Animal Spirit Guides Looking for Their Cocreators ~ The Messengers Continue Supporting Embodied New Realities
This last Strawberry Full Supermoon was quite something. The energy was definitely strong and I heard similar from others as well, so maybe if you felt something on Thursday the 24th and had forgotten that the energy of this Moon was at hand, it might explain some of what you experienced too.
I didn’t realize until later when looking at my Sports Tracker that we had actually started our hike just one minute before the fullest point of the Full Moon at 11:40 am our time. It became no surprise that I felt a wave of exhaustion rush through that increased over the two hours we hiked to the lake from our house. This exhaustion continued on through the evening. We literally got back inside just minutes before a downpour of rain, as thunder storms loomed and growled overhead quite dramatically on our way home. It was most intense for about three to fours hours then rebalanced after I showered, ate, and cozied into the couch for a bit. Other than the evening after supporting the horse’s transition, I don’t recall exhaustion setting in like that for some time. I noted it to be my body’s way of integrating and balancing out the continued upgrades and initiatory energies.
There’s been a lot of that lately, hasn’t there?
And since then, things have felt strong, grounded, and clear again with continued reserves of energy and feeling refreshed, as well as the presence of many messengers at aligned timing. These messengers have been guiding forces in my life and as way showers they’ve been both comforting and confirming. Most of all, they inspire new landscapes and possibility when there seems none at hand. The more I connect with them, the more I connect with myself.
Guidance has been very deliberate and focused for the path ahead. I love sharing these animal spirit guides, as I know themes run through for many of us and also because I honor their presence and participation in the tapestry of life.
Most recently we had a giant dragonfly visit us on the deck with wing span of 4-5 inches wide, a continued parade of varying butterflies floating ahead down trails and all around us – a giant swallowtail equally matching the dragonfly size was amongst these, and then there was a large garter snake that slithered quickly across the trail in front of us on that Supermoon hike that knocked me out. Each pointing to significant transformational, and in some cases dramatic energy like the thunder and lightning storm.
Saturday’s hike was filled with tons of little blue damselflies that upon close inspection are extremely extraterrestrial looking.
These miniature dragonfly-like beings are delicate, but have these incredibly hybrid-like attributes that appear humanoid and otherworldly – like miniature people.
To me, their electric color and behaviors were a reflection of a merging and eclectic world of consciousness.
Then on Saturday evening, just before heading inside after tending to my garden, something caught my eye and beckoned me back. A cottontail rabbit just arrived in the yard right on queue, as twilight is their exploring time.
I ended up going back in the yard and spent twenty minutes connecting with her. I got the message this was Hope grown up when I saw those deep, soulful windows of hers.
And by the way she listened to me with those big, wondrous eyes, as if remembering my voice from our time together when she was younger.
Seeing her was a sweet gift and confirmed the messages I was hearing on other fronts of my life that I had pondered and asked about.
She also offered an air of extra “hope” to the Earth collective’s evolution at hand – and this was to be imparted to others.
There’s been continued feather treasures that included twice finding osprey feathers – the first time one and the second time two, just two days ago.
I always cherish osprey as the between worlds messenger – the only bird of prey that actually dives into the water where others just pluck from the top of the water. This makes osprey unique in not only navigating the air element, but the watery depths as well. Another beautiful bridge between worlds.
And Sunday’s parade of geese on our beach day concluded recent guidance in the vein of avian support, although I also supported the geese as their guardian once again protecting them from misguided cruelty and unconscious hands.
I have a strong kinship with them as family – but then I’ve always felt that with the souls in the animal kingdom since I was a child.
Bird wisdom has been on high and makes sense, as I see them as guides between worlds and how to merge these. And in fact, our sweet family of robins who nested outside our front door, have left for brighter horizons. That feels symbolic of a new life adventure beginning that is fresh and detached from the comforts of the old. I wish them well on their new adventure and although bitter sweet to see them go, it’s the same kind of feeling I get each time a door closes and opens – like now.
But then there was this big and beautiful crayfish discovered at the edge of the water.
Although no longer Earth bound, the life force was strong and I was instantly reminded of scarab – once again returning to Egyptian energy. Like the mysterious underworld scarab who speaks to immortality, resurrection, creation and renewal, growth, cycles of life and death, protection, healing, and transformation, crayfish is also a symbol of regeneration, underworld energies pointing us to pay attention to our intuition, dreams, and subconscious, growth – helping us shed our old skin, beliefs, and habits to move forward in life, and protection through responsible and appropriate reversal of direction.
This beauty was gorgeous shades of turquoise, aqua, and sea green and as you can see, as large as my hand – the largest I’ve seen so far here.
These jewel-colored crustaceans that graze on algae are actually an invasive species that were introduced here to Marlette Lake that feeds into Lake Tahoe in 1895. There’s an estimated 300 million of them. Their presence has impact on the lake’s clarity because they in fact also stimulate further algae growth. So, that’s an interesting irony to ponder.
And going along with beetle and scarab energy, yesterday I came home from our biking and beach picnic day feeling something crawling on my stomach. I lifted up my shirt to find a black beetle. I noted that this day also involved instant manifestation of thinking of feathers and heart stones and finding them immediately after.
So, it wasn’t a surprise that since I’d been reflecting upon scarab energy, a beetle of my own appeared on my solar plexus. How it got there and manifested is a mystery, but then the Great Mystery is a welcomed friend in my life.
But in terms of Egyptian energy themes continuing to roll through, you’ll recall I mentioned falcon’s rare and mysterious appearance in the last post. So the flash of scarab through crayfish was an echoing whisper drawing me to look again at this strong energy channeling through. Falcon is connected to Horus and I always had a very powerful affinity with him. I connect Horus to The Middle Way, as well as the fox we saw, as it was a gray fox – not black or white, but in between – that showed up.
And then barn owl also spoke recently – she comes through in very rare and deliberate ways – and has been a constant companion for many cosmic experiences over the years. I’ve only had the rare opportunity twice to see one in person, which took place to and from our nine week Winter adventure, but usually this messenger comes in the between times of dreamscapes and portal visions to summon a new era of Cosmic merging that is unfolding and a time of invitation to something more and beyond.
This time she appeared in vision of the merging of worlds and parts of me/us that are at the forefront of importance and whenever she flies into my awareness I know nothing will be the same again. Her presence is otherworldly and if you peer into her eyes you can’t run away from the depths of who you are and of consciousness in totality. When I am in her presence, I see all of me through different eyes and that hauntingly beautiful depth she pierces is one that sticks as reminder while I forge forward.
She and Falcon both brought personal messages of integration to me recently, but also confirmed that the energy and medicine they carry was of support collectively for the evolution we are experiencing.
While I was away on silent retreat, one of the messages that came through in fact involved falcon and barn owl, but due to the emotional waters I also immersed exploration with, narwhal was included. Narwhal is another rare being I have danced with and as the unicorn of the sea, her mystical presence whispers a time of deep renewal at the DNA level that also is one of merging the worlds into embodiment. Hers comes through a watery invitation to reclaim emotional depths and shadowy crevices to bring through majestic being that can move in and out of
I find it no coincidence that as I started writing about narwhal and her invitation to watery depths within that a thunderstorm just started and rain is coming down between the last rays of evening.
