This was too cute and special not to share here. Yesterday’s moments captured were of Astrid communing with her spider friend. She retreated to the exercise room – a favorite getaway for her that is next to our Wonderland room. She was having one of those evenings of quiet time to herself in a meditative zone and then I realized she was communicating with this spider you see to her right. They stayed like this quite a while.
Then she did a big energy stretch, yawn, and release to move and shift the energy all the way down through her toes. It was fascinating to watch. They continued to stay together after that and I left them alone, returning about five minutes later and the spider was gone.
Astrid spent a lot of time meditating in this spot before and after and was also tuning into the plants in the garden tower, as they’re right outside this door. I love when she takes time to herself away from her normal routine, as you know she’s up to something big with her own work.
There’s indeed a lot of transmutational rebirthing energy spiraling around and Astrid is helping to weave that into form with me. Spiders are abundant and more so downstairs in our realm where we do the underworkings of things. Astrid’s definitely not put off by shadow work.
Anyway, I remembered sharing a post on spider symbolism and when I found it I smiled at the synchronicities of the timing of that blog and the similar experiences then, happening now.
This post: Crossing Path With Tarantula ~ Messages of Timing & New Doorways of Opportunity is from four years ago, mirroring yesterday’s post about the synchronous things happening in my life now that were happening then. And now this little spider reminder had me finding this blog post from that time period as well.
Here are a few excerpts from that post that speak to me on my life and writing focus, but for the full explanation on spider medicine and things that were occurring then, you can visit the blog link above.
…Generally speaking, Spiders are the weavers of experience that desire to share that creativity with others. They are the assertiveness of Creative Force in communication of all forms, seeking to discover and create the reflection of your heart’s hidden desires, and to fulfill your dreams through the wisdom of what you weave…
…Spiders help you to tune into the ancient wisdoms and integrate them into your life, realizing that everything you now do is weaving what will come to be. You are remembering your role as a keeper and writer of your own destiny, and just as the center of the web is always small (representing you), the web is eternally expanding (representing your unlimited, creative potentials). You are limited only by your own view of self…
…Spider also teaches the written alphabet, runes, and symbols so they help with weaving your words, creating deep meaning, and writing with creativity and power that brings others into greater connectivity with your message…
A few sweet updates I thought I’d share to keep up the Astrid Chronicles and document her bunny garden progress. This morning finds us with 52 of the 72 seeds I planted late Saturday afternoon/early evening sprouting away in just under 5 days already. Astrid discovered them yesterday on the floor, as I move them to different spots throughout the day, and tried to get at them, chewing the little revolving plastic window at top of the mini greenhouse. She did manage to get it off, but I stopped her in time and told her to wait until they’re big plants so she can enjoy them more.
She’s SO smart and knows how to get into anything, including gated off areas we have downstairs so we didn’t have to bunny proof the room. And, she relishes in delight to show me just how smart she is, as each time I come up with a new way to keep her from opening the gate, she finds her way through it. She will actually wait for me to discover her and then springs in the air with glee and as I laugh, she darts around the room and then leaves and dashes part way up the stairs where she stops and waits again. Once I leave the room, she goes back and does it again. She’s discovered it’s a fun game to play with mom.
Needless to say, I decided to just go ahead and bunny proof the room, as the gate bothered me, so now she has full reign of the area and perhaps was her plan all along, as the Queen that she is. 😉
Anyway, it’s been exciting to watch the sprouts literally sprouting before my eyes, as every day more and more appear and even within a couple of hours. Plants are incredible! And I know these will be incredible delicacies for Astrid once they’re big enough to plant in my Garden Tower. Likely some of the outdoor bunnies will enjoy them too. So, I’ll have to think on that. Perhaps provide them their own plants on the lower level of the Tower so that they can have some too and tell them that those are theirs and the rest are for Astrid. We’ll see.
It will be another couple weeks before I get that going, especially since this morning we woke to a couple inches of Spring snow. I was excited yesterday to see that my daffodils already had yellow buds formed, but as you can see they are covered in snow this morning. It will likely melt off by end of today or tomorrow, but sure is pretty!
Nature is amazing! And that includes her children like Astrid.
She continues to reveal more and more of her magickal self and abilities. I keep noticing how much she reminds me of Nestor too, which feels like another full circle experience for me and very healing and special. Her fur continues to reveal amazing and ever-evolving symbols, just like Nestor’s did too. Currently she’s sporting a half Chakana symbol, as you can see in this photo of her coming out of her second castle tunnel to commune with her Faery friend.
She really loves her big sleigh bed that sits next to my desk and enjoys the afternoon sun there. I received a beautiful Swarovski crystal octagon prism for my birthday that hangs from my sliding glass door and creates rainbow light from the sun. It just so happens to fall on Astrid now and then too. Or is it that Astrid knows just the precise location, like a grid worker, to be in the line of its light and energy? OR, is something being revealed to me in this alignment? I love how it falls on her ears – telepathy connected.
She often sleeps in this bed as I write, keeping one eye open with awareness even though she is away in Dreamland. This is the way she reaches my Pisces subconscious. She keeps a stream of telepathic energy flowing between us and channels of communication wide so she can send me thoughts to assist with my writing. We are a team and together our work is more potent than if done alone.
Just as in life, cocreating and community is where powerful change is.
She’s such a dear and wise helper and our bond exponentially increases by the day. We are inseparable and we understand each other clearly.
I love our snuggle time and I love our play time. She makes me laugh out loud and my voice fluctuations of her name let her know it’s time to play. She’ll flip her ears, twist her head quick, and take the ready stance when I add a tone of excitement to my voice.
And other times it’s the love voice that beckons her to come to me for a snuggle and kisses.
Then there’s the treat voice that calls her name, as I send her thoughts of goodies she’s about to get, and she comes running.
And of course there’s a more stern “Astrid” voice maybe followed with a “no” if she’s about to do something naughty. This one doesn’t happen that much, as she really is a good and smart bunny.
In general, though, there’s a huge difference from how she was in the start.
I’m happy to share that there is no more charging anytime you approach her. She only does this if she’s under something or in her tunnel and someone tries to put their hand there, which makes sense. Hey! No one wants to be cornered or bothered when they’re trying to be alone.
