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Manifesting from an Open Heart


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Another cycling through of powerful energies is upon us with this Lunar Eclipse Full Moon in Capricorn – just one of the many astrological influences going on right now. With this Moon we are working with the energies of Capricorn and Cancer – think sensitive, open heart, and intuitive trust meets wise discernment, inner strength, and exercise of boundaries.

Emotions are raw at these Full Moons and heightened by Cancer’s energy right now. Capricorn steps in to help navigate these feelings more effectively and with a mature wisdom that helps you to harness determination and clarity to review things from a more balanced perspective. Then the intuition that is revealed doesn’t just sit idle, but now has a way of coming forth into manifestation.

This photo was taken of me on Sunday while we were on an adventurous hike. I love the merging of water, snow, and ice with mountainous terrain, rock, and greenery emerging. It speaks to me so much of this Capricorn and Cancer balancing made tangible, which was also part of the journey to get to the lakes at top – using feelings, intuition, determination, responsible action, and wise discernment to navigate the way.

I also love how my shoulders are in perfect alignment with the mountain behind me – almost creating an expansive wing-like essence, but one of solidity. My stance is grounded and anchored, and yet my energy feels open, free and flowing like the waters surrounding me.

If it’s hard to imagine what the merging of Cancer and Capricorn would feel and look like this, at least for me, helps me to envision it. And the experience helped me to embody it more.

It’s incredible how things happen like that.

Messages of this Moon speak to not relinquishing that inner heart and spirit knowing in place of what others or society are trying to impose as decisions for you.

Nurturing more courage and strength and surrounding yourself with more resonant spirits that align with you and help you to steer a more aligned course for yourself will likely be beneficial, especially if you feel challenged by doing it on your own.

It’s a time for discovering, embracing, and realizing your worth at the core of your being and that it’s not determined or defined by anything else but that.

Perhaps you might be feeling the desire to withdraw, but these are times to expand further.

The only true enemy you have is when you fight against yourself or give in to the perpetuation of collective struggles and patterns running the show.

There are some who may find moving on from experiences and people that feel oppressive will be supportive for this. And many others I’ve noticed are exiting in more extreme ways, as it feels timely for them to simply move on altogether.

It can be challenging and that’s why having some kind of support system – whether friends, family, like-minded kindred spirits, animal companions, loved ones, or a strong relationship to Nature or the nature within you can help.

Peace can be found through an understanding of non-duality – that there is a place where all things meet in the heart.

And speaking of hearts, I posted this share along with the photo above on my Instagram page and it felt aligned for these energies. I’m resharing it here, as I know many of you aren’t on Instagram.

Surrender to the courage of your wild heart – it has a power very rare.

Surrender to the guidance of your heart and take courageous steps to be more vulnerable and connect more intimately and deeply with yourself, others, and all of life around you. Your life will shift immensely in reflection to these commitments.

When the heart is continually being conditioned only by the mind, its voice and inspiration become stifled and confused, even when you actively try to engage it.

When you allow the mind’s influence to overpower the heart’s, you place limitations on the extraordinary source and well-spring of energy, vibrancy, guidance, intuition, and inspiration it can provide naturally. Not to mention, you hinder the joy and extraordinary experiences that could infuse your life if you had a clear path to your heart.

It’s not that we abandon the mind, but integrate a healthier union between it and the heart, with heart leading and being supported and channeled most effectively.

A wild heart is one that operates naturally, instinctively, and freely, providing direction from your authentic self and from the deepest passions and desires that stem from that truth. This is hidden between layers of “ideas” you have about yourself and the conditioned “desires” that you have come to learn.

Your wild heart will lead you back to your essence, and toward real liberation, satisfaction, harmony, and balance at the core of your being.

Be willing to face and lovingly let go of old mental and emotional patterns, and the conditioning that reins you in from experiencing your own wild, free heart – taking time to repattern yourself back to who you really are.

It’s not a simple journey at first, but it does become increasingly easy when consistently and actively engaged.

Afterall, it IS simply you returning to natural harmony. That may seem like a foreign experience right now, but it’s the most natural experience there is. You’ve simply forgotten this.

It’s interesting that in the last several days a few new animals have shown up for us here. Yesterday we had two long-tailed weasels visit our deck, which we’ve never seen. And on our bike ride, I saw a dead baby porcupine alongside the bike path. A few days ago I found a dead mouse on the forest trail behind our house. And swallowtail butterflies and large, chubby bumble bees (I like to call mini bear cubs with wings) galore have been visiting and dancing around me.

I didn’t get to see this one myself, but a friend had come to pick us up the other day and she said she saw a grown rabbit on our lawn. This made me happy because I’ve been wondering about Blueberry and his mom – the rabbit family from last year – and this made me feel that Blueberry was grown up and still making this his home.

