were never homeless and we’ve forgotten how rich we are in the only currency that we can take with us beyond Earth – LOVE,” Astrid concludes.

I had a feeling that this morning’s experience with Astrid getting locked in the bathroom was no arbitrary thing once I saw her sitting there so purposefully, like a wise soul, atop the toilet seat throne.

Her message feels important to me and perhaps it will to you too on a level that is needed at this time. I feel she is speaking to us moving beyond what we think we’ve known as love into a much more expansive, bigger picture, and harmonic experience of love – very fitting for the first day of the month of love.

It’s no wonder that this little rose quartz tree sitting atop an amethyst mound was the only thing I returned back from Sedona with. I visited Crystal Magic and was only drawn to the beautiful crystal trees, and when I couldn’t decide between about four of them, I tuned into Astrid and asked which she would like me to bring home for her and me.

The answer was clear, as you can below.

Rose quartz is the stone of the heart and unconditional love. Amethyst is February’s stone and is spiritually elevating in ways that transmute energies into higher frequencies of love.

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Rabbits are reflections of growth, rebirth, awareness, harmony, abundance, creativity, fertility, vulnerability, and Mother Earth’s changing seasons and rabbits (especially white rabbits) are traditionally symbolic of Imbolc, Candlemas, and Spring. They really help us leap into the energies available to us this new month, as shared in Lee’s Energy Update below that synchronously holds a similar vibe to Astrid’s message.

Astrid, Nestor and all of my rabbit soul companions have been powerful way-showers of these energies, and most importantly of love for me. Cosmo, as you may remember, was and is the epitome of this steadfast love Astrid speaks of. And all of my bunny partners help me to return there when needed.

Nestor was always a great reflector for me of what I was missing and needed to take care of within myself. And she continues to be a daily reminder in my heart, keeping me on track and not straying from my own need for consistent inner harmony. Thank you Nestor and Astrid for today’s insight and lesson.

I wish you all an extra love-filled February and to end this share here’s Lee Harris to expound on this month’s themes he is feeling for the continuation of this new 7-year cycle of elevation we’re in – “The Era of Higher Harmonics, Elevated Love & Abundance Shifts.”

Update: Today marked the end of our Giveaway on Instagram celebrating the upcoming launch of our new Etsy shop. We announced the recipient and surprised four others with a gift too. We’re so grateful to everyone who joined and for helping to raise money for rescue rabbits, as for each entry I committed to donating $1 to a rabbit rescue of my choice. February is starting off full of LOVE!

Ask Astrid Fridays ~ The Rabbit’s Corner: Animals Understand


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Today’s share from Astrid is a very important one, in our opinion, as she wants to impart to everyone more presence, patience, and effort in the way of communicating with your beloved animal companions. She tells me, “I want to share about talking to animals a bit because frankly I don’t think many people understand that they can, or forget that they could.”

I have to agree with her fully, and while Astrid is not going to be giving a lesson on how to do animal communication, she simply wants to stress communicating with your animal friends just as you would naturally communicate with anyone.

True, there are different ways, approaches, and techniques you can use – mostly it’s a process of trusting yourself and believing – but her message is one of reminding, more than anything, or in other cases, opening up this dialog for the first time.

If you speak from your heart, the techniques don’t matter so much although can be a segway to help.

“We are here for a purpose in your lives and while we communicate in nonverbal ways and demonstrations of reflections, we can also understand clearly what you say and feel, as well as have the ability to relay messages. I only ask for you to be open to this idea and try it. It may feel weird or silly at first, but then isn’t everything kind of silly if you think about it a lot? Many people talk to their unborn children while they are growing in the womb. Some talk to their family and friends who have journeyed to the other side. Others talk to God or other forms of unseen Sources that you believe in. So why is it so strange to think you could talk to animals AND that we could actually understand and communicate back? Think about it,” says Astrid.

The last four days ending 2018 and beginning 2019 we had family visiting, which included this little Faery you see beside Astrid. She’s our six and a half year old niece, Violet. I was curious to see how Astrid would relate with her and all of the activity she’d be in the middle of that she’s not so used to. Especially given the last time children had visited, Astrid was not pleased and established boundaries from the get-go.

I had explained to Astrid, as I always do, what was about to happen before our family arrived and shared with her all of the details of who was coming and how things would be.

And for the first time, Astrid welcomed a child into her realm with curiosity and a warm heart.

I was also sure to explain to Violet, who is very sensitive to animals and the Unseens, how she could best engage Astrid.

And so, the two of them met each other half way, opened their hearts to a new friendship and possibility, and found this to be the bridge between them.