I try to let people know how she likes to be touched, which is on top of the head and stroking along her back, which also avoids the element of surprise. Often people want to put their hands under her nose and mouth and she doesn’t like that. Rabbits can’t see directly in front of them, so it’s also startling. Every bunny is different, and can have different moments of being okay with things and then not. But she’s doing amazing with no more defensiveness and the only grunts I hear are when I get her her favorite foods and treats, if I’m not doing it fast enough. She sounds like a little piglet grunting in anticipation and delight.
But another huge difference is how she sleeps.
When I first brought her home she would always remain on alert and just sleep in a ball on all fours or lay down stretched out, but not on her side. I wondered when she would get into that relaxed bunny sleep, which indicates feeling safe. Sometimes I’d see her start to fall asleep and almost get there, but then wake herself up when she realized.
And now, we have this.
She would never have done this in the beginning. Throwing herself on her side and sleeping vulnerably is a huge trust and comfort thing, which makes me so happy. I love when she throws herself at my feet when I’m at my desk and goes to sleep. Those little silver dipped paws and tummy are precious!
She keeps me on my toes too, and makes sure I’m keeping up with my writing. I’ll often find her sitting in my cozy chair in my office – Queens like their thrones! She’ll nudge my feet and ankles and makes sure to wake us in the morning by racing around the master bedroom to rise for her greens feeding time!
Sometimes she’ll hang with the cats – the three of them in a row – as long as everyone remains at least a foot or two apart. Boundaries are a must! She also keeps the cats amused watching her race around the room.
She keeps a tidy realm here in Wonderland and sees to the happiness of all the beings that dwell here. It’s working, as everyone who walks into the room says things like, “this room makes me so happy,” or “this room makes me smile,” and most share that it inspires them in one way or another or definitely has the inner child vibe. We actually had four kids over recently with their parents and they of course went crazy over my room, which was a great sign of the innocence I’ve managed to reclaim and recreate here. That was a goal for me, to make this my inner child sanctum where all of my dreams could come alive – a world of pure imagination, as Willy Wonka says.
And that makes Astrid happy too, as she loves her room – spending the majority of her day in it. And the cats pretty much don’t come into it. They try occasionally to eat some of her hay on the top of her castle, but that’s as far as they get. They hardly come downstairs in general. Sweet Pea actually won’t come down unless her dad does. Both of the cats feel it’s safe if dad goes down, and then they follow. It’s pretty hilarious how much Astrid has established herself. And it’s only fair that she should have her own space too, as we know cats think everything belongs to them. 😉
Astrid is doing so good inside and out, and her health is testament to that. Monday I took her to her vet check up. This was the welcome sign for her – I thought it ironic with the cat on it.
We go to regular vet check ups every 6 months and sometimes 3 months to stay on top of any irregularities that could show up in her teeth. This is a must for bunnies since their teeth not only continually grow, but if not caught in time it can create huge challenges, or even be fatal with complications. I’m so grateful we have such a proactive vet who knows her bunny stuff and is just as sweet as angels come. She’s amazing!
And, so far so good. Astrid has continued getting clean and excellent bills of health. Marcy at SaveABunny had also said she never had issues as long as she was with them either.
We’ve been monitoring one tooth since the beginning but it’s doing well and no changes since the start. Sometimes a small irregularity is simply due to the way they chew so you just need to make sure it’s always maintained by your bunny or else will need maintenance. She’s doing well consistently maintaining it. We’re now keeping an eye on one other tooth where the gum is slightly protruding. She’s has no signs of problems, or issues in any way, and the gum and tooth is healthy, but the vet is staying on top of it to make sure it doesn’t turn into anything.
I love how gentle she is with Astrid and in general, she just has the softest energy about her, but not in any push over kind of way, as she has a strong presence, it’s just a gentle power. This vet has actually seen all of my bunnies (minus my first bunny Twinkie whom I had when I was in my teens) this to include Nestor, Joy, Cosmo, and now Astrid. So that also is pretty special given how much I’ve moved around. And this also makes Astrid number 5 – my fav magickal number.
Astrid did great and we’ll be back in 3 months to see how it’s all shaping up while I continue watching her for any slight changes. That’s simply a daily part of having a bunny…staying on top of knowing every little nuance since they can hide things well.
And that leads me to another Bundate – Bunny Update – from SaveABunny, actually.
You remember the white bunny, Big Sur (who to me is Zephyr) that I didn’t adopt. I mentioned getting a brief update from Marcy, but she had mentioned that she told his new mom to contact me directly. I hadn’t heard anything until yesterday morning and this was the beautiful news:
Marcy asked me to reach out to you and let you know that I formally adopted Big Sur. I know you had donated to help much with his care while he was at SaveABunny – thank you. In October we (my partner Ryon, my 10 year old daughter Dyllan and I) wanted to help out so we decided to foster Big Sur (we already had adopted 4 rabbits previously) Well months went by and we just couldn’t fathom the idea of bringing him back. So we totally foster failed. We love him so much words cannot express. He is such a special loving soul and we are so lucky to have him in our lives. Thank you for all your help and love. He found his forever home
PS – I’m also an adoption coordinator at SaveABunny…I’ve always felt a draw to him since he first arrived.
And here was my reply:
Hi Lisa!! I saw your message first thing this morning and it made me smile so big. I had to wait until I could respond more in fullness to you, but I first wanted to say how VERY grateful I am that you took time to write to me about him. I have wondered so much how he has been doing, as like you had been so drawn to him and felt that love and connection. I was very challenged with my decision as to who to adopt when I did arrive there, but felt in my heart he was telling me to take Deja Vu – who is now Astrid – and that he was going to be fine, needed that time to heal, and everything would end up perfectly. I am SO happy beyond words to know you have him with you and that he is in the perfect home and you are all sharing so much love between you. It confirms what I had felt and it also speaks so much of the bond you both have and why everything turned out as it did. I am so grateful for all of the work you do for SaveABunny, giving so many homes to rabbits in need, and now loving Big Sur so dearly. And you are so welcome for the help with him. It meant a lot to me to be able to do that. I’m so glad you foster failed! I’m glad to know you are the adoption coordinator…I can’t remember now as it was nearly a year ago I had first contacted about Big Sur, but we may have spoken via email. Marcy and SaveABunny mean a lot to me and Astrid is definitely my perfect partner. I couldn’t love her more and our connection has deepened so much since last June. She’s my second adoption from SaveABunny and likely there will be more at some point. So it’s good to know you! Thank you again! Love and hugs to you
I love happy endings, don’t you? They lead to great new beginnings!
