Living here is such an incredible reminder of what is possible in terms of creating and manifesting reflections of my heart’s desires and having the peace I feel within, mirrored to me. When I first saw this house, despite knowing we would be doing a complete internal demolish and remodel, I knew the footprint, its energy, the layout, and the essence of the land here was meant for us. I always felt the end result and not the process and the Faeries kept reiterating this to me with signs, messages, and to continue to trust even when challenges arose. They told me to be patient and they would handle the details, which they did and have.
Although we’re still in remodeling mode, the major work is starting to wind down and we’re beginning to see the fruits of our labor come together.
This includes the magick of the forest land we sit on and our expansive forest backyard.
Yesterday our contractors left early so we had opportunity just before sunset to do a short hike out back. All of the photos you see here are of this trail we took from our home.
We have a whole grid work of hiking/biking trails right off our deck and yesterday we discovered a new one, which was this big loop that takes us through the forest, across a creek, along it, then through meadows, and back into the woods and along a second creek that then returns us home.
It was gorgeous and the light of the day had an aura of golden glow that just lit everything up with enchantment.
Soon this whole area will be covered in thick blankets of snow and we’ll be able to wander to our heart’s content on snow shoes. Dave intends to try out cross country skiing too, which will be perfect here as well.
To have this as our backyard is just incredible. I would say “pinch me,” but I know I’m not dreaming.
It’s taken me nearly 45 years of my life to get here, but it’s been worth the work and wait. Couldn’t have happened at a better time and goes again to show you that all things have their divine alignments, as now is when this all means the most to me and supports the next phase of life I’m entering.
Astrid didn’t need a costume, as she embodied the perfect Halloween bunny last night with her mysterious dark brindled coat of shape-shifting markings, silver toes, belly, and tail, and a Crescent Moon eye. I took this photo of her last night right after the sun set and my auto flash went off, which not only captured two giant orbs around her body, but caught the light just right creating a red and gold Moon in her eye. I’m guessing that Cosmo and my other bunny loves wanted to make an appearance. Astrid was definitely in a calm zone, not wanting me to leave her and kept nosing my leg to get my attention and transfer energy. She was definitely comforting me with my Cosmo thoughts.
I’d just finished my first run-through of reading my book from start to end, since completing it, which included a first round of simple edits and cutting my superfluous writing down 23 pages so far. That felt perfect to complete on this special day, which had so many connections to Cosmo and much more. I still have more rounds of editing to go – it’s quite a process – perhaps completing by end of year (my goal) before it will be in a form for feedback from others.
For now, I remain the only person who has read any of it and that feels perfect in remaining true to my voice.
This is something my bunny loves have taught me the importance of…remembering my song and singing it.
It was a quiet day and evening, which felt perfect for honoring my sweet Cosmo, tuning in with my bunny loves, and for focusing on the other joy of my heart – my book.
Even the sky reflected this calm and mystery in a perfect Samhain sunset of orange and black clarity.
I snapped this photo before the one of Astrid.
The veils were definitely thin and the love was definitely strong.
Every day is a gift, each moment is an adventure unfolding, and every breath is an opportunity for expansion. It’s been an incredible journey with surprises around every corner and most recently, surprises discovered in our own backyard. We haven’t yet moved into our new magickal dream house, but we visit each day to manage remodeling, care for our new trees, and when time allows, explore a bit of our enchanted forest garden. I’d made promises to the Faeries to work with the energy here and in turn they opened the doors for this house to manifest and have sprinkled hidden treasures to uncover along the way.
I’ve already begun to plant some seeds of new in our front yard for the Faeries, which include five daffodil and five iris bulbs that were gifted to me by Faery sis Laura. If all goes well, they’ll be blooming once the snow thaws, bringing enchantment and color to the entrance of our home, lined along the large trees and Manzanita where I felt called to place them. As mentioned, an earth worm showed up while I was doing so, which felt like an affirmation of placement and gratitude.
We’ve been starting to work on a few changes to the area just outside my new office as well, and have been dream journeying with ideas for the yard there that will become a Magick Sanctuary that will at some point include a labyrinth and more. A work in progress for sure and can’t be started until Spring. For now we are focusing on the inside of the house, as truly the yard is a Nature’s work of art already.