I also find it interesting that I “happen” to have three cherished animal guide totems of each of these that have been helping to navigate life in these recent years after our time in the Magick Bus.
The nudge I received, while away, was to offer these most cherished treasures of friends up to the collective. And when each of these animal messengers showed up as they did when I asked for confirmation, each in their own way – through guidance and dream visions – it was done.
This coincides with inner transformation, but also literal transformation that took place in my outer world – particularly my office and shared room with Astrid that acts as a portal embodiment for the paths we navigate. We felt called to focus the energy on a particular leg of the journey we are currently venturing down and in doing so everything got a facelift to match.
In doing so, many things also had to go not just to make room for the new, but to open and close doors that had merged into being and are no longer separate from my daily experience.
That bitter and sweet again of realizing the beauty of where you are and where you journeyed from, but knowing to keep moving forward.
And this leads to the calling these animal messengers are putting out to find their new cocreators.
Falcon, barn owl, and narwhal are three enchanted beings I adore, and because of how much I love them, I asked for confirmation to appease my human heart that was sad to see them go. I always honor what comes through even if at first it seems tough to say goodbye. They always remind me that since the energies are merged, there is never a goodbye. It’s simply an unconditional release of doing what’s for the highest good and remembering that what was received will always be with me.
And since we are all connected, where ever they are called and whom ever they journey with, is a part of me too. And so I celebrate the joy of those connections and openings, just as much as if they were my own.
I’ve never been one to store things away that to me are alive and pulsing with energy. I couldn’t do that with my giant crystals (or any other enchanted beings that have been in my life) when we left in the RV, as it felt wrong. Boxing up their energy was like locking them up in darkness, unable to fulfill their life’s work. I always had to ask myself how I would feel if something stored me away for an unknown time? It would be like caging a butterfly or breaking a wild horse’s spirit.
So like then, when the message that they were ready to move on and not be stored just to “keep” or be attached to them, came to me, the same happened now. I couldn’t bear to store these vital beings and in fact each spirit expressed that’s because they’re ready to move on and support another now.
There is a story that goes with each – both my own personal story and stories shared by their visionary artist who brought them to life. Some of these I’ll share so you can listen to their energy and if they whisper something to your heart. Some of it I can share more intimately if you feel so called to them.
They are each one-of-a-kind, custom, collector’s creations that are quite valuable in more ways than one. They are all hand-crafted by two different artists with intention and love and with very intricate detailing. You’ll notice how alive they are even in photos.
I will make them available only here on my blog to the soul who feels them as their companion for this current walk into a new reality where depths of your parts can merge, heal, and anchor more fully and they can be your muse of inspiration in all that you desire to create here forth. I don’t feel called to post them on social media or in my Etsy shop, as I get the sense that laser focus of energetic alignment will unfold here via my friends who so generously devote time and energy to delve and journey deeper with me through all that I share.
If you’re feeling their call, please CONTACT ME directly – not as a comment on this post – with your intention. I can then further discuss details with you via email.
Serious inquiries only please. ~ UPDATE BARN OWL & FAERY QUEEN & NARWHAL ARE NO LONGER AVAILABLE
Payment plans will be available to support the perfect pairing of soul partnership and alignment. They will be offered at their original value/pricing plus shipping.
If for some reason there is more than one soul feeling called, I’ll go by first response and if for any reason something doesn’t work out with the first person, I’ll let the next person know. This happens a lot where energy shifts, so I’m used to a little energetic shuffling that takes place and always interested how that unfolds.
They will remain available until they find a cocreator. Once the connection has been confirmed, I’ll update this post with that information. So, you may continue to send interest as long as they are available.
Due to the size and delicate nature of the larger pieces, international shipping isn’t a great idea for those. It would be quite costly too, so they will only be available to souls within the U.S. The smaller piece is easier to ship anywhere. That said, if you feel strongly one is meant for you, please email me through the contact form above and we can discuss things to see if it makes sense for you.
Below you’ll find images taken by the artist and some I took myself, along with the stories they wrote in some cases, or little snippets of their essence, and a little insight and a blog I wrote in other cases.
Each will arrive with little details that were originally sent to me and some I added with them and in the case of the barn owl, I will be happy to send the beautiful lichen branch from the forest here that I’ve had with her since her arrival to me that creates a magickal realm for her.
For anyone who might be interested in more than one, please contact me with your intention and we can look at options.
For anyone not called to cocreate with them more intimately or have to have them physically in your space, I hope you enjoy their energy and messages here – perhaps aligning with just what you needed to see, hear, and feel right now. For this reason alone, it feels important to share them here with you.
Barn Owl & Faery Queen ~ NO LONGER AVAILABLE
~ She has a wing span of two feet or more depending on her wing positioning and around 14 inches from talons to faery crown. Detailing is exquisite. In person will blow you away. She is meant to be hung and has string attached to her back to do so, but you could prop her as desired and move her to different spaces in your room or home as needed. She will take your breath away – both barn owl and faery queen – two souls merged as One.
The Dream Weaver by Phoebe
She is the celestial muse, moving between worlds she carries songs of creation, magical insight, knowledge, and the old ways.
Her harp was crafted from a shell brought up to her from the depths of the ocean by Mac Lir.
She is whale song and owl song—deer song, and star song.
Poets and painters know her well, she has moved through them since the first brush laid ochre and charcoal against stone, and the first songs flowed out into the world.
In Ireland they called her Canola. It was she who gifted the very first harp to the people.
Leave offerings to her in the crevice of an old tree, bits of silver, three hairs braided together with three strands of grass, moon-white shells, flower petals—and she will weave her magic, tying strands of inspiration from the otherworld through your dreams.
She is creation.
I have a beautiful branch with lichen that I’ve loved perching above her back when I would hang her from areas of the room to create the effect of descending from the heavens through the night forest canopy to enter into this realm. This can be included to be with her or not. Other details included to be discussed if interested.
Falcon and Faery Rider
~ She is just over nine inches tall and about eleven and a half inches long front tail tip to head. These beauties stand on their own and can be perched anywhere. Again exquisite detailing that will mesmerize you in person. These creations are alive in every sense of the word. Faery Rider has a pouch that she collects acorn caps of the oak tree in. These are real little branches and caps.
Orla and her Merlin by Phoebe (Merlins are small, fierce falcons)
Today I met Orla, who shared with me that her name means ‘golden princess’, which seemed rather fitting as she sat there on the back of her Merlin, shimmering with every shade of gold.
When I asked what they planned to do with all of the caps they had collected they told me that they would be sanded down and used as dishes for their big harvest feast. Orla had gathered a rooster feather as decoration as well. I smiled as they both flew off in search of more acorns, autumn is definitely here, soon the trees will start to change.