Fifteen years ago, today, back in 2003 Nestor – my twin spirit – returned to me on Earth as a magickal rabbit. She left this Earth realm at the age of 5, which was young for a bunny, but she has always been a Cosmic Navigator when it comes to divine alignments so it in fact was alchemy at work. Today, I also received happy news and confirmations, as well as took another synchronous turn along my book writing journey.
It’s been nearly 10 years since Nestie (her name of endearment) transitioned back, which feels like lifetimes ago now. Oh, how much has changed since then, catapulted because of her, and yet she’s ever-present in my life. I receive some of her signs and messages via the number 5, which holds special meaning for us. And today’s 15 year mark is three times that 5, coinciding with her time confirmations she sends at 5:55.
And today, I also received an update on the white bunny who I almost adopted, but who paved the way for Astrid to be with me instead. His rescue name is Big Sur, but I knew him as Zephyr. His story is in the link I just provided, but I hadn’t been able to get information on him until today, of all days.
His update news is that he just got adopted by his foster, who is one of Save A Bunny’s best volunteers and is doing great! Apparently he sleeps on the bed with his new family’s kid and is “SUPER DUPER LOVED,” as it was expressed to me. This made me so happy and gave me great comfort in knowing “he is in a really great home,” as it was also expressed and that everything was as it was meant to be.
I believe, in a way, he sacrificed himself for the highest good in terms of providing me the message I should take Astrid instead of him, and in the end because I listened even though it was difficult on my heart, we all got our happy endings.
Ultimately, in the condition he was in back then, he wouldn’t have done as good being with me despite the love and care I would have provided because of our living situation in tighter corners at the time where having the cats around him would have stressed him out and still maybe now even would have been too stressful for him. Astrid can hold her own. Plus, at the time he had a nurturing momma bunny caring for him, which seems to have done him good.
I still have a sadness around not having been able to bring both him and Astrid home, but I know it’s all come to full circle peace and perfection.
In the meantime, the connection shared with Astrid has continued to deepen and yet still I feel is just at the tip of the iceberg in terms of where it will go. For a few months I was feeling the potential of another bunny coming in to be her companion, but I received confirmation on that as well. A lot has shifted and in tuning in with her I am getting that she doesn’t want any physical bunny friends at this time (she just nudged me with her nose to my ankle as I wrote that!) Smarty pants!
While I was away for the 11 days in Arizona, we connected and touched in and at one time she showed me two rabbits that are around her. I believe that her bunny friends are in the spirit realm, just as mine are, and that as I’m recognizing things more, she is anchoring into peaceful recognition of her path and purpose within mine. There is a lot for us to do still and she wants us connecting deeply without any other bunnies around, as that changes the dynamic and our work together. We have a very intimate path ahead of us that only she can assist with at this time to get me and her to the next step along the journey. Adding more energy to the mix will dilute that contract.
So, maybe when she’s older she will want a friend, but for now we have stuff to do! I will, of course, maintain open channels of communication with her in the event she shifts with her feelings on that, as I do want her to be happy and fulfilled. When we are both feeling that wholeness we are then able to do our best work. And however that is meant to look and be, is what I support.
Anyway, all of this has really anchored and it’s beautiful with the timing of celebrating Nestor on Earth, to celebrate these two bunnies on this plane of existence too.
I have been having a lot of telling rabbit dreams recently, along with several dreams of Save A Bunny’s founder, Marcy, who is a dear friend. There has been a lot of potent dreams with other animals and people as well that include very specific messages that I don’t know in waking life (to confirm when I do awake) that are streaming through in Pisces dreamland where I receive a majority of my psychic clarity.
Things are definitely getting more and more interesting with each turn.
And the last thing, which I mentioned at the start, is the synchronous turn my book took along its process too. It coincides with Nestor and our fav number 5.
As you may remember, last time I shared an update I had completed my 4th and final round of editing – or at least I thought!
It seems the 5th time is the charm and fulfills the magickal points of the star, mirroring Nestor’s Cosmic essence.
After I finished the 4th editing run, I then was tutored by Dave who helped show me how to officially format my book – I’m SO not techy. That proved very helpful and I was able to get it formatted quite quickly because I had already placed it in a structured mode from the get-go, so I only had to implement the final touches.
We also had a discussion about writing, I reviewed some writing notes and passages I had and that he showed me, and this all prompted a feeling to take another look before handing my book over to the next eyes and ears – an official editor.
However, yesterday, as I was reviewing it, I also was seeing it with new eyes, myself, and felt that before that next huge leap, it needs one more go-around from start to end. This one feeling to be taking things to a whole other level, as I’ve done the most shifts in the latter edits than the beginning. I think I’ve been going through even more changes than I’ve been aware of that, like my courage shown in taking on the Grand Canyon, are now ready to climb to a level I have to go with pushing myself further and accessing an even deeper recess of what is possible with my writing. It’s really something to observe as process within myself.
Writing is no simple task, at least not if you really want to take it to another level. I didn’t push myself with my first self-published book, except to write it and get it out there (which in and of itself was a big deal for me, as I had such an aversion to it), but I also didn’t feel at the time that I needed to, as I had different ideas for it then.
I’m having to unearth new parts of myself now, or perhaps latent ones, and also be willing to take risks and learn a new language so to speak.
I love how things are seen with greater clarity as I put one foot in front of the other! 😉
Thank you Nestor!
And thank you Dave, as after yesterday’s confirmation that I would be once again editing with a renewed version of myself, I was gifted with his reaffirming assessment.
Dave read the first 3 chapters today – making him the first to read any of it.
I’ve always seen him as my best critic because although we share a love and telepathic bond, we definitely lead with a different part of our brains. So, to have him review something is very telling for me. He is also a published author with an outside publisher, so he has insights that are helpful, even if we write completely different genres. He also is quite the poet, however, and is well read, so I value his opinion.
I have been prepared with this journey for the worst criticism, as that is what artists of any kind are subject to and that definitely is true for the writing world. It seems all the work I’ve done on myself has gotten me to the place where I’d be able to throw my work to the wolves so to speak, and not be emotionally affected by it. As in the past, that would have been a tough thing for me to do. This is also why it took me long to embrace blogging, but now I just free-flow write it and don’t have attachment to the material in terms of how it will be received. Good thing, as this book definitely needs to be approached in an unconditionally attached way too.
