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The Tree Beckoned & I Followed


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No footprints had yet to touch this winter wonderland and the only signs of life were the trees bowing to the presence of the snow, the creek rolling swiftly by and spiraling over rock beings that welcomed the water’s caress, crystals sparkling in the white blankets all around, and a wood pecker who was intuiting where to create a portal in the tree he had chosen.

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This stillness was loud and the solitude was welcoming.

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Incredible surrealism enveloped this enchanted realm, as we made our own path through the magickal forest and over an arm of the creek, traversing a tree limb packed with snow that provided a bridge to the “other side”.

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It was there, off path a bit, that a lone giant caught my eye. I veered off the path I’d been following behind Dave, as it beckoned me closer, which meant making my way through thigh high snow.

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After getting about half way, I noticed Dave was far ahead and knew I should catch up, so I told the tree I would be back.

We stopped where the wood pecker showed up at the foot of a tree, feeling that was the place to turn around and so we made our way back and I told Dave we needed to return to the magick tree I’d found, as I promised.

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This time I went the whole way, hearing the tree call me to step inside. Once reaching the tree I discovered there was a deep hole to step down into, as the snow had piled up outside of it. So in I stepped without hesitation, knowing this is what it had desired.

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Dave captured the journey within this portal, along with many little orbs that filled the inside of the tree, with one larger one showing up.

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Some almost look like snow, they are so white. And yet it was not snowing and I was inside the dark shelter of this giant.

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If you peer closely you can see all of these tiny orbs moving around inside from frame to frame, from top to bottom of the portal, all around me, some on me, and then the much larger one above me.

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This is why the tree beckoned, for my Faery friends and the Nature Spirits awaited.

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Activation complete.

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Magick abound.

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WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

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There are whispers of magick everywhere, if you listen.

Joy to the World


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We are having a lovely, although very whirlwindish vacation back in Southern California, which I’ll share more of the fun and magick of when I return home and have the time to get the photos I’ve been collecting of our memories here together. But for now, on this special day I just wanted to share something dear to my heart and some Christmas Eve wishes from my and Joy’s hearts to yours.

Today happens to not only be Christmas Eve, but is also the birthday of my sweet rabbit, Joy, who would have been 13 this year.

She reminds me of many things and has been so profoundly around the last week or so with messages and showing up for me and others I know in known or unknown ways.

Today is a reminder of celebrating the inner child and possibilities available to us when we vulnerably share our hearts and embody the integrity of our essence. Joy taught me this and so much more as my companion, guide, and teacher in life. She also taught me to listen within and to trust the messages in and all around me, and that balance was key to living a life of harmony and grace.

There have been some very auspicious events around Joy the last two days and one of which was a sweet message I received this morning that I just had to share because it touched my heart so and again pointed to Joy’s profound reach and messages she is wanting to impart. I won’t share the person who sent it, but here is the message that meant a lot to me:

“To dear Tania, Happy Christmas Eve to you and all your loved ones. You have been and are an inspiration in my life and will now be an inspiration to all others in my life because you have caused a massive ripple. Your way of living has helped bring back the hope in my life which lost me for a while. Yesterday I watched a film which I had thought about watching for a while, but didn’t until yesterday. I watched it because the name of the film was Joy. I followed the magic which the universe in all it’s magical ways was trying to show me. The film is about a lady who despite having everything thrown against her made her dream come true. So now I will follow my dream and be strong. So thank you to you and all your beautiful friends and loved ones with all of my heart. In this moment, I am happy and that is what counts. This moment. I hope to always see your magical pictures you post. Blessings to you. Peace to you, love and Prosperity to you.”

This was my response:

“I can’t express to you enough how reading this message this morning touched me so. Wow! What a beautiful share from you. It made me so happy to hear that you are feeling a sense of renewal and inspired zest for life. This is incredible and if I had any tiny bit of a part in that, I am grateful for that ability to have connected in a meaningful way that makes a difference. Also, you may not be aware, but today, Xmas eve, would have been my rabbit Joy’s birthday…so your message was truly profound, as the film you saw had her name and she’s been so strongly around and sending me messages…now this…It shows how she is also still working her magick as the powerful one that she is, touching others as she always has…and speaks to our connection.”

You may remember I had a dream about Joy the night before the Christmas celebration with my family and then I saw in large letters the lit up word “JOY” on the window across the street of my parent’s house, as a neighbor’s decorative display.