Narwhal, Unicorn of the Sea ~ NO LONGER AVAILABLE
~She is about eight and a quarter inches long and about three and a quarter inches wide from fin to fin. Very delicate and endearing, but magickal through and through with glassy beads and a tiny limpet shell upon her back. Her tooth/horn is made from clay and painted with tiny stars shining upon it. She comes with a delicate string attached to her back so she can be hung where ever magick is desired. Or she can sit on any surface as well with ease. This little Narwhal is pure enchantment with the most delicate of features and detailing. She’s a reminder that magick does roam this Earth even in the seen worlds. A sweet friend stepping out of a faery tale come true to help merge worlds into One.
Narwhal by Lucy
‘Below the thick icy drifts where polar bear tread and gull song fills the sky there is another world. You would be forgiven for thinking that nothing could possibly survive beneath but life fills even the harshest places.
The strangest creatures roam the inky blue. Bright eyed seals slip by seamlessly and ghostly belugas cry mournfully for what nobody knows. Selkies and sirens we have come to know through fairytale and folklore but a unicorn? One without hoof or mane.
She is a Narwhal, unicorn of the seas. Her life has been spent adrift the tides and the ocean has kissed her with gleaming barnacles upon her back and limpets that cling tightly. She clicks and chatters amongst her pod, shy to the surface but sociable in the depths. Nobody truly knows why she has her twisted tooth but in my dreams I’ve seen her, on a starbright night she broke through the ice to pierce the stars from the dark and take them below to nurture and grow so that she may build an underwater sky of her very own.’
And here is a link to a dream message I received once where Narwhal visited me, to include some of her symbolism:
Narwhal speaks to me of balance, mystery, depths and freedom.
I haven’t shared all of the medicine and messages that these animal spirit guides represent, as I’ve been steering a bit more away from that, only providing some information when I feel called. In this way, they can speak to the individual as is relevant to each. There are collective themes with messages, but we each receive the energy in different ways. So, I’d prefer you to journey with your animal spirit guides and messengers in the way that feels right to you.
I hope you’ve enjoyed these three magickal beings and another walk through the experience of messengers, as I share of the ones that are guiding the ever-changing path of evolution in my own life.
Perhaps these stories and shares are merging your own experiences with messengers around you into a more seamless and sweet one. You have many friends and much support always by your side.
The messengers seek us out. They find us. We needn’t go searching. Merely open our eyes to the gift of their presence and there they are.
Which messengers have you been working with recently, or maybe for years, that have supported you through the ebbs and flows of life?
I’m always interested to hear who is showing up for others, as it’s very telling of the shifts collectively taking place.
Today’s Strawberry Capricorn Full Moon is the last Supermoon in the cycle of three for 2021. The Moon symbolizes your inner emotional world and when she’s full she helps to illuminate the truth for you to see about yourself and your relationship to everything outside of yourself. Know your worth and don’t be afraid to ask for what you deserve. This is a great time to confront the things you have been avoiding or aren’t seeing in all areas of your life. Responsible Capricorn supports a stronger and more cultivated foundation (spiritual roots) to your life expression/purpose and helps you to solidify and identify your priorities and values in productive and balanced ways.
Today felt like the aligned time to share about my experience away last week on silent retreat, as one of the themes that popped up for me during it was that of “devotional living,” which feels Capricorn in essence.
I also wanted to allow the energies to root and integrate more, as in reflection, I can see how much has taken place in a short period that could seem subtle from the outside and yet is quite profound.
That said, I do in fact feel and am experiencing a very profound new reality, in contrast to subtle reality shifts of the past from transformative periods, personally and collectively. Perhaps that might be your experience too.
As always, I am prompted to share things as my vulnerable, transparent part of the collective thread because of the constant confirmations of how this kind of connecting is valuable on layers far greater than meets the eye.
I wasn’t sure how much, or what if anything I was going to share both in words or photos from these deep experiences the last couple of weeks, but as always I listen to what nudges me and support that guidance having purpose and meaning beyond even what I might comprehend.
I’d like to back up to the days right before our going away and then share a summary of the journey that unfolded and continued through Summer Solstice, as it feels like a bookending full cycle took place. And with the previous May 26th’s Sagittarius Full Super Blood and Flower Moon Total Lunar Eclipse head activation, it’s also been a full cycle from one Full Moon to the next of clear anchoring that has taken place of the new from that initiation.
Shifts in consciousness are what take us into the new dimensional realms. What I’ve experienced and heard from others, since May 26th, is confirmation that the actualization of a big shift that’s been in motion has anchored and that the new reality is here and now for walking through new doorways of change and embodiment. Even if we don’t see things yet manifesting on all fronts of reality, the architecture is in place and things are in fact different depending on the person and perspective you’re viewing it from. For me personally, this has ignited the next phase and second half of my life in quite a leap – however long that might physically be.
Recent transformations have set things in motion in new directions and opened the door for a future version of me to step in that has been working behind the scenes until now. This may be hard to comprehend, but there’s definitely been a timeline jump and confirmation of upgrade future self that stepped in since May 26th’s Full Moon Eclipse and what I invited in then. Much the same way that I left an old me in a river up in Canada on our Magick Bus adventure and a future self walked in without an actual physical death needing to take place, once again a different part of my multi-dimensional self has walked in. And so, while still me and my essence, I’m a new version of me that has yet to walk in body this Earth life. There have also been quite a few revelations and confirming messages, of which some came through in the automatic writing I shared in the Solstice post that channeled through while I was away in silence.
After the combination of Cosmic energies, all of the solar flares, eclipses, longest galactic-sourced gamma-ray burst emitted, and Earth reflections like droughts, earthquakes, and other catastrophes, including huge human divide, we also feel a bit of a quiet pause and sense of doorways opening now. And although that sense of relief may feel tempting to sprint out and yell “yippee!” this time is more opportune to reflect and listen for inner direction on how truly you want to be stepping into the new reality in a whole new way that takes into account the wisdom gleaned over the last year and a half of time inside.
The light always finds us even in the darkest recesses of experiences we find ourselves journeying through.
Intensities are turning into gentleness more and more, but it’s still to your benefit to pause with greater awareness before bolting forth into things.
I personally felt a completely different reality anchored after I became adamant about “no more.” I’ve since experienced everything and everyone changing around me too, and where I felt such harsh division, this has been replaced by more softened and promising interactions.
Although I’ve shared through blogs some of the recent unfoldings, I’ve been a bit more quiet overall and taking that pause before each major share in order to both fully integrate the energies and to also share them with greater conscious awareness of how best to weave the key codes into the messages.
The new has supported a deepening of alignment into the expression of why I felt called to be here in this part of Earth history we are writing together. Maybe some of you feel similarly.
Or, perhaps my/our deepening alignment has helped support the new. Or both.
In any event, cosmic transparency, greater path alignment, a timeline jump, and a new version me without need for harsh NDE (near death experience) necessary, has been the daily experience since.
On the Thursday, June 10th Gemini New Moon Solar Eclipse there was the sense of a big energy recalibration and some interesting clicks happening that day, although the energy felt super soft in contrast to May 26th’s Eclipse. I also received a text from a dear friend who asked if I was open to being present to help support her and her soulmate in horse body through his transition that was going to take place the next morning. I immediately knew the importance of this event so beautifully navigated by such a masterful soul in horse body and that I was meant to be there.