We knew this was a magickal space, sitting on the National Forest with only one house to the right that isn’t on top of us, but also aren’t year-round neighbors, however we continue to discover just what the Faeries had in store for us with guiding us here, as we uncover more of their surprise gifts each day.
Today marks seven weeks since my foot fracture, and I’m no longer wearing my healing boot. I’m now able to wear regular supportive shoes and am moving around well. This has enabled me to start doing some easy hikes and walks, which include the beginning of explorations in our forest backyard.
We have an endless circuit of hiking trails out back that lead all over, including connecting to the Tahoe Rim Trail. I have only walked about a mile so far, but in doing so last week, discovered some treasures!
Not only did the Faeries leave raw quartz directly behind the house and along the trail….gorgeous pieces of pink quartz….but we discovered some very cool things about where the house sits, including having views of Heavenly Mountain Ski Resort.
We are exactly smack middle of two year-round flowing creeks, literally just a quarter of a mile in either direction (we clocked it) and about 3-4 minutes walk. What incredible energy that is having flowing water and the magick of these little Water Nymph areas perfect for this Pisces.
Here’s a short clip of one. The other has a bridge over it. This one has a log bridge over it.
Throughout the trail there are beautiful granite outcroppings of large stones that create sacred areas and energy as well. Some are large and others smaller. In some cases create rings or circles, and in other cases are just deliberately placed and have distinct shapes. I didn’t capture all of these in photos, but this is one of the larger areas.
And to our surprise we have very tiny peeks of Lake Tahoe. Not the full, expansive view of our tree house, but indeed open channels and portals connecting her energy with our home, both seen from the deck and back rooms of the house, and also wider openings along the trail just yards out.
This became extra apparent as we were there at sunset and I saw what appeared like two Suns setting. Then I realized the second was actually the Sun reflecting on the water and I could actually see the waves rippling on the surface of the Lake.
They don’t show up in the photos much, but give you a tiny idea. In person, it’s quite magickal.
I love the streaming of water and light through these little doorways, which creates this incredible portal of flowing energy tying in so many elements here that it’s almost beyond words to describe the feeling of. It just feels perfect, aligned, and definitely meant to be, plus creates a lot more mystery, magick, and mischief!
The dances of light that have been present the last few visits at our home have been revealing too and excite me as to all that will continue to reveal itself when we do in fact live here and what will take place and become possible in creating.
Oh what magick we will weave with secret visitors abound!
I love this video of the light in the yard and if you look closely near the railing you’ll see this magickal little white energy flying through the air and following my movement…then disappear.
Gratitude overflows and excitement builds. Yet patience is my constant partner for all that lies ahead and is unfolding step-by-step.
Life continues to be a journey of trust, loving commitment, and continued dreaming…
While fiery intensity and passionate energy are some of the focuses of this Aries Harvest and Hunter’s/Blood Full Moon, there is also a reminder for tempering things to bring greater balance and harmony into our experience right now. Deepening into the truth of who you are and trusting in that inner knowing to guide you is key, and this will reflect the true beauty of things, as we become more present to the reflections of our relationships to everything within and around us.
We continue being presented with opportunities to strengthen our connection with Mother Earth – Terra – to bring greater stability and anchoring to our lives. It is from that place that peace takes hold, when we are firm with our roots, yet flowing with our expansion.
Security comes from this place of peace within, which can be accessed regardless of our surroundings and chosen regardless of thinking there is no other way. There are always multiple options and perspectives because we are creative beings living in a creative universe. There are no limits on creativity. Only the depth at which you activate your imagination becomes your limitation.
It continues to be a time for showing up more authentically and when we focus on being or embodying, then the doing takes care of itself. Not the other way around.
So don’t worry so much about that.
Focus on nurturing your essence, cultivating your creativity, having gratitude for things you overlook everyday as gifts, and celebrate what’s right in the world. Bringing your joy through into all that you do and share will infuse new life into everything and you’ll be in the flow of constant renewal.
Remember who you are and believe in yourself.
Step into yourself, shine light upon the shadows within, take actions in alignment with that truth, and reclaim empowerment in a healthy way.
Whatever we are presented with does have a way of being overcome. Release attachment to how things need to look and find the hidden gift that can shift your entire experience of life.