And something else I’ll share more about when I’m home that happened yesterday too. Plus, another friend sharing how much Joy, along with my other loves were around her and felt so much, Laura also sharing how she and my other two bunnies had a hand in some gifts for me, and gifts from two other friends yesterday that she and my bunny loves were a part of.

Then this.

I hear you Joy and I hope that your message and presence will continue to shine a light of love into everyone’s hearts as you have mine for eternity.

May you all know and embody “joy” and wonder today and all the days of your life and may peace be your constant companion.

 

Solstice Magick


Yesterday’s Winter Solstice truly was a portal shifting one reality into another with so many truly magickal events culminating all in the same day that all went beautifully and couldn’t have aligned more perfectly. I wasn’t the only one who had felt this was going to be a powerful transition time and indeed it was. Not to mention had synchronous mergings all around.

I also felt that my bunny loves would have a hand in it all and so they did.

Without going into too much detail, yesterday not only saw an era end and begin with the Magick Bus being purchased by the most lovely couple and perfect new family for her, but saw Dave’s dad through a very successful surgery, there were two very special events that took place and were celebrated with a birthday and a union, my parents and we had some solidification of new anchored, we received more clarity on our living/housing situation, snow faery flurries of snow started off the day and created a wonderland fit for the Solstice, I created a Winter Solstice crystal grid with new crystals that will be utilized in some upcoming cosmic/faery/shamanic creations (this was a way to activate them set with the backdrop of the perfect Christmas card my parents gave me, as you can see having the words “A Gift…A Joy…A Miracle”):

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I had prophetic dreams the night before of one of the events that took place and had smelled what seemed like roses and carnations (some kind of flowers for sure – the floral fragrance was so strong) wafting in the air during the time it was to happen that no one else could smell around me even though I was no where near the event (this felt like timelines merging and portals accessed), and I found the perfect private beach in Zephyr Cove (perfect name too) for some of Cosmo’s ashes to be spread on the lake per his wishes on this day, as his beloved Joy and dear friend Nestor had had theirs.

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I even found confirming gifts of a white quartz stone shaped like a heart, and a lovely feather, on the beach just before reaching the stone pools where I lovingly dusted 5 small pinches of Cosmo’s Earthly beingness into a sacred little pool created by some of the beautiful, prehistoric rock formations of the lake.

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There were other tie-ins with Cosmo and the Magick bus that made this day and events around these, to be much more than just symbolic, but also divinely orchestrated.

But back briefly to the Magick Bus. Dave and I never attached to any one person who would contact us to see her, as we knew when things were right they would just happen magickally. Plus, I’d already done a Reiki healing attunement on it all, so there was no reason to think in that way.

That said, I did have this sense that since these people wanted to see it on the Solstice, were driving all the way from Santa Rosa (4 hours away), which was the same place where the people who flew down and bought my Hunab Ku SUV outright for the exact price I asked were from, and I had the intention it would go before the end of the year, and maybe even before we left for our Christmas trip, it did seem auspicious.

Not to mention, it was the day I had Cosmo’s ashes with us and he and Joy had been actively working on bringing the right people to her.

My next indication was when the woman and I immediately learned that we shared the same favorite number and have had it our favorite since childhood – the number 5, which also so happens to always be a sign and message of confirmation from my beloved Nestor.

And more synchronicities came up during our conversations with the couple, which were uncanny. Then we were surprised by them offering us the exact amount we were asking, which had been the same with my car.

We were all just so grateful, as not only had they searched a long time for the right RV home, but we had intended the right people who would love and care for her in the same way. And we all discovered how we shared being meticulous people and how that was what sold them and what also one of the things that made us feel the Magick Bus was in wonderful caring hands. Yay!

AND, on the way to where we have the Magick Bus stored, we saw 18 hawks, which make a 9 for endings, numerologically. Then after our shaking/hugging on the whole thing and leaving, we saw 1 hawk for new beginnings. 19 total, also creating the merging of endings and beginnings in its 1 and 9 combination, but when added equaling a 1 again.

Needless to say, it was a day of big celebrations all around, bitter sweetness, and wonderful endings and beginnings.

We are now en route (yes, another road trip – 8 hours this time and with the kitty babies along for the ride) since this early morning after Solstice to Southern California for a long Christmas celebration feeling full in heart with love and gratitude for the incredible gifts received for the highest good of all.