These are just the more unusual of sightings to add to the array of daily regular ones, although I have a thing for finding all of the dead animals.

I also found five – my favorite number – Steller’s Jay feathers on Saturday…one after another. I actually “knew” I’d find five – even though they were all spread out over 7 miles.

The symbolism and energies of them are also telling and feel aligned with things.

Cycles continue and transformation is part of life. Best to flow with it, rather than fight it.

There are a lot of retrogrades also happening right now and these always lend to it being a beneficial time for reviewing and clarifying your life and life focuses.

What has been running the show for you?

What are your choices rooted in?

You have opportunity to change that story and live from a renewed connection to your inner heart’s guidance that now has the strong support system it has always craved, to do what it wants most.

This is manifesting from an open heart and it comes from the union of energies working together to strengthen each other.

Once in a Blue Moon & Once in a Lifetime Mom


We have an incredibly rare (first one in 150+ years) Super Blue Blood Moon Total Lunar Eclipse in Leo today that took place between 4:51 am and 6:07 am.  It is the second Supermoon of the month, which makes it known as a Blue Moon and therefore is a “once in a Blue Moon” occurrence. It also happens to be my mom’s 75th birthday today – happy birthday mom! Talk about a cosmic celebration for this milestone day and talk about a once in a lifetime mom. ❤

Photo taken this Saturday on the 27th as my mom headed out to a romantic celebration – the reason my parents couldn’t make our house blessing. Looking good mom!

Seems appropriate she should get a big cheer all the way from the stars, as she is a star herself – always giving, loving, and carrying joy and lightness in her heart. I’m very grateful to have her as my mom and we are lucky to have someone like her on Earth along with all of the other Earth Angels, working to make this world a better place filled with kindness and compassion.

2018 is a big year for my family with milestone celebrations – my mom’s 75th birthday, my 45th birthday, my parent’s 50th wedding anniversary, Dave’s 55th birthday, and our 10th anniversary. It also seems to be a big year for other things, which of course include celebrating our new home being complete and some other personal shifts upcoming.

Interestingly, I have been feeling my birthday shift since end of December for some reason, perhaps because of all of the new and changes. I seem to already be in celebration mode along with my mom, which is no surprise since she and I are so close and always have been like two peas in a pod. This has included already gifting myself things, which I have found important to do these last couple of years, and receiving early birthday gifties. So, I feel we are celebrating together our 75th and 45th and of course gifties are on their way to mom, to add to the vegan pizza and cake celebration upcoming!

There will be no Full Moon in my birthday month of February, although last year there was a New Moon Solar Eclipse on my 44th. This “no Full Moon month” is another rare occurrence that happens about four times a century (the last was in 1999) and only takes place in February due to the lunar cycle being longer than the number of days this month has. And thus, January and March end up with two Full Moons as a result.

Anyway, I didn’t set my clock to wake to see the Moon this morning, but apparently my internal clock knew, as I woke at just after 5 am to use the restroom (hehe). I found Astrid in the living room taking in the Moon and found the Moon perfectly situated in an opening of the trees in the forest out back, which would put it directly over the lake at this time. I continued to watch it until the first light started to illuminate it again. But up until then, the moon was big and red and very ominously mysterious sitting in this portal of the Forest Portal.

I stated my intentions aloud and anything I wanted to release in order to create them.

When the light arrived, it was almost like an egg birthing on the left side of the moon because although it created a crescent shape as it extended right, it had this small protrusion where the light kissed the dark, making it very interesting looking.

I watched it until the moon moved behind the trees and went back to bed to relax and rest some more.

I’ve definitely been feeling the energy of this moon, as the last few days I’ve felt the need for more rest and nurturing than normal.

It offers a clearing and liberating energy, to uncover the real, live that consistently, and be the love of the New Earth on every level. I’ve been seeing and hearing of more and more people stepping into the life they dreamed of, making the impossible possible, and manifesting new shifts with their life and careers by going for their dreams all the way!

A potent portal for evolutionary change on a global scale and individually.

And a potent birthday for mom.

Creative Full Moon Lunar Eclipse in Leo Blessings


These two paintings – creative expressions of mine – and the quotes I shared along with them, felt like creative insights and reflections to share on this Full Moon Lunar Eclipse in Leo to draw forth personal awareness for collective good and harmony. I shared them via Instagram over the last couple of days, but am posting them here for my blog readers. Wishing everyone truth invoking empowerment, the courage to embody your beliefs, illumination to all that is unconscious, and creative inspiration to listen to and honor what’s in your heart.

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“In oneself lies the whole world and if you know how to look and learn, the door is there and the key is in your hand. Nobody on earth can give you either the key or the door to open, except yourself.” ~J. Krishnamurti

Spirit by Tania Marie ~ Creating the New Cosmic Earth: Fifth in my series titled “In Lak’ech” which is a mystical experience of awakening, as the Ancients and Power Beings of the Five, bring forth their messages of healing.

