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A Shifting Trip & Full Circle Updates


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As we’ve settled back in this week after our time on the Pacific Ocean, I’ve felt another shift of energy grounding subtly, but profoundly in. I just realized today that it was four years ago at this time in August that we were exploring Alaska for nearly 2 weeks and that seems fitting since it was upon returning from that journey that I knew a big life shift had to happen, and now another is organically kicking in that will change everything once again.

We just returned from 10 days away along central and southern California’s coastline, and while it was a very nurturing trip, we could sense its full circle energy, as well as its helping to reflect and integrate the new upcoming.

Like when we returned from Alaska, I knew Orange County was no longer our home and in revisiting there at the end of this trip, we no longer felt any heart ties to even the few places we had once loved and helped us while we were there. We felt a strong closure and it also offered us time to explore, in thought and imagination, the new opportunities and possibilities we’re feeling into and that are presenting themselves.

We always loved Crystal Cove, and while it still is a magickal place, it offered us a chance to seed intentions, as it had in the past, but this time as a portal door only.

We did enjoy seeing some of our dearest friends while visiting and of course, having some vegan food indulgences at some of our fav restaurants just around the corner from our then house.

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Yet, like the weddings that both started and ended this trip, there was a solidification of commitment to another level of experience, life, and relationship to ourselves and each other that seemed to get kicked up a few notches. We found ourselves dreaming bigger and feeling into new choices.

On our first full day back we went to the beach here and both felt a much stronger resonance to our Lake Tahoe waters and the peace and energies most resonant to our new lives, to be flowing through this mountain air.

Interestingly, while we were away, the smoke in the Tahoe Basin from the immense fires in California was sadly the worst it had been. It started clearing a few days before our heading home and is hugely better now than it was. If not for an upcoming Reiki workshop I’m teaching this weekend, we had actually considered gathering up the fur babies upon return, and heading out somewhere else again until the smoke cleared. Something about that and its timing is meaningful. And even while we were at our favorite Crystal Cove, the nearby fire had created an ominous sky of smoke that merged an interesting portal of two worlds.

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The energies shifted along the journey as well, where we were relishing in the relaxation and all of the Faery beauty and ocean magick, but nearing the last few days we were already ready to go home.

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Yet, there was much natural beauty and enchantment experienced that immersed us in Faery and vegetable garden delights, took us wandering along gorgeous coastlines, connecting with so many ocean creatures and cetaceans, discovering moonstones, tons of feathers from the amazing pelicans, seagulls, and hawks, and other sparkly quartz sea delights to create portal connections without needing to be physically there, and lots of yummy vegan food that included a very special, pampered evening with a friend who shared her new vegan cheese line with me, a gathering with friends, and some sweet time with Dave’s dad and stepmom.

It was no coincidence there were so many portals, abundance of blossoms, plants, and animals, water and faery energy, fountains, and even a wishing well….all perfect to activate new seeds of intention and reflect the promise of new.

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And all of the ocean time coincided with a book I was reviewing for another author, set in Atlantis, that awakened more seed memories. I just sent in my endorsement review for the novel yesterday, which seemed to be a potent day for not just myself and Dave, but others, with things clicking in and setting the tone for another new cycle.

My Take-Away From the Last 10 Days:

Indeed there’s yet again another shift taking root, but each one is so mutable these days that it’s never about reaching any finalized stage or end result, yet truly about being most flexible and open to your highest joy and potential at every corner.

With Mercury Retrograde ending on the 18th, this all feels timely with the reflections, curiosity, explorations, solidifying – and for some – the intensity, around this time period, but also points to some leaps into new immersions just around the corner.

I feel another life-changing time period is kicking in for Dave and I, both individually and together. In many ways it does remind me a bit of the time period right before the Magick Bus adventure living in the RV for a year and a half traveling about. This took place after the impending changes following Alaska and the seeded intentions that were inspired. And while different energetically, there is a similar whole-new-start-vibe and more choices for how it all unfolds.

This Fall and Winter feels to involve a lot of focus, commitment, and work to solidify that change and catapulting to come in 2019. A lot is happening all at once and I feel that like the last couple of years, we will look back a year or two from now and be amazed at what was accomplished.

In many ways our trip was both surreal and like being in another world, as a bubble of magick always enveloped us, but while grateful for what it offered, we are happy to be home and so is a certain bunny, named Astrid, very happy about that too.

My Evolving Relationship with Astrid:

I had two dreams about her while we were away, so we were in contact, and since returning, our relationship has also kicked up several notches. We are the closest we’ve ever been, she’s been super attached to me, wanting to snuggle and immerse in loving connection, and even wanted me to hold her when I came home. She’s excited about the next level of work she and I will be doing, as in just two days I will be receiving back my manuscript from my editor – EEK!! – and the next challenging, but exciting step will kick in, as I review feedback and get cracking on the new plan in order with revision work.

But being back with Astrid has been very special and I’m loving our deepened connection and her continued softening into the love that she is. Our communication is impeccable and we are SO in tune!

She’s been extra excited running around in the morning and evenings, and watching me through the door, as I took care of my Garden Tower and plants and flowers outside. She’s actually been pawing at the window while watching me and anxious for the green yummies I just harvested for her yesterday.

Garden Tower Updates:

My small garden is doing so beautifully and is abundantly producing. I even have my very first two pumpkins ever (called Wee B Little pumpkins) starting to grow, which excites me greatly, along with another four tomatoes on the Charlie Brown Christmas tree-like tomato plants I saved, and nine Ring of Fire sunflowers all coming in – I smell Autumn just around the corner!

We and Astrid have enjoyed so many harvests and yesterday’s was no exception, as I filled a gigantic heaping bowl with every variety of herbs and greens and still there is tons on the Tower remaining. I gave everything a good pruning and watering and we have happy plants! Since the strawberries and lettuces are done, I no longer have to net the tower or any of the plants, as the forest critters are not interested and being entertained and indulged with other yummies.

And speaking of Garden Tower, my original one that used to be at our Orange County home, just found a new loving home with my dear friend and vegan cheese connoisseur/creator and her husband. The friend I mentioned who pampered me with this:

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I couldn’t be happier! I can’t wait to see the Garden Tower flourish at their beautiful home, which is like a little Italian villa.

Somehow that feels full circle too, that my original one I loved so much and was one of the joys that kept me going while living there, has come into the right hands – the last thing I had a tie with in OC that always was in the back of my mind, is now put to peaceful rest and will assist my friend in the blossoming of her new business and intentions, as the metaphor for her experiences created in the garden of life.

Writing & Workshop Updates:

As mentioned, I’ll be receiving my manuscript back in two days, but since I’m teaching on Saturday and will need time to digest all that I hear back, I’ll likely not be starting back on revision work and the next stage until sometime next week. That said, it WILL be my main and only focus outside of life and shared ventures with Dave. Likely even more so now, as every step gets increasingly demanding and challenging. So, while I will continue to blog now and then, as inspired, it will still remain on the less side and not like my once daily shares.