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I took this photo this morning at 7:30 am right when we’d gotten on the road. It was such a mystical view of the sun behind golden veils of mist and snow clouds. So mysterious! At times you could see the full sun behind a very thin veil with a soft golden halo around, against white blankets of clouds and lighting the tips of the snow covered trees in lemony gold. Stunning!

I’m not sure I’ll have time to blog until we return home Monday the 26th, but if I do it will be a brief message of holiday wishes.

Until then, I hope you enjoy the beautiful photos of my Solstice magick, as I always love to spread the energetic vibes and love to each of you. A way to share life from my perspective and to connect us across space and time.

Christmas at the Faery Folks’ Magick Castle


Yesterday we spent our first Christmas celebration of the season with my family at their Faery wonderland home and on this day we also surpassed our 27 hawks and a transitioned owl we saw on Thanksgiving with seeing 32 hawks and an owl taking to flight. Incredible! The night before I was visited by my rabbit, Joy, who was sending me a message, as my little ones often do, asking me to “listen” to something coming. And her message received reiteration when we pulled up to my parent’s house and directly across the street their neighbor’s Christmas decorations included a huge lit up word on their front window – “JOY”. Joy’s Earthly birthday just so happens to be on Christmas Eve, so I’m keeping an “ear” out, just as she showed me in my dream. I’d also picked up a collection of small crystals at the store before heading to my parent’s house, which I’ll be using in some home-made and nature-potent magick tools and relics I’ll be creating come the New Year. Anyway, I’d forgotten my cell at home, so only had my small Nextbook laptop to snap some okay photos of just some of the enchantment at my family’s home. My parents are big on decorating throughout all the seasons and holidays of the year and truly enjoy making things magickal, warm, and inviting with each room having a theme -there’s Toyland, Traditional Christmas, White Winter Wonderland, Santa’s Village, and more. I forget how many Christmas trees they have, but it’s a lot! And their collection of Santas and Nutcrackers surpasses what they actually put out in the house (this collection includes our first Nutcracker, which was actually mine from a child that was not only my secret boyfriend and “prince” while growing up, but had been my Nutcracker when I starred as Clara in the Nutcracker ballet I did when a little girl). I found it interesting that the photo of the nutcrackers below has this odd yellow band of energy that crosses through their crown chakras – no that’s not a painted stripe on the wall hehe! We had a really fun and cozy gathering, sharing nurturing gifts all around, and we returned home stocked with meals and goodies to carry us through until we depart Thursday for Southern California for our continued Christmas celebrations. Mom made a Greek-themed Christmas dinner and dad did his usual gourmet baking of mincemeat pie (loaded with apples, cranberries, raisins, candied ginger and more), cranberry spiced oatmeal cookies, rosettes, and apple dumplings. I even had a chance to snuggle up to Santa himself, and whisper my wishes into his ear. 😉 And my brother gifted us with some astrological readings, which confirmed and empowered the transitions I’ve made in my own life recently and connected the dots with big a-ha’s as to why I have recreated my life as such. Grateful for the love and magick that pervades my life.

Wishing everyone some holiday warmth and enchantment, but above all peace to your hearts. From my family to yours, I share these photos with love.

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Me and Santa – I was wearing my original vintage “Beatrix Potter” Peter Rabbit sweater and Faery rabbit with crown necklace to connect with my bunny loves

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Oops! There I am in the portal mirror 😉

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White Winter Wonderland room with tree that sits next to the original painting I created of a Venice scene from their trip there, which I gifted my parents as an anniversary gift

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I love the staircase, which is Toyland, where my parents line one staircase with poinsettias, another with Santas, and the top with Nutcrackers, with the Toyland animals and tree on the first landing (includes several stuffed bunnies and bears, which used to all be mine)

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The portal glass-etched door shows up in the peacock painting

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Odd yellow band of energy across the crowns of these magickal nutrackers. The far right one is the first, original one that I danced with as Clara.

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You can still see that band of yellow behind the tree, which is where the nutrackers are on the top landing…this is my dad’s mini desk tree of his loft office

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Supermoon Magick


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I didn’t have a chance to post these yesterday, but now that I have a few more photos to add I thought today would be perfect. These are some photos from Sunday before the Supermoon, during the heightened time of the Supermoon, and the day of, as well as morning after (today).

So many magickal things showed up like 6 ladybugs on the water at my favorite spot in Lake Tahoe where I put Joy’s and Nestor’s ashes, a peace and love sign we stumbled upon that were created in pine cones in the forest that lit up with dancing light and colors in the camera lens, but weren’t there in the dusk hour otherwise, amazing essence of the Moon I caught when I woke in the middle of the night and morning of its fullness, so many crystalline light energies and rays the day after that even a duck couple were calling our attention to, and more!