Anyway, without going into detail, I was pleasantly surprised by the feedback Dave provided and was also pleased with how I felt in waiting for his response, which remained unattached. Yay!
But this also means, off to work I go and likely will be in deeper this time, so I can’t promise when and where I’ll pop up again. As always, I take each day at a time and see where inspiration leads. I just know that I’m fully committed to this process and it is providing quite the evolutionary potentials for me.
Over the last two nights it seems our late Winter started to take a turn, providing us a Winter Wonderland to explore and immerse in. The last two nights have also amped up magickal dream time and visits through the Forest Portal here. Seems completing Wonderland was the activation for it all. Wonderland inside and out! Interesting, too, that the snow came right after that as well. We’ve had dustings of snow 2-3 times since we moved in, but this is the most we’ve had so far and not just at the higher elevations. It’s a huge contrast to last year’s mega Winter – the biggest in like 40+ years, but any variety Nature wants to throw our way is a gift and gorgeous, nonetheless.
It made for beautiful hiking yesterday and will be fun to explore snow shoeing in up at the higher elevations.
Faery T was able to get her Snow Bunny on yesterday and this morning I thought it would be a perfect introduction for Astrid to see if she, too, is a Snow Bunny and if she likes snow as much as mom.
I’m happy to report that she does.
I’ve always said she reminds me of the Snowshoe Rabbits I fell in love with in Montana and Canada and felt that was in her spirit strongly.
There wasn’t a whole lot on the deck outside of my office because the morning sun hits there warmly first. But it seemed the perfect amount for her to get her feet “wet” before going big.
I took a video of her very first snow day experience, which was adorable to watch.
I’d gone out, barefoot (hence my foot prints alongside hers in the snow) to set up a protective pen barrier so she felt safe and didn’t wander off into the great outdoors. She’d probably be fine, since this area is fenced off, but she may not want to come back in. 😉 She exhibited her curiosity right away in finding the small hole I wasn’t diligent in closing off, sticking her nose through near the end, but luckily I caught that before it turned into Astrid gone wild.
It was fun because I told her what was happening before it did and she was very curious, listening with bright eyes and alert ears. She played coy for a while, exploring her house and licking her gnomes and mushroom next to the open sliding door I left that way for her to go out.
Then she went for it, cautiously, but courageously.
I love the little happy thump she gave at the threshold of the door.
I can tell there’ll be many more snow days for miss Astrid, as she seemed to really like it. I can’t wait for there to be a lot more snow so she can play in it and get in deep. I’ll be sure to capture those sweet memories and share.
Two Snow Bunny peas in a pod we are.
Here’s Astrid experiencing snow for the first time – at least this life!
On this doorway between Summer and Autumn, I’m celebrating all of it AND Winter! Yes, just as I suspected (and just may have had my own little additional hand in with Jack Frost and the Faeries), the snow began to fall right after I completed my book and then continued yesterday on and off, and all through the night (that has me singing my fav from Cyndi Lauper now…All through the night….). This left an incredible, fresh wonderland this morning for me to wake to.
But that was preceded by an awe-inspiring sunset last night too, which had me in “ooo’s and ahhh’s” over and over. It felt like the light and portal I was watching before me, was taking place inside my heart and spirit.
Even the magickal Astrid was giddy with delight at her very first snow, running all around the rooms like a little speed racer this morning. I SO enjoyed watching her look out the window at the snow – a Faery tale image come true. This was her last evening looking out at the new-fallen snow.
And then this morning with the glowing sun beginning to light this new world in front of her like a warm Cosmic candle.
She is so much like a snowshoe hare to me, I could imagine her out in it, and turning to white with the touch of her silver toes to the snow beneath her.
She also reminds me of a harp seal. This photo is from yesterday, as she laid all relaxed and full of joy from the vision of snow. She takes on so many forms, but this photo captures her harp seal imitation, as I often call her. So perfect for the wintery snow scene… Flippers and all, which mom would likely do better with too, hehe!!
And this is our picture window that is like a portal to me into another world.
I watched the sun rise over the snow blanketed vista, this morning, creating cotton candy pink clouds and light. Then clouds danced across the Lake’s surface like steam rising and geese began to fly.
I even put my one bare foot in the snow on the deck for the first time and hobbled my way with my healing boot on the other across to the banister to take it all in.
Enchantment ran through me and tickled my heart with delight.
And as the pink clouds dispersed, everything turned to white and icy blue in the full light of morning. The clouds continued to dance and glide across the water like the world was upside down and the lake became the sky.
As above, so below.
I hope you enjoy these photos shared from this magickal portal to your own heart.
I love this image, which a sweet friend of mine had sent me a few months ago. It is so reflective of my journey and life, the magickal realm I live in always, and also that theme of “following the White Rabbit” I’ve posted about. But more so, captures the “essence” of my life with these magickal beings and how they’ve supported my portal journeys into new realms of experience.
I’ve been thinking about the changes in my life and how nearly all of the biggest ones have taken place when bunnies have been a part of it.
My leaps mirroring their hops.
I’m at another juncture of shifts so it’s no wonder Astrid is here with me now.
I’ve been focusing on finishing off things to make clear way for the new, did my big 13 day cleanse (interestingly, but not surprisingly, I have not gained back all the old energy that needed shedding so that I move forward without the “weight” of the past), and have been keeping busy with a lot of activity right now (many friends visiting, nature outings, and events) while helping her to integrate and anchor in so that we would both be ready and aligned for the next part of the journey together – all perfectly aligned with the time she has needed.
In a few days I’ll be getting back to completing my book – yay! which I knew she would be helping with now that she’s feeling grounded here.
Seems, once again, my bunnies keep aligning with major Cosmic shifts and portals, as we’ll be entering the 8-8 Lion’s Gate here shortly and the big August Eclipse Gateway. No surprise I’ll be completing the book during all of this…will be fun to see just how exactly it aligns.
Zephyr, whom you may remember as the bunny I was going to adopt, but couldn’t because of circumstances being better to support him where he is for now, had originally been, and will also continue, helping with the writing, as I work with bunnies telepathically, even if from afar.
Although I’ve sent him love and have continued working through the sadness of his not being physically here (another element integrating during all of this), he has been relatively quiet in his contentment with the bunny supporting him where he is…also awaiting my return to writing and all of us integrating and anchoring for the next leg of our work together. He has also been an anchor at the rabbit rescue – SaveABunny – for much to come.