Do you enjoy living in the past and in limitation? If not, then rise above this. If you are ready to make leaps in life, the energies are here to support that. Be like Nature and flow with these currents.
This is a good time to get things done and start those things you’ve been procrastinating.
The above photo is of the Full Moon early this morning, which I captured literally about 3 minutes before it fully disappeared behind the mountain. Astrid had woken me with her running around like a speed racer, full of excitement. She definitely did not want me to miss out on seeing it. In person, it was big, clear, and reddish in color. And as soon as I took this quick photo, it was gone, but am glad I captured it to share.
All of my bunnies have shared a connection with the Moon and Astrid is no exception.
In the photo below you can see her basking in its glow, as I always find her each Full Moon and on major cosmic occasions.
This was taken early yesterday morning at 3 am (had to use flash) when I woke and found her in front of the French doors, lake and Moon still as can be even when I went to stroke her. Everything was dark and still except for the strong glow of the Moon illuminating the room, lake, and Astrid.
Her ears were warm with energy despite it being very cold, which was obvious to me that she was moving the Aries energy since throughout the day I’d noticed her ears cold and now at the coldest hours she was warm.
The Full Aries, Harvest and Hunter’s Moon definitely had her attention and Astrid was helping to work with the energies and prepare for the new on all levels to help clear things and create balance and ease.
Wishing everyone an empowering Full Moon. 11:11 as I finish writing this, so activations embedded in this for sure!
After completing my book on the New Moon last Wednesday, this opened up space this last week for things Dave and I needed to handle, free time to spend with dear friends who will be leaving Friday, and an eclectic mix of creative fun and high vibes. This has included fun outings like our airplane flight in the Cirrus G6, a full day at Genoa’s 98th annual Candy Dance festival of artisans, planning and brainstorming, teaching a Reiki workshop, creating a new Magick Crystal Wand, and welcoming new crystal and succulent friends to the family – all before hunkering down into editing mode, which begins today. It feels good to change things up, which will provide fresh perspective when I revisit my book to start getting it in shape.
And it’s been perfect, as usual, in providing balance and perfect alignment of timing to things.
Yesterday was a full day of Reiki, but not just any Reiki 1 & 2 workshop – a Faery fun one that was filled with expansive discussions and explorations. Things aligned to make teaching a private workshop possible, which was fun to do after being away from it for a couple of years. It’s always amazing how these things are just a part of who you are, as it was like riding a bike again, yet infused with so much more! I don’t officially offer workshops at this time, since my schedule doesn’t support it, but with finishing my book, being in between personal projects and incapacitated with my foot fracture, it was perfect!
And alongside being able to teach Reiki yesterday I also had time for a fun Magick Crystal Wand creation the last couple of days for a very special Faery! I just fell in love with the wood on this one.
So whimsical and alive! And very nymph-like! It definitely feels to be a muse for dream work manifesting, creativity, inspiration, and connecting with Nature spirits. I love the little knots in it, so perfectly placed, and the feminine curvature like poetry in motion. It feels to me like it sings. I added 3 turquoise along the shaft, anchored with blue sea glass, and the point is a beautiful little clear Lemurian quartz with rainbow inside, containing much ancient knowledge. Everything’s wrapped in thick silver wiring and Robin’s Egg Blue satin cording dangles the Raven, Goose, and Steller’s Jay feathers.
That was fun to get my hands into and shift my creative focus for a bit. The Reiki workshop definitely amped things up too, and ignited something into motion we were waiting on as well.
Gotta love that Reiki! I use it all the time, especially Reiki Healing Attunements that have been working their magick with everything. (Another reminder to all of you who know how to do these, to use them!)
The space right now is also infused with lots of crystal and succulent energy, which I love. With anchoring in I’ve been able to invite more of each of these into my life to begin creating my sacred sanctuary space again.
It feels very magickal and Faery and I’m just thrilled as to how well my succulent gardens are doing….they’re like little succulent forests! I’m also loving the new crystal babies, especially my giant raw Tahoe Quartz!
But yes, I’m a succulent kind of girl so when I saw this sweet turtle at the Genoa Candy Dance I just had to take her home to be a part of my growing succulent family and succulent Faery gardens – the only plant babies I have.