I’ll let you enjoy them without any further descriptions, so you may absorb the energies along with me.

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Magickal Alignments & Manifestations


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We’ve officially moved into our new place this past Sunday 11/6 and it’s been quite a busy several days both leading up to the move and since, with still more to go as we not only complete the full transition, but get the Magick Bus prepped for storage and selling. It’s amazing how easy it is, on an emotional and mental level, to transition from home to home for us, which mirrors the ease and joy we experienced waking up in new cities, states, and national parks over the last year. Fluidity has become our way of life and change continues to be my best friend.

So many beautiful alignments have shown up, making us know that we’re in the right place, that the guidance and message I received to come here were loud and clear, and that all things are aligned, not to mention reflect a continuation of magickal manifestation ramping up increasingly.

More and more I’m seeing that all of the hard work I’ve invested over the years and beyond is coming full circle in beautiful blessings.

It was hard for so long to have only belief fueling my journey, but that consistent commitment to knowing within myself that everything I was doing was in fact part of the beauty of life, regardless of where I found myself along the way in process, has changed the perspective of that journey to enjoyment and brought me to a place of creating with greater ease and flow….Gifts in abundance for my patience and willingness to implement new processes with the growth I embraced.

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This included a beautiful email message the day before we moved in from our new landlord, which carried the energy of the way I speak and was so full of light, not to mention, mirrors just what I had felt from the place.

Here’s the message:

“I am confident you will both enjoy your winter stay at the le Chateaux Dans le Ceil! There is a lot of magic, beauty and positive energy here. Namaste, Brian”

It made me feel that we had a lot more in common than we knew and that proved true when on the day of our move and meeting with him again he shared with me that on our first meeting he felt I looked so familiar.

I thought, perhaps a past life bleed through (which I still in fact feel), but he mentioned then that after he thought he knew me from somewhere that he’d looked on Facebook and saw that we were in fact friends there with many shared friends.

He further continued to say that he and his wife were also Reiki Masters and studied under William Lee Rand.

Hehe! Talk about magickal manifestations…not only to be in this beautiful home, but to attract such positive energy.

He went on to say that he had Reiki’d the whole place…Yes, that’s why Dave and I both immediately felt good and inspired right away from first seeing it. I had in fact known it was the one for us and felt the energy just from the photos online.

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We also discovered how the owner and I both had the same little art travel case, both loved Ankhs (he saw my Ankh ring tattoo, which opened that dialogue), and both were creatives and far from techy people.

He and his wife had built and decorated the place to be like a Santorini cliff house all in white with touches of aquas and with underwater sea life paintings throughout, which is perfect for this Pisces and both Dave and I being Water signs, not to mention I’ve been to Santorini and loved it, of course the all-white has mirrored dream and cosmic journey sequences for me I’ve had that were profound, and the aqua is my favorite color.

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They also had created this place to be very relaxing with everything you’d need to live a truly nurtured and inspired life all self-contained to include things like an outdoor jacuzzi on the deck and an indoor sauna – all great for after ski, hiking, or simply wanting to soak in life.

There’s even a wonderful gas fireplace as the main heating element for the cozy 1000 square feet that’s on a thermostat so now and then, including in the night and morning, the lovely flames will go on and added to the views from every window and open floor plan, it really is incredible.

Anyway, we got to enjoy our first night and morning in our new retreat home on Sunday, which came after a big day of moving ourselves in.

There are 105 (yes I counted them) steps to reach our little “castle in the sky”, which is also like a wonderful tree house in the clouds surrounded by tree spirits at nearly 7500 elevation.

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I guess I must be in shape as we’ve now done nearing 3 d0zen trips up and down, so far, carrying heavy loads and boxes, but it is so worth it.

And we took advantage of the jacuzzi on our first night after dinner I made overlooking the city lights around the lake and viewing the moon and stars.

I knew that Cosmo, although not physically with us, was and has been so present in this whole process, along with my other loves, in  helping to bring this all together and were in the stars twinkling at us from above.

How I’ve missed him nonetheless, wishing he could have physically experienced our new home, but I know in every way he is with us enjoying it in a more expansive way and is my angel presiding over the magick in my life with Joy, Nestor, and Gaia. I am just so grateful I had the chance to take him to the lake, as I promised him so he could take it all in.