As always, you can catch more inspiring and fun, quick updates on my Instagram page though, which has included the photos you see here in this blog, plus many more!

The day before I left, I received some new bunny additions to my Wonderland office and upon returning I had two new dragons awaiting me. These all anchoring in new energy to inspire my writing again, along with some small shifts in redecorating I often do here and there. Astrid also has a very special birthday gift arriving tomorrow – all just in time for beginning the book adventures next week.

I do feel rested and rejuvenated from our little vacation and the last month off from writing while its been with my editor, so I’m ready to dive back into writing with my wise partner, Astrid, and the rest of my spirit guides.

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This Saturday ends my Reiki teaching days, as I put closure to that with the last Reiki 3 Master Teacher workshop held here. It will be a lovely day, as one of my first students joins to finally get her last level in, while another lovely soul comes to both review and cultivate her teaching skills, helping out as she feels so moved. I have some ideas percolating for this workshop that will make this a fun ending. I know a few people were sad not to be able to join this and the last Reiki 1 & 2 workshop, but I do firmly believe that all things flow in alignment and there is a beautiful reason yet unseen that will reveal itself in perfect ways.

And lastly, today marks exactly 1 month remaining to register for the upcoming Fall Equinox “Living a More Magickal Life” with Laura Bruno and myself.

The last day to register is September 15th – synchronously that’s also Astrid’s birthday. 🙂

To reiterate, this is the first and last time she and I will be teaching together and this event will end and celebrate my own closure with teaching in this format at this point in my life. So, it will be a special event with inspired topics that will assist all joining with how to move into that new with wings! We continue to tune in and be open to what wants to come through for this, but as with all gatherings of this kind, not only do surprises always show up, but the effects of what takes place on the seemingly subtle planes will continue to unfold long after the day in potent ways. So keep those keen senses about you, as magick increases before your eyes.

There are still a couple spots remaining. If you feel called to join, you may register here:

Living a More Magickal Life

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Keep believing and may all possibilities be open to you!

Happy Anniversary Astrid! ~ One Year Summer Solstice Gateway


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My first connection with Astrid on 6/20/17 wearing my magickal Peter Rabbit dress

You may recall that it was one year ago, today, that magickal Astrid chose me and I embraced her vision of a different level of experience than what I thought at the time. She had the foresight of something bigger and more challenging for me and she was right, as since she came into my life things have transformed rather quickly and continue to reveal surprises with every new experience I open to. Most of it has been laying new foundations for what’s to come, but in saying “yes” to her, to the journey, and ultimately, to me, a domino effect is in motion.

Last year Summer Solstice was on the 20th – this year the 21st – which holds both Astrid and Joy in the magick of this incredible portal that has become very significant for me and a favorite life-changing gateway.

My sweet angel bunny, Joy, transitioned on June 21st two years ago, which was under a Full Moon Solstice energy. And Astrid stepped in on Summer Solstice, one year ago. The full story of Astrid’s journey to me was chronicled in this blog post: Divine Surprises ~ Following the White Rabbit Blew Zephyr In & Cosmically Aligned Astrid

So much has changed since her arrival into my life and part of that has ignited the true magickal child within me, as I’ve set up her and my Wonderland Room to fully nurture our essence and activate our heart’s imagination and vision in bigger ways.

Although I started my book before she came, it is with her at my side that everything came pouring through rapidly and took on a more expansive embodiment. She challenged me to go further, to not accept less than my highest with it, and provided a channel and doorway to access more to bring onto the pages. I find it beautiful that I will be completing this second phase of the book by month’s end or sooner, aligning with the Solstice gateway energy. The first phase was writing the full story, the second was my editing and reworking of it, and third will take it out of my hands to an official editor. There are many parts to the process, but I’m committed to going through each in the fullest of ways possible, without rushing any part of it.

This last year also saw a lot of expansion for Dave and I, as we moved into our new Forest Portal home and rapidly put together our shared business almost overnight. With Astrid came anchoring of visions and setting foundations for growth and opportunity. She reminds me to take each day fully and not get caught up in details, nor try to bend the outcome, as they will come together with each step taken.

There’s a level of presence, purity, courage, and commanding recognition of self that one must meet Astrid with and this can only be if one is consistently doing so in their life in totality. And hence, she has me stepping up my game, so to speak.

And in this year, huge transformations for Astrid have also taken place with the softening of her defensiveness and aggression that had built up from a past of not being seen for who she is and not being treated with the value she deserved. The barriers to her heart have been melting away, as my own have expanded further with her. She’s revealed her magick with much more to come! And, she’s met my own child heart in innocent exuberance, as we play together everyday.

She is so engaging and loves to run, hop, and twist in the air with delight, shake her head and ears, as I say her name with playful energy, and teases me to come chase her. We have a little play ritual where she waits for me each night in the same place and we first snuggle, then I tap her bunny buns and she takes off jumping (or rather springing in the air) and racing, waiting for me to catch up and then takes off this way and that, each time looking for me to keep following like a game of tag. Once she tires she throws herself between the cushions on the floor and that’s the sign it’s time to snuggle again and so we do. I can’t tell you how fun it is and I just laugh out loud the whole way – another lesson of balancing work and play and to have fun while enjoying life fully.

We have many fun rituals and also sweet ones…all of which I cherish. She is extremely wise and intelligent, knows her name and if I call her she will come. She has her ways of communicating to me when she wants things and anything I tell her, she fully understands.

And although she’s super independent, she has no problem with me picking her up and holding her, which I only do if necessary, as truly I like to honor her freedom and encourage our equality.

I’m excited for the mysterious unknown that will continue to unfold, but in the meantime I’m happy for what is.

So, today, I just want to acknowledge this incredible star child who has honored me with her partnership. I don’t know where the journey is headed, but I know we will have fun the whole way, while we expand into more of who we really are.

Astrid’s Making Waves


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This is just a fun update on Astrid’s queenly and cosmic reign extending out beyond our Faery Realm and Forest Portal here. We’ve been touched to hear of her showing up in people’s meditations and dreams, providing support and inspiration through the social media shares I’ve posted of her, her energy, and her messages, and even showing up in essence through rabbit sightings at divine timings that helped people with confirming decisions. And today, we found out that photos of her with her castle have made waves for our favorite rabbit and small creature supplier, Small Pet Select, as she was chosen for their Top Fifteen Cuties (it used to be Top Ten, but they just changed it with today’s Saturday Newsletter, as they wanted to include a lot of the sweet Guinea Pigs they have a backlog of.

Astrid was featured in their newsletter along with 14 other cuties that hit publication this morning. They don’t share in any particular order, but I found it interesting she was #6 and today they switched to the Top 15, which also equals a 6 – the number of harmony, balance, soulful integration, hearth and home, perfect union, communication, sincerity, unconditional love, nurturing, healing, truth, enlightenment, humanitarianism, reliability, compassion, empathy, and Mother Earth’s energy.