I’ve named her Gaia after my sweet Russian Tortoise who is no longer with me. I just love her and soon she’ll have a rabbit mate just like she used to so that Gaia can be reunited with her buddy Joy (my bunny who passed too). They are created by Elaine Seniff of California Topiary Creations. I’m in process of ordering my custom bunny as I write!
I also picked up a tiny little Goldstone Rabbit at the Candy Dance that just danced and sparkled with delight in the sunshine – calling out to me to take her home! And so I did. It was much too magickal and perfect energetically to pass up, and so it came home with Gaia. Seems that was a synchronous call, since it also is great for the bones!
“Goldstone will boost the glow of one’s life force, strengthening the inner self, and chi. With the properties of Copper as well, it is extremely helpful in increasing the strength of the circulatory system, which in turn bolsters the bones and reduces inflammation.” from shimmerlings.com
Anyway, all of this to say, I’ve been enjoying a well-rounded, continuously nurturing time, taking care of myself, enjoying life, making productive use of time, and staying true to the energies that feel aligned. My foot continues to heal…I’m at 2 1/2 weeks now so things are really moving in that regard. And I’ve maintained watchful eye and diligence in taking care of myself.
I feel another round of focus coming on though that involves a lot of my time and energy over the next few months through end of the year.
As always, I’ll continue sharing along the way, but there will be times I won’t be able to with all that is evolving.
My parents are actually coming out today to take me to lunch here shortly, so that will be a nice little outing on this beautiful day, then I’ll be working away on my book.
I actually can’t wait to immerse in it again and read it all through from start to end! Just that feels like it will be igniting! And oh so fun!! It’s actually incredible to think I’m sitting down to read my own book. Oh the wonders of life and what we are capable of creating and doing!
And I’m grateful for all the extra little magick, support, and gifts along the way that make it all so enjoyable!
If you didn’t believe in magick, Astrid’s here to help with that. She keeps revealing more and more of her brilliance through the dark Mystery that she is. Just like each of us have a lot of untapped and/or unknown magick and alchemy within to bring forth, as we brave the watery abyss of ourselves. As you look into the portal of her reflection, know that it is only because you have the same within you that you can see it. Our hope for you – Astrid and I – is that you remember who you are, return to natural harmony, and live in the integrity, purity, and beauty of that essence always. Shine on and keep singing your song. We love you!
On this doorway between Summer and Autumn, I’m celebrating all of it AND Winter! Yes, just as I suspected (and just may have had my own little additional hand in with Jack Frost and the Faeries), the snow began to fall right after I completed my book and then continued yesterday on and off, and all through the night (that has me singing my fav from Cyndi Lauper now…All through the night….). This left an incredible, fresh wonderland this morning for me to wake to.
But that was preceded by an awe-inspiring sunset last night too, which had me in “ooo’s and ahhh’s” over and over. It felt like the light and portal I was watching before me, was taking place inside my heart and spirit.
Even the magickal Astrid was giddy with delight at her very first snow, running all around the rooms like a little speed racer this morning. I SO enjoyed watching her look out the window at the snow – a Faery tale image come true. This was her last evening looking out at the new-fallen snow.
And then this morning with the glowing sun beginning to light this new world in front of her like a warm Cosmic candle.
She is so much like a snowshoe hare to me, I could imagine her out in it, and turning to white with the touch of her silver toes to the snow beneath her.
She also reminds me of a harp seal. This photo is from yesterday, as she laid all relaxed and full of joy from the vision of snow. She takes on so many forms, but this photo captures her harp seal imitation, as I often call her. So perfect for the wintery snow scene… Flippers and all, which mom would likely do better with too, hehe!!
And this is our picture window that is like a portal to me into another world.
I watched the sun rise over the snow blanketed vista, this morning, creating cotton candy pink clouds and light. Then clouds danced across the Lake’s surface like steam rising and geese began to fly.
I even put my one bare foot in the snow on the deck for the first time and hobbled my way with my healing boot on the other across to the banister to take it all in.
Enchantment ran through me and tickled my heart with delight.
And as the pink clouds dispersed, everything turned to white and icy blue in the full light of morning. The clouds continued to dance and glide across the water like the world was upside down and the lake became the sky.