Every time I look out at the lake, he is with me, as all my loves are, since we’ve all shared this place and these views together at one time or another.

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I don’t think we’re going to get tired of the view here in our new sanctuary, nor all of the nurturing things this beautiful home has to offer us, and i feel so excited to get settled and jump back into my writing once we’re fully settled. Oh, how my imagination is flying!

We also have my friend Janet coming out to Lake Tahoe this Friday for the weekend on her way back home to visit and spend some time exploring and hiking the area with us, which is new to her and her sweet little dog, Daisy. You may remember that she traveled with us for several weeks during our time in Wyoming and Montana. Then she went to my friend Hillary’s new ranch where she’s been since July helping out with things there.

Anyway, this is the perfect place for me to hibernate surrounded in inspiration for the next 6 months and I’ll soon be fully immersed in my new life of which we are so grateful for.

Our lives have been such a gift in every way, and especially magickal since the day we said goodbye to our home and way of life in Orange County and jumped in the Magick Bus.

Indeed it is a “Magick Bus”, as its brought so much incredible beauty and richness to our lives and opened us to unlimited and expansive possibilities, where we are constantly updating our thinking and aligning more with our feelings and essence.

Autumn’s Warm Embrace ~ A Magickal Day at Fallen Leaf Lake & Lake Tahoe


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I even found a giant naturally carved magick sword at the lake’s edge, which was massively heavy, although I managed to pick it up feeling myself back in Arthurian times and reminding me of the Sword in the Stone legend.

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I giggled with joking seriousness to Dave, “does this mean I’ve reclaimed my power?”

I hope you enjoy an Autumn immersion and visual walk through the beauty of our day.

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Field of Stardust Dreams


Cosmic puffs of dandelions consumed me in wondrous inspiration.

Like whirling dervishes of eternal magick, they enchanted me into the dance.

The portal to a field of stardust dreams was opened and enchanting mysteries invoked alchemy within.

A rich truth was awakened without need to understand.

Any wish I had, I could command.

Welcome back the Faeries giggled.

 

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The Bond that Never Breaks ~ Love Transcends All Perceived Boundaries


Joy is alive and strong in our lives and that especially is so for little Cosmo. Her stuffed bunny friend whom she enchanted with life and magick with her love, just like the Velveteen Rabbit, is now enchanting Cosmo’s days. This rabbit she brought to life is infused with her essence (especially so in her last days before departing) and is a gateway for her to physically remain close and provide Cosmo with the warmth of tangible companionship, alongside the magickal presence, guidance, support, and love she is infusing our journey with daily.

It is a gift to have the dynamic trio of Joy, Nestor, and Gaia working with us from the otherworld.

And Joy, Cosmo, and I still remain a team of potent trinity energy, but it warms my heart to know that Cosmo is still receiving what he desires and needs on all levels.

Love is eternal, transcendent, and magickal indeed.

Here is Cosmo loving and cleaning his best friend, as he always has. Warms my heart knowing and seeing how Joy is literally so near beyond what I feel, sense, and receive telepathically.

This isn’t sad. It’s a reminder that the bonds are eternal and that life is all around us even if we can’t “see” it physically with our eyes.

 

Moving In Between Worlds & Into New Realities ~ Change Takes Root In Unknown But Welcome Ways


As we prepared to leave this incredible little mountain town haven, known to some as the Switzerland of America, nestled between the snow capped San Juan Mountains (a mountain range within the Rocky Mountains) in a river valley at nearly 8,000 feet, I’m feeling the rooting of another shift and the opening of that new door that has invited me in.

This is the first time I feel a bit of sadness to leave a place (yet full in heart), as although we’ve only been here three days, Ouray has been the epitome of our nurturing Mother Earth reflecting the realm I adore that is most reflective of the world from which my roots grow.

It has definitely been a place of relaxing and purifying, as well as opening to receiving the communication and inspiration from that magickal otherworld I needed.

The natural hot springs that feed the town pool at center, offer the therapeutic cleansing and renewal to wash away and release so that one can receive more clearly the messages and callings.

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Ouray is named after the Ute Indian, Chief Ouray, who is said to have visited the pool often, holding ceremonies in the local vapor cave.

The area is surrounded by quaking aspen and evergreen scrub oaks, which I can only imagine would be amazingly brilliant in autumn, so it’s no wonder people would be drawn here in each wonderfully shifting season.