Here is the link: Top 15 Cuties: June 9th

Their caption compares her to Princess Rapunzel who has long, magickal, golden hair and an ethereal voice. 🙂

Astrid being a part of this was a surprise. I always review their products because I love and believe in them so much and on the last review about the castle I sent in photos, which I normally don’t, when the review prompt asked if I wanted to upload any.

I later received an email from my favorite employee there, saying that they loved her photos and that I should send them to their Top Cuties email. I did, and that’s how she got in the newsletter.

The people that work at Small Pet Select are by far some of the best I’ve ever communicated with in terms of customer service, friendliness, and feeling like family. I’ve gotten to know a couple of them, but one in particular who I correspond with now and then.

A couple of days ago I received emails saying:

“OMB (Oh My Bunny) she is just stunning and we sure do appreciate her showcasing her love for our products.  Please look for her this Sat.”

And later:

“I forwarded all the pix you sent to Wolf, our Brand Manager so you just might see her pop up in other places.  We usually don’t get such great photos of our customers using our products.”

This morning the newsletter hit and then I received an email asking if I’d seen that Astrid and her castle photos had been featured on their social media platforms separately from the newsletter. I checked it out and indeed several more photos were featured and receiving lots of likes, comments, and shares – more than their usual – and so it seems Astrid is helping other rabbits and small animals to receive the royal treatment too.

I even got some compliments about my painting hanging above her castle and someone saying they wanted it. 😉

Anyway, I thought it was a fun and reflective mirror of her energy getting out there more and more and I’m just so proud of her stepping up and out and willing to be seen. Like Cosmo and his ad campaign, she has a more public role I feel that will continue to reveal itself.

She’s not only doing a lot of work here at the Forest Portal with all of the little animals – more on that upcoming – but she’s spreading her reach through the portal too.

She’s definitely grown exponentially since arriving here and this is yet another celebration for her one year anniversary coming up with Summer Solstice around the corner.

I’m a proud momma!

Forest Portal Magick ~ Astrid & the Animals


When Astrid first came home to us, nearly a year ago now on Summer Solstice, we were living in the treehouse up above the lake. She loved the views of the forest, lake, and having the Moon shine in on her from the wide open Cosmos, as well as seeing the squirrels and chipmunks climb up to our deck, with bear and deer visiting down below. However, now that we live on the forest and her viewing windows bring her face-to-face with the animals, she has truly shown herself to be quite the guardian of the little ones here, drawing in all creatures to our Wonderland realm on the Forest Portal.

I have seen every variety of bird come visit, including Robin, Steller’s Jay, Chickadee, Woodpeckers, and more. Some of which I’ve been able to capture photos of when Astrid is lying on her bed and they are just outside the door or on the tree in front of our room. Here you can see her with a black and white Woodpecker sitting on the tree trunk and a Robin sitting on the tree stump.

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Also tons of squirrels and chipmunks love checking in on her. But it wasn’t until several weeks ago that that I finally saw our resident Mountain Cottontail bunnies. I knew they were here, as I’d seen their footprints in the snow during Winter, but now they have become a daily visit we get to enjoy in the physical.

I learned that we have a momma bunny and one baby bunny.

This is momma.

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She is quite the wise one, reminding me of Nestor and Astrid, but with that nurturing of Joy and her little one reminds me of Cosmo…he’s just a bouncy little bundle of love and purity.

This is baby.

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It was sad to me to know it was only the two of them, as that means her other babies did not make it. She watches over him with great care and has taught him to hide in the bushes outside my office, which I also believe houses their home.

I have recently only seen him, however, which makes me sad. I am hoping she is still around, but I haven’t seen her since right before I planted the Foxgloves, Delphiniums, and Salvias. I did manage to get one photo of Astrid and the momma at around that same time, which you can see here.

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If you look right between the tree stump and the tree trunk you can see momma sitting. I am wondering now if perhaps she was asking Astrid to watch over her baby, knowing she may not be around much longer. The last time I saw momma I noticed her looking a bit scruffy around one eye, so she definitely was getting into things more.

And now it has been a regular sighting of baby bunny, playing, eating, and connecting with me and Astrid. There is chance we are now his surrogate family, so I am extra mindful of him and sending him lots of love and protection.

He is very trusting of me and will let me go outside and talk to him, as he sits and listens. And like the other animals of the forest, he is very curious about Astrid.

Yesterday was an incredible day that had my heart pounding with love and all a-flutter, as if butterflies were swelling inside.

It started with what was at that time, the absolute cutest thing that involved a big squirrel that ran over to the deck off my office and crept to the left of the sliding glass door, then got up on hind legs, leaned against the glass with hands and fingers open, and peered in looking for Astrid. It was right after she’d left her spot. It was too adorable! 

The rest of the day, the usual sightings of animals continued and then baby bunny started making his appearance.

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I’ve caught him some mornings eating the grass alongside a Robin, and jumping and running back and forth with joy, as if inviting Robin to play with him. And this day he was again eating the grass, exploring out front, by going under the gate (we have lots for him to eat there too including wild strawberry plants), and coming back to safety in our side yard. He then sat atop the tree trunk pedestals next to the flowers and continued his exploring.

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He likes to eye my very lush garden tower and has given it the bunny approval.

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I know he’d love at it, but it is critter proof now and likely for the best, as I wouldn’t want him relying on it, since he needs to learn the ways of the wild.

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And then, in the late afternoon/early evening I turned from my book I was working on at my desk and caught baby right up against the sliding door glass while Astrid lay on her bed – both a foot a part and only separated by the glass and screen door.

I only caught this one photo of them together, where you can see the top of the bunny and his ears, as not long after Astrid got up, which allowed me to connect with little one.

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You can see how he peered inside looking for Astrid and not afraid that I was now only a foot or less away behind the glass. I couldn’t get enough of him moving about, chewing on the welcome mat, and stretching out his little body with legs and butt extended, as he continued to hang out and peer inside.

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I am in love!

It’s incredible to see how much the little animals are drawn to Astrid and our Wonderland realm. They are very curious and quite aware of the Rabbit Queen who resides here and is spreading her wisdom and love. Astrid communicates so much with all of them and it seems interesting that her ear healing has come up when things have amped up the most the last week or two. Listening within and communicating from the heart is something available regardless of physical challenges. And Astrid has alerted me with this of my need to continue to do so about what my heart is telling me.

Perhaps even, the animals are all coming to assist her.

There is so much magick happening here daily at the Forest Portal and it’s only increasing. I found it interesting that the day baby bunny connected most was after my having a dream of a rabbit the night before. And no coincidence that the first time I saw him and momma was on Cosmo’s birthday.

In the dream there was a blueish gray bunny, similar to Nestor, but a male, whose name was Blueberry and we were thinking about adopting him. In that dream I also found a very large feather that appeared to be from an Eagle’s wing. Hmmm!