So, early the morning of Friday, June 11th just a day after the Eclipse, but still in the prime and potent portal of its energy that is experienced for months, I made my way to physically be present for this. I assisted my own animal companions in person, as well as energetically assisted other people’s animal companions from afar in their transitions, but this was the first time for me doing so in person for one other than my own.
Being a huge black horse – such a massive, mystical, and powerful figure – made the experience even more profound.
And the fact that it was a horse – my favorite kind of horse that I identify with as well – given my life-long connection with them since I was a little girl and my past life connections with them and as them, was very profound and full circle of the life transition I was experiencing from this latest shift. It also felt like a major collective reflection. I’ve written about my horse connection before, so for now I’ll just say that not only did they help me through my childhood sensitivity challenges that led to an inability to eat every night without being hand-fed by my mom around 10-13 years of age and stomach aches every night that were only appeased by inviting horses into my visions and dreams (when I knew nothing of meditation at the time), alongside my mom comforting me through the night, but they also were connected to my way of life shifting from a work and race horse-driven conditioning to a wild and free mustang.
Without going into the personal details of the experience that are not mine to share, I’ll just say that it was hugely profound in both inner and outer experience to hold the space for this incredible being and his beloved soulmate, which literally manifested in seen ways. It was my path to act as a bridge to support peaceful journeying from this world to the next and I also took photos that day for my friend to have, which revealed incredible rainbow light across both of them, an amazing energy orb with a cross in it within his massive shadow, other energies, a rabbit that showed up and stayed the entire time to reflect that my dear ones I asked to assist from the other side were there to guide him home and assist me, and a physical experience I had right when he transitioned that I’ll also never forget that reflected the shift was real – the shift had anchored.
When this soul transitioned I was standing back a bit to be out of the way, but still in the space and suddenly I saw with my physical eyes everything wave out from him. It’s like in movies (think The Matrix) where the reality of the energetic field suddenly is seen and experienced when the veils drop. The field of reality before me moved in waves all around me like rolling energy and the landscape became fluid. I knew it was real, but blinked several times to make sure I wasn’t seeing things or dizzy, but it continued with everything pulsing in waves that revealed the fluidity of it all around us and of the realms opening and merging, as he moved out, through, and expanded. It was like reality breathing and pulsing and I became part of that breath and pulse. It was both slightly disorienting at first and then completely natural. Usually I see things like this only in dreams, visions, meditations, or blips, but it was profoundly obvious and physically and consciously an awakened, literal experience – the reality of reality and Cosmic and Earth as One.
I expounded a bit more on this experience leading up to the silent retreat, as it feels extremely important, timely, and necessary of the anchored new. It also felt profoundly key right before dropping into silence.
That afternoon, evening, and night I became physically exhausted in a way I haven’t been. It was not surprising given the experience and further recalibration of new energies physically taking root from the other realms that have been separate until now.
The weekend continued in a softened experience, although profound, and it mirrored the gentle transition this soul in horse body also went through. There continued to be Cosmic conversations pervading around me with people that were now on a new level and on the morning before we left on retreat, my very first yellow lily bloomed as a send-off and confirmation. That didn’t feel random at all.
And then we were off.
Thursday, June 14th was an integration day where we spent the first part of the day slowly easing into silence and at 5:05 pm (an unplanned, but perfect time) we commenced. This trip also happened to be right before our one year wedding anniversary, so it became a lovely way for us to deepen in connection and celebrate in a grace filled way. We actually discussed the possibility of this becoming a tradition for us, but definitely wanting to do it more regularly. It was my first fully silent retreat, although I’m silent a lot as it is. 😉 It was Dave’s second, as he went a couple of months earlier on his own since it was something he’d always wanted to do and now had opportunity to do so, being retired.
We decided to stop on our way and do a lovely new hike that took us to some emerald pools along the river.
This, and every hike we did while away, were very serene and always solitary or with limited crossing of anyone else more than once. I found an incredibly beautiful stone and my first feather on this hike, kicking off many gifts and messengers to come in the following days.
We also stopped for a lovely Thai lunch in an outdoor garden sanctuary setting with beautiful lush blooms surrounding us, then set off for our retreat cabin set secluded away from everyone on the edge of the forest with every single room looking out on the trees and night skies.
It was perfection with our cabin being named, “Devotion.”
And after settling in, the silent devotion began, which I found easy and comforting, with everything else becoming louder and more profound in a beautiful way. I wasn’t sure what the days following would look and feel like, as I didn’t go with an agenda or plan. I just allowed the energy to guide me and what I noticed is that my journey with this was very different than Dave’s.
I found that rather than a schedule of meditation in any certain vein, I was being shown that this experience would be more organic. After first sitting in meditation to see what would happen, I discovered that the energy didn’t want this to be any strict practice, but to be about receiving and giving to myself. So, it became a very self-nurturing time where I had nothing on the agenda at all to do but rest, be, receive, let go, and ground into the new – all about integrating the initiations and upgrades that was very much needed.
I found myself several times a day laying down by the window overlooking the forest by day and stars by night, giving self-Reiki, which was an act of surrender and allowing the Universal Life Force, and much more, to come through. I also just looked out the window, allowed visions and messages to channel, did an automatic writing, wrote down inspirations, and also began a new flow of exercise I thoroughly enjoyed and plan to continue to implement with my nature activities we already do.
This involved going out amidst the trees just outside the cabin in the forest and doing a combination of movement – similar to Qigong (a couple movements I remember from it), but mostly just my own inspired flow exercises with isometric exercises I used to do to create a whole fluid, balanced, and grounded experience for about a half an hour.
It was very invigorating, opening, and anchoring. I would choose a particular place and then eventually moved around the perimeter of the cabin creating an energetic grid with my anchoring.
Each night, Dave and I would sit out on the deck under the stars and do our own meditative Cosmic connecting and sit in silence to receive. On the first night subtle lights would move and disappear across the stars and gentle noises would move in the trees and bushes on the breeze. Another night involved what appeared as a shooting star, but what in fact it was might be another story.
On that first evening before our starry time under the tree tops, we explored the garden grounds and the first visitor appeared – a giant bull frog at the edge of the koi pond.
That first night I also had another of my bear dreams – yes that themed saga is ongoing and always at precisely potent times. This night the dream involved four bears. All of this having meaning for me, including integration of what I felt had come through from everything recently for my individual journey. (Oh wow! As I just wrote that the clock right now says 4:44 – UH HUH!)
That concluded our first day, and every morning we’d spend a couple of hours doing our own processes, concluding with a big huge bowl of fresh fruit and vegan scones or croissants and coffee out on the deck, followed by more morning integrations, my flow movements, and then onto lunch provided for us.
Then we’d head out on a daily hike Dave had lined up for us, pre-trip. Everything always in silence, although the energy was tangible and understood, even in the midst of no verbal communication.
Each hike always involved forest and water – river and reservoir lake – and always a ton of butterfly varieties floating around and down the trails along with us.
This second day, 6/15, had another beautiful visitor. After lunch, I was walking back to the car and my eye caught a little garden sign hidden behind the branch of a bush.