Since we came in between seasons (seems fitting to the in between worlds I will speak of more), arriving just as things opened – May 1st was the official RV park opening – it created a sanctuary of solitude to renew in and explore all to ourselves. Not to mention, was a perfect transition from one reality to another.

And with the on and off rain, river, and waterfalls, it has been pure flow that matches my Pisces nature, bringing me more into alignment with my essence.

As we keep a mental, heart, (and actual paper) note of the things we love and how we feel in each area, this place helps me to know clearly what I am looking for and needing in our home landing spot at the end of this journey.

There is definitely a sacredness here in Ouray that speaks to that other worldly part of me that felt closer to that realm with doorways all around to slip in and out of.

And that in fact happened on several occasions, but most tangibly when Black Fox slipped through.

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I mentioned her in a previous post, and shared photos in yesterday’s photo blog, but I feel to draw attention to her once again here briefly, as she ties in to the messages received and a Tarot card I pulled yesterday that summed things up for me.

Seeing and connecting with Black Fox was a mystical encounter that still brings chills to me each time I look at the photos I was able to capture of her.

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She ran directly across our path – a path, mind you, that we had first taken, but then doubled back to take a different one, as the one we were on we discovered would have added another hour or two, to our already 6 miles, that we decided we couldn’t do in order to get back for things. The trail says it’s only 4.2 miles, but that turned out to be misleading, as it wasn’t the full loop.

Anyway, we had started ascending again to the last part of the loop when we decided to turn around and right before getting back to the other trail where it forked, that’s when Black Fox caught our attention by crossing our path. A meeting created by our shifting paths at precisely the right moment.

I figured she’d run off, as they normally hide and camouflage themselves. And being night creatures, usually are seen at dawn and dusk, so in the middle of the day was unusual.

But when I looked to the right, there she was by a tree, curiously hanging out and not in the least bit interested in leaving. The more we looked at her and connected, the more she sat there and peered into our eyes.

She was so magickal and hauntingly beautiful with those piercing eyes peering from her all black body with only a white-tipped tail. Her fine features and large pointed ears stood out, as she watched from the shadows of her tree.

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As mentioned in my earlier post, they are very rare and said to be a genetic flaw that dates back hundreds of years where the red fox stays black (pups are darker when born).

She was mesmerizing and definitely other worldly with a subtle aura glow all around her.

This was no chance experience, but a deliberate encounter from this shape shifter who had emerged from another realm, indicating a cross over between worlds and dimensions had opened, and was accessible – bringing me back to the Dwarf door in the mountain that was inviting me in the day before.

The world of magick and every day realities had crossed paths and this creature of the in between times and places is a guide into the Faery realm and beyond.

Her black coat spoke of deep mysteries and the hidden shadows revealed, of the Cosmic Abyss, shamanism (which has been at the forefront these days), working with the benevolent powers of both light and dark, and knowing oneself in the truest of ways.

The message she had was, and still is integrating, but when I pulled my Faery Oracle card yesterday, things became more clear.

Here’s the card and message:

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Well, that was so on point with what I’d been experiencing and feeling, not to mention Unicorn has been around a lot too.

And things are not always what they seem, as our “eyes” can be deceiving.

Black Fox was a counterpart to Unicorn…her white tipped tail indicating the cross over and connection, not to mention the small white orb that appeared in one of the photos by her white tipped tail.

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When we see with our true inner eye, the answers are there.

I’ve read that many see the Black Fox as both an omen of misfortune/”bad” luck AND an omen of “good” luck and magickal things.

One must look in their own heart to receive the truth, as all things edge on the reality of your perception.

This also felt connected to Cosmo, his being black and white, and his feeling to be the integrating factor needed also for what is channeling through.

He’s an integrating energy connected with Nestor and Joy as a Trinity as well….and a Trinity of energies between me and Joy too.

His recent illness of pneumonia has also been a timely process of sharing the message of not forgetting our parts in order to take in the full breath of life…to nurture and cultivate the feminine within is to also nurture and cultivate the masculine, and vice versa. It is not an isolated journey.

Cosmo has been like a missing link I needed, as he personifies the new Sacred Male in Divine partnership with the Sacred Female, reminding us not to forget his importance in this Great Cosmic Romance.

I have had my own built-in challenges and judgments over time with the Male, but it was from the old conditioning and DNA programming, but not from a place of true grace and reverent understanding.

After coming to know the true Sacred Male through my relationship with Cosmo and his to Joy and life itself, I have seen HIS power in how he brings forth and supports the Sacred Female into HER true power.