Then baby comes knocking at the door, sitting atop our “Welcome” mat while I’m writing and Astrid is connecting. Interestingly, I shared these photos on Instagram yesterday and the second I published them, the clock turned 5:55 pm – my magickal sign connected to my twin soul rabbit, Nestor.

For now it seems the bunny we’re adopting is him and I’m happy to see that our portal has felt to be a welcoming invitation to join our family. Who knows what is yet to come!

Going Into the Beyond


 

The last few days I’ve noticed energy shifting more with depth of reflection at the forefront, more anchoring in a flowing yet solid way, increased nature time than there already is, and more reviewing and clarifying. It has seemed like pauses or steps back, but in actuality are energetically catapulting. And during all of this it is not surprising to me that I would find both Astrid and myself feeling and emanating most ourselves and feeling freest to be who we really are. Our bond means the world to me and this book I find most of my work focuses on, to pull deeply at petals around my heart, asking it to open further despite feeling sometimes at a loss as to how.

Then the reminders and beautiful nudges come through that assure me I do know and when tears fall, it means I’m there.

They are tears of expansion and sweet remembrance of my song. A song we each have within, but forgot.

In the last several days I’ve needed to focus on a shared business I have with Dave and with his being away for work, it had me connecting even more with the forest land here we reside upon as guests to Nature’s kingdom. I even received some wonderful gifts in the mail – they always arrive in perfect timing.

It also had me digging deeper and imagining more possibilities than creatively have been explored. And when I found myself hitting an illusory ending with no way in sight to do what I feel in my heart can be done with the chapters at hand, I instead focused elsewhere and allowed those seeds to settle some more and watered them literally in my garden metaphor for the life I’m creating, just outside my sliding glass door. And I soaked in vitality from the Sun’s rays. And I nurtured myself with good food and good movies.

And the sign came, nearly knocking me over, that it isn’t all a figment of my imagination and IS in alignment.

So, I keep listening for my song to reveal the next notes and am learning that improvisation will inspire imagination into knowing.

Get out of your own way, out of the noise, out of the comfort zones, out of your head alone, and consult your heart.

It’s time to venture into the beyond and go where you’ve never gone before – blaze new trails into the unknown.

When you think there’s no other way, Astrid assures there is always an angle you haven’t yet explored.

Well We’re Movin’ On Up ~ Astrid’s Deluxe Castle In The Sky


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Astrid is celebrating this special 5/5 day in Queenly extravaganza, joining in on the energies of this day with her own shifts into the next phase of her evolution. This day has special meaning to me not only because 5 is my favorite and most magickal number that when it shows up in repetition heralds big things for me, but because it is a cherished day of reverence to my dear ones. Today would have been my Russian Tortoise, Gaia’s 15th Earth birthday and on this day, 10 years ago, my beloved rabbit’s (Nestor) ashes were brought home to me.

Today’s also the last day to pre-register with a discount for the upcoming Reiki 1 & 2 workshop on June 23rd – the last I’ll be teaching. You can still register, however, until June 9th.

There’s definitely a lot of shifts taking place collectively and the energy of this day marks, to me, a big transitional opportunity for renewal. I love that as I write that, Astrid is grinding her teeth as she processes and moves the energy through with doing so.

But back to celebrations of big leaps. Astrid has graduated from her romper room playland to a full-on Queen’s kingdom here in Wonderland!

You’ll remember this was what she started with.

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How did this evolve?

Well, she’s been growing leaps and bounds, or rather, revealing herself in huge ways because of finally having a safe, loving, and supportive home. If you follow along on Instagram or Facebook, you’ve likely seen her incredibly shifting fur exposing amazing images and symbolism, as well as her wisdom through the messages she imparts, and the joy in the videos of her that I share.

Recently, she has been asking for changes in her romper room, throwing out all of her hay and litter on the floor – which can be a very normal thing for bunnies who like to dig and play and create a natural habitat, but Astrid was wanting something more. I always listen to see if there is further meaning beyond simple and normal behavioral things. In the meantime, I had made adjustments that supported things until something permanent could take place. She also had chewed several holes in the playroom, so I knew it was only a matter of time before I either replaced it with another (I have one on hand in case) OR replaced it altogether.

The latter happened just yesterday in the late afternoon when her new, more supportive home arrived – a mega castle!

It all just came together in divine timing, as my favorite company, Small Pet Select, just put out new wood creations by their resident elf creator and they were exactly in response to Astrid’s new wants and needs and her growth, as well as my putting out there an intention to create something perfect for the new her. Love that instant manifestation!

I have several habitat things from this company, as well as a couple of other bunny companies, but I get all of her nutritional and daily needs from Small Pet Select, and have come to love their wood creations that are of such high quality and continually rising to the needs of our little ones. I love this company! They have the best customer service, friendliest people who I feel I know personally, fast shipping to keep things fresh, a great rewards program, awesome quality products, and Astrid loves everything from them. Anytime I have a question, the response time to receive help is immediate. I can’t say enough about them. They also support cruelty free shopping, rescues and shelters, and now have created the perfect castle habitat for Astrid.

It took me a little while to figure out the configuration of the set up for her, as I always have to think ahead to what will be most supportive, work in the space most effectively, and take precautionary steps for any unseens. And while doing so, Astrid was very curious and explorative. I always tell her about everything going on, with each step, and with assurance, as rabbits are creatures of habit so to change things can potentially be a bit scary. I also always want her to know that none of it means she’s going anywhere and that she’s safe and has a forever home.

Animals understand everything and they are just like us, with triggers that can bring up stuff. So you do want to explain to them what’s going on and give them every reason to know they are going to be fine, they’re safe, loved, and you will be with them every step of the way.

She did immediately start checking things out and licking every part of her new castle to make it hers. I explained how this wouldn’t be any different than the staircase she tackled so courageously and successfully here, and to get up and down would be a piece of cake compared to that.

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The new set up has 3 stories and I placed her castle tunnel as a stepping piece for her to get up to the very top – this she already had, but in a different place. She tested things out, but was afraid to jump down into her litter box at first, although made it to the top floor where her hay is housed, quite rapidly.

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I love this set up that was so well-thought out, as her hay can be housed without mess in this mess-free hay feeder, and her litter box that is on the bottom provides not only a private area to do her thing, but also supports her digging instincts and feeling of being in an underground tunnel to a rabbit warren.

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Not to mention, keeps everything from being thrown out. Win-win! As no mess for mom and still everything is supportive to her. I add some hay in her little box as well as at top, and she also has a different kind of hay on her other castle across the room, so this provides variety and foraging fun, while she gets tons of exercise going in and out of tunnels, small spaces, hops up and down, more areas to lay and oversee her realm, and secret places to be in rabbit holes and tunnels too.

It all also happened to create even more space for mom in the room, as the romper room was larger and I now have a clear path to exit the sliding door without stepping over her things.