As above, so below.
I hope you enjoy these photos shared from this magickal portal to your own heart.
This is a post about joy, gratitude, and love – building blocks to manifesting a magickal and wondrous life and the foundations for supporting healing transmutation and implementation of passions into dreams come true. While some people might be thrown off balance or upset, down, and self-critical over a fracture (even the old me would have been too), I feel like everything is in flow, fresh, and thriving. Definitely some of that has to do with perspective, but it feels also to be about alignment and embrace of the harmonious spirals of life. I haven’t for a second felt anything other than harmony and gratitude since my hiking adventure that led to my injury, as it feels much more to be a reset aligned with life shifts, an igniting or opening (fissure) for the new to flow in, not to mention is mirroring the seasonal changes we’re going into from Summer to Autumn.
I can’t begin to tell you how beautiful things have been surrounding the onset of my fracture and what it has revealed and put into motion. It’s incredible to witness and review…in some ways mind-blowing because I can remember the difference in my processes over the course of my life with things and it’s so dramatically contrasting to what I experience now. This is how I can SEE things ARE in fact changing and can anchor in more and more gratitude.
I’d like to share a couple of updates and then some very beautiful and incredible experiences.
First off….more gratitude sent out to everyone who has sent their good and healing vibes my way and for sending Astrid birthday wishes. We so appreciate your love and I’d like to share that my foot is doing very well. I can’t believe it’s already going to be a week since it happened, come tomorrow! Time is literally whizzing by. OMGOSH!
I’ve made mental note of how my own nurturing processes are even in much higher gear, as I’m taking REALLY good care of myself with this fracture. I noted that last go-around I wasn’t as diligent with the process, although did do good things for it, but I didn’t baby my foot in the way I should have and still was focused on accomplishing and getting things done, rather than hunkering down into the full healing mode and not trying to see how much I could still squeeze out of it all.
This time it’s been pure healing, slow-down, and wise caution, not doing anything at all to inhibit my healing or see what I can possibly still do. I have been purely babying my foot, keeping my boot on at nearly all possible times (even when it bothered the Pisces me who likes my feet free! and even when I sleep) – and doing extra nurturing things, as well as making sure to ask for help, which Dave has been so sweetly pouring out anyway.
This has included long hours on the highest setting of my biomat for my foot the last few days and just recently starting up my comfrey poultices, after a friend picked up some for me since I couldn’t get out. Being my right foot, I’m in complete surrender of others taking care of me and driving me around….weeeeeee! That in the past would have bothered me and now I’m loving not being able to go anywhere and surrendering to that, but also enjoying the sweetness of support, love, and friendship.
Anyway, I am trying new poultices with comfrey root and this feels really symbolically and literally potent and even more aligned for me right now. I made a paste and wrapped in a thin cloth I placed in the freezer for just a bit….last night when I had it on it just felt so good….just like the biomat did….like aaahhhhhhh yummy healing for my foot.
The root feels so supportive of grounding, balancing, rooting, and Earthing that my Pisces feet can appreciate and integrate in a new way. After last night’s session of poultice while watching a movie, I literally woke this morning with my foot feeling stronger…literally!
I’ve also been doing Reiki on my foot and using a Selenite wand on the area of impact.
Good stuff, which I’ll continue to implement, along with wearing my boot all day (just as the doctor at the hospital told me too) other than when doing healing work like this to help compliment my healing process.
* (I’m not a doctor and nothing I share is offered as medical advice – CONSULT A PROFESSIONAL and see a doctor immediately if you have been injured. These are only my personal experiences I take responsibility for only for myself) *
Even my sweet Astrid has been helping. I thought she would be scared of my boot and crutches when I first came home with them, but she in fact was not and in fact has immediately gone about sharing her healing energy with me, reiterating my knowing she is a healing bunny. When ever I am near her, she will come over and nose my boot/foot, which is her way (all of my bunnies’ way) of administering healing. Their noses are a channel, just like our hands, to spread the energy and love. So sweet! I remember Nestor doing this, especially once for my mom in conjunction with me doing a Reiki Healing Attunement for her, which was like a super pow! Immediately shifted my mom into balance and feeling good. Astrid is definitely demonstrating the same power-packed punch!