It is NOT just about the feminine, but the harmony dance and sacred song sung together with the masculine…it is both and beyond both, but to know the beyond one must know each in their true and pure power.

Back to the Faery Oracle card, it talks about how Unicorn is going into the etheric realms to ask the creatures too long in hiding to come forth (Black Fox) and let themselves be known again and that they are safe with the “maiden” – me – and vice versa…so that we may share in the work together and meet in the in between places to communicate.

I also had mentioned recently that my creative project – writing – had taken a pause for a while, as there has been a lot to integrate and receive, and I’d felt challenged with the message, unable to do it justice, feeling I was still needing to go through my personal experiences in order to access what’s next, and unclear until a new door appeared where I would be led and then back in writing flow from this new unventured place of pure channeled inspiration I would only know when I was there.

It didn’t feel right in Utah to continue writing but I had this sense that somewhere in Colorado would provide the doorway, which it has.

An initiatory process has been taking place and after the time spent at the ruins in Mesa Verde, a vision quest had resulted in retrieving a key to that door.

And opened it has, here in Ouray…and like the waters flowing abundantly all around me while staying there, I can feel the inspiration flowing and I’m ready to receive the channeling of insights and communication from my magickal friends near and far.

The card shares that the Unicorn brings the power of the written word and communicates the tale to be told and that their original language is pictorial – which is how I work in visions and creative windows of artistic expression.

The card continues to say that if it has appeared to you while embarking on a creative project like writing and had felt a hindrance that Unicorn will help if asked, to fill you with inspiration and guidance, as well as is help to connect with your magickal free spirited self. Unicorn is a symbol of ancient magicks rising and I did say that magick was afoot with Black Fox appearing, not to mention the ancient energy experiences at the Anasazi ruins.

And so this reiterates what I’d felt so strongly in Mesa Verde when I had the crown chakra expansion and opening (likely preparing me for this new line of communication for another level of channeling needed) that change was upon me again.

It had been slowly building, but hit me with that deep cellular release as to what was going to be necessary for this next leg of the journey.

And the card continues to share that a purification is taking place within and without…that has been unfolding indeed. And increased with the crown chakra opening and my time in cleansing Ouray.

A detoxifying of my environment, which to me feels to speak to needing to withdraw some more to follow my life path. This also connects with the message of being a peaceful activist for change that the card heralds and this journey we’re on in the Magick Bus as a way to spread that peace and healing to the Earth in the way that I can.

The card’s message includes helping and purifying the environment, which is something I do energetically, with sound and Reiki, as well as creatively by creating tangible works and more aligned personal embodiment that reflect the reality I want to experience and a beautification process of returning to natural origins and harmony.

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Synchronously, yesterday we took a stroll along the river walk just out front of our RV. It was raining and the river was rolling. We walked about two miles, although it extends longer, feeling refreshed, and by the end our outer clothing completely soaked with that cleansing.

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Along the walk there were interpretative placards that shared about the river restoration that the city of Ouray has been implementing to bring it back into abundance and harmony for the wildlife and surroundings.

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That reflection felt symbolic of my own soul restoration back into natural harmony taking place.

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We each have our roles and parts to play and mine is definitely as an “as within, so without” process in constantly holding that mirror up to Nature and the world at large to make those adjustments in reflection.

The doors between worlds are growing wider and wider, the message continues in the oracle card, and that feels accurate, as where the veils were thick and life seemed a struggle, there is greater ease in walking between those realms, not just through dream and meditation time, but as a tangible reality.

This card literally speaks to what is unfolding and felt to be a messenger of reiteration and support that my feelings were accurate on what is next.

I’m going to be a little more “in between” worlds myself now again, as I am needing to go to places more fully to receive what the open door is ready to channel through.

Ouray felt for me to be the symbolic and literal reflection of this in between world, transitioning me into a new and unknown, but familiar realm in order to receive knew learning and wisdom I will be humbled student and channel to.

And like the Sibyls, from which the ancient heritage within me is rooted, who lived hidden and out of reach in order to filter the energies that accessed them so they could remain devoted to the sacred purity of their connection with Mother Earth and the Cosmos through sound, there is a place within me calling for that path….

moving in and out, at times unreachable, and yet ever more connected.

While I am not fully removing myself, like I did on my 3 month sabbatical, I am removing myself much more than I’ve been in the last several months since returning and do feel I’m in a form of sabbatical indeed with this Magick Bus journey in totality, but the form just keeps shifting as to how that looks.