As soon as I saw it, I knew Joy was with us, which made sense since the Summer Solstice of 6/21, five years ago, was when she passed and my sweet soul family always shows up for me around their special days and portals. This was confirmed when we were driving to our hike and suddenly a large jack rabbit jumped out on the dirt road ahead of us.
She stopped to look at us and then slowly made her way down the road. She would stop and wait to see that we were following, then continued.
She went off to the side and waited under a bush, then came back down and beckoned us to follow her some more. This went on for about a half a mile until finally she disappeared in the side forest.
I knew right away, after seeing the sign and thinking of Joy, that this was her way of making an official appearance. When I said this again to Dave, who was equally excited and curious by the way this jack rabbit wanted us to follow her and not at all concerned about running away and hiding, I noticed the car clock said 1:11 on it – and therefore confirming Joy had slipped through worlds to see us.
Each evening after our last afternoon snack time outdoors and some down time, we’d take another walk around the grounds before more resting, meditative, nurturing and starry night connecting time.
Then on the morning of 6/16 at about 9:30 am it was fox that made an appearance.
We’ve had encounters with black, red, and now gray fox – all at very integral time periods in our life when things were shifting hugely. This time was no exception and the fact I was standing right at the window looking when she passed by, was no mere coincidence.
While gray foxes are the most common of foxes, they are elusive and rare to spot in the wild, especially because they are primarily nocturnal.
It’s interesting that all of the foxes we’ve seen have been in daylight hours, as the black fox was in the late afternoon, the red fox was in the afternoon, and now this gray beauty was edging into the later part of the morning.
She had a dark stripe down her huge bushy long tail.
A shapeshifter fox is a powerful guide to help you navigate your spiritual journey and to bridge the Earth and spirit worlds.
The messengers continued this day with my finding the sweetest and most intricate bird’s nest I’ve ever seen. It was incredibly beautiful and like a complex weaving of the Cosmic tapestry. I don’t think the photos do it any justice at all.
It was miniature and perfect, made out of the finest of threaded nature and one golden thread that appeared to be from humans woven into it and then lined with soft down feathers.
It’s now part of my nest mobile in our bedroom, which has grown into quite the work of nature art full of beautiful nests and portions of nests/hives from a variety of birds, wasps and bees.
Then deer appeared, reminding me somewhat of the cosmic ones I saw in Montana after Joy’s passing, as we headed on our next hike of the journey and the evening ended with a very curious raccoon who seemed to want to talk with us, making himself very known as he stood up on his feet to mirror us.
On that evening’s hike I decided to silently run, twirl and dance my way through the giant manzanita forest portal. With unspoken acknowledgment, Dave captured the moments that moved more ethereally in the twilight hours than photos we’d taken before for the Solstice spell I shared previously.
I then captured Dave, as he walked ahead of me down the path and connected with the incredible manzanita tree spirits.
I noted that the moon was sitting directly above the manzanita grove and upon our return back through the portal, as darkness was approaching, I snapped a few shots.
All of these felt to reflect the dance of light and shadow merging within and as I mentioned in my Solstice blog these photos feel to “visually reveal these sacred energies more literally of greater human embodiment transmuted by embrace of light and shadow……Faeries walk between worlds and dimensions, as Cosmic embodiments. It’s time for these worlds to merge and not be separated, just as it’s time for all of us to merge through the heart and overcome conditioned divisions on all fronts of life experience on Earth.”
Then, the confirmation of this alchemy appeared as bats galore circled around – too tiny and fast to capture on camera, although I did take a video of the giant manzanita forest portal, while I journeyed through it, where you can see them zipping by near the end. The video is too challenging to upload here, but I hope you do enjoy the photo montage to accompany my storyline of events.
I shared some highlights and key points and messengers that paint the overall energy of things. I find that a lot of times particular themes, animal spirit guides, and experiences are mirrored by what others message me about after they read these shares, and act as collective confirmations.
The rest of what unfolded is more personal and continues to evolve as the next steps I’m being guided to take. But in totality, it all spoke to me of a deeper, devotional way of living with greater clarity on my next focal points that will take shape shortly.
I mentioned finding my first feather on day one of this journey, but each day had a new feather or two for me as well. In all, I had a small collection of all different feathers and some beautiful treasures that now are in my garden, my office, and on the mobile I mentioned.
I’m especially grateful for the three large pieces of giant manzanita trunks I was gifted from the grounds where we stayed. They have to do fire clearing over time and these three beauties I got to take home.
For now, they line the deck by the rock garden outside my office and I just love their energy.
I’ve had an extra resonance with manzanitas recently, as you remember my making manzanita blossom jelly and syrup this year, and now to be with these giant manzanita beings felt like these spirits are strongly guiding and protecting me along the new path.
We stopped to do another hike on the way home on 6/17 and upon arrival I found that more yellow lilies had bloomed, now to be accompanied by my first dark red lilies, too, as a welcome home. In fact, my whole garden had evolved and bloomed some more, but I’ll save a garden update for an upcoming post.
Friday 6/18, the next full day back, we enjoyed a hike from the house to enjoy lunch and outdoor music. And on this hike we encountered falcon greeting us back. This was a first very up close and potent encounter with falcon we’ve had. The falcon was sitting on a branch to our right not far from the trail and just looked at us without moving for 20 or 30 seconds. He was very near and we could see all the details of his beautiful feathers and clear eyes. He then took off to the left and we continued on hiking. This ignited Egyptian memories and reflections of my two journeys there back in 2007. I was thinking about particular incidences where Horus, the Falcon God, had showed up for me and other pivotal things that were ignited during those trips that have come full circle now. It also reminded me of the message I received while away about things I was being shown to offer to others soon – one directly connected to falcon.
Then, as if to confirm my thoughts, the falcon appeared again on a branch to our left this time. He had gone ahead on the path and awaited us. The path was dense and mysterious, and not having heard him flying or seen his shadow above, made it more mysterious that he suddenly was there again. Once we saw him and I told Dave about what I’d been thinking about and that he seemed to be confirming my thoughts, he then took off and didn’t return.
When we returned home Dave called me to say that our beautiful coyote friend had just passed again by his office.
Sunday, June 20th was then our Summer Solstice anniversary and we were called to do one of our favorite hikes that we now call our anniversary hike given we’ve been drawn to it for celebrating.
I noted how we’d gone on this hike for our 11 year anniversary of first dating two years ago, for the day after our wedding one year ago, and now for our one year wedding anniversary this year.
I made us a Solstice cake to celebrate, which was a vegan dark chocolate cake frosted in vanilla that I then created a simple flower and fruit mandala on. I used strawberries, blueberries, and dried sunflower and rose petals and lavender that I harvested from my garden last year to add sweet faery touches.
Later that afternoon another full circle experience hit home really hard with a mixed bag of emotions that went from pain to release. I went out into the garden that evening, after returning from our hike, to water and check on all the plant babies. There I discovered a sweet little chipmunk who had transitioned. She was not there earlier and she still looked so fresh, as if just asleep, so I knew it had taken place recently that day.