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They both did very well and Astrid was working her magick, much like a therapy animal. She stretched herself to help engage and bring out more within Violet, but also knew when she needed her own space and recharge time, retreating to her tunnels or pawing gently with tiny thrusts, rather than her usual big grunts and charges, if she wanted to impart something of a boundary with her.

In this way, she was also demonstrating to Violet, that when Violet might feel upset about something that she could create gentle boundaries, too, without having to be over-dramatic.

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Astrid now wants me to share about how one Big Faery taught one Little Faery to remember who she is and how to harness her abilities. In my book, however, it’s more about how Astrid continues to be a guiding light in my life and everyone’s lives she touches.

So, after the first night, Violet came to me and said that she woke up in the morning with Astrid standing over her.

It wasn’t until that second night, before bed, that she brought it up again and said that it scared her and made her feel uncomfortable.

Violet and her parents were staying downstairs next to my office and Astrid’s room, so it was normal that Astrid would be sharing the space with them.

However, Violet started saying that she wanted to close Astrid into her room for the night because she didn’t like her visitation in the morning.

Her parents told her she couldn’t do that because Astrid is a house rabbit, that is free to roam.

I’d been quiet while her parents were handling things, then looked at Astrid and knew we needed to take this a step further.

So, when Violet came into my office to tell me she was going to close the door I had a Faery-to Faery conversation with her.

Astrid was right next to us and the conversation went something like this.

“Astrid really likes you. Remember I told you that you’re the first child she’s ever been open to. She doesn’t mean to scare you, nor did she try to. She just really likes you and either was giving you healing energy, or was curious and maybe even wanted to play since the wee morning hours are fun times to her,” I said.

Violet listened.

I then continued, “You’re a Faery. Why don’t you have a nice conversation with Astrid and ask her if she will leave you alone in the morning because it scared you to be woken up like that. She understands, but you just need to talk to her and tell her how you feel.”

Violet processed this quickly and said, “Okay.”

She then proceeded to get down by Astrid, stroked her gently and told her in her own words how she felt and asked her to please not do that again.

We then went to bed.

The next morning Violet came upstairs and I asked her if Astrid had come to wake her in the morning.

She said, “No she didn’t.”

I said, “See, she understands and you are able to talk to animals. Remember this. The only thing that makes us different is the body we live in.”

Violet smiled big.

She was very happy and proud of what had taken place.

I believe she’ll remember this and carry it through in more situations where she can feel empowered, empower another being, and not power over or deny the value of another child of this universe.

Astrid was very pleased and continued to open her heart and be gentle with Violet. She also continued to honor Violet’s wishes for the rest of the nights they stayed with us.

“I want her to know…for everyone to know…that humans and animals can share a harmonious relationship. It takes time, patience, a little effort to listen and decipher sometimes, but if you open your heart then all possibilities await you.”

Thank you Astrid for your wisdom you so generously share with us and for being a guiding light and bridge between all of creation.

Whimsical Wednesdays ~ The Artist’s Corner: Being You More Creatively Will Help Create the World You Want to See


Welcome 2019. It is already the 2nd of the New Year, as I sit down to share this new blog post. Do you feel a shift in energy? I could sense something in the days leading up, and although each day is just that – another day – there does indeed feel to be a different air about things. At first I couldn’t quite put my finger on it, but perhaps I don’t need to either.

Being that this #3 New Year collectively rings in greater creativity and innovative vision to bring forth through your personal vehicle of expression and embodiment, it may be that you are feeling a deep calling from within to make changes and live more from your heart than ever before.

I found it sweet that the day before New Year’s Eve, when we were hiking to the lake, I found a snowflake ornament hidden in the brush below this tree you see in the photo above. The tree is decorated year-round and I felt the discovery of this hidden sparkle of delight inviting me to hang a bit of magick this tree guardian would watch over that would reflect my unique creative expression in the divine collective – just as each snowflake is unique, but part of Source. It reminds me of a painting I did long ago titled, “Uniquely You, Divinely One.”

To me, this was also the message I was being shown in discovering the snowflake…that is what’s so important this year to truly shine our creative uniqueness in the world, as a way to empower the collective.

I looked around for some way to fasten the snowflake on the tree and Dave pointed out a small silvery white ribbon on a branch. So I threaded it through the snowflake and tied it on.

Perhaps this is the shift I was sensing. That things are truly focusing more on the micro, inherent in the macro. That what each of us chooses to express – no matter what it is – is what is going to shape the world the most. This being both the world – reality – you experience AND the reality for the collective as potential.

I know for me it’s been an increase in creative energy via new channels and forms and creating a lush reality around me that nurtures my heart and soul. I find the more I do this, the more I bring that level of peace, joy, and love out into the world more consistently and through each experience I encounter. AND the more I enjoy this temporary Earth home because I am embracing the potential it was meant to be.