I have been sharing a lot of the journey to assist, inspire, and reflect any resonance and support for others on a pretty much daily basis, but this will be shifting to a limited sharing.

I do not have any official number of times I will post or not, but likely will be something like one – two times a week only so that I can spend more time in the other world for the time being in order to create what feels soul necessary.

But know that while I am here or there, I am fully present.

Which reminds me of a quick conversation via text I had with Laura this morning where we were reflecting on how our physical forms have shifted from our waif forms and partially-here-presence to much more solid, heavier bodies of natural form that enable us to truly be in this world and richly Earth connected, yet still not of it.

I commented that we were not fully embodied, although ancient and knowledgeable…the wisdom through integration is only now starting to truly shine forth, as it does for everyone who deepens into what it truly means to actively know and live that knowledge. And it will continue to deepen and shine the more it is fully integrated.

She said it was like we were “seeds with unlocked potential” to which I replied, “yep, seedlings into trees, grounded and rooted, but also expanding out and beyond.”

And isn’t that what we all are and how this journey is unfolding for us all?

As above, so below.

And so in my own life I have seen how the energy needs to shift and while I am not removing myself from connection and communication altogether, in many ways I will not be as responsive and do have to place more boundaries on my time and energy exerted in answering all the emails and messages received. As well as need to monitor my energy and time diligently.

I love you all dearly, so much so that I know this is what is most supportive right now in the bigger picture to do and so even though at time it feels odd since it is different than what others or even I might think this time of my life might be like, especially in terms of being in a personal #1 year, I in fact am doing what that is about, which honors the essence of new beginnings in all ways.

So while I’m not cutting things off, I will be more silent and I will not be as accessible physically/visually speaking for an unknown period needed.

I will still post blogs, but on a limited basis.

I will still share video inspirations and sound channelings on a limited basis, as well as still be offering the personal sound channelings I shared are available to those who are called.

But I’ll only be available on a limited, as needed basis, and will limit blog shares.

For anyone on Facebook, the same applies there, although will seem more dramatic, as the only shares will be blog updates that post there automatically and only important updates.

I thank all of my beautiful friends and supportive community for your continued understanding and love. I know I do things a bit differently and not logically so I appreciate your compassionate hearts you’ve always extended.

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This morning before we headed out of Ouray to our new location in Montrose near Black Canyon of the Gunnison National Park, the sun rose lighting up the tip of the beautiful snow capped peak outside my desk window, with little peach clouds above it in the baby blue sky.

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The tip of the peak lit up between the dark mountains beside it, creating a valley or chalice-like effect (vessel of life both empty and full), and also two triangles overlapping (like the Merkabah) felt symbolic of light within the darkness and darkness within the light…and the healing waters that pour into this valley via waterfalls – the creative impetus and spark of new life and essence purification.

There is much hope and much promise….and the door has opened to let the floodgates of newness in.

I was reminded of this path I chose for our journey in the Magick Bus.

I didn’t need a catastrophe, health crises, break down, or shove up against a wall this time to know what my heart and soul needed and what changes were necessary in the bigger picture of things.

You can choose a different more aligned path at any moment with heartful trust in every part of the unfolding.

Support and expansion is there when you do.

So while it might seem more logical to make changes when there’s a challenge, I say it’s quite empowering to make them when there aren’t.

For this reason I have understood why some people thought I might be going through a challenge of some sort to make decisions like I have, but the decisions are based on choice alone from an inner knowing only I can feel.

On our ride to Montrose from Ouray we passed an old bus parked in the yard of a house along the road. We passed too quickly to stop, plus that’s not so easy in a big RV, but it was long enough to see the bus said “Magic Bus” on it.

Was it a sign post that all things are in flow and alignment and symbolic of leaving an old reality behind, as we walked through the door of new potentials opened to us in Ouray?

It felt to be an indication of a new reality and moving in between worlds…in mine there is Magick – the new reality…in the other there is Magic – the old reality, but they are counterparts to the whole…the water of the chalice.

It didn’t seem surprising that we literally pulled in to our new spot at 11:11 am. That portal of 1’s keep showing up big time recently at the 11:11 and 1:11 hours.

While I do share a lot, there is much unsaid and much I am not able to share, but what I do share is done so others don’t feel alone and crazy, and so that you might find some thread of connection in your own experience, or receive an “a-ha” to light the way where you might have also felt lost, as I have at times.

Feeling so much love for you.

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