I’m so grateful to have my team together and excited to finish the very end of my book – not much left to go!
I was told to wait on the very last part because of this integrating time needed with Astrid and the shifts with everything so that we could work on it harmoniously together.
This book has been writing itself and so it has not been a daily hunkering down to complete it, as might be the process for some writers, but rather a journey of flowing with the energies and only working on it when the windows/portals of opportunity and alignment gave the green light.
I am listening and aligning, while also staying on top of doorways opening and closing and it’s been incredible to witness the life shifts in all ways that have been weaving along with it all and shifting so much with every part of it. There is a timing and unfolding needing to both be taken action on, but also co-creating in natural harmony with.
My rabbit friends – or rather my kindred spirits, comrades, and Cosmic family in rabbit bodies – have known just what elements here on this planet would support me in the greatest and highest of ways. Their presence has helped me to continue to integrate my Earth and Star self and it has been through the love we share and the DNA-awakening they invoke, that has kept me on track, helped me remember, infused the necessary ingredients of alchemy needed, and literally have helped me remain here to complete this next spiraling phase.
Life is magickal with rabbits for sure and I’m beyond grateful to have rabbit friends and co-creators!
My journey has intensified, deepened, and expanded with rabbits. And although I am, and have been my whole life, strongly empathic to all animals and identified with them the most, making it imperative I change my lifestyle choices in all ways, it became evident that my calling and path was to be a voice for rabbits and all of life through my work with them. After having assisted Joy and Cosmo to move on, I didn’t really know how things would unfold and took time to just let things evolve naturally. Then one day around 3 months ago I began feeling like something was missing, making me realize that me without a rabbit just isn’t me, and then sensed a rabbit was coming and that I was ready.
And so I heard the call and listened.
This led me to start exploring SaveABunny’s website of available rabbits for adoption. SaveABunny is a non-profit rabbit rescue organization based in Northern California and is where I was led by my rabbit/twin soul Nestor to find Joy in 2008 – taking her home two days before my birthday in 2009. It’s about 3 hours and 20 minutes from our home in Lake Tahoe, so it wasn’t like I could just go over there, so I knew things would be a process.
As I explored the bunnies on their page of rabbits for adoption I was energetically drawn to one named Big Sur. There was no information about him like most of the others, except where he came from. I did notice that his ears were half missing though. So I wanted to touch in and find out his status and background.
This was the only photo I saw of him that began this whole journey, but his soul spoke through his eyes to mine and that was it.
It took a little while to hear back, as they are a busy, volunteer-only organization but then got info he was stable and learned more about his background.
I felt he was the one and so I then talked with Dave to make sure he was on board and ok with bringing in another bunny and he told me that if I feel it’s what I want and it’s important for me and my path then he supports that.
However, I knew we had a lot of upcoming travels coming and so I knew it wasn’t a good idea to adopt him until the travels were done, as I would want to establish solidity and be there to create the feeling of home and safety – not up and leave right away, which would feel like abandonment.
After asking about my options and exploring what I could do, we all decided the best was to just wait until my travels were done and come in at that time to adopt. There was no telling what could evolve in the meantime, but the thing I was being told was to TRUST.
There was a process unfolding and it wasn’t to be rushed, as there are many working parts and variables that can always shift at any moment these day and things do in fact change overnight, not to mention my travels would shift energies as well for me, as would the rapid changes I keep making create rippling shifts. So I waited very patiently, but quite anxiously.
While in Sedona I felt more solidified with everything and asked during my labyrinth walk on the Full Moon for clarity and support with the whole process for the highest good. It was in Sedona as well that I received his name – Zephyr, which means a gentle wind or soft breeze from the west (which he was….blowing into my life from the west coast area, west of Tahoe). It also means the Greek god of the west wind.
There was connection with avian bird energy with this name and meaning that are around me so much and Zephyr Cove where we walk all the time and I would think of him.
I made a full commitment by filling out an adoption form online and this spun things further into motion and declared my readiness and commitment out loud to the Universe to welcome in a new rabbit companion, as well as continue on with my path in a larger way. A lot of synchronous things kept happening and it felt in flow.
I also had a dream of him, which was telling and something I’d been waiting to see if that would happen, as all of my bunnies communicate that way (so does Gaia my tortoise). It is indication that we are able to telepathically communicate and that there is a bond there.
And he DID come to me in dream time, which involved some communication and me being with him while we were bonding and I rubbed his third eye and the area around his sweet ears.
I later also had another dream and the connection continued daily with feeling him so strongly and communicating to him with ease.
Then on Beltane I received confirmation of my appointment and time to go in and adopt him, which ended up being on June 20th Solstice at 1:30pm. Magick was at work indeed, as Joy departed to the stars on June 21st of last year and the Solstice this year would be at 9:24 pm Pacific Time for me, so right in the transition portal of it all.
Divine perfection unfolding for sure in full circle and the closing and opening of doors.
So a little about Big Sur, who for me is Zephyr (or Baby Z, as I lovingly call him by nickname when communicating to him – all of my loves receive tons of nicknames). Both of his names seemed to perfectly align with his watery and airy nature too.
Anyway, Big Sur/Zephyr came in from Salinas Animal Services in November 2016 and came to SaveABunny soon after. He is blind in his right eye and had bite wounds beyond his ears having been bitten off. He was treated and neutered, went on antibiotics, but healed very well.
When I first inquired they said he was stable, wasn’t on medication, and his blood panel hadn’t shown anything serious.
He’s been through a lot, but remains incredibly loving and sweet (remind you of anyone? – hint Cosmo) and likely was a breeding rabbit at a meat farm, which attests for his injuries from the horrible conditions of these cruel places.
Here’s a recent photo of him showing how well he’s healed.
I find rabbits to be unique in that they transcend or bridge several categories of animals.
They are domestic, farm, and wild animals and not only are seen as animal companions/pets, but also are farmed or hunted for their meat, farmed or hunted for their fur, and are one of the most commonly used and abused animals in terms of lab testing and experiments.
Not only have rabbits become synonymous with cosmetics animal testing throughout the world, enduring horrendous suffering in the name of “beauty,” but their image is the most recognized and used on cruelty-free labeling.