I don’t want to go into details of her surmise and the direct connections to my Nestor, Cosmo, and Joy, but the reflections were too close for comfort to ignore. The only solace I took was in seeing how beautiful and peaceful she looked and how masterfully this dear soul in chipmunk body had navigated her transition on the Solstice portal, just as the powerful horse I assisted did in the Eclipse window, and each of my dear animal companions had chosen portal days – especially mirroring Joy who had journeyed on the Solstice of five years ago.
Tears flowed, as I sat holding the chipmunk in my hands for quite some time, sending lots of energy to her time of passing for peace and ease with her journeying. I listened for the messages and received, once again. I felt as if she was still alive and might sit up and open her eyes to look at me, as I gently caressed her head and body and reflected on all that had taken place these last weeks and how poignant this was as remembrance of Joy choosing Solstice as her day of returning to the stars just as this little one had.
I sat listening to where she wanted to be buried and finally this was the place.
I knew it was the right place because upon digging a hole my hand shovel hit something. I pulled it up and found a perfect heart rock. It became part of the burial stone mandala I created and then placed my very first bubble gum pink rose that had just bloomed atop this sacred ground.
It was also poignant in reflection to what I’ve known of my own journey and how old parts of me had died, only to be replaced by the ones relevant for now.
How Summer Solstice has become such a huge marker in for me of life transitions.
It spoke to a journey’s end and a new one beginning.
It reflected the fragility of life and how every moment is precious and not to be taken for granted.
It sang the song of stars that constantly whisper their calling to my heart.
It confirmed that the new has anchored and the old had retreated in place of a new reality forging its way.
And it’s a deeper and more devotional experience of living from spirit merged through heart into body as One.
As we walked into the energy of May 11th’s New Moon, it called us to feel into the old and decide what heavy baggage we no longer wanted to carry forth into the new. With the Moon being in Taurus, the energy of what ever our personal goals and intentions were for entering this cycle, there was going to be a need for patience and grounding, since Earthy Taurus moves slowly. There would be a nudge toward more mindfulness and clarity on what you really want under the influence of this energy before actually proceeding, and a lot of persistent patience and trust would be in need of nurturing.
If you experienced a few more challenging, confusing or even darker days leading up to the New Moon, you’re not alone. I did, too, and others I heard from chimed in. It’s not unusual, in general, for that to culminate around this cycle, but there was something more going on that some of us sensitives seemed to notice that was riding along the currents as well.
What ever the themes and energies were that emerged for you, these I feel are sacred messages as to what’s to be alchemized not just for the lunar month, but also the journey at large, ahead.
You may have sensed a shift to more material and physical things to include your body, your home, daily, and simple routines or mundane things and these would both be helpful, as well as inspiring creative changes like redecorating, wearing new colors and styles, experimenting with new foods, and creating beauty all around you.
As creators, walking into the new we want to see, with trust and courage, is what’s needed – not knowing the end result and not knowing how, but moving into it and watching it work out in the moment. When in doubt, we will need to remember to foster words of gentle encouragement to ourselves and look inward to understand our personal alchemy. When feeling discouraged or lost, we may need to call upon support systems – on and/or off Earth, or simply from within.
While we may need to learn to be our own muse at times, there are many muses around us that can be uplifting and inspiring. Anything can be our muse – a person, animal, plant, color, energy, feeling, place, spirit guide, etc. They will carry codes of creation to spark new realities.
In any event, these are the times of the creators – you – and what we’re journeying deeper into is bringing forth personal alchemy in a way that helps make changes in your life more fun and with greater ease, which ultimately has an effect for the collective as well.
If you find yourself at a crossroads and unable to see what’s next, you’re not lost or alone. I find that the further we journey in these rapidly accelerated times, the less we’re going to have foretelling of what’s around the corner. We’re being invited into a different way of experience that leads from the heart’s alignment to spirit.
We’ve oscillated between choosing either mission or love (what’s the most far-reaching responsible and compassionate thing or where our heart tugs) and we are learning to merge these so there is no sacrifice.
It’s not just a human endeavor, but a cosmic journey we’re embarking on and helping to harmonize.
It also feels to be about going beyond black and white to play in the gray – the middle way.
It’s not a clear cut path, as we’re creating it as we go along and many are not only working with us, but awaiting and cheering us on to embody this alchemy.
Two days before the New Moon, I felt a very heavy energy and it felt like it wanted to consume me, discourage, and close the shutters on the light I saw through the window. I found myself being pulled down and ego wanted reason to stay in that, wallow and linger there, and even fully give up. I’d been aware of this energy for a while, but had managed to keep it at bay. Then it charged forth just like that Taurus bull, but with fiery eyes and sharp horns staring straight at me, I had to decide how to dance with him – would I fight the bull, tease and taunt it, run away from the bull, surrender to defeat by the bull, or?
I decided to use love and speak the language of the heart. I stepped into my vibrational frequency in order for personal alchemy to come through.
And this helped open a door that was closed before. It wasn’t the answer, but it created a way for something else to emerge.
From there, I still had the heaviness, even though I “bought” time and thoughts, visions, and feelings swirled within me. Ego still wanted a reason to linger there, but intuition stepped in.
I felt exhausted and betrayed by the energies unfolding. Being in nature always helps, especially being active outdoors, and so I did keep moving the energy and being curious about what it all meant.
Contrary to the ego voice, when I returned home, intuition told me to go out and do my wildflower seeding even though I felt like doing nothing. I immediately started feeling the energy shift and my energy rising, little by little. By the end, I was revitalized both with energy and perspective, and hope returned. This act that my intuition guided me toward, was a literal “seeding” of new intentions and potentials.
I watered them after.
The next day following, I did more outdoor activity and really moved the energy in a bigger way to the point of having conversations out loud with my star family and the Universe, as I hiked and passed through different stages of feelings. Nature was there to absorb and help recharge all that I released, and transmutation took shape.
After that vulnerable and raw release, even more perspective and doors opened, and although I didn’t actually arrive at any particular answer, there was possibility where there hadn’t felt to be any before.
And by the time the day of the New Moon arrived, energies continued to shift and soften and has continued as so.
Still no answers, but more was revealed and I can feel a way even though I don’t know what it is.
And through all of this I’ve had a lot of interesting messengers showing up, which point to my sensing the approach of one of the biggest shifts of my life upcoming.
This is all indicating a call to a new path opening and changes ahead.
And although you see me here, I have actually been more inner these days in order to recalibrate what I’m downloading and how that will look.
I don’t see what new world I’ll land in, but perhaps it’s a new one I’m creating as a creator, which will take some time to manifest.
Or, maybe it’s the world I remember best, calling me back.
Whenever I am on the precipice of major change, hawk shows up as both confirmation things are being supported behind the scenes and as guide to help me with passage between realms. The day after the heaviest of feelings, she flew above and landed atop a barren old tree in the clearing to make sure I saw her and waited for me. As I approached, she looked down and watched me the whole way to her. After I reached her and thanked her, she then took flight above me and circled for about three minutes, close, then farther, and back again. I could see her beautiful feathers clearly.