I shifted a lot around and in the end she ends up with quite a realm in Wonderland that outdoes the Queen of Hearts for sure!

She now has her Cosmic Castle (as I’ve named it) that sits under my 5th painting in my series, Universal ARKitecture titled Once in a Blue Moon that showcases Nestor and Joy (eventually to have Cosmo too).

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So when she ascends up the castle it’s like she’s entering the Cosmos. It’s so cute to watch her stand upright and look at the painting just under Nestor and Joy, in recognition and as a way for her to reach for the stars and be one, as she is. This satisfies her Cosmic self.

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Then, across the room she still has her other little castle, which I now call her Old World Castle that sits in the Old Country – a Faery realm resided over by a magick dragon, as you can see here. This satisfies her other world, Faery self.

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And next to the sliding glass door she has her Carrot Cottage overlooking the Forest Portal, where she can connect with all of the critters that pass by, can sit and lay in her bed and watch the Moon and stars at night or dream away, and take in some sunshine by day.

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There is a second bed to the left next to my desk where she can also take naps and channel to mom while she’s working. This satisfies her Earthly self, but truly merges all aspects together.

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I’d say she’s got herself an incredible realm with so many beings as part of her kingdom to play with.

Not to mention, our exercise room is next to Wonderland, where she loves to run and play with me, enjoys hanging out with Buddha in the meditation cushions, and enjoys chewing on mom’s wood easel, which I encourage, as that’s a great thing for her to chew rather than other things, and infuses energy into it for when I use it. I think she smells the bunnies on it who were with mom before.

I figured she would come to love everything, even if at first it was a lot to take in and process, and that it might take time for her to jump into the litter box, but it was only a couple of hours before she got it!

Again, you can communicate with your animals and they WILL understand. I spent time telling her all about her new castle, how much mom loves her and why I got it for her, and that I knew she could figure it all out because she’s so smart. I helped with that, tuning in with her and sending the exact picture of how to use everything – walking her through it all and showing her how to get into her litter box and where the hay was. And she listened and understood. This all done telepathically. Immediately after, she went off to explore. She still wasn’t sure yet about the litter box and descending, so I got an idea.

I removed the top stories so she could see it in parts, just as I do with my own processes and take things a step at a time when things are too overwhelming or overstimulating like with my fear of heights. I only look right before me. So I did that for her and the second I removed the top stories, she hopped right in and realized this is easy!

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Once she got out, I put the two stories back on and she immediately went right back and what do you know? She jumped right in again and that was it! She’s been using it ever since and realized how much fun it is.

I’ve found her enjoying every part of the new set up and laying on the top of her tunnel, which she never used to, laying inside of it, and going in and out of every little passageway.

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It’s been so fun to watch and I know she’s super happy and grateful, as she’s been nuzzling and snuggling with me and loving all of the encouragement. I’ve even seen her sitting proud on each of her new realms, tall and dignified, full of peace and wisdom, just like the Queen that she is.

This reflects a significant stage for her and for me, and I love how it all happened in celebration of today’s 5/5 energies and my other beloveds. Things are transitioning in big ways for us both and I’m excited to see how it all unfolds.

She’s definitely “moved on up into a deluxe castle in the sky!”

If you remember the Jeffersons you’ll remember the song:

Well we’re movin’ on up
(Movin’ on up)
To the east side
(Come on, movin’ on up)
To a deluxe apartment in the sky
Movin’ on up
(Movin’ on up)
To the east side
(Come on, movin’ on up)
We finally got a piece
Of the pie

Yay Astrid!!

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On the Wings of a Rabbit


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A sign from above or simply coincidence? I’ll leave that up to you. I’ve shared many a photo of Astrid’s shape-shifting fur markings (especially on Instagram), but this is one of my favorites. Today happens to be the 10 year anniversary of my beloved twin soul rabbit, Nestor’s, transition to the stars and Astrid has quite a symbol on her back to celebrate it. Astrid, to me, embodies the energy of the cosmic rabbit collective and much of Nestor, as well as bits of Joy and Cosmo are alive within her. I often almost call her by their names because she embodies a piece of all of them.

Well, these are photos of her latest window into her soul in the form of symbols etched in her fur. You’ll likely see many things and more than I share about, but a few things stand out to me.

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One, they appear like two (angel/faery) wings resting at her back and at her shoulders. Two, the section between the two wings looks like a being itself and when she stretches her back the top marking is a near heart. The stretching also creates more of the wing clarity, but also reveals something else.

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From upside down the lighter design between the two dark wings appears exactly like a rabbit when looking at it from behind – cottontail included!

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Wow indeed! It’s interesting that Astrid has been very meditative lately as well and this morning was so excited she was running laps all over the living room and jumped up on our bed to welcome the morning, which she hasn’t done in a very long time.

She also happened to jump on Dave’ side of the bed right near his face.

Perhaps it was all the celebration, including it being Dave’s 10 year vegan anniversary today, too. Astrid simply wanted to share her love and appreciation!

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I put this little collage together for him today including all of his loves – our fur babies, Lake Tahoe, mountain biking, hiking, and foraging in nature, playing the guitar and ukulele, and of course vegan donuts! It’s him in his essence and this is definitely a day to remember of transitions into essence.

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Astrid has also been enjoying two harvests already from the Garden Tower, which is doing great by the way. So far so good with my implementation of frost night protection when it’s reached those temperatures, and a pen to ensure critters don’t eat it all.

Speaking of critters, another very special – well at least to me – thing happened at the same time of all of this that still has me buzzing. Last evening while I was writing and Astrid was sleeping in her bed next to my desk, something caught the corner of my eye. We have tons of resident chipmunks, squirrels, every variety of bird, a wolf-sized coyote, and more, but I had yet to see a rabbit.

We haven’t seen bear or deer here at our new house yet either, nor the porcupine, beaver, bobcat, mountain lion, skunk, and other animals that live in the area and have been sighted by us or friends other places, but they are around. It’s simply about alignment and if their medicine is important to connect with when they show up.

Well, I believe that this special honoring of Nestor and Astrid’s chiming in, called the bunnies forth and what feels to be a portal has opened. Although we know there are tons of them around, as I see their footprints in the snow, they just aren’t seen hardly at all. I think I’ve only seen them maybe three times since living here, and two of those were with Dawn when she visited.

This might be changing, as yesterday the movement at the corner of my eye was indeed a sweet little bunny. To say I was excited is an understatement, but I stayed calm and didn’t move, as I didn’t want to alarm her.

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She sat just outside my office door and I watched as she was feeling the air for safety. Dogs were barking down the street so she was on alert.

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Then she ran over to the bushes you see in the photo by the tree and the next thing I know, two bunnies emerged! It happened so fast I couldn’t get a photo of both of them, but it was adorable because the first bunny was pushing it ahead with its nose nudging the other’s behind.