American Anti-Vivisection Society shares this article:
PETA shares this article:
Rabbit meat is being promoted as the new “super meat” although not as easily commercially produced on an industrial scale (thank goodness!) because of their weaker immune systems and overall die more easily, but is still being done. There are even crazy motivation and incentive articles like this trying to get people to do it more: 7 Reasons to Raise Rabbits for Meat
Just blows my mind.
Anyway, back to Zephyr/Big Sur.
After Sedona we were in Australia and upon returning from Australia I found out when checking in that he wasn’t doing so well. He’s had a couple setbacks, went into stasis and Marcy, the founder of SaveABunny just didn’t know in any definitive way what was wrong.
Either he was having medical complications solely, or he was depressed and this was causing issues.
So she asked me what I thought, as she was thinking of moving him to a different area and potentially seeing if he wanted/needed another bunny friend.
I told her to do anything she felt was in his highest good, as that was what was most important. It wasn’t about me. It was about him.
In the meantime I connected with him and communicated all of my thoughts and sent him energy, telling him I would be there soon to see him.
A little while after I learned he was doing better and had been moved to a larger area with even more light.
We then were in Austin and I checked in again two nights before going in to SaveABunny to see how he was.
I received a message that he was “OK” but that it really was hard to know.
What I didn’t mention is that when I first learned he wasn’t doing well I did some work around things for myself, as I knew I was being asked to go to another level. I allowed myself to be sad and although I had released things to the highest good from the get-go, and was open to him leading me to another bunny if in fact something didn’t work out for whatever reason, I still needed to go deeper.
And so I did.
I realized that when I was inquiring about him I was wanting there not to be any further major medical issues other than needing to take into account his blindness and ears, as well as emotional challenges he might have from everything, but I know at the core of me that my path is not about certainties and perfect scenarios and not about being afraid to take in an extremely challenged bunny, or any challenge for that matter in life, as the growth for me is in the difficult decisions and expanding my emotions and abilities beyond where I’ve gotten to so far. This is what I feel to be the balancing between love and mission I’m learning and is a huge cosmic focus too being worked out collectively, I feel.
And I did a lot of work around supporting him with what ever he needed and wanted that would be for his highest good and overall for everyone involved. I also, for the first time, opened to looking at other potential bunnies on their website, in case I really would be needing to take home another. And I asked him to lead me there, if so, and that I would have the clarity to be able to make the highest decisions. I also worked through my emotions, as I was saddened by hearing of his condition and potentially not being able to take him, or worse. I was ready for anything and asked that I’d have the strength to do what was right.
If you remember in my blog post Follow the White Rabbit I shared:
“Following the White Rabbit is where the journey begins…a reminder to take chances in life, follow your intuitive nudges and gut instincts, and let your heart and inner mind lead the way. A new way of feeling, thinking, seeing, believing, and being is just around the corner, or perhaps “down the rabbit hole,” leading you to a new opportunity and a whole whimsical “Wonderland” of unlimited possibilities and magickal experiences.”
And here I found myself following the White Rabbit – Zephyr – on a new journey of surprising twists and turns and magickal unfolding. I had no idea where this path would lead, how it would end, what was involved, but down the rabbit hole I went, following my heart and intuition, regardless. I just knew this is what I needed to do – tough as it might be.
This led me to Tuesday, 6/20, Summer Solstice, a big journey, and a surprise. Sweetly, my friend here in Lake Tahoe offered to go with me on this trip, which was such a blessing and I’m deeply grateful for. I had just planned to go on my own since Dave had to work, but having Sharon along was a gift and great support for the day. She even packed us a whole cooler of drinks and healthy snacks and food and captured some photos for me. I loved that it also enabled her to connect with and learn more about the bunnies too, which she loved.
This was my transition day of easing into my cleanse (which meant backing off of food, which I did) so everything she brought was perfect, as they were light and healthy and I ate just as much as I needed to sustain for the day’s challenges.
The drive wasn’t bad at all going and we arrived as Marcy was outside and immediately it felt like yesterday I’d been there (remembering the place, the street, her) even though it was a little over 8 years ago since I’d last visited. I’ve met Marcy in person 4 times now, but it always seems like yesterday.
Anyway, she brought us in and gave us the tour, introduced us to all of the bunnies briefly, and lastly I met Zephyr/Big Sur.
He was just as sweet as he was in our communicating and what I’d felt from him. Just a love bug and he just nuzzled into my hand. My heart melted.
I had already fallen in love with him, but that was solidified and deepened.
Well, the story takes a turn here, as we ended up being at SaveABunny for nearly 4 hours, which was totally unexpected. Part of that was in connecting with the bunnies, but a large part was due to me having to process things about the challenge I was presented.
To try and not extend this out too long, I had to decide if I should really take Zephyr or not, and which bunny I should take, if in fact I didn’t.
Well, after talking with Marcy and feeling things out with him more it was evident his condition is an unknown, potentially volatile one and his blood panel had shown kidney issues likely as well, he is still up and down in behavior and eating. He had also been moved to a larger pen area next to Amandine, who is a large, white and extremely conscious, nurturing, healer, mother bunny (pictured below).
He’d gotten better from his setbacks and stasis since moving next to her.
Marcy left it up to me, because she trusts me, but wanted me to know everything to make the best decision.
And in the meantime, she wanted me to tune into one other bunny, in particular, named De Ja Vu. But to feel out all of the bunnies, in general.
So I was introduced to De Ja Vu who was just to the right a bit of Zephyr. De Ja Vu has been at SaveABunny the longest (since 2015 – so 2 years) , other than Pee Wee whose been there since 2014.
No one has wanted to adopt her because she acts assertive right away and people, in general, unless they are feeling into things a bit more, look for the cute, snuggly, beautiful breeds, and not everyone is willing to put in the extra time and effort for “special needs”.
Although De Ja Vu does not have physical challenges, she is still a special needs bunny.
Anyway, she will grunt and charge at first, but you need to look beyond this and understand what’s going on, which isn’t all just her challenges, but what she’s reflecting, as she is sensitive to every energetic nuance. Not in a “I’m going to take this personally way” but as in noticing the shifts in frequencies immediately from your state of being, feeling, and mind, or the environment.
So I pet her a bit and then sat down, as Marcy gave her to me to hold, showing me how she likes to be held.
And I sat with her for quite a while, as she relaxed and we connected…and she started to vibrate and hum, which is like their version of purring. Marcy said this is like the best compliment from a bunny.
And I felt into her and her heart beyond the “stuff”.