I’ve been spending a lot of extra time outdoors in receptive and releasing mode because, as I mentioned, it helps me to move energy and listen. If I’m not out on the trails, I’ve been heavily in my garden implementing new ideas, or in extra close communion with Astrid, my cocreator.
In my spare time, I’ve been completing one task at a time, finishing projects, and now stepping into reorganizing and redecorating my office, garage, closet, and kitchen pantry – all feeling right in line with the New Moon energies, as well as the earthing time.
As I shared earlier, the last five days have brought some interesting animal guides to me as messengers. Besides the unusual now THREE bald eagle sightings within less than two weeks, coyote crossed behind our house just as I looked up from the kitchen while cooking, a coyote pack howled close by while I was gardening, followed by an owl hooting in the trees, I found part of a skunk’s tail fur, a large piece of porcupine fur and quills, an old fallen bird’s nest, and
discovered robins have returned and built a new nest at the same place above the eaves of the front door for their family.
There were also four turkey vultures that circled and coasted on the wind in front of us while we sat on a rock cliff overlooking Tahoe – that’s when the third eagle showed up right after being
chased by smaller birds – I found a beautiful dead moth in a box where some of my gardening things were kept in the garage that looked like it had been deliberately preserved, I found a plethora of various bird feathers (one appears to be hawk), including a soft, tender bunch of new goose down feathers from
geese friends that left it behind for me, Dave found a very large black raven feather while I connected with hawk, and six geese followed us, nested near us by the water and waited a few
hours for us to return from our bike ride. I also found a huge spider downstairs that was one of the biggest I’ve seen in a while and the first zebra swallowtail of the season glided toward us on the trail.
Then there’s this gorgeous, huge silvery “gray” squirrel who has been visiting profusely outside my office and in the garden. He’s quite the shape shifter and little wizard.
Transformation is afoot in a very big and contrasting way, and I feel that the only way to navigate it all is to be in and create personal alchemy right now, as that’s all we have at our fingertips.
Knowing our own vibration and how to manage and raise it, becomes vital in these times.
I’m seeing how energies are trying to intervene and even confuse, deter, or try to block the new, but you truly can find another way.
Even if it just opens a door, or buys time, implementing intuitive being and your own inner muse frequency can ignite personal alchemy for change to ignite.
Sometimes you feel like softly closing your petals for a while and other times you bubble with exuberance to open them wide. Where ever you find yourself is perfect and doesn’t change this fact – a flower you are.
I’ve been observing my new tulips daily, watching as they open and close in response to the light and heat. They aren’t diminished by this contraction of tucking in for the night or folding up on a rainy day.
It’s a way to keep their pollen dry and protected so that when they do open to the next morning’s light, they are ready to dance with visiting pollinators and share their sweetness they have enriched to gift.
We’ve had on and off good, moderate, to not so great smoky air days up in the Tahoe basin since the fires in the west started, which has created a back and forth pendulum experience of heavy outdoor exercise, to light exercise, to indoor-only exercise. It’s been reflective of busier days and the need to focus on getting things done when unable to venture outdoors, so it’s always perfect. However, we’ve been craving a little getaway, since we haven’t been anywhere since the beginning of the year and especially because of the fuller days and wanting to breathe in and enjoy as much of the now and life while we can, as well as nature’s gifts as possible. Plus, I’ve learned that I can give even more when I listen to my needs and nurture them as well.
And even though I had bookending online Reiki classes I was/am teaching between the 4th and 11th, it felt exactly why a time-out would be supportive. Including the sense I have that everyone in the group classes has a lot of energetic changes they’re shouldering and responding to, so I am adjusting to meet and integrate them the best I can.
Sometimes we think we couldn’t possibly create the space and time for what we need, but that’s exactly when we need it the most.
I’ve shared this before, but it feels worth sharing again:
Many believe that in order to have fulfillment or achieve certain goals that that entails working harder and keeping your nose to the grind.
But rather than push forward, sometimes the best thing is to just take a spontaneous break, rest, do something self-nurturing, commune with Nature…stop forcing and start being.
When you think you “should” be doing more, the more you really need is likely self love and balance. This will invigorate, harmonize, inspire, and draw to you more of what is really for your highest good.
It is the moments where you break out of the mold, and tune in to the nature of you, that the greater ease and magick happens.
“If your heart needs a vacation, take it somewhere serene. If your spirit needs nourishment, feed it well. If your soul needs a boost, surround it with joy. If your body needs rest…then rest. If you need a new direction, pull out your own life map and simply enjoy the ride. And along the way, keep your eyes and soul open, for you never know what you may find.” ~Jacque Bliss
The Pisces me loves water, and Dave being a water sign as well is why we live by so many lakes, creeks, ponds, and rivers, including majestic Lake Tahoe, which is like the ocean itself in both vastness and energy.
But every now and then, a little oceanside immersion does the body and spirit good. I’m grateful that a Pacific Ocean getaway is within only a few hours drive, so we can dip in and out as guided.
We weren’t sure where we’d be headed to this week, since the air quality on the west isn’t great again in nearly every one-day drivable direction. But we found an opening the morning we left with full-week clear air forecasts and have enjoyed the fresh salty air and forest variety since.
Upon landing we were led to an inexpensive hotel just three minutes walk to the beach, wharf, waterfront cliff walks and within walking distance to conveniences including natural food stores and vegan eats for take out or outdoor eating to suit our intermittent fasting lifestyle and safety protocols.
Hearing the ocean and sealions every morning and evening has been like a lullaby coddling the soul. Days full of immersive and extensive miles (10-15) hiking, walking and biking while taking in the oceanside and moist faery forest realm scents have made for luxuriating sleep-filled nights and carefree days.
And while we have tons of forest by us, the change of scenery exploring the Redwood and Oak tree rich enchantment, alongside plentiful varieties including Eucalyptus, and moss, fern, and ivy-enriched Elemental-filled worlds were a sweet change that welcomed us warmly. Then add all the Autumn feels and you get a wonderland of comfort and joy.
Plus, with it being off-season, we had mysterious, Devic Kingdom rich trails all to ourselves with many mystical eyes that we could feel upon us. And even though a rustle in the leaves sometimes was a forest creature peeking at us, like this pair of deer, it was not always an animal stirring, that’s for sure.
Our first full day combined both forest and ocean abundant miles of enrichment – the perfect way to balance and acquaint to the energies.
The forest floor covered in fallen colored leaves and the scent of musky freshness washed over me with welcome, as the ancient Redwood giants of the world and the Oak wisdom keepers whispered pieces of the Great Mystery.
It was experienced like a deep activation in my root chakra, which in fact induced slight tailbone aches that I get when something ancient or dna-connected is transforming.
Alongside timely feather gifts, magickal train whistles (I love trains!), a flock of wild turkeys
(pictured is the largest of them that was guarding – I shared a cool video of the flock on Instagram) foraging in the forest, tree portals galore, evidence of forest creatures having passed
through recently, mystical and even spooky fun deep realms, fuzzy black
and warm red caterpillars, tree gifts, and on later days a dead raven, abundant cliffside farmland including a Charlie Brown Great Pumpkin pumpkin patch, and a secret area of the last batch of late, wild blackberries…it’s all had the perfect hints and epitome of October essence you dream of.