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“There is in all visible things an invisible fecundity, a dimmed light, a meek namelessness, a hidden wholeness. This mysterious unity and integrity is wisdom, the mother of us all, “natura naturans.” There is in all things an inexhaustible sweetness and purity, a silence that is a fountain of action and joy. It rises up in wordless gentleness, and flows out to me from the unseen roots of all created being.” ~Thomas Merton

Gaia’s Gift by Tania Marie

A Little Pig & a Lot of Full Moon – Dreams & Eclipses Amping Up the Energy


Has anyone else been dreaming a ton, not only in fast-forward it seems, but in seamless stories that roll one after the other packed with collective stuff?

It’s so interesting that while I was away both in Iceland and Peru, I wasn’t remembering my dreams, which is very unusual for me. I know I was dreaming, as I do A LOT, but I was quite deep I believe. So even if I would remember little bits for a second, the next second they were gone. The only dream I remember fully was the one I shared happening on the eve of the Equinox while on Amantani Island on Lake Titicaca. SO interesting I only remembered that very potent and important one.

But since being back, I’m back to my vivid dreams, but they are unusually packed full each night, one after another, but I’m noticing a theme that a good majority of them all have people I know either well, a little, or at a distance, all showing up in them. And I’m noticing that the dreams are all about things that THEY are processing, challenges, and so on, coming through me. It’s as if they’re sharing with me, I’m observing their lives, and helping to process the stuff.

It’s not a foreign concept, as I/we do a lot of collective work and healers do a lot of work in their sleep with others, but I’ve never had it stream in so much, like every day. Usually it’s random, but everyone is coming in strong and consistently. Perhaps due to opening more multi-dimensionally and due to the collective healing energy I sent out while on my journey and the openings that took place, creating a stream of more of this to take place. I also happen to know a lot of these people are all going through major shifts and challenges currently, and I also just happen to be a Pisces who does most of the work in dream time. It’s a wonder I ever feel rested and refreshed. 🙂

So, it was kind of a relief, in a way, that the dream I remembered and directly woke up from last night was light, affirming, and well-humored, although still involved a dear friend I know.

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Beach walk under the approaching Full Moon last night

Yesterday, I got a ton done, which always amazes me how much I get accomplished and within the time I intend. After an already full day I completed a sacred tattoo design with time to prepare my crystal elixirs, and head out for a nice Indian dinner and walk along the beach in the glow of the blossoming Full Moon to set intentions.

I was then fast in bed, dreaming away, and my last dream from which I awoke from was the light one I mentioned.

In the dream I was with my banana friend, Lynne, and a friend of hers. They were asking me what made me choose to be vegan. They were both a little giddy in the dream and so I started telling them about a pig. But not just any pig, but a pig I fell in love with. I told them there was a pink pig with black and white spots that was so cute and we fell in love and have been ever since. And I went vegan because of him and my love for this pig and all that he represented and we’ve had a secret love affair ever since. I then concluded that they both would probably not remember anything I just told them, so that’s my story.

LOL!!

Now, that’s not quite why I went vegan, although isn’t too far off track, since it was for deep spiritual reasons aligned with my personal beliefs and deep connection with the animals.

I could likely pull out some symbolism in this indeed, but it was interesting I immediately woke from this dream and it was dark outside and realized it was the middle of the Lunar Eclipse taking place. I also texted Lynne not too long after to tell her this funny dream and found she had gotten up super early herself and was out in the dark and cold, bundled up in Oregon, just her and the Moon and her Crystal, setting intentions.

By the time I got outside the total Lunar Eclipse was just passing and illumination was beginning to light the Moon, exposing its pinky tone against the black darkness unveiling it.

Lynne made a point and said, perhaps your “pink” pig was the Blood Full Moon, which appears red or pink, and the white and black spots he had was the Eclipse.

🙂

According to Avia Venefica on pig symbolism:

“Symbolic meaning of pigs varies according to region & culture.

In earlier cultures such as ancient Egyptian the pig (sow, specifically) was considered a Great Mother and were symbols of fertility and abundance.  Here the pig was sacred to Isis, who embodied fertility.

To the ancient Celts, the (sow) pig was also honored as a mother provider figure.  Celtic lore tells of Manannan, who owned a heard of pigs that never dwindled – they were forever replenishing and regenerating their numbers. The herd never diminished, and there is a legend they even healed themselves too. This might be why an Irish icon of a pig isn’t lucky unless it’s missing a bit (like an ear or a leg) – perhaps harkening back to Manannan’s self-generating pig herd. As such, in Celtic symbolism pigs remained icons of abundance. 