Marcy shared with me about her, but left me to be with her and to connect. She and I both do Reiki and intuitively feel things and communicate with the bunnies, so she didn’t want to get in the way of that, but did share her feelings.
And so my process began and the challenges continued to appear for me to rise to.
The rest of my time was spent in contemplation, feeling into things, had conversations for mirroring reflection with those dear to me, and continuing to touch in with the bunnies.
Several times I had to remove myself from the space and go outside, as I needed to make sure what I was feeling was my own and that I wasn’t absorbing all the energies around.
My biggest contemplation faced was in having made a commitment to Zephyr and not wanting to break that unless he wanted me to, as I was ready to take him in any condition he was in if he wanted that, even if that only meant his being with me for a short while.
But it had to be because that was for his highest good and not simply to satisfy something within me or even just to keep my word, because unconditional and universal love is doing what is in his best interests and releasing any attachment and personal stuff.
So this was very emotional for me, as I loved him so much and really had to know what HE wanted and that he wouldn’t be hurt if I didn’t take him.
I loved all the bunnies in there for different reasons and could have taken any of them, but I also needed to have with me the one that was in their best interest, mine, and the path together for the highest good we’d be sharing through our work together and the journey ahead and its potential collective reach. As I am embarking on a lot of new and big things and the bunny with me would be an important co-creator in that.
This was no light decision.
And after tuning in, I did feel like Zephyr/Big Sur and De Ja Vu were the two bunnies I connected with most. Amandine, the other very conscious bunny next to Zephyr would have been one too, but Marcy might be keeping her (so she’s not available for adoption) and currently she’s Zephyr’s anchor. So, I don’t entertain things that aren’t possibilities currently.
I did hold another bunny named Mystique who was a sweetie too, but she didn’t feel to be aligned with the path I’m on and the further work I need to evolve through and do right now, although I felt so much love for her as well.
And “coincidentally” there just happened to be a rabbit that looked just like Nestor that was directly across from Big Sur/Zephyr and a couple of bunnies that looked similar to Joy. My little ones were all around me supporting the process.
So, I weighed and weighed and would go back in to connect with both of them – Zephyr/Big Sur and De Ja Vu.
And I asked Zephyr to show me signs and let me know.
What I was getting was that even just taking him on the long trip home would be stressful for him and then I had to think of his condition and being around cats at home and how that would stress him out and/or affect his sensitive health right now.
It did not feel good.
And when I saw him inside next to Amandine, although they were not in the same pen and not right up against each other by the gate partition, they were in fact communicating A LOT. There was tons going on between them energetically and it felt to be stabilizing, balancing, and helpful in his process – what ever that was to be.
How could I remove him from that and make unsettled what was settled?
It was not about me.
And in fact, De Ja Vu is an incredibly higher conscious bunny who no one could understand, but Marcy. She was in a similar situation of potentially never being adopted, like him (since he is a white rabbit with red eyes – people don’t like that much – and physically not perfect in visual and health). She has things to work through in an unseen way and someone would need to “see” that and realize what she has to offer too.
My intuition was telling me it was her, but I had a lot to process to get my emotions on board and balanced, as all of this was emotionally challenging for me. I began my grieving, as the knowing part of me just knew.
And this was reflected in my conversations with others, as I love hearing myself out loud for mirroring.
Eventually, I had the strength to make the call and decision out loud and told Marcy.
She was elated.
I then shared with her that I felt Big Sur/Zephyr was where he needed to be right now and that Amandine was helping and to take him away from that would disturb the balance and contentment he is starting to have. I shared that he and I would still continue being connected and work together but from afar. She was so happy to hear what I shared because it confirmed for her what she felt too about the two of them and moving him with her.
We both looked over at them and could feel the energy that was palpable. Marcy said she got chills and at the same exact time, so did I, and they continued for a while extending through our entire bodies.
Everything was in divine order.
And as Marcy began the paperwork for me to adopt De Ja Vu, I looked back over at Zephyr and his cute behind started vibrating and his tail wiggled. I’d never seen this. It made me smile. And I knew in our hearts he was still my bunny, but I would be entrusting his care to Amandine to nurture in his best interests.
Meanwhile, I will be sponsoring him to help care for his needs and continue in my commitment to him.
In this way I actually have two bunnies – one by distance and one who will be with me.
Throughout the day and during adoption, I learned more about De Ja Vu including likely having been bred as a meat and fur rabbit and having been in and out of three shelters/rescues already since very young, one of which being known to be a horrible place for the animals kept there – Solono County Animal Care & Services, later to be taken in by Marin Humane Society, and then coming to be at SaveABunny.
She’s still young herself, likely no more than 3 years old (it’s always hard to tell), according to estimates on her paperwork of her age upon arrival to the other places. And in fact, would only be turning 3 come this September. Zephyr is more like 8 or 9 years old.
Physically, she’s a gorgeous bunny, which I had no idea I’d be taking home (although they’re all gorgeous to me in their own way). I never go by visual alone, but see the spirit.
And another surprise was that she has dark fur, whereas I felt a white bunny coming to me – well he did and still is with me as my angel!
Her fur is actually all these shades of almost black, charcoal, silver, and even honey golden with patterns that will continue to shift as she molts. Her fur is actually reminiscent of obsidian – especially the gold and silver obsidian valued and honored by the Mayans and also reminds me of the Cosmos.
She’s a larger bunny, very robust, sturdy, strong, and physically in great health.
However, it is her internal world that requires special needs, which is actually more challenging since you don’t know exactly what you’re dealing with and can’t see it tangibly.
She has a fight mode and this runs deep along with other emotional things. Some is a test and teaching for anyone in contact with her because of her mirroring, but also is connected to getting to the heart of her and to see if you can break through to her core – be worthy of that, plus what she’s seen and been through that she feels to be holding grief over – eventually I hope for her to come to find peace and healing here with me.
She requires a lot of patience, presence, and tuning in to really understand and work through things with her.
But SHE will also be facilitating that work and working YOU, as not only is it her stuff, but also her mirroring yours. If you shift energy just one second, she immediately reacts. Definitely keeps you on your toes and you can’t approach her with any less than yourself.
She asks you to rise to your highest and to maintain that. Otherwise, you can’t meet with that part of her. She’ll grunt and charge with her front paws, or completely with her body if she feels something off, threatened, or simply wanting to test you to see if you’ll easily back off or not get the clue, or if you’ll stand in your strength like she does…then she respects you.