The first one felt to be the scout bunny who surveyed for safety. There is a place under the fence where all the little ones have made a trail to come in and out of the side yard. They must have come the same way and the littler one took cover in the bushes, until the other said it was safe. After the nudging, the littler one took off fast and escaped through the fence at the other end.

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But the scout bunny hung back not far from the Garden Tower to make sure things were safe, no one was following her bunny friend, and/or to make sure I got time to connect with her.

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The dogs were barking a lot and she stood absolutely still just feeling things out, but also presenting opportunity for her and I.

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It was so special given I haven’t seen any and now at this important time period, the two of them appear. Given what I was writing, too, it was all more than perfect and wonderful signs from my dear ones.

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Alignment, flow, harmony, magick, portal openings, and support seem to be all around and for that I’m grateful beyond words.

The above photo is from yesterday at my parent’s house where I sat with my meditation frog I gave to my parents, in their zen garden. I got the frog not long after Nestor’s transition and I moved into a new little apartment by myself (when I divorced) above the lake where Joy and Gaia came to be with me. It’s also when/where I met Dave. Full circles all around!

 

Spider Bunny ~ Astrid Weaves Some Creative Magick With Her Friend


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This was too cute and special not to share here. Yesterday’s moments captured were of Astrid communing with her spider friend. She retreated to the exercise room – a favorite getaway for her that is next to our Wonderland room. She was having one of those evenings of quiet time to herself in a meditative zone and then I realized she was communicating with this spider you see to her right. They stayed like this quite a while.

Then she did a big energy stretch, yawn, and release to move and shift the energy all the way down through her toes. It was fascinating to watch. They continued to stay together after that and I left them alone, returning about five minutes later and the spider was gone.

Astrid spent a lot of time meditating in this spot before and after and was also tuning into the plants in the garden tower, as they’re right outside this door. I love when she takes time to herself away from her normal routine, as you know she’s up to something big with her own work.

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There’s indeed a lot of transmutational rebirthing energy spiraling around and Astrid is helping to weave that into form with me. Spiders are abundant and more so downstairs in our realm where we do the underworkings of things. Astrid’s definitely not put off by shadow work.

Anyway, I remembered sharing a post on spider symbolism and when I found it I smiled at the synchronicities of the timing of that blog and the similar experiences then, happening now.

This post: Crossing Path With Tarantula ~ Messages of Timing & New Doorways of Opportunity is from four years ago, mirroring yesterday’s post about the synchronous things happening in my life now that were happening then. And now this little spider reminder had me finding this blog post from that time period as well.

Here are a few excerpts from that post that speak to me on my life and writing focus, but for the full explanation on spider medicine and things that were occurring then, you can visit the blog link above.

…Generally speaking, Spiders are the weavers of experience that desire to share that creativity with others. They are the assertiveness of Creative Force in communication of all forms, seeking to discover and create the reflection of your heart’s hidden desires, and to fulfill your dreams through the wisdom of what you weave…

…Spiders help you to tune into the ancient wisdoms and integrate them into your life, realizing that everything you now do is weaving what will come to be. You are remembering your role as a keeper and writer of your own destiny, and just as the center of the web is always small (representing you), the web is eternally expanding (representing your unlimited, creative potentials). You are limited only by your own view of self…

…Spider also teaches the written alphabet, runes, and symbols so they help with weaving your words, creating deep meaning, and writing with creativity and power that brings others into greater connectivity with your message…

 

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Bundates – Fun Bunny Updates & Stuff


A few sweet updates I thought I’d share to keep up the Astrid Chronicles and document her bunny garden progress. This morning finds us with 52 of the 72 seeds I planted late Saturday afternoon/early evening sprouting away in just under 5 days already. Astrid discovered them yesterday on the floor, as I move them to different spots throughout the day, and tried to get at them, chewing the little revolving plastic window at top of the mini greenhouse. She did manage to get it off, but I stopped her in time and told her to wait until they’re big plants so she can enjoy them more.

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She’s SO smart and knows how to get into anything, including gated off areas we have downstairs so we didn’t have to bunny proof the room. And, she relishes in delight to show me just how smart she is, as each time I come up with a new way to keep her from opening the gate, she finds her way through it. She will actually wait for me to discover her and then springs in the air with glee and as I laugh, she darts around the room and then leaves and dashes part way up the stairs where she stops and waits again. Once I leave the room, she goes back and does it again. She’s discovered it’s a fun game to play with mom.

Needless to say, I decided to just go ahead and bunny proof the room, as the gate bothered me, so now she has full reign of the area and perhaps was her plan all along, as the Queen that she is. 😉

Anyway, it’s been exciting to watch the sprouts literally sprouting before my eyes, as every day more and more appear and even within a couple of hours. Plants are incredible! And I know these will be incredible delicacies for Astrid once they’re big enough to plant in my Garden Tower. Likely some of the outdoor bunnies will enjoy them too. So, I’ll have to think on that. Perhaps provide them their own plants on the lower level of the Tower so that they can have some too and tell them that those are theirs and the rest are for Astrid. We’ll see.

It will be another couple weeks before I get that going, especially since this morning we woke to a couple inches of Spring snow. I was excited yesterday to see that my daffodils already had yellow buds formed, but as you can see they are covered in snow this morning. It will likely melt off by end of today or tomorrow, but sure is pretty!

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Nature is amazing! And that includes her children like Astrid.

She continues to reveal more and more of her magickal self and abilities. I keep noticing how much she reminds me of Nestor too, which feels like another full circle experience for me and very healing and special. Her fur continues to reveal amazing and ever-evolving symbols, just like Nestor’s did too. Currently she’s sporting a half Chakana symbol, as you can see in this photo of her coming out of her second castle tunnel to commune with her Faery friend.

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She really loves her big sleigh bed that sits next to my desk and enjoys the afternoon sun there. I received a beautiful Swarovski crystal octagon prism for my birthday that hangs from my sliding glass door and creates rainbow light from the sun. It just so happens to fall on Astrid now and then too. Or is it that Astrid knows just the precise location, like a grid worker, to be in the line of its light and energy? OR, is something being revealed to me in this alignment? I love how it falls on her ears – telepathy connected.

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She often sleeps in this bed as I write, keeping one eye open with awareness even though she is away in Dreamland. This is the way she reaches my Pisces subconscious. She keeps a stream of telepathic energy flowing between us and channels of communication wide so she can send me thoughts to assist with my writing. We are a team and together our work is more potent than if done alone.

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Just as in life, cocreating and community is where powerful change is. 

She’s such a dear and wise helper and our bond exponentially increases by the day. We are inseparable and we understand each other clearly.

I love our snuggle time and I love our play time. She makes me laugh out loud and my voice fluctuations of her name let her know it’s time to play. She’ll flip her ears, twist her head quick, and take the ready stance when I add a tone of excitement to my voice.

And other times it’s the love voice that beckons her to come to me for a snuggle and kisses.

Then there’s the treat voice that calls her name, as I send her thoughts of goodies she’s about to get, and she comes running.