This increase in creative energy came from inspiration I wasn’t sure I had in me anymore back three years ago – a time when I felt life on Earth no longer offered enough to keep me past the closure I’d come to.

And yet, just as the heart is vast and limitless, so too is our creative capacity. Creative reinvention found its way into my life again and I said, “yes” to it.

Are you ready this year to say “yes” to something in your heart?

Perhaps you might find at least one way in which you could express yourself in a new and currently more heart-full way?

Even if it’s just a new outfit, hairstyle, reorganizing or redecorating a room, starting a project, finding creative ways to spend more time or more meaningful time nurturing yourself, with loved ones, doing something you love, and/or, but quite importantly, out in nature connecting and receiving her gifts.

Currently I’m immersed in family visiting right now and having our niece here who is 6 1/2 years old truly always reflects to me the part of myself I value and nurture likely the most – my inner child.

It tickles me that she wants to spend so much time with me and I gather it is because of that part within each of us that meets in the heart…the little girl that loves magickal things.

It is this same part that is fueling my current creative projects – the focus full throttle now, after a lot of anchoring. I’ll be jumping back in after our family time comes to closure and can’t tell you how much energy I feel ready to pop.

I received word recently from my rabbit family that February 1st will be the launch of my new Etsy shop. It just so happens to be my beloved and departed rabbit, Nestor’s, birthday, as well as the magickal Imbolc of new beginnings, purification, and the light within blossoming.

And the more I keep channeling creative energy, the more I’m seeing and hearing of people all around me doing so many wonderful new things! It excites me greatly.

Some other big changes and arrivals have come all at the end of 2018 that perhaps I’ll share in another post, but for now I’m wishing everyone a wonderfully creative new spark in your life and that you find yourself feeling ready to nurture and cultivate more of what you love and desire, as well as intend for the world through your own actions.

Ask Astrid Fridays ~ The Rabbit’s Corner: The Struggle Isn’t You


As this is Astrid’s last message for 2018, I was curious what she would want to share. She’s been extra playful and cuddly these days, which has added another layer to our together-time, and it also speaks to some of what her message is that she wants to leave you with.

And what might that be?

Astrid says, “The end to struggle.”

We’ve been immersed in year-end closure here, went deep with watching all four parts of the new Watership Down rabbit movie, along with prepping for new whimsical ventures in 2019 together – this to include our new book, art, and rabbit Faery fun. Our little Wonderland Faery realm has become a true Otherworld for creative manifesting, as we threaded together a Rabbit Hole of delight we feel enriched in every day. We’ve also been examining the reality we want to live and leave behind.

There’s been a lot of creative work and anchoring this last year to set up and define our intentions, and although this New Year, for us, will continue to be one of vision, setting priorities, and determination, it will also be one of breakthroughs and embodied beliefs. This, Astrid shares, to be done with joy, ease, and peace – with the knowing that we can trust our essence to guide us in flow and fun through the next leg of the journey.

If we find ourselves struggling, where can we be curious about ways in which we might be holding on to old patterns and realities, lower ideals, or stringent and limited attachments?

Astrid says, “The struggle is a detour to who you really are. The struggle is a way to stay small. The struggle is a way to keep you away from what you believe you don’t deserve. The struggle keeps illusion as an interference to seeing the possibilities and beauty available. The struggle isn’t you.”

For most of the first part of my life I struggled on many levels. I was constantly inflicting inner torment upon myself with voices of knowing battling voices of fear, pain, confusion, and conflicting patterns that weren’t even mine in many cases.

And this kept me from being me and being able to expand further. It was like being tethered to a post and always hitting the end that snapped me back.

That is, until I realized the post didn’t truly exist except for believing it did.

Astrid has been through her own struggles and in seeing her come to this place of surrender and no longer feeling the need to fight, she is finding the love and joy her essence exudes, feeling right at home.

And so are we both experiencing this, which is creating greater peace daily.

“There is always another way,” she says, “and while we feel things serve us, truly they serve our patterned beliefs – not our hearts. Love is not a struggle. Creative energy simply flows. When we relax into these spaces, spend more time nurturing and cultivating the love in our hearts, we find greater comfort in things we never thought we could. We open ourselves to different opportunities, see new perspectives, and realize there are a multitude of ways to experience what we want, rather than believe it can only be in one form.”

“And what about those old realities and lower ideals so many of us struggle to hold on to?” I ask her.

“Like the unlimited dimensional experiences you can’t see, but still exist, why is it that you feel there to be only one reality? You struggle to hold on because you are so close to letting go. It is that last piece that will change everything. The release and fall into your grace. You fight to stay small because being more means greater empowerment and awareness. It’s been easier to let others and even beliefs power over you then to truly live without constraints. Hope, love, imagination…these things no one controls, but you. They are the keys to a new reality no one can take away. They live where struggle does not exist. When you go there, you know what I mean. If you can learn to stay there, you will know what is possible,” Astrid says.