And it all made for the perfect welcome into this different realm.
There are days when the magick is so tangible that the Otherworld becomes the only world – and the days this week have definitely been just that. I felt my essence alive and receiving a rekindled boost.
And equally activating were the majestic cliffs and natural coastal formations, while ocean life swam and flew all around us.
That ancient Lemurian essence gently knocking the soul pieces awake, while The Fae tickled my roots in other ways, infused with a little Gaelic twist.
Connection to everything is a given whether we are aware of it or not. When I’m in different environments, it’s ones of the things I notice right away – how the tapestry is woven between me and all things regardless of placing me in a different world for the moment.
I take notice of the reflections and how they show up. And I feel my heart beat as one with life around me.
Days were filled with energy in motion, as we immersed in several outdoor activities a day to enjoy the outdoors and create well being through body integration of moving energy.
“Keeping your body healthy is an expression of gratitude to the whole cosmos – the trees, the clouds, everything.” ~Thich Nhat Hanh
One of our days included miles of gorgeous and fun single track bike trails riding along the cliffs’ edge – my favorite biking trail ever that I mentioned to Dave was like a Disneyland ride. It moves along like a snake and has enough easier to moderate elements to add a weeeee and suspense effect.
Below, water crashing on secluded beaches and natural rock formations, with colonies of sealions (you can see in the photos) and sea birds calling out.
The path wove along beautiful vistas of trees, brush, over train tracks, through abundant Autumn
farm fields of gorgeous veggies (like the artichokes and brussels sprouts pictured), and included that pumpkin patch and surprise late patch of wild berries I mentioned, as seen above. It was quite the adventure.
Pelicans, seagulls, egrets, and cormorants would glide next to us as we moved along the path with even a hawk soaring low with purposeful unison. Hawk seemed to follow us from our mountain home to the ocean, as she is a strong spirit guide for me and us – specifically red tailed hawk on this trip. This is where I found the transitioned raven – which felt meaningful with us approaching the time of thinnest veils between worlds.
We loved the bike trail so much we returned a second time and while I came across the dead raven again, a very alive raven was waiting for me.
He was huge and sat there very deliberately, wanting me to stop and come closer. He was making an interesting kind of clucking combined with an almost regurgitating sound and continued until I decided to continue on. Then he took off in unison with me, soaring over the ocean.
Two more deer caught my attention on this second bike trip too. They were grazing at the edge of the beach not far from several different flocks of large birds. One of which created a procession, marching in a single file line toward a back bay area.
You can see the beginning of that line of birds in the sand to the right of the deer below.
It’s a very surreal bike ride and as you glide along you feel the animals, wind, and waves all around, moving together as one.
Time stood still, yet in connective motion and shared feeling of heart and soul liberation despite human body frameworks we inhabit.
Every day had me discovering little treasures of divine alignment. Every time I would say this area feels like such and such bird lives here and that I’d love to find a feather awaiting, it would be. Each day held several feather gifts from a variety of birds (some of which I’m not sure of their origin, but some include hawk, owl, and raven), usually in pairs of two at a time directly after I stated an intent. These are a few of the feather finds pictured above. Dave says I am the feather master and have a hawk eye when it comes to finding them. 🙂
Rather than go into any more details of what this little side-detour has initiated, I’ll just share the energy of my favorite photos and some of the incredible vistas, sense-filled experiences, messengers, treasures, and sign posts of the journey at hand. You may get a sense of things from them alone, as well as your own activation or inspired guidance.
All of that, alongside the ocean herself and all that she reflects – unexplored depths, unknowns, deep hidden treasures for the courageous explorers of shadowy caverns and murky emotional/subconscious waters, etc. point to an unearthing of expanse yet to discover and integrate.
It also speaks to this layer of deep emotional patterns that is key for us to be aware of and integrate – much of why we are seeing and experiencing triggers out in the world right now is to help with this.
There were also a couple of eerie door-knockers and wake-up close calls right in the beginning of this adventure to help “crack” open and elevate adrenalin response into an even higher level of awareness, drive home the need for staying clear of “other’s” energies and projections, strengthen boundaries, continue to balance and ground, stay open to change, listen to and trust guidance, and remain in my heart despite what’s going on around me.
Definitely feels like a mini rebirthing continues similar to, but not as dramatic as, four years ago during Magick Bus times and am grateful always for the divine protection, guidance, and cosmic flow of love that streams through.
It’s like a new version of me/us is in preparation and process, just like the caterpillars I was seeing in warm red/rust and black – correlating to that root chakra activation. The woolly bear caterpillars we have at home are black and gold, so the color shift feels significant in focusing at the bottom root of things and makes sense given the collective energies.
There was a lot of focus around the lower chakra colors on this trip in reds, rusts, oranges, and yellows – mirroring the beautiful fall leaves lining every trail and the messengers that drew my attention, including Red Tailed Hawk and the gorgeous wild turkeys.
I also saw a beautiful Autumn-dressed moth in gorgeous brown, orange, and black wings on the golden fields between the faery forests we hiked. Her orange eyes stood out to me, outlined and dotted in black.
And later I found a perfect butterfly mussel shell on the beach with gorgeous, iridescent blue and pearly coloring and a darker spot on each wing like the eyes I saw on the stunning moth. The butterfly and moth symbolism of transformation and rebirth speaking loudly. It also doubles as the heart of the ocean with the reflection of how much more we can exercise our heart muscles to open wider and deeper.
What also kept showing up, seemingly in reflection to my bright sunflower yellow bathing suit I brought with me (with peace signs, hearts, stars and bunnies on it of course), despite it being Autumn, was yellow flowers around every corner. I saw so many, but these were a few of my favs.
They were joyously speaking to me of joy, new life, and hope.
I know it can be hard to keep up the hope in the face of what seems like constant adversity, but I can tell you from experience, which I likely will elaborate more on down the road, that I’ve gone through several chronic life experiences, conditions, debilitating setbacks, and nearly devastating-to-me hardships that lasted years on end, but they did all have a silver lining that eventually enveloped me in the light at the end of the dark tunnel.
It’s not always easy to see the way out and it’s not always easy to even give ourselves a way out, but the possibility is always there. Being softer on ourselves and finding more ways to love what IS and who we ARE regardless of any specific result, is a door opener.
Sometimes it’s not so much about healing or perfecting an outcome, but about surrendering to what’s showing up as the experience it is, outside of any judgments we place upon it.
And sometimes we also just need to take a soulful time out, even if that simply is a break from the norm to explore the adventure of where letting go might lead.
That could simply be an adventure of our imagination, as there truly is no separation between what is perceived and felt. The more vivid our world we create in our hearts and minds, the more real and fulfilling it will be.
When I can’t physically get away or do something I would like to, I do it anyway.
I do imagination well and so can you.
And if you have a challenge with envisioning magickal realms or inspiring beauty and nature adventures, I hope that the photos and expressions I share can help you to get there.