And of course there’s a more stern “Astrid” voice maybe followed with a “no” if she’s about to do something naughty. This one doesn’t happen that much, as she really is a good and smart bunny.

In general, though, there’s a huge difference from how she was in the start.

I’m happy to share that there is no more charging anytime you approach her. She only does this if she’s under something or in her tunnel and someone tries to put their hand there, which makes sense. Hey! No one wants to be cornered or bothered when they’re trying to be alone.

I try to let people know how she likes to be touched, which is on top of the head and stroking along her back, which also avoids the element of surprise. Often people want to put their hands under her nose and mouth and she doesn’t like that. Rabbits can’t see directly in front of them, so it’s also startling. Every bunny is different, and can have different moments of being okay with things and then not. But she’s doing amazing with no more defensiveness and the only grunts I hear are when I get her her favorite foods and treats, if I’m not doing it fast enough. She sounds like a little piglet grunting in anticipation and delight.

But another huge difference is how she sleeps.

When I first brought her home she would always remain on alert and just sleep in a ball on all fours or lay down stretched out, but not on her side. I wondered when she would get into that relaxed bunny sleep, which indicates feeling safe. Sometimes I’d see her start to fall asleep and almost get there, but then wake herself up when she realized.

And now, we have this.

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She would never have done this in the beginning. Throwing herself on her side and sleeping vulnerably is a huge trust and comfort thing, which makes me so happy. I love when she throws herself at my feet when I’m at my desk and goes to sleep. Those little silver dipped paws and tummy are precious!

She keeps me on my toes too, and makes sure I’m keeping up with my writing. I’ll often find her sitting in my cozy chair in my office – Queens like their thrones! She’ll nudge my feet and ankles and makes sure to wake us in the morning by racing around the master bedroom to rise for her greens feeding time!

Sometimes she’ll hang with the cats – the three of them in a row – as long as everyone remains at least a foot or two apart. Boundaries are a must! She also keeps the cats amused watching her race around the room.

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She keeps a tidy realm here in Wonderland and sees to the happiness of all the beings that dwell here. It’s working, as everyone who walks into the room says things like, “this room makes me so happy,” or “this room makes me smile,” and most share that it inspires them in one way or another or definitely has the inner child vibe. We actually had four kids over recently with their parents and they of course went crazy over my room, which was a great sign of the innocence I’ve managed to reclaim and recreate here. That was a goal for me, to make this my inner child sanctum where all of my dreams could come alive – a world of pure imagination, as Willy Wonka says.

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And that makes Astrid happy too, as she loves her room – spending the majority of her day in it. And the cats pretty much don’t come into it. They try occasionally to eat some of her hay on the top of her castle, but that’s as far as they get. They hardly come downstairs in general. Sweet Pea actually won’t come down unless her dad does. Both of the cats feel it’s safe if dad goes down, and then they follow. It’s pretty hilarious how much Astrid has established herself. And it’s only fair that she should have her own space too, as we know cats think everything belongs to them. 😉

Astrid is doing so good inside and out, and her health is testament to that. Monday I took her to her vet check up. This was the welcome sign for her – I thought it ironic with the cat on it.

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We go to regular vet check ups every 6 months and sometimes 3 months to stay on top of any irregularities that could show up in her teeth. This is a must for bunnies since their teeth not only continually grow, but if not caught in time it can create huge challenges, or even be fatal with complications. I’m so grateful we have such a proactive vet who knows her bunny stuff and is just as sweet as angels come. She’s amazing!

And, so far so good. Astrid has continued getting clean and excellent bills of health. Marcy at SaveABunny had also said she never had issues as long as she was with them either.

We’ve been monitoring one tooth since the beginning but it’s doing well and no changes since the start. Sometimes a small irregularity is simply due to the way they chew so you just need to make sure it’s always maintained by your bunny or else will need maintenance. She’s doing well consistently maintaining it. We’re now keeping an eye on one other tooth where the gum is slightly protruding. She’s has no signs of problems, or issues in any way, and the gum and tooth is healthy, but the vet is staying on top of it to make sure it doesn’t turn into anything.

I love how gentle she is with Astrid and in general, she just has the softest energy about her, but not in any push over kind of way, as she has a strong presence, it’s just a gentle power. This vet has actually seen all of my bunnies (minus my first bunny Twinkie whom I had when I was in my teens) this to include Nestor, Joy, Cosmo, and now Astrid. So that also is pretty special given how much I’ve moved around. And this also makes Astrid number 5 – my fav magickal number.

Astrid did great and we’ll be back in 3 months to see how it’s all shaping up while I continue watching her for any slight changes. That’s simply a daily part of having a bunny…staying on top of knowing every little nuance since they can hide things well.

And that leads me to another Bundate – Bunny Update – from SaveABunny, actually.

You remember the white bunny, Big Sur (who to me is Zephyr) that I didn’t adopt. I mentioned getting a brief update from Marcy, but she had mentioned that she told his new mom to contact me directly. I hadn’t heard anything until yesterday morning and this was the beautiful news:

Hi Tania,

Marcy asked me to reach out to you and let you know that I formally adopted Big Sur. I know you had donated to help much with his care while he was at SaveABunny – thank you. In October we (my partner Ryon, my 10 year old daughter Dyllan and I) wanted to help out so we decided to foster Big Sur (we already had adopted 4 rabbits previously) Well months went by and we just couldn’t fathom the idea of bringing him back. So we totally foster failed. We love him so much words cannot express. He is such a special loving soul and we are so lucky to have him in our lives. Thank you for all your help and love. He found his forever home ❤️

~Lisa

PS – I’m also an adoption coordinator at SaveABunny…I’ve always felt a draw to him since he first arrived.

And here was my reply:

Hi Lisa!! I saw your message first thing this morning and it made me smile so big. I had to wait until I could respond more in fullness to you, but I first wanted to say how VERY grateful I am that you took time to write to me about him. I have wondered so much how he has been doing, as like you had been so drawn to him and felt that love and connection. I was very challenged with my decision as to who to adopt when I did arrive there, but felt in my heart he was telling me to take Deja Vu – who is now Astrid – and that he was going to be fine, needed that time to heal, and everything would end up perfectly. I am SO happy beyond words to know you have him with you and that he is in the perfect home and you are all sharing so much love between you. It confirms what I had felt and it also speaks so much of the bond you both have and why everything turned out as it did. I am so grateful for all of the work you do for SaveABunny, giving so many homes to rabbits in need, and now loving Big Sur so dearly. And you are so welcome for the help with him. It meant a lot to me to be able to do that. I’m so glad you foster failed! 😉 I’m glad to know you are the adoption coordinator…I can’t remember now as it was nearly a year ago I had first contacted about Big Sur, but we may have spoken via email. Marcy and SaveABunny mean a lot to me and Astrid is definitely my perfect partner. I couldn’t love her more and our connection has deepened so much since last June. She’s my second adoption from SaveABunny and likely there will be more at some point. So it’s good to know you! Thank you again! ❤ Love and hugs to you

I love happy endings, don’t you? They lead to great new beginnings!