We have both been embracing this experience where struggle need not be anymore and gently breathing deeper into our hearts to help it move through.

This has brought Astrid to a place of exuberant and loving expression as her norm now, without need to struggle and fight within, as a way of preserving it only for special moments. We have both learned to trust who we each really are and that life is meant to be a joyful, creative, and wondrous experience.

The other things may exist and they may knock on our door to try to tether us back, but they will meet with surprise when they find there is no knot on the other end. We’ll see the rope and when the knocking thinks it has us, we will let go of the other end and watch them disappear.

Let this be a year we all let go of the struggle and fight.

Let this be a year to create a new reality.

For me and Astrid it is a storybook year we are weaving together, piece by piece, heart to heart.

We both wish you all a wondrous New Year – a year of greater creativity, transformation, fertile and abundant potential, and alignment for the collective with it being a 3 year in numerology.

Astrid will be back next year on January 4th, 2019.

Whimsical Wednesdays ~ The Artist’s Corner: Christmas Whimsy is a Family Tradition


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As today is Whimiscal Wednesdays, I couldn’t think of a more whimsical way to share what is in my heart and how I live every day from the innocence of my inner child than to share a glimpse into our day yesterday. While it’s true that I have never let go of the the little girl within and don’t go a day without a bit of silly and imagination, in part this is also because of having a family that does the same.

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There are many things my spirit carries forth into embodiment simply by way of essence, but my parents have instilled much of the same in me because they, too, have never stopped nurturing their inner child and “living life as art.” Neither did my French grandfather who is the one I often mention having been the one to encourage the artist part of me. We have a lot of family members who have enjoyed continuing on in the ways of the inner child’s artist, thoroughly enjoying life, laughing a lot, and finding ways to bring beauty more to others.

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We are truly grateful for this and even though, like any family, we have our ups and downs and challenges, I truly believe that having this little part cultivated and in tact, has supported moving through life with more hope, resilience, and desire to keep re-imagining anew.

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Both of my parents are artistic and creative as well in their own ways, and both love to have fun, giggle to tears, and enjoy creating beauty around them. This includes creating an enchanted Winter Wonderland in their home that rivals Santa’s North Pole home and toy shop. In fact, every holiday they go all out with decorating from their childs’ hearts.

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My dear Faery Laura has mentioned having had a word for 2018 and a new one for 2019 – “thrive”, and while I wouldn’t say there’s only one for me, I would say that “storybook” often comes to mind when I think of the theme I’ve been cultivating in my life and “whimsical” is another I have truly become extra fond of.

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When put together, I feel 2019 to continue anchoring in more of both of these and that my life is unfolding and embodying a storybook that I’m singing from my whimsical heart.

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Because of this, I felt so strongly that yesterday I would wear my Alice in Wonderland dress to my parent’s Faeryland home to celebrate Christmas, as it would be a way for me to immerse more fully into this wondrous journey I’m creating and embarking on.

I truly felt like the little girl that I am, now walking hand-in-hand with the woman I’ve become. There is no separation.

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And I loved being surrounded by the beauty and enchantment my parents create, the warmth they exude, and the love that emanates from all that they share.

I didn’t take photos this year of the entire house, but I assure you every room is themed with Christmas Wonderland delight!

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We spent a lovely day that was filled with a full vegan feast they lovingly made for us, opening sweet and thoughtful gifts, watching Christmas animations – Nestor the Long Eared Donkey (a fav of mine and how my twin soul rabbit, Nestor, got her name) and one we’d never seen before – The Life and Adventures of Santa Claus (which was very magickal too), and sharing about the old ways and how life once was so different and simple. This to include stories of my parents when they were children growing up – one in a small, cobbled-street village at the foot of a castle in the South of France and the other in the old Italian parts of Hoboken, New Jersey.

We were then sent home with a huge care package of goodies to last a week – no cooking for me weeeeeeeee!

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Before we ventured off to their Otherworld, Dave and I had enjoyed a mystical morning Christmas skiing. A fog covered the slopes, creating mysterious pockets to journey through on our descent. It was such a cool experience and coupled with Christmas Eve’s snow storm while skiing, a full rainbow that day, and a small misty rainbow portal yesterday, I felt magick consume me and offer more hope to a New Year filled with potential of greater peace and joy.

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I hope everyone had a beautiful Christmas and holiday and I wish each of you a little whimsy and sweet delight, as you think about the ways you might want to create this upcoming New Year from your inner child’s creative heart.

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