So that’s a foot and healing update, which I envision continuing well and being speedy based on my experience with it so far and being a good patient. 😉
On another note, I have to share this incredible thing that happened on Thursday that blew me away. We had friends over since I still was in “stay home mode” and Dave had to go out to pick up food we ordered at our fav local Thai restaurant, since T – me – wasn’t cooking and staying off her feet.
A knock came at the door and I opened it to find no one there, except these beautiful babies and a note.
I immediately knew that our amazing friends had gone back to retrieve my crystal babies.
So, I’ll back up to help you understand this, as I likely wasn’t clear in my story of my hiking injury.
I had 2 big quartz in my back pack I was carrying, as they spoke to me needing to come home and would be a part of what I will be creating in the near future. We have guesstimated them to be at least 50 lbs. So, as you can tell, I was quite determined in carrying these for miles. It didn’t even phase me, as the mind is a miraculous thing. It also officially put me into back-packer status, carrying so much and being so small.
When I fell and went into trauma shock, I asked my friends to remove the pack immediately because I needed to focus on balancing from the nausea, shock, and turning white. (I really didn’t have any pain except an initial quick impact feeling of the break that was actually pretty subtle in comparison to my last fracture, but the body reacts this way to trauma impact).
In process of balancing and readying ourselves for what was next in getting me down the mountain, I told them to leave the crystals, which Dave reiterated, as it wasn’t as important as taking care of me, being that we didn’t know the severity of things.
So they were left on the side, and I did feel this underlying sadness, but also this odd sense of continued connection that wasn’t broken.
One other friend had been carrying a quartz too and she ended up leaving as well, down further on the path, to not impede her own journey back down.
Anyway, I hadn’t forgotten them and still felt this channel of connection between them, and oddly (which I never shared with anyone) I felt like they were still with me and/or would be somehow/some way, even if it meant they’d wait for me to return later or after the Winter thaw.
So fast forward to the door opening and there they were before me with the note.
I was overwhelmed with emotion that came forth later, as I was so excited and giddy that that took over.
I then caught glimpse to the left at the bottom of the stairs, one of our friends videoing me and my reaction and knew they’d gone back to get them.
Most of my reactions were in Faery laughter and astonishment, but it was also full of exhilaration and exuberant joy and gratitude that rushed through in realizing what incredible friends I had. Like so incredible you can’t even form words except to giggle forth with joy and to form joyous tears that bubbled in my eyes later when I was hugging them over and over.
Our friends had gone back that morning on a 5 hour hike JUST to retrieve my and our other friend’s 3 crystals (likely 60+ lbs and a gift or two they found for themselves for embracing the journey of love.
BESTEST friends ever!
They also shared with us these SO SO funny videos of documenting the journey back, which had us in belly laughs. I was especially laughing at our friend’s impression of me carrying the crystals in my pack and how I was still looking around at more and saying I can carry 1 or 2 more of these babies! This was funny because they now realized just how heavy the ones I had with me were, which made my saying this hilarious as to how my determined mind took over.
This photo puts into perspective the size of just the one largest one, which is of course the heaviest too. I’m still smiling though!!
The other VERY interesting thing they noted was that where I fell was exactly at the site of the quartz field we’d been waiting to reach. Dave kept saying there was another one because he’d been on the hike before, when the girls and I had stopped at the first one we found to look around. So he was telling us not to spend time because more were on the way. We never actually saw this other site, because my injury took over focus.
Well, on their way back to retrieve the crystals they found that where I fell (marked by where we left the crystals) was exactly where they were, just up the hill from there a bit. That gave me chills in thinking of the energetics of it all at work and the alignments igniting and activating once I’d reached this area infused with more crystal vibes.
The crystals are super special and you can’t even tell the beauty of them in the photos…their amazing color – one is pinkish and the other like a golden apricot – and both have all this sparkly clear quartz infusions into the raw natural quartz rock. Amazing specimens and masterful beings!!
I’m still overwhelmed by it and also anchoring in more and more gratitude and realization that this is the new reality I have created for myself (and that is possible) where everything in it is a reflection of alignment and love…supportive energies…beautiful souls working together for a greater good….everyone mindful of and helping each other’s needs and dreams, but also supporting their own and their dreams, which brings together the highest of vibes and the power of the collective to move mountains…..or in this case to carry 60+ lbs of crystals.