A Day of Celebration


tania and nestorFifteen years ago, today, back in 2003 Nestor – my twin spirit – returned to me on Earth as a magickal rabbit. She left this Earth realm at the age of 5, which was young for a bunny, but she has always been a Cosmic Navigator when it comes to divine alignments so it in fact was alchemy at work. Today, I also received happy news and confirmations, as well as took another synchronous turn along my book writing journey.

It’s been nearly 10 years since Nestie (her name of endearment) transitioned back, which feels like lifetimes ago now. Oh, how much has changed since then, catapulted because of her, and yet she’s ever-present in my life. I receive some of her signs and messages via the number 5, which holds special meaning for us. And today’s 15 year mark is three times that 5, coinciding with her time confirmations she sends at 5:55.

And today, I also received an update on the white bunny who I almost adopted, but who paved the way for Astrid to be with me instead. His rescue name is Big Sur, but I knew him as Zephyr. His story is in the link I just provided, but I hadn’t been able to get information on him until today, of all days.

His update news is that he just got adopted by his foster, who is one of Save A Bunny’s best volunteers and is doing great! Apparently he sleeps on the bed with his new family’s kid and is “SUPER DUPER LOVED,” as it was expressed to me. This made me so happy and gave me great comfort in knowing “he is in a really great home,” as it was also expressed and that everything was as it was meant to be.

I believe, in a way, he sacrificed himself for the highest good in terms of providing me the message I should take Astrid instead of him, and in the end because I listened even though it was difficult on my heart, we all got our happy endings.

Ultimately, in the condition he was in back then, he wouldn’t have done as good being with me despite the love and care I would have provided because of our living situation in tighter corners at the time where having the cats around him would have stressed him out and still maybe now even would have been too stressful for him. Astrid can hold her own. Plus, at the time he had a nurturing momma bunny caring for him, which seems to have done him good.

I still have a sadness around not having been able to bring both him and Astrid home, but I know it’s all come to full circle peace and perfection.

In the meantime, the connection shared with Astrid has continued to deepen and yet still I feel is just at the tip of the iceberg in terms of where it will go. For a few months I was feeling the potential of another bunny coming in to be her companion, but I received confirmation on that as well. A lot has shifted and in tuning in with her I am getting that she doesn’t want any physical bunny friends at this time (she just nudged me with her nose to my ankle as I wrote that!) Smarty pants!

While I was away for the 11 days in Arizona, we connected and touched in and at one time she showed me two rabbits that are around her. I believe that her bunny friends are in the spirit realm, just as mine are, and that as I’m recognizing things more, she is anchoring into peaceful recognition of her path and purpose within mine. There is a lot for us to do still and she wants us connecting deeply without any other bunnies around, as that changes the dynamic and our work together. We have a very intimate path ahead of us that only she can assist with at this time to get me and her to the next step along the journey. Adding more energy to the mix will dilute that contract.

So, maybe when she’s older she will want a friend, but for now we have stuff to do! I will, of course, maintain open channels of communication with her in the event she shifts with her feelings on that, as I do want her to be happy and fulfilled. When we are both feeling that wholeness we are then able to do our best work. And however that is meant to look and be, is what I support.

Anyway, all of this has really anchored and it’s beautiful with the timing of celebrating Nestor on Earth, to celebrate these two bunnies on this plane of existence too.

I have been having a lot of telling rabbit dreams recently, along with several dreams of Save A Bunny’s founder, Marcy, who is a dear friend. There has been a lot of potent dreams with other animals and people as well that include very specific messages that I don’t know in waking life (to confirm when I do awake) that are streaming through in Pisces dreamland where I receive a majority of my psychic clarity.

Things are definitely getting more and more interesting with each turn.

And the last thing, which I mentioned at the start, is the synchronous turn my book took along its process too. It coincides with Nestor and our fav number 5.

As you may remember, last time I shared an update I had completed my 4th and final round of editing – or at least I thought!

It seems the 5th time is the charm and fulfills the magickal points of the star, mirroring Nestor’s Cosmic essence.

After I finished the 4th editing run, I then was tutored by Dave who helped show me how to officially format my book – I’m SO not techy. That proved very helpful and I was able to get it formatted quite quickly because I had already placed it in a structured mode from the get-go, so I only had to implement the final touches.

We also had a discussion about writing, I reviewed some writing notes and passages I had and that he showed me, and this all prompted a feeling to take another look before handing my book over to the next eyes and ears – an official editor.

However, yesterday, as I was reviewing it, I also was seeing it with new eyes, myself, and felt that before that next huge leap, it needs one more go-around from start to end. This one feeling to be taking things to a whole other level, as I’ve done the most shifts in the latter edits than the beginning. I think I’ve been going through even more changes than I’ve been aware of that, like my courage shown in taking on the Grand Canyon, are now ready to climb to a level I have to go with pushing myself further and accessing an even deeper recess of what is possible with my writing. It’s really something to observe as process within myself.

Writing is no simple task, at least not if you really want to take it to another level. I didn’t push myself with my first self-published book, except to write it and get it out there (which in and of itself was a big deal for me, as I had such an aversion to it), but I also didn’t feel at the time that I needed to, as I had different ideas for it then.

I’m having to unearth new parts of myself now, or perhaps latent ones, and also be willing to take risks and learn a new language so to speak.

I love how things are seen with greater clarity as I put one foot in front of the other! 😉

Thank you Nestor!

And thank you Dave, as after yesterday’s confirmation that I would be once again editing with a renewed version of myself, I was gifted with his reaffirming assessment.

Dave read the first 3 chapters today – making him the first to read any of it.

I’ve always seen him as my best critic because although we share a love and telepathic bond, we definitely lead with a different part of our brains. So, to have him review something is very telling for me. He is also a published author with an outside publisher, so he has insights that are helpful, even if we write completely different genres. He also is quite the poet, however, and is well read, so I value his opinion.

I have been prepared with this journey for the worst criticism, as that is what artists of any kind are subject to and that definitely is true for the writing world. It seems all the work I’ve done on myself has gotten me to the place where I’d be able to throw my work to the wolves so to speak, and not be emotionally affected by it. As in the past, that would have been a tough thing for me to do. This is also why it took me long to embrace blogging, but now I just free-flow write it and don’t have attachment to the material in terms of how it will be received. Good thing, as this book definitely needs to be approached in an unconditionally attached way too.

Anyway, without going into detail, I was pleasantly surprised by the feedback Dave provided and was also pleased with how I felt in waiting for his response, which remained unattached. Yay!

But this also means, off to work I go and likely will be in deeper this time, so I can’t promise when and where I’ll pop up again. As always, I take each day at a time and see where inspiration leads. I just know that I’m fully committed to this process and it is providing quite the evolutionary potentials for me.

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