Also in ancient Celtic beliefs, the pig was associated with Ceridwen (or Keridwin) and Phaea who were both fertility moon goddesses.

The pig was also a symbol of virility, strength, and ferility in ancient Chinese cultures.   The boar is even among the animals in the Chinese zodiac where it is considered a symbol of sincerity, honesty, and determination. Chinese lore indicates a pig brings good luck for businesses.

In Hindu symbolism,  the pig is linked to Vajravarahi, the female consort of Vishnu.

The Greeks would sacrifice pigs to deities who pertained to farming and agriculture (Demeter, Ares, Gaia) this was to bring about bumper crops and insure favorable growing seasons.

Native American cultures (plains tribes) associated the pig as a harbinger of rains and as such, the symbolic meaning of pigs here is also linked to abundance, fertility and agriculture.

On the other hand, the pig is a symbol of ignorance in Buddhism.  Indeed, a black pig is illustrated on the Buddhist wheel of existence where it represents one of the three illusions of man in the Buddhist philosophy:

  • illusions of thought & desires
  • illusions innumerable as particles of dust and sand
  • illusions about the true nature of life

All of these are said to prevent man from attaining Nirvana in the Buddhist tradition.

The pig is a symbol of sloth (laziness) and/or greed in ancient Christian symbolism.

Jewish, Moslums and Islamic cultures view the pig as unclean and they are forbidden to eat pork.

In dream symbolism the domestic pig indicates fertility.”

Quite interesting, huh?!

Maybe I was summoned for the event, maybe I was receiving a connecting message from Lynne, maybe the pig was a symbol for me currently in my life in relation to some or all of what Avia shares above – as the pig also has direct Moon connections, or maybe I do really just love pigs – because I DO!! SO MUCH!! And wouldn’t be surprised if one, one day found its way into my life. 😉

Nonetheless, it was sweet to connect with Lynne during this potent and sacred time and I had a chance to check in on my Crystal friends basking in the energy of the Moon out in the garden, as well as feel the glow of the Moon on my face and take it in, in full embodiment – just as we’d done in Peru with the Sun and on the Equinox New Moon Lunar Eclipse a couple of weeks ago.

Feeling a full circle experience integrating and curious to see what’s flowing in next.

Full Moon & the Mayan Moon Goddess – Opening Your Heart Even Wider


On this magickal Sagitarrius Full Moon Lunar Eclipse, I wanted to honor the energies abound. So much is available for the embracing. Don’t forget to review your life – discard, release, and then with abundant love and creative inspiration, dream the new into being. A time for wondrous reflection and illumination. If you thought your heart was open enough, it’s time to open it even more! They say we don’t utilize the full capacity of our brains, but the same holds true for our hearts. Let us not forget this healing jewel we each have access to. At any moment we can choose greater, more compassionate, present, limitless love. And this full moon with its abundant Sagitarrian energy, supports this beautifully.

This eclipse is an opportunity to examine your belief systems (Sagittarius) and keep an open mind to new ideas (Gemini – the sign we’re in this month) that will help you to create new structures (Saturn) for the change and transformation that is to come  (Uranus/Pluto).  Yet your heart must remain open, because the work of the soul (Chiron/Neptune) is not yet complete. So enter into the journey of this eclipse free from fear and with a spirit  of adventure and curiosity and you will be on your way.

I am reminded of the Mayan Moon Goddess, Ix Chel, (synchronously that I have tattooed over my heart chakra on my back due to my Mayan, moon and rabbit connection, amongst other things, and in honor of the partnership with my dear departed bunny, Nestor) as I bask in this abundant, opportunistic energy and all that she embodies. Having Moon in Sagitarrius and being born on a full moon definitely makes today feel extra special for me personally, but collectively it is such a potent time of anchoring in what you desire.

Today, as I focus on a synergy of personal and collective healing and envisioning, creative painting, designing and Reiki, along with some other intentful manifesting, I feel my heart set aglow with her loveliness. Remember to dream bigger than ever before with intent for the highest good.

For those of you not familiar with Ix Chel, here is a description for you.

Ix Chel: The Mayan Moon Goddess or “Lady of the Rainbow.” The Mayans, like Buddhists, associated the moon with rabbits. Ix Chel is a shape-shifter, consorting with the rabbit in
spring, as the rabbit is considered the scribe of the moon calendar. She is often depicted holding a rabbit in her arms, a symbol of her life giving abundance and fertility, whose profile can be seen on the face of the moon. She is the Mayan Goddess of creativity (as inspiration for artists), magic, weaving, health, healing, sexuality, childbirth, and the
energy of all water-our most essential life giving ingredient. The Mayan stepped pyramid is Ix Chel’s mountain where she reigns as the feathered serpent energy of transformation.

Ix Chel Statue Depiction

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