It literally has to be one of the most special things I’ve ever received..and I don’t mean the crystals (although I’m in awe and gratitude of them being with me), but the gesture of true love and friendship.
These same friends also picked up my comfrey for me (it even had a Tinkerbell on the bag from the store!) and brought over some amazing organic “dragonfly” spicy black chai.
After that, our other friends arrived and I was then gifted a mini wardrobe of clothes she was moving out and thought were perfect for me and they were!
I was/am really feeling the love and I know that this is mirroring the fact that I’ve finally really anchored in taking care of myself, listening to my dreams and needs too, and balancing out that martyr energy of always giving out and never receiving – not to mention have implemented healthy boundaries. In the past receiving was hard and now it feels natural because it IS the natural flow and cycle.
You can’t just give, give, give….and you can’t just receive, receive, receive…
There is a flow of exchange to be open to and grateful for and it is all-encompassing of both being inherent in the wholeness of BEING. That is also the nature of Reiki….a harmonious circuit of flow in and out, which if blocked in any way, is the cause of challenges and dis-ease.
Yesterday was my first full outing since fracturing my foot, which included errands related to the new, a hair appointment for me, visiting my parents, and Dave getting a haircut by my mom (she has been a beautician although doesn’t do it professionally anymore since leaving her birth place, France).
I was feeling high-vibed to get a refresh on my hair, which included cut/thinning for lightness and hair getting to all silver and brown (my roots), which feels SO different and SO good. There’s constantly this recreating energy taking place to keep up with the ever-shifting energies. If I’m not naturally shape-shifting, then I’m assisting it. I also thought it was fun that my stylist styled my hair with loose spirals for a change, which felt mirroring of all the snake energy around me lately and the spiraling of the journey of life in general. I don’t ever curl my hair, as I don’t have the tools and usually just let my hair dry naturally so this was a fun update although brief.
We also got good news on this day/yesterday for something that has been in the works and took a huge turn the day before that could have gone a whole other way, but I worked with the Faeries, Buffalo energy, and did a Reiki Healing Attunement for, resulting in being told to fully trust, know what we want, and take assertive stance of our needs and the rest would be taken care of…and it was!
I’m saving that for a future post, but is something very exciting to me and going to anchor in everything further and more richly.
Lastly, I am happy to say that my book is back on track with the time off my feet and I should be able to have exciting news on that too here shortly!
We are all in this together and bringing your best “foot” forward with all of your parts together in unified alignment, sharing lots of love, joyous infusion and supportive action of your passions, and a LOT of gratitude and healthy balance supports harmony to take form in relative ways for each of us.
Just a very short post to honor this incredible being who has graced my life with her presence and magick….Astrid. Today is her 3rd birthday and couldn’t come at a more wondrous time. The love and energy she has infused into my life has been an invaluable gift and means everything to me. I can’t begin to express all that she has assisted me with already and shifted in my life so quickly by her unexpected and very welcome arrival. All of my bunnies are pieces of the whole that make me, me. When they are with me I feel the essence of who I am.
So happy birthday to this beautiful, brave, magickal, mysterious, courageous, precious, hilarious, powerful, tender, incredible girl!! I couldn’t be more grateful that she chose me to be her partner and guardian and that I get to experience all these parts of her and more!
I have a very busy day today, but will post more about the surprises and gifts that have taken place hopefully this weekend.
This morning I woke to a sunrise that revealed our first snow already on the west side of the lake. A beautiful gift on this special day of celebration for Miss Magickal Astrid.
Not only is Autumn approaching quickly with cooler temperatures, rain storms, and even a wild funnel cloud a couple of days ago, but looks like Jack Frost is laying claim to an early winter this year.
Astrid woke me this morning, jumping on the bed next to my head full of excitement for her day. I was sure to get up and give her a big bunch of dandelion, cilantro, carrot tops and mint for breakfast. More goodies to come later and promises of surprises in store for her in the coming months from mom….can’t wait!
Have a bunderful day and a hoppy birthday sweet spirit and love of my heart.