Marcy feels that she’s been waiting for that right person to see her and that she could work with, all of this time she’s been there and not getting adopted. It was emotional to watch the two of them say goodbye, as Marcy told her, “You did it” and also to hear the excitement from one of the regular volunteers when Marcy shared the news.
She asked her to guess who got adopted and when she said “De Ja Vu?” and Marcy confirmed, the woman literally squealed with delight and major joy, telling me how lucky we both were and that I will just adore her.
Well, I already do and I already appreciate and am grateful for the challenge she is providing me, as she feels like the perfect rabbit for me to help me to expand further and challenge and push all of me to go beyond. And I know she’s a super conscious healing bunny who has tons of magick to reveal and will be getting her Reiki training when she’s ready.
She’s also the first female rabbit I’ve had with straight ears, as my others were lops with floppy ears. Only Cosmo and her have had the straight ears. And also Zephyr.
She also REALLY epitomizes my blog I shared about rabbits being tiny ponies, as she sure is! She’s definitely a great therapy rabbit and masterful guide in terms of her mirroring abilities. Just like horses so beautifully and transparently reflect our true vibration, which aids us in taking responsibility for ourselves, this is the M.O. of De Ja Vu. She very attentively listens to the audible and inaudible and understands everything.
And she’s a little fire cracker too! Quite the bad a– bunny with both heart and power. I’d been concerned with her sensitivities that the cats could be too much, but Marcy said “Oh, she’ll beat the sh– out of them”. And she’s been right, as she showed them who’s boss the second she’s been home and they don’t mess much with her.
She’s already created her Queen’s realm. 😉
I feel her arrival with my cleanse/fast, which began fully the day after I brought her home on 6/21 (today is day 3 of 10) is perfect too and will reset the energy for everything together, as she goes through the integration process of being here with me and us.
And perfect timing of her arrival on Summer Solstice’s portal and in the wake of the New Moon tonight. New beginnings all around!
While I am still grieving not physically having Zephyr with us and allowing the emotions to do their thing, it is such a gift that couldn’t have worked out more perfectly in that I still feel he is mine and with me and like I have two rabbits instead of one.
As mentioned, I will sponsor him and intend to go back to visit for longer, as Marcy offered me coming for a weekend, and he and I will continue to stay in connection and he’ll still help with my writing as he has.
Plus! Having the two of them in my life feels so balancing with my sacred male and female energy in that he’s male and white and she’s female and dark/nearly black. So they’re like my Yin and Yang. It doesn’t get any better. 🙂
But of course De Ja Vu will not remain her name, but in fact there is meaning to that name for me personally, as she reminds me of Nestor a lot. She has a very similar essence to her and that regal and strong power. So she’s like a “de ja vu” to Nestor when I look at her and feel her.
Even her behaviors are similar with her racing around and jumping in the air in delight (doing her binkies), which makes me happy to see and know De Ja Vu is content here and feeling the joy of her freedom.
She’s been wonderful so far and immediately went right to her litter box, has been eating, and already challenging us to rise to the occasion.
And ended up being the perfect one to bring home, since I was only bringing one home at this time because we don’t have room for more and that is what felt right for me right now too. She is a one-person bunny and really doesn’t want or need other bunnies because she’s independent and territorial, so she is definitely a perfect familiar for me.
But she is the only one who has been a challenge to get the right name for, so I’ve taken my time to tune in. All my other loves I’d received the name on before they came home, including Big Sur’s as Zephyr.
Yet, she was going to take her time and like with everything about her, I’d have to work at it and be patient. But in the end, I discovered she was aligning her naming with the New Moon today.
Like other magickal things showing up between her and I, her name would be no different. I’d been tuning in the last two and a half days, but nothing was feeling right. Then suddenly this morning (interesting because I felt today I’d know), her name came.
And here’s the even more magickal part of it. I told Dave the name and he got this funny look on his face. He asked, “Did you tell me that yesterday?” I said, “No.” He then said, “Did I tell you that?” And I said, “No,” again.
I said, “Why?”
He said, “Well it’s really weird because last night while laying in bed suddenly that name came into my mind and I was thinking it would be good for her and was trying to think of where I knew it from.”
I smiled. I said, “I guess you did tell me then, but telepathically. We’re so connected! Aw, we named her together and got the same one. It is meant to be. She has spoken.”
And then I find out that it all happened on today’s New Moon SuperMoon in Cancer (which will be at its height tonight, here around 7:30 pm.)
Just like her name, she is so Cosmically and Divinely aligned, as not only did she come to me as a surprise on Summer Solstice, but now gave us her name on the New Moon. Lots more magick in store from her I’m sure!
After the name came I looked into its meaning and origin, finding it is Norse (also very connected for me) and means “divine strength,” “divine beauty,” and “beautiful goddess”. She embodies all of that for sure and reflects as a mirror to see within you too.
She already has nicknames of “Astro Girl,” “Star,” and “Astie,” – the last mirroring Nestor’s nickname of “Nestie.” And the numerology is connected to my birthday of the 26th, as her name breaks down to a 26/8, so we share that as well and continues to mirror the strength she embodies and is about balance and power and is very connected to Capricorn energy, which mom has lots of and is growing into.
Couldn’t be more perfect!
Astrid has been a surprise – a much welcome one – but not anticipated and so I’m flowing with that wonderful change.
But what a journey! And so much growth and expansion already. To think it’s only just begun.
I can’t even begin to express how rich this journey has been over the last 2 and a half months and that it just keeps getting even richer. There are so many layers to all of this, but it’s been amazing and incredulous, more than people would believe or imagine.
And now my sweet girl is with me and is the perfect familiar for this Faery.
She has an otherworldly and Cosmic essence that also blends with my own, but is very solid and balances Earthy energy too. I can feel how much we’re going to be doing together and she’s so amazingly strong and powerful already, I can’t wait to see what she brings forth as the days go on.
And, we’re like two little witchies with our matching hair colors too, which I hadn’t noted until both Marcy and Sharon pointed out, separately, and then I was like, wow….it was written in the stars once again.
I’m still waiting on some more of her fun bunny things mom ordered, to arrive and finalizing set up of her realm, but she’s been enjoying what’s here so far.
I look forward to sharing more updates about Astrid with you and how things progress.
Thank you all for the shared excitement and love.