As I continue to observe the collective energies, I am also constantly observing my own and both the reflections and contrasts that compliment and synergize the journey unfolding. I’m fascinated at the process and how I’ve been led to shift in ways of incorporating the macro within the micro experience…the wholeness of All That Is residing in the way I integrate and transmute energies as an experience of my own remembering and healing empowerment. I continue to go through shifts in my perspective on so much, which has changed the course I have been on and resulted in complete shifts of the way of life I once knew and committed to, to something altogether different. This has definitely led me to release a lot from my life and to understand the repetitive cycling nature of my focuses that needed to come to full circle closure once and for all.
And as always, these take on forms in the physical, as well as the energetic realms. And I see how rebirthing is a totality of experience that even transforms how I look because of the inner changes that take root. I can look back over the course of my life and just by seeing photos of myself, my physical form, hair colors and styles, clothing, demeanor, facial and eye color shifts, I can tell you the story of what I was embodying within.
I don’t know on the conscious level what I’m doing always when I make these changes, as it seems to be an inner knowing that takes hold without need to understand…they simply begin to take form because I have this strong urging, inspiration, and impulse that says do this! even if I can’t understand fully why or that it seems odd to what I’ve known of myself thus far.
This has been evolving in the last several months with my hair – believed my many Native Americans to be the spirit’s physical manifestation of growth that opens/enhances extrasensory perception and symbolizes connection to all things, as if like tentacles reaching out to the world around us.
Without meaning to, my hair has increased in lightness, as I’ve continued to support the dramatic “silver lining” of it to come through in the physical. This started slowly, but as you can see in the photos, has taken over about 75% of my hair. I still have the dark underlining – symbolic of both light and dark existing together and both a part and separate to each other – but now this halo of lightness pervades.
I’ve never been drawn to light hair for myself really, but something has definitely shifted with that and because of the silver essence, I am feeling at home in it, likely because of the Cosmic reflections/implications and not simply Earth-based ones inherent in it for me.
But symbolically, it also speaks to the rebirthing energy abound – for me, so many others, and the collective at large. There indeed seems to be an identity shift going on to more expansive ways of being and embodiment. I’m noticing it in many people I know and have discussed this with Laura who also is in process of her own shift in this regard – yet to be determined.
Perhaps many of you will identify with this as well and the journey I’m sharing will speak to your own transformations taking root on many levels.
For me, I’ve always been drawn to the dark….hence my dark, black sacred tattoos and for many many years having black hair (my natural is a medium/dark brown, which is the darker areas you see between the silver in the photos)…interestingly my skin also easily browns and can get very dark/even has gone quite black from the sun throughout my life.
I see this as the journey I’ve embarked on in knowing my shadow and being willing to also take on that energy for the collective in reflection to help bring things to the surface. It also speaks to me of the ancient connections, roots, and heavier/intense layers of soul history and within my DNA that I was led on a journey to dig deeply into, research, reclaim and understand in a new way – some of this being a pattern of recycling, but then finally breaking free of it.
And in mirror of the fluidity of life now being experienced and a shift into more lightness and gentle flow with things, I can see very clearly why this lightness has taken over my Crown Chakra.
Light haired – light hearted, as Laura mentioned, which was actually an auto-correct typo in texting with her that made much sense. 😉
That is definitely what I am feeling, as the heaviness has dissipated – even with all of the intensities in the collective right now. Perhaps that would seem odd to feel that, but since change begins with us and collective harmony will be a result of that peace within, I don’t find it surprising.
And yet this lightness is a new revisiting on the spiral of evolution, although exquisitely familiar. It feels infused with something fresh, inspiring, inviting, and full of creative potential.
It has not forgotten its parts.
It knows its wholeness.
And it contains sound seeds of harmonic confluence.
A field of dreams we have entered and reality is yours to dream into Being.
Yet be wary of what you intend to manifest, as it WILL.
I increasingly am seeing how responsible co-creation is of the essence. (something else Laura and I have discussed a lot)
Along with harnessing increasing power and magick, one must be conscious of the ramifications inherent in that experience and its far-reaching effects.
I remind myself constantly about seeing things from as many possible angles and probably potentials, and making sure to incorporate the highest good of all concerned in everything, as well as to be specific as to what I DON’T want to happen in order for my manifestations to take form, just as much as what I would love.
Dream big, but dream responsibly!